#even if you havent watched the show lol they're great

[strrwbrrryjam]

for all my grievances with tangled the series, one thing i cannot criticize them for is their songs, i mean, sure, not all of them make sense in context (let me make you proud comes to mind), the songs are spectacular, from the vocals to the instrumental, all of them are a joy to listen to, whether they are just incredibly goofy, like the buddy song, to heartbreaking, like waiting in the wings, whether its a solo, a duet or a group, they are wonderful to listen to

[jadebread64]

time for me to post my bullshit ramblings on the new doctor who episode in no particular order like a maniac lol

(SPOILERS AHOY, DONT CLICK ON THE READMORE IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THE EPISODE)

obviously seeing tennant and tate back in their roles is so cool, they feel exactly as they should, it doesnt even feel like 15 years have passed when you watch them its great

DONNA CANONICALLY HAS A NONBINARY DAUGHTER AND IM SO FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT THAT

NOT ONLY THAT BUT HER ALSO BEING PART OF THE METACRISIS TIME LORD SHIT IS SUPER COOL

lmao im not even joking when i first saw the meep™ i literally thought "aww it's so cute i hope it doesnt end up being evil" and LO AND BEHOLD

OH MY GOD DAVID TENNANT JUST SUDDENLY PUTTING ON A FUCKING JUDGE WIG AND DOING A COURTROOM SCENE WITH THE MEEP AND THE WRARTH WHILE DONNA AND HER CONCERNED FAMILY JUST OBSERVE

also i think the wrarth voices are so funny cause in the trailers they're like *auurhghghg scary monster sounds!!1!* but in the episode they just sound british like every doctor who space alien should

i think the new TARDIS looks really cartoony and i think it's kinda fun, idk if ncuti is gonna end up with this TARDIS set (i'd imagine the bbc doesnt have the budget to make a whole TARDIS set for 4 episodes then just make a new one lol) but i think it looks kinda plain at the moment? idk if they added some chairs and bookshelves n shit like the capaldi one and make it look more lived in overtime it might be one of my favourites just for the whole classic who vibe it has. either way it's perfect for david he gets to run around like a little kid in there and thats all that matters lol

also tennants new suit looks so fucking good and honestly wish he just had that in series 2-4 instead of the brown suit

i think it's so funny how literally not even 5 minutes after entering the TARDIS donna just fucking spills her coffee on the console and the whole thing just explodes and goes to shit immediately lmao

ALSO WE'RE GETTING A FULL ON TENNANT/TATE ADVENTURE NEXT WEEK???? AM I IN 2008 OR 2023 I CANNOT TELL ANYMORE TIME HAS NO MEANING

im really hoping we get to see whoever the fuck neil patrick harris' character is in the next episode, im 99% sure it's gonna be the celestial toymaker but only because the doctor who youtube account kept posting celestial toymaker clips and i think they're being cheeky bastards lol (/positive)

(/sarcasm) i cant wait to see all the queerphobic assholes shitting on this episode for having the few pronouns/binary lines in it and going "dOcTor wHo iS wOkE nOw yUcK" even though doctor who has been progressive since literally 1963 with the daleks (which got a fancy new colourization that i need to check out still but thats a whole OTHER THING LOL)

oh yeah and david's acting is really fucking good in this, like when he thinks wilf has died and he just sorrowfully says "i loved that man." like MY HEART CANT TAKE THIS

plus when he thinks he has to sacrifice donna to save everybody, holy shit his perfomance is incredible

this is just a me thing but seeing a doctor who episode live as its broadcasting is so cool, i've been watching this show for like 8 years (i think??) and i usually just ended up finding it on dailymotion or some shit like a day or two after the episode aired so i'd always be late for it lol (btw for the people coming after me i dont pay for disney+ at all lol) so watching it the at the same time as everyone else was very cool especially since i nearly slept in through it lmao

anyways i think thats all if i remember any more things i'll add em in lol

plus some bonus ramblings before the episode aired

[saintarmand]

8, 17, 21 & 22 for the iwtv ask thingy! 🤍

8. Who's your favorite actor?

jacob anderson. come on now. they're all great but he is ethereal. second place assad zaman

17. Have you read or watched anything because it was referenced in the show?

oh just a few things

love's coming of age by edward carpenter

chéri by colette

nausea by jean-paul sartre (louis was reading this in ep6 when lestat and claudia are playing chess while talking about nicki. you can't see the full cover but i went detective mode and figured it out)

madame bovary by gustave flaubert

a moveable feast by ernest hemingway (s2 first look "esurient hearts beating as one, the rumbling beast of the moveable feast")

iolanta (tchaikovsky opera)

don pasquale (donizetti opera)

pelléas et mélisande (debussy opera)

a doll's house (henrik ibsen play)

a streetcar named desire (tennessee williams play) + the movie with marlon brando

i didnt read the full text but i did hunt down and read parts of "de masticatione mortuorum, the chewing dead" that claudia mentions, full title "dissertatio historico-philosophica de masticatione mortuorum" by philip rohr (1679) (view the original manuscript here + english translation here)

i havent finished all of emily dickinson's poems yet but im getting there! (some of these i had read before ofc but im reading them all in order now)

ive also previously watched nosferatu (and rewatched it for iwtv) and the trimph of the will (NOT rewatching 💀 that was for a film history class) and ive read dante's inferno which louis mentions ("if i was to join dante's wood of the self-murdered...") and i highly recommend it!!! absolute fav

there's also stuff that wasn't directly referenced in the show but the fandom has drawn parallels to, that i've read and watched for that reason.

anne carson's an oresteia (to better understand all the agamemnon iphigenia clytemnestra electra comparisons people make)

giovanni's room by james baldwin

rebecca (1940 film)

theres def more movies but i cant remember lol

and theres some nonfiction books i've yet to finish bc im slow at nonfiction

the vampire: a casebook by alan dundes (cited by writers as s2 inspo! about irl vampire folklore)

black new orleans 1860-1880 by john w. blassingame for historical context

the theatre of fear and horror by mel gordon, on the grand guignol aka the inspiration for theatre des vampires (i did finish this one except for the summaries of all the plays, i decided to skip that there's so many. very engaging read and gives a lot of insight into the some of the bts stuff we've seen about the theatre)

louis's favorite movies from the tale of the the body thief!

la belle et la bête (1946)

the company of wolves (1984)

the dead (1987)

i may be forgetting some stuff. there's also so much more on my list that i mean to get to. a prayer for owen meany by john irving, of "memory is a monster" quote fame is locked and loaded for example

if anyone's interested to hear my thoughts on any of these feel free to ask i would love to talk about it!!!

all this and i've still only read the first 6 of the actual vampire chronicles. and im still procrastinating starting merrick

21. What was your favorite monologue of season one?

HMM the obvious one is louis's confession. ive watched the whole sequence from the funeral to the end of the episode a truly unhealthy number of times. also claudia's coffin monologue

22. Who's your favorite character? Why?

LOUIS. probably because i relate to him so much. instant connection. tricked into loving myself. also like hes literally louis how could i not love him do i need to even explain this

when i started reading the books i didnt care for book louis that much lol but i did become an armand stan. possibly bc i also relate to him im selfish like that i guess. also just his whole backstory and the way it informs everything he does is so fascinating to me. ppl say hes incomprehensible and hes literally not. everything he does makes sense when you consider his life experiences

iwtv ask game

[sinkableruby]

What are your top 5 Ougi scenes/appearances?

good ask to send me than,k you

starting from 5 well i guess i dont really have like a strict order except for maybe the top one i dont know i dont know i love all of them actually im just gonna do it in chrono order

um spoilers of course dont read this if u havent finished the whole anime (the whole anime!) there will be screencaps...

