#but its because i still dont have enough patience and skills for it to do

[sirensea14]

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No, this is not a preview, this is the episode itself cuz istillcantanimaaaaaaaaaa----teproperlyyet🥲

Another disappointing thing from me yaaay...

This is based on this post

Summary: Bendy goes on diving and accidentally found a mermaid's cave. He sees a small chest and casually takes it without knowing it's not abandoned. The little devil met the mermaid when he was on his way out of the cave.

So ye, thats the summary. Also this will be my last art featuring this design of my sona. Im currently redesigning her

[woolywoofs]

I wanted to post a little update. And ask for a little help, again (paypal posted below, please dont feel pressured! you and your needs come first always).

Moppa and I are still grieving Skvetta, but we are managing now. She can be left alone now without panicking and she no longer searched for her in the yard.

I had my tonsils taken out last friday, on my birthday lol. Surgery itself went well, but beforehand did not. My IV infiltrated and all of the meds to calm me down and put me to sleep just went into my soft tissue. It was extremely painful and I started to have a panic attack on the table because of it + the oxygen mask makes me feel like im suffocating (i know it doesnt make sense haha). All hands on deck after that and I had 3 people on me at once sticking me trying to get IVs in me but my veins just kept breaking. It was actual hell and felt like forever.

Recovery has been a hot mess honestly. The first 3 days were fine and since then its been reaaal bad. The ear, throat and tongue pain is unreal. I am drugged out of my mind because pain/stress is a huge seizure trigger for me, but at this point it is not really working. I did have 1 bad seizure, to a point where i had broken capillaries in my face. But thankfully it didnt create any issues with my surgery recovery. Im hoping things will start improving soon.

Generally my epilepsy has fucked up a lot. My short term memory is messed up and I have lost some skill sets after the bad seizures. I have been re-learning how to draw and paint! It is a very tedious process but i really feel like im making progress.

My autoimmune disease has been lowkey out of control and I saw my rheumo and I am going back on a low dose chemo drug. It really did help last time, it just made me so sick. But we will be looking into every option to control my nausea etc! So im trying to be hopeful. Ill start once im completely healed from my tonsillectomy, since the meds make you more likely to get infections and slows healing.

My uterus has also been absolutely fucked, once again. We were really hoping that removing the mass, scraping my uterus and putting the IUD would stop the bleeding, and it did, for 6 months. But im having issues again and I saw a specialist and we decided that the only option left for me is a hysterectomy. There is a year long wait though. This wasnt exactly on my list of things to do at 27.. but i suppose it is what it is.

Now for some good. Moppa is healthy and happy. She was attacked by a dog in september and got a bad gash but shes completely healed! She loves the fenced yard. We have been working on nosework stuff when im feeling okay enough for it! She is honestly such a light in the dark and I love her.

I get to renew my lease next year so i dont have to worry about housing!! Rent will be increasing bc inflation but im okay with swapping some meals with ramen to make things work, when I cant make extra money. I have been learning how to quilt!! My grandma does it a lot and i asked her to teach me so I am working on a project with her.

While things are generally a hot mess right now, i am mostly okay. And i feel like thats a big improvement for me, im not sure I would have handled all this a year ago. And im proud of myself.

With everything going on, I have obviously been unable to do commissions, or taking in dogsitting clients or anything i typically do to make money. If anyone is able to help, it is really appreciated. *This is my PayPal*, im afraid its my only way to receive anything. *any* amount helps. I really hope this is the last time i ever have to ask for anything. I feel like things are going to turn around now that we have solid plans to help with my health issues. The hope is that once my uterus is out and the low dose chemo has gotten my overall pain under control, that my epilepsy will chill out. It seems to be easily triggered via pain and hormones.

Thanks to anyone who had the patience to read this thing. I just havent posted an update in so long that there was a lot to say 😅 i am going to start being more active on here as ai really miss it. I will include the 2 art pieces I managed to make and finish. It took forever to figure everything out but im proud of myself. Quality may be a little destroyed bc tumblr likes to do that... i really hope i can offer commissions again soon. I might choose a person or two at random that donates and do a ghost commission like below for them? I can at least try. But youd have to message me on here after donating so i know who you are, i think i can attempt dog, cat or rabbit. But i cant promise anything.

I talked forever, im so sorry lol. Here is the paypal again because its definitely lost up there in the babble

Just to end this.. Has anyone here had a tonsillectomy as an adult and can tell me at what point it got better?

[evilsliceofbread]

i hate that most traumatized characters we're meant to like are functional and most unfunctional traumatized characters are villains (at least the ones i grew up watching).

i hate the trope of cool, mystery, strong, diligent person who's revealed to be severely traumatized- but they pulled themself up by their bootstraps and now they're healed, and functional, and able to be a stable member of society! So its okay!!! toughest thing about being traumatized, is that im disabled going throughout life without any accommodations. but i dont realize it half the time. i lack an internal motivation to do anything, i have passions and things i want to do, and im told if i disciple myself enough ill be able to do them. it'll work for a bit but it always falls apart. How am I might to do something when 1) i was never taught, and 2) I just dont care. it doesnt matter. whatever. i have no anchor to reality when reality is what fucked me up.

i cant tell people i need help bc its all in my fucking head, its a "me" problem, (a skill issue mayhaps,) so its my responsibility. I'm the only one accountable. I understand that im responsible for myself and that i cant demand anyone to focus on me, to help me, to support me in living- but god i wish i could tell my professors "Hey, i really need external accountability (no, deadlines dont count) or else i will crash and burn and stress without doing anything, so please message me about my progress." or bosses "please write down exactly what you need me to do without any filler, so i can understand. and dont talk to me while im doing my tasks or i will crumble and break and fall apart like stale bread."

or "i cant process what youre saying or anything right now, i dont know why/because im disassociating."

just admit i struggle to work within society and for them to please have patience. i want to be the cool functionally traumatized character so fucking badly. but im not. i cant focus. i just focus on my silly lil escapism coping stories.

and most of the characters have it worse than me, yet are still more functional than me.

i want to be functional.

i wanna see people like me in the stories i love.

[eternal-armin]

how they would comfort you when you're crying

i am having a difficult time so it's time to self-indulge i apologize for mispellings and bad grammar, i am very tired and formatting is surprisingly exhausting x

characters included: jean, sasha, armin, levi, hange, mikasa, erwin

*＊✿❀　jean　❀✿＊*

*:✼✿ not good with emotions *:✼✿ like at all *:✼✿ but he knows you well enough to know what you need and what would make you happy *:✼✿ so he stays near you and hugs you, talks to you, and reassures you. no matter what's troubling he will do his best to be sure that you know everything will be okay *:✼✿ you like his humming (even though he hates it) so he will hum your favorite songs and even make up songs *:✼✿ will make you laugh as much as he can *:✼✿ will not stop his attempts until you feel better *:✼✿ even if it means staying up all night helping you through your darkest griefs, he will willingly spend every second by your side and wide awake *:✼✿ very affectionate, better at physically showing his love for you honestly *:✼✿ still tries his best verbally *:✼✿ you always end up feeling better, no matter how long it takes *:✼✿ "i promise, i'll always protect you. you're never going to feel this bad again. you are so strong for being able to get through this, and i'm proud of you for asking for my help."

*＊✿❀　sasha　❀✿＊*

*:✼✿ gets incredibly nervous, like "oh god, oh god you're crying uH" and tries her frazzled best for a few seconds *:✼✿ hugs you tight and reassures you, petting your hair *:✼✿ lets you cry into her shoulder as hard as you need *:✼✿ offers you everything under the sun to see what would make you feel better *:✼✿ cuddly and excessively affectionate, listens to you as you speak with the patience of a saint *:✼✿ cradles you and rocks you back and forth *:✼✿ brings you food and water and tea and whatever else she can scrounge/steal *:✼✿ makes sure that you're healthy and doesn't leave you alone *:✼✿ literally so kind and sweet *cries* *:✼✿ tells you just how much you're worth, how much you're loved, how strong you are, and it makes you cry more tbh *:✼✿ she tries joking around but if it doesn't work, she lets it go *:✼✿ cuddles you if you want, doesnt touch you if you need, but will never leave you alone for too long

*＊✿❀　armin　❀✿＊*

*:✼✿ immediately asks you if you're okay after seeing you cry *:✼✿ when you break down, he hugs you and (though he won't admit it) cries with you *:✼✿ has a tender one-sided conversation with you until you're able to talk with him *:✼✿ a genuine talk about how you're feeling, why, and what you can do to help- and also what he can do to support you *:✼✿ talking with him is really helpful, but he also hugs you throughout it all, gives you physical affirmations as well as verbal *:✼✿ he knows what its like to feel so horrible about your life and yourself, he is so empathetic and gentle about it *:✼✿ a few moments are spent in peaceful silence. even if it feels hollow, its comforting *:✼✿ he lets you rest your head on his shoulder *:✼✿ brings you anything you need when you ask *:✼✿ promises you the sun and moon if it means you'll smile

*＊✿❀　levi　❀✿＊*

*:✼✿ seriously bad with feelings *:✼✿ like at first he's completely apathetic *:✼✿ then he gets actually worried after seeing how badly its affecting you *:✼✿ provides the best comfort he can give, talks with you, hugs you, whispers affirmations *:✼✿ if it's a person who was bugging you he'll probably commit homicide *:✼✿ if it's not, he will do everything he can legally do to get it fixed *:✼✿ including going to shitty glasses *:✼✿ but if it's an emotional thing, he'll first ask you what you need *:✼✿ and levi will provide you with anything under the sun (exceptthethingsonthetopshelf) *:✼✿ im allowed to make that joke im 5'1 *:✼✿ he gets as affectionate as levi ackerman can possibly get *:✼✿ will leave you with someone you both trust if he needs to leave, for instance to commit homicide

*＊✿❀　hange　❀✿＊*

*:✼✿ immediately fauning over you the moment they see your eyes tearing up *:✼✿ like "PUDDING WHAT IS WRONG WHY ARE YOU CRYING, BABY ARE YOU OKAY???" *:✼✿ they wipe your tears and give you plenty of kisses *:✼✿ hugs you tightly and doesn't let go *:✼✿ will speak at length about random things because they know that silence makes things worse for you *:✼✿ asks you if you need anything like at least fifteen times and brings you things regardless of what you say *:✼✿ mostly food or comfort objects honestly *:✼✿ tries to make you laugh, tells you stories, mostly stories that they know would reinspire your hope *:✼✿ will make tea to help you sleep (if it's at night) *:✼✿ inspires you to use your coping skills *:✼✿ if you want, hange will do them with you

*＊✿❀　mikasa　❀✿＊*

*:✼✿ flurry of emotions at first, from shock and sadness to anger *:✼✿ similarly to levi, would commit homicide for the sake of revenge *:✼✿ sweetly comforts you at first before asking a lot about what happened *:✼✿ cradles you in her lap *:✼✿ lets you wear her sweaters because she knows you love them *:✼✿ keeps calm to keep you calm *:✼✿ and it works; you stop crying soon after going to her *:✼✿ still affectionate and supportive *:✼✿ sympathetic, understanding *:✼✿ suggests things to do that will cheerr you up *:✼✿ but she understands when you dont want to do anything besides exist because everything else is too much *:✼✿ if and when she feels okay about leaving you with someone else (rare) or alone (p much never) she will commit physical violence against the person who hurt you. unless you specifically tell her not to

*＊✿❀　erwin　❀✿＊*

*:✼✿ kind of shocked to see someone usually so strong so broken down *:✼✿ holds your hands and lets you cry *:✼✿ he knows how important it is to cry sometimes *:✼✿ gently talks with you about what's wrong *:✼✿ he comforts and reassures you all throughout what you say *:✼✿ inspires confidence in your talking *:✼✿ he makes you feel strong and justified in your feelings *:✼✿ provides physical comfort as you boh figure out good solutions *:✼✿ if its emotional then he'll work with you to do coping skills *:✼✿ talks about how proud he is of you, whether you feel like you deserve it or not *:✼✿ you WILL feel like you deserve it *:✼✿ that is a threat.

