#cs neighbors

[jrob64]

A Love/Hate Relationship - a CS modern AU one-shot

I wrote this story because I was in need of fluff, humor and hurt/comfort after the painful experience of losing two dogs in less than a year. Zeke, who was in my story Sowing Seeds of Trust, died of cancer last June. Two months later, we adopted Winston, who was the main character in Pet for Rent. Somehow, he swallowed part of a brush (while he wasn't at home) which perforated his intestines and caused internal bleeding. He died May 23. Writing my favorite trope for my favorite couple is therapeutic for me as I deal with my heartbreak.

Many thanks to @kmomof4 and @hookedmom.

Summary: Killian Jones' neighbor, Emma Swan, has hated him since the first day they met. When she finds out he came down with the flu and attempts to nurse him back to health, he's more than a little confused.

Rating: T

Words: 2582

Also posted to ffn and Ao3

Story is under the cut

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Killian Jones buried his face in a pillow and pulled it up over his head in an attempt to stop the incessant pounding. After several painful moments, he realized the noise wasn’t in his head, but was coming from the front door of his apartment.

Groaning, he tossed back the covers and swung his legs over the side of the bed, sitting with his head in his hands for a short while. When he finally got to his feet, he swayed dizzily and stumbled into the door frame, leaning against it to try to regain his balance.

He eventually made his way across the living room, unlocked the deadbolt and threw the door open. “What?” he demanded loudly, regretting it immediately when a sharp pain shot behind his eyes. He squeezed them shut before even registering who was on the other side of the door.

“Jones, how many times do I have to tell you to…Wow! You look like hell.”

Killian cracked his eyes open enough to see his neighbor from across the hall, Emma Swan. Infuriating to the highest degree and just as beautiful, she was the last person he wanted to see while he was in his current state. The two of them had a love/hate relationship…minus the love.

They had gotten off on the wrong foot when he moved in a little over a year ago. Unaware that she was a police officer who worked the night shift, he woke her up shouting orders at the movers. Emma Swan was not a morning person, especially after working an eight hour shift on the streets of Boston, and she informed him of it in no uncertain terms.

After that day, every interaction between them was filled with tension and snarkiness. Killian wished they could go back to when they met and start over again, because he knew she was basing her hatred of him on that first impression. In all honesty, he was quite intrigued by the fierce blonde and would like to know if there was a sweet or funny side of her she kept hidden very deep inside. Very, very deep.

Now she was here, standing at his door, scrutinizing him like a bug squashed on the bottom of her shoe. “Hangover?” she smirked.

He sighed. “I have the flu, Swan. It���s been going around at the office and I wasn’t lucky enough to avoid it. Now, if you��re done yelling at me, is there something I can help you with? If not, I’d really like to go back to bed.”

She took a step forward and unexpectedly pressed her palm to his forehead, then both hands to his unshaven cheeks. “You’ve got a fever.”

“Usually accompanies the flu. Now if you’ll…”

“Do you have medicine?”

“No, I…”

“Have you eaten? Are you drinking plenty of fluids?”

“I haven’t…”

“How long have you had it? Have you seen a doctor?”

Killian rested his pounding head against the door. “Must you use your interrogation techniques on me? I haven’t committed a crime, you know.”

“I’m trying to help,” she said, clearly offended.

“I could use less help and more sleep,” he grumbled.

“Yes, good,” she said, pushing past him into his apartment. “Go back to bed and I’ll get you something to drink. Do you want water, juice or…”

“More questions, Swan? Why can’t you just leave me alone?”

“All you have to drink is water, Dr. Pepper Zero and beer?” she asked, peering into his refrigerator. Closing it, she straightened up and began opening cupboards. “Do you have tea bags? British people like to drink tea, don’t they?”

He knew it would hurt his head to roll his eyes, so he simply threw up his hands and trudged off to his bedroom. Behind him, he could hear Emma celebrating the fact that she’d located the tea bags.

He had just gotten back to sleep, when he was shaken awake. “What now?” he growled, flopping onto his back.

“I made some tea and found Advil in your medicine cabinet. You need to drink something and get these pills in you.”

He raised his head and blinked up at her blearily. “You went through my medicine cabinet?”

“Yeah. Did you know condoms have an expiration date? The ones you have in there expired almost two years ago. Better not use them, because they’re likely to break.”

“Ugh,” he groaned, letting his head drop back down on his pillow. “Please just let me die.”

“You aren’t gonna die from the flu, Jones.”

“I meant from embarrassment,” he muttered under his breath.

“Sit up,” she commanded, sliding her arm under his pillow and pushing until he did as he was told.

First, she handed him a bottle of water. After glaring at her for several seconds, he finally took it, then swiped the two pills she held in her other palm. He popped them into his mouth and downed them with the water.

“Happy now?” he asked.

“Deliriously,” she quipped. “Now drink your tea.”

He accepted the mug she offered him and held it to his lips. Cautiously taking a sip, he grimaced and spit it back into the cup. “Did you heat the water at all? It’s barely warm! And how bloody much sugar did you put in it?”

“Well, I didn’t want you to burn your mouth,” she explained haughtily. “And I put in the same amount of sugar as I put in my coffee. Four spoonfuls.”

“Four?” he questioned. “Are you trying to kill me, or just give me diabetes?”

“You’re not a very good patient, Jones. You could at least be grateful that I’m helping you.”

“If you recall, I didn’t ask for your help.”

She ignored him, fluffing his pillow and pushing at his chest to get him to lay back down. “I found a can of chicken noodle soup in your cupboard. I’m going to heat it up.”

“Don’t add any sugar to it,” he groused, as she walked out of the bedroom, taking the tepid cup of tea with her.

“I heard that,” she threw over her shoulder.

“Of course she heard that, but didn’t hear when I told her to leave me alone,” he mumbled into his pillow. He tossed and turned, knowing that if he went to sleep, the maddening woman would just wake him up again.

Sure enough, she was back at his bedside within ten minutes, carefully carrying a plate containing a steaming bowl of soup and a small stack of saltine crackers. He sat up before she could order him to, and took the plate from her.

“You didn’t add anything to this, did you?” he asked.

“Nope, I just heated it up,” she assured him.

He dipped the spoon into the soup, blew on it and put it in his mouth, then promptly choked and sputtered. “Bloody hell, Swan! Didn’t you add any water to this?”

“Why would I add water?” she asked, a confused frown forming on her face.

“Because Campbell’s soup is condensed. It’s too salty this way. Adding extra water dilutes it enough that it tastes like soup is supposed to taste, rather than tasting like…like the ocean. Haven’t you ever made soup from a can before?”

“Sure,” she said, crossing her arms across her chest petulantly. “I make Progresso soup all the time, but I never add water to it.”

“Progresso soup isn’t condensed. This is.” He took the stack of crackers, then thrust the plate back towards her. “I’ll just eat these, thanks very much. Now that you’ve tended to me, you can leave me in peace.”

“Are you sure you’re gonna be okay?” she asked.

Was that concern he saw on her face? Surely not. Emma Swan would never be concerned about him. It would be more realistic if she were to try to poison him. Perhaps he should have been more careful eating and drinking what she gave him.

Shaking his head slightly to try to clear those thoughts, he said gruffly, “Yes, I’m sure. It’s not like you really helped anyway.”

This time, he thought he saw a flash of hurt cross her face, before she turned and left the room. Soon he heard the front door close.

He couldn’t have really seen Emma Swan look concerned and hurt, could he? Great. Now he was going to have to add hallucinations to his list of symptoms.

He ate the crackers, then lay down and turned onto his side, tugging the blanket up around his shoulders. He was achy and feverish, but it was the guilt over how he treated his apparently well-meaning neighbor that kept him from falling asleep.

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Three days later, after his fever had been broken for twenty-four hours, Killian went back to work. Upon returning home at the end of the day and getting his keys out to unlock his apartment, the door across the hall opened and Emma stepped out.

“Oh, hey Jones. Looks like you recovered, no thanks to me.”

Killian rubbed his finger behind his ear. “I owe you an apology, Swan. I was rude and should have never said what I did.”

She shrugged nonchalantly. “It’s no big deal. I guess I’ll never be a Florence Nightingale.” Turning on her heel, she muttered, “See ya around.”

“Swan…Emma, wait,” he called out, hurrying after her.

She turned around. “What?” she huffed.

“I, uh, I truly am sorry. It was very kind of you to try to help me, but…”

“But what?”

“But why did you do that? I mean, given the fact you hate me…”

“I don’t hate you,” she interrupted.

“Really? You could have fooled me.”

Emma stuck her hands in the back pockets of her jeans and looked down at the floor for several long moments. When she finally looked up, he was shocked to see the vulnerability on her face.

“Look… I’m not good with…people,” she said softly. “And I’m also not good at admitting when I’m wrong.”

She paused and he waited patiently, wondering where she was going with this.

“None of the people I know would be concerned enough to check on me if I called in sick to work. You’ve lived here long enough for me to realize that…that you don’t seem to have anyone like that, either. I never see anyone coming or going on a regular basis - besides the pizza delivery guy, but I don’t think he counts.”

Killian chuckled dryly. “You’re very observant, Swan.” He paused for a moment, debating whether he should open up to her as she was to him. “And you’re also correct,” he added finally. “I moved here from England when I was transferred for my job, and I don’t have any close friends yet.”

She nodded. “I figured it was something like that. The day you moved in, I was…well, to put it bluntly, I was a bitch. And, as I said, I’m not good at apologizing, so I just let things go on being…uncomfortable. When I saw that you were sick the other day, I thought it was my chance to make things better between us, but I screwed that up, too. I just…I guess I wanted to let you know that you didn’t have to be alone while you were suffering - that there was someone who cared. I…I’m sorry I made things worse.”

“You didn’t make things worse,” he assured her. “I appreciate the effort. Actually, if you think about it, it was really quite comical.”

She scoffed. “Yeah, I guess so.”

“And they do say laughter is the best medicine, so your failed attempts at helping are probably what cured me so quickly.”

Seeing the grin on his face, the corners of her own mouth turned up a bit. “You’re an idiot, Jones.”

He took a step closer. “How about if we start over, Emma? It would be nice to have a friend living across the hall.”

She eyed him, chewing her lip in contemplation. Then she held her hand out to him. “Hi, I’m Emma Swan. Welcome to the neighborhood.”

He reached forward to give her hand a firm shake. “Killian Jones. Pleasure to meet you, Miss Swan.”

She smiled and he was amazed at how it transformed her already lovely face. They stood awkwardly for several moments, until Killian said, “Well, I should let you go. Were you on your way to work?”

“Oh, uh, no. I was just going to get something to eat.”

He rubbed his hand along his jaw, dropping his eyes as he asked, “Would you, um…would you like some company?” Looking back up, he saw her eyes widen and hurried to add, “Just as a friend. As you well know, I don’t have much to eat in my apartment.”

She snorted out a laugh. “You still have more than I do at my place.” Turning away from him once again, she said, “If you’re sure, you’re welcome to join me. I was just gonna go to the diner around the corner. Tonight’s special is grilled cheese and onion rings.”

“Ah, greasy diner food,” he said, beginning to follow her. “You do know if you keep eating that stuff, your arteries are going to be filled with sludge.”

She chose to ignore him as she started down the stairs. “They have the best hot chocolate, too.”

“How much sugar do you add to it?” he grinned.

She glared at him over her shoulder. “No sugar, just cinnamon.”

“Cinnamon in hot chocolate? Sounds…interesting.”

She stopped on the landing and turned to look at him. “If you’re gonna make fun of my preferences for food and drink, you’re uninvited.”

Holding his hands up in mock surrender, he said, “I meant no offense, Swan. Perhaps I’ll even give your…unique concoction a try.”

That meal led to another, and many more. Soon they added regular coffee dates. Gradually, at Killian’s urging, Emma tried and eventually acquired a taste for black coffee, no sugar. Even more gradually, at Emma’s urging, Killian acquired a taste for greasy diner food.

Six weeks after Emma’s attempt to nurse Killian back to health, they went on their first official date. Killian was very happy to discover that Emma Swan did indeed have both a sweet and funny side. They realized they had many things in common, as they talked during their dinner at one of Boston’s most renowned restaurants, then walked along the waterfront.

At the conclusion of the date, they shared a kiss outside her apartment door, which opened both of their eyes to the fact that there was a significant spark of attraction between them. As they continued to date, the spark ignited into a blazing flame. (They made sure to replace the expired condoms in Killian’s medicine cabinet, once it was obvious they were going to put them to use.)

They became each other’s ‘person’ - someone to laugh with, cry with, share everything with, and nurse back to health when the need arose. By the following winter, when the flu made its way through Killian’s office once again, he had his own live-in nurse, whose skills were much improved from the previous year.

By that time, they still had a love/hate relationship…but now, it was minus the hate.

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A couple of fun notes:

-Colin was drinking a Dr. Pepper Zero during the Meet & Greet I went to at GalaxyCon in Columbus last year.

-At another con several years ago, Jen admitted she never drank black coffee until Colin got her hooked on it. (No pun intended!)

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Thank you for reading.

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[whimsicallyenchantedrose]

Christmas Reruns 2024–Day 19: Deck the Halls…Or Maybe the Neighbor

Merry Christmas if you celebrate it and happy holidays if you don’t!  One of the things I love about Christmas is watching reruns of all the old classic Christmas movies–Christmas is a big time for nostalgia.  A few years ago, I decided to incorporate that tradition into my fandom life and post my CS holiday reruns.  So here you go!  Enough holiday (mostly) fluff to get you to New Year’s Day. (With a new story posting on Christmas Day.)

Word Count: 2099

Other chapters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31

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Notes:  This story was written for my “Christmas with Captain Swan” collection in 2020.

CS Genre: Enemies to Lovers AU

She was going to kill him.  She was going to drive a stake of holly through his heart or strangle him with a strand of Christmas lights or…well, some other holiday themed method of homicide.

Emma worked hard all day chasing down the scum of the earth and hauling their worthless asses back to jail where they belonged.  Was it really too much to ask that she have a little peace and quiet downtime to relax once she got home.

According to the idiot who lived in the apartment directly above hers, apparently so.  Every damn day since Thanksgiving he’d blared his Christmas music loud enough to wake the ghost of Christmas past.  Sometimes he even enthusiastically belted along with it.  (She had to admit his voice wasn’t half bad, but that was entirely beside the point.)

Emma hissed as she dabbed at the cut beside her eye where tonight’s skip had clocked her.  She’d got him in the end; Emma Swan always got her man, but now that the adrenaline of the chase was over, her cuts and bruises and sore muscles were screaming at her.

And the guy in the apartment above had just started singing “Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” at the top of his lungs.

Emma growled, tossing the bloody cotton ball into her bathroom trash and getting to her feet.  Enough was enough.  This stopped now.  He could take his merry little Christmas and shove it up his south pole.

Two minutes later, she stood before his apartment.  Pounding on the door felt extremely satisfying if she did say so herself.

The music suddenly stopped, and a moment later the door opened, and for the first time Emma got a glimpse of the man who’d been the bane of her existence for the past two weeks.

Her jaw dropped.  He was drop dead gorgeous, melt-an-entire-population-of-snowmen hot.

“Well hello, there, Love,” he said with an appreciative grin-and in an accent that had her toes curling in her boots.  “How can I help you?”

Emma’s stomach swooped and her heart stuttered and then started racing.  She blinked and the spell was broken.  She wasn’t some teenager who drooled over hot guys.  Especially hot guys that she’d been seriously contemplating murdering five minutes ago.

“If you don’t stop with the Christmas crap, I’m going to punch your stupid, festive face,” she gritted out.

His eyebrows raised.  “Pardon?”

“Your music!” she said.  “Every freaking day, everytime I get home you’re blaring the Christmas music, and it got old about five minutes after you started.  I don’t think it’s too much to ask that I have a little peace and quiet in my own home.”

He huffed a breath.  “Darling, I had no idea anyone was even in the building in the middle of the afternoon.  Did it ever occur to you to come to me and ask me to turn down my music?”

She had to admit he had a point there.  Maybe yelling at him and threatening bodily harm wasn’t the best opening salvo, but it had been a long day, and she was in pain, and she wasn’t in the mood to be reasonable.

“Look, just turn it down,” she said, crossing her arms and glaring at him.

“Your wish is my command,” he said with biting sarcasm, sketching a mock bow.  “Now is there anything else you wish to yell at me about or may I get back to my tasks at hand?”

“Nope.  That’s all,” she said.

“Good,” he said and then tacked on a biting “merry Christmas” before shutting the door in her face.

The next morning, Emma was rather embarrassed about her interaction with Hot Christmas Guy upstairs, as she’d been calling him in her mind.  She’d had a frustrating day–the skip she’d gone after had left his wife and kids just before Christmas, taking every penny of their Christmas fund.  

It hit too close to home for a girl who had grown up with no family, with no one.  Hard to get into the warm and fuzzy Christmas spirit when no one gave a crap about you.

She’d been too harsh with Hot Christmas Guy, but at least the results were in her favor.  He’d been as good as his word, and if he’d continued playing his Christmas music, he’d done it at a low enough volume that she didn’t even hear it.

Emma had only just begun to think she should go upstairs and apologize, when suddenly there was a knock at her door. 

She opened the door to find the man himself, standing there holding a large plate of cookies. Her stomach not only swooped this time; it did cartwheels.  The guy looked even better in the bright light of morning with his slightly disheveled black hair, his reddish scruff, his blue button down that highlighted his even bluer eyes and his black leather jacket.

“I’m afraid we came to rather a bad start, yesterday,” he said.  “Perhaps we might start again, Aye?  My name is Killian Jones, and I’d like to offer you these Christmas cookies as a token of my apology for the excessive volume of my music.”

Emma took a step back and gestured for him to enter her apartment.  “Hey, I’m Emma Swan, and no apology is necessary.  In fact, I kind of think I owe you an apology.  I shouldn’t have just come out swinging like that.”

He smiled at her, the fine lines around his (beautiful) eyes crinkling with the gesture.  “Apology accepted Love.  I’ll leave you to your morning.”

He turned to leave, but suddenly, Emma didn’t want him to go.  “Killian wait!” she said.

Obediently he stopped, eyebrows raised in question.

“Would you like to stay and help me eat these cookies?”

He shot her a skeptical look.  “Dessert at nine in the morning?”

She shrugged.  “Can’t be much more unhealthy than my normal blueberry PopTart.”

Killian laughed then, taking a step back inside.  “Do you at least have milk to wash them down with?”

“Of course.”

Killian ended up staying for two hours, and it amazed Emma how quickly they fell into conversation.  It was like they were old friends catching up rather than relative strangers.  Emma learned that Killian was a novelist.  His music helped him with the creative process, jump started his creativity as it were.

The conversation had then turned to the upcoming holiday.

“Swan, do you not celebrate Christmas?” he’d asked, looking around her apartment.

She shrugged.  “I mean, I guess I do.  I’m not like opposed to Christmas or anything.  Why?”

“I can’t help but notice you have no tree, no decorations of any kind, and your opposition to the music of the season is well established,” he said.

Emma looked around her neat but rather sterile apartment and shrugged.  “I don’t know, I guess I just didn’t see the point of going to all that trouble.  I mean, it’s not like I’m going to have any presents under the tree or anyone to share the holiday with.”

She had expected him to look at her with pity at her admission of just how alone she was, but instead, the look on his face was knowing, understanding.  “The holidays are difficult when you’re alone, aren’t they?”

That surprised her.  Was he speaking from personal experience?

“Aye love,” he said, answering her unasked question, “I suspect we have more in common than you might have supposed.  Ever since my brother passed a decade ago, I’ve been on my own.  The holidays always bring with them a special kind of melancholy.”

“But…” she began, “but you play Christmas music.  From the glimpse I got of your apartment yesterday, you have all the decorations and trappings.  Doesn’t that make the loneliness worse?”

He shook his head.  “It helps me to remember the good memories, and there are always good memories if you dig deep enough.”

The conversation stuck with her long after she and Killian had said goodbye and gone their separate ways.  Maybe…maybe he was right.  Maybe if she let a little Christmas cheer into her life, it would help, even in a small part, to soothe the pain of a lifetime of loneliness.

The next morning, bright and early, there was a knock on Emma’s door.  This time she smiled as she went to the door, knowing instinctively that she’d find Killian on the other side.

What she wasn’t expecting was the large, beautiful, fragrant pine tree he was holding in front of him.

“What’s this?” she asked, opening the door wider so that he could awkwardly maneuver himself and the tree inside.

“This, Swan,” he said with a teasing grin, “is called a Christmas tree.  Traditionally people set them up in their houses this time of year and decorate them with lights and colorful baubles.”

She grinned, rolling her eyes at him and playfully swatting his shoulder.  “I know what it is, smart ass.  I’m wondering why you brought it here.”

He propped the tree against the door, and then reached up to scratch at the spot behind his ear.  “I got to thinking after our conversation yesterday.  I wanted to bring you some of the Christmas joy that has helped me through the season for years.  I hope I’ve not overstepped by bringing this.”

Emma smiled gently, stepping up to place a hand on his arm.  “This is really sweet, Killian,” she said.  “Thanks.”

“It was my pleasure,” he said, stepping outside to gather the boxes of lights, ornaments and tinsel he had waiting for him.  “If you’ve the time and inclination, I thought perhaps we could decorate your apartment together.”

She took one of the boxes from him and set it on her living room floor.  “As it turns out, I have the day off, and decorating a tree sounds like the perfect way to pass the time.  If you play your cards right, I might even let you play some Christmas music while we work.”

They’d spent the entire day together, first decorating her tree, then splitting a pizza from the place down the street, talking, laughing, and genuinely enjoying each other’s company.

The next day he was back, and the day after that she went to his apartment.  Barely a day went by that they didn’t see each other.  Each day brought a new holiday themed activity.  

For the first time she could remember, Emma felt the magic of Christmas.  For the first time she woke up looking forward to what the day might bring–and it was all due to Killian Jones.  It should scare her how comfortable she felt with him.  It should scare her how much she was coming to look forward to their time together, to their daily phone calls and text conversations.

