#front-end performance

[dollypopup]

look, y'all can all gleeful cancel me for this #unpopular opinion if you want, but even IF Nicola wasn't nominated for the comedy section and it was her and Luke head to head in best drama?

I'd still vote for him

because I genuinely and truly think his acting is INCREDIBLE. and I think he's one of the better actors on Bridgerton full stop. I love the nuance he brings to Colin as a character, I love how he so fully embodies him as a character and that Colin has similarities to him, but is fully different at the same time. Colin does not talk like Luke, walk like Luke, even fidget like Luke. He has his own character beats and yes, sometimes parts of Luke bleed into him, such as with the head tilt, but the voice is different, softer, the movements of Colin as a character are distinct to me, he delivers humor well ('you'd already be dead?') and his decisions for Colin as a character are ICONIC (I'm never forgetting that dress adjustment with specific fingers was all him). Colin had a harder go of it than a lot of leads because his story isn't as loud- he doesn't get a lot of big, dramatic moments to have big dramatic acting, and honestly the show didn't give him a lot of screentime in the first place. But when he does have poignant emotional moments? They feel REAL. He isn't given as much time with the audience as other characters are and he doesn't go for the broad strokes with his acting, so sometimes I think he can get lost in some of the louder acting, but that doesn't negate the fact that he's GOOD. He's a good ass actor. He plays Colin like Colin is an actual person.

And for me? For me, that hits home. Even with truncated time on his own season (yeah, I'm still bitter), he delivers every single time. Anger, betrayal, longing, heartache, silly awkward humor, heat- and he does all of those emotions BELIEVABLY. I watched Luke Newton depict Colin falling in love so beautifully and so realistically, I HAVE NO CHOICE but to give him his flowers. Just because he's not as heavy in the hustle as other actors are (please remember this is a neurodivergent actor with anxiety and dyslexia, mental health is important and it's good he took a break ) doesn't mean he's not a fantastic actor. And if you've ever seen his depiction in The Shape of Things? The man is excellent.

I think Bridgerton has a lot of 'big moves' actors. And that's fine. Many people prefer that. But I prefer the nuanced moments and the softer beats of it all, and I think if the camera had allowed us as an audience a longer glimpse into moments with Colin, we'd all be even more floored. I can watch gifs of his scenes over and over and over again and find something new every time.

So y'all can sit there and accuse others of a 'pity vote' but idgaf. Luke Newton is one of the best actors on that show. And I stand by that. Eat me.

[danieyells]

. . .the crushing potential reality is hitting me so hard i had to stop reading to make a post about it

Haku used to be in Frostheim and someone, a close friend of Jin's, also used to be in Frostheim before they "sold him out". . .Yuri hates Frostheim and Jin hates Mortkranken. . .and Yuri's a doctor so he would have known about Jin's mother too. . . .

I wonder if it's possible that Yuri was previously in Mortkranken and he's the one who was previously close to Jin and Tohma replaced him and it coincidentally also lining up with Haku is to throw us off

Because "associated with again" makes it sound like Yuri used to associate with them a lot. . . .

MAN IT'S GONNA THROW SOME THINGS OUT IF THAT'S THE CASE--

[hiding-under-the-willow]

AUGH I loved the new fic :3 very good eating it up. Question for you: is this Helsknight the same as RnS Helsknight? Obv they’re different interpretations of the same origin, but are they separate from each other? Could they meet, even

I feel like every fic I write with Helsknight I end up with a slightly different interpretation of him, there's like 10 different variations of him living rent free in my brain at any given time. On that note, I do not feel like I could do RnS Helsknight justice, Skye's version of Helsknight is just a completely different beast than my own even if we occasionally run up against similar themes and ideas. Love that guy I'd love to put him in situations but I do not think I could write him correctly 🙏

