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#godddddddd god. god. god god help me
advicemp3 · 2 years
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—EPISODE 13
Seolhyun as Han Hui-jae and Yang Se-jong as Seo Hwi (나의 나라 My Country: The New Age, 2019)
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varilien · 18 days
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as a kid i wanted soooooo badly to have a bill gijinka for my very own but i could never come up w one that didn't just feel like i was ripping off all my favorite fan designs for him at the time. and all this time later finally this one came out SO Perfect For Me that i think it's a little bit of a mistake actually like i didn't intend on becoming this obsessed with him ever again in my life but HERE WE ARE !!!
Palestine: Funds | Action | eSims | Info Sudan Resources | Congo Resources
u guys see what i mean tho. these are from like 2015(?) or smn and visibly just patterned off of what everyone else was doing at the time lol
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odeliba · 5 months
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MIKEL. LOVES. HIS. BOYS. SO. MUCH. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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blackvahana · 5 months
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ohhhhh Sleep is definitely one of these trees isn't it.... its absolutely a waking (as in IT is waking up in me) aspect
#i. have. ugh. ive been weiiiirrrdddllly side-eying Hypnos since I discovered he existed (not getting into why. he reminds me of hermes.#he reminds me of lull. thats all im saying) but the point is because Divinity Of Sleep hits home in ways i havent been comfortable explorin#in myself so i was. looking outside me. i dont need outside stuff. godddddddd ok#ramblings //#creation: the forest //#aspect: sleep //#fuckkkkkk ive been having issues w sleep for so long now - and i only really recently started believing im not fucking insane and that#astral stuff does actually happen - that i completely forgot in the beginning of working w spirits post-twins i fucking#was helping people getting to sleep and Hermes fucking called me something to do with sleep and my energy was - goddamn it#i literally. naturally expand into comfortable bedding. my bedroom is like a shrine space to me not because of how its used by others#(though spirits were treating it like that BECAUSE of this aspect) but because my energy was inhabiting it like an extension of me.#i was the calm. i was the relaxing into sleep. i was sleep itself. i was that which lulled people into sleep and dreaming. oh my god of#COURSE this realisation/remembering happens after i craft a crystal for my twinflame that filters out nightmares and whatnot#because. that thing. isnt a spell jar put together with ingredients and wishes. i manufactured the goddamn journey into sleep#it rewrites the falling into sleep itself manually (or. i manually programmed it. left it to autonomously repeat that action)#it was a complete ''i know how falling asleep and dreaming work this is what causes nightmares this is what causes dreams'' and#grr grr grr ok
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anothermonikan · 7 months
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I have got to start making more objectum art immediately I reckon
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passwordispassword · 1 year
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I LOVE MANU BENNETT SLADE WILSON DEATHSTROKE
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mayoiayasep · 1 year
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guys.......
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cherry-bomb-ships · 2 years
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LOOK AT HIM CLICK THE GOTDAMN LINK AND LOOKIT MY HUSBAND!!!!! THE MAN IS STIMMINGGGGGGGG I LOVE HIM SO MUCH GO FERAL MY FIRE-CRAZED ANGEL 🥺💘🥺💘🥺💘🥺💘🥺🥺💘🥺💘🥺💘🥺🥺💘🥺💘🥺💘💘
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bangtangalicious · 2 years
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bts smut recs | needy!jungkook
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there is something about when our lovely jeon jungkook is portrayed to be a hormone crazy, super needy, greedy, whiny character that is so fucking hot. tmw readers. i know you’ll love these. the hyper-horniness and blatant hunger for sex is so sexy. these are all jungkook x reader 18+ SMUT recs based on this theme. more to be added as i find them!!! 
🔺 = yandere/taboo themes *ALL ARE SMUT
MILF (series) by @koosbabygrl | 🔺 ive read this so many times. like. SO MANY TIMES. this is PEAK needy!koo energy. its so fucking hot i cant even put it into words. theres this mommy kink moment and i CANT get over it holy shittttttttt. also the sequels are GREAT, in part 2 when he has her riding his cock while she does her makeup oh my fucking godDDDDDDD. amazing.
this specific needy!koo drabble by @voidswan | 🔺 i know its not a full fic but its literally so hot i cry. bunny!koo just wants to fuck so bad poor thing I DONT KNOW WHY IM JUST OBSESSED OK the stuttering gets me every fucking time. screams. 
