#feeling a little emotionally run down also tbh

[ghostboneswrites2]

Crush

This one is for the sensitive girlies with emotional regulation issues that find themselves hopelessly attracted to emotionally unavailable men. (Aka me) Idk how I feel about it tbh. We’ll see.

Summary: While on a Rick-ordered fishing trip with Daryl, things are tense and uncomfortable. Emotions run high, things are said. (Prison Era)

Warnings: fem!reader / age gap (reader is in her early-mid 20s) / swearing / dramatic and angsty / mean!Daryl

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Seductive Summer - D.D. Fic Challenge

Dividers by sister-lucifer

A bead of sweat trickled down your temple as you licked your lips, mouth dry from the hot sun. You blinked, eyes fixated on rough hands and bulging muscles as the thin fabric of a black button-up struggled to contain their mass. He moved with precision, callouses delicately threading the line through the pretentiously small hole of the fishing hook.

“Ya gonna help or sit there lickin’ your lips like a bitch in heat?” Daryl finally snapped, growing tired of the sensation of lustful eyes boring into him. In a feeble attempt to mask your shame, you rolled your eyes and huffed, annoyedly picking up a hook to thread your own line through.

This wasn’t a rare occurrence. If anything, it was the norm. Daryl, the handsome but brooding archer, simply trying to complete whatever tasks had been delegated to him on any given day, while the young twenty-something years old Y/N gawks at his physique. It got under his skin, to say the least. He was a man of responsibility, and he found his inner workings far too complex for some little girl with a childish crush to ever understand.

He’d allow it for some time — the stares, the gnawing of your lips, the way you tended to linger around wherever he went — and then the flattery would wear off quickly, and he’d be sure to make it known. It wasn’t like it was a secret that you adored him. He knew it, you knew it, everyone did. You could barely keep your eyes off him from the moment you met him.

Still, despite the judgmental onlookers and his not-so-subtle lack of fondness for you, you just couldn’t help your thirst. To put it simply, you were down bad.

When Daryl had finished his half of the lines he moved on to fashioning small fish traps to place in the stream. He noticed you seemed lost in thought, attention set on the task at hand for once, instead of his big arms and broad chest, or the way his sweat always perfectly follows the framework of his—

“Ya draggin’ your ass on purpose?” He asked, breaking you free from your thoughts.

“I’ll finish when I finish.” You fired back.

That was another thing that irked him to his core. You were so childish. Any hint of criticism or expression of his discomfort always resulted in you sulking or catching an attitude. He didn’t have time to coddle your feelings.

He shrugged you off and focused on nestling the first trap strategically between some stones. As he worked his way down to the last trap, he wondered to himself why Rick always sent you out to fish with him. As previously mentioned, everyone knew how you felt about Daryl, including Rick. Most people also knew that the feeling was not mutual, and in fact, there might have even been some resentment on Daryl’s end.

Truth be told, Daryl didn’t exactly know why it was such an issue. Aside from your youth, which he felt he did not share, you were fairly pleasant in the beginning. Your sweet grin and generous nature weren’t exactly unwelcome at first. It wasn’t until your efforts became too blatant that he felt himself physically recoil at the sound of your voice. As soon as he noticed that people were catching on, watching in awe every time you’d approach him with some fresh water or a snack, a flip switched in his mind. You were no longer a lovely addition to his daily proceedings, but a nuisance to his inner peace.

That was when you changed, too. You noticed the contrast in behavior immediately. It was a talent of yours — or maybe a curse — to be so perceptive. You’d been that way your whole life. Always walking on eggshells, analyzing every word spoken or facial expression made.

When Daryl’s friendliness transformed into indifference, you found yourself trying harder and harder, only to feel more and more disappointment with each failed attempt at gaining his affections. You frequently scolded yourself for the pathetic behavior, which was what you were doing while you slowly threaded fishing lines through the hooks. Any woman with respect for herself would have abandoned ship at the first signs of angry seas, but you were the kind of captain that preferred to drown with her vessel.

Soon enough you’d finished with your hooks and Daryl had placed the last trap. With haste, you both worked to tie worms to the hooks and cast the lines, hoping by this time tomorrow to be returning to camp with a fish dinner. The stream was half a days hike east of the prison, so usually teams of two would take a two or three day ‘vacation’, as Glenn and Maggie would call it, and bring back as much fish as they could.

Once all eight lines were cast, you planted your makeshift rods in the dirt and got to work building a campfire while Daryl hurried to try and get a few squirrels to eat. At least, that was his excuse. In reality, Carol had packed enough food for the both of you. He just wanted to get away.

By nightfall, he was back, cleaning a raccoon and preparing it for the fire. You already had the tent pitched and water boiling to drink, so you were just relaxing with you feet in the cold creek.

Daryl was nice enough to let you know when the raccoon was ready, so you ate at the fire with him in silence.

“I’ll take watch tonight.” Daryl announced as he shoveled the last piece of meat into his mouth.

“You take watch every time.” You pointed out. It was true, he always kept watch on fishing trips.

“What, ya wanna stay up all night? Be my guest.” He retorted.

“I’m not saying that, I’m just saying you don’t have to stay up every time.” You droned.

“Well it ain’t like ya ever volunteer.” He scoffed.

“Because you always do it first.”

“Yeah, ‘cause ya never speak up the whole day we’re workin’.” He argued.

“Okay well I’m volunteering now.”

“Well, forget it, ‘cause I already said I’d do it.”

“Fine.” You shrugged.

With a huff, you pushed yourself off the ground, swiping dry leaves from your jeans as you marched over to the tent to retrieve a sleeping bag for Daryl. You dropped it on the ground beside him. It landed with a soft thud.

“The hell’s that for?” He asked.

“Use it or don’t. I don’t care. Carol packed it for you.” You said bitterly.

You retired to the tent after that, working on taking your gun apart and putting it back together for practice. When you grew tired of that, you dug in your bag for a cigarette and stealthily unzipped your tent, scanning the coast for any signs of Daryl and his deep scowl that he seemingly reserved for you only. The fire had died down to smoky ember, but you could just barely make out the stillness in the dark. Nothing was moving, which meant Daryl had probably stalked off somewhere, and you could be alone.

You never really liked being alone, but at least you were free to be yourself, unperceived by others.

You found yourself a nice stump to sit on before you lit the cigarette, savoring the first drag before slowly exhaling.

“That best not be one of mine.” A husky voice startled you from the dark. Your attention snapped toward the trees as his looming figure emerged from the shadows. You rolled your eyes and turned away again.

“You mean the stale ones you lifted off a rotting body? No thanks.” You snarked.

“Whatever.” He tutted, twitching his neck to flip some hair out of his eyes. You could hear his footsteps fading away behind you as you tried to enjoy your smoke without his miserable aura around to cloud up the fresh air. To your surprise, he returned moments later with a cigarette of his own. He leaned back against a tree across from you, sliding down until his ass hit the ground. His face illuminated behind the flame as he flicked his zippo open. Subtly, you watched while the shadows danced across his chiseled features as he guided the tip of his cigarette into the flame with his lips.

With a metallic click, the lighter flipped shut and he was shrouded in darkness once more. Your eyes thoughtlessly followed the small red orb of his cherry as he pulled on his cigarette and dropped his hands back into his lap. He didn’t say anything, and it was a tad too dark to really be able to tell, but you knew he was watching you, just as you were watching him. The minutes ticked by as your cigarette faded to ash. Just as you leaned down to snuff the butt in the dirt, he cleared his throat.

“‘M gon’ tell Rick not to send ya out here with me no more.” He informed you.

“Why?” You asked defensively.

“‘Cause you’re too slow. I’ll get more done with someone else.” He explained.

“Like who?” You insisted.

“Like someone who ain’t so distracted.” He sighed with exasperation. He didn’t really even know why he told you that. He was considering telling Rick not to send you with him anymore, but he hadn’t really decided one way or another yet. He guessed he just had to cause tension to keep himself from staring at you too long.

“Yeah.” You scoffed. “That’s why.”

“Well, why the hell else would it be?” He snapped.

“You just don’t wanna be around me.” You mumbled.

“Maybe I wouldn’t mind it if you’d act like a fuckin’ adult!” He raised his voice now, and you regretted saying anything. He could sense you shrinking back from his harsh tone, which only angered him more. “All ya do is stare at me all fuckin’ day and pout like a schoolgirl when ya don’t get your way!”

Tears welled at the rim of your eyes, sniffling as you swallowed a lump in your throat. You hated being yelled at, being cornered, being made to feel like a vulnerable child. You hated that he could affect you that way.

Quickly, the pain and anxiety melted away. You began to feel angry. Enraged, even, at the fact that he could treat you so harshly. What had you done to deserve that? Why did he think it was okay to be so cruel?

A rush of adrenaline washed over you as you abruptly stood to your feet, trembling as your emotions overcame you.

“Excuse me for trying! For being kind! For putting up with your piss-poor attitude and still thinking the fucking world of you! All I do is try to treat you the way I wish someone would treat me! No matter how fucking awful you are to me!” You shouted, bitter and full of resentment.

“So why the hell do ya still try?!” He shouted back, pushing himself off the ground and towering over you. In the dark, your most visible feature was your big wet eyes glistening in the natural light of the moon. His eyes flickered between them, somewhat intimidating by how expressive they were. A man like him spent his whole life perfecting his mask, hiding his true feelings from the world, protecting them beneath the surface of his hardened shell.

“Because I love, Daryl!” You shrieked, voice coarse from strain. “I love. I have so much love to give and nowhere to fucking put it! And — and I see you and I see a man who’s never felt love and I—“ You paused to let out a sob and catch your breath. “Because for whatever reason, I saw you and decided you were the one that I needed to love and that doing so would make everything else make sense.”

Daryl seemed taken aback by your confession. He didn’t know how to process any of it, so he instead decided to push you away even more.

“I don’t need your fuckin’ love, alright?” He spat, emphasizing the word love as if the word disgusted him. “I don’t need it, and I don’t want it.”

His words stung as they approached you from gritted teeth. The blow was harsh enough o knock you down from your rage-high.

