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On the Ground All Can Hear You Scream
By: TalktomeinClexa
Rating: Mature
Warnings: None in this chapter. Canon violence in others
Status: Complete (Part 1)
Summary: Novitiate Lexa is captured by reapers and wakes up locked in a cage, not knowing the girl who finds her there will change her destiny. Unless this enemy turns out to be who Fate had in store for her?
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Chapter 14: Hodnes Laik Yujnes
Twice in her life before Lexa had felt the floor collapse under her feet. A free fall sensation brought by the realization that her life would never be the same again and the knowledge there was nothing she could do to stop the course of events derailing it. The first time was when she woke up in Mount Weather, trapped in a cage. The second, the day warriors came to collect her from the library at Titus’s orders and informed her that Heda Hanbin was dead.
If the former had come as a shock, she should have expected the latter one. Her whole existence back then revolved around the notion that she would one day partake in a conclave for the honor of being chosen by the Spirit. She simply hadn’t anticipated it to be that particular afternoon, on a perfectly ordinary day—if a little cold for the beginning of fall.
“Titus…” she said, her voice closer to a plea than the warning she had intended.
She would have given anything to convince him to forget the dark stain on the rag. But the Fleimkepa lived for the Flame and the novitiate system his order protected. She would have had more success reversing the flow of the river passing by Polis than getting him to turn a blind eye to Clarke’s nightblood.
“Are there more like you among your people?” Titus asked, ignoring Lexa.
After spending years under his tutelage, Lexa read him like a book. On his face, she saw a mix of curiosity, excitement, and dread. One novitiate from Mount Weather, he could handle. But ten, or worse, dozens of them? It would destroy his entire belief system, not to mention the Coalition.
Clarke shook her head, thankfully holding her composure better than Lexa had hoped. “Just me. My parents were pretty surprised when they found out.”
“Good. That is good.” Oblivious to the glance Lexa and Clarke shared, Titus cleared his throat. “It is too late for you to join the lessons of the day. We will start your instruction tomorrow morning.”
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#All Can Hear You Scream#Clexaweek22 day 3#day 3 6 years later#Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence#Skaikru are part of Mount Weather#Heda Lexa#Mount Weather Clarke#clexa fic
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Wow, Eloise is so ahead of her time that she's reading Emma at least 6 months before it was even published.
#bridgerton spoilers#bridgerton#emma#jane austen#eloise bridgerton#i'm being nitpicky#but the moment she said she was reading emma i was like '...does that work... timeline-wise...'#and the answer is no. it was published in december 2015. while season 3 is approximately spring 2015.#if we're basing it off the Danbury ball being on april 6 1813 in season 1 (the date was on the dance cards)#so her first ball of the season should generally be around that same time for the later seasons too#so if it's springtime then eloise is reading emma more than half a year before it's actually published#so they should have had Eloise reading S&S or P&P instead of Emma if they wanted Austen. but. i kind of get why they went with Emma.#and i appreciated her quick little review of it because it is more than a romance novel#(also Mansfield Park was published before Emma but i don't really like Mansfield Park)#DAYS later I realize I wrote 2015 when I meant 1815. wowwww my brain
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thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!
#i unfortunately had a homoerotic female friendship that ended abruptly and tragically#she was my best friend for YEARS like we met when we were 11#i knew i was queer pretty early on but it’s so painfully obvious in hindsight how badly she was repressing everything#we fell asleep together she liked every guy i liked she was invested in every female situationship i had#like it was so painfully obvious what we were but we were just an undefined weird tension homoerotic pair of besties!#she always wanted to know every detail of my sex life w women refused to hear about the men i was w#she would hold me when we watched movies she wanted to do everything w me and she hated me after we graduated hs!#last conversation was on her birthday haven’t spoken to her once since#this song has sent me into a 3 day spiral session if you can’t tell 😭#never fully gotten over her but i see her post w her new friends at her school 6 hours away like cool cool okay#you’re going to ignore i ever existed instead of confronting your feelings okay! don’t know why she wants nothing to do w me anymore tho#crazy stuff it’s been a year and a half since we stopped being friends but i think about her a lot and i wonder if she thinks about me#i have 2 playlists about her she still follows me on spotify but she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday#at the end of the day i hope she figures everything out. you’re nothing more than his wife and all that#this song THIS SONG SHE WONT LEAVE MY MIND#probably delete later. we’ll see cause all my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her but i can’t stop she’s been in my mind since#this song dropped so thanks chappell 🥹🥹🫡
