#drawing cute things is free therapy

[elfsyellowflowerzart]

very busy babysitting a duo of kittens (only two months old) the last few days but i shall be drawing when i return home (this includes requests)

and also if anyone wants to see the babies send an ask and i can post them in response hehe i have taken SO many photos

[the-kr8tor]

hey i was wondering if you could write a fic about the reader teaching Hobie how to roller skate?? It’s so oddly specific but i can imagine him just struggling with it and it’s funny to me. Plus my dream date is to teach someone how to roller skate 😭. Thank you so much. Also please remember to take breaks and rest. I lysm and appreciate all the effort you put into ever story ❤️

What a cute prompt! Thank you for requesting!! And I will!! You're too sweet ❤️

Pairing: Hobie Brown x fem! Reader/ Spider-Punk x fem! Reader

Word count: 1.2 k

Tags: No use of Y/N, no specific physical description of the reader (except for a mention of Hobie being tall and brief mention of clothes), cw food mention, set in Hobie's 70s dimension, FLUFF

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Being a part of the spider society has numerous Perks— Free therapy if you're willing to wait months for a single appointment. The cafeteria providing three meals a day to starving spider people from all walks of life, (and dimensions) not to mention the unmatched camaraderie with your fellow spiders. That alone makes all the jet lag from traveling through dozens of multiverses, and all the aches and pains that comes with being bitten by a radioactive spider. But, there is one thing that trumps all of those perks, and that's hopping to your partner's dimension for a not-so-quick date at the roller rink.

Hobie didn't take much convincing, especially after showing him your timeline appropriate outfit to him. His dimension is practically stuck in the 70s, filled with groovy psychedelic colours from the top to bottom. And of course there's the leather jackets that you've grown accustomed to just by being with Hobie. Hell, you especially love those leather pieces like the one you're wearing now. You went all out with your outfit, researching the trends back then with a splash of punk looks that had Hobie almost melting the second you stepped out of the portal. You fit in, to say the least. But after all the research and countless hours in the library just scouring for history books and life in the 70s, they don't compare actually being there and seeing it with your own eyes.

A glorious disco ball hangs in the ceiling, twinkling lights dancing around the funky, swirly and fluffy walls of the roller rink. Everywhere you look there's a burst of colours, and there's no lack of laughter ringing above iconic disco music you've heard before.

Smiling, you sit on a bench, eyes turned upwards at the sparkling lights twirling around the whole place. Hobie kneels before you, insisting to tie your rollerblades for you, citing that if it's not done well you could fall over and smash your face on the polished granite. You of course don't refuse, loving how much he dotes on you when there's no mission to rush to or a certain Spiderman breathing down his neck.

Patting your foot, Hobie calls your name above the blaring music. “How's the weather up there, lovie?”

You tilt your head, chin tucked on your clavicle, admiring how handsome he looks under disco lights with his piercings and eyes shining. “How long have you been waiting to say that to someone, huh, tall guy?”

He takes your unlaced rollerblade, pushing it in your socked foot and then propping it up on his knee. He's smiling all through it, happy to indulge you even for a quick moment without anyone to kick or web up. “Believe it or not, I've said it a few times.”

You fake a gasp, and he chuckles at your antics while he ties a ribbon. “Someone is taller than you?! I thought that was impossible!”

“You're impossible.” Hobie's hand remains on your ankle, hand rising up to cup your knee, thumb drawing circles around your tights. Leaning up, he holds your hip with his free hand, pushing you down gently to meet him halfway; which you gladly let him guide you.

Beaming, you peck his nose and the space between his brows. Earning a soft chuckle from him. “Says the one kneeling before me.”

“Which makes my comment correct.” He follows suit, kissing where your Cupid's bow lies before standing up shakily on his rollerblades. (That he hides with his nonchalance.) “C’mon, let's get this over with before I change my mind.”

Taking his helping hand, you pull yourself up, effortlessly standing on the wheels. “It's not too bad, I promise. Even little kids get it right after a few tries.”

He raises a pierced brow. “Those little kids aren't as tall as me and don't have a reputation to keep.”

You poke his side, “I've seen you backflip off of Rhino's head. Roller skates are nothing compared to that. Besides, no one you know is here to see you fall flat on your ass.”

“You won't film it like last time we went ice skatin’?” He can't help but ogle you under the light and amidst the bright colours.

Leading him towards the rink, you hold his hand, slowly inching your way inside. “I promise I won't take videos this time.” He huffs in reply as you guide him to the shiny floors. “It was for personal use anyway.” You mumble to yourself.

Hobie immediately holds onto the railings next to him the second his feet leaves the carpeted floors and onto granite. His knees are bent and shaking while he tries to keep his balance on the wheels. “Love, why'd you let go?!”

Giggling, you reach for him with open arms, rolling towards him. “I didn't! You did!”

Panic spreads through him unlike all the times he has fought countless villains as his rollerblades smack loudly on the floors as his feet skidaddles in place, struggling to even stand up. After reaching for you, your six foot three baby holds onto you like a life raft. Long arms grasping with none of the cool nonchalance he usually exhibits.

“Do you want me to get a training cart for you—?”

“No, I've got this.” Hobie straightens up, hand holding on to your jean pocket as if he wasn't whining a few seconds ago.

“Oh okay—”

“Don't let me go this time.”

“I won't, Hobs. Maybe try moving your legs?” Smiling, you roll around the rink as he uses you as his personal guide while he barely moves his stiff legs.

His eyes roam around the rink where people of all ages whizz past him without a care. He looks over to you with a new found determination. If those children who are barely five years old can skate like they own the place, he too can do it. “What do I do now?”

You don't laugh or giggle at him, instead, you help and support him throughout the lesson like you promised him when you suggested the date. Hobie picked up on the skill real quick, quicker than he did for ice skating. Maybe the music helped him, or maybe he really wanted to impress you this time instead of the ‘baby deer learning how to walk’ he exhibited earlier.

After a while he's already skating around you. A bit wobbly but his form makes up for it. Hobie thanks his spider senses and balance for not stumbling and crashing into another person.

You're all tired out after the exercise. Head placed on his shoulder, arms looped around his middle as he's the one guiding you this time while you two skate mindlessly on the shiny floors as the skating rink dies down for the night. He blows air in your ear, waking you up.

“Thank you.” Hobie affectionately pecks your brow, you hum in content. “You've got some patience in you, love.”

“Nope, you're just a fast learner. And you're welcome, thank you for indulging me.”

“You chose well.” His eyes smile, hand splayed over the small of your back. “Next time it's my turn to pick the place.”

“What do you have in mind?” Tilting away, your hand snakes up from his back to his nape, kneading softly.

“It's a secret, innit. For now,” he skids to a stop, hand still holding on to you. “you need to see some food that your dimension hasn't seen in decades.”

Your eyes widens, gasping. “So much food that shouldn't be in jell-o.” You're already unlacing your rollerblades.

[insanelyadd]

#LetSansRest Day!

Hello everyone and welcome to year two of Let Sans Rest Day! Same as last year it's August 9th.

Before we get into some prompts, a little bit of a mission statement. Last year I said this day was for everyone who's a fan of Sans Undertale or anyone who's tired of every image they see of him being him Suffering. This is still true, but I do want to additionally address something I saw a few different people mention.

I have actually received criticism for daring to suggest that Sans not be tormented to the point of insanity, and that this day where I implore people to make realities where Sans doesn't become a creepypasta insane murderer man from the agony he is subjected to, isn't a stand against ableism like Let Papyrus Say Fuck Day is. *stares in bipolar psychosis and PTSD directly into your eyes* Obviously that's a load of shit, and even though Sans is more popular than Papyrus (I say, as a Papyrus Enjoyer) a lot of the content around Sans is very specifically about him suffering. So simply out of spite for these comments (including someone who saw last year's announcement and directly commented "No <3" on the post) I will be continuing this holiday indefinitely, just like LetPapyrusSayFuck Day. Die mad about it.

Just like how I have ADHD and relate to Papyrus and see the way the fandom treats him as the infantilization of neurodivergency like autism and ADHD, I can look at works in this fandom of Sans that demonize traits of mental illness like trauma, hallucinations, delusions, and mania. And I can say these are both bad actually. Not going to call anyone a bad person for engaging in these things, of course, that would be a bit goofy of me, I'm just saying the imagery used for these things is Very Loaded and a lot of people are mishandling them.

