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woolandcoffee · 1 year

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#woolly rambles #very extremely accidentally managed to spoil my partner's proposal plans this weekend and i couldnt feel any lower 🫠#i very off-handedly guessed a key part of it and i've been kicking myself ever since #he was so disappointed #and like we're fine he's rallied and is going to come up with something else #and has even said he was okay with changing it because hes told a few of our friends #and was thinking of switching to a plan that only he knew #but i still feel like shit about it #it feels like being a kid who accidentally ruined a game you didnt know the rules to and now everyone is upset #and you didnt mean to do it #and wouldnt have done it if you had Known #and you cant blame the other kids for being upset because you did very much ruin the game #i know its all going to be fine and everything will sort itself out #but right now i feel horrible about it #like tearing up at the airport as i type this feel horrible about it #trying to tell myself that big events like weddings always have whoopsie moments like this that feel devastating but actually are fine #and that this blip is just us getting that moment out of the way early #but idk if its working #hoping that spilling my feelings into the tags of a tumblr post will help #also very much may delete this later #i really do suck at the elaborate social rituals

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hansoeii · 1 year

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I'm very much not normal about loki and mobius right now

#the way I fully expected the show to just have them act like good ol' buddies #but instead they gave us extremely touchy mobius like that man couldn't let him go for a second #then LOKI ALMOST CONFESSING APPARENTLY???#Mobius not caring about getting his skin ripped off cos all the cares about is his loki being alright #AND THEN THEM FALLING ON TOP OF EACH OTHER??#And no mention of the selfcest kiss either and showing how sylvie just wants a normal little life????#Feels like they're pretending that romance never happened and I'm hoping it stays that way #Anyways I'm so not okay right now like homy shit #This is either the greatest romance ever or another horrible queerbait added to the list #Loki #Loki season 2 #Loki season 2 spoilers #Lokius #Loki spoilers

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aroaceleovaldez · 11 months

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Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?''#and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus #but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3''#and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to''#only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it #and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book #Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out''#Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.''#''this has been so bad for my health''#Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested.#Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him''#Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him.#and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE #though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it.#he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure''#nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards.#which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for

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bonefall · 16 days

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Bones someone did a "Worst Parents" poll over on Twitter and it's going about as well as you'd expect.

"God people will do anything to hate on mentally ill male characters" and it's the guy who hits and yells at his son.

"Crowfeather's only crime was being a bit mean" hitting and humiliating your son= bit mean.

Yes these are things I've actually read

I'm not saying Curlfeather (who was pitted against him in the poll) is better or worse than Crowfeather, but I've seen a lot of people downplaying his abuse towards Breezepaw and acting like people are crazy for thinking Curlfeather was better

It's really wild to see it in action, isn't it? When a dad manipulates (Po3 book 2) and smacks his son (Po3 book 3) for absolutely no benefit besides his own ego, it's "mental illness" and ergo not a big deal. As if they think mental illness is a get-out-of-jail free card for child abuse.

The "Crowfeather Mental Illness" Crowd couldn't HANDLE the kind of mentally ill characters that I stan. They are weak and will not survive the winter.

When they say "stop being mean to boys with a disorder" they mean "stop holding an abusive father accountable for teaching his son slurs so he could get back at the ex-girlfriend who dumped him." When I say "stop being mean to boys with a disorder" I mean that I want to give Breezepelt a gun so he can enforce it himself. We are not the same.

#bone babble #Curlfeather's an interesting conversation for 'bad parents' though and imo one of the best examples to discuss #Because she's so much more nuanced than the common mode of WC child abuse #She never physically hurt her child nor did she emotionally belittle her #But she did manipulate her. She did put her into a position of power. And I'm not a hypocrite like certain Hawkfrost stans--#--I think that is very damaging and Frostpaw's feelings are valid and understandable #Curlfeather died one of the most graphic and horrible deaths in the entire series for her child. But... that doesn't fix what she did.#I wish that the books were able to capture the complicated feeling that Frostpaw could be feeling about her mother right now though.#Crowfeather though he was a piece of shit #no ifs ands or buts #he was just Bad and the conversation is HOW bad #fennelposting

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beautifulterriblequeen · 1 month

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Horrible new theory about Runaan's shirt today.

-no, not the new one, the one he lost-

He's still got his green assassin shirt here on the balcony, and vest too:

But by the time Gren is thrown into the dungeon a couple days later, it's missing.

Runaan's also sporting bags under his eyes because he'd been kept awake all night, enjoying Viren's frustrations about losing Harrow and also getting denied the crown of Katolis.

So. About that missing shirt.

I can't think of too many things worse for a guy who wears four shirts at once than to have them all taken off while he's badly hurt and manacled to the wall, and then be tickled half to death all night long, on his birthday.

