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[flockofdoves]

thinking about tara working at a build a bear in juxtaposition with all the literal and metaphorical stuff in the movie connecting understanding of the self to ones insides/owens line about how trying to think about sexuality makes him feel like someone dug his insides out with a shovel and theres nothing there/the cutting open scene

they literally put hearts in those bears

[flockofdoves]

i saw 3 pink footed geese together in massachusetts last fall :)

it's kind of disappointing that vagrant birds never come in pairs. like, if i were a little five-striped sparrow & i wanted to go party in completely the wrong habitat for a season, i think it'd be very romantic to bring a cutie along with me. we'd have matching outfits and everything for when the paparazzi show up. instead it's always just one lone chripy boi who's absofuckinglutely awful at reading a map

[existentialscreaming]

Having a period while being disabled and trans has got to be a form of torture.

[macabre-halloween]

[flockofdoves]

people twisting the language of intuitive eating into an intentional weight loss diet thing makes me so fucking angry. how do you not see the contradiction in saying stuff like 'i'm doing intermittent fasting with intuitive eating to lose weight.' like oh okay you're ignoring your body's intuition for 2/3s the day and then banking on reduced hunger cues from chronic restriction to give you a calorie deficit enough to lose weight in the remaining part of the day...

like sure i guess thats a step up from you restricting for the entire day but lets not fucking fool ourselves about what it is you're doing. that's still an eating disorder

[flockofdoves]

for a shorter summary of rishika:

what if you were from the future, but only realized you were trans once going to the past!

what if you made a drastic choice in desperation, trying to save one world by giving up all hope on your original future!

what if you had to go through all the normal struggles of self discovery as a teenager outside of any context you’ve ever known, with only a foggy and fractured memory of your past in the future, and a very inexperienced understanding of your present in the past!

also what if you went to party city and bought a piccolo cape out of some vague sense of affection for a retro show you don’t really remember at all anymore and then dyed it purple so you could secretly be a superhero as a 17 year old with no money

i've been playing her for half a year now and have had such a blast! i'd love to talk about her if anyone has any questions too! :)

go vote for rishika!!!!

Why you should vote for each of them and full art below!

Rishika Díaz (by @flockofdoves for Masks)

(art by @flockofdoves)

in the year 202X, local Halcyon City newspapers report occasional spottings of a new superhero in town, a teenage girl with portal and teleportation powers calling herself “The Future Violent”.

in a different timeline some ambiguous amount of generations later, capitalism and global warming have gotten even worse, and superheroes are recruited to serve the interests of a few big corporations, who now even more explicitly are in control of the state and have a monopoly on legitimate violence. a 17 year old pores over a very old family photo, family from his dad’s side generations ago, smiling happily in their living room. he hopes that maybe, just maybe, he can take his ability to teleport anywhere he has a clear sensory grasp on to its most extreme, and do something he’s never done before, travel to the the past. to him it feels like the only hope at saving the world.

somehow, they succeed! they pop into their ancestor’s living room right after the picture was taken, aged picture in hand. in stuttering through an explanation in a post time travel haze, the name they’ve always gone by is misheard as Rishika, and on a whim, they go along with it.

rishika’s family (who are now referred to as her aunt, uncle, grandma, and nieces and nephews) fully accept rishika into their home. rishika is open with them from the beginning about their goals of stopping evil corporations, which is all well and good to their family as long as he’s safe about it, but he still needs to go to school and get decent grades while he’s at it.

using their powers for something as extreme as time travel has scrambled their brain a bit. their memory of the future is very spotty. in their meandering first attempts at stopping evil corporations, they end up encountering two other teens with powers from their school, and begin to work as a superhero, getting involved with situations not directly related to preventing their future, developing a costume and superhero name, and omitting all this while talking with family so as to not worry them too much.

