#for me i want to see sexy fat characters and characters who find healing and safe homes after trauma and trans characters

[giantkillerjack]

Good afternoon! What kind of characters or tropes do you wish you could see more of?? [Ex. More Trans characters; More witches; More himbos]

AND/OR: What kind of characters or tropes would you like to see LESS of? [Ex. Less Trans characters who have to live lives of misery; Less "evil" witches; Less characters played by Mark Wahlberg]

AKA what i need in my life are anti-capitalist trans witches who live lives of joy and community and also some himbos are there! HELL YEAH!!! ....... *ahem*. You don't have to be that specific, but hopefully you get the idea!

[cookinguptales]

You know... there actually is something very healing about writing erotica about a character who has a similar body type to your own.

[little personal post, cw for fatphobia and ableism]

Before I got into WWDITS, I didn't write much NSFW fic. I didn't have a lot of experience with it and I felt that I just wasn't particularly good at it. But I think NSFW suits nandermo (for a lot of reasons, frankly) so I did end up writing a lot of porn about those two.

And... I mean, I've always had a somewhat combative relationship with my own body. I'm sick, I'm disabled, my body is kind of a piece of shit. Body positivity has never really been something that I've been party to, mostly because I have never had a positive experience with my body. It uh. It's not a nice place to inhabit, to put it mildly.

But I'm also fat. Like sure, curvy, plus-size, "person of size", whatever. I'm fat. I don't think it should be a dirty word. I've had to deal with doctors being shitty about it, I've had to deal with family being shitty about it, I've had to deal with strangers on the street being shitty about it. The world in many ways was not built for a body like mine, whether it comes to size or ability.

And it's hard to see yourself as desirable when you have a body like mine. I have, in fact, been told on multiple occasions that it's not desirable. I don't see myself as ugly or anything (and never have), but that's not the same thing as feeling like someone could want you.

WWDITS ended up being kind of a novelty in the media landscape for having a fat protagonist, and one who didn't talk about being ashamed of it. He also, as he developed both skills and confidence, got to be sexy. He got to be capable. He got to be dressed well. Other characters wanted him. Hell, the fans wanted him.

I got to speak to Harvey Guillén last month and I remember telling him that it was hard to feel like you're enough when you have a body that people don't... ah, I think the word I used was "appreciate", but that having people like him and characters like Guillermo out there made it a little easier. And he told me that he hadn't had anyone like him to look up to, either, but that he just decided to, y'know, go for it anyway. Be the first. And I'm really glad he did.

Having a character like Guillermo who's fun and interesting and terrifyingly capable has been a joy, but... honestly the experience of writing him as sexually desirable has been downright healing.

I'm not really into men, so I don't personally find Guillermo (or Nandor, for that matter) sexually attractive. But writing from the POV of a character that does kind of... rewires the whole way you look at things. When you write about how supple thick thighs are, when you write about how it feels good when your fingers sink into soft flesh, when you write about what a joy it is to kiss a stomach that gives way beneath your lips... idk. You start to really see those as things that can be lovely, even if they're on you.

It's funny because I actually personally appreciate some softness on a partner IRL, but haven't allowed those same tastes to extend to myself. Again, I'm not the kind of person to look into the mirror and hate myself (I... don't actually keep many mirrors in my house, they creep me out, lmao) but I also just never seem to notice when a person might be interested in me because I think on a deep and intrinsic level I assume no one will be.

But... I might have accidentally started training myself to see things differently.

I'll never like my body, frankly. (My body's an asshole!) But after being in the head of a character who thinks a body like mine is attractive, it's easier to see the appeal in my own curves. To press my hand against my own thigh and enjoy the way it feels against my fingers. To imagine someone else enjoying it, too.

Because I've just written someone who has. And taking a step outside yourself, allowing yourself to look at yourself from the POV of someone who might love you, really is fucking healing.

(Just not Nandor. Fuck, I can do better than him.)

idk, I don't know if I'm really going anywhere with this. Just thinking about how nice it's felt, actually, to write a character not so different from me being loved for who they are. Kind of felt like being kind to myself through being kind to them.

and who knows, man. maybe I deserve a little kindness.

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

4.12.24 Friday

9:17 am

I still have windblow!!! Look at my butt Cedrick... Pilot Garret won't save me... I can't even see Mark...

I feel concious coz of my butt was bitten by bugs, got from Conduent believe or not ( one of the call centers here in the Philippines ). I need ac my darling... I grew-up here having ac in my room now it is all gone...

I'm fixing my butt but it is sweaty and it is super hot here and no assistant... My butt is dying and et al...

Its is mahapdi or painful coz it became a wound, it is hot here...

9:32 am

Hmmm... I still have windblow....I remember when I was young around 11 or 12.... I used to play this particular board game "game of the generals" it is so weird but I always win on that game. The funny part you can't see the character of each card stand that you will move as well as the card stand of your opponent or enemy. You just need to use your emotion or intuition it is like your eyes are blind-folded.... It is funny right?

Is it good to be read by someone and be lifted-up???

10:46 am

I used to have yaya or assistant again and again... But I can cook but I don't wanna melt down on beauty...

I want ac my darling not this way... I want a set-up place... It is so hot here, we lost ac... I always need gloves...

I have a super sensitive skin my darling... I can cook but I hope there is a nice cold ventilation. I need to wear my armour in the kitchen... Can I have my foot spa and my gel nail polish??? In regular basis...

My butt and et al... I don't wanna fade...

11:59 am

I still have windblow....Yes! Yeah! My darling, I don't wanna "melt-down" on beauty... Yeah! It is melt-down, I want the love will be sweet as it is..

1:20 pm

I still have windblow....

I still wanna leave Cavite... Ms Fermin just be careful on your message and be fair so that we can have a good friendship...

3:50 pm

I still have windblow....It is really hot here... It is really crazy we don't have wifi... I want a bf who can lift me up like Pilot Garret but he doesn't like me, next from a Pilot to a very sexy and handsome Chef Cedrick ... Will he hate me if I'm a bummer and I need a lift these days? Can I do hitch? Can I hitch in?

I have windblow and I'm so scared....They will always smash me down here....Whenever I tried getting a job they will damage my entire career plan... Is it or was it my fault if someone is damaging my career plan??? I don't wanna be ugly and I want out from here, from Cavite.

I can't see people that I knew... It is so weird! But I can feel them nearby like Mark or Mitch but why they are not approaching me???

4:37 pm

I'm healing my butt, it feels like a stinging painful sensation or nagkapilat-pilat ang pwet... Baby butt skin...

5:29 pm

I know, I still need more... Will Cedrick like this and never say no on this twin B...

6:12 pm

Cedrick look at this....It is still whole the bangus but can you cook for me hahaha... I feel so fat,ugly and old...

Not gonna cook for someone that I don't like... Will cook for Pilot Garret and most specially for Cedrick but Cedrick is a chef... Will take turns... My beauty Cedrick.... My serums... If you taste my sauteed cabbage you'll die right away...

Being defensive it is not burnt! I just used a used oil from fried chicken!!!

See it is not burnt!

6:54 pm

For the women DJ's just be careful on giving messages on air coz you guys are not real and for upper men don't get women DJ's here in the Philippines... I'm your real sisterhood for Pilot Garret and Cedrick... Someone is just smashing me here in the Philippines...

9:06 pm

I still have windblow... I feel bitter....I wanna leave Cavite and I'm having complex....I want to get a bf that I want like Pilot Garret or Cedrick if not will find my old Mark. The problem I can feel that Mark is nearby but not approaching me and I wonder why... Why????

I feel old and older everyday just for nothing... I feel jealous on things that I don't know that I must know...

[azure-steel]

-slides u my url- OvO

Send me your URL and I'll tell you

My Opinion on;

Character in general: Oof, right okay so my initial reaction to our dearest and hottest Grease Daddy when you find him snoozing in the tunnels was as follows: 

“What the actual smashed potato is this and why the CAPITAL F do I gotta fight it...?” 

I was not impressed, not at all, but mostly because I’m as dense as dark matter and didn’t realise I needed to use a long range attack in the initial throws of that battle so spent a good solid 10 minutes or so just tryna catch up to the fricker. 

Anyway, that fight didn’t put Roche in the greatest stead, but his laugh and his general craziness did strike a bit of a chord, considering that Cloud doesn’t absolutely decimate him in that fight I had every reason to believe that he’d show up again, which, of course he did, but I had my difficulty set quite high and poor Cloud was hanging by a thread when he pops up for a second time. So I sit there on my bed absolutely CRAPPING myself just thinking this guy with the most fabulous hair and the most GORGEOUS eyes in the entire game is going use Cloud as a floor mop~ 

But then Roche HEALS him to make the fight fair. THAT was when my outlook suddenly changed, that there is so much more to this SOLDIER dude than what meets the eye. I mean you don’t see a lot of him, he only appears twice, but the dynamics between those two instances are so very different as in that first bout, Roche seems to just be looking for trouble. He found that in Cloud and lost. BUT that loss seemed to ignite a fire in him that Roche was perhaps lacking up until that point. The prospect of challenging Cloud excites him and thus he can’t resist a second chance to either prove himself, or just to drink in whatever power Cloud can deliver. (I like to think it’s the latter... I’m rather hot for this ship I won’t lie...) With Roche’s demeanour seeming a lot calmer and more focused (If a lil flirtatious, ooh la la~) in that second bout I was yet again forced to consider that there’s a lot about this guy that we are yet to discover, and I hope he turns up in the second instalment, he had better or Squeenix gone get an angry e-mail off yours truly. 

