#delayed sleep phase syndrome

[adhbabey]

Y'all..... Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome is actually hell to live with, and its debilitating to experience. It's not my natural cycle, because if I had a natural cycle, I would not be ocillating between getting up at 8 am and having a normal schedule and getting up at 12 am, 3 am, 5 pm, 8 pm, 11 am, 12 pm, whatever fucking time of day my brain decides to sleep and wake up at.

Maybe y'all didn't experience this, but every summer between school years, my sleep schedule would become fucked up. I would also kick and scream whenever I was waking up for school, and I never could figure out how to get to sleep, even now, I haven't been able to go to sleep when I want to, even if I am crying my eyes out tired.

Its only when I was on ADHD medication for a period of time, I was able to sleep properly.

So yes, it's a disorder, no it's not natural.

[violet-phoenix-nebula]

I have never in my life been happier to have a circadian rhythm disorder. My ass is wide fucking awake for Taylor's middle of the night insanity. ROUND 2 LET'S FUCKING GO!

[i-may-be-an-emu]

I wish that places were open at night. Like not just 24 hour fast food places and cinemas that are open late, actual restaurants, shops, schools and unis and mechanics and like ice cream shops and libraries and just everything. Everything is better at night like i want to be nocturnal and we should round up all the people who also love the night time and hate the day time and make a city of nocturnal people. Like wow that would be fun.

[steepsheep]

[comicsmithy]

One of the worst elements of living with Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder and trying to live normally is the lost time trying to fall asleep COMBINED with the lost time from exhaustion during the day. No traction.

[babyspacebatclone]

I’m sitting here, crying quietly, having a revelation.

I saw that poll about “what do you take to go to sleep,” and I pointedly ignore the trazadone my doctor prescribed me for that reason.

I don’t take it. I don’t want to take it.

I hate laying in bed for hours, trying to shut off my brain, but I don’t want to take it anymore.

I haven’t wanted to confront why, but I tried poking at it tonight.

Since this started when I was a teenager, I’ve never been allowed to sleep the way my body wants to do

i have a circadian cycle, I know what my body does when I get two weeks alone to myself.

Fall asleep between 3am and 4am, wake up around noon.

I have never been able to work a job that lets me do that.

Nights doesn’t do that. And the one job I was able to do primarily evenings, I also had to work 10 hour shifts every other weekend that started before noon.

I’ve never been able to take classes or live somewhere where I can sleep the way my body wants to.

And until that stupid job, when I was suddenly like “What, there’s a Sleep Clinic here, I can finally go get diagnosed with Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder and see if I can use that to negotiate out of the weekend shifts, do a straight 40 hour evening job!!!”

I ended up having to take over the night shift, partially because they needed someone to take the position and partially because my PTSD working that job during daylight hours was killing me.

…..

Working nights let me survive another year before the C-PTSD destroyed me.

And I never got into the Sleep Clinic.

And I’m tired, and exhausted, and so so very very sick of my body not sleeping on everyone else’s schedule a “me” problem.

And I don’t want to take my sleep medication.

And now I’m crying heavier, but it’s anger now.

[useless-fucking-lesbian]

Can I just say, why the fuck do so many ppl talk abt how to fix ur sleep if u have adhd and it’s is SO incorrect bc our brain is completely different so we don’t have to take extra measures that would help you, we need to take extra measures that help us.

For example: ppl say sleep in a dark room, the point of dsps is that at NIGHT we find it hard to sleep so WHY SHOULD WE SIMULATE THAT, and “just go to bed earlier” yes bc that is totally gonna help the fact that I’m still not gonna be tired till like 10am, AND PPL SAY DONT HAVE CAFFIENE BUT ARE UNEDUCATED AS SUCH THAT IT IS SCIENTIFICALLY PROVEN TO HELP CALM PPL WITH ADHD WHICH SOLVES ALMOST EVERY DIFFICULTY TO SLEEP WE HAVE

I know these ppl have good intentions but nobody realises that we don’t just experience more difficulties like that but they are solved differently bc it is a mental disorder not just a characteristic we have. ADHD is well known in many ways it affects ppl but nobody is educated on how our problems will not be solved the way a neurotypical would be

[pinkkevlar]

Having delayed sleep phase disorder is wild sometimes because you are either living in your correct sleep phase or you are constantly trying to pull back your bedtime. But you forget that other people don't know that or if they do, which part of the cycle you are in so occasionally you get a "you're up late text" at a time that is completely reasonable to your brain to be awake, like 4am. Like, nah, I'm close to getting to bed right now and that's gonna be early considering I've been going to bed at 7am lately but sure, it's late.

My partner on the otherhand goes to bed before midnight and I'm like, what are you doing going to bed right now in my head while they are like "ah, it is almost time for pink to go to bed too" absolutely bonkers bananas

[soulless-bex]

i did not open tiktok tonight to find out i have a sleeping disorder

[m3r1m4r5u333]

Delayed sleep phase syndrome, unofficial symptoms:

It's 3 am and you've just finished unclogging the poorly draining bathroom sink. It could have waited till tomorrow but you were bored.

And now you're baking pizza.

[gayfornyancat]

i have my adhd assessment in under 5.5 hours and i can’t sleep. i’m expecting to get like 2 hours max but god i fucking hate not being able to sleep when i want!!!! why does dspd have to come with less flexibility around sleep schedules why can’t i sleep anywhere between 3-8am as and when i want and not (currently) fucking 8am no matter how much time before that i try to go to sleep. sucks that doing one thing that will help me makes another thing Worse

[adhbabey]

I don't get to have a bedtime. My adhd decides when I sleep.

[violet-phoenix-nebula]

Well, I just took a truly obnoxious amount of melatonin. Time to see what happens.

[malfoynonsense]

exhausted

I’ve started getting up at 8 am because in four weeks i’ll start my summer job that’ll have me waking up at 6am. 

I’ve been tired for over a month now. Literally yawning left and right.

At first transitioning to waking up earlier, I was genuinely sleep deprivied because it took me two weeks to start falling asleep earlier. 

Now, for a while, I’m sleeping enough. I’m going to bed earlier, falling asleep earlier - sleeping the same amount than before, but just earlier. 

I’m exhausted. 

E X H A U S T E D. 

And that’s on adhd and delayed sleep phase. 

Even when you fix the habit and force yourself to fall asleep earlier, the body knows it’s wrong. The sleep is happening, but it’s at the wrong time, and it’s not as restorative. I’m so done.

[steepsheep]

me: "ok, i'm going to early to bed tonight"

also me: 16 hours later

[thirsty-ikea-bug]

You gotta wake up pretty early in the afternoon to pull one over on me