#great minah questions :3

[cityandking]

blue 5, black 2, green 1, gold 2, silver 3 for minah & vesper 🥰

ty tabby!! // medieval heraldry oc asks

Does your OC believe that people should only believe or take inspiration from something if it is actually true? Or are there circumstances where a motivating lie is to be preferred to an awkward or uncomfortable truth?

MINAH — there are plenty of situations where a motivating lie is preferable to an uncomfortable truth (for example: no sir, I didn't touch that man's purse, but there was a shifty sort of fellow over thereabouts, you ought to talk to him). more broadly, she knows how much a lie (or a trick or a suggestion or even a misunderstanding) can inspire action, and she thinks, beyond any kinda of moral judgement or obligation, that it's just the way the world works. stories are powerful things, and she's not above using them for her own ends when she needs to VESPER — sometimes it bothers her how readily people will accept a lie (chiefly that she's some divine figure) over all sense and her own denial, but she can't deny it's a powerful motivator. she's well aware that what she believes people should or shouldn't do has little bearing on how they'll actually act, but she strives to tell the truth (or keep politely quiet) as much as she can. the exception to this comes when a lie will help protect people—like lying about a mage's location, for example. she's no narc

Has your OC always been fundamentally the same person? Or would someone from their past struggle to recognise the person they have become?

MINAH — absolutely not. as a kid she was way different from who she is now, and a lot of that change (though not all of it) was intentional. little minah would find it nearly impossible to recognize who she's become. (big minah has some pretty complicated feelings about that) VESPER — she's more or less the same. she's definitely grown up and grown into a version of herself she's proud of, but she's still recognizable. (her younger self would be so awed and proud and hopeful, and vesper feels a great deal of kindness for that little girl)

Does your OC feel comfortable expressing feelings of joy - do they laugh or smile easily? Or do they have a constantly stern or dour countenance? If so is this entirely genuine? Or something they feel they need to maintain for the sake of appearances?

MINAH — she doesn't have issues with expressing joy. she tends to default to more positive emotions: lots of teasing, smiles, jokes (especially jokes). her good humor comes easily and even honestly most of the time, but she also definitely uses it to mask deeper or more negative feelings. idk if it's possible to be honest without being genuine, but that's the line minah walks VESPER — she's very private with her joy, but that means when it sneaks out it tends to be entirely genuine. she's most open with the people she knows and trusts, even if it takes come coaxing to get her out of her shell, but when she's happy it's obvious. she kinda glows with it

Does your OC have any wishes or desires of which they are ashamed or otherwise wish to keep secret? Or do they loudly proclaim their every wish to those around them?

MINAH — some of the things minah wants most are the things she's most ashamed of, and she would never ever ever speak them aloud (or so she thinks; we've got 15 years of Blight to get through babygirl). she's happy to groan and gripe about things or express desires she considers safe (and/or expected), but good luck getting her to open up about anything truly personal VESPER — ashamed, not really, but definitely secret. she grew up (at home and also in the circle) in environments where wanting anything too openly was giving someone something to use against you later. it's constantly a shock to express a vague desire and have it fulfilled (I think josie, bull and varric are the best at reading between the lines. on the flip side, her relationship with cullen involves a lot of learning how to communicate clearly and openly in a way that's good for both of them, but especially for vesper)

Does your OC find it easy to be sincere when expressing their views or feelings? Or do they prefer to adopt an air of detached irony? If so, then why is this the case? Do they fear rejection or mockery by others?

MINAH — she kind of pendulums back and forth depending on the context. if it's about her own thoughts and feelings you can expect heaps of irony (it's the avoidance and paranoia and refusal to outwardly address any trauma she may or may not be carrying), but when she's talking to someone else (like talking to loras about his fathers' death and the power given to him to enact meaningful change; "I think it's possible to wish you could die of heartbreak" etc.) she can really buckle down and be sincere. it's just easier when it's outside herself. her inside stuff is such a mess she doesn't want anyone getting a peek at it VESPER — while slow to open up, she's very sincere about the things she fundamentally believes in (like mercy and justice and the belief that people can grow). she doesn't like saying things she doesn't mean; she'd rather just not say anything at all. she hates politics. thank the maker for josephine

[tyongxnct]

𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑟 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒 - 𝐽𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝐽𝑎𝑒𝘩𝑦𝑢𝑛

pairing: Jaehyun x reader

special guests: Johnny, Doyoung and Jaemin.

Genre: angst, marriage!au, cheating!au

warnings: cheating, fainting, mentions of sex If you don’t feel comfortable reading about cheating, then feel free to skip this story. :)

word count: a little more than 12k

song rec: love me or leave me by little mix

note: I’m not a therapist or a doctor. The scenes in the hospital and at the couple therapy are just how I imagined it to be.

extra note: I love Jaehyun and this is PURE fiction.

A/N: thanks to my dear friend @kueey​ for proofreading this with me <3 I hope you guys like this story and please don’t get too mad at Jaehyun hihi ENJOY!!

ps: I AM SO EXCITED FOR NCT 2020 I really look forward to everything we’ll get and I’ll forever support OT23.. I hope that each member gets treated well and is happy and healthy. AND I can’t wait any longer for superm hehe

© tyongxnct on all platforms 

“I can’t believe you! Why? I don’t understand?! Why would you do something like that? Why would you try to destroy our marriage?!”, you were furious and heartbroken. After seven years of being together, you never thought that Jaehyun would cheat on you. You never thought that he’d moan someone else’s name while being with you.

You kissed him. “I missed this so much.”, it was hard for you two, both of you were working and you had a four year old daughter and a five year old son. There was never really time for things like sex. It’s been some time since you slept together, and you couldn’t wait anymore. You missed having Jaehyun close next to you, you missed feeling him inside of you and you missed his touch. “You feel so good, Areum.”, you pushed him away. “W-what?”, you asked, maybe you misheard him. “What do you mean?”, he tried to kiss your neck, but you pushed him again. “W-what did you just say? A-Areum?”, and that was the exact moment Jaehyun knew, that he fucked up. Bad. “N-No I-I didn’t...”, he stuttered. “Get off of me!”, you pushed him again and crawled against the bed rest. “Who is Areum?!” “No one, baby. I’m sorry.”, he tried to get closer again, but you stretched out your hand to stop him. “Don’t come closer! Stop lying to me! Tell me now Jaehyun or I will leave, and you’ll never get the chance to explain!” “Baby- I... It’s... She’s someone from work...” “And?”, you were getting angrier every second. “I-It’s I promise you I’ll never do it again and it’s been weeks since the last time I-”, he couldn’t even look at your face. “Since you what?”, 

“Since I-I slept with her.”, his voice got quieter and quieter. You got up and put on your clothes as fast as you could. “Baby just listen to me. I swear I’m so sorry-”, Jaehyun tried to reach for your arms but you stepped back and looked at him with disgust in your eyes. “For how long?” “Baby-”, “No Jaehyun! Answer the question!”, you couldn’t even cry. “Three months I think...”, a tear fell down Jaehyun’s cheek.

Your man was sleeping with another woman for three months, if he was telling the truth of course.

“You had an affair for three months?”, you were heartbroken. You were fully dressed and opened your bedroom door to leave, but he stopped you, this fight needed to end in the bedroom, your little kids were asleep, and they shouldn’t witness what was happening right now. “No. Don’t go, baby. I’m sorry. I stopped seeing her, I love you.”

“You love me? Funny, last time I checked you said Areum. You said her name! I can’t even look at you! You disgust me so much! What kind of a husband are you huh?! What were you even thinking?!”, tears were finally falling down your cheeks, you couldn’t stop them from falling so you just let them. 

“I said that I’m sorry! I stopped seeing her. I will never do it again, I love you!”, he screamed back at you.

“I can’t believe you! Why? I don’t understand?! Why would you do something like that? Why would you try to destroy our marriage?!”

You really wanted to know why Jaehyun would throw away a 7 year old relationship.

“Look, we didn’t have any second for us in the past, I don’t know, five months and I missed you so much but you were always working and you never had time for me! I felt... lonely or some shit, I don’t know and... and she was there for me in those three months...”, did he just say it was all your fault?

“So, you are telling me that this is my fault? Because I am working and raising two children. You think I was the one who never had time? When you fucked another woman, I was home alone with your kids! You lied to me and now you are fucking blaming me?!”, he couldn’t be serious. “I am the one suffering from all of this! I am suffering right now because of you and you are still blaming me?! I tried so hard to be a good wife, mother, friend and employee and I am still not enough?”, your voice was quiet. Jaehyun felt like he was never good enough for you, he was just ordinary while you were amazing at everything you did. Jaehyun felt like a piece of shit and he needed someone to tell him that he was also good enough, and instead of talking to his wife, he decided to talk to his co-worker and that led to more. 

“What suffering?! I am still with you, I could have left you and stayed with her instead but I chose you!”, words were coming out of his mouth without him processing it, he said things he didn’t mean and he wanted to take them back, but he couldn’t. 

You slapped him. You slapped him so hard that his brain started working again. He deserved it. 

“You chose me? Nobody asked you for that. You are right, maybe you should have stayed with her.”, he looked at you for the first time now, his hand was on his cheek and his heart clenched. 

“I- I didn’t mean it. I didn’t mean it.”, he cried as he tried to take his words back.

You couldn’t think straight, and you couldn’t stay with him, you needed to leave. Right now.

You opened the bedroom door and put on your shoes as fast as you could. “Don’t leave me, please. Baby don’t go. It’s late... let’s talk about it. Please don’t leave me.”, he was begging you. Without a second glance, you took the keys for your car and left the apartment you shared so many great memories with and now with the worst.

Jaehyun was on his knees crying his heart out. He needed you to come back to him, you needed to know that he was sorry and that he didn’t mean it. 

“Dad?”, Jaemin held his little sister’s hand and watched his father. His little daughter looked confused and his son looked sad.

“My babies why are you up?”, he tried to cover his tears as he walked up to his kids. "You were loud, daddy. Are you crying, daddy?”, she asked her dad as she placed her little hand on his cheek. “Why are you awake, dad?”, his son asked.

“Daddy had a nightmare, but I feel better now. Thanks to you.”, he placed a kiss on his daughter’s forehead and on his son’s. “Tell mommy to give you a goodnight kiss, that helps every time.”, he tried so hard not to cry in front of his kids. “Okay, I’ll tell her, but you have to sleep now, it’s late.”

“Daddy can you sing for me? Mommy always sings me to sleep.”, how could he say no to his one and only daughter. 

Jaehyun didn’t sleep for the whole night, he waited for you to come back, but you didn’t. 

You were driving around Seoul. You didn’t know what to do. Go back home? You couldn’t let your kids notice what was happening between you and Jaehyun and Jaehyun... your heart was broken, and it needed time. You decided to call the only person who could help you right now. Johnny.

“Good morning, what can I do for you at this hour?”, Johnny, one of your oldest friends asked, still half asleep. It was 7 am on a Sunday, of course he was still asleep.

“Hey, Johnny. Sorry for waking you up-”, your voice trembled.

“Did you fucking cry?”, he always knew that something was wrong. “I-…Yes..., Johnny, Jaehyun had an affair.”

“I’m sorry what? What did you just say?”, he didn’t want to believe it. “He slept with his co-worker for three months. I f-found out last night and I didn’t know what to do… so I l-left.”, you started crying. 

“I can’t believe this, where are you? I’m coming to you.”, Johnny didn’t want to leave you alone.

“No, I’m fine, well not fine but Jaehyun and the kids need you. I left last night just like that, and I want to go to my babies, but I-I Johnny I just can’t face him. It hurts so much.”, you tried to stop your tears from falling but you couldn’t.

“Okay, you don’t have to worry, I’ll go to them. But please tell me that you are safe and text me whenever you need me. Do you know where you want to stay already?”, you knew you could count on him. “I have a friend from work I could ask.”, Johnny was the brother you never had, and you were his sister he never had. You were friends since kindergarten, and he was actually the one who introduced you to Jaehyun in college.

“Alright, just let me know you’re safe.”

“Thank you, Johnny.”

“Always.” 

Jaehyun was playing with Minah and Jaemin on the floor as he tried to distract his kids. “Daddy is mommy coming back today?”, Minah asked him.

He hoped.

“I don’t really know, baby. Don’t you enjoy playing with your daddy?”, he asked her. “Daddy is the best!”, she hugged him, and tears were forming in his eyes. 

The doorbell rang and Jaehyun and his kids jumped up and hoped to see you standing there, but it was Johnny.

“Uncle Johnny!”, Minah loved her uncle Johnny. “Hey there princess.”, he hugged Minah and high fived Jaemin “Wow, Jaemin. You are growing up so fast.”, and as he looked at his friend, he saw nothing but pain in his eyes.

“Jaemin and Minah, why don’t you go to your room to play. I’ll be there in 5 minutes to play with you, okay?”, Johnny asked the little kids. 

“Why are you here?”, Jaehyun asked. “Is it wrong to look after my friend and his kids?”, Johnny took off his jacket and sat down in the living room.

“She called you, didn’t she? Where is she? Johnny please tell me, I need to know where she is.”, he begged his friend now.

“Listen, Jaehyun, I know that this between you two, but please tell me what in the world did you think you were doing?”

Jaehyun sat down next to him and started crying silently so his kids wouldn’t notice. “Johnny I’m a terrible husband. I fucked up so bad. I-I thought everything was over but-”, he hid his face in his hands. “I fucking said someone else’s name while being with my wife. I am so sorry. I need her I can’t live without her.”

Jaehyun told Johnny everything that has happened last night. Johnny was shocked to hear his friend do such thing. Never did he think that Jaehyun would do that to you. He loved you way too much.

“I am speechless.”

“D-Do you hate me now, too?”, Jaehyun was scared to lose everyone.

“No, I don’t hate you but… you really broke her heart and I don’t know If she’ll stay with you after this.”, he was honest. 

“Johnny I can’t lose her, I’d do anything.”

“It won’t be easy, that’s all I can say. But I’m here for you.”

It’s been three days since you left. You were missing your kids so much, it hurt you so much to be far away from them. You were staying with one of your friends from work, Soobin. She was always there for you and she invited you with open arms.

You decided to talk to your babies, they probably missed you, too. You dialed Jaehyun’s number, you were scared, and your hands were shaking. 

“(Y/n)? H-hello-”, you interrupted Jaehyun before he could say anything more. His voice sounded different. “I want to talk to my kids.”

“A-Aren’t you going to... come back?”, he whispered. 

“I just want to talk to Minah and Jaemin.”

“Okay... Baby? It’s mommy.”

“Mommy!! Mommy I missed you so much!”, Minah said as she talked to her mother after a long time.

“God, baby. Mommy missed you, too. I love you so much, baby. I promise you I’ll come to you as soon as I can.”, you tried to stop your tears.

“Mommy don’t cry. I want to play with you mommy but playing with daddy is also cool. And mommy, Jaemin is not nice! He never wants to play with me.”, she cried into the phone. 

“Okay baby, I’ll talk to him. Can you give me your brother now? I love you.”

“I love you too mommy. Jaemin!! It’s mommy!”

Jaemin was angry, even though he’s just five he noticed that you and Jaehyun were fighting.

“Hello? Jaemin baby can you hear me?”

“Yes.”

“Baby I missed you so much. How are you?”, you wanted to talk to him, but he was too angry at you.

“I don’t miss you! I hate you! Dad is crying because of you! I hate you!”, your heart stopped beating. Your son just told you that he hated you. Your own son. You cried, it hurt so much. You didn’t know what to do.

“Baby I’m sorry. I-”

“No! -”

“Jaemin why are you behaving like that? That’s not nice. You are talking to your mother-”, Jaehyun tried to calm his son down.

“No! I hate you!”, he suddenly also screamed at Jaehyun. Jaemin threw the phone on the floor and ran in his room.

Minah started crying and you heard it all, but you couldn’t do anything. Your heart broke at the sound of your babies crying and yelling. Your son hates you. 

Jaehyun took his phone and heard you crying. 

“I’m sorry he didn’t mean it. Don’t take it to heart, he’s... he’s just angry right now. I’ll handle it, okay? Don’t worry.”, Jaehyun wanted you to stop crying but you just couldn’t. You missed your family so much; it tore you apart.

“I’m... I’m sorry.”, you hung up and cried yourself to sleep. Again.

Two days later, you decided to call Johnny. 

“Hey Johnny.”

“How are you? You sound miserable.”, he didn’t want to be mean or anything, but you really sounded like you just died three times.

“Thank you. I am miserable. My son hates me, my husband cheated on me and I didn’t see my kids for a week.”

“Jaemin doesn’t hate you. He’s simply scared and sad, he is a little kid, he doesn’t understand what is happening right now, but he gets that you two are fighting. Of course, he’s angry. I’d be angry, too. Please stop thinking that way.”

“I don’t know. I’m trying so hard but I just- it’s so hard. How’s Jaehyun?”, you asked him. Of course, you were still worried, you love him and even though he broke your heart, he’s the father of your children.

“He’s sick. I mean like seriously he has fever and all that stuff, I was there this morning, he ate some soup but he’s like sick. The kids are always in their rooms playing. He told me to leave, that he’d handle it, but I don’t know. I was going to look after them tonight.”

Jaehyun was sick. You didn’t want to, but you were so worried right now that you decided to go to your family. They needed you and you needed them.

“I’ll go. Thank you for everything.”

“Are you sure?”, Johnny asked.

“I need to be with my family.”

After the phone call with Johnny, you dressed up and drove to your home. It was strange to go there after a week, you missed it so much and you wished that it was all a bad nightmare, but as soon as you arrived in front of your home, you felt all the pain in your heart again.

You opened the door and took off your jacket and shoes. Scenes of the night you left played in front of your eyes. How Jaehyun was crying his heart out and how betrayed you felt.

You saw your husband laying on the couch with your son next to him. Father and son were sleeping, and a smile placed on your face. It warmed your heart to see the two like that. 

But you couldn’t let your son sleep so close to his sick father. You carried your son to his bed and let him sleep there. On your way back you stopped at your daughters’ room and saw her also sleeping. She’s beautiful and you missed your kids so much. You would never leave them again. No matter what would happen. 

You went back to Jaehyun and tried to slowly wake him up. “Jaehyun. Jaehyun wake up, let’s get you to bed.”

Jaehyun slowly opened his eyes and he saw your beautiful face. “Am... Am I still dreaming?”, he put his hand on your cheek. 

