#clarifying

[bookgeekgrrl]

#this guy is like my parents' extremely cunty labradoodle named Frannie #who was adorable but SO ANNOYING #he woke me up every day by making tippy taps next to my bed until I woke up and let him out and fed him #miss that asshole tbh #the pitt is a slapstick tragedy

(wanted frannie to get the exposure he deserved so i'm peer reviewing @leupagus' tags)

We love the self awareness king

[ley-med]

Welp. Things get weird with the anesthesia department from time to time. Today a patient, left unsupervised for 5 whole minutes in their surgical ward, chewed their central line out...

[sugarydeceit]

agoraphobia ableism

small rant. like. heavily.

The only reason I'm answering this is because I think it's genuinely harmful and stereotypical to think agoraphobia means you can't leave your house.

Agoraphobia at its basis is paranoia about not having familiarity around you and the intense anxiety that something bad will happen to you that you can't escape from if you're not somewhere that you're familiar and comfortable with.

My job included being around people I always knew, having my phone on me at all times (my familiarity and safety from danger) and was in areas with constant surveillance because we did our events outside of established public businesses. Because of the trauma of my abusive ex and the additional trauma of the car crash I had in September as the passenger, I find genuine anxiety and severely deep fear going somewhere I'm not familiar with or have people I know. I can never leave my house without my phone even to go and get the mail, because the idea of something bad happening to me outside of my own home even just on the sidewalk is enough to paralyze me if I don't have enough charge in my phone.

Agoraphobia is an intense and genuinely debilitating disorder. I don't like that I'm inside all the time but I also know that at the end of the day I prefer the safety. In very extreme cases of agoraphobia the only safety someone feels they have is their own home.

For me, it's if people that I don't have around me aren't near me, or if I don't have communication with something that can get me an emergency service. I was trapped In held hostage in an apartment for a week while being assaulted daily, at times multiple times a day. And at one point I was trapped in a car with him without any help and at one point he had threatened to lock me in the car while we were in the middle of New Orleans where I had no idea where we were while he had control of my phone.

The doctors explained that I was a conditioned over that course of time as little as it was to fear my environment around me to an extreme degree unless I feel there are safety nets around me.

For the first two to three months I was so paranoid about leaving my house because my friends told me they're not sure what he's capable of. Even to this day the police telling never go outside by myself at night because of all of the anonymous messages I've gotten.

It's extremely stereotypical and even ableist to say that agoraphobia means that because you leave your house means you're not agoraphobic, or because you do things that aren't near your house all the time. I'm gonna just assume that you're not educated on the subject enough because even I wasn't educated enough to understand it until I was diagnosed. I refuse to sit in a car unless it's locked.

And especially after the car crash I refuse to get in a car for longer than a very short amount of time unless it's with someone I very explicitly trust, because I was the passenger in the car crash. Even when with someone I trust if we suddenly pause the car abruptly or hit a red light or a stop sign or something I get an immediate panic attack. Agoraphobia comes in many forms.

There's no denying that there's extreme cases where you can never leave your house because of how strong your agoraphobia is But that isn't the only thing that it manifests as or shows itself as as far as symptoms. So long as I feel like I have my phone or someone near me that's familiar then I feel safe, and even then sometimes it gets so bad that day that I don't feel comfortable enough leaving my home. It depends on how I'm feeling that day with my anxiety and paranoia.

I've genuinely turned down social gatherings and meeting up with friends and doing things this year because of how bad it's been. I would make excuses because I just feel like safer in my own home sleeping or watching a movie or being with my partner and friends online or just drawing on my tablet that night, because there's a voice in the back of my brain saying maybe something bad could happen to you that you can't control. Maybe someone could hurt you. And the reason that brain goes there is because there's people in that event I haven't met. And I was very violently harassed online that day abt people finding my address. Or that week. You don't know what people are going through and how it affects them. Please don't assume a mental health disorder so bad as agoraphobia that you know what it actually is.

[realasukarkreutz]

i found out about an interesting Internet term today. the term is "Shipping". it is a term used to refer to when a person desires for two people, usually people who are originally from fictional media, to be romantically involved. who would've known that this all started with Mulder and Scully from The X-Files?

but i wanted to talk about this "shipping" because i had noticed some interesting activity going on. i have come to this realization that my followers seem to have started shipping me with other people that i know.

i don't wish to be involved in that, not only do i regularly have my body rejuvenated to that of a teenagers, but i'm also over 200 years old. It just doesn't work out, sorry. playing match-maker is a tale as old as time, but leave me out it.

[spaciebabie]

I AM NOT A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[odiabonecessario]

I really appreciate actual discussions here, I really really do and I should thank everyone who spent their time showing me a different perspective without wanting to convince me I'm wrong. I'm always in a certain danger of falling for unfairly dehumanizing discourses like I did but meeting people (especially here) who genuinely tried to explain it to me without being cocky or assuming I'm trying to do evil still gives me a bit more hope we can improve as a society

[carcin0-8]

hooow am i single. still.

[springysprongy]

Idk man

Tired asf

[cece693]

Hi~ I would love to ask a few questions:

1) Are your requests open?

2) Are you okay with writing smut with top male reader?

3) Could I request a CREATURE male reder? An angel, werewolf, demon, etc.

(Those are just questions, not a request)

Thank you so much in advance for the answer! Have a nice day/night. 💕

My requests are open, but it takes a while for me to get through them as my fanfics take a while for me to write and real life gets in the way. This is the number of asks I currently have collecting dust (not including the ones I'm already working on/completed)

I'm okay with writing smut but I will warn you that I'm not very good at it. But practice makes perfect :)

Yes, I think that writing for a creature male reader is more fun than vanilla humans. So, go wild with the creature species. (If you do submit an ask)

Thanks for the questions!

[kindnessisstillhere]

Curious

We ask a lot of questions,

Sometimes deliberately,

Wanting an answer,

Sometimes out of pleasantries,

Small talk to seem polite;

They're still questions.

I've taken to asking more,

For confirmation again,

To encourage others to ask.

I'm not seen as dumb,

As sometimes I worry,

But praised for double checking,

Occasionally given leeway

If the questions become too many.

Apparently it's my stress indicator.

But curiousity isn't bad

And neither is clarity.

So please ask your questions,

Clarifying or curious,

Small talk or learning,

Keep on asking.

[causenessus]

i am sorry for the absolute spam of notifs you got from me but i just caught up on love notes and it’s! so! good!

AAA do not apologize at all omg you're so cool i am so honored to have you reading my works i literally admire you so much thank you so so much!!

[palatteflags]

Are OCs allowed, in regards to character-themed things?

Yeah, totally! If you have a faceclaim that's fine, otherwise I'd need a kind of description and themes

[queerstudiesnatural]

not together as in dating, just making music together

[realasukarkreutz]

since it is pride month, a month where all lgbtqia+ identities are celebrated, i just wanted to let my followers know that i identify with the "agender" label.

[sadgirlautumn]

“kids spend too much time on their devices” well what else are they supposed to do? there’s no corner shops with pinball machines in them on every corner anymore. there’s no malls or stores in small towns for teens to hang out in without being suspected of shoplifting or kicked out for loitering. sidewalks are too broken for them to ride their bikes and there’s no bike lane in the street to make it safe for them. i just don’t understand where they expect these kids to go when they keep taking places away from them. and yes having no safe public places for them is what leads a lot of teens into addiction if they end up at a place where people aren’t truly looking out for them.