#don’t bother me i just needed to rant

[thewrittenupdate]

what if i’m the worst? what if i care more about chasing the adrenaline high that comes from skirting along the knife line of desire? what if i have more fun with half truths and white lies? what if i had love in between my palms and i crushed it like a baby bird? what if that’s me? what if i’m the bad guy, the one who is going to love you and love you and love you and then one day i realize i’m bored with loving you and i leave? what if i always leave? what if love is an endless maintenance of observations and knowings and i’m tired? what if it doesn’t matter if i’m known and loved in return, because i don’t want to be, i like being a mystery and an enigma and i’m having more fun when i’m only half of me for you?

what if loving me is a mistake i can’t seem to convince anyone out of? what if i know i’ll get sick of you and i’ll run away, what if it’s my inevitability? what if i’m not unloveable but i am unsnareable, what then? what if there’s always something about me you can’t touch? what if i’m worse than the bad guy - what if i’m just a coward?

[cosmicqvake]

Okay, so I’m nearing the end of S5 in my latest AOS rewatch, and I saw a few tiktoks, and I just wanna sorta rant for a second.

I may be a massive Daisy stan above literally all else, wbk she’s my best girl… but I believe that Yo-Yo was in the right to kill Ruby Hale. Period.

Firstly, I know revenge isn’t the SHIELD way, I get that, but at the very same time there is so much hypocrisy there surrounding other team members (eg. Coulson had his revenge on Ward, Jemma ALSO tried to get revenge on Ward but failed, Hunter as well, even May was intent on it, etc) so why shouldn’t Yo-Yo also get to have her revenge? Ruby left her disabled for life (and did it on purpose + showed no resentment + would do it again, might I ADD, by literally repeatedly threatening Fitzsimmons with the very same thing). Yo-Yo deserved vengeance, in some way.

I understand Daisy’s motive in wanting to save Ruby, to bring her on as a SHIELD agent and try to give her a new purpose, the same way she was/had- but this never could have happened. SHE CUT YO-YO’S ARMS OFF- DISABLING HER. Allowing her to become a SHIELD agent after this fact would be just as bad as welcoming Ward back onto the team with open arms after what he did to Fitz- which left him with a permanent disability in return too (in a different way but obv similar to Yo-Yo nonetheless). Both Ruby and Ward were HYDRA. Both significantly hurt a team member on PURPOSE. It’s the same deal. Bringing her onto the team would’ve been wrong.

Finally, Daisy claimed Ruby was “coming around” just before Yo-Yo killed her. Daisy, ilysm, but girl. 😭 Ruby literally tried to kill Daisy moments earlier, as well as throw inanimate objects (and Fitzsimmons…) around the room with her mind. She killed Werner by accident (which shows the serious lack of control she had- and how dangerous she was in that moment), not to mention she was refusing to be reasoned with (and couldn’t be). She was completely out of control and it wasn’t going to get better (look at what happened to Creel after he merely touched the Gravitonium- he never improved).

In a way, Yo-Yo did her a favour by killing her. Even if another solution came along in time, Yo-Yo, as the others would regularly say, MADE THE HARD CALL. She did what was best in that moment. Not to mention, Yo-Yo also thought that by killing her, she saved the world. Although this proved false, at the time she thought she was doing the right thing to save all of literal humanity. As I said, in the end, she made the hard call.

Not to mention, Yo-Yo admitted that she’s not proud of what she did. It’s not like she enjoyed killing her. Yet, so many people make her out to be some monster. I hate it.

In conclusion, I’m on Yo-Yo’s side with that whole thing (and hate seeing people- and the team themselves- giving her absolute hell for it). However I truly flip-flop between all the characters during S5 and their many arguments. MAN, that season is always a tough watch for so, so many reasons. It’s good, but painful.

(P.S. I’m convinced most of the people who stan Ruby are just Dove Cameron fans. Which I have nothing against. You do you. 11 year old me was her biggest fan frfr. But other than that, I don’t see why people like her character so much tbh. But alas.)

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

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[dykeredhood]

Ngl I find it so amusing when people have “basic dni criteria applies”

Bitch what exactly do you mean, since some people on this website consider enjoying Steven Universe to be an irredeemable flaw

turning off reblogs for this post because jackass “anti-antis” etc. think this post refers to them

[heyclickadee]

Every time I think that I need to ask my roommates if they could please use headphones instead of speakerphone it’s in circumstances where I should absolutely not tell them, because I will be a bitch about it, and they don’t deserve that.

[dearreader]

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[the-fandom-connection]

Plagued by the horrors (shows I’m deeply invested in that are mostly really good but make deeply disappointing writing choices near the end)

[teabookgremlin]

girls when they’ve been having such a shit time recently and now their regular work schedule that they’ve gotten used to has changed meaning that they might miss something they’ve been really looking forward to

[hornyfor70yroldrockstars]

I really need people to just fucking leave me alone. I just have one exam left I need to study so I can get a decent mark. I want a 70% and I think I can do it. BUT NO my family keeps asking me to do things. It’s so goddamn annoying. Leave me the fuck alone.

[verysleepyfrog]

i fucking HATE the tiktok thing where somebody will talk at length and at the end of each sentence they zoom in very quickly on their face and that clips cuts off . they could be making the most valid points i’ve ever heard but if they do that shit they are instantly a liar and a cheat

[edalynn]

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[rosicheeks]

There is nothing wrong with wanting aftercare after sexting. They should be making you feel special the entire time so you glow radiantly.

[menodorasmoon]

I want so desperately to finish writing this fic I’ve been working on for a while but I’ve suddenly developed a horrible feeling that nothing I ever have or ever could make has any meaning. I have SEEN people tell me they love my fics, have had some of the most amazing, encouraging comments possible, and it still feels. Meaningless.