#demi lovato mom

[holyfvkc]

[britbritsslave]

[minty-ocean]

my mom literally asked me if poland’s song is from this year or older because it seems really familiar like THAT’S how basic of a song it is

[themorrtuary]

Has anyone ever talked about divorce arc parents music taste?

Because I know we have like.. Dad lore and Mom lore.. but my parents are on the verge of divorce, and they have such varying music.

Mom: Songs about men cheating, female rage and empowerment, fuck society and fuck all men

Dad: begging the girl to stay, not wanting to be alone, trying desperately to tell the love of your life how much they mean to you.

[bybdolan]

watching videos on Pop Culture right now and soo much of it is so American... "Miley's musical career is not as successful as Selena's or Demi's" what are you talking about. I have neverrr heard a Demi song on the radio in my LIFE, but Midnight Sky and Wrecking Ball were THE SHIT.

[wiitzend]

the problem with this whole child stars situation and that brings me back to cole sprouse’s interview (yeah, i know he is problematic too) but he spoke about how his mom pushed him both him and his brother to work as a kids to sort of full-fill her dreams as an artist and also to help them financially since she was a single mom and i get that but this is the thing that also demi lovato said, at one point she wants financially sustaining her entire family and this creates a weird power imbalance where she not longer viewed her mom as a authority figure because she was acting as the breadwinner of the family.

a lot of parents know they’re setting up their kids to this situations and yet want to ignore it because they want the money and for their child’s to keep paying the bills. only alexa nickola’s mom was like yeah no, we’re leaving at the first sign that something was really wrong.

alyson stoner in her podcast (worth watching) also speaks about how if you notice a lot of the productions nowadays take place in states where rules against child actors aren’t in action for example altlanta so it’s easier for production to manipulate it. I know a big portion of child actors have had some horrible experiences at some degree and most don’t want to either relieve that or admit that it happened to them. and that’s fair.

i agree 100%.

i genuinely don't understand a parent's wish to live vicariously through their own children and push them to become child stars when they willingly know the dangers that can come from that. if you have to work extra hours as a single parent to support your children then that's what just what you have to do as an adult. you never made it in hollywood and you're still bitter because of that? too damn bad. get over it. some of these parents play an equal hand in their children's abuse and they need to be held accountable as well.

i think it's incredibly valid that some child actors don't want to reveal that happened to them when working on these tv shows/movies. some of these stories are pretty horrific, i just hope they get the help they need to heal and move on so the people who abused them won't be able to steal another minute of their peace and well-being.

[disneyanddisneyships]

@gyubby99 I like causing pain.

Warnings: mentions of drugs, alcohol, cheating, and depression

Aponi drank a bottle of beer as she read the Pamphlet again.

"I had frequent intimate meetings with Linda Davis," it had read.

Over and over again.

She kept reading it.

Over.

And over again.

In her drunken state she threw the bottle in anger.

It hit the wall, smashing to peices as tears rolled down her face.

Her phone lit up with a text from Valentino.

Val: E canceled on me. Somethin about reveling in your misery. You have her time if you can get off your ass and pull yourself together.

Aponi: be there in 20

Val: good. Sing somethin sad. We've been getting more asking about a sad song.

Aponi rolled her eyes and threw the Pamphlet onto her bed before taking a bottle of wine and a pack of cigarettes out.

She left her apartment.

..........

Aponi walke dinto the back of the club, her head pounding as she took another cigarette out of the pack.

It was her 4th one.

"'Poni?" Angel asked as he saw her. "The fuck happened to you?" He asked.

"Haven't you heard? Alastor's been sleeping around with a little bunny," Aponi replied before getting dressed.

"He fuckin WHAT?!" Angel asked, his features fuming.

Aponi nodded before snatching a performers cocaine, snorting it quickly before straightening herself out.

"Hey.... 'poni you.... I've never seen you do..... drugs...." Angel muttered, worry on his face.

"Whatever. I'm up," Aponi stated before wlaking onto the stage.

The music started.