“Well…” You croaked, sniffling as you wiped remnants of fresh tears from your cheeks. Now that the adrenaline had worn off, you found yourself at a loss of words. Maybe there was nothing else to say. “Glad we cleared things up, then.”

You spent the night silent in the tent, tears spinning down your flushed cheeks as you stared blankly at the worn fabric above you. Eventually you fell asleep, but you got little rest. Daryl gathered all the fish the next morning while you tore down the campsite. The hike back home was spent feet apart, both of you ensuring to keep your distance. Your stoic expressions didn’t go unnoticed upon returning to the prison, but luckily nobody pried. Carol, Maggie, and Beth cooked up the fish and some fresh garden veggies while you snuck off to shower and Daryl disappeared to wherever.

You skipped dinner, hiding away in your cell with a sheet hung up for privacy. You actually fell asleep fairly quick, exhausted from the vast range of emotions you experienced in such a short amount of time the night before.

Daryl, on the other hand, laid awake on his cot for a majority of the night. His mind’s eye repeated the events of the night prior, peppered with correlated instances from times passed. Carol had told him once that he was too hard on you, that you were just searching for anything that would make you feel good in such a rotten world. She was right, he knew that, and yet he could not bring himself to allow it.

He didn’t see how nobody else saw it the way he did. Would it not have been easier keep things simple? It made more sense to him for things to remain above the surface level, where emotions and deep connections could not harm either of you. To grow attached in this world was surely a fools game. So why did everyone seem so hell-bent on making friends and falling in love? Why were they willing to take the risk?

He was exhausted the next morning. By the time he fell asleep the sun was creeping over the horizon. You were a bit better off after a full night of sleep. Your eyes were less puffy than the day before, and your stomach was aching for a bite to eat. Daryl had no appetite or energy. He stayed in bed well past noon.

You didn’t see him until dinner that night, not that you were looking. For the first time in a while, you decided to allow yourself some peace.

Since you’d slept so well the night before, you offered to take over watch for Carol, which she accepted gratefully. You brought yourself a cigarette and one of the books from the library to entertain yourself. Just as you settled in and got comfortable in the tower, the hatch opened and Daryl emerged with his own items for amusement.

You didn’t say anything as he lifted himself up. You just watched him quizzically. He paused when he noticed you sitting there.

“I got watch tonight. Told Rick.” He informed you.

“I took over for Carol.” You countered blandly.

“Well you’re relived.” He pushed.

“No thanks.” You brushed him off.

“Ain’t askin’.” He said.

“I was here first.” You shrugged, lighting your cigarette and flipping to the first chapter of your book.

“I ain’t goin’ nowhere so ya might as well get on.” He urged.

“I’m sure the fence could use some relief from the walkers.” You suggested.

“So why don’t ya go and take care of ‘em?” He retorted.

“Because I’m on watch.” You countered.

Daryl sighed in defeat.

“Got an extra one o’ those?” He asked, gesturing toward the cigarette.

“Only brought the one.” You replied.

“Look,” he began, shifting uncomfortably on his feet. “‘M sorry I was an asshole, but it can’t be the way ya want it to be.”

“And what way did I want it?” You quirked a brow.

“Don’t do that.”

“Do what?”

“Make shit hard. Ya always do that.”

“So then the simple solution would be to leave me alone. I get it. You don’t want me.”

“It ain’t about wantin’ you, girl!” He groaned in exasperation. “It’s about protectin’ you! Protectin’ me! Protectin’ everyone!”

His chest rose and fell as his fists clenched at his sides. You stared up at him and fawned under his blazing eyes.

“We can’t… I can’t.” He insisted.

Silence consumed you both in the night. The tension was so palpable that it drowned out the nightly buzz of crickets and frogs in the trees. Daryl felt he had said too much already. He should have just let you hate him and left it be. He couldn’t, though. As much as he wanted to be cold, hard, and arrogant, he was very much a soft soul with a longing for genuine connection.

With a deep sigh and an expression of defeat, he retreated back to his cell without another word to you.

To be continued… Maybe??

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[redr0sewrites]

Blade x reader General Headcanons (sfw + nsfw)

*gently hands this to you and then scuttles away like a large cockroach* not proofread so yea <\\\3 u can tell i have a blade bias <3

🥀CW: a little angst, blade is Bad At Feelings ™️, reader is sorta assumed to be a stellaron hunter, dom/sub dynamics in the nsfw, switch!blade, knife kink/pain kink, just filth tbh

🥀 minors dni with the nsfw portion

sfw!

we all know bladie is RIDICULOUSLY emotionally constipated- if he likes you, he is in COMPLETE AND UTTER DENIAL

he will be staring into ur soul like he hates ur guts but the whole time his heart is pounding out of his chest

he has a very stoic face, it takes a while for u to learn to read him 😭

tbh ud prob think that he hates u for a while cuz he just stares at u

once u both get over the initial awkwardness of him constantly looming over u and hovering around u and staring at u, and once u realized that no, hes not creepy or insane he just wants to be around u, u guys would probably become close friends pretty quickly!

i dont think hes the type to jump into a relationship, his commitment issues get in the way

u would DEF have to be friends first, but he would still be enamoured with u

very observant, he notices all of the little things u do

one of the very first things that tips u off to the fact that he has romantic feelings towards u would probably simply be the fact that he literally cares SO MUCH about ur life and routine

hes memorized ur schedule, how u make ur coffee/tea, what ur favorite movies and shows are, he can tell when ur sad or stressed, he just finds comfort in learning details about u

he prefers to listen in conversation rather than speak, he can listen to u for hours

if u like something or are interested in something, suddenly he is too and he wants to learn all about it

at this point all the other stellaron hunters are rooting for u two to get together

kafka would try to set u both up like all the time

shes never seen blade so devoted to someone

whenever u walk in the room, he always seems to light up a little in excitement

i honestly feel like he would confess first but only for the sake of kafka not telling u before he does💀

it would probably be after an especially tiring or exhausting mission, after the maras been making him feel shitty

blade always feels so safe around u and he would just suddenly blurt out the fact that hes in love with u

after the initial shock, when u tell him the feelings are reciprocated hes ECSTATIC

but wont show it

he'll just let out a small (but cute): smile and nod

kafka, sam, and silverwolf are in the background recording the whole thing 💀

hes awkward at first

SUCKS AT PHYSICAL CONTACT TBH

blade's love language is def acts of service

he loves doing things for you and he loves helping u, it makes him proud to know that he can help make u feel safe

will fucking destroy anyone who hurts u

like actually destroy

nobody had ever seen blade so angry or ruthless as the day u were hurt on a mission

afterwords hes cradling u in his arms, clinging to u like ur gonna disappear😭

he knows how fleeting mortal lives are and hes genuinely so afraid of losing u

hes not good at talking things out or expressing his feelings

hes also not great at apologizing but he will try for u and only for u

arguments with him kinda suck cuz he can be stubborn and doesn't understand emotions

blade would feel terrible afterwards tho

would probably sit next to u and just take ur hands in a silent apology and gently run his thumb in a soft circle on ur palm

he likes it when u wear his clothes, he can be possessive and seeing u in his (probably much larger) clothes makes him a little feral

overall, u guys have ur ups and downs, but are ultimately a power couple and he loves u sm what can i do to find me a blade smh

nsfw!

SWITCH ENERGY‼️

when hes dom, hes MEAN

blade can talk so filthy sometimes, his voice is so deep and rough and when hes got you folded in half, ruthlessly pounding into u theres nothing u love to hear more than his scornful voice switching from degradation to praise <3

into marking on both ends, he loves seeing u covered in hickeys and scratches but also enjoys being littered in stinging marks for him to admire later

i feel like blade would like positions where he can be close to u when hes dominant, such as mating press or missionary

SIZE KINK! if ur smaller thank him, he love love LOVES to use his larger stature and weight to pin u down

seeing u squirm and writhe helplessly beneath him turns him on

will pin ur wrists above ur head, leaning down to whisper the filthiest words in ur ear, the entire time his cock is thrusting so fast in and out of ur leaking hole, ur mind is melting to mush at the stimulation. on top of that, his free hand is roughly playing with ur cock/clit, while he nips and bites roughly at ur neck. its all so much, too much...

rahh i went off there for a sec

anyways <3

blade wouldn't understand the hype to exhibitionism until the both of u got together

the two of u r fucking in a storage closet while people outside r just continuing their everyday lives, his hand clamped roughly over ur mouth to silence u, but that doesnt stop his own breathy moans and growls from slipping through

i also think blade would have a knife kink, hed find sick, twisted pleasure in running a knife over ur soft skin as u squirm

hed never actually hurt u, he could never do that

u both def have a safeword

but the idea is still arousing

he isnt as vocal when dom when hes sub, when hes dom its more low growls and groans and moans while when hes sub its more moaning and whimpers and whines

when hes sub, hes so into pain

if u pull his hair, this man will immediately submit

HE HAS AN ORAL FIXATION IF U HAVE A COCK HE WOULD ADORE TO SPEND EVERY WAKING HOUR SUCKING ON IT. if ur exhausted and want to keep blade occupied (cuz his stamjna is INSANE), give him two of ur fingers to suck on<3

he just looks so pretty with ur fingers in his mouth, a small trickle of drool leaking past his parted lips as he stares up at u in utter adoration with lust filled eyes

blade is SO LOUD when u fuck him from behind, he doesnt know why he just finds it so hot

he also has a reverse size kink, someone as small as u taking control of him and using him for ur own pleasure is such a turn on

he has such insane stamina, he could have u fucking him for literal hours and still want more

esp when hes sub, there needs to be a lot of foreplay leading up to the actual sex or else he will be needy for like ever

is actually so touch starved its funny, when the two of u had ur first time where he was sub he came in under a minute

he was super embarrassed, even tho u found it super hot

blade can be a tease if he wants to be, sending u photos of him naked with his hand wrapped around his aching cock, eyes blown wide with lust<3

he thinks punishments are hot, but prefers to be praised and pampered

call him a good boy, he will MELT

he wants to be good for u so much, he needs u to get himself off its almost pathetic :( he cant cum without u there helping him, whenever hes needy and ur not around he always ends up in a puddle of his own arousal, his release slipping away as soon as it begins to build. his cock is aching, he needs u, he cant even get off alone

after sex is when hes most vulnerable, blade is very kinky and mellow after sex esp when he was sub

big on aftercare, deep down he wants to be taken care of and held

he also loves taking care of u, loves washing u as u bathe together after a rough night of lovemaking

he loves it when u mark his chest cuz he can show it off the next day

blade wants everyone to know ur his, and vice versa

THIS GOT SO LONG WTF???