[i-like-writing-stuff]

sorry [five hargreeves x reader]

request: wanted to say I love ur 5 fics and how you portray their relationship as old partners :”) 💖If it’s not trouble to do (Dont feel obligated plz) I had this idea of 5 and reader having a fight and them being too prideful or bitter to apologize. Reader ignores him for some time and Five gets grumpier than usual bc of that. To the point where, one of his siblings tell him to just stop being children, apologize and give them flowers. But he finds it hard bc he is not good with that kinda of stuff ☺️

a/n: thank youuu <3, i try my best to keep the tua characters in... well, character lol- as much as possible! i hope this fic turned the way you wanted it, anyway- enjoy!!~

summary: five gets grumpy when his girlfriend gives him the silent treatment for being a jerk... shocker.

“Could you stop for one damn second and relax?!” You yelled at your boyfriend, already stressed out by the way he had been almost carving a hole through the floor of the living room with all his pacing.

“Relax?!” Five yelled, turning to glare at you, “Do you even realize how stupid you sound?! How could I relax- I lost my last lead on that fucking eye!”

“Come again?” You raised a brow, crossing your arms as you watched him curiously. Did he just call you stupid indirectly?

Your nerves were tugging at the last threads of patience you had left within you- they had been doing that for a few days. You knew that life wouldn’t be quiet when you decided to give a relationship with your partner a shot, but you never expected things to get so messy.

Not only you followed his grumpy butt all the way to 2019 to stop an apocalypse- which you couldn’t care less about, now you had been stuck in your younger bodies because he miscalculated something before traveling in time. On top of all that, he had been a jerk to his siblings- which you grew quite fond of and viceversa, he also started being an asshole to you, all because he couldn’t find a way to stop the apocalypse.

“Five Hargreeves, did you just call me stupid?” You asked, seeing that he was frozen in place, going back over his words in his mind.

“Not exactly.” He knitted his brows in confusion, before realizing the irritated look on your face, “I don’t have time for this, Y/N.”

“You think I had any time these past two years putting up with your shit?” You retorted, making him raise his brows in surprise by your sudden burst, “Screw you, asshole.”

“Now that was rude!” He yelled after you, once you started walking out of the room, completely ignoring him, “Y/N!”

You had been with the Commission for over four decades, you completely trusted its choices, since you never were given a reason not to. Well, that was until the Handler recruited Five Hargreeves. He was about four-five years older than you, but nonetheless still had the impeccable skills of an assassin- just what the organization wanted and needed.

You, being one of the Handler’s most trusted agents, she assigned him under your wing in the beginning until he’d get adjusted. So, he became your partner, it didn’t take long until he became your partner in the real sense of the word.

Five was in love with you- stupidly in love with you. He loved your wit and your kindness, he loved that he could have intellectual conversations with you for hours on end, he loved the fact that he’d feel whole again with just one look at your face, your smile, your eyes.

But he was a prideful man, he knew that. If he was wrong- which he rarely was, he had no intention of apologizing. You knew how important stopping the apocalypse was to him, but... it pained you to see him almost lose his shit completely when he loses the last remaining lead.

For the next couple of hours, you completely avoided him at all costs until he’d get that stick out of his ass and apologize. 

And he’d better have a grand way of doing it.

You knew that it was not like him- he’d never apologize, and the fact that you were avoiding him was not making it any easier on him, but you were beyond pissed. Even if he may not have meant it, all you tried to do was help him relax for a moment, take a breather before that pretty head of his would explode. And in return? 

In return, Five fucking Hargreeves continues being an asshole- what a surprise.

“Jesus, where did all the caffeine in this house go?!” Five groaned, searching the cupboards in the kitchen, feeling grumpier than usual.

“I told you- dad didn’t like it.” Allison reminded him, as she and Luther sat at the table, watching him in confusion, “What’s got into you?”

“What are you talking about?” He asked, not done yet with his search- he wanted at least something that felt like coffee, “Come on- we don’t even have... coffee flavored fucking chocolate or some shit like that..?” He mumbled, shutting the cupboard with a loud smack.

“She means... you’re... grumpier... than usual...” Luther hesitantly explained, afraid that his little-older psychotic brother might have finally snapped.

“Mind your business, will ya?” Five asked with a fake smile, stomping out of the kitchen.

“I love Y/N, I swear I do... and oddly enough, Five too.” Allison spoke up, “But honestly, what was she thinking becoming his girlfriend?”

“I am just happy for her they’re not married.” Luther shrugged, resting his hand on his palm, as Diego walked into the kitchen;

“Is it just me or is Five a lesser ray of sunshine than usual?”

The following day, you treated Five with the same coldness as the prior day, which really drove him insane. Not only he spent the night in his bed alone, since you decided to bunk for the night in one of the empty rooms, but now you were still giving him the silent treatment.

Luckily, during breakfast, the Hargreeves siblings finally managed to understand what was going on.

“Hey, Diego, do you think we can pay Eudora a visit at the station after breakfast?” You asked the man, “I promised her the other day some files to help with an investigation she has on the side.”

“Sure thing.” Diego smiled, looking forward to seeing the detective again, even if he bickered with her from time to time.

“What files?” Five asked curiously.

“Vanya, can you please pass me the salt?” You ignored him, smiling at his sister.

Vanya raised a brow, unsure what to do, as the other siblings were piecing the puzzle together. Five raised a brow, as you avoided eye contact with him, waiting for the salt shaker which was, ironically, closer to him than Vanya.

“Here.” He said, reaching for it before his sister, handing it to you.

You looked at him with a smile, then at the salt shaker that was waiting on you to pick it from your boyfriend’s hand. Instead, you scoffed, getting up from your seat with your plate in your hands, suddenly losing your appetite.

“I am gonna go change.” You declared, placing your dish in the sink, “Diego, I’ll wait for you in the car.”

“Unbelievable....” Five muttered, throwing the salt shaker somewhere on the table, before abruptly getting up from his seat to pour himself a cup of freshly made coffee- Klaus made sure to stock up since Allison and Luther told him what had happened the other day.

“Why is Y/N giving you the cold shoulder?” Diego asked his brother, raising a brow.

“Leave me alone.” Five muttered, leaving the room even grumpier, with his hot cup of coffee in his hand to at least soothe him down a bit.

“Five!” Allison yelled after him, but he was already out of there, “Urgh, he’s such a child!”

After you and Diego had left the Hargreeves mansion, Five found it hard to focus on trying to get another lead on the prosthetic eye- he could not stop thinking about the fact that it almost had been twenty four hours since the woman he loved had chosen to deliberately ignore him, all because his stupid mouth could not help snapping at her.

What a moron he was, he knew that.

“Y/N told me what happened.” Allison told her brother, entering his room softly, watching as he laid on his bed on his back, “And woah- aren’t you an asshole?”

“What do you want, Allison?” He asked, rolling his eyes, staring up at his ceiling.

“Here’s a crazy idea... why don’t you apologize?” She suggested, crossing her arms.

“Have you... met me?” Five frowned, lifting his head to watch his sister in confusion.

“Look, you and Y/N both need to stop being children!” She said, “I know you may have teen bodies, but aren’t you both like over fifty? Honestly, Five...”

“Knowing I will regret this, what do you suggest, Allison?” Five asked with a sigh, watching as his sister smirked in response.

You and Diego didn’t really take long to finish your business at the police station. In about thirty minutes, you both were back on your way home, unaware of the big surprise that was waiting for you.

You entered the house, stretching your arms, already telling yourself you needed a drink, even if it was only noon. You figured a glass of some expensive bourbon would calm you down, so you made your way in the living room, as Diego went to his room in his own business.

Although, you couldn’t help but widen your eyes in surprise, as you stopped in your tracks once your look fell on Five, who was sitting at the bar with a Margarita in one hand, and a big bouquet of flowers rested in his lap.

“Five?” You frowned, stepping towards him confused.

Never in his life, would Five ever think he’d be so happy to hear his name on your lips. He softly smiled, realizing that Allison’s plan was working, as you finally spoke to him, even if it was one word.

“Y/N.” Five gulped, setting down his glass to jump off the stool, “These are for you...” He hesitantly said, stretching his hands towards you, as he held the big, colorful bouquet of all sorts of flowers towards you.

“I... Uh... what?” You frowned, taken aback by the gesture.

Five wasn’t necessarily the romantic type, so this was the first bouquet of flowers you ever received from him. You knew he loved you with all his heart and he was in love with you, that’s why you didn’t care about the romantic gestures he never did- but, right now, watching his cheeks turn into a slight shade of pink as he was biting on his bottom lip anxiously- your heart melted.

Allison had given him all sorts of advice on how to apologize to you with the help of Vanya, since they were both well aware of the fact that their brother was not capable of saying such words by himself. But right now, as you stood before him, Five had forgotten all that they taught him.

“I... I suck at this kind of stuff, I gotta be honest.” Five sighed, stepping closer to you, still with the bouquet in his hands, as you were still hesitant, “I... I shouldn’t have snapped at you, Y/N, I know. You didn’t deserve to be told that, even if I didn’t mean it at all. I swear, I was only mad and I never meant to take it out on you.”

“Oh my God.” You covered your mouth in shock, “Are you... actually... trying to apologize to me?”

“Sort of... yeah...” Five sighed, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly, “Look, what I am trying to say... What I am trying to say is that I appreciate your love, and having your support with me, and I know you care about my well-being.”

“Keep going...” You smirked, stepping closer to him, “Come on... they are three simple words.”

“Right...” Five sighed, running a hand through his hair, “Look, Y/N? I... I am...”

You didn’t even let him finish, as you softly took the bouquet out of his hand not to squish it, wrapping your arms around his neck to pull him into a tight hug. You knew how hard it must have been so far for a know-it-all like Five to say that, so you didn’t want to push him further. To you it was enough that he at least felt sorry for bursting like that.

“I love you.” Five sighed, wrapping his arms around your waist, “And I truly mean what I said earlier.”

“I love you too.” You smiled, not yet pulling away from the loving embrace, “And I know... I know...”

Five pulled away to smile down at you, “Thank you for being so understanding... and supportive.”

“I’d say it is my pleasure, but I’d be lying.” You teased him, bopping his nose with the free hand that was not wrapped around his neck still and holding the flowers.

