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#except i love writing these characters so i keep at it but it's???????? draining ??? bc i dont feel like ppl care
scary-monsters · 1 year
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I genuinely don't know how much longer I can do this
I try to keep mental health shit off this blog as much as possible bc that's not what it's for, it's supposed to be a place to share the things I make and to support others that love the same characters as I do. But also I need to be human sometimes
I haven't been getting enough sleep, my body won't let me rest more than 6 hours a night because I'm constantly riddled with anxiety and the pressure to work work work, be productive, do things or else you're useless.
I don't eat nearly enough because I can't afford to buy groceries most weeks and rarely have time to cook on the days I work. Most of the time I eat one meal a day and that's only on my 30min break at work. My body doesn't even like to take anything more than that.
I haven't bought new clothes in at least 2 years, because I can't afford to and why would I when I never go anywhere except work? If I have a day off I don't have the energy to try and look nice, I throw on old jeans and a t-shirt. And it sucks because clothing has always been a passion of mine and I used to take so much pride in the way I present myself. I miss that part of me.
I'm miserable all the time, if I'm at work I'm only thinking about suicide. I cry all the time. Yes I go to therapy, yes I have a psychiatrist, yes I take medication for my disorder. But it feels like nothing helps anymore.
My therapist asked me two days ago what the barriers to my goals and happiness are and I didn't even hesitate when I answered "work". My job is draining me to a point that is scary for me, I feel trapped in it because no matter how many applications I do, I always get 'no's. The jobs I do have a good shot at pay significantly less than what I currently make, so I can't risk losing that pay. I live by myself, I pay for everything by myself. I don't have anyone else to lean on.
We recently had a loss in the family, and while I handled it pretty well it also brought up all the other loss I've experienced in my life, and there's been a lot. To a point where if my mom calls and says "I need to talk to you", I immediately assume someone else has passed. So all I can think about lately is all those people and all the missed opportunities I had with them.
I'm tired and I don't know what to do, I feel lost and I can't help looking at suicide as my only option to get out of how shitty everything feels all the time. I'm only happy when I'm making art or writing or talking to friends, but when I don't have the energy to do those things?? What then? I sit here and stare at a screen and cry and wish I could be anyone other than myself. I can't measure up, and I'm kinda tired of trying.
I had to call in today because I can't do it, I feel myself falling apart at the seams, I've been snapping at coworkers and having attitude with customers, that's not me, but I feel like I'm losing myself. But because I called in I've now lost a quarter of my paycheck for this week. Every single day I have to pick whether I'd prefer experiencing suicidal ideation for 10.5 hours at work or sitting at home and feeling lost/lonely and crying instead.
I've been pretty good at hiding it and masking this year but idk, I don't have the energy to do it anymore. I'm lost, y'all, I have no direction and I don't know when/if things are gonna get better for me
(also I don't need anyone telling me that I could use vacation money to fix some of these issues; vacations are how I escape, and I need to do that. Plus I always save up PTO/money specifically for them.)
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satellitesoundwave · 2 years
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9, 11, 23?
9. How do you find new fic to read?
ah well, i used to read fanfic and original fic voraciously, but a few years ago some mental health stuff happened and my capacity for reading got wiped out for the most part (i’m hopeful this will improve. my ability to play videogames took a similar dive, but as i’ve been putting work into rebuilding my wellbeing that has been coming back to me - in related news Rain World is fantastic and i love it to pieces - which seems like a good sign that over time reading will come back to me too. thank god bc i miss reading fic so much ;w; ). so these days i hoard update notifications from writers and fics i’m subscribed to, and pick out one of those when i’m having a particularly good reading day
back when i used to read a lot i my go-tos for finding new fic were; when i really like something i’d check out everything else that author has written, looking through the author’s bookmarks bc if i like their fic there’s good odds we’ll have similar taste, and searching the fandom tag + additional tropes i enjoy to see what’s around
11. Are you partial to a certain character/pairing or are you more equal-opportunity? If you are partial to any character/pairing, why do you think that is?
in terms of reading? well, i’m more likely to give fics a go if one of the main characters is someone i find interesting, but i find a lot of tf characters interesting so it effectively becomes equal opportunity
now in terms of writing i’m more narrow, but i’m not partial to a certain character/pairing so much as to dynamics where the ‘complicated relationships’ tag is applicable. taraprowl needs no explanation here, i like writing jazzwave most when they’re enemies grappling with being unfortunately very compatible as people, and even cdrw has shades of this with the patterns of poor communication and lying. i just really enjoy dynamics that involve strong positive and strong negative feelings simultaneously
23. What’s a trope, AU, or concept you’ve never written, but would like to?
god okay this is very much a ‘no i am not allowed to think about doing anything like this when i already have other big projects going on’ thing but. i’ve been kicking around this idea for like, established relationship Jazz/Soundwave where the war is over and it’s all peace and good times… until Megatron gets assassinated. and the plot is a Soundwave pov where grief and hunger for revenge drive him to investigate who did it - not just who pulled the trigger, but everyone who was involved in forming the plan and making it happen. and of course the crux of the tension is whether or not Jazz was in on the plot. was their whole relationship a calculated distraction to keep Soundwave from seeing this coming and stopping it? i like the idea of there being strong evidence to support Jazz being involved and also strong evidence that he wasn’t, the tension of Soundwave (and also the reader) being genuinely unable to tell which is true is a tension i vibe with. which i think is why trying to cement whether or not he was involved then drains away the things about it i find compelling to write. so i’ve got this neat idea but no ending for it, and leaving it as a vague ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ‘i guess we’ll never know’ isn’t satisfying either
and a separate thing, which also brings me around to the question, is that a concept i’ve never written but would like to is one where Jazz and Soundwave are in love but such a significant personal/philosophical line has been crossed that even that doesn’t stop them from fighting to the death. the energy of that would be electric. except also in a sad way bc wow that would be a downer ending, i'm not too hot on the idea of getting people invested in a story only to do that to them
the breakthrough happened when i was talking to my friends about our yearly tradition of getting together and playing the new Dark Pictures Anthology game when it comes out; more than once during our first playthrough of these games we’ve gotten endings that are ‘bad’ in the sense of how they fit into the established genre schema of Good Endings & Bad Endings in videogames, or lack closure, or are incredibly tragic (thinking about part of the ending we got for The Quarry for this one, which is not a DPA game but is by the same developer) - but the ends never felt unsatisfying to us because we’d gotten there through choices we’d actively made and we knew it was just one ending of several. this conversation later made me realise that hey, i have experience with game programming. if i dust off those rusty skills i could probably make a text based game… and that would sort out the issues i’d been having with the above concepts! my programming knowledge is a bit basic, but using it to make a fanwork is also a concept i’ve always wanted to try since it seems like an interesting challenge 
the really exciting part about this imo is the possibility of having tracked variables. with those i could give the story branching paths based on decisions readers make, something like 1) Jazz is an active participant in the assassination plot, 2) Jazz was involved in the plot but stopped being part of it before the assassination happened (perhaps he opted out of his own accord? or was kicked out bc the others worried his attachment to Soundwave has compromised him?), 3) Jazz was not involved, or 4) Soundwave never uncovers whether Jazz was involved or not. having that branching + something like a loyalty meter for Jazz that tracks how loyal he is to the assassination plot/people involved, and something similar for how dedicated Soundwave is to getting revenge, allows for really interesting variation/directions for the story to take based on reader decisions
all in all this is something i’d really like to do at some point, but it would be a very big project so i’ve firmly parked it behind doing (Re)Experience and Networking first
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symphonicmetal101 · 2 years
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OBEY ME CHARACTERS AS DIFFERENT MONSTERS FROM AROUND THE WORLD HCS
These are sfw, and always will be on this blog.
ANYWAYS
I tried to write actual hcs but I just ended up saying "this is the monster and what it does", nothing super specific but Im too fucking tired to fix it now lmao
Also also, I did only a little bit of research due to the lack of time to motivation ratio I have, so PLEASE let me know if any of these hold cultural significance in that it would be offensive for me to use it this way. Its not intentional if it is, and I will change it as soon as I know. Thank you lovies.
Tw: alludes to death, blood, gore etc. Not of mc, just in nature of these creatures and what they do/look like, also the first two are the worst, I swear the rest are better lmao
Word Estimate: 1.2K bc I cant copy this entire doc on mobile to check
The Peuchen is a shapeshifter that makes a strange whistling sound before it attacks. It has the ability to strike fear into whoever looks it in the eyes, paralyzing them in order to drain their blood and take their heart without leaving a mark. The only way it can be eliminated is by the hand of a Mapuche medicine woman.
Lucifer- Peuchen (Mapuche/Chilean)
He loooves making his nest huge in a rocky outcropping. Its something he's very proud and protective of, so its actually built very well. It would have to be, seeing as literally anything shiny he comes across gets dumped into the nest. Has even more trouble remembering where he put stuff, but is quicker to recoginize faces. Whenever he gets pouty or flustered theres a sound like a paper fan being opened as he puffs his wings up.
Mammon- Harpy (Greek/Roman)(also yeah yeah ikik they're female in the myths but this is the only exception Ive made)
Levi- Baak (Assamese)
Baak are said to live in bodies of water, and they are shapeshifters, taking on the body of their last victim to journey on land and take their victims place in order to eliminate their entire family. However, some Baak merely play tricks on people, especially children, and thats moreso where Levi lies when he finally decides he wants to be percieved. Also only coming around when there are children reduces his chances of getting hurt or needing to fight. Keeping him at bay just takes a broken fishing net.
Satan- Erzhong Ren (耳中人) (Chinese)
(This monster was introduced in the second story of Liaozhai i.e. the critically acclaimed Qing Dynasty compilation of Chinese supernatural stories.
He's a tiny little ogre that lived in a scholars ear. Going off of this, he enjoys listening to and absorbing information, but doesnt want to run the risk of you/his "host" getting rid of him, so he stays in places that makes it difficult for you to do so. It also means...you HAVE to listen to his opinions.
Asmodeus- Gimuho (Korean)
Similar to the Kitsune, the Gimuho disguises itself as a woman (or just a generally attractive person) to make people fall in love with them. Once they fall in love with him, he devours their heart and other organs :D
Beelzebub- Gashadokuro (Japanese)
Gigantic skeletons formed by the amassed bones of people who died of starvation. They bite the heads off of travelers and drink their blood. They possess the ability to become invisible, and are indestructable, lasting as long as their malicious energy takes to run out. Kinda sounds like if Beel went on a rampage after falling...
Belphie- Bakhtak (Iranian)
It sits on your chest while you’re sleeping aiming to suffocate you to death. It has been depicted as a goblin, a stout heavy looking little man. He is the reason for your nightmares, shortness of breath, and more.
Diavolo- Ifrit (Islamic/Arabian)
Ok so, at its base, an Ifrit is very similar, if not a type, of demon. However I am still including it because I said I will. An ifrit is a powerful and (often though not always) malevolent supernatural being. Magic is the only thing that can overpower them. Although they are often depicted as malicious and ruthless, it is not always true. The ifrit live in complex societies, and will sometimes marry humans and live peacefully with them. They can appear in their truest form, of smokeless fire, or take on the appearance of animals or a human.
Barb - Domovoy (Russian)
A Domovoy is a small household spirit that is known for both causing mischief and assisting with household chores. It depends on how well you treat them. They are able to see into the future, and guard the family that dwells in the house. Sometimes it shows displeasure by causing grating noises or upsetting family pets, but is easily put back to rest with a loaf of bread or another small offering.
Mephistopheles - Dark Watcher (United States - specifically California)
They don’t bring harm or joy, merely ominous as they stand and watch you from a distance, silhouettes with circular eyes that glow a bit. In Mephistopheles case, he likes to observe people over the course of centuries, documenting the differences he notices as time passes.
Simeon - Hyter Sprites (English folklore? Norfolk?)
These sprites have been reported to help lost children return home after dark. It was mostly parents that would villianize them, but the sprites have never harmed the children they have brought home. (They also bring home and protect donkeys askljdhlksajdas) and encourage the children to behave for their parents afterwards.
Raphael- Lamassu (Sumerian)
The Lamassu was a symbol of an ox, eagle, human, and lion used to ward off bad spirits from entering ones home in the Mesopotamian period. It was also said the the Lamassu would reward heroes with many riches after completing missions.
Luke - Fastachee (Native American, did not find specifics)
Often depicted as a small dwarf or gnome like creature, the Fastachee shares corn and medicinal insight with humans. They also heal animals suffering from ailments. The Native American tribes would also share their insight with the Fastachee (Little Giver) and had a positive and respectful relationship with it.
Thirteen- Banshee (Irish)
The banshee is a female spirit said to appear preceding the death of a loved one. She will wail or shriek to warn family members of the coming disaster. Her physical appearance varies, but Thirteen specifically likes to appear as the figure as a young woman in the family that has already passed as a way to herald the death of another loved one.
Solomon- Rübezahl (German/Polish)
Rübezahl appears as a capricious giant, gnome, or mountain spirit. With decent people, he shows them magic/medicine and how to use the land around them. If someone has poor intentions and tricks him, he exacts revenge in an equal manner. In some folklore, he plays the role of a trickster.
