#crosscode sidwell

[cikrovat]

you know those underdog story's about the child who was abandoned by their wealthy father/mother, and they had to start from the ground zero, essentially earning everything by yourself?

it's rumored that Sidwell is like that, too, but no one knows for sure. Maybe just another facade to his business, a pretty face someone might believe in

[lesserl]

SIX TIMES THE GOOBERS!!!!

lil gang

[buttercatrho]

I think Dabu would freak Shizuka out

[inexplicably-spookified]

Lea… do you remember what a clear sky looks like at night?

Out in the countryside, no town or city nearby?

I hope one day you will…

[parab0mb]

Hey actually what would Vena being friendly with Lea even look like (if possible)

Mmm, something like this, I'd imagine ;D

I think I was pretty on the nose in assuming Vena wouldn't be all that keen on trusting a "fake" being like Lea (even more so now that I actually understand the lore of Psychopomp better) but after her metamorphosis and being able to "see through the lies" and all that, perhaps she'd finally be able to recognize Lea as a kindred spirit that was placed in a similar situation to her (plopped into a fake world and lied to).

I don't know if she'd be interested in pursuing a long-standing friendship, but I can see her at least taking the time to treat Lea to an evening of bashing Sidwell's head in with a hammer (see above).

Lea is still thoroughly put off by this lady but I suppose she would at least appreciate Vena attempting to be nice (I think her complicated relationship with Sidwell would mean she isn't exactly gung-ho about the whole brutal hammer murder thing though).

[girl-who-says-hi]

Hey Guys Am I Onto Something?

[artlipsis]

some crocsoda stuff i missed

[hexacasts]

I love the concept behind miss Normal "Grace" Pentafist and was wondering if it's okay if I take some inspiration from her for a crosscode fic I'm writing! (Specifically the idea of a female Sidwell Evotar whose personality acts as a foil to C'tron's.)

Yes of course omg the more evil women in the world the better...I think theres even one other female avatar that we see in the clone torture room if you want a design to steal :P

My only stipulation is that you have to tell me when you publish this fic bc I want to read it immediatelyyyyyyyy

[randomname3]

I wonder if lea had a name before sergey found her files in the game or if he came up with that name on that spot

[buttercatrhoscribbles]

ok read the new hexacast and my cringe activated

(mfer on the left is @/hexacasts oc who is a normal pentafist)

[evidentlyhuman]

CrossCode full game and dlc spoiler rambling:

Whenever I’m thinking about Luke and Lukas there’s always a corner of my brain thinking about the fact that the moment Luke reneges his claim to the name Lukas exactly follows after Lukas responding to the Super Lukas joke with “I’ll be True Lukas, then.’”

Like. Kinda fucked up thing for Lukas to say when you stop and think about it. C’mon man that was a pretty big fuckup. He could’ve used a nickname in CrossWorlds instead of making Luke give up his name for his entire existence. Yeah it’d be more confusing for him and his irl friends but they could make it work for the sake of not making him rename himself.

(I still like him though to be clear. I like him more for the mistake than if he’d handled it well honestly. What can I say I’m a Shizuka fan.)

I also keep thinking about that scene where Lea dreams of receiving her name. Like, we know the Lea of five years later so she’s super used to being named Lea, but I just keep picturing that moment. She was just activated. Barring the language impairment she’d still be pretty close to a perfect clone of a younger Shizuka at that point. No memories, floating with no idea what’s happening to her. And then this guy just fuckin’ names you?! I keep wondering, did she ever feel something off at first? Ever suspect this was wrong?

Did she ever remember that her name was Shizuka? She spent a fair bit of time around Satoshi, as I understand it. That would cause her to regain memories much faster! Did she ever wonder why her own brother wouldn’t tell her her own name? And even if she remembered it herself, she wouldn’t be able to tell anyone she remembered her name, I don’t think ‘name’ is a concept she would be capable of learning a word for at that point in her life.

Also I should really do a separate post about all my many thoughts about how “C’Tron” is presented as just one of the accounts he changes between and how that must fuck his sense of self. But that’s a whole other thing so for now: I also muse about how C’Tron has so so many names and every last one of them has been a fake. He, seemingly, does not even remember what his/Sidwell’s real name ever was.

Now the one name he chose to befriend interrogation target 78 under has stuck to him permanently. But he’s known it’s fake for just about as long as he’s been alive. Did it stop feeling that way just because it’s the last name he has left?

Does he even have a name real anymore?

[cikrovat]

spoilers for crosscode

while writing down my dream I had an urge to just tell my thoughts about Sidwell, because this man doesn't leave my head. this man is probably the most gray villane I've seen in a while, but the more I read everyone's else's thoughts about him, I'm thinking "am I weird of thinking differently about that guy?"

so, Sidwell, the evil person without sympathy or any remorse. or is he? we know for a fact that he didn't cared for any other evotars, using them as a profitable business, source of income

everyone but one - Lea. He gave her name, he cared enough to show his "face" because he didn't wanted to scare her, he cared enough to teach her, to spend time with her, to talk about himself, to comfort her. But reading wiki I just see

Despite this, he didn't seem to care about her being deleted for completely malfunctioning.

what do you mean he didn't seem to care, what, what do you mean. if he didn't cared about her, he wouldn't just even attempting saving her, giving her a key access to Evotar server, in the server dream he even breaks because nothing seems to work, nothing is helping Lea. He was so desperate to save her that he gave her a key to Evotar server, Sidwell, the person that didn't trusted even himself, gave a key access to Lea.

