#drive me wiiild!!

[rocketqueen48]

Even Izzy, Slash and Axl Rose, when I call you put 'em all on hold…

[thelikesoffinn]

hiiiii so have you heard about astarion actually having DID? (dissociative identity disorder in case you don't kno) ive seen that a few times on tiktok now and i thought i finna ask you about it because that shiz is wiiild to me. like girl wtf.

TW: Dissociative Identity Disorder He's got...what. Just what.

What in the world is TikTok cooking up now? Like, what in the world? I myself don't use TikTok, so I've never heard this before but damn. Damn.

Flower, I'm not gonna lie, this confuses me more than the 'his crying is a sign that not ascending is the bad choice'. Because this? This is wild, you're so right. This is more than wild, this is the wildest shit.

DID is such a highly specific disorder, why would anyone get the idea Astarion could have that? (Once again, I'm not standing in the way of anyones headcanons, play around as you like, but heavens, no. I don't see that at all.)

Over the entire game, I haven't seen a singular sign that could point towards DID. And yes, sure, one could say 'well Alters are meant to protect the system to the shift is not obvious so Astarion's alter called Astorian could just be hiding it really well' which...yeah, okay, that's true I'll hand them that but there's other signs apart from the shifting alters that Astarion simply doesn't display.

He might have some common comorbidities, but if we go just by that he could have pretty much any other disorder known to man because so so many of them come with the same comorbidities. That is why diagnosing people accurately is so difficult.

Also - DID is developed in early childhood. Mostly in children before the age of nine who experienced extreme trauma. And yes, while Astarion WAS abused and his abuse would definitely be enough for that, he wasn't a child. I mean, come on, he was 36. And yes, that is young for elves but it's still a blown arse adult. It just doesn't make sense.

And, can I just step away from my social worker self and into my writer self for a hot second? I usually try not to, but it's necessary here.

Astarion's trauma and the resulting behavioural patterns exist to add complexity and depth to his character. They are devices used so that he isn't just the campy cunty vampire. We are supposed to see his layers, to see that he is more than just the rude pretty boy. We are supposed to make connections between his behaviour and how Cazador treated him, which is why his behaviour is as obvious and textbook as it is. It's a glaring neon sign made for us so that we understand the character and endear him to us.

That is why they are there.

Anything used in a story is there for a reason. Everything is used to drive the story forward and carry it into the authors chosen direction. It would make absolutely zero sense to give Astarion a disorder as rare, as misunderstood and as interesting as DID and not mention it. That would be so. much. wasted story telling potential.

It just doesn't make sense, absolutely not.

And I'm not saying DID wouldn't make for an interesting story - quite the opposite. I think the community could thrive on some destigmatisation because all the DID characters I've ever seen were crazily homicidal maniacs and it'd be nice to see a character that is displaying DID in the proper way, but Astarion simply isn't it.

He really really isn't.

TikTok is throwing around wild theories every day it seems, I'm really truly baffled!

[spaceprincessleia]

I hate drawing hair

Long hair specifically

Complicated hair styles more specifically

It drives me wiiild UGH!!!

[ofallthingsnasty]

I’m like obsessed with pet play, hybrids & A/B/O these days 😮‍💨

Something about imagining your fave absolutely feral, possessive and sex crazed for you drives me crazy 🥵 or them absolutely dehumanizing you as their sweet dumb lil breeding bitch 😮‍💨

Like, can you imagine how hot feral Rumi would be? She’s supposed to have a rabbit like quirk, so I can see her libido being stupid crazy. Despite her short stature she’s aggressive and pushy when she wants sex as well

GASP

WHAT ABOUT RUMI WITH A FEM LOVER WHOS TALLER THAN HER, HOLY FFFF—!

She would absolutely get off on bullying someone taller than her, especially if they’re shy and nice

Also hiii it’s AFO anon again 😆 thank you for the recommendation on my last ask, I absolutely love it so far 😄

anon, quick, gimme your hand- places a little kiss on it- Okay, okay, let me get some air for a moment - because those three are things that drive me wiiild. (Pet play is rather new on that list, but hybrids and a/b/o?? Holy fuuuck, been obsessed ever since I first read it ha) I need to put my thoughts under the cut, they got a little too long haha

And yes, yes, exactly for the reasons you mentioned!! I love how cute and awkward and fluffy a/b/o can be and how quickly it can turn into a smutty, possessive mess. I have so many a/b/o wips it's not even funny anymore- or how a/b/o lends itself to dark content (mhh forced bonding or how most hybrids are actually stronger than their owners oh nooooo) And you know what I really really love? Unconventional a/b/o pairings - like alpha/alpha or alpha/beta - just the potential darkness in that. One alpha absolutely breaking the other one down until they're basically a 'diy' omega, or an alpha forcing themselves onto a beta, fully aware of the fact that betas can't take alphas as well as omegas can. And oh my god feral Rumi! She's actually three whole centimeters shorter than me, and holy hell I'm going to milk that fact dry,,, I think her being shorter than her s/o would make her even more horrifying - like she has an ego and trust me, she'll prove that she's so much stronger than you every chance she gets. Prepare to be manhandled like there's no tomorrow- She's also the one fictional woman who can strap me down 😂 It doesn't matter whether or not she can put a baby in you, she sure as hell fucks you like she can. And with her insane libido and stamina, she'd pound you into the mattress until you're nothing more than a drooling mess. Yeah. Uhm. No more thoughts just getting destroyed by Rumi now 🧘‍♀️ (also i wanted to post a little yan rumi scenario tonight that involves her being absolutely horrible, so maybe... if you're up for it hehe) aaah I'm so glad you're enjoying it!! he's so terrible-- make sure to leave crimson some nice comments too hehe

[radramblog]

And you don’t seem to understand

A shame, you seemed an honest man.

