I wasn’t cut out for dating in this modern society. The goals, morals, communication skills, and feelings of people today just don’t align. That’s not to say that I think I’m perfect. I’m far from it, believe me. But I can’t shake the physical fear of trying again and facing the same end result over and over. Big middle finger to the world and it’s modern society. You all suck, I hate everything about it and I just want to stick to running away from my pain till I finally die
As the 30the creeps I remember all the good but ruined by all the sad and heartbreak. Guilty of wanting to talk to you one last time. I try to learn to forgive myself for loving you but was destined to lose you either way. To compete with people..
I was never enough
Not enough to fill your cup or my own.. just kids. Maybe that is what hurts me. What was once so innocent and free became a tragic toxic love story. How am I ever supposed to believe what we had was real. I'm sucked in music..places and memories of it all. That doesn't ever go away. Blessing and a curse.
It's hard to say of it ever got all better or did I really imagine or think for a second I would be worth anything more than I deserve. I'm not perfect and now even I don't let myself forget any of my own demons. Tomorrow is just Friday and Saturday is will be next..nothing has ever been the same..
What's the same anymore? My confusion is all still here and so valid. I never gave myself a chance..falling in love is so easy. I gave you all even after you took everything ..it's all covered up by cake love ..was it real. I wanna be enough.
I wanna be enough..even if it's just myself.. enought for me.