Anyway, this dude... fuck, he’s got everything right? He’s sexy, suave and is an actual BEAST with that bike of his. I love him like... I just love him so much that words are failing me now <3

How they play them: Okay, my Moogle Mooglie Moogs, Listen to Saphie ‘kay? You have so fucking little to go on, literally all you’ve been presented with here is a face, the very baseline of a personality and some little snippets of lore if you were smart enough to use your Assess Materia on him. As you can probably guess I wasn’t that smart... But you’ve taken those little bite sized chunks and you’ve created this absolute MONSTER of a character, off your own merit with your own HC’s, ideas and lore that give this minor character who is seemly so sadly overlooked so much fucking DEPTH. You’ve implimented him into such a complex story which is already written and you’ve done it with such care and skill it boggles my head how you did it at all, and I applaud you for that! I wanna know more, I want all the reactions the good, the bad, tragically sad and the foul. I want it all, and YOU did that. There’s so much you’ve poured into this guy that... I don’t think you quite understand how happy it makes me whenever I see his cute face in my inbox or I get a reply to our thread. The passion and the sheer power you put into every reply, listen, I ain’t blowing smoke up your ass, I wouldn’t do that, but you’ve created such a treasure here and I am certainly not the only one who thinks so, that much I can promise you. Your writing is, in short, out of this fucking world that I was a bit star struck when we first started interacting. I loved Roche anyway for the reasons stated above, but you solidified it~

The Mun: I happen to think you’re brilliant, okay? Even when we’re just chewing the fat over in the ole disco, I thoroughly enjoy talking to you (Even though whenever I see that crying kitty meme I instantly think of you... is that weird? xD) But no, you’re great and I adore you a whole lot, thank you for giving me a chance to write with you bby <3

Do I:

RP with them: I DOOOOOOO

Want to RP with them: Gosh, just all the time tbh, there’s a dynamic between our muses which is, in short, unmatched and I just want to explore all the things with them!

What is my;

Overall Opinion: If you are not following and trying to reach out to this mun, then you’re not doing it right. For serious... so much love for this unfathomable talent in our midst. I’m just so honoured to be given the chance to be a part of that. 

[taurusjaehyun]

best birthday ever // j.jh

♦Pairing: jaehyun x fem reader

♦Other Members/ Characters: Johnny, Taeyong, Yuta, Hendery and Lucas [mentioned]

♦Genre: smut, roommate Jaehyun

♦Warnings: breast and nipple play?, fingering, sex toys, dildo fucking, filming

♦Word count: 6,528

♦Story: Valentine’s meant birthday and a holiday for you and your roommate-slash-good friend, Jaehyun. Usually, if you guys weren’t dating other people, you’d be going out but this year, the snow piled up that you couldn’t leave your shared apartment so you decided to let your precious roommate have his gift at home, which was mainly anything he wanted to do. And it was no secret Jung Jaehyun had always wanted to fuck you.

Note: This was totally spontaneous?? Sorry if its bad sksksk also I suck at summaries. Its almost 4am so this isn’t proofread as always so ignore my mistakes or tell me about it so I can edit sksks. I know this is about Jaehyun’s b-day and it’s sooo late already but whatever!! Better late than never!! I hope yall like it and enjoy!!!!

“So, what do you want for your birthday? It can be anything.” You spoke, eyes stuck to your phone as you texted your friend from work, “It can be cash, a favor, something personal….” You trailed as you peeked at your roommate Jaehyun, who was resting his head on your lap, watching a compilation of funny babies on youtube. You both were in your bed because Jaehyun liked the smell of your room better than his, or so he says. “I can also cook you something. The snow is literally piling up outside so I don’t know if we’ll be able to go out.”

 Jaehyun paused his texting and looked up at you, pondering. “Hmmm...”

 “You can’t have sex with me, though.” You laughed. It was a joke running joke between the two of your for years now. It was no secret that Jaehyun had always wanted to fuck you but you always denied him, because you loved him—as a friend, of course but you couldn’t deny you’ve wanted to have sex with him at least once.

 You met Jaehyun back in university, at freshman orientation. But the two of you had gotten close after you officially met each other in your universities Poetry Club and bonded over poetry—naturally. The two of you would read the poems you wrote to each other, much to the other girls’ jealousy and not just in the Poetry Club. But to be honest, it was just the two of you asking each other for advice and it quickly developed to a friendship that lasted.

After university, you and Jaehyun had applied to the same company and also got accepted together, however the two of you had been assigned in different departments and only a floor apart. You decided to move in together to save money. Your co-workers had always assumed that you were together but you’ve always denied it even 3 years later, you were still telling the new interns that you weren’t dating THE Jung Jaehyun but people never believed you anyways. It was partly Lucas and Hendery’s fault why interns think you’re dating because the two were your biggest shippers.

 “I have an idea!” Jaehyun suddenly sat up and moved to face you, on his knees. “Since you said we can’t go out because of the snow, can my request be valid from tonight until the end of my birthday? Please?”

 You hummed, slowly nodding. “Yeah, sure. What do you wanna do anyways?”

 Jaehyun grinned, “Well, technically, it’s a lot of things but it all comes down to one thing.”

 “What?” Jaehyun could get pretty weird so you couldn’t help but feel curious and nervous at the same time.

 Jaehyun licked his lips, hesitating. You furrow your brows at him, urging him on. He usually wasn’t hesitant with you. “Can you stay topless the whole day?”

 You burst out laughing at his request, “topless like… No shirt, no bra?” Jaehyun nodded and you laughed even more. It was no big deal. You had seen each other naked countless of times—sober and shitfaced drunk. You sat up, put down your phone to your side and took off your night gown, leaving you in your cotton panties that you loved wearing to sleep in comfort. “No biggie. Is that all?”

 “Can I touch them and play with them anytime I want?” Jaehyun asked straight up. Of course he’d wanted to do this for the longest time. He’d take the chance given, of course. “I mean your boobs?”

 You pause. It wouldn’t hurt to let him, right? “Sure. That’s easy.”

 “Can I suck them too? Like, your nipples?”

 “What are you planning to do?” You asked, slapping his arm.

 “It’s just for a day? I mean, after this, I can’t do this anymore.” Jaehyun reasoned out. He wasn’t sure that he’d get another chance like this again ever.

 You and Jaehyun knew each other inside and out since you were so close. And back in uni, in between bottles of red bull and hard liquor, the two of you had talked about sex. The two of you had talked to each other about your kinks and eventually, Jaehyun had confessed that he wanted to sleep with you. You denied him and told him that as much as you’d like to, you just didn’t want to.

 But just because the two of you hadn’t slept together doesn’t mean the two of you hadn’t done anything sexual. The two of you had made out “platonically” a few times during uni and after, specifically a few hours earlier. Sometimes at the break room, you’d make out when you were bored or needed a stress relief. Occasionally grinding “platonically” too. But the two of you had never touched each other under your clothes.

 You pursed your lips and pondered, it was Jaehyun’s birthday and Jaehyun knew you liked having your nipples sucked so it would also be for your benefit. Besides, Jaehyun had always raved about his ‘skills’ and you knew about his fixation on tits too. “Ok. Sure. You can do whatever you want with my boobs but only from tonight until the end of your birthday, ok?” It was only 9pm. Still early. “Don’t hurt me!”

 Jaehyun ended up laughing, his big thunderous laugh resounding in your room. Somehow it made you feel offended for some reason. “When have I ever hurt you, y/n? I’ll never ever hurt you!” You didn’t get the double meaning in his words so you were quite confused by his laughter. “So can I start now?”

 You sighed, fluffing your pillow before leaning back on it, getting comfortable in your spot. “Ok, you can.” You grab your phone from your side and start to text your friends from work again, talking about the next cases you guys had to work on again.

 Jaehyun settled between your legs and got on top of you, with his face on your chest. He was eye level with your nipples that you found it a funny cause it was like he was having a stare down with your nipples. He started slowly by touching your breasts lightly as if he was shy. Well, it was the first time he’d do this to you so he wanted to take it slow first before he got too crazy. He couldn’t deny he wanted to feel how the metal bar in your nipples would feel in his mouth and he could only imagine the things he’d do to play with it.

 “I can’t believe you have both your nipples pierced. It’s so sexy.” Jaehyun spoke excitedly, biting his lips as he took in the sight of your bare tits. He’d seen it a lot of times but he loved it so much. And the image of your pierced nipples always got him excited. “I’ve never been with a girl with pierced nipples.”

 Jaehyun watches as your breasts jiggle with the movement of your chest while you laughed. “It hurt like a mother fucker, too.”

 You had gotten them pierced when you turned 21, as an act of liberation from your strict and conservative upbringing. Actually, Jaehyun was there when you had it put on, laughing at your painful screams while he caught it all on tape, much to your annoyance. Despite the pain you felt from having it done and the time it took for it to heal, it was the best decision of your life. Guys love it and it increased sensitivity on your nipples so it’s a win-win for you.

 “What cup are you, by the way?”

 “36C, usually. It depends on the brand.”

 “Wow.” Jaehyun looked so amazed whenever your tits would jiggle whenever he gave it a nudge. And the fact that your breasts spilled over the grasp of his rather big hands. “It’s so big.” Soon, he started squeezing but avoiding your nipples.

 Jaehyun leaned in, licking on the undersides of your breasts as he pinched the generous fat of your tits. He smiled as he blew hot and cold air on your nipples, making you gasp and tremble as your nipples slowly turned hard with every gust of air he blew.

 She put away your phone away and set it on the nightstand after you plugged it in then looked at Jaehyun, grimacing. “Perv.”

 Jaehyun leaned forward, properly getting on his knees in between your legs but never letting go of your breasts. He only grinned before fully hovering over you and leaned in to kiss you on the mouth. You returned his open mouthed kisses, loving how he easily took your breath away.

He pulls away from you, pressing his forehead against yours as you both breathed in deeply. He locked his eyes with you as he continued massaging your tits.

  “Who told you you could kiss me like that?” You scoffed, cupping his face and squishing his cheeks. He only gave you a sly smile before pecking your lips again, then eventually going down your jaw and neck.

