#gender envy pirate of all time

[roenais]

and if im obsessed with her dont even worry about it.

[outlying-hyppocrate]

There was this Halloween parade today at the theme park I went to with my friend for their birthday. And there was this guy on top of one float looking absolutely fuckin. stunning (that's the best word there is for this. I apologize), with a corset and just a very Sam-Smith-in-Unholy-but-if-they-were-a-gay-skeleton-pirate look. And he.... he fucking pointed at me.... like right at me. The parade went around a couple times and we actually saw him again. This time, he fucking waved. I've been sitting in my bathroom saying "I got pointed at by the slutty man from [insert name of theme park here]" for the past couple of seconds and I have come to a conclusion. I am gay as fuck

[jrwi-transgender-swag]

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FISH N CHIPS DIVORCE SHOWDOWN !!!

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Chip

"gestures at him wildly look at him man " - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "Well he's a pirate and that's already very trans coded. He bases his personality and general vibe off people he looks up to which is giving gender envy. The only way Chip could ever be cis to me is if he was the token cishet but he's neither so like… Trans boyy (my words are failing me but you get it)" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "literally the transest guy of all time (loser edition). tits out tuesday. man with tits monday. like. transgender moment real " - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "He was picked up by pirates at a young age pre-pueberty. He then spent most of his childhood in a gang. This kid was so malnourished everyone just assumed he was a guy and he went with it since his puberty was so fucked. My transmasc agender king" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "fucking look at him. most transgender motherfucker to ever exist. we'll never know what his actual name was because he was named based on his first home, the black rose pirates ship. his tattoos go over his top surgery scars" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "he’s just . he just kinda is yknow" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag

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Gillion Tidestrider

"4 of the 5 JRWI fans I actually know fall under the transgender umbrella and all of them are absolutely in love with Gillion so here’s got to have something going on there" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "dude hes a fucking fish what else do you want from me. he has it all. the religious trauma. the swagger. the autism. he even has a cool fucking sword. his entire backstory is him being forced into a role against his will and only when he finds others does he get to fully embrace himself come the fuck ON" - Submitted For All Swag "he literally has gilded top surgery scars (saturn art that proves this even if it’s noncanon) that kind of trans swag cannot be ignored!! fucking!! golden scars!!! that shit kicks so much ass are you kidding!!! the koolest fish trans boy ever my goal in life truly" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "same sorta thing as jay, he has this whole arc of changing from trying to live up to expectations to just being what he wants and thinks is good (very trans of him). also he's a fish guy and probably has no understanding of gender, at least in oversea terms. and he canonically referred to himself with it/its pronouns one time which. yes. i think his titles are like pronouns to him, like in the undersea you refer to yourself by describing yourself and your achievements (pretty sure that's actually a triton thing in actual dnd who knows). he is the chosen one and the chosen one was referred to with they/them pronouns for a reason (definitely because the chosen one is genderqueer and not just to be inclusive mhm you can trust me i have no biases, the goddesses told me themselves)" - Submitted For Nonbinary Swag "gives birthout of his pussy?"  - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "he is like sooo xenogenderr. that fish is just transgender im so sorry. too swagful not to be." - Submitted For Secret Fourth Swag

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[henrioo]

Hi! If it's not too much how abt marco and his s/o's domestic married life in Sphinx? Thank you! 🥺💗

But of course! You can have all you want, read endnotes for thanks and brief explanations

SCENARIO AND IMAGINE OF MARCO THE PHOENIX: PERFECT FAMILY

Marco the phoenix x Reader

Synopsis: What would life be like moving to Sphinx and eventually marrying Marco?

Warnings: Age gap (reader is between 30 and Marco is between 40) Mention of death of relatives, Spoilers post marineford, post time Skip and what happened to the whitebeard/Marco crew

Word count: 1,2k

Notes: You already know, sorry for the bad English and also for the pronouns being masculine, read and interpret as neutral gender or gender that you identify, my thanks for the ask are in the end notes :)

Many things happened to Marco after the war, he lost brothers and especially his father. It was no surprise to anyone that he was shaken, after the second battle with Blackbeard he decided that the life of a pirate no longer made sense and so he decided to disband the crew.

It was really sad to leave the family he grew up with, but it didn't make sense to keep insisting on something that didn't make him happy, so he decided to go take care of his father's home island. Thinking that maybe the life of an ordinary civilian and a little monotonicity could give him a new reason.

And he wasn't wrong, it didn't take long for him to find happiness with the small village, he became the doctor and guardian of the place and obviously everyone was more than kind to him. Owning his own home and even adopting a dog, he might realize that a little rest could do his tired body and mind good.

Initially he didn't plan to date anyone, he wasn't very young anymore and most people his age on the island were already married with kids. But Marco couldn't help but feel sick to his stomach every time he saw the parents with their children, the couples going out together and the beautiful families built there. He felt envy. He also longed to have his little family and be able to dedicate himself lovingly to it.

And that's where you end up coming in, you didn't initially live on the island. But your uncle did, you lived a little further away taking care of your sick parents, when they both ended up passing away your uncle decided to take you in to prevent you from suffering alone. You were looking forward to living on the beautiful and peaceful island you had heard so much about from your relative.

Your uncle was a merchant and you started little by little helping him in the shop and at the market, you were a little shy because you were surrounded by so many unknown people but you soon started to fit in. Being a little older and already in your 30s made things easier, you were seen as a responsible and reliable adult and this attracted generosity from everyone.

You had already heard about Marco, he was the most famous doctor in the village and everyone loved to talk about what a great protector he was. You had never seen him before as he seemed to be quite busy, but curiosity gradually got your attention. Your uncle loved to tease you saying that you should soon become friends and maybe something more, after all he also knew about your dream of having your own family.

That's why your type decided to set up a little meeting so you guys could have a chance to talk, he asked you to take some goods to Marco's house and you obviously didn't refuse. After all, that was your job and you're beyond excited to meet the infamous Doctor Marco.

Little imagine:

You are nervous going to the furthest house in town, you carried a box full of herbs and some vegetables that your uncle had kindly asked you to deliver to Marco, of course you didn't refuse. So there you were standing in front of the door not knowing how to react. You didn't even know each other, how should you start a conversation? Your stomach was in knots and you couldn't help but feel nervous.

You slammed the door and surprised to find it open, you looked inside without actually going inside. Maybe he left?

"Ahn… Excuse me? Is anyone home?" You called as loud as you could and kept waiting for some response.

It was then that something surprising happened, you began to hear footsteps getting closer and closer. So he relaxed thinking he was the boy who was coming to meet him, but in reality it wasn't a man, but a dog! Before you could avoid it, he quickly jumped at you, knocking you down in the process. All the food fell out of the box as you felt a pain in your ankle from the poorly cushioned fall.

You yelped in shock at the attack as you tried to shield yourself from the animal's furious licks on your face. He looked really excited to see someone new.

"Stefan!" You heard someone screaming in the background and soon the dog was off of you "Bad boy! Didn't you see you scared they?" He scolded the animal who sat down politely.

You took the time to look at the man and wow, you felt your stomach turn and heat rise throughout your body. He was definitely the most handsome boy in the entire village. Her blond hair, her red glasses and her mature face were capable of conquering anyone. You were no exception.

"Are you well?" He offered a hand and his deep voice made you shiver.

"Hm… yes… I… it was just a scare" you stammered shyly and took his hand to get up.

As soon as you were standing up you felt the pain back in your ankle and it didn't go unnoticed by the young man.

"It looks like you were hoping for a bad fall, why don't you come in? I can bandage you up and then I'll help you back home" he smiled and you felt the words disappearing, then decided to just sheepishly agree.

After that there was no way things could go wrong. What should have been just a one-off date turned into Marco taking you home and talking to you and your uncle about coming to the island. The next day he showed up at the store and the next day too. When you least realize it, you are seeing each other practically every day.

Initially you were just friends, going to restaurants together, playing with the kids in the square and even hanging out with Stefan, but gradually the smiles became more intimate and the touches closer. It wasn't long before you were walking around hand in hand and hugging each other a lot more than friends do.

You don't know exactly when you fell in love, but you knew you had fallen hard for Marco. You didn't even have time to have insecurities as he was extremely responsible and told you his feelings during a night out together. You almost exploded with happiness knowing that he loved you too, and of course he couldn't be happier to finally be with you either.

Everything after that was fast, it didn't take long for your uncle to approve everything and "kick you out" of the house, of course Marco welcomed you and was happy to live with you. He was the perfect partner and you had nothing to complain about, having a life together with Marco was amazing.

You woke up very early, had breakfast together and took care of the garden. After that, they walked around the city looking for anyone who needed help or doing private consultations, then they could walk around the market and talk a little with the other civilians. Everything was extremely genuine and you couldn't be happier

A little while after they were living together Marco asked you to marry him, he had a nice ring and a candlelit dinner. You cried with emotion as you accepted, you were finally starting your little dream family with the man you loved. And of course this was reciprocal for Marco, he could never imagine that settling down would gradually make him realize his dream of marrying the love of his life and having his own family.

Notes: Many, many thanks for ordering with me! I can't write how happy I was to receive my first ask and I really thank you for it! I ended up focusing more on how they met and got together so maybe it didn't turn out exactly how you wanted it. If you don't like it, let me know and I'll make another one focusing more in married life! Thank you very much, my orders are open if anyone else wants to order! Feel free

[beanghostprincess]

YOOOO saw t4t sanami, do you have any specific thoughts on trans! nami?

OMG YESYESYES!!!!!! First of all, I adore t4t Sanami. It's the best type of Sanami. And I have so many thoughts about trans!Nami... My beloved.

She realizes she's a girl pretty soon in her life since her mom is her role model and she admires Nojiko a lot. But it's more of a gender envy thing most of the time, she just doesn't understand the concept yet-- The thing is, neither girls nor boys understood her passion for maps, and she barely had any friends apart from her sister, so it's a bit hard for her to actually understand what she wants. But she's sure she's a girl. That's something she has clear.

When she comes out to both Bellemere and Nojiko, they're obviously extremely supportive of her. Nojiko is thrilled to have a sister and Bellemere couldn't be happier that her girl trusts her enough to tell her this (you know, they're still young and Bellemere feels a bit insecure sometimes and wonders if they actually see her as their mom). In general, the village is very supportive. They love these kids, c'mon. Maybe there are some comments here and there from people who are more close-minded than others, but Nojiko always goes full protective sister mode.

