#but she was groomed.. why do ppl blame her for her own grooming

[pinkfey]

rachel amber haters were literally like ugh i can’t believe she cheated on chloe with these two grown ass men twice her age, one of which being her violent drug dealer, the other being the guy who literally groomed drugged kidnapped and murdered her….. what a manipulative snake!!!!!

[opinated-user]

genuine question. If yall actually give a fuck about MO or Ginger why haven’t y’all done anything about it? Why don’t y’all try talking to them or anything? I only see y’all talk about them to make a point about Lily but if they are actually victims here why haven’t y’all do anything to try and help them? All y’all have done is talk shit about MO’s art and yell at LILY about them, why not try and actually help the ppl you claim are victims of grooming?

do you honestly believe nobody has tried that? Cypher, the user behind the "why you lying lily" blog, actually was a friend of MO and kept telling her that they could talk whenever she wanted to. in response MO blocked her. ginger has openly mocked and any attempt of anyone to tell her that LO was anything else but the most wonderful person in earth. how do you figure it's going to go if any of us actually went to talk to her? with her patiently and understandingly listening to everyone presenting evidence or her blocking us before going straight to LO to keep mocking us? people tried to do the same thing for Lizzy. people tried to get to her with empathy and understanding, only to be treated with derision or as more harassment. i don't blame her either because she was in an emotionally abusive relationship that was draining the life out of her and she convinced every moment that LO was still good, she still deserved better, and she kept being far too kind about LO even after she had caused a massive wave of harassment that drove her off tumblr. both ginger and MO are both adults. what do you even want us to do? bombard them with messages of how awful LO is? spam their account with messages telling them to block LO? they know that is what we think, they have seen it themselves already. ginger has been combating the grooming allegations since she first dated LO. and even after that, they prefer to keep being around LO. i don't know why that is, but i do know that it's not my place or business to tell either of them what to do. i also emphatically encourage people to not contact either of them precisely because it will result in nothing but more stress for both of them. not to mention in reinforce the narrative that LO has about how she's a victim of smear campaign. if that's what you want to do, then do it on your own and be responsible for LO keep using that to guiltrip both of them to feel bad for her. i won't be.

[menalez]

while bisexuals who claim to be "ex-gays" are a problem, and contribute to the erasure of natural ssa (both bisexual and homosexual) these people are also. literally involved in homophobic religions that praise them for this behavior and punish them for exhibiting ssa. so I don't understand why these bisexuals (who are being victimized) are to blame for this. heterosexuals impose this behavior on bisexual and homosexual people. homophobic religious freaks don't want any ssa to exist, whether you act on it or not (bc sinful thoughts are as bad as sinful actions to them), which is why they don't call these people bisexual either. they are "ex gays" or "reformed gays." not bisexuals who have come to the light or anything like that. being bisexual is not a preferable thing to these monsters. it is deeply depressing that homophobic heterosexual religious people can strip others of their most basic identities like this, and I don't understand why you think these bisexuals are just having a good time being repressed like this. these aren't bisexuals who ended up in an osa relationship and are claiming to still be "soooo gay" (which is absolutely wrong and stupid), they are no longer allowed to talk about their full identity. a heterosexual woman with 14 kids by age 35 is obviously being subjugated. her telling other women and girls that this is good and what they were "made to do" is wrong, but these ideas didn't spawn in her head from birth, she was groomed to think that, and deserves a certain amount of compassion if we hope to get her out of that situation. please offer compassion to bisexual people too

don’t get me wrong, i don’t think they’re the root of the problem and ofc they’re the symptom of an existing problem and are then used as tools to promote these things. they allow for themselves to be tools to promote conversion therapy, homophobic rhetoric, “corrective” rape, etc. my point, though, wasn’t “look how evil bisexuals are and how they’re the root of all gay ppl’s problems!”, my point was that someone pretending to be gay while FULLY AWARE that they are bi is not equal to someone pretending to be bi while fully aware that they are gay. gay people faking being OSA on top of being SSA, deliberately, are not then used to promote the idea that bisexuals should undergo conversion therapy or pray to satan or w/e to cure themselves of their opposite sex attraction. it’s not used to promote the idea that if bisexuals try with being the same sex enough, maybe they’ll stop being bi and become gay instead. on the other hand, bisexuals who pretended to be gay are absolutely used as prime examples of conversion therapy “working”. they even are the primary people you’ll see in the countless propaganda videos about “ex-gays” and “ex-homosexuals” and “ex-lesbians” etc. the harm done is more than just validating homophobes’ beliefs that homosexuality is a choice.

also tbh yes the ppl who promote conversion therapy rhetoric are to blame for their own actions. even if they’re also victims. if a woman, for example, uses her platform to promote misogynistic rhetoric, no she’s not the root of misogynistic rhetoric nor is she the main problem in the situation but she absolutely is to blame for her own actions ie the promotion of prejudiced ideals.

the claim that “sinful thoughts” are equal to “sinful actions” to religious people is purely false. go watch many of the ex-gays and you’ll see them talk of sometimes “struggling” with same sex attraction but being praised + praising themselves for not acting on it. you’ll see plenty of “ex-gay” movements place emphasis on not acting on SSA more than on reducing the “thoughts” of SSA. religious people absolutely do view acting on one’s same sex attraction as worse than just having thoughts. they say so repeatedly.

so yes, they are victims in their own right, as are gay people who promote this shit. but no, that doesn’t justify them literally promoting conversion therapy and corrective rape and homophobia. i think you missed what my point was tho because you’re arguing things i wasn’t talking about, i was saying pretending to be bi as a gay person does not have equal harm to pretending to be gay as a bi person, not that bi ppl are the root of all evil or something.

[swanqueensalad]

TRIGGERWARNING!

Without triggering anyone I wanna ask two things:

1) Was Cora ever physically abbussive towards Regina?

2) I know many ppl's head canon is that Leopold raped Regina again and again as his bride, but is that your headcanon too?

ok again TRIGGER WARNING for abuse & SA (and brief mention of suicide) for anyone reading/scrolling!

i'm going to just explain my personal interpretation of the show and these subjects, bc i find regina so interesting and heartbreaking. and i actually do think part of what makes regina so fascinating as a character is her relationship within the cycle of abuse and how yes, she was incredibly hurt and manipulated all her life, but she eventually managed to break free of it all and work to be better for her own child.

buckle up because i have a lot of feelings and this is probably going to be LONG

so, my thoughts on exactly what happened and why regina is as fucked up as she is:

so yeah, cora was a horrific parent. it's canon that she abused regina both emotionally and physically for practically all her life.

in practically her very first scene, we see cora using magic to hurt her eighteen year old daughter - to violently restrain her/drop her to the ground when she 'misbehaves' which pretty clearly says this is a woman who uses power and fear as a control tactic, and is not afraid of physically hurting regina.

and if this is what she was doing when regina is almost an adult, i think it's safe to assume she's been doing it since she was very young - regina's response 'please don't, i'll be good' is the conditioned response of a much younger child. everything about the way regina was written, her relationship with cora, and the way lana and the directors chose to play it screams abuse victim. she is hypervigilant - she jumps when people come close or make sudden noises. when she's choked with magic she immediately knows not to struggle or fight back. as a young girl, she is terrified of doing things wrong.