 You tilt your head back, giving him more access to your neck and Jaehyun doesn’t disappoint, immediately finding your sensitive spot and making you whine as he nipped and sucked on your skin. Jaehyun went down again to kiss at your chest again, but avoiding your nipples that were already begging to be sucked, even if you tried to hide that fact. You licked your lips as you watch him pepper your chest with kisses, occasionally marking you.

 “You know, you have the prettiest nipples I’ve ever seen.” Jaehyun spoke as he hovered over you and leaned in again until your foreheads were touching again. He never really found nipples pretty but yours were in a pretty shade that contrasted your olive skin and to top that, your nipples were a bit puffy, making it look cute. And the thrill of seeing pierced nipples in real life was incredibly sexy and so, so arousing for him. You had on metal bars that had small, dainty flower designs at the end that makes it look very pretty.

 You lifted your head up and caught his lips in a short kiss. “Thank you, Jae.” You laughed then resumed your lip lock.

 Jaehyun licked at your lower lips, asking for entrance but you stood her ground, not letting him in. You reached over and cupped his face as you slanted your face making kissing him easier. You were trying to take lead and it was working.

 He kept trying to ask for entrance but you would shut him down again and again, making him laugh as you kissed. “Let me in, come on.” Jaehyun grinned against your lips, kissing you again.

 You smiled as you kissed him back, then somehow ended up biting his bottom lip which made Jaehyun a bit turned on. “No.”

 “I’ll just have to make you give in,” he smirked before catching your mouth into a deep kiss again. You didn’t want to lose so you fought for dominance until you were the one leading the kiss again. Jaehyun started to knead at your breasts again, almost painfully but it was delicious pain for you.

 You reached over and wrapped your arms around his back, pulling him closer. Simultaneously, Jaehyun rubbed both your nipples with the pad of his thumbs, making you moan out. Jaehyun took this chance and immediately let himself in your mouth, rubbing his tongue against yours.

 You gasp and push him away in surprise. Your nipples had been begging to be touched since earlier and the way he did it by surprise caught you. Before you had gotten your nipples pierced, they were already very sensitive but now that they’re pierced, the sensitivity increased tenfold.

 “I told you I’d make you give in,” Jaehyun smirked before he leaned in again to kiss you, but this time you both were kissing with tongues. He loved your earlier reaction to his ministration so Jaehyun had teased you a few times, gently rubbing his thumb against your sensitive nipples, surprising you every time even if you saw it coming which made you a slight mess under him.

 Jaehyun pulled away, hands never ceasing to massage her tits and playing with your nipples, flicking your buds with his fingertips. He loved how flushed you looked, out of breath with your lips a bit swollen from your earlier bouts of kissing. You looked so sexy to him that he couldn’t help but be excited for when he’d be finally be able to fuck you with his cock.

 “God, you’re so sexy.” He breathed as he kissed your jaw, fingers still flicking your sensitive nubs that made you tremble in pleasure. Your nipples and fingertips were dry so the constant teasing was a bit rough and a little painful for you but it was too good.

 His kisses slowly made its way to the tops of your chest, and eventually on your breasts. You watched as he tongued the space between your breasts, slowly licking and nipping as his big hands held your breasts, gently massaging and squeezing the fat. He pressed your breasts together and buried his face in between, sighing comfortably. It made you laugh as your watched his blissed reaction in between your tits. With your tits still pushed together, he started to fuck your cleavage with his tongue and licking into it as if he was eating pussy.

 “You’re dirty. And really good at teasing.” You breathed out as you covered your eyes with your arm, not wanting to see his reaction to your flushed face.

 Jaehyun chuckled letting go of your tits and watching them bounce at the drop. He leans his head to the side, kissing the sides of you breasts, nipping on the skin. He watched your reaction as he did everything which was entertaining to him. He could see you were getting turned on and he hasn’t even done anything more than touch your nipples. He was also starting to smell your arousal which was for sure really wet but since you said no penetration, he’d have to make do of what he had right now.

 He watched as you kept your eyes closed, resting both your arms on your sides and gulp as Jaehyun kissed your chest. You haven let out a moan since when he first touched your nipples and he could tell that you were clearly trying to hold back as you would bite your lips.

 Feeling the excitement himself, Jaehyun turned his attention to your right breast and dragged the tip of his tongue on your areola, making you gasp. He looked up at you then flicked the tip of his tongue on to your hardened bed, making you moan and jerk your hips at the motion. Smirking, he enveloped your nipple with his mouth and started sucking, using his tongue to flick her nipple and sucking like a baby thirsty for milk.

 Jaehyun pulled away and pressed your breasts together again, making sure to push your nipples closer until your areolas were touching each other. He started to lick at both nipples at the same time, flattening his tongue and moving his head side to side. Looking up, he saw your were trying hard to contain you pleasure.

 The next thing you knew was it was morning, topless and being spooned by Jaehyun who was only in his sweatpants. You could feel his erection against your ass and the way his hand was holding onto one of your tits. You were still very wet from last night and your nipples felt sore but it was nothing bad, in fact, it felt great as you knew your nipples would be more sensitive than last night.

 You got up after you had seen it was 6AM and took a bath, rubbing your clit to orgasm in the shower in the process before deciding to make breakfast. You had fallen asleep last night while Jaehyun was having the time of his life with your tits because you were lacking sleep because of your work so breakfast was a great way to say sorry and a great start to his birthday. You wore a tank top with snaps at the front so you could take them off easily and your old shorts from uni.

 You cooked some rice and waited a bit before deciding to cook Jaehyun’s favorite breakfast and your famous tomato scrambled eggs and the soy sauce soft pork that your mom taught you before you moved out before you started uni years ago where you met Jaehyun. You started to check your social media while the pork was cooking since it would take a while before it cooked.

 “Good morning, sweetheart.” Jaeyun called out loudly to you, surprising you and making you drop your phone. It landed on the potholder on the counter and not on the marble, thankfully.

 “Hey, asshat. Morning to you, too!” You laughed as you turned off her phone and walked over to the stove where the pork was cooking. You turned away from the stove again only to find Jaehyun walking towards you. It was obvious he had just showered and again, and he was wearing nothing but one of his many red sweatpants. “Happy birthday, Jaehyun.”

 “Thank you, sweetheart,” Jaehyun smiled, hugging you from behind and kissing your temple before getting the coffee machine started. You loved drinking coffee but you couldn’t make it for shit. “I thought I told you that you had to stay topless the whole day?” Jaehyun smirked as he crossed his arms over his, clearly enjoying teasing you.

 You rolled her eyes and scoffed, turning to look at him. “Are you serious?” You gave the pork a few last stirs before deciding it was ready.

 “Yes, Ms. y/n. I’m always serious when it comes to you, you know?” Jaehyun watched as you turned off the stove and plated the pork. You then headed to the table and sat down in your designated seat. The table was already prepared and the coffee was the only thing missing. “Also, a promise is a promise. And it’s my birthday today!”

 Of course you couldn’t deny him. You liked it anyways. “Ok, fine. As long as you do the dishes.”

 Jaehyun smirked at your comment as he made two cups of coffee then brought it over to the table, settling in his seat in front of you. Your dining table was only fit for four people since it was only the two of you in the apartment and you barely had friends over. You always hung at Johnny, Taeyong and Yuta’s shared apartment which was much bigger. “I always do the dishes, woman!” He laughed.

 You smiled and took a sip of your coffee before opening the snaps of your shirt then pulling the material to the side, exposing your breasts to him. Jaehyun didn’t really think you’d so it so he ended up being surprised by your act. “Eat up, birthday boy.” You grin at him as he stared at you with a surprised expression.

 After the two of you had breakfast, Jaehyun had cleared the table and started washing the dishes while you worked on your cases with your laptop on your lap as you sat on the comfy couch you both bough together a while back. You were a junior researcher for a firm so you had to do reports besides the cases so you didn’t hesitate to do exactly that. And you were a little behind on it too.

 After Jaehyun had wiped the dishes dry and stacked them back to the shelf, he went to the living room, sitting beside you on the couch. He watched you typing away on your computer, focused on your job and not ignoring the fact you had left your tank top unclasped for him. He knew he had to make the best of this one day deal so he reached out his hands, grasping the fatty globes in his hands, shaking, squeezing and whatever he could do. You didn’t mind and continued on with your work, letting him do whatever he wanted.

 “Y/n, will you be mad if I took a picture of your boobs?” Jaehyun suddenly asked as he started tracing the flower details of your nipple bar with his finger.

 Unable to hear his words due to the music you were listening to, you took off your ear buds. “What did you say?”

 Jaehyun smiled, shaking his head. “I was saying that I’d like to take advantage of my one day so can you please put your computer away so I can do what I do?” He was joking but of course, he meant it.

 You nodded, chuckling. “Fine. This is the only time I’ll let you do this, though.” You saved your document and turned off your laptop before you set it on the coffee table in front of you.

 “Can I eat something off your boobs?” Jaehyun chuckled as he pushed you down on the sofa, fragging your body down so you were flat on the sofa. You laughed and shrugged as he hovered over you. “I can play with your nipples, right? Can I?” You nodded, covering your face with your forearms now that Jaehyun was already working on your breasts with his hands. “Can I bite?” He asked before he gently bit on your right nipple, keeping a tight hold on it as he pulled it up then letting go of it. You gasped loudly as he started sucking onto the nipple to ease the pain, making you arch your back. “Last night you fell asleep on me but I took advantage of it, you know.

 You nod at his words. You knew he was still sucking on your nipples when you were drifting between sleep and consciousness. “Not too hard, okay?” Because of last night, your nipples were crazy sensitive. You found yourself squeezing your thighs together even though he hasn’t done anything much. Honestly, just the thought of being topless around Jaehyun, knowing he was watching you made you wet already and now that he was lapping up up your nipples as if he was waiting for milk to come out, it made you even wetter.