They don't have money for new clothes, but Bellemere does her best to style Nojiko's old outfits for Nami!! She asks Nami if she wants to grow her hair, and Nami says it'd be a bit uncomfortable but she'll probably give it a try, if it bothers her then she'll probably cut it (she ends up doing it because it gets, indeed, uncomfortable).

Transitioning socially, even if most of the village is supportive, is a bit hard. Nami doesn't like being scared. Or feeling weak. But her mom always tells her to be herself no matter what other people say, because she's the only one who should choose how to live her life. She is a girl, and she has all the right to fight the ones who say otherwise. Nami wonders if fighting will make her look less feminine, but Bellemere says "Well, I fight, don't I? And you see me as a girl. Girls can and should fight. Even better than most men, honestly". And Nami is no longer scared of being more independent and strong.

I just know Genzo is the sweetest, most protective, and most supportive man ever. He even buys her some new clothes and kind of lets her get away sometimes if she gets into fights because he knows she was doing it to defend herself. He has a new picture of the girls on his desk and he's always keeping an eye on her because he knows she's gonna end up being gorgeous and he can't have guys flirting with her.

It's easy for Nami to look more feminine because of her complexion but she's still insecure over a bunch of stuff while she grows up. Everything is worse when she joins Arlong... Okay, so the Arlong Pirates aren't transphobic but Arlong is this type of "passive-aggressive" ally who won't stop asking Nami to thank him for letting her be herself. He's always highlighting the pronouns and sometimes he even buys her stuff that, okay, she likes it. But she doesn't want those clothes from him. It's a living nightmare. He also gives her the chance to medically transition which-- She wishes she could say no, really, but dysphoria is eating her inside most days and she doubts she'll ever have the money to do this on her own. Nojiko is the one who tells her to go for it even though the help doesn't come from the right people.

Anyway- She grows up. The story continues as it is. And when she meets the Strawhats and they defeat Arlong, it's extremely freeing and liberating for her. She finally feels like she can be herself with people who actually care about her. I think the only ones who know she's trans are Zoro (transmasc/transfem communication), Luffy, and Usopp, because she told them at some point. It's not like she hides it from Sanji but... But, you know... She doesn't know how Sanji will react.

It's not that surprising to find out Sanji is a girl too. What is surprising is the fact that she takes it so well. In terms of concept and support. I mean- She knows what being trans is, and accepts it. Apparently, it's just hard to accept it when it comes to herself. She confesses it one day while she's drunk, saying being a girl would be great because they're just... Amazing and perfect. She describes all the things she likes about them and most of it sounds like gender envy and dysphoria to Nami. Something that Sanji confuses a lot with liking them sexually (also true and something Nami understands because she's a lesbian and it's always hard to tell the difference between attraction and gender envy). But Nami just says "You can just... Be a girl, you know? If you wanted to" and it kind of changes Sanji's world forever.

(Quick mention of Alabasta and how Nami falls for Vivi right away, something that she wasn't expecting because being in love is dangerous for her. But they have chemistry and they deeply care for each other. So before they leave, they have this intimate night together in which Nami is extremely scared. She doesn't want to lose Vivi for something like this. She isn't even sure how Alabasta's culture works and if Vivi will be as accepting as she looks. So Nami, still scared and shaking and almost crying for the first time in a long while, comes out to Vivi. The princess is... So accepting and loving it's overwhelming. I know we talk a lot about how Nami probably flirts with every girl she meets and has more experience than Vivi, but I'd like to see this as Nami's first time. Or at least, Nami's first time feeling so loved while having sex. Also, please assume Namivivi is a thing in this post too. Sanamivivi <3).

Nami starts seeing Sanji in a different light, by the way. Not instantly romantic, but she understands now why she acts like that around women. Sort of. She sees her being uncomfortable in her own skin. Sees her twitching whenever somebody highlights the fact that she's ""a man"". Nami even calls her "pretty" once, instead of the usual adjectives, and Sanji tries to act like she doesn't like it but she does, so much it's obvious it hurts her to realize. The egg is cracking and it's not slow, nor subtle, but Nami can't see it because they get separated in Sabaody.

To summarize, Nami gets an amazing boob job there. That's my wonderful explanation for the enormous change in her body after two years. The doctors up there are really good, okay? She lets her hair grow the way her mom mentioned once, and now that she knows how to fight, she can handle it a lot better! Meanwhile, Sanji is having a whole gender crisis back in Momoiro Island but she ends up figuring out that she's a girl and Ivankov is always our salvation for these things.

They find each other again, and Nami couldn't be more proud of Sanji. I mean- All of them are proud of her. They love her. They love her even more now that she has accepted herself. But for Nami, having somebody in the crew who went through the same things as her and who now feels comfortable with her body makes her incredibly happy. So long story short, Sanji moves to the Girls' quarters. Also, they find out Robin is also trans, something she hadn't mentioned because obviously there's no need to do it, but the girl is a fucking mystery and she hadn't mentioned it until NOW??? And Nami is about to start crying because she finally doesn't feel so alone.

You know, things go by smoothly. Nami likes wearing tops and bikinis to show off her body because she's really proud of it and Sanji keeps wearing her suits but sometimes they also share clothes. Although Sanji has a liking for Robin's outfits better. They grow closer and share experiences and even though Nami opens up about her past, Sanji doesn't. And it's not like she has to do it... But Nami wishes she trusted her more. Anyway- Showering Nami with love wasn't something Sanji only did before, she still does it. And Nami is starting to fall a little bit for her? She hates to admit it, but Sanji is gorgeous. Gorgeous and really, really sweet and not that annoying anymore, now that she has found herself. Nami thinks it could be just sexual, but she knows it isn't only that-- She's scared of falling in love because falling for somebody means being able to lose them. And she would hate it. But she lets herself do it for once.

And then Whole Cake Island happens, and Nami kind of wants to die. It's when she realizes she's in love with Sanji (yay! Losing more people she loves!) and she's extremely angry at her for doing what she's doing. Pushing them away. But Nami can't really be that furious, right? She did the same thing to them, after all... It's so, so painful to see Sanji act like somebody she isn't. Her family made her cut her hair. Wear a binder and everything. Nami isn't sure whether she's crying for the fight or Sanji right now. When Sanji comes back to them, Nami wants to hug her and never let her go,, They start dating pretty much right after WCI, so Wano is painful because they aren't together and Nami realizes, right after the big fight, that Sanji is going through something she doesn't want to talk about. Not that she has to do it, because Nami will be there no matter what.

Little transfem!Nami / T4T Sanami quick headcanons:

As I said, they share clothes but Sanji prefers wearing Robin's style. However, Nami does steal Sanji's shirts all. The. Time. Not that the cook cares, though, she looks gorgeous.

Sanji is a bit self-conscious because Nami has bigger boobs. Not that it matters at all and Nami finds it incredibly stupid, but anyway- Nami is always worshipping Sanji's body when it's needed. Sometimes she thinks Sanji just says it to fish compliments from her.

Nami loves Sanji's short hair and is constantly reminding her that she looks beautiful this way, even if she prefers it long.

Nami actually is pretty insecure about her hands. They don't look as feminine and she would like them too. And she knows it's stupid but,, It still bothers her. Sanji is always kissing them and painting her nails, though!

I like Nami being extremely deranged sometimes and maybe a guy tells her that's not very lady-like and Nami always thinking about Bellemere and how she'd kick ass anyway.

[fairy-writes]

1300 Follower Event!

Hello! I recently reached 1300 followers and am literally, like… lowkey crying?

I know I say this every time. But I seriously cannot imagine myself ever having gotten this far. I can’t imagine anyone actually enjoying what I write, much less wanting to follow my silly little writing blog.

But for this event! I’m hosting a cafe! Just like I did way back when! Basically, you guys order a drink, and I’ll write either headcanons, drabbles, scenarios, or one-shots!

The event will be open for two weeks starting today! It’ll be available from Monday, November 27th, 2023 to Monday, December 11th, 2023! 

ALL ORDERS ARE UNDER #fairy1300followers

Rules are: 

All orders are written as character x reader!

Everything is gender neutral reader unless specifically stated otherwise (ex: you request a female reader)

TWO ORDERS PER PERSON

Please send them in separately so I can keep track of everything!

You don’t have to choose an add-on special. Those are just if you want to have some extra fun!

Any orders that do not follow the rules will be deleted. 

I will write for the following people:

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The Case Study of Vanitas: Vanitas, Noé Archiviste, Roland Fortis, Dominique de Sade

Demon Slayer: All the Hashira (except for Muichiro), Akaza, Kokushibo, Douma, Kamado Tanjiro (aged up), Agatsuma Zenitsu (aged up), Hashibira Inosuke (aged up)

Doctor Who: The Doctor (9th, 10th, 11th, 12th), Jack Harkness, River Song

Fullmetal Alchemist: Roy Mustang, Greed (not Greedling), Riza Hawkeye, Jean Havoc, Envy, Alex Louis Armstrong, Olivier Armstrong, Edward Elric (post-FMAB), Alphonse Elric (post-FMAB), Ling Yao (post-FMAB)

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Extra-Small: Headcanons (new headcanon style with a short blurb at the end)

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Espresso: Angst (emotional pain)

Cappuccino: Hurt/Comfort

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Smoothie: My choice! Just send in a character and a size!

Add-On Specials: 

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Example Order: Hello! Can I please get a large latte with spice with Tanjiro from Demon Slayer? 

Translation: Hello! Can I get a fluffy Victorian AU imagine with Tanjiro from Demon Slayer?

Example Order: Can I please order a medium black coffee with Kaneki Ken from Tokyo Ghoul?

Translation: Can I please get a whump scenario with Kaneki Ken from Tokyo Ghoul?

[caatfaace]

T4T Genshin Headcanons

Featuring: Kaeya, Diluc, and Albedo

Reader is Gender-neutral but is Trans in some way

(part two will be written eventually)

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Kaeya | FtM He/Him | CW: Mentions of Dysphoria, mention of alcohol, brief mention of a dead parent

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• Kaeya is not an open man about anything really, especially things regarding his identity.

• So he feels a sense of relief when you come out to him because he can be open to you in a way he doesn’t get to be with other people.

• I feel like Kaeya would really enjoy a t4t relationship because he wouldn’t be afraid of you not understanding things he deals with.