okay if im going chronoogically i must give my hat to owarimonogtari part 1. wait FUCK theres so many scenes in that shit.......... im gonna be running out of space damnit.... well to summarize it BRIEFLY... (how the fuck do you even summarize it briefly my feelings are large and want to burst out of my chest)... ougis sinister leading araragi down dark paths and poking at his past and knowing the deal but playing-dumbery and antics are just amazing. and shes so cool as she does it how did she get to be that cool! evil and cool.... thats the summary but the scene i would want to talk about is of course the showdown with hanekawa (the first one i guess). uh bc its like really funny? the showdown is great its such a fun buildup of tension and they're like passive-aggressive/plain-aggressive-but-still-loosely-following-social-boundaries trying fighting each other... its great. i think in the light novels when hanekawa says 'but i would have done a better job' ougis smile freezes. you can hear the glass break. you can just hear her in her head shes going like ".......................bitch,? so that's how you wanna play it?" i wish that got animated sometimes. and also of course. it ends how it ends.

its an incredible moment because literally the moment she says this you're like ah. i see. so ougi loses. LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

LIKE GG NO RE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 SORRY OUGI YOU LOST.... DONMAI ITS OK DONT WORRY ABOUT IT. YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO SEE ANYTHING AFTER ITS LIKE AH. GOTCHA. i was rooting for her to win when i was watching but... this was just so funny. the best way for things to have gone i think.

its also so good how she stands there after like. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.......... usually ougi is the one doing things to people and its funny but this is also just so hilarious its done so well.

i also want to talk about otori, because ougi in otori is very cool. my first time watching otori i was very in tune with nadeko so hearing ougi do a kinda takedown of her was a very interesting experience for me. she was very sinister and severe and foreboding...... very fun. and of course when it turns out she's been tugging at the strings..... heeheehee THATS SO COOL. i mean looking at these scenes like some of these shots are so cool.

^ the face of someone so evil......

ok going later

i never see people talking about this one but the scene in hitagi rendevous in owari ge that happens on the second episode after the ending is like. oogh. its like the big instance before the finale proper in ougi dark where the show starts fucking slapping you in the face screaming "PAY ATTENTION THERE'S SOMETHING IMPORTANT HAPPENING HERE"

like this shot this FUCKING SHOT. is it just me? is it just me am i the only one who feels acute pain at this? there's something about it thats just so............... like somethings wrong. like thats what i feel like something is wrong and im concerned for this person you feel me?

shes so tired trying to get his attention and do her job and all that shes pressing the doorbell laying down... and then she sees him and goes like 'im exhausted' and just keeps girlbossing like. and like asks araragi (from her perspective) not to kill her and hes just like no and shes just like damn that sucks oh well lol. like imagine being alive for 6 months having no home (shes laying on the god damn nameplate of his house augh...) and knowing full well you're about to die, the things youre seeing now will be some of the last things you ever experience before your consciousness is gone forever (bc she isnt going to hell shes being erased). that's so cool and awesome (horrifying). anyway ougi doesnt care shes got a job to do X) (shes so insane i love her)

also that home thing and the tiredness thing is one of the big things i wrote ougi stay about so ill just take the chance to plug it if ur still reading this go read my fic! i like it a lot i think its nice. its mostly funny but it also talks about this stuff too a bit. go read it

ok next.

dont know whether to count the different parts of this scene as separate or not but i think it shouldnt be separated bc its all important to the scene and that is OF COURSE: ougi dark starting with ougi's convo with tsukihi (the build up… it's oddly calm so you feel somewhat reassured but you KNOW something's going to happen… the buildup of tension starts here and keeps rising). the contents of that conversation, near the end are like, really cool things to be included because up until that point we still dont have SO much insight as to who ougi is but she opens up a bit to tsukihi here and its kind of a paradigm shift to see.

there's something so poignant about this fraught mood...

such an ougi way of talking about one's feelings about oneself...

at least for me when i was watching i was already like, kinda rooting for ougi bc i wanted bad things to happen to araragi (lol) but also like. ougis just so insanely entertaining and fun that like, uh obviously i would root for her here. so when this fun silly funny little fun character starts bustin out the:

its like woah wait huh back up hold on a second there. i care you>???????

like literally the whole confrontation with ougi and araragi it is just like oh no since when did i care about this character so much oh no oh god oh fuck...

like how come they gotta hit me with all these gut punches what did i do to deserve this

like whats so cool about it is with how its directed and the score (and the voice acting!! the seiyuu did an INCREDIBLE job) and everything you can tell shes scared but like again shes actually insane so she's just gonna be like yeah this is the right way for things to happen

(it seems a lot like she did all this wanting the outcome of her losing to araragi, at least to me. hanekawa also says so in the commentary tracks of ougi dark. so thats another layer. theres so many layers... i dont know how many of these layers people pick up on but by golly do i pick up on them)

and of course he saves her (imagine if he didnt? id kill him. WAIT ACTUALLY THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE LIKE "ARARAGI SHOULDNT HAVE SAVED HER" NEVER GO ON THE REDDIT DISCORD SERVER FOR MONOGATARI PEOPLE ACTUALLY THINK THIS WAY IM LITERALLY GOING TO KILL THEM ITS SO. ok i wont talk about it), and she gets mad and its like i KNEW you were putting up a bold front you had emotions this whole time and then its like. oh you had emotions this whole time and you were totally aware of everything and just kinda had to deal with it thats kinda fucked up (i think a lot about how being an oddity born of self-criticism necessarily means you have to be self-aware and how that leads to ougi being a kind of exceptional type of oddity and like how it ties into identity and like... all that stuff). but the emotional breakdown/outburst is so good... augggghhghhh its so good 😭😭😭

(like i think sometimes about how if they had done this wrong, it would feel out of place for ougis generally not-emotion-showing character/not emotional in general character, but they did it so well... its so good)

and of COURSE to cap off this perfect beautiful wonderful scene we get THE GWEH AKA THE PEAK OF FICTION. IT DOESNT GET BETTER THAN THIS. NO IM NOT JOKING. LITERALLY WHEN I SAW THIS I HAD AN EPIPHANY. NOT JUST BECAUSE ITS ADORABLE BUT BECAUSE ITS LIKE HOLY SHIT INTUITIVELY A PART OF ME UNDERSTANDS. THIS *IS* **THE** BEST CHARACTER. and i went to go pace around my room being hype about it. im not joking really bc the novel talks about it being like "an utterly unattractive true-to-life" groan or something that proves she has "substance" which is like... yeah! she's her own person! not just made of lies or w/e!! the gweh actually ties everything together in such a perfect way and i am physically incapable of remaining in bad mood after i see it. i saw it the first time and i was like :O -> :) -> :DDDDDDDDDD and that hasn't changed since it will always put a smile on my face 😌

also also ougi in zoku owari is incredible too so good. the TEEHEE THE TEEHEE IS SO AMAZING. like YEAH!!!! YOURE A LITTLE ROTTEN PRANKSTER TEEHEE!!!!!! YEAH!!!! TRICKSTER TIME TIME TO BE TRICKY A TRICKY LITTLE TRICKSTER YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! and we get more classic ougi exposition/explanation..... havent talked about this as much but their ideas are so interesting.... theyre so interesting and cool i would pay to hear them share ideas about things.............. anyway one other thing i really appreciate about this scene is the shared intimacy between ougi and araragi. it feels more personal yk. this sorta comfortable, natural, thoughtless intimacy is something i absolutely adore about their dynamic but it basically only happens right here in zoku owari, and not even so much in the light novel version. its interesting... i want to write about it. im GOING to write about it mark my words

also honorable mention to ougi in hanamonogatari. theres nothing like big enough about these scenes to mention in comparison with the rest of them bc theyre so short but. BOY OUGI YEAHHHHHHHHHHH HES TRANS WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i saw that and i was like >:) yeah kanbaru wym hes been a boy this whole time >:)))) don't misgender him god...... >:))))))))))))) (AND HE LOOKS SO COOL THEY ANIMATED HIM SO COOL BC HES IN BOYMODE HES SUCH A BOY FUCK YEAH)

also fuck i didnt talk about the whole planetarium dream scene. that was also good.

ummm yeah i could just talk about this forever and keep talking about scenes and stuff but ill leave it here bc u said 5 and ive already technically named like 7 at least so. yeah. but i dont really have like a ranking order necessarily, except for ougi dark bc its just so so so SO good.

thank you for enabling my derangement ive been writing this since u sent it to me im so ougipilled right now you wouldnt even believe. im ougi wired.