“Jaehyun, stop it and get up. I can’t carry you to bed.”, you didn’t want him to touch you, so you pushed his hand away.

“I can’t believe you are real. I love you.”, Jaehyun looked and sounded so sick. His nose was red, and he was shivering. “I’m so cold.”

After you put Jaehyun to bed, you placed your hand on his forehead, just to see how hot he was. “You are burning.”

Jaehyun could hardly open his eyes, but he needed to see you. He missed you so much, he didn’t even know if you were real or not. 

You went to the bathroom and came back with wet towels. “Jaehyun you need to take off your shirt.”

He slowly tried to take off his shirt, but he was too weak. “I’ll help you.” You helped him taking off his shirt and then you placed the hot towels on his body. “It’s so cold. The bed is always so cold when you are gone. Please don’t leave, I hate it when it’s cold.”, Jaehyun was talking in his half-awake state.

You tried to ignore him, but you also hated to sleep without him next to you, but after what he had done, you were too disgusted. 

Jaehyun fell asleep again and you decided to cook a soup and you looked at your home, it was a mess. Well, you could imagine Johnny trying to clean up, but with a sick Jaehyun and two kids, it’s not easy. You cleaned the floor in the living room, putting the toys back to their right places and after that you cleaned up the kitchen a little. The soup was done and then you heard your little daughter crying. She woke up.

“Baby, Mommy is here it’s okay. Stop crying.”, you picked her up and she stopped crying immediately. “Mommy! Mommy I missed you so much!”

“I missed you to honey. I love you so much.”

After playing with your daughter, your son also woke up. “My little man I missed you so much.”, you were about to hug him, but he stepped back. “No! I don’t want you here!”, it hurt you so much to hear that.

“I’m so sorry. I promise I’ll never leave again. It was an emergency I needed to go baby, but I’m back. Didn’t you miss your mom?”

“No, I didn’t I want dad not you!”, your son ran to his dad’s room and jumped on the bad to hug his dad. Jaehyun woke up as his son jumped around. “I don’t want mommy!”, your son cried into his dad’s arms.

“Jaemin I told you to stop saying that.”, Jaehyun sounded so weak. So fragile. 

You decided to leave your son with Jaehyun, you didn’t want him to cry anymore. 

After seeing Jaehyun so sick you thought of calling your mutual friend, who was a doctor. Kim Doyoung.

Doyoung told you that he’d be here in an hour and you poured the soup into a bowl and placed Jaehyun’s food next to him on the nightstand. 

Jaehyun still looked half-asleep. “I need you so much.”, he whispered. You son was back in his room, playing on his own with his car toys.

“I called Doyoung, he’ll be here soon.”, you just said.

You knew that Jaehyun was too weak to eat on his own and you weren’t heartless.

“You need to finish this, okay? Open your mouth.”, you were sitting on the edge of the bed, trying to leave space between you two, so you could just help him eat.

You didn’t look at him, your eyes where everywhere except for his eyes. But Jaehyun, Jaehyun was watching all your moves, and he tried to look at your beautiful face and eyes, but you wouldn’t let him.

After he ate up the doorbell rang. You opened the door and saw Doyoung standing there. “Thank you so much for coming. He’s so sick and you know how he feels in hospitals.”

“No problem, I told you guys whenever you need me, I’d be here.”

Doyoung checked Jaehyun up and it was easy to tell why he was sick. You stood at the door and watched them.

“Were you stressed lately?”, Doyoung asked. 

You looked on the floor, and Jaehyun looked at you and then back at Doyoung.

“Yes.”

“Alright, so your body couldn’t handle the stress and that’s how you got sick. You need to avoid stress and you need to stay calm. I’ll give you some pain killers and stay in bed. If anything else happens, just call me. But that’s it for now.”

Jaehyun’s regret and worry ate him up and he was so stressed after you left, that his body reacted like that, your heart clenched, but it wasn’t your fault, you told yourself.

After you thanked Doyoung, he left, and you made dinner for your kids. Jaemin didn’t talk to you but Minah never left your side. 

“Mommy is daddy dying?”, she suddenly asked.

“What? Of course not? Why would you think that?”, you were shocked to hear you daughter ask such a question.

“I don’t know, Jaemin said daddy is dying.”, she shrugged her shoulders and played with her doll.

You seriously needed to talk with him, you knew that he was just sad and scared, but it was too much now. 

You sat Minah on her chair and then you called Jaemin because dinner’s ready. After you called him two times, he didn’t come so you decided to look after him.

“Jaemin, dinner’s waiting for you.”, he was playing with his dinosaurs and ignored you.

“Jaemin?”

“I don’t want to!”, here we go again. “Jaemin you are making mommy really sad. Why do you hate me? I love you so much.”

“Dad always cries, and you screamed at him! You hurt dad!”, oh boy, seeing him like this hurt you so much. 

Jaehyun was standing at the door and listened to his son. It is his fault, not yours. His son should hate him, not you.

“I’m so sorry that you feel that way, don’t be scared, we just talked loud. I don’t want you to think that we were fighting. You know that I love your dad I would never hurt him.”, you tried to hug your son, but he ran out of his room, he didn’t even notice Jaehyun standing there.

Jaehyun looked at you, his heart hurt. Everything was his fault and now you were really suffering the most. How could he tell his son, that he was wrong? That his father is a piece of shit. A cheater. How could he tell his son, that he broke his mother’s heart?

You were still sitting on the floor, with your hands you covered your face and cried. You tried to be quiet but Jaehyun was right there.

He was right behind you now and he placed his hand on your shoulder. “I’m sorry, please stop crying. I’ll talk to him. I’ll tell him that it’s... that I’m the one who hurt you.”

“D-Don’t touch me.”, you ignored his words as you backed away. “Just go back to bed.”

You wiped away your tears and left Jaehyun alone, his eyes followed you. It hurt him that you react like that to his touches, but he understood. It hurt him, but you were way more hurt.

Back in the kitchen you helped Minah eating her food and Jaemin just looked at his. “Why is dad not with us?”, he asked. 

“Your dad is sick and needs to sleep. I’ll bring him his soup after you eat.”

“I won’t eat without dad.”, he said now. 

“Jaemin, he would love to eat with you-” “I want dad!”, he yelled now. There was no other way. “Okay I’ll get him.”

You went to your bedroom and opened the door slowly. Jaehyun wiped his tears away as fast as he could but you saw it. There was no point in hiding. 

“Uhm, Jaemin won’t eat without you. C-Could you sit with us?”, you asked slowly.

“Y-Yes I’ll be there. Just give me a second.”, he said, and you nodded.

You went back to the kitchen and sat down “Dad’s coming.”, you smiled at your son. Your daughter was eating with her fingers and you watched her. You love her so much and you were ready to do anything for your kids’ happiness.

Jaehyun came and sat next to your son. “Dad! Let’s eat together!”, Jaemin finally started eating.

“Do you want your soup now or later?”, you asked Jaehyun. 

“Now, please.”, he watched his kids eating and it felt almost like before.

Jaehyun was eating his soup and your kids were also eating. Everyone was eating except you.

“Mommy aren’t you hungry?”, Minah asked.

“No, I’m not hungry.”, you said. “But Mommy you always tell us to eat even if we are not hungry. You need to eat, too!”, after that one night, you lost your appetite. You rarely ate, most of the times you would just eat an apple.

“I’ll eat later, okay? You need to finish first.”

“Okay mommy.”

Minah and Jaemin played around with Jaehyun and you were just sitting there and tried to stop the pain. You tried to forget everything, but you couldn’t.

It was already 10pm and your kids were already sleeping. You didn’t know what exactly to do. Jaehyun was in bed and you were sitting on the couch in the living room. 

What was going to happen next? Are you just going to sleep next to him and act like nothing happened? Are you just going to pretend that everything was fine?

You decided to take a hot bath, but first you made Jaehyun a hot tea. You opened the door to the bedroom and saw him sitting there and looking helpless. His nose was still red.

“I made you some tea.”, you put the tea on the nightstand and Jaehyun watched you. 

“Thank you.”, suddenly he held your wrist before you could leave. “W-Where is it?”, he asked. “What do you mean?”, first, you didn’t understand. “Where is the ring? Where’s the wedding ring?”, he was so scared of your answer.

“I took it off.”, you just said, avoiding his gaze.

“Y-You took it off. Why?”, his voice trembled. “It didn’t feel right to wear it.”

“B-But you promised. You promised me that you’d never take it off! You promised me that you’d always wear it.”, tears fell down his cheeks. He was so desperate. It was your wedding ring. The ring that showed that you two belonged together. 

You were angry. How could he say something like that and cry? How could he act like you were the first one to break a promise? You looked into his eyes for the first time. 

“And you promised me to be faithful. You promised me to never break my heart. You promised me to never hurt me and always love me.”, you pulled away your arm from his grip and stepped back. 

“I guess promises are meant to be broken.”

You turned on your heel and went to the bathroom. After you closed the door behind you, you started crying. You tried to be as quiet as possible but Jaehyun heard you. 

You were right. He broke so many promises he made. Jaehyun broke your heart and he’s scared that you’ll never forgive him. You cried and cried and didn’t leave the bathroom for the next two hours. You were finally home but it didn’t feel like it. You were finally with your kids, but your son hated you. Your words really hit Jaehyun. There was no way that you’d forgive him. He was clueless and he regretted everything so much, he didn’t know what to do.

You couldn’t sleep at all that night. You were sleeping on the couch in the living room, but you were scared that your kids would see you. You were worried about the future. What is going to happen to your marriage? The voice in your head always reminded you that ‘Your husband cheated on you’, you couldn’t stop the voice in your head. But it was the reality you had to face.

Minah was the first to wake up. “Good morning baby.”, you lifted her up and kissed her cheeks. “Mommy I’m hungry.” You heard your son waking up and he opened your bedroom door and jumped on the bed.

“Dad wake up!”, he jumped around. 

With Minah in your arms, you went to your bedroom and saw Jaehyun slowly waking up. “Jaemin your dad is still sick. He needs to rest.”.

“It’s alright. I’m feeling better.”, he smiled at his son. “I want to play with daddy, too!”, your daughter said. You placed your daughter on Jaehyun’s lap. “I’ll prepare breakfast.” 

You would never destroy the relationship between Jaehyun and your kids. Jaehyun’s a great dad, no, a wonderful dad. When you told him that you were pregnant with Jaemin he was so excited. He was so careful with you and fulfilled every wish you had. Even after you gave birth, he never left your side and helped you as much as he could. Jaehyun told you that he wanted 10 kids with you, when you got married and even after Minah he didn’t want to stop having kids. 

You smiled at the memory. You started to blame yourself. After giving birth to two kids, your body didn’t look like before. You felt ugly, of course Jaehyun would cheat on you. Look at you. You look like an ugly piece of shit, you thought.

Your thoughts were interrupted with Jaehyun coming into the kitchen with both of your kids in his arms. “Let’s help mommy”, he said and put his kids down.

Suddenly you got angry. Did he think that you can’t even prepare a simple breakfast? You don’t need help. You are strong. 

“I can handle it.”, you said coldly. 

“No, it’s alright, I can help you.”, he wanted to take the pan from your hand. “No, Jaehyun. I don’t need your help.”, you raised your voice a little. You totally forgot that the kids were also in the kitchen.

You hated to be like this in front of the kids, but you couldn’t control your anger. Jaehyun looked at you with an open mouth. Before you could say anything, the doorbell rang. Luckily, your kids were busy with playing on the kitchen floor, you hoped that they didn’t hear your voice raising at Jaehyun.

You went to open the door and saw Johnny standing there with Donuts. “Morning. I have donuts!”, he was happy to see you finally home. He knew that it was hard for you and that’s why he visited you guys. 

“Thank you John-”, before you could finish your sentence, everything went black and you passed out. The last thing you heard was Johnny telling Jaehyun to call an ambulance. 

Jaehyun called the ambulance and ran to you and Johnny. “What... What happened? (Y/n)? Can you hear me? Baby please open your eyes.”, Jaehyun held you in his arms and he totally forgot about his kids who were watching the scene. Johnny saw them standing there and lifted both kids up and brought them to their room. “What is happening to my... my mom?”, Jaemin cried. He was so scared. Your daughter was already crying and screaming. She was also totally scared, and she didn’t understand what was happening. 

“She’ll be fine, don’t worry. You dad’s going to the hospital, they’ll look after her. Don’t worry.” Johnny tried to cheer the kids up, but he also didn’t know what was happening. 

Jaehyun was holding you and crying. It felt like hours until the ambulance came. He never let go of you. 

You woke up in a bright room. You didn’t know where you were or what happened. Your eyes slowly got used to the bright lights and then you saw Jaehyun sitting next to you on a chair, eyes closed. 

You tried to take your hand away, but he didn’t let go. You slowly tried to sit up and Jaehyun also woke up. 

“You’re awake. How are you feeling? Wait never mind, I’ll just call the doctor.” before you could say anything he ran out of the room and called the doctor. 

He came back with the doctor and held your hand again as he sat down next to you. 

“How are you feeling, Mrs. Jung?”, he asked you as he looked through your file.

“I don’t know. I guess I’m alright.”, the doctor couldn’t heal the pain in your heart, obviously. 

“I need to ask you some question. When was the last time you ate something?”, he looked at you and Jaehyun, too. You felt uncomfortable.

“Uhm, I- can’t answer that.”, you looked down.

“Why?”, he asked. “Because I don’t know.”, you answered quietly. Jaehyun looked at you with worry written all over his face. 

The doctor wrote something down and looked back at you. “And sleep? Can you sleep or are you having trouble with that?”

You nodded slowly “It’s hard to fall asleep.”

“How long did you sleep last night?”

“Not at all.”, you didn’t want Jaehyun to know that.

“And the night before?”, the doctor asked. “Maybe two hours?”, you weren’t sure. “Were you stressed lately?”, why is everybody asking you and Jaehyun this. Is it that obvious?

“Y-Yes.”, you finally freed your hand out of Jaehyun’s, who was in his own world right now. This needs to stop, first Jaehyun got sick because of the stress and now you were in the hospital.

“Well, your body needs energy. You must eat to produce energy. And sleep is especially important. Your body and mind need to recover, it seems like your body couldn’t handle it anymore. I don’t know what is going on in your private life, but I recommend you to see a psychologist. Your mental state is connected to your body, and If you don’t do anything about it, your body will also suffer. I’ll give you some vitamins you need to take, and you need to stay for tonight, we need to make sure, you won’t pass out again. Any questions?”, the doctor told you all of this in one go and you knew that it was true. But it was so hard for you. Every time you closed your eyes, you saw the fight in front of you. Every time you ate something, you thought of you husband with someone else and you couldn’t continue eating.

“No. Thank you.”, you said, 

“That’s it then. I hope you get well soon.”, you tried to smile at him, but you were too weak.

After the doctor left, you mind wandered to your kids. “The kids- Jaehyun! The kids, where are my kids?”, you totally forgot that Johnny came to visit.

“They are with Johnny. Don’t worry, he came before you... passed out.”, he looked down, to ashamed to be the reason that you were laying in a hospital bed.

“Where’s my phone?”, you asked. “At home. You can use mine.”, he handed you his. 

You looked at the phone in is hand. Did he saved her number? Did he text her? Is he still texting her? Do they have pictures together? You had thousand questions. “C-Call Johnny. FaceTime.”, you would never touch that phone. After two rings, Johnny answered. 

“Hey, are you guys alright? Where’s (Y/n)?”, he asked. Jaehyun turned the phone to you. “I’m fine, Johnny. Thank you. Can I talk to the kids?”

“Sure. Minah. Jaemin. It’s your mom.”, he handed the phone Jaemin, who was sitting next to Minah. “Mommy! Where are you?”, Minah started crying. “Baby don’t cry. Daddy and I are staying together. Don’t worry okay? We’ll come back home tomorrow.”, you didn’t want to tell her that you were staying at the hospital.

“Jaemin, baby? Can you be a good big brother and look after your sister? I love you two so much.”, your son didn’t say a word. He started crying and you did, too. It broke your heart that he didn’t talk to you. “Daddy.”, Minah cried out. “Yes baby?”, he came closer and he could also be seen now. “Daddy give Mommy a kiss. That will help her. Mommy always kisses us when we are sick.”, she insisted, while crying. Jaehyun and you wanted to stop your daughter from crying and that’s why you nodded after he asked you with his eyes. 

He slowly placed a kiss on your forehead. You had your eyes closed and you missed him so much that it hurt to feel his lips on your skin again. Jaehyun’s eyes were also closed and the kiss felt like forever.

After the call ended, you watched the sun go down. Jaehyun was outside, getting your food. You still didn’t want to eat. But after what happened today, you didn’t want to scare your kids like this again.

He brought you tomato soup, salat and rice with some meat. The soup reminded you, that Jaehyun was still sick.

“Jaehyun.”, you said. “Yes? Is it too hot?”, he asked.

“No, just- You’re still sick, you should rest and eat this, you need it more than I do.”, he looked at you like you were crazy.

“What? No. I’m totally fine. You need to finish all of this and then you’ll sleep. I’m feeling way better.”, you were the most important person for him.

“But-”

“No but’s. I’ll just buy myself a sandwich or something.”

“This is too much for me. Let’s share. I know that you love tomato soup.”, his heart flipped as you said this. You know everything about him. He didn’t answer, just watched you. “Jaehyun?”

“Mhm?”

“I said let’s share the soup. Please?”

How could he say no to the most beautiful woman he has ever seen?

After sharing your soup, you slowly finished the rest. It was awkward that Jaehyun was just sitting next to you on the chair. “Jaehyun, go home.”

“What? Why?”

“The chair is uncomfortable, I know that you can’t stand hospitals, and you are sick, and the kids need you-”, he interrupted you “And I need you, and I won’t go anywhere without you. I don’t care If I sleep on this chair or on the floor. I just want to be with you.”

You looked at him for a second and then you hid your face under your blanket. You didn’t know what exactly you felt when he said that, but you felt so many things.

Pain, love, longing. 

You were so exhausted that you fell asleep and Jaehyun watched you. He was scared that it could be the last time he saw your face. Jaehyun couldn’t let you go. He wouldn’t. But what if you do leave him one day? 