clean up by @lonelyhobi & @scribblemetae | he’s drunk and he feels so guilty abt it but he cant help himself!! god its FEVERISHLY good. he’s all whiny and crying and he needs u so bad and the way its described is so fucking hot. the dirty talk is inSANE. dry humping. fuck. amazing amazing.
thunderstorms are scary by @lonelyhobi & @scribblemetae | same couple, but this innocent needy kook is just scared and comes to sleep w noona and then ends up groping you and poor kookie just cat stop bc you feel so good. he ruts into ur ass and whines and ugh. brilliantttttt. honestly recommend this whole masterlist of step-bro fics from them its amazing. theres also a fun loss-of-innocent taehyung one :))))
training wheels by @fithehunnybee | theres a twinge of like sneaky manipulation in this one which i love. y/n kinda a bitch but she drives poor lil koo up the mf WALL. we have some cumming in pants action which i know you all LOVE hehehehe. also i love that it builds the tension so well with koo getting so desperate and y/n teasing..poor lil bunny
the dark prince (series) by @jkeuphoriadreamland | 🔺 LISTEN. first of all, read all their works bc, chefs kiss, but focusing on the needy koo in this, he DEVELOPS mmkay, he starts off all innocent but once he has a taste oh boy does he know what he wants (its you, btw *wink). poor boy cant see at first but he cant fucking help himself your touch drives him insane. how can you resist? the slow burn. the build up. the teasing. IMMACULATE. 
thank you, baby (series) by @scribblemetae | 🔺 im gonna clickbait you ALL into reading this. its twisted in the best way. a few personal highlights for me are when y/n is wearing the VR goggles and jungkook is like yeah imma just slide my cock in real quick lmfaooo its really hot though. the sort of unraveling of the reader adds to the desperation and neediness of both of their sexual actions. its fanfuckingtastic. each part has a good dose of things we all crave: begging, whining goodness
born sinner (series) by @1kook | OUR GOOD LIL CATHOLIC BOY IS UP TO NO GOOD and its got so much of his POV and the GUILT is so well portrayed and makes the whole thing seem more taboo/intense and its just fantastic mmm. 
forbidden by @googikoo | 🔺 again, i read this more times than i can admit. its not so much loss of innocence and more like straight up NEEDY but essentially sneaky devious lil koo is dating your daughter but, obvi, he wants you ;) 
teeth by @sweetbunnykook | ITS LIGHT SMUT BUT ITS JUST REALLY HOT LIKE I CANT EXPLAIN IT JUST READ IT ITS HOT
and not to be entirely self-serving but in case you want more..i too have dabbled in this genre ;)
touch me wherever
tickle me there 
touch yourself here 
wanna touch you 
soaked n’ slippery
ALWAYS LOOKING FOR MORE!! if you know of any other fics that fit this niche please feel free to lmk!! im always looking for new reads :) this one is for my TMW readers. i know what you like hehehehe ;)
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crimeronan · 1 month
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ACTUALLY…. THIS TIMELINE MIGHT BE WORSE IF VEE IS THERE….
Or at least, worse for Hunter.
Picture it: All the Nocedas are operating on the same wavelength. They all know that Luz is Apparently a Princess in a magical fantasy realm, they can intuit that Luz’s wiped memory is something magical, and they all know that there’s an evil magical Empire and that Belos is definitively Real and Evil. Luz comes to rely on Vee and Camila as her actual genuine family while she struggles with piecing herself back together. Vee’s initial distrust of Luz is shattered by knowing that Belos did something magical to her to try and break her, and comes to think of her as a Real Sister.
And then Hunter shows up. And Vee grabs Luz and pushes her behind herself. And Screams. “THATS THE GOLDEN GUARD! HE WORKS FOR BELOS!!!”
Awful. Awful. Awful. Actual Hell.
I FORGOT TO ADD ONTO THAT LAST ASK ABOUT IF VEE'S THERE: Vee helping Luz get accustomed to being in the human realm, showing her how to be human, letting her know that most humans are really nice, actually! Luz feeling Vee slot into some kind of protector role in that little void existing in her heart where something (someone) used to be.... and THEN Hunter shows up. And Vee reacts like that. How do you even RECOVER from there. God.