So anyways August 9th is the day we let Sans Undertale out of his Torment Nexus so he can:

Have lemonade at the beach or pool

Go stargazing while camping out in the woods with friends and family

Get smothered in cute baby kittens and puppies

Go to therapy and play with one of those magnetic sculptures all therapists seem to own

Take a nap on an inner-tube on a lazy river

Get to see the leaves change color for the first time

Play basketball with Papyrus

Fall asleep in a basket of freshly dried clothes

Go to a public greenhouse to look at all the different flowers on the surface

Perform stand-up for humans who all love his terrible puns

Please tag the post with #LetSansRest, #Sans, and #undertale as well as any other applicable tags for characters, relationships, etc. This day is primarily for classic Sans but it's not like I can stop you from drawing Fell Sans not being subjected to his own, personal, goth-themed Torment Nexus.

This is meant to be a day for everyone who wants Sans Undertale to go to therapy and feel better. People who want to put him in a hamster cage with plenty of things to prank for enrichment. People who want to win him one of those massive stuffed animals at the county fair.

If you want to participate please be mindful of some things:

I will be monitoring the tag to reblog things! I have ptsd and would appreciate if ships involving Papyrus or Frisk (and similar) with Sans are avoided. This is simply for my mental health and I greatly appreciate it. <3

Do Not post angst to the #LetSansRest tag. It is meant to be an angst free tag for him.

Don't worry if you can't participate on the exact day! Just like with #LetPapyrusSayFuck Day you can use the tag and post to it any day! :>

Hope you're able to participate and have fun! <3

[kraaico]

Where/how do you get the ideas to make these super cute art? I love art but I basically copy others and I wanna have my own style.

What a nice question!! I could honestly write a book about this, but for now I'll keep it condensed. (maybe uhhhh a blog post later or smthn) ....Sorry it's long anyway lol

These are my thoughts as an independent illustrator/artist that has the time and freedom to create what I wish, keep that in mind. I can't vouch for what it takes to get through art school or build a portfolio for <specific thing X> cause I don't know shit about that, this is just for creating art that you love making.

✨️Developing a style ✨️

A lot of people talk about 'finding your style', but I'm personally an advocate of developing a style - and most importantly it being a process that never stops. Now I don't know how old/experienced you are, but especially when you are just getting into art (and with 'just' I mean years) it'll change a lot because you will be improving a lot!

Now for me personally, I've been busy ~finding a style~ since I was 10. And up to like 2 years ago (I'm now 28) I was frustrated I just wasn't able to find one. Every half year or so I'd try to get back into art "for real this time", stick to one medium and general style and/or subject, and within a matter of weeks become frustrated and then not draw for a good while. That style-mentality really took a toll on the fun I had in making art, but also stunted my own artistic development. I was restricting myself at a stage where I should be everything BUT. I told myself I wasn't good enough, not cut out to be a professional, wouldn't be able to sell myself if I couldn't stick to one thing, yada yada. Great mentality. I'm now in therapy!

Anyway, what broke me free of that was a promise I made to myself back in 2020. I told myself I would get back into making art, but this time, just do what feels fun *at any given moment*. Let go of the pressure. I didn't post to socials and just shared with my friends, and eventually started posting to my then very humble Twitter following. I liked Twitter, cause there wasn't the pressure that Instagram always gave me of having to have a perfect feed. So I drew digitally, I drew with pencils, did some painting, got oil pastels, tried collage. And those experiments all influenced one or another. That's been key for me. If I feel like I hit a creative wall, I just try another medium or another CSP brush or another app on my tablet. Just experiment with lines and colors and not worry about what ends up there. (it's usually cats) Creating like this kept the fun in it for me and I've created nearly every single day since then, and that too is key to style development: Create A LOT. Don't hyperfocus on one perfect piece when you can also create 4 good-enough pieces in the same time.

Now on the topic of copying: it's a natural thing to do. Just be responsible about it! (don't share on socials if you blatantly copy something. While it's a good method to learn certain techniques, it's something that should stay in your private sketchbook) Also be sure to study from many different places, don't fixate on just a couple of artists! Find what inspires you in real life: be it buildings or nature or animals or people or objects, and try to capture them in different ways: from realistic to just the basic shapes. You'll find out what kind of style and level of detail you're naturally drawn to soon enough. Creating your own visual library in your mind by drawing many different things is ultimately what will allow you to put your ideas to paper in a quick and intuitive way. Having a (cheap!) sketchbook that you don't show anyone but just goof around in and explore everything and anything is a very helpful tool.

✨️ Generating ideas ✨️

I get my ideas from SO many different places. Many of my cat paintings were actually created to deal with a strong emotion or feeling I was having at the time.

Now externally, I get a lot of inspiration from nature and from the place I live in. I used to live in a fairly urbanized area, but it wasn't until I moved to the country side with wide and far views that I saw daily that I started getting interested in drawing landscapes. I didn't draw a lot of cats until they were chilling in my garden everyday. When I lived at home I drew a lot of fish, cause my dad had an aquarium. What you see and observe everyday matters. Taking your camera or phone on a walk in the neighborhood and capturing small details is a great way to gather inspiration, even if the area is a bit boring. I have a Fujifilm X100F that I try to carry to most places I go, cause I can quickly photograph things and I like it better than phone photography.

I also draw a lot of ideas from the media I consume: shows, movies, games, comics, music... Sometimes it just hits that inspiration button and lights a lil flame that'll turn into an idea. I love the magical worlds Studio Ghibli creates for example and the soothing calmness that games like Animal Crossing and Stardew Valley have. Things like that just work their way into my art, often subconsiously.

I also draw what I yearn for: be it a doodle of a comforting hot bowl of soup when I crave it, or a beach scene cause I want to go for a beach walk. It's fun, and lets me daydream a little about things I maybe cannot have in that moment.

Another big thing is worldbuilding and storytelling: I have this fictional world in my mind that I desperately want to get out, and it will, piece by piece.

So yeah. There's many places to grab inspiration from. Writing down what inspired you is useful. Doing it every year or so is too, cause then you'll start to see trends and get a better understanding of what drives you. Cause in the end that's what's most important, I think: Find the things that ignite a flame in you and then let it out in a way that is fun and comforting to you. Don't worry about what other people are making or that you're not making what you 'should' make!

I hope this was somewhat helpful - it was fun to write at least, I have many thoughts about this :')

[kidfoundonstreets]

LOVEBRUSH CHRONICLE. YOU LIKE?

ill try to keep it brief 1/20397

lovebrush chronciles is an otome game deisgbed by team/company I AM ACTUALLY NOT SURE DESPITE YOU SEEING IT EVRRYTIME YOU ENTER THE GAME HOLD ON neteaze games (passion of gamers) and it is about altnerate universes, time fuckery, and school life.

the game begins introducing itself as a regular otome school life sim (my condolences to the fans who fell for william first sight only to find out hes not an actual love interest trust me i see u i feel u) but then WHAM BAM!! just when u thougut ur girl best friend was lookin kinda cute she gets X_x in this summon circle and you jump in to save her only to find out youre now in a royal cage surrounded by people that needa sacrifice you to save themselves from their own doom. oh and youre not in your own world anumore good luck have fun

so now here goes the different plots and paths with the love interests. the way i playrd it was as they introduced it, which was ayn aklaid lars claerence. no cael route yet which rips me apart every night. the love interests seem to have consistent values throughout most universes despite all of their diferet upbringings which i find pretty cool considering schoollife and royaltylife are two completely drastic diferent things, and also i nejoy how mc is written with more character and an amazing design to match the rest of the beautifully drawn cast

on that topic the art is GORGEOUS. i have never seen such beautiful detailed art in a game before and i assure you it will not disappoijnt. the graphics and smoothness of the game are especially a great touch. THERES A MINI STORY FOR EACH CARD BTW SR AND UP ITS SO GOOD becasenit feels as if the creatoes actually put care and give a shit into whar theyre writing and drawing and even in little events the absolute quality and depth of the cast shines theough its just i cannot express how much you need to play tjis game if you like dating sims ITS FREE TOO??,×*#&@ IMSO SAD WHY ID OBEYEME GETTING SM ATTENTION WHEN THIS IS SITTJNGHERE HUH dont get me wrong i too was in that hole but trust me brother there is only one man worth it there and obeyeme sure as hell isnt gonna do it justice with its 200+ chapter peobably plotline

anywya its 11 pm and ibhave no idea how to organize this post so ill just go through the cast

he is my plaything

ANYWAY ayn is so maahh hes the stupid cat that sleeps on me at night HE USED YO BE MY FAV AND WAS EXACTLY MY TYPE OFF THE BAT ITS SO IRONIC HES MY LEASY LIKED NOW but hes still very good and god you need to see this