(also, when we get the flashback to actual 10 year old regina, cora says she can't help her because 'it needs to be someone who's magic has never hurt her')

while i think most of the time cora relied on magic to physically punish regina - knowing how much regina particularly hated it/was afraid of it - i think she was definitely not above slapping her for more minor infractions

beyond just physical abuse, cora was clearly emotionally distant and got regina to a place of being pretty touch-starved and desperate for affection. (lana and barbara play this so masterfully as well) we see her being constantly, nastily critical of everything her daughter does.

i think it's also implied in the regina rising book that cora was controlling/restrictive of regina's food to ensure she stayed thin/attractive which is just a whole other can of worms

as for leopold. please bear with me while i RANT:

nothing will ever make me more mad than the fact this man was never held accountable in the narrative for his role in regina's story and how absolutely fucking awful he was.

first of all, even before he meets regina, he is dodgy af. he supposedly genuinely loves cora, but throws her out immediately when he discovers her pregnancy without even asking her if it's true/discussing it. also, even in that flashback the man is visibly much older than cora and even more so than eva, who he actually does marry (although i do believe they came to truly love each other). so yeah he has a habit of Not Listening to women and not looking at women his own age

and then we get to regina. the eighteen year old daughter of his ex fiancee (younger even than the unborn child who cora carried when she was engaged to him)

yes i think he raped her. because powerful old men do not marry pretty eighteen year olds for the company. (also, if it was just so snow would have a mother figure, well, she already had her maid joanna. and if snow really wanted regina around that badly, leopold could have just brought her to court as a lady in waiting, a fitting role for a noblewoman, and more appropriate seeing as regina was only about eight years older than snow)

regina is visibly distressed by the proposal. she is panicked. she looks to her father to help. cora accepts the proposal for her. and leopold does not care. i think this tells u all u need to know about his views on consent

(also it all gets ickier when you remember leopold was attracted to cora, and regina is considered to look like cora did when she was younger)

leopold clearly had zero interest in regina as a person. he used her for arm candy for events, to make snow happy, and to keep his bed warm. (later, he invades her privacy so much regina counts on him reading her diary as a thoughtless and integral part of a plan, and locks her up for receiving a present from another man) and yet he is never treated as a villain or ever held accountable (besides regina killing him - good for her - but even then it's framed more as a way to villainise her for tricking sidney) and it makes me FURIOUS

i sometimes see the take that leopold might have stopped raping her towards the latter years of their marriage, but i disagree - i think maybe it did get fewer and farther between, but regina was still his wife who he only saw as serving a few purposes, and the way he is so possessive of her in 1x011 makes no sense otherwise, seeing as he was so uninterested in her in every other way

i do think a lot of regina's rage and vendetta against snow is because of this abuse too.

hear me out: in s1 especially, both snow and regina refer to snow as 'ruining her life'. because regina blamed her for everything that happened to her. not only did snow cause daniel's murder, it was her desire for regina as a mother that prompted leopold to marry her.

and this marriage was hell. and i think people don't realise how long it lasted either - snow went from a child to at least her late teens before regina killed leopold. regina was a traumatised young girl, grieving the love of her life, with no friends, no allies, nobody except the literal dark one who was grooming her for his own gain. (no wonder she clung to the brief sense of freedom and control his lessons offered. no wonder she nearly killed herself.)

and while regina suffered, she was forced to play with snow white every day, who was so spoiled, so loved, so happy, and had no idea of the life she had unwittingly trapped regina in.

so yeah, it's all pretty dark.

and it's for all these reasons i think ouat ended up shying away from many more regina backstory episodes centring on the time she was married/pre-evil queen years, because they were on abc after all, and i don't think they were really equipped to deal with the horrendousness of the story they'd created

but lana most certainly did her work becaue i think all of this nuance does show in her portrayal

and it all just makes regina's ending - the good queen, in her own name, safe and strong and loved, part of a true family, her bond with snow healed - so much more of a relief.

[sawtual]

Watched Saw 1-3 & thought of smth.. I genuinely believe that Amanda was better of dying in her trap. I don't think that she ever deserved to be there but what John did to her was far worse a fate than death. I genuinely believe that Amanda thinks this too and it's one of the reasons why she rigged her traps in 3 to always kill. I think she believes she shouldve died and that surviving from a saw trap doesn't fix you and is just worse than dying. Maybe thats like what the lore is am I'm just realizing that now but eh.. Just some food for thought ig

HSJDJFNG ok most times when ppl say my fave character should die i would disagree but no like youre right unfortunately. if the only 2 options were for amanda to be groomed by john or die, i think at least towards the end of saw 3 even amanda wishes she had just died back then...

i do think one thing thats very interesting is amandas extreme will to survive yk? she did what barely anyone could; i havent looked at the exact numbers but very few people actually do survive jigsaws games. the fact shes always been so desperate to cling to life is definitely something i think john admired + something he wanted to use for his advantage. also like... thinking about this, her will to live, it makes you think abt her decision to shoot lynn at the end of saw 3. i can think abt it from a few angles but my main ones are "she did believe john + knew they would all die, but couldnt bring herself to risk john knowing what happened. she was acting on a suicidal urge and had essentially given up" vs "she didnt believe john, and the reason she shoots lynn is because shes too terrified of john learning the truth. she'd rather betray him again than possibly face the full wrath of john". honestly i pingpong between these, going back n forth. it really is something im curious about and think about a lot! i do genuinely think she was terrified of john though, and believed if he found out amanda was complicit in gideons death, whatever he did to her would be so much worse than dying.

