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sketchy-galaxy · 9 months

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#starrtalks #im a lil better at talking in the tags #and i cant post like a haha funny meme in the post #but my god i am so anxious #i have a bunch! of like internship apps to do #and its all so hard to think about right now #but theyre all due in like a month!#and i need to do at least one! as an undergrad and get that experience #so its really hard to fill them out right now because #i dont know myself very well outside of academics #like im a smart student im a good student and i am smart #but not i dont have much experience in what is being asked + very poor essay writing skills ya know #and it sucks too cause this is a very type A major and i am very Type B (competitive vs relaxed)#and REFERENCES #i dont have ANY references and im so afraid to ask for them its so so bad #im just struggling #i want to get better but its really hard :(

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s0fter-sin · 5 months

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last thing i’ll say; people aren’t owed free content but creatives aren’t owed financial compensation either

#i say all this as a cretive btw lets head that off #their bottom line was ‘we want more money to make bigger things and we cant afford to so we want more money in order to do them’#and that is a valid desire #but you cant just expect everyone to go along with that just bc you want it #watcher got where they are due to a loyal viewer base #to reject money from corporations in favour of money from that viewer base? thats skeevy #to default to a complete and absolute paywall removing all your content then pretend that you weren't going to? thats skeevy #to make a countdown to an announcement then make the announcement a somber trip down memory lane #and an ‘if only we can make more stuff like this wink wink’? thats skeevy #and its skeevy bc theyre a company and no matter how personable they are companies are not your friend #are they the rich we should be eating? no #but when your ceo drives a tesla and eats expensive food that is written off as a buisness expense #AND you have a patreon that you dont capitalise on but still brings you on average 100k a month #you cant act like youre a hard done by creative #endevouring to make more elaborate creations is a good idea #monetisation is a good idea #absolute monetisation with no thought to an alternative isnt #name one indie artist that relies entirely on paid content ill wait #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #watcher #shane madej #ryan bergara #steven lim #hey there demons it’s me ya boy #ghost files

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merverelli · 2 years

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chase brody skates jacksepticeye told me himself

#jacksepticeye #septicart #chase brody #jacksepticart #jacksepticegos #just like art #oh my GOD ive had a rough semester #i had THREE WHOLE ASSIGNMENTS DUE ON FRIDAY #TWO OF THEM WERE REPORTS. THE LAST ONE WAS A VIDEO LEARNING RESOURCE.#it all got done but at what COST #AND I HAVE 27 LECTURES TO CATCH UP ON #IM 27 LECTURES IN THE HOLE #*moe szyslak voice* THEYRE GONNA TAKE MY THUMBS #it should be fine i have like a week to catch up but holy fuck #nightmare month #but all of my exams are online and open book so i cant complain too much u know #also for halloween i dressed up like marge simpson and the costume was all handmade #so thats why im so behind BUT i was the best dressed (not to toot my own horn i was complimented alot and told this)#(but also im tooting my own horn it fucking ruled im so proud of my baby)#so it was absolutely worth it #it was in a private function room at a pub and we had to walk though all of the tables/dining area/bar area to get there #and everyone was looking at me lmfao #i lived my model on the runway moment right there and then #people where laughing in their cars at me too LMAOOO it was a good night #anyway its late! good night! maybe more art soon idk man!#ily goodnight!

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thedrotter · 2 months

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(cw for a gun, mild blood and suicide in the last drawing.)

Day 1-5 of drawing Re:Kinder daily for a whole month! I'll be doing that all month. ☺️

I did not draw Re:Kinder enough (said both sarcastically and genuinely, because while I know the statement is ridiculous I also do believe it www), so I chose to challenge myself. I will post these every 5 days to not clog the tag too much.

