#creator breakdown

[zosonils]

an aspect of shadow's trauma that i've been thinking about a lot since the sa2 replay is how fucked his perspective of gerald must be after everything, especially assuming he was family to shadow just as much as maria was [which i do every day]. the man who raised you, created you from nothing but tissue samples and energy and hope, the man who could have easily decided you were a simple thing to be used and yet welcomed you into his family as easily as his own granddaughter, who treated you as a person when so many others treated you as a lab rat or a weapon or another soon-to-be-failed prototype, in a moment of unfathomable despair, decided you were to be a tool that would carry out his final plan. perhaps treating you this way was another symptom of his mental breakdown, perhaps deep down he's always seen you as nothing more than a thing to reach his goals with. you will never know, because he is dead. every comforting memory you have of him, every time he encouraged your curiosity or stayed with you during a test he could have observed from afar or told you how proud of you he was, forever tainted by the thought that it could have all been a lie. a variable in an experiment, a means to an end. how would you ever trust anyone ever again man i'm in shreds

[lovesickeros]

lord its so dark in here the sahara desert of tsaritsa content you are like a shining oasis. your characterisation of her compels me & mihoyo would be hard pressed to top it imo.!! caaaaan i humbly request yr thoughts on her first meeting w a reader of any kind, or maybe even multiple kinds (sagau, sagau god au, isekai, etc) if you so desire...

it really is like a desert here. being the fan of a character we aren't getting until the last damn nation is driving me up a wall but i will persevere bc if nothing else i support morally bankrupt women in media. we r in a severe drought over here but i do my best. unfortunately nothing i say is ever coherent so pull out your translation notes its abt 2 be messy

also this got out of hand but thats bc first meetings w the tsaritsa are tricky to write + a LOT of her characterization lies in deeper exploration then just surface level yknow...NOT A DIG AT YOU this is just my excuse for rambling. gently pats the tsaritsa she can hold so much complexity i do not have the word count to delve into it completely :]

gonna talk cult au for a bit here though because that's 99% of my content. and honestly? she thrives in sub au's of the cult au like villain au + imposter au. it's basically made for her. i mean, early days, the imposter au had been going around for a little while but one of the first few ideas was the Fatui taking reader in so like. it kinda technically actually was. pretty sure cult au Tsaritsa popped up because of the imposter au. a lot of it's writers kinda left though which. man am i getting old or.

anyway.

there isn't much of a chance her first impression is all that positive. at best it's usually neutral, imo, but rarely if ever positive. specifically because i view the Tsaritsa as someone who isn't as fanatical as most of the acolytes typically are towards the creator. she's not exactly going to worship the ground you walk on unlike a certain geo lizard. which is partially why i think she thrives in the sub au's i mentioned.

imposter au, for example. she meets you at your lowest. there's no gaudy extravagance or pampering from the acolytes waiting for you because your own acolytes have turned on you. for all intents and purposes you aren't a "god" at all. which is why i don't think she meshes well with normal cult au reader. the Fatui are made up of outcasts, basically, and imposter au slots right in just perfectly. you're weak, at your lowest, when you meet the Fatui in the imposter au. and the Fatui can help you, too.

a mutual exchange, really. the Tsaritsa sees a tool she can use to one up the rest of the nations and especially Archons, and she has no qualms about you using her and the Fatui in turn. you both want something out of it, after all. whether you just want to be safe from the rest of the acolytes, or you want revenge, or whatever else..she'll give you the power to fulfill it, and she gains the strongest piece on the chessboard when all is said and done.

the best way i can describe the first meeting is "practical", i suppose. she sees an opportunity in you. the ultimate gamble. because if she "saves" you, and you dont trust anyone else because they tried to kill you, well..she holds all the cards, doesn't she?

but the Tsaritsa, imo, is just as capable of being just as fanatical towards you as anyone else. she just won't worship you as the creator. but as yourself? clawing your way back to your divine power and taking back what belongs to you? the Tsaritsa is, to me, a character who's character flourishes in long-term fics more because she changes a LOT between "just met reader" and after having been with reader for some time. she's practically apathetic at the beginning but a lot of her character, in my characterization, shines through LONG after the first meeting.

