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We've Got a Big Mess on Our Hands by The Academy Is...
Is It Me? Is It True? by Midtown
Womanizer by Britney Spears
Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
Teenagers by My Chemical Romance
#all of these songs are bangers in their own right#very different vibes#except the first two go with each other#i'm on a tai... and midtown kick as of late#especially midtown rn#like holy shit#gabe's voice??????#gabe's fucking voice????#the fucking grit and anger and angst and feeling in it??#hoooo baby#the academy is...#midtown#my playlist
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A–Aventio TGCF idea?? Wherein Civil God Veritas Ratio meets the infamous Ghost King Aventurine during his first mission cuz cuz like— The "live for me" paralels?!? The one who has all the luck partner as well?!? The villain who was actually not the Villain this whole time!?!? The loving humanity a little too much it causes the downfall of a god?!?!?!?
Rant AU in the tags proceed with caution
#Okay to put it into better words:#Veritas having once being a prince wanted to give everyone the prosperity of knowledge and became a civil god in the pursuit of it.#Sadly this backfires in people using that knowledge for their own greed and creating civil wars within it as well as unleashing far more#Destruction upon the land. And the other gods didn't help Veritas in stopping that bc see that's what happens when people overshare info!!#So the aftermath is just pure chaos plus banishment from being a civil god and thrown as this god of war and plague.#800 years passes and he is seen to just still be doing the same things but I a simple term. Teaching people to read and count.#Often times taking up mission and doing research on new pathogens to help cure the sick that can't afford and somehow during a reading#Lecture he gets ascended back to godhood and everyone is like ??? And even he is like ???#Well he doesn't care much about it and just continues to do what he's always done. Except that once in a while he has to take a detour#Mission to deal with ghosts and other malignant spirits. And upon one of those recurrences he finds himself aquaintanced with#The infamous Ghost King Aventurine. Who is mostly feared in heaven due to having beaten the strongest and wisest at their own games. Even#When the odds where fully against him.#As for Aventurine.#His life was harsh but as the prince had given a lot to the people#Not just education but also free them of diseases and sickness. One of which had struck his sister. He liked the prince and wanted to#Follow in giving and protecting the prosperity of the former kingdom. But the good things did not last and his family was struck in between#The many wars that took place. No matter how much refuge Kakavasha and his sister sought no place was ever#Safe enough for them.#He watched the entire world go up in flames yet somehow he could hate the prince-god for it. But rather the people who had started to#Create weapons in his name. The rest of his years he spent it as a warrior slave and then when death reached him he couldn't even go to#The afterlife since he still held so much vigor and wanted revenge to all the people who had turned his land into ashes and his family#Into bones. That is why he became a mourning ghost.#(I didn't want the kakavasha story to be so centered on ratio like it is in tgcf. Because I think it will be fun for the two of them to#Not recognize each other at first after 800 years and then when they do. Rather when aven does he's full on: oh shit it's the cute prince—#As for who was the cause of the upheaval in the kingdom and the maker of the weapons. Idk I was debating there being more than just one#Antagonist to have pulled their strings in verita's kingdom as well as be the reason Aven's sister died. So he's more revenge seeking for t#And the genius society as civil gods just spoke to me it for so perfectly. Ling wen as Ruan mei? Yeah exactly.#ratiorine#Aventio#Dr ratio
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lots of doodles because i forget to post art here most of the time
#lila art#genshin#clorinde#shenhe#kokomi#not tagging arlecchino because that does Not count as an arlecchino drawing LMFAO#He Knows Many Things.#dunmeshi#falin touden#laios touden#sorry that that siblings drawing is so blurry im too lazy to retake it#it has the lyrics to the siblings song below it bc i got it stuck in my head while drawing them#siblings! siblings! siblings! siblings! this is my sister! this is my brother! we are siblings and we care for each other! what we have! we#always share! cuz we are siblings and we have the same hair!!! dun dundun dun dun dun dun dun dundundundundun dun dun dundundun#im actually. rlly proud of those falin drawings on top#and also the clorinde one but i just drew that an hr ago so im probably going to come back to it tmrw and realize its super wonky but wtv#also the kokomi was a request from twt!!!!!#i have. a lot of those to do still#i will do them at some point i just dont have free time a lot#this is the first time ive had to draw in like two weeks i think#and my friends birthday passed and i promised to draw him hkvh so thats my priority#the clorinde was just supposed to be a warmuo#except he called me while i was drawing and we ended up playing sdv#so it was a warmup to nothing#anyway i had fun and i need to go to bed now bye#ALSO i forgot to mention that those shenhe perspectives are meant to look ugly i was trying to draw those perspectives from memory#because i was. in class.#the top down perspective is kindof cute tbh but the Other One.#its ok i love making my faves look dumb and uncomfortable on purpose
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I'm still thinking about that scene in Victoriocity S3E7 where Fleet runs back towards the Beast so as to lure it into the path of the train...