Jaehyun and you were finally home. Your kids were at the kindergarten thanks to Johnny. You called in sick for work and Jaehyun did too. You two barely spoke since last night. Whenever he said something, he got short replies from you. 

You were laying on the couch and Jaehyun was in the kitchen cooking breakfast, even though you weren’t hungry, but he insisted. 

Jaehyun was worried. He was determined to cook for you and keep you healthy.  He heard some voices from the living room and thought that you were watching TV or something. But as he stood behind you, he leaned against the doorframe and watched you watching your wedding videos. 

You were so bored, that you decided to watch the happy times. You wanted to see how it was to be happy and in love. You missed that feeling, you missed Jaehyun looking at you like he did on your wedding day. 

In the next clip, you were slow dancing with Jaehyun. Your first dance as a married couple. Everything was perfect. Too good to be true.

Jaehyun heard you sniffing and knew that you were crying again. He placed your breakfast on the table and sat down next to you. Not too close, he didn’t want you to back away or something.

“What happened to us?”, you asked him with a trembling voice. “We were so happy.”

The next clip was the day you gave birth to Jaemin. Jaehyun was crying and he held your hand. “Come on baby, you got this. You are incredible. I love you so much.”

“I love you Jaehyun- Oh god!”, you screamed as you were giving birth. Jaehyun supported you as much as he could. He let you squeeze his hand, scream and yell at him because of the pain you were going through.

“I... I don’t know...”, Jaehyun looked at you and then back at the TV. It was Jaemin’s first birthday. 

“I am not hungry.”, you said. Because you really weren’t.

“You need to eat something. The Doctor strictly told you to-”, he tried to convince you, but you were to angry. 

“I don’t care! I don’t fucking care!”, you yelled at him suddenly. You watched your son smiling happily at you but now, now he hated you. The smile on Jaemin’s face triggered something in you. “This is all your fault! Everything is your fucking fault!”

“I know. I’m sorry. Just eat a little-”, he tried to calm you down.

“I don’t want to eat something I want my son! You did this to me! He hates me because of you! My son hates me. He hates me.”, you were covering your face as you cried. Jaehyun was sitting next to you, helpless. 

“My own son hates me for something I didn’t even do. I don’t deserve all of this. I don’t know what I did wrong.”

“I’ll talk to him, please stop crying. You didn’t do anything wrong.”, Jaehyun’s heart arched.

“You will talk to him?”, your blood shot eyes looked at him now. “What are you going to tell him? ‘I cheated on your mother Jaemin.’ huh? ‘You mother didn’t do anything wrong; it was me who fucked someone else.’?! What are you going to tell him?!”, your voice got louder every second. 

Jaehyun was also crying now. “I-I don’t know. Are you ever going to forgive me? I know I fucked up big time and it was the biggest mistake in my life.”, he was about to hold your hand, but you pulled away.

“A mistake you did for three whole months. Why did you even stop? Got too bored with her? Were you looking for someone else to fuck? Two women weren’t enough for you?”, she was furious, and she wanted to hurt him as much as he hurt her. 

“Don’t say that. You are the only one for me, (Y/n). I... You were -are- too good for me. I didn’t know how to express my feelings. I know I made a mistake for months, but I was scared!”, he tried to wipe away his tears, but it didn’t help, tears were falling down his cheeks.

“Obviously, I wasn’t the only one. Would you ever tell me about it? If you hadn’t... If I hadn’t found out that night would you have ever told me?”

Would he? He didn’t know. 

“I-I don’t know...”

You didn’t say anything to this.

“Maybe we should just get a div-”, you said but Jaehyun interrupted you. “Don’t you ever dare say that word. I won’t leave you. Ever. I know you don’t trust me, but I’ll do anything to gain your trust again. I’ll do anything you want me to. I love you so much, I can’t live without you. Please don’t leave me.”, he was on his knees now, looking up to your eyes and then his face fell into your lap and he cried. 

The scene in front of you was heartbreaking. You looked at the TV and saw the clip of you and Jaehyun with Jaemin, a couple hours after you gave birth to Minah. Jaehyun cried out of happiness on the screen and now he was crying and holding onto you like you would disappear if he let go.

“I’ll be better. I promise you I’ll be the man you deserve. I promise you I’ll never hurt you again. Please don’t leave me. I love you. I love you so much.”, he cried and as you put your hand on his head and stroked his hair, you thought that maybe, just maybe, you could work things out.

 “Welcome, Mr. and Mrs. Jung. I’m Dr. Hwang. Since it is your first time here, it would be great if you could tell me a little about yourselves and your relationship.”

A week after your last fight with Jaehyun, you decided to go to couple therapy. You thought, maybe a professional could help you go through all of this. 

“Let’s start with you, Mrs. Jung.”, she smiled at you. 

Jaehyun was sitting on the other edge of the couch and felt uneasy. He feared someone else knowing about what kind of terrible husband he is. He was ashamed and he knew how hard it was for you. 

“Well, I’m 28 and I’m working in a publishing company. That’s basically it.”, you didn’t know what other information she needed to know. 

“Do you have any hobbies? What are you doing in your free time?”, she asked. 

“If playing with my kids and cooking count as a hobby, then yes. And free time. I don’t know, I don’t actually have time for myself.”, you answered honestly.

“Alright. Now you Mr. Jung.”

“Well, I’m 29 and I work as a manager in a company. And I don’t have any hobbies.”

“Okay, thank you. Now please tell me how you two met and about your relationship in general.”

“We met in college.”, Jaehyun began talking with a smile on his face as he remembered how he met you. “It may sound cliché, but we didn’t like each other at first. We teased each other a lot. She looked so cute when she got mad and one day, I couldn’t handle her cuteness, so I just kissed her to shut her up and that’s basically it. I never loved anyone else since that day.”

You smiled, too. You remembered that day so well. You always had a crush on Jaehyun since the first day you met. Who wouldn’t? You were so shy at first but after he started teasing you, you teased him, too. The way you two looked at each other every time while teasing each other, it was like you were waiting for him to kiss you and when he did, you knew that he was the one. The one you’d spend the rest of your life with. The love of your life. 

“That’s a cute story.”, Dr. Hwang smiled. “So please tell me now why you are here.”

It was too hard for you to say it out loud. You waited for Jaehyun to talk about it and he did. He knew it wasn’t easy to talk about it.

“We are here because I... because I cheated on my wife for three months.”, he looked down to his lap.

Dr. Hwang was writing down something as she listened to Jaehyun.

“Okay, please tell me more about it. How and why did you decided to come here? How did it start, and why did you stop?”

“Uhm, my wife found out because I- I said the other, person’s name, while we were... together...”, Jaehyun was so embarrassed. “It started in April, I think, with, uhm, with someone from work. I did it because I felt like I wasn’t good enough for her. (Y/n) is perfect in everything and I am just... me. I felt so little and useless and it is pathetic but I... I needed someone to tell me that I was good enough and... I couldn’t think straight and ended up with the... other person. After the first time I didn’t know what to do. I was too scared to tell (Y/n) and too dumb to stop it. It was our daughter’s birthday when I realized, that I was doing a big mistake and that I was destroying the perfect life I had. And then I broke it off , because I knew that I was hurting my wife, even though she didn’t know it back then. I was disgusted in myself and stopped as soon as I could. I know that nothing justifies my behavior but... I just wanted someone to tell me that I was... good...”

You didn’t know how to feel after he said all of that. Were you hurt because he looked for someone who was there for him? Were you hurt because you weren’t that person? Was everything you fault? 

“Thank you, Mr. Jung. Mrs. Jung please tell me how you felt when you found out.”

That was hard to answer. “Well, I... I felt numb. I didn’t feel anything at first. After I found out, I left for a week. When I was alone I... I realized everything and I only felt pain... After I came back, I was numb again... but everything boiled up in me and I was furious.”

“Okay, thank you. So, I can tell, that you are going through a rough time. Both of you. What do you except to happen, now that you are here?”, she asked. 

“I want my wife to be happy again. I need her to forgive me for everything I’ve ever done because I love her. I want to save our marriage.”

Mrs. Hwang nodded and looked back at you. “I want to save our marriage, too.”

And that was your first session. You looked out of the window as Jaehyun drove home.

“What do you think of her?”, Jaehyun asked after a while. 

“She seemed nice. And you?”

“Yeah. She really seemed nice; I hope she’ll help us.”

After you arrived home it was timer for dinner. Luckily, Johnny watched your kids. He really is the best, you thought.

“Thank you for everything, Johnny. I’m so sorry to drag you into this mess.”, you were cooking dinner with Johnny next to you as Jaehyun played with the kids. 

“I told you guys; I’ll always be there for you. Whatever happens between you two, I’m here for you two. And you know that I love the kids and of course they love me, I mean, Uncle Johnny is way cooler than Uncle Mark.”, he laughed and after a long time, you laughed, too.

Johnny stayed for dinner; it was less awkward. He was talking to Jaehyun and to the kids the whole time. You were playing with your food, slowly eating, because again, you weren’t hungry. Jaehyun watched you from time to time. 

“Mommy??”, you were so deep in thoughts that you didn’t even hear Minah talking to you. 

“Yes honey?”

“Mommy can Uncle Johnny sleep here tonight? Please Mommy!”, Minah said excitingly. 

“But honey-”

“Mommy please?”, Jaemin asked you now. He was careful when he talked to you since you went to the hospital. The next day he saw you at home he cried again and jumped up, he wanted you to lift him up and you did.

“Mommy!”, he cried into your shoulder. “I thought I hurt you because I screamed at you... did you go to the hospital because of me Mommy?”, he cried.

“Oh my god, baby no! No of course not, I love you baby why would you think that.”, you cried, too. 

Minah was in Johnny’s arms and started crying, too. You promised yourself that you’d never scare your kids like this ever again. After that Jaemin was talking to you as if you were fragile and could break any moment, which was the case. 

“I’m sorry Mommy.”, Jaemin held you and never wanted to let go.

“(Y/n)?”, Jaehyun called for you now.

“Oh, yeah. Sorry. Uhm, I don’t know... Johnny?”, you looked at him. “I don’t care actually, It’s up to you guys.”

“It’s fine for me.”, Jaehyun didn’t mind.

“Yes! Thank you! Come on Uncle Johnny let’s watch Toy story!”, Minah jumped in her seat and Jaemin smiled brightly.

You on the other side weren’t that happy. For the past weeks you slept on the couch, you didn’t even think of sleeping in your bed with Jaehyun. But If Johnny stays, he needs a place to sleep. 

Your kids were sleeping already and Jaehyun was talking to Johnny in the living room. You placed a blanket and a pillow on the couch and asked him if that was alright for him.

“Yeah don’t worry about me. Thanks.”

“Okay, uhm. I’m going to bed, good night.”

After a long time, you’d sleep in your bedroom again. You were nervous. After changing your clothes and brushing your teeth, you got under the blankets. It felt strange to be in this bed. You were at the edge, one push you’d fall, but this is also Jaehyun’s bed and you were scared to be too close.

It’s been a couple minutes since you were in bed and were laying on your back, eyes open. 

Jaehyun came in and slowly closed the door. None of you talked and as he went to the bathroom, it felt like you could breathe again.

Jaehyun changed his clothes, brushed his teeth, and came back. 

“(Y/n)?”, he asked. 

“Yes?”, you looked at each other now. “C-Can I sleep here? I can also sleep on the floor If you want me to. Or I can sleep with Joh- okay no, just the floor.”

You wanted to laugh when he mentioned sleeping with Johnny, but he looked just like a lost puppy. “Yes, you can sleep here. It’s also your bed after all.”

He nodded and slowly got under the blankets next to you. It felt like years, being with him in the same bed. Jaehyun was also laying on his back, looking up. He tried to give you as much space as you needed but he wanted to touch you, he wanted to hold your hand and kiss you. Jaehyun wanted to breathe in your smell, the scent of vanilla he loved so much. Jaehyun wanted to tell you that he loves you. But he couldn’t.

He turned to the side to look at you. You felt his gaze on you and turned your face to him. The moon shined brightly tonight and was your only source of light. 

Slowly, his hand got closer to your cheek, he was about to stroke your cheek but as you closed your eyes, he just couldn’t. He didn’t deserve to touch you with his dirty hands. 

You thought he’d place his hand on your cheek but as you opened your eyes, you saw the struggle in his. 

“I’m sorry.”, he pulled his hand back.

“Good night, Jaehyun.”, you said as you turned around, your back now facing him.

“Good night.”

Jaehyun was standing in front of you but it seemed like he didn’t see you or hear you. No matter how loud you screamed, Jaehyun never reacted.

“Jaehyun!”, you screamed again. There was a woman standing next to Jaehyun now, you couldn’t see her face. “Jaehyun!”, you screamed again. Jaehyun pulled the unknown woman closer to him and then he hugged her. “What the- Jaehyun? Can’t you see me? Please, Jaehyun?!”

You couldn’t move no matter how hard you tried, nothing worked. “I missed you so much, baby.”, Jaehyun said to the woman. “No Jaehyun! Please don’t! I’m here! I’m right here!”

The woman’s face was blurry, you couldn’t tell who it was. Jaehyun’s hand pulled her by her head and kissed her. He was kissing the woman right in front of your eyes and there was nothing you could do. “Jaehyun! Don’t do this to me please don’t. Please don’t kiss her!”, you were crying so hard that your sight got blurry. 

“(Y/n)! Do you hear me?!”, you could hear Jaehyun’s voice, but it was impossible. He was kissing her. How could he talk to you while he was kissing the other woman?

“Wake up (Y/n)! Everything’s fine, baby. Open your eyes.”

Nothing is fine. Stop kissing her. 

“It’s just a dream. Please wake up.”, he begged.

A dream? More like a nightmare. 

Suddenly you opened your eyes and you were breathing heavily with sweat everywhere. Your heart hurt and you were scared. Was it just a dream? A nightmare?

“Look at me. It was just a dream.”, Jaehyun held you in his arms as he tried to calm you down. 

You didn’t even notice how hard you were crying. You gripped his shirt with your hands and pulled him closer. Too scared to lose him if you let go.

“It’s okay baby. You are safe now. Everything is alright.”, he placed kisses on your hair as he held you. You were slowly able to breathe in a normal rhythm, but you didn’t let him go.

“It... It was so real. J-Jaehyun it felt so real...”, you whispered. 

Little did you know that you were talking in your sleep. Jaehyun heard you crying out loud and he knew exactly what happened in your dream. 

“I know baby, but it was just a nightmare. It wasn’t real, please stop crying.”

You let him go as you thought about your dream. It wasn’t just a dream. It happened. Jaehyun did that to you. He did kiss another woman.

“L-Let me go...”, you whispered. 

“Are you feeling better now?”, he asked as he slowly let you go.

You shook your head. “Is there anything I can do for you?”, he asked now.

“N-No. Nothing I... I just need- I don’t know what I need.”

You really didn’t know what you need. Everything was happening so fast but at the same time so slow.

“I’m going to take a shower.”, you got up and left him alone in your bed. Jaehyun let out a sigh as he tried to get back to sleep. 

But that night, neither of you got any sleep.

One week past and today was your second couple therapy session.

“Is there anything you want to know, Mrs. Jung? Mr. Jung promised to answer all of your questions.”

He really did. Jaehyun promised to tell you everything you wanted to know. 

“Well, there are some questions I have...”

Jaehyun looked at you but you avoided eye contact.

“Go for it, Mrs. Jung. Just ask.”

You played with your fingers as you tried to ask the questions that bothered you for so long now. “My first question is... uhm... You said it was someone from work... do you, still... like... see her?”, your heart was beating hardly against your chest.

“I- uhm, yes. She’s there when I go to work...”, he was also playing with his fingers now, too scared to see your reaction.

“Okay... d-do you talk to her?”

“No. Not like before. I mean... just a little at our meetings, but like we are all talking, I’m not directly talking to her.”, he tried to explain that he really isn’t talking casually to her. Only when it is totally necessary.

“And you stopped... doing it with her, right?”, you asked even though Jaehyun told you many times that it was long over.

“Yes.”

“I have another question.”

Jaehyun’s eyes were on you again.

“Did you... When you said that you... uhm... chose me. Did you mean it? No, I mean... why? No no... god this is so stupid... Just tell me why you said that and If you were really about to... choose her...”, Jaehyun’s words that night really hurt you. Choosing your wife over your affair? Did Jaehyun really think about that back then?

You didn’t even notice the tears falling.

“I didn’t mean it like that- I... It was always you. I chose to love you many years ago and I still do and forever will love only you. I don’t know why I said that... I guess I tried to tell you that I was also hurt all the time and... It’s just that I thought... think... that I’m worthless. You are perfect. Literally perfect. And I thought you deserve better, you still do, but I love you. I always thought that you’d be happier... without me. I thought it would be better If we”, he let out a sigh, “broke everything off and the best way to this was to... hurt you. I know it’s stupid and If I could I’d go back in time and beat the shit -sorry- out of me.”, he tried to explain that it wasn’t choosing between you and her but between your life without him and your life with him.

Jaehyun was deep in thoughts as he talked, he tried to explain his stupid situation to you as good as he could, so that you could understand him, even a little. 

 You tried to go through everything in your head, but it was too much. “I’m sorry. I can’t do this right now,” you left Jaehyun and Dr Hwang as you tried to calm down. You got inside of your car and tried to breathe. You closed your eyes shut, trying to delete the images in your head. The images of Jaehyun with another woman. It didn’t stop. Whatever you thought of, you ended up with the same image in your mind.

You didn’t even notice that Jaehyun was sitting next to you. Tears also falling down his cheeks. You felt so helpless. You felt like there was nothing you could do to erase the pain.

“(Y/n), please look at me. Please. I’m trying so hard, I’m so sorry.”, Jaehyun cupped your cheeks. He was looking into your eyes and he wiped off your tears. “I’ll do anything for you. As long as you stop crying. I promise you the pain will stop.”

“Do you really think that? Do you really think that it’ll stop? Do you really think that I’ll be able to forgive you and we’ll be happy again?”, you searched for answers in his eyes.

“I know it. I know that we’ll be happy again. That you’ll be happy again. You are the strongest woman I know, and I will do anything in my hand to make you smile again.”

“I hate to be like that but… C-Can you stop working there? I... I don’t want you to be close to her.”, in the deepest of your mind you told yourself that it didn’t matter where he worked. He could do it again. Even if he changed his workplace, how could you be sure that it won’t happen again?