But somehow it didn’t.  She could read people; it’s what made her so good at her job.  And Killian?  She read him loud and clear.  He was the real deal.  She could trust him.

And so it was that when the idea occurred to her she didn’t let herself think too hard, merely acted.

“So I was thinking,” she said, turning toward him on the couch where they sat together watching Christmas movies on Christmas eve.

“Dangerous prospect, love,” he said with a teasing grin.  She smacked his shoulder.

“I think that we should spend Christmas together,” she said.

This shouldn’t be that big of a deal–after all, they’d spent the last two weeks together–but somehow it was.  Somehow spending Christmas together felt huge. Like this-could-be-the-start-of-something-life-changing huge.

Killian’s eyes widened.  He clearly understood how momentous this question really was.  After a moment, his look of surprise softened into a gentle smile, and he reached up and cupped her cheek.  “Emma, I’d like nothing better than to spend Christmas with you.”

The relief, the joy that came over her at his answer overwhelmed her, and so she did the only thing that seemed to make sense in the moment.  She leaned forward and kissed him.

On Christmas, they made plans to spend New Years together, and on New Years, they made plans for Valentine’s Day.

And on the following Christmas, Killian got down on one knee and asked her to make plans with him for the rest of their lives.

It seemed only fitting that for their wedding several months later, they play Christmas music.  After all, without the sounds of the season, the beautiful, perfect life they’d built for themselves may never have begun.

NEXT CHAPTER->

[princess-and-the-swan]

One-Shot Fic Rec: A Love/Hate Relationship

By @jrob64 | Rating: T

Killian Jones' neighbor, Emma Swan, has hated him since the first day they met. When she finds out he came down with the flu and attempts to nurse him back to health, he's more than a little confused. A fluffy CS one-shot where Emma (attempts!) to nurse a sick Killian back to health even though they have a rocky relationship. It's cute and funny and a quick read if you need a lil pick me up! The author is going through a rough time so send them some love in their comments!

Read it on AO3

[z5mbiegrlz]

i really need to vent w someone

[loafysainz]

Run Rabbit, Run | CS 55

carlos sainz x fem!reader

warn: mdni, possessive, harsh carlos, cheating

please do not read it uf youre not into dark fic!

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The house was a prison dressed in luxury. Marble floors, towering glass walls, expensive chandeliers casting golden light over spaces too grand to feel like home. No neighbors. No roads leading in or out. Just endless trees and the man who owned them all. It was beautiful—but suffocating. 

Carlos had made sure of that.

Unless she made one. 

Y/N knew she had to leave.

It wasn’t just guilt—it was something deeper, something that gnawed at her, keeping her awake at night as she lay tangled in silk sheets that smelled of Carlos. She wanted to be happy. To have a real life. A husband, children, a future where she wasn’t someone’s dirty secret. 

She couldn’t be his secret anymore.

Rebecca existed. She was real. A flesh-and-blood woman who deserved better than to have her fiancé sneaking off into the night to fuck someone else. Y/N had tried to ignore it, tried to silence the voice in her head that screamed at her every time Carlos pressed her against the walls of his mansion, but she couldn’t anymore.

She had to get out.

But escaping Carlos Sainz was easier said than done.

Security cameras in every corner, high walls, guards at the entrance. Carlos wasn’t careless—he was meticulous. Y/N knew he kept an eye on her even when he wasn’t home, watching her through the screens in his private office. Even the staff in the house—guards, maids, chefs—answered only to him. There was no way out. She was his, and he would never let her go willingly.

So she planned. Carefully, meticulously. 

Every step had to be calculated, and every move executed perfectly. One mistake, and he’d find out. And if Carlos found out?

She didn’t want to think about what would happen.

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For weeks, Y/N observed everything. The way the guards changed shifts, which doors were locked at night, which ones weren’t. The windows that didn’t have alarms. The places in the house where the cameras had blind spots. She memorized every inch of the house, looking for an opening.

And finally, she had a plan.

She had been playing the perfect role for a week now—sweet, submissive, eager to please. She smiled when he touched her, melted into his arms when he pulled her close, and whispered soft praises against his skin, all while hiding the raw desperation pooling in her chest.

Because she knew.

She knew that Carlos watched her like a hawk, his dark eyes tracing her every movement, his presence a constant shadow pressing against her skin. He had rules and expectations. And if she misbehaved and dared to push against the invisible walls he built around her, he would make her regret it.

She had seen his anger before.

She wasn’t foolish enough to provoke it again.

Which was why she had spent seven days keeping him satisfied. Keeping him distracted. Letting him believe that she had finally settled into the life he had crafted for her.

But tonight—tonight was her only chance to run.

And she was going to take it.

—

The evening was heavy with heat, the scent of burning wood from the grand fireplace curling through the massive bedroom. Carlos stood near the window, his bare chest illuminated by the soft glow of the moon filtering through the glass. He looked every bit the predator he was—broad shoulders tense, muscles rippling under his tanned skin, the scar on his abdomen a brutal reminder that men like him had fought for everything they owned.

And Carlos? He owned her.

Or so he thought.

“Come here, cariño,” he murmured, his voice thick with the kind of authority that left no room for argument.

Y/N obeyed. Because that was what he expected. Because tonight, she couldn’t risk raising suspicion.

She stepped between his legs as he sat on the edge of the bed, his large hands immediately finding her waist, fingers pressing into her softness with unmistakable possession.

“You’ve been good this week,” he mused, tilting his head as if studying her, his lips ghosting over the pulse in her throat. “Too good.”

Her breath hitched.

Carlos knew.

Or at least, he suspected.

She forced a small smile, running her fingers through his thick, dark hair, pretending she wasn’t trembling inside. "I just… wanted to make you happy," she whispered, hoping he would buy it.

A slow smirk curled on his lips as he pulled her onto his lap, forcing her thighs to straddle his. "You always make me happy, mi amor," he murmured, pressing a hot, open-mouthed kiss to her collarbone. His voice darkened. “But you’ve never been this obedient before.”

Her stomach twisted.

“Do you know what that makes me think?” he continued, his hands sliding up her back, his grip unrelenting.

She swallowed hard. “What?”

“That you’re hiding something.”

Her breath stuttered, but she forced herself to laugh softly, leaning in to brush her lips against his jaw. “What would I be hiding, Carlos?”

His hands flexed around her hips. “That’s what I’m trying to figure out.”

Y/N’s heart pounded so loudly she was sure he could hear it. She needed to distract him. Now.

So she kissed him.

Hard.

It was desperate, feverish, an act of submission that she knew he would take as proof of her devotion. Carlos growled against her lips, one hand tangling in her hair, the other gripping her hip so tight she knew there would be bruises tomorrow. But that didn’t matter.

Nothing mattered except keeping his guard down.

His tongue slid against hers, demanding, possessive, hungry. He kissed like a man who needed to consume like letting her go would kill him. And maybe, in some twisted way, it would.

Carlos ripped her silk nightgown off in one swift motion, tossing it somewhere behind them. His hands roamed freely, mapping the curves he already knew by heart, his breath hot against her skin. “Tell me, cariño,” he murmured, voice thick with desire as he nipped at her jaw. “Do you love me?”

Y/N's nails dug into his shoulders. “Yes,” she breathed because he wanted to hear that.

Because lying was the only way to survive.

Carlos groaned, flipping her onto the bed in a blur of movement, his body pressing her down into the silk sheets. His eyes were dark—ravenous. “Dímelo otra vez,” he demanded, lips brushing against her ear. “Tell me again.”

“I love you,” she whispered, hating how easily the lie slipped from her lips.

Carlos rewarded her with another bruising kiss, his hands trailing down, fingers teasing, claiming, possessing.

And Y/N let him.

Because tonight was the last time she would ever let him touch her.

—

His mouth was on hers before she could respond, his kiss so deep—claiming. He didn’t just want her—he wanted to remind her that she belonged to him.

His hands made quick work of the dress she was wearing, sliding it down her body until it pooled at her feet. His touch was rough, desperate, like he could sense something was off but didn’t know what.

Y/N let herself sink into it one last time.

One last time, she let him ruin her. Let him mark her with bruises that wouldn’t fade by morning. It wasn’t easy to do—he had an almost inhuman amount of energy when it came to taking what he wanted. But tonight, she had given him everything he asked for. She had let him break her, let him claim her in every way he could, let him fall into the heavy, satisfied sleep of a man who believed he owned her.

Carlos growled her name as he came, pressing his forehead against hers as he caught his breath. His hands stayed on her, holding her close like he never wanted to let go.

Like he never would.

Y/N’s heart clenched painfully as she ran her fingers through his damp hair, pressing a soft kiss to his temple.

“Te amo,” he murmured against her skin, half-asleep, completely unaware that she was about to disappear from his life forever.

Y/N closed her eyes.

Then, she whispered, “I love you too.”

And when Carlos finally drifted off to sleep.

She slipped out of bed, heart pounding so violently she thought it might burst from her chest.

She had memorized every creaking floorboard, every security detail. She had spent weeks gathering what little supplies she could.

And now? Now it was time.

—

She grabbed the small backpack hidden under the dresser, slipping into dark clothes and silent footsteps. The cool night air hit her as she cracked the bedroom door open, her stomach twisting when she saw the security cameras positioned along the hallway.

But she had planned for this.

Her escape route was through the back—one of the kitchen doors had a faulty lock. She had overheard a maid complaining about it. The security team hadn’t fixed it yet. 

She didn’t look back. She moved quickly, sticking to the shadows, staying out of the cameras’ view as she made her way toward the broken door she had found.

Her heart pounded as she stepped out, cool night air kissing her skin. She had only seconds before someone noticed she was gone. 

She made it past the garden. Reached the outer gates, before she heard it. 

A voice as smooth as silk but laced with something far more dangerous. 

“Where do you think you're going, mi amor?” 

Her heart stopped. 

Every part of her froze. 

Slowly—terrifyingly slow—she turned. And there he was. 

Carlos. 

Standing in the dim glow of the estate’s lights, his sharp features shadowed, his broad chest rising and falling with slow, controlled breaths. He was still in his dress shirt from earlier, sleeves rolled up, the top buttons undone, revealing golden skin and the hint of defined muscles. 

But it wasn’t his beauty that terrified her. 

It was his eyes. 

Dark. Wild. 

Burning with something lethal. 

A slow smirk curved his lips. But there was no amusement in it—only cold, simmering fury. 

“You look like you've seen a ghost, cariño.” 

Y/N stumbled a step back. 

Carlos tilted his head, his expression eerily calm. 

“Go on,” he murmured, voice soft. “Run.” 

Her stomach dropped. 

Panic exploded in her chest, but before she could take another step— 

He moved. 

Fast. 

Too fast. 

A choked gasp tore from her lips as his hand shot out, gripping her wrist in a punishing hold. She yelped as he yanked her forward, her body slamming against his with bruising force. 

“Did you really think you could escape me?” Carlos whispered against her ear, his voice deadly. 

Y/N trembled, her breath coming in frantic little gasps. 

“Carlos—"

But she couldn’t speak. 

Couldn’t breathe. 

Because his fingers wrapped around her chin, forcing her to look up. His dark eyes bore into hers, unreadable, terrifying. 

“Let me go, Carlos,” she gasped, struggling, but his grip only tightened. 

“Let you go?” He laughed, but there was no humor in it. His free hand tangled in her hair, pulling her head back so she had no choice but to look up at him. His jaw was clenched, veins bulging against his skin. “You belong to me, Y/N. There is no leaving. You know that.” 

Tears burned in her eyes. “I can’t do this anymore—" 

“Yes, you can.” His voice was sharp, demanding. “You can and you will.” 

She shook her head. “I want a life, Carlos. A real life. I want to get married, have kids—" 

His eyes darkened. “You want a husband? You want kids?” His fingers traced down her jaw, deceptively gentle. “Fine. Then I’ll marry you. I’ll give you my children. I’ll give you everything—except freedom.” 

Her breath caught. 

“Carlos—"

He crushed his lips against hers. 

The kiss was nothing like the ones before. It wasn’t sweet or coaxing. It was punishment. Desperate, angry, claiming. His hands slid down her body, gripping, owning, as if he wanted to remind her that no one else would ever touch her like this. 

He lifted her effortlessly, throwing her over his shoulder as she gasped and pounded against his back. 

"Carlos, stop—!" 

He carried her inside, past the staff who had quickly disappeared, knowing better than to get in his way. 

The bedroom door slammed behind them. 

She barely had time to breathe before he pinned her against the wall, his body flush against hers. 

“You wanted to run from me?” His voice was low, dangerous. His fingers traced down her arms, making her shiver.

Y/N trembled, her breath coming in frantic little gasps. 

“Carlos—"

But she couldn’t speak. 

Couldn’t breathe. 

Because his fingers wrapped around her chin, forcing her to look up. His dark eyes bore into hers, unreadable, terrifying. 

“Answer me. Did you think I would let you go?” he murmured. “That I would just let you slip through my fingers like some fucking mistake?”

A shiver ran down her spine. 

“Please—”

Carlos’s grip tightened. 

“Shhh.” His thumb traced her trembling bottom lip, his touch deceptively gentle. “I want to hear you beg, but not for that.”

Y/N whimpered as he leaned down, his breath warm against her ear. 

“Listen to me, corazón,” he whispered, his voice turning rough. “Even if you run until your legs give out, even if you die trying—I will still chase you. Even if you leave this world, I will follow you to the next.”

Her breath hitched. 

“You are mine. No one else’s. No one ever fucking touches you, do you understand?” 

She swallowed hard, her body caught between fear and something far more dangerous—something she didn’t want to name. 

Carlos’s lips brushed against her jaw, sending a sharp, electric shock through her system. His grip on her waist tightened, his fingers digging into her soft flesh possessively. 

“Look at you,” he murmured, trailing kisses down her throat, “so fucking perfect. So fucking beautiful.” 

A deep, guttural sound rumbled in his chest as his hands slid down, gripping her hips, pulling her flush against him. 

“Carlos, please—" 

“Please what?” He kissed her jaw, her neck, biting down just enough to make her whimper. “Please remind you who you belong to? Please fuck you so hard you forget why you ever wanted to leave?” 

Heat pooled low in her stomach. 

“Carlos, stop—"

But he silenced her with a kiss. 

Not gentle. Not soft. 

Devouring.

It was teeth and tongue, a bruising, punishing clash of mouths that left her gasping. His hands roamed her body, fingers tangling in her hair, gripping her waist like he needed to mold her against him. 

“You belong to me,” he growled, pulling back just enough to nip at her bottom lip. “Say it.” 

She shook her head, her breathing ragged. 

Carlos’s eyes flashed. 

He threw her onto the bed, his body following immediately after, pinning her down beneath his weight. His dark eyes burned into hers, his hand sliding up her thigh, hiking up the flimsy dress she had dared to run in. 

“You tried to leave me,” he murmured, voice low, dangerous. “That means you need to be punished, cariño.”

His lips trailed down her neck, hot and unrelenting. His fingers toyed her clothes with his breath heavy, burning. 

“You’re mine, cariño,” he murmured against her skin. “And I am going to remind you exactly who you belong to.”

His hands ripped her clothes apart. 

And then there was no more running. No more thoughts of escape. 

END

[szuyiin]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ★ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ATZ : FINGERING !!

this is a work of fiction & contains: ╰ PAIRING: bf ! top ! atz (separately) x gn ! bottom ! reader ╰ GENRE: smut. established relationship. headcannon. ╰ WORD COUNT: ~ 220 words each member, 1.7k words total. ╰ SFW WARNINGS: use of petnames baby (khj, cs, smg, jwy) darling (cs, smg), let me know if i missed anything :] ╰ NSFW WARNINGS are located under cut to prevent exposure to unwanted content. you are responsible for what you consume.

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★⠀⠀PARK SEONGHWA.

nice, sweet, and gentle. never wishing to inflict any pain while he tried to pleasure you. two lubed fingers slowly stretching you before him. the type to like your thighs pressed to your chest while he knelt between them, other hand next to your head to level himself as he simply watched you.

the grip you had on his wrist, trying desperately to make him get the hint you wanted more, didn't matter much to him - paying it no mind as he kept his own pace; another subtle reminder who was in a position of control.

keeping his gaze pointed, he watched as your upper lip twitched, every furrow of your brows and every time your lips parted - he wished to memorize every part of you.

“you look so cute,” seonghwa says, hovering above you while you absentmindedly - almost as if it was out of pure instinct - held the backs of your thighs to press against your chest. the gaze he offered was loving, and in a moment like this, you never expected anything less. “you love being full of my fingers, hm? i know you do.”

★⠀⠀KIM HONGJOONG.

loves hearing you. runs on your whines, whimpers, moans, cries, groans - anything and everything you had to offer him verbally, he greedily wanted from you; giving you everything he had to offer you in return.

the type to like to be face-to-face with where he’s prodding into you, knowing exactly how your face is contorted just by how you sound, he’d want to watch every muscle contract and twitch around where his fingers are shoved into you.

adores hearing you beg for anything more than he was giving you right now, purposefully slowing down his pace or not sliding his fingers as deep when you needed him. you being vocal about your wants and needs is definitely what gets him going the most.

the tips of your lovers fingers pressed against your walls, sliding with ease as mewls leave your swollen lips. “go on, you can be louder, can’t you?” you knew he was mocking you simply from his tone, egging you on and causing your skin to warm from the embarrassment of your neighbors possibly hearing you. “just ask for more, baby. need to hear you say it, is all.”

★⠀⠀JEONG YUNHO.

oh god. just wants you falling apart under him. any way he could break you, have you grabbing for his wrist when you’re close and crying out his name as you finish, he would do.

makes it a competition with himself. always keeping a mental timer going to see how fast he can make you cum just from his fingers stuffed inside you - no other stimulation.

his index and middle finger reaching new depths, teasing you about how you begged for a third, but he could feel how you wouldn’t be able to take it just yet.

wants you to know just how much he wants you, too. free hand holding the back of your knee while your calf rests on his shoulder, his crotch against the back of your thigh as he ruts his clothed cock against you just to be sure you know how badly he wants you, and that its not just you who’s desperate to be touched.

“fuck. . .” yunho curses, pressing his hard cock impossibly closer into the soft flesh of your thigh, the motion causing his thigh to press his two digits further into you. “look at you, just laying here. . . driving me insane just by looking at me-” you cut him off with a groan from yourself, a small smile appearing on his lips at the sound. “if you want my cock, you gotta take my fingers first.”

★⠀⠀KANG YEOSANG.

loves fingering you the most when you're on your knees, face against the surface you found yourselves on while he kneeled behind you, a singular, lubed finger prodding at you teasingly, and nasty words flowing from his lips.

keeps his composure incredibly well, almost so that you feel you don’t have much of an effect on him.

but holy shit, he’s fighting the urge to fuck you senseless - your pleads and groans muffled by your arms enough to have a large tent in his sweats.

but alas, he’ll keep up the act that he was unbothered; at least until you beg for him, that is.

“you’re so noisy,” your boyfriend comments, watching intently as your thighs shake from the unsteady stance you have against your shared bed. “maybe i should shove a few fingers in your mouth, too.” you can feel as weight shifts on the bed, his finger continuing to move as he readjusts to press a kiss to your lower back. “you’d absolutely love being stuffed full of me, huh?”

★⠀⠀CHOI SAN.

oh, bless your heart. san will be ruthless with his actions but thoughtful with his words, perfectly articulated to have a certain effect on your mind and body.

two fingers sliding inside you at the most delicious angle and pace, curling against your walls and having your back arching as you laid spread before him.

he thought you looked so hot like this: writhing beneath him as he spoke oh-so softly, praising you while practically splitting you in half, or rather, preparing you to be.

this was only preparation, there was absolutely no way he wouldn’t cave in when you look at him all spaced out.

“so, so cute, darling,” he whispers, pressing a kiss to your calf as it rests atop his shoulder. the look he gave you was close to ethereal, a smile on his lips and the corners of his eyes crinkling in joy as he watched where he pushed into you repeatedly. he meets your eyes briefly, slowing his pace and bringing his other hand to hold your cheek in his palm. “you’re so adorable when you’re all spaced out like that,” he pinches your cheek and returns the brutal pace of his fingers. “my pretty baby.”

★⠀⠀SONG MINGI.

not super mouthy, really enjoys feeling you. has you on your back while he kneels between your spread legs, lips almost never leaving your neck or chest as he presses his long fingers into you slowly.

loves it if you’re vocal about your needs, guiding him a bit whether to be rougher or more attentive to the special spot on your neck. if you want him to look you in the eye or kiss your lips instead. he loves if you tell him what you like - wants nothing more than for you to feel the best you can. bonus points when its because of him.

vacant hand will be attached to your hip or leg, kneading the flesh under his fingers and breathing hot air onto your body, feeling you squirm and clench around his digits.

uses the hand on your hip or leg to pull you back the tiniest bit to meet his fingers’ thrusts, wanting to hit as deep as he can to hear you tell him how well he treats you.

“min...” you trail off - unaware if you even had a full thought to begin with - the cool air mingi’s plush lips blew onto your neck where he kissed causing your back to arch involuntarily. “yes, baby? he asks, to which he receives no answer yet doesn’t pine for one either, knowing your desperate call was nothing more than a verbal affirmation of how he was making you feel. he presses a kiss to your neck once more, fingers soothing as they press against your walls. “i’m right here, darling. i’ll make you feel good.”

★⠀⠀JUNG WOOYOUNG.

the mouthiest. doesn’t spend even a second to mentally debate if he should comment on your shaking legs, heavy breathing, or how you cry for him. will always make sure you're aware that he is aware of your actions.

prefers you to be on your stomach or back, laying across his lap so he can feel every jolt and twitch from your body on himself. definitely would point out how his cock hardens to you, telling you how much of an effect you have on him - he loves the response he gets.

the type to - no matter how you're situated - put his palm against your chest. adores being able to feel your heart beat pick up as he continues pumping his fingers into you.

other than that instance, he’d keep his palm flat just above the bump of your ass. not rough, but enough pressure so you couldn’t squirm away - as if you’d ever dream to in the first place.

