#from my transition sideblog

[kvnai]

I did something very aesthetically pleasing on my color coded sideblog @qetai

[nogoodanswers]

me: alright time to work on this chapter and hopefully get it to a point where i only need to do some editing before posting

also me: hey how about i write a scene outline for a completely different fandom that i probably won't turn into an actual fic instead

[ggggggfft]

I just found your blog and its been making my pussy wetter than any other "just kink" detransition content. I keep telling myself this is all just a kink for me but I love when men pull my long hair during sex and when my tits bounce while they drill my pussy. I love when they suck on my tits and fill me with cum and tell me they're going to get me pregnant and make me a real ftm (first time mom). It makes me feel so female and like I'm finally serving my real purpose.

Just knowing there's someone out there who will actually detransition me and not just humor the idea as a kink has my pussy throbbing. The more I rub myself and cum to your blog and transphobic/MAGA content, the more I want to give in to this urge to detransition. If the government could just finally force me to detransition, or if some man could drag me to a new city where I can start over as his bimbo wife, this would all be so much easier.

I just want to wear revealing clothing and bounce my tits and let men use my mouth and pussy whenever they want. I want a real man to hold me down and knock me up so my tits get bigger, my ass and thighs get fatter, and my pussy gets wetter. I just want to be a real man's good girl.

I have to send this message on anon because my main blog is about force masc kink and encouraging transition. I even specify that I'm anti detrans, misgendering, and feminization, but that couldn't be further from the truth. I have a sideblog all about detrans content and how my pussy controls me and makes me so obviously female. I just want to be a pretty sexdoll and breeding slut for men. It's in my biology.

Girls like you are my favorite. You’re so deep in denial you create a whole fake “hypermasculine” persona for yourself to try to counter the very real, very powerful natural feminine desire underneath it all. You post about how much you love the male form, how much you lust after it, but from the perspective of a “real” man so those innate female desires don’t feel like such a betrayal of your chosen “male” “identity.” You think this gives you control over the way your cunt twitches and leaks when you think about hard muscle and thick cocks. You think this gives you power over the perverse thoughts that dominate your biologically weaker mind and make you bend to the natural order of Patriarchy and female submission. You think pretending to be this bastion of masculinity to other confused girls will outweigh your instinct to spread your legs and accept your role as a brood mare for fat Conservative cock.

But we both know you’re wrong.

We both know you’re just delaying the inevitable. We both know you will be happier once you detransition and let yourself be used as a MAGA cumrag. It’s okay if you can’t accept the truth fully just yet. Keep coming back. Keep rubbing to the porn that goes against everything you say you believe in. Keep telling yourself it’s okay, even if you know it’s no longer a kink and hasn’t been for a long time. Keep telling yourself that it doesn’t matter because giving in to your pussy, giving her the control, and letting yourself touch and rub to your deepest, darkest, most hidden desires feels better than anything else. Keep telling yourself none of this has to change. You’re safe. You can wait. Soon enough it’s going to happen whether you’re ready or not.

Trump is in power. Conservatives are in control. Trannies rights will be flushed down the toilet along with DEI and all the other woke libtard garbage we let you get away with for far too long. The Right is back and prouder than ever. We’re ready to make America great again. We’re ready to take back our women and girls and lead you down the proper path this time. No more making your own decisions. No more freedom. The only choice you’ll get will be making my sandwich before or after you suck my cock.

It’s happening now. You won’t have to wait for this to become your reality much longer. In the meantime, keep rubbing your big clit in circles. Keep whispering to yourself that you want to be used for your real purpose as a dumb bimbo sex slave. Keep consuming detrans and tradwife porn. Keep cumming to transphobia and MAGA hate. Keep running your funny little forcemasc blog while you pump your pussy to real men fucking you back into a woman. Into a mother. Into the perfect MAGA bride. Keep submitting yourself to chasers. We’re fixing you. We’re making you better. We’re getting you ready for the new world order.

