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really trying to figure out where my fandom and writing and interests lie on the scale of like, neurotypical people have interests too vs perhaps a hyperfixation
like I do think NT ppl get strong interests and even mayhaps obsessions. I do think NT ppl write fanfic and strongly enjoy things and I feel a little irked when it seems to me that people assume that anybody who really likes something has ADHD and/or autism like just being into a thing is a diagnosis
but also, is it not normal for people to do stuff like write fanfic, theorize, get super hyped for their shows/books/games/ect? few people are more passionate than sports fans who have lifetime loves of sports teams, wear merch everywhere, go to every game, ect. so then looking at someone who really likes video games or what have you, at what point does "I passionately love this and think about it on the daily" become a hyperfixation?
reading up on it, I'm still lost. NT people can talk about their interests for hours too, but some articles seem to suggest that it's a hyperfixation if someone is just not capable of saving their interest talk for when others are interested. Are you any less interested if you have a filter, though? Idk
I guess I'm like. Fandom/tumblr has a ton of ND ppl in it, but there's also like a lowkey vibe that if you're really into fandom you must be ND and I just don't think that can be possible, but like, is it? idk
for ref, I got told I meet some ADHD criteria but had too much anxiety for a therapist to make a concrete diagnosis due to and I never got a follow up so I'm not NT and I'm just trying to figure out what my interest level/expression is
#lowkey im like is writing fic and all the rest of the stuff i do normal? or is it all just. a symptom. like mayhaps a Good symptom but like.#definition check here i guess
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pics from the first readthrough of summer stock
#=)#will roland#summer stock#occurred to me to check if goodspeed musicals has an instagram....lo: behold#think that's gilbert l. bailey ii in the first pic; cast as phil filmore; not a name from the movie but if i had to guess#it's the phil silvers / herb something role of [other funny guy]#i can Guess that's the actor playing margaret wingate in the second pic; a role i can Guess is orville's mom instead of dad#also seem to have replaced the older farm like housekeeper w/just the falburys' dad. sure thing#definitely expect changes like there's room for sure to completely add stuff; ofc to tweak or swap around / remix preexisting stuff#which speaking of; they also helpfully have all the songs they're using on their website which similarly isn't just the film's soundtrack#truly intrigued by everything like let's get that lore; surprise prominence of jimmy armstrong in panic of '29 all over again#which; anytime max friedman wants to update his site to have pics from that production....#and like even just in the film like orville's as or more solid a part as anyone else's (save for the singing & dancing lol)#so w/what they'll shake up around here like Tell Me More....
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honestly my biggest wonder about yesterdays drama was like... who even was that? not the person being called out, but the one calling them out. like, its one thing to make a throwaway to make a callout post, but to go on anon and try to pull unrelated people into it? this was clearly someone still in the taleblr server since they had screenshots from literally the same day in their callout
this isnt me taking sides because genuinely i have more important things to worry about than all that, but its different when it comes to this person because like... i just thought yall were different than that? maybe we all dont totally consider eachother friends entirely but i liked to think we were all somewhere around there for the most part
theres only so many of us and we all try to stay chill (to more or less success) because like... theres probably less than 100 of us left, and we're all adults by now as far as i know, and i know age doesnt really equal maturity, but its just so immature to try and stir drama by messaging unrelated parties.
honestly even if the person told me in private who they were its not like id make shit worse by posting about them or something because, again, i have bigger things to worry about, im just curious at this point. its not even an obligation for them to come forward, im just admitting that im curious.
if anything all i have to say is be the bigger person and block and move on when you dont like someone or something someone did. i get that you saw stuff that you found gross and you wanted everyone to feel the same way you did, but the rest of us just want to live our lives. plus i think the people that were messaged arent even in the discord so it was honestly even weirder to do that
ive had my fair share of seeing things that made me feel gross to see or read or know about, like, seriously i found out one of my friends was a pedo last year (and i promptly blocked the cunt). but it doesnt do anything to pull other people into the mess and try to start shit.
basically, just be more mature, cause i know yall are better than that. you dont have to read fics that you dont like, and you dont have to interact with people you dont like. your online experience is yours and the best option is always to block and move on. ive had my fair share of drama, and all it does is ruin peoples days, and not much else.
my biggest point, honestly, is that this is such a small fandom and i dont want whats left to come crashing down because some drama makes everyone left hate it here. i dont care whos right or wrong because literally whatever its internet drama, i just dont want this community to die out.