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GODDDDDDDD THIS IS ALL SO TASTY. DELICIOUS. GOD. HORRIBLE.
compound this with the fact that belos would Definitely have been physically abusive to luz in the human world -- which is Deeply upsetting to think about, but like. luz having injuries when she's found by some kind campers in the middle of the woods, doctors confirming she has clearly Been Thru Some Shit, neither camila nor vee know how long that was going on or who else was involved. LUZ doesn't know how long it was going on because her memories are swiss cheese.
luz looking to vee for protection and information about the human realm is making my heart Seize Up. OUGH. vee would be so kind to her :( and so worried about her :( and love her so muchhhhh....
i honestly don't know if they'd be able to come back from it if luz doesn't remember hunter At All. but if it's like in that last ask i answered, where luz does remember the golden guard but can't remember his face....
well. still complicated!! because vee is so clearly frightened by this guy & luz has come to think of vee as the bravest person she knows. someone who's not scared of Anything. so luz has been thinking that maybe she and her guard were close, but maybe he WAS hurting her?? is that why she can't remember anything about him??
camila would 100% chase him off with a baseball bat. UNLESS vee had the presence of mind to drag him inside and go Full Angry Basilisk mode. pinning him down with her teeth bared, ready to rip out his throat, all like. why are you here?? how many scouts are with you?? i'll KILL YOU before i let you touch her, do you HEAR me??
and hunter is like no no no, you have it all wrong. i promise you i SWEAR. i'm not gonna hurt her, i'd never -- luz, tell them, tell them i'm not...
.....luz???
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astrum-aetherium · 1 year
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PLEASE, elaborate more on the size kink with Henry, I need this to get on with my day, otherwise I feel like I'm going to go crazy.
god, you've come to the right place. i am the biggest and most devoted representative of the size kink community if i do say so myself. and with henry... godddddddd. i cannot stress this enough — it would be transcendental.
now, he's huge. bunny is described to be 6'3 in the books, and although henry's precise height is never mentioned, it is awfully quickly brushed past that he's even taller than him, which only leads me to believe that he might be around 6'4-6'5. that is already mind-numbing to someone who is barely five feet tall (me). in addition, he partakes in lots of physical activity due to his injury and thereby keeps in shape, which would cause him to develop muscle.
once again, as someone who is quite short and constantly towered over by other people, this is even more thrilling. he would simply be so much bigger in every aspect — his hands, his arms, anythinggg (and whatever you're thinking of right now, too). plus, he's incredibly strong and athletic.
in this setting, i just imagine being completely manhandled by him. it would simply be sooo easy for him to maneuver you around however he desired and flip you into the most contrasting of positions without a second thought. in addition, don't get me started on his stamina. yes, his leg would take a lot out of him, but he would still be able to go for so long. but, back to the size kink aspect — he would be able to steer you and manipulate your position with ease, simply put.
as food for thought: imagine riding him in a seated position — in an armchair or on a sofa — and you're gradually growing tired, unable to leap as vigorously as a few minutes prior. instinctively, his huge palms upon your hips would slide beneath you and immediately help you out, lifting and guiding you smoothly and without any difficulty. in fact, he would snake one of his arms around your spine to keep you close and thus only support you one-handed. then, once you'd grow a little sore, with still that one hand, he would lift the two of you and instead place you upon the sofa/armchair, all the while still inside you, and keep going from there — now in missionary.
he would simply be able to put and maintain you in so many positions that appear exhausting otherwise, but not to him. as an added bonus, you'd feel so safe and snug in his much larger, comforting, sheathing arms — it would truly drive you insane how minuscule and domineered you'd feel in his grasp. fuckkk.
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skynapple · 1 month
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OH NO LOOK WHO CAME HOME
In Which Madi Zaynes On Main
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MC being covered in blood in an angsty situation to start the card off is not what I expected.
Overall this card is a really beautiful display of patience, recklessness, and communication! The characters are put in a scenario where we really get to see how well they understand each other without necessarily having to say anything outright all the time.
We ALSO see that the opposite is true! It's not a miscommunication issue, just that there's some consequences to not saying anything.
There's also somewhat of a character flaw in MC that's really cool to see fleshed out because it's a common trait across all her interactions with any LI - and that is her blatant disregard for her own well-being. We know that she does it, but are not entirely sure about her motivations for it. Is it insecurity? Selflessness? Self-righteousness? Does she really just not care? Has growing up so lonely given her a strong sense of dying dutifully and honorably is better than living without purpose, alone? They definitely address it and I appreciate that they hint that the issue isn't going anywhere and won't be fixed overnight, but it's at least brought up.
More Thoughts™️ about the card under cut!
