#episode related: s15e18

[melanieathene]

It Only Took a Second

It only took a second to change everything. The words “I love you” hung in the air between them. Three little words that found lodging in Dean's heart as no other words ever had.

In that breathless second, Death and the Empty's presence were forgotten. The world narrowed down to the blue of Castiel's eyes, the tears that trickled down his smiling face. Joyful tears. A joy so deep it transcended time and place.

In that frozen moment, everything Dean had ever wanted (but had never hoped to find) was within his grasp.

And then it all was ripped away.

[ao3feed-destiel-02]

Moment's Silence

Moment's Silence https://ift.tt/PmlCB0j by deludedfantasy Dean Winchester kneels for no one. After all, that’s his thing: unbeatable, unbreakable, the last bastion between humanity and the forces of the supernatural, a cocky asshole with a give-’em-hell attitude and a gun. There’s no better poster boy for classic American machismo and masculinity. And yet. The first time Castiel sees him fall to his knees is in Stull Cemetery. ** Or 6 times Dean kneels and 2 times Castiel does Words: 23212, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Jack Kline Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Kneeling, 5+1 Things, Sort Of, Episode Related, Fix-It of Sorts, Happy Ending, Episode: s15e18 Despair (Supernatural), Episode: s05e22 Swan Song (Supernatural), Episode: s06e22 The Man Who Knew Too Much (Supernatural), Episode: s07e01 Meet the New Boss (Supernatural), Episode: s08e17 Goodbye Stranger - The Crypt Scene (Supernatural), Episode: s10e22 The Prisoner - Library Scene (Supernatural), Episode: s13e01 Lost and Found (Supernatural), Episode: s15e03 The Rupture (Supernatural), Episode: s15e09 The Trap - Dean Winchester's Prayer Scene (Supernatural), i have no idea how i'm supposed to tag this fic, Prayer, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, POV Castiel (Supernatural) via AO3 works tagged 'Castiel/Dean Winchester' https://ift.tt/Nvbwa75 March 25, 2023 at 05:00PM

[ao3feeddestiel]

It Only Took a Second

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/Psp9bAJ by Melanie_Athene It only took a second to change everything. Words: 100, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Categories: M/M Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural) Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Drabble, Angst, Episode Related, Episode: s15e18 Despair (Supernatural) read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/Psp9bAJ

[lonelier-version-of-you]

Alright, I’m about to continue my S15 watch with S15E18 “Spence’s Choice - Part Two”. I’m excited for even more Michael Spence content.

Edit 1: Oh, it’s a Martin Jameson episode. :/ I still haven’t forgotten him defending the whole Puppetgate thing a few years ago (if you want to know what I mean, look up the play All In A Row, but prepare yourself for ableism... yep, Martin Jameson defended that play).

Edit 2: Oh, the mother of the boy from the previous episode is here as a patient!

Edit 3: Speaking of mothers, here’s Serena’s! I won’t lie, I briefly forgot Serena exists after she wasn’t in the previous episode. For a moment there I just thought AAU at this point was just Michael, Sacha, Chrissie, and Gemma, haha.

Edit 4: Ric saying Serena not being on the ward is good news is relatable. Also, Serena’s wearing her bi cardigan that I never noticed until I saw it pointed out a few months ago. (Obviously, as someone who doesn’t like Serena, I don’t give a lot of attention to what she wears, lol.)

Edit 5: Ollie is a Coldplay fan!

Edit 6: Henrik!!!!!

Edit 7: Ah, here’s Hamish, the med student from a couple episodes ago.

Edit 8: I love Tara.

Edit 9: Serena seriously talked a patient out of having his operation so that there would be a free slot for her mother?? What the fuck?? That’s a proper Henrik-level move and I don’t say that as a compliment.

Edit 10: I love Henrik’s pink shirts.

Edit 11: Aaand plot twist: the kid Michael was concerned was being abused actually most likely has brittle bone disease. Okay then. For all they were going on about how rare it is, it doesn’t seem very rare in the Holbyverse, does it?! I swear the “kid shows up with injuries, the doctors assume the parents are abusing the kid, kid actually has brittle bone disease” storyline has been done over and over again.

Anyway, I theoretically have time to finish watching this episode since there’s only like 10 minutes left anyway, but I have stuff I should probably be doing so I guess I’ll finish this ep in an hour or so, before Eastenders comes on.

Edit 12: Right, let’s finish some Holby. (As some BBC exec probably said on the 2nd of June 2021. 😂)

Edit 13: I can’t really say I’m that interested in this Serena stuff.

Edit 14: Aw, Michael on the phone to his daughter!