(side note , im PRETTY sure john knew of amandas involvement in gideons death? at first when i wrote this i was 100 percent sure and now i actually talked myself out of it a bit x_x i was thinking she was picked to play because john knew of her involvement but actually.. i feel like john would have mentioned it in the tape? but idk.. and maybe the trap ripping her mouth open could have had something to do with like.. irony about her asking her ex bf to get the drugs? IDK. these are thoughts fresh off the dome)

ALSO WHAT YOU SAY ABT HER RIGGING..!! is one of my top theories!! i genuinely do think she believed she had been reborn at first, and feverishly devoted herself to john, but i think it only became clearer and clearer to her how fucked up and unfair jigsaws games are. she clearly believed adams involvement was unfair, she was ridden with guilt over it and i think killing him to save him was a main catalyst in her losing herself + her will to live. then you have the gas house, she saw nothing but violence and suffering in there and clearly got a first person POV that no one was getting better, people were only suffering or hurting others. like she saw how close xavier got to winning!? if daniel hadnt killed him he might have actually won! at least in her eyes he didnt grow from this. he was cruel and violent and chose to hurt others when it was never needed. man didnt even do his own trap. 😭 + eric matthews whole shit?? he didnt change. or grow. he was violent and cruel as well. and of course her own personal hatred + fear messed with her in regards to him, hes the reason shes even here yk..?? as fair as amanda knows, jigsaw ONLY targetted her because she was am addict. and she can solely blame eric matthews for that happening. the was she collapses in pain after the fight. i just think amanda was really letting it sink in, just how badly her life was turning out 😓

but yeah basically i think her making her traps unwinnable because she didnt believe anyone actually changes from them (+knowing it can make you worse) is a super compelling theory and i honestly agree. i could honestly see it as an act of mercy on her part. ntm all her traps (iirc) killed their victims instantly, whereas john would leave people to just die of thirst in dark rooms 😐. honestly all amandas traps were pretty kind in that regard 😭

.....also also i DO think amamda had the potential to be rehabilitated even during saw 3 when she was at her most detatched and unhealthy, i know she could have been saved if there was any effort put into it on someones part, but i seriously do not believe that the police department + courts would show her any mercy for being a jigsaw accomplice. like. at all @_@. and i think serving more jail time instead of getting actual mental health aid, would only serve to make her that much more hateful and withdrawn and violent :( its extremely sad imo. amandas story is so compelling to me because at pretty much every turn, if she had just been shown more kindness, is someone had just stepped in sooner, maybe things wouldnt have ended up the way they did :( but no one really cared about her, save for the small kindness that adam showed her in the hallway.. and that was too late 😥

[dylanobrienisbatman]

What do u think of the line “i love every part of you alina, even the part of you that loved him” I constantly see this as for a reason ppl say mal is horrible and honestly I’m conflicted about it as well, i like the line but it feels backhanded like alina should be ashamed of having feelings for the darkling. But i honestly want to hear your thoughts on it

Oh hi anon! I kinda got a little long winded here, but I hope you all enjoy my little meta lol.

Tbh I think people will take any line by Mal and twist and it warp it into a reason he’s a horrible person. Not you specifically, but ‘Mal antis’ (I sort of hate the term antis but it’s what we’ve got to work with lol) in general will take any line said by Mal and try to use it as evidence that he’s actually a bad person who tries to make Alina hate herself, and I think that’s just absolutely not the case at all. I honestly (no hate obviously) think it’s the exact opposite of what you’re saying, actually.

That line is honestly one of my faves, and I like it so much better than what they did in the show, where he said “you don’t owe me an explanation”, for a number of reasons.

That line comes after they’ve been recaptured, and after the darkling tried to use their physical relationship to shame her and make Mal doubt her. He had seen them kiss and he was mocking her. “Did you tell him how willingly you gave yourself to me?” He is trying to sow doubt between them, but he is also trying to make her feel ashamed. And he succeeds in part.

“A wave of shame rushed through me and the glowing light faltered. The darkling laughed.”

But he failed in the other part. He did not sow doubt in Mal about Alina. So when we get to the line you’re mentioning, Alina is approaching Mal to apologise for what the Darkling said, and to apologise for falling victim to the Darkling in that way, and she likely believes that Mal is doubting her, because that was so clearly the Darkling’s intention. She is trying to apologise for being lured in by a powerful man who manipulated and groomed her and had a physical relationship with her, who then used that relationship to shame her. The context of that scene, specifically the way Alina is feeling, is what makes that line the opposite of what you said. Mal isn’t trying to make her feel ashamed, he is seeing that she does feel ashamed, and he is reassuring her that he doesn’t think less of her for what happened at the little place, and that he loves the parts of her that she doesn’t even love about herself.

The next line really reinforces that idea. She says “I hate that I ever thought... that I ever-”, and he stops her again, to say: “do you blame me for every mistake I made?”

He redirects her self hatred and shame and brings up his own mistakes. He is saying “you love me, even these parts of me I’m not proud of, parts of me I feel ashamed of, right? So why would you think I would feel any different about you.” And he is also saying, look you didn’t see what he really was, and I see how that has suddenly made you doubt yourself and feel stupid and insecure, but sometimes we don’t see. Sometimes things happen and we make mistakes. And he doesn’t try to tell her it wasn’t a mistake or to invalidate the way she is feeling in that moment, he is simply telling her that even these parts of her that she hates, even the parts of her she’s ashamed of and can’t stomach, he loves them.

He isn’t saying “oh it’s okay that you loved him before I can look past that” he is saying “I love all of you, every part of you. I see that you are feeling shame and guilt right now, and doubting that I can love you because of it, but I love all of you, even the parts of yourself you hate.” He is reassuring her (the day before he believes he is going to die, mind you) that her mistakes and her choices and this perceived weakness, and specifically her shame in the romantic feelings she had for this version of the darkling that she knew at the little palace, that she sees in herself don’t change a thing about how he feels about her. They don’t make her less than, they don’t make her unloveable, and he is also telling her that she shouldn’t hate herself or feel ashamed because what happened wasn’t her fault.

He loves her, even the dark parts of her. He loves her, even the parts of her that she is ashamed of. Which he then goes on to show throughout the rest of the trilogy, over and over again.

[divine-mistake]

i just????? i have never in my life written anything (smut or otherwise) that i would ever ever ever want a fucking child to read??? like a fourteen year old child??? what part of my blog seems child friendly???

(tw rant below)

god i know you think you're grown bc i did too when i was that age but literally this is???? for your own safety like do you think i had anyone looking out for me as a kid?? do u think anyone cared abt me being a minor???? bc they didn't and that's why i got into fucking trouble, and not the kind of trouble like "haha i smoked and had sex when i was 15" but like "haha oh, oh no, i'm a 23 year old who blames her twelve year old self for being groomed by a man over a decade her senior and thinks that it's her fault she was raped when she was 15 because she was hypersexual, mentally ill, and being abused by every figure of authority she had."

fucks sake i just do not get it. i do not!!!!

respect!!! ppl's!!!! boundaries!!! stay off blogs!!! that are 18+!!!!! if you are a minor!!!!! stop fucking!!!! interacting with people!!! who say they do not want to interact with you!!!!!!!!

no part of my blog is geared toward children. none of it.