 “Noted.” He mumbles against your nipple, kissing the marks he had left on your breasts the night before. “I can’t think of anymore I wanna do specifically but can I get your permission?”

 “You know what, you don’t have to ask. Do what you want to do. I’ll deal with you after your birthday.” You spoke with a tone of annoyance but you just wanted him to do anything he wanted with your tits at this point. No need to ask.

 “Yes, ma’am,” Jaehyun grinned. He was a kinky motherfucker and he knew it. However, he couldn’t exactly do everything he wanted, specifically fucking you but he would do anything he could with your perfect tits. “I’m so glad we did this because your boobs are probably my favorite in the whole world.”

 You ended up laughing and he watched in glee is as your tits shook when you laughed. It was also amazing how he could keep his cool despite the forming tent in his pants. “Well, my favorite is your face.” You spoke sincerely, behind the light laughter. It was your honesty but you knew how you hid it as a joke that made Jaehyun laugh.

 You took a sharp breath as his hot, wet tongue circled your areola before he took the soft tit into his mouth, sucking the fat until your nipple was at the back of his throat. He let your tit go with a loud, wet smack before doing the same to the other tit as he used his free hand to play with the abandoned tit

.

“God,” You breathed out, as you unfolded your arms from over your face and looked down at Jaehyun who was now holding both of your tits in his hands. Your breasts were both very wet with his spit, as he sucked on both nipples by alternating on both tits.

 Jaehyun looked up at you as soon as you spoke, eyes mischievous and his wet mouth in a teasing smirk. Your eyes were hooded and your mouth agape and he could see you were licking your lips every so often. He leans forward and kisses you until you’re out of breath, hands never leaving your amazing tits.

 “Sit down.” He whispers as he pulls you up, kissing your neck, to your shoulder and back to your sweet mouth as he held you by the nape, not letting you go. He locked you in his arms so you couldn’t pull away from his engulfing, passionate kisses.

 You held onto him tight as you kissed deeply than ever, teeth clashing, nose bumping and tongue probing. You cupped his face and eventually wrapping your arms around his neck. Somehow along the way, Jaehyun had gotten your top off, leaving you bare except for your shorts.

 He pulls away, shoving you closer to the arm rest so you could comfortably lean. “Watch me.” He spoke, the rasp in his voice seemingly hypnotizing you. You lean back on your elbows and rest your head on the arm rest, giving you a view of his amazing body and his straining erection. He forced your legs open and got in between before leaning down, hands capturing your breasts and mouth sucking fervently on your nipples.

 You hissed, leaning your head back as your eyes closed in delicious pain when Jaehyun bit on your right nipple, the most sensitive one. “Fuck, Jaehyun.”

 Jaehyun watched your swollen mouth part before your hooded eyes met his as he continued his assault on your nipples. “Watch me.” You yelp and gasp when he gave your right tit a hard slap, making you close your eyes at the impact. “Keep your eyes open!” He growled as he slapped your right tit again, while he sucked heavily on your left tit.

 Bottom lip caught in your teeth, you struggled to keep your eyes open as Jaehyun gave you full blows of pleasure time after time. You were so wet that you could feel the back of shorts wet with your pussy juice. In reality it had only been a few minutes but it felt like he had been doing it forever.

 “Can I tell you something?” Jaehyun speaks, planting pecks on your chest, hands never stopping at groping and squeezing. “Fucking hell, your tits are perfect.”

 You swallowed and nodded, “I know,” your voice was low and your throat was dry. It wasn’t even a coherent reply to his words.

 Jaehyun pulled back, sitting up, grinding his erection against your crotch in the process. “Wait,” With your hooded eyes, you watched as Jaehyun leaned to the side to grab his phone, turning on the camera to video mode and setting it against the vase on the coffee table to capture the two of you in the frame with a good angle. He turned back at you with a wicked smirk. “Let me keep this as a memory.”

 You frowned, a bit uncomfortable but once Jaehyun was back on licking and sucking, you were also back in your amazing world of pleasure. He continued his ministrations, making you feel so good that you eventually forgot about the camera filming you.

 Jaehyun started grinding his erection against you, specifically rubbing his tip against your sensitive clit, making you gasp and push against him. You were feeling too damn sensitive that this was the death of you. You hadn’t fucked in so long that you were considering really having sex with Jaehyun at this point. Jaehyun knew your kinks and what ticked you off and the fact that you loved having your nipples sucked and that it was your weakness and what more if you’re being stimulated or fucked through it, orgasm isn’t long out of reach.

 “Oh, god, baby,” You moaned, arching your back to push your tits closer to Jaehyun’s mouth. You licked your dried lips as you breathed hard. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.”

 Seeing that your tits were already raw, and sore he decided to halt. He had slapped your tits a little too much that the skin was a bit red, and the severe hickeys marring your skin. Your nipples were a bit red and bite marks circled the skin around your nipples. It was such a beautiful sight that Jaehyun had to get his phone to get a good view of his art on her. He grinded on you as he filmed you, the front of his sweatpants wet with his pre cum and your juices.

 “I didn’t think you’d get this wet,” Jaehyun chuckles as he holds on to your hips with his free hand, grinding harder but keeping the same pace.

 “I wanna cum,” you moan, “but we can’t fuck.” It was more of a warning and Jaehyun knew to respect you.

 “Cute.” He grins, putting away his phone and grinding onto you with his hands gipping on both sides of your hips, keeping you in place. “I’ll let you cum tonight myself, ok? But not right now.” He smiles as he leans down and kisses you on the mouth in which you hungrily reciprocate, wrapping your legs around his waist and grinding your hips up to his.

 Jaehyun pulls away, mouth wet with spit from your hungry kiss. Your eyes were still hooded, mouth agape as you gasped for air and your beautiful chest heaving up and down. For the last time, he gave each nipples a suck and a kiss as he unwrapped your legs around him the stood up, pulling you up with him.

 “I fucking hate you, Jaehyun.” You groaned as you hung onto Jaaehyun’s neck who as he carried you into your bedroom.

 “I know, baby.” He laughs as he set you down on your bed, “now, show me what I can use to help you cum later.” You had instructed him to go into your closet and grab your pink box that had a passcode on it. He took it back and you told him the passcode which was the day the two of you moved in together.

 The box opened, revealing a surprising collection of sex toys that surprised Jaehyun. You had said you liked exploring and you had dated a lot more women than men but he didn’t expect you to have these toys as possessions. The products looked high quality and he guesses she must have spent and invested in these a lot.

 Upon opening the box, the first thing that caught Jaehyun’s attention was 3 dildos that varied in size, the biggest and most realistic one reminded him of his own cock which made him smirk. The other two was a few inches smaller and were those unrealistic typical dildos. You also had a collection of butt plugs that varied in size and material but the biggest and the prettiest one was the metal one with the ruby red jewel at the end. Jaehyun could just imagine you, stuffed and pretty wearing the princess plug.

 Jaehyun looked deeper and found a few benwa balls, external and internal vibrators and a big Hitachi magic wand that he’d only ever seen in the Japanese porn he loved watching. “Wow. I never imagined you’d have these.” He smirked as he looked at you, now a bit calmed but still looking very much hot and bothered.

 You had your forearms over your eyes once again because it felt like Jaehyun was peeking at the deeper side of you, specifically the kinkier side of you and not just what you’d told him. “Shut up,” you whine quietly.

 Eager to search this box from top to bottom, Jaehyun lifts the corner and is surprised to see that the top part of the box is removable and under the first layer is where the other toys were hidden.

 In the bottom compartment were silk ropes that Jaehyun could see using in the near future, bottles of lube, nipple clamps, handcuffs, eye covers and other more he’s usually seen in porn. He already has a few ideas he wants to try out but of course, he knows you didn’t want him to have sex with you, it was a bit of a letdown.

 “Since you say we can’t fuck, would you let me use that dildo on you?” Jaehyun asks, a big smirk on his face as he takes the dildo from the box and gauges the size and girth with his own hand, lightly jerking it off and sucking on the tip.

 You looked at Jaehyun and swallowed as you watched him suck on the dildo, making your pussy throb. It was amazing how soft and cute he was usually but he turns into this dominant in these times. How lucky were the people that got to experience it full circle.

 He then walks over to you, getting on the bed until he was kneeling once again in between your legs. “What do you say? I can make you feel good.” He traced your nipples with his fingertips, “and I bet you’d like me to suck your nipples while you’re getting fucked with this dildo.” The look in his eyes was dangerous that you wanted to say yes instead of the safe no but it was like you was being hypnotized so she nodded in affirmation, making Jaehyun chuckle darkly.

 You lick your lips and nod. “Fuck me with that dildo first and you’ll find out.” You lift your hips up and pull off your underwear, throwing it wherever in the room. Jaehyun was completely in awe as you spread your legs for him, showing him your bare and sopping pussy.

 Jaehyun hisses, letting go of the dildo and diving face first to your crotch but not quite touching. He groans as he takes a deep breath, taking in the smell of your arousal and you found it dirty but sex at the same time that you pussy throbs. “God, you smell so fucking delicious. I can’t wait to know if you taste as good as you smell.” He wraps his left arm around your leg and pulls you closer to him as he breaths you in.

 “Fuck me now, come on.” You whine as you squeeze your tits, rolling your nipples with your own fingers. You try to grind your hips but his strong hold on you leaves you immobile so you groan in annoyance. “If you don’t fuck me with that dildo, I’ll never let you do this to me again.”

 Jaehyun chuckles as he sits up, grabbing the dildo by his side, eyes still at your pussy. “Your pussy is fucking amazing.” He smiles, as he drags the head of the large cock against your wet slit but rubbing harder against your clit, making you arch your back at the contact. “I bet your pussy’s gonna swallow up all of this big cock, huh? You’re just begging up to be filled with cock. I can tell.” He smiles, trailing kisses down your belly then eventually going face to face with your pussy.