#tdp theory #tdp angst #runaan #tw torture #tdp spoilers #i thought i was done getting horrible details about the dungeon torture but nooOOOoo #claudia looks guilty in the second pic too #she knows #imagining her chopping up a leaflynx and setting its ear fluff on a tray for her dad to use on his prisoner alongside other fun ingredients #okay gnight dad have fun torturing the elf. he deserves it!#and now she has to remember what she's done and she's not enjoying those memories #tbh i can see why she is drawn to aaravos #he tells her everything she's done was right and correct and she shouldn't feel guilty for any of it #WHEW what a relief huh terry it's all okay i've done nothing wrong ever in my life i'm golden #terry: babe i do love you but maybe let's try this one again #final thought: if runaan stays awake all night on his birthday it should be for sexier reasons than dungeon tickle torture okay #runaan was already broody but the man may never laugh again now

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black-and-yellow · 4 months

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bacchuschucklefuck · 4 months

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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

#not art #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit #kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it #until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it #until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her #but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs #she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying #probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone #lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear #Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked #but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now #yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc #man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet #and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out #lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help #it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around #but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever #its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous #its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot #yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry #doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it #ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking

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puckpocketed · 6 months

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Special thanks to @oensible my avocado dip my watermelon dish soap my vinyl sticker collection for the Iain S. Thomas quote <3

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vegaseatsass · 2 months

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You know, these past two episodes I was thinking to myself, Su Yin is almost perfect in every way, simply the ideal devoted, protective, loyal, dedicated sworn brother, call him Da-ge indeed!!!, but my one piece of constructive criticism is that he needs to learn how to give real hugs - he does a lot of manful shoulder clasping, but Xiaobao is a shivering chihuahua desperately in need of cuddles and body heat, you gotta HUG THAT BOY - but now I see that Su Yin's hugs are simply reserved for his horrible little gremlin of an imperial cousinwife.

#myatb #myatb spoilers #meet you at the blossom #lol jinbao zhaocai and su yin are all canonically part of xiaobao's nuclear family...#and all of them get horrible boyfs of their very own!#no sibling rivalry needed! husband destroyers for all #(zhaocai i'm manifesting this for you offscreen dw you're still included)#shaoyu thinks he's in a palace drama and xiaobao is the lowly concubine he can trample all over to his indomitable empress #baby you're not empress yet. wait for emperor your cousin to marry you first... or i guess to become emperor yourself if that ever happens #anyway i am making a micro post instead of trying to capture all the things i've been loving about these episodes #but i REALLY REALLY LOVE THIS SHOW!!!#i hate when the episodes end! give me more right now!!!#jinbao is number one at serving!!! of course random men would immediately want to possess him - he gets it!!!!#and ep7 but xiaobao is obvi very preoccupied by his whump but relieved madam jin at least is still thinking of her daughter as family #and i appreciate that su yin despite being so obvi in love w/ xiaobao isn't actually interested in forcing him to not feel what he feels #for huaien. he just wants him to be well. will he be angry when xiaobao hops right back into this guy's arms in a few weeks? idk!#but for right now it's nice to see him nonjudgmentally assuring him he doesn't have to magically stop feeling things for this guy #oh and xiaobao like 'i will be good from now on. i will just sit depressed in my room.' OWWIE #and practicing looking cheerful for his mom and dad in the mirror. OWWIE OWWIE!!!#dear diary

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pjharvey · 1 month

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seeing someone with a pride flag bracelet plug her ears and roll her eyes when the names of murdered palestinian children are read outside a DNC convention By A Palestinian is next level evil i’m not reblogging the video bc it doesn’t feel productive and i don’t like having things on my blog that make me angry but wow i hope an anvil falls on her head

#i actually can’t even fathom how horrible it probably feels to be a palestinian american right now #with how many people who think they’re progressives but have decided your people are the one group they don’t care about #obviously even worse to be actually in gaza but lots of the palestinian diaspora have family still there #and imagine having members of ur community very openly value the lives of ur family less than almost every other group of people on earth

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front-facing-pokemon · 8 months