If this flops I'll cry
I literally worked for months on this because of my brain being frustrating and trying to find to find things that fit, and some of them Im still not happy with. Yes, there are a few that could have better fitting monsters but by the time I found out about them, I had already written about another monster from the same country. So please be gentle is what Im trying to say djskdbskjs I DO NOT have the emotional energy to deal with asshats
Thank you bbs
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Ch 17 was so, so, so good (thank you!!) 🥺 i am still processing. ((Edit: this turned into an essay so i Am Very Sorry in advance, there is a tldr at the end though))
First of all. We get to see Din going through it the same way sweet girl was a couple chapters ago and I love it! She’s been so clear from the start that she doesn’t want to run away from him and now Din’s getting to the point where he doesn’t want to chase her anymore because he just wants her to be physically there with him again. The second night of comms while she’s camped out at the orphanage?? “I thought this was going to be alright, but I hate it.” ??????????? i am a Puddle of Emotions no one look at me 😭
And then the way he’s so unsure about whether she hasnt begun to reconsider wanting to keep up with his bounty-hunter life now that she’s finally gotten a break if being forced to outrun a mandalorian can be really even be called a break for the first time in a year?? And he can SEE all the places she’s stopped to talk to people on this planet (his comment about the number of times the blond guy turned around to talk to her in the line? 🥺.) Din knows she’s enjoying these small encounters with people, getting to interact with a new planet and learn new things as she’s making her way through each place, and since they’re only talking at night he gets to think about it literally all day long as he follows her trail and tries to figure out what her plan is. This is truly an exercise in Din thinking nonstop about sweet girl (which ofc he does already, but like, thinking critically about what she thinks/wants/does/needs and why) and I feel like that’s causing him to slowly start to second guess himself in terms of where he would put himself on sweet girl’s list of priorities. And I wonder how much of this he’s actually considering for the first time? because it’s always him who leaves and comes back when he gets jobs — this is the first time that sweet girl has left him instead of the other way around. Sweet girl has had tons of time to think about these things, whereas Din hasn’t really had to... because it’s not the one who leaves who feels the absence most, it’s the one who’s left behind (even if just temporarily).
I can just picture Din’s increasing doubts as the chase keeps going, whether he’s worth putting up with his lifestyle and whether sweet girl wouldn’t rather have a life like the people he sees in the footprints around hers? because he knows her, knows she likes soft beds and meeting people and fresh fruit and beautiful scenery, which are all things that living on the razor crest can’t always provide except for the last one bc Din Djarin IS beautiful scenery let’s be clear and just. the ANGST. I cannot. ( a n d meanwhile sweet girl is having a breakdown thinking he wants to STOP looking and LEAVE her? As if)
So when she shuts down his tentative doubts about it on the second night she’s at the orphanage and Din starts asking questions about favorite animals and flowers and things?? 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I lost it. Din is mirroring the love and care he receives from sweet girl (and learning to tap into those emotions as he does) and I am just in awe of both his character development from ch 1 to here and your ability to show that gradual shift in your writing.
Tl;dr thank you very much for this latest chapter! I will continue to be a soft emotional little puddle for the foreseeable future, or at least until I can figure out to scrape myself off the floor and function like a human being who has not just read rough day ch 17 and promptly dissolved as a direct result🌻
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okay first of all ma’am/sir/friend, please do not put tl;dr’s on a fucking MASTERFUL DISSECTION LIKE THAT like I genuinely hope people read every word of what you have written because you’re so spot on about everything that I was almost taken aback JEJFJJDJFJF
I would like to say, and I need to do this in list form because you have presented so many beautiful points that I’d like to address them one by one,
1.) Din Djarin is used to being alone. Full stop. Like even with sweet girl helping out with the baby and agreeing to stay on the ship while he goes and grabs quarry, he’s gone for weeks sometimes. He is used to being by himself, to fending for himself, protecting himself, patching himself up, EVERYTHING by himself. He is the most independent self-sufficient driven bounty hunter Karga has on the payroll and he’s reliable, which is why Karga would give him four pucks at a time. Giving anyone else four pucks would mean that if they happened to die during their hunts, then more than one puck would be lost and that’s money down the drain. Din doesn’t die, he always comes back with all four bodies and he’s fucking quick about it. Him telling sweet girl “I thought this was gonna be alright” is apt, because he’s been able to exist without her and do good work while he knows she’s safe on the Crest. In fact, the only time he EVER didn’t do good work is when a) she was attacked on the Crest on Corellia, or b) when he desperately wanted to get back to her as quick as possible and he pushed himself too hard and put himself in danger (aka frozen on Hoth scene). And actually c) when he stole Grogu back from the empire and had Karga and the guild on his ass about it. Those were the only times Din had trouble doing his job. The only times he stopped looking and gave up. “I thought this was going to be alright, but I hate it” means that YES ABSOLUTELY DIN DJARIN DOES NOT LIKE STAYING PUT WHILE SHE LEAVES, even though he’s okay with going out and doing his job when she stays. Even though he’s still hunting, it’s like the roles have been reversed. She’s understanding his side, and he’s understanding her side. It’s been 4 days and he hates it, so imagine weeks or months of that. Not being able to move or chase after her either, just hanging out on the crest with Grogu and waiting to see if she’ll be able to make it back. Which
2.) makes it hurt just a lil more in that wonderful delicious angsty way when he actually asks if she wants this life. On Naboo, he didn’t know where she went or where the kid was—he didn’t know if they were in danger, if she was safe. He said he’d rip the galaxy apart to find her if she ever disappeared like that again. But... she’d be safe on Sanctuary II. This is different, and just like you said, he’s had multiple days where all he did was try to think like her. Get in her head, predict her. Understand her more than he’s ever attempted to do before, in a NECESSARY capacity, like he would a bounty he’s hunting. Din Djarin is used to being alone. He’s used to being silent and that’s how connections are severed before they can even be established. His only practice at empathy was through his job, a job that he is very very good at, but it was never enough to get him to stop looking. He would never be able to empathize enough to ask if the bounty wanted him to stop looking for them. Even with the baby, he turned him in at first and then let the guilt eat him alive before going back to save him. So, if you couple that with his true connection to sweet girl, the natural empathy he has for her and the kid (him immediately following her after he accidentally snapped at her on the Crest and apologizing) and Din is now TRULY beginning to understand her on a level he’s never experienced with another person
3.) BUT!!! Even though he “needed to ask” (meaning he understood enough to know that asking the question was necessary) he started out the entire conversation by admitting he doesn’t think he could do it. Before ever telling her what specifically he doesn’t think he could do, he already knows this about himself and says it flat out. I don’t think I could. Even if you asked me to, even if you said you’d be happier if I did, even if you told me right now that it’s what you wanted, I don’t think I could ever stop looking. And a lot of the turmoil he experiences is because of that. I make you sleep on the floor. I teach you to fight when you just want to look at waterfalls. I do all these things that you’d never willingly do yourself, and I’m a bad person BECAUSE I still want you to always be here with me in spite of all that.
4.) Meanwhile sweet girl just has no fucking clue all this is happening and it seems to come out of nowhere, all she knows is that he’s been in the city when he should’ve caught up to her days ago. She’s out experiencing things and meeting new people and yet she always comes back to Din and the baby and how much they should be here with her. She tries to come up with clever ways to outthink him but she also offers to give her coordinates to him practically every single night. Her wanting to be with him so bad but trying to hold out (“ask me again tomorrow”) while Din is also wanting to be with her so bad and also trying to hold out (“find her again tomorrow”) 🥺
So yeah basically in conclusion I love them together and they’re so different but they make each other somehow both stronger and softer in so many ways and yeah u mighta heard of DD/LG u kinky fucks but lemme present to u DD/SG
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radramblog · 3 years
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What happened to Dirk in Homestuck^2?
Why am I doing this to myself.
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I memed a little yesterday when I was posting that article around social medias about Homestuck jokes, because once again we are in lockdown and I am therefore Stuck at Home. Canned laughter goes here. But there’s a topic related to the comic- or more specifically, its aborted sequel, Homestuck^2, that I’m interested in delving into a little bit. I’m going to avoid talking about spoilers as much as possible, but considering said comic takes place not only after the events of the massive sprawl that is Homestuck but also the more linear but still messy Epilogues, some amount of sus shit is inevitable.
Anyway. Much maligned is what the Epilogues and 2 did to everyone’s favourite decapitation target, Dirk Strider, and I have a theory as to why it happened this way.
To begin with, let’s summarise what and who Dirk is through the course of the comics. Fair warning from me, though, it’s been a while since I read through this.
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Dirk Strider is a teenager who grew up in a post-apocalyptic future Earth, completely devoid of physical contact with other people and only really ever gets to talk to 3 other people, only one of whom is in anything remotely resembling a relatable situation. He struggles with self-identity, having created numerous robots including an artificial intelligence based on his own brain, aka Lil’ Hal. He’s somewhat of a control freak, and a bit of a cold aloof asshole, but means well, and is pretty gay. NBD. The kinda guy to set up a plan meticulously and thoroughly, not informing any of the moving parts even if said parts are his friends, and often involving some form of self-sacrifice.
Throughout the comic he further reckons with self-identity problems and his own self-loathing including entering a relationship with Jake which doesn’t go well and he eventually breaks off since he knows his overbearing and manipulative behaviour is Not Cool and Pretty Toxic but doesn’t know how to shut it off. Eventually he reaches the God Tier as a Prince of Heart, gaining the power to literally annihilate souls, which he never actually uses since he gets yeeted into deep (Paradox) space and then everything goes to shit. Except none of that happens because of the Retcon (aside from the God Tier bit) and we don’t actually see how that shit progressed in the canon timeline. I think. Dirk’s arc, as it were, doesn’t really come full circle- while he does assist in Dave’s character…growth? he really isn’t the focus of that conversation. This immediately precedes the action climax and there isn’t literally any dialogue after that so that’s what we’re left with.
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I like Dirk in Homestuck a lot. It’s hard not to, considering the flashes heavily featuring him (Unite/Synchronise and Prince of Heart: Rise Up) are genuinely excellent, along with many of his music themes being absolute bangers. He gets to interact with Caliborn a lot, with a pretty great banter, there, and the whole splintered personality thing is a really interesting hook for a character. I think he’s my favourite of the Alpha kids, a controversial pick considering I know everyone loves Roxy so much. I think, I’m not as in tune with the fandom as that statement implies I am.
And then the Epilogues/Homestuck 2 came.
Now I read the Meat half of the epilogues first, but that’s more interesting, so we’ll tackle Candy first (this is going to get real confusing for those who haven’t read this comic, huh).
In Candy, Dirk almost immediately kills himself, citing the irrelevance of the timeline as cause, an act considered by whatever mechanism governs God Tier deaths to be Just because he hates himself (and also bc of things we’ll get into), so it actually sticks. This isn’t super relevant for the discussion, but that’s just kinda so unbelievably fucked up? Entirely? I’d imagine if you read Candy first you might get entirely turned off by this, which I’m sure a lot of people did.
Meat is where the, well, meat of post-canon Dirk is. You see, a concept very quickly introduced in the tail end of the original comic is the Ultimate Self, an idea where you somehow encompass every different timeline iteration or alternate version of yourself. This was pretty clearly tacked on to make it so characters whose arcs all happened in the retcon timeline could have their not getting an actual arc explained away, but it didn’t land then and it sure doesn’t land for me now. Anyway, in Meat, Dirk becomes his ultimate self, making him near-omniscient and able to control the fabric of the story himself- for much of this story, he is the narrator. And he uses this power to fuck with all his friends really distressingly without their knowledge (or consent), including breaking up a marriage, in order to further his own goals which largely appear to be just keep the story going so to not fade out of relevance. It’s a plot that makes no sense with his previous characterisation, but I guess now that he’s the Ultimate Self he’s a different person? But I liked old Dirk, and I don’t like New Dirk. He’s a villain now, but he made a much better anti-hero.
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But this would be fine if he (or the epilogues, or Homestuck^2) were written well. But they aren’t. Dirk’s dialogue is long, painfully drawn out, with tangents that tend to amount to pure wank, misused literary references and pointless metaphors that go on and on, filling the screen with a bright orange screed that hurts to look at as much as it does to comprehend. It’s not fun. And we’ve seen Dirk communicate before, obviously, the story of Homestuck is built around chatlogs, but it wasn’t like this. He was sarcastic, dryly witty, blunt at times. Even when he was literally talking to a different version of himself it didn’t get that masturbatory.
I was so confused about what the hell happened to Dirk, because I had no idea what the hell someone writing this character was thinking when they turned him into this. And then, the 21st page of Homestuck^2 dropped.
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And it all came together.
What Ultimate Dirk and Terezi are referring to is Pony Pals: Detective Pony, a children’s book about some girls who hang out with ponies and solve a mystery. It’s a real book, buy it for your 5-year-old.
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Except they’re not referring to that, they’re referring to the Homestuck Canon version of Detective Pony- a birthday gift from Dirk to Jane, heavily edited and to be much more obscene and eventually developing into it’s own story, stated to be “tough, emotionally draining, but cathartic in all the worst ways possible”.
Except the quote “Remember Longcat, Jane?” and references to philosophy, dead languages, and ancient earth culture aren’t referring to the three pages of the Dirk-edited Detective Pony we see in the actual comic itself. That quote doesn’t appear there.
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That image is from Detective Pony, by Sonnetstuck- the 40,000 word fanfiction from 2014 that serves as a completed version of Jane’s copy of the book. An expansion of what we see in canon. And it’s a tough, emotionally draining read, but cathartic in all the worst ways possible.
It’s a very good fanfiction.
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In the later bits of Detective Pony, we can start to see the origins of what would become Ultimate Dirk’s signature style of writing. Long blocks of rambling text, orange dripping down the page, references to philosophy and history and language that go on and on. And it probably does look familiar to those who read the Epilogues and ^2. 