#re:kinder #rekinder #fanart #hiroto yamakawa #rei suzumura #aya hibino #sayaka akatsuki #ryou shimoya #takumi katsuragi #shunsuke takano #yuuichi mizuoka #AND CHIE!!!!!! :3333 #now... commentary...#for the first one i tried doing the proportions a bit more realistic than the chibi like ones i usually do !#although it comes with the worry they may seem like teens in contrast of how i generally draw them^^;... i hope they still look their age😢#second drawing is based on an idea from my sister that hiroto’s more responsible attitude comes from taking charge more than he should-#-due to his parents both being depressed. so i tried to express that idea somewhat... its more speculation than anything but still #third one is HORROR MOVIE TIME!!! this one was very funny to me because i dunno whos house theyre in but ryou looks right at home www #certainly not takumi's because that breaks the law children have of “its MY house so if i dont want to watch this movie we wont watch it”#fourth is SHUNSUKE VS THE SCHOOL TESTS!! based on him throwing out his school tests on the trash as mentioned once ingame.#in case it isnt clear the 12 is a 12 out of 100... im afraid i dont know how to make it clearer😓.#chie originally wasnt meant to be there but the compositions i came up with felt boring otherwise. so she was brought in to fill in the voi #final drawing is here to remind you this is a horror game about mentally ill children i am so sorry #im aware it is a bit jarring compared to all the (mostly) fluff but the rng said it was a yuu day he doesnt get any fluff #ah yes sorry spoilers he wont be getting any fluff there will not be a single drawing where he feels joy😭 i am sorry for this #this is because the ideas i never really got to draw (that are here) of him are the sad ones because i feel such a pity drawing him that wa #but i had to get to them eventually because i did want to draw it anyway but i was going to keep stalling them if i didnt do em here #so sorry no happy yuu the whole month😢#anyway i may redraw one of these later down the line (when its no longer august).#i do these with time limitations so i dont get to push them to bigger steps but if i feel one should get one i may redraw it LATERRR

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uhohdad · 3 months

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I swear, you're really trying to kill us with the latest chapter of your hg au😭 I'm literally sobbing at that ending. it's so good and captures emotion so well! Keep up the great work. You're literally one of my favorite writers <3

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littlecutiexox · 1 year

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#your number one priority as an employer should be making sure your employees are happy and work is being done #how do people think its okay to start a meeting with ‘due to everyones paycheck not being certain next month’#like #fuck #thanks thats not putting any anxiety on to me at all #they started going on about redundancy #i think you don’t qualify for redundancy unless youve been there for 15 years #the oldest member of the team has been there for 5/6 years max #how is everyone in the team not meant to freak out exactly?#people have rent to pay #sorry besties im freaking out #mega sucks too because i was massively enjoying this job and finally found myself excelling expectations #like really i live month to month and i am not the only one #how are we meant to live?#i better start applying to jobs #this makes it soo much worse that i refused the other job offer i had 2 months ago because i was most likely going to get promoted soon here #noww theyre most likely shutting the entire business down #sheeeesh #update i was wrong #redundancy pay is if youve been employed for more than 2 years #so thats 4/9 team members that can get redundancy pay #ive only been there 8 months #but at least others can get redundancy pay for a couple of weeks

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californiaquail · 4 days

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just in case anyone thought i was exaggerating about how stupid my coworkers think i am today one of them told me i could write "turbid which is like the scientific word for cloudy" on a urinalysis sticker. i have a college degree in a science

#god and the worst part is i think theyre partially correct #like i'm not As dumb as they think i am but i am definitely stupider than i used to be and it is driving me completely insane #i genuinely don't know if its the depression or chronic weed use or like i'm just suddenly brain damaged in the last 6 months or so #but it's really really bad. i think it has gotten a little better since starting my current antidepressant but my short term memory is like #unbelievably bad. it was never good but i literally cannot remember anything now. i have to stop thinking about this or i will start crying #my intelligence has always been like one of the things i have a weird complex about due to not getting an education until high school #and being barely socialized etc and it was more or less all i had going for me #and now it's like. ok i got nothing lmao #i don't even think it's covid brain damage because i felt this way before i got covid #although it definitely got worse after getting the job but i think thats a combination of not knowing what i'm doing + being treated like #garbage + sleep deprivation #my therapist who i haven't seen in months because he was stressing me out thought i was smart as hell for some reason. which was flattering #but like i said he was stressing me out. he had too good of a read on me and i can't get over my trust issues with men #“you should go to therapy about that” you might say and you would be right but. well #me

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kn11ves · 1 month

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>find poc creator talking about issues regarding their comminity

>not part of it but find it interesting topic so watch lots of their videos about it and trends

>find her personality to be good and her stances fair and respectful

>put channel to oldest content to put interesting videos in a watch later

"THE TRANSES ARE INDOCTRINATING YOUR CHILDREN" "TIRED OF RESPECTING PRONOUNS" "TRIGGERED FEMINISTS" "PARENTS OF TRANS KIDS HAVE NO BACKBONES" "WOMEN WANT TO BE TRADWIFES"