[cynicallyneutral]

Arrives holding the entire tales of series

So!! If you're interested in jrpgs, I would highly recommend the Tales of series, specifically Tales of the Abyss (my fav) and Tales of Symphonia are good starting points. Symphonia is on a bunch of platforms (most notably steam) and Abyss is on ps2 but easy to emulate ✨ I would also personally recommend Tales of Zestiria for the characters bc I love them dearly (but the gameplay is.. not so great haha)

Also if you want I'd like to recommend the anime Sirius the Jaeger just bc it's my comfort show sjxk and it's only 12 episodes so easier to commit to

And.. also,, only if you want,,, idk how much you read but all three series by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu are my favorite thing rn bc this genre of Chinese fantasy isn't one I've read before and also!! They're queer romances :D (with also their whole other plot going on so you can enjoy excellent story that is also romantic) I would specifically recommend starting with Heaven Official's Blessing (my personal fav) or Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation!! As I feel those have more solid romantic relationships and they're easier to enjoy maybe?? The third (but first published lol) is The Scum Villain's Self Saving System which I always recommend as being funny bc the main character's narration is very humorous but it's also. God there's so much tragedy and hh but anyway

So yeah there's a dump of things I like if you'd like to try any of them out ajdksk sorry this ended up so long

ooh tbh ive always wanted to try and get into the tales series, i believe there was an anime for tales of zestiria and and i wat hed a few eps before…unless i dreamed that all up??? lmaoooo, i’ll add them to my long list of games to buy lmaoomdfhfjfj tbh i already have a few games that i bought and havent played yet, god forbid i bought both the swsh like 2 or 3 years ago and havent played it djvbcjcj

the art style is nice whoaaa and thr protag..i assume??? looks so cool i would watch it for them hhh, ill try tomorrow!!

those series i keep seeing on twitter bc of my mutuals, ive always been curious what they were taking abt but it seems like a long series……..i dont know if i have the brain capacity to even start them waaah, i hope to check them out someday tho, rn im just…0 braincells

thanks for all the recs!!! i’ll be sure to make a note of them all 💛💛💛💛

[animalinvestigator]

Not sure if you’ve answered before but how would you rank the Adventure protags?

Oh apologies i didnt see this til now ^_^ I think my general opinion on all of them is that the characters really rarely go beyond just servicable -- the amount of investment i have in the adventure protagonists caps off at the same amount that i have for like, tamers characters i feel like are in the mid to low end range in terms of quality . Like even my favorite characters in adventure dont have a fraction of the power of the weakest tamers character. Which is not a value judgment ; they're different types of show. But it does make it hard for me to have "Favortie characters" outside of superficial reaosns. with that in mind my hierarchy is like

hikari + tailmon best, koushiro + tentomon second best, jyou+gomamon and yamato+gabumon tied for third, sora+biyomon in fourth, mimi+palmon and taichi+agumon tied for 5th, and takeru+ patamon sadly in last place (neither of those characters have had like "a moment" since the daycare episode in like the verrry first arc + the devimon fight its frustrating. I mean i guess they kind of do in the pumpkimon and gotsumon ep but not really)

keep in mind i still havent finished so theres a lot of ground that gets covered i havent seen, but this is where im at right now. hikari and koushiro are really the only human characters i find compelling and tailmon is the only character i consider genuinely great (though that's mostly just out of personal bias lol) . doesnt mean the rest are bad, they're all very fun in their own ways and even if the character work is weak i feel like the show never stops being enjoyable to watch because of the way their basic traits interact with eachother ^_^

[severalsmallwizards]

yeah!!! the fact toko sucks is such an essential part of what makes her so charming and such a great character

that pretty much extends to the entire thh cast (no clue about dr2 or 3 i haven't gotten to them yet)

they all suck in some way, but not as in They Are Bad People™ or any of that wack ass noise, it's just that they're a bunch of high schoolers who have all gone through terrible shit to get to where they're at and it shows

even people like kyoko and sakura and taka who are about as spotless as you can expect from a bunch of teenagers still have their fair share of fuck ups and yet (or rather, precisely because of that) they're all such compelling characters and such fundamentally good and loveable people except byakuya

and that just makes the dread of knowing they're doomed and seeing them dropping like flies as the pressure mounts more and more all the more mortifying. you're rooting for them, tku WANT them to live, because THEY FUCKING DESERVE TO, because THEY'RE JUST A BUNCH OF KIDS, but, well, ........... this is dr we're talking about

TL;DR rip ancient greek tragedians you would have loved danganronpa we've got hamartias and catharsises(?) for days over here

YEAH honestly a fair share of my issues w kyoko arent bc shes like, a Bad Character but bc she was written by Bad People and therefore did some shit that i find abhorrent. but i understand that like... kyoko is not real and did not write herself doing those things. and while they can be apart of her character, in canon what she does is hardly acknowledged at all from what i rember (I MAY BE WRONG) so its like. What do u even do with that.

a lot of Hm :| things in dr are bigoted writing from the real people behind it. but sometimes its a character being A Shithead (or a mix of the two). and it can be hard to separate it sometimes! shitty writers or a character being a shithead, would it even be right to separate it? and exclude that from a characters Character? am i making sense? its problems. Yeah. tldr; my kyoko opinions are a lil biased but i mostly am just conflicted on her. but this extends to a LOT of other characters!!!! who up rn and wants to have a critical but open minded discussion about when and how to take bad/bigoted writing into account for character analysis?

tbh i think all of the dr characters deserve to be in a better game get to live and be so happy and heal and have 10000 friendships together. but honestly, because they Dont get that, it makes them that much more interesting to dissect and look at under my autism microscope. like damnnnn you are so doomed by the narrative. im obsessed with u. i really like trying to understand why they act That Way (even if the answer is sometimes bc Writing, good or bad) and think abt how theyd act, or how events would go down, if some things were different. and i really like how fucking avoidable it all was. truly a rube goldberg machine of Fucked Up! theyre all so peoples. :]

AND OH MAN i havent watched the anime and i dont plan to BUT I HOPE YOU LIKE SDR2 IT IS GENUINELY. MY FAVORITE GAME IN THE SERIES AND I AM *SO* FUCKING INSANE ABT IT!!! i have a lot of feelings abt all of them like AUGH! and tbh i think youll like the themes of sdr2!!

i hope i make sense here LOL

[deathandthemaiden23]

Bro idk who's around me rn idk who's really still here in this fandom idk who will even see this or read it and i dont wanna get into it (proceeds to get into it) but ive been on a grand fucking expedition to confront past trauma and shit lately which whoopeee what else is new for what basically amounts to a dreamworks adult obsessed with the grim reaper from shrek specifically i think there's probably an actual good reason this is my biggest blorbo yet (which by the way, my good bitches, is truly saying something) beyond "big scary wolf sexy" but like anyways its been a hot fuckin second of me just sort of existing in purgatory with basically only this character to keep me real company the whole time chipping away at fanfic and makin doodles here and there while trying to solve the great big fuckin mystery of hey pal is there any particular reason you spend most of your free time fantasizing at length about being loved and cared for by literal fuckin death but um i kinda sorta had been making peace lately with the very real possibility that probably the only reappearances from Death we'd see going forward in this franchise would kinda just be relegated to stuff like being a playable character in that dumbass mario kart game they made recently that they had the audacity to charge $50 for the version with him in it and I was immediately prepared to shell out the fuckin money regardless anyways tldr this is my longwinded way of saying bless harvey fuckin guillen for supposedly saying he wants to reprise his role as perrito in shrek 5 and specifically mentioning he wanted to know more about his backstory including the near death experience he had in the sock that he still wears like ok let me be clear im not getting my hopes up for shit im super excited about the idea of harvey and everybody reprising their roles for future shrek installments but i know shit be disappointing sometimes and it just be like that sometimes blablabla alright nothing is set in stone in this cursed ass timeline we're in bbbbbbut

