#elisa gonzales

[stress-level-midnight]

Elisa Gonzales | Tanaya Winder | Louise Glück | Sappho tr. Anne Carson | Steven Berkoff

[sparkleofpizza]

E-mails I can’t send

Paring: ex!Mick Schumacher x Verstappen!Reader Lando Norris x Verstappen!Reader

PART II

Mickshumacher: Touristing around 📸

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User1: He's cute

User2: Look at him casually walking down the street looking like a model

User3: Are you dating Max Verstappen sister?

-> User4: I hope not, she's too ugly for him

Y/n.verstappen: Out and about in New York City

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madisonbeer: You're so pretty

-> yn.verstappen: Ily Maddy

User1: She's not even trying to hide the fact that she's with Mick

-> User2: Ikr at least have some decency

-> User3: That's a word that sluts don't understand the meaning of

User4: That's why your father pretends you don't exist

User5: Just kill yourself

User6: Such waste of air

TMZ journalist: It's been all over the internet the last couple of days about the newest love triangle Elisa Gonzales, Mick Schumacher and Y/n Verstappen. Let's take a look at this weird timeline of how Y/n betrayed her friend Elisa.

TMZ journalist: Y/n and Mick have been friends for a very long time, they met during her brother's karting days. Y/n and Elisa met back at Disney Channel when they both worked there and is said to be the one to introduce Elisa and Mick to each other. How did we end up here with her stealing her friend's man?

TMZ journalist: Have this been going on longer that the public is aware of? Did she get jealous because Elisa had a stable relationship for a very long time and she didn't? All we know right now is that poor Elisa is heartbroken while Y/n is living the best life of being a homewrecker.

[literarysiren]

Fantastic Fest was a great experience in seeing the range of artists out there making weird, disjointed art that doesn't seek to answer all the questions it presents. Amazing Elisa is one of those that made a fun revenge flick that...is unapologetic in its lack of explanation, and you gotta respect it for that.

[rnafeo]

Who we are when we die may matter more than who we were as the living.

Elisa Gonzales / John Everett Millais / Peter Paul Rubens and Jan Brueghel the Elder / The Narcissist Cookbook / Naethan Apollo / Fionna and Cake / Emily Dickinson / Madilyn Mei

[firstfullmoon]

Oh my goodness okay there’s this poem that I’m pretty sure you shared a couple of months back and it was about grief and it was the one where it was a sibling mentioning that her younger brother had been shot and it was long-ish and I was wondering if you remembered what it was called? Has a repetitive line that you quoted in your tags something like “brother you have to believe me” or something?? I remember that much only. It came back to me suddenly and I just need it so so bad. Ty in advance for your help sorry to bother

YES it’s “After My Brother’s Death, I Reflect on the Iliad” by Elisa Gonzales and don’t apologize for bothering it was amazing to be reminded of this poem & to reread it again

[everythingsbetterunderthestars]

What are your favorite lgbtq+ books?and tv shows and movies?🏳️‍🌈

Okay finally have some time for this so let’s go!

Books first (these are only my absolute favourites if you want more recommendations I have many more that I love):

- Red, white & royal blue (by Casey McQuiston) (mlm and hinted poly if I remember correctly) (romance)

- Crier’s War/Iron Heart (by Nina Varela) (wlw) (fantasy, sort of sci-fi?)

- Solitaire (by Alice Oseman) (yes I count this as a queer book even if it isn’t the main subject) (aroace spectrum + pan and possibly other stuff) (YA)

- Radio Silence (by Alice Oseman) (mlm + demisexual + bi and possibly other stuff) (YA)

- I was born for this (by Alice Oseman) (trans gay + bi) (YA)

- Loveless (by Alice Oseman) (aroace and LOTS of other stuff: lesbian pan and nonbinary, possibly others I don’t remember everything) (YA)

- If this gets out (by Sophie Gonzales and Cale Dietrich) (mlm) (romance)

- Ace of spades (by Faridah Àbíké-Íyímídé) (mlm and wlw) (thriller)

- They both die at the end (by Adam Silvera) (mlm) (YA? idk how to describe this book)

- History is all you left me (by Adam Silvera) (mlm) (YA)

- Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe/Aristotle and Dante dive into the waters of the world (by Benjamin Alire Sáenz) (mlm) (YA, coming of age, sort of romance, I don’t really know)

- Lark and Kasim start a revolution (by Kacen Callender) (nonbinary + trans + polyam) (uuuuuuhh I guess romance but also coming of age maybe? I have NO idea how to describe this book but it is criminally underrated why is no one talking about it it’s a masterpiece please read it)

- Giovanni’s room (by James Baldwin) (mlm) (uhm. weird)

- This is how you lose the time war (by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone) (wlw) (sci-fi but more fantasy honestly, sort of romance I guess)

- Last night at the telegraph club (by Malinda Lo) (wlw) (romance)

- Six of crows/Crooked Kingdom (by Leigh Bardugo) (mlm + maybe other stuff in the background I don’t really remember) (fantasy)

- The priory of the orange tree/A day of fallen night (by Samantha Shannon) (wlw + mlm + aroace + nonbinary + trans, there’s basically a bit of everything in there) (fantasy)

- The witch king/The fae keeper (by H. E. Edgmon) (trans + mlm + wlw + ace + polyam + nonbinary, there’s also a lot in there) (fantasy)

Okay now for tv shows my all times favourites are:

- Heartstopper (romance)

- Young Royals (drama, romance)

- Heartbreak High (drama, comedy)

- Half bad: the bastard son and the devil himself (fantasy)

- Good omens (fantasy, comedy)

- Sex education (comedy, drama)

- She Ra and the princesses of power (cartoon, fantasy)

- The owl house (cartoon, fantasy)

- Interview with the vampire (fantasy, horror)

- Everything sucks! (comedy, drama)

- Orange is the new black (comedy, drama)

- Years and years (dystopia)

- Buffy the vampire slayer (this is my absoute favourite show ever, but the queer rep only arrives season 4) (fantasy? Don’t know how else to describe it)

And now for the movies:

- Fanfiction (coming of age?)

- Elisa & Marcela (romance)

- Pride (uuuuuhh demonstration lmao? Idk comedy?)

- But I’m a cheerleader (comedy)

- Red, white & royal blue (romcom)

- 120 BPM (er… drama?)

Hope this helps, sorry again for not answering sooner😭 if you want more recommendations I’d be glad to help, just need to find the time to answer lol but I’d genuinely be super happy :)

Also if you have any questions about these don’t hesitate to ask me!

[aworldofdarkness]

5 New Videos Released!

5 New video releases. These are NFT Forever except for “Winnie The Pooh”. Please don't trade/sell/gift/share these in any way, or post/share any part of them online.

If you’d like to be added to my mailing list please fill up the following form as it is the only way to guarantee knowing about my newest release: https://form.jotform.com/222556278244864

Please email mozartwascrazy@yahoo.com if interested in any video.

Winnie The Pooh | Off-Broadway | June, 2022 | NFT June 25, 2023 | bikinibottomday & MozartWasCrazy | MP4 (HD)

CAST: Will Rupert (alt Winnie the Pooh), Kadyn Kuioka (Christopher Robin), Tina-Kim Nguyen (alt Piglet/Roo), Vicky Oceguera (Kanga), Emmanuel Elpenora (Eeyore/Owl/Rabbit), Sebastiano Ricci (alt Tigger)

NOTES: Supercut made from bikinibottomday (4K) & MozartWasCrazy (HD)'s videos from the same performance, filmed with a mix of medium, wides and a few closeups, a bit of obstruction is present at the sides and bottom at times but it doesn't affect the viewing experience, includes both videos as well as the supercut which all come off NFT the same day.

Screenshots: https://photos.app.goo.gl/5GSbwuYW1yu4BVEA8mp4

The Rocky Horror Show | Fourth Mexican Revival | October, 2022 | NFT Forever | MozartWasCrazy | MP4 (HD)

CAST: Beto Torres (Frank-N-Furter), Gloria Aura (Janet Weiss), Moises Araiza (Brad Majors) Gerardo Gonzales, (The Narrator) Juan Fonsalido, (Riff Raff), Maria Filippini, (Magenta/Usherette) Cecilia Arias, (Columbia/Usherette), Marcela Carraro (Rocky), Carla Heftye (Eddie/Dr Scott), Alejandra Desimone (Phantom), Ana Sofia Cordero (Phantom), Armando Andrade (Phantom), Carlos Iriarte (Phantom), Ervey G. Ortegon (Phantom), Jonathan Portillo (Phantom), Miranda Labardini (Phantom), Natalia Moguel (Phantom)

NOTES: Excellent HD of the newest revival of RHS in Mexico City, Filmed with a mix of medium, wides and ocassional closeups, minimal obstruction at the middle of the bottom of the screen, first couple of songs are a bit obstructed/covered up due to phantoms and usherettes being in the audience but nothing too bad, includes bows, Time Warp Reprise and post show speech as well as the programme.