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#videos from 6 months ago so its not like a ''ok shes grown from this'' type of thing #like just because shes no longer making a video about it doesnt mean her stances changed from 6 months ago not in this climate.#its so fucking dissapointing. i just want to watch more brown creators and then i check their channel and theyre posting like #''should trans people be allowed to live? thinkpiece''#this happened the other day too when i watched a video and she seemed fun and all the sudden that right wing podcaster brent fuckingwhtever #clip in the middle of it without her being like ''now i know she sucks but-'' just uncritical #and i click on the rest of the videos and theres various videos about gay people Going Too Far or something #its so disappointing because homophobic/transphobic american brown people are specially like. theres a hidden thing here about #respectability. like we want to be respectable so white people will stop treating us so bad #and so many of these cultures have rich third gender or gay love history but its all magically poofed away because We Need To Look #Respectable To White People.#and of course theres the just basic Theyre just misguided hateful bigoted people but i cant ignore that factor of #you know you're not special? you know they hate you too? do you know that?#its sooooo. sigh #smashes head #i wish i could just watch a random poc cishet creator without worrying theyll end up as a christian who is weird about gay people due #unfortunate upbringing and things like that #i hate itttt i hate itttt i should be able to trust my own people but sometiems i cant because stuff like this happensssssd #so you guys think itll ever get better

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calpalsworld · 2 months

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hearing pop music on the radio gave me anxiety because it made me feel like i was working at my previous job (meijer) and it occured to me that hmmm maybe the jobs i worked before my current job were not good jobs

#idk if this job is amazing but i can go on my break whenever i want and im not under pressure 24/7 and im not a pillar to be relied on #i guess i was also really psychotic when i was at meijer and idk if it was chicken or the egg #also i think that my spike in psychotic symptoms was just due to stress from other issues i was going through (ocd and my break up)#i have not hallucinated or had delusions (? well i suppose i wouldnt be able to tell bc theyre delusions?) lately at all #and i think its because my overall mental health and routine is much better #and tbh i rarely want to hurt myself or die for like a month now #and i am aware of when my thoughts and actions are an ocd thing rather than thinking its realistic and appropriate #OKAY this tag ramble just turned into a mental health update #yeah ive been good for like a month now i think 👍#so i wish i could go back in time and tell myself like a year ago that yeppp it will become more okay itll just suck for over a year

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mihotose · 2 months

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its interesting, love live is constantly trying to subvert itself. in school idol project honoka wants to save otonokizaka in part because her mother also went there; its family tradition and she wants yukiho to go too. sunshine of course subverts μ's story by near following the same path and yet aqours *fail* to save uranohoshi due to their circumstances. nijigasaki subverts this formula by not needing to save their school thats modern school and not in any danger at all. superstar subverts the formula really oddly imo, with yuigaoka having just *opened* and yet for some reason is also having money problems that might lead to its closure again (idk). i would think that with a newly opened school superstar would go for something brand new: there is no tradition to look back to, liella must forge their own path starting completely from nothing. but instead yuigaoka does actually have a history from before it was yuigaoka, so. now hasunosora has an Abundance of history. its heavily based upon tradition, and the idea of preservation for the future, passing down songs and outfits and making sure the thread from their senpai remains intact for their future kouhai, and consequently the school's emphasis upon tradition leads to clashes with modernity

#umm.#anyway my original thought was how the main girls honoka chika ayumu kanon all have childhood friends #while kaho wasnt really able to make friends at that age due to the sickness and then moved prefectures to go to hasunosora #so i think its kind of interesting that kaho (who doesnt have any kind of years long relationship=childhood friendship)#is the one to go to a school with such a long history. a history thats so emphasised you literally know it is in its 104th year right now #so imo i feel that contrast would be even more severe if her mom hadnt gone to hasunosora too. like not any sort of even hint of tradition #but kaho did have to have found out about it from somewhere i guess. i did recently listen to kaho's karuta card #which talks about kaga temari (a ball that mothers pass to their daughters) which was interesting #that card also talks about why kaho's mother went to hasunosora in the first place after no mention of her in the story for months #so idk. maybe theyre going to do something with her i hope so #gemitus #i dont mean to be so mean to superstar :|

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innocet · 6 months

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bonnie zygoninvasioninversion is american and i think this explains the everything about her

#osgoodposting #not a shitpost i think she becomes far more interesting if shes like. i mean she wants to be Zygon by culture #but she grew up in a very different/removed environment due to the choices of the generation before her #which was very directly harmful to her but DID shape who she is. like she cant change that #i love watching those episodes and going That Is An 18 Month Old American Baby #you cant be doing these things american baby #i dont think its emphasized enough in those episodes that the truth or consequences guys are ALL 18 months old #obligatory i know these episodes are politically Gross statement. its why theyre fascinating to me #bonnie is just like me (american) (assimilated by force)