 He lined the head of the dildo against your wet slit, pressing the thick head, watching as your hole stretched to make way for the head to enter you. You moan, feeling the burn of the stretch. You’ve been so busy that you barely even had time to relieve yourself so it had definitely been a while since something had penetrated you.

 You were waiting for the burn to last, as you expected him to push the dildo further inside you but you feel the dildo pulled out of you, and instead, he had dipped two of his fingers inside you, slowly fucking into you, curling his fingers and immediately rubbing your spot. “Fuck, Jaehyun!”

 “You’re taking in my fingers so fucking well, y/n.” Jaehyun spoke against your skin, licking and kissing on every expanse of skin that he could reach from his position as he starts scissoring his fingers inside of you. “You’re so fucking wet.” He fucked his fingers deeper into you, faster and faster until you were arching your back.

 Jaehyun pulls out of you, making you whine as you could feel your orgasm nuilding up before he pulled out.  “Sorry, babe. Be patient.” He grabs the dildo from his side, moving up and laying down beside you then lines up the dildo against your wet and now stretched hole. He pushes the dildo deep inside you with one fast motion that has you arching your back at the motion. He doesn’t wait for you to get used to size and immediately pumps the dildo his hand gripping on the base.

 “Jaehyun! Fuck!” You moan as you grasp on the hand pumping the dildo inside of you, the feelings getting too much for you. He leans down to kiss at your breasts, licking anywhere he could reach, hypnotized with how you took the big dildo inside your pussy. He sticks out his tongue against your sensitive nipple, letting it rub against his tongue as your tits shake from the force of him fucking you hard with the dildo.

 The pace he fucks you in is fast, hard and almost brutal that it just hits you so deep that you couldn’t help rolling your eyes back every time the tip hit that spot deep inside you. Jaehyun is strong and definitely really used to doing things with his hands as his pace and aim never faltered, even when he was moving, reaching over to suck at your other nipple. Every push of the dildo inside you was fast and hard that you could feel the familiar heat of your body and that feeling of lightheadedness that had you gripping at whatever you could.

 You put your arm around his head and pulled him closer as he started to suck on your nipples, biting and licking. “I’m cumming!” Jaehyun had started rubbing your clit with his thumb, rubbing and circling it. Your stomach tightens and you feel the overwhelming pleasure starting to wash over you. “Fuck!” You scream as your orgasm comes full circle that has you writhing and your hips jerking.

 Jaehyun fucks you through your orgasm, trapping your nipple in his mouth so it doesn’t slip out of his mouth as your body shakes and trashes. “Your pussy is so fucking tight and I can’t imagine what it feels like to fuck you with my cock.” He whispers against you neck, eventually slowing the pace of his dildo and eventually pulls it out of you, letting you calm down form your high. He takes this chance to kiss you, deep. He pulls you to your side, making you face him. He watches you smile, still in the aftereffects of your orgasm. It was definitely a while since you came and definitely a while since you got a good one too.

 “Fuck me with your real cock now?” You smirk at him, palming his hard cock straining to escape the confines of his sweatpants that had a big wet spot already.

 “Best birthday ever.” He grins.

[escapekissed]

ffxv mainverse write-up:

it is my solemn duty to fix all ff games except ffx which is perfect in every way. so this is my new ffx verse which i will write all my threads with gladio and ardyn in, excepting aus and the like, and if people want to write more ‘canon’ things.

this au takes inspiration from @darkkept ‘s stray who becomes basically a secondary protagonist and @serapime ‘s ravus, who does not feature heavily in this au as she is in canon bc she’s hard to fit in any kind of ffxv canon bc she’s so much better than canon but IS STILL THERE IN THEORY, BITCH! the ravus in this is at least a sexy trans girl oracle lol whatever

okay so. its based off of the universe of kingsglaive but with the lore changed.

basically instead of a road trip simulator, prince noctis has been allowed to have a normal life bc. that's what you do in the city if ur a young handsome prince. you have a normal life. 

he was spoiled! he got everything he wanted! 

meanwhile, his older sister had to go to the meetings and be a real noble lady. same with gladio, whose father was just a stickler for this kind of thing.

she had marriage proposals by the time she was 6, and that was just to send her off to some foreign country to have babies. 

 but basically the crux of this is. 

instead of a simple roadtrip simulator. it's a royal convoy through the vast and dangerous wilderness simulator. the kingsglaive is part of it, including nyx and crowe and the fat guy whose name i forget, and this gives gladio such a fucking complex bc he wants to be the best but the kingsglaive OWN on him. ignis is there. prompto is there. any ocs or any other characters from other fandoms we want to add are there (or with the second team which i will  go into). 

they have to treat it like its nothing special, but its a dangerous mission just to go into the wilds at all, and only gladio and cor and the kingsglaive have any experience with the outside world. 

 lunafreya is imprisoned by the empire. ardyn is also technically imprisoned by the empire, as their secret weapon. lunafreya too is given her own title and considered the enemy----up until the point that she escapes, sending one word to her bethrothed thru the goddess gentiana before she leaves. 'claim your birthright.' and then, another word. to the princess. 

'find me before he finds you.' the royal convoy has already left the city. but the princess and king are then escorted secretly outside the castle by BAD DAD DRAUTOS, who attempts to kill the king but who is stopped by cindy, who is more of an action girl in this, ravus, who is a trans girl in this and who is looking for lunafreya along with stella, and the princess herself, stray, wields the chosen ring herself to defeat drautos, and the kings fall privy to her charms and her heritage in order to defeat drautos---just in time for ardyn to see.

from there, lunafreya awakens gods and leaves clues for both siblings to find her where she is with the relics or the gods respectively, healing all she can though she is really just making the problem worse. noctis and his team find all the artifacts. stray and her team take on the power of all the worlds gods

[duhragonball]

Dragon Ball Z 287

Hey, remember Kid Buu?  Well he’s dead!   And there was much rejoicing.  Not sure Namek is a great place to have a celebration.   They probably just drink water and smile a lot.

King Yemma celebrates by turning over his desk.  That’s like the third TV set he’s had since this whole thing started.  

Meanwhile, back on Earth, Piccolo and.... wait, you guys were on the Lookout in the last episode.   There was a whole scene where Piccolo told the boys to meet him there, and then Videl had this cute reunion with Gohan.   Now they’re back here?  I’m starting to think this cartoon about magic dragons and super karate may not be entirely consistent.

On the Supreme Kai Planet, Goku’s worn out.  He’s had a rough few days.  

Mr. Satan informs the people of Earth that Buu is definitely dead, and the crowd goes wild.

Videl’s a little embrassed by the way everyone gives him the credit for this, but at least she knows he’s okay.

Bulma shouts “Vegeta, I love you!” when she hears the news.   Awwwwwww.

So the Kais and Dende teleport back to the Supreme Kai Planet to clean up.  While the Kais take stock of the damage to their planet, Dende heals Goku and Vegeta.   Goku asks him to help Vegeta first, since he took a worse beating.   It’s always weird for me to see Dende healing Vegeta in this scene, because of how reluctant he was to do it back in the Frieza Saga.

Then Bee runs off and leads Mr. Satan to Majin Buu.   The fat one, I mean.    Turns out he’s hurt, but he’s still alive.

Satan pleads for Dende to heal him, but Vegeta threatens to destroy him instead, and demands that Satan move out of the way.   Satan tries to defend Buu, explaining that this one’s not such a bad guy, and that he’ll see to it that no one pisses him off enough to cause him to spawn another Kid Buu or whatever happened last time. Geets ain’t buying it, though, but Satan won’t stand aside, and Vegeta doesn’t seem to want to shoot them both.

Finally, Goku weighs in and reminds Vegeta of how these two helped them in the previous few episodes.  He figures that’s worth sparing Fat Buu, and if he ever does cause trouble in the future, well, that’s good incentive for them to train.

Kibitoshin isn’t sold on this idea, since everyone on Earth is terrified of Majin Buu.  In particular this fat version, which was the only one most people ever saw.  Goku suggests that Buu just stay indoors for a few months until the Dragon Balls are active again.    Then, he’ll just ask Shenron to erase everyone’s memories of Majin Buu, and that’ll fix everything!  The Elder Kai disapproves of using the Dragon Balls again, and Vegeta washes his hands of the whole mess, but neither of them objects enough to stop it.

So they all go back to Earth.  Kibitoshin drops them all off on the Lookout...

...And everyone gets welcomed home by their families.   Oh, and Videl has a dog now.

Also, a roomate.

I love how Vegeta is just exhausted with this whole thing.    “Yeah, we let him live, because we’re idiots.”

I also like how Trunks is ready to throw down.  

But Goku explains the whole thing to them, and I guess it’s cool.

Then Goku explains how the Elder Kai gave him a new life, so he’s going to live with his family again.   Awwwww...

Later, Goku makes the wish to have everyone forget Majin Buu.    Earlier, it was established that this wish would have to wait until four months had passed, but in this episode it’s six.   I have no idea why.  

I’m also not sure how Goku phrased the wish.   I assume he wanted the main cast to remember Buu, but I don’t know how you summarize that.  Maybe he just wrote down everyone’s names that he thought would want to remember.   On the other hand, it’s not like Chi-Chi desperately wants to remember that it was Buu who turned her into an egg.  If he left her off the list, who would know or care?

So the rest of this episode takes place after that wish is made.   Buu’s just strolling through West City, having a good ol’ time, and then he sees a kid eating an ice cream cone.  She won’t share, but she does point out where he can get his own damn cone.

Buu goes in an orders a scoop of everything.  Maybe I’m a square, but I like the cones.   I wouldn’t say they’re the best part, but I don’t really see the point in getting just one cone for like twenty scoops.   Just get twenty cones.    