#taleblr#my post#plus about my ex-friend... im just satisfied in knowing theyre gross and insufferable enough that theyre not gonna have much luck#with relationships of any kind unless they make drastic drastic changes to themselves and their life.#and no i havent read the fic in question here because it just didnt sound like my kind of thing#and im definitely not proship but i seriously think its better to just move on#my thing is like... i dont want people writing about certain topics but i also know that i cant stop people#i dont like things that have been done on either side here which is why im not taking sides#you could argue im an unrelated party but i at least talked to the person a little bit yesterday in the server#i checked up on them after cause i was like 'oh this person i was talking to got banned i wonder what the deal was and if theyre ok'#because from our convo in the server they seemed nice even if they were a bit unknowing of the rules it seemed#and they basically just told me they wanted everyone to leave them alone. so yeah#ill leave them alone and everyone else should too and its just better for everyone to move on#im not going to make any more posts about this after mind you. i dont have asks or submissions on so the only way to contact me#is through my messages if anyone feels like it#or i guess if youre in the discord you could DM me on there too#but otherwise im not going to make any more posts because i just wanted to get this out of the way and move on with my day#i have a huge thing happening later and i dont need this weighing on my mind for it#just be more mature. just block and move on. dont be that guy that tries to bring other people into it that had nothing to do with it#and dont try to make this everyone elses problem#youre allowed to feel disgusted and angry or whatever you might be feeling. but dont make it everyone elses problem#also no i couldnt report my ex-friend because i didnt have the info and also i didnt have evidence more than them admitting to thoughts#and people cant be arrested for thoughts alone as much as you might wish they could#and also they werent ashamed of these thoughts which is why they were disgusting. they only hid them because they knew we would be#disgusted because were normal people. so anyway.#long post
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I snapped today at work, and by snapped I mean I politely commented on a help desk ticket by summing up an mess of an (type of) issue that's come up for at least the fourth time in the 2+ months I've been managing user accounts, and asked the person responsible to fix it (himself for once) because last time I fixed his mess-up it took me two whole days to work out the details with at least four other colleagues from different departments and I really don't want to do it again. there's other shit that needs doing, I've been working 10+ hour days for most of this week already, so I need to cut down not add on more.
(good thing tho - at least we managed to fix the issue where the dataset of a newer employee got mixed up with another one of the same name and therefore wasn't able to apply for any of the access/accounts she needed. technically not entirely my area but it does impact us not being allowed to create an account for her so I figured I might as well track that issue down. took three days and at least three other people, but hey - it should all work out now. yay for that)
#been feeling anxious af ever since bc it's the first time I've been this firm in a reply and idk how they'll take it#there's underlying issues in inter-departmental communication that need fixing that cause these issues to happen again and again#but my boss is on parental leave and his substitute is sick not that she cares or is up for doing her job where communication is concerned#so there's no real sense in addressing that rn esp by me who's only been there since June. but it does frustrate me a lot#anyway. I'm sure I'll get over this too. but yeah.. ppl not thinking things through for the two mins it takes to create an account#or the twenty seconds it takes to check if one already exists before creating a new one#or the minute it takes to check if folks still have an active contract past their time working in your department before deleting an accoun#just jfc. put in a smidge of effort and five mins total and save the rest of us from spending half a day to fix your mistake#oh well. if I get a pissy response I'll just blame it on being new as an intern and being too motivated and idealistic I guess#god forbid I expect people to do their jobs thoroughly or with at least a singular thought..#anyway. I feel like I'm allowed to be grumpy abt this since we are the folks who end up having to fix this shit#and by we I mean pretty much mostly me at this point bc one colleague is sick atm. my boss barely has time for this and is on leave#and my other colleague only works half time so I'm the one who's been handling most of these over the past month or so#which.. is still insane considering how I'm a goddamn intern who shouldn't even have admin rights tbh#but without them I couldn't do anything at all lol so here I am. nice that they trust and believe in me I suppose#that's why I try to do my best. (who am I kidding that's always the case anyway)#but yeah. definitely a 50% staff support job and only 50% of the other important things that need doing rn it's more like 90/10#and it's funny how I still dread my two hours of hotline. but every time the line is too busy I still jump in#we are also only 6 people atm out of 10 and three of us are still in training. and one of the trained folks had to come back in mid time of#next week we'll likely be 4#depending on if our substitute boss lady is back.. not that I'd look forward to it. she's a mess and she's been horrible to deal with latel#sure. she's stressed. but she's either snapping at me when I ask abt shit I can't know yet or she's ignoring me. great basis for team work.#so honestly I'd rather she not return on Monday. esp not if she's gonna spread her germs everywhere#but now sleep. sorry for the rant. it's certainly been quite the month since I returned from my own wisdom tooth rated sick leave..#gotta be up again in 6.5 hrs so I can be at work at 6 to let the electrician in. I'm gonna sleep so hard over the weekend I stg#a day in the life of..