Duvet, by bôa (the British band, not BoA, the Korean pop artist) was my song of the year in 2020. According to Spotify, at least.

Most people who have heard Duvet know it as the opening to the cult classic anime Serial Experiments Lain. Like many things about Lain, the opening is iconic, matching Duvet’s acoustic meandering and haunting vocals with the mysterious and a e s t h e t i c visuals to create something unique that looks nothing like most anime openings these days. The average anime opening is energetic, introduces all the characters, has shenanigans and funny animation, and Lain is out here just giving nothing away. She’s on the TV and then walking down the street and then time stops and huh????

As a show, Lain is esoteric and confusing and doesn’t answer nearly as many questions as it sets up but manages to maintain interest through these mysteries somehow, through a combination of a slow build and sheer fuckery. Lain herself being a surprisingly endearing protagonist helps a lot; as a fish out of water with the computer systems the series centres around, her curiosity helps drive much of the early developments and worldbuilding. While the largest mysteries about the show surround her personally, by the time the audience is exposed to them they are likely comfortable enough with her to feel as unsettled by the implications as is intended. As comfortable as anything in the show could be, anyway- the show’s limited budget was used masterfully to create a stark, harsh atmosphere, with scenes where you’d expect that one anime cicada loop instead carrying the drone of power lines, and backgrounds painted alternately with sheer white and an excess of shadow, making the city feel as unnatural as the events taking place in it.

The show is also incredibly predictive about the nature of the internet and what online culture would look like for an anime released in the late 90s- the themes of online cliquing and personae are more relevant than ever in an age of social media and its role in modern politics.

Serial Experiments Lain happens to be available for free on funimation’s website in some countries (and Youtube where it isn’t), so there’s no excuse not to watch it! Unless its not your thing, which I could understand. Frustratingly, the Youtube version doesn’t appear to have the opening or ending attached, let alone the little bit before the opening (haha look it up its so great), so I wasn’t exposed to Duvet for much longer than I would have liked in retrospect. Because this song and album fuck so hard.

I suppose part of having a less than ideal budget meant using a song from an obscure alternative band than commissioning a new one for the opening, but I’m certainly not complaining about the result. Following the anime’s release, the album Duvet was sourced from, The Race of a Thousand Camels, would end up being reorganised and rereleased internationally as Twilight with a few bonus tracks on the end (I’m still hunting down a CD of either of them, but they had a pretty low run and such are hard as hell to get).

I’m not sure what the best comparison would be to get an idea of what Twilight sounds like- spotify’s recommended artists appear largely to be other composers associated with anime soundtracks (as well as the artist behind the VA-11 Hall-A soundtrack, you go mate) so that hasn’t been much help. If I’m honest, its not too out of the ordinary- while a very very solid album, I don’t think it strays too far from what would be considered late 90s British alt-rock, which makes sense considering that’s where they originate from. The Cranberries but less folky and less Irish? I dunno.

Particular songs on the list do resonate more with me than others. Perhaps it is a little presumptuous to say that Fool is relatable, as my experience does not quite line up to that of the lyrics, but there are connections I can draw there so it works pretty well on me. Bonus tracks Drinking and Little Miss both do it for me (wow, really?) with Little Miss’s unexpected aggression and emotion underlying the abusiveness of the second person protagonist of the lyrics and that little unexpected breakdown at the end reminds me of some of my other favourite tunes (Twelve Foot Ninja, of all bands, comes to mind). Drinking, on the other hand, mirrors Little Miss as an acoustic closer that could be from the titular woman’s perspective, mirroring the lyrical relationship between the two. It’s a great way to finish an album with as much emotion as Twilight does, and considering the latter half of The Race of a Thousand Camels was its weaker one, a good addition to the record overall.

I don’t really have much more to add, other than go consume these underrated pieces of media. It’s free content mother fucker (edit: was listening to the Lain soundtrack while writing this and its fuckin wiiild. Theme of Lain? Hella. Theme of a Hilly Road? Is that a didge mate?)

[peachyteabuck]

some of yall were never taught to habitually take screenshots and that's wiiild to me. like, with DMs it's less important because they exist until you delete them (same with emails), but if you see a post that's racist from a popular blog or you're messaging a superior on something like slack and you think it can be deleted you NEED to screenshot that.

especially if you think you're in a longhaul fight with like, a professor or something, you need to screenshot things and back them up to something like a google drive in their own folder. the last thing you want is to make something a "he said she said" when you have evidence. don't let people gaslight you in that way.

[localwhiskeyuncle]

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[aroacepearl]

POP PRINCESS MAKE ME SMILE

POP PRINCESS DRIVE ME WIIILD

POP PRINCESS I NEED YOU NOW

SO BABY TURN YOUR LOVE UP LOUD