Trouble is, Buu’s got no money.  At first he gets pissed, but then he remembers how Mr. Satan told him not to lose his temper.    Was that all he had to do? 

So Buu wanders around trying to find a solution to this problem, until he comes across a street fighter challenging bystanders to fight him for a big cash prize.  It’s basically the same gag as when Goku did it in Episode 43 of Dragon Ball.    Buu is reluctant at first, because Satan told him not to fight, but the guy tells him it’s just a game, and someone else pays his admission, and Buu wins with one hit.  

So Buu goes back to the ice cream parlor and boom, he’s got like twenty cones.   See, he took my advice.

Something I’ve noticed about these last few episodes since they revived the population.    It seems like they’re drawing a lot more sexy ladies in these crowds.  The bar’s kind of low for “sexy ladies” in a Dragon Ball cartoon, but this lady on the right is posing pretty sedctively while she drinks her lemon ice.  Also, they keep using her on this same shot of the parlor.   So she was drink that thing the first time Buu went in, and she’s still drinking it after he left, came back, and left again.  

Anyway, Buu just chillaxes in the park eating ice cream.    My man takes him time on that last one too.  

Also, he shared one with these pigeons.   Or doves.   Whatever.  I know he dropped that one for them to eat because Buu wouldn’t think twice about licking it up off the ground. 

Then Bulma shows up.  I don’t know why she’s buying groceries all by herself, but okay.

I dig this scene a lot, because you’d never expect these two to spend any time together, but here they are.   Apparently Vegeta was supposed to go with her, but he ditched her to train, and then Buu wandered off by himself too. 

Then she goes jewelry shopping, and Buu thinks the jewelry doesn’t look very tasty.  

Then two guys try to hold up the place, and it’s the same guys Buu beat for all their money.   I guess they got desperate pretty fast.

When they realize Buu’s in the store, they panic and shoot him.

But he flicks the bullet back at them, and they decide to surrender. 

Outside, Gohan and Videl show up as Great Saiyaman 1 and 2, but the crooks turn themselves in before they can finish their posing.   So I’m not sure if Toei was planning this bit all along, and that’s why they worked it into Movie 13, or if they came up with it as something for Videl to do in Movie 13, and decided to carry it over into this episode.  Either way, I think these are the only two appearances of Videl as Great Saiyaman Mark 2, or Great Saiyawoman, oe what have you.   I want to say she used the costume again in Dragon Ball GT, but I’m pretty sure the whole point of that was that she dug it out of her closet years after retiring the character.

I gotta say, I wasn’t looking forward to this episode, but now that I’ve watched it again, it’s really great.   

Back at Goku’s house, he’s horsing around with the boys in their tub...

Then they fuse to turn the tables on him....

And he turns Super Saiyan to even the playing field.  Only it blows up the tub. 

Gohan’s like, “No, it’s okay, Videl.   Take a good long look at my dad’s ass.    You’ll be seeing it a lot from here on, so you might as well get used to it.”

I guess everybody came over to have dinner with the Son family, so Chi-Chi’s kind of pissed that Gotenks and Goku are running around nude.

Also, Vegeta’s here.

[darthsuki]

So, I managed to get my butt kicked off the servers just as I unlocked what I believe is the second-to-last duty of Shadowbringers. Now that I’m left to fervently deny the option of sleep, I instead shall take the time to ramble on about all of the characters (new and old) this new expansion has made me love, interested in, and/or just very deeply want to write about

and I’ll likely add to it as I finish sidequests...and when it isn’t almost 4 a.m.

As to be expected, this list is riddled with spoilers for the entirety of Shadowbringers, so read on at your own peril!

it’s also riddled with thirst because of course, this is me we’re talking about

Kee-Satt - A wholesome Miqo’te boy found in Amh Araeng who cares a damn lot about his community. You meet him in one of the Aethercurrent quests, but I was curious enough to keep going for a bit afterwards and I’m happy I did! He just wants to get the materials to make a really useful metal, but he’s dealing with some intense discrimination since he’s the only Miqo’te among Hrothgar in the town (the others left for Eulmore at some point). He apparently has the cold shoulder for literally everyone but the WoL/D and confides his hopes and dreams to make his town better and safer with this ore he’s trying to find and I just love him.

Kai-Shirr - You meet him early-on in the MSQ while in Eulmore and I just...he’s got a cute face, a cute voice, and damn if I almost fucking lost my shit when I thought he was going to die. He was so desperate to be with his friends and I am forever sad that he at some point had to accept the fact that those friends were dead and like, I worry for him. Does he have any family? Anyone?? Please Kai-Shirr for the love of god tell me you’re doing alright let me help you.

Moren - The historian? Librarian? of the Crystarium that you meet early in the MSQ. He is a total dork and I have a total softspot for cuties like him. 10/10 would protect at all times, 10/10 would have him recite all sorts of stories from the First just so I could hear his soft voice more. Perhaps hear his voice in more ways than one.

Quinfort / Valan - Two adorable dorks that are part of an Aethercurrent quest in the Rat’Tika Greatwoods, though there is certainly more content of them afterwards in the sidequest chain. Definitely seem like close friends, Valan is the pragmatic to Quinfort’s exuberance and tbh I’d date both of them.

Chai-Nuzz / Dulia-Chai - A married Miqo’te couple who you meet early on in the MSQ. For a while I thought I was going to loathe them since at first I thought they were going to be written super shallowly, as one might expect from how Eulmore residents were at first glance. They get a bit of growth during the MSQ and, honestly, I love them both--they have the most adorable relationship that’s pretty damn supportive of one another and!! Dulia-Chai is a fat female character that isn’t!! Played off!! Like a joke!! She’s sweet and funny and super encouraging to her husband Chai-Nuzz. 10/10 would date them and I’m not afraid to say it. Let me date these two Square Enix, I swear to god.

Lue-Reeq - He is one of the four or five role quest NPCs in Shadowbringers, specifically for ranged DPS characters. I really enjoyed learning about him, honestly--he’s the child of a rich couple of Eulmore and by god does it show. He’s a bit spoiled at the beginning of the quest and a fair bit naive, but he was never really rude--a young man who had some self-confidence issues that he hid by tossing money around to try and buy friendship from people. It certainly didn’t help that I was playing as Khalja at that point in the game (who is my only top OC to date) and I wanted so bad to just fuck this soft Miqo’te man right out in the middle of the fucking forest after I finished the last battle of the questline.

Ardbert - This man has been through so much shit. He deserves a hug and, if it were me, more than a hug, but spectral kinky times aside I adored that I got to see so much more of his history and connections with the people of the First. The friendship that he shares with the WoL/D by the end of the MSQ is super heartwarming. I honestly think I’d have his whole team on this list if I had the time to go through the multiple role questlines that give you more insight to each of them

Solus [Emet-Selch] - Hello yes I’m too busy crying in the corner for commentary. Jk, but for real the amount of lore we got for the Ascians and their world and the new perspective of all the game’s evens we gained from that was...humbling, to say the least. It’s like, I still gotta kick your ass, but I sympathize with the heavy weight of pain and loss that you’ve been carrying with you for literal eons. A good example of a sympathetic villain. 10/10 would entertain a whole AU where somehow Emet-Selch is convinced to not do the thing, and/or maybe even indulge in a lil cliche concept of him falling in love with someone in the Source, like, for realsies, and eventually coming to terms with the fact that he will never get back the world and people he’s lost so long ago--might as well protect the people in the here and now.

Crystal Exarch [G’raha Tia] - I contemplated just putting a string of ‘aaa’ in here, but I figured it wouldn’t exactly communicate the sweet vindication I felt when I saw that hood get blown off to reveal his face in that absolutely beautiful cutscene. It was fucking cinematic, I fucking almost bawled. There is so much depth and literal years of stuff to wade through because, well, G’raha Tia is fucking alive and he’s over 100 years old and he’s been waiting all of those years for you. I watched those cutscenes, I read that dialogue, he’s so fucking in love with you and holy fuck do I absolutely reciprocate those feelings. 

Innocence - I want you to take everything you know and trust about the universe and just toss it straight out of the window, because that’s what happened exactly at the second phase of the Crown of the Immaculate trial. My love for this character, whom I am considering as entirely separate from Vauthry for the sake of my own sanity, is largely based on aesthetics because....he is.....Big Sexy..... Look, I’m content with having an AU to have my attraction and writing make sense with him.

Thancred - More like Dadcred amiright? But for real, no, Thancred had a lot of emotional healing and growing through this expansion and I fucking loved it. His acceptance of Minfilia’s passing in the end, his naming of Ryne, how the two of them bonded as parent and child...it just brings a tear to my eyes. Also he is fucking hot as a gunbreaker.

Urianger - I’m not sure if it’s because Urianger really had an opportunity to shine with the Pixie quests/Il Mheg area, or if it’s because he totally rocks his new astrologian class, but he is just 10/10 in this expansion. Maybe it’s because he stopped wearing the goddamn eAR COZIES

Zenos - He has become Ultimate Yandere(tm) now. And, gods above, if that’s not one of my most guilty-pleasure Things(tm) to work with in fiction. He was in the game for maybe 10 on-screen minutes at MOST and yet he spawned so many damned ideas I can use.