Screenshots: https://photos.app.goo.gl/RLhYztnW2XN92j4j6

The Prom | Mexico City (Second Season) | First Preview | October, 2022 | NFT Forever | MozartWasCrazy | MP4 (HD) CAST: Alicia Candelas (Emma), Romina Marcos (Alessa / Alyssa), Anahi Allué (Gigi / Dee Dee), Mauricio Salas (Benny / Barry), Roger Gonzales (Trent), Alicia Paola (Angie), Oscar Carapia (Memo / Sheldon) Samantha Salgado (Mrs. Greene), Alex de la Madrid (Sr. Arias / Mr. Hawkins), Maria Acuña (Jenny), Diego Meléndez (Nick), Carolina del Toro (Karli), Saul Guzman (Kevin)

NOTES: Great HD capture of the first preview of the new season of The Prom. filmed with a mix of wides, mediums and a few closeups with some obstruction as well as some wandering and minimal washout. New theatre, new set and a partly new cast, some transitions are a bit wonky and some minor set fails occur as can be expected in any first performance, some microphone issues as well. Includes Bows & Programme

Screenshots: https://photos.app.goo.gl/Qcbrg882mLBPbYTM9

The Woman In Black | Mexico City | October, 2022 | NFT Forever | MozartWasCrazy | MP4 (HD) CAST: Ricardo Morell (alt Arthur Kipps), Benjamin Rivero (alt The Actor)

NOTES: Excellent HD capture of the Mexican production of The Woman In Black. Filmed with a mix of medium, wides and closeups, first minute or so is heavily obstructed by the people in front but almost fully dissapears after that, some washout - specially on faces on brighter scenes as well as a bit of wandering, audience members can sometimes be heard cussing/screaming after getting scared.

Screenshots: https://photos.app.goo.gl/9VvwUKVxrGHCFMQL8

Mentiras | Mexico City Revival | October, 2022 | NFT Forever | MozartWasCrazy | MP4 (HD) CAST: Aitza Terran (e/c Daniela), Maria Elisa Gallegos (alt Yuri), Brenda Santabalbina (Dulce), Pahola Escalera (s/b Lupita), Enrique Montaño (Emmanuel), Mary Francis Reyes (Manoela)

NOTES: Good HD capture of Aitza Terran as Daniela. Filmed mostly as a blindshot with ocasional medium and closeup zooms, a bit of obstruction with some washout and a bit of wandering, features a few short coverups when ushers were telling off the person next to me for filming.

Screenshots: https://photos.app.goo.gl/LWmgLyERrdGPpk9d6

Asking price for each is $16 USD (Woman In Black, Rocky Horror Show, The Prom) & $12 USD (Pooh, Mentiras)

[violets-and-honey]

To My Twenty-Four-Year-Old Self - Elisa Gonzales

Sometimes you feel more intimacy with the woman who lives

in the apartment opposite—twenty years older, probably,

though she looks barely ten, devoted to evading age—

than with anyone stroked or kissed or otherwise handled.

You sit naked on the white sofa, lights on, looking into her home,

lights on.

She paints her toenails, watches a black-and-white film,

Hitchcock, maybe: there’s a woman with a platinum chignon.

She applies a green mask. A cream. A mystery ointment.

When you meet an older woman who resembles her, enough,

you do the obvious thing.

That woman says, after, Don’t ever leave me

but when you report to your friends

you change her words to Don’t ever forget me.

Typical of us, the lie and the lie.

Why couldn’t you tell the truth? That’s what I’ve come to ask.

Not to her—to your friends.

I can’t remember why it embarrassed you.