I'm live blogging this so bear with me
MC is so cool! She bravely rescued people but to no one's surprise she didn't think, just leapt forth rashly and got hurt
Zayne is immediately attentive but he must be so worried
OH HE WAS WORRIED-WORRIED. BROKE CHARACTER AND EVERYTHING
Their world really is getting worse :( these disaster wanderer attacks are getting more frequent across all the LI's cards
Zayne's sarcasm will never not send
She's worried that HE'S worried, and they're both trying to comfort each other, but he's immediately SO good at reading her and quelling her fears in such a way only he can (rants about medical reasons he should be the one attending to her adfhjlgd)
PROOF MC HAS KILLER BICEPS AND ABS
NOT ZAYNE IMMEDIATELY ROASTING HER
He- he keeps making excuses to see her I cannot 😭😭
Even on his break time omg he just wants to take care of herrrrrr
Omg their banter HE'S STILL WORRIED DESPITE IT ALL
Already inviting her over to his place my god he wants the excuse and of course she catches on
HIM SUDDENLY OPENING THE CURTAIN TO CUT HER OFF WHEN SHES TALKING ABOUT FINDING "THE ONE" AND IMMEDIATELY DENYING IT HAHAHAHA
"Uncle Doctor" i'm cryinggggg there's really no such thing in English, it's sending me that they LITERALLY translated the Chinese phrase this way
Omg him softly scolding her finally for scaring him, it's part ways him opening up when he's been holding that in for weeks, but he's so so patient, he'll wait for the right moment, the right tone, but he's gotta say it! And part just like, no she really does keep doing this 💀
HELPPP MEEEEEE HE JUST BLATANTLY CALLS HER BEAUTIFUL MY GODDDDDDDD HES YEARNING RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER!!! TO HER FACE IN FACT!!!!
HE JUST STRAIGHT UP TOOK HER HOME IM SO ADFHLKHDSDFHJDG HELP!!?
Omg I forgot this is the Greyson reveal card, now we have a model AND a voice, it's so cute
Not Greyson ratting Zayne out as usual 😭 absolute rat
OH ARE YOU SERIOUS SHES REALLY DOING THIS FIRST THING IN THE MORNING
EXCUSE ME MA'AM HES NOT A ROBOT WHAT ARE YOU DOING???
HE'S SO DONE WITH HER LOLLLLL
I'M YELLING THIS MAN IS SO TOUCH STARVED
No but literally the way they understand each other without words!!!!! She knows he's burying himself in his work for whatever reason and NEEDS this... and he's gonna let her cause he knows she needs this too 🥺
OK BUT HES SO- HE REALLY LIKES WHEN HIS FACE IS TOUCHED HUH
HE'S TRYING SO HARD TO KEEP UP WITH QUIPS SO HE STAYS COOL BUT YOU CAN REALLY SEE HIM SLIPPING
/Madi died for a bit/
OK BUT HES SO SOFT FOR HER GENTLY TWIRLING HER HAIR AHHHHH
O-OH MY GOD? he's not jealous of Greyson I don't think but he's- he's curious???
WAIT IM GOING TO ACTUALLY FREAKING CRY
HE'S STILL NOT OVER ALMOST LOSING HER AHHHHHHHHHHHH
No but they're communicating 🥲😭 he's always been so clear in his communication with her ahhhh
"I don't want others to tell me that you might be in danger. It would make me feel like an outsider." THROWING MY MISERABLE SELF OFF A FREAKING CLIFF. But lets assume it's happened before!! I'm sure it has!!!! I'm so glad he's speaking up about it but my god 😭 the angst
She's figured out how to answer so it's exactly what he needs to hear, no more quips or dodging, she's not being coy, I mean she's still being roundabout a LITTLE but it's in a way that gets to the same point and I do think it reassures him
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cosmic-ships · 1 month
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EXCUSE ME EXCUSE ME FUCKING EXCUSE ME
MY NAME FOR IT IS LITERALLY
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LOSING MY
FUCKING
MIND!!