[platoapproved]

okay you know what, you know what, the day has come, i woke up about 10 seconds ago and i guess i dreamt about a past life where i worked in a sodium factory because i am feeling salty and it’s time for me to talk about all the stuff i hated about wonder woman. if you’re not feeling that, please don’t click below

i get how badly people want canon bi representation but this movie was so not it. this movie wasn’t CLOSE to it.  diana was not shown having any sort of relationship with any kind of emotional depth much less equality with any other woman on themyscira. they all saw her as like, a beloved little niece, basically.  she barely interacted with anyone apart from her mother and aunt, for more than a line or two.

diana had no woman friends the whole movie

i’ve definitely seen (and not read, you better believe i scrolled on by with a scoff) people talking about the diversity of amazons on themyscira but like. giving diana a black nanny who goes running after her to show us what a mischievous scamp she is as a kid? that’s not progressive. having one of the only other black women be an unnamed warrior she fights against, whose only traits are that she’s the Silent Strong Unfeminine Bruiser Tank Lady? and we know that diana has become a true warrior when she can best The Butch One? super... just super DUPER not progressive.

having etta candy be this frumpy, fussy, ineffective suffragette whose only real function is to be exasperated by steve but also love him as a boss? and by extension make non-themysciran women look like silly side characters in the history of the world? ugh.

i saw a different post talking about how badass it was that etta noticed the spies first or something blah blah like. honestly. stop trying so hard. please stop trying to turn a sow’s ear into a silk purse y’all. she was supposed to be the Funny Loyal Fat Side Character who gets a few chuckles out of the audience but has no depth whatsoever.

the entire film erases the efforts of women before and after wwi, both around combat, in government, socially, everything. like every time i think about the fact that diana doesn’t speak to another woman for 95% of the last half of the movie, and these board room dudes act like they’ve never heard of a woman ever DOING anything in their lives, i get hives and want to reread the section of the well of loneliness about women ambulance drivers in wwi. and also to have a shower.

women have ALWAYS been instrumental in their own liberation.

stop making jokes about victorian/edwardian dress being restrictive as if it’s the height of feminism. the history of women and their clothing and how it was liberating and repressive is so much more complex than a stupid joke about her tearing a dress.

like, as if there weren’t plenty of women by wwi who were dressing in “men’s” clothing, and changing the fashions as they saw fit

literally everything about dr. poison like, it’s such an UGLY portrait of so many things

making a women scientist seem Evil and unnatural

associating her disability with her desire to hurt people

making it seem like disabled women hate non-disabled women for being Pretty and Desirable, don’t act like that scene with Steve was meant to be anything other than “see, she’s really just pathetic and jealous because no man has ever wanted to kiss her, look at her”

she was nothing more than a pawn in the end. someone who was easy to manipulate because she was An Ugly Woman

stop saying the movie subverted the born sexy yesterday trope. stop it. every single one of you knows it was 100% that, and nothing but that.  diana talking with naive confidence about how she has read ye olde themysciran porn doesn’t undo that. in fact it only contributes to it because it’s setting her up as someone who knows about sex in ~theory but not ~practice

them giving the Racist Stereotype Side Characters one token line each that humanizes them does not make them fully fleshed out characters. stop talking about Drunk Loud Scottish dude as great representation of PTSD. stop applauding the line about wanting to be an actor but being the wrong color in a movie that is so. so. so white.

one line vaguely referencing white people’s horrific genocide against native americans, one that never comes back and has no repercussions on the story, is just not good enough. also, not gonna mention slavery or anything? not even a bit? ok.

also stop saying the movie subverted the male gaze, you guys saw diana’s outfit. i saw so much of gal gadot’s thighs. and i’m gay, my dudes, i was into it. i loved it. but it’s not like this movie didn’t objectify women. you know that it did. stop trying to make it not what it is.

also, stop saying the scene with steve was only ~the female gaze. i have less ground to stand on for this one because not an atom of my body has ever or will ever find anything about chris pine desirable but that scene was played in a way that would be appealing to certain men

ohhhh it’s a naive beautiful woman gazing at his penis and she’s ~never seen one before, and he just lets her look, like you know there are creep-ass dudes who were into that, and it was ultimately just one scene and he was fully modestly clothed the whole rest of the movie.

looovvveee is the only remedy against waaaaaarrrrrr someone fucking kill me.

i mean i’m a sap but “the answer was love all along” isn’t really a conclusion that flies for me in a movie dealing with a nonfictional war that happened for complicated economic political and social reasons involving nationalism and capitalist greed and all kind of shit, lots of actual people actually died, its’ not like OH NO WHY DIDN’T ONE OF THEM REMEMBER TO LOVE????

david thewlisface ares? stupid.  like using him in that flashback? not a good call.

those glasses steve got diana were so fucking LAUGHABLY not time period accurate like he just got those from warby parker a week ago it’s supposed to be 1918 or whenever the fuck at least try a goddamn little bit

diana’s costume should have been more colorful and the texture of her armor was weird and looked bad

i don’t know a whole lot about wonder woman but it’s 10000% rather go back and rewatch that two-parter from justice league where diana becomes Gal Pals with that princess who is about to marry vandal savage and has to rescue her, that was better in almost every conceivable way than this film

“maid of honor” season 2 look it up just sayin it’s on netflix

i’m really glad a lot of you found a lot of things to love and be happy about in this movie but honestly it’s exhausting seeing people on tumblr contorting themselves to talk about how it’s A Revolution, Never has there been Anything Like This About a Woman when yes, there has, and done better

love the movie if you want! i enjoyed it a lot! i saw it twice

but stop acting like part of the process of loving it is to say that it is diverse, or progressive, or any of this shit that it’s so. not. 

this article is great go read it. i don’t agree with ALL the points necessarily but damn. good and brutal.

please, like i’m begging you please. just go watch xena. shhhh. shhhh i know. the foley is cheesy the production values are really low on the first few seasons and yes it’s not like xena never fucks up on race stuff because hoooo boy. but like. xena is 7 seasons of a woman warrior kicking ass in a vaguely ancient greco-roman world, and it has 10000% more interaction BETWEEN women, and women who are campy villains not just because of disabilities, and there’s so much homoeroticism and heart and badass flipping and it’s just. it’s so good.

it will heal your heart. it will make you realize you deserve much much much much more than the crumbs that wonder woman gave you. go watch xena instead.

[ficmuse]

Title: Sweet Tooth

It was a fun Friday night out with the family. Fun being a relative term. The Coopers were at Pop’s after going to the drive-in.

“We’re never going there again,” said Alice. “That place is attracting a bad element.”

Hal scoffed. “Please. I swear you’re getting more uptight every year, Allie.”

“The girls don’t need to be exposed to that sort of people,” said Alice. “It’s a bad influence on their character.”

“So you’ll think the girls are going to become delinquents because they see a few Serpents at the drive in? Get a grip,” said Hal.

The waitress came over. “What can I get you all?”

“My husband and I will share a small banana split and each one of our girls will have a single scoop of vanilla ice cream,” said Alice,

The waitress nodded. “Coming right up.”

“Wait,” said Betty. “I don’t want vanilla ice cream. I want a hot fudge sundae.”

“Well, that’s not what I’ve ordered for you,” said Alice.

“Well, you didn’t ask me,” said Betty. “I want a hot fudge sundae.”

Polly put her hand on Betty’s arm. “Don’t ruin the whole night, Betts.”

“Ordering a hot fudge sundae shouldn’t ruin the night. I’m fifteen! I should be able to order what I want,” argued Betty,

“Your sweet tooth is going to get you in trouble,” said Alice. “And your smart mouth, too.”

“Just chill out, Alice. You’re making a scene over nothing.” Hal turned to the waitress. “Bring my daughter her sundae, please.”

The waitress nodded and walked away.

“When you’re crying alone on Friday night because you can’t get a date you’ll wish you had listened to me,” Alice hissed.

“I’m going to find a boyfriend who likes me for who I am, not what I eat or how fat I am,” said Betty.

“Believe me, there is nothing more important than a woman’s appearance.” Alice pointed to Polly. “That Blossom boy broke it off with your sister and I swear she’s gone up two dress sizes since then. I found the candy wrappers in your room, Polly. Eating candy is not going to heal a broken heart.”

“Good riddance to bad rubbish,” said Hal. “Pol, if it means you won’t be dating idiots like Jason Blossom, you can eat all the candy you want.”

“If she doesn’t stop indulging her sweet tooth, she’s never going to get another boyfriend. Mark my words, the extra weight will be a problem,” said Alice.

“I’m really not worried about finding a new boyfriend,” said Polly.

The waitress brought their order to their table.

Betty took a big mouthful of hot fudge. “Yum.”

“A moment on the lips, forever on the hips,” Alice said primly.

“Don’t worry about it, Alice. It’s sexy when a woman has a little meat on her bones. In fact, maybe you should eat this whole banana split yourself.” Hal smirked. 

“Watch your mouth or you’ll be sleeping on the sofa, Hal.”

[blacwings-and-bucky-barnes]

A road trip for two - Part 1

Stucky FanFic Rating: M for language and maybe some smutty bits? I do not claim to own these characters.

They had been on the road for hours, Steve wanted to go on a road trip with his boyfriend and catch up on everything that the two had missed since their lapses in time. Steve being stuck in the ice and Bucky being under the tyrannical control of hydra.

It was coming up on Bucky's turn to take over driving and give Steve a nap, Steve's eyes wandered over to his brunette love whom was daydreaming out of his window completely oblivious to the world around him. A car horn blared, and Steve jerked the steering wheel to the right causing Bucky's forehead to smack right into the glass of the passenger side window.

"Shit, what the hell Stevie?!" Bucky whined while covering his palm over his face to sure he wasn't bleeding, "Dude?"

"Sorry. Sorry I was... uh... watching you." Steve giggled keeping his eyes on the road in front of him. "You looked so cute sitting there with the sun bouncing off your face"  

"So, you had to bounce my face off the glass, and crack my sunglasses... they were my favorite ones..." pouting as he examined the pieces of black and red plastic now in his lap.

"I'll buy you a new pair, I'm really sorry Buck." Giving his boyfriend his best puppy dog eyes without turning them completely on him.

"Watch it Rogers, I'm not gonna fall for that shit, I coulda lost my eye an' then you'd have a half blind assassin on yer team." Buck Sassed back at the Captain. 

"Babe, you have super healing; just like me. You wouldn't lose your eye, although you would make one sexy pirate." Steve winked and nudged Bucky in the arm with his elbow.