“Hilarious.” Five sarcastically said, slowly leaning in, “I think I liked it better when you weren’t talking.”

“Really?” You scoffed, but before you could continue the playful banter, Five had already captured your lips into a soft kiss, finding a better way to shut you up.

[pjotvshownews]

Hey guys! Just wanted to give some advice based on my knowledge of film industries.

1.) DONT REPEATEDLY EMAIL THE DIRECTORS.

this is probably one of the most important things. Casting directors already have to sort with hundreds of tapes. They don’t like if if you email them constantly or try to contact them on their private socials with your submission. Remember casting takes time and so does sorting through/watching tapes.

I know its scary to think they haven’t seen your tape, but WeTransfer tells you if your file has been downloaded. Be patient, it takes around 1-2 weeks for callbacks if you’re tape hasn’t been downloaded try again after that period, but dont email them daily with you’re submission.

2.) Dont loose hope! Casting takes months and its a long process.

The process is normally —> casting call —> Callbacks & Chemistry readings —> Final Chemistry reading —> Screen tests —> Film date

Large companies, ( Disney especially), have multiple rounds of callbacks and chemistry tests before moving onto final readings. Remember, They mentioned that they only started going through tapes last month on January 17th because the team was back from break. Tweets from Ashlee mentioned that you can still submit a tape on FEBUARY 9th, which was only two weeks ago. The initial chemistry readings was just the first of many since again, they take multiple rounds to find the right actor.

Dove Cameron went through 7 rounds of callbacks/readings before being selected for girls meets world, Daisy Ridley went through 6 for Star Wars.

This was also a global casting call, and actors are flown in for chemistry readings. Logistically, large productions need to plan out various tests for narrowing down actors and going brining multiple actors.

The casting page is still up and the email is still valid. Casting pages take from the budget due to site maintenance costs and high traffic. They are shut down once the casting call is no longer accepting submissions. ( Just using my own insight but it shows they are still sorting through tapes as most Film/Tv shows take down calls )

3.) Keep you’re audition tape short.

30-45 seconds is enough. Directors have to go through hundreds of hours of tapes and majority of the time, do not watch the entire tape if its more than 1 minute long. Longer readings are done for chemistry readings or in person auditions.

If you want you’re tape to be seen and considered, keep it short and sweet. ( They only wanted you to read a passage ). Use your time effectively and choose a passage that can highlight your skills).

4.) Once you submit your audition, move on.

This is more for your own self. Casting is a tricky/long process. Even for more experienced and more known actors, the audition process takes time and patience. I know a lot of us love this series and want to be on it, but dont stalk and dm the producers/directors, dont email them on private handles, dont look for every detail. Casting is done under wraps and the only way to know the process in a particular production is to be part of the team or official statements.

While we can know the standard outlines of casting, and look into how directors have casted in the past ( as with Disney ), it is best not to stress yourself out over it. Submit your best work and look for other opportunities. This show is also the first book/season other chances are going to be available and if you’re serious about it, get an agent.

If anyone else wants to reach out or ask questions dm me! Im happy to share some advice!!

cont:

"Also wanted to share that screen tests =/= chemistry tests.

Chemistry tests and callbacks are meant to read more into potential actors to see how they would perform certain scenes and interact with other actors. Usually done in person in larger groups on an empty set or open spaces for multiple actors

Screen tests are the final part of casting. Usually final actors are chose and are brought in separately. This is done on set with full makeup, costume, hair, lighting, etc, to see how an actor would look in a finished production and as the final character. Again this is the last step in castings are they are far, far from deciding this."

^

[yodamn]

Comfort

This is something I just thought up, enjoy!

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Thank God for your parents. Them having other children after you gave you the perfect amount of experience to handle the situation you were in. Your younger brothers, specifically, have helped you unknowingly.

There in front of you stands a Clone. But not just any clone. Marshal. Commander. Cody. THE Marshal Commander Cody. You aren't one of his brothers, you're just an officer delegated to Communications and occasionally getting one very finicky control console to work who, despite not being sentient, only works for you. Thanks Dad for teaching me some of your Mechanical Know-How. But anyway...

Marshal Commander Cody. SIC to General Master Jedi Obi-Wan Kenobi. A highly skilled man. Trained to be able to take droids, or people, down extremely easily. Even though some people look down on clones not ONE person can say something bad about Cody in front of his face. Hes intimidating. He commands respect from COUNTLESS clones and he.

Hes got the same look your little brother gets after a really bad day at school.

Eyes glazed with just enough water to seem wet but not to the point of tears, blank stare through time and space. His posture isnt different but he probably is used to having to hide in his helmet. The ever so slight quiver of his bottom lip, most people wouldnt even notice. But you do. You always do. Its the exact same expression. And you can read it like a book. That faces says that he really just wants to be hugged tight and told its gonna be okay and go to sleep but hes not gonna ask for it. Hes hiding it well but youre used to seeing the signs. Sometimes your little brother, Gil, doesnt know how to ask when he needs help. He pushes people away. And your parents do their best, but they've got four other kids and their jobs, they don't catch everything. So then it becomes big sister to the rescue. Who had the time, patience, and energy to help.

And it seems like noone else notices whats happening to the Marshal Commander. You pay attention to the briefing of course but also keeping an eye on Cody. After the briefing youre just close enough to hear Cody dismiss himself as well, saying that he needed to get some work done. At that the plan is set into action. First stop? The Officer Lounge. You grab a cup of caf and put a lid on it. You stop by the officer barracks and grab the nice blanket your mom sent in a care package and swiftly continue towards the Clone Barracks.

There are horror stories told about the Clone Barracks by officers. That they'll eat you alive. That once a new recruit wandered in and was never seen again. Stupid things. But that doesnt mean walking into a hallway of barracks where you really stick out isnt scary. Their gazes are burning into you at all angles, curiosity, confusion, the occasional glare. You finally found the Commanders door. Looking both way you knock first. No answer. You know hes in there because the light of the pad beside you is on. Indicating someone is inside. You knock twice more with the same result. A sigh leaves your lips and you weigh your options.

Open the door yourself and possibly get yelled at. Potentially invade his privacy. Or leave and forget any of this happened. The second option seems more appealing. But then you remember why you came. Seeing his face in your memory. The look of pain in his eyes. Seeing your little brother in him, despite the commander being three times his size and much more intimidating than your dorky little brother. Taking a deep breath to steele yourself you gently and slowly open the door. Hes sitting on his bed. Head in his hands. In the dark. Just like Gil. And a gruff voice calls out.

"What do you want"

"Commander Cody?"

Apparently not the voice he was expecting because his head shot up.

"Can I help you? Is there something you need? I'm sure that-" you cut him off with a wave of your hand.

"No! No I dont need anything, its just," you sighed, no going back, "At the briefing today you seemed a little off, I thought you might need a little pick me up?" You offered with the still hot caf held out to him.

"I brought you some caf, and my extra blanket, its weighted and it always helps me so if you wanna borrow it..." You trailed looking away and then back to see him still staring at you.

"But! Thats-thats only if you want to, you dont have to I just, it helps me and I wanted to..." you stuttered and rambled while flailing your own free hand around.

"Thank you"

You stopped and stared at the man. The look was back. And oh how it hurt.

"I-Thank you, that's very thoughtful" Cody furrowed his eyebrows and scratched the back of his head. You extended the caf to him again, he took it and just held it in his hands.

"How-how did you know? How could you tell?" He asked, oh so softly. Running a hand down your cheek you gesture to the bed next to him and he nods and scoots over.

"Uh, well" you start and sit on the cot, you place the blanket down next to him and think back to Gil, "I'm the oldest of 5 kids in my family, and my parents try their best. But they dont always catch everything, what with having five kids and my mom and dad own a business and other family issues" you explain.

"Sometimes I step in to help, I dont have to. But I care, and they are important to me", you smile thinking about your younger siblings. Your parents were always so adamant about you not having to help. But at one point your grandfather got sick, had to come live with you. You wanted to step in to alleviate the stress. You lean back against the metal walls and looked at Cody.

"And you, sir", knocking your hand against the plastoid of his armored arm you shift to fully face him, "You had the same face that my little brother makes when hes had a really tough day and just wants to talk about it"

Cody chuckled taking a sip from the caf.

"Sorry if its not all that good, its just the caf they supply officers and I also dont know how you like your caf so..."

"No, no its fine, thank you" he whispers, he's so tired. You can see it in the way his eyelids flutter. "I can't really talk about what I do, it's confidential" hes slouching where he sits, soon you can see his head slightly bopping up and down. Resisting the pull of sleep.

"That's fine, you dont have to" you reassure patting him on the arm, you lightly rub your thumb in the crease between the armor and his blacks.

"Can you tell me about yourself then? Whats your favorite caf? Do you like bolo-ball?" You ask quietly, you move to sit in front of him on the floor. By slowly lowering your voice you should be able to get Cody to relax and fall asleep, it works for your. The big commander humms and slowly explains that he likes his caf with sugar but never can find any so he drinks it black mostly. He, like most of the clones, are loyal to the Corosaunt team. His voice getting softer and softer with yours as he went on. You hummed sweetly and looked at his armor. That can't be comfortable to sleep in.

Tapping your finger on his knee plate, and unfortunately reeling him back out of the sweet embrace of sleep. You ask if you can remove his armor, following that you didn't have to if he didn't want you to . Cody nods drowsily and croaks a yes out. You perch on your knees and begin to fumble with his leg armor.

"Please Cody, tell me more about Waxer and Boil" you prod gently while slipping your fingers into the magnetic locks. You had a nurse friend who had often had to remove armor from the clones due to them being unconscious. He had complained about how sometimes the locks would stick and explained how to get them unstuck. Not that you needed to know at the time, but it was useful right now.

Cody rambled on about Waxer and Boil and how sometimes Obi Wan would loose his lightsaber in battle.

He pouted, "Its rich because he always, always says 'The lightsaber is your life' to Skywalker..."

You giggle and stand up, he sighs and goes to lay back on the bed. Drunk in exhaustion. You had removed most of his armor, him removing things you couldn't.

He inhales and looks back at you, having sat back down next to the head of the bed. Cody lets out a sigh and continues to ramble, at this point his words are getting mixed up and jumbled. He had begun to explain how he got upset at all the paperwork he had to do and battle plans to make and military personnel to kiss up to, but you stopped him.

"Thats confidential remember?" You whispered, brushing a stray hair away.

"Thas right, you" he clumsily pointed up to you, "youre a good person"

Smiling you grab his hand and bring it to lay on his chest, "Thank you Cody, so are you" you softly pet his hand.

He turns onto his side and ever so slowly you see him slip into a peaceful sleep. You stand and lightly laid your blanket over him. It was muscle memory. Remembering all the times your parents had to work late or were focused on helping a sibling or relative that was sick and you had to put the others to bed. You tucked Cody in and gingerly lifting his head to move his pillow under him. After making sure he was covered you laid a kiss on his temple. Youre eyes snapped open and you tensed your back.

