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[khaopybara]

We'll be watching The Heart Killers for the plot. The plot:

FIRST KANAPHAN as KANT, KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as BISON, DUNK NATACHAI as STYLE and JOONG ARCHEN as FADEL. mock trailer of THE HEART KILLERS

[ohshinytrinketsmine]

[heretherebedork]

I could die for this man's heart eyes. The smitten is strong with this one.

My most beloved boy. Absolutely love him. He is smitten and forward and he is shy in very specific ways.

Because he's only shy when he thinks he might be taken seriously.

And he gets this look when he isn't looking. Absolutely beloved. They're my favorites for a reason.

[nongnaopat]

SandRay, episode 9 of Only Friends

[xxhappy-chickenxx]

All the times First and Khao have cried over their friendship (a non-exhaustive list)

Ahh, First and Khaotung. These darlings stole our hearts as Akk and Ayan in GMMTV’s The Eclipse, and continue to enchant us with their wet eyes and legendary bestie status. If you’ve been around the block, you may know that they love to talk about their love and respect for the other as a friend, and then cry about it. This post is dedicated to tracking just how many times those tears have shed in chronological order. I'll try to keep updating it, and if you'd like to contribute to the archive, feel free to send clips my way!

 The Eclipse Episode 6 Interview (Sept. 16, 2022) at 9:27

ArmShare - Khaotung’s Birthday (Oct. 12, 2022) at 32:00 

The Eclipse Final Episode Fan Meeting (Oct. 28, 2022) at 12:15

Interview with Candy Channel (Feb. 21, 2023) at 21:04

LOL Fan Fest 2023 (June 29, 2023) at 48:40

FirstKhaotung Fan Meeting Taipei (Aug. 8, 2023) at 45:17 (a shorter clip with subtitles can be found here)

Arm Share Ep. 134 - First’s Birthday (Sept. 13, 2023) at 19:20

Honorable Mentions:

FirstKhaotung React The Eclipse Episode 11 (Oct. 26, 2022) at 3:25 (they don’t cry but they're on the verge of tears the whole time, i swear GMM cut crying out)

FirstKhaotung Fan Meeting Hong Kong (Aug. 4 2023)

[iguessitsjustme]

Felt a little cruel.

And btw I do mean one. Not actually two of them together. Nope. Only one. The other two need to wait their turn still. Good luck.

[orangemocharaktajino]

[ourdadai]

atriz [ tontawan ] lockscreens ♡

[itsallaboutbl]

Are you feeling shy with me?

[syrena-del-mar]

Very Rarely Do Men Know How to Be Altogether Good or Altogether Wicked

The last five minutes of today's episode left my mouth gaping, it really felt like I was watching a catastrophic accident happen in front of me and I just couldn't look away.

I wasn't completely sure on how Sand was going to learn about Ray and Mew's history, but I sure wasn't expecting that Ray's feelings would be exposed in such a volatile way. Maybe I’m in the minority here, I’m not exactly sure because I’m seeing a mixed bag of reactions, but I don’t necessarily agree that Sand ever needed to find out about Ray’s feelings for Mew. Much less from Boston.

This is partially going to be a bit of a continuation of my thoughts that Boston has a Machiavellian personality, followed up with SandRay's relationship becoming the unsuspecting 'victim'. Again, I'll be using pulling from Machiavelli's The Prince, but I'm also using his work Discourses on Livy. [Title credit to ch. 27 of Discourses]

Boston, still the Machiavellian 'Prince'

“Another difficulty to be added to the one mentioned above is that a state that becomes free creates for itself enemies rather than friends.”

― Niccolò Machiavelli, Discourses on Livy

Let me be upfront, I don't hate Boston, I actually enjoy the chaos he brings, but he's a fascinating character to break down and really analyze his actions. The last five minutes was, in my opinion, the most chaos that he has caused out in the open. This was never a situation of Boston 'saying what needed to be said.' This was Boston seeing an opportunity to take control of someone and doing so by unfairly outing Ray's feelings. I, again, stand by the idea that Boston is not a narcissist, but rather a Machiavellian personality type. This doesn't make him a 'villain'; Only Friends does a good job at showing that there are no villains in real life, just incredibly shitty people. Boston is simply a dick, who chooses to play with his friends to feel a sense of control when he doesn't have it. Has he ever cared for his friends? Does he keep them around simply for convenience? Hard to say. That doesn't make him evil, it just makes him a first-class jackass.

In my post where I had stated that he was more of a Machiavellian rather than narcissist, I came to the conclusion that, 'In his viewpoint, he is the kingpin, even in his group of friends, because he believes that he's the one that controls how his friends move since he knows how Mew is developing feelings for Top and is aware of Ray's feelings for Mew.' This time around, he practically admits it right after purposefully revealing Ray's feelings for Mew, "I just want to keep track of my best friends' romantic moments.' Boston hoards information so that he can throw it in people's faces when it fits him the best, there's no 'good intentions' on his keeping tabs on his friends.