"Fuck you, ya dick" Bucky huffed while going back to observing the scenery outside of his window.

"Been there, done that..." Giggled Steve, clearly in need of sleep now. "Hey Buck, do you think you could take over for me? My eyes are getting blurry and I could really use a nap."

Stretching his arms and legs as far as the black 2016 Chevrolet Silverado pick-up truck that they had rented for the trip would allow. Allowing his joints to pop and relax from the hours of driving. Bucky flipped open the little vanity mirror on the visor to redo his hair tie and pull the wispy strands back into place.  

"Sure, can I grab a bite before we get back on the road? Jesus, I have to take a piss, shit where is the nearest pit stop?" Snagging his phone out of the center console to google the nearest place where he could relieve himself and get food.  

Bucky figured if he could find a place with both it would be like killing two birds with one stone. The thought stirred up a memory of back in his howling commando days, he managed to kill two Nazi's with one shot right through the skull. They never knew what hit them, the memory made him chuckle and catch Steve's attention.

"What are you giggling at over there? You aren't talking to Nat are you, I didn't mean to do it! It was an accident!" Steve's voice taking on a whine at the end of his exclamation.

Rolling his eyes Bucky huffed out a sign; "No Captain paranoid pants, I'm not texting Nat. I'm looking for food that isn't trashy greasy fast food and a bathroom. Unless you want me to fill a soda bottle a few times and dump it out the window?" He picked up his empty 1-liter bottle of Dr. Pepper and wiggled it in the air.

"God no, Buck. It’s a rental what if you miss or spill, I know you have great aim there Sarge but let's act like grown-ass men here. That's something I would have expected from DumDum Duggan not you. Jeeze." Steve sassed the aforementioned Sargent.  "Is that all that you are thinking about my aim? Come on sweetheart you gotta get ya mind out of the gutter." Shooting Steve, a lopsided grin Bucky leaned over the armrest making eyes at the blond trying to merge into the exit ramp. "Although letting Nat know about your spacy shenanigans that resulted in my brain trauma may come in handy for future use..." He trailed off amused with his last thought.

"Fuck..." Steve let out an exasperated sigh and shoved his boyfriend's face away from him.

"Language there Cap, ha ha you kiss me with that mouth. You wouldn’t want to make a bad impression on lil ol' me no would ya?" Bucky kissed Steve's palm before letting his hand go.

Steve Snorted through his nose, "Yeah right, fat chance there punk. I learned all my 4 letter words from you back in the 40's remember? You just don't like hearing me repeat them without you being balls deep in my ass."  

"Mmm I like it when you talk dirty to me, Stevie. It's not my fault that I like to keep you all to myself, that and your tight little ass is a picture of star spangled perfection." Trailing off Bucky plugged in the directions to the nearest Steak 'N Shake restaurant into his phone.  

"Sweet! Nothing like beef and cream." Licking his lips, "Do ya think I can get a shake that is like the ones we had from that place down the street from yer ma's job? They had amazing banana chocolate milkshakes." Bucky was really looking forward to the prospect of food now, but his bladder had to remind him that even though he was a super soldier, the human body probably wasn't supposed to hold an entire 1 liter of soda without exploding. "You need to put some speed on there buddy, unless you want a puddle all over the rental."

"We've got... 2.5 miles, you can hold it; Then you can pee and get all the 'Beef and Cream' you want Buck. They were great milkshakes the strawberry ones were the best, you always liked the weird flavors." Steve scrunched up his nose thinking about the flavor combinations Bucky has come up with. "You eat some strange things; who eats sardine and pineapple pizza from Pizza Hut?"

"Don't knock it till you try it. Mister, I like green smoothies with rabbit food and fruits in it. Damn I still don't see the benefits of Kale in a drink. Plus, pineapple is amazing on pizza, thank you 21st century." Bucky playfully saluted out the front window at the world.

"Alright Niagara Falls, we're here go pee before you make a mess and I have to rub your nose in it." Steve said mockingly as he pulled into a parking spot at the Steak N' Shake.  

"If you wanted to try water works then I think we need to lay down some towels and some rubber sheets there darling." Bucky leaned over and kissed Steve on the nose before grabbing his baseball cap and sprinting from the truck, completely ignoring the shade of pink working its way up to the tops of Steve's ears.

Grabbing his hat and sunglasses Steve started to make his way into the restaurant; "This is going to be a long trip..."

------ I’m not a seasoned writer so forgive me if it isn’t any good.

[the-reactionist]

MORE work for you, Teal

i wanna make the most use of you; by following your teachigns and gettig to know the laguage you use to express the truths of present;

pls, look into emanuil, and look into me more too: here is a list of all my tumblr blogs, some fo them are very personl; the most being the erctionist and my crazy self’s notes - the blog about my passion for emo [emanuil]

i want to tell you stories i know and have been through so that you help both em and teh people in them, as well as gain mor eknowledge about today’s humans;

you remind me very much of my neighbor who is a national champion of bularia in hockey; i had sex with him a few times and he ahs helped me immenesely in many different ways;

i have past of sexual abuse and beign in a sexual cult/sect here in  bulgaria; a mindfuck place which seemed as heave back then, ot like your death cult where you received torture - i received brainwashing and scapegoating; and i was sacrificed brutally ‘for the gerater good’ [fuckers!!]

my neighbour is your age - im 30now he is 34; he lost his mother to a car accident when he was 14 and he took care of his young brother, raised him, mad ehim a hockey player and himself into the bulgarian national team, ad even participated in olympic games with the bg hockey team; he is super athletic and sexy, but he can’t care for himself;

he has developed a great motehrhood and femininity about him but he is constantly beign tricked by people because he puts hsi trust onto them unhealthily;

i started havig sex with him because i want to help him; i want to care of him; to cuddle him; to mother him, so that he feels appreciated an dthen goes and attracts a woman to spend the rest of his life with;

in teh same way i wanna exert my passion oto your character, so taht you get all taht i ca offer, and use it for yourself; that said, i am mainly doing this for myself, because i am universal and we are connected and i want for enlightenment and greatness energies to aboud on the earth; selfishness, as i said already -_-

can you help me help my neighbour; i have sexual trauma issues and i cant be passionate enough, as he needs to see himself being sexually adored and made sex to; he is gorgeous - much like yourself; athletic , bautifully and carefully built body, but a lerner’s mid and heart, too; he is a coach and wants to become a fireman, too; so he is a good kid; i want him to believe fully in himself, as do fat babies - babies that are well nourished are usually fat; afterwards they slim down;

i want him, as well as you - in the absolutely sam eway, so feel loved i your body so s to heal your earthly trauma and be a better version of you; and there is no time to waste - let’s work on these things together; i want to hold space of grounded acceptance for you in exchange of you gettig to know my troubles and my mind - i have committed seppukku onto myself to undertsand lust and abuse of sexuality and abuse of te feminine sexual energy - i defiled myself using a marker, scarrig the insides of my vagina; my eighbour and his teammate re the first boys i have had sex with, and that was last year - i was 29;

before that i was sexually abused and attemptedly dominated by a sexs cult leader - i was 21 and he was 50 when we had intercourse; and he was the first person i have been with;

before taht i was very confident in my heart but because of the self-rape i performed, i became virtuoslly shy in appearance around men; yet this was no virtue at all becaus ei started exploring the world of pornography and pleasign myself while i was uanble to open up to boys, especially when they approached me; i like that about myself, though - because it was a demonstartion of the rush of emotions and hormones tyhat went throyugh me every time my dreams came exactly true - as usually happened - tehe men i liked approach me, and my tongue gets tied; but still i learn from that; even though i would have rathered to have had sex and interactions with them when they had approached me, to gain physical confidence in myslef; but that me would have been a perfect woman; in teh sense of being attuned of her sexuality - a woman who owns her sex; as is the boy i love - he owns his sexuality;

my relation to my mentally ill abusive motehr leadme to commit seppukku on myself and i have deep sexual trauma and mindfuck and that leads me to choices that diminish my greatness and i am easier to control;

i am great; i used to be very powerful in my early teenage sexuality, and as a child; but the family i come from is very dark and i eed to work with you on that as well when i have the power to tell teh tale; these historic stuff need to be cleansed

so i need intense mnipura/root chakra healing; this is what i damaged when i fucked myself forcefully with the marker pen; the scaral chakra is now purified -it’s a long story; i dont feel like going into detail right now;

i don’t know how to ask for help with that but it is preventing me from accomplishing my destiny as a human being; and i find strenghts in my choices of action because i desire to stay on top of the game in taht regard; yet i truth i believe it was a mistake to abuse myself this way, and it was scary and crazy; and i did it because my moter hatedme and didn’t want me in hte first place; so here is an extreme form of scapegoatign for you

i desperately need to heal my manipura/root chakra wound[eergetic] and move on; to fully embrace MY scared masculine and bland it with my scared feminine which my person that i love has opened very strongly in him; or he has the sacred maculine maybe, i am not sure because i can’t soemtimes tell fully well stuff with my genitalia, because of the abusive rape onto them, and i get mixed signals and confusion; so sorry; i need much help in that regard;

whenever i contact your energy, i get dreams releasing trauma stored in my clitoris - trauma of sexual abuse both from teh past, and from my waking life - so it’s stored memory in the body, as well as the memory of when i was a youg girl and i stuck that plastik shit into my yoni, bruising her from within;

i need to love-talk with you about sexuality; please, let me book another appointment with you for thatl i thik this is my main problem here; i see quan yin spirit protecting my femininity whe i think of this; when i did it i wasn’t thinking at all, i just acted in response to the signals my spiteful’parents’ were sending to me

i need love and i need to heal my shame for myself for abusing my own self; i am lso angry with myselffor abusig myself; so it’s mixed and taht is a recipy for disater in energy terms

thankyou!