Why did I do that? You looked down at the man and he was still peacefully sleeping. Shaking your head you sighed, stupid muscle memory. You moved the cup of cold caf further on the nightstand next to his bed just incase her flailed an arm and he knocked it over. You brushed hair from his eyes once more before moving towards the door. Opening the door just enough for you to slip thru you turn down the lights and leave, shutting the door on your way out. Turning you bump into Obi Wan.

"Oh! Im so sorry General" You quietly stutter before moving past him.

"Oh please, I shouldnt have snuck up on you" he assures, "I must say thank you though, I noticed what you did"

Flushing you nod and continue out of the barracks.

The next day you wake up and go through all your duties. You had to make the control console work three times because it decided today wasnt a good day. Some shiny bumped into you in the mess, spilling all your food over you. You had assured him it was fine. All of your clothes were dirty so you had to continue the day with slightly gravy soaked clothes. Over all the day wasnt very good, and you just wanted to go to sleep.

You walk into the Officer barracks stripping down your uniform and tossing it. You washed all of the sticky feeling off of you, changed, and went to just pass out. Once you reached your bunk you see a piping hot caf on the nightstand and her blanket folded on her bed. Laying neatly on the blanket was a card. Opening it showed a simple message.

'Thank you, if you ever need anything dont hesitate to let me know

- Marshall Commander Cody'

You smile and curl up on your bed with the caf and your blanket. You can tell this is the begining of a beautiful friendship.

[ukulelecal]

First

anonymous: Never having someone to celebrate Valentine’s Day with until this year because you have Calum and he’s not normally into Valentine’s Day but he wants it to be special for you. It’s kind of like this is the first year he’s into it because no one has made him want to celebrate it until he meet you. ++ valentines day concept ooft ok so its ur first vday w cal and u guys have been together for a few months but since u know he’s hesitant about love n relationships u dont want to make a big deal out of the day! but mayb cal surprises u because he knows how patient u have been w him n how many months before u got together u waited while he worked thru some stuff n he appreciates u everyday but he just wants to show u a lil extra loving! nothing totp flowers, a bubble bath n wine some, idk???

a/n: these are two requests but they’re so similar i just decided to combine them!! hope that’s ok

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February 14th was coming up soon, and you weren’t exactly sure what to do about it.

You personally had nothing against Valentine’s Day. You knew it was cheesy, and you wouldn’t call it your favorite day, but it was fun and romantic, even though you usually didn’t have anyone to spend it with, and you loved when the leftover candy would go on sale. 

Calum, your boyfriend of just a few months, had never been keen on Valentine’s Day, or relationships in general. He had his heart broken too many times in the past, making him give up on love entirely, but things changed when he met you. He realized what love really was and how amazing it could be. It took him a long time, denying his feelings and trying to convince himself that he only liked you as a friend, but it was obvious that you liked each other. He finally asked you out, and you were very happy together a few months later. 

His prior aversion to love wasn’t a secret to you. He explained it to you, thinking you were upset with him for taking so long, but you were nothing but understanding. It took a lot of patience, but it was worth the wait. Due to this, you weren’t sure if he would be into Valentine’s Day. He still had his reservations, despite the fact that he was with you, so you didn’t want to go all out for the holiday if he didn’t want to.

In reality, he typically wouldn’t be into it, considering he was so hesitant about relationships for so long. But this year, he felt a little different. You had been so patient with him and made him feel so loved and happy. Valentine’s Day was a celebration of love, and he never felt the need to celebrate love until he met you. So, he wanted to make it special. He wanted to show you how thankful he was for everything you had done for him without even knowing.

Valentine’s Day came around, and you weren’t exactly sure how the day was going to go. He had asked you to come over for the evening, but he didn’t give any specifics. You had a little gift for him, but the rest would be a surprise.

Just as you sat up to get out of bed, your phone vibrated from your nightstand. Upon closer inspection, you found a text from Calum that brought a smile to your face. 

Happy Valentine’s Day, sweetheart. Can’t wait to see you tonight x 

You typed out a reply to return the sentiment before swinging your legs over the bed, getting ready for the day and hoping the time until you got to go to Calum’s would pass by quickly.

You soon enough found yourself knocking on his door, an immediate smile spreading across your face when he opened it. He looked incredibly handsome, as always, and his soft smile always and the bouquet of flowers in his hand made you melt. 

“Happy Valentine’s Day,” he mumbled kindly, handing you the flowers.

“Happy Valentine’s Day, Cal,” you answered, practically swooning.

“You look beautiful,” he complimented as you stepped inside, causing heat to rush to your cheeks. He always knew how to charm you. He was quick to pull you into his arms and press his lips to yours.

“Thank you,” you mumbled finally. “It smells good in here.”

“Yeah, dinner should be ready in a few minutes.”

With that, the two of you made your way into the kitchen where he quickly finished up the food he was making. The meal was delicious, thanks to his admittedly good cooking skills, and the bottle of wine that he had picked out definitely complimented it. 

“I got this for you,” you announced after you cleared the table, handing him the small box. He sighed but smiled.

“You didn’t have to get me anything, sweetheart,” he informed you as he began to unwrap the paper. 

“I wanted to,” you assured him, shrugging your shoulders. He finally pulled off all the paper, and the smile on his face only grew as he popped the lid off the small box. You got him a necklace with a bass charm on it, with his initials carved into it. You didn’t want to give him anything overly personal, but still something he would appreciate. 

“Oh, baby, I love it. Thank you.” He pulled it from the box and extended it out towards you. “Can you put it on for me?”

You were quick to get up and stand behind him, clipping the jewelry. When you made your way to stand in front of him again, he swiftly pulled you into his lap and pecked your lips.

“Thank you, baby,” he repeated. “I’ll give you your gift in a bit, but what do you say we head upstairs for a bath now?”

You nodded quickly, and he stood up with you still in his arms. You squealed in surprise and clung onto him, making him chuckle.

“I got you, sweetheart.”

Calum ran the bath and added in some bubbles, and soon enough you were both stripped of your clothes and seated inside. Your back was to his chest, his arms snaked around your waist. You could feel the coolness of his necklace against your back, but it was somehow comforting. Just being with him was comforting, safe in his arms.

“You’re amazing, you know that?” He suddenly mumbled, breaking the peaceful silence. “You were so patient with me when I was too scared to realize how much I liked you and wanted to be with you. I’ve never really been into Valentine’s Day but you, sweetheart, you made me want to celebrate. For the first time in a long time.” He pressed a kiss to your temple, and although he didn’t say those three little words, you knew what he meant. “So amazing.”

[lucidpantone]

I've been reflecting on wtfock, particularly s3, as a means to understand their disastrous s4, and it dawned on me that s3 had enough red flags to be used as a warning signal. The OG script provided structure and boundaries that preserved much of the integrity of the story from callous writers, but once removed - it's bedlam. A more critical mind than mine could've predicted this downfall. My Q: Do u think s4 would have been more palatable if it were not a skam remake, just a reg. teen show?

similar anon: Not even skam france got this amount of hate, this is almost funny

So I was speaking to some mutuals and a couple of connections about this season. Because you know I hear from anyone who has been on set that the wtfock team works their ass off and I am sure they do and I do at times feel sorry for being so critical but I am going to break down why no matter if they fixed the “racism” issue this would still be a terrible season and if this wasn't wtfock and this was a pilot show this pilot would have been canceled 3/4 episodes in. Here are for me 5 key issues that makes the season so awful. The writing is terrible, coupled with how the script is directed and paced is also awful, Romi am sure is a great model but as an actress she simply doesn't have the chops to carry this season. I was thinking the other day imagine Falvie (lola’s actress) given this script...it would still be bad but falvie would have given us some of that hard/soft texture we so desperately need because right now its nothing/bland its all just flat no bounce or texture coming out of Kato.  I dont know if because of this Wtfock didn't commit to Romi’s portrayal of Kato’s pov because this has also created such an unbalanced season. 

In a way there is no main (if there was one I would say its moyo because we have learned more about him then Kato) but he isn't our main, she is and taking into account that we should go on a journey and learn something at the end of all this via Kato its incredibly worrying that we are at episode 7 and no one cares at all about her especially when we could have had some type of story of self-harm and even how a young person deals with a family member in rehab/prison or institutionalized but none of that matters now because the audience abandoned wtfock s4 long ago. Lastly the racism, wtfock thought they were being unique and subversive writing an antagonist and in theory if the writing skill was there maybe it could have worked but given the fact that a possibly racially motivatived murder is making the rounds in Belgium and literally the cover of The New York Times one of the biggest papers in the entire world. This backfired in every way. The last thing anyone wants to hear is why people who display racist tendencies deserve patiences and forgiveness while black boys are brutally murdered with no justice. What is done can not be undone and this serves as a lesson to all remakes it takes one season to implode what took 3 seasons to build.

[flightofaqrow]

cowards

qrow + Qrow ( @littleblackqrow​ )

the voice in qrow’s head sounds loud and clear. fractured and broken in too many ways, he can only wonder what angle the pain will take before he sloshes it around into something softer.

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“You were broken to begin with.”

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“no kidding,” he frowns down at the bottle after taking another swig. unusually clean and reflective; brand spankin’ new from the store, and drunk straight up; given no time to gather dust on the shelf nor proper patience to grab a glass.

unlike the shattered silver mirror carried around in his soul, not even a paper bag left to protect it. just a bunch of pieces to pick up and play with as best he could.

qrow in quite a mood, with quite a thirst. maybe that’s why the voice in his head sounds loud and clear. fractured and broken in too many ways, he can only wonder what angle the pain will take before he sloshes it around into something softer.

another swallow to burn his voice hot enough for self-roasting, “so tell me, what particular shard y’feel like jabbin’ into the heart tonight, huh?”

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“Its more a question of where you want to start.” Qrow scoffed at himself. “You and I both know how this night goes. You dont have enough liquor there to drown me out before we’re done. We can scramble it up a bit, or we can just skip the preliminaries, and go right to the fact that Tai is going to hate the fact we’re coming home like this again.”

He could feel the sharp pain in his own chest when he thought about the man’s face, scowling down at him with disappointment, and sometimes something drifting close to pity. Unsure if his mirror image had seem something similar, he sent the image over.

“So what’ll it be first? Guilt, regret, the fact that you’ll never be able to measure up to Raven even after she abandoned her family? I’m taking new suggestions for things I haven’t thought up yet too.”

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“don’t forget about the secret stash.” and yet he couldn’t shake the feeling it still wouldn’t go down quick enough. smartass enough, even with himself. the little cynical voice somehow always proven right. just another mirrored piece shared with his twin.

but no one here to say i told you so. except himself.

Raven first, it is, then. he frowns, and keeps drinking; double time when the image of Tai flashes across his lids too. he may not be able to race himself, but if he downed enough, maybe he could…

“nice try, but i think we can miss that face by making it blurry enough.”

and he wouldn’t have to remember it either. because drinking the consequences away into a haze instead of making a better ending in the first place is totally the right answer.

he could try fighting for something, at least, “Raven’s a coward, and I don’ care to hold m’self to her stupid scorecard anymore.”

he doesn’t give the louder part of this internal debate the suggestion of all the people he’s hurt in how his heart never seems to flutter in the same way theirs do. broken from the start, as accused. there are some things he may never understand about himself enough to even bring it up.