Was it that she was old enough not to bare her throat?

Or was it shame at yourself, for misunderstanding

how well you were understood?

(It always comes back to knowledge with us, doesn’t it?)

Maybe it doesn’t matter: you’ll think of this woman

so often throughout the years

that by some lights

you’ll have kept your vow.

[amfey]

Proyecto cartas de despedida

Este perfil de instagram es una carta de despedida escrita con distintas frases que fueron usadas para dar el último adiós. Frases cargadas de distintas melancolías, amores y desamores. Reposa tu duelo en colectividad, sigamos escribiendo para dejar atrás

Proyecto:

Ana Elisa Gonzales Pliego

Jesus Andres Ugalde

Arminda Mariana Estrada Cruz

https://instagram.com/cartas_despedida?igshid=MTNiYzNiMzkwZA==

#TemasSelectosArteDigital

[lamilanomagazine]

Cesena, a Teatro Bonci “Voci per l’infinito. Beethoven – Schumann: grandi solisti per due capolavori”

Cesena, a Teatro Bonci “Voci per l’infinito. Beethoven – Schumann: grandi solisti per due capolavori”.   La Stagione concertistica del Teatro Bonci riprende mercoledì 29 marzo (ore 21.00) con Voci per l’infinito Beethoven – Schumann: grandi solisti per due capolavori: l’Orchestra Sinfonica del Conservatorio “Bruno Maderna” di Cesena diretta dal Maestro Paolo Manetti interpreta Mendelssohn, Schumann e Beethoven con Giuseppe Albanese, tra i più richiesti pianisti della sua generazione, e Alfredo Persichilli, primo violoncello del Teatro alla Scala e della Filarmonica della Scala. La cantabilità del Concerto per violoncello di Schumann è posta a confronto con la maestosa profondità del quarto Concerto per pianoforte di Beethoven. Centrale è la figura del solista, che da un lato riflette la condizione romantica dell’individuo di fronte all’infinito, dall’altra si apre sull’intimità più segreta. In apertura l’Ouverture per orchestra in si minore op. 26 La grotta di Fingal, composta da Mendelssohn dopo una visita all’arcipelago scozzese delle Ebridi nell’agosto del 1829. Giuseppe Albanese ha debuttato nel 2014 su etichetta Deutsche Grammophon con un concept album dal titolo Fantasia, con musiche di Beethoven, Schubert e Schumann. Ha inciso anche per Decca e Universal. “Premio Venezia” nel 1997 e Premio speciale per la miglior esecuzione dell’opera contemporanea al “Busoni” di Bolzano, nel 2003 ha ottenuto il primo premio al “Vendome Prize” con finali a Londra e Lisbona: un evento definito da Le Figaro “il concorso più prestigioso del mondo attuale”. Laureato con lode e dignità di stampa in filosofia sull’estetica di Liszt, è docente al Conservatorio “Bruno Maderna”. Primo violoncello del Teatro alla Scala e della Filarmonica della Scala, Alfredo Persichilli si è diplomato a 17 anni con il massimo dei voti e lode sotto la guida del Maestro George Schultis. Ha eseguito come solista i più importanti concerti del repertorio dello strumento e ha registrato l’integrale dei trii per archi di Schubert e Webern insieme a quelli di Schönberg, Petrassi e Reger. Ha interpretato numerose composizioni contemporanee, classiche e d’avanguardia, di autori come Petrassi, Sciarrino, Lombardi, Boccadoro, Holliger, Sollima, fra cui alcune a lui dedicate: Le quattro maschere di Dioniso per violoncello e orchestra di Carlo Galante (prima esecuzione assoluta con i Virtuosi della Scala), il Trio per archi di Rudolf Kelterborn, il Concerto per violoncello e orchestra di Wolfgang Marschner.     Orchestra Sinfonica del Conservatorio Bruno Maderna di Cesena direttore Paolo Manetti pianoforte Giuseppe Albanese violoncello Alfredo Persichilli musiche di Ludwig van Beethoven, Robert Schumann, Felix Mendelssohn Orchestra Sinfonica del Conservatorio “B. Maderna” di Cesena violini Chiara Arcidiacono, Chiara Bizzarri, Natalia Cavallo, Michelangiolo Chiavacci, Davide Disanti, Samuele Fattori, Giulia Franceschini, Umberto Frisoni, Giulia Galantini, Francesco Giovannini, Chiara Guida, Costanza Lugaresi, Ludovico Mealli, Tommaso Montalti, Marco Nerenti, Lucia Pacini, Isacco Pagliarani, Arianna Pasoli, Nicóle Vitale, Xiaojun Yun, Costanza Zappalà viole Caterina Bernocco, Novella Bianchi, Marta Cappetta, Antonio Gioia, Jasmine Ong, Gianluca Saggini violoncelli Giada Moretti, Alessandra Cefaliello, Virginia Grassi, Marcella Pavoni, Amerigo Spano, Vincenzo Taroni contrabbassi Pietro Agosti, Greta Battisti, Simone Francioni, Mattia Previati, Giovanni Valgimigli flauti Elisabeth Fanesi, Tayna Tacyane Aparecida Trigo oboi Alessandro Betti, Lucia Florio, Gianluca Tassinari corni Pablo Cleri, Andrea Menicucci clarinetti Michele Gigliotti, Gerardo Urban fagotti Javier Gonzales, Agostino Babbi trombe Aurelio Corda, Costanza Dalmonte, Elisa Valgimigli timpani Laura Conca, Antonio La Rosa tecnici del suono Andrea Jin Chen, Matteo Bertani     PROGRAMMA Felix Mendelssohn Ouverture da concerto in si minore per orchestra La grotta di Fingal op. 26 Robert Schumann Concerto in la minore per violoncello e orchestra op. 129 Ludwig van Beethoven Concerto n. 4 in sol maggiore per pianoforte e orchestra op. 58   Informazioni: Teatro Bonci, Piazza Guidazzi – Cesena Biglietteria: aperta dal martedì al sabato ore 11-14 e 16-19 | nei giorni di spettacolo ore 17-21.30 | la domenica ore 15-16.30 | T. 0547/355959 | info@teatrobonci.it Biglietti da 16 a 8 euro.  ... #notizie #news #breakingnews #cronaca #politica #eventi #sport #moda Read the full article