Clara's exclamation of 'Teamwork, Fleet!' after Fleet says he's got a plan reflects her conviction that any plan that Fleet has will be a shared plan, something they do together.
This conviction is a kind of trust, and that trust is part of the reason Clara takes a moment to realise Fleet has headed back towards the Beast. She trusts that he's following behind her. She keeps talking to him, her words full of optimism.
When she realises Fleet isn't there, she immediately realises what that must mean he's done, and her voice sounds more small and scared than I think we've ever heard it before.
Fleet's attempt at self-sacrifice is a kind of betrayal of Clara's trust, but when he echoes her celebration of their teamwork in a more somber tone, I think it suggests that he understands the weight of that betrayal.
If Fleet's plan is that Clara won't realise he's gone until it's already too late, then he thinks "Teamwork, Clara" will be the last words he'll ever speak to her. In what he imagines will be their final conversation, Fleet affirms Clara's understanding of them as a team who work well together, even as he is making a choice that rejects the possibility of their teamwork in this scenario. It's a recognition of what their dynamic has meant. It's a goodbye and an apology, even if Clara doesn't understand it as such at first.
I don't think Fleet sounds scared as he initially faces down the train. When he shouts "Yeah, this way, you stupid machine! Come on then!", he sounds defiant and grimly determined.
In fact, I don't think he sounds afraid until Clara appears, until she might be at risk of being in the path of the Beast or the train as well. It's when he shouts "Clara, stay back for God's sake!" and "Please, get back!" that there's real fear and desperation in his voice. He can confront the idea of giving his own life, but not the idea that doing so might put Clara in danger.
Another thing about these lines is that the move from 'stay back' to 'get back' suggests that Clara didn't obey his first instruction but got closer to him (and therefore to the path of the Beast and the train) between those two lines.
Then Fleet gives what might be another attempt at his last words: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry." A repeated apology before an attempted self-sacrifice is an implicit acknowledgement of how much losing him would hurt Clara. He regrets causing her pain.
Even so, he's accepted that he is about to die and that it'd be worth it to destroy the Beast. But Clara very much hasn't accepted either those things. She's still trying to yell over the noise of the train; she's pulling off her ring to throw at him.
I think it's a good illustration of how Clara's optimism is a kind of strength. She always believes that they can "make a new plan" and that it'll be one in which no one has to die. I think Archibald Fleet needs someone like that, someone who'll tell him to drop to the ground when his death advances from both sides, someone who - even in a dark tunnel with an murderous metal monster and a speeding train - won't stop shouting that there's hope.