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Worst thing about learning a new language of my own violation though is that its made me a fucking nerd. I just found my friend's flashcards on quizlet and got excited. I get excited to hear some french words in everyday conversation. When my friends are reading a book i have to resist the urge to go WHAT LANGUAGE IS THAT. Im just super excited to consume french and spanish language and phrases and im a fucking nerd about it now
#like im not as into spanish as i am french#i like the sounds better but i set out here to learn french goddamit!!!!#but it would be SUPER awesome to speak both fr fe#fr#hell even just 1#like in 4 years. again. km not going to be worse#im listening and learing french constantly atm#spanish its only been a few days but im getting on a lot better than i thought#i keep getting frustrated bevause i dont always understand it and its digficult to manage my time#plus ive heard that learning two langauages can confuse u#but ive not had too much issue atm and it can actually be benifitial to learn both#hell i dont think om even doing this for qsmp anymore i dont even watch qsmp!!!!!#but also if i do need to dropone language or maybe even both if rhings get really crazy#it wont be the end of the world because i can always pick it back up and it wi never be a waste u know#luke i havent learnt spanish for 4 or 5 years!!! and i STILL can read a bit and i got put forwards on duolingo even FURTHER than i currently#am in french!!!!!!#and ive been learning french for 4 months! (although i learnt spanish at school since like. year 4 and i didnt take it in later years and my#spanish teacher hated me bc i was always drawing and she was mean#ik spanishis easier to learn than french#did u k ow that if u practice for 3 hours a day u can learn spanish in 6 months!?#i dont have 3 hours a day#i think today ive spent about 1#1.5 hours practicing and 1.5 hours engaging with french and spanish media combined#but thats only half of that each idk#i just dont think im going to be fluent for aggggeeeesssssss like YEARS. maybe in like. 4 or 5 years would be cool#but also its just fun? and im having fun and oh my god this makes me a nerd doesnt it#okay okay ramble over im just proud of myself :]
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in my eternal quest to add structure to my life, ive decided to take a leaf out of my aunt's book* and schedule an Errand Day one weekend a month.
the purpose of Errand Day is...errands, before they add up and become one Big clusterfuck that's an even bigger pain to deal with. for example: take the stuff I'm giving away to the thrift store (before it colonizes the storage room). take out the annoying recycling that can't go in the blue bins (currently fighting a war against the invasive species of thrift stuff). replace the air filters. get birthday gifts. replace clothes as needed, instead of trying to work around the issue for a whole season bc I won't bite the bullet and try on pants. even fun things that i put off because they're outside of my regular stomping grounds, like going to the used bookstore.
no excuses, no heel-dragging. just take a morning and do all the shit that needs doing. don't let it add up and become a whole Thing. the Reward for Errand Day will be either a fancy coffee or lunch, depending on how long it takes and where I end up.
*my aunt and her partner have a theme for each weekend: one is budgeting, then deep cleaning their house, then meal prep, and finally a "fun" weekend where they do something new like go to a street festival or a new restaurant. i could never be that coordinated, but I think in part it's a solid idea.
#trying to fight that Adulting Feeling of there always being some stupid shit you need to do that you just know won't get done#until 6 months later you get annoyed or desperate or anxious enough to self-motivate#im in an eternal battle to schedule enough of my life to keep me afloat mentally but not so much that i constantly feel like im failing#anyway that trip to the mall last weekend was SUCH A RELIEF i crushed like 4 or 5 random things id been putting off doing#like did you know you can just. buy pants???? you can just do that. you don't have to beat yourself up for months#i do like to TRY thrifting first when it comes to clothes but sometimes its just like. i need jeans thay don't make me feel like a sausage#and the thrift store near me doesn't have changing rooms and i just need this to be OVER i don't want to buy 5 pairs and return 3#which I'll forget to actually return anyway#so yeah Errand Day is about Getting Shit Done and not overcomplicating it to the point where my inner monologue is a crying two year old
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FRIRNDO BLENDO!!!! Tell me your bmc glup shitto
THE GIRL AT SEV-ELEV
She's in ONE LINE of ONE SONG and NEVER APPEARS in canon and I MADE HER A MINOR CHARACTER IN A LONG COMIC™️ ON INSTAGRAM BACK IN 2019-2020
Backlog Part 31, circa March 13, 2020
This comic got me through covid/my senior year you have no idea
Plus the dtiys I hosted after the comic wrapped up, hot damn it's almost the anniversary HHHHHH