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tagged by @wormdream to list my top 9 first time watches of 2023 ty! to be honest i simply have not been watching movies this year outside of rewatches or stuff for my horror movie class. which was cool because i hadnt seen most of them but even though i liked all of them ithey didnt take over my brain. not that all of these did either. whatever
if you wanna say i tagged you go ahead i mean it 😁👍 every body lmk what you are watching so i can add it my watchlist and never see it 🩷
#i think the fall is definitely numba one this year. and sorry that ive only just now seen the exorcist and the truman show pleade dont take#away my movie watcher license:(#debated putting stop making sense on here but that probably doesnt count so.#street of crocodiles btw if you like tool music video check it out. sound of the summer#my sculpture pro recommended it to me because i do stop motion stuff and its so tool music video its insane how did she know that i like tha#t kind of stuff my videos look nothing like tool music video but i guess she picked up on it in there somewhere idk
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Philippus? Wym philippus this is a wholeass other woman?????? She's white?????? Guys come on now
ALSO cursed white Euboea in this same sequence.... homeboy she's Asian please stop
Joe Phillips I'm sorry but this is some shitty ass guest pencilling how can you not know anything abt what these people look like thats literally your job... you also just needed to read the issue before this to know?
Editors should have caught this one these are major Amazon characters
#also i did a quick wiki check for one thing and basically confirmed that i was right about this entire arc so i win i guess 💪💪💪💪#like “the amazons are starting some crazy murder shit!” are they really now. which amazons may i ask? are you sure its not the bana-#oh yep its the baba mighdall. well then. TOTALLY didnt see this coming (said w love)#i mean its like maybe im being perceptive but they literally showed two of them in their armor and had one say phthia aka one of the#founders of the bana. like okay i had to do a wiki to check that and obvi id know slightly more than a pérez run reader abt them#(but not much honestly ive read the same stuff they wouldve just plus some fandom osmosis/knowing who artemis is) but i digress. do think he#maybe could have put showing them off but i understand the motive of not wanting readers to go months thinking the amazons were chopping#ppls heads off. but they could have teased the mind control red herring (probably? think it was a red herring although it could pop back up#the arc is still ongoing) a little bit more considering weve had dr psycho starting shit for the past 4 (at LEAST) issues but well whatever#anyways the pencilling on this one needed help like its not even a coloring issue at the core of it its legit this guest guy drawing#totally different people... very lame#anyways maybe im too quick to blame it all on the bana i am only halfway through the arc#like i do think it is the bana. i think thats the answer. but again dr psycho IS causing problems and theres been hints of the cheetah being#involved (“animal attack” killings + a shot of her in arkham) AND circe was namedropped (although now we know it was dr psycho) but im still#slightly suspicious bc there seems to be possesed animals... like they are v much laying different hints and pathways here#but i think its the bana. i think its psycho fucking around and also the bana and MAYBE a psycho controlled cheetah or the bana mimicing her#patterns. or are the bana even there if psychos involved??? he could just be fucking around then- okay you know what. maybe im less sure of#this than i thought and should just read more. wait but how would psycho even know about the bana to have ppl hallucinate hed just use the#themyscirans-- okay i need to read more im getting distracted. the bana are definitely involved though im calling it. its them and maybe#psycho. and maybe cheetah. and maybe circe but likely not bc we already established that was a false lead. unless that was also a trick. and#WHAT ABT ARES ALL THE STOLEN ARTIFACTS HAD TO DO WITH WAR--#.... guys im losing it. fuck it im saying its all giganta and calling it a day i cant do this#no but i love how this mystery is set up its like they just dropped clues for every single ww villain onto it and said “here. good luck.”#this is before the big ww crossover too so it could actually be all of them im losing my mind here. WHO IS IT#ive twisted myself in a circle here i dont know anything now. only that i did call it if it was the bana. or if theres mind control or smth#sus about heracles cup. i also called that although its seeming less and less likely now that the bana and psycho are likely involved. and#maybe cheetah. and circe. and ares. guys im falling apart here#what was the point of this post then? oh shitty guest pencilling and editor flops. the editor flop part i can understand im sure they were#busy even if this is a big thing to miss imo. the penciller though is just silly come on now. someone should have caught that. anyways--#swishy liveblogs
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can you fight god?