[umass-digiturgy]

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Elisa Gonzales, Professor of Voice and Acting, joined us in the rehearsal room this week to lead vocal warm-ups, share feedback, and offer one-on-one coaching with members of the ensemble.  

[mediadiscord]

New Comic Book Releases - 1/4/23

If you're not familiar with where to go to find comics you can use this locator. Let's go ahead and take a look at what's out this week. 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[pierrotwrites-hc]

Defining Trauma (and writing it)

During intake with my new therapist, she recommended Pete Walker’s “Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving: A Guide and Map for Recovering from Childhood Trauma” (a title with two colons to let us know that it means business).

Because I want to get an A in therapy -- a goal that has nothing at all to do with C-PTSD, I’m sure -- I immediately bought the book and ripped through it. The speed of my reading is an indicator of digestibility rather than exceptional quality, which isn’t (necessarily) a knock: we’re living in a time when truly excellent resources on trauma are abundant and accessible, and my bar is high.

I did, however, mark the following definition of trauma, which elides the slippery and contentious debates over exactly how dreadful an experience has to be in order to merit the label by framing the matter, quite usefully, in terms of neurology:

“Trauma occurs when attack or abandonment triggers a fight/flight response so intensely that the person cannot turn it off once the threat is over. He becomes stuck in an adrenalized state. His sympathetic nervous system is locked ‘on’ and he cannot toggle into the relaxation function of the parasympathetic nervous system.”

...which reminded me of another passage in another (better) book about trauma, Laurence Gonzales’s “Surviving Survival: The Art and Science of Resilience” (a title with the acceptable number of colons: one):

“An ancient pathway in the brain, which scientists call the rage pathway, connects several areas to produce what neuroscientists call ‘affective attack.’ Affective means ‘emotional.’ When you are attacked, you automatically fight, scream, and bite. All mammals are born with this response. You don’t have to learn it. The rage pathway begins in the amygdala and sends signals to the hypothalamus, which monitors the state of your body and imparts tremendous powers of persuasion to all sorts of appetites, such as thirst and hunger. The rage pathway ties those structures in with an area called the pariaqueductal gray (PAG). The PAG is one of the places where you represent the physical self, both the outer and the interior body, and is involved in feeling pain and in responding to fear (freezing or fighting). The PAG also sends nerve fibers into the parts of the brain stem that control the jaw and face; biting and baring your teeth are part of the rage response. This response is so powerful that it can be overwhelming. It is, after all, meant to free you from the grip of a predator."