She's 19 at the time of the show (+ after vimh) so she's 3 yrs older than Michael, there are Some sex jokes shared between them but? Idk they're pretty minor all things considered. She's gay so we get that swert wlw mlm solidarity babyyy
#asks#the girl at sev elev#be more chill#michael mell#so i excluded the first panel of this part bc waaaah pic limit#but micha is listening to I Hate Everything About You by Three Days Grace when he comes in#and we see the date and time on his phone is nov 6 at 9:42pm#ITS ON NOV 6 bc thats after halloween AND when micha says 'some say i did [die]' its bc of the rumor mill spawned from the fire#bc he hasnt gone to school since halloween cuz hes being an angsty little shit#they havent learned each others real names by this point so they just call each other Red and Blue and Slushee Girl#god i miss this comic#and its sequel#i should really work on the third installment#BUT my current wip has consumed my lift for the past 3 yrs so#maybe later#ANYWAY YEAH UHH SLUSHEE GIRL IS MY BMC GLUP SHITTO#geez should i post backlog + its sequel here? it literally ended three years ago but#idk lmk#mj says shit
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The absolute temptation to wander up to my boss' office once he gets here and go "yeah I don't feel good I'm going home" even though I feel absolutely fine and just don't wanna be here rn--
#data log: personal#I'm not necessarily tired or anything I slept pretty okay all things considered#I just really need A Break /lh#fingers crossed the days I requested off in july get approved because that's gonna score me 6 days off and like#bro I need iiiiiit#would take a random personal day but I only have 3 personal hours left so toheiriwjshwi can't#might use em to leave early one day in June or something or try and hold on to em until later in the year in case I get sick
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my dad came in and saw me on the couch (for the first time all day and i had literally just sat down for less than a minute when he came in) w heating pad and immediately goes "you have two options" (different chores to do) (as if i was like 10 years old and getting punished for something that i didnt even know i did wrong). what about secret third option where you treat me like an adult or i don't come home for winter next year. Lol
#.mei chats#soryr really my family is. great i need to stpo complain#i just wish theyd realize that im not incompetent#i do a really good job taking care of myself for the entire 10 months out of the year that i dont live with them#and im proud of the independence ive developed bc i worked really hard to feel ANY sort of positive feelings about myself#but they just dont recognize it at all when i come back#trying to tell me how to microwave my food and reminding me of paperwork i have to do#Thanks i literally managed the entire program tasks myself for the last 6~months but yeah you better remind me about the medical forms#or else ill totally forget and mess up the whole thing :'333 bc im just so stupid!! thakn you soooo much for taking care of me!!#<- not like ive been hypervigilant and anxious about making sure i do every little thing with it perfect#in fact there was actually an issue w one of my forms bc they made me submit it even though i didn't think it was filled out properly.#they were like “itll be fine youre overthinking” guess who got an email 3 days later saying the form was completely invalid.#god just bottom line why cantthey trust me when i say im on top of it. fucking trust me this program is my entire life right now#i am putting literally eveyr ounce of effort i've got into not ruining it. they just dont see the improvements and growth ive made at all#so frustrating bc ive worked so hard to pinpoint and fix that specifically but what can ya do#god this got long. sawry#.not f/o related
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I'm always like, pretty badly lacking in B12 and it's easy to notice when it's bad again bc I'm so tired all the time and i start struggling to speak but, like, I was like oh teehee whatever it's like the D vitamins girls stay slaying ♡
I learnt today that B12 deficiency is the same as anemia and now I'm like oh. oh!!! oooohhh okay so it is kinda bad that they put me on B vitamin pills for like 2 weeks and then go "see you in another year ♡"
#NO WONDER IVE BEEN FEELING FAINT LATELY WHATTA HEEEELL#seeing a new doctor and the receptionist was like “do you really need a new blood test w/o a doctor consultation before...? like idk man”#and then my new doc immediately took my blood right after the session and now. 3 days later he just messaged me like#“yeah no hey you were so right ♡ theres no B12 in you ♡ please lmk if you get any other symptoms ♡ also come back in 3 months please”#bc they never double check my blood after ive been on the vitamins#i usually book a new blood test myself after like 6 months to a year bc i start feeling real bad again#fanya.txt#New trait added: chronically anemic
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it is So Weird how working on my comic makes me feel like i have more free time. and gives me more free time. logically, working on 3 comic pages a week would mean i have Less Time. but no. despite everything, i'm getting more done and able to use my time better now that i'm working on comic pages again. what the hell is up with that.