^^ bisexual dilemma

^^ HIS EMO PHASE

i like him as a side piece, he has a nice personality but it doesnt stick out to me as much as the rest but i heavily respect the enjoyers of him

Aigh now

HHHRHRGGGHWH HHRGGBW WHWHWBW W SLSOPE9282B3BDND BSHSJW W GHENRBR .R FJJGGW HJ W..B GHN.F. H . THROWSUP aklaid my dear my darling ! i lvouou my little STARBOY my favorite my self sacrificing devoted prince who acts soo nice but is the cause of his own decay. smooochh I ADORE HIM dude one time he almost dies and mc is like "i am so sorry" and hes smiling qhile saying "nono! this is the happiest ivebeen" GET THERAPY

lars is my favorite lesbian

im onsessed w him hes always fun no matter where he is and yet they still dont dumb him down the moments where hes serious only add to his character his charm is unexplainable his rizz unatainable you could never

my TRUE favorite lesbian

MY FABORITE MY FABORITE KY DAVROITE I WAS SO WORRIED HOW I WOULD ENKOY HIM BECAUSE SO KUCH WAS UNKNOWN BUT AHGGWDHHSHW HIS ROUTE HIS DEPTH EVERYTHING IT MAKES ME SO SADITS HWARTBREAKING DUDE "HAIR HOLDS MEMORIES" IM GONNA SOB INTO MY HANDS I CANT BELIEVE I LOVE A MAN NAMED CLARENARENCNEUXIHQBQ SHUTOROSHUSITP oh and he really likes cats :D

i have run out of images but cael caught my eye since the beginning and i dont know whats wrong with him is he my parental figure my wife my side piece my worst enemy my hater my lover my killer my doomer my caretaker my one-time-leave-you-for-nine-months

i genuinely cannot stand him hes the one who i always run to and check on firstin efents and stories not claerence not lars not alkaid but fucking CAEL.

i cant help it maybe in the end my heart really belongs to him because im still waiting for his route and for him to show moreemotion and maybe break down or slowly go through the agony of learning to accept love despite everything despite you

this is the only part i feel a little uneased about in the writers hands.. they are very capable hands.. but will they do him right.. hes so stupidly simple but not it makes me grit my teeth and die

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THANK YOU EVERYPONY FOR REASING IF YOU DID PLEASE SMASH THAT OIKE AND SUBACRIBE BUTTON FOR MORE UNHINGED RANTS IM SORRY FOR BEING AUSTISTIC AND MAY DO IT AGAIN ♡♡ GOD BLESS

[maluarty-blog]

Care to tell some facts about the ROs? (For What Lies In The Past)

Sure! I already had some facts about the ROs :)

BRUNO:

Bruno is 31-32 years old.

Loves animals, especially his dogs, Belladona and Clarice, whom he rescued from the streets a few years ago.

He loves cooking for others, always giving out biscuits to his clients and to Mc and their family. He learnt to cook with his grandparents.

He likes to spend time in places like forests and outdoors, enjoying going on picnics.

Likes children, and spends a lot of time with Tris and his niece, daughter of his younger sister, always babysitting them when needed.

He has lots of plants and after reading an article about how plants grow healthier when you talk to them, he does talk therapy with them.

He has trouble sleeping and has pain in his lower back.

His family is desperate for him to get married soon.

He likes to spend his free time sitting in front of the shop watching and chatting to passers-by, walking with his dogs and spending time with his friends.

CÉSAR:

César is 26-27 years old.

He has 6 cats who make him company in his room.

He likes to hang out in the garden but he hasn't left the mansion for some years now.

He hates receiving visitors.

Likes to read books about fiction, mystery and horror.

Calls Liah "Lili" because he finds her name ugly.

He hates it when people say anything about his "old life".

He's very observant, always finding out all the hot gossip at parties so he could share it with Liah.

He knows how to get under people's skin, irritating them easily.

Wears reading glasses.

He enjoys spending his time reading, cuddling his cats or most times doing both things at the same time.

JEAN:

Jean is 28-29 years old.

Loves social parties.

Works in economics at his/her parents' company.

Struggles every day to not strangle someone (especially Francis).

Hates gossip… partially.

Loves sweets, especially cakes.

Is Tiana's cousin.

Likes clothes but loves even more to be without them.

Flirts all the time.

Won't pick up a book unless it's for work.

Likes to dance and engage in conversations.

Likes to spend her/his free time sleeping, eating or partying.

Is allergic to nuts.

LIAH:

Liah is 29-30 years old.

Likes to stay at home but loves to read in the gardens of the mansion.

A bit antisocial.

Widowed, has problems with her late husband's parents because she didn't bear any children.

Trying not to strangle someone 2.0 (especially César)

Loves flowers, especially begonias.

Likes to make gifts and give them to friends.

Has two close friends: Tiana and Soarez.

Likes children and had always wanted to be a mother.

Is particularly interested in insects but is afraid of spiders.

She likes to spend her free time drawing, especially flowers and wildlife, or reading books.

TIANA:

Tiana is 29-30 years old.

She had a good relationship with her family, especially with her grandmother.

She hasn't spoken to her father since she left home.

Graduated in law but no longer works as a lawyer.

She likes cute things, pastel and delicate colours remind her of loved ones.

She likes riding and has a horse, which is in the mansion.

She's afraid of mantises and of drunk Jean.

Is Jean's cousin.

She doesn't drink alcohol.

She likes to watch theatre plays.

Enjoys spending her evenings horse riding in the woods or playing the cello.

And here it is some meme collection of the Ros because why not precious? :p(idk why I made this but now it is here soooo)

[gold-rhine]

albedo 20, 21, 23! and also mr rizzler 20 if you want (random ass duo) (this is @zhongscara)

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

albedo - uhhhhh, idk i think Autism Polycule with tighnari and cyno already works great? he should visit sumeru and cook some spiders in tighnari's forest

mr. rizzler - ughh idk i don't think i know him well enough to assign him a bestie? gonna play it safe and say itto, bc all manipulator schemer high status types love itto and mr. rizzler could use some free therapy. like, itto visits fountaine and gets to prison bc he was loud in public or whatever, immediately draws rizzley's attention by forming a "gang" to protect all local losers who get bullied as he always does. rizzley goes to investigate, playing as just some guy i'm a birthday boy and itto mistakes him for another loser who needs protection and adopts him. itto hears about The Duke and tells rizzley about this supposed strict scary guy who rules everything here and rizzley is like yeah he sounds like an ass, you should avoid meeting him at all costs, and itto is like aw don't worry bro i'll protect you

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

i only written albedo once, and my fav thing was to explore chalk-gold alchemical transformation metaphor, tho its not smth i'd do again bc it'd get stale. otherwise, i think he's very fun and challenging to write bc he needs to sound v polite and intelligent, but also come off as brisk and a bit socially inept, but ALSO he likes to talk in subtext and with poetic\artistic tendencies. i think i managed ok, but it's def a fun challenge

23. Favorite picture of this character?

um idk. Probably his trailer? he looks older and v... menacingly elegant in it. i like cute sweet albedo pics as much as the next dom, but i do like that he has an edge to him, an apprentice of a mad scientist

honorary shotout to The Thigh Gap pic tho

[rjalker]

AU where all the people who called their hotline learn what happened and storm the asylum and jail and rescue them and they get to get actual therapy and fight for equal rights together.

(Chromatists putting pride flags on their sides is the best thing ever)

(I seem to recall art somewhere with Bill with the aroace flag...? Might be remembering wrong)

@2d-dreams I love your story and characters. They're so cute.

[ID: A simple, lineless digital drawing of Pollux Codex, an original Flatland character, and Bill Cipher from Gravity Falls, sitting in a bench under a tree and smiling at the camera while saying, "Cheese!". Pollux is a blue hexagon with his left side, which we see on his right, darker blue and covered with scar tissue, with another scar on his lower side. He has a black bowtie, and holds a yellow cane in his right hand. The two of his sides on the right have been painted in the gay flag and the ace flag. The gay flag has stripes of dark green, seafoam, off-white, medium blue, and very dark blue. The ace flag is black, grey, white, and purple. Bill is a yellow equillateral triangle with darker scars on his lower half, concentrated on his right side, wearing a black bowtie and a tall tophat, holding a blue cane in his left hand, which we see on his right. His diagonal sides are painted with the gay, agender, and aroace flags. The araoce flag is orange, yellow, white, light blue, and dark blue, and is drawn upside down here. The agender flag is black, grey, white, light green, white, grey, and black. He has his eye closed while he smiles, and both he and Pollux are reaching out with their hands around the other while looking at the camera. Behind them is a large tree, and below them is green grass. The background is blank white. End ID.]