✨️H O W E V E R✨️

I cannot help but think in some kind of weirdly jaded optimism that surely dreamworks would not fucking let the absolute furry cashcow that Death is go to fucking waste if they're bringing shrek back to the big screen it just seems incredibly fuckin stupid this big fuckin bastard gave everyone a boner when last wish dropped to the extent that i actually didnt know anything about last wish going in to see it in theaters the first time knew nothing of the plot who was in it whatever right THE ONLY FUCKIN KNOWLEDGE I HAD OF LAST WISH PRIOR TO SITTING DOWN AND WATCHING IT WAS "OH I GUESS THERE'S A WOLF CHARACTER AND EVERYONE WANTS TO FUCK HIM" LMFAO UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE FUCKIN YEAR RIGHT LOL anyways if dreamworks doesnt seize the opportunity to give him at least one more like visible cameo appearance anywhere in whatever they can squeeze out of the shrek franchise after it was dead (lmfao) for like years (the puss in boots show is little known to anyone sadly and also it seems vaguely noncanonical if that makes sense stuff gets said on the regular in that show that just seems too batshit even for shrek standards) I'll genuinely like die of shock the entertainment industry is chock full of companies just like dreamworks always achin to get their hands on another iconic character they can squeeze money out of ad infinitum and like i dont want that to happen with Death I dont but also... please just let him show up at least one more time dreamworks throw this bitch a bone im begging you you will make so much money i promise u the thirsty tumblr fans are no joke we'll bankroll your ass to the moon and back

I feel it would be remiss of me not to offer some form of content after all this impassioned war and peace length solilioquy about the scu (shrek cinematic universe) so here's an old WIP from forever ago im like 90% i havent posted here (if i have oh fuckin well tbh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) its a lil scene from chapter 2 of my death fic where he gets caught redhanded picking flowers for his crush because he's a dork ass loser and wants to impress her without coming on too strong lmao like bro she's so into you just go for it

[octolingkiera]

12, 14, 17, 23!

omg hiiii anon~ lol thanks for the ask!! :0

(the list)

12. Favorite turtle across all iterations?

i havent seen most tmnts, so i don't know if i have a single favorite across All iterations, exactly, but i can name my favorite one(s) from the ones ive seen! (which are rise, MM, and 87)

(i need to watch more but there's scheduling conflicts with friends and sitting down to watch new stuff is so hard sometimes WAH)

SO!! for rise, my favorites are leo and donnie (they're constantly engaged in a fist fight in my head for who's number one, tho leo tends to edge donnie out more often) bc they're both just. chefkiss. hashtag relatable and also just absolutely hilarious

for 87 i really like raphael bc he's a snarky little shit, tho donatello is also really great bc he's just. casually unhinged lol

MM raph is also really great (and also lowkey unhinged) but i like the others as well. i feel like it'll be easier to pass judgement on favorites once the show is out and we get to see them in some different situations!!

as a bonus, just judging from fanworks ive seen, i think i'd also be a fan of 2003 donnie (who is also casually unhinged from the sounds of things) andddd idk, 2012 mikey??? he's just a silly lil guy

14. Which character would you want to be friends with?

ooooh uhhhh. prolly Any of the mikeys tbh LOL (except bayverse 💀) tho 87 raphael and rise leo and donnie would be an absolute riot to hang out with lol. i feel like the three of them together would just shoot the shit and be the WORST gossips but in like the best way lol

17. What’s your favorite pizza topping(s)?

im super lame in that my favorite toppings are just. cheese, pepperoni, sausage, bacon,,, lol. im not a fan of most vegetables, and something like hawaiian... i dont like ham at all, so that's a no from me just bc of that

23. If you could have a tmnt crossover with ANY other series, which would it be?

oooh that's a tough one. i feel like tmnt could make for some really fun crossovers with both other superhero series, and also series either based in NYC or having to do with like. weird scifi/fantasy/supernatural stuff. there's a LOT of like. aliens and robots and magic stuff in tmnt, (like WAY more than i expected going into the 87 show after rise) so i feel like a lot of stuff could be twisted to work well

ive seen some really good rise crossovers with marvel/dc, a few really fun danny phantom crossovers, and even a couple with gravity falls. ive ALSO seen a couple with sonic and some of them make me laugh so hard reading the summary that i don't think i'd be able to read them lol. the first fic i ever read with tmnt in it WAS actually a sonic crossover (that i read on ffn waaaaaay back in the day) so in a way it's like returning to my roots lol

i love seeing specific crossovers of my interests so if i see one that grabs my attention im all over it lol

more specifically, i would love to see a crossover with rise of the tmnt and american dragon jake long, and it's like. a future project of mine. i've been talking about it with a friend and telling her for Months that they have a lot in common and it would make for an interesting fic. there's some serious potential there i think!!

(on a more theoretical note, ive also done some really light brainstorming/daydreaming about a potential rise/undertale crossover bc i think it'd make for some neat scenarios lol)

[eepy-iab]

How to brainwash someone into enjoying Tool

Hello, I am iab, a very new tool fan so im basically already a master at this type of thing, and even though i havent successfully brainwashed anyone into liking tool yet, i believe i may have the key to reprogramming someone's brain matter to enjoy tool. here's a step by step tutorial on how to do just that.

make sure they're one of those people who say,"i listen to everything except rap and country lol," (aka a sucker). brainwashing is very tough when theyre not open to new music or dont like weird/experimental music. if they already like nine inch nails or drugs, then this is easy, just have them listen to parabola and watch them open their third eye. if they are not one of these idiots, it would be much harder, but not impossible. worst case scenario, you may have to find them in a low point in their lives needing guidance

give them a shorter and more radio-able song or one of their more popular ones to start out with. my personal recommendation is Sober, it's probably been played once or twice in their radio and their stupid brain will be like,"this is the song we know!" and they will be vulnerable. if they are neutral or feel hatred towards LA then aenema is a great next one. then when they're like a unsuspecting frog in warm water, turn up the heat with some The Pot and watch them not be able to control their head from banging. continue with lateralus to complete the process. for better results, sprinkle in some factoids about the band/maynard between each song like,"haha did you know maynard makes his own wine lol isnt that so cool anyways heres the pot." do NOT let them say,"this isnt for me," always tell them youre gonna show them one more song and if that song fails, show them another until preferable results.

if all else fails, handcuff them to the nearest ground-staked and unremovable pole and blast The Grudge's famous 25 second scream on repeat until they are unable to withstand the might. if they start crying do NOT stop

[that-cartoony-villain]

I'll absolutely take you up on messaging about cr! (do you prefer here or your main??) And same goes - i'd love to hear what you think about where you are in c1 or the live campaign!! Since I'm getting through it so fast I think im going to hold off on watching live until I catch up, but i see bits and pieces about it on here.

I like the storyline so far - I generally know the broad strokes of what is going to happen (lol I cant help spoiling things for myself) but I was just at the bit where Percy was seemingly going to stab Asum/Raishan which could have been a wild, wild turn of events if she'd been there. Plus the fact that that all happened during the halloween episode (which, wow, it was hard to take some of them seriously with their costumes). Now i'm at the bit where they're trying to figure out the larger plan with the armies/luring Thordak/etc. I'm excited to see this play out but also excited to see how things turn out with Vecna.

That's exciting that you're almost at the end! When you do finish (free time depending, I assume) are you planning on continuing to c2?

hey friend nice seeing you back!

you can message me anywhere i mostly post about shows here tho~

oh im very caught up with c3 lmao i started it since the beginning cause i wanted to get into cr before it started and it was just an excuse lmao

c1 i started in december cause i had a lot of important tests i had to take and i wanted to focus on thos first so it took me a while but now im almost at the end (still 5eps to go but once i get more free time im excited to finish it!)

also that part with raishan was great! shes my favorite villain of all time so far... i love a good alliance with someone you hate and keyleth being my favorite pc makes it even better because she absolutely hates raishan

the thordak fight was great and i hope you enjoy the rest of the chroma conclave arc cause i think it was one of the best ones!

and yeah! i do plan on watching c2 because i also know a lot about it since i see a bunch of clips from it and i dont mind spoilers but it might take me longer to get to it since i want to watch the one shots that happen in between

ive watched dalens closet before but it didnt have the same impact so im going to rewatch it and i still havent seen the search for grog and bob

i might also try to watch some dimension20 in the meantime because they have shorter stories and brennan and aabria are great dms so i want to see more of them!

how about you? planning on watching c2 once you finish c1? when you start c3 too you can scream about it to me huabwuabsu i love seeing reactions to the clusterfuck that is the bells hells!