...which in turn reminded me of another passage in another (even better) book, Elisa Gabbert’s “The Unreality of Memory” (no colons at all):

“The psychologist and trauma specialist Peter Levine developed a model of what you might call trauma avoidance in prey animals. He observed that when they’re unable to flee or fight, they freeze instead—either hiding or playing dead. But while they are frozen, all the chemical activation associated with fight or flight persists. If the animal survives, once it’s safe it will need to ‘discharge’ this energy through shaking or trembling. He noted that humans also freeze in the face of threats, but rarely do they go through the discharge stage—likely because, as Scaer puts it, ‘dramatic shaking all over is “unseemly” or “hysterical,” and tends to be suppressed'...It’s like the fight-or-flight process can’t play itself out and so gets stuck.”

Taking these three passages together, we can conclude that trauma happens when the fight-or-flight reflex is triggered and cannot be turned off -- and when an attack activates the rage pathway but the physical response that is “meant to free you from the grip of a predator” is subdued or suppressed, leaving the survivor in a state of suspended chemical activation. 

Gabbert connects this state to experiences of chronic illness and pain -- and indeed, survivors (especially of childhood sexual abuse) are more likely to experience both. 

Looking at this conception of trauma, it’s useful for me (and perhaps for you) to think of C-PTSD as occurring when the conditions of trauma are also the conditions of life -- so enduring and seemingly inescapable that they become normal -- and so normal that any indication or suggestion that they may be abnormal can trigger a strongly negative and even defensive response.

This is something I’ve been thinking about in writing recently. In Part II/Chapter 18 of TGB, Luca has his first experience of conscious anger -- not at his abusers, but at the friends who are challenging his perception that the conditions of his life are normal. As a child subjected to extreme abuse in a society that sanctions it, he made the subconscious decision to accept the apparently universal consensus that his abuse is appropriate and deserved. This is a survival strategy: it’s what allowed him to stay sane. To bend without breaking. 

As Gabbert says, “Abused children are prone to ‘inappropriate bonding’ with their abusers” -- and if the abuse is not just systematic but systemic, the product of a larger social logic, then the victim may also form an attachment to that logic itself, for the simple reason that it is the only way for them to make sense of the otherwise senseless violence that defines their lives.

Gabbert connects the inappropriate bonding patterns of abused children to the fact that laboratory rats, "when given shocks in a certain part of a maze, will tend to return to that part of the maze” even knowing that they will be shocked again. As the scientist who worked on this experiment puts it, “The familiar is more rewarding to the rats than the unknown.” 

If abuse is “the familiar” -- if it is as deeply woven into everyday experience as the facts of gravity and inertia, and has itself taken on the quality of a fact -- then “the unknown” can be impossible to imagine.

Joan Didion says that we tell ourselves stories in order to live. In the context of C-PTSD, we believe the stories that other people tell us about ourselves -- no matter how awful -- in order to live. That’s why, when we are confronted by the falsity of these stories, it can feel as though our lives are at stake. We can become protective of the very people, systems, and behaviors that have most imperiled us.

The work of healing begins when we begin to imagine the unknown -- to shape in our minds a territory outside and beyond the world that has been given to us.

In the context of hurt/comfort, and thinking back to Levine’s model of trauma avoidance, we might think of this as the discharge stage. 

Recs for h/c that writes the discharge stage particularly well:

- “A Little Life,” by Hanya Yanagihara

- “Like An Arrow Through a Flock of Doves” by @arsenicjade​ and @hoosierbitch​

- “Marks Not Yet Made,” by empty_room

- “Freak Camp,” by brosedshield and LaviniaLavender

- “Broken Road” and “My Lips Have the Sin,” by @hoosierbitch

- “Motion Training,” by nonymos

- “Ipseity,” by SkyisGray

- “In Hell He’ll Be in Good Company,” by barbaricyawp

(The last three are Stucky, simply because that fandom is particularly interested in trauma recovery. No points for guessing why.)