You should all go read The Arts of Being. You don't have to know anything about Gravity Falls except for the very ending. You can read Flatland here for free for context for that stuff.

They're adorable, your honor.

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

I just wanna let you know that you have given me the confidence to write and post an Miguel x OC fic. Thank you for that cuz without this blog it probably would stay in my notes app till I die

Thank you so much!! IM SO HYPE FOR YOU!!

I saw this as I was taking a break from drawing Moche & Miguel (because it's free and better than therapy)

And for anyone in the same position - I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT

I LOVE OCs. I think they add so much to fandom - and like even as a writing exercise, they're amazingly useful!

Writing OCs help you explore sides of characters that aren't shown often - giving them new and challenging/comforting dynamics. It helps explore large parts of the media/lore that are usually overlooked.

Teaches things like how to follow worldbuilding rules, SO MUCH MORE

OCs are awesome.

If you wanna write OC x Hobie or OC x Miguel GO FOR IT.

Like GO FOR IT NOW. Even if you've never done it or never drawn GO FOR IT.

Don't worry about it being self-indulgent, romance is suppose to be!! Don't be afraid to make your Spidersona super powerful or OP! No such thing! - they're in the spider-society for a reason!! Don't be afraid to make them a 'Mary-Sue'! NO SUCH THING!!

It makes you feel good, is great practice, and its FUN. Like, it makes you feel way better than you'd imagine.

Have them kiss, give them a long elaborate dramatic storyline, let them have kids if they way, let them be cute and cuddle, and be in love or best friends or whatever you want!!

Nothing cringy about it, in fact I think it shows a real confidence in one's work and love for the story because they take so much creativity!

It's great practice. Before two months ago, I'd NEVER drawn anything especially digitally, and I started just to draw Diane and Hobie. And I did that like everyday for weeks lol

If you have a OC that's dating Hobie or Miguel by OCs are friend with them. They're all dating them in their own specific ways and we all hang out mhmm

More OCS MORE MIGUEL X OC MORE MORE MORE

[thus-spoke-lo]

Omg Lo. Hisoka is one of my ultimate crazy faves also. I adore him. He's the ultimate slithering snake like creep who envelopes your entire body with his own and eats you whole.

He loves the chase, the more resistant you are to his affections the more he enjoys it. It doesn't matter if you're the most secretive person on earth, he'll find what makes you tick and exploit it. This is really dark, but I can imagine him picking up on you being bullied or even assaulted before. He latches onto your trauma and uses it to play games with you.

"Is this where he grabbed you?" He'd ask, trailing his long clawed fingers across your neck, rubbing the light marks left behind. You'd refuse to meet his eyes and refuse to answer him too. It's exciting to him. He pays attention to every scar, every flinch, every tremble in your speech- The hesitation to release the breath you're holding onto tells him everything he needs to know and more.

He sits with his jaw resting on his palm. The bemused expression never souring as he watches you idle around the apartment. Hisoka is nice to you- really, he could convince himself that he's helping you with your trauma. Yes, he uses his nen to make your doorknob shake like someone's trying to break in, yes he asks you "innocent" questions that are intended to trigger you, yes he pushes your boundaries. But it's all for your healing.

It's just so happens that he enjoys seeing you scared. You're so cute when you're a trembling mess. It's arousing, infinitely erotic. Especially when you try to push him away. Or when you start kicking and screaming. Or when you run off into the night for another game of cat and mouse.

- Law's patient

Of course you would be an appreciator of the horny murder jester, I should have sensed it in your aura.

Hisoka would absolutely exploit any information he could find just to draw you closer. He's only trying to help, after all--he only says the exact words that make you panic, only touches you the precise way that makes you freeze and tremble to help you. Exposure therapy and all of that. And he's so generous that he'll do it all for free (well, nothing is truly free with Hisoka--you certainly aren't).

That cat and mouse game is so, so important to him, too. Whereas Doflamingo and Crocodile would gladly keep you as a captive for their personal use, a happy little basement/dungeon pet to adore and abuse and ruin, Hisoka probably wouldn't mind keeping you in his Heaven's Arena suite--it would be convenient to have a sweet little thing to unleash his pent-up bloodlust on when his opponents can't satisfy him. But he'd much rather give you the illusion of freedom, freedom to roam and wonder when it is he'll find you next time he needs you, wonder whether he'll be pulling you off the street into an alley or break into your apartment (again) or hell, show up while you're out at dinner with a friend and start fingering you under the table to remind you that you are his to do with what he pleases, whenever he pleases.

[woltourney]

ROUND 1 / SIDE B / POLL 3

Axel Kristallwesfv (@axelofthekey) v. Ki'to Vashai (@humblemooncat)

Axel Kristallwesfv:

q. What is your WoL name and pronouns? a. Axel Kristallwesfv (he/him)

q. What is your WoL's species? a. Viera (Veena)

q. What is your WoL's class? Or classes? a. PLD/SMN main, but is omni

q. What data centre/server are you on, if you want people to find you? a. Primal->Excalibur

q. Tell us a bit about your WoL! a. Felt the calling of Hydaelyn while serving as a forest guardian, renamed himself to Kristallwesfv (Guardian of the Crystal) and left for Limsa. Then pretty much follows the story of FFXIV. He enjoys being a hero, but likes his time off taking care of his island sanctuary or crafting things in his FC room.

q. Why should YOU win? (Answer IC!) a. I have mastered every form of combat available, drawing upon talents martial and magic. As a Paladin, I weave spells into my swordplay and block any attack. I will not be stopped until I remind everyone why I am the protector of all.

q. Anything else you wanna add? a. I like to act serious but I'm also a cute bnuuy so thanks for the attention! <3

Ki'to Vashai:

q. What is your WoL name and pronouns? a. Ki'to Vashai, He/Him

q. What is your WoL's species? a. Moon Keeper Miqo'te

q. What is your WoL's class? Or classes? a. His main class is Dark Knight, but he also dabbles in AST & MCH

q. What data centre/server are you on, if you want people to find you? a. Zalera, Crystal DC!

q. Tell us a bit about your WoL! a. Ki'to is just a humble moon cat who happened to stumble into working with the Scions. Here he was trying to make a name for himself and now there's not a person who /hasn't/ heard of him. It's a tiring job, with a lot of traumatic moments, but being able to save the world from literally everything going wrong is worth the therapy. Now that he actually /has/ free time, he spends it either bothering his husbands while they try to work or developing his island out in the Cieldalaes. <3

q. Why should YOU win? (Answer IC!) a. "Because it's a contest and I'm competitive? Also I'm Hydaelyn's favorite son. I know because she told me in a dream once. She did, I swear! Don't you laugh at me, Thancred. I'll leave you in the next shared tankbuster. THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A PRIVATE INTER-" linkpearl disconnected

q. Anything else you wanna add? a. Sending /dotes to anyone who reads this. <3

[artofmerak]

I reread the 8th day series over reading break a while back, so I decided to draw my head canons for some of the characters in high school after the series.

Jax Aubrey

He moves to go to Dorian’s school after graduating middle school to live with Riley and Evangeline, but basically alone for most days of the week.

Despite being a bit oblivious and nice to most people he meets, Dorian described him as a bit scruffy and delinquent-like. He definitely looks like he could kill you but is actually a cinnamon bun. (He got that from Riley)

In fact, for the first few years of high school, most students are scared of him because he kept skipping classes (for some Grunsday missions) and looking like he just came out of a few fights

He learnt how to cook and bake not only because he now lives alone, but after seeing the twins’ atrocious diet and how picky Tegan was due to her sensitive nose, he decided to make good food

He is the mascot of the cooking club and the members absolutely adore him because they are the few people who actually see that he is not scary

He becomes secretly popular by the end of high school, though he doesn’t know himself.