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom season 2, eps 1-5 thoughts! opening the new season with episodes like these kinda blew me away. we had multiple serious episodes INCLUDING a two parter!! also, valerie :)

see prev episode thoughts in this tag <3

-I don't know what I expected s2 to open with. but danny portal incident in more detail was not it. (also, I hate to break it to you, sam, but danny's parent's bigass ghost hunting rv def chugs more gas than those vehicles, lmao. unless it runs on ectoplasm or something...)

-WHY WAS DESIREE IN THE SEWER? HAVING TEA WITH IT DOWN THERE?? Her making the giant cow come alive is a boss move, we've almost had all of my fav animals as ghosts now <3 I also don't like how sam was expecting danny to just, haunt the place so the cars wouldn't get sold? I KNOWWW I know she's 14 (and I had a very annoying phase like this, I think I mentioned in a previous post, I GET IT) but they're HIS powers, and messing with (1) dealership will not really put a dent in sales overall because they can just move the cars to another sales lot, and it certainly wont change the industry anyway, it's more of a minor annoyance for (1) location. Also, usually people who work at car sales places work on commission, so if they dont make a sale, they don't have money to pay bills, or eat. sam baby if u wanna be an activist you need to like, actually look into these things. with as much money as her parents have, she could be doing a lot..more useful things for causes she cares about? it's frustrating to see someone with resources who doesn't know how to use them. but shes 14 so again. cannot be really upset :/

-IS THIS A PREDATOR VS TERMINATOR VS FREDDY KRUEGER MOVIE BUT THEYRE ALL WOMEN?? you know, sam is so right to be excited about this. /I/ want to see this movie. that rules

-paulina inviting danny and friends to her quinceañera, aw! even if it is just to get phantom to show up :') and there'll be a meteor shower, and we KNOW danny wants to be an astronaut!! there's not a meteor shower every night!! the tickets are non-refundable, but..she's rich? like. gotta agree with danny, they never get invited!! I KNOW it's the principle of keeping promises, but if she was that upset, she should've said something. directly. I hated how she was like, passive aggressive about it through the episode, like you SAID IT WAS FINE, THAT YOU'D GO TO THE PARTY TOO. MOVIES SHOW FOR A FEW WEEKS IN THEATERS. IF YOU HAD A REAL PROBLEM YOU NEED TO TALK ABOUT IT. WE'VE HAD THIS PROBLEM BEFORE, SAM. YOUR FRIENDS. ARE NOT. MIND READERS.

-MR. LANCER GOING AFTER THE GHOST WITH THE FIRE EXTINGISHER LMAO

-this outfit is everything . anytime the show does an over the top cutesty pink outfit i WANT IT. it looks like shit I wear JKASDHF I HAVE a bow like that and a pink sweater. I need leg warmers </3

-SAMS GOTTA RE-HALF-KILL HIM??? thats fucked up. but also, he finally got his logo!! it took until s2!!! this episode was lowkey very fucked and I felt like it glossed over a lot. does sam have guilt about like. kinda KILLING HIM?? I know, he also agreed and walked into the portal. but. she made the choice to redo it SO quickly (even if it was because someone had to beat desiree) and danny, during their fight, brought up a lot of stuff sam's done in the past, meaning he was holding onto those memories and resentment was building. (I KEEP SAYING HE LOWKEY NEEDS THERAPY, BUT I THINK MOST EVERYONE IN THIS SHOW KINDA DOES) which...is a red flag? and then they didnt even GO to the party URGH I know she tried to make up for it, but it really felt like Sam fucked up and barely faced any consequences and got everything she wanted in the end. I KNOW it's a kids show obv they aren't going to go too in depth, and she undid the damage, kinda, but...I DUNNO how to articulate it but it rubbed me the wrong way.

-but on a note about desiree, her powers of wishes were STRONG ENOUGH TO ERASE NOT JUST THEIR MEMORIES, BUT DANNY'S POWERS?! fuck, if I was danny I'd be like, trying to make friends with her. I know they always have horrible side effects as most genie-granted wishes do, but...c'mon, I'd at least TRY to be like 'I wish no ghosts would hurt anyone in my town' or 'I wish vlad would lose his ghost powers forever no matter What and also forget about my mom' LIKE. SHIT DESIREE IS SO POWERFUL. rewriting reality powerful, basically!! appreciate her. respect her.

-aww, sam helping tucker pass the nurse's office so he wouldn't see because he's afraid of medical stuff? very sweet. I also don't like medical stuff, I've gotten a lot better at handling it tho. but seeing blood and needles still makes me feel lightheaded x_x

-FOLEY, BY TUCKER FOLEY. I want to make my own perfume, that's so cool. even if his first attempt isn't good, he's pretty consistently shown to have an inventor/entrepreneur streak in the show, so like. I can see him inventing or making something (or several somethings) that make him $$$ when he grows up :) proud of my creative son

-I know the 'creepy abandoned hospital on the edge of town' is a joke and the creepy hospital trope is so Worn Out, but in my town we actually DO have a hospital like that! my dad was born in it, but its not in use and hasn't been for, like, 20 years! it needs to be torn down but I think the city doesn't wanna pay the money. the inside is horrible, spray painted and broken glass and shit everywhere. but there's still like, rusty equipment and fucking DOLLS all over the place. the cops drive by it pretty frequently to make sure no one is like, breaking in. (because of water damage, some of the areas really aren't safe. also, asbestos, but people still go in anyway) but also, some of my town was used in a filming for a stephen king show. So it's lowkey spooky all over. just a fun personal tidbit :) to lead into saying, any hospital abandoned for any period of time is NOT safe to quarantine these kids in JKSAHDKF like I KNOW it's a ghost trying to do this, but NONE of these parents are even like, 'well, why dont we keep them in the regular, working hospital'....YIKES. this hospital looks pretty accurate to the one in town. grungy and spooky.

-fentons are tax evaders confirmed by jack's fear of being audited, lol no one is surprised

-ghost sickness via ghost bugs. horrifying concept. I actually expected it to be a new villain, not dr. spectra again! this is a very elaborate scheme. her new form rules, love the new costume. the way none of the bg kids seem to recognize her as their old school councilor. did we just forget about that completely?

-dash watching romance movies in the fucked up ghost hospital. same.

-'oh please, you're ghosts, do you have any idea what YOU smell like?' no, tucker, what DO ghosts smell like? I genuinely didn't know they would even have a smell, I actually want to know now.

-it feels like a while since we've seen jazz!! i was happy to see her again, even if she was a head in a jar for most the episode. I want another jazz-focused ep!!

-we finally see danny doing space-related stuff!! him and his friends stargazing to open ep 3 of s2. cute :) until, GHOST PIRATES!!!!! ...ghost pirate captain is a small child?? VOICED BY TAYLOR LAUTNER???

-oh, the easy listening is ember's song instrumental slowed. 'vapor drone' THEY VAPORWAVED HER!!! ember in a pirate outfit tho >>>>. and the cruise being called m.bersback JKASDHJK. ember adopting a little pirate brother is also pretty cute. concerning this teen and little kid have such bad opinions of adults, like, who hurt you?? (how did you DIE ALSO?? im always lowkey curious about that. we know desiree died at an old age, but her ghost form is young, probably mid-20s, so I wonder how that sort of thing works...its a more mental thing, isn't it?) but ghost team-ups are always cool to see, even if ember bailed after danny took her guitar. I guess she probably thinks youngblood can handle it (which, he's been owning danny this far in the ep, so...fair)

-tucker got that sponsorship from nasty burger for their radio!!! again, opportunistic money maker king, love to see it!!!