• His, now deceased, adoptive father was quite wealthy so he was able to afford a medical transition. Because of that experience he can help you with yours, if you want a medical transition.

• Gets gender envy over pirates and feels gender euphoria when dressing like a pirate. 

• I mean this in the least thirstiest way possible but Kaeya is very proud of his chest. Top surgery is expensive so his chest is worth thousands of mora and he wants it to be treated like that. Please rest your head on his chest when cuddling it makes him so happy. 

• He has a great fashion sense and would love to take you out shopping if you don’t have any gender affirming clothing. 

• He tends to hide his gender dysphoria but when you’ve been dating for a while, you can tell. Diluc also happens to let his concerns slip to you as a nice hint whenever Kaeya is feeling especially down. 

• When he goes for your comfort he always asks you to give him some wholesome affirmations. His personal favorite is being called “dashing”. It feels masculine to Kaeya.

• He’s pretty observant so if you ever deal with dysphoria he is quite quick to figure you out. He is surprisingly good at comfort so make sure you use that to your advantage.

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Kaeya always found himself discovering all the little ways you made his life better. Like how you helped him fight his unhealthy coping mechanisms, or how you always listen to his slightly over dramatic rants, or even when you would always greet with a smile that Kaeya would kill for. But there was one thing Kaeya was especially grateful for. You see, whenever Kaeya has a particularly rough day he climbs into your shared bed late at night, smelling slightly of wine, and holds you like you’ll leave him behind at any moment. This isn’t the first time and you know this is far from your last; but you understood what hardship Kaeya has to face in his day to day life. You knew just what it was like. 

Kaeya was quick to plop onto the bed, not even bothering to take off the pirate-style boots he liked to wear. You could worry about the possible mud staining the fancy sheets later. There are more important things right now and his name is Kaeya Ragnvindr-Alberich. 

“Would you like anything?” You’d ask him, even though you could predict what response your boyfriend would give. He breathed in your scent and let out a hum.

“You know what I like.”  He breathed in your scent and let out a hum. You’d always indulge the silent wishes Kaeya would have. You ran your fingers through his navy locks, undoing the thin ponytail and letting the jeweled accessory sit on the bedside table. Kaeya melted like butter in your hands and he let out a familiar and content hum. You could see his ears darken a shade. It was so faint that you could only really notice when you were this close to Kaeya. You’d never say anything about it because you knew how shy Kaeya could get when called out. He would, as a very wise man had put it, lose his swagger.

You could think more about it at a later time where you didn’t have an exhausted and overworked boyfriend curled around you. “You’re very handsome, Kaeya.” You whisper while rubbing a hand down his back, “Dashing, spectacular, stunning…the perfect man.” It was always pretty cheesy but Kaeya seemed to like corniness for comfort. 

Kaeya was a man with a mask, a mask you had to spend months to break down just to get a peek into his icy heart. Your patience was something he greatly appreciated–he just wished there was a way he could repay that kindness you always give him. 

After that night, you started to find little notes hidden all over the shared apartment. Written on those notes were a variety of affirmations; affirmations of both your identity and affirmations of just how loved you were by the citizens of Mondsadt. Kaeya would always play it off like it was nothing…but he was always pleased to see a smile on your face. You were worth all the paper in Tevyat and Kaeya will always be determined to remind you of that.

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Diluc | Ftm He/They | CW: Dysphoria, brief mention of a dead parent, brief non-sexual touching (you touch their top surgery scars)

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• Diluc was raised in a very open family so he never thought much about the fact he was transgender. He isn’t open about it, but he isn’t quiet about it either. If someone asks him about it then he’ll be honest.

• He was pretty nonchalant when he found out about your gender identity. They go “Hm, alright.” and go back to their day.

•  But, subconsciously, this does affect how willing Diluc is to tell you certain things. It sucks not being able to talk about certain aspects of your life and Diluc does want to talk about certain things. If they were to tell anyone else they can imagine the types of faces they’ll get. 

• Being around you is a sense of comfort for Diluc so the guy almost hovers around you because he’s too much of a gentleman to pull you in for a hug while in public. In private though? They look like a puppy.

• Diluc likes to think he looks like their dad, but they’ll never outwardly admit it. He wears his hair the same because he wants to be a man in the same way his deceased father was. 

• Diluc wears a lot of layers because his gender dysphoria is worse in regards to his figure. It’s changed a lot over the years thanks to hormone therapy and affirmation surgeries. He doesn’t hate his figure and is willing to be wearing less when alone but he has a deep rooted fear of how differently people will see him.

•  You definitely help that fear because they feel you understand in some way. You make him feel handsome.

• Diluc is a man with a lot of power so you better believe anyone that disrespects you face the wrath of Diluc Ragnvindr (and Adelinde because girlboss)

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It was one of the hottest nights you and your boyfriend had ever experienced–yet the man refused to get out of the thick fleece pajamas.

“I have a pyro vision, I can handle a bit of heat.” He would tell you and you rolled your eyes each time. It would be their funeral when they can’t fall asleep because of how terribly hot it was in your shared bedroom! Diluc tossed and turned that entire night and, you aren’t one to flaunt when you’re right, but you knew Diluc couldn’t possibly handle another night in those sweltering pajamas–nor could you handle another night struggling to fall asleep because of Diluc moving around just centimeters away. 

“Diluc, at this point I’ll have to go sleep on the couch.” You sat up with a deep sigh. You could feel Diluc tense up from your side and they refused to meet your gaze. They were clearly deep in thought and you could tell those thoughts weren’t the most positive. 

“You can tell me, y’know?” You turned your position so you were facing Diluc completely. He ran a hand through his hair and moments passed in silence. You knew it was starting to get late and if Diluc wasn’t ready to talk about it then you wouldn’t force it. A night on the couch isn’t the worst thing.

“Wait!” Dilucs voice cracked and he tugged the end of your shirt. That small touch didn’t last too long, however, and he was quick to stand up and pace around the room all while mumbling words you couldn’t quite make out. By the time they stopped, you knew they were ready.

“I’m worried.” He played with the edges of the long sleeves, “My body…it isn’t the same as people born as men. I can’t help but worry–” He couldn’t bring himself to finish what he wanted to say but you knew what he meant.

“Oh, Diluc, nothing can make you less of a man than you are now.” You smiled, “I won’t see you as less of a man. Manhood is more than your body.”

Diluc let out a small laugh, “you of all people would know that.” He said, more to himself than to you. The whole thing felt silly to them now…but your patient gaze was enough to remind them that their worries aren’t silly. Diluc stiffly and uncomfortably undid the buttons of his shirt, taking it off completely and letting it rest on a chair not too far away. He rubbed his arm nervously. 

“I’m proud of you.” You reassured him quietly, dragging a finger across the thin scars laid just below his pecs. They shivered under your touch but didn’t ask you to stop. It was little touches like this that made him melt and you knew that more than anyone. That night was a night where Dliuc had one less worry taken off their shoulders. They were far from a religious man but, that night, they thanked the Archons for your patience. 

•················ (ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ) ················•

Albedo | Intersex? (they essentially have no genitalia) | They/them | CW: Brief mention of reproduction  •·············•

• Albedo was a false human, someone made of nothing but chalk. They also weren’t created with reproduction in mind so they were given no parts to do so. From the beginning they weren’t a person that matched the idea of “gender” that mortals had.

• Despite this, Albedo understands gender–to an extent. They understand it because of how alchemy related to the development of hrt. 

• Albedo was rather confused when you came out to them because they weren’t even aware “coming out” was a concept. What was the point of telling them? Either way, it didn’t change much. 

• Albedo has a natural curiosity and asks you many questions about your identity. They, quite adorably, write your answers down in a notebook you later discover is filled to the brim with information on you and what you like. Do not ask Albedo about it because they will die of embarrassment.

• Albedo has many drawings of you as well, by the way. I know that doesn’t need to be mentioned but just know they do. 

• If you are interested in any medical transition then Albedo actually does the research for you and makes a list of all the most important information you need to know. Please tell them they did a good job, they need praise.

• Albedo also needs to be told they are pretty (just trust me bro) •·············•

“May I paint you?” Albedo had asked you one afternoon. You both were in Albedo’s office in the Favonious building–quite the different setting than the usual cold and silence of Dragonspine. You could tell Albedo doesn’t spend too much time here due to how uncharacteristically neat the room was. You didn’t dwell on it, instead, you were more curious over the question Albedo had just asked you.

“You always paint me, Albedo.” You told them and they shook their head. 

“No, no. That’s not what I mean.” Albedo looks at their own hands and taps their fingers together rhythmically, “I meant paint you, literally. As in to use you as a canvas. Just your arm is fine–”

You could tell Albedo was growing increasingly embarrassed, like they were asking you something completely obscene. You chuckle to yourself and pull up your sleeve as a silent grant of permission. Albedo perked like a puppy and gathered some paints you didn’t recognize. They were likely the usual paints Albedo used but alchemically altered to be safe for skin contact. 

“Look away, it’ll ruin the surprise.” Albedo could hardly hold back their smile. You rolled your eyes and looked out the window to distract yourself from whatever masterpiece was about to paint upon your skin.

The paint made contact with your skin and you tried your best to hold back a shiver from both the cold and the tickle of the thin hairs of Albedo’s paintbrush. You closed your eyes and tried to guess what Albedo was painting by using nothing but the strokes the brush made against your arm. Perhaps those distractions were better than what you had thought because it didn’t seem to take very long. Albedo pulled away and put their paint brushes into a cup with rather murky-looking water. 

“I am finished.” Albedo spoke up and you took a look at what they painted. You immediately recognized the colors of your pride flag painted as a mystical, twisting forest up your forearm. You were stunned and silent for what seemed like hours. In fact, you were so quiet that Albedo began to worry you didn’t like their work, or maybe they got the wrong flag? “Albedo I love it! Thank you.” You held your arm out to get a better look, Albedo grew a bit shy from the compliment and busied themself by cleaning up their paints and palette. 

“I did a bit of research on the LGBTQ+ community, I didn’t know they had so many flags.” Albedo explained like they always did when they showed you something they completed, “when I found yours, I simply had to paint. I wanted to test those skin-safe paints for a while now as well, it was perfect.”