[thebluelemontree]

Is it wrong to say that Sansa uses an out of sight out of mind coping mechanism? I noticed it because it's what I do a lot. I know some ppl say she rewrites traumatic memories to make the memories bearable but it doesn't make sense. If that was how she coped, wouldn't she have been telling herself lies about Joffrey still in acok? Or found a way to erase/rewrite Marillion's attempt to rape her?

Yes and no. She does that except all the times she doesn’t. ;) I think that characterization is extremely reductionist (and ignores character complexity and  growth) when it’s applied that broadly to every situation Sansa has been in. You have to take these things instance by instance because they aren’t all the same. Sometimes that labeling doesn’t fit at all. In many cases, it feels more like the fandom pathologizing the act of romanticizing or trying to push aside or reframe something unpleasant or even traumatic when that’s just something most human beings do now and then. Some do it more than others, but its all within the realm of typical coping behavior and being older or more educated or more “logical” doesn’t make one immune to it. So I hope you don’t let those interpretations make you feel abnormal or more fallible for identifying with Sansa in that way. Romanticizing doesn’t even have to be about coping at all, but simply expressing desire through daydreams. People imagine being in idealized scenarios with crushes all the time.  

You also hit the nail on the head. Sansa just doesn’t go around making up false narratives about every objectively awful thing that happens to her. In fact, her actual responses to those moments can be a useful basis for comparison when we’re analyzing the unkiss, for example. Misunderstanding the unkiss is usually where a lot of these assumptions stem from. That’s a whole other can of worms in itself. The unkiss is just too long of a discussion to put here, so I just recommend this post as to the reasons why it isn’t about trauma and take a browse through my unkiss tag. It does bear repeating that Sansa factually remembers every scary thing that happened during the Blackwater and why it happened, indicating she has processed it honestly and critically, before any incarnation of the unkiss happens. The unkiss is a mismemory added on to the facts, which began as her being the actor that kissed him first. It’s not a lie to deny the facts or to excuse his behavior. It’s regrettable to her that Sandor was not able to be the person she could rely on to get her out of KL at that time. Nonetheless, this repressed desire is just so strong in her that it manifested in a kiss so real she could remember how it felt after the reality of his leaving KL for good sank in. 

Early AGOT Sansa tended to want to move past unpleasantness rather quickly. Just sweep those red flags under the rug so everything can go back to blissful harmony. Sansa is naturally averse to conflict and just wants her present with the royal family to be smooth sailing into a bright future. Ned had a very similar tendency when it came to concerns over Robert’s true character. He saw things that disturbed him, but he hoped and clung to his idea of Robert anyway. For Sansa, this resulted in some misplaced blame and rewriting events so she could deal with the aftermath. This is mostly seen in her processing the Mycah incident after Lady’s death and how her perception of all the characters involved shifted in varying ways. This is after she knew perfectly well what really happened, because Ned says Sansa had already told him the truth of what Joffrey did while Arya was still missing. However, it would also be unfair to completely chalk this up to Sansa’s idiosyncrasies. We have to put her flip-flopping in the context of the situation as well. She’s also experienced a gutting loss with Lady’s death and the fact that the first blow to her innocence was her father volunteering to put Lady down. She doesn’t have Catelyn to go to with her confusion and hurt, and Ned has largely been silent. She’s also still engaged to Joffrey through all this, this is still a patriarchy, there are political ramifications to speaking against a crown prince, and she doesn’t know how to deal with seeing such cruelty and vindictiveness in her future husband. Especially when he responded to her tender concern and wanting to help him with venom and hate. 

I mean, jeez, she’s 11. I don’t expect an 11 year old to understand how to identify the signs of emotional manipulation or see how this situation can escalate into domestic violence. Just because Sansa can’t articulate what is happening within her relationship with Joffrey, doesn’t mean she has blocked out any notion that Joffrey can turn his anger on her. Part of the reason she misplaces blame on Arya (and rewrites what happened) is because Joffrey turns scornful of Sansa for being a witness to his emasculating shame. He punishes her with the cold shoulder because she didn’t immediately take his side and pretended not to see instead. He regains power through making Sansa feel small and fearful of his moods. 

“He had not spoken a word to her since the awful thing had happened, and she had not dared to speak to him.” -- Sansa II, AGOT.

Sansa looked at him and trembled, afraid that he might ignore her or, worse, turn hateful again and send her weeping from the table. -- Sansa II, AGOT.

This is coming from someone who is supposed to love her and someone she will spend the rest of her life with. To fix things, she must be unequivocally on Joffrey’s side going forward or suffer the consequences, which we can see happening as her story completely flips over breakfast sometime later. This is not saying Sansa is fully exonerated from not supporting her sister when she needed her, but that it’s understandable how she arrived at this point. Even when things start to get really bad after Ned’s arrest, Sansa still holds out some hope that she can appeal to Joffrey’s (and Cersei’s) love for her to get him to be merciful. Is it really her fault she believed a part of Joffrey really loved her (and thus was reachable by her pleas) if he also heavily love bombed her and treated her like she was the most special girl in the world? Love bombing is a classic feature of the seduction phase leading up to abuse.  

So we can see Sansa does ignore truths and rewrite events sometimes and her personality is a factor; however, the context surrounding it matters a lot. Post Ned’s execution, Sansa does a full 180 regarding Joffrey and Cersei.

Sansa stared at him, seeing him for the first time. He was wearing a padded crimson doublet patterned with lions and a cloth-of-gold cape with a high collar that framed his face. She wondered how she could ever have thought him handsome. His lips were as soft and red as the worms you found after a rain, and his eyes were vain and cruel. "I hate you," she whispered. -- Sansa VI, AGOT.

Once she had loved Prince Joffrey with all her heart, and admired and trusted his mother, the queen. They had repaid that love and trust with her father's head. Sansa would never make that mistake again. -- Sansa I, ACOK. 

"A monster," she whispered, so tremulously she could scarcely hear her own voice. "Joffrey is a monster. He lied about the butcher's boy and made Father kill my wolf. When I displease him, he has the Kingsguard beat me. He's evil and cruel, my lady, it's so. And the queen as well." -- Sansa I, ASOS. 