I was actually thinking of Evildoers Helsknight as being much closer to LaHoF Helsknight, i wanted to play a little bit with the idea of broken code that I introduced in that fic, what it might be like if that problem had been worse for Hels, and that early days anger after the cloning machine, and a thing i never got to about the universe playing jokes on players, commiting to bits they speak into existence (hence the cloning machine functioning when Beef specifically built it not to and functing in ways that aligned with the /way/ it was used etc etc there was maybe gonna be a throwaway line cub says that was vaguely watcher reference-y). That isn't to say Evildoers Helsknight /is/ LaHoF Hels, I wrote him fairly differently there than I think I would've if I'd specifically set out to write him as I did in lahof. He's kind of halfway between lahof hels and a different version for a fic idea I've got floating around atm. Bc my ass can not resist writing helsknight fics apparently

But anyways the 'could they meet' question is so funny to me we should just put as many different alternate universe versions of helsknight in a room as possible and let them loose to see what happens. I think half of them would kill each other with the hour.

[alexturner2005]

i saw wunderhorse last night and they were so goooooood

[moonlight-frittata]

we should all still be thankful for the messy, creative explosion that was Fleetwood Mac (the real fleetwood mac troupe)

[r0semultiverse]

I hope Jorge keeps the streams up until the next live stream like he did with the last Saga.

I had trouble getting into Epic: The Musical without the visual aid of the animatics as visuals help me absorb the material. I kinda wish he would upload each song with the lyrics and animatics in them instead of just the animatics by themselves without the full song, but maybe that’s just me. I’m an audio and visual gal otherwise I have trouble absorbing information. Besides the streams there’s no current way to watch the musical seamlessly with actual visuals and yet it is called a musical. A medium I’ve kinda expected to have visuals by this point, that was my one big criticism going into this series was “so it’s just songs? And I have to watch the script as I listen to know what’s happening? That’s hard to keep up with.”

Though if this is a consistent change going forward of having the full musical with visuals until the next iteration premiers, then great & honestly my only criticisms are a lack of trans voice actors (seemingly but I could be wrong) and a lack of fat characters in the animatics because Aphrodite was fat in her depictions throughout history in the very least. Which I’m not even sure if this counts as a criticism so much as an observation and something that gives me a bit of pause? Again, not series ruining, but just more an observation I guess?

That being said, I’m super excited for the Vengeance Saga tonight! Probably gonna stay up just to watch it! Sleep be damned I wanna see it as it comes out! 💜

Edit: Okay actually not risking tummy issues by napping and can’t stay awake any longer. If I have tummy issues I couldn’t even watch it as it premieres anyway because I’d be fighting for my life in the bathroom. ANYWAY DON’T GO ATTACKING ANYONE INVOLVED WITH THE PROJECT, I WAS JUST MAKING AN OBSERVATION.

[lesbiheon]

not mx related but I’m still filled w adrenaline after seeing Deftones & Fleshwater this past Saturday ahhhh!!!!! if you ever get a chance to see either one it’s highly highly worth it their performances are incredible

[astraystayyh]

since it's already midnight in korea happy birthday to my other best friend the true light of my life me and felix are TIGHT like no one makes me laugh as hard as him,, also here are my fav bubble pics of him 💓💘💓💗💘

[roboyomo]

that face when now you, the "co-lead scientist", are targetted as well and your body has Also been used as a vessel for an Unknown 3rd Thing (your own exclusive edition) so now your hands carry the blood of your family when you wanted them to be at peace. And you Also get Made Fun Of by a coworker you trusted

Like we said. Classic Situation At The Corporation.

[sonodaten]

Gotta be honest, making the TB bearer of Oronyx's Coreflame is lame as hell

[gotyouanyway]

never mind whatever this was

[shalpilot]

they rlly do hit you right out the literal gate with why don’t you let us see that handsome face of yours okay!!!!!