BARK BARK BARK can u tell i have such a big fat stupid fucking blade bias hes so silly i love this goofy man sm i need to pepper him with kisses and then fuck him senseless 😔

[kazz-brekker]

hotd episode 4 thoughts:

bro!! that was fucking BRUTAL! i've known it was coming all season but holy shit i was NOT prepared for all of that!!!

before this season started people were saying that blood and cheese was going to be this show's red wedding, but honestly i 100% think it's rook's rest, actually! do not argue with me!

okay hang on let me try to have some coherent thoughts.

as a lover of all things gothic and weird, i am absolutely loving daemon having a terrible time at harrenhal. get haunted by your past bad decisions, loser!

i've been waiting all season to see how the alyn and addam subplot will play out and i really like the choice to have rhaenys be aware of her husband's bastard children (in the book she never learned), it makes a lot of sense since she and corlys know each other really well and she's very familiar with driftmark.

also i was not emotionally ready for them to take the route of rhaenys learning hours before her death that her husband repeatedly cheated on her lol.

alicent taking the moon tea as a parallel to rhaenyra doing the same in season 1 was a bit unexpected but i actually liked it, i feel like if you're going to write a story that's supposed to be heavily inspired by medieval history then you should include how women deal with contraceptives and abortion in that world.

jace and baela trying to run the council in rhaenyra's absence…they're doing they're best! but they really are just kids and should not have to deal with all of this!

getting the sense that gwayne hightower is maybe not super down with this whole "war" thing after all.

aemond shit-talking aegon in front of the whole council and using high valyrian so they don't understand him was such a delightfully bitchy usage of the language that i actually yelled aloud.

i have not forgotten season 1…whenever alicent and larys have a scene together i live in fear.

i'm also loving alys rivers so far, she's so perfectly unsettling and i'm really pleased they let gayle rankin keep her scottish accent.

they mentioned the names of TWO of the muppet tullys! and benjicot blackwood! and the return of willem blackwood! and a laena hallucation! gosh, daemon's little harrenhal council scenes had so many delicious callbacks and namedrops this episode.

alicent snarking at aegon…oh she really is losing her patience with him and just doesn't care at all anymore.

it's so good to see rhaenyra really taking a stand and making decisions this episode, but my god the pit of my stomach really dropped when rhaenys volunteered to fly to rook's rest.

i really liked the parallel moments with aegon and rhaenys getting ready to go to war, especially how it emphasized that the targaryens see their dragons not just as weapons but as companions too.

truly did not have on my bingo card that one of the participants of the first proper dragon battle this season would be drunk.

rook's rest was just! man! it was brutal!

this show really made us wait for the first dragon versus battle dragon battle, and it really didn't let me down.

the bit where aegon realizes that he's severely outmatched by meleys…the looks on everyone's faces when vhagar arrives…the dragons just screeching and clawing at each other and laying waste the whole field below them without even meaning to…those soldiers being crushed beneath vhagar's feet without her even noticing…vhagar seizing meleys by the throat and just shaking her…the look on rhaenys's face when she's falling…the impact of sunfyre and meleys just totally crushing everything below them…it fucking slapped!!

the aftermath was just as brutal as the battle, tbh. the look on criston cole's face when he realized what he set in motion and that he maybe just killed the king…oh buddy you fucked up REAL bad.

on a better note…more harrenhal drama and jace in the riverlands next week?

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

what are your thoughts on the ministrife situation? imo literally the worst fate for eridan to be damned to tbh

i think he will eventually (after <5 minutes) just shoot cronus and leave. (CW for mentions of abuse and cronus's romantic grossness and stuff under the cut).

Ignoring the extremely creepy and gross fact that Hussie doesn't seem to have a problem with the age gap (it's There, we've acknowledged that it's creepy and weird, i personally think it highlights how immature the dancestors are despite their physical age, and it actually serves to hint at how trash they are, but it's still really uncomfortable in the moment and never gets properly called out. In any case we've talked about it critically, we can move on and talk about characterization now), he and cronus are actually kind of polar opposites. Given that Cronus, along with many of the dancestors, are riffing on what the fandom interpretation of their Alternian counterparts are, it's kind of a fascinating look at all the things Eridan ISN'T.

The fandom (especially at the time) had flattened Eridan down to "overdramatic Nice Guy hipster who won't stop hitting on people," with varying degrees of sympathy. In other words, they took all of Eridan's outward presentation - the narration calling his genuine anxiety and distress "overblown emotional theatrics," the fact that his being rejected was a running gag - entirely at face value, while also missing what sort of archetype he was actually supposed to represent.

At no point does Eridan ever actually mention a hipster interest, like vintage clothes or indie media. It's all entirely in his design and Karkat calling him a hipster (it's not even in his character introduction), so presumably, it IS a part of his character (Karkat knows him really well), but it's probably a part he keeps to himself, like his love of wizards.

Moreover, he isn't really a Nice Guy. The closest he gets is thinking Nepeta owes him a chance for saving her life, but as far as we can tell, he only ever asked her once, got rejected, accepted that rejection, and has never taken out that rejection on her. When he complains about it, he frames it as a bitter "I guess what I did wasn't enough," not "she's an unreasonable witch withholding romance from me even though I'm so nice to her." All other romance attempts are crimes of... just being way too forward.

He bursts into Kanaya's DMs demanding she auspicetisize with Vriska because... that's what she likes to do, right? The same happens to Terezi in [S] Karkat: Wake Up. He comes on strong in Rose's DMs and after getting a little annoyance back, goes "wow, we kinda have something," and does not realize her blowing up his computer is a rejection because she didn't explicitly tell him no and he's a dumbass. And even though he's nasty at Sollux because emotionally, he's still bitter about Sollux "stealing" Feferi from him, at least CONSCIOUSLY he's recognized the rejection on both fronts and has repeatedly told Feferi that he has no more interest in getting back together with her, in spite of her recognizing that he's emotionally not over her. And speaking of Feferi, his confession to her is entirely genuine and respectful toward her feelings. At no point does he indicate that he feels like she owes him a date.

These aren't Nice Guy actions, they're "I have 0 social skills or self-awareness" actions. And also a little bit "due to my trauma and anxiety and desensitization to murder, I struggle to care about other people" actions. He's not even actually casteist or genocidal - I spent an entire essay arguing that.

But regardless, that's what the fandom ran with, in large part because they didn't bother reading between the lines. Ironically, like Eridan, they just believed what he told them. I don't even necessarily blame the fandom - at least part of this obfuscation was intentional, and a clever trick on the part of the writing. By highlighting Eridan at his worst, and having the narration be complicit in his self-delusion and mockery, the story is able to put the audience in the same mindset as his in-universe bullies - Eridan is dumb weirdo whose emotional problems are worthy of ridicule, not sympathy. Let's all point and laugh!

This sets up his meltdown to be more of a twist - even though his literal introduction is him killing something and talking about genocide, the very real danger he poses is forgotten both by the audience and the other characters because they've gotten so used to dismissing his feelings that they ignore his cries for help and the warning signals he gives off. And it makes his character more relevant and meaningful, because this happens in real life all the time - I'm sure we either all either knew, or were, the friendless weirdo at school who, upon reflection, definitely had either some bad shit going on at home or severe and untreated mental illness (or both).

The reason I'm bringing up this fandom misinterpretation is because, like a couple other dancestors, Cronus is very much a riff on the fanon version of his Alternian counterpart. Unlike Eridan, who's not actually casteist, but desperately trying to act the part, Cronus IS a casteist sea dweller who thinks he's better than lowbloods and land dwellers. Unlike Eridan, who seeks emotional connections with others, and accepts rejections, Cronus is only looking for some action, and keeps trying even well after he knows he's been rejected. Unlike Eridan, who's so consumed by anxiety and trauma that he's pretty much unable to function properly, Cronus DOES exaggerate his problems and explicitly leverage them for attention and sympathy. And unlike Eridan, who feels crushed under the weight of duty and responsibility, and tends to blame himself when things go wrong, Cronus refuses to take responsibility for anything, immediately blaming anybody BUT himself.

They're practically exact opposites, and this is, again, a clever trick on the part of the writing. It's an excellent usage of a foil: though superficially similar, the differences between these two really serves to highlight just how much Eridan is NOT the things that Cronus IS.

And it's especially interesting given that Eridan spent his entire life trying to emulate Dualscar, to the point of modeling his outfit after the guy. To him, it was not only his duty, but his inevitable fate, to wind up as Dualscar's successor. And when he finally meets the guy in person, his opinion is "even I think you're trash."

If that isn't a form of rejecting the values his society has told him repeatedly that he has to uphold, maybe in the service of perhaps setting up some sort of redemption arc or something, I don't know what is.

I've seen people point to this moment as kind of a hee haw funny one-off joke, look at how little Hussie cares about Eridan, but that's not what it is to me. You don't really need to say anything more about their relationship to each other. Eridan thinks Cronus (and by extension, everything Cronus stands for - and everything Eridan has tried to be) is garbage, but is lonely and friendless and desperate enough that he feels pushed into accepting it anyway. It's extremely consistent with his characterization and character arc.

So uh, yeah. Join me next time for more deep dives on how this funny innocuous thing in Homestuck actually Means Something.

[papaziggy-devblog]

Yeah….im gonna need an sfw alphabet

I'm assuming for Finn .w.