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#uhh... well y'all heard it here first. Barton Can and Will fight God™#also i stole this meme from @ hexsreality so go and check out their rendition of it!!#and thank youuu for making me aware of this meme btw LOL i just had to see the results for him once i saw the title...#i mean i guess it kind of makes sense because Barton definitely has some questions for the-#big guy upstairs and by 'questions' i mean he mayyy or may not act out aggressively towards them while asking them things.#SOOO yeah. man's is going to try to make the guy feel all of his pain rest assured NGL
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#tfw ur life has been so busy that u forgot that with a new school u have a new email to keep track of#and u forgot to hook it up to ur outlook so now u open it up and see emails from abt a month ago#telling u to do TA orientation stuff. uuuuuh oops#so i guess i have some bullshit to figure out tomorrow. also i should finalize my class sign up staff#stuff* bc when i was doing yhat my brain was on fire. also i should email my new boss. oh god. why didnt i check that email????#i dont even kno if im supposed to b a TA this semester??? i should just email the guy but also i dont wanna roll up like yo#im already damaged goods bc ive suffered a whole year in a state of burnout. also i fucked up my sign up process by not paying attention#but uh hi hello nice to meed u again for the 2nd time in my life. this is definitely not a bad omen for things to come#ugh. why have i done this to myself? i cant even call to try to fix anything until Monday. fuck.#but i mean. i cant b thr only one who's ever done this. so maybe itll b fine? hopefully?#but i wouldn't have this problem if id just fucking looked at my fucking email in the 1st place#i can already feel it. this is where the overlap starts. the overlap between my old lab and my new lab#will it tear me into pieces? perhaps. i have to shift into go mode. i cant b a sad sack anymore#ugh. im usually really good at being on top of stuff like this bc im such an anxious freak but here we r...#unrelated
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apologies for putting bi lesbian discourse on the dash yet again. at this point i have honestly ceased to care when anybody calls themselves that because yeah it's your experience you're putting words to and whatever reasons you have for doing so are most likely not worth getting mad at you for. like sure i may still have Questions but i'm willing to live and let live.
but what REALLY gets to me is how all this is more often than not a vehicle for yet more scapegoating lesbians for EVERY intracommunity issue we have. that and i can tell when someone isn't genuinely concerned about biphobia or nonbinary/multigender people being excluded or some other understandable worry and is just. really eager to tell us how much they want us to get over ourselves and be open to fucking men no matter how much progressive language they can be bothered to wrap it up in.
#.rtf#definitely repeating myself here. again i hope this does not sound self-contradictory#it's just overexplaining o'clock i guess#ALSO one more thing. i know i need to do more reading on lgbt history myself but.#it would help to double check the full context of whatever historical facts you want to point to#instead of just taking the ''back in the days of PARADISE—'' route solely to back up your argument.
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gods nov 5th is the gift that keeps giving
#I recently have been dragged into I guess sort of the boku no hero academia fandom in the funniest of ways#which is to say I read a crossover fic went 'huh that's good' and decided to read more fic while also deciding to never watch the show#which I've only done for one fandom before and tbh it might legit be a more fun fanfiction reading experience than the normal one#it is WILD trying to reverse-engineer what is simply well-accepted fan theory and what is actual canon#I've definitely gotten a few guesses wrong but the osmosis process is really fun#(esp bc if you want to be a good detective you have to check dates; even people writing very carefully close to canon#might have written a fic before canon came out)#BUT ANYWAYS I guess I read BNHA fic now it's actually pretty good#probably bc there are multiple characters that fit my standard..... not even 'blorbo' preferences#my 'you have a backstory and/or situation that means fanfic written about you is most likely going to hit the spot' preferences#1 defs being Eraserhead bc let's be real 'I am a very tired gruff teacher working two jobs at once who does not get any sleep and has#against my own will adopted all of you why is this happening to me I'm so tired' is The Most Relatable#Hawks bc Crafted Into A Weapon From Childhood is The Weapons Feels^TM#and then Dabi bc that was the crossover that I read that was fun ok it was a silly jjk crossover of 'what if Gojo is reincarnated as Dabi'#that just transferred all my 'HELLO FAVORITE CHARACTER' emotions onto Dabi who then I go and look up and has also the sort of backstory#that makes him fave character material#SO here I am sitting here just generally happy with all of this watching my annual Nov 5th meme compilation#and LO AND BEHOLD there is strong arm 'trending during the us election: destiel/ BNHA' meme#and I'm going 'what the fuuuuuuuck my new favorite fandom aLSO TRENDED IN THE NOV 5TH CHAOS????'#so obviously I had to look up why#WELL THE WHY WAS DABI BACKSTORY REVEAL#anyways my housemate had to check on me as to why I was screaming and it turns out that indeed nov 5th#is the gift that keeps on giving#if you have read this far down in my tags I feel like you now know uncomfortably personal things about me#esp if you know enough about BNHA to understand all of that#so if you have any fic recs About My Favs I'm taking them I esp enjoy canon retellings bc it's REALLY fun to try to figure out#which bits of those are actually canon
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3 work days down, another 3 … possibly 5 to go …
I’m grateful for work & all, but goddam I need to find something with a regular schedule so all my work days aren’t clumped together like this.