Let this be a placeholder for a longer, better post in which I identify what the discharge stage can look like in fiction and why it’s an essential element of the comfort arc in h/c.

ETA: I would also LOVE recs for other works that focus on this aspect of the /comfort arc!

[jeanmoreaux]

Hello my dear friend. I would like to ask a favor, would you know any poetry on the topic of siblings? I have experience more angst and anger and great sadness in my relationship with my younger sibling, younger brother. Many times I believe I’m overdramatizing and perhaps I am, but I cannot help it and feeling overwhelmed

I’m just not sure if anyone else has the same struggles (I am the eldest, I am female. #eldestdaughtersyndrome)

hi there! as an eldest daughter with two younger brothers i can relate. it's not always easy. i can't really think of many poems that center a sibling dynamic except 'after my brother's death, i reflect on the iliad' by elisa gonzales.... but here is a collection of quote and poem fragments about siblings someone compiled. really sorry i can't be of more help </3

[dykrophone]

kakakakakavya

hi :)

what are your most anticipated book releases of the second half of 2022?

*in little miss perfect voice* nanananananananadia hi:)

OOH OKAY SO MANY LET'S SEE IM GONNA TRY TO NARROW IT DOWN TO ONE PER MONTH

july: dauntless by elisa a bonnin!!! (not counting the society for soulless girls which released a week back and which i loveee so much)

august: BABELLL and also it sounds like this by anna meriano

september: death by society by sierra elmore

october: nothing sun and nothing spoken by nita tyndall

november: never ever getting back together by sophie gonzales

december: a million to one by adiba jaigirdar ive literally been waiting for it since before hani and ishu came out hdjhddjh IT WAS SUPPOSED TO COME OUT ON APRIL 5TH IM STILL SALTY

WHAT ABOUT YOUUU (not month-wise obviously im just a nerd who marks book release dates on my calendar as my primary reason to live hdhdjdhj)

[persephonyed]

hi there ! i’m looking to expand my muse list, so i’m adding a few new characters who you can find under the cut, along with a ( very ) brief, informal lil descrip of them. i’d love to get some starters going with them and get a feel for my newbies, so give this post a like if you’re interested in a starter from any of them ! i’ll come to you for muse specificity and to maybe work out a little plot.

avery odelia cohen ! 30, bisexual, daughter of a billionaire tech mogul and murderer. ( riley keough. ) she has seen her family murder and get away with it, she has seen them steal and get away with it, so she was raised to believe she could get away with anything. like when she accidentally killed her first boyfriend in a freak drowning accident when she was sixteen? avery had no consequences. she’s terrifyingly privileged and protected by her father’s power, combined with her insanely high iq that no one suspects she has, she’s able to manipulate any situation to turn out in her favor. and more than one ‘accident’ has occurred in her life. she might even like it at this point.

callista “callie” lucia ortiz ! 36, lesbian, university professor. ( aubrey plaza. ) teaching folklore and greek mythology was definitely a choice that callie’s parents didn’t understand, but she knew it was her passion and pursued it despite their disapproval. now she’s one of the leading specialists in the field and a sought out professor at a prestigious school. but she isn’t one of the stuffy and stuck up types that typically teach at her school. and most of the time, with success comes scandal, and there are definitely rumors circulating about her around school. and she hardly does anything to dispel them; she actually tends to revel in the attention and whispers that follow her through the halls.

daphne josette byrne ! 29, bisexual, ghostwriter ( lily james. ) predominantly known on social media, it seems as if she’s an influencer in the making, but no one really knows just who daphne is. sure, the instagram ad payouts are nice, but she makes her real money ghostwriting for some of today’s most well known authors. she’s signed strict nda’s and binding contracts that will never allow her to spill the truth about the new york time’s bestseller she just write but knowing the success of her literature is rewarding enough. it allows her to live a life expressing herself as a successful writer and maintain normalcy in some twisted, modern way. but sometimes the secrecy does get old.