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#something is very obviously different about these two compared to my normal images on this blog. i acknowledge this #also the sv model is Really good. and since they always stare straight at the camera anyway… and no one pays attention to the background…#and the only high-quality phantump model i could find was so horribly shiny that its eyes were just white voids #in my defense‚ phantump always just stare straight at you in game #the lighting is different‚ yeah. that's probably the dead giveaway. beyond the background. but like. i'm the only being on the planet who #really likes phantump anyway. i feel like it's a generally forgettable pokémon to most folks #phantump #HELLO this one is a weird one. i have some explaining to do. so when i did this one i didn't know how to edit models really at all #and when i got the models for these‚ the xy models were super shiny. shiny to the point that it made their eyes fuckin invisible #and i decided that since you could barely tell it was phantump‚ i needed a different way to get these images #i remembered that in the SV dlc‚ every time you find a wild phantump‚ it just fucking. stares. at you. and i was like. aha #i kinda remembered because of the test stream that i did. tumblr user alligayytorr (am i getting the right amount of Ys) said #“haha i am getting a sneak peek” when i zoomed the camera in on a phantump. and i remembered that. and i was like. i can utilize this #and ended up using just an in-game screenshot of SV in replacement of the regular content. later on‚ after that #once we got into gen 7 and it became less and less reliable to find models‚ i had to learn how to edit them manually to remove the shine #i am a software dev. not a 3d modeler. this ended up coming down to editing the code of the models directly (which i ended up writing a #script to automate). now‚ today‚ january 22nd (the day of me writing these tags and updating this post)‚ i remembered this post was in the #queue and was not normal. so i went back‚ ran the script on the phantump and trevenant models‚ and unshinified them #then edited these two posts to be normal. i have left the original pictures i took under the cut for reference and as bonuses #because i really enjoy phantump. so that's why those images are there‚ and that's why these tags are here #just for posterity's sake‚ the folks who come here mostly for my commentary‚ i've left the ORIGINAL tags of the post when i initially #made it with the SV pictures up at the top (i wanted to rearrange them‚ but tumblr makes that Very difficult‚ so i left them as-is)#so if these tags are confusing to read i Apologize. but i hope now that you're at the bottom you understand what happened #i'm gonna go edit the trevenant post now

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syn0vial · 6 months

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why did no one tell me that the last unicorn is metal af.

like,

#the last unicorn #feeling crazy right now #i thought this was going to be like. PTA-mom-approved coming of age story about a unicorn who gets turned into a princess and falls in love #this is absolutely not what i was expecting and i'm delighted #i love how the harpy is set up as this horrible malicious entity who the sweet kind unicorn must escape before it gets free #but no! as the unicorn says ''oh‚ you are like me!''#and leaps for joy to see the harpy set free to take bloody revenge on its captors #you are like me. i am like you. we are both forces of nature that are the reckoning of all that attempt to contain us.#the unicorn is immortal. do not run from anything immortal.

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iodotsys · 9 months

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So. Remember those ZaDR pictures some of the ETF artists did that were floating around?

Yep. Redraw.

Have seme Zim and uke Dib everyone.

Here's the ref:

https://www.tumblr.com/darklilythe-dark/185819174695/darklilythe-dark-so-apparently-this-happened

compilation of this uh. stuff

#invader zim #dib membrane #zadr #my hands feel cursed right now #i have never drawn something more horrible in my life #i hate everything about this #my art #reluctantly

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crimeronan · 1 month

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[guy who is currently desperately procrastinating getting in the shower despite being in a lot of pain and discomfort that the shower would fix voice] i just think hunter should wash luz's hair. and also snuggle her. in a clean bed. where neither of them are itchy at all.

#toh #horrible mindscape trauma pals #i'm in Hell right now. i can feel every inch of flesh on my back and hips because it's all crawling with infection and pain #and i could solve it with about a half hour of dedicated cleaning and scrubbing in the shower #but the AMOUNT OF ENERGY. THAT A HALF HOUR OF DEDICATED CLEANING AND SCRUBBING TAKES....

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alaiis · 4 months

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The far right scored 40% in France for the European elections. We're the second country with the most seats. And many other countries have the far right leading too. This is a catastrophe.

Because of tonight's results, President Macron decided to dissolve French Parliament. We're called to vote again in 21 days. The left is scattered and all parties have suffered an incredible defeat today. The only result of these new elections will be to give majority to the far right in the French Parliament too. We'll have a neo-capitalist president governing with a far right prime minister.

I don't know why he chose to dissolve. Like the entirety of the left, I hate Macron. He's been conducting the cruelest class warfare and the bourgeoisie received several victories thanks to him. But I still prefer his majority to a far right majority. He called himself the shield against the far right. It was already hypocrisy and I've been saying for a long time his policies were just giving power to the fascists. Now he's literally doing it.

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southernreaches · 2 months

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autism and by extension special interests are bad actually because my ass cannot stop getting defensive about things i am passionate about. even against jokes. i'll eat you alive for no reason at all about a thing i'd kill a man over i am that passionate

#fray.txt #there is no fray i am just my special interests in a trenchcoat #this is a silly post but i am deadly serious it is beyond exhausting and i feel like no one fucking understands how horrible it really is #to care and to love SO MUCH about a thing that you feel like anyone liking it at all is trying to take it from you or #to say your love and your care isnt strong enough good enough big enough .....#and i know how WRONG it is but its SOOOO HARDDD #i want to physically hurt people over this i want to physically hurt myself over this its SO BAD #i want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!#AUTISM STOP. STOP IT. STOP BEING AUTISTIC FOR 10 FUCKING MINUTES!!!!!!!!!#anyway.#tbd #^_^#im in pain right now

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