But there are a couple of key differences here. First of all, it’s just better written? The way these rambles circle back on themselves is so excellent, the absolute absurdity of this being written on top of a pony book for little girls, the humour (beyond some of the more immature stuff), it’s just a really well-written piece of fiction. Hell, you don’t even need to be familiar with the character of Dirk to enjoy it. It’s a harrowing piece, but it’s also self-aware- because it’s not supposed to be tough, draining, cathartic etc. just for Jane- it’s clearly that for Dirk himself.
The second part is, of course, that this is a fanfiction. It’s not canon, it’s not official, this is by someone who really likes Dirk for people who really like Dirk. It doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things, so if you bounce off it (and I’m sure a lot did), then you don’t have to keep reading it, it’s fine, thanks for playing. As much as Homestuck^2 tried to doll itself up as “dubiously canon” it’s still the official continuation of the story, and that means if it’s as difficult to get into as Detective Pony, that’s going to be a problem for a lot of people.
The other part of it is that Detective Pony’s exploration of Dirk’s character is, well, in character. When the man himself steps in as a character in his own book, the explorations of what he is as an author, who he is as a person, make perfect sense for what we see of him at the start of the comic. He is that manipulative, blunt person, and he is aware of his faults. He’s the kind of person to hide a lamentation on his own failings inside an impenetrable maze of a story layered on top of a book about fucking ponies. Ultimate Dirk does not act like Dirk, outside of the “manipulator” angle, something that Dirk was aware of and trying to improve in the comic. But I guess people don’t have arcs, right?
It’s so interesting to see the seeds of Homestuck^2 laden within Detective Pony- because the meta angle that and the epilogues take is also represented in said fanfiction. While the nature of canon is a facet of the work, the idea of authors and narrators fighting for control of a story, different ideas in mind for the characters, one being more personally connected to them than the other, it’s all there. When I wrote about Fallout 4 in the past, I mentioned being worried that Bethesda took the wrong lessons from Skyrim- seeing something successful and trying to recapture that lightning in a bottle. I think Homestuck^2 is an extreme example of this- the writers of the comic saw Sonnetstuck’s masterwork and thought, yeah that’s great, we can do that. But they just can’t. And with the comic crashed and burning, the probably won’t ever get a chance to. Dirk is forever stuck as this amalgamation of himself that looks nothing like any individual version of him ever did.
At least we will still have Detective Pony, and many other excellent fanworks, for actually good Dirk content. I admittedly haven’t looked into much fanfic written during/post-epilogues, and I’m kind of afraid of what I’ll see- I can only hope the fanbase didn’t take the same wrong lessons as the official team did.
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jui-imouto-chan · 4 years
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I switched to calling him Shoyo since everyone except Kageyama calls him that but I’ll probably go back to Hinata in a different part (also bc Natsu is technically a Hinata so)
“A letter!!” Natsu announced from the door, her feet slapping against the wood of the stairs as she made her way to Shoyo’s room. “Nii-chan!!
“Coming!”
Natsu bounced on her heels impateintly, listening to the rustle of Shoyo’s sheets. Shoyo yelped and then began hissing something she couldn’t quite make out, and then after a few minutes of relative quiet, Tobio and Shoyo shouted at each other before Tobio stormed out, barging past her without patting her head like usual. Natsu wondered if he had a fever, since his face was the color of steamed crab.
Huh, so did Shoyo. Maybe they were both sick?
“Nii-chan.” She proffered the letter, shifting her weight.
Shoyo shook his head, his flush lightening enough that it only stained his cheeks. “Thanks, Natsu,” he said, smiling as he ruffled her hair. She grinned up at him and turned on her heel, padding over to the kitchen to rattle off what she learned in school the day prior to their mom.
The letter Shoyo held was from the “Kenma” that had made a contract with him the month before, with a simple wax seal of a cat with headphones on. The envelope was crisp and pristine, although the penmanship of the address lines was constantly fluctuating between beautiful and scribbly.
Shoyo glanced around, making sure Kageyama wasn’t nearby, then retreated into his bedroom, ignoring the tangle of sheets that had collapsed to the floor during the earlier...incident... and instead settling into his desk.
‘Hello, Shoyo.
There’s more funding in the envelope inside the one you pulled this out from. Have fun with it, I guess.
I was wondering if you want to meet up with me at some point. I’ll leave my contact stuff at the bottom of this letter... Leave the scary guy you who follows you around at home please. I don’t want to get murdered.
Anyway. We can discuss the details for the date meet and greet when we meet up over text, if you want to actually do that.
Kenma.
XXX-XXX-XXXX’
Shoyo found the wad of bills and decided that he’d make sure ‘Kenma’ would let him pay for food and stuff for when they met up, guilt gnawing at him for taking charity. It wasn’t like he wasn’t giving anything for it, but he didn’t actually feel any difference in his mana supply—not that he could even actually tell that there was mana in him. Maybe the contracts just weren’t taking as much as he thought they would be? —Like everyone taking five yen when he has a billion yen: pretty much negligible. (—Thank you Tsukishima for using that word. Hinata just hoped he wouldn’t use it to describe his test score increases relative to his grade again.)
Shoyo snagged his phone off the nightstand (pointedly ignoring Kageyama’s beside it), tossing himself onto his mattress and kicking his feet as he sent a greeting.
Kuroo had himself draped over Kenma’s bed, scrolling idly through messages Lev sent to their groupchat and rolling his eyes. He glanced over at the partial-blonde, who was so close to the TV, Kuroo wondered if he’d eventually pass through the screen and actually enter the game.
Beside his head, Kenma’s phone flashed and pinged, and he’d never seen Kenma move so fast. The game was paused and Kenma was lain beside Kuroo in an instant, his eyes flicking across the screen with overwhelming intensity.
“Did a preorder drop or something?”
Kenma completely ignored him. Kuroo tried to quell his urge to annoy his best friend with dramatics.
The shorter spent five minutes reading whatever message he had received, probably rereading it multiple times if Kuroo were to go off the fact that Kenma hadn’t scrolled.
Finally, after an agonizing period of tense silence, Kenma’s thumbs got to work, typing and retyping words. Kenma mouthed the sentences and scrunched his nose periodically, probably noticing syntax errors.
It was a little bizarre, since Kenma didn’t usually care about what he wrote or how he wrote it. Kuroo once had to read the words “skin $100 said no moth,” with his own eyes, and the message still sometimes haunts him. (Kenma meant to type, “My mother said no to buying the $100 skin,” but didn’t correct himself afterward.)
“Do I add a ‘please’ when saying where to meet me or is that desperate?”
“Do you actually want my opinion or are you talking to yourself?”
Kuroo sighed as Kenma continued his pondering, muttering about lines from a few otome games. Kuroo leaned over and scanned the message, as neither of them had ever been particular about privacy, biting his lip to keep from laughing.
“Hey,” Kenma snapped, falling out of his deliberations. He rolled over and away, which led to him slipping to the floor.
Kuroo burst into cackles, only catching his breath after Kenma tossed a remote at his head. “W... Who’s got ya all riled u-up?” he tried to inquire, panting.
“None of your business.”
“Is ‘Shoyo’ a special friend I should know about?” Kuroo waggled his eyes, dodging an amiibo that sailed through the air and left a noticeable dent in Kenma’s wall.
“N-No.”
It was quite clear that Kuroo did not believe him one bit, his Hyena-like laughter rippling through the air. “You’re lying—your ears are red! Your blushing so hard!”
“Shut up!” Kenma hid under the covers at the foot of the bed, trying to look back at his phone. Kuroo, deciding that he was fine with dying there, poked at Kenma’s head, seeking amusement from teasing the half-blonde.
“Huh?” Kenma was stock-still, not even moving when Kuroo prodded at him. “Kenma, you okay? Are you dead?” The blankets were raised, Kuroo peering upside-down at his friend.
Dead seemed like an understatement—after all, at least then you would see the life draining out of the body. No, Kenma appeared as though his soul was sucked out with a vacuum and his body sat empty while his spirit struggled against the vacuum bag.
Kuroo snatched Kenma’s phone out of his hands, his friend not twitching or reacting at all. The only indication that Kenma was still existent was the slow paling of his skin.
“What’s got you so.... Oh. Well... Yep, that’ll do it.”
The last line of his message, which he probably was intending to delete—or at least rewrite—simply read, ‘I look forward to our date.’
“He won’t think that you wanted it to be a date if I come,” Kuroo explained as he shoved Kenma toward the cafe, still quite sympathetic of his poor friend’s pain. Kenma had his hood pulled up and kinda seemed tempted to drift into traffic, so Kuroo just kept a better hold of his shoulders as he drove him forward.
“Maybe he’ll take pity on me and stab me with a teaspoon.”
“Maybe you’ll be less morbid, how about that?”
“We both know that’s very unlikely.” Kenma managed to open the door before Kuroo flattened him against it.
“True,” he sighed. “So, you see him?”
Kenma glanced around, fingertips rubbing against his nails within his pockets as he sought out Shoyo.
After a moment of peering around, he spotted sunrise eyes and a mane of flame, as well as the scent of full, unfettered magic wafting through the air.
“There,” Kenma breathed as Kuroo straightened, eyes fixating on the summoner. Kuroo whistled to himself.
“I’m counting myself lucky that you’re not territorial.”
Kenma squinted at his best friend, though he let his withering glare fall exasperatedly. “I’m getting there.”
Kuroo’s smile grew with mischief. “Too late.” His tongue slipped across his upper lip.
Across the cafe, Shoyo shivered, glancing around and catching their predatory gazes. Unlike prey, his eyes didn’t waver, and their excitement only grew.
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••Part 9 of (?)••
This got a little longer than usual—I got carried away bc I love writing disaster Kenma 😂 and also Natsu is super adorable so I’m including her more 💖💖
•• Send Asks for more! Feel free to ask about characters and send Headcanons! Or if u wanna just talk Haikyuu/ships, I’m good with that too! :) and for other parts, search the “summoner au” tag on my blog and you’ll find em!••
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What would happen if Syntax actually did get cured of the venom? Would he still want to hang around Huntsman and Goliath or would he Think 'huh. Maybe having the people who KIDNAPPED ME around me and my family Probably isn't the best idea.' - Pixel Anon
Uhhhhhhhhhhh yeah I think the answer is Not Good Things Will Happen. I think the answer is ‘Y’all are down an integral clan member hope you didn’t have any plans that hinged on technology or science in general right now.’
Honestly I think you don’t even need to throw Minyi and Xiuying into that equation to make that the answer. Even if you assume Syntax was essentially just alone in the world before spiderfication if he got the spider limbs pulled off and the venom drained from his system, no matter WHAT his Backstory is i think he’d just book it, he’d be OUTTA THERE he is GONE. He’s running before the purple has fully faded from his skin.
And when you THROW IN the ladies, then… well even more so. He’s got Minyi in one arm, a duffel bag in the other and loading into the gd car headed for Xiuying’s cabin to lay low for awhile.
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Like, most people like to assume that there was a sort of… adjustment period when he had just been spiderfied, usually the flavor of ‘someone (usually Huntsman) reminding him of how he is at his base a human, not a spider, not one of them, and the second he stops being useful is the second he’s only good for how he’ll taste’ and even if he wasn’t afraid of whoever it was in the moment, confident in his ability to manuver extra limbs that aren’t there anymore and speed that wasn’t there either, all the physical additions that being a Spider Demon had are suddenly gone and that threat about being the next meal for the clan suddenly feels a lot more real. Even IF the others had actually grown attached to him and Minyi and even Xiuying, the fact of the matter is if these people decided to kill them all he wouldn’t be able to do anything about it.
Something I could see having kind of a ‘disney channel cartoon’ resolution in this setup is a thing idk if i’ve mentioned before involving Minyi or not. Bc Minyi, as i know i have mentioned, fucking HATES Spider Queen, and at first for awhile there she was very vocal about it, she hated that her dad was working for her, she hated that he wanted her approval, and most of all she hated that whenever she’d say any of that to him, he’d just sort of… not listen.
Even when even Minyi knows what she’s talking about is silly or irrational, she never really feels like Daddy isn’t listening. Even when she’s wrong and he has to explain to her what it was that was wrong, she still felt like he was listening to her as she talked. But not this. Never this. Minyi’s an observant child, her plotline hinges on it, so she knows when Adults tune her out, she knows when she’s being condescended to. And when Daddy tells her that of course he wants to stay Loyal to Spider Queen and she’s Really Cool Actually she can tell he wasn’t listening to a word she’d actually said. Because he never mentions forgiving her for stealing him, or that he knows it might look like she pushes him around but he knows he’s always in control of the situation, or anything that would actually ANSWER her questions or settle her worries. She just… might as well have stomped her foot and yelled like she was half her age.
And now that his head is clear he can look back on that and be… embarrassed? guilty? His daughter was warning him that whole time out of honest fear and concern that she only barely had the vocabulary and emotional complexity to understand And he brushed her off as if it was nothing. And to rub some salt into it now that his head is clear and the unrelenting force of the Spider demanding subserviance to the Queen is gone it’s obvious that his fucking six year old was right about his ‘boss’ being bad news. So of course he figures he owes Minyi an apology, but Minyi’s just happy that he’s listening to her again so it’s all okay in the end.
And if this is the Cyberhunt timeline then can I get an F in the chat for Huntsman? Bc he ain’t even getting a breakup scene, i don’t think he’d even get a letter outside of the ‘I’m leaving the clan and leaving the city with my family. Don’t try to find us’ that goes out to all of the clan (maybe even still implying that Syntax DOES still have that Spider amplification in him so it’s not just a flimsy ‘stay away’ from an equally flimsy human)
I could see Syntax as being pretty mad at himself for letting the relationship happen at all in that context. Like yeah, his brain was all scrambled up and he can’t ACTUALLY be held accountable for decisions made with the fact that he wasn’t really in his right mind for the whole thing, but it still happened. But now it’s over, and- and it was just some echo of venom that hadn’t quite metabolized yet that left a bitter taste in his mouth to acknowledge that those people weren’t really friends, that he wasn’t really-... His brain is still re-adjusting, he’ll be fine in time.