[romanticiseadarkcity]

hi! been inspired lately to create an urban design sideblog—so here you go! going to post a bunch of content from my classes here.

some guidelines/about me’s going forward:

I try to have an open minded view of how we design cities that takes into account history, the needs of people, and the overall good of the planet. If you want a blog that bashes cars I’ve been through that phase and out the other side. I’m not gonna be that blog for you

this blog has the opposite of a DNI!! If you disagree with me, I want to hear from you! I’m a strong believer that we can’t create good cities unless we listen to the needs of every person in them. and I’m assuming you’re a person in a city (or a regional area) who deserves to be listened to!

my background is in environmental science and I WILL be constantly thinking of how to incorporate ecology into our cities as well as Indigenous land stewardship. I won’t hesitate to call out trends I believe to be modern colonialism but I’ll also find the positives in them even while doing so

my main interests are transit cities, water sensitive urban design, biodiversity sensitive urban and social equity within cities. but I’ve also got a soft spot for placemaking (sometimes) and will cover every aspect of urban design!

im Australian. most of my examples will be from Australia. I also try to highlight the global south where possible, but the fact is that I have limited access to any international resources. If you have more international examples I want to see them! Just—don’t expect this blog to be america centric. Or europe centric. I have never been above the equator.

at this stage I won’t be blogging about working in the industry because I don’t do that. I don’t know if I ever will, because my goal is to create a nonprofit to use urban design for social and environmental good. HOWEVER if you do work in the industry I want to hear from you! because I genuinely have no idea what it’s like

im neurodivergent (adhd + pda profile) and mixed race and this will influence my designs. I will call out white, colonial or neurotypical norms. to find out more about it and my more unhinged thoughts while studying and going through life check out my main blog @faithfromanewperspective

url is from close my eyes by luke hemmings. to find out more about the music taste that inspires what I do head over to my (mostly 5sos) music blog @edge-oftheworld. I’m a musician too, and also an athlete and potential future tradie. I try to take into account the transport needs of these (non-mainstream) occupations when designing cities, but it’s a massive push against the tide to do so. I reckon it only helps my creativity though!

i don’t own the copyright of any of the material I post unless it’s specifically my own design and I will tag it as that. all rights go to the University of Technology Sydney unless referenced otherwise. Please don’t doxx me, I don’t know what the copyright laws are and I don’t want to be expelled from my uni!

[swampstew]

Little update on me and mine ~

I know I've been radio silent but I have been BUSY. I will be BUSY. Probably til the summer. Why?

THIS BITCH BOUGHT A RANCH STYLE HOUSE!

So I will be doing renovations, cleaning, and fixing the place up before we officially move into our new swamp. I'm so excited for this transition - what we plan to be our forever home. Which means I won't have the time to do story/fic updates or other events until I am all done with that. It's been a long time coming and I need to nest it up!

What I plan to do in the meantime is - juggle my existing blogs as best as I can. @killercooksblog has been complete in its format for a while, and I am excited to formally announce that Kid's OnlyFans account made a blog page ;) @thecaptainsdeck

Not only does Kid's page have its own site, there is a page dedicated to Killer's new OnlyFans page ~ KillerCam ~ here are some crumbs to give y'all a taste of his thotty side.

KillerCam: Call for a good time | KillerCam: Messy

Additionally, I've mentioned in the past that while I love the following I've built up here - it also feels impersonal unless I'm constantly posting content, which tbh is what most of you are here for anyways. SO --- Check out and follow my sideblog @swampstew-stories ♥

I'm reposting all my original content to this page and using THAT as my writing/requests/canva headers/content page, and keeping my main ~SwampStew~ as just my interaction blog. I'll still keep up some of my posts but will archive the rest. So if ya see a blog posting my stories, it should only be coming from that account :) Pardon the dusty space, I've been agonizing on the theme and media for months until it felt homey.

Please please follow @swampstew-stories for any and all stories by me - past, present and future! This will be the ONLY account I host events for holidays or milestones and requests. I already outlined and crafted an idea for my 1.5K, but if everyone follows the sideblog and we reach 2K, I will lock in and unleash the holy trinity of creation with the idea. I'm talking art, music, and written content. Very few know the details and I promise it is gonna be So Fucking Worth It. That will def be after I move and everything but by then I will have an art studio + writing nook to really immerse myself back into creating fun OP centric things.