“Albedo, you are perfect.” You paused for a moment and then let out a sigh, “It’s a shame it can’t be saved. I’ll have to wash it off sometime…”

“We can always use a kamera to take a picture.” Albedo responded and you heard the flutter and click of a kamera. You had just assumed Albedo only took a photo of the masterpiece on your arm. But, from behind your back, Albedo held a picture of you in your entirety; admiring the swirling colors that Albedo lovingly painted onto your skin. You don’t need to know now, or ever, but Albedo had no plans to give this secret photo up anytime soon.  •················ (ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ) ················•

Thank you for reading : )

[hikennosabo]

trimax vol 13 random thoughts (ch 1-4)

ohhhh i can't believe we're almost to the end... i'm so full of anticipation. love to see my boy livio on the cover :)

why does it say THIS on the back cover lol??? vash isn't DEAD as much as he'd like to be :')

i LOVE the pirate-themed joke covers... impeccable timing as i'm (slowly) watching opla this week lol. elendira looks so dashing in her outfit :') the inner illustration with vash and legato is great too, i love it~

chapter 1:

the flashback to legato getting accordion'd... i miss knives's long hair tbh...

wait i'm obsessed with this image of legato. dare i say gender envy

i'm admittedly confused about what's going on in this scene... someone in the tag said vash is using his bullets to block the cannonfire, but i don't know if that's what's happening...? he definitely did not do that when the cannon fired in the previous chapter, and i think the ガガガ sfx are sounds from the cannon firing, not a gun... so why is vash screaming? not like he needs a specific reason to scream in his situation, i'd want to scream too.

legatoooo your silhouette is so striking

i enjoy knives's expression here, it's as if he's saying "i dare you to go ahead and try," lol

it also hurts just a little to see knives like this compared to his current self. him being human-shaped feels like it was so long ago.

he's being so mean and dismissive on purpose but his yawn is so cute :')

this has nothing to do with what's going on, but i wonder if knives can even sleep at all in the state he's in. i don't think he can...

"admire"... i've only ever made jokes about this myself so don't take this too seriously but i wonder why legato x vash is such a rarepair. y'know, the toxic psychosexual obsession type of ship. especially with what happens right after this with legato seeing himself in vash? "recognition of the self through the other" is pretty standard ship fuel...

......although... if the two of them stopped fighting right now and kissed each other instead, i think THAT would shock knives so much just long enough that chronica could successfully blast him with the cannon. boom, fight over, problem solved, roll credits (i'm joking I'M JOKING)

on a more serious note i'm chewing on glass

legato looks at vash and sees a broken man, sees his past self... and laughs in disbelief... as a legato fan i should have more to say about this but. i don't know how to articulate anything besides eating glass

uuuugggghhh i'm laying on the floor. the juxtaposition of how much my heart hurts at this vs me thinking legato's insane expression and little fangs are cute

a silly vash face, a rare sight in this volume...!!! also... ALL the gung-ho guns? i say once again: elendira didn't get a coin. so i ask again: did she refuse to participate because it's legato? or does this mean legato didn't think vash could kill elendira?

also, "kill"... lol. not even all of them are dead, and as for the ones that are, exactly zero of them were killed by vash's hand.

oh this is diabolical. heinous even. that the point of this entire farce was so fucking frivolous is so fitting for him, i love it

chapter 2:

vash is FUCKING PISSED

it's interesting that vash is including razlo and zazie among the "dead" ghg... livio was included at the end of the last chapter too, and he's certainly not dead, except in a metaphorical "my past self is dead" sense... is vash assuming that razlo is gone forever? like how i did until i read this volume?? and i don't think vash even knows what happened to zazie at all...?

speaking of zazie, where are they at? their previous body was killed, but they're a hivemind, they can't die. are the worms just hanging back watching this all unfold?

ohhh boyyy like the 98 anime! (it wasn't in his mouth in the anime though...) hope we get a scene like this in stampede too so we can complete the "vash points his gun at legato's head" trifecta

i've been thinking this for a while, but... there are a lot of differences in each version of trigun, different ways the characters are adapted, but i think legato is pretty much the same in all of them. like, his powers work differently, and things happen or don't happen to him depending on the version, but personality-wise? he's the same guy at his core, i think the most "the same" out of all the other characters. that core being he is A Freak

also i don't know exactly what legato is doing in this next sequence of pages so i'm going to imagine he's hulking out because it just takes that much effort to simultaneously maneuver to summon his iron maiden and keep vash's gun in his mouth.

and then we cut to what has become my MOST ANTICIPATED FIGHT OF THIS ENTIRE STORY!!! YEAHHHH!!!

she doesn't seem surprised so much as mildly bemused, lol

she appeared suddenly behind him last volume, now it's livio's turn to suddenly appear behind her. heheheh

i ADORE their back-and-forth so much. like, a fight between 1. two of the strongest characters, 2. who also happen to be some of my favorites, 3. AND they have absolutely fantastic banter?! what more can i ask for!!!

i am in love with both of them

i'm in tears. he has no business being this cute while also pulling off such a cool move.

chapter 3:

ohhhh, so legato uses his iron maiden by swinging her around. what is this kind of weapon called... a mace? *googles* no, a mace is attached to a stick, this is actually called a flail. i see.

why does he lick vash's blood off the floor HSDLKFJDS?!?!?! i forgot how long his tongue is... god, he is such a freak (affectionate)

he can carry her over his shoulder with no problem, kick her like a soccer ball with no problem... also he's so leggy... (leg... ato...)

oh, sweetie, absolutely not.

legato's relationships are all pretty one-sided, aren't they? his relationship with knives goes without saying, but he's got a one-sided obsession with fighting vash, a rivalry that's all in his own head which vash does not reciprocate. and his relationship with elendira is one-sided the other way around in that he's the one ignoring HER goading... lol.

thinking back, vash went from "from now on, i'm hunting you!" to really wanting to avoid fighting legato for as long as possible...

OH, THE FLAIL ALSO HAS GUNS IN IT. BECAUSE OF COURSE IT DOES. HOW DOES THAT EVEN WORK?! (the answer is it works because it's cool, obviously!)

livio is so CUTE!!!! he's so cute, i'm actually going to cry. if i included every cute livio panel in this post i would hit the image limit so fast.

i will post this one though because i also love how PISSED elendira is, it's so funny.

ugh, he's so cute, he's so cute, he's so cute!!!!! i can't get over how cute he is!!!!! getting a morale boost from his clothes... he's such a sweetie. head in hands. i feel like i'm going to explode from a cuteness overdose.

chapter 4:

ELENDIRA'S ROCK-LEE-DROPPING-THE-WEIGHTS MOMENT LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOO!!!!!!

i am in love with both of them.

there's the number thirteen again...

it's kinda... i dunno. sad? that the earth fleet has more knowledge of what's going on than the people who actually live here...

well. one of those things isn't true anymore. :')

also, what do you mean "for some reason"?! was the tradeoff for all those fancy advances in technology the entire earth's stock of hair gel?!

LEGato...

that... sure is a lot of bullet casings... and oh... his coat is black now... like the title of the chapter... and like at the end of stampede... i see...

i think this is the most normal-looking smile i've ever seen from legato. he actually looks more handsome than insane (but still pretty insane)

WAIT, WAIT, PAUSE THE FIGHT, PAUSE THE STORY, WHO ARE THE OTHER TWO PEOPLE. TELL ME ABOUT THOSE FIGHTS PLEASE

AAAHHH!!!! THE RETURN OF!!!! OUR BOY RAZLO!!!!!! YEEEEAAAHHHH!!!!! i was honestly so sad and lowkey disappointed when i thought he was gone permanently because i ended up liking him a lot LOL i'm SO glad he's back!!!!

and with that i will end this post, to be continued in part 2...

[pirateflavor]

My experiences with Godenteredmybody/Gib

Hey, Pirate Flavor here.

If you don’t already know, Godenteredmybody aka Gib, the previous face of the weirdcore community (owning the og server before its deletion, subreddit, and involvement with all community-based affairs), was called out for harboring inappropriate behavior towards minors by several past mods, including me. Understandably this has yielded mixed reactions, as Gib was a highly trusted and looked upon member of the community.

However there is still more extent to what has occurred, and for the first time I am bringing my experiences to light. I apologize in advance for this post being lengthy, but I want to provide as much information as I can. If you haven’t already, please read the callout post chain I linked above as it adds context to everything.

Before I begin, let me make a psa: I am not saying that Gib groomed me. I am pointing out a lot of his actions toward me as well as many other people were very questionable on several occasions and were blown off by his way of normalization.

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Tw // mentions of grooming/encouraged nsfw behavior, minors being exposed to nsfw content, mentions of sexually explicit behavior, and general discussion of very uncomfortable situations.

As a server elite

I met Gib when I was 16-17, and within a few months we became close friends. In the coming months Gib took a liking to me, conversing a lot and even promoting me to mod status. This is where the timeline begins, as Gib held me in special regard. He did in fact, state this on at least one occasion, alongside allowing me special privileges with other people in his circle (almost exclusively other mods whom were christened by him).

I was also never reprimanded or criticized for anything by him. I used to have a habit of making vulgar jokes to the point of purposefully getting a server wide reaction, and Gib would constantly shrug it off despite. I did notice this before and asked if what I was doing was okay, to which I’d usually get a “you’re fine” from Gib.

Art and character content

This next part’s gonna have a lot.

Around April 2021, I showcased one of my characters to the server. [For anyone not in the server and/or not familiar, a demon man with a round red/white face (different character from my Tumblr mascot)]. Gib immediately took interest in him, and soon he became a regular presence in the server alongside other people’s ocs. While I did like the attention, eventually Gib became significantly attached to my character. Throughout the rest of 2021-2022, Gib constantly drew images of him unprompted. For perspective, I have a folder dedicated to this oc on my phone, and over 70 images were drawn by Gib. Keep in mind this is only ones I had saved.

I didn’t mind, as I do have comfort characters of my own, but there were several patterns that leave me feeling it wasn’t fully innocent interest. For one, Gib had a habit of drawing my character topless. When I once asked him, he said that it was “gender envy” (this was prior to his transitioning). While I could understand that sentiment, I do not think someone would draw another person’s oc half-naked several times for that reason alone, especially without asking. Alongside that, Gib did draw him in situations that were contextually explicit. Examples include him stomping on another server character’s genitals, one of Gib’s characters touching his chest lewdly while he was visibly uncomfortable, and him stuck in a jar. At one point he also made a channel called ‘demon s*x roleplay’ and immediately deleted it.