“aw, i can feel your heart racing, baby. am i making you feel that good?” your lover comments, warm hand sliding under your arm and along your side as the other pushes deeper and deeper inside you, the noises from the added lubricant making the scene all-the-more dirty. the pressure in your abdomen builds, the mixture of his words and actions proving to be too much at once. “look at that, you got me so hard - can’t wait to fuck you like you deserve to be.”

★⠀⠀CHOI JONGHO.

the most notable thing about jongho wouldn’t be how intensely he holds you, but more so how he holds you. similar too wooyoung, keeps you pressed to him just firm enough so you can’t squirm, but offers you just enough space to pull away if you wished to do so.

would like you face down, hips in the air as he sat behind you, one hand kneading the skin of your ass and the other prodding at your hole, the pressure his fingers offered enough to have you pushing back against him and wishing for more.

warm palm pressing on your lower back, his crotch pressed to the back of your thigh as he continues working you open. hand and hips on either side of your shaking body being the only thing keeping you stable, sure that your legs would have given out without him holding you in place.

doesn’t speak much in response to the sounds you make, if you make any. rather, he will give affirmative hums, and - if he feels the time is appropriate - maybe even a chuckle at of your desperate state.

the thumb that swiped across your lower back did little to slow your rapidly beating heart and shaking legs, only adding to the pleasure you were receiving at the hands of your boyfriend. two skilled fingers sink into you and press against your walls, feeling so full from just his prep for later. he watches your fingers dig into the bedsheets, wrinkling them under your palms as a huff of air releases from him in a chuckle, and you’re almost able to hear the smirk on his face.

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[shakirawastaken]

dsmp if... you were a romance trope

i got inspiration (sapnap, dream, george, karl, quackiy, wilbur) 

sapnap (hockey x figure skater): - im in the middle of heartbreaker rn and SHUT UP - i LOVE THIS TROPE - IM NOT EVEN A FIGURE SKATER I DO TAEKWONDO BUT I STILL FROTH OVER THIS SHIT - and then in addition to that one tommyinnit is a figure skater and everyone else is on a hockey team “ice these hurts” or smt h like that - i love this trope. - anyway i think that this trope comes hand in hand with enemies to lovers - his hockey team and ur figure skating group are at the same winter sports competiton - and you have to share a rink - booooo - so everyday you end practice with the sight of a bunch of hockey buffs roughhousing in the stands, waiting for you to finish - and everyday a certain brunette one sneers and smirks at you as you walk off the ice - “had a nice practice ice queen/king?” he asks you teasingly - “shut up, yeti” you mutter back gratingly as you bump your shoulder into his build as you pass him - and he comes up with a new one everyday - and you quip right back at him, unphased - one day, he comes into practice early just to spite you - what he wasn’t expecting is to see how good you actually were on the ice - he sat there like “ :O” and just watche dyou glide across the ice with what seemed like barely any effort - and he watched how passionate you were in your craft and the dance - and bro was whipped right then and there - so that day as you were leaving he said “you were amazing out there” and it took u jumpscared - you were like “no insult today?” - and he was like “dang, didnt know u liked them that much ;) but not today, not for something as beautiful as that” - and i think you can guess where it went from there... :)

 dream (ceo and employee romance):  - AKAIAKAKAHAKH TELL ME YOU SEE THE VISION - i mean hes a ceo alr so its like one step in the door you know - anyway hes a ceo - bro wears those fancy ass suits everyday and has like a wine cellar mini fridge shit thing in his office  - any way you pull up to his headquarters one day for like an interview and you were so fucking nervous  - you ran into him in the elevator (and no clue who he was) - and you basically vented to him for the 30 second elevator ride before scurrying off to your interview - bro didnt even get dreams name or anything - he kinda just smiled and wished you well as you ran away  - he thought you were so cute  - and you thought dude was hot as fuck  - anyway you got the JOB!! LETS GOO - the next day, your supervisor is like taking u around showing u the works - ....and you meet the ceo - its dream - and youre like :0 and he’s like  *smirk wink* ;) “hey” - and youre like “well fuck hes the ceo i cant be in love with him” - and you avoid him - but he makes it his life’s mission to get on ur radar - in the break room, in ur cubicle, in the cafeteria, in the parking lot man is ON YOU LIKE A MOTH TO A LIGHT - eventually he convinces you to go to fancy dinner - and WOW hes paying?? so that shit was FIREEEE - fancy wagyu steak and 102379182 year old wine i mean cmon - it was good ok - he asks you out after dinner and assures u ur job wont be at risk and everything - ba da bing ba da boom  - now youre dating happily and he spoils the FUCK outta you  - lmk if you want this one as a big fic with dialogue

george (neighbors): - tell me why whenever i have my delulu daydreams with george he’s always a neighbor - very much boy next door vibes - omg HES YOUR COLLEGE ROOMMATE NEXT DOOR - stoppppp - on move in day he pulls up with his family and u with urs and youre like - “hi ! nice to meet you im so exicted to move in!” and bros like “same!” - sometimes hes loud bc hes talking to his friends but you dont mind - hes a cs major and ur  whatever u want major - one day you decided to start singing  rlly loud while cleaning - ur singing taylor swift - and then george could hear you from the room next door to yours - so he writes up a little post it note that was like “loved the concert! when’s the next one?” and stuck in on your door - you found it and started mad blushign - you had a crush on him since day one awwww - anyways you two started communicating via post it notes and songs played loudly through the walls <3 - till one day you hear boyfriend by big time rush - and then you play girlfriend by avril lavigne back - and then he slips you a post it note under the door and you open the door before you could read it  - and its an unspoken like thing that you start dating - its so romantic how you can saw you guys starting dating because of taylor swift !!

quackity (academic rivals): - DO NOT GET ME STARTED ON THIS TROPE IT BRINGS ME LIFE ALRIGHT - alright - two law school students FIGHTING IT OUT ACADEMICALLY - you guys met in ur freshman year english class or some shit - clashed together in a discussion group - and its been game on since then - your texts with each other are flaunting texts - “hey alex, guess who got a 97 on the last midterm?” - “guess who got a 99 ;)” - over time, the texts started getting more and more hostile - people started to thing you two actually hated one another’s guts  - but in reality it was more for the thrill - but this continued throughout your law school careers - and you both become successful lawyers in the end!! - and when the headmaster calls you both into his office and says - “youre both valedictorian! congrats! you have to give a speech together” - well its like all the hatred faded away - you grinned and cheezed at each other before giving each other the biggest hug ever - so you both wrote a speech together - and soon the day of graduation came - and q goes at the end “i wouldn’t be here without the person who motivated me through it all, so thank you (y/n)” and youre like “hey man *sob* wtf *sob” - and you kiss him on the cheek and cheer to all the graduates  - after the ceremony he catches up to you in the parking lot, grabbing your wrist before you could go off with ur family - and blurts out word soup - and ur like what - and hes like “i really like you, and law school wouldn’t have been the same without you. can we be more than friends?” - and youre like “duhhh” and kiss him right there karl (best friends to lovers): - YOU ARE IN LOVE BY TAYLOR SWIFT  - that is the song for this SCENARIO - you two met when you were little kids in like first grade - your friends werent there on that day so you hung out with each other - hooked to the other since then and there - it was always “karl and you” and “you and karl” - you came as a packaged deal - through ups and downs you were there together - you graduated high school together and were going to the same college together now - while karl barely got into any romantic relationships, you seemed to be going through a few of them  - you were desperate for a love connection and honestly i aint blaming u - one day after a horrible date he came over to your dorm and u had an impromptu sleepover - you were in karls old shirt and some pajama pants and he was in his pajamas - and you two were just watching a movie together - before he turns to you abruptly, and you turn to look at him - and he’s like “you’re my best friend”  - and you saw a switch flip in him - since then, the dynamic between you two changed (for the better) - you became more flirty more touchy  - you started to act like you were a couple more and more - one day you saw him open his wallet to pull out his card  - and u saw that he has a picture of the two of you in his wallet - and then you knew that he was it for you - you ask him out that night - and hes so happy hes picking you up and spinning you around - <3 wilbur (musician x fan trope): - okay this is inspired by those tik toks that are like “did you see the way he looked at me” and its harry styles staring and eyeing down a fan in the audience like YES - and he’s a musician so it fits! - imagine lovejoy is like a HUGE HUGE Band so maybe this is in the future - anyways you and ur friend go to a lovejoy concert - for the sake of the story, youre not that big a fan of lovejoy just familiar with hits like sex sells and one day - the whole time ur friend is like “theyre so good hes so good its all so good” - you two end up a few rows from barricade  - and you and ur friend start screaming it up as you should - youre not oblivious to the way the lead singer keeps looking over in your direction, winking and smiling - imagine a sweaty, singing wilbur glancing over at you during sex sells and giving you a smile as he rasps out “you know sex sells i know that” - brb ascending to heaven - anyway a time comes when he stops to speak to the audience - he wastes no time - he struts over to your side of the stage and points at you  - “what’s your name?” - and you scream it at him - “what a lovely name!” - the crowd cheers - “ahre you single?” he asks with a grin on his face - the grin grows when u nod at him - “give me ur number!?” he asks and you nod at him as ur friend is dying next to you - he gestures u and ur friend to the front of the stage by the barricade  - and he passes you a marker and make syou WRITE YOUR NUMBER ON HIS GUITAR OR HIS SHIRT OR SOMETHING - oh yeahh go you go you thank yoU! let me know if you want any of these to become a bigger story/imagine and LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT A PART 2 WITH OTHER PEOPLE :D reblogs appreciated

[yourfatherlucifer]

Stay With Me (CS)

Prince!San x Princess!Reader

Summary: You were the king's trophy, a mere prize from the neighboring kingdom as a peace treaty. The king didn't care about you. Only wanted to flaunt that he owned the most beautiful princess, but his son fell in love you, and he wants to run away with you.

Warnings: Slapping, I think that's it.

Genre: Fluff

AU: Royal/Joseon

WC: 1.1k

Taglist:

PLEASE REBLOG

Four Years Ago

“You have no choice in this matter, Y/N! You will go to him and you will stay there. We have no need for you, the people don’t want a queen. They want a king to rule them. Your brother is our heir.” Your mother scoffed and looked down at you in a disgusted manner. 

“He’s only eight! So if you or father suddenly dies, then what? The people are left with a child for a ruler. That’s what you want? You’d just throw away your daughter just to have peace between the kingdoms?” 

Your mother’s palm slapped across your face, “You will NOT speak to me that way! I am still your mother, you brat.” 

“Not anymore. No mother gives away their child just for a peace treaty.” You spat in her face, picking up your hanbok’s end to walk away. 

The Present

The King’s eyes bore into you, “Maybe I should’ve made you a concubine.” His disgusting smirk plastered his face, you turned your nose up to him, how dare he? You are of royal descent, you are a princess! Not some object for this man. 

You turned your head and rolled your eyes, could this man get anymore revolting? You met the eyes of his son on the other side of the throne, his beautiful cat-like eyes. He was gorgeous and was nothing like his father in any way. Choi San, the most dreamy prince around. Women and girls fawned alike, but he only had eyes for you. Afterall, he was in love with you.

The king soon became surrounded by his actual concubines and dismissed his son and you, both away, saying he wanted to be alone. 

You made your way back to your private chambers, glad you weren’t forced to share with the vile king. San ran after you, his hand grabbing your wrist, “Y/N, wait!” 

You turned to face him, an eyebrow raised, “Yes, Prince San?” 

He smiled and pulled you into a hidden section of the palace, “I wanted to see your cute face,” you smiled back at him and placed your hand on his chest, “and to say I’m sorry about my father, please remember to ignore him. I wanna take you away from here so bad.”

“San, you can’t just leave your duties, you’re the crown prince after all. And eventually, he’s gonna have you married. You know it won’t be me.” You sigh and release him, leaning your back on the stone wall, “I’m surprised I still have my status and not living in the dungeon yet.” 

San smacked your shoulder, “Don’t say such things! You know I hate that, besides, he’s old as hell, if he dies before he can engage me. Then I’ll have you. I’ll get rid of all those concubines as I will never need them.” 

His sweet words ached your heart, he was such a dreamer. You both knew his father wasn’t gonna die anytime soon, the man seemed immortal, his wife passed during San’s birth, which made him surround himself with women, forcing you to be by his side. You are his most beautiful piece, but he won’t touch you. Even said himself, you are just a prize for him, other than that, he has no means for you. He would still inappropriately touch you, but other than that, he usually ignored you. 

Just why did he keep you around? To show you off? To say he owns the most beautiful princess ever? The most sought for woman? To keep you so no one else can have you? So you die alone? But you were loved, loved by his son. It’s not like you’re his step mom or anything, just someone trapped in his kingdom. 

Tears escaped your eyes, “You know that's not true, San. Your day to get engaged will come soon, I’m sure of it. Then I will go back to being alone.”

San pulled you to his chest, “No, I will not allow it, you’re mine, and I want you to stay with me.” A few tears fell down his face, “I want only you.”

You nodded and held his cheeks in your hands, “I know, I know, but we can’t.”

When you finally push him away and leave him behind, tears flood his cheeks. 

You sat on your bed, face in your hands, his father banished you to your chambers as he didn’t wanna see you around the palace at all. He was already tired of seeing your face, hopefully, you thought. If that was true, maybe he’d finally let you leave, or something else you dared not to think of. 

A knock on your door interrupted your thoughts, “Princess Y/N? Crown Prince San would like to speak to you.” You dismiss your maiden and allow San in. 

He quickly ran over to you once the door shut behind him. He tackled you to the bed, giggling, “Hi, Y/N, I missed you.”

You looked up at him before smacking his back, “San! You need to be careful! One of these days you’re gonna get caught.” 

He giggled again and squished your cheeks in his hands, “What’s he gonna do? Nothing, I’m his only son and heir, and he can’t knock up his concubines.” 

You gagged, “Don’t even talk about him.” 

San sat up and pulled you to his chest, “Okay, okay. So, Y/N, I was thinking.” 

You raise your brow at him, when he’s thinking it's never good. 

“What is it?”

“Let’s run away together.”

“But-” 

San halted your protests with his lips on yours, molding them in a warm and intimate kiss, “You don’t have a choice, we’re leaving, I’m abandoning my title. I want to be with you forever, I don’t care about being King if I can’t have you by my side.” 

“I already had one of my servants prepare everything we need to leave with, I have the gold and some clothes for us. We will head five villages over, he will never look for us, trust me, my princess.” 

San hikes you up and carries you out of the room, running towards the back of the palace, carefully dodging staff. 

When he makes it to the carriage and nods away the servant, “Thank you, for everything, remember the story.” The servant smiles and bows. 

“Farewell Prince San and Princess Y/N, may you two live peacefully.”

And thus began your journey to freedom, the story ends with two lovers living happily in a remote village, in a nice farm house, no one aware of their former statuses, just a happy couple living together till the end of their days. The king never found either of you, he eventually died of old age and a magistrate took over the kingdom.

[polycraftory]

Trans Rights Readathon Recs!

Books by Trans Authors - Part 1

This recommendations post for Trans Rights Readathon is brought to you by books we already had in our library and it got a little out of hand! We decided first to break things down by other rep in case that was helpful for folks. We have another post planned breaking things down by genre as well, so stay tuned! With series, we only include the first book in the series to keep our stacks slightly more manageable!

As far as we know, the authors here are out as trans / nonbinary / genderqueer. Please don't be a dick and try to force authors who happen to write trans characters to out themselves! We did our best on rep breakdowns, but please let us know if we misfiled anything since we haven't read everything yet.

Trans, Nonbinary & Genderqueer Rep

Pet by Akwaeke Emezi

The Sacrifice by Rin Chupeco

An Accident of Stars by Foz Meadows

Hell Followed With Us by Andrew Joseph White

Thicker Than Blood by Sera Quim

Infinity Alchemist by Kacen Callender

A Bone in His Teeth by Kellen Graves

The Sunbearer Trials by Aiden Thomas

Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas

Junker Seven by Olive J. Kelley

Godly Heathens by H.E. Edgmon

The Flowered Blade by Taylor Hubbard

You can find more recs for Polyamory Rep, Sapphic / wlw Rep, and Achillean / mlm Rep all written by trans authors under the cut!

Polyamory Rep

An Accident of Stars by Foz Meadows (Poly-normative world build, though I'm not 100% sure if there are any major polyamorous relationships)

Thicker Than Blood by Sera Quim (MMM with a trans masc protagonist)

Infinity Alchemist by Kacen Callender (M/M/genderfluid? Trans masc main character and a love interest who regularly uses alchemy to change their gender)

Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao (MMF)

SPECTR by Jordan L. Hawk (Whole series is M/M/genderless demon sharing a body with the main character. Volume 1 is being rebound which is why Volume 2 is pictured)

Mistress of Lies by K. M. Enright (From what I can tell MMF, but this is one of the few we haven't read yet)

Silver Under Nightfall by Rin Chupeco (MMF but Gabe would like me to convey that the most important part of the dynamic is that it's dom/sub/dom)

Please feel free to ask for more info on these especially, at least one of us have read most of these (and the few we don't are high up on our reading list for the week.)

Sapphic / wlw Rep

We have been building our sapphic library but apparently need to focus on more sapphic romance written by trans authors specifically! Here's what we do have (with some real gems we love). We tried to aim for all of these having the main romance be sapphic!

Gwen & Art are Not in Love by Lex Croucher

The Dead Take the A Train by Cassandra Khaw & Richard Kadrey (Book 1 in a duology)

Providence Girls by Morgan Dante

The Fall That Saved Us by Tamara Jerée

Time and Time Again by Chatham Greenfield

An Accident of Stars by Foz Meadows (I think this is a completed duology!)

Junker Seven by Olive J. Kelley (This is getting a sequel!)

Achillean / mlm Rep

This category ended up being...quite large. It really goes to show you just how many more gay books by trans authors have come out in the last few years! Okay, strap in, here we go:

Captive Prince & Dark Rise by CS Pacat (Captive Prince is a completed triology and Dark Rise will be a trilogy)

Thicker Than Blood by Sera Quim

How to Bite Your Neighbor & Win a Wager by D. N. Bryn

Prince of Sorrows by Kellen Graves (Book 1 of the Rowan Blood series, which currently has 4/8 books out)

A Strange and Stubborn Endurance by Foz Meadows (Book 1 of the completed Tithenai Chronicles duology)

Infinity Alchemist by Kacen Callender (Book 1 of the Infinity Alchemist series)

Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao (Book 1 of a triology with 2/3 books currently out)

SPECTR by Jordan L. Hawk (18 connected novella length stories collected into what should soon be 6 volumes if you want them physically! Each novella is one case!)

So This Is Ever After, Spell Bound, Otherworldly, & In Deeper Waters by FT Lukens (Each is a complete stand alone romance!)

Silver Under Nightfall by Rin Chupeco (Book 1 of the completed Reaper duology)

[jrob64]

Ghosted

Chapter 1 - Hauntings

Here is the first chapter of my contribution for this year's Captain Swan Supernatural Summer. I have many people to thank for helping me get this written and posted by my assigned date.

Thank you to my fellow mods of CSSNS24 - @winterbaby89 @stahlop @ultraluckycatnd and @kmomof4. I'm so glad we've had such a great response to this last event!

More thanks to Krystal for creating the absolutely amazing pic set for this story. It turned out great, didn't it? Making Neal and Liam appear ghostly was the handiwork of @motherkatereloyshipper, so she also deserves my appreciation.

Rounding out my list of thank yous is my ever-loyal beta, @hookedmom. I've been writing CS stories for nearly six years and she's been with me for the vast majority of them!

I anticipate this story being 3-4 chapters long in total. It isn't completely written yet, so unfortunately I can't provide a posting schedule, but I assure you it WILL be finished. If you're not on my tag list and would like to be informed when future chapters post, please let me know.

DISCLAIMER: All I know about ghost hunting is what I've watched on Ghost Adventures (which is worth watching simply for the entertainment factor.) I also know next to nothing about how YouTube works beyond being a viewer. Please excuse all errors and keep in mind that this is fanfic and isn't meant to be completely accurate!

SUMMARY: When Emma Swan’s ex-boyfriend dies, she’s haunted by his ghost. Her neighbor, Killian Jones, a ghost hunter who has a YouTube channel, realizes what’s happening and offers to help. However, there’s more at stake than simply helping the apparition move on. There’s also the matter of Killian telling Emma he’s in love with her.

Rating: T (subject to change)

Words (Chapter 1): 4700

Also posted to ffn and Ao3

Juggling a large Americano and a blueberry scone, Emma Swan made a beeline across the coffee shop for the small table in the corner. Whenever she stopped in, she tried to sit there because it was beside the window and was only big enough for one chair. Even when the shop was crowded, no one could join her or bother her by asking if ‘this seat is taken’. She could be left alone, which was the way she preferred it in the mornings.

Taking a sip of the near-scalding beverage, she tilted her head back and closed her eyes, savoring the aromatic flavor on her tongue. She tried not to make a habit of coming to this shop, but her coffee maker died over the weekend and she needed her shot of caffeine.

She was nibbling on the corner of her scone when she felt her phone vibrate with an incoming text. Pulling it out of the back pocket of her jeans, she saw that it was from her friend Ruby. The partial message on the lock screen said I’ve got huge news. Are you sitting down?

Emma huffed out a sound of amusement as she unlocked her phone. Ruby’s ‘huge’ news was probably that Graham Humbert, who worked at the police station where Ruby was the dispatcher, had switched to a different scent of cologne. Instead, her eyes widened as she read the rest of the message:

They found Neal Cassidy dead in his cell this morning. Apparent suicide. Guess you won’t have to worry about him stalking you again when he gets out.

It took her a few moments to digest the information. For nearly two years, thoughts of that man had never been far from the forefront of her mind. The memories of their blossoming romantic relationship, which were replaced by her suspicions and ultimate confirmation of his criminal activities, raced through her brain as she stared at the message for an inordinate amount of time.