See below under the read more uvu/

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) Very affectionate, likes to nuzzle and hold and give soft little kisses where they can, but their favorite place is the top of your head and your cheek

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?) He'd wanna take out our foraging a lot, teach you whats edible in the forest and whats not, show you how to catch little fishies in the creeks, talk about the cryptids he's 100% convinced live in the forests

He'd also love listening to you talk when he's not feeling too chatty, and having parallel play time

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) Man loves to cuddle, just absolutely engulf you in his arms and bury his face into you, he's really just a big teddy bear TToTT

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?) He's decent at domestic stuff, he likes to cook with ingredients he finds/grows himself... As for cleaning.. he's a little cluttered and scattered but its not too too bad

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) He'd try to sit down and have a talk about it, see if there's any way of fixing things, but if not then he'd try to end things on a mutually good note

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?) They're fine with it, they'd probably want to date for at least a year or two before starting talk about that kinda stuff tho

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?) Very gentle, big gentle giant... He's very mellow and soft emotionally as well

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) He gives GREAT hugs... just big long arms wrapping around you... His body runs pretty warm too uvu

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) Hmm, it would take a lil bit cause he's already not the most vocal, he'll probably say it as soon as you do

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?) Very jealous if you're together... He doesn't like to share and he'll be clingy if he thinks someone's trying to make a move

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?) Very soft and warm, slow little drawn out kisses here and there, along your cheek, across your jawline, down your neck uvu

L = Little ones (How are they around children?) He likes kids, he gets along better with kids than most adults tbh, he likes letting them climb over him and running around giving them piggy back rides

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?) Cuddled in bed or sitting outside eating breakfast... He prefers eating outside more than inside, he can't really explain why, he just finds it more refreshing

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?) Searching for mothman Watching movies, playing video games, maybe reading or just enjoying the quiet... Thinks might get kinda spicy tho u3u

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) Finn is pretty much an open book.. its almost like he CAN'T lie, not that he would really want to.. if there's something he doesn't want to talk about he'll more just try to avoid it or dodge around the topic

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?) It takes a LOT to make him angry... he's more likely to get upset for someone else than for himself...

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) He remembers a lot pretty easy.. you just sometimes gotta give him a minute for the info to load .w.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?) First kiss uvu

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?) Decently protective... they'll let you stand up for yourself if they know you can and back you up... It'll spike though if they know you can't and get a LOT more protective

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?) He's gonna put a good bit of effort in! He's learned what you like and your interests and what foods you like and activities you enjoy and will plan out a whole day around that

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) He spaces out sometimes... He'll be talking and then boom... 1000 yard stare He also is a little scatterbrained and has 0 self preservation sometimes

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?) Not really that much.. he prefers comfy over looking good, he still takes care of himself tho

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?) They'd feel so lonely and down... moping around like a sad puppy...

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.) His favorite food is mushrooms, he looooves stuffed mushrooms... He also has to wear special piercings cause he has an allergy to some metals (Which same my guy... same u3u)

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?) He wouldn't like if you tried to make him get rid of his bones or his bugs.. u3u

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?) He sleeps maybe 4-6 hours a day? Sleeps like a rock, hard to wake up, likes to hold onto things while he sleeps... stuffed animals, pillows, you :)

[moriartyluver]

can we have some mtp boys (separate) on how they’d treat a fem! Reader who is on her period. You don’t need to make it historically accurate & if you’d prefer, you can make it modern au. Thank you!!!

A/N: I did this in a modern AU as suggested because I have no idea how people would have dealt with periods in the 19th century

Characters: William James Moriarty x fem! Reader , Albert James Moriarty x fem! Reader ,Louis James Moriarty x fem! Reader (separate)

Format: headcannons

Genre: hurt/ comfort, fluff

Prompt: the Moriarty brothers with a reader who is on their period.

Warnings: reader is afab, reader is female, established relationships, periods/menstruation etc.

LOUIS would be such a good partner in general so when you’re on your period? He is doing everything!

He’s already very much a househusband male wife kind of guy but it just gets so much more malewifey when you’re on your period

Oh you’re hot water bottle got slightly less warm? Louis is filling it up for your instantly

He will literally shower you in heating pads

I don’t think he’d be very physically affectionate in general, his love language is definitely acts of service and it’s very evident all the time, but if you ask to be held, hold you he will.

He’ll make you anything you want to eat no matter how strange (I always get really weird cravings on my period so if you do aswell, be prepared because Louis will stop at nothing to make you happy)

He has a whole storage cupboard packed with pads and tampons and whatever else you may use, all with your preferred sizes and brands because he’s just that caring. You never run out of pads or tampons with him around.

If any ones annoying you, he’ll be super pissed off and will actually get into a fight for your sake.

If you’re feeling emotional, he’ll be by your side reassuring you that everything’s okay. He’s a bit emotionally constipated but he tries his best for you.

If you ever need sheets to be washed or clothes to be cleaned, he won’t mind at all and he will definitely not get upset.

He himself doesn’t go out unless necessary so he’ll try stay at home with you all the time, just in case you need something (even if you insist that you’re fine)

Overall rating? 10/10 wifey material

WILLIAM probably knows more about your period than you do. Not in a gross mansplaining way but in a well educated husband kind of way

Like he definitely knows when you’re going to start you’re period based on symptoms and stuff before you get that little red surprise in your underwear. Worst feeling tbh.

He helps you learn how to track your cycle and if you’re an inconsistent period girlie like myself, he’s a great help. Imagine just getting ready to go out and then William tells you to make sure to take a pad/tampon/cup with you before you leave 💀

He pampers you too, especially if you live together, but not in the same way louis does.

He’s a bit more strict when it comes to what you should and shouldn’t eat (it’s the protective teacher in him). Liam makes you take magnesium supplements and makes sure you eat healthy even if you’re craving junk food so your cramps don’t get worse.

He’s probably calculated the perfect temperature for your heat pad/hot water bottle 😭

Probably a little more affectionate than his younger brother would be. If you’re complaining about being cold or uncomfortable, he’d put whatever book he’s reading down and hold his arms wide open for you. William absentmindedly rubs your back while listening to you complain about having a uterus

Definitely pressed kisses to your forehead while you ramble like the old fashioned lover he is 🤭

He makes sure to buy you really good quality pads/tampons and is sure to memorise which brands or types you prefer. Might slip a chocolate bar in there too. He also buys you painkillers and gives you the correct doses and everything at the right times

If you don’t feel like speaking much (he loves talking to you for some reason. its adorable) he gets a little upset but he’s a surprisingly good communicator. He doesn’t want to make you feel uneasy and bless his heart, he does all the chores and everything so you don’t have to suffer further while your uterus tries to fucking kill you

Overall rating? ∞/10 (I am totally not biased) I want to marry him idc if he’s a drawing

ALBERT is stupid. I’m sorry that’s a mean way to start off

I think we can all agree he has OCD or OCPD but he’s so sweet to you despite some seeing periods as a ‘Filthy’ thing.

You bled through the sheets? He’ll calmly help you fix that dw sweetie. If you bleed through your pants in public and anyone gives you any dirty looks or some weird shit because people hate uterus havers, he’s not called one of the most unhinged mtp characters for nothing 😊

Ok but this man knows nothing about periods though. I’m so sorry. Like you had to explain to him that no you can’t hold in the blood nor do you use your pad as a bandaid of some sort

Would probably send you one of these :(yes I made that)

He needs Louis to go shopping with him to help get you stuff because this man is smart enough for eton but not enough to know that different colours on pad packages are not flavours 🙄

Also he’s a shit cook so you still have to do that if u don’t wanna starve

Probably the most affectionate out of the brothers. He’s very cuddly with you when you need him to be (mainly because he feels bad for being so damn useless)

Overall rating? 2/10 💀

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

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Link to the Prompts :]

🐰👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 (the Afton Family; what were they like?)

Bill is divorced from his ex-wife (Maggie Schmidt) and he has the kids on the weekends prior to CC'S death when Mike elects to go live with him full-time.

He's an okay-to-good dad, actually. He's fun and gets his kids these lavish gifts but he's pretty terrible dealing with emotional problems they might have. Type of guy to get you the new game system but stare at you blankly when you say you feel sad. The Afton kids get more emotional validation out of him when he's in costume.

Maggie is also a decent parent. She's harder on the kids but patient and understanding. She moves a couple towns over and eventually out of state to get away from the absolute mess that is Hurricane and Freddy's after her kids like... die.

Mike didn't take the divorce very well cus he saw his family as picture-esc and he feels weird about that illusion being shattered- Maggie's better than William at actually helping him with that. He still lashes out though mostly agaisnt his little brother. He does love his family a lot though he's tricked himself into thinking he's scaring Nate to "toughen him up".

Lizzie also didn't take the divorce very well but mostly because she wants to spend more time with her dad than she's allowed to. This sorta bubbles into a childish resentment for her mother but it's nothing tooo serious (she still loves her, she still knows her mum loves her, her dad just Gets Her in a way Maggie doesn't).

Nate is a small child and he's generally just confused about everything going on around him. He was a newborn when his parents split so he doesn't really know anything else. He likes his parents cus they're nice to him and hug him when he cries but he's a little scared of bill cus he saw him climbing out of the Rabbit costume once and he HATES THAT THING !!!!! It ATE HIS DAD !!!!! He has the SCARS TO PROVE IT !!! I think he prefers Henry, actually- cus he comforts him when Mike locks him in parts and service. Speaking of.

🐻👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 (the Emily Family; what were they like)

Henry was a shit partner and a slightly less shitty dad. Him and his wife (Eryka) are also divorced but they split before Bill and Maggie did. Henry is very emotionally unavailable (on a good day) and tends to just block everything out when he's too consumed by his work- which is often. He couldn't give Eryka the type of support she needed so they amicably split and tbh Henry hardly noticed. He's trying to be better for Charlie, though. He's still distant but he does things with her and is making a genuine effort. He forgot Sammy existed when Eryka left with him, though. Just completely blocked out his other child.

Eryka is an aspiring author and her leaving Henry and taking Sammy with her is probably the best decision anyone in this franchise has ever made. Her and Sammy just completely dodge all of the shit going on until like... 2017. Obviously she comes back to Hurricane for Charlie's funeral and things between her and Henry are very very tense (him being even more shut down than normal didn't help).