Minyi I don't think would quite get certain parts about this, in her mind, the big boss is always the bad guy and the other people around are just as scared of the big boss as the person they’re bullying. So to her only Spider Queen was the bad guy. So when Daddy turned back to normal and said that they weren’t safe from the bad guys anymore and needed to go stay at Auntie Xiuying’s cabin for awhile she’d thought that Uncle Huntsman and Uncle Goliath hadn’t come along simply because Uncle Goliath didn’t fit in the car. That they’d catch up with them soon. Because surely, they’d ALL be running away from the REAL bad guy together.
So, she figures they must have gotten lost and had to head back home. Thats not good, surely that means she needs to help them find their way here like how she helped Daddy find his way home. Auntie and Daddy were both too scared of Spider Queen finding them to contact her uncles, but Minyi knew how to evade that!
She knows Uncle Huntsman likes to hang out at their apartment because he loves Daddy (she’ll keep that to herself for now, grownups don’t believe in happily ever afters) so if she mails a letter to the apartment he might find it when he eventually comes over.
She knows Uncle Huntsman doesn’t like puzzles, but he’s good with them when its something important. So she makes a cipher and writes the letter in it, copies down the decoder, and chops it up into distinct shapes, seals it all up in a letter closes the envelope with a sticker on it, and slips it into the mailbox.
Eventually Huntsman does find the letter, written in childish scrawl, the puzzle to decode the letter, and the knowledge that theres only one child on this entire damn continent that would be this obnoxiously enigmatic about sending a fucking letter.
But whatever, he wasn’t gonna do anything except sit in the apartment surrounded by things left behind and feel sorry for himself--er, that is, scavenge for anything that could be used by the Queen and take advantage of the internal heating. So he may as well do something. So he puts together the decoder, she’d just sliced it into fourths. Then translated the letter.
“Hi Uncle Huntsman! If you’re reading this that means you unlocked my letter! Yay! I knew you could! So I know you and Uncle Goliath want to leave the bad lady’s clan too and I know you’re only not here because you guys got lost.” and she just… gave them the coordinates for the place her family was hiding away. (not REALLY hiding, it wouldn’t have taken much to track down the cabin’s whereabouts through Xiuying, but the secluded nature of the cabin may as well have been)
I guess… the way the story ends depends on how you want it to end. Because Huntsman has three options, but really only two. Does he accept defeat and burn the letter, or does he do something with the information he now has? Either way he’d be betraying the queen, but he doesn’t have it in him to turn in the coordinates of their lost clan member and his family. Not this time.
There’s this youtuber i like called Breadsword, he does movie analysis, and in his video about Millenium Actress he says something along the lines of ‘My favorite moment in a romance is somewhere in the last ten minutes, after we’ve followed our characters through the buildup, payoff, and premature destruction of what they had, as they go their separate ways and come to the conclusion that it wasn’t meant to last, one rejects it and takes flight in pursuit of the other... our dreams and our love are the only things truly worth running in the name of.
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Riverdale S5 Ep11 Thoughts *Spoilers*
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- Oh yeah I forgot that Chad was blackmailing Veronica about the dirty dealings in her company even though it’s not her at all (unless it’s just been so long and I’ve forgotten but she’s my baby and I feel like I would’ve remembered but-
- Hiram and this dumb prison is one of the worst things for this show it’s a constant plot of people escaping and it’s so annoying like sure Hiram owns it and he was in the jail but no one has, like, taken him back to jail…??? Hiram is a fucking disease smh
- “back to remote learning” why didn’t you just stay that way though… like even right now in covid schools are opening back up and kids are complaining because it’s still not safe so like… just… go back to it??? I’m so not built for this world fasdhfkahf
- Veronica and Smithers 🥺🥺💞💞
- the way Veronica hugs Archie is so cute bc she’s so tiny but like she always gives her all and Archie is just 😐 never giving anything ahjfsdfsh it’s quite sad you can tell how done KJ is with Varchie lol
- “I really hate that I’m dragging you through this.” … what about constantly pulling him into your mob boss father mess that the writers refuse to allow you to escape from?
- “until you and Chad are officially done, I think we should keep our distance.” Varchie bones!!! you just KNOW that Archie has been looking forward to this because that man is whole heartedly in love with Betty and has been since forever and that while Chad prolongs the divorce papers, Archie will not be waiting for Veronica considering he doesn’t want her. Varchie = bones we love to see it!
- now who tf would join Penelope Blossom’s ministry… no one, realistically.
- can Cheryl stop being given the craziest and usually most boring plots ever please...
- Not someone holding a gun to Tabitha literally don’t hurt Riverdale’s best girl weirdo
- these bitches really haven’t aged huh…. poor Veronica though being robbed but like they stole some watches or something and the opal like that’s all you take..?? okay-
- Fangs 💞💞💞💞💞 also rip to him having to work with his ex tho
- STOP HAVING ARCHIE GO TO HIRAM WE’RE TIRED
- You know considering the whole reason why Hiram is still here as the villain and ruining Veronica’s life/growth to keep her in his plots al because Mark is a big soap opera celeb and apparently brings in money, you’d assume they would give him GOOD shit instead of everything he’s gotten. If they hadn’t of hired Mark can you imagine how much better off the show would be if they didn’t have to keep him around bc of his status????? God why-
- Reggie’s always there for Veronica muah…. oh fuck me I guess fjasjkdf
- “I work for one Lodge and it’s not you.” lmao okay??? you acting like that’s a flex, and that you’re working for the better Lodge who literally left you to die after the Serpents thought you shot Fangs so-
- MARTY BEING WHY REGGIE IS WORKING FOR HIRAM…….. YOUR DAD IS ABUSIVE LET HIM HANDLE HIS OWN DEBT??? God both Veronica and Reggie are always fucked over when it comes to their parents huh
- don’t you just love when they make characters act ooc for a plot ahhhhhh it’s totally fun to watch and totally not frustratingly annoying
- “FOR OLD TIMES SAKE.” 💞💞💞 we love Veggie even though they made Veronica act ooc and hurt him back then and they weren’t given an actual chance.
- “don’t be such a Betty” now why is Betty so surprised she only ever had fun when she was with Archie, when she’s with Jughead all she did was do what she wanted and order him around so likeefjhakdfh
- “he shouldn’t really be my problem anymore.” BUGHEAD BONES YASSSSS
- I know it was just a sound they used but like that squish sound when Darla kicked Tom’s face… did she like smash his face in damn what is this The Walking Dead?
- see the problem with them randomly bringing characters/parents in when they need them is that they’re never around so like no one really cares… like they could have utilized the parents so much (and Skeet and Marisol never would have left) and it would have been so much better than random appearances that make them look incompetent and awful parents because they’re never there during all the other times their kids need them. but we have to see the two toxic parents that won’t go away constantly??? literally what the fuck
- Betty calling Jughead’s writing cringey wbk she’s never liked his writing she was just stroking his ego bc she was his gf and had to be supportive lmaoo
- why are these 60+ year old men beating up Jughead like for why???
- so they just forgot that Tom was checking in on the convict huh gotta love dumbing down characters for plot!
- Fangs with his switchblade muah
- jealous Tabitha muahhh over a password
- “wait THE BETTY?"
- Cheryl looks so good
- Find meaning in his death… girl didn’t you not care that your husband killed your son over the illegal maple stuff I forgot the plot but it was something illegal and dumb
- “drain the vein” …...
- Reggie helping muah
- Why is Archie acting like an ass? like sure he doesn’t know that Chad is abusive and toxic but c’mon fucker you cheated on her and never apologized and you don’t even wanna be with her in the first place so why are you acting like you’re personally hurt sit down
- God Archie really hates Veronica huh… I don’t even blame him considering the shit she’s brought him into time and time again.
- Jughead was kicked like maybe five times yet he was fine falling out of a two story window and the serpent imitation but now he needs antibiotics..? plot convenience!
- literally don’t remember anything about Doc tbh or him talking to Donna and Bret like—
- ever since Negan people are obsessed with bats with barbed wire.
- also! yes please kill Hiram <3 I know they end up saving him bc of the opal but c'mon
- they searched basically nothing for five seconds wow such great detective work you guys!
- we know you just want his manuscript Jessica
- Cheryl with her rainbow skirt how cute!
- “daddykins” girl you’re like 25
- Veronica acting like she cares about Hiram fjsadhkfhas these guys thinking that they’d kill Hiram even though they need him lol
- bad bitch Ronnie we love her even though she’s gonna have to save her father to save others and get her opal </3
- not Veronica calling Archie first and not Kevin considering Kevin’s dad is there…. this is the pandering va fan service bs we have bc it makes no sense and it’s so forced
- Fangs knowing Archie rides with tools in his truck mmhm that’s a little sus idk how but archiefangs agenda coming through!
- no one would actually believe that Jessica ashkjdfsj and they take this bait…??? you gotta be joking lmao
- Jug got to help doc this time 🥺😭
- …. tell me why when he said boyfriend I immediately thought of Reggie I hate myself for wishing fahsdjkfsafj
- okay as cheesy and corny and awful the fight scene is since they posted a clip of it, them working together is so refreshing and nice we love leader!Veronica bc she’s so good at it. but the show only cares for Betty which is funny since she’s an awful detective fbahsdjfj
- my god enough with Jason’s body!!!!!!!!! you burned his body please let him stay dead let his body rest
- okay but the back and forth from Betty and Jessica is so good like I wish we could get that kind of rivalry drama type stuff all the time. too bad they refuse to let Veronica act like a normal person and get angry at being cheated on and such :/ when will Veronica slap the fuck out of Betty
- he’s not a blameless victim but Betty take responsibility for how awful a person you are PLEASE
- THE VOICEMAILLLLLLL Jughead only speaks the truth! it’s weird that he only realized what we all knew about Betty after but whatever, finally he gets upset like damn. also jeronica crumb he’s the only one to ever include Veronica smh ALSO Cole acted the fuck outta this voice mail muah
- the way Betty just sits there uncaring… she really is a freak huh god when will someone punch her in the face and take her ego down a million notches she’s so annoying
- “that’s darkness.” …?? what?
- the way bh’s relationship parallels jughead’s with Jessica though. the unhealthy habits, the bad energy, etc. except Jessica left it and Betty didn’t and it turned Betty into whatever the fuck this is. I miss s1 Betty :/
- so when will they sue Jessica for drugging them? mmhm probably never
- poor Tabitha being the only one who cares about jughead tho
- oh no I forgot there was a random musical number…
- you’re gonna have Betty and Tabitha act like THAT and not put them together so rude
- when will Cheryl be free from her mom. is was like turned on by abuse or something sigh why do the toxic (and most boring!) parents get plots and screen time and everyone else doesn’t...
- Veronica would be able to do Moree than pepper spray but whatever only Betty is allowed be “badass"
- fangs being fangs ugh so sexy my babyyyyy
- Trevor Stines is so attractive it’s a shame they only bring him back for five seconds to traumatize Cheryl over and over again though </3
- wow varchie in a pop’s booth what season is this again??
- god it’s so upsetting how amazing varchie would have been as just friends…
- the way he smiled at Veronica was so contradicting to the blank, “please don’t” expression when she was telling him she was gonna get divorced as fast as possible. why can’t he just admit he doesn’t want to be with her!!!!!! my god they’ve put off barchie long enough just let them be together so their characters can finally act in character and stop being so awful and annoying
- “this cause” what cause you fucking weirdo
- not Hiram threatening the mayor he could literally be your downfall if we had good writers fjasdkjfasf
- jughead how would you have killed him with a small wooden basket
- I like doc so much but I know we’ll never see him again until we randomly need him seasons from noow
- Betty wasn’t hit by the drugs until after the message though… how would she not remember? it didn’t seem to be doing anything to Betty until the bunker
- hopefully since they’re friends now Tabitha can make Betty act like a decent human being <3
- the way Tabitha looked at Betty please stop doing this to me...
- maybe we can finish that dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jabitha rising bughead dying we love to see it!
wow that episode felt like it was two hours long but thankfully I finally finished it… don’t have many actual thoughts but anyways hope you enjoyed my live blog of my thoughts!
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ao3feed-komahina · 4 years
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the irony in the title is not lost on me thanks.
These are gonna be a series of drabbles in no particular order of Kaede and Maki and their adventures and experiences living together :)
They're cute and I love them sm. this is also My first time writing for this fandom so the charachters might be a little ooc, sorry.
I'll try to progress the drabbles so they get like more intimate/significant as they progress, but again, no real order to them. Except the first two chapters. deff read those first as they're introductory.
I have a list of prompts i'm filling out for them kind of but if i ever run out i might let some of yall request something since i know the newcomers to this fandom are content starved as hell.