There’s also her conscious efforts to push away thoughts of her dead family and Jeyne Poole, but she states why she does that. It’s traumatic, the tears start flowing uncontrollably, and she is desperately trying to avoid falling into another suicidal depression. Her survival in KL depends on her holding it together and appearing loyal and obedient to Joffrey. Mourning her loved ones would imply to Joffrey she is plotting treason. Besides, she knows that even if she did ask Cersei or LF about Jeyne, she has no reason to believe they’d do anything but lie to her face in a patronizing way. There’s no point being plagued with wondering what the truth might be when she can’t do anything about it. Still, she prayed for Jeyne wherever she might be. She genuinely thought Arya had made it to WF on the ship and was safe at least until she got word of her brothers’ deaths and her home being sacked by the Iron Born, though there was initially a touch of projection and fantasizing about Arya being free while she remains captured. As of Feast, she believes she is the last Stark left alive and she has no one but Littlefinger to help her. So while she is suppressing her grief, it’s done with good reason, and it’s not being replaced with any false narratives to cope. 

We also cannot ignore that her relationship to Sandor Clegane has instilled in her an appreciation for the un-sugarcoated truth now that she has experienced betrayal and injustice first hand. In his own way, he’s encouraged her to listen to her own inner bullshit detector. The rose-tinted glasses have become a lot more clear compared to where she started. This is a newly learned skill though, and her self-confidence has been wrecked by internalized verbal abuse. She’s also been left on her own to figure out people’s intentions by herself, which runs parallel to her mounting desperation to get out of KL as Joffrey’s violence escalates. Developing a touch more of a jaded, skeptical side does sometimes clash with her enduring idealism and faith in other people (like with the Tyrells). This struggle is not a bad thing. The goal isn’t to become as cynical as the Hound, but to arrive at an earned optimism that has been tempered by wisdom and practical experience.

Her situation with Littlefinger is much more challenging than anything she faced in KL. He moves her where he wants her to go with complex web of lies, manipulation, grooming, isolation, coercion, dependence, guilt and shame. Her safety and desire to go home are tightly bound to being complicit in his lies and criminal activities. She feels indebted to him for getting her out of KL, even though his methods push her past her boundaries and force her to compromise her moral integrity. The thing is, there are things Sansa does know about LF, but she doesn’t seem to be ready to try and put the puzzle pieces together. She’s not daring to ask probing questions about Lysa’s reference to the “tears” and Jon Arryn or about the possible dangers of Maester Colemon prescribing sweetsleep for Robert’s convulsions. While the subject of Jeyne’s fate is still one she doesn’t want to revisit, somewhere in her mind she does know LF took custody of her friend. If it feels like this is somewhat of a regression back to her early AGOT self, there’s probably some truth to that; however, it’s perfectly okay for positive character arcs to be an imperfect progress. There can be relapses, regressions, setbacks, missteps, and misguided actions. All that growth isn’t lost. Everything she knows is just stored in the back of her mind, not forgotten completely. The general trend line moves her toward successfully confronting Littlefinger with the truth when GRRM is ready to pull the trigger. She’s definitely aware of Littlefinger lying to her more than she lets on and she knows his help is not out of the kindness of his heart, but motivated by what he wants her to be to him. But it’s not like she has the option to go anywhere else, does she? She’s a wanted criminal with a bounty on her head and has no other friend or ally in the Vale she can trust with the truth of her identity. Confronting LF without any means of neutralizing his power over her isn’t the smartest thing to do when he’s shown her he can literally get away with multiple murders. Again, it’s not just her personality that makes her hesitant to pull back the veil and face the horrible truth head on. The outside forces pressuring her perceptions and behavior cannot be discounted either.    

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ur hiyoko essay was 👌👌👌 king shit. i did not like hiyoko at all when i first played sdr2 but now shes up there with my fav characters and i feel like a lot of the fandom misunderstands why she acts the way she does which makes me sad :(

this is the case for a lot of dr characters the fandom hates but shes just a kid in a scary traumatizing situation and has also been traumatized/groomed beforehand. ik a lot of ppl dont like her (which i dont blame them) but seeing her portrayed as just. a bratty middle schooler w zero depth is pretty disappointing.

im kinda shit at giving constructive criticism but i can rly tell a ton of work and research went into it! <3

KGDSKDF THANK YOU!! (sorry for getting back to you late, i just got home!)

and SAME, people just don’t get her, or take the time to do her FTEs or look into why she’s like this. i still dont fully get people who like legitimately think she’s the same age as everyone else FKSDKFbut . to each their own i guess. 

i agree COMPLETELY like. people will just brush over SO MUCH of why she’s like this instead of just...looking at her motivations DJDJJS just bc she's mean doesn't mean she's any less complex than anyone else!!

Sorry for getting to this late but thank u so much!!! I'm glad you liked my rambles :]

[hugttos]

ANOTHER callout for alex @/knfe

others here 

this will mostly focus on the massive pile of lies alex has managed to spin up

lying about the whole reason we fell out anyway-

so i dumped alex’s shitty toxic ass once she vagued about me when she knew i was struggling and acted like a piece of shit about it, and then constantly made up reasons as to why it was my fault instead of just. owning up that she was a piece of shit

alex literally never said this happened until months later where its more convenient for her. i guess the fact it was supposedly her grandmas bday makes it a better sob story to buy because she literally Never mentioned this until this post so...whats the truth perhaps

this is again. supposedly. me admitting i knew it wasnt about me. the vague is this

fucking obviously ‘only good for sex’ doesn’t apply to me yet this whole vague mentions like five different things. but alex likes to ignore that and act like she ONLY mentioned being used for sex when its clearly full of umbrella statements. she completely ignores ‘only good for emotional support’ which is literally just the second sentence. this is the part i focus on because alex knew i was still grieving over a SERIOUS trauma that happened to me literally two weeks prior to this

also ‘the very next day’ now alex is lying and painting it as if i rushed her to talk about it when i had PURPOSELY waited until the next day rather than confront her about it when she was obviously still freaking out. but like. again. fuck me for trying to be a considerate friend right alex????

alex also decided to spin up the narrative that i only talked to anthony about it to drive a wedge between them which..isnt true lol. 

alex was just a dick to anthony for no reason (as she states above) and apparently i ‘forced it out of her’ by like. simply asking i guess? alex was also being very shitty during this time to so obviously im gonna ask her wtf her problem is but again. alex gets a free pass apparently and im an ass for being worried. also anthony came to ME first because of what you were doing and i was actually the one who had to sort out your stupid ass disagreement despite having my own VERY fresh trauma to work through at the time. alex even said she wasn’t even considering doing anything and just leaving the relationship in tatters bc of her own dumb shit and i had to convince her NOT to do that lmao.