You tried to ignore the voice inside your head.

“If it’s what you want, of course. I told you I’d do anything for you.”

Silence. There was another question in your head, but you feared the answer.

“Jaehyun?”, you asked.

“Yes?”

“Do you still have her number? Or like… anything that involves her on your phone?”, you looked out of the window, you tried to focus so that you wouldn’t cry.

“No, I promise you. There’s nothing that involves her.”

“Okay.”, you sighed. You weren’t sure If you could believe him but at this point it didn’t even matter.

It’s been 8 months since the worst day in your life.

It was a very difficult journey until today. It was hard for you, after the first night you slept in your own bed, you stopped sleeping in the living room. Most of the times you were haunted by nightmares but day after day they became less. You and Jaehyun were close, yet so far from each other. In front of your kids you acted like always, like the happy couple with no failures, but when you were alone, you put a big distance between you two. You never let him touch you and he never tried, knowing how hard it was for you. In those 8 months, you never even kissed. But it was alright, Jaehyun would walk through fire for you.

The furthest of skin ship that happened was a couple months ago when you hugged him. You just hugged him out of nowhere and you didn’t let go for a whole hour. Jaehyun was too scared to put his hands around you but you asked him to.

“Please just hug me back. I need this right now.”

And he slowly hugged you back. Pulling you closer than you already were and softly caressing your hair.

You were still going to couple therapy together. It helped you so much, you wouldn’t know what would’ve happened If you were all alone. Johnny helped you also so much, taking care of the kids and even Jaehyun.

Jaehyun still hates himself. He acted like you were fragile, always trying to make you happy, never crossing any line you set. He came straight home after work and spend all his time with you and your kids. Jaehyun cooks for you to surprise you and he buys a different bouquet of flowers every Sunday for you.

Today, on your son’s sixth birthday, you invited your family and friends to celebrate your baby’s birthday. You never told anyone, except Johnny of course, what happened between you and Jaehyun. You were scared that your dad would rip Jaehyun’s head of and you didn’t want Jaehyun’s parents to know that his son did something as disgusting as that. It was your marriage and it was something between you and Jaehyun, but still, he couldn’t look his and your parents in the eyes. After months, he couldn’t even look you properly in the eyes.

After your son opened his toys, you couldn’t find Jaehyun. You opened your bedroom door and you could hear him crying. He was in the bathroom, sitting on the floor and he covered his face with his hands and just cried.

“Jaehyun?”, you closed the door and kneeled. “Jaehyun why are you crying? Hey, stop crying, Jaemin’s just six… he’s still your little-”

“I-I’m not crying because he’s growing up so fast, well, that’s also a reason but... It’s just…”, he felt like he couldn’t breathe.

You took his hands into your hands and looked at him. His eyes were blood shot red and the tears were falling down, and it seemed like they wouldn’t stop anytime.

“Hey, it’s alright. Look at me- “

“I can’t. I can’t look at you or at our family- I can’t even look at my own children. I just can’t. I don’t deserve any of you. I can’t look at your parents, knowing how much I hurt their daughter. I can’t look at my parents, knowing how disappointed they’d be. I can’t look at you, knowing that I am the reason for the pain in your heart, the tears in your eyes and the nightmares when you sleep. What kind of father am I? I always wanted to be a role model for my son, but now I hope that he never becomes like me.”

You were also crying now, you forgot about your family in the living room and you just cried with Jaehyun in the bathroom. “Jaehyun you are a great father, stop thinking like that. We’ll go through this together, don’t you remember? You promised me that.”

“I know but… what If I’m not good enough? What If I can’t make you happy again? What If- “, before Jaehyun could finish his sentence, you placed your lips on his. It was a slow kiss, you could taste the tears while you kissed him and he could, too. Both of your eyes closed, hand in hand.

Jaehyun was scared to go too far, but you sat on his lap and pulled him closer to you. After you kissed him, even though none of you wanted to stop, you placed your head in the crook of his neck and hugged him.

“I love you so much.”, he said as he hugged you back.

You couldn’t say it. He knew that you couldn’t, and it was alright. Jaehyun would give you all the time in the world. You wanted to tell him, that you loved him so much, but it was hard. But both of you knew, that you loved him.

It was your wedding anniversary one month later, and Jaehyun asked you out. This would be your first date after a whole year. You spent the last anniversary at home with your kids, at that time Jaehyun was rarely at home.

But two days ago, he bought so many roses and decorated your bedroom and asked you out. Jaehyun already asked Johnny to watch your kids and he happily agreed to do so, now it was just up to you. Were you ready to go on a date with Jaehyun?

Yes, you were.

Jaehyun told you to be ready at 7, he was still at work and told you to get ready. You stood in front of your closet, not sure what to wear. “He likes red. Maybe I should wear this- “, you were interrupted by the kids and Johnny.

“Mommy!! Can we come in?”, Jaemin asked.

“Yes, what’s wrong?”, you asked them as they entered your bedroom.

“This is for you.”, Jaemin and Minah handed you a package. “What’s this?”, you asked confused. “Just open it.”, Johnny smiled brightly.

And so, you did. There was a beautiful black dress inside the package. “Daddy told us to give you that!”, Minah said happily.

The dress was beautiful, really beautiful and it looked expensive. How could you were something so expensive, what If you drop anything on it while you eat?

“Mommy come on change we want to see it!!”, Jaemin jumped around.

“Okay okay, now get out.”, you smiled.

After you changed, you looked at the mirror and your jaw dropped. It’s been a long time since you wore something like this. It was a long black dress with thin straps, skintight, with a cut on the left side of your leg. You let your hair open and curled the tips a little. You were so excited; you almost forgot the most important thing.

Your wedding ring.

After you took it off, you only wore it when your family was around. But today you decided to wear it and you wouldn’t take it off again.

“How do I look?”, you asked after you left your room.

“Not better than me, that’s for sure.”, Johnny joked.

“Mommy is a princess!!”, Minah’s eyes shined just like you did.

“You are also a princess, my pretty girl.”, you placed a kiss on her head.

“When I grow up, I am going to marry you mommy.”, Jaemin said.

“Oh my god, can you get any cuter?”, you were about to tear up but the doorbell rang. You opened the door and you saw Jaehyun smiling brightly at you with another bouquet of roses in his hands. He was wearing a suit, and lord, Jaehyun in a suit was your weak point.

“Holy shit. “, he started.

“Jaehyun! Language!”, you hoped that your kids didn’t hear that.

“I’m sorry it’s just. Holy shit.”, he said again.

“I think it’s time to go.”, you waved at your kids and Johnny closed the door, Jaehyun was still in trance.

Jaehyun had a reservation at the restaurant you first went to on your first date

“It’s been so long since we came here, but nothing changed.”, you said, and he agreed with a hum. “God you are so beautiful.”, that was the nth time he told you how beautiful you were.

“Jaehyun stop, don’t make me shy.”

“But you are cute.”, he admired you.

The waiter filled your glasses with wine and as you put your hand around it, Jaehyun noticed the ring.

“You are wearing it?”, he smiled at you.

“Yes, and I don’t want to take it off. Ever again.”, you looked at it with a smile on your face.

“I’m sorry but you have to.”, he said seriously.

“W-What? Why?”

He took out a little box of his Jackett and opened it. “I want to give you this.”, there was a ring inside of the box. “We can’t… restart our marriage and I can’t erase our memories, I can’t undo what happened, but I can promise you, that I’ll love you with every breathe I take and that I’ll give you the happiness you deserve. I’ll do anything as long as you are happy, and I’ll never hurt you again. I can’t imagine my life without you. You gave me two beautiful children and your heart. It’s more than I deserve but I promise you, I will show you how much I love you until my last breath. This ring is my promise to you. I don’t want you to look at your old ring and think about… the bad times. I want you to look at this ring and feel happiness and love.”, Jaehyun was holding your hand and looked at you. For so many months, he couldn’t even talk to you, and now he was looking you straight into the eyes as he talked.

“Is that alright for you?”, he asked then.

You felt like crying again, but you didn’t want to, so you didn’t talk. You nodded your head and smiled at him.

He took off your old ring and replaced it with the new one.

You looked at it with the biggest smile on your face.

Of course, your heart didn’t heal fully, but day by day, the pieces of your broken heart got back together.

“I love you.”, he meant it. Jaehyun really meant it every time he told you he loved you. After being so close to losing you, it felt like his love for you grew and is still growing.

“I love you.”, after a whole year, you finally said it and it felt good. You were happy right now, it felt so good to say it back.

Life isn’t easy, everybody knows that. You could cry all day long and suffer in pain or you could do something to be happy again.

People tend to forget that time is the key. The process of healing takes time and that’s good.

Time heals all our wounds. Sometimes it takes longer but, in the end, you’ll be happy again.

[damndaehyung]

First Impressions

Daniel Choi Hogwarts Era - Year Six (2016) - Fall Included : Emily Choi, Tyler Lee, Tara Lee, Minah Delacroix, Sungjae Lee Mentioned : Lucas Zhang

September 1st. D day.

“Is there a reason you are still here?” Daniel asked as he pulled the last of his luggage out of the hire cars boot. His sometime friend and full-time rival pushed himself off the hire car’s bonnet and turned to look at him, plump lips turned up into a smirk his bright pink hair blew slightly in the wind.

“I am here to see my dearest friend off,” Joshua said, taking his sunglasses off. “You know i am going to miss you.” Daniel rolled his eyes finding that hard to believe if anything Josh seemed to be in a terrific mood since hearing the news. “I even had a going away party planned but i got the dates mixed up,” he said. Daniel snorted, oh he sure Joshua had a party planned ready to celebrate, just one Daniel wasn’t invited to.

“What a shame,” Daniel said mockingly. “Well we are here so -” he said gesturing to Joshua and the car hoping this heartbreaking goodbye would quickly come to a close.

“Andrea told me to stay with you until you are actually on the Hogwarts Express,” Joshua said pulling his sunglasses off. “Maybe I’ll sneak on with you,” he said. Daniel watched as Joshua played one of his favourite tricks, in Joshua’s place stood a replica of himself. Not a perfect one, of course, Josh’s metaphoric skills were subpar at best. “How do i look?” he said running a hand through his now silver hair.

“Better than usual,” Daniel said dryly, no matter how many times Joshua pulled this stunt it still made him feel uncomfortable. “Now stop with this identity theft, i need to find Emily and the other two,” he said pushing past Joshua.

Joshua jogged to catch up to Daniel. “Who is that? Emily? Don’t tell me you are experimenting now?”

“Eunha,” Daniel snapped. “We have western names now, Daniel, Emily…. Jennifer? I don’t know what Jinsol is going with,” he shrugged.

“Daniel Choi?” Joshua said testing it out on his tongue. “I don’t like it, i am gonna keep calling you my little Dae bae,” he said. Daniel’s nose scrunched up he didn’t particularly like either name but Dae bae was another level of cringe. “So Eunha is going to be there?” Joshua questioned. “I haven’t seen her in forever maybe i should say hi -”

“Maybe you should stay the fuck away from my 14-year-old cousin,” Daniel snapped. “Can you control your creep fascination with my family to yourself, it’s bad enough that you hooked up Jinsol and flirt with my aunt every time you see her,” he said not even bothering to hide his disgust.

“Aww Dae you forgot to include yourself, you know you are my favourite,” Joshua cooed. “Don’t be jealous,” he said wrapping an arm around Daniel’s shoulder. Daniel was quick to shrug it off, he never forgets about Joshua’s interest in him, how could he when it was so incredibly obvious, he just prefers to ignore it.

“Aren’t i lucky,” he drawled.

“The luckiest,” Joshua said. “Though you never seem to reciprocate my affections,” he pouted, at least he was self-aware. “Though i can’t expect better from a man who once had a crush Ahn Dohyun?” Joshua teased. Daniel scoffed his cheeks heating up; he didn’t have a crush on Dohyun he just respected his contribution to the Asian modelling community. So what if he under the influence said he would ride him like a broom? That didn’t mean he had a crush on him. It just meant his hormones were working.

“So you are really going to follow me to the train?” he asked as they walked into the bustling Kings Cross train station. Daniel had never been to a muggle train station before, either travelling by magic or by hired cars, it was a new experience for him, one he wasn’t particularly enjoying yet. “You really don’t have anything better to do?”

“I told you Andrea told me to make sure you get on the train, something about making sure you fulfil your contracts,” Joshua shrugged. “Plus, i get to check out the Pigfarts crowd, I’ve always been curious about Harry Potter’s old school beside you never know someone might catch my eye,” he said. Knowing Josh several somebodies would have caught his by the time they made it down the stairs.

“What is there to be curious about, its a school?” Daniel pointed out.

“I am home-schooled Daehyung, there is plenty to be curious about.” Daniel shook his head, finding that extremely hard to believe. School to some people could be interesting sure but to someone like Joshua who enjoyed his freedom to the full extent, not so much.

“Well, you can always go to a school if it is eating away at you so much, just not this one,” Daniel said. “I hear muggle schools are pretty accepting.”

“If only I wasn’t a world-famous model with obligations to fill,” Joshua sighed dramatically. “Unlike some people, i stay busy and booked so I can’t just decide to go to some boarding school,” he continued. Daniel wondered how Joshua would react if he knew the only reason he was booked at all was due to his associating with Daehyung Choi, probably a temper tantrum to rival the great Givenchy fit of 2013. “Guess I’ll just have to live vicariously through my normal best friend.”

“You have a best friend?” Daniel asked with a surprised chuckle. “Since when?”

“Funny Dae, seriously maybe after your stint as a high school student you can become a comedian,” Joshua said dryly.

“Some people can be multi-talented Joshie, I know it’s hard for you to understand,” Daniel pointed out. “But since you know so much about Hogwash maybe you can tell me something about it?”

“Hmm,” Joshua paused. “I mean i could but considering you’ve been so ungrateful of my company and insulting me i don’t know if i want to.” He trailed. “Maybe if you gave me something in return,” he said eyes gleaming with trouble. Trouble Daniel wanted no part off.

“Okay then you can go and before you say Andrea told you to make sure i get on the train my aunt will do that,” he said quickening his pace.

“Rude,” Joshua said a little puffed from struggling to keep up with Daniel. “Fine, i don’t know too much, but i am pretty sure the houses are Gryffindor, Evil, Smart and Yellow,” he said listing them off with his fingers. Daniel paused looking at Joshua trying to figure out if he was joking but to his surprise, he seemed serious.

“What?”

“The last three aren’t the actual names but it’s pretty much a summary of them,” he shrugged. “Apparently the only one that matters is Gryffindor and we both know what house you will be in,” he said with a laugh. Daniel hummed in agreement, out of the four options it seemed he was destined to be in the evil house.

“I can see my family,” Daniel said spotting the three of them ahead standing near a vending machine. “You should go before my aunt see’s you,” he said to Joshua. “She can be quite the vengeful bitch when she wants to be and you hurt Jinsol, i know i am shocked my aunt cares i thought we all agreed her first attempt to procreate was a failure but -” he shrugged.

“Fine,” Joshua rolled his eyes. “Don’t miss me too much and don’t forget to write to me every day,” Joshua mocked. Daniel stared at him blankly. “Oh come on i don’t even get a hug, I mean i am the closest thing you have to a best friend and it isn’t like anyone at Hogwits is going replace me not that they would want to, you are not exactly…” he trailed, Daniel rolled his eyes, biting back harsh words consoling himself that Joshua needed to think that, it’s the only way he’d survive. “It’s your last chance at some physical contact,” he said stepping forward-leaning up to whisper that he saw an empty bathroom stall.

“I think I’ll survive,” Daniel drawled stepping away from him. “Don’t get into too much trouble without me,” he said to Josh before running over to his family.

Daniel snuck up behind them, towering over his younger and favourite relative. “9 and 3 quarters?” Eunha questioned looking down at her train ticket lip pulling through her lip. “What does that even mean?” she continued, looking up only to find Daniel standing behind, her big bambi like eyes wide and surprised. It was enough to wipe the permanent scowl off his face. “Dae!” she exclaimed throwing her arms around him. “I mean Daniel,” she said after hearing her mum tut in disapproval. “When did you get here?” she asked.

“And here i thought he got lost,” Jinsol muttered just loud enough for Daniel to hear sounding far too disappointed than someone like her had any right to be.

“Just then,” Daniel answered Eunha ignoring Jinsol’s existence.

“Do you think it’s an Arithmancy test like we have to figure out the length and the platform and figure out where three quarters would be?” Eunha said going back to her ticket.

“Eunha,” Jinsol spoke only to be shushed by her mother coughing and sending a pointed look. “Emily,” she said sarcastically, her eyes narrowed and glaring daggers at their mother. “You are giving these people too much credit, plus what about all the muggle-borns who go to school here?”

“Maybe we should just follow them?” Daniel interjected pointing towards a family wearing the gaudiest of wizarding robes, broomsticks and cauldron on full display for the curious muggles. The apparent disregard of secrecy was in stark contrast to their previous school which sat on top of a Volcano. Maybe Hogwarts had really moved on from their old reputation, that or the tackily dressed people didn’t regard muggles as notable in which case they lived up to their old reputation to a tee.

His Aunt’s nose scrunched clearly unimpressed with the family but nodded anyway, following them would be better than standing around looking like fools. Daniel strutted forward, schooling his face into one that came across as welcoming and cute, a boxy smile on his face, just in case someone decided to look at him. He could only imagine what his aunt would be like if she knew he was rolling his eyes internally.

‘You need to impress these people Daehyung, do what you need to do, smile if they want you to, listen to them like they actually matter, you know how it is.’

“Oh, Sol i was doing you a favour, look at them, ugly style and a bit nuts. I am pretty sure i found your real father and your half-siblings,” he sneered.

“Daniel, Jessica,” His aunty glowered. “Look maybe we can -”

“Why is that girl running towards a wall?” Eunha cut her mum’s off, transfixed all of their eyes followed the family’s eldest daughter ran towards the wall at full speed. Daniel tilted his head to the side perhaps it was a weird rite of passage for British Wizarding families. Just as the girl was going to hit the wall, much to Daniel’s disappointment, she disappeared through the wall.

“So, to get to platform 9 and three quarters -” Eunha started to speak, her normal deep voice going up an octave as registered what just happened.