Words: 1304, Chapters: 3/?, Language: English
Fandoms: Dangan Ronpa - All Media Types, New Dangan Ronpa V3: Everyone's New Semester of Killing
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M, Multi
Characters: Akamatsu Kaede, Harukawa Maki, Amami Rantaro, Iruma Miu, Mioda Ibuki, Koizumi Mahiru, Saionji Hiyoko, Nanami Chiaki, Sonia Nevermind, Hinata Hajime, Kamukura Izuru, Komaeda Nagito, Oowada Mondo, Hanamura Teruteru, Shirogane Tsumugi
Relationships: Akamatsu Kaede/Harukawa Maki, Koizumi Mahiru/Saionji Hiyoko, Hinata Hajime/Komaeda Nagito, Hinata Hajime/Nanami Chiaki, Hinata Hajime/Komaeda Nagito/Nanami Chiaki, Chiaki Nanami/Sonia Nevermind, Minor or Background Relationship(s), pretty much all of them are minor or background relationships, except Kaede and Maki, this is a kaemaki fic, Harukawa Maki & Kamakura Izuru, Amami Rantaro & Harukawa Maki, Harukawa Maki & Owada Mondo, Akamatsu Kaede & Koizumi Mahiru, Akamatsu Kaede & Nanami Chiaki, Akamatsu Kaede & Mioda Ibuki, Akamatsu Kaede & Iruma Miu
Additional Tags: Akamatsu Kaede-centric, Harukawa Maki-centric, Kaemaki roomates au, And they were roomates!, oh my god they were rommates, pretty much all of the charachters are minor or background charachters, some might not even get mentioned idk i'm still fleshing this out, I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping, Lesbians smh, Useless Lesbians, Kaede is bisexual actualy, wlw, wuluwuh, Maki is a lesbian, Le$bean?, LeDollaBean, Bisexuality, Kaede plays piano at a bar bc ofc she does, Mahiru owns the bar because fuck you I do what I want, Kaede's work uniform includes a bowtie, Kaede doesn't know how to tie a bowtie, Maki knows how to tie a bowtie, lesbianism ensues, oneshots, Gay, Gay as hell, Love, two girls, just two girls in l, they are two girls in love, they live together, Roommates, its a roommates au, Falling In Love, why are all the recomended tags from fuckign supernatural, I feel like I'm missing something, How Do I Tag, Angst, Menstruation, yes because I'm afab and it hurts so I'm going 2 vent about it, Trans Hinata Hajime, Trans Izuru Kamakura, because fuck you a second time, Maki and Izuru is an underrated friendship concept i think, wow this has a lot of tags, maybe if i just keep typing them I'll come up with some that are actually relevant, Maki litteraly needs someone to tell her she is whiped, like this girl is down so bad, I Will Go Down With This Ship, Kaede plays the piano for her <3, So back to that angst tag, panic attakcs, :), Kaede is on antidepressants because fuck you again for like a third time, also she wears contacts, Kaede is the Messy Roomate™, Izuru and Hajime are twins but their last names are different because they grew up in seperate homes, if you were wondering, also the komahinanami thing and the sonianami thing are both cannon at the same time, shshshs let chiaki love three people, even if it's just in the background, idk might fuck around and give chiaki her own chapter trying to flirt with sonia, no update schedule, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - Non-Despair (Dangan Ronpa), I hc chiaki mumbles all star lyrics as an idle stim, deff not bc i do that, AHAHAHA, cries in adhd, this is my current hyper fixation lol, god how many tags do i rlly need, ffs, okay but did I cover all the relevant ones???, Living Together, Spoilers, maybe?? - Freeform, idk man, i mean maki's talent might get spoiled idk, if you're here tho you've probably already gotten to that point, I say as I havent even gotten passed v3's first trial, okay I think that's all, I'm lazy, Coming Out, also also not to project or anything but, she is deff the type of bitch with 5357928479752 cups in her room, V3 is so emotionally draining, if i hear one more upsetting spoiler i think i will begin aging rapidly, I would put this tag ->, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, except I probably /wont/ do that
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Haikyuu Horrors — Week 1 🔪
Wendigo — Kuroo Tetsurou x GenderNeutral!Reader
Next week: Demon — DemonKing!Oikawa Tooru x FallenAngel!Reader A/N: lowkey dedicating this to @kageyama-tho​​​ and @normiewrites​​ bc i love their blogs and they said they love horror stories fuck me up im so excited to write next week’s scenario The setting is in the Ashio Copper Mine and I had to make a couple of changes for the sake of the story. Although the mine’s been abandoned since 1973, tours are still carried out to this day and it’s a popular tourist spot. I’ve diverged from that (and some of the geography) and made it so that the mine’s been closed completely since 1973, including the public.  TW: character deaths, gore, blood, mentions of cannibalism and murder this is a wendigo scenario what did u expect Word count: 3,617
UNDER THE CUT
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January 9th, 2018. 12:47:32 AM Ashio, Nikko, Tochigi Prefecture The Kuroos Cabin
They both lived beneath a sky forsaken by the sun. 
The threat of fractures haunted their bones, the undertones of their skin had been drained and exhaustion circled their eyes. 
They both lived beneath a blinding white, their irises forever glazed.
Steam rose up from the latte that sat near the map of Nikko. [Y/n] had only taken a couple of sips of the coffee, finding the flavour disgustingly sugary. There was no element of surprise there, though - after all, it came from power in a packet. Superficial scratches ran along the desk, worn down from the never-ending notes and diagrams that [y/n]’s pens drew.
‘It’s almost one in the morning.’
‘Oh, Tetsurou,’ [y/n] approached Kuroo, wrapping their arms around his waist, ‘How come you’re up?’
‘I was asleep until I heard the kettle boiling,’ he chuckled, his fingers combing through their hair. Agony sank into Kuroo’s chest as several strands came out. He ensured that they ate three healthy meals a day, remained hydrated and spent time outdoors, but inadequate sleep takes a great toll on any body. 
‘The coffee tasted awful, so it wasn’t even worth waking you up for,’ they said sheepishly, ‘sorry.’ 
When it came to [y/n]’s insistence on tagging along with Kuroo during his trips to Nikko, he possessed an immeasurable dislike. The steady decline in [y/n]’s health induced a sickening anxiety within him, causing numerous arguments that all led to his failure in persuasion. [Y/n] always prevailed, ending up with him in their expensive two-story cabin in Ashio, drinking that godawful packet coffee throughout the night. 
Kuroo grabbed both of [y/n]’s hands, placing a kiss on each knuckle. ‘Come to bed,’ he coaxed, leading them out of the study.
‘I can’t,’ [y/n] pulled away, ‘I’ve got a new lead and I’ll lose my train of thought if I leave it for the morning.’ 
A long, dejected sigh left Kuroo’s lips. Their marriage of three years was fulfilling and filled with immense joy, there was not a speck of doubt about that fact. It was that obsession of theirs that caused concrete to pour into his lungs. For the entire year, it’d non-existent – it only emerged during those winter trips. It was almost a ritualistic occurrence that was triggered by lingering trauma. 
‘It’s been six years, [y/n],’ he said with sorrow, immense grief overwhelming him.  
‘And I’ll work on this case for another six if that’s needed,’ [y/n] returned to their desk, eyeing the blueprint taped to the wall above it. It was entirely taped with maps of nearby areas, newspaper clippings from 2012, head shots of the volleyball team they managed in high school - everything that they believed would assist them. 
‘Look at this,’ [y/n] turned their laptop towards him, showing him a list of names on an excel spreadsheet. 
‘Since when did you become so tech-savvy?’ Kuroo grinned slyly. 
‘Firstly, excel isn’t tech-savvy,’ they scoffed, ‘Secondly, don’t change the topic,’ they demanded. ‘I made a list of everyone who disappeared from the area over the past six years.’
Kuroo leaned into the screen, his pupils drifting down the list. 
‘And?’ 
[Y/n] pointed to the column titled “disappearance”, ‘Ever since the winter of 2014, the year they closed the investigation, a bunch of people would vanish within days of each other. All of them had no familial connections and barely any relationships, so there’s never been any pressure on the police to find them.’
Their lips pressed against the ceramic cup, taking a sip of their now-lukewarm coffee. ‘I’m glad neither of us have gotten snatched so far,’ they laughed nervously.
‘Probably because we’re not a socially inept,’ Kuroo chuckled, burying his face into the crook of their neck. He grabbed their shoulders tenderly, turning them around. ‘They’re��dead, [y/n],’ Kuroo said with a soft voice. He placed his hands on their cheeks, the pad of his thumbs stroking their cheekbones. ‘They got lost during the snowstorm that day and died of hypothermia.’
‘No, they didn’t!’ they yanked his grip off them.
‘For fuck’s sake, [y/n]!’ Kuroo exploded, yelling in frustration, ‘The case was solved years ago! You’re losing sleep and ruining your health for nothing!’
‘You’re so full of shit!’ they fumed, ‘I know you don’t believe that because you were obsessed with this case too, remember?! But unlike you, I didn’t stop caring about what happened to our friends!’
‘I didn’t stop caring, I just moved on!’ Kuroo stepped towards into them, driving them to walk backwards until their back pressed against the wall. ‘Every year, you insistent on coming with me and I let you. I try so damn hard to make sure that you don’t return to your obsession, but you do it the moment I fall asleep.’
[Y/n] cowered under Kuroo’s intense gaze; his eyebrows knitted as air hissed between his teeth.
‘You’re never coming back here ever again,’ Kuroo walked away, prepared to slam the door shut, ‘we’re leaving in the morning.’
‘The mines, Tetsurou!’ 
The muscles within Kuroo’s shoulders suddenly relaxed, his posture slumping. ‘The Ashio Copper Mines that'd been abandoned since 1973...’ [y/n] began, ‘the police never even considered checking them.’
He finally looked at them, donning a smile riddled with misery.
‘Do... do you really want to know what happened?’
‘Of course I do! Don’t you dare tell me that you found out and kept it from me,’ [y/n] said with disgust. 
‘If you were the one who found out first, I would’ve been furious if you didn’t keep it from me,’ Kuroo picked up their snow jackets from the clothes rack, 'let’s go.’
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‘How are we meant to get in? The adit’s sealed,’ [y/n] rubbed their gloved hands together furiously, vapour drifting out of their mouth.  
‘Not fully,’ Kuroo walked over to the slabs of wood that covered the left edge of the adit. He placed a hand against them, his brain vividly recalling his first venture inside. The images pulsated within his eyes, almost liquefying them within their sockets.
Kuroo began to move the wood, each one sinking into the snow as he discarded them.
‘It’s a really small gap, but I think we’ll be able to squeeze through. Come,’ he ushered.
Although the glacial breeze no longer pricked into [y/n]’s exposed skin, the place somehow intensified their cold-induced numbness; as though fungus began to bloom from their pores. They believed that their unease was caused by the dark, but it continued to plague their muscles even after Kuroo flicked on the flashlight.
‘Hey, it’s alright,’ Kuroo put his arm around them, ‘there’s nothing threatening our wellbeing down here.’ 
‘Except for the rocks above us that may tumble down at any moment,’ [y/n] shuddered, ‘where exactly are we going? I-it’s still pretty dark.’
‘I want to show you what I found,’ Kuroo held them even closer, ‘Don’t worry, there’s no skeletons,’ he smirked.
‘This is not the time to joke around!’ 
A shriek erupted deep within the mines, the sudden spike in their blood pressure inducing a shiver into every vertebrae.
‘W-what on earth was that?’ [y/n] wheezed, breaking away from Kuroo. They frantically looked around, but their vision was limited to what the flashlight exposed. A droplet of water fell onto their scalp from the rusty beams above, causing them to gasp and jump backwards into Kuroo. 
‘Calm down,’ he cooed, holding [y/n]’s hand. ‘It’s been abandoned for over a decade and everything’s breaking down. Odd noises aren’t unusual.’
[Y/n] nodded with a gulp, their saliva soothing their dry throat. 
‘That elevator though’—Kuroo pointed the flashlight to his left, revealing a cage elevator—‘didn’t break down much. It worked fine the last time I was here.’  
‘The last time?’ [y/n] scoffed playfully, ‘You’ve been going on spooky adventures without me?’ they asked sarcastically. 
'Can’t comfort you every time you get startled,’ he snickered. He led them into the elevator and pulled the latch, the coils creaking as it took them upwards. 
Their arm was tightly looping around his, horrified at the possibility that they’d get separated. 
‘The wendigo’—Kuroo grunted as he slid open the cage-like door of the elevator—‘is a mythological creature that comes from Algonquian folklore.’
Logs of moldy wood were hammered into the walls over the rocks underneath, the spotlights mounted on them burnt out years ago. Several mine trolleys ran along the railway, ores of copper overflowing. The soles of Kuroo’s shoes created a crunch as he walked onto the pebbles covering the ground.
‘Tetsurou,’ they said with a stern voice, ‘when I said that this isn’t the time to joke around, I meant it.’
‘What, you’re not into Native American culture?’ Kuroo teased.
‘I’m not into you trying to scare me even more.’ 
‘[Y/n]…’ Kuroo placed his forehead against theirs, giving it a slow and gentle kiss, ‘... you have to trust that I’m telling you all this for a reason.’
[Y/n] held Kuroo’s hand in silent agreement, continuing to follow his lead. 
‘The Algonquian people believe that when a human starves long enough, the wendigo spirit will begin to possess them, driving them to have thoughts of cannibalism.’
A screech almost entirely pierced through [y/n]’s eardrums, a high-pitched ringing flourishing within their ears. The hairs along their body pointed upwards as their lower lip quivered.
‘Humans who find themselves in such a situation usually succumb out of survival. But even then, they’re not excused from the sin they committed. Their fate to transform into a wendigo, a man-eating monster, is sealed. That is their punishment.’
Another screech, this time leading to the sensation of an ice pick digging within [y/n]’s ears.
‘What the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck!’ [y/n] looked at Kuroo with fury and repulsion, ‘Y-you’re so damn casual about t-th-that story! And those sounds!’—they waved their hands around, attempting to come up with an appropriate description—‘Those a-aren’t things b-b-breaking down, o-or a person that could be here, b-because it’s so—’ 
Multiple shrieks, shaking and swirling within the aged walls.
