#csa trigger warning

[myuntitledwords]

Something that I have never been able to put into words, but she, Sarah Bahbah has.

Similar ethnic backgrounds, similar childhood experiences.

Thank you Sarah Bahbah

Please note that there is a trigger warning as there is mention of CSA

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[multistoty]

Not a call out but something I know that @rebelcliche has also experienced it and I’ve been sent asks recently and I’m a survivor myself so needed to be said

CHILDREN should not kiss ADULTS or do anything sexual ever. Even in rp. You will be blocked and it’s super super gross

[cherryorchid]

I Hate the Birds Pt.2

TW: CSA, SH

I do not care about the birds  

Caring has never felt so unrewarding 

The air resists 

Vision blurs  

Throat stings 

Lungs weigh a ton 

Now just sixteen 

I spew venom just for fun 

A self-defeating masochistic husk 

Trusty metal paintbrush placed in between my fingers 

Another tortured artist, how cliche 

I’ve whittled myself almost every night this week 

Sweaters sleeves stuck, sticky  

And steamy showers sting 

Hoping to carve a girl with a different last name 

Maybe if I chiseled myself as small as possible 

I’d dissipate, or at least gain a self esteem 

Any sense of autonomy 

Can anyone hear me? 

I listen to the birds because I can’t sleep 

Three, four, five in the morning 

Viewing my own personal slideshow with my eyes closed 

Bloodshot and burning 

An intrusive insomniac 

Impatiently waiting for my mind to slow  

Just to feel some sort of repose 

Exhaustion fatigues every inch of my body  

The figure I no longer recognize  

Reflection taunts me 

Stretchmarks and scars  

I can’t even bare to look at myself anymore 

That familiar feeling 

But now I'm in my twenties 

And the nightmare has caught up to me 

Showing itself physically 

Spilling out of clothes that once fit 

Because I can’t be bothered to be thin 

The cavity has atrophied 

A bitter taste lingers 

Those weeds and ivies are now all of me 

Consumed and far too much to handle  

So, people left 

For trying to blow out my candle  

But the darkness still remains 

My fire is too dim 

And I’m afraid 

That it will never change 

[tifs-against-terfs]

I recently unrepressed the worst thing I ever did to another person, I thought I was done healing and learning new things about my past self, but it turns out now I have to come to terms with something I did that someone else now has to heal from

[multistoty]

This is a psa. I’m not calling anyone out and I’m against call out culture but please listen to peoples triggers. I had a panic attack because someone’s reply had an eerie relaction to my CSA and I just want people to check peoples rules and make sure because it can cause people to nearly pass out from panic which I haven’t done for a long time. I hate blocking people but I asked several times. Again just please respect peoples boundaries and their triggers

[vivaciousoceans]

My father knows I am a survivor of csa, he knows how hard it was for me to recover, and he still decided it was good idea to send me a YouTube video in support of Bill Cosby.

[cherryorchid]

I Hate the Birds Pt. 1

TW: CSA

I hate the birds 

For their song wakes me as the sun reaches the sky  

Curse for the dream I lost  

As I wipe the sleep from my eyes 

I prayed the oak tree who faced my home would swallow them whole 

Merciless and vengeful  

Spit out their bones  

As I remember what they’ve seen 

Young as four or three 

Memories I once thought were nightmares 

Reoccurring 

But children don’t picture of such terrors in their sleep 

The beginning of the resentment was stirring 

I hate the birds 

Cockatiels, Canary’s, Parrots, and Finches  

They screeched their empty songs  

And gawked their black eyes straight through mine 

As the Hawk in front of them had his pecking 

Large claws in places they shouldn’t have been  

I remember when  

Their screams replaced mine  

For I was quiet and shy  

An obedient child  

Too afraid to cry 

Told to never make a sound then and to anyone after 

So, I prayed for someone to see my plucked feathers and bruised fruit  

Figs, tangerines, currants, and pomegranate seeds 

Rotting under my skirt 

Uneasily waiting for the next feed 

I hate the birds  

They squawked in their language, shouting things nobody understood 

Until they bawled the occasional “Hello!” 

For seeds and buckwheat 

Everyone loved to hear them speak  

A fun trick for treats 

But I waited and waited  

For their calls to utter the horrors of what they’ve witnessed  

Because everyone would listen 

But that day never came 

Their yawps were self-indulgent, they died fat and chuffed 

So, I grew to be angry, anxious, static, and dejected 

I planted the nightmares deep  

Into weeds and ivy 

No light to be seen 

I sprouted into melons so boisterous, peaches so sweet  

Just for everyone else to claw and spit their poison into me 

One after the other

Like they could smell the toxins left over

So, I rot, and I rot, and I rot 

Bruised and molded  

Used and dirty 

My filth spreads, steadily over time 

The weeds and ivy climb through my ribs and stick to my teeth 

An incubus cavity  

[augusteofarles]

Anyone else horrified at how the media treated the Menendez brothers case?? I’ve been down a rabbit hole about this case since morning and I mean outside of the crime itself, the way the media/public treated and made fun of these guys’ abuse is just nauseating. There’s literally an snl sketch about it. No wonder men are less likely to report sexual abuse.

[afragmentedmind]

That’s all we are to people... a game, a toy, a let’s see...

[be-gay-do-witchcraft]

Also if you justify pedophilia in any way, shape, or form even in fiction you don’t deserve knee caps.

[vordemtodgefeit]

he really tried it,,,

those receipts are very much needed apparently

‘no I didn’t say that they were the same’. yes you did.

‘nobody said that it was going to bring down Broadway’. this whole debacle came out of Patti Murin declaring repeatedly that people who watch bootlegs are selfish and wrong because it will directly cause Broadway to ‘never come back’.

shut the fuck up

EDIT 24/5: HE’S DELETED HIS TWITTER

[enthusiasticmusicalquotes]

csa tw///

anon, i’m answering your ask below the cut because i don’t wanna trigger anyone by mistake:

anonymous asked: this idiot is literally saying "watching the sexual assault of children, which is both a crime and is a video showcasing a crime, is the same thing as watching an illegal recording of a theatre performance, which is technically illegal but the events shown within the video are not"... how the FUCK do you come to that conclusion. one makes you a pedophile who deserves to rot in hell and the other makes you (probably) a broke theatre kid who cant actually go watch the show. they are not the same.

it is so beyond fucking disgusting to make that comparison

and i thought the theatremania idiot who compared them to abortions was bad...this is 1000000000000000000000x worse.

like i get it. you despise bootlegs and the people who watch them. but that comparison is not okay on so many levels.

i hate that shithead i hate him.