The two biggest things to point out here are that this began prior to me turning 18, and Gib never reached out for my consent doing any of this.

The part that makes me uncomfortable about this is Gib’s history. Being an artist in both the wc server and the private one, he did post a lot of art and would even do some for other server members. The problem with that is that he was fine with being overtly nsfw. He had a tendency to post suggestive drawings and even full nsfw cropped/censored as a joke, all in the presence of minors. (In some cases it was fully uncensored in group drawing streams.) Once he toured his sketchbook live and refused to show several pages implying they were explicit. By his standards, these must have been considerably inappropriate.

[Based on this, and his obsession with my character… what’s to say there’s isn’t legitimate porn drawn of my oc behind my back that was just never made public? I certainly hope there isn’t, because I trusted Gib enough to not do that.]

Now I don’t want to sound like a prude. I do enjoy mature humor and I have nothing against porn as an adult. I can’t stress this enough — drawing porn for “funnies” still makes it porn. Regardless of context, you shouldn’t be exposing it to minors at all. Again, everything that happened I’ve mentioned above was before I was 18. And in the original weirdcore server there were members as young as 13.

Getting under the surface

I’ve mentioned that I was close to Gib, and that is notable in my case. I have prominent trust issues that make it difficult for me to completely lower my guard around others. But I was practically an open book with Gib. He made himself trustworthy enough that around him, I allowed myself to be vulnerable to the point he knew deeper aspects of myself. He knew most of my secrets, personal struggles, and even intimate desires. He was supportive and accepting far more than anyone I’d ever known, so I had no reason to feel like I had to hide anything.

But most importantly about this: Gib knew that I was a victim of grooming and was still actively recovering from it. Through the same time period when I became part of the weirdcore community, elsewhere I was sexually harassed and manipulated/conditioned as a minor. This happened twice under different circumstances, and I ended up processing this in front of Gib and the other members of the private gc. I didn’t have trusted people to turn to outside of my friends who were willing to talk, so there were voice calls where discussion happened.

I don’t want to make this out like Gib meant to be malicious, but he easily had all the pieces in place to take advantage of me if so desired. Especially with his habit of normalizing behavior.

Aftermath

I’m not gonna spend a lot of time into writing this part because I don’t want to conflate my personal feelings unnecessarily.

The surfacing of everything Gib did hit me hard. At first I had thought it was a major misunderstanding when I saw @americanhouses’s post for the first time, but the reblog from @puredragonn is when the realization hit. It really felt like a serious betrayal, and I know I’m not the only one. I loved and trusted him as a friend, I was literally still talking to him up until the day of.

I ended up vomiting two days in to the callout, and was in a really low state for the rest of the month combined with other shit in my life. I’m doing better than I was at least, but my mood still gets dampened thinking about Gib.

I’ve been talking with Dragonn about everything, and she’s been really nice to communicate with. We’ve shared similar experiences with Gib so it’s helped me process some. I wanna thank her for cementing my courage to get this all out here.

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If anyone has any questions about anything regarding this situation, my asks are open. Just please be respectful and know boundaries, that’s all I’m asking.

And Gib, if by chance you’re reading this… know that I haven’t forgotten all the memories we shared throughout Weirdcord, but I’m not going to see you in the same light I used to. I hope you consider your actions, do some serious soul-searching, and turn out better in the end.

[vanillawhiskeyflavoredkisses]

I can't even...

"Why did Depp, who had already lost a similar case in Britain, insist on going back to court? A public trial, during which allegations of physical, sexual, emotional and substance abuse against him were sure to be repeated, couldn’t be counted on to restore his reputation. Heard, his ex-wife, was counting on the opposite: that the world would hear, in detail, about the physical torments that led her to describe herself, in the Washington Post op-ed that led to the suit, as “a public figure representing domestic abuse.”

Even before the verdict came in, Depp had already won. What had looked to many like a clear-cut case of domestic violence had devolved into a “both sides” melodrama. The fact that Heard’s partial victory, which involved not Depp’s words but those spoken in 2020 by Adam Waldman, his lawyer at the time, can be spun in that direction shows how such ambiguity served Depp all along. As one commenter on The New York Times site put it, “Every relationship has its troubles.” Life is complicated. Maybe they were both abusive. Who really knows what happened? The convention of courtroom journalism is to make a scruple of indeterminacy. And so we found ourselves in the familiar land of he said/she said.

We should know by now that the symmetry implied by that phrase is an ideological fiction, that women who are victims of domestic violence and sexual assault have a much harder time being listened to than their assailants. I don’t mean that women always tell the truth, that men are always guilty as charged, or that due process isn’t the bedrock of justice. But Depp-Heard wasn’t a criminal trial; it was a civil action intended to measure the reputational harm each one claimed the other had done. Which means that it rested less on facts than on sympathies.

In that regard, Depp possessed distinct advantages. He isn’t a better actor than Heard, but her conduct on the stand was more harshly criticized in no small part because he’s a more familiar performer, a bigger star who has dwelled for much longer in the glow of public approbation. He brought with him into the courtroom the well-known characters he has played, a virtual entourage of lovable rogues, misunderstood artists and gonzo rebels. He’s Edward Scissorhands, Jack Sparrow, Hunter S. Thompson, Gilbert Grape.

We’ve seen him mischievous and mercurial, but never truly menacing. He’s someone we’ve watched grow up, from juvenile heartthrob on “21 Jump Street” to crusty old salt in the “Pirates of the Caribbean” franchise. His offscreen peccadilloes (the drinking, the drugs, the “Winona Forever” tattoo) have been part of the pop-cultural background noise for much of that time, classified along with the scandals and shenanigans that have been a Hollywood sideshow since the silent era.

In his testimony, Depp copped to some bad stuff, but this too was a play for sympathy, of a piece with the charm and courtliness he was at pains to display. That he came off as a guy unable to control his temper or his appetites was seen, by many of the most vocal social media users, to enhance his credibility, while Heard’s every tear or gesture was taken to undermine hers. The audience was primed to accept him as flawed, vulnerable, human, and to view her as monstrous.

Because he’s a man. Celebrity and masculinity confer mutually reinforcing advantages. Famous men — athletes, actors, musicians, politicians — get to be that way partly because they represent what other men aspire to be. Defending their prerogatives is a way of protecting, and asserting, our own. We want them to be bad boys, to break the rules and get away with it. Their seigneurial right to sexual gratification is something the rest of us might resent, envy or disapprove of, but we rarely challenge it. These guys are cool. They do what they want, including to women. Anyone who objects is guilty of wokeness, or gender treason, or actual malice.

Of course there are exceptions. In the #MeToo era there are men who have gone to jail, lost their jobs or suffered disgrace because of the way they’ve treated women. The fall of certain prominent men — Harvey Weinstein, Leslie Moonves, Matt Lauer — was often welcomed as a sign that a status quo that sheltered, enabled and celebrated predators, rapists and harassers was at last changing.

A few years later, it seems more likely that they were sacrificed not to end that system of entitlement but rather to preserve it. Almost as soon as the supposed reckoning began there were complaints that it had gone too far, that nuances were being neglected and too-harsh punishments meted out.

This backlash has been folded into a larger discourse about “cancel culture,” which is often less about actions than words. “Cancellation” is now synonymous with any criticism that invokes racial insensitivity, sexual misbehavior or controversial opinions. Creeps are treated as martyrs, and every loudmouth is a free-speech warrior. Famous men with lucrative sinecures on cable news, streaming platforms and legacy print publications can proclaim themselves victims.

Which is just what Depp did. And while he accused Heard of doing terrible things to him in the course of their relationship and breakup, the lawsuit wasn’t about those things. It was about words published under her name, none of which were “Johnny Depp.” In a sentence the jury found false and malicious, after describing herself as “representing domestic abuse” Heard wrote that she “felt the full force of our culture’s wrath for women who speak out.” This time she surely has.

Misogyny isn’t the subtext of American political rage and social dysfunction; all too often, it’s the plain text. The links between domestic violence and mass shootings are chilling and well documented, though rarely cited in arguments about policy and prevention. The mobs of social media mobilize against women with special frequency and ferocity, often using the language of righteous grievance. Gamergate, a campaign of harassment directed at women who wrote about video game culture, pretended to be about “ethics in journalism.” The alt-right in the months before the 2016 election and its post-Trump progeny specialize in targeted misogyny. The TikTok hordes that went after Amber Heard over the past few months took a page from that book.

Depp’s victory is also theirs. The rage of men whose grievances are inchoate and inexhaustible found expression in a 58-year-old movie star’s humiliation of his 36-year-old former wife. I have to wonder: Are men OK? That’s a sincere question. Does the blend of self-pity, vanity, petulance and bombast that Depp displayed on the stand represent how we want to see ourselves or our sons? That’s a rhetorical question. The answer is yes.

Not all men, though. Right? Now that the trial is over, we’ll find new things to be ambiguous about, new venues where indeterminacy can serve as an alibi for the same old cruelty, and for its newer iterations. Johnny Depp is being embraced as a hero in some quarters, but his victory extends even to those who will allow themselves to feel troubled by the outcome of the trial and then move on. Some of us may wince a little when we watch “Pirates of the Caribbean” or “Donnie Brasco,” but we’ll probably still watch. They’re pretty good movies, and it’s not as if they can be expunged from the collective memory. That hasn’t happened to Louis C.K., or Woody Allen, or Michael Jackson, or Mel Gibson, or even Bill Cosby. Some of them have gone to court, some have faced public censure and disgrace, but they all remain woven into the fabric of the culture, and their behavior is too. We may not entirely forget, but we mostly forgive.

Let’s at least be clear about what that means. It means that we value the comfort and self-regard of men, especially famous ones, more than we value the safety and dignity of women, even famous ones."

(x)

This was written by a man. Which honestly kills me because all it does is prove that misandry is alive and well when it comes to the subject of domestic abuse. Just like that age old view of the patriarchy unable to see women as equals, women as anything other than damsels in distress, fragile little creatures that must be protected at all costs, here we have proof that society is still unable to accept the fact that a woman can abuse a man. And because said abuser is a woman, then society demands that we absolutely believe everything they've claimed despite evidence that was entered into a court of law that was reviewed by legal experts and jurors alike proving the contrary. It demands that not only are we to circle her wagons and defend her due to her anatomy but also turn a blind eye to her abuses of not only a man but other human beings that it has been documented by law enforcement and in a court of law that she actually did.