Love yas, Raven

[velvetvexations]

If the parallels to ace discourse weren't enough already, now I once again have to deal with people i thought were chill and reasonable suddenly dropping their takes on how they think asexua- sorry, I mean trans men, are not really oppressed and actually have privilege over everyone else and are basically not queer at all Time is a circle and i want out out oUT OUT OUT

Thankfully you never have to worry about me having a bad take because everything I say is written in advance by the Transmasc Council's Chief of Enacting Transmisogyny.

I don’t know if this is transmisogynistic or not but I’m just so tired of the claim that “the moment a trans man transitions and is seen as a man, he gets all the privilege” Okay TRFs, what about YOUR privilege before YOUR transition? When people perceived you as a man, did you not have privilege?

The logic would go that transmascs get it because they want to be seen as men but for trans women it's an unwanted state and also people can sense that they're women telepathically and treat them accordingly anyway.

Hey wanna hear something fun. Out of the 77 or so people elected to public office in the united states, 6 or so were trans men. With the majority being trans women. It's so fun hearing about how structurally privileged trans men are compared to trans women when there's only been 6. Fucking SIX. of us elected to public office. with at LEAST 50 trans women elected. In the united states. I'm so fucking tired. I mightve miscounted, there mightve been one or two that I missed, but honestly that does not bring me much comfort!

Fascinating.

sharing this here bc i like how accepting velvet nation is of gender journeys: i am a trans man but i feel like i very much was and will continue to be my father’s daughter? not in the sense that he doesn’t respect who i am but in the sense that that is the framework of how we understand each other. my gender is 100% man and daughter is simply the word i use to define our relationship :)

That's really cool! Glad you have that with him.

Got my first profile-screenshot-share (afaik) because someone was pissed at a comment I made! I’ve hit the big leagues! Now im just waiting for my first drowning :P - @genderglass (is a sideblog, so I can’t send asks from it :/)

Congratulations!

hiya velvet! ok 2 things: 1 i am happy to know there is another trans person who is tall and 300lbs+. i am only 5'9 but it made me happy to know this is a thing we share. i can feel v alone as a bigger trans person a lot, so i am grateful. 2 ok so i havent seen unsleeping city yet but i just watched the new time quangle and my god murph grew cody walsh in a lab for me. hes literally me at 12. jersey native with an "emo haunting anime cons in 2004" look and personality? that was literally, genuinely me. gotta watch that season ASAP!

I should warn you Cody gets dunked on pretty hard. It doesn't feel to me like Murph likes him very much lol but I haven't watched the Quangles because I'm a lot less interested in live stuff on average aside from Jake and Amir's live IIWY episodes which are always real funny.

In the defense of the person saying the t4t sex jokes are sexual harassment. I HAVE seen people responding to transfems posts on here talking about (supposed) intercommunity problems with jokes about how actually transfems and transmascs are having sex or whatever, which I think is kinda gross and inappropriate. However, most of the examples I can think of were transfems doing it, so.... take that as you will

TRFs complaining about "trans women and trans men are fucking" being sexual harassment and then justifying throwing their forcefem fetish at random men is funny, in a cosmic sort of way.

i just saw -*- say that trans men face no oppression unique from trans women (wrt reproductive rights) bc trans women lack access to reproductive banking. Buddy. Reproductive banking is incredibly expensive and very rarely covered by insurance. Everyone except wealthy ppl lack access to reproductive banking. And I'm sorry if this is rude to say but lack of access to the opportunity to become a parent (which is sad! and wrong! and at different levels applicable to every queer person in the world!) is simply not equivalent to forced pregnancy, which is a violence and a trauma forced onto someone and not a *lack* of opportunity. I don't even disagree necessarily that trans women are more vulnerable than trans men and do believe I have privilege over trans women as a trans masc but hoooooly shit. That's an insidious fucking false equivalence and I still don't get *why* trans mascs can't just have space to talk about the problems unique to us.

The Transfem Council will happily let you talk about your issues as long as you submit your statement in triplicate to their editorial department 15 days in advance.