when the first news reports of Rishika’s team’s activity refer to The Future Violent as a girl, for some reason rishika really enjoys that. she might as well have her teammates always refer to her as such when in costume, after all it’ll help make it harder to find out her secret identity as a boy!

when not spending increasing amounts of time embroiled in heroic situations, rishika loves getting to listen to long lost recordings of their favorite “retro” emo bands, running a fanblog for future revolutionary martyrs and now famous on the local scene band made up entirely of superheroes, The Gawth Chix, and modifying clothes in baffling ways (her friends aren’t sure what is future fashion and what is just rishika being rishika).

coming from their even more abysmal capitalist propaganda filled future education, history is by far their favorite school subject, but their history teacher is never quite sure what to do with the combination of their clear enthusiasm and huge gaps in basic historical knowledge.

rishika is open about casually mentioning they came from the future, but theres no real precedent for that, and most people just dismiss it as some sort of weird joke.

between their gaps in memory and knowledge both of past and future, juggling a new and dramatically different school system, a new family life, and a new identity as a superhero, and the nagging but vague feelings about identity starting to emerge for them, rishika has a lot of growing and reflecting to do, even as she feels the constant weight of saving the entire world on her back!

(a note on pronouns: if its not obvious, i intend rishika to be a trans girl or nonbinary transfem person who has not really consciously connected that for herself yet, but who is on the way to soon realizing that. in school and at home she uses he pronouns by default, but uses she pronouns in her superhero identity. her closest friends are also her superhero teammates, and they have started to occasionally slip up and use she and they pronouns even sometimes outside of superhero contexts. despite how this technically could help people connect her hero and personal identities, she hasn’t corrected this any time its happened, instead just privately going like .’whoa..’ when referring to her as a character, i mostly use she and sometimes they, but he can contextually make sense too like how i used it here. so feel free to use your judgement when referring to her)

Benedikt Ignatov (by @19orionis for Dungeons & Dragons)

(art by @19orionis)

Benedikt has learned not to fly off the handle very often, appearing relaxed and even at times sleepy, making his disastrous slip-up (more on that below) all the more difficult for him to think about. In daily life, he’s a chill, artsy guy, who, aside from living off the land, occasionally ventured into town to sell his colorful work. He says the occasional weird, funny thing and would be a great guy to smoke with. Despite not having as much in the way of physical strength as one might expect, his tall, large stature lends him skill in quiet intimidation. Initially coming off as a chaotic neutral, he does find fulfillment in listening to and protecting those who need it.

After being robbed and accidentally decimating his home woods in a firey rage of his own making, mortified, Benedikt fled his home continent by stowing away on a ship, and traveling to a new frontier where he is currently posing as a naturalist researcher, using his sketching abilities and background as a forester to make the act all the more convincing. As a totally human sorcerer with wild magic, he’s never had any idea where his powers came from, and is using the adventuring opportunity to hopefully gain some insight on what he is. And maybe find some community along the way. He’s always wanted a nicer family.

Aurora Byford (by @scattereda for Monster of the Week)

(art by @rosenkranz-does-things)

Aurora is 50's america's most normalest woman who's definitely not actually a changeling eating people in the woods. She was having a great time amongus-ing the group of monster hunters she joined to stay under the radar until the world's worst man dragged her to the moon with him (which will hopefully be exploding very shortly)

[flockofdoves]

my god. it is the bane of my fucking existence how often i see peoples interpretations of early sunsets over monroeville that assume either that:

the couple featured are the demolition lovers

one of them got turned into a vampire

they are both white

they are a straight couple

its crazy how like. this song is directly engaging with peter and rogers storyline in dawn of the dead but instead people are constantly parroting a much more boring and frankly just entirely unsubstantiated interpretation instead

[flockofdoves]

hoooly shit...

[flockofdoves]

i'm almost done with 0079 and i really want to get back to iron blooded orphans but also more immediately i really just want to understand more universal century stuff so im kinda like. ok after this i will watch zeta gundam and then zz and then chars counterattack and then maybe like war in the pocket and hathaway and the origin manga and whatever else i've heard various people mention enjoying. and Then i will get back to ibo and also be ready for gquuuuuux...