elisa ianthe oliveira ! 28, bisexual, university student. ( camila mendes. ) double majoring in history and musical theatre, typical indecisive elisa, she also works part-time at the local museum and writes it off for extra credit. her parents are both mega history nerds and she was raised with dates and folklore being shoved down her throat constantly. she’s blunt, dry, and hard to tell if she’s having a good time, but tends to be fun to hang out with. soothingly genuine and keeps her private life private. but once you crack her intriguing interior, you truly do unlock another level to elisa, and she has no problem being her true self around you. it just might take awhile to get there.

flynn arlo kapoor ! 35, bisexual, museum director. ( rahul kohli. ) he’s a first generation immigrant to parents who own a restaurant and work their ass off to make flynn’s life incredible and provide all the opportunities they can for him. and he hasn’t fucked up those opportunities. he finished grad school summa cum laude and was offered a position running a museum right out of school, which was his dream, so he quickly took it. he’s a big family guy and momma’s boy, and he made sure the new job was close by so he could always support his parents whenever they let him. family means everything to him, and he easily puts anyone he befriends genuinely into that catagory as well.

ingrid dorothea langley !  26, pansexual, noblewoman. ( alicia vikander. ) much like emily dickenson, ingrid knew she was meant for more. meant for greatness. she lives every moment to it’s fullest and embraces every wild and weighty emotion she experiences. she’s full on all the time, and tends to be an open book. her sexuality is hushed in the times they live in, but she won’t ever not follow her heart where it leads. she’s optimistic and looks for the best in people and situations, and journals just about every moment in her life. she’s determined to never live a dull moment.

peyton celeste kimura ! 22, queer, ballet student. ( kaylee bryant. ) focused is the best word to describe peyton. she’s always lived in her sisters shadow, from attending the same school to now living up to her quite infamous career, peyton does everything she can to be better. ballet is her life and she doesn’t let anything or anyone get in the way of her success. she’s insanely naturally gifted in the arts, but with the way she trains, you know that she has always doubted just how good she is. very hard on herself, never gives herself a break, and lets few people in. but cares deeply when she does.

malia beckett dixon ! 34, bisexual, director. ( tessa thompson. ) malia truly knows what it’s like to find fame in a small town, having gotten ‘discovered’ her senior year of high school by a wealthy talent scout. she was swept away and appropriately funded to make her first indie film on a professional level, and hasn’t stopped producing award-winning films since then. she’s humble and emotional and uniquely in tune with who she is as a person and an artist. fame hasn’t gotten to her head but she does tend to get buried in her work and lose track of her personal life and relationships because of it.

marguerite “marty” alejandra gallardo ! 30, lesbian, social worker. ( eiza gonzales. ) having loving parents who died at a young age, marty was left to fend for herself and her younger sister while they grew up in the system. living through it, she decided to take on a career that could help out and change children’s lives for the better, while also fostering a healthier life for her and her sister. she is an internally emotional person, and finds it hard to bottle up her feelings as much as she would like. she’s intelligent and her sister is her world, she would never let anything happen to her.

sabina ines caldeira ! 21, pansexual, university student and heiress. ( alba baptista. ) raised in europe to wealthy parents who made their fortune off the vineyard she grew up on, sabine is the epitome of aesthetic spanish summers spent wine drunk and lusting for freedom. she’s pursuing life outside of that fantasy while going to school before having to learn the family business. luckily she loves the empire she will one day be taking over. free spirited and naive, she seems like you could walk all over her, but you might want to think twice about that.

siena anne norwood ! 28, pansexual, vampire. ( florence pugh. ) she was turned in the height of the tudor era, a place where she sat on the king’s lap and thrived in court, but she wronged someone in power who targetted her as their next victim. the feeding didn’t go as planned and siena ended up becoming a vampire, and honestly prefers this life to her former one. she’s old and strong and much smarter and conniving than she lets on. she loves to fuck around and mess with people and has only met few who actually impact her life. truly little remorse for her actions.

sebastian anthony hernandez ! ( nathan wallace — repo the genetic opera ) 28, heterosexual, repo man. ( sean teale. ) he works for a mysterious employer who sebastian only met when they made a mysterious donation for his heart surgery. the anonymous donor saved his life and pays well, so he doesn’t complain. he has a two year old daughter who isn’t in his custody to provide for and does whatever her can to make sure she’s always taken care of no matter how shitty the job. he doesn’t let anyone close to him for fear they will get hurt and he’s upset he can’t let anyone know his full self.