Edit 15: I love Gemma giving Michael good advice. <3

Edit 16: Hamish has withdrawn his bullying complaint against Elliot. That’s convenient. 😂

[destinationtoast]

How much Supernatural activity have we seen since Nov 5?

Did you see that post going around about having to scroll through >54 pages on AO3 to get to any SPN fanworks created before Nov 5? Me too -- and being me, I had to fact check that and compare it to some other fandoms! 🤣📊

By the time I did some quick analysis yesterday (8 days after Cas declared his love for Dean and was immediately eaten by superhell goo*) the number had grown to >1.5K AO3 fanworks produced since Nov 5 (75 pages on AO3).

That's a lot! However, the Supernatural fandom is incredibly prolific -- it has produced more than 234K fanworks on AO3 over the years. And as my recent 2020 stats revealed, it's still one of the most active fandoms on the archive. So how much have things changed since Nov 5?

First I compared recent SPN fandom activity to earlier SPN fanwork production -- both earlier during S15 and before the season started**:

Daily average since Nov 5: 193 works/day (more than 2x earlier this season; more than 3x pre-season)

Beginning of season 15 through Nov 5: 87 works/day

Leading up to new season: 57 works/day

I also compared Supernatural to other big fandoms on AO3 over the past 8 days:

In the weeks before Nov 5, Supernatural was producing roughly the same # of works per day as Batman (all media types). Since Nov 5, it's been close to the rate of production for the whole DCU fandom!

SPN is currently more active than Untamed/MDZS

But it's not the most active fandom! For instance, SPN is still producing somewhat fewer fanworks than BTS. And some of the most active fandoms of all, BNHA and Harry Potter, have each produced over TWICE as many fanworks as SPN since Nov 5! (There are a few other larger fandoms, too -- see my 2020 stats, released right before Nov 5, to get a more complete picture.)

So how has the content of AO3 fanworks changed since Castiel's confession and death? Based only on the top tags used, here's what I see:

A big jump in Destiel -- 38% of the fandom's works used the Castiel/Dean Winchester relationship tag before Nov 5, and 60% have since Nov 5

>20% tagged specifically as being about the Nov 5 episode -- Episode: s15e18 Despair (though probably many more works address the episode but don’t use that tag)

Fix-It and Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence each surged to be used on >5% of the works (an increase for Canon Divergence up from 3.4%, and a bigger increase for Fix-It).  Coda was used on 8%; I don’t know if Coda works mostly tend to be canon compliant, but I do see the Fix-It tag also used on a bunch of these works.

Angst up from 12% to 22%; Angst With A Happy Ending increased to >7%

I'm super curious whether this activity is mostly due to new/existing SPN authors, or whether lots of long-dormant authors returning to the fandom to react to this event. But I don't have data about authors. If anyone else has done analysis about that or anything else related, I'd love to hear about it!

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Thanks to @fansplaining for several comments and questions that shaped this analysis. 💜💜 And IIRC, @elizabethminkel coined the pun I used in the title! 😹

This post is now also available on AO3!

*Note: I have not watched Supernatural, so everything I (think I) know about the show, I learned from Tumblr. Hope this is approximately correct?? ;P

**Note that different days of the week have different activity levels on AO3 -- e.g weekends are very productive -- so the post-Nov 5 numbers are likely to vary a lot based on which exact set of days you average over.

[ishipdestiel-lovesofmylifeistg85]

Fellow SPN fanatics, plz help me I'm dying. I've seen clips recently in those music video types on YouTube that are a song with Destiel background images and/or videos. The scene from SPN is Castiel asking Dean "So this is goodbye?" (Or similar wording) BUT it's not Castiel leaving or dying, I figured it was about when Dean has decided to lock himself in the Ma'lak box but I'm googling and even the SPN wiki isn't showing me anything about Castiel and Dean goodbye related things except for S15E18 and that's not what I'm looking for. I'm getting very frustrated please can anyone help? I want to rewatch this scene and possibly whole episode but I have no idea when/where it is and of course it's not listed in the episode descriptions ugh!

[imnova]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural, Good Omens (TV), Sherlock (TV), Sherlock Holmes & Related Fandoms Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Aziraphale (Good Omens)/Crowley (Supernatural) Characters: Castiel, Crowley (Good Omens), Sherlock Holmes Additional Tags: Drinking & Talking, Post-Episode: s15e18 Despair, Attempt at Humor Summary:

Castiel finds himself in an unexpected place. They might not be Dean, but there's a bond with the people he meets there. Kind of. @chrwythyn Happy birthday, love! This is the result of my brain today. Might be awful.