“We need to a run at a wall,” Daniel finished, “Because nothing says inconspicuous like running towards a wall, are the muggles here under a spell or are they just that oblivious?” he asked with a shake of his head. Hordes of teenagers, some in ugly robes, with broomsticks and owls and half of them aren’t even sparing them a glance.

“I bet a man came up with this,” Jinsol said a disgusted look on her face. “So how should we do this? I nominate Dae- Daniel to go first,” she said turning to him.

He scoffed, running a hand through his hair. “You know i would say ladies first,” he said. “But that means my dear Emily would have to go first so how about untalented los -” he started but was cut off by both Eunha and his aunt shouting at him to stop.

“Emily, my dear,” His aunt said to Eunha, placing a hand on her back. “Since your sister and cousin are squabbling as kindergarteners would-, you, as the most mature one here, go first?” she asked. Daniel craned his neck looking at his aunt incredulously. Eunha looked at her mother shocked before looking down, her hands trembling ever so slightly, a muttered okay escaping her lips.

“I’ll go,” Daniel said glaring at his smirking aunt, she knew very well that he would step in and that pissed him off. It was her fault they uprooted their lives yet she was about to send her youngest and favourite child to run into the unknown. All because she ran out of Asian families to try and gain favour from and now needed fresh European money. Eunha opened her mouth to protest but Daniel stopped her squeezing her shoulder lightly before walking up to the white weirdos.

“Uh excuse me?” He asked his accent heavy because if there was one thing he learned over his travel, people find broken English adorable. The family turned to look at him, the husband seemed weary perhaps he thought Daniel was a muggle, it makes sense a walking cliche like himself would think that “How did you? How do you get to platform nine and three quarter?” he asked widening his eyes and jutting his lip trying to look as innocent as possible. It seemed to work because the wife’s eyes softened as she looked at Daniel.

“Oh, is this your first time going to Hogwarts?” she asked. Daniel nodded cursing this woman for answering his question another dumber question. “My son Alan is just starting as well,” she said pointing to one of her spawns. Daniel plastered a fake smile on his face and nodded once again hoping that it would speed this conversation along, he didn’t want to know about her son.

“Me and my cousin transferred,” He said pointing to Eunha and the other two. “Can you show us please?” he said nodding to the wall. The woman coo-ed waving at Eunha, his aunt and Jinsol. His aunt looked at Daniel who shrugged, if they wanted to know how to get to the platform they might as well get this lesson as well. Reluctantly they came over, Daniel noted with annoyance the way the son’s eyes widened when he spotted Eunha and Jinsol. He hoped little Andy knew his place, he really did.

“Hello,” the woman said. “Benjamin say hello,” she said smacking her husband lightly across the chest. The husband grumbled out a greeting. “Oh aren’t you a beautiful family,” she said looking from Daniel to Eunha and then Jinsol finally settling on his aunt. “Oh you must be their mother, I can see where they get it from,” she gushed. His aunt plastered her what Daniel had realized is I am setting fire to you with my mind smile on and nodded.

“Your family is charming,” His aunt said.

“Arigato,” The woman responded with a laugh. Daniel looked at her and the train tracks wondering what would happen if she just accidentally happened to fall onto the train tracks.

“The platform?” Daniel asked his patience running thin. He had enough of these people and he just wanted to get on the train already.

“Oh right, all you have to do is walk into the wall between platforms nine and ten, best do it at a bit of run since it’s your first time,” she said. “Here watch Alan,” she nodding to her son he grabbed his trolley before taking a breath and sprinting forward. Just like before the child vanished through the wall.

“Your turn now,” The woman said turning to Daniel. Daniel ground his teeth together, fist-clenching around his luggage. If this went wrong at least it would ruin Andrea’s day which would make his. Counting to three he ran forward, ignoring his senses which told him to stop he kept going, closing his eyes as he was just about to hit the wall.

When he opened them he was on a completely different platform, he turned to look at the wall and then back to the platform that was in front of him. It really worked. Stepping away from the wall he took in his surroundings, while the other platform was busy this platform was downright chaotic. Whistles blared and the air was filled with steam from the train. He walked forward, every inch was full from emotional parents saying goodbye to their little brats to teenagers running towards their friends. A few almost running into Daniel as they did so.

“Dae,” He heard Eunha call out to him, he turned around expecting to see her right behind him but unbeknownst to him, he had wandered too far away from the wall. His eyes roamed through the crowd trying to find her. “Over here,” he heard barely spotting Eunha jumping up and down, waving frantically. He nodded waving back before making his way over to her and the others.

“So this is it?” Daniel said looking at his Aunt who nodded.

“Don’t mess this up,” She said to Daniel before turning her attention to Jinsol. “Don’t do anything stupid,” she said dismissively. Daniel shook his head, he was and will never be fond of Jinsol but surely his Aunt could at least say goodbye to her properly, don’t make it too obvious she had a favourite. “Be good and write to me okay,” she said to Eunha who nodded, her eyes watering ever so slightly. “It will be fine sweetie. Dae and Sol will look after you,” she said rubbing at Eunha’s arms. “Okay, remember that you only answer to Daniel, Jessica and Emily from now on,” she said stepping back.

Daniel rolled his eyes nodding, “Come along Emmy,” he said wrapping an arm around Eunha’s arms. “You can come to i suppose,” he said to Jinsol who flipped him off before following along. The trio made their way over to the Hogwarts Express, a formidable large red train, it huffed and puffed as the conductors tried to control the onslaught of students. “Shall we?” he asked looking at both his cousins. Neither looked particularly optimistic but a shrugged sure and nervous nod meant they were on their way.

“Do you think we can get our own compartment?” Jinsol asked as they pushed through the crowded cart. A few curious eyes landed on them, Daniel had no idea how often transfer students were at Hogwarts but he got the feeling it was few and far between.

“It’s pretty close to eleven,” Eunha said checking her brand new watch, a gift from her father for her first day at Hogwarts. “I am going to guess most of them are already full,” she frowned. “We could always just stand out here?” she offered.

“Let’s just find an almost empty carriage and hope that no one wants to start small talk, I am tired after dealing with Andrea and Joshua all morning,” he said rubbing at his temple. “One telling me what pants to wear and the other trying to get into them -”

“Please shut up,” Jinsol muttered a look of disgust on her face. Daniel hummed it must be humbling to never be someone’s first choice. What a pity.

“Well that is one full,” Eunha said standing on her tippy toes to peek into one of the compartments. “Makes sense the one near the exit would be full right?” she offered. “Maybe we should try the back?” she said looking down the hallway with a frown, it was full of students, friends yelling out to each other, hugging, sharing stories of their Summer.

“It will be fine,” Jinsol said. “Let’s just keep looking,” she said. The three of them continued down the hall searching for an empty or practically empty compartment eventually finding one near the end of the train. It wasn’t empty, a girl sat alone with her cat. Daniel figured something was incredibly wrong with this girl considering she was alone but he couldn’t care less.

“Hello,” Eunha said as they entered the compartment, the girl looked like she was Eunha’s age, surprisingly enough Korean, straight dark hair and cat-like eyes. Judging by her outfit she was either a very rich muggle-born or came from an upper middle wizarding family. The girl placed her book down, her dark eyes darting from Eunha to Jinsol and then finally Daniel. “I hope you don’t mind if we sit here, it’s just everywhere else is packed,” Eunha explained.

“You are new,” The girl pointed tilting her head.

“Is it obvious?” Eunha asked smile falling. Daniel glared at the girl, hand instinctively reaching down to his pocket considering whether he should send a jinx her way for upsetting Eunha.

“Well kinda,” the girl said. “Not that you look odd or anything,” she added quickly. “We just don’t usually get many new people, other than the first years of course,” she said. “Though last year there was that French girl,” she added.

“So people will be paying attention to us?” Jinsol asked as she sat down next to the window. Daniel couldn’t help but think she sounded a little hopeful, Daniel shook his head as he placed Eunha and his own luggage into the overhead. It would be funny if it wasn’t so sad.

“Maybe,” The girl said pausing. “At least during the great feast you should be but then maybe Gossip Witch will strike with another fascinating blast,” she said with a roll of her eyes.

“Gossip Witch?” Eunha asked sitting down beside Jinsol, “What is that?”

“This anonymous blog that suddenly started posting about the elite of Hogwarts,” she said. “It’s kinda a big deal and it’s everywhere, it’s on every social media platform you can imagine even some that probably aren’t even made yet,” she said.

“Hogwarts has elites?” Daniel snorted. “What is it any descendant of the Potter’s?”

“I think they posted about Lily once,” she said, “But no it’s mostly about the French girl and the Lee’s,” she said scrunching her nose up. “But who knows maybe you will be Gossip Witch’s new fave and I will never have to hear about he must not be named ever again,” she said.

“Voldemort?” Jinsol asked.

“No worse,” The girl said with a shudder.

“There is someone worse than Voldemort,” Daniel said, he found it hard to believe that someone could be worse than a pureblood fanatic dictator but what did he know.

“You’ll see,” The girl said shrugging, “Anyway what year will you be in?”

“Oh, I think I am going to be a fourth year,” Eunha said quickly, of course, she knew that she had spent her Summer trying to be ready for Hogwarts. “And that means these two would both be six years,” she said nodding to himself and Jinsol. “I am Eun- Emily, by the way,” she said.

“Eun- Emily?” The girl questioned. “That’s a mouthful,” she laughed. “So what is your real name? Eunbi? Eunsol? Eunmi?” she asked her nose scrunching up at the last suggestion.

“Eunha,” Eunha answered. “But I am Emily now,” she said nodding. “This is my sister Jessica and my cousin Daniel, I swear they aren’t normally this anti-social,” she said apologizing for Jinsol and himself unnecessarily, also lying to the girl, he was only social when there was something to gain from it.

“You could have kept your Korean name,” The girl said. “The school is more racist about blood purity than they are about skin colour, though a guy did ask me how to say wanna hook up in Chinese once.” She said grinning viciously. Daniel raised an eyebrow wondering if the idiot guy is still alive. “Anyway, I’m Eunmi,” she said. “Also a fourth year,” she said. “And that is Meow,” she said nodding to her cat.

“Eunmi and Meow, charming,” Daniel said promptly getting an elbow to the side. “Fine, what about these houses? Do you only get to interact with your own house?” he asked.

“What about them? There is Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw and Slytherin,” she said. “And you can interact with whoever you want, there is no rule against, most people just tend to stick to their own houses because you spend pretty much all your day with them,” she said.

“Which is the best house?” Jinsol asked.

“Well I am in Slytherin so I am biased towards there but if you go by the blatant favouritism then Gryffindor is probably your best bet,” Eunmi explained. Daniel thought back to Joshua’s descriptions of the house, maybe he was onto something when he said Gryffindor was the only house that mattered.

“And the other two Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff?” Eunha asked. “Are they not good?”

“I mean they can be, Ravenclaw is meant to be the smart house and Hufflepuff –“ she said.

“Is yellow,” Daniel cut her off. The girl blinked owlishly opening her mouth to speak was cut off by a great clattering.

An older woman opened the door, smiling a dimpled smile. “Anything from the cart dears?” she asked looking in on them before closing the door.

Eunha jumped up, her tummy rumbling as she did. “You guys want anything?” she asked looking at Jinsol, himself and even Eunmi. Daniel shook his head but tried to hand Eunha some money, if she was going to waste her money on sweets and charity cases she might as well use his disposable income but she shook her head. “I got it,” she said sweetly stepping out of the carriage. Daniel followed her; he’d just pay before she had a chance.

“Can I get-“ Eunha started at the same time as a dark-haired boy who came from the carriage across from them started to list his order stopping when he spotted Eunha. Daniel stepped closer looming over her shoulder but apparently, his presence wasn’t as threatening as he hoped it was. At Mahoutokoro no boy dared look at Eunha for longer than a second in fear of Daniel but this boy was looking and if the smile on his face was anything to go by he liked what he saw.

“You go first,” The boy said to Eunha, who much to Daniel disgust, was blushing. Daniel had enough stepping forward to shield Eunha from this guy.

“Dae what are you doing?” Eunha whispered. Daniel ignored her smiling at the trolley lady. “Can we have two of everything please,” he said to the woman, his signature boxy smile on his face. The transaction was quick thankfully, the boy seemingly got the message and stepped back talking to one of his friends. With his arms full of snacks he hadn’t eaten since he was a child he made his way back into the carriage, Eunha trailing behind. “You didn’t have to pay,” she mumbled. “I am not a kid anymore,” she huffed. Daniel turned towards her raising an eyebrow. That was the problem, he couldn’t have any Hoghash boys thinking they had a chance with her.

“I know but you should save your money,” Daniel said to her. “So you want a Chocolate Frog or Liquorice Wand? I figure we give the beans to Jinsol and the other girl can have the rest,” he said as he tipped to food onto the empty chair beside Eunmi.

“Emily is pouting, what did you do Dan?” Jinsol said eyes narrowing. Daniel bristled at the nickname, Dan, he was not a Dan. Of course Jinsol would say something disgusting. First, she assumed upset Eunha and now she was calling him Dan.

“I did nothing,” He huffed.

“He wouldn’t stop glaring at some poor guy and wouldn’t let me pay,” Eunha pouted notable taking the chocolate frogs.

“So he paid for your food and kept some guy away?” Eunmi asked interjecting herself into a conversation she didn’t need to be in. “I don’t see the problem here,” she said, helpfully, at least someone understood what is going on.

“He is just being overprotective,” Eunha said with an eye roll. “Everyone can have some,” she said nodding the pile of snacks. Daniel watched as Jinsol and Eunmi both moved to get some snacks. Daniel leaned back in his chair, pulling out his phone and scrolling aimlessly. Apparently, some Hogwarts student had managed to modernize Hogwarts into having an internet connection. A student breaking their anti-technology spell? What was even happening at Hogwarts?

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“Did you learn anything on your walk?” Eunha asked as Daniel threw on his Hogwarts Robe. Daniel let out an annoyed huff, he didn’t appreciate been exiled from their compartment while they changed. She knew he had no interest in the female anatomy.

“Unless you are interested in some guy named Ashton been unable to keep it in his pants then no not really,” Daniel answered he had heard too much about people he had never met before loves life or lack of love life in some cases.

“I hope someone kicks this Ashton guys butt,” Eunha said with a glare. Daniel’s lip quirked up into a smile. She was adorable even when she was trying to be tough.

“Open,” A female voice said before knocking on their compartment door excessively. Daniel looked from Eunha to Eunmi figuring she’d know what is happening but she shook her head looking at the door confused. Daniel sucked in a breath opening the door.

“Can i-“ he started to say before a brunette girl pushed past him standing in the middle of the compartment, demanding attention. Daniel looked at the girl confused, her brown eyes frantic and her ponytail messy in a way that made Daniel believe that wasn’t her intention. “Are you lost?” he asked her.

“No,” The girl snapped at him. “You are the Choi Siblings, right? Daniel, Eunha and Jinsol,” she said looking at each of them. “I am sorry I didn’t get any information about you,” she said turning to Eunmi who looked at her like she had grown a second head.

“I am not new or related to them,” Eunmi said shaking her head. “I am a fourth-year from Slytherin,” she said as the girl rolled her eyes waving a hand dismissively as if she had done nothing wrong.

“Right anyway, I am Elena, the prefect Professor Headly, put in charge of making your transition into Hogwarts is as easy as possible,” she said to them. “Oh good you are all ready,” she said seeming relieved. “So much better than last years transfer student,” she muttered. “Come with me,” she said. Daniel shared a look with his cousin who seemed just as unsure of this girl as he did. “We don’t have all day people,” she tapping her foot impatiently.

Daniel moved to grab their luggage but was stopped by Elena who tutted. “No need to do that your luggage will be in your dorm once you are sorted,” she said. Daniel held his hands up stepping away, stupid crazy girl.

“Right please follow me,” she said once they were all standing. Daniel and Jinsol followed behind her, Eunha strayed behind saying her goodbyes to Eunmi. “So firstly I would like to welcome you to Hogwarts,” Elena said guiding them back to the front of the train. “I assume you all know the school rules by now, “ she started before going on off a tangent.

“And then they picked Poppy as head girl,” she said as they stepped onto the train station. “Poppy Parkinson, her mum was a death eater? And Cameron as the head boy? He is such a dudebro the only reason he ever got anything done was because of me!” she ranted. “Can you believe it?” she said turning to Daniel waiting for a response. Daniel blinked looking at Eunha clearly confused. The last thing he remembered hearing from this girl was that sneaking members of the other sex into the dorm was strictly forbidden.

“That’s awful,” Eunha said. “But you are still a prefect and that is really good,” she trying to appease the girl.

“Yeah, you are the – what house are you from?” Jinsol asked.

“Gryffindor, the best choice,” she said proudly. “All we need to do is get the quidditch cup back but thanks to Tyler Lee –“ she continued and Daniel went back to ignoring her knowing that he would contemplate drowning if he was stuck in the same house as that girl. He looked ahead eyes falling on the carriages with some hideous creature attached.

“What is that?” Daniel asked pointing ahead.

“The carriages?” Elena said raising an eyebrow.

“No,” Daniel shook his head. “The things in front of it, like a horse skeleton, “ he said, eyes wide as he took it in. The creature was terrifying, a winged skeleton-like creature with a reptile’s face. Jinsol and Eunha both frowned muttering about how they couldn’t see anything.

“Dae are you okay? Did Josh slip something in your coffee?” Eunha whispered. Daniel shook his head, looking at Elena for an explanation. Why did no one know what he was talking about, how could they not see them?

“You can see the Thestrals?” Elena asked, mouth dropping in surprise. “That means you’ve seen –“ she said bringing a hand to her mouth.

“Death,” Jinsol finished her. “Why are you acting so weird about it?” she said to Elena. A rare time Jinsol was looking out for Daniel. “I can’t believe you didn’t know that Daniel, did you ever pay attention in class?” she asked changing the subject. “Such a blonde,” she said climbing into the carriage.

“Right,” Elena said. “Please get in,” she said to Daniel and Eunha. Daniel nodded helping Eunha before sliding in beside her. “So anyway as I was saying Ravenclaw is okay, Hara is great but Sungjae, he is a nice guy but Minah is such a bad influence on him. Honestly he shouldn’t be a prefect anymore,” she ranted. And like that Daniel was back to ignoring her.

“Wow,” Eunha gasped as the castle came into view. “So that is it?” she asked looking up at the castle, eyes wide in awe. Admittedly the castle did make a formidable figure, standing out above the large lake and illuminated by the full moon. The carriage paused a pair of impressive wrought iron gates, flanked with stone columns topped with winged boards.