#🎃 Cryptid sighting#I have a jury summons (& one last work day) which is why I’m not sure how long it’s going to be until I can have a proper rest#But UGHHHHH between this being such a physically brutal job + not being able to sleep lately + wonky hormone-induced brain fog/cramps#Sure I’m built like an ox w/the constitution to match but it’s still not good to push myself this hard#I’ve worked longer workweeks elsewhere but this job is a by far more physically punishing#I’m so tempted to call in sick just so I can have a definite day off in here somewhere#That and I need time to curl up & enjoy a couple friends’ recent fics that I know my current tired unfocused brain meats won’t accommodate#I know I won’t call in but I hope I’m at least not on the jury list when I call to check the previous night. Need me some serious Zzzz’s#vent#I guess#Also an indirect explanation why I’m still not as present around here as I had hoped
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Bakura zeros in his attention on the young man speaking to him. ...Ryo?? But he seemed quite different. Why was he wearing that ridiculous costume? And why was he speaking that way?
In truth, he didn't know where he was. The room was dim, but had a rich, golden glow coming from the decorated lights, clouded by powerfully scented cigar smoke. Music filled the chilled room. Music Bakura could only describe as "contemptuous". There appeared to be gambling going on and games of dice and cards being played. The players were just as equally absurd looking. Bakura spotted what he assumed was a prostitute winking at him in the distance. She looked intoxicated.
"A show? What kind of show?" Bakura asks, tilting his head slightly, curiosity in his voice, his eyes narrowing a bit at the strange young man that welcomed him.
It had to be him. A version of him, anyway. He could sense it. A corner of his mouth curled upward upon realizing this. How strange were the ways he continued to find this naive host.
@swingbakuraryou
#swingbakuraryou#So I'm gonna say here he's met other Ryos before but not often and definitely not like this#Would Bakura be able to sense that Ryo can use dark magic?#Also as soon as I saw “laughing man” I was like oh that might be Bakura he's always laughing for no reason#Also I said “host” because Bakura assumes Ryo has been a host to a Yami like another one he met#but I'm not sure if that's true#I think I'm leaning towards no cause I think you said he's never had a ring yet#okay#I put this in the q#and I don't remember posting it#I wanted to double check it b4 I posted lol#WELL WHATEVER I GUESS LOL
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The thing about checking out a series, a game, or something else while you're still into other things is that you may find yourself at a crossroads with your creative thought process.
Right now, I am dealing with keeping up with my A Plague Tale projects because I recently joined the Warrior Nun bandwagon (a bit too late but it's never too late to say #SaveWarriorNun). I am trying to write the next fic for my Magistra series and as of late for Dum Spiro Spero, Shad is the only one with ideas (and I feel awful for it, I'm so sorry). But the truth is, I haven't written anything APT related... because I'm writing for WN.
So what happens? I just fucking thought (and I swear I hate myself for this because I'll never be able to see it through): "how about a WN/APT crossover?" The Warrior Nuns are the Carriers and the Protectors are the Sister Warriors that were supposed to be their coaches, trainers. It's basically the same thing because Carriers and Warrior Nuns alike have the same fate and that's dying so everyone else can live. The OCS can be a more benevolent alchemy Order in a way, the Macula is the Halo perhaps? They're sentient, they have a free will on their own and no one fucking understand how they truly work lmao...
Anyway, right now I'm just gonna grab my clown makeup and get out of here because my brain is wild haywire.