me going to anthony with alex being a piece of shit just to stir up drama is SUCH a fucking reach. anthony even said to me he didn’t want to be friends with someone like alex when i showed him this but they like to conveniently ignore that :)

downplaying showing a minor porn-

they only blocked the channel after i called them out on it btw. so. again. truth is only at alex’s convenience

lying about her abuse-

tim is alex’s abuser, who she sexted with despite knowing he was dating someone else and even blamed her for alex’s own shitty actions (which alex likes to say never happened but theres screenshot proof SO)

again, this is me pointing out how alex is fucking horrible to her friends but also manipulative about doing anything to make herself a victim in any situation. this post is about her abuser who alex would talk about even WHEN WE WERE STILL FRIENDS in the group chat and it was literally always negative. like me wondering what the fuck would compel her to keep hanging out with the dude despite all that makes me victim blaming i guess???? but again alex has been known to befriend her own supposed abusers before so.. go figure i guess

alex me calling you out for being abusive and having tons of proof, but you’re too fucking stupid to actually own up to shit? thats not gaslighting??

alex is the only one who’s actually gone to ppl trying to get them to side with her and i have plenty of ppl who can account to this. and alex is just. endlessly fucking dense and doesn’t understand how hypocritical it is for her to say ‘i was just making posts on my own blog!!’ when she’s been known to flip out when I do the same. even when its not even close to being about her.

and yes uhh i cant believe i have to say this but gloating about ‘healing uwuw’ while you’re abusing someone is uhh. fucking disgusting!

lying about old drama-

alex loves to claim that i was 18 during the old callouts despite having it archived and having the information right in front of her

lying about interacting with abusers (and also making it about her)-

broden is MY abuser too dumbass and (literally by your own admission) i was abused a lot worse by him so shut the fuck up?? broden forced me to do rape rps too, along with guilting me and gaslighting me AND my boyfriend for years. also no alex you unblocked him to ‘prove’ you were underage when you dated when i caught you lying saying it was pedophilic and he dated you when he was in his 20s and you were 16. i outed you that it was actually that you were 17 about to turn 18 and he was barely 19 when you started dating. then you backpedaled and said you forgot which like...having memory issues myself saying you were dating a 20 year old while you’re 16 doesnt sound like a memory thing? sounds more like lying??? also while they were dating alex was cheating on broden with tim but claims she gets a free pass for that bc they’re her abusers. and like. obviously thats not how. shit works.

lying about stalking:

alex likes to move blogs rather than just own up to her shitty behavior and then scream stalking when i out her again. which is perfectly reasonable given she’s still openly abusive.

alex if lurking and vagueing makes someone a stalker then you’re shooting yourself in the foot because you literally do this MORE than i do. and ofc this is followed by screenshots of the most irrelevant text posts including me literally just saying a theme is ugly (which HAS to be about her bc literally everything is apparently

AGAIN, alex moved bc she revived her own kiwifarms thread and acted shocked when they started writing on her text wall thing and went totally fucking rabid about how it was me (it wasnt and more on this later)

i also made it clear that yes im outing alex again for reasons i previously stated

also why does alex act like im a mastermind for finding her new url when she literally reblogged aes posts from her old blog onto her new one. its not fucking rocket science alex

when you’re an active abuser who hasn’t owned up to shit your victim has a fucking right to warn people about you and it doesnt make them a stalker alex!!!

lying about how i ‘befriend freaks’-

Literally None of the links are pornographic btw..and none of them are actually? my posts?

also yes uhh i actually have proof that gideon just dug through archives to pick out things to exaggerate and no its actually not deleted because the proof is right here!

also i should point out its really REALLY hypocritical for alex to freak out over this because i unfollowed these blogs after like. a week? and alex was friends with known pedophile gorecember and also friends with someone who posts irl gore (even posted gore herself) and necrophilia.

alex claims this along with claiming i groom minors just because a mutual of mine got an ask about me and two of her followers were positive about it.

like. ive literally never interacted with these ppl before?? just bc people are nice instead of abusive like alex doesnt mean im friends with them and it doesnt indicate some big fucking conspiracy or whatever??

lying about anons and literally anything she doesnt like-

alex will literally spin the most fucking ridiculous stories to add to her narrative but like....its really simple. that anon isnt me BECAUSE I WAS LITERALLY ASLEEP WHEN THIS HAPPENED...LMAO... 

alex has one of those text wall things, and she flipped out after ppl started harassing her on it right after she revived her own dead kiwifarms thread but threw a tantrum that it was me. again. when i wasn’t even online

alex has lots. LOTS.. of weak reasoning

ok so...alex really Cannot get it into her thick fucking head that ppl can fake typing styles. also alex half of these are things YOU say more than i do? or either things that like. Everyone says.

ive OUTED alex for shit before so uhh its not actually stuff only i would know if i posted about it. 

this. honestly just speaks for itself.

please distance yourselves from alex, theyre an abuser and very manipulative and constantly gaslight people, pls keep yourself safe thanks

[legaciesmade]

maxence danet-fauvel. he/him. cismale. ╱ i thought i saw mathieu beaumont getting questioned by the police. the twenty-three year old is in their fourth year at west bridge studying business. they were at manon’s party because he’s her older brother and it was at their house. do you think they had something to do with her death? + a beguiling smile, a collection of luxury watches, the sound of running shoes on the track field.

hey you demon fucks .. i’m bailey !! i’m twenty-two, i go by she/her pronouns and i live in the b(est) timezone ;) if you wanna know more ab me, i’m a video game heaux and a pisces sun/aquarius moon/cancer rising ( for any fellow astro-hoes. ) also i’m not gonna lie, you’ll find me more readily on d.scord compared to t.mblr ims bcos... it’s easier, so hmu for tht if interested. anyw, mat is....certainly a new muse to me so i’m kinda just going with the flow. but what i do know is he’s fuckin trash. go figure.

his pinterest

the eldest child of the beaumont family; mathieu was basically groomed to one day take over the family business. it didn’t matter if he didn’t want it, he was the eldest and that was that.

so here he is, majoring in business ( with a bunch of math/finance courses on the side ) like a Good Son

literally he’s been taking classes to prepare him for college ever since the start of high school, maybe even earlier than that. because it’s a Very Serious Responsibility

to say he was envious that manon got to choose her own major/path in life is an understatement, but he’s learned well to hide his anger behind a smile,,,, thts so sad alexa play despacito

i’m leaving a lot of family stuff sorta open-ended bc i don’t want to assume too much ab manon aside from what we know thus far sjdhsjdh BUT JUST KNOW THAT, YEAH, MAT LOVES HIS FAMILY BUT....sometimes love isn’t enough. especially when you have like, basically NO say in a lot of aspects of your life...