Elena hummed in agreement. “Yup that is Hogwarts,” she said with a soft smile and a wistful tone. He knew school spirit and pride was drummed into people but that reaction was a little much. “I am sorry it’s my last trip here,” she said, Daniel could have sworn her eyes were tearing up.

“Are you dying?” Daniel asked hoping that he didn’t come across as too eager. The carriage started up again, picking up speed on the long slopping drive up to the castle.

“No,” Elena said looking at Daniel oddly. Well, that was a letdown. “It’s my last year here,” she said pouting.

Daniel nodded before going back to ignoring her. He was pretty sure he’d never have to interact with this girl again (and for that he was so thankful) so it didn’t matter what she thought of him. He zoned out taking in the scenery around him, dense forest, sloping fields and a large lake, the closer they got to the castle the more the nerves took over. Beside him Eunha legs couldn’t stop bouncing up and down, Jinsol had started chewing on her bottom lip. Daniel himself was fiddling with the sleeves of his robes, rolling them up and then rolling them down.

“We are here,” Elena said pointing out the obvious as the carriage drew to a stop. “Come along, Professor Goldhorn is waiting,” she said hopping out of the carriage. Daniel followed suit helping Eunha and even Jinsol out of the carriage. They took a minute to soak in the grandness of the Hogwarts castle before making their way up the stone steps.

“The Choi’s I take it?” They were greeted by a stern-looking woman, her dark grey hair pulled up in a tight bun. She looked down her glasses slipping down her rather large nose. “Crowley you can go to the great hall,” she said dismissing Elena, “You three come to my office,” she said not waiting a beat before turning around her emerald robes swishing as she moved down the hall. Daniel and the others moved quickly to catch up with her. They followed her through the entrance hall, up the marble staircase and along the corridor, stopping in front of her office.

“Come in,” she said shooing them into the room. Her office was on the smaller side, at least compared to the offices of the professors at Mahoutokoro. The centrepiece of her office was the large fireplace. “Sit,” she said motioning to three chairs. “So as you know Hogwarts has a special way of sorting its student,” she said pausing for them to nod in agreement. “Now for our first year the sorting ceremony happens in the great hall during the welcoming feast but given your age, I assume you don’t want to be placed with first years,” she said. “So,” she said walking over to the desk and picking up a dirty pointed hat, it was old and tattered, patches and rips covering its entirety. “I figured we could do this in the privacy of my office,” she said as the hat began to twitch its brim opening to reveal a mouth. Daniel blinked mortified as it started singing, he slowly turned his head to look at Eunha and Jinsol who both were looking on transfixed and horrified.

You’re in safe hands (though I have none), For I’m a Thinking Cap! The hat finally finished. “Okay so we will do this by alphabetical order, Daniel Choi,” she said looking at him and picking up the hat. Daniel’s nose scrunched up as she moved to place the hat on his head. He would need to wash his again after having that thing on his head.

The hat barely touched his crown before yelling out a loud and definitive “SLYTHERIN,”, the hat was promptly taken off his head. Not quick enough if his opinion though, he hoped he’d never have to put anymore enchanted ugly headwear on again.

“Emily Choi,” Professor Goldhorn said placing the hat on top of Eunha’s head. Unlike Daniel’s sorting Emily’s seemed to go on for a few minutes. Daniel frowned wondering what the school’s policy on having a hairstylist visit, he needed a professional to fix Emily’s brown locks after having that on top of her head for so long. Daniel didn’t think he could hate that hat more than he already did but when it called out “HUFFLEPUFF!” loudly he knew if he ever got the chance that hat would be burned to smithereens. How dare they place her in the useless yellow house.

“Can the hat –“ He started to ask before Professor Goldhorn shot him a withering look, a quick the hat is never wrong escaping her painted lips leaving no room for argument.

“Now Jessica Choi,” she said to Jinsol, placing that hat on her head. Jinsol’s sorting was longer than Daniel’s but much quicker than Eunha’s. “GRYFFINDOR” it exclaimed as Daniel glared at it. It sorted the useless cousin into the best house.

“Wonderful,” Professor Goldhorn clapped, “Please make your way to The Great Hall,” she said, “It just straight down the staircase, it’s hard to miss,” she added before leaving the office with a swish, the dumb sorting hat in hand stopping in the doorway, gesturing with her head for them to leave. With a tight-lipped smile that was more of a sneer, Daniel stood up, walking past the Professor stopping at the top of the staircase waiting for Eunha.

“So none of us are in the same house,” Eunha lamented, pouting at Daniel and then Jinsol. “Do you think we will be able to interact?” she asked as Jinsol laughed.

“Oh Eun-Emily,” she said rolling her eyes at having to change names. “Do you really think they are going to forbid you from interacting with your big sister and well, him,” she said looking over Daniel, detest clear in her eyes.

“Do you really think some silly school house is gonna stop me from seeing my favourite person?” Daniel asked throwing an arm around Eunha’s shoulder. “Plus if anyone should be exiled it should be Jessica, after all, she is in the favourite house,” he said throwing a withering glance over his shoulder. “Been a favourite for once, you must be so happy Jessie,” he said in a saccharine sweet voice.

“Don’t make me push you down the stairs,” Jinsol spat.

“Oh go ahead, I’d love for you to have pay off the insurance,” He laughed. Sure he wouldn’t get a knuckle off it but it would be fun to see Jinsol scramble around to try and pay the amount his face was insured for.

“So the Great Hall?” Eunha suggested trying to stop the argument. “You know before we get told off or lost?”

Sharing one last annoyed glance with Jinsol, Daniel turned nodding. “Let’s go.”

The Great Hall like Goldhorn had said was hard to miss, especially when hoards of students piling into it. Daniel’s arm dropped down once he stepped into the hall, it was admittedly grand. It was lit by thousands and thousands of candles floating in midair over four long tables, which were quickly been filled by students. On the table laid glittering gold plates and goblets. “I guess this where we might need to separate,” Daniel said reaching out squeezing Eunha’s hand. “If anyone causes you any trouble come find me,” he whispered. Eunha nodded, turning to give a quick hug to Jinsol before the three of them made their way over to their respected tables.

Daniel walked down the Slytherin table looking for an empty spot to sit. “Daniel,” a distinctly female voice called out. Daniel whirled around looking for who called out. He frowned looking around the room searching for whoever said it, with a shrug he moved on figuring out that maybe they were talking to another Daniel, it was a pretty common name.

“Daehyung,” This time he froze, that name wasn’t common at all. “Hello,” he heard seeing a leggy girl with coloured orange hair. “Come sit with us,” she said waving her hand at him. He raised an eyebrow as he looked her over, her robe was open showing off a ruched blouse and a skirt that was definitely shorter than the school uniform code. The piece de resistance was her Cartier handbag that hung loosely off her arm. She seemed wealthy enough. Daniel nodded making his way over to her.

“Ah I am so excited you are here,” The girl said smiling at him sweetly before narrowing her eyes. “Move, you are in my spot loser,” she snapped to a boy who was trying to chat to a blonde girl. “I am sorry about that,” she said turning to Daniel. “Some people don’t know their place, anyway as I was saying, I am such a huge fan – I remember last Summer I went to Tokyo to visit family and your face was everywhere,” she said. “Once Gossip Witch posted about you and your cousins, I am so sorry by the way Hufflepuff – tragic,” she said looking in down like she was mourning, “I knew I had to make sure you were integrated with the right crowd,” she said.

“There is a wrong crowd?” Daniel asked. The girl laughed in response.

“Of course there is,” she said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. “Now come sit,” she said sitting on the bench. Daniel looked at the bench with an eyebrow raised, did she expect him to sit on her lap. He got the distinct feeling that Hogwarts students were weird but surely that would be pushing it. He opened his mouth to point out that there was no room, when the blonde girl next to his new friend turned to the person beside her, daggers coming from her eyes. The girl who was on the receiving end quickly stood up practically running away as the blonde slid down leaving a space. Daniel hummed well that works.

“Ladies meet Daniel Choi,” The orange-haired girl, said tapping the spot beside her. “He is that model I told you all about,” she explained.

“I thought his name was Daehyung?” The blonde girl asked, the glare now replaced with a look of curiosity.

“He changed his name obviously Aspen,” The dark-haired girl across from them answered looking up from her copy teen witch. “You know to appease your kind,” she said to Aspen with a roll of her eyes. “Do you think Giselle’s name is really Giselle?”

“If you want to survive you all better say yes Giselle’s name is Giselle,” Giselle, the orange-haired girl threatened. “Anyway yes Daniel is the model I told you about,” she said rolling her eyes. “You know – “

“The one who was on the cover of Mode and Teen Witch Japan at the same time,” The dark-haired girl said with a laugh.

“The one who has been the brand ambassador for Hex and Helix, Divine Beauty, Chanel and Louis Vuitton,” Aspen continued. “You know with the cousin?” she said. Daniel looked at her confused, what did she mean with the cousin.

“Yeah,” Giselle agreed solemnly.

“Were sorry, it’s bad enough a Gryffindor in the family but a you know,” Aspen trailed off.

“It’s okay, no one will think any less of you,” The dark-haired girl said. “You can’t control them,” she shrugged.

“Anyway, enough about that Priya,” Giselle interjected. “I am sure you don’t want to talk about it, it’s upsetting enough,” she said to Daniel patting his back in what was meant to be a comforting move but was just ignoring his personal space.

“Thank you,” Daniel said, “And uh thank you for appreciating my work,” he added, a bashful smile making its way onto his lips. He wondered if Giselle was part of his fan club or just a social climber.

“Here,” Aspen said handing him a goblet. “Don’t worry it’s not pumpkin juice,” she said winking at Daniel. Daniel sniffed at there was no obvious poisons, deciding to risk he took a sip, wine, a decent red at that, he had no idea how they got it but he was glad they did.

“Trust me you’ll need it to get through the sorting ceremony,” Priya whispered to him. “First years are so exhausting,” she said.

“Don’t forget the headmaster’s stupid speech and the school song,” Giselle said nose scrunching up in disgust. “Hoggy Hogwarts, I can’t believe I used to sing that crap,” she scoffed. “Don’t judge me,” she said to Daniel. “I was young and stupid,” she said.

“So nothing has changed then,” A boy said walking past, Daniel turned to look at who said it to see a tall boy, probably older than them, wearing a skirt.

“Don’t worry about him,” Aspen said with an annoyed scoff. “Caspian thinks he is all that because he is a seventh year and is friends with two prefects,” she said shaking her head. “Everyone knows in that the sixth years run the Slytherin house, especially since Poppy is the head girl now, like the headmaster has pretty much condemned her to the domestic life with a that Gryffindick,” she said.

“Also Aspen has never got along with Caspian because he made out with her old crush,” Priya laughed. “It was this huge thing, luckily it was pre gossip witch,” she said.

“Thankfully,” Giselle said. “Imagine if Gossip Witch was here when it happened, Aspen would have never been able to show her face again,” she said, Daniel was sure she seemed a little too gleeful at prospect.

“Oh right Gossip Witch, I heard about that but the person I talked to said they only really post about the same people,” he said.

“Oh Gossip Witch definitely has her favourites,” Priya said rolling her eyes, “Minah Delacroix and her Lee’s,” she said shaking her head. “Merlin’s beard why does Gossip Witch assume we all care about that not so love triangle.”

“Because we supposedly don’t have anything else to do,” Aspen drawled. “And we are supposed to believe Sungjae Lee is a worthy competitor against Tyler,” she laughed.

“Well you will never hear me speaking ill of Sungjae Lee,” Giselle said. “Thanks to him we have the internet,” she praised.

“So you are saying you’d choose Sungjae over Tyler?” Aspen said looking at Giselle, ignoring Daniel’s presence entirely.

“I am not saying that but I am not going to bash him, he has given me Instagram, Tik Tok and made Hoot until he can get the Twitter batch out,” she said. Daniel blinked, the only word familiar to him was Instagram and even that was a foreign land to him.

“I would,” Priya said with a shrug. “He is decent looking but not hotter than me so he will be an easy catch and is destined to become some sort of Tech billionaire,” she pointed out. “But if I am completely honest I don’t think he beats for my team if you know what I mean,” she said wiggling her eyebrows.

He is friends with Caspian and Siobhan and those two are well….” Aspen said judgement clear in her tone.

“Is there a problem with being… “ Daniel repeated mockingly. He had just assumed these people adopted him so they could have a gay best friend.

“Of course not,” Giselle said as it was the most obvious thing in the world. “You were so brave coming out so young,” she said as her friends nodded in agreement. “It just Cas and Siobhan are losers,” she said. “Hey maybe if Sungjae is interested in boys you could date him,” she said.

“Giselle!” Aspen said. “No Daniel is way too good for him, I’ll find you some more worthy of your affections,” she said.

“Yeah your next boyfriend probably,” Priya muttered under her breath.

“Either way,” she shrugged. “Hey Daniel, you should add us on Insta,” Giselle spoke before pausing. “Or you finsta, I know your company doesn’t allow you to follow anybody,” she said. Daniel nodded, he has no control over his Instagram and he wasn’t sure what a finsta was. “I know this because Joshua Jung slid into my DM’s the other week,” she said proudly.

“Oh wow,” Daniel said pretending to be awed, he didn’t think have Josh slide into any crevice was a badge of honour, it was more like a tramp stamp but she seemed excited about it. He was saved from having to say anything more thanks to a slew of 11-year-olds made their way into the hall, all wide-eyed and bushy-tailed.

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“Where do you think you are going?” Giselle asked cocking an eyebrow at Daniel, the feast had finished and Daniel just wanted to check in Eunha, make sure she wasn’t been rejected by the Hufflepuff crowd.

“I was going to check on my cousin,” He said as Giselle, Aspen and Priya gasped, all three of them shaking their heads frantically.

“No sweetie,” Priya said quickly, “You can’t go over there, one it’s social suicide and two we do actually have to head to our dorm,” she said.

“The only time you can go to the Hufflepuff table is if you want to huff and puff,” Aspen said. “But even then, I know a guy who has better options,” she added. “Just let me know what you need.”

“Come on,” Giselle said linking arms with Daniel, Priya took the other arm effectively trapping him. “So our common room is in the Dungeons, I know ew right but it’s really the best one out there,” she said.

“And trust her she has been in all of them,” Priya laughed as Giselle let out a scandalized noise. “But it’s true no other common room is more refined than ours,” she said.

“Ravenclaws common room is pretty nice as well,” Aspen said walking backwards. “It’s in the Astronomy Tower,” she said. “I am not going to tell where Gryffindors or Hufflepuffs are, you might be too tempted to try and find your cousins,” she said eyes narrowing.

“I mean i know it’s Gryffindor but surely he could speak to that cousin if he wanted,” Giselle said. “She looks like she has potential,” she said.

“Jessica?” Daniel snorted. “No, trust me, just no,” he said, the idea he would run in the same social cycle as Jinsol was horrifying to think about. “Should I know anything else about Slytherin?” he asked hoping to get some useful information out of them and not just hearing about how they had a plan to make a finsta.

“Hmm,” Giselle pretended to think.

“You are a pureblood right?” Priya asked. “We aren’t as bad about that stuff now but if you are a half-blood or muggle-born maybe don’t let people know,” she whispered.

“What are you whispering about Patil,” A tall boy asked sliding in next to her. Priya bristled next to him, an annoyed scowl on her face.

“Blowjob techniques, got any tips, Stefan?” Priya asked. “No of course not because no one would touch you with a fifty-foot broom,” she said with an eye roll. “Daniel meet Stefan, he is a six-year like us but you know not as important or attractive,” she said.

“You’re a sixth year?” he said eyeing Daniel. “Guess we will be seeing each other,” he said a smirk making its way onto his lips. “See ya later Patil,” he said with a wink before sauntering over to a bunch of other guys. Daniel knew smirks and that one was trouble, that one meant the idiot was going to pull some shit on Daniel and Daniel was just too tired for dealing with it.

“Don’t worry about him,” Giselle said once he was out of earshot. “He is just pissed Priya rejected him,” she said.

“Oh and Tyler kicked him off the quidditch team,” Aspen added with a laugh. “Apparently he missed training last season and you know what Tyler is like,” Aspen said.

“He bought on himself,” Giselle with a nod. “He was dragging the team down, I heard Tyler is going to pull guys up from the reserve side, maybe Zhang,” she said.

“Nah Zhang isn’t making the team for two more years; he is a seeker, right?” Aspen said. “Yeah Tyler isn’t letting on the pitch until he is done,” she said.

“True,” Giselle lamented. “It’s a shame though Lucas would look good on a broom,” she giggled.

“Right,” Priya said rolling her eyes. “What about Kim? She is a chaser and is actually pretty good,” she pointed out. Daniel nodded not knowing who any of these people are and why he would care.

“Yeah, but she did laugh when Sungjae hit him with the jelly legs jinx,” Aspen pointed out.

“He would stop someone from joining the team because they laughed?” Daniel asked with an eyebrow raised. “Should I be worried about this Tyler guy?” he asked. From what he heard he seemed to be in charge of the whole house.

“No,” Giselle said quickly. “You are amazing.”

“What she means is there is no reason to be worried,” Priya said rolling her eyes at her friend. “You probably won’t see him outside of class, he has his own separate room in the boy’s dorm and is very picky about who he spends time with,” she said with a bitter scoff, Daniel had a feeling someone got rejected. “Not that you aren’t worth spending time with,” she tacked on.

“But seriously don’t worry,” Aspen said. “You will have no problems as long as you stick with us,” she said, the threat was there. Daniel bit his tongue but noted to one day ruin this girls life enough that she would want to jump off that Astronomy Tower she was talking about before.

“So the password for our common room is Viper,” Giselle said to him. “It changes fortnightly though so be prepared,” she warned him.

“Why is Hogwarts against elevators,” Priya complained as they made their way down a winding staircase.

“Maybe you should hook up with Sungjae and see if he can put one in,” Aspen joked. Priya tilted her head before shrugging.

“If I did she wouldn’t be able to use it,” Priya whispered to Daniel.

“Well you would have done all the work,” He whispered back to her, Priya giggled happily. Daniel winced as he felt Giselle tighten her grip on his arm, he guessed she didn’t like been excluded from the joke.