When she finally started typing a response to Ruby, a shadow fell across the table, blocking the late morning sun. It didn’t move for several moments, so she glanced up, meaning to find the source of it on the other side of the window.

And looked directly into the eyes of Neal Cassidy.

Shocked beyond words, she squeezed her eyes closed, then blinked repeatedly before she looked up again, her heart hammering in her chest.

He was gone.

*********

Emma met Neal at a car dealership where he worked as a salesman. She was looking to trade in her yellow VW bug for something more reliable and he was eager to help. He was charming and funny, so when he asked her out on a date after the sale was made, she didn’t hesitate to accept.

They dated for six months before she started getting the feeling that he was selling more than cars. Hearing him have secretive one-sided conversations on the phone and seeing him meet shady looking characters in neighborhoods known to be frequented by crime lords made her suspicious, but the day she found a small bag of crack cocaine in his apartment was the day she was officially done with him.

When she broke it off, Neal begged her to stay, bragging about how he was in line to become very important and wealthy someday soon, and would provide her with everything her heart desired. Emma assured him she did not desire to be in the company of drug dealers and walked away, determined to put that chapter of her life behind her.

Having witnessed his sales techniques, she was well aware that he was persistent, but his persistence rapidly turned into obsession. She received dozens of texts from him every day, along with numerous calls she refused to answer. After listening to a few voicemails he left declaring his love for her, she deleted the rest and blocked his number.

That didn’t deter him, though. He continued showing up at her apartment, the gym where she worked out, and her place of employment - the swanky hotel where she tended bar. It was annoying, but she didn’t feel threatened and didn’t think a restraining order against him was necessary.

After several months of rebuffing or simply ignoring him, she was relieved when two days in a row went by without any contact from him. Then Ruby called to tell her he had been busted for drug trafficking and was awaiting a hearing. A trial followed, he was sentenced to five years in prison, and Emma hoped she had seen the last of Neal Cassidy.

*********

Emma dragged herself up the two flights of stairs to her apartment on wobbly legs. She was still trembling from the encounter at the coffee shop, unable to shake the image of her deceased ex-boyfriend from her mind.

She had finally managed to send Ruby a text, asking her if she had proof Neal was actually dead. Ruby replied that her friend Dorothy, who worked at the prison where Neal was serving his time, saw his body on the gurney as he was taken out, and talked to the guard who found him hanging by a bed sheet. He was definitely dead.

The only explanation Emma could come up with for seeing Neal outside the window was that the shock of reading Ruby’s text caused her to conjure an image of him. But that didn’t explain the feeling she had of being watched or followed all the way home, making the hairs on the back of her neck stand on end.

When she reached the third floor, she wasn’t surprised to see her friend and neighbor, Killian Jones, in the hallway between their two doors, fiddling with a metal box which was emitting a strange humming sound. As a paranormal investigator and the host of a popular YouTube channel called “Killian Jones - Ghost Hunter”, he was always trying out various pieces of equipment.

He glanced up, his striking blue eyes fastening on her before his face split into a grin. “Hey, Swan. How are you today?”

She answered vaguely as she stopped in front of her door. Suddenly, the humming sound increased in volume and pitch and Killian’s smile faded into a look of confusion. Picking up what looked like a radar gun laying beside him on the floor, he stood and held it between himself and Emma.

“What are you doing?” she asked.

He didn’t answer, too intent on circling her slowly and studying the numbers on the gadget. When he finally looked up several seconds later, he hesitantly commented, “Swan…it appears you have a…a ghost following you.”

Emma felt the blood drain from her face and her knees buckle, which was the last thing she remembered before everything went black.

Killian barely caught Emma in time to keep her from hitting the floor as she fainted. Hoisting her up into his arms, he carried her inside his apartment. This was not how he expected her to end up in his arms, but he would take what he could get.

*********

The two of them had lived beside each other ever since Killian moved into the apartment next to hers when he arrived in Boston five years ago. At first, they just exchanged pleasantries when they passed in the hall. After a few months, they began to have short conversations about the weather and their frustration with the landlord. That led to them doing favors for one another, such as taking in packages, bringing the other’s clothes upstairs from the laundry room, and picking up items one of them forgot to buy at the grocery store. Eventually, they built up enough trust in each other that they traded apartment keys to make it more convenient to drop things off.

Every once in a while, they would share a pizza while watching TV in one of their apartments. Seeing Emma so relaxed in her own home, laughing and bantering with him, started Killian down the road of developing deeper feelings toward her. He was enamored with her wit and intelligence and thought she was the most beautiful woman he’d ever met.

At times, he witnessed men coming to her door to pick her up for a date, something that always left him feeling bereft. Fortunately, most of them never came around more than once. He enjoyed listening to her humorous assessments of each man’s shortcomings afterwards.

Then she started dating Neal Cassidy, and during those months, Killian hardly saw her. When he did bump into the couple, Neal treated him with disdain, looking down his nose at him and scoffing at everything Killian said. It was made worse by the fact that Emma didn’t even seem to notice. Killian was sure he had missed his chance of acting on his feelings for her.

He almost felt guilty for being ecstatic upon finding out she’d broken up with Neal. His happiness turned to concern and then anger when Emma told him Neal wouldn’t leave her alone. The two men had words several times when Killian found him hanging around in the hall outside her apartment. Then Emma told him Neal had been arrested and sent to prison, and he was beyond relieved that the idiot wouldn’t be bothering her anymore.

Still, Killian didn’t ask her out, reasoning that she’d just gotten out of a bad relationship. He continued to fall for her more and more, while she remained completely unaware of his burgeoning feelings toward her. Feelings that, by now, felt a lot like love.

*********

After laying her on his couch, Killian tapped Emma’s cheeks, urging, “Swan! Swan! Wake up! You have to wake up, Love.” When she didn’t respond, he scrubbed a hand down his face. “Bloody hell, Lass. I didn’t mean to frighten you that badly.”

He glanced around the living room, trying to figure out what to do to help Emma regain consciousness. Going into his kitchen, he took a clean dish towel out of the drawer, placed some ice cubes inside and while there, grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge.

She was still out cold when he emerged a minute later. Concern etched his face. In all the years he lived next door to Emma Swan, he never knew her to be anything but tough and strong. Seeing her lying there so ashen and unmoving unnerved him. He lifted her head slightly to place the ice under her neck.

Convinced there was nothing more he could do at the moment, he went back out to the hallway and collected his EMF meter, noticing that it was back to a steady hum. Picking up the infrared thermometer he had dropped, he saw the temperature had returned to normal. No more cold spots. Apparently whatever spirit that had entered the hallway with Emma was gone.

Reentering his apartment, he sat on the coffee table in front of the sofa to keep vigil over his neighbor, continuing to pat her cheeks and call her name from time to time. After several more long minutes, her eyelids began to flutter, then slowly opened. Her eyes darted around, obviously trying to figure out where she was. He could tell the moment she figured it out, because she groaned and covered her face with her hands.

“Please tell me I didn’t faint,” she pleaded.

“I wish I could, but that would be untrue,” he responded, tilting his head to offer her a small, reassuring smile when she uncovered her eyes.

She started to sit up, but he put a hand to her shoulder to stop her. “Easy, Swan. Better lie still a bit longer.”

With a huff of annoyance, she laid back down, adjusting the ice pack behind her neck. “Thank you for taking care of me.”

“You’re welcome.”

She lay quietly for a while, nibbling on her bottom lip. “May I ask you something?”

“Of course.”

“Why, uh…why did you say that I had a ghost with me?”

She was obviously trying to pass off the question as being simply one of curiosity, but the look in her eyes told him she was quite serious about it.

“The infrared thermometer showed a definite cold spot and the EMF detector…”

“EMF detector?” she questioned. “What’s that?”

He sighed in frustration. “Don’t you ever watch my videos, Swan?” No matter how many times he talked to her about his show, he could never get her to commit to watching his YouTube channel.

“You know I don’t believe in ghosts,” she said.

He rolled his eyes before explaining. “An EMF detector measures electromagnetic fields. A high reading indicates the presence of a spirit.” He paused, making sure he worded his next statement carefully. “And perhaps you had better rethink your position on ghosts, because my instruments strongly suggested paranormal activity around you.”

She closed her eyes and cursed. Killian picked up the bottle of water and held it out to her. She sat up and accepted it, taking a long drink as she propped her feet on the table beside him.

“Care to enlighten me as to why you fainted when I told you my findings?” he inquired.

Capping the bottle, she held it against her forehead for a minute or two - long enough for Killian to wonder if she was going to give him an answer. Finally, she looked up at him and murmured, “Do you remember Neal Cassidy?”

“The wanker who hung around outside your apartment for months after you broke up with him?”

“That’s the one. Did I tell you that he was sentenced to prison for drug trafficking?”

“Aye, you did.”

“Well, apparently he hung himself in his cell. They found his body this morning.”

Killian let out a low whistle. “You think it could be his spirit that was causing my instruments to spike?”

She looked down again, fiddling with the label on the water bottle. “Possibly…because…” She drew in a deep breath. “Because I saw him outside the coffee shop this morning,” she said on an exhale.

Trying not to overreact and make Emma even more uncomfortable, he swallowed hard. “Now, when you say you saw him…”

“I mean I saw him,” she emphasized. “My friend Ruby texted to tell me about Neal’s death and as I was in the process of answering her, I noticed this shadow that didn’t move outside the window where I was sitting. When I looked up, Neal was standing there, staring right at me. I blinked, then he was gone.”

Killian’s ‘ghost hunter’ mind was getting excited about the prospect of being able to investigate a spirit practically under his own nose, but his heart went out to her. Being haunted was something he was more or less used to, but he wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

“Did you see him again after that?” he asked.

“No, but I had this…feeling while I was walking home; like someone was watching me. It really freaked me out.”

“So when I told you there was a ghost following you…”

“It was lights out for me.” She buried her face in her hands. “I’m so embarrassed. I’ve never fainted before.”

Killian reached over and squeezed her shoulder. “There’s no reason for embarrassment, Love. I’ve met many people who’ve had the exact same reaction when faced with the possibility of being in the presence of a ghost.”

“Seriously?”

He rubbed his thumb against the bridge of his nose, trying to contain his impatience. “If you watched my YouTube channel, you would be aware of that.”

“No offense, but the last thing I want to do right now is watch people being haunted.”

“That’s quite understandable, considering what you’ve been through today.”

She took another swig of water, then looked up at him. “Do you think he’s gone? Moved on, or whatever?”

Killian blew out a breath. “Probably not. My guess is he has unfinished business or he would have already moved on.”

“That’s just great,” Emma muttered sarcastically. “How long can I expect him to hang around?”

“Until he accomplishes what he needs to do.”

“So what am I supposed to do until then?” she moaned.

“Just go about your daily routine. If you see him or sense he’s there, gently tell him that he has died and needs to move on.”

 “So saying ‘go to hell’ wouldn’t be a wise choice?”

He bark laughed. “I’m not sure that would be very effective.”

She drained the rest of the water, set the empty bottle on the table and stood up. Killian stood too, placing his hand on the small of her back. “Alright there, Swan?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. I’m gonna go get something to eat and take it easy this afternoon until I have to go to work.”

“That sounds like a good plan.” As she started toward the door, he added, “Uh, Emma? Could I ask a favor of you?”

She turned to look at him. “A favor for the guy who carried me into his apartment and took care of me when I fainted like a prissy debutante? Sure.”

“If, um, if Neal’s spirit does reappear, would you be opposed to letting me document it?”

Crossing her arms over her chest, she tilted her head in contemplation. “What would you do exactly?”

“Use equipment to detect paranormal activity and post it to my YouTube channel.”

“You mean that ESPN detector and stuff like that?”

He sighed in exasperation. “It’s EMF, Swan. Yes, that and voice recorders to conduct EVP sessions…”

She raised an eyebrow at him. “Stop saying letters. You know I don’t know what that shit means.”

“Electronic voice phenomena sessions record sounds or voices from ghosts. If he’s trying to communicate with you, we might be able to pick it up on a voice recorder.”

Shrugging, she replied, “That’s fine. I’m sure it would get lots of hits for your channel.”

He stepped into her personal space, sincerity shining in his eyes. “I hope you know that’s not why I want to do this, Emma. My goal is to help you encourage him to move on so you will no longer have to deal with him. It’s bad enough he stalked you while he was alive; doing it after he’s dead is even worse.”

She gave a slight nod. “You’re right about that.” Pushing up to her toes, she brushed a kiss to his cheek. “Thanks again for everything, Killian. If I get the feeling he’s back, I’ll call you right away.”

“Day or night, Swan. I’m at your beck and call.”

“Good to know,” she smirked. “I’ll see you later.”

He watched her walk out the door, reaching up to rub his cheek where she kissed him. He was going to have to do his best to remain professional around her, but potentially having Emma as his next subject was going to be quite the challenge.

*********

Emma entered her apartment, quickly flipped on the light switch, and glanced around nervously. Not seeing or sensing anything out of the ordinary, she moved into the kitchen.

After heating up leftovers and eating lunch, she climbed into her worn, comfy recliner to scroll through Hulu. She tried to concentrate on her selected show, but her eyes kept darting around the room. “Fuck you, Neal,” she muttered. “Making me paranoid in my own home.”

Finally giving up on watching TV, she went into her bedroom to select her clothes for work that evening. Then she decided to take a long, relaxing bath. The longer she soaked in the tub without any sign of Neal’s ghostly image, the more she relaxed.

By the time she left for work three hours later, she was nearly back to her normal self and very hopeful that he had indeed moved on.

*********

After Emma left his apartment, Killian tidied up - dumping the melting ice cubes into the sink, hanging the towel to dry, and throwing the empty water bottle into his recycling bin. Then he checked all of his ghost hunting equipment, setting the batteries to charge if they were a little low.

Plopping down on the couch, he pulled up the message app on his phone and clicked on the group text with his technical director, Belle French, and his assistant, Will Scarlett.

K: We may have a new gig right here in my apartment building.

As expected, he got an immediate response from Will. The man’s eyes were practically glued to his phone screen most of the time.

W: Got a haunter right under your nose, do ya?

Belle’s answer several minutes later was a little more refined.

B: Can you provide us with any details?

K: My neighbor’s ex-boyfriend committed suicide in prison and she’s experiencing some paranormal activity. She says she saw his ghost outside a coffee shop and when she got home, I was in the hall with the EMF meter and thermo. Both of them spiked.

B: Oh, wow! That’s incredible! Sad for the guy and your neighbor, but what an opportunity!

W: Is this neighbor the hot blonde you’ve been crushin’ on for years?

Killian dropped his head back and groaned. He should have known better than to have confessed his unrequited feelings to his assistant during a boring all-nighter in an old warehouse in Portland, Maine last year.

K: That’s a very crass way to put it, but yes, it’s Emma.

W: You mean we might actually get to meet her?

K: Not if you’re going to be an ass about it.

W: I’ll be on me best behavior, I promise.

K: Why doesn’t that reassure me?

B: What are your plans, Killian?

Leave it to Belle to be the peacemaker of the conversation, Killian thought. If he was feeling vengeful toward Will, he could mention the crush his friend had on the auburn-haired beauty. How she never realized it, Killian would never know. Will was the very definition of heart eyes whenever he was around her.

K: I’ve got my equipment ready to go. If she senses anything, she’s going to call me. If it’s a recurring thing, we’ll set up an EVP session. I’ll let you know if anything happens. Just wanted to put you on alert.

B: Sounds good. I’ll be editing tomorrow. The new episode should be ready to post by Thursday.

K: Thanks, Belle. You’re the best!

W: He’s right, ya know. You really are bloody brilliant.

Seriously - how could she not see it when Will was always falling all over himself to proclaim her perfection?

Once Killian ended the conversation, he wandered into the room he used as his office.

“Hello, little brother.”

*********

From a very early age, Killian had been able to sense paranormal activity. He was confused by it for many years, but as he grew and began to read about ghosts, he realized he had a gift, albeit an unwanted one.

When he was twelve, his mother passed and he was there to witness her soul departing her body. She only stayed long enough to declare her never-ending love for her boys and bid him goodbye, before she moved on to her eternal reward.

Eight years later, when Liam died in a naval training exercise, Killian expected him to join their mother. However, his brother’s apparition began appearing to him from time to time. At first, his appearance was simply a mist, barely recognizable, but as Killian did more research into the paranormal and practiced tapping into his abilities, it became more discernible. Still, he was frustrated that he could see his brother, but was unable to speak to him.

He purchased several pieces of equipment used by paranormal investigators, hoping to enhance his encounters with Liam. They turned out to be very helpful, but Liam soon learned to communicate with his brother well enough that the tools weren’t necessary.

On a whim, Killian posted videos of himself explaining the use of equipment to make contact with ghosts on YouTube, and soon he was in demand as a paranormal investigator. People were willing to pay large sums of money to be able to make contact with their departed loved ones, or to encourage ghosts to move on. He quit his job as a dock worker and began traveling, taking his friend Will along with him, and when the technical aspects of editing and posting to YouTube proved too daunting, he hired Belle.

Even his closest friends were unaware that Killian’s deceased brother appeared and spoke with him on a regular basis; he wanted to keep that part of his life to himself.

*********

It still startled Killian whenever the apparition of his brother appeared, but it wasn’t ever an unwelcome intrusion. His visits never lasted long, but there was always enough time for a nice chat.

“Perhaps you’ve forgotten I’m a grown man and therefore your younger brother,” Killian reminded Liam, for at least the fiftieth time.

“I’m not sure that’s technically true any more, since you’ve now lived past the age I was when I died.”

Killian hated it when Liam talked about his own death. “You were born before me, so you’ll always be older.”

“Hmm…” Liam responded, giving his brother the maddening little nod that meant he was right and Killian was wrong. “So, the lovely lass you’re pining for was here today, aye?”

“How did you know that?” Killian asked unnecessarily. Obviously Liam had popped in and, being a tad preoccupied taking care of Emma, he hadn’t noticed.

“I’m not doing the job of watching over my little brother very well if I don’t know what’s going on in his life.”

Killian had never come right out and asked Liam about the unfinished business that kept him from moving on, but having been his guardian for years before his death, he was sure it was to continue taking care of him. Not that he needed it, but he wasn’t complaining, as long as he had a chance to have his older brother with him in some shape or form.

“She, uh…she fainted so I brought her in to lay her on my sofa. I couldn’t very well let her lay on the floor in the hallway.”

“What caused her to faint?” Liam asked, his playful tone giving way to concern.

“Seems she was visited by the ghost of her departed ex-boyfriend. You didn’t see him hanging around, did you?”

“You know spirits seldom bump into one another, unless they were associated with each other while they were living.”

“I just thought I would ask. It spooked her badly - no pun intended.”

“Have you agreed to help her?”

“Aye, if I can. The guy made her life miserable when he was alive. She shouldn’t have to put up with him after his death.”

Liam studied his brother for several moments. “Perhaps this will give you a chance to get closer to her. Maybe you’ll even work up the nerve to finally ask her out.”

Killian sighed. “I’m not going to do that when she’s so vulnerable, Liam. I simply want to get the tosser to move on.”

“And after that?”

“I don’t know,” Killian conceded.

“You’ve had feelings for that lass for ages, Killy. When are you going to act on them?”

“I’m afraid she’s only ever going to think of me as a friend. If I ask her out and she turns me down, I might lose her friendship, and I don’t want that to happen.”

“You’ll never know unless you try.”

Killian didn’t answer. He’d had this conversation with his brother before and Liam always pushed him to ask Emma out. He didn’t understand why his love life was so important to his brother, but whenever he asked him, Liam was evasive and refused to answer.

“Just think about it, Killian. I have to go. I love you, Brother.”

“Love you, too, Liam.”

He watched his brother’s translucent form dissolve, leaving him sad and lonely, as always. He didn’t know when Liam would complete his unfinished business, but he did know that when he finally did, Killian would be left alone once again.

Unbeknownst to him, Liam’s unfinished business was to see his brother happily married to the love of his life, but it was up to Killian to take the first step.

*********

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[whimsicallyenchantedrose]

Christmas Reruns 2023 Day 21: Deck the Halls...or Maybe the Neighbor

Merry Christmas if you celebrate it and happy holidays if you don’t!  One of the things I love about Christmas is watching reruns of all the old classic Christmas movies–Christmas is a big time for nostalgia.  A few years ago, I decided to incorporate that tradition into my fandom life and post my CS holiday reruns.  So here you go!  Enough holiday (mostly) fluff to get you to New Year’s Day. (With a new story posting on Christmas Day.)

Rating: G

Word Count: 2253

Other chapters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32

Notes:  This story was written for my “Christmas with Captain Swan” collection in 2020.

CS Genre: Enemies to Lovers AU

She was going to kill him.  She was going to drive a stake of holly through his heart or strangle him with a strand of Christmas lights or…well, some other holiday themed method of homicide.

Emma worked hard all day chasing down the scum of the earth and hauling their worthless asses back to jail where they belonged.  Was it really too much to ask that she have a little peace and quiet downtime to relax once she got home.

According to the idiot who lived in the apartment directly above hers, apparently so.  Every damn day since Thanksgiving he’d blared his Christmas music loud enough to wake the ghost of Christmas past.  Sometimes he even enthusiastically belted along with it.  (She had to admit his voice wasn’t half bad, but that was entirely beside the point.)

Emma hissed as she dabbed at the cut beside her eye where tonight’s skip had clocked her.  She’d got him in the end; Emma Swan always got her man, but now that the adrenaline of the chase was over, her cuts and bruises and sore muscles were screaming at her.

And the guy in the apartment above had just started singing “Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” at the top of his lungs.

Emma growled, tossing the bloody cotton ball into her bathroom trash and getting to her feet.  Enough was enough.  This stopped now.  He could take his merry little Christmas and shove it up his south pole.

Two minutes later, she stood before his apartment.  Pounding on the door felt extremely satisfying if she did say so herself.

The music suddenly stopped, and a moment later the door opened, and for the first time Emma got a glimpse of the man who’d been the bane of her existence for the past two weeks.