I am just...astonished. This is the NY Times. They approved this piece. And rather than talk to actual abuse experts and psychological experts, even law enforcement, they choose to continue to be part of the problem.

Let me say this, had I heard JD making the statements on the audio recordings that AH did instead, I absolutely would be just as passionate in supporting her. Because I support ALL survivors, regardless of their gender.

And because of my experience in this arena, because I am a survivor, I can tell you that within seconds of hearing AH speaking that I knew right then, other evidence sight unseen, who was really abusing who. It's a special club that not one of us ever wants to be a part of.

[lover-cook]

Valentine's Week : Familial

Ohhhh familial f/os oh my familial f/os. These guys do genuinely mean so much to me you don't even know man. I'm gonna ramble about my fictional dads and siblings to my hearts content!

I'm gonna start with the Powerful Dad Quartet!

Buggy, Mihawk, and Shanks in particular really REALLY resonate with me like. THOSE ARE MY DADS! Shanks was probably the first that I connected with like family when I watched OPLA for the first time. Then I watched Film: Red and I was sold wahah. In my head he's who hypes me up and has my back the most and that's means.. alot. Next was Buggy who happened after I started my watch of the anime and got to know him better. He reminds me a lot of the irl father figures I've had in my life, which is a trend you'll see as we go on. He's explosive and impulsive and loud and kind of an ass but that's part of the fun I think. I have problems speaking up for myself and setting boundaries especially around men so the idea of him understanding and respecting me but still being his goofy and obnoxious self is.. kind of like practicing in my head, you know? MIHAWK MY DAD MIHAWK! Okay going to be honest my connection to him mostly builds off Goth Family headcanons and inserting myself into them wahah. That doesn't mean I don't have my reason's though. Mihawk is like the soft-spoken but earnest autistic dad I didn't know I needed. The kind to listen to my rambles and interests and be supportive even if he doesn't get it at all, you know? Don't tell anyone but he's my favorite lkndalkadflnk And the most recent is Crocodile! Which I don't have enough to give proper thoughts outside of I enjoy him a lot and him being in Cross Guild was the final push to just go ahead and add him. He gives me scary-dad "my daddy's got a gun" privilege's./hj NOW I CAN TALK ABOUT MY PIRATE SIBLINGS. :D

LUFFY AND UTA MY BROTHER AND SISTER LUFFY AND UTA!

When I tell you from the BEGINNING I got some little brother energy from Luffy wahah. I can't tell you the kinship I feel with Luffy and it's not just because he also gives me gender envy. I think getting a full body arm wrap hug from him would fix me and make me the happiest person on earth. AND UTA!! I need just one movie and snacks night with her and I think we'd connect instantly. Their isn't much outside of sibling energy with these two and the connections to Shanks with both of them. I realized if Shanks is my dad these two are my brother and sister and when I tell you I WAS SO HAPPY. Absolute goobers <3 Now onto the non One Piece people!!

Silver my amazing cyborg dad Silver <3 This was probably my first emotionally charged familial f/o. I learned about Treasure Planet during the emotional rollarcoaster that was 2020 and I got attached QUICKLY! He's another one of my many fatherly f/os that really really reminds me of the father figures I've had in my real life and that effects how I interact with him. Silver was one of the few characters at the time that really said what I needed to hear, you know? I saw myself a lot emotionally in Jim and watching the pep talks he was given by Silver felt like I was getting those too. Once again I think a full body beer belly hug would fix me waha.

GLAMROCK FREDDY!!! MY SUPERSTAR!! I am not immune to big robot dad influences. For all it's faults Security Breach didn't hold any punches with the characterization of their animatronics and their is no better an example than Glamrock Freddy! I was just as affected by the "way to go Superstar!" and got attached QUICKLY! He's just such a sweetie and is such a good dad he would make sure I was so so loved and supported.

AND I NEED TO MENTION THE WACHOSKI'S !!! This group genuinely gives me such soft and sunshiney feelings for a family that only exists in two movies (not to say I don't connect with Tails and Knuckles outside of the movies but them in this family format Hits Different) They are THE definition of a comfort family for me and I can't help at look and Maddie and Tom and see parents, you know? They bring me such a sense of childlike joy and carefreeness that's unparalleled. And Tails, Knuckles, and Sonic are so like. Sweet and realistic in the sense of being siblings, you know? I would gladly sign up to be the nerdy but cool older siblings in their group. I wear the badge of being the one to get us out of trouble like a BADGE!

And some honorable mentions to Astrid, Giovanni, and Wukong as well even though I don't have the time to talk about them too much! A lot of my familial f/os come from a place of projection and healing from my unhealthy home life growing up and these three mean a lot to me in that way. Giovanni and Astrid really really remind me of my own mother and the father figures in my life and through them I come to understand that more and help myself feel better about that situation I was put in. And Wukong reminds me a lot of an unperfect dad who's at least trying and learning and growing as a person as well as being a male role model I didn't get to have.

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A belated Kaimelia Halloween fic

**CONTENT NOTE: brief mention of gender dysphoria -- but I promise the point of this story is queer joy**

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     Kai is in Seattle for the weekend for the first time in almost a month, looking forward to a no-plans Friday night with Amelia. “No plans” really means door shut the moment they get upstairs at Meredith’s, means Amelia pressed breathless against the door while Kai kisses down her neck. There’s not so much you can do in a house this crowded — someone is always home, with the potential to overhear. Making the most of that kind of situation requires creativity, and Kai appreciates a challenge.

     But tonight Amelia says, “Wait. I have good news and bad news. Which do you want first?”

     Kai straightens up, disappointed. Even if the tone of Amelia’s voice tells them that the bad news is nothing catastrophic, they know what they prefer. “Bad news first, always.”

     “We got invited to a party. Teddy and Owen’s party. And I wanted to say no,” Amelia says. She grimaces, “But Teddy was so excited and I … said yes.”

     Kai laughs. “Is that all?”

     “House parties with my exes haven’t been your favorite thing, historically.”

     Kai has to give her that.

     “We don’t have to stay long,” Amelia says. “I’d like to make it back here before everyone else.”

     “Oh,” Kai says. “Is that the good news? House to ourselves?”

     Amelia laughs. “We could get a hotel. You know, like normal?”

     “If I don’t stay here occasionally, your sisters start raising their eyebrows,” Kai says, half-laughing. It’s funny … but also a little mortifying.

     “Raising their eyebrows?” Amelia asks, sounding skeptical.

     “Yes,” Kai insists. “Last time I dropped you off, I came inside. And when they thought I wasn’t looking, they had this weird, silent conversation with each other. There was a lot of eyebrow-raising.”

     “Oh, baby,” Amelia says, chuckling. “That’s because your shirt was inside-out.”

     Kai feels their face go up in flames. They sit on the bed, raking a hand through their hair. “Oh, god. Meredith and I are colleagues — or, we were. Could be again, if David gets his way. And I walked into her house with my clothes on wrong.”

     Amelia practically waves the notion of propriety away. “Did I ever tell you how Meredith met my brother?”

     “No. Would it make me feel better?”

     Amelia shrugs. “Probably.”

     “Well — wait. You had good news.”

     “Oh,” Amelia says, turning on her heel and hurrying to the closet. She flings open the door, pulls out a garment bag, and spins around. “This is the good news!”

     She unzips the bag with a flourish, pulling out what looks like a pirate shirt, then a blazer that she might’ve Bedazzled. She looks at Kai expectantly, eyes practically sparkling. “What do you think?”

     “Did I … leave that blazer here?”

     “No,” Amelia says, like the idea is preposterous. “I ran to the store last night. I guessed the size, but it looks right.”

     “You made me a costume. And my costume is …?” They’re totally lost. “A glam-rock pirate?”

     “No!” Amelia says, flinging the clothes at them playfully. “You’re David Bowie in Labyrinth.”

     Kai laughs, holding the jacket out and looking at it again. They see it now, and a lump immediately forms in their throat.

     Amelia asks, brow furrowed, “Did I do that much of a hatchet job? I can fix a rare brain tumor, but I haven’t used a Bedazzler since I was Ellis’ age, so —“

     Something warms inside of Kai, and they fight the urge — a ridiculous impulse — to hold the jacket to their chest. They clear their throat and look at Amelia. “I love it. I just didn’t think you remembered, I said one time —“

     “That David Bowie has given you gender envy since Labyrinth. It was so specific and so you,” Amelia shrugs. “I wasn’t going to forget that.”

     Kai shakes their head. “This is the first time I’ve ever looked forward to party.”

     Grinning to herself, Amelia turns back to the closet, retrieving her own puffy white shirt — lotta puffy white shirts in Labyrinth, Kai realizes — and matching vest. “I know it’s not quite as good as having this place to ourselves for the night. But I think we might be able to swing that, too.”

     “Yeah?”

     “Ellis and Bailey are at sleepovers, Meredith’s with Nick. And Maggie and Winston are chaperoning Zola’s school’s Halloween dance tonight — Mer got asked, but Zo said there was no way she’d be going if her mom was chaperoning,” Amelia laughs.

     “I’m a little surprised Zola’s going to a dance at all,” Kai says, sliding one arm, then the other, through their white shirt.

     “Us too,” Amelia says. “With everything she’s been dealing with, she wasn’t sure if she wanted to go. But she and her friends have had a group costume planned for months. So Maggie promised Zo that if she gave it a shot, she could sit in the gallery with us during this huge transplant next month.”

     Kai laughs. “Your family’s really something.”

     “If you’re in town that day, you can sit in on the surgery too,” Amelia offers.

     “And what do I have to do to make that happen?” Kai asks, pulling Amelia in by her hips.

     “I’m sure you’ll come up with something,” Amelia says, and then she sighs. “Later tonight, that is.”

     “Gives me time to think,” Kai says, like they don’t already have plenty of ideas.

     “We leave in half an hour,” Amelia frowns, stepping out of Kai’s embrace. “Which gives us barely enough time to get ready.”

     "You doing the crazy owl eye makeup for me, too?"

     “Only if you want."

     "Oh, if I'm going to do this, I'm doing it."

     "Alright." Amelia grabs an eyeshadow palette and an eyebrow pencil off of the top of the dresser and sits beside Kai on the bed, taking their chin in her hand gently.

     Kai says, “Must be some surgery.”