-danny taking control of the kids SO FAST. he makes a pretty great leader. no one is surprised, im pretty sure I said I think he's the most mature of the trio, once again, correct, because he's taken on so much responsibility already. all the teens suiting up in the jumpsuits to go save the adults and taking the ship over with a BLIMP. OKAY LETS GO. this feels like it should be a mid finale or straight up finale.

-...speaking of finales. why is ep 4-5 of s2 combined into a 50 minute episode? I havent even clicked play and im concerned. weird placement, like, this season JUST started and we're getting a two parter? okay...why are the episodes placed like this? why not put this at episode 10 or something, for a mid-season thing?

-this is also a cute dress. possibly my fav dress so far. can her parents give ME cute dresses, I'LL wear them.

-it turns out the castle fright knight was in is called pariah's keep and there's something worse than fright knight in there! lovely! fuck off vlad wtf are you doing <3 your hubris <3 is going to literally get you killed <3 'ring of rage' and 'crown of fire' are great names tho. ...vlad turning into a super polite guy when he was scared of mr. pariah was hilarious. and fright knight doing the same...I mean, it makes sense, he's a knight, he serves a king? happy to see fright knight again either way :) vlad telling him to call him tho, lmfao. you WISH HE WOULD. (I wish hed call me, too. 😔)

-so...jack being genuinely concerned about vlad...maddie really didn't tell him what happened at the cabin, did she. damn. if I was her id immediately come home and be like 'YOU WONT BELIEVE THIS SHITTTT THIS CREEPY GUY--' like, I feel like that stuff you need to tell your partner!!! I know she didnt want Jack to think she was an irresponsible parent putting danny in danger at that time, but STILLLL. maddie spilling boiling tea on him. get his ass. how is jack this oblivious to his wife's discomfort with vlad!! ughhh

-fenton wipe (tm). trademarked toilet paper.

-DANNY AND VALERIE BEING FRIENDS??? :D that was a cute moment. 'hey val <3' and 'if you like him like him, make a move, or someone else will ;)' at sam...damn!! I love her. valerie go for it girl!!! I hate how sam and tucker treat val also, like I GET IT YOURE PROTECTIVE AND DONT TRUST but if anything him befriending valerie will help when she finds out or he tells her like I feel like she'll be more understanding that they think! ALSO I feel like her reason for not liking ghosts is valid, like you haven't really explained the full story to her anyway! she doesn't seem to have any other friends after being booted from the a-listers so im like :( but seeing them kick butt together again was nice <3

-the ghosts all RUNNING FROM PARIAH DARK IS NOT GOOD, I thought he sent them to attack or something, but no. why doesn't someone just tell desiree 'hey i wish pariah dark would die' lol. once again I think she can solve every problem <3 but seeing all the enemies in one place, being civil and hiding together? love it.

-you just know danny's gonna have to clean up vlad's stupid mess. also, jack being willing to put on the ectoskeleton pants to help maddie, as soon as vlad heard it could kill him, he suggested jack do it instead of helping maddie himself? this is why jack got the girl, my man.

-ghost skeletons. how do you end up as a skeleton ghost in your afterlife instead of a humanoid like most the ones we've seen? lmao

-the ghosts just making new homes in various stores. I'd totally be setting up in an expensive clothing store if I was a ghost.

-valerie's dad is possibly the most useful adult so far, with that ghost shield expansion!!! and valerie saving vlad and danny, even tho shes been thru it already, shes still so good!!! this family rules.

-danny: *gently caresses valerie* :)

-*then he immediately TELLS HER DAD ON HER. and his first response is 'are you okay?' :'( such a good dad...

-*me every time fright knight breathes* youre doing SO great sweetie :)

-the fenton suit thing is so silly looking. does anyone take this thing seriously

-ALL THE GHOSTS FIGHTING WITH DANNY <3 AAAAA. and the fact that pariah isn't perma-defeated, but just locked away again. yikes. he'll probably get out again, won't he? it wasn't too clear, but if vlad DID make a pact with fright knight, I am rabid. I will beat vlad to death with the fenton bat (tm). YOU DONT DESERVE A COOL KNIGHT.

-valerie being direct with sam and challenging her? kinda love that, even tho I normally don't like 'catfight' type situations. because sam has been very passive aggressive about it which is annoying. valerie knows wtf she wants and wasn't even embarrassed to tell sam, but she did tell her, giving sam time to make her own move! and sam denied it and got embarrassed/mad! and sam did have a chance when danny was about to go off and fight, and she hesitated and didn't tell him. I feel like she's hesitating because they're friends and it might make it weird between the trio (poor tucker would be third-wheeling) but if u snooze u lose, u gotta GO after what u WANT girl. smh this is a No Tsundere Zone. 😤

[princessrai]

𝔾𝕠𝕠𝕕𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 & ℍ𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕪 𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕜𝕤𝕘𝕚𝕧𝕚𝕟𝕘

Thank you for letting be wake up this morning...

To continue on redeeming myself

To continue healing & letting go

A chance to love on myself more & allowing others that loves me, love me just for me. Even though times get rough & it feels like I'm not wanted anywhere, they still love me.

Thank you for allowing the ones I hurt, to forgive me. Giving them a chance to trust me again.

For being able to work and accomplish the goals I need to achieve to become more self-sufficient.

For allowing my children to be with people that I know has my best interests at heart & theirs and taking care of them during my absence to improve our life as a family. My family of 3.

Thank you for letting others watch my journey as I am still growing, going through this process of life, reveal that I do not have to do things that isn't me, to impress others, to make others like me, love me because I already have a gang of family that does. (I get it. Sometimes you want others outside your family to love you and have your network of friends but that will come (: )

I am thankful for my co-workers who has shown nothing but love and unconditional support. I know my flaws be showing but they look past that.

I an thankful for being able to start over. Completely.

I have to re-learn me. There's things I like, don't like, my pet peeves, what makes me happy, sad, angry, disappointed... I know those things.

I want to explore some more. A co-worker has told me that I never had a good cup of coffee. Like 'french-pressed' type of coffee. It stuck to me because I would think that I've experienced alot but I havent. I'm only 24. I would love to start there. I've never like black coffee. I have to put something in it like lots of sugar and almond milk, creamers..... but a nice hot cup of coffee? Just like I've never had a real date. Where it was intentional. It's a surprise. It leaves me with feelings of happiness & not doubts and wonders. Wondering if he feels the same about me.

I get scared of trying new things (: I thought I loved trying new things but I find myself listening to the same songs over and over, every day because I'm stuck in one time zone: pain & healing.

Honestly, I'm scared of being in the world, feeling alone. Not alone as in no family, or some nice friends, no place to live.... 'Alone' as in being “lonely” is an emotional state where you are feeling alone or disconnected from others – even when they're right next to you. Sometimes we are happy to be by ourselves, and sometimes we wish for the company of others.

Yeah, I feel like that all the time. It really us okay because I know I caused it. I know if I had been appreciative of the ones that were there for me forreal and not push them out before, it'd be different. "We don't want you here" really stuck to me. But I understand it. I really don't know do to let that one go because I had others run from me, kick me out, let me go easily... as if I didn't matter to them.

This isn't self pity. I want to stop beating myself up & being hard on myself.

But I do so I can so continue on being better. I am always hard on myself because the ones around me, is being very hard on me. I don't have the luxury to have a day off or to just relax so I find peace in working & whenever I do get a chance to lay down, I'm grateful for the little money I made & saved.

I have great goals and huge dreams 😊 but it's taking baby steps. It's not going to happen overnight. Time is very valuable to me & I am working on my patience.