Aponi had told Val that this was the song she wanted to sing next time she got to, so clearly he made it happen.

She took a breath before starting to sing.

I got no excuses for all of these goodbyes Call me when it's over, 'cause I'm dying inside Wake me when the shakes are gone And the cold sweats disappear Call me when it's over and myself has reappeared

She sang as she threw the cigarette that was in her hand, down onto the floor, stepping on it so it went out.

She knew the song, but she felt if she didn't stop singing it, she'd just break down into a million pieces.

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why I do it every, every, every time It's only when I'm lonely Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight I try and I try and I try and I try and I try Just hold me, I'm lonely

She sang some more, wrapping her arms around herself as a tear ran down her face for the first time since the Pamphlet.

.......

Deborah walked into the club.

E usually came here to spy on her daughter.

Which worked out really well tonight, seeing that she was on stage.

Deborah smiled softly before taking a seat. However, as she listened to the lyrics, her smile faded.

......

As aponi looked out she saw her mom. And that's when she broke.

Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore

As Aponi sang, tears fell fown her face, her voice practically raw with emotion.

Deborah looked at her daughter, worried, but keeping her distance.

I'm sorry to my future love for the man that left my bed For making love the way I saved for you inside my head And I'm sorry for the fans I lost who watched me fall again I wanna be a role model, but I'm only human

She sang as she took off the stupid promise ring Alastor had given her, throwing it to the dogs as they all scrambled to get the expensive jewelry.

As she sang, she watched a few regulars walk out of the club, making her feel even worse.

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why I do it every, every, every time It's only when I'm lonely Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight I try and I try and I try and I try and I try Just hold me, I'm lonely

Her face contorted.

It was angry as she sang a few lyrics.

How could he do this to her? After 8 years....

Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore. I'm not sober anymore

As she sang, she took the microphone and walked to the front of the stage, sitting down curled in a small ball.

She looked at her mom, before turning away in shame.

I'm sorry that I'm here again, I promise I'll get help It wasn't my intention, I'm sorry to myself

As she finished the song the lights went out. She walked off stage like she usually did, and walked straight into her dressing room, curling up on the couch.

A knock sounded on the door.

"Go away, Angel!!!!" Aponibyelled as she wiped the tears from her face.

But the door opened to reveal her mom.

"M-mom?" Aponi asked, shocked as she tensed up.

"Hey Bug...." Deborah muttered.

"Listen, I knownim a big fuck up, but i would really prefer if you didn't tell me 'I told you so'" Aponi stated with a sniff.

Deborah sighed and walked briskly over to her daughter, hugging her from the side.

"Ohhh Lillian.... honey, I know it hurts...." She said in a quiet whisper before pulling Aponi so she was cradling her like a child.

That's when Lilly broke down.....

"I loved him mom," Lilly sobbed as she held onto her mother.

Deborah rocked back and fourth, shushing her.

"Oh honey, I know..... I know you did," She muttered as she stroked Lilly's hair gently.

"Why can't I find love like you and dad did? Why am I so easy to leave and cheat on and fuck up? Why am I so broken?" Lilly sobbed even more.

"Shhh shhhh... baby, you're not broken... other people are... you just.... you just need to find the right person, bug," Deborah replied as she kissed her daughter's head.

[alltoowsll]

Taylor singing + dancing to Demi Lovato’s performance (Ice Spice acting like a mom taking care of her drunk child😭)

[jongbross]

Hiiiiiiii 👋

Can you write a Baekhyun fic? I'm not exactly sure what I want, but... While listening to Demi Lovato's song, something came to mind...

But you make me wanna act like a girl

Paint my nails and wear high heels

Yes, you make me so nervous that I just can't hold your hand

I don't like school fics so maybe a best friend au.

She and Baekhyun are best friends, and the reader thinks she's far from his ideal type. She's been in love with him for years but she's insecure and either Baekhyun is too blind to see her feelings or the reader is a good actor.