Her jaw dropped.  He was drop dead gorgeous, melt-an-entire-population-of-snowmen hot.

“Well hello, there, Love,” he said with an appreciative grin-and in an accent that had her toes curling in her boots.  “How can I help you?”

Emma’s stomach swooped and her heart stuttered and then started racing.  She blinked and the spell was broken.  She wasn’t some teenager who drooled over hot guys.  Especially hot guys that she’d been seriously contemplating murdering five minutes ago.

“If you don’t stop with the Christmas crap, I’m going to punch your stupid, festive face,” she gritted out.

His eyebrows raised.  “Pardon?”

“Your music!” she said.  “Every freaking day, everytime I get home you’re blaring the Christmas music, and it got old about five minutes after you started.  I don’t think it’s too much to ask that I have a little peace and quiet in my own home.”

He huffed a breath.  “Darling, I had no idea anyone was even in the building in the middle of the afternoon.  Did it ever occur to you to come to me and ask me to turn down my music?”

She had to admit he had a point there.  Maybe yelling at him and threatening bodily harm wasn’t the best opening salvo, but it had been a long day, and she was in pain, and she wasn’t in the mood to be reasonable.

“Look, just turn it down,” she said, crossing her arms and glaring at him.

“Your wish is my command,” he said with biting sarcasm, sketching a mock bow.  “Now is there anything else you wish to yell at me about or may I get back to my tasks at hand?”

“Nope.  That’s all,” she said.

“Good,” he said and then tacked on a biting “merry Christmas” before shutting the door in her face.

The next morning, Emma was rather embarrassed about her interaction with Hot Christmas Guy upstairs, as she’d been calling him in her mind.  She’d had a frustrating day–the skip she’d gone after had left his wife and kids just before Christmas, taking every penny of their Christmas fund.  

It hit too close to home for a girl who had grown up with no family, with no one.  Hard to get into the warm and fuzzy Christmas spirit when no one gave a crap about you.

She’d been too harsh with Hot Christmas Guy, but at least the results were in her favor.  He’d been as good as his word, and if he’d continued playing his Christmas music, he’d done it at a low enough volume that she didn’t even hear it.

Emma had only just begun to think she should go upstairs and apologize, when suddenly there was a knock at her door. 

She opened the door to find the man himself, standing there holding a large plate of cookies. Her stomach not only swooped this time; it did cartwheels.  The guy looked even better in the bright light of morning with his slightly disheveled black hair, his reddish scruff, his blue button down that highlighted his even bluer eyes and his black leather jacket.

“I’m afraid we came to rather a bad start, yesterday,” he said.  “Perhaps we might start again, Aye?  My name is Killian Jones, and I’d like to offer you these Christmas cookies as a token of my apology for the excessive volume of my music.”

Emma took a step back and gestured for him to enter her apartment.  “Hey, I’m Emma Swan, and no apology is necessary.  In fact, I kind of think I owe you an apology.  I shouldn’t have just come out swinging like that.”

He smiled at her, the fine lines around his (beautiful) eyes crinkling with the gesture.  “Apology accepted Love.  I’ll leave you to your morning.”

He turned to leave, but suddenly, Emma didn’t want him to go.  “Killian wait!” she said.

Obediently he stopped, eyebrows raised in question.

“Would you like to stay and help me eat these cookies?”

He shot her a skeptical look.  “Dessert at nine in the morning?”

She shrugged.  “Can’t be much more unhealthy than my normal blueberry PopTart.”

Killian laughed then, taking a step back inside.  “Do you at least have milk to wash them down with?”

“Of course.”

Killian ended up staying for two hours, and it amazed Emma how quickly they fell into conversation.  It was like they were old friends catching up rather than relative strangers.  Emma learned that Killian was a novelist.  His music helped him with the creative process, jump started his creativity as it were.

The conversation had then turned to the upcoming holiday.

“Swan, do you not celebrate Christmas?” he’d asked, looking around her apartment.

She shrugged.  “I mean, I guess I do.  I’m not like opposed to Christmas or anything.  Why?”

“I can’t help but notice you have no tree, no decorations of any kind, and your opposition to the music of the season is well established,” he said.

Emma looked around her neat but rather sterile apartment and shrugged.  “I don’t know, I guess I just didn’t see the point of going to all that trouble.  I mean, it’s not like I’m going to have any presents under the tree or anyone to share the holiday with.”

She had expected him to look at her with pity at her admission of just how alone she was, but instead, the look on his face was knowing, understanding.  “The holidays are difficult when you’re alone, aren’t they?”

That surprised her.  Was he speaking from personal experience?

“Aye love,” he said, answering her unasked question, “I suspect we have more in common than you might have supposed.  Ever since my brother passed a decade ago, I’ve been on my own.  The holidays always bring with them a special kind of melancholy.”

“But…” she began, “but you play Christmas music.  From the glimpse I got of your apartment yesterday, you have all the decorations and trappings.  Doesn’t that make the loneliness worse?”

He shook his head.  “It helps me to remember the good memories, and there are always good memories if you dig deep enough.”

The conversation stuck with her long after she and Killian had said goodbye and gone their separate ways.  Maybe…maybe he was right.  Maybe if she let a little Christmas cheer into her life, it would help, even in a small part, to soothe the pain of a lifetime of loneliness.

The next morning, bright and early, there was a knock on Emma’s door.  This time she smiled as she went to the door, knowing instinctively that she’d find Killian on the other side.

What she wasn’t expecting was the large, beautiful, fragrant pine tree he was holding in front of him.

“What’s this?” she asked, opening the door wider so that he could awkwardly maneuver himself and the tree inside.

“This, Swan,” he said with a teasing grin, “is called a Christmas tree.  Traditionally people set them up in their houses this time of year and decorate them with lights and colorful baubles.”

She grinned, rolling her eyes at him and playfully swatting his shoulder.  “I know what it is, smart ass.  I’m wondering why you brought it here.”

He propped the tree against the door, and then reached up to scratch at the spot behind his ear.  “I got to thinking after our conversation yesterday.  I wanted to bring you some of the Christmas joy that has helped me through the season for years.  I hope I’ve not overstepped by bringing this.”

Emma smiled gently, stepping up to place a hand on his arm.  “This is really sweet, Killian,” she said.  “Thanks.”

“It was my pleasure,” he said, stepping outside to gather the boxes of lights, ornaments and tinsel he had waiting for him.  “If you’ve the time and inclination, I thought perhaps we could decorate your apartment together.”

She took one of the boxes from him and set it on her living room floor.  “As it turns out, I have the day off, and decorating a tree sounds like the perfect way to pass the time.  If you play your cards right, I might even let you play some Christmas music while we work.”

They’d spent the entire day together, first decorating her tree, then splitting a pizza from the place down the street, talking, laughing, and genuinely enjoying each other’s company.

The next day he was back, and the day after that she went to his apartment.  Barely a day went by that they didn’t see each other.  Each day brought a new holiday themed activity.  

For the first time she could remember, Emma felt the magic of Christmas.  For the first time she woke up looking forward to what the day might bring–and it was all due to Killian Jones.  It should scare her how comfortable she felt with him.  It should scare her how much she was coming to look forward to their time together, to their daily phone calls and text conversations.

But somehow it didn’t.  She could read people; it’s what made her so good at her job.  And Killian?  She read him loud and clear.  He was the real deal.  She could trust him.

And so it was that when the idea occurred to her she didn’t let herself think too hard, merely acted.

“So I was thinking,” she said, turning toward him on the couch where they sat together watching Christmas movies on Christmas eve.

“Dangerous prospect, love,” he said with a teasing grin.  She smacked his shoulder.

“I think that we should spend Christmas together,” she said.

This shouldn’t be that big of a deal–after all, they’d spent the last two weeks together–but somehow it was.  Somehow spending Christmas together felt huge. Like this-could-be-the-start-of-something-life-changing huge.

Killian’s eyes widened.  He clearly understood how momentous this question really was.  After a moment, his look of surprise softened into a gentle smile, and he reached up and cupped her cheek.  “Emma, I’d like nothing better than to spend Christmas with you.”

The relief, the joy that came over her at his answer overwhelmed her, and so she did the only thing that seemed to make sense in the moment.  She leaned forward and kissed him.

On Christmas, they made plans to spend New Years together, and on New Years, they made plans for Valentine’s Day.

And on the following Christmas, Killian got down on one knee and asked her to make plans with him for the rest of their lives.

It seemed only fitting that for their wedding several months later, they play Christmas music.  After all, without the sounds of the season, the beautiful, perfect life they’d built for themselves may never have begun.

NEXT CHAPTER->

[princess-and-the-swan]

MC Fic Rec: Bigger Than The Whole Sky

By wildseafairies | Rating: Mature

The untimely death of Emma’s only friend Liam leaves her shaken, and worst of all, stuck with a new, loud and incredibly annoying neighbor who turns out to be Liam’s estranged little brother. As they both learn to deal with their respective grief, perhaps something entirely new blooms there, too. WIP.

A special thank-you to the anon who recommended this author to me! I love it when fics include the Liam/Emma friendship and while Liam is dead in this fic (RIP Liam), it's lovely to see Killian and Emma come together over their love for him.

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[kingkaisen]

FIVE HUSBANDS

˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐕 || 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐇 𝐌𝐀𝐍 ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗

˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗

˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗ 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 || 𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 ˗ˋ ୨୧ ˊ˗

♡ — 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: eren, armin, connie, jean, levi, & reiner x celebrity!reader

♡ — 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: all actions have consequences, and after the latest life-ruining scandal, the owner of CS Records has the perfect punishment in mind for Eldian Devils, their manager, and you. With all the money and influential power in the world, there’s one person who will make everyone regret their decisions: the rich man.

♡ — 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓: 18+ ONLY || MINORS DNI || DARK CONTENT — fem!reader, modern au, angst, heartbreak, divorce, marriage, cheating, violence & blood/bruises mention, gun mention, false imprisonment, stockholm syndrome, toxic relationship, manipulation, stalking, drinking, smoking. (Some warnings here also apply to the series as a whole/other parts as well.)

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LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA

The smoldering cigarette that rested between Eren Yeager’s bruised lips glowed red when he inhaled it.

It was a disturbingly cold day in Los Angeles, cold enough to force the heat-adapted citizens of Southern California to dig into the back of their overpacked closets in hopes of finding a dusty, old, and unworn jacket.

The ashes that fell from Eren’s cigarette instantly blew away in the chilly wind, making the Handsome Man wish that his problems could disappear just as easily.

With one hand shoved into the pocket of his black hooded jacket, he stared out at the night sky, blowing sweet smoke into the cool air.

He waited impatiently for the apartment door behind him to open.

He wasn’t a fan of unexpected visitors himself, and he didn’t like having to pop up in the middle of the night without giving some sort of notice, but he had no other choice.

For a moment, he figured that no one would come to the door. He had been standing outside for a couple of minutes now.

Suddenly, he heard the locks start to come undone, but rather slowly.

Cautiously.

When the old wooden door creaked open, Eren turned around to face the door, taking another puff of his therapeutic cigarette.

The door didn’t open all the way — the chain lock was still hooked — but it was cracked open just enough for a pair of big blue eyes to peek out of the small gap and stare back at him.

“What do you want?”

“We need to talk,” Eren released a shaky breath. “Please.”

Armin simply blinked at him. A gentle click of the lids. Eren couldn’t tell what the blonde-haired man was thinking — what thoughts were shuttling through his overactive, wise mind — and he was prepared for the door to be slammed in his face soon enough. Should Armin choose to do that, slam the door hard enough to wake up his neighbors and make their alerted dogs bark, Eren couldn’t exactly blame him.

That was why when Armin did shut the door all of a sudden, Eren could only frown, and think about what a stupid idea it was to show up at his apartment like this in the first place.

Just as he stomped out his cigarette and was about to drag himself back to his car and begrudgingly head home, the gentle clinks of the chain lock being unhooked made him halt his footsteps.

Armin Arlert had fully opened the door this time, stepping to the side to let Eren in.

—

Eren’s curious, emerald-green eyes darted across the small, cramped space Armin was forced to call home. It was a cheaply made, poorly lit, brownish apartment that had not seen a spec of cosmetic work since it was built decades ago.

Eren’s closet was bigger than this place.

Even so, there was something quite cozy about it. It was clean, uncluttered, and decorated simply with old, thrifted furniture.

It had the touch of someone who was trying their best.

“Um,” Armin said nervously, shutting and locking the door after Eren stepped inside and entered the tiny living room. “You can have a seat, I guess.”

“Thanks.” As Eren sat down on the squeaky faded green couch, he noticed a yellow blanket draped messily along the cushions, along with an open copy of Stephen King’s Misery novel sitting right beside it.

Although Armin was wearing a white t-shirt and blue plaid-patterned pajama pants, undoubtedly dressed for bed, it was obvious that he was wide awake and halfway through the popular horror book. That particular bit of knowledge made Eren feel better about disturbing him so late at night.

“How did you get my address?” Armin questioned, lingering around near the front door, not daring to sit down next to Eren just yet, as he couldn’t determine whether or not he wanted to punch the brown-haired wife-snatcher in the face and worsen his injuries.

“Mikasa gave it to me,” Eren muttered. “I know it’s weird-”

“Yeah, it is.” Armin interrupted, scanning his eyes over Eren.

Despite their only source of light coming from the dim lamp next to the couch, Armin could make out the fresh, red cuts and bruises on his face quite clearly.

The colorful injury to the right side of his mouth was directly below the one underneath his bloodshot eye, and right across from the large bruise on his aching jaw.

But that wasn’t nearly as alarming as the absolute misery visible within his watery eyes.

Even so, as Armin slickly glanced down at Eren’s fists, noticing the black-and-blue marks across his knuckles and the dried blood coating the black ring on his right hand, it was obvious that he didn’t go down without a fight.

“You could have just asked Mikasa for my phone number if you wanted to talk,” Armin shifted his feet.

“No. This is something we need to talk about face-to-face.”

Armin walked across the squeaky wooden floor, and he sat down on the furthest end of the couch, as far away from Eren as he could get.

He placed a blue bookmark in between the pages of his novel before closing it and bringing his knees to his chest, pulling the yellow blanket across his shoulders.

“I wanted to say that I’m sorry.”

When those words fell from between Eren’s lips, Armin whipped his head in his direction, his ocean-blue eyes wide with shock.

“You’re . . . sorry?”

“Yeah,” Eren ran his hand over the lower part of his face, sighing heavily. “I can barely eat or sleep, Armin. All I can do is sit around, feeling like shit, thinking about how I stole your wife. I didn’t get why it was such a big deal until she cheated on me. I just . . . I really fell for her, you know?”

“It’s okay, Eren.” Looking away from the bruised man, Armin’s gaze dropped down to the raggedy floor. “You don’t have to lie to me to garner sympathy and earn my forgiveness.”

“What?” This time, Eren was the one to look over at Armin.

“Just be honest,” Armin paused. “You thought she was pretty, and you wanted her all to yourself. She was a prize. You don’t have to claim that you were in love with her to make me forgive you. I’m over it, I swear.”

“But it’s true. I was in love with her.”

“How? You barely knew her. I know relationships move fast in Hollywood, but . . .”

“I did know her,” Eren said. “She was a theater kid back in high school, and before all of this, she wanted to become a playwright. You both worked at that little bakery to get by in a rough New York neighborhood. She snores a little in her sleep if she’s been drinking. If she doesn’t set an alarm, she’ll wake up late, no matter what. She fucking sucks at driving and cooking, and she burned grilled cheese a couple of times. She tilts her head when she’s listening to people talk. She loves card games, even though she tries to make up her own rules. She loved playing outside as a kid — still has a little scar on her knee from it — and her mom always told her to come home before the streetlights came on, and dinner was always ready. Her favorite color is-”

“O-Okay, I get it. I was wrong.”

Aside from the gentle hum of the space heater sitting on the floor next to the couch, all noise ceased for a moment, until Eren spoke up.

“I wanna help you out, Armin.” Eren leaned back on the couch. “I have more than enough money to-”

“No.” Armin was quick to interrupt him. “Thank you, but I’m okay. Mikasa already offered. Several times, actually.”

“What about a better damn job, then?” Looking at the blonde once again, Eren’s eyes drifted down to Armin’s hands. “I could find you a nice job as an entertainment manager or agent. You helped Hollywood discover Y/N, and it could really be a nice career for you. There’s better insurance, a lotta other good benefits, and you can find a better place to live-”

“No. I’m not some poor pathetic person who needs saving, okay? I know it looks rough, but honestly, this is the most comfort I’ve ever had financially. I’m fine-”

Suddenly, Eren grabbed Armin’s hand. He ran his eyes across the scars and scratches that littered his skin from years upon years of hard work, along with his calloused fingertips.

“I never said you needed saving, did I? I just think that I owe you, and you owe it to yourself to live a life that isn’t so fucking shitty. Just look at your hands.”

Armin didn’t answer, but he didn’t snatch his hand away from Eren either.

“Just think about it, okay?” Eren dropped Armin’s scarred hand, and pushed himself off of the couch, wincing as he did so. As he headed towards Armin’s front door, mumbling a low “I’ll see you later,” his footsteps halted once Armin asked him a simple question.

“Who beat you up, Eren?”

“That’s none of your business,” Eren paused. “All you need to know is that soon, I’ll get them back for it. I’ll make their asses suffer.”

Eren placed his trembling, bruised hand on the doorknob.

“Was it Connie’s men? Did they beat you up because of her?”

Armin’s question startled him to his core.

Eren whipped his head around so fast, that his low man bun almost came undone. How exactly did Armin know about Connie and his group of bastards?

“How did you know?”

Armin smiled sadly. “Because they beat me up too.”

—

Between the nightly hours of four and nine o’clock every Friday, Jean Kirstein could be found working in the recording studio inside of CS Records, creating new songs for Eldian Devils — or, for himself, as of late.

Levi Ackerman was parked on the other side of the street across from the tall building at 8:50 P.M., sitting in his newest black car. One that the local paparazzi hadn’t been taught to recognize just yet.

Black hood. Black jeans. Sunglasses too, despite it being a dark, starless night.

And he waited.

He sat in the driver's seat, watching the entrance.

And he waited.

Seven minutes later, Jean strolled right out of the studio, pushing the glass door open with one hand, and holding a white styrofoam cup filled with soda with the other.

“I’ll see you later, have a good night,” he called out to the freckle-faced blonde receptionist behind the white-and-gold marbled front desk.

Jean exited CS Records, sipping on his drink as he turned left once he made his way out of the front doors, on the way to his car.

He hated parking in the parking garage.

It was a bit less safe than the public L.A. streets — bright lights from nearby buildings, ordinary citizens walking up and down the sidewalks, cars zooming by almost constantly.

Even so, Levi was rather wise.

And tonight, at least, Jean should have taken his chances with the parking garage.

There was a dark alley in between two buildings that Jean had strolled by rather often. It was the kind of spooky place that most people wouldn’t dare wander into, as the bright lights of the city didn’t reach into the shady, deserted passageway, home to rusted trash cans and leaky, wet pipes that smelt of sewage water.

While young, impressionable children might have walked across the street to avoid the silly monsters that they imagined would be lurking in the darkness of the alley, most adults just walked on by.

Nothing to see. Nothing worth a single glance.

And that’s what Jean did.

Maybe, if he did bother to turn his head to the left and look into the creepy alley for even just a split second, he would have noticed Levi standing there, blending in with the engulfing darkness.

When a hand reached out and grabbed Jean by the collar of his dark-red shirt, his drink fell to the ground with a gentle thud.

Even Jean himself truly could not say whether or not he had made some sort of noise as his manager casually dragged him back into the alley, as if he was nothing more than a bag of garbage.

However, once Levi tossed him on the cold, wet concrete, and landed a swift kick to his jaw with the heaviest pair of black combat boots he could find, Jean’s short yell would have surely grabbed the attention of anyone nearby.

If only the blaring radios, rumbling engines, and squeaky tires from the cars speeding down the road weren’t so deafening. If only the loud chatter from the local L.A. citizens wasn’t so noisy. If only someone bothered to look down the alley.

Levi kicked Jean in the chest this time. His hands were in his pockets as if he was simply kicking a rock down the street.

When his boot slammed into Jean’s stomach, and blood spewed out from his client’s mouth, that was when Levi removed his hands from the pockets of his jacket. He took off his sunglasses, tossing them in the little splatter of Jean’s blood.

Jean struggled to look up at the man looming over him. But, when his bloodshot eyes did finally manage to glance up into Levi’s dark ones, he was certain that he had never seen such an intense amount of deadly hatred in someone’s eyes before.

The simple fact that Jean had the nerve to look at him only pissed him off even more.

Levi kicked Jean right in the face again. Then, he pressed his bloodied face against that unforgiving, dirty concrete with the bottom of his boot.

“You have a very kickable face, Jean.” Levi’s haunting tone was just as scary as he was, as it was laced heavily with white-hot anger.

“What the hell are you doing?” Jean coughed out. Who knew it would be so incredibly difficult to speak when your face was pressed to the ground by another man’s foot? “Why are you-”

Levi leaned forward just a bit, applying more pressure, which, in turn, cut off Jean’s words.

“Did you enjoy your time in the studio today, Jean? Writing more songs about Y/N? I heard the last song you wrote was a real big hit.”

When that last word rolled off of Levi’s venom-laced tongue, he raised his foot off of Jean’s head, but only to kick him in the gut two more times.

“Wh-What?” Jean heaved in between his low shouts of utter anguish, his words coming out slowly and painfully. “Why do you care about . . . a stupid song? You have bigger shit . . . to worry about, d-don’t you?”

“Oh, right. I do.” Levi squatted down, staring into Jean’s eyes — which were glistening with anger and hatred. Grabbing Jean’s hair, he lowered his voice as he spoke to the injured man.

“You’re referring to those leaked photos, aren’t you? You think I give a shit about my reputation? I only care about that song you put out. You made her cry, you know that? Now, as your manager, I have a few questions.”