his sport is literally the only thing that’s 100% his. his father would’ve probably preferred him to go out for football but... nah fam, boy wanted to do track and he’s crazy good. been doing it since middle school and each time he’s made captain position. dad still isn’t that impressed though.

that all being said. he’s also in student council; he enjoys it enough, but this was definitely more of a “you have to join it” scenario lol oops

his birthday is january 18th ( it must’ve been suuuuuuch a fun birthday this year, huh ;))))) i’m not sorry )

sun - capricorn ( restrictions, order, and control. you exercise these characteristics firstly on your own self. you like to control your reality by setting daily patterns to follow, and will frequently choose to wake up earlier than needed. you usually are stubborn and determined, and will frequently enter power games. however, you can be very patient. when this is combined with your determination and self-discipline, you can each any goal you set your mind to. )

moon - capricorn ( you show a lot of initiative. you are in it to win it. in fact, you might have a hard time kicking back and taking it easy. you do not want to feed into another’s beliefs about victimhood. you might experience issues of emotional detachment from other individuals, but this can prove very helpful; you can excel in things that require cold blood and seriousness. )

ascendant - aries ( you are athletic and active, highly energetic and capable of physical work. you are always ready to take initiative. self-reliance is learnt early in childhood. though you often have difficulties with your parents, especially the parent of the same sex. )

basically... his double capricorn aka his sense of maturity and seriousness, point to a very dutiful and hardworking nature... but, it also means that he had a lot of circumstances that forced him to grow up FAST. which, um, he did,,, in a sense. *points to his parents/his dad* we can blame them/him. HOWEVER, his aries rising/ascendant makes all that seriousness/logic tense af bc aries is like action/action/action... automatic response without thinking it through. so. that’s fun!!

alright so. the party and the pact. hm. mat’s in a very sticky situation with this whole thing and he still isn’t exactly sure how he feels ab it....but what’s done is done and there’s no going back now. of course he’s grieving in his own way, manon was still his little sister, but whew! seeing her like that really made him think of all the times they clashed/fought? like... yeah siblings fight okay but their different personalities/the clear difference in how their parents treated them, there was always a boiling point. no matter how quiet his negative emotions were, they were still there. sweet, naive manon... probably had no idea mathieu felt like this, because he just never fuckin talked ab it. and honestly, why would he?

in terms of what’s happening plot wise with the texts, etc, mat isn’t... okay he’s BOTHERED by them, but is he gonna let it show.... no. the fuck kinda question is tht...... he has enough to worry ab as is, keeping up with his courses and track and student council, not to mention his family and being the grieving brother,,, now someone’s sayin they KNOW what he helped do???? bye it’s not funny and he’s already exhausted. he’s v skeptical ab a lot of ppl in this so-called pact....but he knows most of them wouldn’t be out here tattling surely, when it’ll impact them just as much. *thinking emoji*

alright so idk what else to write atm like this is....Bad but. i tried okskjsk bye

[seasaltmemories]

top 5 things you'd change in arc-v

Ok so to make this simple I’ll refrain from talking about current/unfinished plot lines like Zarc and Ray, also understand that is is largely based off my individual preference, some of these criticism is more what would make it the perfect story for me personally, might apply to the Yugioh franchise as a whole, and only work in an ideal setting where we have an unlimited amount of episodes, no scheduling problems with VA’s, and no requirement to actually sell cards

1.  Make Yuri able to express a wider range of emotions

A character like Yuri is not inherently bad, I had just as much fun with with faces and over-dramatic nature at first, but especially in season 3, the routine just got stale

He was just always smug, always untouchable, always teasing and making wild expression, it stopped being novel, and so much screen time was just him doing the same thing over and over again

Now for me the most obvious way to change things would either be to go with the memory-erasing headcanon or the tragic monster route

I was never a big fan of the memory-erasing headcanon tbh, but that could give him a conflict of his own, and he could still stay a little shit, but angry that he was tampered with

I would prefer a tragic monster route, because again he could stay just as smug and evil, but if it was portrayed in a, “he is awful but dear god they made him this way” light it would be much more emotionally satisfying, some already view him in this light, but I don’t think his backstory was tragic enough for it to work, while he was alone and groomed to become numb to carding, a lot of characters have some aspect of loneliness or being alone in some fashion (I could argue it is a central theme of sorts) none of the Academia kids had even a semblance of friendship/family, so Yuri doesn’t stand out enough

If it was brought up in the present it would work much better, not through subtext of why he became so obsessed with fusing with the others, like actual emotional distress, show him angry or pissed, or frustrated, just more than all smug

I think tbh Yuri just reminds me a lot of Nui from Kill la Kill, she was introduced as this crazy evil gal who was super OP, and always smiling, and after like ten episodes of this, she was starting to get on ppl’s nerves, then though she got humiliated, her arms cut off, and she finally lost her temper, and ppl began to like her much more after that bc you can only do one thing for so long before it gets annoying

So TLDR: Give Yuri a breakdown or a reason to at least care about something

2. Replace the XYZ arc with a back to Standard Arc

Regardless on your feelings on the XYZ characters, it’s hard to find much meaning for them to go to Heartland, while there was conflict with Academia, it’s hardly exclusive to XYZ, basically we found a destroyed city, which we knew what it was like due to flashbacks

That’s why I think it would have been more effective for me if instead we had spent a few episodes back in Standard

There was a possible plot-line with Himika having her own agenda, or going over the top with her militarizing, or if the writers weren’t going there we could have dove deeper in the Akaba family drama so that Ray’s relation could hit even harder, at the very least we could get some planning of their attack on Academia and maybe include some back-up forces to make it feel grander and epic

And even if those weren’t pursued, we’d get to see some fan favorites for a while and catch our breath before the final arc, because while it has been a long time for us, this has all been so fast for the characters, and I think it would have been nice for them to get a chance to breathe and sort out just what has happened and their emotions on the subject

It wouldn’t even have to be as long as the XYZ arc was, just a few episodes to readjust ourselves

3.  Give the XYZ Characters better characterization/utilize flashbacks more

The XYZ characters didn’t have the worst, but for as early in the series Yuto was introduced, I still don’t feel like I completely know him (mainly due to the bit of retconning with the smiles speech) partly because he never got to have importance to the plot, Shun had the best overall, but his anger always got tiring a bit, and as I talked about earlier, Ruri had nothing about her as an individual that was interesting