Despite his initially mediocre grades (he shares a brain cell with Billy and Tommy), he studies hard to go to the same university Tegan is applying to. The reason why he applies for any universities is because it’s what his dad and now Riley want for him to do

One of his earrings is a gift from the round table for being a core field agent for them and they wanted a quick way to track him if any of the missions went south. It is directly linked to Tegan’s scry bowl due to their previous partnership in the Morrigan mission. (And because the round table also thinks they’re cute together.)

Dorian Ambrose

I’d like to think that he completely detaches himself from the Round Table business and opens a transport business with brownies

Tegan Donovon

She and her family move to New York and go to the same school as Jax due to their increased involvement in the Round Table

Looks like a cinnamon roll, will kill you

She has a lot of hidden pockets to steal and store things with ease

She was a bit of a weird kid in the first year of high school, but with her charisma and analysis of school society, she quickly became the school’s most popular kids

While she’s still a bit of a chaos causer, due to the stupidity of her friends and brother, she does act as the mom friend when Evangeline is not there to take that role

She’s like the dad that doesn’t want pets (brownies in this case), but pretty much adopt one and love them dearly after a week

Eats anything Jax makes (food-wise)

Get jealous easily when it comes to Jax

Hosts girl’s night with Leslie and Addie where they start seances or whatever girls do at girl’s nights

Gets super high grades now that she doesn’t focus on stealing for a living because the Round Table pays them for their services

Plans to get into computer science in university

Tommy Donovon

Definitely gets buff and become the himbo of the group

Some other characters

Leslie

Definitely gets anxiety and PTSD from the Morrigan situation (definitely needs therapy)

Gets a tattoo on her wrist (done by AJ), similarly to the family crests, but it’s actually a ward against the Morrigan

Gets close to Billy because they are the “normal ones”

Addie

She’s going to show up one day on a normal day of the week casually while other people freak out that the 8th day curse is broken or something and some of the murderous Kin were free, but she would just go “yeah, I figured out how to break it but only for me.”

Then she goes to live with Jax because his apartment is way too big for one person

She’s skipped a few grades to be one under Jax and Tegan and is definitely the real delinquent of the school

Gets highlights in her her, to Evangeline’s dismay

She doesn’t study but gets amazing marks

Gets introduced to Avatar the last Airbender and convinces Jax and the gang to make the life action film of it using her magic and submits it as homework and convinces everyone the CGI was just really high quality

Evangeline

Just happily living away with Riley

Just a bit into arson

The mom friend

Does argue a lot with Addie but she’s proud of her at the end of the day

Billy

The flirt of the friend group

Gets a tattoo on his wrist (done by AJ) claiming that he can make his own bloodline (and who knows, maybe his kids will be able to get into the 8th day)

I don’t know, I just think that Billy and Leslie would be good together

Studies mythologies in college and goes around the world to investigate and learn more about what my be in Grunsday that they don’t know about

Is the intelligence analyst that the Round Table must consult with, as he is able to give the regular citizen perspective

Also helps regulate the relations between the normal people and the transitioners when a wild event is occurring, so the huge power imbalance between them in the books lessen

Riley

Very cowboy core (the part that said he wears cowboy boots in the book will never leave me)

His plan of sticking with Evangeline for every Grunsday works well and they have a happy life together

Core member of the Round Table

Tired all the time

Gets really weirded out when Jax is older than him

[targetacquiredfirstvolume]

CHAPTER 2 - “Couple Therapy Time”

So I lied. Asano and I are, well-

He grabs my wrist and pulls it over my head. Together.

I feel his other hand grab my other wrist and pin my wrists together. You know, boyfriend-girlfriend.

He uses one hand to keep my wrists in place and uses his other to hold my chin up, so now I'm actually looking straight at him. We're kind of a thing, you know?

He leans down toward me and plants a soft kiss on my lips. As he pulls away from me, I sigh, longing for hundreds more. Luckily for me, Principal Asano has a school board meeting, so I'll have plenty of time for... bonding.

His lips then graze against my neck. I gasp. Damn it, he knows how sensitive my body is, but he always does this.

He lets my wrists free with one hand and uses his other to grab my waist. I place my hands on his shoulders to hold myself steady.

He begins to move farther down from my neck, nipping at my skin. He's getting close to my chest. We've never gotten this far before! What comes next? Babies? Oh, man, this is-

Knock, knock!

"Asano," someone calls out from the doors of the classroom Asano and I are in. It's Ren. "I got the copies of those theater try-out posters Megumi wanted. Where should I put them?"

Asano draws away me. "Son of a bitch," he mutters, grabbing his tie from a desk. He ties it aggressively. He glances back at me while I button my shirt up. He tosses my tie to me, smirking. I catch it and attempt to tie it around my neck.

"Give me a second," Asano calls out to Ren. He moves over to me and crouches down to help me tie my tie. "There," he whispers as he gives me a kiss on my forehead.

We both walk over to the classroom door. He turns the light on and slides open the door, revealing Ren, who's clutching what looks like at least a hundred posters.

"Thanks," I tell Ren, while grabbing the posters. He looks puzzled about something.

"Here," Asano says. "Let me help you." He takes the posters from my hands and walks away to set them on a desk. Thank god, there were like a million posters there. I asked Ren to print ten.

"You know," Ren starts as Asano flips through the posters, checking them. "Health was pretty interesting today."

I yawn. Oh, great, he's babbling again. "Cool," I respond.

"Making out gives you like a crazy amount of serotonin," Ren adds, smiling at me. "Especially if you almost get caught." Shit.

Asano drops the posters and stares blankly at Ren.

"Uh," I stutter out. "You're not serious, right?"

"Hmm?" Ren asks. "I just thought that it would be useful advice to you two."

I trail off. Why do I have to be so bad at lying?

"You got us," Asano says. Well, he recovers fast! "Megumi and I were making out in here."

"No, we weren't!" I squeal.

Ren rolls his eyes and walks out of the room.

I grab a few of the posters, avoiding eye contact with Asano, but he firmly grasps my chin and forces me to look at him. 

"Leave the talking to me next time," he orders.

I scoff, "Who are you to command me all of a sudden?"

"Your boyfriend."

"You won't be for much longer if you keep being a dick."

He laughs, "You know that you can't call that shot."

"I can do whatever I please, asshole," I respond while backing away from his grasp.

He grabs my wrist and pulls me so close to him that his mouth is next to my ear. His voice suddenly changes to a serious tone as he coldly states, "I control you, and you need to understand that and stop fighting back. I can ruin you with a snap of my finger."

"Asano?" Ren's voice calls out from the hallway. Asano draws back from me, smiles, and whispers, "Keep that in mind, my pet." He then walks out of the classroom doors, leaving me shaken. 'Date Gakushu Asano,' they said. 'You guys would be so cute together,' they said. Cute together, my ass!

~

"You really think I would be good at acting?" Okuda asks me. I've been discussing the theater try-outs with my classmates.

"I know you could!" I tell her. I could do so much with her and the others!

"Thank you, Yanagisa!" she exclaims.

"Call me Megumi," I say before turning to leave the classroom.

It's been about a day since Asano and I got into an argument, and we've been avoiding each other since. I think his father may have noticed.

The intercom turns on with a beep and dismisses us. Before it turns off, I hear the principal add, "May Megumi Yanagisa report to the principal's office by 3:45?" Yup, he noticed. Shit.

Some of the classmates, including Korosensei, make an obvious "Ooh," sound. I roll my eyes and  continue to leave the classroom, but before I can leave, Karma asks, "What's it like doing it in the principal's office?"

I can feel my face flush up.

"Shut up, Karma," I shout before storming out of the room.

~

"What?" I yell. "Couple therapy?"

Mr. Asano nods his head. That sick bastard! Trying to get Gakushu to open up is impossible!

"Whose idea was this anyway?" Asano demands. He's standing next to me in front of the principal's desk. 

Mr. Asano chuckles to himself and says, "Megumi's teacher, actually."

"What the hell?!" I exclaim. I can feel my fists clenching up.

"So who's our therapist?" Asano asks. He's hiding it, but I can tell that he's pissed off.

"Megumi's teacher," Mr. Asano laughs, obviously amused with our predicament.

"I don't believe this!" I choke out. Damn octopus! "I'm not going if he's our therapist!"

Mr. Asano clears his throat and asserts, "If you two don't get your shit together soon, it'll only get worse, so I suggest that you both go to that therapy session this afternoon. You are dismissed."

Asano and I leave without a word and walk silently next to one another in the main building hallways. He's staring ahead while I'm staring down. After we reach the bottom of the mountain that the E-Class building is on, he clears his throat.