Levi rose to his feet once again.

He kicked Jean with a lot more force. A lot more blinding anger. A lot less care to which body parts his boots connected with.

“Did I tell you to release that goddamn song? Huh? Who the hell do you think you are, doing something like that without running it by me?”

Only when Levi stopped kicking him, did Jean realize that beyond his unyielding rage, he truly wanted an answer.

Jean spit out the blood that had filled his mouth into the small puddle of red liquid beside him, the pool that had formed from his other wounds.

Although his bones and organs ached as he did so, he sat up as best as he could and looked Levi Ackerman right in the eye.

Levi had gained a bit of respect for Jean, even if it was just a small bit. He clearly wasn’t a coward, as he didn’t try to run away, nor did he cry for help.

He only took it like a man, and while his bones might have been on the verge of breaking, his spirit wasn’t.

How admirable.

“I don’t have to run shit by you. You’re nothing more than my manager. You work for me-”

Jean cut himself off at the horrifying sight of Levi pulling his leg back, getting ready to kick him once more with that bloodied boot of his.

“Alright, alright, I’m sorry.” Jean sighed. “It was . . . Connie’s idea.”

“Connie?” Levi lowered his foot, a frown of confusion spreading across his face. “That doesn’t make any sense. He hates drama. Says it embarrasses his company. He wouldn’t make you do something like this.”

Jean winced in pain with every single breath he took. Even so, he fought through it as he spoke.

“He would do something like this if it embarrasses Eren even more. And it does.”

Connie risking the reputation of his company for the sake of embarrassing Eren was something Levi could have looked past without a care in the world, truth be told.

But the rumors of an affair that was spread throughout Jean’s song had also embarrassed you.

And he couldn’t let that slide.

“What’s going on between Connie and Eren?” Levi stepped closer towards Jean. “Tell me now.”

“Connie just thinks that Eren’s getting too disrespectful. He’s trying to teach him a lesson, alright? All I know is that Connie made Eren divorce Y/N, and he keeps forcing all of us to make more music.” Jean dropped his gaze to the ground below him.

“Connie really screwed the band over with those contracts. We can’t get out of it. He controls everything — what songs we play, our daily schedules, what we wear, who we can talk to . . . and if you don’t do it, you get beaten up, or worse. I didn’t wanna write that song. I don’t want Y/N to hate me, believe me, but that’s just how it is. Eren . . . Eren’s trying to fight back against all of it, and Connie doesn’t like it.” Suddenly, Jean looked up at the shadowy figure standing in front of him. “But you don’t give a damn, do you? You work for Connie. You’re our manager, so you must know about all that, and you don’t care. Am I wrong here?”

Aside from the noisy hustle and bustle of the sweet Los Angeles nightlife, it was silent for a moment.

“I didn’t know,” Levi said.

Jean raised his eyebrows, but then, after a handful of seconds, he frowned.

“I guess that doesn’t surprise me,” he said. “Y/N’s the only client you give a damn about now. You don’t even give a damn about yourself. Your life is ruined, and yet, here you are, worrying about her.”

Those bold, brave comments would have earned the poor musician another kick or two, and he tensed his body in preparation once he saw Levi shift his stance a bit, but the kick never came. Instead, Levi spoke, and he did so rather calmly.

“Why is Connie putting the band through hell and no one else? All of his other artists get to live their lives and do whatever the hell they want.”

“It’s our punishment for embarrassing him with our behavior, I guess. For drawing all of this negative attention to his label all because of a girl. Connie doesn’t like drama unless he’s directly behind it. If I’m right, then that can only mean that he’ll punish Y/N soon enough for the new cheating scandal. And you.”

Was that truly it? Was Connie truly so power-hungry, he’d willingly control people, cause drama, and embarrass the artists of his company, because he was pissed off over them accidentally embarrassing him first?

Would he do anything to get the upper hand, even if it meant not allowing the very artists who made him wealthy to have any sort of freedom?

How deranged.

And, now, because Levi wasn’t strong enough to resist temptation, which ended up embarrassing Connie’s company, the two of you were next.

“That asshole doesn’t scare me,” Levi clenched his jaw. “I’ll be damned if I let that dumbass try to control me or her.”

“Really? You think he gives a shit about the law, Levi? Or being a good person with morals? Think he won’t shoot you in the face and force someone else to take the blame if you refuse to listen to him? He did warn you at that meeting a long time ago, remember?” Jean’s tone suddenly softened, his bloodied face becoming pale with worry. “And now, he’s so pissed off to hear about you and Y/N hooking up, and you leaking the photos, I’m sure he’s . . . already started.”

“Do you think I’m stupid enough to leak photos of myself sleeping with a married client? What kind of idiot do you take me for?” Levi paused, “And what the hell do you mean? What has Connie started? Started punishing us?”

Jean’s expression changed into a look Levi couldn’t recognize.

“Levi, do you even know what Y/N has been doing lately?”

—

TWO DAYS LATER – LAS VEGAS, NEVADA

“Our next guest here on The Nights With Flint Show has stolen everyone’s heart with their touching rags-to-riches story. This baker-turned-singer-turned-actress has raised the standard when it comes to natural, raw talent, and the world of entertainment just can’t keep up! She has achieved three Billboard Hot 100 number-one singles, and her next album, Heartbreaker, is available for pre-order now. You know her, you love her — Please welcome, F/N L/N!”

As an artificial smile graced your burning, beautiful face — which was sore from hours upon hours of beaming in front of invasive cameras — the live audience consisting mainly of middle-aged men and women applauded when you walked out from backstage to join Flint Davidson, the infamous Las Vegas talk show host who once interviewed Eren Yeager himself, right in the same purple, velvety couch that you elegantly sat down in.

The bright studio lights shined upon his unnaturally tan skin and porcelain veneers as he welcomed you. The enthusiastic man seemed like a wax figure. A puppet. But even so, his unnerving smile wasn’t fake, unlike yours.

He was a product of fame and money, and those empty blue eyes of his reflected his vacant soul when he stared at you, his very special guest for tonight’s show.

Greetings were exchanged. Sugary, false manners with a touch of family-friendly humor were displayed perfectly, just as you had been taught to do.

Typically, it was muscle memory — how to be perfect. But, as you mindlessly chatted about how lovely it was to be in Las Vegas again, perfection wasn’t the driving force behind your admirable behavior this time.

It was fear.

“Well, Flint, the last time I was here in Las Vegas, I was watching your show from my hotel room. Now, I’m actually sitting here with you. It’s a dream come true. I must say, you’re even more handsome in person!”

“Oh, no need to butter me up, I’m gonna see your new movie, I promise! I’d be a fool to miss the sequel to A Game of Darkness. They actually gave my role to you because they said I couldn’t act — whatever that means — but don’t worry, I’ll still watch it, even if it hurts!”

The audience laughed lightly at his corny jokes, and you did as well. An entire week’s worth of media training was dedicated to mastering the Ideal Laugh.

Practicing in front of your instructor.

Practicing in front of the mirror.

Practicing until you could no longer recognize the difference between your real, wholehearted chortle, and your phony one.

“Your natural laugh is rather boisterous at times.” Your instructor once said, pursing her lips as she squinted her eyes. “We will work on changing that promptly.”

Now, your soft laugh was as pleasant as a flower dancing in a gentle breeze.

It was perfect.

Perfect, perfect, perfect.

Everything was perfect. Everything had to be perfect-

“So, let’s talk about something a little more serious.” Flint Davidson looked at you — no, Flint Davidson looked through you — and his smile faded away.

He truly looked like a puppet now.

“The story goes that you were accused of having an affair with Jean Kirstein while you were married to his bandmate, Eren Yeager. And recently, you were caught cheating on your new husband, Reiner Braun, with your manager, Levi Ackerman. Now, I heard that Levi Ackerman allegedly released the photos of the affair himself. Is that true? And-And we aren’t here to judge you, I mean, you’re drop-dead gorgeous — isn’t she, folks? Who could stay away from her?”

Another round of applause erupted from the audience, but you couldn’t help but wonder how many attendees truly agreed with that statement, or were just mindlessly doing what the big, red, hidden APPLAUSE sign told them to do.

“I appreciate your kindness, and thank you for giving me an opportunity to just be honest and clear everything up,” you gave a small sigh, one filled with false regret. A damsel-in-distress kind of sigh.

Your next few statements weren’t truly your statements at all, but sweet lies drilled into your ventriloquist-dummy mind repeatedly over the last three days.

Who knew what would happen if you didn’t say what he wanted you to say.

You were just as much of a puppet as Flint Davidson.

And it had to be perfect. You had to be perfect.

Perfect, perfect, perfect.

“What Jean wrote in his song is regrettably true. I was having an affair with Eren’s bandmate, and Eren rightfully divorced me because of it. I’m just happy that Jean’s song was catchy, at least!” You laughed. The audience laughed with you. Flint Davidson laughed with you. It sounded like the theme song to the innermost circle of Hell — if it had one.

“When it comes to Levi Ackerman, I’m absolutely horrified that he would do something like this. You see, that night, I was drunk and upset. I had just heard about Jean’s song, and I was also the victim of a very serious break-in. Levi used my vulnerability to his advantage, and we made a huge mistake. And for him to leak the photos, well . . . I guess that was his way of trying to put himself in the spotlight. Working for famous people and not being that much of a famous person yourself must have made him jealous, and this was his only chance to truly get his name out there as a talentless individual.”

“I see.” Flint nodded along to your dishonest words. “And if I’m correct, you released a few record-breaking songs about your own experiences with Jean and Eren, am I right? How do you think they felt about that?”

“You’re absolutely correct, and I have no idea how they felt. I haven’t spoken to either one of them in a long time, which might be for the best.”

Flint Davidson smiled cruelly.

“Well, why don’t we bring them out and see how they feel, shall we?” “Everyone, please welcome the two members of Eldian Devils — Jean Kirstein and Eren Yeager!”

Even when your stiff body became heavy with dread, your face couldn’t reflect the absolute terror you felt. Instead, a soft gasp escaped from between your slightly parted lips. It was a pleasant, little gasp, as if to say “Oh, wow! Flint, you didn’t!”

As the audience erupted into yet another round of nauseating applause, the two puppets walked out from backstage, imaginary strings belonging to CS Records controlling them, just as they controlled you.

“Welcome, boys! Welcome!” Flint greeted them both with a handshake. “Have a seat! Y/N won’t bite!”

Jean sat down next to you on the couch, and Eren sat down beside him.

Their choice of seating was intentional.

Neither one of them would look you in the eye, nor did they greet you.

That was also intentional.

You could only hope that the camera wouldn’t pick up on the gentle, yet staggering breaths blowing out from between your slightly quivering lips, as you tried to calm yourself down. If anyone noticed the way your hands were desperately trying to tremble, it could have been disastrous for you.

For all of you.

But the shaky breaths and jittery hands weren’t a result of nervousness. By now, far too many cameras, blinding lights, and gazing eyes have shined upon you for anything to make you nervous.

What was rushing through your veins right now was utter anger.

Only a devil like Connie Springer would put the three of you on stage like this, watching the show from backstage with his crew like a hawk stalking its prey, waiting for anyone to slip up and make a mistake.

It was all intentional.

And you had to be perfect.

Perfect, perfect, perfect.

When Eren and Jean sat down, it was with a bit of a struggle, as if they were both old men with bad backs and wobbly knees. Their faces — which held radiant, fake smiles — were minimally covered with makeup that was a tad bit different than the usual quick dust of powder that the majority of men received before going on live television.

You knew exactly what it was when the studio light briefly shined upon their faces from a very specific angle as they adjusted themselves among the cushions.

The makeup was meant to cover their bruises.

Although your face didn’t show anything but an amused grin, you were deeply confused.

For Eren, it made sense.

He had gotten on Connie’s bad side quite often.

But Jean was Connie’s favorite little tool at the moment. It made no sense for Connie to hurt him, and he wouldn’t leave his face covered in fresh bruises right before forcing him to go on the show.

Even The Irritable Eren didn’t receive any recent beatings for the sake of this interview, and his current bruises were about a week old.

But, truth be told, it didn’t matter.

Not one mindless human being who would watch tonight’s show would notice the covered bruises, and if they did, they simply wouldn’t care. Not their problem.

“It isn’t unusual for troublemaking rockstars to get into fights and injure themselves,” everyone would think.

“So,” Flint paused, his voice snapping you back to your overwhelming reality. “The three of you are finally here together — how does it feel? Be honest!”

No one replied immediately. The three of you simply continued to grin like malfunctioning robots, hoping that someone else would speak, and give the perfect response.

“Well, you definitely surprised me tonight, Flint.” The calmness that masked your true anger could have fooled anyone.

The perk of being a professional liar.

“I’m sorry for catching you off guard, Y/N,” he lied, “but I believe everyone is curious to know about the tension between the three of you. Some have even said that all of your public behavior is nothing more than a publicity stunt, but I don’t think I believe that!”

“It’s not a publicity stunt, I can tell you that much,” Jean suddenly spoke up, giving an amused smirk, which then became a serious frown. “Everything that happened between the three of us was real. As much as I wish it was fake for the sake of guilt and regret, it’s not.”

“You heard it here first, folks!” Facing the crowd as they briefly applauded — surely with sore, red hands at this point — Flint then looked over at the one person who hadn’t spoken yet.

“And what do you have to say about all of this, Eren? Do you plan on listening to Y/N’s song about you? Does it depend on the genre?”

Although you, Jean, and the audience laughed softly, Eren did not.

In fact, he didn’t even bother with faking a smile anymore. Instead, he simply sat there, his elbow resting on the arm of the couch as his hand covered his mouth, and he gave the host a death stare.

A death stare was against the pleasant personalities he demanded all of you to have.

A death stare would lead to trouble.

A death stare would lead to unapproved rumors.

More articles.

More embarrassment.

More punishments.

Jean must have realized that too, as he suddenly spoke up once again, doing anything to get everyone’s attention away from Eren and his bad attitude.

“To be honest, I think all of our actions are a result of our love for each other. I know that might sound crazy, but we all care about each other, which is exactly why everyone reacted so strongly towards feeling betrayed.”

“So when this guy,” Flint paused, pointing at Eren as he spoke to Jean, “when this guy punched you in the face for sleeping with his wife, you mean to tell me it was because he cares about you? You and I have different definitions of caring about someone, buddy!”

Jean started to crack his knuckles in his lap. He chuckled nervously.

“Me and Eren were . . . are best friends,” looking at the audience with sympathy-seeking eyes, Jean showed everyone why he deserved to have an Oscar or two. “As his best friend, I betrayed him. Someone he cared about betrayed him. That’s what I’m trying to say.”

The cheers following Jean’s statement dwindled once Flint turned his attention back to Eren again.

“You’re awfully quiet, Eren,” He said with a hint of a playful, teasing tone. “I’m sure everyone here would love to know what’s on your mind — right, folks? C’mon, Eren, tell everyone what you’re thinking! Surely you have more to offer than just allowing everyone to stare at that handsome face of yours!”

The thumping beat of your heart echoed in your ears so loudly, that you had to wonder if the microphone would be able to pick it up. The tension in the studio was so thick, that a knife could slice through it.

Eren was on the verge of ruining everything. And you couldn’t do anything. Anything except smile, sit there like a little doll and pray.

“D-Don’t worry about him, Flint. He’s just trying to look cool and make his fangirls go crazy,” you joked, giving a playful wave of your hand.

“Really? Is that all I’m doing, Y/N?”

Eren’s words were harsh enough to make you flinch, although truly, his anger wasn’t directed towards you. Even so, it was the first time you had heard that mesmerizing voice of his in such a long, long time.

“Care to explain what you mean, Eren?” The host leaned forward. The cameras zoomed in. The audience members didn’t even dare to breathe too loudly.

Jean slickly knocked his knee against yours. Later on, your shippers would more than likely create edits of that little moment and post it on every social media platform available, calling it romance; “it must have been a sign, right?” They would tweet.

But you knew better. He was signaling you. Warning you.

If anyone knew Eren, it was Jean.

And he knew that his bandmate was about to ruin everything.

But you could only smile, sit there like a little doll, and pray.

“No, I don’t care to explain, Flint,” Eren started. “You get millions of viewers every night. Millions of people across the world tune in to watch your shitty little show. And yet, you dragged us down to Las Vegas, and tricked us into coming here together, all so you could get even more people to watch your show in hopes that some sort of drama would break out. Jean and I didn’t know Y/N would be here until we were backstage. Y/N didn’t know until now. Who the hell toys with people like that? You’re a shitty host and a shitty person.”

And with that, Eren pushed himself off of the couch, and the rockstar left the stage.

Flint Davidson tried to play it off with a laugh, but even a professional puppet like him had a spec of a human soul lingering around somewhere inside of him, and that humanlike part of him faced the audience with an awkward grin.

“Well, unfortunately, that’s all the time we have, folks! Thank you all for . . .”

You could no longer hear much of what anyone dared to say after Eren left the stage. And, based on the fear gracing Jean’s pale face as he glared at the ground with wide, worried eyes, he couldn’t hear anything either.

Most of Eren’s words were truthfully not meant for Flint Davidson. They were meant for Connie Springer, as he was the one who put this show together, and Flint was nothing more than a happy pawn. It didn’t matter though, as no one aside from you, Eren, Jean, and the energetic host knew that little fact.

And, of course, Connie Springer, who was waiting outside of the private guest exit with his crew.

The unusually chilly wind sent an unpleasant shiver up your spine once you stepped through the back door with Jean and Eren. Typically, when leaving an event, you were hurriedly escorted out of the building and into some sort of car before fans and paparazzi could catch a glimpse of you.

However, no one seemed to be around, and while there were cars parked on the curb, the doors weren’t being opened by some sort of bodyguard with a driver ready to pull off. Instead, Connie and his men — who were all dressed sharply in black — stood in front of the cars.

They blocked them.

“You guys enjoy pissing me off, don’t you?” Connie smiled, and it was a grin that was colder than the uncomfortable nightly breeze.

“Eren was the one who-”

“Shut the hell up,” Connie interrupted Jean, glaring at the musician as his grin faded away. “I watched that shit. I know what happened.”

“Eren? Got anything to say?” Connie looked at Eren, then darted his eyes over to you. “Y/N? What about you?”

The group of men standing behind Connie moved. They hovered around the three of you, and hundreds upon hundreds of behavioral lessons were instantly forgotten, as your body stiffened once your name fell from between Connie’s lips.

What were you supposed to say? Jean was right, it was Eren’s fault.

You were perfect.

Aside from the swirling wind, it was otherwise silent, and in Connie’s mind, silence meant that he was being ignored. And, it was as if his minions shared the same thought process as him, as one of them took a step in your direction.

Suddenly, Eren grabbed your wrist.

Your ex-husband swiftly pulled you behind him, putting himself in between you and the pissed-off man like a human shield.

That protective grip of his sent a wave of warmth throughout your body, and his large hand didn’t let go of your wrist as he spoke.

“Just do what you always do, Connie,” Eren scowled. “Get your guys to beat me up. I don’t give a damn. Just leave her alone. She didn’t do anything wrong, so stay the hell away from her.”

Connie tossed his head back with a sigh before he spoke.

“This is becoming a routine, huh?”

“Yeah,” Gripping your wrist even tighter — but not enough to hurt — Eren turned to face the two bigger men standing threateningly to the left of him. “Let’s see how many of these bastards I bring down with me this time.”

One of them stepped closer yet again. Eren released your wrist. He needed his hands to fight, after all.

Jean reached out, grabbing your arm, pulling you away from the potential fight that was destined to break out as soon as Connie gave his men the approval to hit Eren. It would come at any second, in the form of a verbal response, a nod, or the raise of his hand.

Everyone waited for it.

As two men stepped closer to Eren, two more of those silent, mindless souls hovered behind you and Jean.

But, when Connie finally said something, it wasn’t any sort of indication to fight. He gave the man standing closest to him an odd order instead.

“Bring me Eren’s phone.”

The man nodded, opening the door to Connie’s red Ferrari. Hidden in one of the compartments of his vehicle was a little bag. A bag that held not only Eren’s phone, but yours as well, and every single member of Eldian Devils.

He took them a while ago.

Punishment.

“What the hell are you doing?” Eren called out, watching one of the silent men hand Connie his phone.

Connie simply didn’t answer. Instead, he turned on Eren’s device and started scrolling through his contacts list.

“Hey, look!” Connie suddenly laughed, raising the phone to one of his men. “It’s Eren when he was a teen. See the short hair? He was a piece of shit back then too.”

Then, Connie smirked at Eren.

“I bet you haven’t seen your momma since you took this photo, have you?”

“What are you-”

Eren instantly stopped speaking once Connie clicked on a phone number and pressed the phone to his ear.

“Hey, Mrs. Yeager!”

Connie smiled as he stared right into Eren’s eyes. Eren tried to approach Connie, but those men of his were as strong as they were silent, and they quickly grabbed him and forced him down to his knees, one of them covering his mouth with their gloved hand.

And they wouldn’t let go of him.

All Eren could do was sit there in utter confusion, watching as Connie chatted with his beloved mother.

“Yeah, it’s Connie, sorry for calling you from Eren’s phone . . . Been a long time, I know, I know . . . I’m just hanging out with Eren and wanted to see how you were doing.”

Connie paused as Carla responded to him. Then, he said, “that’s good. Hey, listen — mind if I come over? You were kinda like my momma too, and it’s been too long since I last saw you.”

Eren tried to lunge at him again, but he couldn’t move an inch. He could only listen. Connie started to move around casually, looking at his watch and staring at the ground.

“Yes ma’am, I’d love a plate, c’mon now, you know me . . . Bring Eren? I’ll ask, but he’s not feeling well, so it might just be me. That alright? Okay . . . I’ll see you soon.”

Once the phone call ended, one of Connie’s men removed their hand away from Eren’s mouth. And Eren didn’t waste a second before he angrily said to Connie, “what the hell are you doing?”