‘Monstrous?’ Kuroo turned around to face them, the hazel of his eyes seemingly green. ‘Our friends were trapped in the mines for weeks, [y/n]. They were starving.’ 
‘I really don’t like that you’re implying that our friends ate each other. And I don’t like that you’re narrating some campfire story while doing so,’ [y/n] backed away from him, ‘we’re leaving. We’re leaving right now.’
Kuroo completely neglected their demand, immediately clasping his hand around their wrist and dragging them forwards.
‘Let go!’ [y/n] dug their heels into the ground, clawing at his fingers, ‘Dammit, Tetsurou, let go of me!’ 
They’d known him since their first years at Nekoma. Well over a decade had passed since then, yet there was never a single occasion where force was an element of Kuroo’s touch. As a matter of fact, the delicacy and tenderness of his touches were a sharp contrast to the roughness of his callouses - that was the kind of man [y/n] developed an intense love for. Not the man that was forcibly dragging them somewhere they didn’t wish to be.
‘A wendigo never dies from starvation and its hunger is insatiable... that’s the whole point of the curse,’ Kuroo dismissed their pleas. He finally stopped in front of a row of small wooden planks, propped into a muddy patch of soil. ‘But when I found them during that winter in 2014, I made a vow to keep them well-fed. That list of missing persons you showed me? That was the menu.’
‘You fucking kidnapped people and threw them in here?!’ the next shriek led a burst within [y/n]’s ear canal to suddenly erupt, their own scream merging with the animalistic ones echoing within the mines. [Y/n] pressed their hands firmly against their ears, palms warm with the blood that slowly poured out. 
‘I killed them beforehand so they wouldn’t suffer.’ 
Their face was raw from the negative temperature of the night, their tears scorching it as they trailed down. Kuroo wrapped [y/n] within his arms, holding them tightly into his chest. It did not induce the slightest amount of comfort, though. Kuroo’s embrace was foreign, alarming and unspeakably nauseating. 
The white paint on the wooden sticks was almost entirely chipped away, age having worn them down. [Y/n] kneeled in front of them when they caught glance of the letters scratched into them, blinking rapidly to lessen the clouding of their vision.
Inuoka. Kai. Shibayama. Taketora.   
A cassette of the team devouring the intestines of those four played inside [y/n]’s mind, as though their body was taunting them. Bile rose up their stomach, burning the delicate membranes of their throat and mouth as they spat it out. 
‘W-who the fuck even are you?!’ they aggressively pushed Kuroo away, ‘You’re not the man I married! I d-didn’t marry a fucking murderer!’ 
 ‘You’d rather they starve again?’ he asked in disbelief.
‘You just said that those things don’t die from starvation!’ 
The next screech prompted Kuroo to stand up and face away from them, appearing to be waiting for something. ‘It’s not fair that we’re alive and happy, [y/n]. We both have to die just as horribly,’ he said in an uncharacteristically calm manner. If [y/n] hadn’t known any better, they would have believed that he was a deaf man that was completely unaware of the monstrous wails. ‘That is the punishment for our sin.’ 
 ‘What fucking sin? There’s no sin! Please, Tetsurou, this is all just survivor’s guilt—’ 
The muscles of their tongue tensed at the sight. The creature was no shorter than twelve feet, its legs thrice the length of its arms. Its pale, wrinkled and sickly grey skin was tightly taut against its bones due to severe emaciation; its abnormal skeleton on the verge of breaking through. No hair was to be found on its body - only frost. 
Its claws, the size of battle swords, sunk themselves into Kuroo’s head with ease; as though it were a needle gliding through a pin cushion. It placed its gaunt, sunken face in front of Kuroo’s, releasing a high-pitched scream that throbbed within [y/n]’s damaged ears. The short strings of decayed tendons that hung from shank-like teeth flew away from its mouth, some dropping to the ground.
[Y/n]’s pupils drifted towards the rocky ceiling of the mine, spotting several more wendigos screaming in hunger. The sound of flesh tearing caught their attention, leading them to look at Kuroo once more. 
The wendigo pulled his head upwards. [Y/n] watched every vein within his neck tear until his head was completely severed from his torso, splashes of ruby painting their face and dyeing their clothes. The vocal cords within their larynx were paralysed - even though the scent of rotten mince from their husband’s blood clung onto the hairs within their nostril, [y/n] found themselves incapable of making a single sound. Kuroo wasn’t capable of doing so either while he was ripped apart, the blood filling his upper body making him gurgle instead of scream. 
What distressed them even further was the wendigo’s sunken eyes. Its murky, faded golden eyes. 
‘... Kenma?’
The wendigos that lunged in [y/n]’s direction immediately snapped them out of their shock, prompting them to grab the flashlight. Sheer horror powered their legs to run to the elevator nearby; they possessed no desire to turn around and see how many there were exactly, especially when considering that that would slow their movements. 
Splinters and cuts embedded themselves into [y/n]’s fingers as they pushed large barrels, tumbled trolleys, rocks — anything and everything — in the wendigos’ way while they ran. Under normal circumstances, [y/n]’s strength to do such things would have been non-existent, but their heart beat fast enough for adrenaline to seep into every cell. Fear was a fuel to pushing the body well beyond its limits. 
Although [y/n] was relying on the unstable light they wavered around, the elevator began to enter their view. They extended their right hand out, prepared to close the metal door once they got in. Their brain was floating, their vision was hazing and their organs were collapsing. 
The unanticipated piercing of large, pointed teeth into [y/n]’s shoulder was what led them to finally scream. The wendigo was a creature of the winter, yet its bite was agonisingly hot. They could fully feel its humerus, rib cage, vertebrae — its entire skeleton — pressed against them while it lifted them off the ground. 
The wendigo was then suddenly ripped away from [y/n], Kenma — or rather, what used to be Kenma — having jumped at it. The pull tore several of [y/n]’s tendons, their nails digging into their shoulder to ease the throbbing sting.
With that singular brush of a four-leaf clover, [y/n] made it to the elevator at last. They found no time to apply pressure to their wound, dropping the flashlight and slamming the door shut. One of the wendigos gnawed at the bars, leading [y/n] to pull the latch frantically. It was significantly taller than the others - around fifteen feet. If it weren’t for its door, it would have easily grabbed [y/n]’s head and crushed it, giving them an end identical to Kuroo’s. 
[Y/n]’s head spun with a ruthless migraine, anxiety deepening while the wendigo refused to let go of its grip on the elevator while it ascended. They were unsure if it was their sole aim of escaping, or the trauma they’d gained from watching their husband’s severed head rolling towards them, but an intense rage engulfed them. They began to relentlessly and repeatedly slam the soles of their shoes against the wendigo’s claws. 
It screeched with a fury and pain, eventually letting go. When the elevator reached a halt, [y/n] realised that the adit was now close. 
[Y/n]’s brain began to shut down as they continued to run, following the white emitting from the small gap they entered from. The howls of those wendigos — their friends — reached a crescendo, blending into a singular note. They wondered how frequently they must have screamed as humans, desperate to suppress their hunger and restrain the wendigo spirit. Their survival relied on renouncing their humanity completely. Yaku, Fukunaga, Teshiro, Lev - they all succumbed, feasting upon the flesh of their teammates. All [y/n] could do was hope that they weren’t devoured alive. 
The truth of Kuroo’s last words regarding them tormented [y/n] - “they’re not excused from the sin they committed. Their fate to transform into a wendigo, a man-eating monster, is sealed. That is their punishment.”
When [y/n] finally squeezed themselves through the gap, they immediately barricaded it with the discarded planks of wood and nearby rocks. Their skin was encased with a filthy, blackened sheen of melted ice. It was a disgusting contrast to Kuroo’s blood on them; jelly-like, thick and sticky. Their own blood, on the other hand, warmed their bruised, sweaty body while it gushed out of their shoulder. It all made [y/n] reek of rust and mold.
 A loud, poignant wail left their cracked, bleeding lips, collapsing on all-fours as they sunk into the snow. Crimson and mahogany wept into the ground, tainting the white that stung their knees and palms. [Y/n]’s nostrils narrowed with mucous, dripping into their mouth and leaving a salty taste against their tongue. Tears tickled the tip of their nose as they fell and melted their way through the snow, the proof of their grief vanishing as quickly as it was born.
For a moment, they wondered if they’d sinned too.
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December 26th, 2018.  04:38:05 PM Ashio, Nikko, Tochigi Prefecture  Ashio Copper Mine
Years’ worth of wendigo-related research and observations, all hidden away in the cut outs Kuroo made within complex chemistry textbooks.
[Y/n] quietly chuckled to themselves as they dragged the ice sled up the short mountain, amused by their past naivety. Those hollowed books all rested on the large bookshelf in the living room, yet they never bothered to even read the titles. Not until after Kuroo was decapitated, that is. 
One of Kuroo’s hidden possessions included a comprehensive map of the Ashio region. When [y/n] sat down and analysed it the first time they found it, their loneliness for him surged. They were encouraged by others to return to the dating scene once they’d recovered, but they knew they’d never do so. [Y/n] wasn’t lonely for company - they were lonely for Kuroo.
Having reached the large hole situated above the Ashio Copper Mine, [y/n] kneeled beside the ice sled. In one of Kuroo’s diaries, he specified the only way he keep them well fed. There was a hole situated above the mountain housing the mine, deep enough to guarantee that no wendigo could climb up and emerge. That was where he dropped the bodies.
Several items were strapped onto the sled - a snowboard, a helmet and a thermally insulated box. However, they were mere props. They proved to be highly effective tools of disguise, attracting no suspicion whatsoever while they made their way from the town to the isolated mines. Those who passed by [y/n] never viewed the duffle bag as an object of interest. What menacing thing could there be in the bag of an individual clad in snowboard attire? Goggles? An extra pair of gloves? Bindings?
How extraordinarily slim was the probability that a corpse would be present?
Unzipping the duffle bag, [y/n] eyed the bloodied dent within the man’s temple. Kuroo specified that some Algonquians believed that the human remained trapped within the wendigo’s icy heart, but [y/n]’s always rejected that theory. The wendigo that was once Kenma tore its childhood friend in half, then proceeded to guzzle down his muscles and slurp on his pulsating arteries.
There was no human in there. 
But [y/n] finally understood the sin Kuroo referred to - it was the sin of escaping the ghastly demise their friends met. For committing that, they were rewarded with an equally violent death, or the punishment of ensuring that the wendigos remained fed when they awoke from hibernation every winter.
Some may say that that was not the case. That [y/n]’s statement that there was no sin — only survivor’s guilt — was correct. It was far too late for [y/n] to speculate on such matters, though. 
[Y/n] huffed as they dragged the body out and rolled it into the hole. Numerous revolting crunches echoed while its skeleton shattered, limbs at grotesque angles due to the obliteration of its joints.
When screeches bounced against the walls of the mines, they realised that they lived beneath a sky forsaken by the sun. 
Fractures began to settle within their bones, their complexion had been drained and exhaustion cursed their eyes with an itchy dryness.
They realised that they lived beneath a blinding white, their irises forever glazed.
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FANFICTION TROPES; tier list
since i just announced an almost 2 week hiatus on wattpad, i wanted to post something writing (fanfiction) related here!
(i saw a youtuber do this, here’s the link to that vid xxx)
also because i can’t explain the way she did why she put certain ones higher or lower, i’ll just write a lil explanation for every one of them!
let’s get it! (woah been a while since ive said that jsjdajdf)
‘i- pls no’ category: 
amnesia fic; i just don’t really like this plot in anything, so this ain’t really a surprise tbh
arranged marriage; this fits the category name very well, just don’t pls... it’s not a fun dynamic to create romance by forcing characters together
baby fic; there are a few exceptions, but i usually don’t start reading something for it - but will keep reading a fic if its introduced further down the line
body swap; that is just a NO. that creates awkward and perverted situations, and i honestly hate both with a burning passion. to feel second-hand embarrassment is not why i read ffs.
major character death; i already am depressed af so i don’t need this in my life
fairytale au; i just don’t enjoy the magic element, i grew out of it pretty quick. the last time i liked something magical fairytale-ish related was when i was like 6.
gen fic; okay i did not know what this meant, but my hopeless romantc soul ain’t about that life kjdsnfdks
magic au; same thing could be said about this one and the fairytale one.
time loop; it’s just idk, not something i would read - even in shows i don’t really like it, since i think it makes the story hard to follow
pregnancy fic; as someone who reads mostly taekook and a few exceptions but still mlm fics i think that speaks for itself, not an mpreg kinda gal
sex pollen; this concept started out well, then went down the drain with the alien-y vibezz, other than that it would be good ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
‘depends on the execution’ category:
abo; i don’t really read abo unless im there for the smut tbh... (i do be getting real comfy here tho saying that kdfskdjf)
crossover; same goes for this as for the pregnancy fic one, i read bts fics so the only crossover we gettin’ is other kpop idols showing up aka jackson wang lmao
dark fic; although this is what you could categorize the story im writing but not publishing as of my ocs, as i said before im depressed af and dont need to be even more
canon divergence; i mean as a taekook fic writer this be what im doing with everyone of my stories dkjsfdjs
established relationship; i put this in this category bc i can’t execute it without it being boring since i build most of my plots around the relationship that’ll be the end result, but i do read it if someone manages to pull it off
fix it fic; i mean depends what we are fixing, bc in my context i be just going au all the way lmao
miscommunication; again, awkward situations are my worst nightmare so-
unhappy ending; i guess depends on how bad it is, if it ain’t like character death i can bear it
‘sure ¯\_(ツ)_/¯‘ category: (this a mood tho jdksj)
angst; i can take some of it, it be making things interesting - or like i use it to make things that lmao
bang or die; tbh i was this close to putting it higher... but also by ‘sure’ i mean that i’ll read it 9 out of 10 times so...
crack fic; for entertainment porpuses and an easy read (for ex. insta/twitter au) it’s good ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
humor; all stories should have at least a lil in them!
fake relationship; it’s arranged marriage’s long lost sister who is the less toxic version of that 
high school au; i read a ton of it since most aus are set in a school environment, but usually its not the main focus so ended up putting it here
in vino veritas; aka drunk confessions - it’s good, something you can spin things off of or help build the tension with (saying that like im a professional lmao)
unrequited love; i don’t read a lot of it, but i’ve read ones that keep up with that through 90% of the fic and it was good so thats a sure
‘i like it, its okay’ category
college au; as someone who’s written more than one and mostly reads taekook fics set in college that’s a yes from me, not something i am actively looking for tho
fluff; i write and read it, sometimes i melt from it sometimes i don’t ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
first kiss; i’ve done this almost every time in my fics, sooooo-
historical au; IF ITS DONE WELL ITS GOOD AF!! (my hamilton phase having ass thrives off of it kjfdskfjsv)
missing scenes; i think as someone who writes taekook and includes actual moments of them in my stories i kind of have to fill up the missing pieces of said cute moments so i do this, and see others do so as well
royalty au; i don’t read a lot of it, but sign me up for some majestic beauty of a kim taehyung being royalty anytime
slow burn; don’t read much of it on wattpad, but all my fav ao3 fics are slow burn and like a lot of words ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
love triangle; i don’t openly say this or anything but i do read it from time to time and enjoy it those times so...