#it's probably the structure and routine tbh i've been doing this for 6 years#i feel way less stressed about all the stuff i have to do than the 2 months i wasn't working on the comic#and arguably i have more to do now!!!!!#there's just so many little things that working on my comic helps me with. vital part of my daily and weekly structure#1) gives me a Main Goal to focus on every week and it's a goal that i know is achievable#2) gives me things to do almost every day that i am able to get started on right away and then will have free time later when i'm done#3) on days i'm not working on it i feel more comfortable doing things for fun or completing smaller tasks#4) because it's a weekly schedule i actually know what day it is now. completely lost track of the days before. made me really scared tbh#5) actually allows me to relax. the way i make pages means it's a lil bit mindless half the time. which is nice#i spent most of the last 2 months when i wasn't making comic in bed. because i had nothing else to do#now i am not doing that! because even when i'm not working on pages i have the motivation to do things!#this is an ironic post to make when i've spent like 6-7 hours today just playing fathomverse#but that's the thing!!!! instead of hating myself for doing that i still feel like i can get shit done!#also i already knew all this about making comics and how i function but. man idk how to put this#i spent the last 2 months struggling to do fucking Anything#and it was after i was so sure i could handle taking a break from the comic#and it was after lots of people have told me i need to put the comic down and get a job#or do anything that isn't making a comic#i have been working on the comic again for 9 days. and already everything feels more manageable#i literally Need to have projects like this. if i dont i will lose my mind. nobody tell me i need to do other things with my life ever agai
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On the Ground All Can Hear You Scream
By: TalktomeinClexa
Rating: Mature
Warnings: None in this chapter. Canon violence in others
Status: WIP
Summary: Novitiate Lexa is captured by reapers and wakes up locked in a cage, not knowing that the blonde who finds her there will change her destiny. Unless this enemy turns out to be who Fate had in store for her?
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Chapter 13: Guests in Polis
A loud rumble and the sound of the rain implacably hitting her windows woke Lexa the following morning. It was too early for her handmaidens to help her prepare for the day and, for once, she allowed herself a few more minutes of peace. Rolling onto her back, she stretched lazily under the furs until her back cracked with a satisfying pop.
She loved those mornings; when time seemed to slow down and the world disappeared under a curtain of water. Particularly when she didn’t have to go out and face the sky’s wrath. Her responsibilities always found her eventually, but with fewer people out and looking for trouble, she could relax a notch. Read a few pages. Spend some precious time in her lover’s arms…
Clarke’s face popped into her mind, and Lexa’s ears heated up at the thought of the soft-looking, creamy skin the girl’s tops often struggled to contain. Her hand traveled reflexively between her thighs to seek the relief she so rarely allowed herself, and when it connected with her curls, she jumped out of bed as if she had burned herself.
“Time to get ready,” she coughed out in the middle of her empty room, cheeks red and heart racing.
Hours later, she was in yet another war meeting when a Trikru gona entered. Leaning close to her ear, he whispered, “More Maunon are at the gate. Thirty or so.”
And so it begins. “Lead them to the Tower so they can escape the rain, and bring the leaders to the throne room.”
“Sha, Heda.”
Lexa watched the warrior leave before returning her attention to her generals, locked in a discussion about which clan to attack first.
“I will not leave Polis defenseless,” she cut in with an emphatic look at the man on her left. “The inhabitants are under my protection. And so are the Natblida. We cannot let Nia get to them.”
Chastised, the man tilted his head down, and the others nodded at her decision. They would have to mobilize more forces elsewhere, but the battalion protecting the capital had to stay.
“Another matter requires my attention. We will reconvene after lunch.”
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#Clexaweek22 day 3#day 3 6 years later#Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence#Skaikru are part of Mount Weather#Heda Lexa#Mount Weather Clarke#clexa fic
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check out this difference yall
first drawing of him ever im pretty sure (2021) to today
#butt hoi#scart#i guess#Yeah im pretty sure that is the first venom art i ever drew. was the venom streamer au. a classic#ive made him rounder softer happier etc etc. hes still miserable though dw#my style has changed soooo much in 2 years. even in just like 6 months its changed so much#uueehhhrrr went ahead and alt texted these (3 days later.....) bc it still gets rted time to time
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I have to phone the doctor tomorrow morning to ask for an urgent appointment to get me some help for my mental health but idk if I have it in me to be brave a third time... I'm terrified of what's gonna happen to me once I make that first appointment...
#I've been crying on and off all day i'm genuinely TERRIFIED#i'm literally 3 years into a 6 year psych with counselling degree#i KNOW the process but yet now it's gonna be happening to me i am absolutely TERRIFIED#holy shit holy fuck...#im gonna dm fla later for some comfort/advice and to ask some questions bc i am... in over my head#i KNOW i need help i know i do but now it's not just a 'want' help but a 'need' it i am so so scared#anxious about anxiety hhhh
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13, 30, 42?
hiiiiiii :D
13. lanyard or key ring?