#Victoriocity#victoriocity spoilers#clara entwhistle#archibald fleet#I have feelings about them!!#I've listened to this scene a normal number of times...#Can't decide if it's more angsty if Clara heard his apology or if she didn't...#Also on the topic of Clara's optimism#I think it is a part of her temperament#but I don't think that means it's always easy or that it isn't something that takes active effort#The 'midnight overthinkies' scene showed us that there's a lot going on under the surface#As previously established I don't personally see Clara and Fleet romantically#but nonetheless there is something Orpheus and Eurydice#about two people who care deeply about each other#in a dark tunnel trying to head towards safety#and one of them trusts that the other is behind them#except Clara doesn't look back for a while and then he actually is already gone#and she's alone wondering if she's lost him forever#I think I can draw those parallels platonically#Oh also there's something impressive about a show that can literally raise a guy from the dead in the first season#and yet still have real stakes when he's in life or death situations after that#something deeply sinister about how in Even Greater London no death ever needs to be permanent#but we know that the vast majority of deaths would be because access to that technology is so restricted#inspector fleet#victoriocity season 3#victoriocity podcast#Clara & Fleet#The empty man posteth
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Y'know I really feel like Harry and Dave's relationship goes highly unexplored which is a shame because there IS quite a bit to explore, ESPECIALLY if you care about shipping. But as the game stands I mean, they must be aware of each other. Harry in fact definitely knows about Dave. I don't think he'd tell the fucking weird rotten bunny his terrible boss brought in IS the number one threat against Freddy's since day 1 but even so. Dave I don't think would see Harry as much more than A Phoney™ though, which is always more of an obstacle and way less of a person. Which is usually opposite of how Jack sees his often sole employee. Like, you get what I mean? It's almost similar to 2 with the main opposing routes being Peter and Dave except the stakes are arguably way lower now.
#luly talks#dsaf#dsaf harry#dsaf dave#harry fitzgerald#dave miller#if you DO care about shipping however the meat to chew on becomes greater#i think dave bond w Phoneys in general goes fairly unexplored which is once again A Shame bc i do like the hypocrisy he holds#in more than one way they mirror each other#now im just getting emotional and derailed now im literally just thinking of steven that's NOT da point now 💥💥💥#point is i do think you'd take this to a weird domesticating route or simply a more. goofy love triangle one#i mean dave does say he'll win Jack back which is peak divorced line#so its like. a tug war. except Harry isn't like peter who was like employee for the love of god i need your help#harry is pretty passive like Sir. This is urgent but it is your choice ☹️#sorry my meds are kicking in what am i even saying anymore?#i feel like that NyQuil post im for sure gonna shit the bed tonight#i digress anyway point being i think you'd go many places with this concept#you'd just have them coexist in a way the game doesn't explore. you'd have it just plaguing Jack's mind.#you'd have a one sided rivalry. you'd have a STRAIGHT UP RIVALRY. you'd have tragedy and agony in planet earth#which i saw be touched up on once by that one artist who draws jack like he never left the 80s mullet and all. muppety too.#iykyk there's like 6 harrysport artists overall you'll figure what i mean#and yeah you'd even have a somewhat functional jack having two hands. which is something taps chest i truly think could happen#i believe un love and peace and chsnge and healing and#and copium first and foremost ☝️☝️☝️☝️☝️#my body feels so heavy its hard to leep my eyes open
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Listen okay I just know in my heart Cecil Palmer and Sydney Sargent would be BEST friends
#camp here and there#ch&t#sydney sargent#cecil palmer#wtnv#LISTEN they would trauma dump together and love each others jokes and be very cryptic about stupid shit#I’d pay big bucks to listen to the two of them chat together on a podcast#and it’d work because ch&t is FOR SURE in whatever parallel universe nv is in#anyways#this just in: camp here and there makes local queer go feral#it is literally everything I want in a podcast#I could write an essay about how I think Sydney and Jedidiah give me the everyday dynamics I’ve been craving for Cecil and Carlos#and I might but that’ll be just for me#but this is the first podcast that’s had be actively taking notes from episode 1 because there’s just so much of a puzzle to piece together#I’m just having so much fun it’s like a book I can’t put down except it’s a podcast#max rambles in the tags
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I am staring DIRECTLY at Film Reroll Luke Skywalker watching and anticipating his next move