“We are here,” she said as they stopped in front of a stone wall. “Daniel you should say the password since it’s your first time,” she said before a bunch of boys ran past shouting the password.

“I guess I’ll have to wait to pop my password cherry,” Daniel said pulling out of Giselle and Priya’s grips. He really just wanted to get into this dormitory, find his stuff and wash his hair. He could barely hide his annoyance as he had to walk down a narrow hallway, he thought he was here.

“Welcome to the common room,” Priya said once they finally got out of the hallway. “It’s nice right?” she said. Daniel nodded in agreement, it looked like it came from the pages of Witch Deco. “It used to be super ugly, you know just after the war but thankfully people with taste came in and made it more modern,” she explained.

“So the boys dormitories are over there,” Giselle said pointing to a staircase. “Normally I would say we should chat some more but we all have to be up early tomorrow to pick up our schedules,” she said with a yawn. “Do you want someone to lead you to your dorm?” she asked. “I can call one of the guys over,” she offered.

“No it’s fine,” Daniel said, “You should all go get some beauty rest,” he said to them, some needed it more than others. Giselle nodded, before leaning up kissing both his cheeks, Daniel blinked in shock as Priya and then Aspen followed suit. “Goodnight,” he said quickly moving up the stairs, desperate now to not only wash his hair but now his face.

Finding the sixth year’s room was rather easy, it was a spacious room with four four posters each hung with deep emerald curtains. To the end of the room was a single door, what he assumed was the great Tyler Lee’s room. His three dormmates stood near one bed, all eyes on him.

“Hey man,” He noted it was Stefan that was greeting him. Daniel rolled his eyes knowing that this was not going to end well, not for these other guys at least. Stefan noticed Daniel seemed less than impressed, “Hey no, we just want to welcome you to our oh so humble home,” he said bowing mockingly.

“Is it true you are a model?” One of the guys asked, a chuckle escaping his lips. “That’s pretty.. fruity you know,” he said. Daniel once again rolled his eyes.

“Can we skip this whole you all pretend to be nice and get to whatever dim-witted thing you have planned, I am a little exhausted, so –“ he said making a hurry-up gesture. The third boy, a burly idiotic looking beast stood up, Daniel’s luggage in hand.

“Hang on pretty boy,” Stefan said. “I think you have the wrong idea, you see I think we can all be great friends, right guys –“ he started to speak. Daniel was always the quickest to draw his wand so before the three of them could notice he already have Stefan flying back against the wall. The two others watched on in surprise before snapping out of their daze.

The second guy started to sending jinxes and curses his way, all of them Daniel had sent back with ease. Did they teach them how to duel at Hogwarts because honestly, a third-year student at Mahoutokoro could do better than this. The burly guy didn’t bother with magic and instead grinned dragging his things near the door, opening it and pushing his things in with a laugh before closing it. Daniel raised an eyebrow wondering what was the point of that. He didn’t get a chance to ponder about it too much as the big guy had decided to go all muggle and try to tackle Daniel, Daniel thinking quickly hit him with a stupefy unfortunately due to him fighting two people at once, the big was thrown at the door with a loud bang. Stefan and the other guy looked over nervously. Daniel didn’t waste time and hit the three of them with a levitating spell, smiling as they floated mid-air.

“What do you wa –“ Daniel heard someone say, he turned to see who he assumed was Tyler looking from him and his fellow sixth years and then back to him. “Nice,” he said chuckling clearly amused by what he was seeing. He walked over to where Stefan was hanging in the air, “Did I say anything about hazing the new guy?” he asked flicking Stefan’s forehead. “Fucking idiot,” he muttered. Without a word the three others dropped, Stefan and the burly one were lucky enough to fall on a bed, the other guy, well he was not so lucky, instead, he fell face-first onto the ground. “Go see Nurse Pomfrey first thing tomorrow,” Tyler said stepping over the guy and walking over to Daniel.

“So I am guessing your luggage was what was tossed into MY room,” he said to Daniel. Daniel nodded, “I am guessing the big idiot was the one to come up with that idea?” he said and once again Daniel nodded. “Can you speak?” he asked raising an eyebrow, “Oh do you not speak English?” he asked.

“Do I need to answer you verbally?” Daniel asked, taking in Tyler Lee properly quick to decide his face, which despite the wicked gleam in his eyes, was cute, he had big eyes and a sweet looking smile, did not match the rest of his body which was thankfully on display. They must have interrupted him mid nightly routine, he was shirtless with low hanging sweats.

“It’s rude not,” Tyler said tilting his head. “And your luggage broke my defence system,” he frowned. “So you kinda owe me,” he said.

“What?” Daniel asked dropping his wand.

“Just come on,” Tyler said pushing him towards his room. Normally Daniel would have no problem with a guy like him manhandling him but right now he was just very confused and a little scared and not in a fun way.

“Look I don’t know what is –“ he started to speak before been shushed by Tyler.

“In,” he said push him in. Daniel stumbled, eyes widening as he looked around the room. It was nice, really nice and Daniel was a little jealous. Why couldn’t he get his own room, did he have to play quidditch was that it? “Sit,” he said gesturing to a chair.

“If you want to me boss me around you could at least buy me dinner first,” Daniel muttered as he stomped over to the chair.

“Winky,” Tyler called as a house-elf appeared. “Could you get me some snacks, you pick, you know what I like,” he said to the elf. The elf let out a quick yes Mr Tyler, bowing and disappearing and then reappearing with arms full of food. “Give it to him,” he said to the house-elf who promptly dumped his haul into Daniel’s lap. “So now I can boss you around right,” Tyler said smirking at Daniel. Daniel’s eyes narrowed. Tyler rolled his eyes, “Relax, I don’t know what those girls have told you but I am a nice guy,” he said. Daniel knew for a fact if someone had to tell you they were nice they were most definitely not nice but he wanted this to be over so he kept that fact to himself.

“From what I’ve noticed they all seem to hate, love and worship you at the same time, it’s pretty impressive,” he admitted. Tyler grinned nodding proudly, seemingly happy to hear that. “Not trying to be rude because I have the distinct feeling I should feel honoured to be in your presence but I am tired and I had to wear that disgusting hat so I am not sure what creatures are currently making a home in my hair –“ he ranted stopping because he didn’t need to be sharing that with anyone. “What do you want?”

“The sorting hat, it’s so unsanitary,” Tyler agreed, “I swear they haven’t washed that thing once since I’ve been here,” he said as Daniel’s hand wander up to his head wincing as he ran his hand through his locks. He would sue this school if it caused permeant damage. “Well firstly, is that your stuff?” he said nodding to a pile of Daniel’s belonging which while neatly stacked was no longer in his suitcase. Daniel jaw clenched as Tyler laughed. “I didn’t go through your things if that is what you are thinking, though seriously sneaking contraband into school, you are so lucky they didn’t check this year,” he said.

“What?” Daniel asked before realization dawned on him. “Joshua!” he said a growl escaping his lips. Tyler quirked an eyebrow at him, as he picked up a box of chocolates from an admittedly large pile. Daniel winced as the overwhelming smell of peppermint and rose wafted through the air. “Don’t eat those,” Daniel said as Tyler looked up at him. “They are laced with a love potion, a poorly made one though since I can smell the ingredients,” he said. Tyler looked at the box curiously before waving his wand leaving the box a pile of ashes.

“Thank you,” Tyler said. “Now I am going to pretend I know and care about what a Joshua is and skip ahead, the big lug threw your luggage in here knowing that my wards would have destroyed it as soon as it crossed the threshold,” he explained. “He was stupid enough to try and get in my room, completely destroyed his wand, burnt all his hair off and left him tinkled pink, literally, with yellow boils – not pretty but for him, it might have been an improvement,” he said. “Anyway apparently your own charms and wards messed with mine, your suitcase is completely ruined but your belongings are completely fine, even stacked neatly by yours truly,” he boasted. Daniel found it hard to believe Tyler has ever stacked a thing in his life.

“Thank you?” Daniel offered.

“Yes,” Tyler said. “You have good taste by the way, in clothes I mean,” he said. “I don’t suppose you play quidditch do you?” he asked appraising Daniel.

“Thanks?” He said again. Daniel didn’t have taste when it came to clothes, he rarely ever got to choose what he wore. He was a walking billboard, more a mannequin than a human being, it used to bother him (it still does) but he hasn’t had a choice in anything that happened in his life, why should his clothes be any different.“And no not anymore, my manager banned me from playing, a bludger to a face would ruin my career apparently,” he shrugged.

“That’s just sad,” Tyler said. “You mustn’t have been very good if your manager was that worried about bludgers,” he said shaking his head.

“I was plenty good, my face is just worth more,” Daniel huffed.

“If you say so,” Tyler shrugged.

“I should go –“ he said standing up, placing the pile of snacks on the chair. “I’ll just grab my stuff,” he said to Tyler.

“I wouldn’t sleep out there,” Tyler said in a sing-song voice. “The three stooges will want revenge,” he said. “Look I never do this but I feel bad for you,” he said placing a hand on his heart clearly touched by his own kindness. Daniel tried not to show how annoyed he was about Tyler feeling bad for him. “Go shower and you can stay here tonight,” he said. Daniel raised an eyebrow, Tyler didn’t ping him but maybe he was curious.

“Uhm?” Daniel said. “Are you sure –“ he continued looking from the bed and back at Tyler. Tyler shook his head a disappointed sigh escaping his lips.

“You failed test one,” Tyler said, “You don’t question me, especially when I am going out of my way to be nice you say thank you Tyler,” he recited. Everyone who mentioned Tyler Lee to him was wrong, he wasn’t intimidating or cool he was just really strange. Tyler coughed pointing to another door. “Tomorrow you’ll have your second test, don’t fail that one – What is your name?”

“Daniel” He grumbled.

“Right well then don’t fail your second test Daniel,” he said. Daniel blinked picking up his things before walking into Tyler’s ensuite. So much for Tyler Lee not noticing him.

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The next morning came too quickly and a groggy Daniel was woken up by a house-elf sitting on his chest. “Rise and shine Daniel, we have things to do,” he heard Tyler’s voice from somewhere in the room. “Is this a one of a kind Gucci Sweater? Hmm, I need to get one,” he heard. Daniel groaned sitting up, much to Daniel’s relief and disappointment Tyler had expanded his room enough to fit the four-poster bed from the dorm in his room. “Oh good you are up, come on it’s breakfast time and time for your second test,” he said happily, already dressed for the day.

Daniel sighed standing up. “Accio lookbook,” he said as the lookbook Andrea had planned for him came flying at him, flipping to page one he quickly called for the pieces he needed. Tyler looked on, foot tapping impatiently. “Every day is a runway and I have endorsement deals I have to uphold,” he explained. “You can have the sweater if you want by the way.”

“I don’t need your charity Daniel Choi,” he said with a huff.

“Clearly,” Daniel said looking around, everything in this room was lavish. “I was saying thank you,” he added. Tyler hummed considering what he said.

“Well then I appreciate the offer but I will get my own,” He said. “Good you are ready,” he said clapping. Daniel frowned, was Tyler one of those mythical morning people?

“I am actually meant to be meeting up with Giselle and Pri-“ he started before Tyler raised a hand to stop him from continuing.

“They will understand,” Tyler said. “Now come on breakfast,” he said

. “Couldn’t you just get your house-elf to bring you breakfast in bed?” Daniel asked. “Which reminds me why do you have a house-elf? And your own room? Does Hogwarts really take quidditch that seriously?” he asked. “Also random question but what is a finsta?”

“I don’t eat in bed, and yes Hogwarts does take quidditch seriously,” Tyler answered as they walked through the boys dorm. “But that isn’t why I have my own room,” he said. “Hang on,” he said stopping at the door pulling his wand out muttering spell, Daniel watched as the potted plants on the floor came up over their three slipping roommates and tipped onto them. “Okay let’s go,” Tyler said.

“So,” Tyler said as they ended up in the great hall. “We will be having breakfast at the Ravenclaw table,” he said.

“I thought going to other tables was strictly forbidden,” Daniel said as Tyler turned to him looking at him as if he said something so incredibly dumb.

“Who told you that? Wait don’t answer,” Tyler said shaking his head.

“So you can go to other tables? great I need to go see my cousin,” he said trying to make his way over to the Hufflepuff table.

“What are you doing?” Tyler asked grabbing him and pulling him back. “Oh is your cousin in Hufflepuff?” he asked, Daniel nodded. “Oh no, Daniel, I am so sorry, why didn’t you tell me that no wonder you failed the first test, don’t worry I will strike it from your record, “ he said patting Daniel’s back. “But no you can’t go to that table, ever, anyway test time,” he said, dragging Daniel to three people dressed in blue.

“Hello, ladies and trolls how are we this morning?” Tyler asked. Daniel frowned wondering what this test was until he noticed, the troll in this equation, a boy with mostly black hair with blue streaks through his bangs, cat-like eyes and what seemed to be permanently pouted lips looked at Tyler with a scowl, his lips barely moving but Daniel noticed the incarnation he was muttering. Daniel muttered his own defence protecting Tyler from whatever the boy was trying to do. The boy blinked looking surprised and then finally settling on Daniel, Daniel smirked cocking an eyebrow challenging this guy to try again.

“Daniel,” Tyler said looking between Daniel and the guy. “Ignore him, this is my lovely little sister, Tara,” he said pointing to a girl, Daniel nodded he could see the family resemblance.

“Hello,” he said with a wave. Tara muttered her own hello before looking at her brother. Tyler was staring at Daniel intently which was odd. “Your brother’s really nice?” he offered trying to get Tyler to look somewhere else. He nodded seemingly happy with his praise. Maybe he wanted to prove he was a nice person. “And this is my girlfriend Min-“

“I am not your girlfriend!” The girl snapped.

“Minah,” Tyler sighed. “Don’t be rude to my friend, say hello,” he said. “She is just keeping it on the down-low,” Tyler informed Daniel. “We are actually en-“ he started before an apple was thrown at his head, luckily he managed to duck.

“Hello Minah, girlfriend not girlfriend of Tyler,” Daniel said. “Wait Minah, oh this is the love triangle, I got told about,” Daniel said. “You must be the internet guy,” he said pointing to the guy. “Sunghae,” he said nodding. “Can you make an elevator?” he asked.

“Don’t talk to him,” Tyler said pulling Daniel away, Daniel pouted he wanted an answer. Once they were away from the table. “So what do you think?”

“Well Sunghae was better at spells than Stefan and his friends but I blocked it,” he said. Tyler tilted his head. “That’s what we are talking about right?” he asked as Tyler shook his head.

“What did Sungjae try and do?” he asked, “No, never mind, what do you think of Tara and Minah? Do you think they are pretty?” he asked.

Daniel blinked, maybe he wanted to make his sister and girlfriend models?. “Yeah I guess?” Daniel offered. “I mean objectively of course, wait are you trying to set me up with your sister, oh no, sorry but that isn’t –“

“No!” Tyler snapped. “Wait why are you saying no, do you think you are too good for my sister?” he asked his eyes narrowing.

“You’re confused, I am saying I am a little too gay for your sister,” Daniel deadpanned as Tyler froze, he had to bit back a laugh as Tyler seemed to malfunction. “Is that a problem?” he asked.

“No,” Tyler said quickly, “It’s good,” Tyler nodded curtly. “Right,” he muttered. He was about to say something when a girl in a Gryffindor uniform leapt on him.

“Tyler, come have breakfast with me, I haven’t seen you all Summer,” she said, not sparing Daniel a second glance as she dragged Tyler away. Well, that was fun.

“Daniel,” He turned to see Giselle, Priya and Aspen racing towards him. “Why didn’t you wait for us in the common room?” Giselle asked with a pout. “You look cute,” she said fixing his Gucci felt cap and pulling on his tie. “Priya can charm this, it’s not the right colour,” she frowned. “Also fix his cap, make it green instead of red, we don’t want people to get confused and think he is a Gryffindork,” she said tutting.

Priya stepped forward, speaking her spells and waving her wand. “Much better,” she said. “So we were told Tyler Lee stole you away,” she said.

“And we knew they were lying,” Aspen said, Daniel glanced over at her, nose scrunching up the sight of bare skin. Crop tops were apparently a part of the Hogwarts uniform. Charming.

“Right,” Daniel rolled his eyes. “So food then and schedules, right? I am starved,” he said patting his stomach. Giselle nodded once again linking arms with him.

“So what classes did you pick?” Giselle asked as they walked back over to the Slytherin table, Daniel smirked as once glance from her once again cleared the table. She sat down pulling down beside her as Priya and Aspen sat across from them. “I hope we are in the same classes,” she said pulling out her phone. “Ugh this stupid app isn’t working,” she frowned.

“Oh, so we got our schedules by phones?” Daniel asked.

“Not really, they bought this app in last year but they can never get it working so we all end up getting it the old fashioned way,” Aspen said. “Leave the muggle tech to muggle-borns, the professors can’t do anything,” she said rolling her eyes.

“Daniel, time for a first-day selfie,” Giselle said sliding closer and taking a photo. “Oh we look so good,” she hummed as she turned her attention back to her phone. “Remember to add us to your finsta today,” she said. “I want to be able to tag you,” she said.

“Why is Sungjae Lee staring at you?” Priya asked.

“Giselle is very pretty why wouldn’t he?” Daniel asked looking at the picture of Giselle’s shoulder. “Maybe the internet god appreciates people enjoying his work,” he said as Giselle looked up beaming at him. It would seem a little bit of praise goes a long way with her.

“He is looking at you,” Aspen said.

“Oh,” Daniel said looking up to find Sungjae looking at him curiously. Daniel winked at him smirking as Sungjae suddenly looked away. Cute. “Why wouldn’t he?” Daniel asked turning back to his ‘friends’. “I am very pretty right?” he asked as the three nodded furiously.

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“So we took your results from your old school,” Professor McKeon said looking down at Daniel’s results. “Exchanging them match our OWL levels, I have to say I am surprised, you have so many O’s,’ Daniel had no idea what O’s were but he nodded. “You are cleared for Charms, Defence Against the Dark Arts, Transfiguration, Potions, Ancient Runes, Divination and Muggle Studies,” he said tilting his head as he read the last class out, handing Daniel his schedule.

So what classes are you in?” Giselle said bouncing over to him. “Are you taking Astronomy?” she asked as Daniel shook his head watching as she deflated. “Give me your schedule so we can check,” she said as Priya and Aspen crowded around as well.