“How many times are you gonna ask me that? The fuck does it look like I’m doing?” Connie grimaced with annoyance and put his hands in the pockets of his black dress pants. “I’m going to your momma’s house. You see, I forgot you’re not like most people. It doesn’t matter how many times I try to hurt your ass, you’ll never listen. But if I hurt your family-”

“Don’t you fucking dare, you bastard. If you lay a hand on anyone in that house, I’ll kill you myself.” Eren’s threat fell on deaf ears.

Surely Connie was bluffing.

That’s what you thought, at least.

Until Connie started walking towards his car.

“Don’t you fucking do it . . . Don’t fucking do it,” Eren shouted again, trying his hardest to shake himself loose, all while you stood there like a frightened statue.

“Connie, listen to me.” Jean took a hesitant step forward as if he were approaching a dangerous wild animal.

A wild animal might have been safer.

“You’re going too far, alright? That woman has always treated us like family growing up. Don’t do this, please.”

“Oh, I get it.” Connie started to open his car door, but he paused, staring a hole into Jean. “So, you can speak up for him, but you couldn’t speak up for me that day.”

His words had caught Jean off guard. That much was clear based on the sweat accumulating across Jean’s forehead.

What did Connie mean, exactly?

“I . . . that was years ago, Connie.” Jean swallowed thickly. “I didn’t mean to-”

“Shut the fuck up,” Connie demanded. His tone was colder than it was earlier. He turned his attention towards his men, pointing at them as he gave orders like a true dictator.

“You two, take Y/N and Jean back to their own houses. You know what to do. And you two, make sure Eren doesn’t follow me. Keep him here for a while. Here,” Connie tossed one of the men Eren’s phone. “I’m gonna FaceTime you guys once I get there. I want Eren to watch.”

“Wait, Connie, please don’t do this, I’m begging you.” A tear rolled down Eren’s cheek, and he looked at Connie with the eyes of a broken man. After years and years of trying, Eren had finally lost his will to fight. “Please don’t hurt my mom. I’ll do whatever you want, okay? You fucking win. I won’t say shit like that on camera anymore, I’ll do whatever you want me to, just fucking torture me at this point, I don’t care, just don’t hurt my mom. Please, please don’t hurt her.”

“Damn. You’re pathetic, but I’m glad you’re learning, Eren.” Connie gave Eren a genuine, heartfelt smile, and at the sight of it, Eren sighed with relief.

“Too bad I already told her that I’m on the way.”

“No,” Eren’s eyes widened, and he thrashed around with all his strength, but it didn’t matter. Connie continued to get into his car as Eren tried to beg. “No, please-”

Suddenly, you spoke up.

“Going after Eren’s mom because you . . . because you aren’t strong enough to handle Eren himself is pathetic, Connie.” Your body trembled with fear, but you didn’t stop speaking, even when one of Connie’s men gripped your arm. “I-I mean, you’re even too much of a coward to beat him up yourself. You get other people to do it. Can’t handle yourself in a fair fight?”

“Hush, Y/N-”

“No, let her talk.” Connie interrupted Jean, and he stepped away from the car, making his way over to you, his eyes staring into yours. If looks could kill, you would have been a rotting corpse by now. “What are you trying to provoke me for?”

“I’m not trying to provoke you, I’m just stating the obvious.” Although you tried to maintain a confident tone, your voice was shaky.

“Ohhh,” Connie grinned. “You’re trying to make me believe that going after Eren’s family is a cowardly move so then I won’t do it, huh? And you only feel brave enough to do that because someone like you doesn’t have any real loved ones for me to hurt. That’s weird as hell.”

When you opened your mouth to respond — although, truly, you didn’t know what you would have said — Jean stepped closer to Connie, even daring to touch his old friend’s shoulder.

“Connie, listen. Eren knows you’re not playing around anymore, man. Just look at him, bawling like a baby. You broke him, alright? There’s nothing more you need to do. If he gets out of line again, then take it out on whoever you want, but for now, you’ve done enough. Marco . . . wouldn’t want you to treat us this way-”

Connie pulled his arm away from Jean.

He slammed his fist right into Jean’s jaw.

He watched his old friend fall to the ground as if it was nothing. And, when he pulled out his phone, which dinged from a new text message, he looked at his notification screen as if the bleeding man wasn’t worth any of his time anymore.

But, perhaps, the three of you had gotten lucky, because Connie smiled at the text message he had just received, and his anger melted away.

“Take all of them home. Maintain constant supervision. I wanna know where they go, who they speak to, what they eat for breakfast — Just tell me everything. Got it?” Connie ordered, walking towards his car. “And for Y/N, don’t let her leave her house at all. In fact, I don’t want her ass to leave her own bedroom unless I say so.”

“Understood, sir.”

Once again, Eren tried to pull away from the men holding him still once he heard Connie’s plans for you.

All he wanted to do was protect you.

To be with you.

But he couldn’t.

“Have a good night, guys. Get some rest, okay?” Connie said, darting his eyes between the three of you as his men dragged you all into the other cars parked around Connie’s.

As Connie closed his car door, the smile on his face didn’t fade away.

After all, the text message was from one of the many, many people under his command — an obedient little worker of his — who had successfully found Levi Ackerman’s location.

—

THREE DAYS LATER – PHOENIX, ARIZONA

“Here ya go,” Hange placed a ceramic frog mug down on the table in front of Levi, sweet steam circulating from the hot tea. “It’s Earl Grey, of course! The tea bags were getting kinda old, though. Been awhile since you last came over, just sayin’.”

“Sorry,” Levi mumbled, taking a sip of the pleasantly bitter beverage. Regardless of his dry, emotionless response, a lump of guilt started to form in his throat.

Despite being in the military with the eccentric, four-eyed genius, and considering them to be a close friend after so many years, he had hardly bothered to make the drive over to Arizona to visit them.

He truly didn’t realize how much time had passed until Hange’s three-legged cat hopped into his lap, and the precious animal was noticeably older and adorably chubbier.

“So, it takes your life getting ruined for you to come pay your dear ol’ friend a visit, hmm?” Hange pulled out one of the mismatched chairs at their kitchen table — all four seats were drastically different from one another in terms of shape, color, and size, — and they sat down with their own frog mug, filled to the brim with coffee.

Smelling the fresh coffee beans only made Levi feel even more guilty, as they famously despised Earl Grey tea, only purchasing it for Levi to drink whenever he came to visit them in their colorful, cluttered apartment.

“My life isn’t ruined.” Levi paused, shifting his eyes away from Hange.

“You sure about that?” Hange’s tone softened, their words laced with worry. “Your own home isn’t a safe place for you anymore. When it comes to your career, I know you have money in savings to fall back on, but I’m just being honest here; it’s rare for an entertainment manager to become so rich and successful as it is, ya know? And now . . .”

“Now I’ve lost everything. My reputation is ruined. I shitted on my own luck. That’s what you wanna say, right?”

“Oh, c’mon, give me a break, I-I wasn’t gonna say it that harshly!” Hange put their hand up defensively.

“Yeah, well,” Levi took a sip of his tea, “I’m suing the shit outta whoever really leaked those photos. I bet it’s that goddamn stalker who keeps coming after Y/N. She thinks it’s Armin. I don’t trust that new husband of hers. I’m not saying Reiner’s the one stalking her — the phone calls started before they even met, and the I miss you note wouldn’t make sense, but still. I don’t trust him one bit. And if Connie makes her get on live T.V. and spread lies about herself again, I’ll kill that bastard.”

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen you like this before,” raising their eyebrows, Hange looked at Levi with wide, brown eyes.

Of course, he wouldn’t care about the lies being spread about him.

Of course . . .

“Seen me like what?”

Hange slurped loudly on their hot coffee, darting their eyes back and forth between Levi and the table.

“Spit it out, Hange.”

“Alright, jeez,” Hange paused, taking a moment to think before they spoke, as saying the wrong thing could result in Levi flicking their forehead.

It had happened more times than the rowdy cat lover wanted to admit.

“I was just flabbergasted when I woke up that one morning and saw what the media was accusing you of. I mean, Levi? Levi Ackerman? My Levi Ackerman? I knew you wouldn’t take pictures and leak them yourself — you’re not that much of a peabrain, right? — but then again, you’d have to be a complete idiotic fool to sleep with a famous, married client. Either a fool, or madly in love.”

Swallowing down the last few sips of his beverage, Levi sat the mug down on the table, the practically undrinkable droplets of warm black liquid forming a ring around the bottom of the inside.

“I was drunk,” he claimed. “That’s all it was.”

Hange’s cat jumped off of Levi’s lap and skedaddled across the floor.

Levi stared into Hange’s eyes, and although it was only for a few solid seconds, it felt like an eternity — plus, an extra day — had passed before Hange broke eye contact, and sighed heavily.

“Fineee,” Propping their elbow up on the table, they rested their chin in the palm of their hand, giving a small pout as they did so. Then, suddenly, Hange perked up. “Oh, I almost forgot! Someone dropped this off for you.”

Hange reached into the pocket of their old blue jeans and pulled out a folded envelope.

“You would fold an envelope in half. You’ll fold anything that isn’t laundry, won't you? I bet you also cut sandwiches right down the middle instead of diagonally, too.” Levi glared at them, but there was a hint of playfulness behind his tone. Grabbing the disgracefully folded, white envelope, Levi inspected it closely as he said, “What is this? Who’s it from?”

“Don’t ask me, I haven’t got a clue. Found it sitting on the ground outside of my door, and it had your name on it. I was gonna open it, but as you can see, I decided not to be nosy for once! I doubt you’d get any interesting mail anyways, probably just a bill or something.”

“Doesn’t make sense. No one knows I’m here except for you. How the hell would . . .”

The front of the envelope didn’t have Hange’s address on it, any sort of sender’s address, or a name. It lacked a stamp as well.

It clearly wasn’t mailed to their apartment and left on the ground by some incompetent mailman. The only thing displayed on the flat packaging item was Levi’s name, written neatly across the front.

Once Levi started to slowly open the envelope, Hange sighed and sluggishly got up from their chair.

“Well, I’m gonna get some more coffee,” they announced, grabbing their mug, along with Levi’s. “I’ll refill your tea too. You gotta use up as many of those tea bags as possible while you’re here! Ohhh, actually, I could just send the entire thing with you once you leave, heaven knows I’m not gonna drink any of it . . .”

As Hange rambled on, Levi unfolded what appeared to be a letter, and he read it silently.

—

LEVI,

We at CS Records surely hope that you are enjoying your quality time with your friend, Hange. As you can see, we know where you are. We know what you have done. Sexual intercourse with a client is entirely against our represented morals and agreements, and leaking photos of your disgraced activity to the public media for attention is despicable.

Because of your actions, we must take action.

Consider this letter as an official notice of your immediate termination.

We highly recommend getting comfortable on your friend’s couch, as we will stop at nothing to drive you into abject poverty and homelessness for your behavior.

To address another issue on behalf of Jean Kirstein, we are well aware of the violence you have inflicted upon our respected artist.

For hurting someone we care for, we will now hurt someone you care for, starting with the person who is currently housing you — the person who gave you this letter.

Sincerely,

CS RECORDS

—

Hange turned their attention away from their frog teapot, glancing back at Levi with a gentle smile.

“Everything okay?” They questioned innocently.

Levi didn’t respond. He didn’t move an inch.

He only sat there, staring at the letter.

—

TWO WEEKS LATER - LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA

You had to be perfect.

Perfect, perfect, perfect.

The stars in the night sky sparkled especially bright for your special album release party. Oh, how pretty the sky was. You hadn’t seen it in a while. Opening the curtains to your bedroom window was prohibited.

Even as you walked down the stunning red carpet leading up to a venue owned by CS Records — where your celebration would take place — you couldn’t take your eyes off of those glistening stars.

They were brighter than the hundreds of flickering flashes from the cameras belonging to the paparazzi, who screamed and shouted your name to get your attention.

Even some fans had managed to press themselves against the velvet stanchion ropes on each side of the red carpet.

Your devoted admirers screamed your name in hopes that you would simply notice them, waving their phones and pens in the air, wishing to get lucky enough to take a photo with you or grab your autograph.

But only the stars had your attention tonight.

“And, as you can see, ladies and gentlemen, F/N L/N had finally arrived with Connie Springer to the release party of her new album, Heartbreaker, and she looks absolutely stunning! Her silk, champagne-colored, bodycon dress was designed by Fernand Appell himself . . .” The Vogue reporter excitedly glanced back and forth between the red carpet and the camera in front of her.

But she had no idea.

None of them did.

About what was truly happening to you.

Connie Springer’s hand touched your lower back like a true gentleman, and his lips graced the shell of your ear.

“Pose,” he whispered. He warned.

Your artificial smile appeared mechanically, and you were no longer staring at the night sky, but at the cameras all around you.

Walk elegantly. Give a wave or two. Smile. Laugh softly. Be perfect.

Walk elegantly. Give a wave or two. Smile. Laugh softly. Be perfect.

Walk elegantly. Give a wave or two. Smile. Laugh softly. Be perfect . . .

—

Classy black and red decorations were spread tastefully throughout the massive, beautiful room, packed with both familiar and unfamiliar faces. A statue of a big, black, broken heart served as a centerpiece, surrounded by gorgeous red roses, all of it inspired by your album’s theme. There was a dance floor, a bar, and an overwhelming amount of chatty celebrities.

“Have some fun,” Connie looked down at you, removing his hand from your back. “Tonight sets the tone for how you’ll be treated in the future, okay?”

A sparkle of hope twinkled within your soulless eyes. Did he truly mean it? If tonight went well, you might be allowed to have a bit more freedom? Just a bit?

You nodded eagerly like a little kid agreeing to behave with the hopes of having ice cream.

Connie smiled, and he walked away, headed towards the bar with a handful of his celebrity friends.

—

For the next two hours, you behaved like the flawless being you were conditioned to be. You greeted everyone kindly. Gave a “thank you” speech. Sat down for a small interview.

Everything was going well. Perfectly.

Making your way to the bathroom, your heels clicked against the marbled floor of the deserted lobby a good distance away from where your party was held.

Far enough away for the music and chatter to sound muffled.

Suddenly, you stopped walking.

As far as you could tell, no one was around.

It was just you, an empty receptionist desk, closed doors, big windows, and an elevator.

Perhaps, if you could just find some sort of exit . . .

Your thoughts were interrupted once a large hand grabbed your arm. Naturally, you assumed it was one of Connie’s men, but when you turned around, you stared up into the worry-filled eyes of your husband.

“Reiner?”

“Oh my god, baby,” Wrapping his arms around you, your teary-eyed husband pulled you in for a hug. The embrace was warm — so, so warm.

His comforting, faint, woody scent made you release a shaky breath you didn’t know you were holding.

He was so, so warm.

“I’ve missed you so damn much,” Reiner cupped the side of your face with his large hand, holding your head against his chest. “You look so . . . so miserable. What are they doing to you, baby?”

As his fingertips gently stroked your skin, you thought, for only a moment, that perhaps, you were worth touching.

Worth holding.

It was Reiner.

Reiner Braun.

He was holding you.

And he was so, so warm.

Your trembling arms held onto him as tightly as you could. If you let go, he could fade away. He could vanish.

“Are . . . Are you really here, Reiner?”

Reiner’s heart ached like someone had pierced him through the chest with a spear, as he could feel your brokenness. He could hear it in your voice.

His tears splattered against the top of your head. How could a company be so cruel? How could anyone treat his baby this way?

Reiner moved your head away from his chest, but only so he could softly smash his lips against yours. So much time had passed since the last time he had seen you, his beautiful wife.

So much time had passed since he was able to hold you like this. To feel your perfect lips against his.

No matter how much it hurt when you betrayed him, he would always love you, even the flawed pieces of you.

His soft lips passionately moved against yours in a way that told you just how much he loved you. And, for once, you understood what fairytale writers were talking about when they came up with the concept of princes awakening their beloved princesses with a kiss, as Reiner’s lips against yours gave you the one thing you needed most.

Hope.

“I’m gonna get you outta here,” Reiner pulled away, and he stroked your tear-soaked cheeks with his thumbs. “I’m gonna get you away from these people and out of this city. We can go to Tennessee again and be happy and safe, and we’ll never come back here, I promise. Doesn’t that sound good?”

Reiner was wearing an expensive black outfit that allowed him to blend in with every other guest. Thanks to his celebrity status — and him being your husband, of course — no one would question his attendance at your party. And he arrived with the goals of avoiding Connie and his pawns — and finding you.

But was it really possible? Was it really him? Or was it a trick? A cruel joke your mind was playing on you, to make you think that you could truly be happy? Be free?

It seemed too good to be true, but yet, as you hugged him again, pressing the side of your head against his chest, you could hear his heartbeat.

He was so, so warm. Everything else was always so cold, but he was so, so warm.

And he wasn’t fading away.

When you cried this time, there wasn’t anything perfect about it. It was raw, real, and it soaked the front of his shirt, but he didn’t mind one bit. He only held you — held his miserable wife.

“I think he’s real,” you whispered to yourself. “Please let him be real . . .”

“Come on, we’re leaving right now,” Reiner kissed you again, but briefly.

And you smiled. It was a real, genuine, grin of relief. You had almost forgotten how to do something like that.

As Reiner grabbed your hand and started to guide you to the back door, guide you to freedom, you couldn’t help but picture sitting at the dining table in Reiner’s childhood home, having a warm meal in the company of normal, loving people. Maybe Reiner’s mom could make peach cobbler again.

Your thoughts were interrupted when Reiner halted his footsteps.

Connie and his men were guarding the door.

Of course.

Happiness was too good to be true.

You could hear Reiner trying to argue, but it didn’t matter.

You could see him trying to fight against the men that separated you two, but it didn’t matter.

You felt pathetic for even hoping for happiness for even a minute. That was why you didn’t call out for Reiner when they dragged him out of the building.

That was why you didn’t fight against the men when they shoved you into a car, taking you back home.

—

You did an amazing job at the party.

Maybe that would be enough.

Maybe Connie would overlook everything else.

The two men who gripped both of your arms guided you through your front door, and Connie watched as they carried you to your bedroom.

But suddenly, you pulled against them, using what little strength you had to face Connie.

“No, no, this isn’t fair, I did great tonight until Reiner showed up,” You struggled against the two heavy men who tried to yank and grab you like you were nothing more than an animal who broke out of its cage. Your breathing became uneasy. “Connie, please, it wasn’t my fault — I was perfect.”

Breaking free from the tight grip of one of Connie’s men made you fall to the hard ground, a small yelp escaping your throat as your jewelry and heels clinked against your polished floor, your expensive dress tearing a bit at the bottom.

You looked up at Connie through your blurry vision, who casually stood there with his hands in his pockets. Hot tears streamed down your cheeks, dripping onto your trembling body and soaking the front of your dress.

“I’m sorry for all the times I embarrassed your company. Your reputation is very important, I-I understand. I was wrong, I was an idiot, and I’ve disrespected you multiple times, but believe me, I’ve learned my lesson, sir. I won’t–I won’t do-”

“Oh my god, shut up.” Connie yawned. “Put her back in her room.”

“No,” you cried.

The men reached down to grab your arms, and you tried. You really did. You pleaded. You struggled. But they started to drag you nevertheless.

“Please, Connie, don’t put me back in there, I’ll go-I’ll go back to New York, I’ll go back to the bakery, I’ll completely disappear from your life, I’ll do whatever you want, just please don’t put me back in there, please don’t put me back in there, please don’t put me back in there-”

The door of your bedroom slamming shut abruptly cut off your begs and pleads.

The dark, luxurious room had quite a few places for you to sit, but you found yourself scooting your trembling body into the corner furthest away from the bedroom door.

Pulling your scraped knees to your chest, you sat there with your head down, the last of your tears falling from your bleary eyes, drying against your skin.

Who knew how long they’d keep you in here this time?

There was only one thing you could do if you ever wanted to see the sun again.

You had to be perfect.

Perfect, perfect, perfect.

Perfect, perfect, perfect . . . perfect . . . perfect.

Perfect.

—

ONE WEEK LATER

The best way to earn trust is through time.

Apparently, it heals all wounds. Makes it easier for humans to forget the impact caused by the actions of other humans.

However, when it came to Connie Springer, he didn’t forget, nor did he forgive, but he rewarded.

He rewarded Jean and Eren for their good behavior by allowing them to have a little bit of freedom once again.

Instead of having someone constantly follow them around, he placed the two artists under curfew.

They could go wherever they wanted.

Do whatever they wanted.

Call whoever they wanted.

As long as they made songs that would surely break records, behaved decently while in the spotlight, and reported back to their homes by eleven P.M.

And, of course, listen and obey Connie’s every command.

Maybe that small bit of newfound freedom was a result of their complete loyalty and good behavior.

Maybe it was because Connie was busy ruining someone else’s life.

Either way, they certainly had more freedom than you.

Jean and Eren used their privileges to make their way to Armin’s house, as he wanted them to come over for a reason he wouldn’t give over the phone.

Eren was the last one to step through Armin’s front door, fashionably late as usual.

As he closed the door behind him with one hand, tugging off his jacket with the other, he noticed that not only were Jean and Armin sitting on the living room couch, but Levi and Reiner were there as well.

“What’s going on?” Eren asked.

“They . . .” Reiner gulped. He stood against the wall, staring at the ground with wide, exhausted eyes. Eren couldn’t see it at first, not immediately, but as he walked over to join Jean and Armin on the couch, he saw Reiner’s horrific black eye. Suddenly, a small fit of shocked, terrified laughter erupted from Reiner’s throat.

“Connie had someone go all the way to Tennessee. To my childhood home, where my . . . where my family lives. And they burned the place down. All because I tried to help my wife. She’s my wife — she’s mine.”

—

Thirty minutes had passed before Reiner was calm enough to tell everyone what had happened.