‘LUW IT’ category:
sharing a bed; if you look at my reading lists on wattpad you’ll know why this is here ksjfsjfk
mutual pining; i do be writing this each and everytime without even meaning to, so that also explains why this is here
coffee shop au; AS THE WRITER OF STUDY SESSIONS, no but really i do be writing and reading a lot of it lmao
enemies to lovers; read a lot of it, love it a lot - fav ao3 fics are almost all enemies to lovers soooo-
friends to lovers; all my favs are either enemies to lovers, friends to lovers or bed sharing ones i-
hurt comfort; my heartu we luw luw emotionally supporting others in this house
huddle for warmth; sharing a bed and this go hand in hand and we love to see it
pwp; i *cough* yeahhhhhh, just yeahhhh
soulmate au; we love soma-ultes lfjskdjfksdjf
and that would be it! <3 
until my hiatus ends on wattpad i hope to be more active on here, so the ppl who follow me with tumblr accounts can be happy lmao
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(1/4) HI!! A new week started, I wish you a wonderful one!! Take care of yourself + keep yourself warm ❤ Wait for me, I want to run away with you from responsibilities D: Tysm for saying that, so it's decided that both of us can take our time bc sooner or later we will answer. I love animes like that, being surpised like that it's a onetime thing. Btw I watched the first episode of Given and omg, I already like it so much?? Kuroo's voice is a dream like his hyena laugh.. :D DABI AND THE
(2/4) SPOILERS I CAN'T omg, Dabi was already  so hot, now I'm dead. People write him+Shigaraki as weird friends in  fics?? I'm interested... can you show me one? Okaay, Tsuyu is my  absolute fav in bnha, my precious frog girl. I KNOW THAT!! It's the same  when someone asks u to talk about yourself :D you can always talk about  Hawks and ramble as much as u want bc OFC I'm having fun!! I wasn't  ready to read any fics (sounds strange I know) but I slowly get curious,  before christmas I'll read one of
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Hello dear Santa!! I'm finally here to answer and somehow it's...Thursday here? I don't even know where time went but I hope your week was decent~
Grouped your messages into 2 parts, hope this makes sense lol
I've been so drained ahh, but thank you!! asdfsdf I'll happily run away from responsibilities with you ❤ I'll even pack us a bag of goodies to eat for the road. ;D Oh!! You already watched Given and you like it? I'm so happy to hear that truly!! I wonder who your fav would be :')  But you know last week's Dabi spoiler literally hyped me up so much and agree he looked SO GOOD BUT THEN THIS WEEK'S?? literally threw me on the ground and as a Hawks and DabiHawks stan, I am literally just PAIN now. So much pain. But this manga is so good and I'm so invested, I've never loved dabi and hawks more.
asdfsdfsd okay I didn't word that quite right about dabi + shigaraki as weird friends in fics ahaha I'm so sorry. I'm not sure how to describe it but I simply mean they have an...interesting relationship even tho it's usually just background mentioned?? Like sometimes they can't stand each other but are clearly still friends. And other times, like there's this one fic I read where they're like "friends with benefits" but Hawks is Shigaraki's roommate and eventually Dabi shows up just because he wants to hang out with Hawks and the way Shigaraki is like indifferent about that Dabi is showing up just for Hawks now/realizing clearly Dabi likes Hawks, just makes me so happy?? lol. I don't know if this is your cup of tea so ahhh no pressure to read at all and I can rec other things!! But it's this fic and I actually really like their characterization and the plot is soft and fluffy (a nice contrast to my usual angst hahaha). ^^
Aww you like Tsuyu! She's a cutie for sure. :D Omg if someone asked me to talk about myself...I've literally got nothing except my way too invested love for fictional characters oops. But I'm so happy to hear you're having fun too!! Btw I can't wait to find out who you are bcus I'm so lucky you're my Santa, you're the absolute best tbh (but shh don't tell anyone else I said that since I'm half running this event ahaha and everyone is amazing but you are extra so) ❤ ❤
I don't blame you for not being ready to read fics...bcus once you get hooked, you might be *forever hooked* and then you find yourself without time to do anything else because you just want to read?? Or worse, you find what your fav type of fics are and you finish one and you're empty bcus you can't find another one just like it...or wait maybe that's just me. xD   But asdfdsfsd omg, you don't have to read one of my fics ahaha. Those nobody fics!! I have to ask, do you like Eren/Levi...? Because if you don't, truly you don't have to read them lol!! I do have dabihawks ideas (so many drafted actually) but I haven't posted any yet. :') Hmm...since you've never read fics before, I guess what kind of things *do* you like reading? So if I rec you dabihawks fics, I can pick the right ones hopefully!
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Day 7: Free AU
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Publishing Date: 15/12/19
What is a Free AU?
Free AU day means you can write for any au your heart desires. 
Below we have included a ridiculous amount of prompts for popular AUs that have not been featured in ACOTAR AU WEEK. You do not have to write for the AUs listed below, they are simply there to help anyone who is stuck and needs inspiration. Also, please feel free to use this list anytime you need! Thank you for being so patient with the reveals, we are so excited and can’t wait to see everyone’s work! Keep an eye on the blog as we will be sharing information about posting and answering any questions that may come our way.
Tags to use: #acotar au week day 7 #day 7 free au #acotar au week
Prompts under cut:
Royal AU:
“Your Queen recently died and shit we STILL can’t get married cause of our statuses damn it.”
bonus: “I’m the one who hired the assassin, well that’s a month’s worth of gold down the drain.”
“I’m not YOUR bodyguard but damn you’re fine.”
bonus: “The person I’m actually guarding is trying to hook us up, shit…”
“Haha, it’s cute that you think I need to be guarded. Or that you can keep track of me.”
bonus: “HOW DID YOU KNOW ABOUT MY SECRET EXITS?!”
“I’ve been recently crowned king and I’m expected to choose a wife or husband soon. Oh what they don’t care about the gender but as soon as I want to marry my bodyguard my mother is threatening to disown me!”
“As a bodyguard, I should really be discouraging your budding feelings for me. Except, you know, I have them too and I was never very good at my job anyway.”
“I DON’T CARE IF IT’S AN ARRANGED MARRIAGE WE NEED TO STOP THIS ‘RELATIONSHIP’ RIGHT NOW.” “Oh, so you want to throw away everything that happened these past few months? Fine.“
“Good news, I think I’m the missing royal child. Bad news, that means we might have to break up.”
“My wife wants a baby even though we just got married last week and met the week before that, and I don’t know how to tell her I’m gay.” “Want me to tell her?” “Please don’t.”
“Sire, please stop flirting with me in front of your potential suitors. It’s making it very hard for you to get married.” “Yeah, that’s the point.”
“… Excuse me, did you just propose to your bodyguard, sire?” “Yes. Is there something wrong?” “Except for the fact that you’re doing it at your wife’s funeral, no.”
More Royal AU prompts!
Teacher AU:
no wonder why you’re the football coach damn you’re fit au
you’re so wrong i’m going to stop my lecture to tell you why au
*aggressively argues for whose team is better even though they’re completely different sports* au
our students think we’re dating au
a student catches us texting to each other in class oh how the tables have turned au
we leave each other notes on the blackboards au
someone’s taking my lunches au
our classrooms are adjacent to each other and we can always see each other through the door windows au
i will yell at you even though both our doors are closed to shut up your class jesus christ au
our students see us leave the same car in the morning and guess what they think au
i’m the drama teacher and you’re the only who can actually act help me demonstrate this love scene to my students au
More Teacher AU prompts!
Fake Dating AU:
I brought you as my friend but my parents read our closeness as dating and only gave us one bed to share.
I had a bad week and I can’t decide what kind of cake I want so I want to do the wedding cake samples at the cake store but I need to do it with someone. Quick- Do you like cake and can you hold my hand?
I may or may not have told everyone we were dating i panicked bc i was the only single one at the time
there’s this creepy person that’s asking me out over text and could you pretend to be my significant other?
shit couples get 40% off??? hold my hand i’m getting that discount
everyone thinks we’re dating why don’t we pretend and then break up so people will finally get off our backs. foolproof plan except i didn’t expect to fall for you
i got stood up on a date and you were just grabbing dinner- shit my ex is here, sit down and pretend to laugh at something i said attractive stranger
More Fake Dating AU prompts!
Celebrity/Famous AU:
I really can’t sing please don’t pull me onstage AU
You’re my favorite singer and I won the chance to meet you this is so cool AU
You’re my favorite singer and I ran into you on the street/at the grocery store/at karaoke night AU
‘you’re a celebrity incognito trying to hide from paparazzi and you’re sitting right next to me and i’m the only one that recognizes you’ au
Some fans are chasing me please let me hide here,  i’ll pay you back, promise AU
You’re a famous singer, I’m your personal driver and you’re an absolute pain in the ass.
You’re a famous singer, I’m your personal driver and I always have to save your ass when you get in trouble at some party.
You’re my favorite celebrity, I know everything about you and my apartment is covered in your pictures, I dream about you all the time, but I’m not a stalker, I swear… okay, maybe I do have a little problem.
You’re an actor, you play a villain on this show and everyone hates you, but I’ll defend you to the death.
You’re a rock star and I’m your drug dealer, I shouldn’t care you’re fucking up your life, but I kinda do.
You’re a famous author and I’m your neighbor, I suspect the main character in your books is me, but I was too shy to ask, but now you killed me, I mean - in the books, and I lost my shit and went to yell at you because WHY???
You’re a famous politician and I’m that one journalist who asked that one question that possibly ruined your career, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to.
You’re a former famous model with an eating disorder and I’m your therapist.
You’re a rock star and I’m the cop always going to your apartment when people complain about the loud parties you throw.
You’re a celebrity and I’m that one cop who pulled you over and gave you a fine and had no idea who you were, until I googled your name and holy crap, I should have asked for an autograph.
You’re a famous singer who’s almost got killed by a crazy fan, now you suffer from anxiety and don’t want to leave your apartment, I’m the person bringing you food and stuff, and I might be the only one you trust.
You’re a famous politician, I’m the detective with the task of protecting you, you were refusing to leave the building when I got the order to get you out, so I knocked you out and carried you out, now you’re going to sue me, I’m quite sure of that.
You’re a bored former rock star, I’m the escort you called and man, your place is a mess, don’t you want to do something about it before we fuck?
You’re a famous fashion designer, I used to be your favorite model but now you told me I gained too much weight and you don’t want me anymore and I’m crushed, I thought you liked me for more than my body.
You’re a famous YouTuber and I’m just starting my channel, but I sort of ridiculed you in one of my videos and now people laugh at you and you hate me.
You’re a famous person and I’m the actor supposed to play you in a movie.
You’re a famous singer who was jailed because of drunk driving and I’m your cellmate for the night, also I’m your biggest fan.
