#fuckmia

[unidentified-crying-object]

fuck bulimia. it’s gotten to the point where my brain feels bad keeping anything down, even safe foods. excessive purging has brought my chest pains back though so i want to stop. ana was so rewarding, plus i had so much more time on my hands since i wasn’t eating. yeah i’m still losing weight but i’m so goddamn wasteful. this ends now, i’m in control, not mia.

[moony-shutup99]

running away from ed tips and motivation

... oh tumblr, you never change.

[spicyorangejuice]

Tfw ur sister is shaming u for binging her food last night

[thegr33nestbean]

Death Note Movie...

Netflix ain’t shit for doing Death Note the way they did. Very Disappointed.

[melancholyfuzz]

Fuck you

HAHAH FUCK YOU MIA, YOU DONT HAVE CONTROL OF ME ANYMORE. IF I CAN SURVIVE CHRISTMAS THEN I CAN SURVIVE FUCKING ANYTHING. i won yo, this bitch aint urs anymore

[spicyorangejuice]

texting this guy and said I was taking a shower...he asked for pics and like idk how to break it to him that I’m actually about to purge lmao

[helveticaslut]

Body image

I get so fucking pissed whenever I mention my weight(looking at you dumb bitches at school). I weigh 140 pounds okay! There is absolutely NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT! I'm 5"6 it's totally heathy and I feel beautiful inside and out and no comment is going to make me think otherwise. A three digit number will never make anyone feel completely happy, so just because you feel insecure about your own weight don't go making dumb ass remarks about other people's weight alright! That goes for ALL GENDERS!!! No one should be ashamed of their spectacular body, AND NO ONE SHOULD EVER FEEL THE NEED TO MAKE ANYONE GET TO A STATE WHERE THEY DO NOT SEE THEMSELVES AS THE BEAUTY THEY ONCE DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[goldenjenn]

Fat. (10/07/2014) #bulimia #eatingdisorders #mia #fat #food #instafood #fries #chicken #cordonbleu #chips #fuck #fuckmia #damnit #fatty #lunch

[whatevermaecome]

151.5 this morning. Heartbreaking that even after surviving 170, making it down to 140 mid December I have gained back ten. I deserve better. I deserve to be skinny, back to 110, to have my thigh gap back. I'm going to push harder, eat less, and hope for god that getting back on my meds will stop the binges.x

[lushlem]

Me relapsing is inevitable. At this rate, I don't think recovery will ever be an option. I'm so sick of it. Really.

[spicyorangejuice]

This.has.to.stop.

hmu on how to stop b/p plz :(

[spicyorangejuice]

Anyone else try to recover from bulimia by just eating whatever they crave and keeping it all down and not exercising it away but then in return start to take a shit ton of laxatives so u don’t have to look at ur full, bloated self. Especially bc yk that laxative abuse still allows u to obtain all of the calories so in ur mind it doesn’t count even tho yk ur still damaging ur body so it’s counter productive?? Just me? Ok.

[spicyorangejuice]

Me: Ik u binged a lot but purging is BAD and we just gonna sit with it

my mind: but we gonna get so fat and stomach hurt and just ew

my body: *tries to regurgitate all food while I’m chillin watching yt as a distraction*

my sisters: wow that’s a lot u ate

my stomach: AshdjskalNhanmwql owwwweeeeee I hate dairy and just this much food that doesn’t fit in meeeeee

everyone: I THOUGHT U WERE VEGAN

me: shit is it too late to purge???

[lushlem]

Went on the annual Katahdin hike trip with work this weekend

I got back today.

And I am not happy with my weight.

At all.

Ive gained, oh, 5 pounds. And that is due to the fact that I felt like I had to eat large quantities of food out front of my bosses because they are all aware of my eating disorder. So, now I am so bloated, I am seriously wondering if I could be pregnant..

Which I better the fuck not be. 

I ate so much this weekend. Knowing that I would come home, and start the new week off without eating. And that is what I am going to do. I am doing a true water fast. I am not fucking around this time. No zero calorie gatorade, or zero calorie powerade. Nothing.

Except water.

Absolutely nothing. Ive slipped for 2 weeks. And I am done being fat. So done with hating the way I look.

I have a goal weight.. Well, I actually have 2. And the first one is 12 lbs away from what I am at now. Give me a week. I will bet my whole paycheck that I will be at it. Watch me.