[ilovefanfic86]

Supernatural S15E18 “Despair” and S15E19 “Inherit the Earth”

MAJOR SPOILERS

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This is going to be my longest posting, so I am going to add a keep reading link.

I am skipping episode 17 because way too much happened since then. Spoilers ahead. Plus a shit ton of side notes.

Come share my pain...

“Despair”

I’m not going to dwell to much on the whole episode. I just want to focus on the main parts. 

I’m glad that we got to see Charlie, Donna, and Bobby. Then they get dusted. Fuck you Chuck.

Billie wants to take over as Death and put everyone back where they belong. Anyone that was resurected would die human and angel a like.

Billie sends Jack to the Empty to let off his bomb and kill it. 

THE BIG MOMENT...

Billie is chasing down Cas and Dean. She wants to see Dean die before she does. Dean and Cas get locked in the dungeon so he can block her power. Dean then tells Cas that he got them into this all because he wanted to kill Chuck. Then Cas went and made it canon.

Cas finally tells Dean about his deal with the Empty. Once Castiel finds happiness, the Empty would kill him. The one thing that he wants, its something he can never have.

Cas proceeds to tell Dean how pulling him out from Hell changed him. How the way Dean sees himself as a killer, is not the way the world sees him.

Castiel tells Dean that he is the most selfless, caring, and loving human being he has ever know. Everything that Dean did, good or bad, he did it for love. Dean made Cas care about people and the world. That

Dean asks him, “Why does this sound like a goodbye?” Cas replies, “Because it is.” 

Cas then tells Dean, “I love you.” 

DESTIEL IS CANON!!! (All of us who knew) 

The Empty is summond kills Billie and then Castiel.He is taken with a smile on his face. He’s happiness was telling Dean he loved him. Then its just Dean on the floor.Crying. Me too Dean. Me too.

Sam, Jack and Dean are the only ones left on Earth.

Supernatural

S15E19

“Inherit the Earth”

My heart can’t take this.

By the way.... DESTIEL IS CANON!!!!

Damn I guess I’m gone too.

Oh shit! Where is Cas?! NO NO NO!!

This hurts on so many levels.

Lol! “Sudden Death”

Jack praying to Cas is just too much right now.

What the hell is wrong with Jack?

Damn I hate to say it, but Sam is right. He wanted to find another way and the world finally paid the price.

Hearing Sam wanting to give up is hard.

Fuck Chuck!

You damn right bring back Cas.

“The world is this way because you wouldn’t take a knee.” Fucking hell Chuck.

Poor joke.

Dean is drunk and unconcious Dean on the floor. He misses Cas so much that he starts drinking heavenly again.

Jack looks adorable in his pj’s.

 *Side Note*

I am starting to think that all the things that Jack did to kill Chuck, that made him God-like? I mean he basically became a super nova with the amount of power he had and then survived. Plus the plants are dying around him too.

Jack can sense life?

Dean found a dog and named it. Talk about a character arc.

 *Side Note 2*

I feel like Dean finding the dog relates to Cas dying. Hear me out. Dean doesn’t like dogs. And we were made to believe that Dean was straight and loved Cas as a brother. Then Cas confessed his love for Dean. Dean may now be open to things he “THOUGHT he didn’t like. Because you don’t miss it until it’s gone. Like Cas.

OH SHIT!!! THAT WAS SO FUCKED UP!! Chuck took the damn dog then smiled at Dean. Man FUCK YOU CHUCK!!!!

Chuck really just fucking with them now.

I feel like I’m watching the movie “The Prophecy”, when they were at the gate.

Okay...So Michael is the one who had the humans believe that God was an all loving, all caring God. After Chuck left, so heGod would feel the love. Talk about a plot twist.Michael and the Winchesters working together.

Dean looks so scared.

WHAT CAS!!???!!!

Dean ran so fast up the stairs to get the door!!??

GOD DAMN IT LUCIFER!!!!!

....I need a break.... 

The Empty sent Lucifer to get God’s death book. 

He brought a reaper then killed her. Making her the new Death and can read the book.

It’s way too many plot twits!! Chuck let Lucifer out?!

Kill his ass Michael!!

Watching Lucifer dying again is so satisfying.

What’s wrong with Jack?!

Dean caring for Michael is another storyline arc.

Sam is going to use the Book of the Damned to read the book.

This shit is intense.

WHOA!!

OH SHIT MICHAEL TOLD CHUCK!!

OMG!!! MICHAEL!! HE DIDN’T HAVE TO DO THAT!!!