I remember the time I lost my virginity. It felt like nothing. So everytime I had sex, I was doing it for the approval that he liked me back. That was never the case lol. Not one guy made me feel like I was the only one. That's what I wanted. To feel like the only one. I was forgetting that we're still young but I was the one that wanted to stick it out and become "lovers" andone day get married and say "we've been together for such and such years" 🤣 . I wanted what everyone around me was experiencing. But instead, I experienced the opposite.

So when I tell you, my relationship with God has grown & never stopped growing. My prayers never stopped, I meant it. I'll never neglect my lord and savior, and talk down on the one that has kept me up and kept me going and has forgiven me for my sins. He's been holding my hand and even when I let go, he watched over me. Making sure I don't take my life don't get taken away or that I don't take my own life because I have a purpose. He has someone for me. If I die, I'll never meet him. I'll never get to experience those happy things moments, feeling great and amazing because I am wanted and loved.

My future husband,

Whoever you are, wherever you are, I don't think I'll be perfect or finished healing when you meet me. I might have days where I'll cry about something in the past because it still hurts. When we're getting to know each other, I might be distant at first. It doesn't mean that I don't like you or that I am not interested in you. The whole dating thing, I do not know how to do it right. The things to say or how to show it. I'd want you to show me how you want to be loved and how to do it. I can't really tell. I can't identify those feelings so when you do come, hopefully I'll be able identify it maybe? I am a go with the flow type person. I'm not going to tell you that I like you or show it. 😏 I am very disconnected. I love people. I just have boundaries and a wall that protects me. My heart. I am extremely sensitive lol. But I truly hope you have the God in you because God knows me. Very well. Whatever he instills in you, I want you to listen to it and follow it. I trust him with all of my heart because he has never failed me. I will not continue to fail him. I hope you know that I am very sweet and lovable and all I want to do is feel good with the person that I am with and conquer the world together. I'd love to build a life and travel and create memorable feel good experiences. I've been depressed for a really long time. Everything will be new to me and I don't want to feel small for not knowing everything. I am trying. All of my intentions are good and I hope yours are too.

Meet you soon,

Amen.

[shaggi]

if i could stop time, i would

info ; eren x reader ; soulmates ; 1.8k

content warning ; end of the world concept, mentions of not really wanting to live lol, gentle angst

Day one. 72 hours until the world ends.

The world is going to shit. I know it is because I can hear the panicked buzz of mothers holding their children close and reassuring them as the news practically burned "we're all going to die" into our heads.

My fingers twitched as they held the dark blue fabric of my jeans. I'm terrified ㅡ as is the rest of the people watching the news ㅡ and it most definitely doesnt help when they plaster a large timer onto the screen counting down our days and hours left on our beloved blue planet.

"We never thought this day would come.. Ladies and gentlemen, we've reached the end of the chapter." The words echoed into the back of my mind. 'The end of the chapter'? I havent even really lived my life? I'm only seventeen.. I barely made it to graduation. I suck in a deep breath, filling my lungs fully before releasing the built up pressure.

Theres a burning sensation on my waterline, tears threatening to roll down my cheeks. My hands begin to shake when I think back to all the sleepless nights I spent not enjoying life. I took life for granted ㅡ and now it's going to end in three days. In seventy-two hours, it's all going to go away. That's not enough time to say all the things I didnt have a chance to say.

Wasted opportunities.

Wasted chances that I now no longer have control over.

My legs suddenly feel like spaghetti and walking seems like a foriegn topic to me. I just need to sit down, take a breather.

Who am I kidding. The storm inside me is raging on tonight and my hands have a handful of messy locks.

I catch glimpse of inked red calligraphy spelling out the name 'Eren' that is marked onto the inside of my forearm in small writing just an inch below my wrist. My heart swells with sadness.

The sense of realization settles in, practically telling me to 'let this sink in for a little'. I'm not ever going to get the chance to meet my soulmate. I'll never get the satisfaction of weaving their fingers with mine, to lay on the couch on cold winter nights with blankets drooped over our shoulders. Never get the chance to tell them I love them over and over again, to brush their hair behind their ears, grab them by the smooth skin of theirs and feel the fireworks of pressing my lips against their own.

I wont feel the sweet electricity course through me like people explained would happen when they touched their soulmate for the first time. I've spent seventeen years searching for this perfect person in the happiness of this little town. The universe promised a perfect person, they never promised me to meet them though.

The younger generations were lucky, for they werent born with marks. They werent tied to someone, so they dont have anything to lose other than the fact that they're too young to leave this world.

A crowd begins to pull outside, staring at the sky with both a mix of admiration and fear. The blue sky has begun to turn itself into a peach color. My town's happy vibe has now turned uneasy, scared, unsure.

That day, I walk home slowly when the sky begins to darken, taking the scenery of the autumn leaves disarray upon the concrete sidewalk. If the world is ending in three days, I'm going to make the most of it. Soak it up like a sponge. Do what I should've been doing these past seventeen years and love life for once ㅡ despite all the wrong. Despite the fact that I'll never graduate, and never meet my soulmate. I force myself to disregard the nagging thoughts that tug at my conscious.

I dont think about the fact that I'll never get a chance to buy my first apartment.

I dont think about how I wont be able to wake up every morning to make my significant other breakfast.

And I most certainly dont think about how I'll never be able to take my lovers hand at the alter and say with great pride, "I do."

Day 2. 48 hours until the world ends.

Today, I woke up early. Early enough that the sun still hasn't peaked over the clouds. They say that if you wake up early enough the day takes longer to end.

The aching pain in my chest never seems to cease. I laugh a little bitterly at the calander on the wall, I feel like its mocking me now. A part of me wants to rip the thing to shreds and scream until my throat is raw ㅡ but I said I'd make the best of these last days. So, I push these bitter thoughts from my mind and start up a warm shower.

Seventeen years of not wanting to be alive, and now I only have two days to live until the entire world completely goes to shit. Ironic, isn’t it? Why now am I so angry? The water is warm trickling down my bare body, as my shower thoughts continue treading forward to how I could make life better in less than forty-eight hours.

I walk down a different road today, deciding that routine wasnt necessary when the world is going to end in forty-eight hours. The countdown continues on nearby TVs, the bright white luminous against the dark morning sky.

It makes me feel anxious.

Destruction clouds my mind, but I bite my lip and hold my ground. This situation will not drive me crazy.

The town is a lot quieter than I expected, then again it's only 6 in the morning.

The day carries on just as any other day, the air seems heavier though. It's the night time that brings chaos.

You see, I've been walking around town all day blowing that last little bits of money I have on little things that have no purpose. The sky is the same sunset peach as it was yesterday, only barely hinting at a blue color.

There's a faint noise a few blocks from where I am standing, and at first I chose the ignore it. The yelling got louder and louder until I felt my feet pull like magnets to what was going on.

Chocolate hair, smooth tan skin shining under the soft orange of the sky, handfuls of someones shirt as this mystery man pinned some junky against the rough brick wall. His eyes held a killer glow, practically fuming from the ears. I was going to mind my own business, but then I saw the other strike at the brunette ㅡ and I dont know why, but I stepped in.

A surprise attack, a blow right to the face, maybe a minor bruise on my cheek from when the other decided to attack back ㅡ but soon he left. I turn my gaze back to the brunette who still sits on the floor, palms pressed into the concrete.

"I didnt need your help," he hissed, dusting his hands against the black fabric of his jeans.

"Oh you're welcome for saving your ass, wasnt a problem at all." My hand lifts to my face, pressing onto the bruise and wincing before squatting next to this stranger. "Is it bad? Let me see," The moment my hand makes contact with the others chin I feel the rush of electricity course through me.

Overwhelming is an understatement. Sweet emotions flooded through my mind but I can feel the pounding of fear in my veins, and bittersweet it was. When I retract my hand, I see that he's mirrored the exact expression I have; eyes blown wide, fear in the darks of his pupils.

"Eren..?" trying to keep my voice from cracking seems hard, and it comes out more like a whisper. This situation leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. Where the hell has he been for seventeen years? Why is he just now showing up?