#film reroll#the film reroll#Tim Nolan you played him so well!!!!#I don’t think this will happen but this version of Luke is one I can kinda see turning to the dark side??#like think about it. your aunt and uncle are killed. Ben Kenobi tells you it’ll be alright though and that you have the force in you#you can come with him and train to be a Jedi just like your father was#you leave planet and on the way have to put up with this asshole smuggler and even free a serial killer just to get to the rebels#but it’s fine! because once you’re with the rebels you’ll then be able to train with Ben like he’s promised#except you get there and there are two other Jedi candidates. each seemingly better options than you#one is a child who already has pretty good control of the force without anyone telling her how to wield it.#she’s also young and thus full of so much more potential than you#and the other is a woman older than you. but she has so much more life experience. she’s proven herself worthy both to the rebels#and to the force itself. she is strong and basically everything you’re not#but that’s alright too because Ben knows you. of course he’s going to pick to train you!! but then they say your name Skywalker with horror#and you are told about who your father is and how if you are trained and given everything you want you will become just like him#you are evil and violent by nature even though you feel as if you are anything but… except maybe they’re right#because when confronted with this fact your first instinct was to attack an injured man on death’s door#and if Kenobi has his time taken up by training either kahki or Jyn/planning the destruction of the Death Star#Luke is potentially left in a very vulnerable state to stew#I just am foaming at the mouth thinking about it!!!!#(I do feel like Andy will ultimately take Luke in a more redemption/I am not my father by ‘righteous’ sacrifice’ route though#which also has a lot of potential to be delicious)
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Tuvok’s Children
#[REDACTED] family shenanigans#yeah I switched the birth order around so Asil's the third born instead of the last#Also her marriage status is 'complicated' because she's currently contractually married to a ferengi woman and there's drama as to whether#it's real or not (she got contract-married to her over the course of a case)#All of Tuvok's children care deeply about each other and get along well for the most part v_v#they have a bunch of different idealogies and opinions etc but they all respect each other a great deal#Sek#Elieth#Asil#Varith#an inside joke between them is how humans typically only pronounce Sek's name right on the first try 'If their tongue doesn't slip'#Sek is really making up for all his siblings in the 'give me grandchildren' arena#Elieth met Ione Kitain while working and the two of them hit it off right away but they were both engaged#One day he caught word that she was going to get married and he immediately flew to Betazed and went to see her. One conversation later and#they were engaged instead v_v (his family found it DEEPLY embarrassing - everyone else who hears it finds it terribly romantic.#Except the spurned groom of course~) Elieth's betrothed dissolved their bond without fanfare since she kind of didn't want to marry him#uhh Varith has one of Mollie's puppies (grown now) which Mark gave him and she acts as sort of a service dog !#And Sek took care of their mother when she fell into a depression for a period of time after Voyager was lost#Also - I personally wanna know how they all reacted to that holonovel the doctor wrote about Voyager#hhehee like they meet him in person and Sek's like 'Ah. The Hologram who slandered our father.'#bea art tag#st voyager#st voyager art#star trek#Everyone should have their own little Tuvok family in their minds...!! Each one is precious and good~!!#OH ALSO#Sek is the oldest but shorter than all everyone but Varith (and T'Pel)
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btw hi hello still not abt to fucking . Forget NOR Forgive what they called this dashing summonable mofo in the earliest version of the english beta (& when i say the potential lore implications here are fucking Massive If that initial desc wasnt just old ass outdated lore text and actually happens to have Anything at all to do with the storys current iteration and intended direction. i MEAN that shit) so like yeah actually . yes i did post abt it back then as it happened. but im gonna talk abt it again i literally Must . speak my Truth
readmore as usual if u dont want leaks (well. its literally the outdated beta text desc of a TCG summon but . Well .) but like. i am 100% serious when i say this shit has Literally been rent free since then and the fact that the next beta update removed it in favor of calling that dude a bland ass "dark shadow" is just Genuinely my villain origin arc i want to SCREAM
LIKE. WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK . IM GOING TO TEAR MY HAIR OUT I JUST . AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
IT KILLS ME. IT KILLS ME. IM DYING IRL
WHAT FUCKING NEMESIS!??!?!?!?!?!?
