#but like ... id rather have none than like -that-

[positivelyadhd]

i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.

not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.

and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.

[ganondoodle]

the idea of playable zelda in itself is really cool, but then i think of how her 'type' of character typically gets animated/sounds/treated and i just shrivel up inside

the only way id accept if it was like fromsofts way of doing it, which is there is literally little to no difference no matter who you play as, but we all know nintendo would never lol

[livingdeadvamp]

Crazy how the people accusing Palestinians of being scammers do fucking nothing else to help them! It's almost as if they're just looking for an excuse to be racist and ignore people suffering in a genocide :O

[sammygender]

im new here- is dean abusive?

imo yeah. smarter people than me have written dissections of the way he treats sam & others (he’s also Awful to his psuedo-son jack, but i haven’t gotten to that season yet), i’ve probably reblogged a bunch of them.

he certainly doesn’t mean to be & i don’t say it to condemn him as a person or as a character & i’m still very attached to him & he loves sam very much (not that that makes a difference in whether u abuse someone or not) - but the way he treats sam a lot/some of the time is emotionally abusive and sam is clearly badly impacted. s4 and s8 come to mind as his worst moments also ofc moc era - after that there’s less interpersonal conflict (up to where i am at least) but that’s because sam mostly stops disagreeing with dean not because dean actually gets much better <3 spn is cycles of abuse show after all. family is hell. dean’s learnt pretty much everything about how to behave from his abusive father and as a result. well. cycle continues

[trans-leek-cookie]

Thinking about geto because I want to pour milk on him and throw him against the wall. Imo his beliefs are inconsistent and self serving (which makes sense because he developed said beliefs at age 16/17 while his mental health was at an all time low). Because while he seems to have the primary motive of "only sorcerers = no curses" taking into account how he treats Maki, who has no cursed energy, it shows that the "no curses" thing isnt the main focus- bc while he decided on tbe "forced evolution" thing, theoretically he should not be Opposed to ppl w heavenly restriction bc. They still fuckin. Don't contribute to curses from what I can tell. Also heavenly restriction is pretty obviously something that is punished by uh. Is it just the Zenin's who have it. Anyway they hated Maki and they Hated Toji so he clearly isn't standing for "oppressed sorcerers" bc if so Maki should be like. The kind of person he wants to help more, as someone who would be oppressed by ppl who aren't sorcerers as well as the powerful clans.

Anyway. While getting rid of curses is for sure part of his motivation, as well as helping sorcerers (see Nanako and Mimiko) id honestly argue that his main problem that lead to him spiraling was. How do I put this. Being knocked off a pedestal

Because he was one of 3 people given the ranking of "Special Grade", and he and satoru are grouped as "the strongest". And consider that satoru comes from a powerful clan and literally has some weird omniscience and invincibility shit going on so that's a whole fucking. That's gotta be a wild ego boost, especially for someone who comes from a family of ppl who aren't sorcerers. Like you spend all this time being a fuckin weirdo and then someone finds you and it turns out you're actually incredibly special and strong, given the same rank as a fucking God Child? You're gonna have some wild self perceptions after that

Anyway then you get to watch your invincible friend get stabbed, watch the girl you became friends with and feel shitty about kinda ruining the life of get shot, and get your whole shit rocked by some guy who can't even use the magic power bullshit you have. (Though he's got a whole physical thing going on because of the trade off)

Also writing all of this out actually makes me understand the Cult Leader progression more, like besides the fact they killed ur friend and you want em dead. You're probably struggling with your ego (especially since your weird God like friend got a whole power boost from the situation) so you create a fucking eugenicist cult where you can consistently prove your superiority to yourself (surrounding yourself with people who will agree with everything you say).

Anyway in a similar vein I wholely believe in "a loving father is not inherently a good father" Suguru + Nanako & Mimiko dynamic

Final thought is roughly I feel like looking at Suguru thru the lense of "this character had a level of privilege that they felt they truly deserved, and after experiencing events that are genuinely traumatic and horrific for any person, they develop reactionary beliefs to try and regain a sense of superiority and control" rather than "oppressed minority who killed oppressors and wants to do eugenics"

[mustymausoleum]

moodboard rn uwu screams

[boyswanna-be-her]

Life must be so weird without menstruation. What’s it like NOT spending one week every month not only being INCREDIBLY uncomfortable but also battling intrusive thoughts like “i dont want to die i just hate being alive!” and “i wish i could be a bug just a little insect with no thoughts i fucking hate being human” and then when the week is over you’re totally back to normal and cannot relate to the creature you became for a short while.? Couldn’t be me.

[tseecka]

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[nerice]

angry again. (wrist anger)

[orchideius]

if my life doesn’t get better in two years, I think I will join the 27 club lollll

[yousignedupforthis]

Why are there rumours of tour dates today is this anything meaningful or just random wishful thinking

[yuribalisms]

One of my biggest pet peeves are my coworkers who work in different departments getting sent back to mine and saying shit like “oh I could NEVER do your job I just have the WORST adhd I would go insane it would KILL ME you are SO LUCKY you don’t have adhd while trying to do this miserable awful terrible fucking job uwu” meanwhile I’m standing there glaring at them, with my adhd that is so debilitating I have been cautioned against ever living by myself, and against going back to school without extreme accommodations, having worked this job for almost a year 🙃 like how about you uuuhhhhh shut the fuck up

[stardial]

i know its pay what you will, but i don't want to be rude by lowballing. what range would you suggest for the new worm set?

id say a fair price for those who can afford it is at least 25 usd? i generally prefer if the price per pic/vid is at least 1-2usd, but since my latest sets have been so big it kinda adds up to a lot, so i don’t expect as much 😅

[britneyshakespeare]

Norton Anthology of Doin Your Mom

[salsflore]

excited for cooking club in 2 days ^_^ my junior & i discussed a bit in dms abt the ingredients we'd bring and we have like 9/10 ingredients but idk how the fuck i am to bring eggs n shit. if they crack in my bag....

[itsanit]

Someone needs to draw and/or write about my characters bc I'm sure as shit not gonna