[transformers-mosaic]

Transformers: Mosaic #641 - "The Master"

Originally posted on March 19th, 2012

Story - Martin Fisher Art - Rui Onishi Colours - Javier Reyes Edits - Dave Reynolds

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wada sez: This is Martin Fisher’s penultimate Mosaic strip. As always, having one of the greatest Transformers artists of all time on art duties goes a long way, but this is a remarkably entertaining take on the antipathy between Motormaster and the rest of the Stunticons! While the characters of Wildrider, Dead End, and Breakdown struggle to come through in their brief lines, Drag Strip exclaiming “I always win!” is a great expression of his Budiansky bio. See below for clean inks.

[sukibenders]

Being a woc fan of Bridgerton can be a struggle, especially when it comes to liking the poc characters on the show, especially the woc. Like I remember when s1 came out and the blatant microaggressions and just plain racism coming from this fandom was atrocious. You had people spewing very hateful things about Charlotte, Marina, and Simon and undermining the latter two's pain and trauma at the hands of the white characters---Marina was treated terribly by the Featheringtons and, whether you like Penelope or not, you cannot deny that she also played a part by releasing that letter to the Ton and Simon was violated Daphne no matter how people try to spin the story to offer her some form of sympathy (it still blows my mind that people would want to though).

S2 is just as bad (not even including how they changed the Sharma family's storyline than how it was in the books when that wasn't necessary) and the racist undertones many of the fans have towards Mary and Edwina (as well as Kate but for her it's carries more brown woman needing to be saved by a white man when Anthony is involved because a lot of you all in the fandom are quick to use this trope such as "oh, he's the only one who truly knows her"). The lack of screen time for this family really ends up hurting them to but even with that, whether you like Mary and Edwina or not, it would be a lie to deny the racism a lot in the fandom hold towards them (and how that falls onto the actresses because it was very apparent how many in the fandom couldn't let two Desi women shine without having to bring down the other and Netflix played into that too for drama) and paints every small thing they do as being terrible crimes but in the same breath will not have the same smoke for the Bridgertons, who have their own set of problems (but because they are also the main family, among other things, they are provided more grace without consequences).

[thinkpink212]

Hey, not sure if you’ve answered a similar question. How does one come to terms with the situations they are in and learn to move on to a better and successful life? This also includes feeling behind in life, when compared to friends and family or even dealing with jealousy. Sorry for the long ask.

Learn to respect yourself, your time and your journey. Learn to be gentle with yourself, to understand that you have had a life that’s unique to you. Where you started, what support you have or haven’t had alongside opportunities are vastly different from your those around you.

Learn to work with what you have, create the goal and stick to it, not through hardship but love. Get better for you because you belive you deserve better. Success is whatever you decide is sucess. To me, any woman making it past 25 without a child is sucessfull because at some point we didn’t have choices. Zoom out and look at your life in conjunction to your ancestors. Where you came from, your parents, and what’s available to you now. You can be and do whatever you want - please belive me when I say this. Comparison isn’t only a thief of joy, it’s a robber of relationships. Instead of envy, jealousy or comparison within the negatives, find inspiration. Someone succeeds, think to yourself wow, they did it despite it all, so can I. The pie will never get too small, you will never be too late for anything, you will never miss out because you’re in your own race. So please, take your time to get to know yourself, your why’s, what needs to change in order for you to get there (discipline, dedication, motivation, less distractions, more support, more money, more mental stability — and then go get it)

we are so much more stronger and more capable then we think. There are people who root for you in silence, who have you as their inspiration (even from a short or one time interaction) Whatever happens will always pas, and then you’ll have tomorrow to try again. 🫶🏾 Hope this is helpful.

[steakcreature]

Good mental health? What good mental health?

[honkytonka]

so is anyone still holding out hope that mr. smelt is knockout’s secret holoform, or did we all collectively give up on that the second we laid eyes on him

[tarraxahum]

Oh I thought interacting with your first ever hyperfixation was bad.