#and like i knoooow i knooooooooooow its not actual verifiable lore for now bc shit changes from beta to live#and esp on the lore front shit has had major changes . this could be an old fucking thing that bears no significance#on what the story is Actually going for now. with the narwhal#EXCEPT ITS STILL LIKE. BUT THEY WROTE THAT FOR A REASON.#THAT WAS THE INITIAL DRAFT FOR A REASON. SO WHAT DOES IT MEAN WHAT DOES IT MEANNN#did they remove it because its no longer accurate????? or bc its information we arent supposed to HAVE yet? out in the open this explicitly#Surely. Surely. Surely. Surely.#also like . i am kinda obsessed w the fact that im p sure im like#the only fucking person#whos so obsessed w the narwhal that i just fucking SPEEDRAN my way to the FIRST version of the TCG kit for my beloved#the SECOND it went up. bc this change came FAST. it was like only a DAY. maybe 2. from when i first screenshotted this like AYO???#and the CRIME of them removing it like.#i might just Actually be the only living proof in here of. thsi fucking desc ever existing for the dark shadow 💀💀💀💀#i remember shadow of the ancient nemesis pre-irminsul............................................................#anyway . lets just say i have many fucking thoughts abt this nemesis guy but uhhhh maybe some other day#or maybe never given its just. lore in limbo its schrödingers lore#but like. either its surtalogi in which case confirmed fucking beef and i do NOT trust that fucking guy at all anymore and have proof for i#or then its ajax' previous incarnation in which case. the levels of toxic dysfunctional destined soulmate shit these two are on i. HELP#fellas how bad is the situationship when youre the destiny of the other etched into the stars whose traces he carries with himself#and the shadow guarding your core and the birthplace of the world that will be created within your stomach is modeled in his image#but youre. STILL. fucking stuck maiming each other on sight what the hell what the fuck. potentially for multiple lifetimes. unreal#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#but like Dude why did they change it man.................#genshin#rambles#narwhalposting
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Well I have finally watched the first three episodes of Netflix’s ATLA…
Ugh.
#I have so many criticisms of the first three episodes I’m scared for the other five#they botched nearly every character holy shit#especially suki aang and sokka#the only character I felt they got mostly right was zuko surprisingly (except the scar)#but at this stage his personality is mostly angry sometimes cringe teenager who wants to go home#so his character isn’t at the complexity of seasons two or three yet#they definitely ramped up his firebending which I’ll accept IF azula is 10x that#which I doubt but still#I do like that he’s concerned about honor even when faced with the opportunity to get gossip about zhao#honoring one’s enemy and all#every time he fights the gaang he gives them the chance to surrender first which is nice#many villains just attack right away#but besides that and the effects I disliked the show pretty strongly#smashing together omashu jet AND the northern air temple while taking the most important bits away from each of them? atrocious#jet needed to successfully manipulate both katara and aang to unblocking the dam#so that sokka could warn both the earth kingdom villagers AND the fire nation soldier#it was important that the soldiers chose to lead everyone out - both fire nation and earth kingdom citizens#and for the northern air temple it was significant for aang to see how the mechanist was destroying/adapting the temple#but they just cut those both out in favor of saving time#this show has no idea what patience is#somehow they cut out a shit ton of stuff while expanding what was left into super long episodes that feel rushed in every scene#my biggest pet peeve with this is that iroh talks WAY too fast#iroh’s slow and calm speech patterns helped force zuko - impatient and angry zuko - to shut up and listen to his uncle#he’s also way too blatant about his treasonous thoughts WAY too soon#I think enough people have written about suki and sokka that I don’t need to expand on the botching of their characters#kyoshi and kyoshi island in general were botched too#also#KANNA WHY THE FUCK DID YOU NEVER GIVE THAT SCROLL TO KATARA#the excuse of ‘the fire nation will find out’ ONLY works if she and sokka thinks there’s a spy in the village#and a spy would potentially make sense canon wise (I haven’t gotten to katara’s full flashback yet)
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cks was making a cameo in my dream and then my alarm woke me up, so. well. okay.