I have freed myself from this... but at what cost? 🤡
#a plague tale#warrior nun#rene soul's ramblings#idk do with this information what you'd like#im just out here putting off writing projects cuz these two fandoms are making me crazy in a good way#if you don't know about A Plague Tale definitely check it out#if you don't know about Warrior Nun definitely check it out#i mean once i finish writing for wn i will be back to my apt fics#with wn i have just a sporadic inspiration so better hang onto that i guess
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My advice for polls:
Please stop being rude to people or the characters they chose just because you don’t agree with their vote!
Kindness goes a long way and makes polls a lot more fun!
(The only exception I’ll make is the Best Tallest Poll 2023 where everyone collectively (yet affectionately) trashed Red like the little loser boy he is like they were his older sibling)
#respect other people’s characters#I saw this with the Sexyman poll here with Nightvale fans trashing Undertale ones#I really didn’t want to listen to Nightvale because of how self righteous and rude everyone was the Undertale community#I’m going to check it out but it definitely didn’t make me want to listen to it#fandoms are toxic: don’t be part of the problem#kindness goes a long way#please be civil#I guess I summoned the IZ community with that last bit of the post…#almighty tallest#tallest red#invader zim#iz#mint mumbles
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Final. Fantasy.
#🌙.rambles#oh no. i accidentally ended up rambling so much on my priv twt bcs of drk. again 😭😭#i think that's uhm enough for tonight though bcs i shld srs sleep soon (will definitely not but Still)#looking at old notes i have other ff quotes here n. vivi. sob. i rlly. rlly. want to replay ffix soon#this is embarrassing reading these n i srs see how much ff has influenced me. it's actually. really really embarrassing#my attention span help#ffxiv eden's promise. specifically promises to keep oh my god it's so. perfect. it's. heaven. to my ears.#i miss raiding T_T#NOOOOO SORRY MY ATTENTION SPAN JUST CHECKED MY SWITCH RQ#my aunt indeed has chrono cross the radical dreamers edition & girl oh my god that 225 hours on octopath#i. am just listening to music rn i cannot write i'll just do more later yeah FR THIS TIME#fr though just. i miss raiding so much. i rmb me n apollo being so woah bcs like. our static back on twintania had ppl from over europe ofc#from uk to france to germany. n some had turkish blood too iirc. damn i still rmb the accents oh my god.#apollo n i were like around 14 when we were raiding. which is pretty impressive oh my god we cleared the whole of eden's promise#i rmb how they'd ask how school was 🥺 n our fc/static lead was so kind i rmb how he'd check up on us too#I STILL RMB LIKE. smth like 'you two have been sick a lot lately' & 'you good? :c' or smth.#n then awww the way they'd say gn bcs we used to raid till 12 am n apollo n i had school yeah#i'm. really happy w my improvement. from sprout drk me i was so anxious to tank n now look i've cleared uwu <3#i miss the old twintania static. honestly i still wish that. i cld've unmuted even once yk? but. anxiety.#my social anxiety was really so bad back in 2021 but i guess i had to manage yk. ffxiv rlly helped a lot goddamn#i miss those days a lot. but i'll cry if i think more on that n of other stuff too so i'll just sleep soon#i. genuinely do know that i ramble too much but. actually nvm i'll ramble even more if i say that#i'll just. leave this at here. i'm really going to organize myself this week#sigh i wanted to do. more before i slept. like work on smth rq or. idk. but nah. anxiety. i'm tired. nah. gn#my playlists r a mess my notes r a mess heck even my room is a mess n i look like a mess n my mind is. even more of a mess#but being self-deprecating isn't.. really me but. oh no if i go on i'll ramble to myself abt my dilemmas again fuck this i need to shut up#rn at least i just need my mind to shut up. n oh in the end i guess tonight i won't rlly be able to do anything again but#nooo fuck it i'll just end it at that. so much to do.. so much to think about. but. nah sorry tonight i think i'm too tired. sorry#tbd
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i THINK dacryphilia is liking when your partner cries during sex. i also don't feel like googling it
luckily for us anon some braver souls have googled it and you’re right!! it’s liking when your partner cries or liking when your partner makes *you* cry and i have definitely not read fics involving one and/or both of these scenarios🤧
#thankyou thankyou anon🫶🏼#and ty again to everyone educating me on kinks you are the best!!#might just start posting here when a kink confuses me instead of trying to guess it while reading#bc personally *i* always assumed the crying during sex tag covered this but there’s a word too!! who knew!!!#apparently a lot of people#s/o to those people ily ty again again for helping me <3#anyways i’m off to read some fics that definitely don’t involve dacryphilia#once again out of context this just looks like someone randomly inboxing me kink info#but this time they’re less sure and refuse to check#which personally i admire bc *same*#ily anon
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