Charlie was a real rough and tumble kid I think. She'd get knocked down and keep swinging till she won. Her and Mike would wrestle pretty often and she'd want to keep going long after he ran out of steam (she'd run and grab him some fruit and plasters after tho :]). She loves her dad and looks up to him a lot but she secretly prefers spending time with Bill. Cus he's funny. She'd go and visit Sammy and her mum monthly :]

Sammy is a lot quieter and more introverted. They takes their parents splitting a little harder than Charlie did cus they LIKED Freddy's and liked hanging out with Nate but... hey what are you gonna do. He grows up to be a school teacher but he keeps up with the goings on in Hurricane. I think they doodle the animatronics every so often. Generally tries not ti think about how fucked up everything that happened was.

[eternal-echoes]

Several people have pointed out Twilight's interrupted thoughts here and were wondering what Twilight was going to say before Anya and Yuri cut off his train of thought.

I think I can speculate to what they are.

In both cases, Twilight seems to allude to his job as a spy. In the cruise arc, Twilight saying "And that's why I -" was in silent response to Yor saying, "I hope this peace can last forever" which is the reason why he became a spy and in the Winston Wheeler arc, he was saying, "which is why-" after he was reflecting on his defeat from Wheeler, who was much stronger than him, while also looking at Yor's beautiful face. Tbh, he was looking at Yor in both cases.

It's been running theme in the series that he's not aware of his own feelings for Yor (and Anya) and anything he does for them he just say that "it's for the mission." But what if he's actually aware of his own developing feelings for Yor, as evidence from his conversation with Franky after Franky's failed date with Monica.

He knows his romantic feelings for Yor are there, but as a spy and people who live in the shadows, he has to suppress them for the sake of the better world. So when he was drinking with Franky that time, he tried to nip his developing feelings for Yor. He tried to flush them away with alcohol. Because if he trusts someone, it could end his life.

As a spy working towards world peace, that is one thing he cannot afford to lose.

Also considering that in the last arc, Fiona pointed out that he's been losing his edge:

This is due to that he got beaten up by Wheeler after he duked it out with Yuri, which wasn't just physically exhausting but also emotionally draining as well BECAUSE of Yuri's relationship with Yor - what he loves about Yor (excellent mothering) and what he admires about the Briar sibling (sibling bond) - he almost destroyed.

He was so weak during his fight with Wheeler because of Yor.

Because he cannot afford to lose his life because as a spy working on Operation Strix that would risk losing the peace between East and West, which prevents children from crying - which is the whole reason he became a spy in the first place, he would have to make a huge sacrifice in order to keep aligning himself with that goal. And that sacrifice would be sacrificing his own happiness - the possibility of being with Yor - which means completely eradicating his feelings for Yor.

Because before he thought he can just get away with burying them down and maybe keeping a little bit of it alive. But maybe this time, he would be more like Fiona - being stone-faced for the rest of his life. He would kill his own heart to be a better spy. Someone who won't be defeated by Wheeler again.

So I think what he was going to say is:

Cruise arc: "And that's why I... (can’t be with you, because I have to focus on preserving a world where there are no wars.)"

Winston Wheeler arc: "But the thing is, Yor... I live in a world in which only the perfect survive. Which is why - (I cannot let these romantic feelings for you to keep developing.)"

Or something along those lines. At least something about referring to his relationship with Yor.

Idk if anyone wants to chime in and add anything?

[underqualified-human]

Chase Redford SFW Alphabet

→ A/N: Requested By Anon

→ Warnings: None

→ Fandom: Ever After High

→ Pronouns: She/Her

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Pretty basic tbh

More often than not he can be found holding your hand

Also likes to give you cheek/nose kisses

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

You beat him in a fight and he just went 'We are friends now’ 

The friend dynamic that I like to call organised chaos

Spontaneous trips/adventures, relaxing movie nights, weird late-night talks, etc.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Loves cuddles and refuses to be anything but the big spoon

Wants to make sure you’re comfortable

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

He’s pretty worried that he won’t be able to be a good dad, but if his partner wants children he’d be ok with it

He keeps his own room pretty organised, very ‘put-something-away-after-you-use-it’ vibe

Also pretty good at cooking for the most part

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

He’d try to do it quickly while not making eye contact, he knows if he did he’d lose track of his thoughts

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

He’s pretty loyal, so he sees no problem in getting married whenever his partner is ready 

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Pretty gentle in both regards, not much else to say

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Likes hugs, but doesn't do them often due to the armour 

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

He’s pretty sure that he’s in love with his partner once he’s in a relationship

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

He’s secure in his relationship with you, doesn't get jealous at all

Assuming he does, he’ll just stand there awkwardly and stare

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Likes cheek kisses, both giving and receiving

His kisses are usually quick

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Pretty ok with babies, but can’t handle toddlers to save his life

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

He gets up at 6am sharp, it is the law

Probably goes for morning runs, but won't force you to go if you don't want to 

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Goes to sleep pretty early in the night.

Has a pretty normal night time routine, will accompany you with yours if you ask him to

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

He reveals things pretty quickly, but does so through off handed comments that he doesnt really expect you to remember

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Doesnt get angry very easily, like a 9/10 when it comes to patience 

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing or do they kind of forget everything?)

He remembers a fair bit about you, though not little things you mention in passing

If he wants to know something he’ll just ask you about it

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He’s pretty concerned about his partner’s safety

If he can’t accompany her to a place, he’ll give her a dagger

He feels like he can handle himself but would appreciate his partner worrying about him

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He sees himself as his own worst enemy, he’s constantly trying to one-up himself when it comes to gifts and events

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Tends to overwork himself when it comes to training.

Because of this, he may also become distant for short amounts of time

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Not all that much really.

He stays physically active but that's mostly because he's a knight.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

He's pretty used to being alone, so once you come along he gets attached really quickly

Doesn't really feel incomplete per say, but does think about you a lot more

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Not the most original but he definitely had a crush on the white knight before he knew Darling was the one in the suit

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Dislikes people that are rude unpromptedly 

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

I think he's a pretty light sleeper

Also snores so he's accidentally woken himself up at times

Gets hot pretty easily so his blankets are pretty thin. 

If you want to sleep next to him you'll probably have to bring your own blanket

[ariesmoontarot]

♡What’s Happening in Love?♡

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Pick a song:

Pile One: TBH- PARTYNEXTDOOR

Pile Two: Habits of My Heart- Jaymes Young

Pile Three: Missing Me- Angie McMahone

Pile One:

Based on the song you chose, I feel like you’re in this phase of your love life where you’re ready to settle down, but certain things are happening that are out of your control. I feel like you’re questioning your feelings and thoughts and aren’t sure of where you stand with someone. It’s like you’re seeking for clarity or communication on whether you guys are a thing or not. You may be feeling a little insecure or unworthy of love but spirit is saying that you are worthy of love and you will receive the same passion and love that you give with the right person. Not saying the person you are involved with (if you are), isn’t for you but when the time is right you will start to see things differently and this will help you attract the things you feel like you’re missing in love. Find ways to create more confidence within yourself. You could also be seeing someone you’re involved with, out and about and possibly feeling a little possessive or jealous. They could be feeling this way about you too.

I see you taking control in a situation where you felt like things weren’t bearing the fruits of your effort. I feel like you’ve been moving strategically and there’s this energy of you not knowing or having the whole truth so you’re calculating your steps and trying not to let someone see how affected you really feel because of their actions and energy towards you. I feel like you are making the choice to just focus on yourself and your priorities. I see you investing your time and energy into things that will benefit you in the long run and not letting anything or anyone set you back. It’s a very tricky situation you’re in and I feel like you’re feeling the need to just withdrawal and listen to your inner voice. Your intuition is telling you something just isn’t right and I feel like you are right about that. Things haven’t been progressing and I feel like you don’t necessarily feel like anything is changing. You feel for someone, but you don’t know where it’ll lead to or if it’ll even last so you’re just going with the flow and experiencing the moment as it is. I feel like you’re very independent and you’ve matured to the point where you don’t attach yourself to things you feel are temporary or where you just don’t see a vision for how things could even work out. Especially if the person is giving you mixed signals or something about their energy is just off. You’re protective over your heart and I feel like you’re not someone who even tolerates disrespect or funny behavior. If you’re involved with someone already, I feel like this person feels how loving and compassionate you are. You’re supportive, kind, & nurturing. You’re also very intuitive and sensitive to your surroundings. I feel like this person feels so flighty when it comes to their feelings. One minute they’re here and the next they’re no where to be found. They feel like they have good moments with you and you’re someone who brings a feeling of comfort into their life. They know if they were to invest themselves into a connection with you it would all be reciprocated from you. They feel called to establish something serious with you but they don’t know how to approach you in the right way or how to express how they feel. This person is a little emotionally immature and it’s easier to run from their feelings and try to hide them than to really face them and be honest with you and themselves. They see you as really abundant like you have a stable life ahead of you. I see them not revealing too much and communication with them happens very quick and comes off as cold. I feel like this person overthinks a lot and they have some type of anxiety when it comes to you. I feel like they’ve been cheated on and/or hurt in their past relationship and it still replays in their mind. They don’t really want to tie themselves down to anything commitment wise, but I feel like you came in and gave them a new perspective on things. Maybe something you did or said clicked in their mind and they pulled back in a way. There’s definitely distance when it comes to communication and I feel like they’re not saying too much to you because they’re reflecting on how they feel and what they want with you because they know something serious can come of this. You helped them in some way overcome some hard and overwhelming situation they were dealing with. I feel like now they’re kinda avoiding you and trying to hide something they lied to you about. They know you’ll see past their bullshit & I feel like they’re trying to hold onto you without necessarily being honest or coming clean about what needs to be said. I feel like they put in just enough effort to hold onto you but not enough to keep you. I see them being a little self centered and only thinking of themselves. They feel like you’re already picking up on their shit and they know when you find out the truth you’ll potentially leave them and I think they’re a little stuck because they don’t know what to do. Either way will hurt.