#[art]#[2023]#cks#specifically it was just two still images of them but it was at the very end#had my silly outfit and all its piercings... plus ones I never gave them before? odd.#so I wanted to entertain the ''actors au'' idea but in all honesty they wouldn't make it much beyond a bonus background actor or dancer#(for musicals); they'd forget their lines so often it'd just be a hassle#usually casted as goons/minions/characters that follow someone of authority/in power#height helps; unintentional intimidation factor at times...#pretty unknown! like the rest. except cpn who's well-known for his looks (and acting to back it up)#something something... gestures. a scientist and their creation made of parts and through illegal means#of which someone (swt) is chasing said suspects down except it's hard to exactly realize [cks] is the creation in question at first#so it has that internal conflict as the film goes on of like. ough. aren't they [human] at this point? and ough. illegally made. but ough.#didn't ask to be made. trope of -> creation will not mind if it has to be dismantled and its creator would go through hell to Not let that#happen out of love and. anyways I'm not going to explain the synopsis of the actual plot they play (was kept kind of unknown due to failed#marketing) but i do think they should get to know each other behind the scenes#and something etcetera any homoerotic or romantic scenes they play together Stop being just acting but Oh g-d they cannot confess that.#they're just work colleagues...!! and then there's an ''i love you'' scene and it's all#this is getting too long. bye
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Years ago I came up with an ATLA fic idea for the earth avatar after korra and it was kinda good but I stopped caring about it. as I developed the plot and transformed my initial (flawed) idea, I got less interested in it because it was no longer the same idea. I basically wanted to write Trope A, didn't like that it was such a bad rendition of Trope A, fixed it, and got bored cause it wasn't Trope A anymore. I absolutely don't have the time (or desire) to go write it now (especially with avatar studios coming in hot with a new avatar), but damn I hope an alternate universe-me wrote it.
#atla#basically it was the same issue genji had and kyoshi had and all the fics have with not knowing who the new avatar is. Confusing two ppl#/not sure which is which#person A was abandoned at birth and given to family B#family B also had a child at the same time (gasp) which was person B#They grew up together in B's family. Both are benders#B was super clever and brave and maybe a bit headstrong but otherwise everything everyone expected of an avatar#kinda crappy parents of B are warned around age 14 or something that A and B could be dangerous together by Some Secret Source (villain for#and *insert political factors here* parents of B abandon them both.#[both A and B are mixed earth and fire nation]#A is a bit mellower and follows B's lead a lot of the time / doesn't mind not being the best at everything.#A and B go on adventures/solve mysteries on why their parents left both of them etc#that's like the first act and they find out one of them could be the avatar#they're poor btw. anyway#They of course make friends along the way (similar to aang's aventure-journey arc) and bam team avatar 3.0#except they don't know who the avatar is. gasp#so they look for people who might know how to find that out and they're like “it doesn't matter if it's you or me it's fine!” But ofc B#is really confident that it's them#blah blah they train and they find out Person A is the avatar. world crumbles#B is shocked and maybe there are issues beforehand yknow but A leaves for training and B is left in the dust feeling useless#Now abandoned by both family and friends in their eyes#B retreats and disappears for a few years as A trains. A does avatar things. B secretly gets involved with the Wrong Sort [villains]#maybe something spiritual? unlike lok2? who knows. Not me#leads up to A and B confronting each other and it's sad. A does not want this. B feels betrayed cause of x and y events#B obviously feels justified in their cause#*cue fight* but something changes w/ the villain and B's reality starts to crack#A convinces B that it's not all lost. Insert something about their parents again#gasp B's parents were threatened maybe. or not. Never decided#B starts to come around and together they kick ass. B has a LOT of community service hours to fill#protagonist to villain (maybe antihero?) to protagonist again
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What if we went on a walk at 2 in the morning to rediscover the beauty in the world around us and ended up on a balcony at 3:30 in the morning and remembered that joy is in the small things and we were both gay....