She's a great girl, but she struggles to see her own potential... Baekhyun is everything to her, and she to him. Baekhyun had noticed her jealous behavior for a while and became suspicious. He even caught her crying once. When he put the pieces together, he understood everything. After faced her, the reader tried to run away from him, but Baek was fast enough to catch her immediately.

pairing: byun baekhyun x reader word count: 1256 genre: fluffy but also angst? warnings: swearing, jealousy, reader getting on beakhyun's nerves a/n: i'm back at writing requests!! thank you so much for your patience, i hope you enjoy this <3

"i think she's flirting with you", you told baekhyun, looking at the waitress that just walked by the two of you and shot baekhyun the prettiest smile she could manage.

"she's not", he denied, not even bothering to look back. "she's working on christmas eve, so i bet she's just trying to get a nice tip."

it was a tradition, at this point. you and baekhyun had spent the last four christmas together, as a sign of how strong your bond with each other was - either it was at bucheon with his family, abroad with your family, or just the two of you, like that moment.

for this one, sick and tired of being single (in baekhyun's words), he decided to take you too for dinner on the night before christmas. 'i won't be able to go to bucheon this year, so we should have a date night, and then sulk and eat leftovers while we open our presents at my house the next day', he had said, a month previous.

and of course you accepted. not only was baekhyun your best friend, but also the one you loved; like, actually loved.

there wasn't much you could do about it, to be honest. baekhyun had always seen you as a sibling, and that alone was enough to end any hope you could possibly have. on top of that, came the fact that he was just so... ethereal; baekhyun was the definition of a keeper, and any person who could have him was literally the luckiest person in the entire world.

"you can possibly think that every single person that smiles at you is just being polite, baek", you chuckled. "that's why you're single again..."

"does it bother you that i'm single?"

you tried your best not to choke on your drink as your brain screamed 'no, i actually love it' as an answer.

"i mean, i can call her over and ask her out...", he said, teasingly. "but you would spend christmas alone."

you just rolled your eyes at him, going back to your food and pretending like you weren't holding back a smile.

baekhyun kept the conversation going, as well. he told you about his family, how sad his mom was that she wouldn't see you that christmas; you told him about your plans for the next year, what you wanted to achieve.

cause, you see, talking to baekhyun was so easy, feeling seen was the biggest problem here. he could repeat every single word you had just said for the last hour, but could he see that you were wearing a new dress just for him? could he see that you got your nails done in his favorite color just for him? could he see that you were there, dying for him to love you back?

over your third glass of wine, the waitress came back to your table, the same pretty smile on her face.

"would the couple like to order some dessert?"

"we're not a couple", you instantly said, facing your glass.

taken aback by your answer, the waitress hesitated to turn to baekhyun, only to see him as surprised as her.

"um... no, not for now", he politely said. "can we get some water though, please?"

she hummed in response, before turning around to leave.

"wow, that was quite harsh", baekhyun faked a chuckle. "are you okay?"

"sure."

"are you really sure?"

"yes, baekhyun", you rolled you eyes. "she was just trying to check if you're single so she can keep flirting with you. all i did was give her the answer she was looking for."

baekhyun frowned, leaning into the table to take a good look at you.

"are you drunk already?", he laughed. "i mean, she just wondered if we were a couple, it's not that deep, y/n. we're together on christmas eve, it's-"

"no one would mistake us for a couple."

"what? why not?"

"because!", you exclaimed. at the corner of your eyes, you saw the said waitress coming again with a jar of water. she placed it on the table in front of baekhyun, and then proceeded to smile at him again before walking away. defeated, you sighed. "i am me, and you are you. nobody could ever think about us as a couple, so... i don't know, you can just give in and ask her out if you want to."

baekhyun scoffed at you, watching you as you took another big gulp from your wine. he silently took in your moves, the way you poured yourself some water and avoided his gaze.

"why are you jealous?", he finally asked after a minute or two of silence.

"i'm not jealous", you defended yourself.

"then look at me", baekhyun waited for you to finally look him in the eyes. "now tell me you're not jealous."

it was your turn to scoff, grabbing your glass of water and drinking a bit of it.

"this is stupid."