Eren immediately sprung to his feet, taking a few steps back with no words to say. I snatched at his left arm, pushing the sweaters sleeve up and over his forearm to see my name inked in blue against his paper skin. "So.. you're my soulmate?" I promise I didnt mean to make it sound disappointed ㅡ but in a way, I guess you could say I was.

So many questions raced through my mind; but the biggest question of all was why? Why now of all times we could've met? Why must I be gifted with the worst luck.

Eren isnt a bad person though, and in the few hours we've spent together I can tell you this; His favorite color is red, he lives with his mother and a girl that his family took in when they were very little - who he loves dearly, he can play guitar very well, he looks absolutely adorable with his hair tied up, and that's only the stuff he's told me within the first hour.

Words cannot express how much I wished we could have more time together, but the bright TV clocks continue to remind me that our time is running out.

"There's nothing more I'd rather do than to spend my last moments with you," Eren whispered, golden flecks in his beautiful ocean eyes. His hand was held in mine as the pained expression washed over his face. Somewhere in the conversation led us to this point of heartbreak. We both explained how we wanted nothing more than to meet earlier in life, but apparently the universe had a different plan.

The idea of parting with Eren now just seemed like a waste, and I'd much rather take my dying last breath next to the one I looked for my entire life. Falling in love is easy when you've got nothing to live for.

The walk back to my house is silent, but it's a comfortable silence, and we never seem to let go of each others hands. The house is quiet and dark when we enter.

The rest of the remaining night we have is spent cuddled under the thick blanket of mine, Eren held me close to his chest as we whisper sweet things that wont mean much in a few hours. Chaste kisses are showered over the male as I remind him of how I never stopped searching for him.

He studied my face, moving a strand of hair behind my ear before placing his palm onto my cheek and rubbing his thumb across the smoothness underneath my eye. I could feel my breath begin to shallow and my heart skip a beat. I loved the way his eyes sparkled under my dim-lit room, the way I could feel his heartbeat pulsing from how close we lay where, how steady his breathing was, and how gentle he caressed me.

Its bittersweet, and I never believed in the after life, but with him - maybe, just maybe, we will meet again in the next life.

[shiro-0197]

Oooh LMMS is really cool!! I hope you dabble around with it and come up with something you like. I can compose stuff on the piano, because they're sometimes required for my theory and practical exams :D but everything I've ever composed is just bland, I don't particularly loooove it or anything. Or even if I do like it, I can never seem to come up with words to go along, so it's just instrumental music HAHA.

Nooo I'm melting, you're really so sweet. Let's get married rn 😼 I hereby pronounce you mine😔😣🤚 Oof yes, history is indeed just about a bunch of dead people, but if it were in the forms of animes or musicals, they can get pretty interesting :) I guess you just have to think of it as a story (albeit a boring one, sometimes)

oh dear he's almost as bad at as I am. I used to only be able to sleep after 3 lol. But since you gave me that tip on how to reschedule my sleeping times I've been sleeping better.

may the battle commence, I think I'll stick with Arisu 😣🤚 good luck y'all— tho yes omg :( poor Karube and Chota I almost cried when I realised the true goal of the game, for the sheep to hide from the wolf out of love 😔😔💖

The feels?? I'm so dead 😭 that's so cute, tho I don't wanna see you angry :P tho in my opinion, people get like, 10 times hotter when they're mad 😃🔫

oh I see!! That's totally understandable, I know a lot of people who are the exact same. I don't really mind people seeing me when I message someone, as long as they don't read what I'm saying. But I type pretty fast so I don't think it's possible anyways HAHA.

Awww yes <3 If I ever miss something, it's just because I couldn't remember to reply to it, but I try my best to remember everything :))

they're so good omg :> I'm gonna listen to that too!! I fell asleep shortly after listening to it last night, and you're right, it has the sorta effect on people. I love classical music so much, (especially piano pieces) but this is just as good!!

How's your day going btw?? :') I love you toooooo, thank you for your replies <3

Ahh, really sorry for late response! I had to run some errands, forgive me^^"

I hope so too!! I fiddled around and found some cool stuff, hopefully I'll learn wonders soon.

Ahhh, I see. I mean, music can never be bland. Lyrics maybe, but not music, so don't say that. Every simple melody has something special:)

Great. We are now married 👰🤵 JSJDNEJFJJS

True true, I guess if it was visual, it would be easier to understand XD but to be honest, the formalities are too difficult with my focus range.

Heheheh, I'm glad it helps you :D I'm sure you'll get it fixed soon^^

Yes I was literally balling my eyes out. It was almost painful, especially trying to silence it all with a pillow, like ... really should've gone to sleep instead of watching "one more episode". I really havent thought about the "hiding out of love" before seeing that one tumblr post, but it really broke my heart when i realised that. It made so much sense, and it made me cry AGAIN and I'm impressed cuz no show was able to make me cry so easily XD

True, some are very hot, but some look like

Which is the funniest thing ever. No offence to the men in pics, but like ... what got you so mad😭😭😭😭

Me too!! I type pretty fast as well, but mostly I rely on the autocorrect because when I dont use it the sentences look like "sjjrjakd kwkdka skdkkqkskdkkwj??!?!" and yeah

Yessss I'm glad you like them!! They're really cool. I also like classic music!! I'm not really educated on that, because mostly it's just canned "piano music" so I have no idea who made that and etc XD still lovely though.

My day was great!! I had some nice borscht (you know, the red soup?) today and I had like a 3 hour long walk. My eyelashes were like 🧊 because of the mask, but it was awesome either way. And then I had to do some stuff~~ but it was good:)

I hope yours went well, too! I love you a lot!!!<33

[zak-shit]

April 2nd, 2o22

tonight at work I was not in my body lmao. I stayed unbothered nearly all night <3 I also trained a cute boy, who was probably actually the cutest ethereal, innocent looking man. Dark dark eyes that seemed to be in a bit of pain, hard to crack a smile. Yet did at times. Not from our interactions actually. But, from afar when I would look at him from across the line <3 lol i'm something else.

Cute part of the night aside, I was truly unbothered. Was it just a nice night? I felt a bit disconnected, I mean there was a time I spent maybe 2- 3 minutes staring at the assembly counter tracing my finger through a togo cup lid. Yet, I was called quick witted. I brought a bit of the juice tonight to the energy levels. I wasnt alone in that. Kayla always brings a light you cant break down. Even when shes balling and on the complete edge. She's shinning. There are some coworkers I'm actually worried for. I mean they're just high as balls. None of them seem drunk, so what is it? You're also most likely not just high on weed, so whats going on? Is it of concern? Are you... okay? Do you need help on moderation? There's one young girl, who I first saw on her first day of 8th grade.I really hope I'm just paranoid with this one. Late in the night this young woman was utterly delirious and showing a silly side. But if my concerns are at all true, it would make me go crazy to protect this person. I've actually been quite defensive lately. Luckily I havent had to actually snap or get into it nearly at all with anyone. But in my head I've been ready to go. or just passionate about a concern or situation that may pop into my head. Honestly they're valid situations that could very well happen. With my tendency to do that, I need to take control on how I old react to anything of the sort. Which I think isnt the most unhealthy thought process.

I know I cant explain everything, probably ever. But Its still important to take the time to dissect thoughts and things at times. Moderationnnnn <3

The day before work was nice as well. Ruby and I got starbucks. Today I had a hot coffee <3 which I quite enjoyed. Watching Drew and Enyas podcast, laying on the most comfy couch I've enjoyed in maybe my whole life. Like seriously I need this couch one day. It began a rainy day before we got chick fil a. Which absolutely slapped. Work ran longer than I expected, so instead of my original plans I'm at Rubys again while writing this tonight. Which is a great move and I'm happy to be here. I took a medium shower full of hot water, decompresing, and soft music.

I've been on a Lana kick and have finally been able to enjoy her latest two albums. It's true that an album can surprise you at a different time in your life, and you can truly feel it. I mean, I didnt like Lana when I heard her from my sister playing her. Some people dont love Solar Power. But as we live, we just might fall into a place where those albums we once didnt hear, are suddenly crystal clear.

Dearest reader, hiiiii! zakery quiinn