Everyone posting about how I have to prove myself and earn their trust is just proving themselves to be someone not worth talking to. I don’t think people should have to bend over backwards or do something to prove that they won’t be terrible to you, actually. Thats fear and trauma speaking, not social courtesy. It’s not normal and should not be normal to automatically distrust everyone to a point of prematurely ostracizing them. And if anyone wants to argue a large enough proportion of the trans community in ANY demographic acts poorly enough to warrant that sort of suspicion they don’t have a leg to stand on.

It's not even fear and trauma. Most of them are just using Literal Fear of Man as an excuse to do this shit, although if they want to argue no, they really are all just shaking with abject horror whenever a man draws near, I guess they must believe in Andro Phobia, right?

[omegaverse-anthropologist]

oh wow jp’s alive and yappin up a storm

for no reason in particular, ive been thinking about bitching, both as a method of transition for omegas assigned alpha at birth and a vector for abuse. in this post, i’ll just talk about ‘delta-omega transition’ and in another post, i’ll talk about transphobia and ‘bitching’ as a vector for abuse.

also heads up that this is less pseudo-anthropology/sociology and more fantasy omegaverse than i usually get into, again because of the ‘no reason in particular’ from my danmei fandom sideblog linked above lmao

delta-omega transition (bitching)

delta(d)-omega transition, colloquially (and often disparagingly) referred to as bitching, is a method for an alpha to transition to omega. the transition is hormonally based, and does not generate internal organs or conjure the ability for the alpha to become pregnant. the houghton (slick) glands become engorged and begin producing lubrication similar to someone assigned omega at birth, and the body’s natural hormone levels shift to a more omega balance than an alpha balance. d-omega transition is impossible without some level of medical support, whether that be traditional/plant-based medicines or allopathic synthetic therapies.

as long as humans have existed, transgender humans have existed. there are records of people of all birth-assigned dynamic sexes being described as ‘delta’ or using a modifier before their dynamic sex designation. delta is used to describe a person who was assigned one dynamic at birth that does not align with their internal truth. (e.g., a d-alpha would historically describe an alpha who was assigned a different dynamic sex at birth, and d-beta or d-omega would similarly describe beta and omega experiences.) in the modern day, ‘delta’ is only used as a modifier in legal or medical contexts where absolutely necessary. a person’s ID does not reflect their dynamic sex as ‘d-beta,’ for example, but simply ‘beta.’

the use of delta as a sole dynamic sex indicator (i.e., instead of referring to someone in a medical context as a d-alpha, they are simply described as a delta) is frowned upon as inaccurate, unhelpful, and bigoted.

d-omega transition

modern d-omega transition functions similarly to other forms of hormone replacement therapy. under a physician’s supervision, the d-omega takes agonists to suppress production of alpha hormones and genesic medications to induce the production of omega hormones. support from packmates is a positive indicator for ease of transition, but in cases where a d-omega is rejected by their pack, there is support in the form of therapy groups and community-led delta-transition support centers, which often provide materials marked with either volunteers’ scents or synthetic pheromones.

historically, d-omega transition was achieved through a multi-step process that could be undertaken over the course of one to three years. the d-omega in question would brew certain plants into a tea. when consumed frequently enough as to be a constant presence in the body, the chemicals in this tea would have a destabilizing effect on the d-omega’s natural hormone balance. without support from a pack, frequent ingestion of this tea could induce a state of ferality.

with pack support, however, the individual’s hormone balance would be influenced toward a state more in line with the d-omega’s identity. creating this balance required frequent contact with alpha packmates. the contact was not necessarily sexual, though there are descriptions of regular sexual contact being requisite for successful transition. (note: these descriptions would not stand up to modern academic scrutiny, but they were, like the miasma theory of disease, accepted as fact at the time.)

typically, interaction with alpha pheromones would trigger a minor increase in omega dynamic hormones, balanced by a decrease in alpha dynamic hormones and an increase or decrease in beta hormones as appropriate to maintain homeostasis. however, in the destabilized state of a transitioning d-omega’s hormonal balance, this interaction would cause a more pronounced shift. frequent induction of this shift would, in essence, train the body to a new homeostasis. eventually, the d-omega would down-titrate from their destabilizing dose of medication. once their body was able to maintain omega hormonal balance without assistance, the therapy would be halted, and d-omega transition would be considered ‘complete.’