[cloudbends]

Skip and loafer rant incoming in tags

[dataframe]

I loved your peak lords thought-reading comic. The line "besides, i simply couldn't handle everyone lying to my face; acting as though i'm a woman when i'm obviously not" hit me like a truck. Is that a common feeling for trans people? I'm figuring some shit out and this really rang true.

holds your hand. i can only speak from my experience, but i would say it is a fairly common line of thought for trans people, yes. especially when someone is just starting to figure themself out, or those for whom treatment/gender affirmation is generally unattainable

unfortunately, society at large makes it particularly difficult for nonbinary people to find their place - especially if you live in a place that uses many more gender markers in conversation (he/él/etc. as opposed to sya/ta/etc.), it becomes more difficult to avoid casual misgendering outside of specifically gendered terms (in fil, siya/niya is neutral but kuya/ate/etc. would be gendered and common, even from strangers).

however - throughout my entire experience being 'transgender' (genderless), i would say you should still strive to avoid what makes you explicitly uncomfortable. if only a standard held among friends

(and, just a small note, if in the future your 'friends' are purposefully/repeatedly disregarding something as simple as "please do not use masculine/feminine terms for me" ... they are not your friends! or not friends worth having, at least. the trans stuff is not the point here: this betrays a larger issue irt not having the decency to respect your boundaries. if they can discard this on their own whim, it doesn't matter if you're cis or trans or what, they will treat you poorly if they consider your boundaries to be "irrational" in my experience... you deserve much more than that!)

many people, when interacting with those they do not know, will put up a guise of some sort. i, being autistic, do mask often and have become more keenly aware of doing so recently - as such, i've begun to consider my gender presentation to be part of this 'mask'. at times i will still be uncomfortable, but generally speaking, i don't... take the opinions of strangers to heart. it is only natural that in brief encounters people will make assumptions to navigate social spaces. the only times where it really matters, in my opinion, is when you know you will be taking this mask off. when you are meant to be around people who you are spending a lot of time with (thus, seeking comfort with) and trust. these are people who you are actively keeping in your life, and who would need to know how you want to be perceived.

it will be easier to quell your apprehensions/doubts around other trans people, of course, regarding the idea that "everyone knows i'm just pretending to be this thing i'm not" (because then, aren't you all?) -- but if you have good friends, cis or not, they will hear you out and. as a genderless person, i'm pleased enough when i hear their conclusion of "you're just you" ... the one benefit to gender being a social construct, is the social aspect. it really is much easier for cis people to reform their views if they are around trans people and are willing to listen. in turn, trans people who are still upholding a firm gender/sexual dichotomy are that much more difficult to speak with. it is in part just a matter of exposure and patience to have someone become accustomed to letting down the walls between what constitutes as "woman/man/'something else' (derogatory)" ... because there are so many examples of even cis non-conforming gays who have defined those standards and are still fully women or men. spending time in [lesbian] spaces with such people has been immensely helpful for me, personally, in breaking down my own preconceptions of what women "should" be. it truly isn't as clear-cut as society often insists upon!

and. well. going back to the trans friends thing... i really do sympathize with the uncertainty, having to just. offer your heart on a plate and be like 'please don't secretly take pieces of this and destroy my trust' (misgendering you privately/in their minds) -- but, on the other end of things? once i got used to it, i've never once thought about my friends as anything but what they've said they are. and i imagine, and hope, that your friends will feel the same if you do pursue this any further. even if treatment isn't available to you/not something you feel comfortable pursuing to make your gender identity more "obvious" at a glance, you really do deserve a space where you'll feel accepted and at ease to experiment with how you'd like to be referred to - even before making any explicit adjustments to your identity. there is no pressure to figure everything out right away. hell, even if you're not trans, you're still well within your right to bring something up like "i like being called beautiful/pretty more than handsome" or even outright "can you substitute 'bro' for 'girl'" in slang contexts. there's a gay bear i know to have asked for the latter while still happily referring to himself as his bf's husband.

ahhh i've gotten so long-winded, but... tl;dr, i do hope things work out well for you. and even if the practicality of being transgender in certain ways is difficult to handle, it is a burden you should be able to trust your friends will take, because they care for you and you deserve at least one place to feel at ease.

[il-predestinato]

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[starlene]

Hats off to Göteborgsoperan for producing Madama Butterfly and Miss Saigon back to back, I guess.

I don't think either of these chock-full-of-problematic-attitudes kinda shows is the best possible pick when planning an opera house repertoire these days... but since they've decided to do Miss Saigon, I'm sorta glad their audience gets the chance to directly compare it with its inspiration, and hopefully think some critical thoughts about orientalism and whatnot while doing so.