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“Dont lie to yourself,” Qrow scoffed. “You’re no less a coward than she is. You’re just more skilled at hiding the truth.” And not even that good at hiding it, if he were honest with himself. Qrow was adept at drinking to forget his cowardice. That was his entire reason for holding the flask in his hand, wasnt it?

The self loathing and bile almost was rising too fast for the burn of bourbon to push it back down.

“Thats why we’re out here alone when we could have stayed with Tai. You know he’d let us live there full time, whether we share his bed or just the guest room down the hall. Too big of cowards to stay, even bigger ones for not cutting them away for their own good.”

[ask-the-party-god]

Ask The Party God - Timeline

the pre-terezi-gang timeline post is here

height references over here

hi, im jade! everyones favorite party goddess and trans doggy girl~ but you already know that! if youre reading this, it means youre interested in learning more about my reality, because paradox space is fucking weird like that and you cant really be sure all the time

as far as im aware, everything up to the point where we beat the game happened without deviations from the alpha timeline? so this is what rose has talked about as a ‘terminal timeline’, or ‘post-canon’, or whatever the hell that is supposed to mean

we got to earth-c, and i settled in the troll kingdom because trolls are cool, dave and karkat were in the neighborhood, and the caverns are close by so i can visit rose and kanaya speedily as well! i still do have my old tower out on an island, with my workshop and garden, but i almost never sleep in it, too far away and isolated from everyone...

then one day i found this old active server in the furthest ring keeping tumblr active and i thought, hey, why not have some fun? ;D

as for the others...

my darling sis june egbert! she lives in the consort kingdom, but has been thinking about relocating elsewhere lately! she went through a rough patch right after the game, unsure of what to do and full of all sorts of doubts and questions, but shes doing a lot better nowadays! specially now that terezi is back, shes been a lot more peppy and hanging around with the lalondes particularly!

rose rose rose rose~ happily married to her wife kanaya, duh, but that doesnt make her any less of a flirty cutie! a while back she got really sick for a bit, and weve been keeping an eye on her just in case it happened again, but its been all good ever since! she helps kanaya at the caverns a bunch, which makes her schedule busy busy... and you didnt hear this from me, buuuut words out on the street that she and kanaya may be warming to the idea of having a kid! <3 well see how that goes!

one cool dude~ daves a little bit of a shut-in honestly! and honestly i dont blame him? he must be tired after all the timeline and time travel shenanigans, so he spends a good chunk of his time hanging out in his and karkats house! hes kind of awkward about opening up with feelings and stuff, and ive been trying to nudge him to be more open for a while! but with all the craziness thats been going down lately, and more people coming and going and getting together, hes starting to consider things he hadnt before~ hopefully, some specific someones? ;)

janey! my uh... ecto-mom, technically, although we see each other more like cousins than anything else! she still owns crockercorp, but ever since jasprose has been around, she has been spending a lot more time at home and just hanging out with her friends, which really, sounds a lot healthier than the big business thing she had going on a while back! she enjoys teaching me baking stuff, but doesnt have much patience for my decorating skills ;p

grandpa! and grandson technically, hehe, jakes kind of a weird case, hes a mixture of a shut-in, a celebrity and an adventurer! he can spend up to weeks at a time without leaving his manor, but then hell have full weeks of interviews and hiking, and thats not to say anything of when he and dirk put out another episode or two of their dumb comedy talkshow... hes often busy with stuff, but hes still a good pal and can clear his schedule in seconds if we need him for something!

one sweet nb dude! rox really is... something else, really! fun to tag along at a party, fun to chill at home playing games, fun to talk about more serious stuff and open up with him, he really is just solid as they come! hes been hanging out a lot more with june since she got out of her depressive slump, but sometimes i wonder if junebug finds weird to get flirty with roxy, considering im pretty sure we made out in front of her at some point or two... hehehe

dirk! if daves a bit of a shut-in, hes a shut-in times two, which is weird because youd think someone stuck in post-apocalyptic earth for so long would want to hang out more? not to say he DOESNT, though! hes around jake often enough, and keeps close to jane, roxy and dave specially! we dont see each other too often, but we HAVE been messing around with robots and planning out to upgrade our respective self-bots for funsies!

aradia! we only met briefly in dreams for the longest time, but i knew already that she was a riot! she came with terezis group after she finally found vriska, and seems pretty happy just... kind of... being around and watching shenanigans ensue! i actually dont know where she lives, but she drops by occasionally, because im apparently pretty ‘fun’... cant say i disagree ;)

sollux is blind, and not dead, and WILL kick you in the shins if you keep prying about how exactly he ended up like that, which is fair enough! he spends a good chunk of his time with aradia, and im not sure if theyre dating or not...? but hes been around the other trolls a bunch! specially kanaya, apparently theyre good friends that go way back! i guess they both DO style their hair similarly, with the side spike thingies...

the other half of the dave-kat duo! swooooon~ really though, i cant remember the last time i said “dave” or “karkat” without talking about the other shortly after... buuut theyre just roomies, and hell get awkward and grumpy if you even so slightly IMPLY otherwise, despite the fact everyone knows they fall asleep leaning against each other during friday movie night! roooolling my eyes~ with the rest of the living trolls having arrived, hes been a lot more willing to go outside, which im glad for! its healthy to get some fresh air from time to time, and specially hang out with friends!

oh-la-la, miss maryam-lalonde herself! kanayas the matriarch of the caverns, and quite the busy gal, having taken it upon herself to supervise her entire species reproduction and well-being... in my opinion, she needs a good vacation from time to time, and to be less of a workaholic! >:o ive been helping her occasionally in the caverns, and as of late weve begun trying to mess around with ectobiology for some troll-human crossing experiments with... not good results so far... but hey, rome wasnt built in a day!

terezis back, yes! after spending YEARS out there looking for vriska, she managed to find her and come back, the madwoman! personally im not sure why anyone would go to such lengths for... her... but also, its not my bond, not my place to speak, she obviously really loves her a bunch! with vriska no longer lost in the middle of the furthest ring, shes started to catch up with everything going on with earth-c, and i think shes really going to like being around! specially with how much june and the rest have missed her ;)

troublemaker extraordinaire herself! shes... well, shes vriska, im pretty sure she stole that eyepatch from sollux? so you just know she up to no good already >:/ speaking of her eyepatch, im not sure WHY shes wearing it? whatever kinda wound she got, she doesnt like mentioning it, despite bragging about defeating english at every chance she gets! terezi says they found her popping in and out of consciousness in the furthest ring with some messy wounds, and that shed probably been hovering out there after the fight for years... doesnt seem to have humbled her in the slightest <.<

callieeeee! theyre super sweet and wonderful but also really shy and awkward! they live with roxy but manage to outdo dirk in terms of shut-in-ness... they also totally like roxy but is unsure about approaching those feelings considering the whole species thing and whatever, ive been trying to get them to open up for a while now! weve written fanfic together and drawn grids, so i can definitely tell theres some attraction there, even if theyre afraid of acting upon it just yet <3

jaspie is roses bane, and the one cat that made me get used to their smell enough that i dont bark at them instantly anymore! im pretty sure she crashes at janes often, and is just as outgoing and flirty as i am around earth-c parties and bars, which is saying something honestly! i wont let her dethrone me as the party god, though >:)

and finally davepeta! theyre staying with june for the time being until they can get settled around and see what they want to do here! theyve also dropped by dave and karkats a bunch, which i most certainly dont mind! i definitely appreciate some help in bringing a romantic vibe into those twos lives~ ;o

and thats about it! theres also the nannasprites and tavrosprite and arquius, but they pop by so sporadically and rarely that i dont know what theyre doing a majority of the time... we lost track of gamzee after the session so hopefully hes totally gone, and we havent heard any message from caliborn in years... and with the furthest ring broken and the black hole sealed, leaving a weird white empty space right in the middle of reality, im not sure what our chances of bringing back the other trolls are :( but still, we keep living on happily over here and having our fun slice of life ending together!

id say after everything weve gone through, we deserve a big break, dont we? hehehe <3

also, particularly important events that happen and are recorded in this blog will be tagged as timeline shenanigans!

[ageminah]

Paper Love

It’s been a while....

so yeah I wrote like a BUNCH of stuff in the past weeks (months) but really wasn’t satisfied with ANY (like none--and I wrote a lot, like A LOT). So I just opened a new file and tried something else instead of trying to perfect something I knew I wasn’t gonna post... and this is what came out, I’m still not quite sure about it but you’ll let me know.

Oh and, I kinda got carried away, so its way too long to post all of it in oneshot, so I’ll probably post the rest in the coming days (unless it’s garbage, in that case well... I’m ready to cave for another couple of weeks) 

Oh and as always, try to get over my poor grammar skills (still not from an english speaking country)...thanks 

Without further ado...

     Ehri felt uncomfortable. With reasons. She was sitting by the far end of the table, an empty seat to her right, and another to her left. She was alone at the table’s end, while on the other side Nikolai was discussing with his advisors.

    They’d been engaged for a week, and she had only been introduced to very few people in the palace.

    No one was paying attention to her. It was for the best, she didn’t want to pay attention to them anyway. She silently got up from her chair, and left the room unnoticed. Or maybe they had seen, and chose not to care. She cast oe last glance to the room on the doorstep, no one noticed. And she left.

    Ehri was heading back to her rooms, when an out of breath servant paused and slightly bowed to her. « Y-Your highness, the rest of your belongings has arrived, it is in the king’s room. » then the young boy bowed again and left faster than he had arrived. The king’s rooms. Of course.

      The princess got to the rooms in question. She was his fiancée, so she had access, actually, most were probably under the impression that these were her rooms as well. But no. She hadn’t even asked. But Nikolai, just after they ‘engagement’ provided her with a room of her own.

    She’d been in the king’s room before. So she feigned indifference to the pretty moldings on the ceiling, the enormous fireplace, or the bed. The biggest one she had ever seen. She’d thought the country low on money, but this room screamed of wealth.

      Ehri hadn’t planned on carrying trunks of belongings back to her rooms, no. She knew exactly what was waiting for her. Her jewelry box. It was sitting on the night-stand. She took the wooden artefact in her hands and opened it. Her most precious valuable were in this small box. She put the box on a small table near the window, and took out her grand mother’s bracelet. It was truly a thing of beauty, all black silk embedded with the whitest, tiniest pearls drawing the body of a dragon. And a ring. Her grandfather’s. A silver ring, almost as wide as a knuckle, embedded with her family motto. She was to give it to her husband.

    A knock came on the door. Surprised, Ehri let the glorious jewel escape her slender, clumsy hands and it rolled under the bed. Raging, she headed for the door, only to be faced with a young guard. «Oh sorry your highness, I heard footstep inside and I thought that you were at the council meeting with the king».

« Your comrade did not inform you of my presence ? He was here when I arrived. » said Ehri irritated. The guard had obviously just begun his shift. She did’t wait for an answer, and closed the door. She crouched by the bed and looked beneath it. And she saw the ring. But something else too, and she stretched out her hand to get to it.