They know being honest will hurt and leaving will too because they know they’re losing out on a good person who was genuine to them. The advice for you is to let go. Let them do what they want to do, be who they are, and just focus on you. You will have that healthy relationship you deserve, but right now there is a lesson in what is happening. To teach you your worth and what you are capable of creating for yourself. It’s time to start seeing things and people for who they really are. You’ll have to set stronger boundaries and make sure that you don’t lower your standards for anyone. Appreciate yourself and value who you are as a person. Don’t give yourself to people who do not deserve you or your time and remember YOU ARE THE PRIZE. Remember not to take things personally too because it isn’t your fault people are who they are. What someone does to you is a reflection of their character and has nothing to do with you.

Pile Two:

I feel like with this song you’ve had some unhealthy habits in your connections or relationships in the past. Its like a lack of boundaries and self control led to you making emotionally based decisions that weren’t necessarily the smartest thing to have done, but that’s okay as long as you’re aware of it and trying to better yourself now. I feel like you’ve been hurt in love and you’ve been dealing with hot and cold energies where now you just feel like maybe I’m better off alone instead of hurting and feeling alone in a relationship.

I feel like you’ve been dealing with some heavy energies. Life has been a little crazy for you and I feel like you have more control over yourself than you know. There’s a lot of distractions, conflict, stress, & maybe a little bit of anger. You’re overwhelmed and exhausted of dealing with the same things and people. I feel like you feel uncomfortable right now and you don’t feel secure in your relationships. Everything feels a little unstable right now and the only thing you can be sure of is yourself. I see you standing your ground and protecting yourself in the ways you need to. You’re only being fair and doing what’s right, but you feel so overwhelmed about that. You could be feeling a little guilty for doing what’s best for you and you shouldn’t. You feel really connected with someone but I feel like they aren’t really being honest and upfront with you about their intentions or what they want. It’s almost like they’re putting up an act just to get you where they want you. Make smarter, more logical decisions and don’t be led by your emotions. I feel like you can be a little toxic at times too and you’re trying to change and let go of your old habits and ways but it’s hard when you’re surrounded by people who are toxic as well. It’s hard to better yourself when that’s all you know too, but changing is what’s best for you. That’s what’s best for your future and your goals and you know this. Spirit is saying to be strong and confident. You can move on from that person who isn’t treating you right, you can remove yourself from situations that don’t serve you for the better, & you definitely can stop being so emotionally naive when you’re certain of what you really want and what makes you happy. Your inner voice is telling you something and I feel like there is a specific action or change you need to make that you’ve been procrastinating due to fear. Trust that all will work out the way it’s supposed to. I feel like there’s so much weighing on your mind and your heart and you’ve been repressing it in a way. You may be afraid of communicating how you really feel deep down because of the way conversations go, but I feel like you need to. You need to be honest and use your voice when needed. You feel stagnant and a little stuck right now and it’s because you need to leave the things that aren’t moving forward. That can be people, situations, or anything that is holding you back from moving on mentally. Don’t set yourself on fire to keep others warm. That also means don’t keep quiet just to keep the peace. Stir some shit up if you need to, say what needs to be said and do what needs to be done, then move on to better.

Pile Three:

I feel like with this song you’ve been in this energy of missing who you used to be before loving someone who didn’t appreciate and see you who for who you really are. I feel like there’s a little bit of pride on your end now because you were hurt and now you feel protective over yourself. You don’t want to love someone who makes you feel lonelier than you are being alone. I feel like you kinda want someone to regret not loving you the way you feel like you deserved.

You’ve been probably hurt and a little stressed out about a lot of things lately and I feel like you’re trying to start something new but things aren’t going as planned or the way you hoped they would. I feel like someone is trying to start slowly putting in more action and opening up more about how they feel. They could’ve been really distant and closed off to you in a way. I feel like things are starting to change but this person could’ve hurt you in a way and you’re setting stronger boundaries because of it but In a good way. I see you keeping things playful and just being friendly and lighthearted. I feel like someone is realizing how they really feel and they could be depressed and feeling emotionally withdrawn but on the surface everything seems different. Just go with the flow and allow things to happen naturally.

[elfdyke]

RED EMOJI OC ASKS i know its 20 hours after u reblogged it but shhhhhh dont worry about it

roe 💔🥩🧣 !!

20 hours dont matter hehe I ALWAYS WANA TALK ABT THIS BITCH💖

under the cut bc im the yapper (terminal)

💔 (broken heart) - Who has your character hurt most? Physically or emotionally? How did it feel? Do they regret it?

THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND TBH.... maria 😭 OH ROE.... maria is roe's rebound after her and pewter break up, she's by no means just an innocent victim but roe is not kind to her and uses her and absolutely takes advantage of maria's obvious infatuation for her 💔 i fear its not even intentional either, not entirely, roe's just trying to keep her head above water, she'd grown so used to consistent reliable love and intimacy with pewter that having that stripped away from her is really life shattering. its definitely her lowest point imo.

id say she mainly only hurt maria emotionally, im sure she was physically rough with her too (they were in a gang together) but its moreso using her and toying with her emotions, esp when pewter comes back into the picture, at first anyways. roe's desperation to try and make pewter jealous and hurt the way roe hurt 💔 SIGH

roe doesn't even really see what shes doing at the time i think, its only after the fact that she's forced to grapple with hkw unhealthy and cruel she had been. after roe ditches her maria goes on to lead the gang in roe's absense, and she is a lot more violent and volatile than roe ever was. so i was thinking roe and pewter end up having to track her down to put an end to this, and roe really has such a terrible time reckoning with what she did, i fear 💔 finding bodies of victims of maria and roe trying to act unbothered but stumbling outside to throw up bc shes so horrified by it all...! UNFORTUNATE! while i think she'd initially try and excuse her own behavior and act like marias overreacting, roe definitely has matured at this point and part of her growth in that regard is seeing what she did here was wrong and owning up to it, seeking forgiveness and trying to fix what she'd done.

🥩 (steak) - Does your oc have any coping mechanisms? Healthy or unhealthy?

UNHEALTHY OF COURSE 😍 sex is her #1 go to coping mechanism, even though pewter kind of ruins this for her after making her realize she was just using sex to try and emulate the intimacy and affection she really longed for ..💖 bc pewter can give her both sex and love.. JAWDROP! but yeah she has quite an unhealthy relationship around sex, smth i love love love exploring with her. and also she does dabble in drinking to excess, of course ^_^ it being fantast medieval ages and all. but its nowhere near like dangerous addiction levels, she can just severely overdo it sometimes

oh but she actually Does develop a healthy coping mechanism later on 💖 keeping a journal and self reflecting with that ^_^ its at pewters suggestion and roe finds it silly and annoying at first but she takes to it really well after struggling through getting used to it <3 her little journal collection that she lets pewter read through. AND ONLY her. even though shes still embarrassed about it

🧣(scarf) - What comforts your oc? Is it an item? An action? A person? Whatever it is, how any why does it comfort them?

s... s.... SEX AGAIN 😇 sorry ..! but mainly pewter tbh..... even if its not sex just being near her, pewter petting her, holding her, just being close to her is really so crazy comforting to roe. she likes laying across pewters lap while she reads and pets roes head 💖 running her fingers through her hair, rubbing her ears a little, brushing her knuckles across her cheek... WAH . roe's just a very physical person and so getting this kind of focused intimacy, where its clear how loved and trusted she is, does a lottttt for her. esp after the events in canon, roe really longs for pewters physicality

[hostilecandle]

You’ve played the Modern Warfare games, right? I’m new to the fandom and wanted to know if it was worth it actually playing the games versus watching a play through versus just running off vibes and fandom. Is the fandom accurate to the characters? I’ve seen some WILDLY different interpretations of them.

Howdy anon, welcome to the fandom! Sorry if this is a little lengthy but I want to give you a fully honest answer so you feel best suited to what you'd like to do :)

Yeah I have played them! I personally feel playing the games is so better of an experience than just watching a play through because there are so many different dialogue options and decisions you can make in them that you may not likely see in play thorughs during to personal preference and I also felt much more attachment to the characters themselves after having played as them and have to make decisions that directly affect them. Especially for MW and MW2. There are a few missions, specifically in MW, that affected me enough to put the game down for a bit and relfect on decisions I made and the consequencesof them, but when I've watched people play it it doesn't really do anything to me emotionally because i wasnt the one who made that call. (MW3 is honestly just a really expensive dlc tbh and majority of it is cut scenes and videos so you could probably just watch a playthrough of that one for a very similar experience to playing it if you don't want to shill out the 70 bucks though 😅)

That all being said, just watching play throughs is also just fine! And there are several compilations of the different dialogue options that you'd be able to find so you don't have to worry about missing extra context. Someone somewhere will be talking about it :)

As for fandom interpretation of the characters, I personally think they're horrific and not even close to accurate most of the time. The truth is many people in the fandom have neither played the games or bothered to watch a playthrough. They're running off vibes alone and because of that don't understand the canon of the characters or their importance to the story (a common thing you'll see is Gaz being replaced by a warzone operator who isn't in the games or Roach from the og games bc the fandom is under the impression he has no personality when he's actually the character you play as the most and learn the backstory of 😅). Fandoms will do what fandoms will do and everyone will have their own interpretation of the characters, but most are not true to the actual source material in any way here and it can be frustrating at times so I would definitely tread carefully as people like to make headcannons seem like canon.

All and all I hope you have fun whatever you choose, anon! This fandom can be a pretty nasty place sometimes so be careful <3 My blog is always open for questions and is a place that doesn't tolerate harassment over fiction of any kind and I try to reblog from equally cool and chill people that also make awesome fandom content. :D

[tkblythofficial]

TAROT PART 2 - 03 Feb 2024

Part 3 will be up soon! She’s making the notes and details too :) I love Tarot 2.0! She’s amazing!

* Entertainment purposes only *

Me: People love your rant on T. You didn’t hold back.