I think the most important thing in general would be for less flashbacks to focus on the destruction of Heartland, and more of them to show what they were like before the invasion, we got a few of those later on, but I feel if we got more then it would have helped ground them as real people

With Shun I have similar criticism as Yuri, let him show a wider range of emotions, we got the anger at it all, which is totally fine bc that’s what some ppl focus on, but we never really got to feel how much he missed Ruri, it was his motivation for the majority of Season 1, and then we rarely hear about it any more

I don’t like comparing the Synchro and XYZ characters bc the former have their flaws (though I have to admit I am more biased to their character types), but jeez it’s amazing how much better they could do with one group than with the other, with Yugo we never forgot how much he missed Rin, a lot of it was used for comic relief, but we also got to feel the real desperation, the flashbacks did so much for them by showing their relationship beforehand effectively so that we were invested in the relationship when they reunited, and when episode 117 hit, it hit hard, the XYZ characters had much more time to build up things (besides the ‘pattern’ there was no need for Ruri’s first line to be in 104 when the series was 2/3 of the way over) I know a bit of this comes down to preference since in general I tend to like stoic characters that remain stoic less, but I feel like with a more organized arc, the XYZ characters could be so much better

4. Either take out the entire mind-control plot with the bracelet girls, or expand it further

I know the main reason for the mind-control plot was to get Rin and Ruri to duel, and for that I am extremely grateful since I had worries about them not dueling at all, episode 117 was one of my favorite episode of season 3, but at the end of the day, the overall impact on it was nothing, and it feels like our time was wasted, especially considering Yuzu did nothing while under it, having repetitive duels trying to fix it could get old, but if they did it right, then we’d get a lot of great emotional moments, if they wouldn’t put effort into it, though we could always have Obelisk Forces or just Academia students in general come after them, and then we get tag duels with their real personalities yay!!!!

5. Give the Counterparts less screen-time alone together

This is going to sound crazy but hear me out:

In my opinion the counterparts with the good characterization are Yuya, Yuzu, Yugo, Serena in that order, Yuto and Rin have decent characterization while Yuri and Ruri are just a bit of a mess due to hype and lazy writing

While they are an important part of the show, the focus was never on their relationships to each other, I believe that’s what drew a lot of people in, but the show was designed in a way, interaction was difficult for them

And personally I was totally fine with this, I don’t blame ppl for being disappointed that the anime didn’t focus on their interactions (for them what I’ve seen of the manga, that might fill your itch so possibly check that out) but the fact of the matter is more of emotion and development was in the Standard/Lancer cast, and when they started leaving them out slowly, it really began to show

The BB duel was kinda pointless, but man the Yuya and Gongenzaka relationship was strong,  Reiji and Yuya tag dueling and building each other up added ten years to my life span, but around after 131 it became the counterpart show with a bit of legacy characters and Yusho thrown in, and because of that the emotional moments suffered a lot, Yusho’s death was really good (especially considering the brief amount of time he got to interact on screen with Yuya) but you can tell the plot was being designed around forcing interaction with the counterparts after keeping them separated for so long, and it was frustrating all these great characters we know and love got to do nothing

I admit, it would be hard to force Zarc to happen and it would take a lot of changing to fit it in if you didn’t put the rest of the cast out of commission one by one, but the counterparts alone did not have enough strength as a group to carry the emotional weight, and I think it really showed

That’s not to say individual relationship failed, I loved the bond Yugo formed with Yuzu and Serena for example, Yuya and Yuto had a sweet partnership going, I would kill to make sure Yuya and Yuzu and Rin and Yugo get home together safely, and Yugo and Yuri had a decent rivalry of sorts

But as groups of four they had nothing, and to put the sole focus on them alone really hurt 

[hugttos]

hi this is just a friendly reminder that /@knfe is an abuser! her callout is here but i figured i’d remind ppl the shit she’s done

my cat (who was two years old) was killed in the end of september and obviously i was fucking devastated. rae pretended to be a good friend until she wasn’t and then when it didn’t benefit her anymore to fake being a good person she turned around and put her own trauma above mine and threw the BIGGEST fit about how i was using her sexual abuse against her when i said it was fucked up she did that. Her situation was she reluctantly let an old classmate of hers touch her boobs (this is LITERALLY her own words. not mine. im not fucking twisting this at all she straight up said this herself) but me literally word for word quoting her is victim blaming i guess

lied about abuse, being abused, being a victim of a pedophile, and a huge fucking list of other gross shit

gaslighted me

harassed my friends and even strangers just to get them to side with her

abused my boyfriend just for...knowing me i guess??? 

constantly played stupid about old drama she already knew about

exposed a minor to pornography 

has really fucking sketchy oc shit

her friend gideon has also abused me, doing stuff like harassing me for literally no reason...i’d never approached him and we really hardly even talked but i guess abusers love each others company!! to add to the gaslighting he made a ‘callout blog’ for me which is literally just..full of proof that is from Other peoples stuff and also thought it would be acceptable to lurk onto my long dead instagram from when I was a minor (i’m currently 21 so this would literally be up to 5 years old) and post screenshots of me as a child...not fucking creepy as shit at all

her and gideon (and maybe others i honestly dont know or care tbh) got anon hate and of course the ONLY possibility is to pin it on me or my bf and of course theres no proof of this but whatever she can run with i guess. idk why rae thinks i put that much fucking energy into dealing with her abuse nowadays, saying that she literally got mad at me for saying i was tired of arguing with abusers. rae wants to dish it out all day but can’t take it and its really not my problem!!!

and more recently:

threatened to assault and even murder me over ‘loli porn’ aka this (its literally not even close to pornographic...) as someone who claims to be a victim of pedophiles you’d think she’d actually know what it means but guess not  x x x x x x x

her friend made a ‘callout’ blog for me (here) and she acted like she didn’t know who it was and acted like she had nothing to do with it until her friend (who has also abused me) outed themselves lmao x x x

more shit of her friend (gideon) harassing me (rae claims to be free of the drama but tht doesnt rlly count when you send your friends to abuse ppl for you...and they don’t rlly understand the concept of being blocked) x x x x x x x x (others) x x

also making your victims response to you harassing them a ‘testimonial’ makes you look REAL fucking bad 

called me a pedophile sympathizer because i wouldnt restart drama with a different abuser of mine x 

accused me of grooming minors literally just because of this (i’d literally never talked to either of the ppl in the notes but somehow we’re automatically friends just bc they said smth positive ig...) x x x