    And there it was, brown and folded. Carefully tied under the bed frame. Ehri had always been a curious girl. But she was no girl, she was queen. Or she would be, and she had the right to know what her husband to be wanted to hide from her. From everyone. King Nikolai had trapped her into this arrangement, so he owed her. She had…hurt his friend, in an attempt to kill him, but she was in unknown territory, and she knew, that information was the best currency at court. She got her ring, and took the envelop.

    She put the ring back in its box, and pocketed the piece of paper. She wasn’t stupid enough to stick around and read it within the king’s chambers. So she left, nodding to the guards on her way out. She noticed the speck of red on the one who had interrupted her, thinking she might have been some intruder.

    Back in her chambers, Ehri tied her ebony hair and locked the doors, and sat on her bed. The room was bright. The king had assigned her to the chambers the farthest from his own she thought. And wasn’t mad about it. It was all, white and gold, so different from home she often thought. She shook her head, trying to forget about home, and just unfold the letter she had just pocketed.

    Should she burn it? Tear it appart? Or just leave it laying around for someone to find and condemn the king for treason ? The princess was pacing, her heels hitting the floor upon each of her step, the only sound breaking the deafening silence of the room. Her fist was tightly clutched around the letter. She wanted to break something. What was the meaning of this? She knew, she wasn’t wanted here, nor did she want to be here, but this, this was an insult. And this country wanted her money ? No. She would give nothing if she was given nothing, damn her sister, she would rather face her than this humiliation. Ehri was no trophy, she would not just be there to look pretty.  

 She would not burn it. She had leverage, importance for the first time in this forsaken palace, she would hold on to it. And Ehri smiled as the knock on her door came. She knew the one named Genya was supposed to come and talk wedding with her. She unlocked her door « Come in » she said smiling.

                                                        ** ** **

    Genya practically raced out of the future queen’s rooms. To whom she should talk first? She was no idiot, Genya knew the Shu princess had left the document in sight on purpose. Genya spotted Zoya. The choice was made. She ran to her friend, and reached her out of breath. « Well Genya, I don’t think it’s the place or the time to jog, though I do appreciate you finally training for a change. » Genya gathered her breath, and took hold of her friend’s arm. Zoya raised her famous eyebrow, the one that made anyone lower their eyes, and stop everything they were doing. And in any other circumstances, Genya might’ve just done that. But she didn’t have time. « We are going to your rooms…now. » Said Genya, summoning every ounce of authority she had. Zoya smirked « Oh I’m flattered, but you’re not my type Genya, besides, I don’t want to fight with David. » Zoya thought she was joking. « Now. » repeated Genya.

     When they got there, Genya locked the door, and faced her friend. « Well, are you going to tell me what all of this is about now » said Zoya crossing her arms. She seemed irritated. But Genya hadn’t feared Zoya in a long time, she would not start again today. So Genya crossed her arms mirroring Zoya’s expression. « What happened with Nikolai when you two were away? »

« Are you joking » responded Zoya faking a laugh. « You will have to be more specific. »

« Playing the idiot doesn’t suit you Zoya. » Genya saw tension in her friend’s jaw. Zoya uncrossed her arms and took two step towards Genya.

« Nothing happened Genya. You know me better than that don’t you? » Zoya almost sounded hurt, or maybe Genya was dreaming. « So why don’t you tell me what’s gotten into you ? »

« Well…As you know, I was just speaking with our future queen. » Zoya nodded, still furious at her friend for her suspicions. « And the future queen found…Something »

« Saints Genya just spit it out, I’ve had my fill of dramatics, we’ve spent all morning with Nikolai didn’t we… So please indulge me and just say what you want to say. »

« I dont know how, or why she has it, I didn’t ask, actually I pretended not to see » Genya was rambling and Zoya was loosing patience. « There is a document, which staples that if Nikolai dies, with no heir, you will be in charge of the country. And it’s signed. » Zoya did not looked shocked. « Did you know about this ? » Said Genya, now mad.

« Yeah… But I thought that it would be destroyed by now. Especially after his engagement… »

« Is it just me you don’t seem phased about it at all? »

« Genya… He thought he was going to die. » said Zoya shaking her head « I’ll go and talk to him don’t worry about it. » Genya couldn’t figure out weather Zoya was mad at Nikola, or disappointed that the document had been found.

« Well do that, because our future queen is in possession of the said document, and if I were her, I would not be thrilled about it. »

« I’ll talk to him » she said, her voice low and promising. And she left.

                                                           ** ** **

    Nikolai was still in the council meeting room. By himself. Well not entirely, he did have glass of Brandy keeping him company. And a couple of guards posted by the doors. And one inside the room. Actually, he craved loneliness.

    The doors flew open and Nikolai jumped to his feet spilling his drink on the floor. The guard posted by the door jerked away, and meeting her eyes, he understood and fled the room. Her hand made a wave movement and the doors closed. Nikolai wished he could have followed that guard outside, seeing the look on her face, he really didn’t want to be here. Her death stare locked onto him. He wished to drown. To drown in blue, or in ebony black. « I know you didn’t agree with me during the meeting, but I truly think this is the best course of action… » started Nikolai

« Forget about that. » she ordered. « Ehri has it »

Nikolai sat lazily on his chair, and motioned for her to do the same. She stayed up. « And I supposed you’re gonna tell me what this is about » he sighed. He was usually the enigmatic one.

« Do you know what your wife found? » she asked him. He could tell she was furious. She wasn’t screaming, or blinking for that matter.

« To be. Wife to be, general. And I thought we’d agreed on the fact that I had no idea what you are talking about. » answered Nikolai in a sigh. He got back in his chair.

« Nikolai. » she warned, bringing her fist down on he table.

« Just tell me already, I’m tired of the guessing game » said Nikolai throwing his arms up. She threw a glance at the door, as if there was something she couldn’t say out loud.

« Well. Someone found it ».

« Zoya. » He warned, voice low and irritated. He hated to not understand. She was being enigmatic on purpose, she knew it irritated him.

« The document you signed. » she raised her eyebrows, and widened her eyes, as if to say something without saying anything. All it did was make her blue eyes bigger. And they did not need to be bigger. So much blue.

« You have to get it back and destroy it before she has the time to use it against you ». She continued. Nikolai knew what she was talking about now. And he was thankful. Thankful that she hadn’t asked him. Even if he could tell the question was burning her lips. He looked up, right, left, anywhere but her lips.

« Do you understand? She has the paper right now, in her rooms. So you get in there, snatch the document, and burn it, tear it apart, eat it, feed it, I don’t care, but make it go away. » She finally sat next to him, and gather her breath.

« Why would I eat it…or feed it for that matter » he asked, trying to release some pressure.

« Don’t get me started on the ‘Whys’ Nikolai » was all she said, staring right at him. He looked away, maybe he was blushing, or it was too hot in this room.

[vampexx]

I have tried a few times now to write this post but I just couldnt go forward with posting it, thinking its too personal...

But...here it goes...

I have always been a painfully shy, paranoid and self conscious person so being this open is really scary for me to say the least due to my struggles with confidence and self esteem...

And drawing has been something I did for as long as I can remember...and it was something that helped me growing up...

However, ever since high school in 10th grade, I have had almost all my drive and love for drawing drained from me from comparing myself to the other, "better," students in my art class and from my own art teacher who at first, in 9th grade, started as a somewhat positive influence but then the next year being really negative and rude.

I was the student that was told, "youre not done, go back to your seat, keep working," when going to my teacher for advice. When he said this, he would only glance at my work before turning me away. All while the other students received kind, positive and constructive criticism when I did not.

He even addressed me, out loud, in front of the class, regarding my low grade, saying, "the only reason you arent failing my class is because you did your homework last night."

For context: the homework assignment was some drawing exercises...and the reason my grade was low was because, it was towards the end of the year, I had completely given up on myself and my art so I didnt turn in a project. One, because I never cared enough to finish it and two, it was an act of rebellion on my part.

That was the first and only class where I actually had an F-....I didnt even know it was possible to get that low of a grade...but trust me, it is. My math grade was never even that low.

Now, this art class was something you had to submit a portfolio for it to be reviewed so these 2 art teachers could decide if you were accepted into this art program or not. (It was exoensive too, if I remember correctly, it was like $200 per semester, and I did this for 2 years).

And against my own self consciousness, while feeling like I was far less qualified than others, I challenged my self doubt and fear of rejection and tried out anyways...

And a few weeks later, I found out I was accepted. That moment went down as one my top, most proud moments. I was proud of myself for a change.

Only for that to change a couple years later...where the little pride and confidence I had left in not only myself, but my skills in art, just dropped so low.

On top of that, my academic grades while in this art program, were also dropping considerably due to the amount of stress I put myself through trying to meet everyone elses expectations and standards.

My painting and drawing teacher (the nice one, not the rude one) would encourage my love and skill for cartooning, charcoal and shading. My digital art teacher (the one who ended up being so rude to me in the following year), helped me realize my strengths in photoshop and with a tablet. He did praise me a few times, which did help, but it didnt last very long.

My downfall was the art class that I took in 10th grade, with my previous digital art teacher, which was "figure drawing." Basically, it was learning how to draw anatomy and being anatomically correct which I found out very early on, was not my strength....and it was the whole focus of the class for the entire year so I was screwed. My strengths were cartooning and caricatures, not anywhere near anything anatomically correct. I kean, I could draw a skeleton, but when it came to human figures and poses....I dont know why but I had a tough time. So that was the year that things really went downhill fast.

It just took the fun out of drawing and turned it into something that felt too forced.

However, in my experience with this class I learned something about myself that Im actually glad that I did...

Its that art is just a hobby for me. I learned that I hate drawing on demand, in a certain time frame, and drawing what someone else wants me to draw.

I want to draw only on my own terms and at my own pace.

I couldnt see that about myself because I was too concerned with everyone else and their skills in drawing.

A few years after I quit the art program, I really didnt draw all that much aside from little doodles and unfinished sketches on the edges of my homework and class notes. I didnt like anything that I drew anymore.

And when you lose love, drive and interest in something you were once so passionate about....it leaves a gaping hole in you. It makes you feel pointless, like there nothing special about you. Nothing that sets you apart from everyone else. It really is as depressing as it sounds.

I was lost.

However. I FELT FREE. I didnt have a constant reminder from several different people that I wasnt as good. No one to make me feel lesser than someone else. No one to put me down.

As a result, my academic grades improved back to As and Bs (excluding math in the 11th grade, I had like a D).

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And I realize now that maybe I didnt learn all of this the hard way for no reason. Maybe its to also help someone so they dont have to learn the hard way like I did. Or maybe, its to reach out to those have experienced the same or similar things as me so that they dont feel alone. So that they know that them and their skills are still very much valuable and valid.

Because everyone goes at their own pace, no two people are ever the same.

Anyone can be good at anything.

Now I didnt want this post to discourage anyone from taking or considering an art class. Please understand that my experiences are unique to myself. Art classes are actually very helpful as long as your surrounded by positive and encouraging influences.

Just remember to be careful. Respect yourself and your abilities. Be patient with yourself. Have faith in yourself, dont give up. And last, but not least, know your worth and what you deserve when it comes to treatment.

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Anyways, so up until a couple of years ago, I slowly started to get back into drawing.

I do love to draw, along with architecture and interior/ fashion design.