     “Huh?”

     “Next month. That’s got to be a pretty good transplant," Kai says, eyes still shut. "I mean, no one actually has fun at school dances, right?”

     “We were just talking about that, actually,” Amelia says. “Because Meredith, Maggie and I weren’t the most well-adjusted human beings before med school. Or after. But dances … they just seem like a thing Zola should try, right?”

     Kai shrugs. “I went to a couple of swim team formals just because you kinda had to. And I turned out fine.”

     “I know we shouldn’t be bribing her,” Amelia sighs. “But sometimes I look at her and I remember what I was doing at her age, and — I mean, it’s the same for Maggie but in the other direction.”

     She adds, like she has to talk herself into something, “Maggie also told Zola to come find her and Winston if she wasn’t having fun after the first half an hour, so, that’s something.”

     “I think that’s nice,” Kai says, thinking suddenly of the formal they’d skipped. Their sister Laura had been on the swim team, too, had spent hours on her own hair and makeup while Kai argued with their mother about what they would wear. And when Kai slid into the passenger seat of Laura's car, feeling wrong in ways they couldn’t articulate, Laura had taken one look at their face and said, Wanna go to iHop? Even though she was graduating that year. Even though she looked way too good for iHop. In spite of all that, she’d fished a sweatshirt out of the backseat and tossed it at her sibling, and hadn’t asked a single question for the rest of the night.

     “I just want Zo to try to do the whole normal kid thing, you know?” Amelia says, bringing Kai back to the present. “But I don't think she's feeling particularly normal right now."

     "That’s tough.”

     Amelia meets Kai’s eyes in the mirror. She sounds relieved when she says, “You get it.”

     “In a way, sure.” They’d known, for instance, that girls did not usually aspire to be the Goblin King. And they weren't sure, even now, that if they'd had the words as a kid to describe who they were, that they would've been ready to say them.

     “Me, too,” Amelia says. “In a way.”

     “Maybe that helps?” Kai offers. “Maybe it’s good for Zola to know that — I don’t know. That even if it wasn't for the same reasons as her, you’ve felt different, and alone. And now you’ve got this family, and all these friends. Does she know how many of your exes you’re friends with? Because it’s truly impressive, even by queer standards.”

     “It’s all fun and games having people until you have to wear real pants on a Friday night,” Amelia says. “Sorry I’m dragging you out.”

     “It’ll be fun,” Kai says.

     “Really?”

     “Yeah,” they say, and they’re surprised to realize they mean it. “Just … please don’t leave me alone too long. I’m scared Teddy’ll try to make me play Boggle.”

     Amelia laughs. “If I were you, I’d be more worried about Owen trying to pick a time for the two of you to jam. That's what he keeps saying. 'Tell them we should jam.'”

     “Well, tell him to stop calling it that, and I'm there.” Kai says.

     “Who are you, and what did you do with my partner?” Amelia asks, setting her hairbrush down and coming to straddle Kai’s lap. She runs her hands through their hair, sending shivers down their spine. “You’re staying in Mer’s house. You’re going to have bro time with Owen. Next you’ll join Link’s fantasy football league.”

     Kai wrinkles their nose. “Can’t watch football. The concussion protocols are —“

     “Abhorrent,” Amelia agrees. “I know.”

     “It’s actually nice,” Kai says. “Being part of your team.”

     Amelia grins. “It’s full of brilliant doctors with chiseled jawlines. You were kinda a natural fit.”

     Kai laughs. “And thank god for that.”

     "Hey," Amelia says, sliding off of their lap. "Go look in the mirror."

     When they do, she comes to stand beside them, and they pull her to their side, hoping she might not notice they've gotten choked up again. Their first instinct is to feel ridiculous, and yet ... for the first time in their life, they feel exactly right in an outfit someone else picked out for them. It's not nothing. 

     This wasn’t how they’d seen tonight going, sure — but being somewhere with Amelia is better than being anywhere else, with anyone else. It’s why they’d flown back to Seattle on that late night so many months ago, why they grow more and more sure every day that it was the right choice. Amelia embraces the sides to them that they thought no one would ever understand, let alone love. And to have the opportunity to do that for her, too? To be invited into her world, even though there’d been a time they weren’t sure they belonged? To know their place was next to her, and hers next to them?

     That was everything.

     They’d come back to Seattle for that over and over again.

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10 Characters From 10 Fandoms

Tagged by @walkwithursus (you're really providing me with these games XD)

Tagging: @a-n-n-i-m-i-a and @nanukanal and a whoever wants to do it!

Blackbeard (Our Flag Means Death): Well, we're hopefully still at the beginning of his journey, so...

The fact that he's a fearsome pirate who always longed to enjoy the soft things in life and fell in love with the rich man who showed him that it is okay to like soft and pretty things and then gave up everything to save that man? I mean come on, just thinking about it makes me want to hug him.

Scar (The Lion King): Okay, so...I don't like TLK. Not even as a child. I always thought the story is stupid (and yes, the whole Shakespeare subtext obviously went all over my head back then but as an adult it didn't make it any better for me) and I think I've only seen the movie fully once. But Scar, he's a different story. He's evil but he's eloquent, cunning and sarcastic. He makes the movie somewhat enjoyable and I don't care what he did, his death hurt me, even as a child.

The Joker (DC): Okay, I don't really know much about the DCU but Joker is a character I always come back to. No matter whether we're talking about Heath Ledger's Joker, Joaquin Phoenix' Joker, BTAS' Joker or Telltale's John Doe. He's so fucked up, but I love how many different sources give him a tragic backstory. And his absolute disregard for heteronormativity and his general queerness make him so interesting and I wish more people in the DCU would play with it and see the opportunity.

Gregory House (House, M.D.): I don't even remember how many years it's been since I watched House but that man stayed relevant throughout my life. And you're gonna see a pattern here when it comes to my favourite characters: He's harsh. He's sarcastic. He's an asshole. He says he doesn't care. But he does. He says he doesn't care if people leave him. But he does. He fakes his death to support his dying best friend. And I enjoy that he treats medical cases similar to how Holmes treats his cases. Obviously.

Marty McFly (Back to the Future): Of course, I like my 80s boy. Looks cute, street smart, is funny. He's a comfort character for sure. Also, if I had to name one character that evokes gender envy in me, he'd definitely number one.

Harry "Bunny" Manders (Raffles): The reverse Watson to the reverse Sherlock Holmes. He's adorkable, ends up as a criminal due to his own foolishness and Raffles' manipulation. He knows Raffles is sometimes annoyed with him, he wants to make himself useful but actually makes matters worse most of the time, but in an endearing way. He's incredibly loyal, will follow Raffles everywhere, even to war where he has to witness Raffles' death. It's basically a Sherlock Holmes AU but more gay because there's no way in hell Bunny doesn't love Raffles.

Altaïr Ibn-La'Ahad (Assassin's Creed): I was really thinking between him and Ezio because they both have amazing life stories. Assassin's Creed was probably the reason why I started playing more video games. If Altaïr's story wouldn't have been so interesting I wouldn't have stuck with it. Malik first making him see his wrongdoings, forgiving him later and becoming his best friend also plays a big part in the development of his character. But I love that they didn't make him perfect. In Revelation we see that he's still making stupid decisions that cost him dearly and he spent his life becoming a better person and a worthy mentor of the Brotherhood.

Sherlock Holmes: I mean what can I say...I don't even remember for how long I've loved Sherlock Holmes but there's a calmness in the face of danger about him that comforts me. He appears cold and calculating but he cares about the people around him. He also follows his own moral code, no matter what Scotland Yard expects of him. And he's my go-to character when I want to give a basic and famous example of asexuality to people.

The Doctor (Doctor Who): Do I have to decide for one? If so, I'd probably choose Nine. I only got into DW last year, although I always wanted to watch it because David Tennant was in it. Hilariously enough, it was Christopher Eccleston's Doctor who I became especially fond of. It's his harsh demeanor sometimes, a man who just came from war, but the joy he also displays sometimes (e.g. when everyone gets to live) and the way he, more than anyone else, needed a companion, Rose, made him very dear to me.

Tony Stark (Iron Man): Of course, who else. A man who was a weapons dealer and ended up giving up his life to restore half the universe. He has one of my favourite character growths. At no point is he perfect, he has weaknesses, he makes mistakes again and again and he knows that he seldom has the moral high ground. But he seems to love unconditionally. He forgives. And he gives life to beings that love him in return. He provides for the people he loves, deals with PTSD, makes the world a better place, all while keeping a smile on his face and having a smart remark in any situation.

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PART 1 OF THE SEMIFINALS EVERYONE !!!!!

RIPTIDE SIBLING SHOWDOWN !!!!!!!!!!!

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Chip

"gestures at him wildly look at him man " - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "Well he's a pirate and that's already very trans coded. He bases his personality and general vibe off people he looks up to which is giving gender envy. The only way Chip could ever be cis to me is if he was the token cishet but he's neither so like… Trans boyy (my words are failing me but you get it)" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "literally the transest guy of all time (loser edition). tits out tuesday. man with tits monday. like. transgender moment real " - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "He was picked up by pirates at a young age pre-pueberty. He then spent most of his childhood in a gang. This kid was so malnourished everyone just assumed he was a guy and he went with it since his puberty was so fucked. My transmasc agender king" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "fucking look at him. most transgender motherfucker to ever exist. we'll never know what his actual name was because he was named based on his first home, the black rose pirates ship. his tattoos go over his top surgery scars" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag "he’s just . he just kinda is yknow" - Submitted For Transmasc Swag