"yes, it is stupid", baekhyun agreed. "i think it's so stupid that even at christmas eve you won't admit why you're being jealous, that you'll only be petty and try to push me onto other girls. i don't want them."

you looked at him, damning him mentally for the way he was sitting at his chair, for the way his angry eyes made your heart flutter.

"i'm giving you the chance to be true to both of us, y/n. please, take it, and tell me why you are so jealous. i need to hear you say it."

"why?"

"because it's christmas eve, i'm at this beautiful restaurant with the most beautiful girl. you're wearing a new dress, wearing my favorite perfume, and you did your nails yesterday thinking about me, didn't you? don't think i didn't notice", he sighed, leaning into the table once again. "if we can't confess to each other right now, right here... then i truly don't think we ever will."

you kept staring at him, trying your hardest to keep your tears at bay so they wouldn't ruin your makeup. you felt like you were glowing, like your chest was now swallowing you deep into an ocean of something that you couldn't quite describe what it was, but if you had to take a shot, you would call it love.

"how long did you know?", you whispered to him.

"since your birthday", baekhyun replied. "but you're a good actress, i'll give you that."

you chuckled, shaking your head in disbelief.

"i'm sorry...", you told him. "i'm so sorry. i'm pathetic."

"yeah, kind of", baekhyun joked, making you both laugh. "i'm just kidding. you don't have to sorry, if anything i should be the one apologizing. i've known for so long now, but my pride didn't let me say shit. i just kept pushing away every girl that came around, and praying that you would do the same to anyone who got close to you, waiting for you to confess. everyday felt like i was gonna have a heart attack."

you rolled your eyes. "who's pathetic now?"

he laughed out loud, eyes turning into big heart emojis as you looked at him. just as you were ready to speak, the waitress came up again, smiling at baekhyun.

"do you guys need anything?", she asked.

"yeah, um... could you bring me some chocolate ice cream, please? and for my girl...", baekhyun looked at you. the waitress followed his gaze, smiling at you just the same and, maybe, baekhyun was right all along - she wasn't flirting. "anything she wants, please."

[holyfvkc]

[britbritsslave]

[trashmuth]

1. My Chemical Romance - Mama / 2. We Are Who We Are 1x08 / 3. True Trans Soul Rebel - Against Me! / 4. “My mom asks how to get past the similarities between my dad and my man” by Tanisha / 5. "Pink blood: Homophobic violence in canada", art by @pairofcds  / 6. Christmas Kids - Roar / 7. Yungblud - Mars / 8. Demi Lovato - EAT ME / 9. Summer by Chen Chen / 10. Euphoria’s special episode for Jules

[upperstories]

Developing an original story from an old idea!

It’s about a bunch of magical girls who save the world, but then grow up and deal with the trials of adulthood after their done being magical girls.

Character descriptions under cut!

Ellove (she/her, they/them) = a former antagonist who is half dark entity, half human. After the magical girls defeat the Darkness and graduate from high school, Ellove stays in town and opens a book shop as a front to establish a secret base, where she attempts to heal the Dark Forces and bring them back into power. After nearly 15 years with no success, Ellove learns to accept that perhaps she was on the wrong side of history, and gives up on taking over the world again and instead goes native as the town’s bookshop owner.

Bellamie (she/her) = Ellove’s former enemy, returns to her hometown after struggling to establish a career to move back in with her aging parents, shocked to find that Ellove has reformed herself. Eventually they start dating. Struggles to find her. Purpose after saving the world.

Tristian (he/him) = Bellamie’s twin. Transmasc, formally discharged from the army. Struggles to reconnect with his sister. Prefers to put magical girl life behind him due to dysmorphia affiliations.

Oleander (they/them) = moves to Arizona to attend a forensics graduate program. Joins law enforcement, using their magical girl powers to fight local crime, but eventually leaves the force and becomes a private investigator. Somewhat a vigilante/bounty hunter.

Morgana (she/her) = Formerly the leader of the magical girls. She became an accomplished business woman who runs a very successful spa chain and publishes a self-help book. Secretly an adrenaline junkie, struggles to keep her thrill sneaking at bay and misses the danger and excitement she faced in high school.

