I don't want to leave this blog totally empty, so I'll do a proper introduction!
You can call me Aia, I'm just a girl that likes drawing her favorite things. One of those things is vocaloid! Since the 7th wasn't too long ago here are my fav Ruby drawings
i forgot tumblr existed again! anyways, I made a remix of WILDFIRE by CIRCRUSH and it's hit over 200 views, making it the most popular video on my channel!!! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!! if u haven't listened yet, go do so!!! i'm very proud of it and it's one of my favorite tracks i've ever done. stay tuned for more, i'm editing the video to my next one bit by bit, and cooking up more originals too!! love my fellow trashcats so so much <333
This song is being sung by the character Dr. Temnova from Ferry's series Parties are for Losers.
This song describes her views on science and really shows her apathy towards people through the lense of science.
The first stanza "Panic was never a factor / I looked into the maw of a burning reactor / And so my soul could soar with my heart on the altar of science / Like an obedient dog" Talks about her run in with a zone that caused her to either become immortal or just cause her to age slower, though I believe it to be the former because of how Ferry said she's "About fifty years older than she looks" implying that she stopped aging fifty years ago, which lines up in the timeline.
Also, describing science as an "Altar" on which her heart has been sacrificed really explains her mentality and her viewpoint on science as a whole, seeing experimentation as a sacrifice for the greater good.
This continues into the next line, "Pity is never a factor when mercy is a sign of a talentless actor," essentially saying that, in her field, empathy is a weakness and if you are not willing to give that up, then you won't make it in that path. The later line "A gear in the machine grew immune to corrosion" also supports this idea.
The next lines are being directed towards the character Dmitry, her most prized experiment. "And once you go beyond pure humanity's borders, you will come running back like a dog" the comparison of him (another human being) to a wounded dog that will 'come running back' to the facility the second the outside world realizes what he is, truly connects to her view of experimentation as being for the greater good and her lack of emotional empathy.
The end of this chorus section that says "Run back like a dog to Her" has two possible interpretations. One is related to the note in the description saying "The Russian noun for “zone” is of feminine gender," though I've always interpreted this more so as presenting the idea that Temnova IS the zone.
What I think is more likely is that she is saying that Dmitry will come running back to Katya since she has been captured and taken back to the facility, and Temnova believes that even if he's not coming back for her, he will come back for Katya, so she'll see him again regardless.
The final chorus states "And even if it takes you decades, I know that / You will come running / BACK LIKE A DOG, A WOUNDED DOG / TO ME." The line about it taking decades returns to the idea of her immortality. How long it takes for Dmitry to return matters not to her, because her perception of time is distorted, she knows it will happen at some point, and that gives a bit of a terrifying motherly quality to her.
Hey guys! Fun fact! I make music too! I’ve been messing around with Engloids lately and made a Soundcloud account specifically for my Vocaloid stuff. Here’s a song about dying that you can dance to. CW // DRUG MENTION
My new song "TELL MYSELF" (feat. SAROS) comes out on March 15th at MIDNIGHT!!!
im so so proud of this song and i can't wait for all of you to finally be able to listen to it 😈
special thanks to GALAPAGOS-P (https://twitter.com/GALAPAGOSPMUSIC) for the incredible artwork!! please go follow them!! they make incredible art and music that is incredibly underrated!!!
Presave on Spotify: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/hypnopossum/tell-myself-feat-saros-3