"Listen," he begins quietly. "If we want to get out of this therapy bullshit, we'll have to work together."

I look up and see his avoiding eye contact with me. I admit it, he looks kind-of cute when he's shy. "I agree. Maybe we could get Koro-" I stop myself. Asano looks expectantly at me. I continue, "I mean, my teacher, to leave during the therapy session. Like, scare him away."

Asano nods, and we both go silent for a moment. I didn't realize this before, but we've moved towards each other slightly. In fact, we're so class that our hands are brushing against one another every other step we take. I give up on being mad at him!

I poke his hand with my index finger playfully. He smiles and pokes me back. Our fingers intertwine and-

Click!

We look up to see Nakamura standing in front of us with her phone pointed towards us. She grins maliciously as she snaps a few more photos. She turns around and runs towards another student who I recognize as Karma. Great, just what we needed.

Asano seems confused and he simply looks ahead, speechless. I groan and drag him towards the E-Class building. I forgot to warn Asano about Nakamura and Karma being spawns of the devil.

"Don't worry about her," I tell Asano as we walk towards the classroom. When we reach the pathway to the entrance, our hands separate.

~

"Come on in," Korosensei calls from the teacher's lounge. Asano and I walk in to see Korosensei in a really shitty disguise.

"What the hell are you wearing?!" I yell at him. "You really couldn't afford a better dis-"

"-Guise?" Asano asks me.

"Yeah," I reply nonchalantly. Wait, what I am saying?! He's not supposed to find out about this! "Actually, no! I was talking about something else!"

Asano stares at me; he seems to be trying to figure something out. He smiles smugly at me. He must have figured it out! I'm screwed!

Korosensei clears his throat and says in a very serious voice, "I believe you both know why you're at this session." I can't take him serious right now!

I walk in front of Asano and sit down across from Korosensei, and Asano follows.

Korosensei's eyes dart from Asano and I. Maybe he's trying to decide what to say next?

"You really suck at this, sensei," I say after at least a minute of awkward eye contact.

"WHAT?!" Korosensei shouts out. His eyes are watering and he starts sniffing. "I'm trying my best, you know! It's not my fault you two are the most intimidating teenagers I've ever met!"

Asano glances at me, and we both nod. The plan is in motion!

"I mean," he begins. "If this whole therapist thing is too much for you, that's alright, sir."

Korosensei wipes his eyes with a tissue and asks, "Really?"

Asano smiles and nonchalantly answers, "Yeah, I'll just get my dad to duck your pay."

Korosensei begins to sob louder than before. That's my cue!

"Damn it, Gakushu! What's your problem?" I yell at Asano. Korosensei sniffs and looks up at us.

Asano slams his hands on the desk and stands up. He laughs like a psycho and shouts back at me, "Really? I'm the problem? That's rich!"

I stand up for the grand finale and drop the bomb, "That's it! We're through, asshole!"

Korosensei faints, and I mean literally falls unconscious! He springs back up and zooms out of the classroom, slamming the door on his way. 

I turn over to Asano and grin. Yet another star performance! He smiles back, sighs, and falls into a heap on the floor. I sit down as well.

We both sit in silence for what feels like eternity. All I can think about is how much I love him.

"You know," Asano says quietly. "Hearing you say those words may have been the scariest thing I've ever heard."

He looks over and smiles possibly the most sincere smile I've ever seen on him. I can feel his cold, purple eyes burn into my heart. Damn it, I really have fallen victim to the Venus flytrap that is Gakushu Asano.

I can't resist any longer, so I lunge over onto him and press my lips against his. He stumbles back slightly but steadies himself. I feel his hand hold onto my head. I place my hands on his shoulder to ready myself. Our lips part, but after a moment, I decide to change things up.

I begin to kiss his neck, which definitely surprises him. His breathing becomes unsteady as he attempts to hold some dominance over me. Good luck, I've been waiting a whole day for this!

"Megumi, I-" he gasps. Looks like I finally got the upper hand after a year of this bullshit.

I draw away from him and take a minute to both collect myself and study my boyfriend. His face is the reddest I've ever seen it and... shit! I wore lipstick today.

Asano's neck is covered with light red marks. I attempt to rub off some of it but to no avail.

I get ready to stand up when-

Click!

Are you kidding me?!

I look past Asano to see not only Nakamura but Karma peering into the window with their phones poised and ready to snap photos. I flip them off as I stand up; they just snicker and dart off.

I help Asano to his feet. Guess he's still a little shaken up. We walk out of the classroom together, fingers locked together.

~

"You both seriously planned for this?!" I say, shocked. Turns out that this whole therapy bullshit was all an act to get Asano and I back on good terms!

"Yes, and it..." Mr. Asano replies, pausing to look at his son. "...quite obviously worked."

Of course it did; when do your plots not work, principal? Don't worry, though, you don't scare me... much. I'm not backing out of this game of chess yet!

Just you wait, A-Class!

[sillylilguydisorder]

Silly Lil Monster Facts!

hello! it's pinned post time!

here's some fun things to know about me:

i'm an adult!

i'm multiply disabled, which is where the url comes from: my partners like to joke that i'm diagnosed as being unable to resist a silly lil guy, which is kind of true lol

i'm queer, trans, & polyam! <3

soy latine (yay) y estadounidense (boo)

i have over 300 lil guys in my plush collection alone, and i also collect other types of toys, dolls, construction blocks, and figurines

i also have a big collection of board/video/RP/card games

when i can work, i work in the tattoo industry as a front of house/sales person. i can't physically tattoo at the moment, but i draw a lot!

i got the name monster from a deaf friend of mine. it's what she calls me in ASL and it's really cute in sign

i have a master's degree

i love being outside

currently i have dogs, cats, and reptiles, but i have had just about every category of pet you can imagine at one point or another! i love animals so much and i am so serious about them

my favorite thing is genre fiction, especially of the horror and/or noir variety, so expect my taste in lil guys to sometimes reflect that

i'm a serious coffee enthusiast and i love a good mug

clowns are underrated

if you love Neopets, Subeta, 4dopt, or Tamagotchis, we are automatically friends

i adore animation and may post about it here too, especially if it involves ponies

my current goal for the year is to improve enough in phys therapy that i can tap dance again :]

my favorite safe food is pb&j sandwiches

free palestine

[nurseshannansreviews]

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[warpspeedgirl]

P. 3

The bottom line is people mention things when they want people to know something. You brought up the therapist saying it wasn’t a big deal to ask me, because you wanted me to know she said that. Doesn’t even make sense because the case manager has 0 context about things she would need to to even draw up that conclusion.

I don’t know what you’re referring to assuming about “other people” thinking or their actions? I’m pretty sure you’re talking about yourself idk who other people are but I hope by now you’ve known me long enough to know it’s not my nature to just assume things about people. I try to be understanding and forgiving. There have been so many times where I’ve helped you worked something out because you know me to be understanding. You brought that up after I mentioned it not being cool for you to bring the case manager up to me. If we had a disagreement and I wasn’t respecting your opinion and then also brought up that my therapist also agreed with my side, how would you interpret that? It’s not assuming anything. You brought in a third party opinion at a very bad time in a very distasteful way. It hurt and yes, you brought it up to me for a specific reason and it wasn’t innocent. If I’m assuming anything it’s because you implied it by even bringing it up in that distasteful way. I could’ve said the same thing to you. Stop assuming I was just at the apartment not doing anything and was free to do your bidding immediately when you asked me to and that it’s my ‘responsibility’ too so I should do it when you can’t. Stop assuming you know what I can and can’t do or what I will and won’t do for you. Stop assuming what should or shouldn’t be a big deal to me. The first thing I told you I was dealing with a lot right now. You were so so so hurtful that day and it, frankly doesn’t surprise me now. I feel better when I’m not around you. The baby clothes are cute, but I’d much rather appreciate an apology from you. This whole story is ABSOLUTELY insane.

What the fuck else am I supposed to think based off of the myriad of fucked up and selfish texts you were sending me??? I’m not assuming or talking out of my ass. I’m responding to YOU and what you’re saying. I didn’t ask you anything. I don’t have any questions. I said no and moved on. You didn’t.