Tarot 2.0: I don’t like or care about these people so my opinion is my opinion. T is selfish to me. He’s goofy and good hearted but there’s an underlying cunning and sly nature to him particularly about things he thinks he’s right about. He’s such an Aquarius man. He points fingers at everyone else except himself. When things blow up in his face, he’s quick to either run or place blame elsewhere. It pisses me off tbh. Sorry, I know he’s your celebrity crush of the week or whatever but he needs to grow up too. In all my readings he thinks R is immature and too intense for him right now but he’s immature with dealing with his feelings. Like okay? You’re attracted to R so you deny it because you’re in a relationship? You should’ve kept it professional from the beginning to avoid this. But deciding to kiss her during rehearsal knowing you felt more is shitty. You weren’t thinking about BB when he had your tongue down R’s throat. You weren’t thinking of BB when you were in your bed with your dick in your hand while R and J had sex in her trailer—

Me: Girl…WHAT?

Tarot 2.0: I don’t give a fuck! Moving on, now I understand why he’s running from R (she's a little crazy imo) but refusing to talk to someone and hurting their feelings isn’t the right way to go about things. He triggered her by saying she needed to be professional over kissing her. How does the make any fucking sense? You had a great kiss which meant something. He knows that people called her unprofessional during the hate campaign so he knew he was hurting her by saying that. All of this over a kiss? He’s losing his mind because he’s trying to be respectful of BB (what a fucking joke, too late dude!) and she’s crying with her bf beside her because T hurt her badly. R can’t express what’s wrong with her to J, the dumbass, who’s stuck on stupid. She’s crying on his shoulder and J doesn’t know what’s wrong. R and T are nuts!

Me: Oh.

Tarot 2.0: I need a drink.

Me: ANYWAYS! T is a good lover? Condoms? Tarot 2.0 stop! We need details!

Tarot 2.0: I keep pulling the Lovers and Knight of Wands cards for him. It’s the ultimate good in bed type of card. It’s at least 7 and thick! Snow lands on top!

Me: …What?

Tarot 2.0: 7 inches of pound town! Thick and creamy like buttermilk.

Me: :0

Tarot 2.0: :)

How did R feel about the kiss?

Pulled: Eight of Cups (reversed)

Tarot 2.0: R has such sad energy, I feel sorry for her. If she were a Barbie doll, I would throw her away. She’s in a relationship but very lonely. She knows this relationship with J is bad but refuses to be alone. She’s emotionally immature. I agree with T on this but he’s the reason why she’s clinging onto this trash relationship. If T talked to her after the kiss, she wouldn’t feel the need to cling more to J. It’s funny in a way. T did the opposite of his goal, he pushed R closer to J because of his kiss reaction. He told her to move and be professional? So guess what? She ran into her bf’s arms and J once again saved her! A sad cycle she’s in. But the kiss was toe curling and she thinks it’s one sided. Yikes!

How did T feel about the kiss?

Pulled: King of Cups

Tarot 2.0: What a little bitch! His ass is feeling like a king after kissing R! Meanwhile she’s lonely and felt isolated after the snowbaird kiss because he told her it didn’t mean anything. His Aquarius selfishness is coming through strong here. However, I hate to admit it but this is a great card for R. It means T is dedicated and loyal. Also it usually represents an older man since kings tend to be older and more experienced. Something that she wants. A King is very charming and a great partner to have. It’s kind of a good thing he shut down things? Because he’s trying to be loyal to his gf despite his growing feelings for R.

Why didn’t R leave T after he hurt her feelings?

Pulled: Seven of Wands (reversed)

Tarot 2.0: not surprising with this girl. She’s trying not to let T affect her or her relationship. She’s blaming herself for thinking too much about the kiss. Poor girl doesn’t realize that T made her feel bad on purpose. She feels guilty because she didn’t protect her feelings or J. She carries a huge burden from this and is very self critical over it. So she doesn’t blame T for his reaction, she thinks he reacted appropriately and she was being delusional. She’s very delusional but not about this. I wish I could tell her that but she’s a love struck idiot when it comes to J.

More importantly, R and T are magnetic. They can’t let each other go no matter what. R would rather have T in her life than not at all. She’s very possessive of him and holding on tightly. She’s been hurt before so while it stings, she still loves T dearly.

What draws R to T?

Pulled: Page of Wands

Tarot 2.0: oh wow *speechless*

Me: what?

Tarot 2.0: She loves him a lot. Now I feel bad for going off on him slightly.

Me: Really? You love going off on people!

Tarot 2.0: I do but he truly brings her a lot of joy. He’s very exciting to her and passionate. He makes her feel alive. That's how deep of a connection she has to him. It’s overwhelming. Her energy lights up when talking about T. I understand why she overlooked him hurting her. A few days of pain doesn’t take away from the months of pure joy he brought her.

What draws T to R?

Pulled: Queen of Swords

Clarification card: Ace of Pentacles

Tarot 2.0: oh lord. He thinks she’s strong. He admires her resilience through adversity and her compassion. He respects her a lot and thinks she’s the best thing that’s happened to his career so far! He’s so glad he’s met her. She’s truly a positive influence on his life. They also share common interests! I’m see long and fulfilling conversations with these two! They clicked immediately. Yin and yang feelings here.

How does J feel about R?

Pulled: Three of Cups (reversed)

Clarification cards: Four of Cups and Queen of Wands (reversed)

Tarot 2.0: oh he’s not as dumb as I thought! Still dumb, poor thing but not as dumb! He knows about R and T’s hidden feelings and it made him pull away slightly. However, he’s happy Zeglyth is over with now and is ready to move on and start fresh with R possibly. But he’s very burdened by her too so he’s debating if he'll let her go eventually. I agree with him here actually. He’s not a therapist! Sure your partner should be there for you emotionally but he carries a lot of her emotional distress which makes him distressed and tired of dealing with it. The project he’s doing now is a much needed break from her. Sounds harsh but it may have rejuvenated his feelings for her when he gets back.

What would happen if R and T dated? What does all hell break loose mean here?

Pulled: Ace of Swords

Clarification cards: Two of Swords and The Star

Tarot 2.0: Ah, I see it! Okay. So if they get together, a lot of people will be hurt. Exes, friends, family because it’s basically like “I knew they would get together, they lied to us when we asked them about it”. They would face a lot of scrutiny. People would accuse them of cheating and being deceitful. Two swords suggesting either R or T will leave their partner and choose each other which is a painful decision. The first few months of Zeglyth dating will be rocky as hell. However, the star tells me everything will be okay after a while! They will heal and move on!

What is the secret between R and T?

Pulled: Nine of cups

Tarot 2.0: these two are hilarious! They dodged my question and their energy shifted immediately. Whatever secret it is, they really don’t want me to know. But I still pulled a love card here. How interesting is that??? Whatever the secret is, they’re happy about it! Distant but happy! It really connected them. Usually when I have blocks on secrets it’s because of childhood trauma (so the secret has been buried for so long!) or it’s a hidden secret or inside joke between the couple. It may be an unspoken secret between them. Perhaps they didn’t talk about it but they know about it? Does that make sense? Like a secret can be shared information or you can look at someone and know exactly what they're thinking without using words? I think that’s what’s happening here. They have an inside joke of some kind and the rest of us want to laugh but they won’t share the joke. I hate these two. I want to fucking laugh. Tell me the secret, bitch!

Explain the kiss! Shoving tongue down each other’s throat? Moaning and grinding? What the hell?

Pulled: Six of Wands

Tarot 2.0: what a card to pull at this question. Spark flew! They felt on top of the world during their kiss. Whew. They are very successful together. A power couple. Turning heads and thriving in attractiveness. A lot of raw energy and emotion is overflowing at this question. No wonder T is spooked. That’s actually scary. Meeting someone and having a life changing kiss. Okay. Now I feel bad for really criticizing him earlier. He’s trying to be a good boyfriend to BB but that’s a type of kiss he wasn’t expecting. I sympathize with both of them god damn. Being in a relationship and a kiss changing everything is very painful. The guilt is eating them alive. I see why T hurt her feelings. It wasn’t the right thing to do but I understand why he was very harsh about it. He could have handled it better but they needed a reality check at that moment. And he’s sorta of right? They should be professional about this. The kiss wasn’t professional and they needed to remain focused. J was on set too. Disaster avoided and movie saved! No scandal. I see his vision now.

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she’s currently doing the notes for:

How does T feel about R and J’s relationship?

Is it possible R and T ever get together?

What is the future between T and BB?

How does R currently feel about T?

How does T currently feel about R?

What T date someone else besides BB and R?

Will R fully heal mentally and emotionally?

Are they actually friends? Is it PR? Are the feelings romantic or just attraction?

What about will R’s career be like in the future?

What about will T’s career be like in the future?

What will T and R be 5 years from now?