EXCUSE ME SIR!? SIR!? HELLO1? SIR!? >////////<
I NEED THIS POSTER I FUCKING NEEDDDDDDD ITTTT
I AM SO FUCKING GIDDY OH MY GOD THE EYE CONTACT PLEASE FUCKING HELP MEEEEEEEE DONT HELP ME THIS IS HOW I WANNA DIE
IS IT FUCKING SEPTEMBER 27TH YET HOOO MY GODDDDDDD (/W\) BABY YOU LOOK SO GOOOODDDDD oH my GODDDDDDDD
I FORGET HOW TO BREATHE
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whiskeyswifty · 3 months
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I...leaving this here x(.)com/holltoleratesit/status/1809728447255625740?t=YwjvVx7mlKKbFJZRIUwnvw&s=19
oh she...... she.......... she wants me dead oh my godddddddd oh my GOD???? the little gasp i made when she did that help??? IS THIS ALLOWED?!?! miss swift you can't DO this in front of LESBIANS!!!
link for anyone who wants to see cuz i'm too dumb to know how to download twitter videos
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that-anxious-enby · 1 year
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HELLUVA BOSS SEASON 2 EP 4 SPOILERS
HDKSGJAGAJA JUST FINISHED THE NEW EP AND OH MY GODDDDDDDD
STOLAS' COCKY CONFIDENCE WHILE BEING KIDNAPPED UNTIL HE REALIZED BLITZ WOULDN'T BE COMING TO HELP HIM KDBAJBSKA 'what do you mean my bf isnt coming?? shit im in trouble aren't i'
MOXIES DEVELOPMENT SINCE LAST EPISODE HSGAJHA HE SEEMS SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENT?!?!? IS IT JUST ME?!?
LOONA BEING SCARED OF SHOTS IS ODDLY CUTE???
AND OH. MY. GOD. THE DELIVERY OF THE LINE "Stolas got what. Hu-wha- how? ...he can get hurt...?" GOD IT KILLED ME FKHSJSH BLITZ NEVER CONSIDERED THE POSSIBILITY OF STOLAS BEING INJURED OR POSSIBLY EVEN DYING CAUSE HE VIEWS HIM IN THIS UNTOUCHABLE WAY SO WHEN HIS VIEW IS SHATTERED IT HITS HIM LIKE A TRUCK CAUSE 'oh shit. hes not invincible. oh fuck he can get hurt' AND THE DELIVERY OF THAT REALIZATION IS SO FUCKING GOOD KDHAJBAKABAJ
ALSO THE TEXTS BETWEEN STOLAS AND BLITZ AHHHHHH STOLAS IS TRYING SO HARD AND BLITZ IS JUST FUCKING AHDLDVKDVSLVSKSBS
JUST SAY YOU LOVE EACHOTHER ALREADY AND GET IT OVER WITH ID SAY KISS BUT SATAN KNOWS YOU ALREADY DO MORE THAN THAT-
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found-wings · 1 year
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"He wouldn‘t be surprised if they conditioned Phil into walking right back to their buildings if he even knows anything more."
hey what if I A̸̖̩͉̰̻͉̯̻̲̳̞̪͈̱͕̩̺̲̲̭̬̰̠̓͊̒̑Ǎ̴̢̧̢̻͎̩͍̦̰̯̞͕͚̖͙̲̱͍̜̩̪̘͗̎̊̾͂̀̎̀̚͠ͅA̴̭̾̏̽͊͒̈̓́̑̌͊̍͋̌̀̕̕͝Ą̴̧̛̜̼̬̫̜̹͓̖̬̞͈̟͇̜͒̎͌̓̏̋̄̊͂͑̔̐͒͑̚͝A̸̧̖̦̙̹̹̞͝Ǎ̷̡̨̛͎̫͎̫̩͓͆̂͂̀̽̏́̆́̚ͅA̵̡̡̧̧̡͖̺̜͈̗̻̥̝͈̣̻̜̭͆̎́̐̂͋̇̒͗̿̈̏͐̎͝Ȃ̷̢̻̣͕̲͓̞̳̙̫̼̤̘̞̈́͒͗̇̀̓̾́͆̓̅͛Ä̶̧̻̪̘̥̝̩̜̞̲͈̜̲̝̟́̏͛͆̔͌̍̏̊͌́̒̓̾̎̑̚A̸̡̢͈̳̮̮̪̮̋͂̽̒Ȁ̷̟̼͖̭̘͕̘͚̱̏́̽͛̅̋͘Ắ̸͔͎̝̗̬̣͔̗̟̱̤̜͙̠̲͎͂̋̌̃̓͗̅̊̊̓̏́͂́̍́̈́͂̕͠Ȧ̵̧̧̨͔͕͇͍̜̼̣̲͚̻̬͓̪̿͒̅̂͛̃̅̿͗̒̋͋͐͋̀̔́͊͑͝ͅĄ̵̞̬͈̮͕̝̭̞̹̰̭̜̦̥̞̠̱̐̅̆̍̓͋̋̂̓̒̓͐͂̈́̓͗̉A̸̧̪̪̣̲͓̦̣̰̯͖̿̾͝Ã̴̩̰͕̈́͜Ä̶̭̮̪̙́̀̊̚Ą̴̨̨̭̹͓̰̫̭̞͕̙͎̬̙̖̤̦̗̘̣͎̍̿̈́̉̋̂̈̌̔̐͌͋̈́̓̓̓̆̾͆̍̉͌͘͠ͅA̶̧̨̧̛̛̟̰̠̮̩̹̣̰͈͉̟̬̻̤̩̰͔͎̙̹̘͐̽̃͆̓̃̅͊̈̈́͑̉̔̕͘̕͝͝Ạ̶̤͎͕̙̱̱̯̩͔͚̣̲̲̯̠͎̓͆̆̓̍̄̃̓͐̐̒͂̐̒A̶̡͕̠̫͉̞͚̘̼̍̍̈́͂̀̍̚͠A̴̧̧̛̜̔̉̔̆͌̀͊͗̈́̔̍͌͑̾̔̓̍̍͛̑̂͘Ą̴̢̢̨̡͓̬̠͈͈̙̬͚̞͇̟͚̩̠͚͍̺̈́͗͊́́̐̔̚͝A̵̛̲̮̙͆́̑͑̍̚Ą̷̢̢̛͚̙̫͖̠̜̰̜̝̠̤̲̼̮͍̙̤͈̣̍̾̒͒̆͛̍̋̓̐̕ͅA̵̡̡̻͉͔͌̈́̄Ą̷̧͉̤̞͈͇̬͚̙̲͔̭͖̗̞̤̠͎͍̺̬͉̩͆͐̃͛͂͒͌́̓̈́̋͒̎̕͝͝͝͝͝͝ͅA̶̧̝͓͕͚̿̔͝Ȃ̴̛̛̻̖̪̬͓̤̠̰̲̙̲͛̄̿̓̏̍̍͋̓͘͜͝͝͝͠
