Obligatory disclaimer: I am not that familiar with VtM 20th anniversary edition mechanics or the lore so like take some of this with a grain of salt (or several).
TDLR: Nara exploits Neil and his abilities by taking away his ability to consent by getting him high during their time in Baghdad.
There is the obvious moral quandary of “one guy getting high is worth saving the world,” which may be true. That is not what I am here to discuss. I am much more interested in looking at Neil and Nara’s dynamic during this time and what it says about them.
It is obvious that Neil cares for Nara; he loves her. It’s stated that he would trust her with his life, and he calls her beloved nearly every chance he gets. I do think Nara does care for Neil in some ways; I just don’t think her feelings outweigh his usefulness to her. She has many reasons to keep Neil close to her, and her care for him is just one.
Time is running out for Nara and the Assamites; the Herald is rising, and she knows this. She also knows Neil is capable of having visions. These two facts culminate in her using Neil to get what she wants regardless of his own thoughts or feelings. In addition, I would argue that Nara is familiar with Neil on kalif, that she would know how it affects and impairs him given their relationship and proximity to one another, particularly earlier in Neil’s life. I don’t think it’s a stretch to believe she would know any potential dependencies or addictions Neil would have to the substance.
I posit that kalif does not affect all Kindred the same, and that it has different potencies (smoking vs. ingesting kalif tainted blood) based on how Jubair and Neil both react to smoking in Neil’s solo episode. However, I do recognize that Neil has been on a steady diet of kalif (and who knows what else) for a few weeks at the time of his meeting with Jubair, and it is safe to assume he is not sober when he accepts the joint from Nara as he mentions having trouble focusing earlier in the episode.
Over the course of their conversation, we see Jubair take “a heavy hit” (PoN 1.5-Neil Foster 11:39) off of Neil’s joint, but he does not seem to have any immediate effects. He remains cognizant and able to carry on the conversation with Neil, and he is quick to respond to the attack. Whereas Neil is unable to follow the conversation and repeatedly looks to Nara for guidance since he is unable to make his own determination despite only having accepted the joint moments before Jubair is introduced.
I also posit that kalif has addictive qualities about it. Whether this is true or not, I honestly don’t know, but there is evidence in PoN indicative that it may be addictive. When Nara offers Neil the joint, the comment is made, “If she gives it to me, I take it. It’s hard to say no” (PoN 1.5-Neil Foster 8:10). Later on, in episode 25, the coterie is hit with a kalif bomb, and Neil is described as an addict (PoN s2ep25 16:15). Though, this could have been a way to explain Neil’s mechanical failure.
(As a note, I haven’t been able to find much online about kalif and whether or not it is addictive. The source I have read, provided by @peppedstep, compared it to weed and described it as a strong hallucinogen that is used for ritualistic magical purposes (Rites of Blood, pg,72).)
Whether or not kalif is addictive, Nara knowingly and willingly gave Neil a substance that impairs his cognitive function and lowers his defenses to serve her own ends, and did so to “a dangerous degree” (17:40). I would also argue she would be familiar with the impact kalif and the visions may have on his mental health (panic attacks, dissociation, anxiety, etc.), and she chooses to proceed with offering the drug to him anyway without heed for his wellbeing. In this situation, Neil is incapable of giving informed consent (regarding the conversation, regarding the additional kalif, regarding his next attempt at a vision on her behalf) because he is already dangerously high or because he is addicted, or, realistically, both.
Nara also preys on Neil’s people-pleasing tendencies and self-esteem issue, intentional or not, by commenting that his visions (and therefore, him) have not been as helpful or useful as she hoped spurring him to try for another vision and ingest more kalif. However, she is supposed to know Neil well, and that would include his inclination to people-please. He loves her deeply and wants to help her; he would not tell her no in this situation, and I believe she knows this.
I talked at length here about how I view Neil’s memory loss, which I won’t rehash, but it is worth noting much of his time with Nara during this stretch is quite hazy or he flat out doesn’t remember. The only other person who can vouch for most of this time is Nara, and she has more than enough reason to deceive, omit, or keep the truth from Neil. He has no way to tell if Nara is further exploiting or manipulating him beyond using him for his visions. If she is willing to take his ability to consent away in one circumstance, I would argue there is not much keeping her from taking it away in any other. It’s clear she does not take his needs or wellbeing into consideration with her choices.
This episode is the only interaction we see between Nara and Neil, excluding Neil’s visions. If these interactions are indicative of the baseline of their relationship, how much does she really care about Neil if she is willing to sacrifice his mental health, overall wellbeing, and ability to consent if she benefits from taking those things away? Is this same dynamic present in their intimacy? If Neil is constantly relying on her judgment because he is high and/or unable to remember, when does he have the opportunity to make his own decisions about what happens to him? What will happen when enabling his addiction is no longer beneficial for her?
In conclusion, I think Nara is using Neil for his abilities and is exploiting him by taking away his ability to consent to what is done to him. Given this is the only canon interaction we have between the two, I wonder about the dynamic in their relationship as a whole and if it is a healthy one for Neil. It also makes me wonder in what other ways she has exploited Neil since she seems to have little regard for his needs or wellbeing.
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The thing about Mike is, at the end of season 1, I found his argument that he was making the best possible choice out of a set of bad choices pretty damn convincing.
Except... he framed it as "I have two choices, I win the game and break it in my favour before Anne can lose, or me and Matt both die", and there was in fact absolutely a third choice, which was "someone else who is on your side does that and brings you back the way you plan to bring Matt back, and then lets you bring Matt back too because they're your friend and why would they keep that from you?" (and on the note of "they're your friend, why wouldn't they?", his argument for losing meaning certain death was that to not die he needed to break the game and he couldn't do that if he forgot it, when he could have asked Anne to fill him back in after he quit - but that would, again, have required a lot of trust).
So much of Mike's self-justification rested on the idea that he was the only one capable of breaking the game and getting the technology for himself if he kept going, and I do understand that, because he thought he had signs from the future that he would and because honestly Anne just didn't seem as ruthless or determined as him and had to be helped with the third challenge (though he later says he thinks she's smarter than him, so - I don't know. He had some reason not to expect her to succeed but it was very much motivated reasoning), but nonetheless, I think this is the point where his logic veered off of "cold cost-benefit analysis of an awful choice" into the realm of "wishful thinking and self justification".
Because while he had reasonable cause to believe he had a better chance at winning than Anne, that isn't really the main reason why he didn't want to leave things in her hands - it was about control. He didn't want to accept temporary death and trust someone else to make sure it was temporary, even though that's exactly what he expected of Matt, because it took control of the situation out of his hands. I mean, this isn't any great realisation on my part, he basically spelled as much out himself in season two, I'm just pointing out the hypocrisy of it. He may or may not have made the choice that gave everyone the highest chance of eventual survival (he probably did, to be fair, considering how things have played out so far) (but also, he makes pretty clear in season 2 that he is not OK with dying just as long as there's a timeline that undoes it and he doesn't have to remember, which makes me heavily question whether "eventual survival" should have had so much weight in his initial consideration) but he definitely made the choice that gave him the most control over whether they did or not, rather than forcing him to trust someone else.
Anyway one of the things I love about this show is how subsequent events will reveal Mike to have been either wrong or lying about both events and his own motivations, and I especially love how the parallel of him reacting to being on the other end of the dilemma with Anne does it.
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