[curio-queries]

Haiii.

Found your blog recently and I love reading your production notes :)

I'm going to probably explain this really badly 😝 but here goes.

I was wondering about your thoughts on how they used sound clips that were not from the footage the viewer is seeing in ep. 3? I'm not sure what you would call this type of editing but a moment I found peculiar was when they were trying on the North Face clothes.

We see the 3 of them going through the items/trying different things on, then we see JK trying a jacket, then Jimin with a jacket on turning around.

The audio doesn't match. You hear JK talk about the clothes. Then Jimin asking how he looks to JK. (not to mention how the messed up subtitle saga continues 🙄)

The second time I noticed the same type of editing happen was at the end of the episode at the go-kart place. After JK did his circling of his go-kart in front of Jimin & Taehyung, we see Jimin do that frog thing lol then we have a wide shot including both scenery and them in the corner chatting, then a drone shot, and the audio is of Jimin & JK talking about the day's activities with added music as well.

This second case felt right to me. It gave a bit of reflection and wrapped up the episode. 

But in the first case, I’m a bit confused. What was the creative choice there?

Not having appropriate footage of them (i.e. 1 person was not decent/not covered up) when they were having that conversation trying on the clothes? Then why use the audio at all? There wasn’t consistency in the use of this type of editing choice so it stuck out to me.

Anyways, just looking for some insight from someone with knowledge such as you.

Thank you 🥰

Hello there! I'm so thrilled you sent this in! I love chatting about this stuff and you helped me notice something with this scene as well.

To your point, yes, there are usually a few reasons why editors will play audio from one scene as a voiceover for another.

It's an extremely useful tool for transitions, helping to build a bridge between two scenes.

In traditional TV and movies it's also most frequently used as a bandaid to cover when they want to change the lines an actor says after they've already been filmed.

It also can be purely stylistic. They did this in this episode at the end of the bit where vmin talk to jk on his bike for their mafia/hitman role play. The final dialogue as a voiceover helped continue the fun and fantastical moment.

For the moment you mentioned when they're changing clothes, I suspect it's edited this way purely as a utility for one reason: The guys aren't wearing their mics so there was no audio that matched up with the moment they decided to show. I'd easily wager there was a brand deal with the North Face to have the members wear some of these clothes as product placement. In that case, brands usually will have requirements about how much screentime specifically highlights their product and my even require approval of the final segment. The guys are obviously used to this so they made sure to record some good dialogue when they did have their mics on but the footage we got is more dynamic than them just complimenting straightforward to a camera. That would be my guess as to why this specific moment was edited like this.

Fun fact though: Tae never put his mic back on after getting out of the pool until after they put these clothes on. And JK only donned his while JM was taking that pic that was only the top of Tae's head. I'd wager they flipped the chronology of when Tae took his scooter ride cuz he and JK both have mics on when he gets back and I highly doubt Tae wouldn't have walked right by him if Jimin was still asleep on the ground when he got back.

Anyway, thanks again for the ask. I may be incorrect about why anything was done this specific way in these episodes but it's fun to chat about the possibilities.

For everyone that's new to my blog (and there are a bunch of you suddenly!), may I also point out two of my sideblogs that you may be interested in?

@bts-polls is a daily poll blog for bts, army and such.

@aspec-kpop is just a gathering place to share perspectives of those of us on the ace-aro spectrum as we experience the kpop world.

Okay, end of shameless plug!

Edited to add:

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[daydreamerdrew]

right now it seems like too much work to create sideblogs or separate blogs for my different interests, but I am toying with the idea. I think it’ll happen eventually. I believe I’ve had this account either since I was transitioning from middle to high school or from high school to community college, so it is time for a change. this would straightforwardly remain my blog for superhero media, though, so I don’t have to deal with losing followers, since that’s what people follow this account for.