Kayleighe (she/her) = Becomes a pop star sensation practically immediately after high school. Uses her magical girl powers and transformation as a gimmick. Valley Girl. Insufferably sugar sweet movie star. Demi Lovato Vibes.

Sariah (and Jay Jay) = married to her wife Johanna, stay at home mom. Works as a fitness instructor on Tuesdays and Thursdays, records a lot of exercise routines at home and holds classes both in person and over zoom. Mama Bear.

[purplezombietumbler]

The Dupain-Cheng Sisters

Name: Bridgette Dupain-Cheng.

Aliases: Lovely-Bug (Ladybug Miraculous), Beelzabub (Bee Miraculous), Clawdia Noir (Cat Miraculous), Hissette (Snake Miraculous).

Gender: Female.

Sex: Female.

Pronouns: She/Her.

Sexual/Romantic Orientation: Bisexual.

Age: 16.

Astrology Sign: Capricorn.

Race/Ethnicity: Half Chinese, half white. 

Height: 5'8".

Love Interest/Crush: Daphné Laurent.

Personality: Girly, absent-minded, slightly flirty.

Best Quality: Her reliability.

Worst Quality: Her lack of focus.

Fears: Being a bad sister.

Hobbies: Writting, gardening, candle making, photography.

Relationships: 

Tom Dupain: Dad.

Sabine Cheng: Mom.

Marinette Dupain-Cheng: Younger Sister.

Marietta Dupain-Cheng: Younger Sibling.

Vivienne Dupain-Cheng: Youngest Sister.

Various Trivia:

●Is the only child with brown hair and brown eyes like her father.

●Wears the most make up but it's more of a "natural" look.

●Can speak Mandarin, English, and French.

●She the sister that's helps with the bakery the most. Although, admittedly, she isn't THAT passionate about baking.

●Has the longest hair out of all the sisters and keeps it in two french braids.

●Has a part-time job in Wang's art shop.

●Best friends with Socqueline Wang.

●Knows Marinette is Ladybug and carries around a Ladybug keychain to show support.

●Favorite colors are pink, yellow, and orange.

●She was Master Fu's first choice for the Ladybug, but decided against it because Bridgette wasn't the best strategist.

●Met Daphné in her new school.

●Daphné was a secret for most of her family until Socqueline talked Bridgette into coming out.

Playlist: 

♤greedy By Tate McRae

♤Cool For The Summer By Demi Lovato

♤Heart of Gold By Ashley Huff

♤Lovesick By Emily Osment

♤Speed Drive By Charli XCX

Name: Marinette Dupain-Cheng.

Aliases: Ladybug, Lady Noire, Multimouse, Dragon Bug, Lady Bee, Pegabug, Pennybug, Ladyfly, Bug Noire.

Gender: Female.

Sex: Female.

Pronouns: She/Her.

Sexual/Romantic Orientation: Heterosexual.

Age: 15.

Astrology Sign: Cancer.

Race/Ethnicity: Half Chinese, half white. 

Height: 5'4".

Love Interest/Crush: Adrian Agreste.

Personality: Clumsy, sweet and outgoing, with the occasional bout of low self-esteem.

Best Quality: Her kindness.

Worst Quality: Her obsessive personality.

Fears: Being exposed as Ladybug.

Hobbies: Fashion designing, baking.

Relationships: 

Tom Dupain: Dad.

Sabine Cheng: Mom.

Bridgette Dupain-Cheng: Oldest Sister.

Marietta Dupain-Cheng: Younger Twin Sister (by 29 minutes).

Vivienne Dupain-Cheng: Youngest sister.

Various Trivia: N/A.

Playlist: 

♤New Rules By Dua Lipa

♤breathin By Ariana Grande

♤Look At Her Now By Selena Gomez

♤Power By Little Mix

♤Heroes (We Could Be) By Alesso ft. Tove Lo

(Inspired by @your-art-is-gay )

Name: Marietta Dupain-Cheng.