Im working to rediscover myself, even though I dont want to do it professionally...

So as I did years ago, I will challenge my self doubt again and try to put myself back out there.

So as anxietal as I am, I want to ask...

Would anyone be interested in seeing something I drew?

Might be an odd question and it might sound attention seeking but Im really just testing the waters....

I will add one little doodle I did the other day just to see....

I know its not that great and thats its nothing amazing but....its something Im proud of...however small it may be.

Im not sure how I feel when it comes to reposting...

I feel like I dont want people to repost it...

In case I ever feel like taking it down...

Idk.

Anyways....Im literally shaking Im so nervous...

But...Im trying to repair some old damage.

Have a miraculous day and thank you for your patience.

Again, please dont repost. At least until Im a little more comfortable.

Thank you

[chimeramoth]

i want to talk about something that really bothers me to the point that my eyes swell up with water

in overwatch, i hardly ever play dps because if i don't do well in one match, my team usually tells me to stop playing, uninstall, stop playing [dps character], go back to being mercy, etc. i used to be pretty bad at dps because my laptop just couldnt keep up with fast graphics or my mind won't move fast enough to get a target on time. but nlw that i have access to play on a nicer computer set up, i've practiced more and more dps to gain those skills. and i have gotten better! yesterday i played genji and did pretty alright, and tonight i played mccree and did very well! a little too well...

i was accused of using an aimbot. the opponents said that they even went back and watched their deaths, and i quote, "all he did was press a button and i died." (but...isnt that how...mccree's ult works?)

and this is so fucking upsetting because i have put so many hours into this game, YEARS, and it still my favorite game. its upsetting that ive worked so so so hard on gaining fps skills and when i finally feel the confidence enough to purposefully select a dps character, it's just all dismissed. it's no longer me playing a game and doing well and feeling great about my achievements and highlights.

it's an aimbot.

i dont even know where to get an aimbot, if I would just? google search one and install it? idk how to fucking install and apply one.

i just spend lots of time and practice and patience honing gaming skills, but it still just isnt enough. on the enemy team, the hanzo gave us a warning that he was a smurf account, and he "confirmed" i was using an aimbot. its so upsetting and frustrating man.

and like, yeah overwatch has been known for its toxic players in the chat

yeah, overwatch has been around for years and isn't as "hyped" anymore

yeah, youre not supposed to let othera get under your skin like that

but this has been my favorite game for years, one that's so special to me, ive come so far as a player

i want to cry man. it makes my heart stop to think, what if my account gets locked or banned or something because people reported it for an aimbot when i dont have anything like that installed. why would I want to ruin my account like that i dont ubderstand.

[haikyuu-scenarios-drabbles]

anonymous asked:  How would you feel about an Avatar AU? I’d love to see what element, or if a character is a non-bender, you feel would match your favourite characters in HQ!

oh-HO. i am unsure if you know that Avatar is one of my all-time favorite shows so when i saw this ask i was pumped!!! without further ado: i finally had some inspiration. i took this a bit farther than just my fav characters (i did as many as i could think of) and although i say in my rules i don’t do hc’s i felt this ask was best answered in that format so i did my best! i hope you enjoy 😁 im nervous as hell about headcanons 😬 some i have reasons for (serious or funny) and others i just...have a feeling 

special shoutout to my discord fam that i love so dearly and especially to @animelake13 and @justoverseas for helping me out 💕💕

Karasuno:

Daichi:

Alright with those thighs and that dependability?? Earthbender through and through

He is a rock solid, all-around player that holds Karasuno all together

he is their BASE, stable as fuck

he didn’t get those thighs from nothing he got them kicking around some boulders

didnt get those arms from nothing either, punching rocks out of mountainsides

Suga:

Waterbender for sure

Hello? Mr. Refreshing

Very calm and level-headed, but like Katara: DO NOT. FUCK WITH HIM.

He’ll fuck you up

again like Katara, mom friend, supporting the whole team, caring a lot about them and getting ready to fight and ready to jump in and help at a moments notice

Asahi: (Thanks Louie!)

ok so this boy was hard to decide bc, he’s a nervous bean but also the motherfuckin ace so he ain’t playin around

so i decided on earthbender because, he’s a big boi; a powerful and all-around player that has the respect of his teammates

and although he’s nervous, so maybe he doesn’t use earthbending to the extent of other benders but when he needs to, he will

and when he does it has impact and he is a pretty strong earthbender to boot

he can move fucking mountains when he wants to

member of the white lotus bc he only uses his immense power when he absolutely has to

noya: “asahi!! show us your bending”

asahi: “oh im not much of a bender”

MOVES A CONTINENT

Noya:

While my first instinct was firebender

the more i thought about it the more airbender made sense

air is the element of freedom and Noya is the definition of wild and free

not only that but his position too! airbending is almost purely defensive

sounds like our guardian diety to me

also can u imagine

Noya and Hinata racing like maniacs on air scooters

Daichi throwing up barriers all over the place to stop them but they just nyoom around them like obstacles

airbending is all about circles too and roooooolllliiiinnnng (hehe) thunder!!!

Tanaka:

alrighty well here is Karasuno’s firebender

Firebending is known for its intense and aggressive attacking style and literally

Tanaka yells like a maniac anytime he goes in for a spike

and firebenders can be hotheaded (dont have to be, Iroh for example) BUT say anything about Kiyoko, Karasuno or really anything and he’s ready to throw down

it might be all talk but he still gets fucking triggered

he fires up two flames in his palms and makes that face “ehhh what did you say about our lovely Kiyoko-san?!?”

Enno:

airbender

he has such patience and probably mediates or something 

or else he’d go crazy from Tanaka and Noya doing stupid airbender/firebender shit and burning down the entire town 

deals it out when he needs to, sometimes blowing Tanaka and Noya to opposite sides of the room and pinning them there until they calm the fuck down

anytime Tanaka gets too heated, Enno just shows up and blows out his fire 

Hinata:

ok so i kinda spoiled earlier

but airbender

i know airbending is defensive and Hinata sucks at that aspect, but his personality man, airbender all the way

again imagine him and Noya zooming on air scooters around

they would be a MENANCE

but also in the same sense, airbending is all about finding a way around the “normal” way of fighting (they refuse to harm anything is what i mean)

Hinata had to find his own way of fighting in volleyball and yeah…airbender  

possibly bc he’s a bit of an airhead too  

Kageyama:

WATERBENDER BUT WITH BLOODBENDING BACKGROUND

ok hear me out

he used to want to control people and make them do what he wants, otherwise get rid of them bc they’re useless and who needs ‘em

but then he meets this stupid, bounce off the walls, airbender who he doesn’t need to control bc this kid already does what he couldnt find in anyone else

and he slowly learns to stop using bloodbending, sometimes slips and lapses, but for the most part has left that part of him behind

also water is the element of change and Kageyama certainly goes through a major change in character throughout Haikyuu

everytime Hina and him fight, they make a snowstorm that nobody can stop and it pisses Tsukki off bc he can’t do anything about it

Tsukki: (props to Lake for this one)

tsukki why are you an enigma

nonbender and is a sword master 

with his ability to analyze and control, he would heckin destroy 

sword fights are a lot about watching your opponent and being able to make a quick decision to block or counter attack 

he can definitely make decisions at the drop of a hat and his strategies work and work well 

Yamaguchi:

THIS BOY

IS A WATERBENDER BUT SPECIALIZES IN HEALING

when Karasuno needs him most!!! he’s there!! ready to help and get his team back on his feet, in this sense by healing them

and also like Suga, mirroring Katara, don’t fuck with him. especially when it comes to Tsukki

AGAIN like Katara/Suga, mom friend, there to support all the time and bust in and help when needed

More teams under the cut!

Aoba Johsai:

Oikawa:

so there’s a bit of a trend here i see

but Oikawa would also be a waterbender, i guess it’s a setter thing

water is the element of change and Oikawa adjusts his setting style and approach for each of his team members to bring out the best of them

waterbenders let their defense become their offense turning their opponents own forces against them which i think fits Oikawa to a T

can make ice spikes he can throw long distances with scary accurate precision

like, one can just zip past your ear, and you dont see him anywhere where tf is he?!

Iwaizumi: 

i couldn’t decide between firebender and earthbender

so i went with the lovely mix, lavabender 

just like Toph, Iwa shows his affection through some sort of violence, but thats just cause he cares a lot

oikawa has mastered the art of distinguishing flaming hunks of smoldering rock thrown at his face

also stubborn unmoving like a rock

and when he gets heated, he is fired up

and finally, arms. where did he get ‘em? throwing boulders around. 

Shiratorizawa:

Ushijima:

metalbender, bc he’s definitely an earth bender but there’s something special about him

he’s a little dense (ok maybe not a little)

Earthbenders are generally muscular, tough and direct AND HELLO. thats Ushijima in a nutshell 

Tendou:

our guess monster is definitely a non-bender

like ty lee specializes in chi-blocking 

he can disrupt someones chi pretty easily making them completely helpless 

sometimes he does it to be funny 

like make Ushi’s right arm useless for a day 

and Ushi is like “Tendou. I don’t use that arm anyways.” 

“i knoooooooow Wakatoshi thats the point!”

which for some reason Tendou thinks is hilarious cause now he really cant use it 

Semi:

firebender

mainly bc of his hotheaded and competitive behavior 

his desire to show his abilities in his words is “uncontainable” and that kind of made me think of Azula 

wants to show off and be the best 

Shirabu:

so although Shirabu is also extremely hot-headed, he hits me as a waterbender too 

maybe just because every single setter so far has been a waterbender but its just my gut feeling 🤷

Nekoma:

Kuroo:

firebender but can lightning bend

dont ask me why it just seems right

he has the concentration and flow it takes to lightning bend, i mean he has that whole speech he gives to his team before every game 

“We're like the blood in our veins. We must flow without stopping. Keep the oxygen moving and your mind working.” 

and while this may lead to possibly thinking he could be a waterbender, he uses his knack for fluid motion and deceptive strength for a different purpose

not only can he lightning bend, he can redirect lightning which takes an immense amount of skill and is drawn from waterbending techniques

maybe its also the hair cause it looks like he got hit by lightning

Kenma:

ill be honest, i dont think Kenma would be a bender

what he would be ilike is Sokka, super smart, the strategizer, the man with the plan

who people look to for the next step, the brain of the operation

and i dont think he’d necessarily have a speciality besides overwhelming ability to observe and make decisions

so basically…he’d be the same LOL

Yaku:

earthbender

being small (dont kick me Yaku) means nothing (uhh have you seen Toph?)

super dependable and not gunna take anyone’s shit

Yamamoto:

Tanaka’s counterpart

his homeboy

his fellow firebender

both ready to throwdown at a moments notice

Fukurodani: (wow i suck i dont know anyone well enough but these two)

Bokuto:

did someone say airbender??

i just keep imagining he was the one to teach Hinata the air scooter and they fuckin zoom around while Bokuto is hollering at the top of his lungs

his hair already looks winblown, like he just stepped off his glider and doesn’t bother to fix it

also im cackling bc airbenders prefer evasive manuevers and…i keep thinking about that time he ran away from a block and Akaashi called him out for it

Akaashi: (ily Lake for helping)

so apparently setters are waterbenders

bc this boy is definitely one

he has nice fingers (weird i know) but i can see him just making these beautiful hand motions to bend water and hnngg yes

ok but in a more real way, waterbenders have strong fluid motion and understand those around them, they believe in very strong connections between individuals 

so even when Bo is out of the game, Fukurodani doesn’t fall apart because they have strong connections and can survive without him 

[didsomeonesayventus]

ESSAY TIME I love a ship please come hang out w/ me on this dinghy or like. dont because fates is awful and I can’t blame u for dodging that bullet but i just wanna scream because i love them and they’re the fixation rn so 321 GO

i cant blame anyone for not really seeing this because their support is. Ok. Its alright. Not amazing, it’s serviceable, better options are out there in fates I'll concede. Corrin has like. At least 3 other love interests who feel more canon LMAO but this isn’t about them

It's more from elsewhere in their characterization that really made me adore them and, as I mentioned in tags, a lot of this comes from how I write them which. Is largely filed under rp stuff right now but more ramble time on how i write them i guess dont forget to mark your free bingo space for throwing out large swaths of fates canon and writing.  Also we're scooting their canon support gently to the side because it’s ok it’s not the most offensive writing this nightmare scrap heap of canon has to offer but a massive missed opportunity.