[ilions-end]

okay i for real finished quintus' posthomerica so! FINISHING THOUGHTS:

i wish i'd read it sooner tbh. there was a time i was scrambling trying to find out everything that happened in between the iliad and the odyssey, and just reading wikis didn't really give a sense of scope. even though quintus is a WAY WEAKER storyteller than homer it is the closest surviving thing we have to a full linking narrative

MOST ANNOYING quintus thing, even beyond the simplistic morals, is his need to say "this was WAY MORE [thing] than [event in the iliad] actually!". he keeps doing it! like he says achilles' grief for antilochus is even greater than he felt for patroclus... OBSERVABLY NOT, QUINTUS?? you're not fooling anybody

there is such a thing as too much ekphrasis. we don't need to know what's depicted on EVERY shield (and baldric, and quiver) of note, quintus. please.

funniest "nobody's allowed to be mean to each other" thing is odysseus seeking out philoctetes who tells him like "i can never forgive you for abandoning me, i have suffered unspeakable pains for ten years because of you specifically, you absolute heartless bastard" and odysseus tells him "well don't blame me, blame the fates" and philoctetes goes "oh that's true!" and they hug it out. it's like FIVE lines and they're buddies again.

random and silly observations that didn't warrant their own liveblog posts:

quintus makes all his favourite guys IMMENSELY TALL AND BIG AND MUSCULAR. achilles is HUGE. ajax is HUGE. neoptolemus is HUGE. i'm imagining them running around like great danes among chihuahuas.

i know it's an ancient text but the battles FEEL like cgi slurry. it's always "innumerable" men falling every time one of the heroes swipes a sword. the ground is so covered in bodies they can walk back to camp never treading in the dust. it's fantasy numbers of dead EVERY time and they never run out of guys.

achilles and memnon dueling and getting so close their helmet crests keep brushing against each other? dare i say erotic

it's so funny that quintus fanboys achilles so hard he REFUSES to let paris kill him. NO what do you MEAN the prettyboy trojan gets him in the other versions, only a GOD ALONE can kill PERFECT ACHILLES obviously!! so we get "one day apollo saw achilles on the battlefield and he thought achilles was annoying so he shot him". wow great tension, quintus...!

the description of ajax' immediate shock at hearing odysseus won the arms is so visceral and detailed (the flash of pain in his mind traveling down his spine, temporary loss of balance and vision). it makes it sound like there's a genuine disabling neurological event happening, the onset of his madness as a physiological reaction, it's very impressive as a medical description.

i like that teucer keeps popping up through the epic, we even learn who his friends are (as they die...) that's my boy. i had to laugh at myself when i was surprised at teucer being part of the battle the day after ajax died. as if i thought he'd be granted compassionate leave or something????

the one time quintus actually seems to comment on odysseus' agenda is when they're collecting neoptolemus on skyros and deidamia cries like a bird whose young has been eaten by a serpent. odysseus is the serpent!!

diomedes has to run into odysseus' tent to borrow armour mid-attack. girlfriends 4eva

i love how ambiguous phoinix' feelings are at meeting neoptolemus! he gets so emotional reminded of achilles at that age and he's both so proud and so distraught. and neoptolemus is very polite but obviously awkward about this strange man hugging him and crying and it's. ah it's such an emotionally complicated scene <3

ALSO also when neoptolemus is finally left alone and walks into his father's tent and sees all his things and briseis and the slaves and he cries, thinking of home. little boy, what have you gotten involved innnn.

eurypylus meets neo on the battlefield and demands that he says who he is and also to relate the pedigree of his horses. why is nobody normal in this war.

when they enter the wooden horse quintus takes a big pause to call on the muses again to help him list EVERY MAN who went into the horse. and he says thirty names and then "and many more besides". the muses straight up gave up on him!

quintus is way, way more partial to the greeks than homer is, but the descriptions of the sacking of troy are genuinely horrific. it's horrible slaughter, not just cutting down of the enemy but the panic and chaos of naked trojans killed in their beds or desperately trying to defend themselves with furniture and utensils. parents slay their own children to spare them from torture and slavery. it's definitely not just "yay we beat troy".

menelaus and helen's reunion got me, even though it's one of those where aphrodite makes him so horny he forgives her (at least she doesn't flash her boobs this time). when they talk later they agree there's nothing to forgive and then make love like "grapevine and ivy intertwining". aww.

the final mention of odysseus is when he hauls hecuba towards his ship and there's a simile of a farmer leading squealing, lowing wildstock into a new pen. it's just so dehumanizing and horrible it actually makes me appreciate that this is a version where hecuba gets transformed into a dog.

so! posthomerica: a very mixed bag and intriguingly affected by the moral compass of its writer but BOY is there a lot of stuff happening in it.

[youremyheaven]

"GIRL I FEEL YOU, i don't find this romantic either. I think relationships are build over time and it's possible to build something with someone WITHOUT love bombing them???"

yess omg, you get me - idk if you know the sitcom 'the Big Bang Theory' but it reminds me of the dynamic between Leonard (played by a very Venus dom dude) and Penny. She's this bubbly, pretty popular girl who dates lots of guys and is very friendly but can be viewed as shallow, and he's like this nerdy lovesick loverboi with mummy issues.

He pines for her throughout the show while she dates numerous other guys and I think it's almost like we're supposed to feel bad for him, like 'damn poor Leonard, if only she'd be less shallow and give him a chance 😔' but it's like, in reality she's doing nothing wrong by not being that into him and he's kinda being entitled by going 'woe is me' about it.

She was painted as very oblivious to how he felt but tbh (I know it's just a show) but I always think it's more likely she just acts oblivious so that she doesn't look like a b* for turning his lovesick ass down.

Then later in the show they actually do get together - I think she does develop genuine feelings for him, but it's more that they've been friends for so long and have that history. It ends up a running joke that people will go 'wow man, how did you get her!?' and she goes 'he wore me down' lmaoo

it's a comedy so it's not that serious but yeah it never felt right in a way because it's supposed to sound like a sweet story: 'yeah he wanted her for yearsss and years and she finally gave in' but lowkey it's not that sweet, it feels a little more like she was emotionally strongarmed into ending up with this guy.

Venus men are also kinda self sabotaging I think too, they're the kinda dudes to purposely make everything seem so tragic so that they can play 'tortured artist'. They PURPOSELY create this dynamic, almost like being a cuck lol

I've watched the early seasons of TBBT (it used to air on TV all the time in India)

Omg Leonard & Penny's relationship ALWAYS gave me the ick 🤡

OMG ACTING OBLIVIOUS to not seem like a bitch is me with men 😭😭 I play my bimbo card whenever they try to hit on me bc men do not take rejection lightly 😔

Yeah the "pursuing someone until they just give in" is very Venus men coded 😭 I've had major situations with a couple of Venusian men and they've all been persistent as helllll, meanwhile my Nodal ex basically disappeared from my life. These men, no matter how many times you turn them down, idk if they don't feel humiliated or embarrassed or what it is??? but lovesick is the right word. They just keep going at it??? the word 'no' means nothing to them 😭

OMFGGG the tragic image they paint of themselves is crazy accurate 😭😭 every Venusian man I know has pulled the "I've wanted you for soooo long, please I beg of you" type strategy,,, like they're SO willing to look pathetic, it's crazy??? I always thought it was surprising bc they're all otherwise dignified stoic seeming people but suddenly they act like pathetic fools in love and now I see it as how they see themselves as lovers, i.e, they think of themselves as doomed tragic heroes who just love a girl too much without concern for how she feels 🤡it's like they LIKE pain (which is obviously very Venus coded as well) they're masochistic lowkey

[aliteralsemicolon]

I have more than 3 questions if you are comfortable answering them. I really love your writing style so I would be really greatful if you share your secrets ❤️

What is your writing process like?

How long does one story take to write?

How do you come up with your ideas?

Do you ever run out of ideas?

What is your thought process when writing Spencer? I feel like you capture his energy so well.

Who do you imagine as Reader? I feel like I relate a lot to the Reader in we can't be friends story.

Do you ever get anxious when posting a story?

Sorry if these are too many questions. It may sound strange but I am really fond of how you write and I am an aspiring writer myself, I would appreciate your advice. I am unsure of how to describe, but it feels like you put a lot of love in your characters interacting with each other, if that makes sense? You capture the 'feeling' of love really well. Also English is not my first language I apologise for any mistakes 😅

oh so I can't even begin to describe how incredibly sweet this ask is and how it's left me speechless. truly I was taken aback because I literally never though I'd ever get asked something this touching, and I'm so flattered that you took the time to ask this. also don't worry about your english, you're basically better than I am tbh 😭 anyways essay incoming

my writing process is actually pretty simple. once I have an idea I write it down in my brainstorm doc for later. when I'm ready to write it I make a new doc for that specific fic. then I make a list writing how the story is going to unfold (what the plot will be or what's gonna happen in a scene etc). basically I write anything and everything that comes to mind (scene, dialog, quote, etc). even if it's messy bc I can always sort it out later. once I have that initial planning done I kinda just start writing according to the list. I write as much or as little as my brain feels like, then circle back when more motivation strikes. I also don't always stick 100% to the original list/script because things change and I get new ideas that work better for the story as I write. eventually it all just comes together. once it's done, it's beta read either by me or a kind friend and I just post it with my normal layout.

the amount of time it takes to write a fic depends on a couple of factors. obviously, the length of the actual fic is a big one. I never really know how long or how short a fic is going to be, I kinda just keep writing until I'm happy with how it's unfolded. often times my fics end up being way longer than intended because I'm really bad at writing short form content. also, I can lose interest in a fic pretty fast if I don't emotionally vibe with it. so there's no set answer, it really just depends on circumstance. I've learned to just stop trying to force my pace and let everything flow in its own time.

MUSIC!!! I lovvveeee music (from a listening stand point, I could not produce any part of it to save my life). anything and everything I do creatively sparks from music and how that music associates with an emotion/memory/desire. like for example: we can't be friends. I love that song. I associate the song with feelings of extreme heartbreak masked by delusion. the lyrics are touchy, but the song is upbeat. yet the beat is missing something to me. like it's hollow and what ever it's missing is just within my grasp but I can't reach it (does this even make sense?) and that's how part 1 of wcbf formed. Or malicious compliance is inspired by (TMI!!!) TiO by Zayn because I associate it with a specific memory and so that fic happened. imagining (delusion) is also just one of my strong suits.

no, I've yet to run out of ideas, luckily. I just know that when it does happen it's going to hit me in the fucking ass at my lowest.

absolutely no thought process 💙 I just write him how I want to perceive him and it seems to work out in my favour. Spencer unironically is my type to a fucking T and I know what I want in a partner. what I want magically compliments what Spencer's personality already is. then again, parts of his personality also depend on what season Spencer I'm imagining.

obviously, there are certain aspects of Reader that are parts of me. that can't be helped, as a writer you always project bits and pieces of yourself in there. but Reader is also just as much mixed as whatever type of personality works best to the story, but never in an extreme way. Reader is open to your personal interpretation, there is no one person I imagine to be Reader.

yes ALL THE FUCKING TIME because what if you guys don't fuck with todays tom foolery? what then? thanks for reading my stuff guys <3

and good luck reading this monstrosity. as always ignore all my grammatical errors because I do not proofread my rambles 🙏

also thank you again, anon for your sweet message. I hope I was able to give the answers you were looking for. best of luck for your writing journey :D