Boston knows that TopMew are going to sleep together, they're serious and he's out of the running. Is it simply ego or is it because of self-interest? Whatever the catalyst is, he essentially has nothing holding him back anymore. He's seeing his "friends" getting "serious", while he's out there dealing with known (and unknown) filming of one-night stands he had being used as revenge porn. That'd hurt and anger anyone, but from what has been shown, Boston thrives off of control and so having his sex life used against him would feel like an even bigger blow. They're minor events that are snowballing and Boston likely needs to feel that control again. It's why he pushes Nick down without a second thought when Nick is trying to pull him away (opposed to how Ray lets Sand pull him back). So he claims that control back, he deliberately reveals what he knows, purposefully taking Ray down with him. While he may be feeling like shit, at least he'll be better off than Ray, who's left to pick up the pieces.

Sand and Ray, the intentional destruction of the 'kingdom'

“In general you must either pamper people or destroy them; harm them just a little and they’ll hit back; harm them seriously and they won’t be able to. So if you’re going to do people harm, make sure you needn’t worry about their reaction.” ― Niccolò Machiavelli, The Prince

Yes, Sand and Ray are in a “situationship.” Yes, they’re constantly getting both physically and emotionally closer. Yes, Sand is developing feelings for Ray (arguably vice versa too). But that’s it. They started off as friends with benefits and while they’ve been shifting around, neither one has fully crossed that line. There was no defined area in the relationship, at least not before the implosion. They’re barely getting to know each other, Sand even calls Ray out because he knew that Ray had never noticed him before, not in a way other than just the Bar Performer.

Ray is working through who he is without Mew, without his crush on Mew. He's come to the realization that while he put Mew as his #1 for many years, he's knows he's not that for Mew, and is slowly coming to the realization that he may have never been. These are his feelings to work out and his alone. Sand and Ray are first and foremost friends, as they had agreed upon and they happen to hook up often. This was what they agreed upon. Even if one or both of them are catching feelings, it does not mean that Ray has an automatic obligation to come clean to Sand.

Arguably, Boston was unaware of this set up, but honestly he didn't need to know. This was not his business, Boston didn't suddenly spill the fact that Ray has had feelings for Mew for years to look out for Sand. No, this was an intentional hit on Ray, where he was positive that it would hurt. Boston has repeatedly used Ray's feelings for Mew for his own convenience (Exhibit A: Meddling at the pool party), whether it be to get Ray to react in a certain way or to have a punching bag. He knew how defensive and reactive Ray would get when he brought up RayMew's kiss and supposed sex (was this ever confirmed?) that they had.

Boston speaks in definite presumptions when he talks about others, he does this to Top and he did it to Ray. He spins realities to how he sees fit and with the confidence that he speaks in, he makes others believe him. It's why Mew never questioned that Top is accustomed to sleeping around and didn't think that Top really wanted anything more than sex, because that's what Boston specifically told him that Top was like. It's why now Sand believes that he has no hour in Ray's life, even when Ray gives him the opening to ask more, because Boston purposefully spoke in definite terms. Even the most secure person would be left feeling unsure and unbalanced.

So when Sand, who knows that their relationship is based on being friends with benefits, is confronted with words from Ray's supposed friend who explicitly states that Ray is in love with Mew and that he's being used as a rebound, what else can he do but believe that?

What little trust and rapport that they had started to build up has come crumbling down. They're frantically gathering the pieces of a 'kingdom' that has been turn into dust, the aftermath of the Prince's wrath. It's why Ray scrambles for the bottle and it's why Sand shuts down. How can they react to what Boston did, when they're struggling to salvage the little remnants left behind of what was supposed to be a blossoming relationship?

[khaopybara]

KANT'S TATTOOS

FIRST KANAPHAN as KANT mock trailer of THE HEART KILLERS

[heretherebedork]

How to take care of the boy who studies his brain out of his head and how to be taken care of by the boy you want to always find you when you get lost trying to get home after studying.

[nongnaopat]

Sailom aggressively teaching math

Dangerous Romance, Episode 2

[chaos0pikachu]

I simply wish that when people did color theory based meta for BL works they did so with the knowledge or acknowledgement that colors mean different things in different cultures instead of solely from an ethnocentric pov

[staysinvegas]

2023 dramas have really changed my perspective of what I find attractive.

Me: I don't really find "older men" that attractive yknow like I'd prefer someone my a-

This mf:

Me: I don't like dense characters. Especially if they're also super possessive like talk-

This mf:

Me: Alright red flags are fine but I cross the line at betraying friends that's just-

This mf:

Me: I don't like characters whose entire personality is being a bully like get a li-

This mf:

Me: ..........ok

[if-i-was-a-cucumber]

fire and dynamite never fail to make me pause and squeal and giggle like i’m watching my first ever bl

this smile when dynamite finally turns to look at him??? GOLDEN

fire doing a complete 180 and becoming a hardworking addition to the simp community?? HAS MY HEART

these gorgeous 5 seconds where fire can’t suppress his smile because dynamite is just existing??? KILL ME NOW

dynamite being absolutely 100% correct on his first guess without any prior knowledge of the situation?? THEY’RE SOULMATES

dynamite’s smile after fire admits the truth that literally everyone knew about since episode whatever in the sex work street??? THE DEFINITION OF PRECIOUS