I feel you Sam. If I’m going to die, at least let me get a hit in.

CHUCK IS GOING TO FIGHT THEM!!

OH SHIT...

This is painful to watch. My babies!! 

Sam helping Dean up is too much.

Hell naw they won’t stay down. FUCK YOU!!!

I’M DEAD...

WHY ARE THEY SMILING???!!!?!?!?!?!?!

JACK!!!!

Chuck laying in the dirt, scared is everything. 

“Dean Winchester, the ultimate killer.” “That’s not who I am.” WHO WROTE THIS!?!?!?!?!?

THAT’S RIGHT CHUCK!! FUCK YOU!!

WOW!

Jack brought the people back!!!

I’m so proud of Jack.

Jack is the new God and Amara is inside of him. They are both in harmony with each other.

Sam, Dean... Jack isn’t coming back to the Bunker.

I’m confused.

Damn it Jack. 

He will be such a good God.

NOT...THE...HAND!!! FUCK!!!

Dean in maroon.

So are you going to talk about Cas now???

Wow. they are really free.

They carved they’re names in the table.

...Okay... This is too hard to watch. I’m a huge fucking mess. This was so bittersweet, but I’m scared for next week.

WHERE THE FUCK IS CASTIEL?!?!?!?!?! I NEED TO RELIVE THIS MOMENT!!!

Promo

S15E20

“Carry On”

...Son of a Bitch...

*Side Notes*

 Michael’s death was beautiful, yet tragic. All he ever wanted was Chuck’s love. When Chuck was killing him, I noticed that Michael’s heart was exploding. Basically his heart broke. 

 I love how they made Jack into the new God. The concept of it was amazing to me. Because Kelly and Cas told them that Jack would bring paradise to the world. Jack telling Sam and Dean that he is always with them.In the rain, the wind, the sands on the beach. You could tell that Jared was really crying. Me too Jared.

 Its beautiful that Sam always believed in Jack. He knews he wasn’t evil . Sam Winchester raised GOD and a good man. God is a 3yr old.

If Castiel doesn’t come back the next episode I am seriously going to throw hands.Cause honestly, just because Jack brought back everyone, (Did he bring the monsters back?) why is Dean happy? It feels like they are just forgetting about Cas. 

Becky was right!!! 15x04 When she reads Chuck’s ending, she was us right now. That shit really hurt.

I have never been more proud of Sam and Dean than I was this episode. Even though they had planned the attack on Chuck. Jack is absorbing the energy that Chuck is releasing fighting the boys. Chuck is beating them breaking bones, making them bloody. They continue to fight him. Fighting him through broken bones, blood, sweat, and tears... THE WINCHESTERS NEVER STOP FIGHTING!!!

Instead of killing Chuck, they leave him. To become human. To die, old and alone. No one remember him or care about him. Leaving him in the dirt in “despair” that we have.

They did Dean dirty in this episode. The dog was so hurtful and wrong as hell. Then Lucifer pretending to be Cas that was the most hurtful scene to me. The hope and happiness Dean had when he thought Cas was there. The way he ran up the stairs, 2 at a time. The looks of horror and disappointment on his face was heartbreaking.

I know this was a lot to read if you made this far. Lol! This was the best epsiode in the series to me. It has surpassed; “Swan Song” and “Black”. I know as soon as I hear “Carry on my wayward son...” I will have a panic attack.

[ao3feed-destiel-02]

It Only Took a Second

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/LIhSHx7 by Melanie_Athene It only took a second to change everything. Words: 100, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Categories: M/M Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural) Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Drabble, Angst, Episode Related, Episode: s15e18 Despair (Supernatural) read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/LIhSHx7

[speedygal]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural) Additional Tags: canonical love confession, Dean Winchester Prays to Castiel, Established Castiel/Dean Winchester, Castiel Listens To Dean's Prayers, Episode Related, Episode: s15e18 Despair, Episode: s15e09 The Trap - Dean Winchester's Prayer Scene, Episode: s15e09 The Trap, Quote: Y yo a ti Cas | Me too (Supernatural), Dean Winchester Says "I Love You", Dean Winchester Muttered "I Love You" While Praying, Quote: But still beautiful. Still Dean Winchester. Summary:

His actions were so poetic, but his words were more often filled with popular culture instead of poetry.

[frozenmemories1987]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: CSI: Crime Scene Investigation Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Julie "Finn" Finlay/Sara Sidle Characters: Sara Sidle, Julie "Finn" Finlay Additional Tags: Episode Related, Episode: s15e18 The End Game Summary:

Finn is still in a coma and Sara sits by her bedside, contemplating her feelings.