Jk, jk.....
Unless? 😳
#panda posts#panda pines#phoenix#pov me and phoenix were hanging out yesterday as it was a thursday night and two of our friends decided they wanted to go on a night walk#so we joined them and walked around campus to see all the lights put up (the same lights Phoenix and i walked around in the rain to see like#24 hours after first confessing to each other) except this time we were experiencing the whimsy of the world together#and one of the people we were with introduced us to this BEAUTIFUL balcony overlooking everything on campus with all the lights put up and#ahhhhhhh im gay and love the world
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honestly i understand why the life series is Like That bcus of an emotionally harrowing experience i had on a minecraft PE/bedrock server hunger games
#its like my 'nam flashbacks#i rlly understand#bcus in that one game i met up w this random girl#n like its PE bedrock i cant talk to her she cant talk to me#but we traded some resources n stuck together#defended each other#we made it to the very end in the circle#we survived it to the final two#and me i planned on givng her the win#by going into the border n dying#except then she did it first she killed herself in the border to give ME the win#n like that was a specific emotion i felt in those moments before they tped me back to the lobby
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I hope my brother can arrange something so he can bear me part of the journey home after this week is all over and done because I am starting to suspect I will not be a safe driver and it could pose an unacceptably high risk that I'll semi-accidentally drive off the road.
#when will this pain end#i hope to discuss it and hopefully minimise the fallout and at least we won't see each other for a week or two. hopefully by then he might#at least be not avoiding me :/#ridiculous and foolish to care so much about any single thing or any single person#i was already nearing the end of my tether socially for this week in any case#and is that a surprise? ive barely eaten and barely slept during this time#i want to talk to his mother who suffered almost identically the same thing at the same age but i dont know if i can bear it or not#i just want to clear this up with him somehow#and now - finally - ten hours after i was first told this - the tears are coming but they cannot#if they do i dont think they will stop#i just need to get through today and then i can break down#maybe i wont help with packing up tomorrow i might not be up for it i dont know#this week has been such a mix of so so good and so terrible#the talks have been really good and all#and i do not regret spending time with him#altho one problem was one time he apparently would have liked me to go away and didn't say but oh! i would have preferred if he had#i feel terrible for not realising that i should've gone away at that point bc it should have been obvious#except it's not to an idiot like me :/
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Since I’m thinking about it and was talking to someone else -- I do write things other than Hollow Knight. These are somewhat buried under the Hollow Knight fics, but -
Darkmoon Bow - Dark Souls/Dark Souls 3, Gwyndolin & Nameless King pre-canon doing family bonding.
Totentanz - Bloodborne, Hunter & Moon Presence, I started this fic in early 2021, forgot about it, finished it for dropout_ninja, and when I reread it I wonder how many narcotics I was on when I wrote the beginning. Probably fitting for the fandom though.
Two Heartbeats - Elden Ring, Miquella POV founding of the Haligtree origin fic. It needs to be updated but the demon clown has taken all of the muse and refuses to give any back so it’s a little slow, but I liked my prologue anyway!
Just in case any of the people who are following me wonder if I have any braincells left after Hollow Knight.
The answer is no, by the way, but uh, these exist anyway!
#ashe writes#ashe rambles too#the first two are short little one shots#the second one is going to be a longfic#assuming i can wrestle some braincells back from hollow or grimm#they are not good at sharing#except with each other#read into that all you want
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