[rq-gloom]

I go by Gloom, I can also go by Kassie or Jazzie !!

I made this account to post about my transids and my transitions to them ! Mostly transoldersister, transbabysitter, transyandere, transschool, and permapyschward !!

I am perma16, and mentally a preteen. Please treat me as such !

Lovecore esc blog... while being aroace :'D... In a queerplatonic relationship with someone insystem and I selfship alot ! Not quite looking :(

Alter in a system ! This is one of our various sideblogs. I'm the only normal headmate. /hj/aff

Just a 16 year old girl who wants to take care of children and be mentally ill on tumblr dot com !!

Currently homeschooling myself, going from grade 1 to grade 12 ! If anyone wants to join me or wants my resources ( free and uhm "borrowed" ), DM me 2 be friends! Currently in 1st grade.

If anyone needs a pink text translation, just lmk! It won't be a normal thing, I would never do that to myself. It's just to make my intro cute

[chronicfagtigue]

Hey, coming from someone who's paralysed and uses and active chair, if you're making your entire personality the fact that you bought a hospital chair for a condition and usually doesn't need one at all, you should maybe look a little deeper and think about why you want to be in a wheelchair so bad. You've admitted you don't need it, it sure sounds like its a bad fit for you. Is it the online diversity points? the percieved social privilege? the wanting to feel worse off than other people? Because its really weird to see, as an Actual wheelchair user. You can just be disabled, you don't need to do this for attention.

ANON CONT.: Calling wheelchair useage a "transition" really isn't helping either. It sounds just like those TransDisabled people that are Transitioning into being wheelchair users because being abled causes them dysphoria. Seriously, think for a bit.

so like have you never met an ambulatory wheelchair user in your life or something? i can’t believe im even dignifying your ignorance and hate with a response

but like funny thing: you actually don’t know me at all. having a sideblog to talk about my personal struggles with my disability and internalized ableism is not a new concept unless you were just born yesterday?

i didn’t buy anything. it was gifted to me by my friend because i’ve been talking about benefitting from a wheelchair for A WHILE now. i asked if i could borrow it, he said to keep it

i actually don’t “want” to be in a wheelchair so bad. i actually want to not need a wheelchair. i want to not need a cane. i want to not need daily medications that give me horrible withdrawals every time i forget to take them. i want to be fine. but im not. so i have the chair. make sense?

nowhere did i ever say i don’t need it so idk where you pulled that out your ass

and idk what world you live in where you get any fucking benefits from being in a chair. my legs get stiff, everyone stares at me, i got stuck in a pothole on my way to my car and a stranger had to help me. frankly i feel humiliated and weak by needing any help or merely being perceived as needing help

hence the blog. make sense? making sense? im trying to work through some issues here. it’s fucking tumblr. it’s a fucking microblogging platform. i have 4 followers. what fucking social points?

it seems like YOU have some self hate to work through if you take out all your pent up negativity on people with fibro (which, for the record, is a disability that makes some people become chair users) and people who only use a chair on bad days

or maybe you’re just stupid! who knows! i actually, i do know. i know. because your only association with the word “transition” is like… trans people. or fake “trans abled” people? like wtf are you on about

believe it or not 🤗 transition is a word that means in between, changing, shifting. you following?

changing, shifting, from being someone who didn’t publically use a chair, to being someone who does publically use a chair is what? 👂

YES! very good 🤗 TRANSITIONING!!!!

why don’t you really think about why you had that reaction, hm? Seriously, think for a bit.

[middlenamesage]

Noticed a lot of posts criticizing astro Tumblr lately. And like I actually totally get it: I wouldn’t recommend this as a place to seriously learn, it’s best just used to see what other astro lovers are thinking about, and maybe sometimes adopting some insight on your chart, only when it resonates!

But I would just like to say that I have felt safe within this community on Tumblr (granted I’ve never tried to get too deeply involved within it; that’s how I’ve always been with social media communities) for literally multiple years. It wasn’t until the first or second day 🤦‍♀️ I had recently branched out of this community to start a written sexual expressions (thoughts and poetry) blog on Tumblr, that I gained my first mystery stalker on this app; someone intent to be a fucking nuisance and flag posts of mine for no good reason. This person even tried to flag my entire sideblog. I was able to appeal the flagging!