Aliases: Lady-Luck (Ladybug Miraculous), Mouscedes (Mouse Miraculous), Catty Noir (Cat Miraculous), Blaze (Rooster Miraculous), Maddy-Taur (Ox Miraculous).

Gender: Bigender.

Sex: Female.

Pronouns: She/Him.

Sexual/Romantic Orientation: Acesexual, Heteroromantic.

Age: 15.

Astrology Sign: Cancer.

Race/Ethnicity: Half Chinese, half white. 

Height: 5'4".

Love Interest/Crush: Max Kanté.

Personality: Tomboy, plays dumb because she's laid back and hates it when people think she's going to cure cancer or something.

Best Quality: Her chill attitude.

Worst Quality: She plays dumb.

Fears: Failure.

Hobbies: Skateboarding, painting, history, sports.

Relationships: 

Tom Dupain: Dad.

Sabine Cheng: Mom.

Bridgette Dupain-Cheng: Oldest sister.

Marinette Dupain-Cheng: Older Twin Sister (by 29 minutes).

Vivienne Dupain-Cheng: Younger sister.

Various Trivia:

●Helps Sabine with her painting class as much as she can.

●Best friends with Alix Kubdel.

●She had a crush on Alix, but when she found out Alix was Aromatic, Marietta backed off and stayed friends.

●Knows Marinette is Ladybug.

●Fights with Vivienne the most. (Usually its play-fighting but still).

●Knows Marinette is Ladybug and has a Ladybug bracelet to show support. She also covers for Marinette most of the time.

●Has the shortest haircut out of all the sisters, styled in a disheveled mushroom.

●Favorite colors are Blue, Red, Black.

●Came out to Alix first.

●She doesn't like to show off, but she can beat Kim in an arm wrestling contest and takes pride in her athleticism.

●She perfers to be the "side character" and doesn't like attention.

●She's the only person that can keep with Max in a conversation.

Playlist: 

♤Here's To Never Growing Up By Avril Lavigne

♤Don’t Play By Halsey

♤Harleys In Hawaii By Katy Perry

♤AMERICAN HORROR SHOW By SNOW WIFE

♤Paint The Town Red By Rain Paris

Name: Vivienne Dupain-Cheng.

Aliases: Shadybug (Ladybug Miraculous), Purrsephone (Cat Miraculous), Tiger Lilly (Tiger Miraculous).

Gender: Female.

Sex: Female.

Pronouns: She/They.

Sexual/Romantic Orientation: Lesbian.

Age: 14.

Astrology Sign: Scorpio.

Race/Ethnicity: Half Chinese, half white. 

Height: 4'9".

Love Interest/Crush: Zoé Lee.

Personality: Had to learn quickly that "Just because you CAN doesn't mean you SHOULD!" Has a hard time keeping her temper in check, especially with people who disrespect her sisters.

Best Quality: Her loyalty.

Worst Quality: Her temper.

Fears: Thunder and lightning.

Hobbies: Music, poetry, electronic guitar.

Relationships: 

Tom Dupain: Dad.

Sabine Cheng: Mom.

Bridgette Dupain-Cheng: Oldest sister.

Marinette Dupain-Cheng: Older sister.

Marietta Dupain-Cheng: Older sister.

Various Trivia:

●Emo Baby™.

●Her favorite singer is Jagged Stone.

●Has the least incommon with Marinette.

●Hates Kim. With most her being.

●Hates Chloé Bourgeois.

●She has the ability to know when someone is lying to her, and immediately doesn't like Lila Rossi.

●Favorite colors are Magenta, purple, black.

●Wears the most visible make up of all the sisters (eyeliner, eyeshadow, lipstick).

●When Vivienne found out what Kim did to Marinette, she pulled him aside and told him: "If you hurt my sister, purposely or otherwise, I will beat you up so bad you're going to wish that you were dead," and ever since then, Kim has been terrified of Viv and doesn't go near Marinette.

●Prized possessions are her MP3 player and her noise canceling headphones.