OH MY GODDDDDDDD this the kinda line that'd have me laying in bed eyes wide open thinkin about it bc oh my god the pain. just the pure idea of the federation trying to take everything from him to the basic autonomy of his own mind, not even allowing him the basic curse of living with the harm inflicted by him lingering as visuals in his mind. no, he has to deal with the pain, the emotions, and the effects but no pin straight memories to go off of- and practically being sent into a haze outside the center of his right mind whenever he's reminded of his time in those labs for repairing his 𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴. the pain of his mind being able to conjure up a clear picture of the events that occurred there being a clear cut trigger for the set conditioning the federation put in place just causes me such agony.
for at least some respite- I think this could be a side effect that is possible to wait out, if he does remember any of the events in there and has the need to travel to a federation building and await for a worker to take him, at least having someone with him to ground him and keep watch untill reality sets back in again will be enough to keep him from going back for the time being (also bc this idea causes such pain to me ow let him have people THERE FOR HIM like in the other little oneshot where the Goat (etoiles) was able to help him back home and keep watch and allow him at least one more night of peace before they had to face whatever the next day had to offer) - 💿
I JUST GOT OUT OF BEING BUSY AND NOW I’M READY TO SOB
ITS SO PAINFUL, RAAAAH
I‘d definitely assume that if it ever came to it, Fit would just hold Phil right where he is and attempt to ground him. Soft touches, whispered and carefully chosen words, keeping Phil back until he can properly ground himself out of that conditioned mindset.
Would it be any easier? Oh no, physically holding him back wouldn’t be the problem. Phil wouldn’t fight back because even against his friends is it feels so wrong, wrong to fight and wrong to not fight. It’s how much it pains him mentally that he just cracks.
Imagine Fit carefully holding onto Phil and trying to ground him, having to listen to Phil whisper and quietly ask for Fit to let him go, let him go back and let him be fixed, he needs to be fixed fixed fixed- isn‘t this what everyone wanted??
Eventually Phils Body just gives out in exhaustion, his weight pressing against Fits hold on him and they just.. sit there, only sounds being the occasional hiccup from Phils side and Fits reassuring whispers.
How is he supposed to work through all of this and let others support him when he doesn’t even know himself what is going on?
And then Phil goes back to pretending this never happened.
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