I wasn’t saying I care that you brought me up in therapy. I know how therapy works, it’s private. I cared that you brought a third party opinion up in OUR conversation the moment that you did. You wanted me to know that your therapist said that. There was no reason to bring up your private conversation with your therapist to me other than to further prove your opinion with back up. That was horrible timing after everything you just told me about how you knew I could do it and you couldn’t understand why I couldn’t do it and it was “just one thing” you needed me to do and it’s “just for the apartment Adisa” when I explained it’s a boundary and I already said no hours ago! Of course you bringing up the case manager when you did comes across terribly and it’s very hard to believe that you weren’t trying to be right/prove your point that I’m never going to be on board with, ESPECIALLY after all of that. You told me to tell you if something you say is irrelevant and useless, I find that rude to do and out of my nature but THAT was useless. It’s just low and tacky and selfish. I think I always thought you’d say stuff like this to other people but not me, or that I was some sort of exception. You don’t understand how you don’t have to “literally” say something to send a message or let your intentions known? Really? I really didn’t expect this, on this level, from you. Like the stuff that happened in highschool that was one thing and we were dumb teenagers in a lot of ways but this is a LOT like what happened back then. The September incident had me thinking the same thing. Just blindly bulldozing through people and not understanding and kind of victimizing yourself when there’s a strong reaction/pushback or when people just. can’t. take. it anymore. The November incident almost solidifies it. I think this is just you. Maybe just right now, I don’t know. People change.

You don’t see how it doesn’t matter at ALL if the case manger thought it wasn’t a big deal to ask and to come back and report that to me at the moment that you did. She had 2% of information and the full story. That was so wrong to even instigate and then to come repeat it back to me and the time you did wooooweee girl. So much of what you said to me was so unfair. SO much of it. You said the case manager said it wasnt a big deal to ask. I already know you think that because you said it in 3 different way several different times like it even mattered what she thinks is a big deal or not after I said i Cant help anyway. Why its out of the way for me isnt any of your business unless I choose for it to be. You later then say "it wasnt a big deal to ask, it wasnt" THATS NOT THE POINT and know one said it was a big deal to ask, and its exactly what you decided to tell me that said the case manager said. Me saying no doesn't mean it was a big deal to ask but you reacting like that makes it seem like you think I thought it was. Of course that comes across like you're trying to be right after everything else you repeatedly said all day long after my simple and respectful decline. I thought it was a very out there request considering the details of it being in your room and for how long it'd been going on and me JUST finding out about it while I had a guest and everything you included in your instruction for me to do it(because yeah obviously there was a good chance they were going to ask why you thought it was rodents) , but I calmly said no. The way you asked me and the amount of information you gave to me already made it seem like you really didn't think/were prepared for me to say no. You turned this whole thing into a big ugly dilemma for no reason other than impatience and straight up just bing demanding. Especially when you say things like “I knew you could do it so when you said no I knew something was wrong”. Girl. No. That is so self righteous and condescending. Nothing has to be wrong for me to say no, I’m busy. And I’m not doing all of that for you when I don’t really even know what you’re talking about, and I have a guest anyway. Respect that and stop being so fucking pushy. That was so ugly.

With the case manager I was thinking why is she bringing this up to ME at this specific moment unless she wants me to know that she also thought it wasn’t a big deal like you’re already telling me you think it isn’t, which hurts me. Why did you bring that up to me? You wanted me to know the therapist said that it’s also not a big deal to ask. Because that’s what it comes down to. Therapy is supposed to be private, what’s spoken between you and your therapist. Why did you want me to know what the case manager said? Why did you bring a third party into our conversation? How did you have your phone out in therapy? Even when you saw the text and happened to look, why bring it up to them? If Im saying something to you that you already disagree with and brought up that my therapist also thought the same thing I did, would you feel put on the spot, almost gaslighted? Guiltripped? Some of our conversation ended with you repeating that it wasn’t a big deal to ask. First you said if that’s what I think you’re saying then you’re not going to explain anymore, but then you went right back to saying yes “me asking you that one question wasn’t a big deal, it wasn’t”. That’s what you’re saying. It’s hurtful and dismissive of the point I was trying to make that whole time. I told you it was a whole task that I wasn’t going to do that day. And also why would I give a FUCK about what your case manager or classmate thinks after I already said no I cannot help, yes I obviously know IF there are rats in the walls it’s an issue for the entire apartment (🙄as if I don’t know that 🙄) and it’s been hours of back and forth about this topic now and your shadily bringing things up because you think I don’t see it as an issue for the entire apartment because I said no. You going to the leading office to find out what’s next about the sounds you’ve been hearing in your room for so long, are NOT an issue for the entire apartment: it’s your issue.

Can you imagine how hurtful and fucked I’m it would’ve been if I said “well my mom and Derek agree that you asking me to do all of that when you’ve been eexperinecing it in your room for WEEKS qnd especially while I had a guest was out pocket  and bringing up the case manager aftwr was petty”. Like I was trying to prove that other people also agree with me. THAT is useless and low. We already established that we disagree about who’s responsibility it was and it was known that I couldn’t help you with this because I said no hours prior. 

Why did you bring up the case manager to me? Why did you specifically want me to know that she said that? That hurt and it was manipulative and defective. I don’t even know if you realize it.  I’m never going to “try to understand” you bringing up the case manager because it was fucked.up. for a looooot of reasons. And you saying that I wasn’t genuinely trying to understand after I pointed that out was all I needed to hear from you honestly.

She has 0 context, doesn’t know the way you asked me the first time how you reacted when I said I couldn’t help you that you continued to explain that it was just one thing you needed or that you’d been dealing with this for weeks and were being impatient to just have me get it done sooner until this point, or what I have going on that I have a guest and an appointment. Of course you don’t see “what the point was” of me listing the things I have done for the apartment because you can’t even recognize how pushy you were being and how far you took things for me to even get to that point with you. I doubt you’re able to recognize how manipulative some of what you were saying was either, the case manager, the “I’m just not gonna ask for anything anymore then”, the “let me know if you ever need anything from the leasing office” “i knew you could do it” “there was no reason for it to be inconvenient” “I knew it would’ve have been an issue, if you asked the same of me it wouldn’t have been” like what the fuck. I said no. You going on and and on and on and on because I said that, turned it into an issue. The reason why I had to explain why I said no is because you were being so pushy “I just needed one thing from you” I don’t need to explain my no. I can’t do it and it’s none of your business why. and also I’m not going to explain your ongoing situation for you. You would have to ask me to find out if it’s inconvenient or not and me saying no clearly means it IS. It’s extremely distasteful and impudent.

Why is it an oh damn reaction if I say no to what were you asking me which was a lot. Then you bring up that you told the therapist to me because my response of was unusual. What about my response was unusual? If you’re talking about me saying “you’ll have to do it yourself” it’s because after I said I can’t help you you sent so many texts trying to explain why it was just one thing you needed. You didn’t just drop it. It wasn’t cool and implied that you thought “why can’t you just do it, you’re at the apartment, I’m busy”

Do you really not see how that was a HORRIBLE time to say that, if you had to at all? It communicates as you using the therapist to verify your own agenda. It goes with your later saying “it wasn’t a big deal to ask that question, it wasn’t” okay?? Who said it was. You don’t need to bring up that your therapist agrees with you. your therapist who doesn’t know much except your side. It’s ugly. You asked and I said no I can’t help you and the TASK is a big deal and out of the way for me. I don’t even need to say that. The answer is just I can’t help you. None of this is that hard or confusing. I don’t know what you thought saying that after everything that already happened that day, was going to do for you. It just showed your intentions/character if anything. The fact that you couldn’t see why that was so unsavory to even bring up or say and what YOU wanted to put out there from saying that to me, screams some things. You said you don’t want to ask things that are out of the way. That is out of the way. Me saying no should imply that to any person. Don’t go and bring up right after saying that “I say that because my therapist said it wasn’t a big thing to ask” girl. Stop. I already said no and you already handled it yourself. Just, drop, it and stop exposing yourself. You can’t even see the actual point of why that doesn’t matter and shouldn’t have been said and that is just. It’s bad honestly it’s just really bad and hurtful and tacky. Probably the worst thing you’ve ever said to me. If you don’t think it’s a big thing to ask because it’s for YOU and affects you the most, fine. I respected that. Respect that to me it was an out of the way task. What your case manager thinks doesn’t effect my life and she doesn’t know my life. She knows YOUR life. I don’t need to explain why. You’re not entitled to know why like you were behaving like you did. Of course I know you didn’t “literally” say you were trying to prove your point. The fact that you brought it up at ALL signified that. I doubt you’ll see it after getting to this point in the first place.