In the end you know that it didn't helped because it was all plan Satoshi, because he broke Lea intentionally to get the access to server, but before "deleting" Lea, he gave Sidwell one last hope in form of trying to "delete her memory's", maybe if she could forget everything she could return to normal state. And Sidwell agreed on this, this is how Satoshi was able to secretly upload Lea to CrossWorlds server, and then telling Sidwell that welp sorry all hope lost

Satoshi used the only weak spot Sidwell had - his care for Lea, because of how strongly she resembles Manuela to him.

Manuela. She is interesting character because we don't fully know what happened to her, wiki suggests that she simply left Sidwell when learned that he lack sympathy, but my theory is - she is dead. Thing is, Sidwell always use very specific wording when he talks about Manuela, he always talks about how "she was" or "she would've loved that place" like she couldn't now. So for me she probably died and it was the last straw that broke the camels back, also seems like Sidwell works not in the cleanest cycles possible (he is probably selling information through black markets and he stated himself that he had a lot of connections here and there) so he probably was tied to the crimes even before picking up Satoshi, Shizuka and Gautham. And in the crime world you had to adapt, you had to break yourself, because everyone having a knife and you never know would it ba aimed at you.

Note, I'm not justifying Sidwells actions, he chooses to do everything himself, yes he is probably a very broken man, who lost someone who he actually cared about, and then proceeded to spiral further, because of his involvement in the criminal spaces, that killed any of his trust to anyone

but that not how you handle things my guy...

I just think he is very complex and interesting character, he is still bad, he did a lot of bad things to others, but when we had the last dream before the raid, I really questioned myself "what if everything was better?"

But that we slowly drifting towards the Boy. The Tronny. oh boy where do I start.

He literally the answer to that question, without memory's he slowly developed into his own character, but thing is he absolutely has resemblings with Sidwell, like Lea has some with Shizuka. I bet Sidwell also loved ice cream and nerding about stuff before he broke, and thing is I think that Tronny is probably Sidwell, but when he was student, before he was unburden, before he became what he is today. And expiriance really do making a difference, even if we talk about two similar people

Sidwell really interesting character, very complex, he made a lot of people, who Lea cared about, suffer, but she remembers him way more nicer. But even though he is upset that now Lea know everything, the part of him also glad that Lea gets to meet so many people, see so many places, and just grow up as a person. he is genuinely, truly glad

well, at least The Boy wouldn't go by his steps, he is definitely in much more nicer environment and he is just not Sidwell we know anymore. Even tho their emotion faces are REALLY similar with each other, its not even funny how eery similar they are, you don't even notice it until the dlc and now I cannot look at The Boy's face because God dammit Tronny

[mmliveblog]

Gosh I wish I had some popcorn right now, the drama became so intense that Toby is now having an identity crisis on top of his current existential crisis because he admitted to seeing Sidwell's memories in his head

It's a long shot, but the possibility that an evotar might have someone else's memories might be on the table.

There's no precedent for it though, so for that to happen his memories had to be manufactured via some unknown method, or some mystery person logged into Sidwell's avatar and the CrossCode ended up with two sets of memories, or he fused two evotars together somehow

Or he blanked his own memories so he could hang out with a mute girl with minimal guilt

[buttercatrho]

I'm sure this is fine

[parab0mb]

I think you should put lea and the psychopomp Girl in the same room

Here you go anon, two weird antennaed creatures! c:

As much as I'd like for them to get along, Venus would most definitely think Lea is just some fake corporate construct meant to manipulate her and the public.

Lea would respond in the appropriate manner to having her self-identity disregarded by someone who hit her with a hammer and tasted her hair.

(I like to think Venus's thoughts aren't internal and she'll just... say what she's thinking in front of whoever she's poking/eyeballing).

[girl-who-says-hi]

Curious about that but if Lilac lore from the tags of the last post: Did she figure out the deception faster than Toby when it came to The Long Session? And/or did she change her view of her gender when she did?

She figured out she was an Evotar very quickly, but she never puts together that she's Sidwell until C'tron tells her; she was under the assumption that there's some real person named Lilac Fields who she's a copy of.

She also managed to survive a few weeks without Sidwell actually realizing she'd become aware and putting her into the Final Interrogation, which allowed resentment over being his pawn to build.

When she is finally forced to realize that Sidwell is her Ortet, her view of her own gender doesn't change, at least not at first; she's still very much processing the revelation and is very bitter about it, not wanting to associate herself with him.