Apparently bumping into your longest one that came with an active and extensive fandom experience attached is even worse. 'Cause not only do you miss these characters terribly, you also miss being around so many people all the time, online or offline. Being known. Somewhat appreciated (sue me for liking it when my ideas and creations elicit a wide reaction and/or have an impact). That ish even got me a job and I felt like the most special motherfucker in the world who had her life figured out (and for a hot second there I think I was).

Now I'm post-severe-burnout, broke, my favorite characters are mostly dead, my 'generation' of said fandom all moved on (me included, usually) and if I ever draw anything again I wouldn't know where to post it 'cause I purged all my socials. The only thing I managed to keep intact is a few friendships, which, THANK FUCK (thank fuck they didn't give up on my ass either). The rest of the connections? Blew it, burnt it.

It's like. They're just characters. But they're also a big and better chunk of my life when I last felt I was someone. Does that make any sense.

[fomar]

i have been informed that having a very strong love/hate relationship with a comic is like a rite of passage for comic fans

[clownkiwi]

who wouldve guessed that my two faves coming out of yttd (so far) would be these two

[churchydraws]

Madcat and Blue have infected me with an idea for an au where the main crew are awful to their younger siblings

[lovesickeros]

(Anon from yesterday ⭐)

Would you mind showing your Furina plushie when you will get it? (Or if you already did, I am interested)

(love how you wrote the small drabble in tags I was kicking my feet reading it. Poor baby doesn't know how highly Sagau and other Archons are thinking of her.)

(forgive my mistakes, English not my native language.)

i don't know when she will be coming (probably not until feb at this rate) but i got her from plushshop if you wanna see it!!! it's part of their meow collection.

also your English is fine djsvshdjjd I am not immune to writing whole essays in the tags though its a habit atp....I can't escape it

[transformers-mosaic]

Spotlight: Stunticons - Covers & Page 1

Originally posted on January 28th, 2012

Story - Josh van Reyk Art - Jeremy Tiongson Colours - Josh Perez Letters - HdE Cover A Art - Andrew Griffith Cover A Colors - Joana Lafuente Cover B - Kris Smith Pin-Up Art - The Boo

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wada sez: This week, I’m going to be re-serialising Josh van Reyk’s full-length fancomic, Spotlight: Stunticons! Conceived in the same vein as Transformers: War Journal, the comic is a big collaboration between a bunch of different Mosaic contributors. This time, there’s a much smaller set of creatives, with Josh van Reyk handling the entire script, and each artist team contributing the pages devoted to a specific Stunticon. The Stunticons are a favorite of van Reyk’s, and he’d written several Mosaic strips focused on them in the run-up to this project’s release: in order, these were “Hail To The King”, “Forgive And Forget”, and “The Bigger Picture”. This first page serves to re-establish the team, communicating their simple character traits: Wildrider is reckless, Breakdown is paranoid, Dead End is depressed, Drag Strip is a try-hard, and Motormaster hates all of them. We briefly see Hound, Ironhide, and Starscream in the background, all using their Cybertronian designs from The War Within. Now, for the rest of this series, I’m actually going to be shuffling the pages around a bit, which I realise is bad archival work but which is logistically necessary (and shouldn’t affect the story too much due to its already-unconventional structure); if you want to read the story exactly as it was originally published, visit the deviantART gallery above. In case you were wondering, “CWP” is van Reyk’s own brand, Choose Wisely Productions, which I’m not sure is a real company. Artist Boo had to drop out of the project at an early stage due to his IDW workload, but contributed two pin-ups for fans to color; you can find those below along with clean art for Griffith’s cover and some preview panels.

[arcaneyouth]

this shit really makes it hard to want to do anything to distract myself

[7seeingstars7]

hhhhhh

I have pulled four consecutive all nighters and I had some coffee and it made me tireder, the coffee isn't cofefing I'm sueing God 🖕

[viralarcadian]

remember when sonic.exe was like. inescapable among middle schoolers on the internet and you had all these kiddos making their own versions w different sonic characters

wonder what made kids drop it like a hot potato