“I, uh . . .” Reiner smiled sadly. “I went to her album release party. I didn’t know what I was gonna do, but I needed to see her. I just . . . need her. I tried to get her out of there, but we didn’t even make it through the damn doors. These guards pulled me away from her and dragged me away. You can see what they did to my face after. Then, couple days later, my mom called me and told me that her house burned down. I was upset, but I didn’t think anything of it at first. Everyone made it out safely, and that place was pretty old. With all the cooking my mom does, I can’t say I was surprised when I heard it had caught on fire. But, later on, there was a package outside of my front door with nothing on it except for my name. It had divorce papers and pictures of Connie’s men setting the goddamn house on fire. Setting it on fire with my family inside . . . sleeping.”

“Shit, Reiner,” Jean said to the unfamiliar man. “I’m sorry that happened. I really am.”

“This was the safest place for all of us to meet,” Armin’s eyes darted between all of the other men. “That’s why I called all of you here. I was hoping that maybe . . . we could stop all of this.”

“I think Connie has been Y/N’s stalker the entire time,” Levi suddenly announced, standing in the middle of the living room with his arms folded across his chest. “He’s not as stupid as he looks. I bet the I miss you note was just to throw us all off. Even if they didn’t meet in person until after she started receiving phone calls, he had known about her well before then. She’s one of his artists, after all-”

“Slow down,” Holding out a hand, Eren interrupted Levi, frowning in confusion as he did so. “None of that makes sense to me.”

“Very few things make sense to you, Eren,” Glaring at him, Levi grumbled. “Shut up and listen. He’s holding her hostage and won’t let her go. If that isn’t a sign that, maybe, he’s been the one stalking her this entire time, then I don’t know what is. He obviously wants her all to himself. He made the two of you divorce her, and I bet he took those photos outside of my house and blamed it all on me for revenge. For touching something he wanted. You said it best, Jean. He’s not afraid to embarrass his company if it embarrasses us even more.”

“I hope he burns in Hell,” Eren clenched his jaw.

“I’d do anything to see the old Connie come back someday.” Jean looked at Eren with the saddest eyes, filled with nostalgia.

“Not being able to trust someone is the worst feeling in the world.” Reiner folded his arms, making eye contact with someone across the room.

Someone who was quieter than the rest.

“Reiner, by the way,” Levi paused, suddenly grabbing the blonde-haired man’s attention. “I’m sorry for sleeping with your wife. I don’t have any excuse. I hope you can forgive me for it someday.”

“It’s alright,” Reiner gave Levi a soft, heartfelt grin. “I mean it — I forgive you.”

Levi gave him a sad look. Then, a moment later, Jean spoke up.

“Does anyone have any ideas? On how to . . . free her? Free all of us?”

Jean’s question remained unanswered, a thick silence circulating the small living room.

“I’ve got one,” Levi said, looking at no one in particular. “It won’t free us, but it’ll free her. That’s all that matters to me.”

“What is it?” Eren frowned.

“Based on what I know, Connie doesn’t pay that much attention to his crew. I don’t even think he knows their names. It’s a gamble, but I bet if I asked a friend of mine to sneak into CS Records and pose as a bodyguard, no one would notice. And he could find a way to get her away from Connie. Get her somewhere safe.”

“That has got to be the dumbest fucking idea I’ve ever heard in my entire life,” Eren lowered his head in defeat.

“How would he even get into that side of the building? It’s closed off to anyone who doesn’t have access, and going through the front entrance means that he’ll just get stopped by the receptionist. And how would he get her away from Connie when he doesn’t let her out of his sight?” Furrowing his brows, Jean took a sip of his water, wishing desperately that it was some form of alcohol.

“One of you idiots can let him into the private part of the building. You all still have access, or did you forget that little fact? And trust me, this man is a genius, and looks intimidating enough to pass as one of Connie’s men. He’ll figure the rest of it out on his own.”

“Sounds good to me,” Reiner said, giving Levi a nod. “I trust you, Levi.”

Levi nodded back, then looked at the other three men, who all nodded in agreement as well, although they did so hesitantly.

And with that, Levi pulled out his phone as he walked away, and dialed his old friend from his days in the military, Erwin Smith.

As they chatted privately in the kitchen, Jean pushed himself off of the couch and headed to the nearby bathroom. Reiner simply closed his eyes as he continued to lean against the wall. Eren looked over at Armin, staring at him curiously for a moment before he spoke.

“Hey,” Eren said softly. “You okay? You didn’t say much.”

“Yeah, I’m just . . .” Armin’s eyes didn’t meet his. “If this works, if we get her away from Connie, what then?”

“What do you mean?”

Armin clenched onto his mug of coffee a bit tighter, hugging it close to his body.

And his eyes still wouldn’t meet Eren’s, even as the frowning man stared at him.

“None of this changes the fact that you and everyone else are still under contract. If you try to fight against it, Connie will be well within his rights to sue. Not to mention, any case you could make about his cruel behavior won’t hold up in court thanks to his influence. He can ruin everyone’s lives. Take all of your money. Hurt your loved ones. Even kill . . . and no one would bat an eye. At the end of the day, he could do all of this to Y/N too, the very person we’re trying to save.”

“You don’t have to help us if you don’t want to, Armin.”

“Are you kidding me?” Armin smiled a bit, but it didn’t reach his eyes. “If anyone should help, it’s me. Connie doesn’t have me under any contracts, and I don’t have anything to lose. No real money. No family. If I end up out on the street, I’ll be fine. It’s nothing I’m not used to.”

“You really are tougher than you look, huh?” A gentle smile graced Eren’s face as well, but it did reach his eyes. “I was wrong about you.”

“I was wrong about you too,” Armin sighed softly. “I mean, you must really love her if you’re willing to risk everything for her, right?”

“Yeah, but so does everyone else, clearly. Every single one of us knows what the risks are, but we’re still gonna try.”

“So, what happens if this does work? What happens if everyone manages to be freed from Connie’s grasp somehow, and it’s time for her to pick someone to be with?”

“I don’t know. Guess we’ll find out.” Eren answered Armin’s question as casually as he could, but there was a hint of nervousness coating his tone, and Armin noticed.

“You’ve lived a pretty comfortable life, Eren. You’ve gone from being rich to being even richer. You could never write another song again and still live out the rest of your days in an abundance of wealth. Not to mention, you’re good-looking enough to have any girl you’d ever want. You don’t know what it’s like to walk around without a roof over your head, wondering where you’ll end up sleeping once nightfall comes. You haven’t had to choose between saving up money to buy yourself a meal so you won’t go to bed hungry, or buying medicine for your wounds so you can push through another work shift. So, I’m asking you once again: are you truly willing to risk everything for her, even if she might not pick you?”

“I am, Armin. You think I give a damn about the money? Cause I don’t-”

“Then what about your family? Mikasa? Your parents?”

Eren looked away from Armin as he said, “nothing’s gonna happen to them.”

“Well,” Armin stared down at the floor beneath his feet. “I admire your bravery.”

“Hey,” Jean suddenly spoke up as he walked into the living room, grabbing the attention of Eren, Armin, and Reiner. “ So, I know I . . . I know I really don’t have a shot with her anymore, but someone has to speak up about what we’re all thinking right now. What will the rest of us do when Y/N doesn’t pick us? We can’t all have her.”

“We have bigger things to worry about than which one of us she’ll pick,” Levi suddenly said as he walked back into the living room, shoving his phone in his pocket, “such as the fact that she’s with someone who’ll shoot anybody who looks at him the wrong way.”

“I know it’s selfish to worry about that when she needs our help — and, hell, we can’t even help ourselves — but, if we can get her away from Connie, won’t we all just go back to trying to win her affection? Besides, even if she does pick someone, are we all going to respect her decision, or are we just going to go right back to stealing her from each other?”

Jean’s question prompted another minute of silence yet again.

“We’ll worry about that when she’s safe,” Reiner suddenly said, opening his eyes to stare at the musician, who sat back down on the couch.

“Of course you’re not worried. You were with her last, and you’re not even completely divorced yet. You have every reason to think that she’d crawl back to you.” Jean frowned as he spoke.

“I am worried. She did cheat on me with Levi at the end of the day. You don’t do that to someone you truly love. Right, Eren?”

“Shut the hell up,” Eren glared at Reiner coldly. “What happened between her and Jean was just a mistake. If it wasn’t for Connie, we’d still be together.”

“Yeah?” Reiner said, glaring at Eren just as intensely. “Well, I could say the same thing.”

“Oh yeah? Did she fucking beg for you to forgive her like she did me?” Suddenly, Eren pushed himself off of the couch. “Or, was she just begging for Levi to fuck her-”

“Hey, cut it out,” Armin spoke with a hushed tone, getting off of the couch as well. “We shouldn’t fight among ourselves. We have to work together.”

“Why?” Eren turned away from Reiner and glared at Armin instead. Although his gaze had softened a bit, his words were still laced with anger. “Why do we have to work together, Armin?”

“Because it’s the smartest way to stop Connie. He can’t control all of you with his contracts, guns, and crew forever, and working together makes it more difficult for him to do that. And he can’t just . . . hold someone hostage. That’s cruel.”

“I’m not helping any of you.” Reiner’s sudden statement caught everyone’s attention. “Don’t get me wrong, you all seem like good people with good hearts, but Connie doesn’t have me under any contracts. If he wants to send his men after me again, fine. If he wants to kill me, fine. But every single one of you had something to do with this current situation. Armin, you brought her to Hollywood in the first place to try and make money off of her. Eren, you poisoned the mind of an innocent woman, making her think dishonesty and betrayal were good traits to have. Jean, you took advantage of her sadness to fulfill your own selfish needs. And Levi, as her manager, you failed to protect her, and by sleeping with her, you screwed her over more than anyone else. So, I’m going to help her no matter what it takes, but the rest of you are on your own. I’m sorry.”

Reiner walked out of Armin’s apartment without another word. A bit of guilt prickled at his heart, but he didn’t feel it nearly as much as he felt the overwhelming presence of distrust.

He had to trust his gut, and his gut told him that not everyone in that room could be trusted.

♡ 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠!

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[luckyyyduckyyy]

THANKSGIVING MOOTIE APPRECIATION ❤️✨❤️

Happy thanksgiving y'all! And a good time zone to all my non-US/non-Turkey day havers lovelies!

Tis the season of thanks and I'm a very thankful goober this year! I only started getting active on Tumblr about half a year ago and there's already so many people and things I'm grateful for from this site alone! I've enjoyed so much art and events, participated in yap seshes, tag games, and ultimately felt pretty welcomed and at home on this site, and it's thanks to all you! <3<3<3

Special thanks to the DCA fandom in its entirety as well! All the discussions, artists, writers, and shared reposts with all the silly notes are awesome! Y'all inspire me all the time and make me wish I was more outgoing than I am just so I can say hello to each and every one of you!!!!

The list gets long, so for the sake of those scrolling by, I have put it below! Have a lovely day everyone! <3333

@midnight-mourning Your writing is just wonderful. It's everything!!! I adore it so much and your CS boyos have wormed their way into my heart and refuses to leave. Some of my favorite songs even remind me of them! (Don't tell Moon this but I am very attached to CS Sun-)(Honestly gotta be my favorite Sun I've read fr fr) Also! Thank you for just being so supportive, thinking about me in tag games, and giving ALL the tag notes! They're a wonder to read and have me bounce off the walls! I'm always so happy we're mooties! ❤️❤️❤️ (Also, fun fact, you're my first mutual too! It's insane to me HOW DID THIS HAPPEN GUAHPHIAHDKA)

@pointyfruit You! Your art? Muah, wonderful. I don't even care if it's not dca related because it's so good. The shape language, art style, and just unique takes on just anything and everything blows my mind! Let's not forget COLORS. Oml they are so PRETTY. It's like an explosion I never want to end. 💥💥💥 Also! So goofy, so silly, and COTL enjoyer! Let's GOOOOO!!! I don't engage with the fandom much but I DO love the game and honestly I almost beat it, but still have not because I don't wanna do the final boss fight. It can't be over bros... Anyways when I see your posts I always wanna just wave like a neighbor seeing ya blow up 10 boxes of fireworks on a casual Tuesday afternoon. 👋👋👋:D

@divinit3a SPINS YOU!!! 🐶🐕🐶 Heya silly meister! In the midst of reading your work, gotta say? Muwah, Perfecto! The sillies are putting me on a rollercoaster and I'm stuck on the ride! While my ability to yap is a coin flip every hour, you happen to bring the yappening out of me with all the fun notes and posts you do--We've already had so many fun convos! Speaking of posts, the art is peak and will STAY peak! The designs? Muwah. The colors? Muwah. You make even the creepiest of goobers hauntingly beautiful! We've may not have known each other for long, but you're someone I look forward to seeing on my dash/notifications every time I open the app! ❤️❤️❤️

@sinister-sincerely Hi!!!! I'm still sometimes in awe realizing we're mutuals! I really love your work and if I'm in the mood to read something but I don't know what, I tend to turn to Aftersome often, even though I've read both the og and the rewrite! It's like you're the master of writing angst, bitter unrequited feelings, and the strange tenseness but want of confusing relationships. It's gut wrenching and I wish I could write something so evoking! All your stories are amazing and I seriously hope you know that, they're such heavy hitters that they have marked a place in my memory. ❤️ Your art too is wonderful! They don't pop up often but when they do it's a real treat! I love that you use grey scale in a lot of your works and the style is just so pleasing to look at. Whenever I see the DCA in your style I wanna give them the biggest hugs, even if they'd pry me off seconds later! ✨✨✨

@r0b0s-robos / @r0b0-wannabe Waving at you excitedly!!! It's always a pleasure to see your reposts, you always find the good stuff! Plus, you always are trying to help out others and it's amazing to see, your efforts are able to make great impacts. :333 You're also another writer I appreciate immensely, and I'm so invested in your botanist au. The sillies and their botanist who is desperately trying not to fall in love with them!!! ADORE THEM!!! I can't wait to read more! ❤️❤️❤️ The times you post about writing ideas or silly things about the DCA has me nodding my head with a smile. Also, the little notes you leave in tags, despite usually being brief, always makes me so happy! It's like seeing the kind stoic look at you from their seat, let out a small smile, and say "I love this"- and then suddenly it's a blast of blinding white light of endearment straight to my heart. K.O.!

@chickenchirps27 Welcome back!!! I've noticed you've been much more active recently and it's always fun to see what you got goin on! Obligatory art mention, but it would be criminal to NOT mention it. ITS!!! AMAZING!!! THEY LOOK LIKE ROCK CANDY!!! Colors!!! I love it so much, the goobers look delicio- I mean they look adorable and masterfully crafted in each piece of art! And your sona, ugh, she's so gorgeous and alien in the best ways possible. I've never seen anything like her and I am in awe of how you came up with all her little details. Those mantis arms are SICK and I want them!!! (Though drawing may be a little hard if I had em-)✨✨✨

@amarynthian-fortress / @amarynthian-chronicles Hehehe! Boops you! >:D Honestly, thank you for always being the biggest sweetheart around and being so welcoming. You're one of the people that made me feel able to crack my shell more and be more active on here! Your writing is whimsical, your reposts and comments are always so kind and feel-goody, and you just always show you care and the randomest times! Catch me off guard why don't you! I love all the snippets and treats you post, and I'm saving many of your stories to read for rainy days! ❤️❤️❤️

@ping-ski My reaction to us becoming mutuals was- 💥💥💥:OOOOO💥OO💥💥 I think I've followed you right when I started getting active on here and gah, your art is wonderful. So lovely, stylized, and colored so simply yet so appealingly that I can't stop looking. Your aus make me want to read them and their designs are always top tier! Also, I cannot forget to mention you are SILLAY!!! So silly! Your comments on reposts are goofy and I love to read them whenever they come up on my dash! Not to mention your own posts- I will never forget the 3-in-1 solid block of dca encased in ice. I was in awe of seeing them encased and I suddenly wanted my own dca ice cubes to put into a drink and try not to choke on. ✨✨✨

@quilteddreamz Your writing. Oh my GOSH your writing! It's wonderful, beautiful, gah, I can't wait for your advent calender! I wish I could do something for it but I got 3 more weeks of large projects tapped to my back. I am sending much luck your way and know that I am excited to enjoy some daily dca! Don't break yourself over it too! I may adore the goobers but you're most adored first! Take care and keep being such a whimsical person! Muwah! ✨✨✨

@flowysgonemad You are also! Silly!!! You are so fun to see popping around my dash and your doodles just make me go :333 every time! I love your aus and you're a very kind/goofy person! I don't even remember how we became mutuals but garsh diggity dang it, it's awesome to see ya and anything you yap about!

There are MANY more mooties I want to appreciate and show off, but I fear I am currently omw to go to a large thanksgiving dinner and I'm expecting to be there for the rest of the day. SO! If you weren't listed, please know that I AM thinking of you! Have a wonderful time zone, and just know that my heart is so full knowing that you're all there! I can't believe there is that many of you to begin with that I can't fit you all within the time frame! (Would you believe me if I said coming up with all the right words to say here took me 2 1/2 hours?)

So! To all my beloved writers, artists, and sillies alike! From the bottom of my heart, really, thank you! For being here, even reading this, and appreciating the things I do as much as I appreciate you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️✨✨✨✨✨✨

[phantomrose96]

I have string-lights strung up around the perimeter of my room and at every 4 feet, a command hook, bearing the fishing wire weight. And each command hook is a sticky wall piece and a sticky hook piece, like for hanging coats, but not that strong.

And in one window I have an A/C unit because it's 90 degrees here, sometimes, and my room is on the third floor, sometimes, and so it's 90 degrees in here, sometimes, so the window A/C. Now with window A/Cs it's these accordion flaps, they're plastic, that stretch across both sides of the (window) A/C like a bath towel you've held up but haven't wrapped around yourself yet (maybe because it's 90 degrees and you're hot and being wet is nice).

Now with the accordion flaps, the thing is, they're not perfect and there are little gaps at the top, because they're zigzag and no window sash is zigzag. The thing with gaps is, they let some bugs in, not too many but a few, who like the lamplight.

Now the thing with bugs is, sometimes they're ladybugs. Which are perfectly nice little bugs to have but the thing is, with ladybugs, is they like the command hooks.

Specifically they like the little nook at the center of each hook where the sticky back wall tape surface is exposed. At first I worried this was an ant-trap situation with an unwitting ladybug plaster-sealed to my command hook (with the lights) but it seems she can move freely.

And now the thing with the ladybugs is there is not just one. There's 4 of her, at least, and they've all taken up residence on adjacent command hooks (4 feet apart) like townhouse neighbors, but with more space between them (4 feet). So I look up and there are 4 ladybugs nestled in the nooks of 4 adjacent command hooks holding my lights, and this was very confusing for me to stare up at and figure out (bad vision) but I've realized it's 4 ladybugs, and they just like it up there, I guess, and they like being neighbors because they could have spread out (10 total command hooks) but they didn't.

One will leave sometimes to hang out on the curtains but she always comes back to the command hook, and I hope they all like it up there because they're much too tall for me to reach. Because the thing with me is I'm short and all the way down here (set up lights with a borrowed ladder) so I can't really be anywhere else but down here and I can't be up there with the command hooks (with the lights) to intervene. So really, in the situation, I can only simply hope the ladybugs are having a nice time.

[rinnzsturns]

neighbour!matt x partygirl!reader au introduction.

pt1 | pt2

matts pov

matt sat wedged in the backseat, crammed between nick and chris, who left him no room to breathe.

with ‘ luther ‘ by kendrick lamar humming softly through his airpods, he texted his friends, letting the music drown out his brothers’ constant bickering and the cheesy song his mom had just queued up in the front.

the car finally rolled to a stop in front of his new house, just a five-minute walk from the beach. his surroundings unfamiliar. across the street, a pair of family cars sat in the driveway, and the open garage revealed a broad-shouldered man focused on a woodworking project, sawdust collecting at his feet.

matt stepped out of the car, stretching his legs and squinting against the late afternoon sun. the salty breeze from the ocean carried faint echoes of waves crashing in the distance, mingling with the rhythmic buzz of cicadas. he glanced up at the house—two stories, pale blue siding, and a wraparound porch that looked like it hadn’t been used in years.

his mom was already halfway up the front steps, jangling the new house keys in her hand like it was some kind of grand reveal. nick and chris bolted past him, racing to claim bedrooms before he even touched the porch.

matt lingered a moment longer, taking it all in. new house. new neighborhood. new school. be didn’t know whether to feel excited or like the ground had shifted under him.

the man across the street looked up briefly, gave a small nod, then went back to sanding a plank of wood. matt nodded back, uncertain if that counted as neighborly.

roughly forty minutes later, matt sat on the kitchen island, the only decent place to perch since the furniture wouldn’t arrive until late tomorrow. fantastic.

he scrolled through his phone, texting his friends back home about the new place. a smirk tugged at his lips as the group chat lit up with jokes and wild assumptions—mostly about how he was destined to get a ‘ shit ton of pussy ‘ that he was in california.

the doorbell rang—probably the first of many neighbors coming by to welcome the family to the small town. matt groaned, barely lifting his head before looking back down at his phone. he heard his mom’s cheerful voice as she opened the door, already slipping into polite mode for the strangers on the other side.

he heard a deep voice—probably the dad—mentioning that they lived just across the street. Interesting.

matt glanced up, curiosity tugging at him, and spotted the same broad-shouldered man from earlier in the garage. now, under the dim light of the porch, the man looked more imposing, his posture relaxed but confident. beside him stood a tall woman, almost matching his height, a natural elegance in the way she held herself. probably his wife, matt figured, before his gaze moved to the third figure—just behind the couple.

she was younger, easily a little younger than him, with long hair that cascaded effortlessly down her back. for a moment, she seemed oblivious to him, absorbed in her phone. ut then, as if something shifted in the air, her head lifted. their eyes met across the room—his gaze almost involuntary, hers sharp yet curious. there was a moment of hesitation, a silent recognition, before she looked away just as quickly, tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear.

matt couldn’t shake the feeling that something had just passed between them—like a brief connection, unnoticed by everyone else, but felt all the same.

© rinnzsturns

🏷️— @sturniolohohoho @sturn-l0ver @mattybearnard (taglist)

a/n ; i chose luther cs that like lwk describes their relationship.. JDHDJDJDJ im so excited fot this guys