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Jay Ferin

"I mean.. just look at her" - Submitted For Transfem Swag "she has a lot of transgirl swag and i love her. jay ferin forever" - Submitted For Transfem Swag "the transest ever. i swear" - Submitted For Transfem Swag "she is a TRANS ALLEGORY YOUR HONOUR. LOOK AT HER. TRANSGENDER SWAG." - Submitted For Secret Fourth Swag "She's so trans coded. I mean, she runs away from her family who expect her to be one thing (navy) and she joins a group where she tests what it's like to be something else (a pirate) but then reverts when her dad shows up. She pretends it meant nothing but then Chip shows her that it's okay to change and to act against her family. So she's living her best trans girl life. Also she has bird imagery which is very trans coded of her. And she was named after her dad so like… Just saying" - Submitted For Transfem Swag "jay jay okg jay. her entire story is so fucking trans coded. i literally can’t oo her wholeee story is so trans coded. like??? she runs away from home and doesn’t tell her family shes joining pirates bc it’s the exact thing they would disapprove of. she first joins them to scope them out and learn their secrets but as time goes longer she realizes these people love her and she loves them and she is a pirate LIKE THEM. and her father appears and literally disowns her for being a pirates like holy shit. and she tries to spare her friends by going back to life where she would be in misery. and and she finds drey, a pirate like her and someone close to her who was also kicked to the curb and she finds comfort in someone like her. and she has to deal with the idea that her dead sister might hate her if Ayva knew jay was a pirate like???? but she’s so dress and happy now and she wouldn’t trade it for the world DO YOU HEAR ME???? becoming a pirate is how jay discovers HERSELF and who she WANTS TO BE!!!! i can’t she is so trans coded i literally can’t. she was so alone but notre she had ppl who UNDERSTAND HER!!!!! also tgirl failgirl swag." - Submitted For Transfem Swag "HER WHOLE STORY COULD BE A ALLEGORY FOR BEING TRANS FR. her father hates pirates, pirating for her has been freedom and helped her seen a new perspective, she gets wings, her journey is og just being a "spy" and then becoming a pirate and sensing the "freedom" in it !! and loving it and being accepeted just as she is her dad even makes a comment abt her being a pirate in 53. shes sooo transcoded ^_^^^^^^^^ to me i love her jay ferin sweep - Submitted For Transfem + Secret Fourth Swag

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3, 8, 11, 12, 19, 22, 31, 40, 41, 48

These are a lot, and you are not required to answer them all, or answer promptly.

I am simply very curious about your obsession about this piece of media.

You are very normal about it, I promise *lying*

I am so abnormal about newsies. I start hyperventilating whenever I watch it.

3. Quote from newsies

"Either they gives us our rights or we gives them a war!" Just. Chills whenever I hear it.

8. Newsies fanwork that you’ve created

That one newsies lineup drawing I did back in October. I just think it's neat

11. Romantic ‘Ship (OTP)

Javid/Javy. I'm so mentally ill over them (or maybe I just like red and blue dynamics). I don't know why but I am shaking them like a snowglobe

12. Non-romantic relationship between two characters

Medda and Jack. Maybe it's because I have a rough relationship with my mother figures but it just makes me happy to see a mother-son relationship like that

19. Historical or modern AU

I like the modern au for funny purposes. Historical is my favorite though

22. Crutchie/Crutchy

I'm so glad you asked. He is The Silly ever. He definitely trips people with his crutch btw. Especially Kid Blink.

31. 3 background characters of your choice

Romeo. He tries to lift heavy things to impress girls but he always fumbles and ends up just making the girls laugh instead

Specs. He's really spaced out all the time and loses focus really easily. Because of this, Race started a rumor that he's an opium addict (it's not true, though. Specs is just. Like that)

Kid Blink. He HATES it when people call him a pirate

40. Why do you like newsies?

It's a story about the oppressed rising up to demand their rights. It's also a major source of gender envy. Also the music is good!! And it's a flop movie from the 90s. What's not to love?

41. How did you first discover newsies?

We watched 92sies when I was just a freshman in drama class and I thought it was just ok. Then I rediscovered it when I was older and fell in love with it for the first time

48. What other things (books, musicals, etc) would you recommend newsies fans check out?

Bandstand, Hadestown, and West Side Story are all pretty good musicals if you like Newsies. They're all pretty popular but I couldn't think of anything else

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DOSSIER : NATHAN FORBES

FULL NAME: Lieutenant Nathan Forbes AGE: 25 BIRTH DATE: June 6, 1770 ETHNICITY: white GENDER: cis man ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: biromantic, preference for women SEXUAL ORIENTATION: bisexual, preference for women RELIGION: eh SPOKEN LANGUAGE: English CURRENT LIVING CONDITIONS: varies: primarily, in a room at the Eagle Inn in Collinsport while on leave ashore, though moves to Collinwood after his marriage to Millicent Collins. in service of the merchant ship Starling, then the USRC Scammel, and assigned a posting to the USS Constitution, though he dies before the ship is completed

RELATIONSHIPS

PARENTS: Alexander and Lydia Forbes SIBLINGS: two older brothers, Patrick (deceased) and Richard SIGNIFICANT OTHER: Suki Welles Forbes (1792-1795), Millicent Collins Forbes (1795-d.) CHILDREN: none that he knows about. probably a handful that he doesn't.

PHYSICAL TRAITS

EYE COLOUR: teal HAIR COLOUR: brown HEIGHT: 6'0 BODY BUILD: athletic TATTOOS + PIERCINGS: a few sailor's tattoos, including a compass rose on his back shoulder, a sparrow for crossing the equator on his bicep, and an arrow on his hip NOTABLE PHYSICAL TRAITS: dashingly handsome with pretty, light eyes. when on leave, his hair is very carefully tended to, voluminous and wavy when washed (and not exposed to constant salt water.) at sea, he keeps it cut much shorter. almost always wearing his issued uniform: he has very few other clothes to speak of, other than one coat he wore to his first wedding, which he keeps for funerals, and to wear to church (whenever he's made to go)

PERSONALITY

INTELLIGENCE: wickedly quick-witted. knows people and how to manipulate them. decently accomplished sailor with genuine talents to recommend him at sea, although his friendship with the Collins heir didn't hurt. knows navigation, geography, and the stars, as well as anyone, as well as a knack for predicting the weather and sensing an oncoming storm. not so well-read, though he does read and write, keeps it confined to newspapers, mostly, and reports. could do certain complex calculations without thinking, like the tonnage of a ship, the angle of cannons, etc, but doesn't think of himself as particularly mathematic and definitely not scholarly. LIKES: ships and the sea, pretty women, rich women, the smell of salt, fresh oysters, fresh cod, the smell of gunpowder, the smell of ladies' perfume, violence, drinking (typically rum, but greatly enjoys the chance to drink (someone else's) fine sherry or port), fresh fruit, fall foliage and regular seasons, sea shanties and work songs, plays –– nothing fancy, just some contemporary satire, working with his hands: great at knots, carving, and sewing; enjoys dancing with young ladies though not on his own DISLIKES: the pretensions of high society (but at the same time desperately wants to be one of them, and consumed with envy), shellfish and crab meat unless that's the only fresh option available, watered-down rations and hardtack, the smell of tar, the prospect of poverty, getting his hands dirty (metaphorically and literally), being landlocked, church, the English, pirates –– especially the Barbary Coast, stuffy colonial politics, long letters, debate, opera, Shakespeare, too much order and too much disorder: he needs a good balance DISPOSITION: suave ladies' man, and a bit of a conman, too. easygoing and a good liar. slightly unnatural gait on land due to being raised mostly on the water, but it gives him a bit of swagger.

Bio:

Nathan was born the third son of a modest family in Boston, with all three following in their father's footsteps as shipbuilders. His two brothers enlisted at the onset of the Revolutionary War: the oldest, Alexander, was killed in the line of fire and was buried in their churchyard in Boston. the middle son, Richard, survived him, though would have a limp the rest of his life: he took over bookkeeping and finances from his father, and stood to inherit everything. Nathan, the only boy who had not been old enough to enlist during the war, was desperate for action and adventure, but with the disbandment of the navy his hopes were temporarily put to rest. not one to be discouraged –– and not eager to spend the rest of his life building ships for his older brother –– Nathan put to sea as a carpenter's mate on the Dolphin. ostensibly it was a fishing vessel, but there was far more money to be made in smuggling. now that the navy had disbanded, the waters were rich and open for the taking.

After a run-in with port authorities, the Dolphin ran north-east hoping to make it to Portsmouth, but a storm blew her of course and she was wrecked on the coastal islands of Maine. Nathan survived, and made his way to Collinsport, where he jumped ship to one of the Collins family's own fleet. He was able to secure a decent position as a mate after fudging a few details and proving his knowledge of ships and the sea (very few remained to contradict him). Aboard the Starling, Nathan would meet soon-to-be-friend (and heir to the Collins name and fortune), Barnabas Collins. The ship traveled to the West and East Indies, where Nathan would meet his future wife, Suki Welles, the daughter of an East India Company merchant. Suki promised him the wealth and lands of an EIC merchant heiress, and Nathan promised her the honor, love, and stability of an American sailor. neither delivered on their promises. Nathan separated from her without a formal divorce, sending her a small bit of his pay but without much friendly contact.

In 1792, with the good word of the Collins family behind him, Nathan joined the newly-formed Revenue-Marine as an officer on the Scammel based out of Collinsport. On the Scammel, he traveled along the coast of Maine and New Hampshire to intercept smugglers and enforce tariffs and customs: Nathan quickly learned it was easier, and more profitable, to maneuver his way into remaining ashore more often than not by using his knowledge of local smuggling operations and snitching on a few old friends. his superiors were impressed with his rapid success and his dashing air, and Nathan was promoted to lieutenant. when the Navy was reformed in 1794 and six new frigates contracted, Barnabas helped him secure a valuable position as second lieutenant aboard the USS Constitution. while the Collinsport shipyard constructed the frigate, Nathan remained in town, seducing all the local women to be had including the eligible Collins heiress, Millicent, who laid claim to fortune and vast New York real estate. and she was pretty enough.

Nathan had set his sights on his next wife, but Suki's arrival spoiled his well-made plans entirely. Nathan presented her as his sister to disguise their connection, but the secret wasn't to last: Suki was murdered upon finding out Barnabas's vampiric secret, and Millicent, going through the deceased's belongings, discovered their marriage license. she was incensed, and not only called off their engagement, but demanded Nathan be killed in a duel. Nathan was able to avoid another untimely death by aligning himself with the local religious fanatic, Reverend Trask, and worming his way back into the Collins' family favor with a combination of lies, blackmail, and shenanigans, until Millicent at last, heartily (and her cousin Joshua, reluctantly) agreed to take Nathan as her husband.

But this marriage, too, was not to end happily. Millicent, in effort to prove how much Nathan loved her for herself and not her fortune, had bequeathed all inheritance to her brother, Daniel. Nathan, naturally, only wanted her for her fortune. in retaliation, he pushed his new wife to insanity and secured guardianship of her younger brother, Daniel. the attempt to order Daniel's murder failed, but only barely, and Nathan was not long to survive the mess he'd made.