PART 1- One (1) Corn, With a Side of Emotional Neglect

*makes vague gesture at Disney's Rapunzel* Corrin would have been so much better recieved if the devs just took some notes from you instead of writing such a flat character i swear.

Corrin in particular with how I write her is getting a pretty massive rework in the emotionally stable department because honestly I don’t believe she would be. like. She's not dumb, but she is naive, important distinction, and it ends up coloring her views a lot and I have a ramble on that over here on the inverse graph that is Corrin’s confidence but to dissect where her attitudes came from:

Her family was limited to visits, and she has been directly/implicitly blamed for this for roughly a decade and a half, at least a decade, by not being an insane king's definition of strong enough to be with them. Bad memory makes her frail, swordsmanship isn’t up to par, doesn’t seem to offer much else in terms of skills unlike Xander, a Certified Badass(tm), Magic-oriented Leo and Elise, and Magically gifted but just plain ruthless Camilla. She’s held at arm’s length from her family, and while her siblings may have always loved her and expressed that love as often as they could, they’re not always there or a good yardstick to measure her progress with, and she had to always watch them go and likely wonder when they would come back, or if they even would.

As for our beloved butler and maids, being surrounded by servants was probably her most constant and consistent source of contact, and she does love them, but it can be very easy to wonder if they love her because they do or because it's their job to.

Corrin's faith in everyone around her and unwavering trust is there because any sort of doubt is basically redirected to. her. Because she is the dumbass who's still figuring the world out. She's hyper aware she's still learning and making naive decisions and she overcompensates that with "well what do I know" and not feeling really all that worthy to be Special Protagonist. She doubts herself before almost everything else.

Brief mention of Dragon arc because fates was dumb and neglected an entire arc for dragon feelings beyond chapter 5 and foreshadowing for Dad(tm) but I also write in an arc of the Dragon Is A Metaphor For Loving Yourself Faults And Trauma And All Love Yourself And You Can Control Yourself Dammit.

*Corrin hurt herself in her confusion!*

The way I write Corrin is not nearly as put together and confident as Canon™️ Corrin is, at least for a good chunk of the plot. She fakes it till she makes it because she is a leader and being mopey will not get things done but she’s also very self critical and mopey on the inside and quite paranoid that people don’t actually like being around her and just. ball of stress and anxious hidden under Many a uwu that she doesn’t want to talk about because why should she complain her childhood wasn’t That Bad and if she’s mopey how can she set a good example and people don’t like debbie downers and look its fine its fine lmao

PART 2- Mr. Perfect

As for Mr. Subaki he puts a lot of time and effort into looking perfect. I emphasize that because he may very well have natural talent, but honestly it feels like a large amount of his perfection is just. Stressing himself out by planning for and rehearsing everything possible! God this anxious idiot I love him!!! He's sociable and agreeable, but I think with basically everyone it’s. Skin deep. He’s charismatic Enough, and he digs a bit into the other’s history and personality if he’s interested, but he never really lets the other reciprocate like a magician never revealing his fraudulent secrets.

Biggest problem with that is he can't open up and vent because that is to admit a flaw and no no cant have that we cannot have that so he's just. Not sure who to turn to and has trouble being emotionally honest- even to himself. He just! Doesnt let himself have fun or relax; all perfect all the time baby. There’s basically no one who he could consider a close and trusted friend who can love him flaws and all. The closest would be Sakura and Hana and welp. gotta keep things professional and it’s not like Hana really expresses a sense of understanding and patience when they’re fiercely competitive with each other.

There’s probably a lot of muttering to his pegasus while he’s cleaning her hooves or braiding her mane, or staying up late thinking about how narrowly disaster was and wasn’t avoided that day but he. Also doesn’t really vent and also feels that imposter syndrome of “I’m honestly awful how did I even make it here.”

and it stinks because I think at his core he is a very sweet and caring guy and a massive dork, but he just plops himself on the edge of a pedestal and gives himself no room to be himself or anything less than perfect and is likely on the cusp of impending burnout.

you dumb anxious idiot i have S-Ranked you every fucking time I open this godforsaken game I didn’t even fucking plan for this

PART 3- (Patrick Warburton impression) “Oh yeah, it’s all coming together.”

So our characters and stage are set. We got FE Fates (I’ll default to Rev), we got my views when writing these two, so what next? What is the general plot I imagine since we’ve gently scooted aside the canon support chain?

The dumbasses-to-be think they’re out of each other’s league.

For Subaki, it is plot-irrelevant background character falling in love with the protagonist, which yields the exact sort of pining you’d imagine: man you are super cool and hit all my standards but I’d be dreaming if you felt the same about me. She’s sweet, she takes charge, she can fight for herself well enough, has he mentioned she’s sweet? He can actually relax a bit around her which is really odd but I guess that’s what happens when your personal skill is literally called “Supportive”. Oh yeah and also his Lady’s older sister which oof. Sakura? In law???? Hinoka in law???? Takumi in law?????????? ryoma in law oh gods.

For Corrin, it’s Mr. Prince Charming right there and he’s very nice and Sakura is saying so many nice things about him but wow she’s. a princess from a country that has consistently terrorized his and on top of that might a well have been raised under a rock!!! And she picks up details and nuances in people remarkably well, but she overthinks them. She can pick up that Subaki- while very polite and friendly -isn’t being entirely forthcoming about what he’s thinking or feeling, but she can’t pin down exactly what it is, and makes the educated guess that he's just being nice because she’s Sakura’s sister or something.

And they’re friendly. They help each other out a bit. There’s tension, sure, but no one really comments on it (except for everyone making bets in the bg). They don’t really yield on their internal messes because Corrin knows she’s a leader and can’t really do that and distracts herself with believing in everyone around her, Subaki just flat out would rather do literally anything besides admit he’s messed up anywhere or open up. So feeling are put on a low simmer for awhile.

Of course they fall in love, and it almost gets messed up because when Subaki requests to talk with her in private to confess, she immediately assumes he’s going to tell her that he’s not interested. Her simmer roars into a boil because she’s been under Protagonist Stress ON TOP OF having a crush she’s confident won’t be reciprocated, so she snaps quite a bit because that has all been shoved in a bottle and she just wants to get the mess over with if he’s just going to tell her very nicely that her company is lovely but hes not interested it hurts a lot to think that but its fine you don’t have to settle.

But the thing is being emotionally vulnerable like that, pointing out she’s scared too of always not being enough and living up to expectations, to finally get that off her chest, spurs him into it, too. Because she gets it. She honest to god gets it even if she bought into the lie he’s perfect she understands. Oh, yeah, she also reciprocates feelings that’s really excellent too. Like Subaki probably makes a lot of fuss about a bunch of ultimately meaningless details and having “standards” and yadda yadda gods help whatever poor soul asks him to pull out the list of traits of his ideal partner, but I think at the end of the day if he’s looking for love most of all, like a lot of people he just wants someone who he can just. be himself around. Who likes it when he’s being himself!

And they both learn that yeah maybe they’re more flawed than they’ve been lead to believe, but it starts to not matter at all because they still try really hard and everyone makes mistakes. They’re both here to say it’s ok your best is enough, YOU are enough. They both think they’re amazing regardless of their mistakes and love to see each other smiling and succeeding and just make. a nice little bubble of comfort. They’re stubborn and supportive, they learn how to poke and prod the bad moods away be it making a nice cup of matcha and talking it out or laughing at a tiny, meaningless mistake and repeating it to keep that feeling of dread away. Also they both spoil their partners regardless of who they end up with you can’t @ me on that they both do it which means guess what mega spoil time. And long hair on both just means they can braid each other’s hair no problem... waaaaaa.... Also early rise Subaki and late rise Corrin so there’s always a sleepy fight in the morning because UGH this is early you keep saying i’ll get used to it but im not i need a kiss first if you want me to be up this early. Subaki is better at logic and planning than Corrin, and Corrin keeps things optimistic and has a good gut for when to take an improvised risk. They’re always swapping places on who’s holding the other back from a fight that isn’t worth it because some asshole insulted the other, they mediate each other and will fight anyone who even harms a hair on the other’s head. They give and they give back and they work together perfectly.

And when it comes to the kids that bubble expands and they make sure they all have the tools to just take a deep breath and remember it’s okay Mama and Papa love you so much and you’re going to be amazing no matter what you do. Corrin’s got the best stories to tell and Subaki tucks the blankets in just right. They’re good parents with a lot of patience and plenty of mental health wisdom which is good because, as my mom would say, “bad brain chemistry is my bad”.

Like UGH I love them. I love them a lot. A good chunk of this is me making canon better thank me fates devs

Part 4- Katie All of This is Out of Your Noggin What About Canon

(DBZ abridged vc) WHAT ABOUT CANON but ok here have some canon quotes

“The two spent the rest of their lives together. Corrin ruling as the wise Queen of Valla. Subaki adapted quickly to royal leadership and became a great source of support for his wife. “ - Revelation route ending

“I feel like the pressure's off when I'm with you. I don't have to be perfect.” “You'll never be lonely as long as I'm around. Just call me and I'll come running.” - Friendship bonding quotes but also consider waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

“This might sound corny, but I think you're my soulmate.” - What he says when he is married to you and yes that is corny and its perfect

hot spring is dumb fanservice BUT if you can get the good RNG to get them both in there   “A shared bath warms not just my bones, but my heart as well.” “I-I suppose so...I just wonder if it's right to be so happy...” (emphasis mine) IT ABSOLUTELY IS BE HAPPY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

also one of his quotes when u stop by your quarters is  "Ah, welcome home, dear. Kick off those shoes and relax. You're with me now!" and you absolute himbo your wife doesn’t fucking wear shoes!!!!!!!!!

Part 5- I’m done I’ve yelled into the void good night enjoy a ship please be excited for the fic I have on the backburner that I will get out there one of these days but I want it to be perfect so RIP me I guess