●Collections vinyl records.

●Gets music lessons from Luka.

●She used to get into rages and destroy things and hurt herself but now channels her energy in music.

●Has black hair like her mom and magenta highlights and styles it short choppy emo haircut.

●The closest thing to a friend she has is Luka but other than that, she has no friends.

Playlist: 

♤All I Wanted By Paramore

♤After Dark By Mr. Kitty

♤Problem By Becky G

♤Afterglow By Taylor Swift

♤Hands Up! By 6arelyhuman & kets4eki ft. pixel hood

[fairycosmos]

i feel like ur almost the only person who i can talk to about this. i lost my brother similar to you also almost three years ago. how do you feel about the angus cloud situation? i couldn’t even read the full article bc i related to his situation so well and it hit me to my core. my mom and i almost both took our lives together days after his passing and sometimes i feel guilty for still being here when i wanted to just end it all and still do bc life’s not worth it without him. i also judge myself bc i feel like bc i didn’t leave i’m not showing how horrible i truly feel (to both him, myself, and others) idk. i just wanted ur thoughts on feeling guilty and also feeling invalidated in how we handle our grief

yeah honestly i've been avoiding articles on it like ever since i heard the news ive just been kind of blocking it out, did the same w demi lovato's drug overdose in (i think) 2021 i just can't even begin to approach news like that. it fucks me up for weeks/months at a time and i cant afford to feel like that honestly. i'm so so sorry youre going through it too and i'm sorry youre in such a dark place, i know me and my mam often are too. it's the kind of feeling words cant really touch and i wont try but i absolutely do understand and i think everything youre going through makes a very painful sort of sense - the guilt, the absolute despair, having to go along with the way life just moves forward and then feeling bad because youre not displaying how awful you truly feel. i feel like i'm feeling my sister in so many ways every day honestly, i feel like i failed her the day she died and every day since. guilt is such a big part of my grief, and i think it's one of the most unavoidable and natural parts of it too unfortunately. we'll always feel a heavy responsibility towards them because we love them so so much and the worst thing that couldve happened to them happened. i think there's not many ways for the brain to make sense of that without going a bit mad. there are so many moments that ive wished i could swap places with her, so many moments i just want to die, and still i'm here and i still i have to deal with being here. those are very difficult, conflicting emotions - im so so sorry. i hope you have the support you deserve in your life and i hope youre able to find a way to mourn your brother that feels a bit more cathartic (if there even is such a version of mourning.) i hope you're able to talk about this with a grief counsellor or someone who can help you make sense of what youre thinking and feeling in a way that doesn't hurt so much - not because i think it'll solve anything or bring your brother back, because you deserve to be listened to and validated throughout the grieving process. for your own good, whether you feel you deserve it or not - you do. if you ever want to talk about him, tell stories about him and what he was like, or talk about what ur going please know im always here. i'd like to talk about becca (my sister) more too and share her memory in a way that makes her feel real again. sending a massive hug. x

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Bro your lucemond kids have given me brainrot, everything reminds me of them. why am i reading first class thinking “ i love the kids but i hope luke doesn’t get pregnant right away his career is important” like??? it’s probably not going to happen in that story but now i’m obsessed with the idea of misty dreams toxic boy mom luke and girl dad aemond raising kids in the modern world. bonus points if luke has a family vlogging tiktok, he’s the right kind of corny for it. Also can’t stop thinking of luke making pregnancy announcement for velarion and the comment section freaking out like “ didn’t he just give birth, how old is his youngest again” people tagging aemond with that demi lovato meme, “get a job, stay away from her”.

anyways i’m going outside to touch grass now, i’m officially too into this.

you aren’t the only one anon 😔 i have to stop myself from turning everything into a kid fic just bc i can but sometimes i imagine luke as a tiktok family vlogger but in first class, the targaryens are like ultra rich socialites so luke has a kylie jenner esque baby announcement. and that demi lovato meme applies to like every version of my lucemond 😭 people do the math with their kids birthdates and are like “omg,,, #freelukescoochie”