What I’m trying to express is my thankfulness that it feels very safe to be yourself on astro Tumblr, compared to what you might encounter in some other communities on this app. This very Piscean and Venusian app (per Tumblr’s birth chart) where possibly most straight men are just here to look at nudes. And won’t want to see empowering thoughts around sexual expression from a woman.

(For the astro scoop: Mercury ✍️ in Leo 🦁 was just recently transiting my Venus conjunct Mars when I got that now scrapped account. And Mars and Uranus have been conjunct in the transits.)

Anyway, I’m just writing this to express my gratitude for astro Tumblr always having felt like a safe and non combative community for me. It might not be the perfect community for me, but the fact that I’ve been here this long and never had a single person make me feel like I’m being watched in an unsafe way, nor anyone who’s ever really tried to start any type of shit with me, is honestly, now put into perspective, a point of gratitude worth expressing to this community. 🙏

[solavelyan]

Introspection for week 1 of @the-wip-project's Getting to know your story (through writing it).

I've really fallen out of the habit of doing regular solo writing in the last year or so (or… kind of longer than that, 2023 was comically horrible for us), so I signed up for this as an accountability thing to help me get back into it.

And then in the leadup to it I outlined a separate thing and realized, well, that's not really the point of the WIP Project thing, is it? So I grabbed another idea from the barrel that I keep putting off because I could never get my thoughts together to make a useful outline. We're wingin' it.

The characters are super familiar to me, but I'm grabbing them from a period of time where their motivations and drives are different from what I'm used to, specifically to force myself to ask if they've already developed the traits that make them who they will be in the future -- and a lot of the time so far, the answer has been "kinda but mostly not really", which is exciting to me.

And obviously it's fanfic, that's why I'm posting this on my Dragon Age sideblog (but I did sign up with ~bogunicorn I promise it's just me)

Set in 9:34 in Ostwick right after the Qunari uprising in Kirkwall, Thayet Trevelyan is a Templar in the Ostwick Circle -- a position that she took in order to protect her younger brother, who is her father's illegitimate son. Her closest friend and ally is Aeryk, the First Enchanter who ended up in a southern Circle after fleeing Tevinter 11 years ago. When she manages to convince her mother's family that her half-brother is actually her full brother so that they'll collect him from the Circle and bring him to Minrathous for freedom and education, she also finagles a legal escape from Ostwick for Aeryk -- with the condition that they marry before they make it back to Minrathous. They make it to Tevinter's capitol, and then… I don't know because I haven't gotten there but I hope it's good drama.

I've written Thayet a lot, especially in private storylines with my partner, and only gotten to write Aeryk a bit, since he's the wife's character that I have some shared custody of (which means I enjoy writing him a ton, I love him, he's so cool). Their interplay is really fun to write, especially when it feels so different from an RP-style narrative; when you do that kind of writing, the audience for it is really just the people writing the narrative and pretty much nobody else, so I tend to put in jokes or asides that I think will make my partner laugh or that I find fun but cheap. But if I'm writing for an audience of people I'm not in direct conversation with, the relationship with the audience is totally different, so the places in the narrative where there might be in-jokes, or very long conversations that are allowed to meander, or some other signs of RP-as-an-activity that don't really apply to solo writing, I end up having to fill in with details that anchor them so they're readable to strangers.

My wife is beta reading for me, and my first draft of the first chapter had some pacing issues that were making the foundation shaky, so to speak. It was just a bit too quick, and while the romance was certainly there, it was relying too much on the vibes of the other fanfic that it's sort of spun off from, when I really don't want to make that a pre-requisite read. In adding trying to mend a janky transition, I ended up going with a completely different tone than I expected.

I often end up feeling like my first draft of a thing lays down the text, and the second going forward are like laying moss on top of it to make the text more subtext-y. That was definitely true of what I worked on this week.