It’s still wild to me that you can’t see how disgraceful and uncool and hurtful it was for you to say that and then continue to defend it. I’ve had my own conversations about it as well as everything else in therapy and it’s crazy that it’s come full circle in that way. Me being hurt by that statement wasn't me not “genuinely trying to understand ''. That was ludacris and just told me all I needed to know honestly.  It was you being rude and incredibly insensitive. The further the conversation went the more convinced I was that I’d seen enough. It’s ridiculous to need a mediator over something as simple as this. I respectfully said no and you were rude. And I’m certainly not going to be the one to look for/find a mediator over this. I really didn’t do anything. I know what I said and why I said it and what I meant, and I meant it.

“If you’re not going to genuinely try to understand why I asked that question and think I’m saying it wasn’t a big deal to do, then I’m not going to explain any further” really??? Seriously??? That is so dismissive and it comes across like YOU don’t want to genuinely understand. Just fuck you. We’re not friends anymore. I am beyond patient with you. I told you I understood why you felt a sense of urgency to get it done and that I could see why you thought it was an issue for the entire apartment and that to you it was one question, but guess what I don’t need to even try to understand that!! No is no and it doesn’t need to be justified or understood from your warped perspective. It was a LOT you originally sent me and beyond. I don’t see it as an issue for the entire apartment it’s an weeks long ongoing issue in your room that YOU have been experiencing and I just found out about it that morning while I had a guest and other shit going on. How on this earth is that something that I could possibly know the same amount as you about. I mentally wasn’t even fully there to give you or it my full attention because I had other shit going on and I expressed that to you when you originally asked me. Yes if there are rats in the wall (obviously they are in the walls, as if I don’t know that) it’s an issue for the entire apartment but finding the number you need to call or what you need to do next for this thing going on in your room ISNT. I don’t need to drop everything I have going on because you’re assuming I’m not doing anything and that I should do it because you can’t and I can get it done faster. You don’t know what I have going on. You calling and emailing yourself was as fast as it was going to go because, again, I told you I can’t help you. And if it was an issue for the entire apartment why does it fall on me to ask that question? Make the time and Handle your shit yourself. I was busy and said no I can’t help you with that. I understood what you were asking, it wasn’t hard to understand. I just said no I can’t help you with that today. That seemed hard for YOU to ‘try to understand’ and I was beyond patient with you about it. This is also the same girl that arrogantly said “I’m not gonna say nothing like you’re telling me to do” when I told her I’d never say that her opinion was irrelevant and pointless to bring up. It’s not shocking that she gets so freaking defensive over rude situations that she’s caused agAIN.

You were the one that initiated and kept repeating that it wasn’t a big deal to ask and that you knew I could do it and that you couldn’t understand why I said no and that it was just “one thing”, that your therapist said it wasn’t a big deal to ask, that you would do it for me if I asked, you went on to say “it wasn’t a big deal to ask that question, it wasn’t” so of course I’m going to think that when you keep saying and implying that??? Word for word. Make it make sense. It doesn’t matttterrrr if it was one thing or 1000 things. I wasn’t thinking “oh my god I can’t believe she asked me that, this is such a big deal for her to ask” and I never said that. You asked, I said no. That was that to me. If I’m usually very helpful and telling you I can’t help you today. Just respect that! You can’t respect boundaries. AFTER EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED and how far you took this that’s how you’re going to end this conversation really?? Explain what further? Not genuinely understand what? That you didn’t respect my no. Because I gave you pushback and told you the things you were saying weren’t cool means I’m not “genuinely trying to understand” what you were asking? That is beyond insulting. It was clear what you were asking I just said no. Thats part of why you explaining what you were asking over and over comes across as pushy. I got it the first time, it’s not confusing, I respectfully declined. You wanted me to go to the leasing office or call them and see who it is to contact about the sounds in your room. I couldn’t do it/didn’t feel like it’s my place to anyway, and said no. Me saying no doesn’t mean I don’t understand what you were asking. I’m busy, I can’t help you, even if I felt like that actually was my place to help you with. You really don’t understand how saying “I’m busy but if it’s something for the apartment I will make time for it because it’s still our apartment” makes it seem like you think I don’t do the same thing?? That shit is so hurtful. OBVIOUSLY if there are rats in the walls in the apartment it’s an issue for all of us, as if I don’t know that 🙄. Finding out what the sounds you’ve been hearing in your room for weeks and who to contact next about it, isn’t. In top of me saying no, I’m unavailable. You know I have a guest. You don’t need to know what else I’m doing beyond that. Figure out what to do about your room situation and then we’ll go from there.

That was the most hurtful and ugly thing you’ve ever ever said to me and I don’t want to hate you for it so I just don’t need you in my life anymore. It’s worse than you bringing up your case manager. It’s worse than you telling me my opinions are irrelevant and pointless to bring up. It’s worse than the numerous other manipulative and inconsiderate thing you said to me that day. It’s worse than you saying I was ‘speaking’ for you. That is so fucking horrible and the cherry on top of just legit rudeness. I really didn’t deserve the impatience and rudeness that you gave me. It doesn’t surprise me that you thought I wasnt genuinely trying to understand you. I felt like you weren’t genuinely trying to understand where I was coming from or that I even just said no. And the ironic thing is I’ve felt like that from you a FEW times. This whole thing is so fucking ridiculous and it’s completely your fault. I really feel like if I stopped engaging with you at a certain point, if you initially came to me with a different tone, if I didn’t match your impatience things wouldn’t have gone as far as they did. But it was really eye opening to see you say the things you did and see how far you’d take things. I never thought you’d talk to me, your bestfriend, or anyone else that way. I don’t need this, my baby doesn’t need this and I don’t want him feeling how freaking angry and so hurt I was with you. I just want to let you go. People are who they are and you kind of just have to let it be when it’s become evident time and time and time again. My family my friends, I don’t EVER ever have this kind of rude encounters or issues with. I remember just thinking I want this to stop hurting so badly I just want it to stop. It gets less and less everyday. I realize more about this situation everyday, whenever this friendship break up comes up in therapy sessions. A portion of this is another story, yours, and I can’t delve into that only what I can control/do. My story with you ends here.

Parts of me know that we never should’ve moved together but we were both desperate to get out of our home situations and away from commuting. I always said for years to my family if we moved in together we wouldn’t be friends anymore because of that overbearing side of you and I didn’t listen to my intuition. We were kind of growing apart already for a few years…. That was a big lesson learned for me. Another part of me is glad I’ve seen all this from you because I needed to know you’d actually go there and say these things to me. But it really shouldn’t surprise me and I can’t take it seriously or personally because almost 90% of it is so so ridiculous and rude and out pocket. Of course you thought I wasn’t genuinely trying to understand what you were asking. I understood, I just said no. And I also told you I had a lot on my plate, there’s no way I could’ve given you my full attention that day regardless and you’d either couldn’t or just didn’t want to respect that or have empathy or consideration for it/me.

She’s like “I didn’t understand the point of bringing up what you’ve done for the apartment, I’m not going to say that to you but I could’ve, I’m not going to ask when I’ve ever said no to you, I’m not going to bother with that” GIRL are you this far removed from reality. I cried reading that but now I’m mad. This is why those people said you’re crazy. You PROVOKED me and it took a lot for me to get there. Do you not see how far you took it for me to get to that point?? You manipulatively saying “I’m just not going to ask for anything for the apartment anymore” “it was just one thing I needed Adisa” “I knew you could do it” incited me to stand up for myself finally. It wouldn’t make any fucking sense for you to say any of those things to me, I wasn’t harassing you over something that ended up being so stupid and trivial. Why do we need a mediator over something as simple as me saying “no”. And it’s funny because you “bothered” with taking everything so far in the first place but when I have a negative reaction to your manipulation and unkindness and intense pushiness it’s “Woa woa where’s this coming from, I’m not going to bother to do that to you”. Stupid. Actually. Insane.

She gets really defensive and I think it’s unconscious but it’s really offputting and hurtful. “Well if you’re not gonna do this I’m just not going to ask you to do anything for the apartment anymore” “if you’re not going to genuinely try to understand then” “I’m not going to say nothing like you’re telling me to.” Girl what?? I said no. That’s it. I said you hurt my feelings. You saying I’m not genuinely trying is so hurtful especially when it was actually you who wasn’t genuinely trying to understand NO. Saying she appreciates me being comfortable enough to tell her no but then flips things on me. Make it make sense.