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simplydnp · 8 months

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fuck

#trigger warning for anti-queer legislation & transphobia further in the tags #it's just so. awful. and i forget sometimes cause i'm here on my tumblr bubble & i havent left the house in 3 months due to chronic illness #but i am very lucky to live where i live and get to do what i do and i cant even do that anymore. because of this illness #and while im away. theyre. hurting my kiddos. taking away their rights. 'for the children' they say. fuck off.#'leaves them with less choice as adults' what does that even fucking mean. nothing! it means nothing. its to scare you.#do i need to send a letter home to call a child by a nickname instead of their government birthname??#i'll let you all in on a secret: my government name is not char. but my teachers called me it. and my parents didnt need to be notified.#and the world didnt end!#i had a pride flag up in my room. and a kid asked me what it meant. and immediately i knew it was delicate.#hes like whats it for. and im like well. what does a flag mean to you? do you have a flag you connect with?#and the kid was like yeah. its like. community. and im like yeah! that's what this is for some people. it's also a show of support.#and the kid said 'oh i get it.' and then a pause. 'i like the colours' and i said me too!#and we talked about his country flag and other country flags and completely moved on #but he listened! and he learned! this kid hardly listens to me teach but he respects when i'm real.#auoghhh. so many kids affected. genuinely makes me ill. on top of everything.#i dont even know #c.text

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mantisgodsdomain · 11 months

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Very fun to be an dormant Homestuck in 2023. We saw a post with an aside about the mid-to-highblood bias present in the fandom and we took a moment to think "wait, what?" before remembering how much people posted about Mallek, Lanque, and Marvus. Obviously no one asked our opinion on the matter but we think that a lot of the bias here may just be because fandom people will jump at any vaguely conventionally attractive male character who can say something angsty, and we don't see 99% of this effect because we rapidly get fatigued with any character who is overly present in the fandom and any ship that has overrepresentation in the sample size and start blocking tags.

Very highly effective approach, admittedly, but it leaves us a bit out of the loop. We only really start encountering Issues with that approach in smaller fandoms when blocking any given popular ship will instantly shrink our mutual circle to Just Us and maybe, like, one guy who we dragged in here ourself, so we have to relax blocking standards somewhat and just make it "blocked for a week" or something similar.

#we speak #whenever we decide to revisit homestuck ao3 we just block the entire first block of Popular Ships #we have not seen a da vekat fic in years and this is vital for not burning out our tolerance of Them Interacting At All #we are censoring that tag so it does not appear in their ship tag also #we still have the mar vus tag blocked. we know this bc we have one specific clown mutual who likes him and will reblog him sometimes #but its been like a year since we've seen mal lek or lan que in anything and we like it that way #this has also made our character preferences skew like. OVERWHELMINGLY to woman and enbies over time #because fandom as a whole is EXTREMELY prone to focusing on men and setting anyone who is Not A Men as a background character #which results in a weird little loop where we'll get into something and get burnt out on like. Every Guy within a week #simply due to the sheer oversaturation That One Guy has #and then we only get time to recover on the saturation of Random Gals bc of the trends falling towards Just Men and nothing else #and then our Characters We Like portfolio ends up being like. five women used as background characters and one enby #sometimes we will also pick up a guy who gets villainized by like half the fandom or a popular character where the popular takes suck #but like. it's almost all background characters you see what we mean. we're a home for random blorbos that no one pays attention to #because in order to get into Actually Liking A Character Enough For Them To Hit Heavy Rotation #a high concentration of fans is like. an active detriment bc we'll get burnt out on them #and if people talk about them Too Much to the extent that theyre unavoidable then we will inevitably start to dislike them #we are but a simple beast and if we don't get recovery time we begin to run into Issues with random things & tropes #and then our recovery time once we've hit burnout is like. months to years #anyways this is a long tag ramble but generally if we spend the time to explore a character and figure them out we'll enjoy them in some wa #with the major caveat that if theyre Too Popular we may dislike them regardless #and the way that they're framed both inside and outside of the original narrative can heavily influence us if we run into it too often #bianca and jaune are utterly facinating characters who work with a set of tropes we would LOVE to do justice to #but unfortunately people who like bianca and jaune are the kind of people who think they did nothing wrong #so we can't just like. Talk About Them And Whats Going On There #without running face first into people that genuinely believe theyre a Good And Loving Family Who've Done Nothing Wrong In Their Lives #but we feel a lot like if we go into depicting them without making “THIS IS IN FACT BAD” incredibly blatantly obvious #that we will begin running into people who DO NOT have the prerequisite knowledge and will take it WAY off from intended