We are both actors on a well-known TV show and our characters have to kiss AU
“You’re a celebrity and I’m a paparazzo, sorry friend I have to take pictures of you to pay my rent next month” AU
I would include more celebrity AUs but this is a long list and I actually couldn’t find anymore (although I’m sure there are more, I just can’t find them)
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Single parent AU
Soulmate AU
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Criminal AU
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PLEASE share your thoughts on That 70s Show. Question, did you know already what happened on the show or did you get the chance to watch it spoiler free? Because as a JxH shipper that was spoiled both the ship and the ending, I'm always curious how ppl that didn't know what to expect react to it, regardless if they ship it themselves or not. Also, tell me your fave character, ship, fave season/episode, stuff like that. I love hearing what ppl think of this show lol
*spoilers for people who haven’t ever watched* *this also is so long sorry in advance, under the cut so it doesn’t clog everyone’s dash* ANON YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY THIS MAKES ME!!!! 
i knew some things but not how or when they happened (except eric leaving in s7, i knew about that and still UGLY CRIED)!! i honestly loved jackie and hyde together, they’re definitely one of my favorite couples, if not my favorite couple. i thought they balanced each other out so well and hate how s8 ruined their bond, it was almost as if their relationship never happened and seeing them hate each other again made me so sad. when they were together, watching hyde soften a little bit was so nice to see. jackie and kelso definitely were better friends in my opinion, they understood each other in ways no one else in the group did (probably because of past history), but despite their relationship failing i think their friendship was so sweet. jackie and fez made literally no sense and was way too rushed, but if they’re happy together i guess i can’t stay too mad at it (especially since it was only for like an episode). hyde and samantha was also a strange relationship, i feel like sam’s only purpose was to put hyde x jackie to rest for good. if they were going to keep sam in the show they shouldn’t have written her off the way they did. also idk if this is an unpopular opinion but kelso x fez low key should have happened but no one was ready for that conversation at the time. fez always seemed to worship kelso in a way he never did w eric or hyde, it would have been interesting to see them pursue something but after the buddy write off i wouldn’t have expected it. speaking of buddy, he definitely should have been a guest star more than once bc he would have gotten on so well with the gang. bi eric forman also should have been canon but anyway-
eric and donna had their issues, but at the end of the day i feel like it was expected they would be together. boy and girl next door fall in love, i mean.... it was always happening. they were cute in the beginning, but i do wish donna didn’t give up everything to stay with eric in point place just to have a complete 180 and have him leave when she was the one who always had plans to do things and he wanted her to stay to save their relationship. they kind of did eric dirty by making him seem like such a jerk by breaking up with donna OFF SCREEN and really without warning, that made me :/. but seeing them reunite made me cry despite them ending their relationship on weird terms. PLEASE DON’T GET ME STARTED ON RANDY HE’S THE ABSOLUTE WORST. he wasn’t a bad person he was just.... so annoying and served absolutely no purpose to the show except to annoy the living heck out of me. 
i honestly can’t choose a favorite character!! even the characters who i didn’t really care for much still hold a special place in my heart (except randy, this is a randy hate club). i love hyde, he’s always been the man and has the best taste in music (also would love to work in the record store with him?). donna is so cool, she stands up for herself and doesn’t really conform to society’s standards and i find her so likable (also laura prepon.... gorgeous). i hate kelso for cheating but i feel like he grew up throughout the show, as much as kelso can (like seeing him step up for brooke with betsy melted my heart), and he makes me laugh so incredibly hard. although jackie was a little annoying in the beginning, seeing everything she went through like her dad going to prison and her mom leaving her, and how she sort of unlearned some of her Not So Great qualities made me appreciate her more (also mila kunis.... very gorgeous). eric is.... well, he’s the heart of the show whether you love or hate him; i like him even though he was a little annoying at times, but i think his redeeming qualities outweighed the negatives. i feel for fez, they played a little too much on the ‘foreign’ thing and after a while i felt that it was :/ especially since he’d been in the country for so long (red always calling him the wrong name just.... ehhhh), he’s quirky and adorable and i love him. even though red was.... yeah.... i still loved the one liners and he and kitty were adorable, kitty is the cutest mom and the way she treated everyone like they were her own kid was just so precious. leo.... i don’t have any words, he’s simply the funniest person and whenever he speaks i lose my mind. bob was alright, he was good to donna but midge deserved better (like when bob was mad at her for taking the feminist classes??). 
everyone changed so much from the beginning of the show and i loved seeing the development even if it wasn’t what i expected initially. i can’t really choose a favorite season, i definitely need to watch one more time to figure that out. i love all the circle moments though. uhhh i don’t really know what else to say. i’m emotionally drained from crying over finishing this show. even though s8 was a bit of a mess i loved every second of consuming that 70s show and i can’t wait for my rewatch🥺🥺 let me know some of your opinions anon !! i could talk about this show all day
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notyouroriental · 5 years
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not to show off my hot takes but here’s how i would have edited The Rise of Skywalker
don’t have the creative energy to re-write everything I found distasteful but here it is -- some spoilers below
keep the beginning the same. this was great. seeing Kylo go after Palpatine. tbh, an army of Star Destroyers doesn’t sound impressive enough, it would’ve been neater to have had an armada of something that maybe echoes the Death Star, maybe like another Starkiller Base and the plans for a whole system of them
enter a sequence of cuts between Rey training and Finn/Poe and co fighting
we see Kylo haunted by his visions of killing his father, Rey haunted by visions of the dark throne
same sequence of going to Pasaana, running into Lando, force healing the underground snake, etc.
the clue is something else instead of the dagger. the dagger looked gaudy. maybe like literal notes. or a chip with the directions to the location encoded on it in sith.
Rey still does her cool trick where she destroys Kylo Ren’s ship, Ren is injured, but the First Order still captures Chewbacca, the clue, and the Millennium Falcon. Rey and co are forced to take off.
Rose takes a peek at C3PO, and there’s tension between her and Poe regarding the attention they both want from Finn. It’s clear that since Leia died, she’s been running some things
our friends go to Kijimi to get C3PO’s memory to decode what’s up, and the same sequence of events occur, except:
Zorii is not Poe’s love interest. Maybe they have a teasing relationship, but Zorii isn’t sexualized Like That, she gets to have her face shown, there are some other old buddies, and she’s nothing more an old friend that helps to expand on Poe’s character, backstory, and provides the basis that funny bit where Finn harps on Poe for his wild past
Instead of revealing that Rey is a descendant of Palpatine, Kylo taunts her by saying that he knows that the Dark Side Calls To Her Too, revealing his plan to take the dark throne with her and rattles her pretty bad with some more vivid visions
Hux saves the crew from execution, he dies, etc.
Rey and her fun friends arrive on Kef Bir and we get another fight scene where a rattled Rey stays on the ship and a beaten Finn/Poe/Chewbacca are basically merked by Jannah & Crew, until they learn that they’re resistance and they make up.
Noticing that Finn fights like a stormtrooper/did something only a stormtrooper would do, but then seeing Rey as she walks out to see what’s going on, or a line that slips from Finn/Poe about the resistance
Rey’s fun friends being confused because they thought Jannah and crew were stormtroopers, maybe their armor being like refurbished Stormtrooper armor
Same deal happens with Rey taking off on her own, confronting Kylo, almost killing him, Leia giving up the rest of her life for Kylo, etc.
Kylo is torn with the appearance of the memory of his father. He, for once, instead of going on a rampage, collapses and cries, his sobs drowned out by a roaring sea.
Same events, etc, Rey getting a pep talk from Luke about how she shouldn’t isolate herself, keeping with the general theme of strength from our bonds with other people. It’s up to Rey to carry on the legacy of Jedi, but to also mend the mistakes it had made, and to embrace her relationships instead of shunning them bc that’s the best thing you can do to fight for what is right, etc etc etc, setting up the dichotomy between Dark/Light not being one about emotion/lack thereof but one between selfishness/valuing the people around you
this message ties to the promise that Palpatine made to Kylo at the beginning of letting all the power he wants be his as well as Kylo’s own desires to rule
the final battle lead up is the same except:
Poe not being able to do this alone even though Leia left him in charge, making up with Rose to share the leadership, their subplot is resolved
Intimate moment with Finn
Palpatine says that he knows that Rey’s been dreaming of the dark throne, that the real vision is just her on the throne, how he also came from nothing and made his way to where he was all on his own
Ben’s on his way back, swinging his lightsaber, is disarmed and beaten, Rey teleports Luke’s saber to him (almost cut this but this was a cool scene)
Palpatine drains Force Dyad Rey And Ben, force lightnings Ben off a cliff, Rey is knocked down, hears her Friends, Luke, and then Leia, and gets back up
Maybe some added voices as we pan over some Old Friends that have come to assist in the fight????
The Old Friends coming to assist is a major easter egg/fanservice moment and wasn’t capitalized it’s potential for that and for that I’m sorely dissapointed
same sequence of events
Couple changes here-- the different quality of the relationship between Poe and Zorii, (now) General Rose trying to command Finn (and his defected Stormtrooper buddies) to “sacrifice” themselves (but he does anyways, with a line about how they’ve never been good at following orders), only Finn and Jannah make it out
note of appreciation for how cool the double Skywalker sabers were
Rey is fatally wounded after destroying Palpatine with his own deflected lightning
This goes one of two ways:
Ben doesn’t make it in time, closes Rey’s eyes, takes up his mother’s saber, carries her back, we see the battle close and the hostile welcoming of Ben and then him vowing to make up for his past mistakes, he is a Skywalker Rising, he wears white now to symbolize that. The movie ends at the beginning of his redemption, a new era of Jedi, and the end of the First Order. 
Ben gives the last bit of life to Rey, something about how that last bit of life used to be Leia’s, he dies and they don’t kiss. Rey looks conflicted but accepts his death. We see Leia become one with the force.
The film ends the same way with Finn and Rose actually?? congratulating each other?? some sort of acknowledgement that the two characters actually INTERACT
Loved that Chewbacca finally got a medal. Cute.
Finn and Poe kiss. look. that’s my ideal. We all know that Disney doesn’t have the guts to do that. but that’s the ideal.
If Rey is still alive, she buries the sabers on Tatooine, and walks of into the double sunset and we see the Skywalkers double force ghosts, and then we see a last shot of Rey walking along the skyline. 
The idea was to preserve the idea that a “nobody” doesn’t have to be “somebody” in a mythology dictated by so many “somebodies”, keeping with the former themes of the movie, bringing in Rose more bc it’s what she deserves, FinnPoe, and a more reasonable timeline for Kylo’s “redemption”. This isn’t out of pure hatred for “Reylo” or whatnot, despite how it’s a little distasteful due to Kylo’s own actions to Rey. I’d have to be blind to ignore that there is some sort of connection, to be honest. But he needs a full redemption, and this movie didn’t even have one close to it. He’s done a lot of bad stuff and needs to be understood as such. Characters like that need to be held accountable. 
Nevertheless, for my last and final hot take, this movie was saved by the fight scenes and so it is, at least, a decent movie. The acting was good. It looked and sounded great. The only thing that really suffered was the plot.
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perissologist · 5 years
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(that last ask wasnt meant to be anonymous lol) but wow. i just watched it and i havent even been a fan of daenerys since like season 4 but i feel so bad for her character,,, the writers completely fucked her character up and idc that people are saying "oh it was hinted" cause it just felt so rushed. 10 years of character development !! down the drain!!!! and dont get me started on jaime im just mad worse than endgame aksdfjhajkdfregt8hbiudfhk jnmeokpr394tgr
ok i’ve been stewing on this all day at work and ultimately the problem is not that dany goes mad, but that she goes mad with so little build-up. like she’s definitely always been vicious and willing to get what she wants “with fire and blood,” but she’s never harmed innocents, and it’s a huge leap to go from “dany executes slavemasters, rapists, and those who refuse to follow her rule” to “dany slaughters hundreds of thousands of civilians, including women and children, exactly one minute after they fully surrendered to her, including the soldiers, and thus became effectively her own subjects.” this is the girl that locked her own children, the things she loves most in this world, in the catacombs while sobbing because they were uncontrollable and killing civilians. 
as others have said, foreshadowing does not actually amount to writing out a story arc. no amount of references to dany’s insane relatives/snide comments about targaryen madness makes what she did at king’s landing logical, BUT, even with so little build-up, if d&d really wanted to commit to Mad Queen Dany, they could have done so in a way that made way more sense and is way more in line with dany’s character than what actually happened. cersei was using innocents as human shields inside the red keep, dany could have flown straight to the castle and tried to extract cersei but, upon realizing she couldn’t get to cersei without killing the human shields first, bites the bullet and burns the whole thing down just for the satisfaction of knowing she’s roasted cersei. cersei, upon seeing that all of her defenses have fallen, could have requested an audience with dany, presumably to negotiate, and instead of hearing her out dany could have burned her on the spot in front of tyrion and jaime. there are so many other ways d&d could have completed the Mad Queen arc, but instead, they chose the route that is completely unjustifiable from any standpoint and absolutely kills all of dany’s character distinction as an inherently compassionate person who cares about the innocent. dany’s wholesale slaughtering completely obliterated all subtlety and complexity to her Mad Queen arc. and it feels like d&d knew this, bc after dany first starts burning, we then just get like, a full 40 minutes of civilians being brutally slaughtered, as if d&d are going “see!!! she’s awful!!! look at what she’s doing!!!! aren’t you so mad at her, bitches be crazy right!!!” they really could have used that runtime to play out a more complex storyline but instead chose to use it for empty deaths just to justify their own choices. 
even with all of that, the thing that stings the most is not just the undermining of a complex, flawed female character, but the undermining of her FOR JON SNOW. d&d can argue that they turned dany into an antagonist because the whole point of the show is that there is no True Ruler and no one is perfect/destined to rule, not the noble heroes nor the smartest villains…..except for apparently jon snow, THE most whitebread hero in the entire show??? dany has been victorious for too long so it’s time her pursuit of power corrupts her……….and we all know jon snow would be the better ruler anyway?!?! got is infamous for having no purely good or purely bad characters, but if there’s a cookie cutter hero on the show who doesn’t get quickly axed for being such, it’s jon snow…..and HE’S the “chosen one,” when you’ve been telling us along there are no chosen ones????? this better pivot to jon dying or something and sansa being the one who actually takes the throne, because otherwise it literally feels like the show spent 7 seasons building itself as complex and adult and then throwing it all out the window and letting a 12 year old write the ending 
with all of that said…….jaime and cersei’s deaths were absolute bullshit 100% and don’t even deserve any analysis because they cannot be justified whatsoever. if you end a character’s arc in a way that that arc itself could have just as easily not happened, newsflash asshole, you’re bad at this. the most infamous complex female villain in popular media gets killed crying in a CAVE IN??? there’s no fucking justice 
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