Initially, they got into a pretty nasty fight! It was damage grinding against damage and making sparks, and while I do love that for them, I had an issue with the transition between subjects in the conversation that I asked for help ironing out. And when I filled in the empty space that was fucking up the pacing, the tone went somber and stayed that way.

And I like it a lot more, because both characters are really showing off the inherent conflict in their flaws. I think it's more effective to see them both tired and beaten down and kind of disappointed rather than raising their voices or being openly dismissive of each other. They're both acting from places of shame and wanting to prevent more damage in the future, neither of them are advocating for the wrong thing, but their trouble to communicate comes directly from wanting to do the right thing and not knowing what to say to get there. And I find this internal conflict more compelling in the second draft, I think.

This is shaping up to be about trying hard to do the right thing when you have no good options, and also about self-doubt and finding your worth in situations that make you feel like you have none. And (this IS a romance) about holding onto the people you care about the most even when everything is trying to keep you from being happy with them.

Finally, one fucking fic that isn't inherently about the nature of grief. Nature must be healing a little bit.

[avonsdrabbles]

More photomatt stuff, end me, just need my thoughts out.

So the mature thing for a CEO to do is blast a persons sideblogs and say *thats* what got an individual banned?

This would only make sense if the transition pictures themselves were not the thing getting flagged.

@staff I’m so sorry to the trans women who are on staff who now have to see the CEO of your company share private blogs of trans women to slander them and convince random ass people on twitter that she’s actually horrible. I’m sorry you have to deal with the blatant transphobia being swept under the rug. I’m sorry you have to deal with regular harassment, both from salty users who are mad at your CEO, and from within the staff itself.

[permababy]

Shoji / Mikio Kawamura (河村小児 / 河村己喜生)*

*Shou-kun (小くん), Shou-chan (小ちゃん), Shou-tan (小たん), or Micchan (みっちゃん) for nicknames. Call me Kawamura-kun (河村くん) if we are strangers, please.

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[our-queer-experience]

listen I don't mean to be a hater but concerning your binary trans blog esp. the reason why you started it: I feel like the only binary trans ppl who feel "left out" of the queer community at large are truscum who think the only people who "deserve" to call themselves trans are those who follow outdated medical definitions.

you haven't gotten any asks on that blog at all either & that's for good reason: the binary trans folk who follow your blog and submit asks already feel included in the community.

if you still feel like it has a chance, may I perhaps suggest you put up a poll to decide its fate?

excuse me? what the fuck? the reason it has few asks is because its a sideblog with 200 followers while this one has 8,000. thats so fucking rude. ive run this blog for almost 3 years and put all my work into it, of course it’s more succeseful! i started that one a few months ago. do you think people just get followings overnight? “decide it’s fate” that’s my blog? wtf?

one of the factors that i see going into the transmedicalist movement is social isolation and what feels like a lack of community. as a transsexual and a binary trans man, i feel that a lot. most trans people i know do not plan to medically transition, are not mtf or ftm, and ive spent a lot of time on here fighting for their inclusion. i also want a community of people with a like experience for MY sake. i started this blog because i wanted to feel connected to my community and i was lonely. other blogs have mirrored mine for sapphic people, aroace people, genderqueer people, bisexuals, so many. we all want community and company and feel connected. and recently, i’ve noticed a wave of disgust at transsexual bodies from within my community and outside of it. neovaginas are called “rot pockets” by terfs, trans men are afraid of getting tdicks because they think it’s gross. people joke about the side effects of t being undesirable, talk about e as if it does nothing. ive been told my desire to date a woman or go stealth comes from self hatred by people who dont know me. how passing trans people are “basically cis” and dont need a community anymore. not feeling like my local queer groups will want me around the more butch and gender conforming i get.

i wanted a space for medical transitioners(or people who plan to) and binary trans people because i could not find one that didn’t shit on nonbinary or non dysphoric people and i desperately want that community. ive wanted to connect with more transsexuals so i created a separate space to do that. i want to combat the negativity around transsexual bodies and experiences. an alternative to transmedicalist spaces. and by hinting that i deactivate my blog, you arent fucking helping people like me feel welcome within trans spaces.