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brainjuicey · 11 months

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my mind is so funny for making me relive my worst nightmares and memories everytime I go to sleep

#my uncle is threatening to harm me and my family again but especially me this time for some reason but this time we're making a case #and if it goes to trial ill have to testify even though he hasnt come up to the house and ive never seen the text messages #and i have all my end of year assignments due rn and im dying from stress #and i still havent passed my drivers license its all so #overwhelming #and then i have to go and dream about the christmas i went to visit my bff and ex in germany #and crashing at my bffs house he got drunk and assaulted me over and over and in my sleep as well #and then i went to my exs and we stayed w her family for xmas eve and they were horrible to me and then we broke up that night #and she just cried forever and said i deserved better and i just sat there in bed like how did i even get here totally detached #you invite me to xmas with my family in another country only to realise that you'll never be mentally stable enough to move and be with me #and its been like 7 months since i made that decision and you could've told me something before? but you didn't?#life was good when i was the one making all the sacrifices. right.#life was good when i did all the work. but as soon as you have to enforce your own boundaries its too hard.#do you ever believe someone when they say theyre getting better? and then look like a fool?#every now and then i remember something about that relationship that makes me fucking angry #its all very. art installation i just cant help myself

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raethethey · 8 months

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i feel like my friends are ghosting me..

#my partner and i stopped dating so theyre my ex now #but it was mutual and we talked and we're still good friends #it was literally so logical too like im asexual theyre very much not #im very romantic they think theyre aro or at least demiro #we we're on opposite sides of the spectrum #and they just couldn't develop long lasting romantic feelings for me and i was okay that #still am #just bc you dont love romantically doesnt mean you cant love #but they just liked me as a friend and i respect that #plus i myself was debating the continuation of the relationship due to this a month before they brought it up #im an overthinker thats the only reason it took so long #main point: they were kimda my link to this certain group #of really great ppl! i love them a lot #and they talk to me and think of me #but i never get invited to hang outs #i see texts in the group chat that say “cant make it have fun tonight”#and i have no idea what theyre talking abt #i feel ghosted #and i really hope its not bc me and this person stopped dating #bc ive made sure they all know it was mutual and we are still friends #its literally just the same but no kissing or holding hands anymore #like nothing really changed yk?#i get theyre closer that's not an issue #but im friends with them too #a larger friend group hangout and i dont even hear of it #im not trying to say i should be privy to all plans no #im just saying as a friend i feel left out #longevity of friendships shouldn't matter in that kind of situation #right?#am i just being a pissy boy?

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formula-fun · 1 year

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#would like to finish my fucking fic but i need to just rant about how insane architecture school is #there are 50 people in my year and we're making this book thing together #have to present the book thing today #theres 8 groups and each person made a handful of pages #each group handles 1 topic #and then theres a formatting team which is a representative from each team #so that we can all coordinate on the formatting and hten go back to our groups to tell them like what fonts to use and give them layouts #shit like that #i am on that team #which means i have to nitpick my team and make sure their pages look the same as the other people's pages and compile them #we have ?? 30 something pages of diagrams and drawings? 8 teams so the book is probably 250ish pages long atm #thats due today and after were done presenting were getting a second study to do which is due on monday (same length)#we have to present that one too #and then we have an essay due tuesday (3 pages) a site analysis due thursday (that ones short #another due next tuesday (again 3 pages for theory (gag))#and were getting our studio assignment after mondays presentation #where we have to design a building and we have a few months to do it #and this weekend i have a networking event and a site visit so i have like 1 day to work and 1 day to do those things #oh and we have readings in the midst of all this #not sure the word count on that but we have usually 4 a week and theyre usually each 20 ish pages long which isnt that bad but you know #oh shit i also have to go to mr theory mans office hours on monday bcause i NEED that 4.0 man i need it #anyway if i am not writing i promise you i PROMISE you i am thinking about how much i want to and what i will do next #there is just ?????? so much shit to do #also my structures class is during the quali today so im just gonna. watch it in there. multitask. priorities #tldr dont study architecture #all these f1 drivers who wanted to be architects? would they have survived is my question. the answer may shock you #td

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