I legit had to google them both because I was not sure if I understood correctly 💀 but KEY RING ALL THE WAY, in fact lemme see if I can show you my keychains AKJSFHASKF
(the top thingy blinks my irl name)
30. places that you find sacred?
without a doubt, my older house. I adore that house a lot and I had a hard time saying bye to it. Also I have several... hmmm... dream places I used to dream a lot when I was younger and I also find them sacred to me. Churches rarely made me feel what I feel thinking about those places... OH and the beach when its empty, the roads in usulutan too somehow feel somewhat sacred to me, idk.
42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?
PANTS. POCKETS. GIVE ME FUCKING DEEP POCKETS I AM TIRED I AM ENRAGED EVERYTIME I TRY TO PUT MY EARBUD CASE IN MY FRONT POCKETS ONLY FOR THEM TO BE LAUNCHED AWAY WHEN I FUCKING SIT
I HAVE TO PUT MY PHONE IN THE BACK POCKET BECAUSE NOTHING FUCKING FITS MY FRONT POCKETS AND IT MAKES ME MAD BECAUSE THEN I CANT SIT I'LL CRUSH MY PHONE I ALREADY ACCIDENTALLY CRUSHED A COCKROACH ONE TIME WHEN I SAT ON IT 😭😭😭😭
#zagreus rambling#ask game#thank you punky <3#Also. yes I do have a severed funko Dva head. I bought it 6 years ago because it was the only overwatch merch I could afford at a gamestop#but since funkos are so bad quality the body just broke on the neck and well I have the Dva head around xd#IT DIDNT EVEN LAST LIKE A MONTH LITERALLY DAYS LATER THE BODY BROKE#I havent added more to my keychain because I havent bough- ok I have bought keychains but for my backpack#not for my keys
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the entirety of BFDI so far is 16:10:39 (hours, minutes, seconds). assuming the average sleep time is 8 hours, then that's a little more than typical waking hours
#wheucto#wheucto speaks#binging the entirety of BFDI in one sitting (from BFDI 1a to TPOT 6) is. possible. but barely#unless you like. stay up a long time_ later on this is just. going to be impossible#that is if you want to stay healthy sleep schedule-wise#and so far we only have 6 TPOT episodes. considering we have 35 (i think) contestants_ 2 contestants eliminated#if that stays true until. uhhhh. let's say an avg of 3 members per team for merge (or first merge)#3 * 6 = 18#that's almost half of 35. so it would take 17 or 18 episodes to get there if. i'm right which is unlikely#now if 1 contestant is eliminated after 1st merge that would take 15 for final three 16 for final two#if the same stays true (until final four/two) then it'd be 7ish for final four/three or 8 for final two#17 + 7 + 1 for the smallest estimate. that's 25.#each episode is about 25 minutes (assuming trends stay the same) so it'd be 625 minutes more (or 10 hours 25 minutes)#that is_ assuming that 1. tpot doesn't get canceled 2. 1st merge will happen when teams have 3 contestants avg#we'll need to wait about... 3 to 5 years (if the show gets completed) to see how many episodes (and how long they are) there'll be#(since assuming each episode comes in a month + half times that by 25 for a little over 3 years as the lower estimate and 5 as just. a vibe#- based guess)#if 625 mins is correct then it'd be over 26 hours long also known as more than a day. so. binge-watching all of bfdi is probably impossible#- when it all gets completed (assuming there isnt ANOTHER season after tpot. and who knows?)
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#welp they lowered us to 5-8 last night but uh…#I woke up to 6 inches already on the ground with it coming down hard#and they upped us to 6-12 when I first checked#but we’ve been upped again to 8–13#the roads were never treated here and it’s not plowed and my ride said nah fam so I called out of work#which like mild anxiety about that but also I’m glad#my sister in law texted me to be like pls tell me you don’t have to go out and that roads are horrible and she slid everywhere#this is wild like two days ago they were lol we’re not gonna get anything#love that the weatherman is always fucking wrong anymore#reminds me of the storm a few years back where they were like ‘maybe 1-3?’#but we kept getting more and they eventually just gave up and slapped us with a blizzard warning#we got 33 inches that time which was the highest recorded ever for our area lol#this ain’t got the potential to do that it’s not a big enough storm#but get a little anxiety when it seems like they don’t know how much and keep upping it#but also sNOWWWWWW! :D#I will be so upset when I have to shovel later but ssssnnnnnoooowwwwww o:
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