[flockofdoves]

:)!!

this was fun! when i was younger i was so obsessed with looking for four leaf clovers i wanna look for them more again nowadays. ive found like 40 or so before

anyone wanna another play a game? ^_^ lmk if u found it!

[flockofdoves]

ED stuff is always so weird because i know i've been in similar places to a lot of the shit i see and i empathize and want people to get better and know that probably requires some level of patience but also being a mostly recovered fat person kind of just makes that so intolerable of a position to put myself in most of the time. so freaky to try to gently nudge people in my life away from disordered eating or even just very basic easily provable facts they have misconceptions around wrt nutrition or body weight thanks to diet culture or just lightly talk about my own experience with an eating disorder and see the mask slip of how on some level they see me as some repulsive fat freak they want to avoid being like who's clearly fooled myself into thinking my gluttonous personal choices were some form of recovery

so i mostly just don't become friends with people if there's a single whiff of diet culture on them but it just really sucks when i have preexisting friendships and people suddenly spring this stuff on me with some new extreme weight loss diet or whatever. kind of blindsiding when i've been candid in the past about my own experiences like i guess literally nothing i've ever said about this has meant anything to you. i know the connection isn't always clear to people but i'd like to hope for some awareness. like what do you expect me to fucking say. congratulations you're not fat like me and have an eating disorder.

after a few times of gently challenging i've started just literally not responding..

but online on forums and stuff while i try not to waste my time ranting, when i do give people responses i end up just being mildly aggressive about it. idk. not always the method but i guess that did genuinely help me snap out of it when i was at my worst, and i just can't stand for fat people being an acceptable target in the name of being gentle with people entrenched in this shit anymore

[flockofdoves]

jesus fucking christ. just went grocery shopping and because of a combo of

i already have vegetables and protein at home for my meals this week

im leaving on a two week trip in a couple days

this is a different store than i usually go to so i was curious about a few snacks i never see

i got mostly pantry items and snacks and frozen stuff for meals im planning to make things easy and tide me over right after i get back from my trip

but right when i was finishing paying and saying thank you the cashier turned to the bagger and said “si este es todo lo que come, no me sorprende que sea tan grosa’

fucking. whatever

[flockofdoves]

long story of how i even got here but this post has been haunting me since i first saw it yesterday

the obsession with shipping sakura with the gayest boy around apparently extends so far that it doesnt even stop at characters in her own story…

[flockofdoves]

literalyl

watching the black sails season 1 dvd special features is so funny. all of the actors in costume just going like ITS SO FUCKING EPIC AND GRITTY DUDE and then occasionally cutting to jonathan steinberg being like And of course you must understand that in cutting away from the mythological image of the pirate we choose to focus on how the economic system works against them, subjugates them, and how they're forced to then fight back against that. and then you cut back to one of the actors going WHAT A HUGE TELEVISION SHOW IT'S MOMENTOUS AND AWESOME

[flockofdoves]

i think my biggest take that i know doesnt hold up to any scrutiny but i still cant help but get so annoyed about is that i think everyone (especially when written from the perspective of an english speaker) needs to stop doing awful attempts at spelling out word pronunciations and just needs to fucking learn IPA.

or at least learn a little bit about other dialects [of english] and stop centering whatever regionally dominant dialect they speak as the fucking center of the world and some neutral standard that everyone can understand a pronunciation reference to

[flockofdoves]

i really do want to become a guy who wears button ups again, aesthetically a lot of when i feel most at home with my fashion sense is when wearing button ups, and even if graphic tees are fun i wear too many proportionally for my tastes, but also until i get top surgery that means sports bras or binders for most to fit comfortably, which just kinda sucks as a fat person with a stupid chest size and a skin disorder worsened by wearing those things