“Can I look at it first,” Daniel laughed, he had a class – well now, he was looking further when his schedule was promptly ripped out of his hands. Daniel looked up ready to tell Giselle off only to find Tyler looking over his schedule humming and hawing as he did so. Daniel looked at him annoyed as the girls watched with wide eyes.

“Switch Muggle Studies and Divination for Care of Magical Creatures and Arithmancy,” he said handing back to Daniel. Daniel blinked looking at the girls for some help but they were to busy staring at Tyler. He coughed trying to get them back to a normal state.

“Yeah you should totally change it, Daniel,” Aspen said. “Who even does Muggle studies these days?” she asked. Daniel glared at her, if she kept this up by the end of the year she would be at the bottom of the lake. Beside her, Giselle and Priya nodded.

“Hmm,” Tyler said looking at the trio with an eyebrow raised. “Ladies I believe potions is about to start,” he said to them. They nodded giggling as they scampered away, Daniel raised an eyebrow, Tyler was dismissing them and they were completely fine with it, even thankful.

“So the powderpuff girls?” Tyler said looking at them as they hurried down to the Dungeon.

“The what?” Daniel asked. “Is that what they call themselves?” he said scrunching his nose up, he could believe it. It was probably Aspen’s idea. “What does that mean?”

“It’s a muggle cartoon,” Tyler said. “I call them that and if I said they should call themselves that they would without questioning it,” he grinned. “So classes – don’t worry I’ll do it for you,” he said rolling his eyes.

“Uh you can’t,” Daniel said. “I have to take Muggle Studies, my manager said I need to be more aware of the muggle world since I work in it,” he shrugged. Tyler Lee didn’t need to know about the Bazar incident. No one did.

“Nope,” He said popping his p. “I’ll teach about the muggle world, don’t worry,” he said waving a hand dismissively.

“And why would I listen to you?” Daniel asked.

“Because –“ Tyler shrugged. “Plus it’s what friends do right? Help each other,” he said.

“We are friends?” Daniel asked. “Because you seemed kinda freaked out before,” he added.

“I don’t spend this much time with people I am not friends with and I am going to ignore how ungrateful you seem right now because I guess I didn’t handle your news that best,” he said. “You should have told me earlier instead of just springing it on me,” he said.

“I’ve known you for about what? 8 hours, when exactly would I have had time to have a heart to heart, or should I have just slipped into a conversation?” he asked.

“8 hours is a long time,” Tyler said. “And it doesn’t matter right, we are friends, you aren’t attracted to me, right? Like it’s not going to get weird?”

“Right, I am not attracted to you,” Daniel said simply, it wasn’t entirely the truth, Tyler was a good looking guy but it did seem the quickest way to end this conversation.

“Good, wait, why aren’t you attracted to me?” he asked suddenly baffled by the prospect. “I mean I saved your life last night – shirtless might I add,” he said.

“Do you want me to find you attractive?” Daniel asked.

“No, I mean – you should be though, I am hot,” he huffed.

“You’re cute and i am not sure I am into guys who try to pimp me out to their little sisters so,” Daniel shrugged.

“I did not try and pimp you out to my sister,” Tyler exclaimed. “And stop lying, I am the most attractive guy in the school but i appreciate your commitment to pretending you are not attracted to me for the sake of our budding friendship,” Tyler nodded.

“Someone is lying to themselves and it isn’t me,” Daniel said with a laugh. “And can I have my schedule back, I have classes to attend as well you know unless you got some more tests for me, which by the way what was the other test and did I pass?” he asked.

“You did but you cheated,” He huffed. “I’ll have to think of another one,” he said. “And no I need to go fix it, go to the Dungeon’s I’ll see you in potions,” he said.

“I saved you from that Sungjae though so that has to count as well,” Daniel pointed out. “Why was he trying to hit you with a jinx anyway?” he asked. “And I don’t need to change classes,” he said. “So how about give me my schedule and you go to potions,”

“I’ll let you keep Divination if you let me change Muggle Studies?” Tyler offered. “And because he is jealous of me and in love with my girlfriend,”.

“Fine and really? Priya said that Sungjae plays for my team,” Daniel said.

“You don’t play quddi- Oh you mean – no, or maybe, do you think he does?” Tyler asked.

“Well he was starring at me during breakfast, I should have eaten a banana to see if he liked the visual,” Daniel said.

“Hmm,” he said tilting his head. “If that’s true – I mean he is aiming higher than he should but –“ he said, gears turning in his head. “We’ll talk about it after class, once you sign the roommate agreement, it’s just standard rules and an NDA nothing to worry about,” he said to Daniel. “You should go to potions, if you see any guy try and sit next to Minah stun them,” he instructed before walking through the crowd that seemed to part as soon as he appeared.

Daniel hummed pulling out his phone, messaging Josh to let him know he was wrong. Daniel had made a new friend now, atleast he thought he had.

[kpoppwriter]

The Weight Of A Crown pt.2

Genre: fluff w/ a little angst

Words: 1.3k+

Warnings: a little sad at the end but that’s it really

a/n: fuck who let me fall in love with thirteen men I’ve been sucked in h e l p I’m waiting to get paid so I can buy more svt and ptg albums lmao 

pt.1 | pt. 2 | pt. 3 | pt. 4 | pt. 5 | epilogue 

The sun peeked through the white sheer curtains of your bedroom. You shifted slightly under the heavy covers of your bed. You wanted to bury yourself deep into the softness of the bed beneath you for hours. You never wanted to leave. But you knew you had a country to run and errands to do. You groaned loudly as you pulled yourself up into a sitting position on your bed. 

You looked around your room. You still weren’t used to your new room. It was decorated so elegantly which was so different from your old bedroom. You stared at the beautiful artwork on the wallpaper covered walls. A knock on your bedroom door pulled you from your daze. 

“It’s time to wake up, Your Highness.”

You cringed slightly. You weren’t quite used to the titles you were called even though you had been on the throne for about two weeks now. You’ve accepted the fact that people would only refer to you as one of the many titles you now had unless they were given express permission to call you something else. You may not 100% like it but you had to accept it- that was just the way things worked.

You replied with an ‘I’m up’ and dragged yourself out of bed. You threw a robe over your pajamas, not bothering to get dressed yet. You probably had to meet with some noble people or some political advisors so you’d need to be properly dressed up for that. 

You exited your room and walked down the long confusing hallways of your new home. You were kind of getting a hang of where everything was. You knew where the most important places were so that’s all that mattered. 

You finally made it to the dining room where your breakfast was already prepared for you and placed on the long table. Your advisor Minah was waiting for you, your daily tasks in hand. She let you sit down and begin eating before spouting off all the things you had planned for the day. 

“Today is a rather relaxed day,” she said looking over her planner, “You just have your lessons and there’s a guest coming who’s been asking to meet with you for a while. That’s around noon so if you’d like, we can have lunch ready for the two of you.” 

“That sounds great.”

You tried not to sound too dismissive of her words but you honestly just wanted to enjoy your morning meal in peace. Minah was smart enough to recognize this so she let you be. It’s only been a few weeks but she was starting to understand how you worked and you, her. She went about her business as you finished up your breakfast. You were swiftly ushered off to your dressing room to get ready for the day. 

~

Noon rolled around rather fast and you were glad, to be honest. All your studying and lessons really gave you an appetite. You were hungry and just wanted to eat. Minah had informed you that due to the nice weather, lunch would be held outside in the courtyard. 

You’d only been out in the courtyard once but you had just passed through and not actually looked around. Being in the beautiful outdoor area now really was breathtaking. Brightly colored flowers lined stone walkways leading to a small area in the middle of everything. There was a small table just big enough for maybe 4 people. There were food and plates already set up on the table. You really wanted to sit down and start eating but your etiquette teacher would’ve killed you if she had heard you did that. You instead took this time to wander around the courtyard, admiring the flowers and plants that covered every inch of grass. 

“I was pleasantly surprised when I heard we’d be eating outside, Your Highness.”

You turned around at the sound of the voice, a small smile spreading on your face when you realized who was there.

“It was such a nice day that I was going to invite you on a walk anyway so this is killing two birds with one stone.”

“Ahh, Prince Mingyu,” you bowed respectfully

“Oh we’re using titles now?” he laughed

“You started it!” you smiled, “Plus there’d be some talk if I wasn’t talking like a queen should.”

Your eyes flicked over to the servants finishing up the preparations for lunch as well as Minah, who stood watching over everything. You could tell she was watching you closely despite how she pretended to be more concerned with the lunch preparations. Mingyu followed your gaze over to a now flustered Minah, caught spying on the two of you. He chuckled to himself, used to people spying and eavesdropping on conversations he was in. He turned back to you and extended a hand towards you.

“Shall we go eat, Your Majesty?”

You rolled your eyes as you placed your hand on his. 

“Lead the way, Prince Mingyu.”

~

You and Mingyu enjoyed your lunch together. You spent most of it laughing and joking around. Even though it could ruin both of your images, you were too enthralled with your conversation with Mingyu. Eventually, he had to leave though, he had his own things to take care of in his kingdom. 

“It was a pleasure to spend the afternoon with you,” you smiled

“I had fun getting to talk to you properly,” he agreed

You hummed in response. You could tell Mingyu was hesitating like he wanted to say something but just couldn’t bring himself to say it. After a brief pause, he bid goodbye, bowing politely as he left the courtyard. You waited until he was out of sight to breathe out a sigh you didn’t realize you were holding. You heard someone calling for you, along with the sound of fast footsteps coming closer to you. 

“Minah, have you been out here the whole time?” you asked in disbelief

“Of course! The queen can’t be left alone with another man! Let alone another noble!” she said looking at you rather frazzled

“Well, that seems a little silly,” you grumbled

Minah ushered you out of the courtyard and back inside. She escorted you to the library so you could continue your studies. She sat with you for a while as you began your reading. 

“Where is Prince Mingyu’s kingdom located?” you asked

“Your Highness-”

“I’m just curious,” you pouted

“Prince Mingyu’s kingdom, The kingdom of the 13 brothers, is located south of here. Just about an hour away.” she sighed, complying to your wishes

“Thank you, Minah.”

You returned to your book. After a moment Minah gently called to you. You looked up and noticed the concerned expression on her face.

“Don’t get involved with Prince Mingyu.”

“What, why?” you questioned

“He has a reputation of being a flirt with nobles.”

“So what? That doesn’t mean anything to me,” you defended

“It will when he takes the crown from you.”

“What-”

“He’s a prince that won’t be king. He’s one of the youngest of 13 brothers. There’s a very slim chance he’ll be king of his own kingdom. He could be using you to gain power. To gain a crown.”

Her words cut deep into your heart. You didn’t know Mingyu too well so she could very well be right. Your mind raced as you replayed every conversation you had with him. You sighed, defeated. 

“I’m sorry Your Majesty but for your safety and for the safety of your kingdom, you need to be wary of everyone.”

Minah left you in the library alone to think things over. You really wished she hadn’t said anything but you were glad she did. You can’t be oblivious to anything now. You were a queen and you needed to protect your people, regardless of your feelings. 

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That Damned Goofy Smile

Characters: wooseok, hyunggu, shinwon

Summary: there is just that one damned goofy smile that gets you all the time.

Word count: 5,400+

Warnings: none

i can see very little amount of PTG drabbles in tumblr that's why I decided to create one.

a/n: just a little disclaimerー i believe that high school in korea is a little bit late unlike other country so their ages here are around 19-20 already, but you know, if i believed wrong, just remember that they're 19-20 already thanks ☆

i also called kino here both his names, so i am sorry for the confusion ☆

***

You never really thought about the situation both you and Kino had for at least 2 years because it went great, to be awfully honest, everything was just great.

How you two met, how you two got close, how you and his friends got close, get in the same passionー dancing. Everything just went great, except for one thing.

Thinking about how great your friendship was with the man, you almost forgot how painful it was to wake up every single day and look at his face on the corner of the room, staring at another girl.

It has been a cycle and it's not like it bothered you that much anymore and that's what you always thought, until a tall figure bugged you for how gruesome you look at the girl Kino has been staring at, "Hey, y/n, you know if you just told Hyunggu what you really feel then maybe you could save some holes you were boring on Minah," Wooseok nudged his elbow on your waist and almost laughed at your annoyed look but stopped when you met his eyes with yours.

Wooseok can see the loneliness and pain in your eyes. It doesn't take a genius to figure those out, and it doesn't take a clueless Kino to feel something for you the way you did with Kino.

***

You first met Kino when you were having an audition on a dance club back in your first year in high school. You were new in the city and have no friends, you're basically nothing, and it didn't bother you because all you ever wanted to do was to be able to speak in English, dance until your legs give up on you and ace those academic grades because you wanted to go abroad and enroll in a medical school. Nothing much, right?

You were not nervous at all, when the first beat of the music came into your ears and everyone's eyes gazed on you, none of those made you feel slimy, none except a smile from a certain boy sitting on the right side of the room. He seemed unbothered when you fixed your eyes on him while you danced, he's even nodding to the beat and give adorable reactions to your dance moves, and maybe then, you thought, high school in a new place was fun.

When you finished, only that man clapped for you. He's had his smile so wide that it physically hurts you because of how cute they were and gave you the thumbs up that you were longing from the coach.

You wanted to talk to him, but instead of talking to him, you formed your lips to a straight line and nodded at him. You were sure that the encounter would be nothing but a mere coincidence.

***

Eventually, you received a call from the coach, you gathered your things from the locker, changed into a pair of dance clothes and ran towards the practice room that's on the other side of your wide campus. You didn't pay any attention to your surroundings. You'd rather have students go frenzy at you than have your coach create a havoc on your tardiness, but as always, that man was an exception to your principles.

After seeing you run like a madman, he bid farewell to his friends, Wooseok who looked at you really well and Shinwon who's just bored to be honest, and ran to reach you and your pace. He has his goofy smile on his face and calming eyes that looked at you the way no other guy would look at you before. It shouldn't bother you, really, but it did.

Trying to catch your breath, you slightly turned your head at him whilst running, "You were accepted too?"

You breathily asked him which earned you a chuckle, "Of course," like he was stating the obvious, "I'm Kino," he introduced with the goofy smile still plastered on his face. He reached at your hand and turned your body to look at his that made you stop on your tracks. He held your right hand to his hand and shook it, "The leader of the dance group."

With that said, your eyes widened, so much, that it made him chuckle for the nth time around. Returning your warm hand to your side, he began to run towards the practice room and leave you hanging, watching his back slowly moving away from you, "Welcome to the group y/n!"

***

You became friends, especially because you're one of the few people that actually impresses him when it comes to dancing. He's the one who bugged the coach to accept you and he's the one who everyone in the campus knows, but you. If you knew who he is and what he actually is, you wouldn't really have those warm feelings the moment you two have encountered, but fate spared you no chance, it made you and Kino close to each other. Really close.

"So, like, are you two together now?" Shinwon lazily asked Kino and pointed at you two while munching on a convenience store burger that according to him tastes like crap.

You choked on your water and looked pleadingly at Wooseok who instantly brought his hand to your back and pat it. You wanted to hear Kino's answer so bad, so bad that it makes you want to puke when he responded, "No, we're really good friends, besides I really like Seungyeon," and shook his shoulders.

It didn't hurt you, but it did hurt Wooseok and none of you knew.

***

It already has been a routine for you and Kino and his friends to sit together for every breaktime you had because Kino really wanted you to have a company and he really likes your vibe. You're a good friend to him and a great dance partner, so why wouldn't he want his friends, and of course him, to be with you?

You were already with them for about half a year now and indeed, it earned a lot of bashful look from his and his friends' fangirls, but it only took a glance from Wooseok for them to get off you.

With a soft voice, Wooseok turned to you after looking at the girls who' were trying to bully you, "Hey, are you okay? Why didn't you tell us that you were bothered by them?"

"Well, first, I am not bothered. They were just trying to mess up with me because I was close with you three. Second, what can they do to me? Pull my hair? Rip my clothes? There's nothing that scares me, Wooseok," you replied to Wooseok and sign your hands with an OK to make Wooseok stop worrying about your little figure. What you said were real, it's not like they were trying to do something to you. They were just menacingly talking loudly asking how a dirty woman like you is with their oppas or whatever.

Wooseok who's clearly not satisfied, took your books from your arms and ushered you to go towards where you were supposed to go. He didn't look at you, but with a low, soft voice, he made sure to let you hear what he's about to say, "but I am scared of them hurting you," which made you stop your tracks and looked confusingly at his back.

What the hell? You asked yourself.

***

It was 3 in the morning and your cell phone was ringing and it is not funny for you because you were really tired from your practice last night.

Making sure to scold the person on the other line, you took your phone and answered it without reading whose call it was from.

"For the love of God, if this is not important, I am gonー"

Much to your surprise, Kino's voice rang on the other line of the call, "you're gonna what, y/n?"

Instantly, your half-asleep eyes went to a full-awake mode by now and stared at the digital clock that's blinking the numbers 3:07 in the morning.

"What happened? It's late, Kino."

"I know and I am sorry if I called this late especially now that you're really tired, but can you please open your window and looked down because I'm kind of freezing and I don't want to wake your brother up, he might beat me up," Kino said with a short chuckle.

You got up and ran towards your window and looked down at the balcony to see Kino who's looking at you with his sad eyes.

You got your phone back to your ear, you were about to ask him why he's still wearing his dance clothes, but instead, you listened to his soft sobs that were not able to stay behind his throat.

"She dumped me."

You curled your brows together and questioned yourself, Seungyeon and him was a thing?

***

Shinwon just sighed at the figure of his now three friends. One of them, you, was just staring at her untouched sandwich, another, Wooseok, was staring at you staring at your sandwich and the other was staring at a distance, looking for a woman, who was once his, now got to be another man's girl.

He knew that Kino purposely didn't tell you about his lovey dovey with Seungyeon, and that Wooseok was really trying his best to protect you from the fangirls. He knew every side glance Wooseok will make to see you doing different sort of things, he knew that Kino, too, will side glance at you just to see at your reaction whenever he made a joke. He can see everything, he's not that blind like what you three ought him to be.

And now that it came to this, he needed to step down his shoes in between you three.

"Now, now, I will talk to you three one by one, no buts and what so freaking ever, I can see you three having issues," Shinwon said as he slammed his hands onto the table in front of you three. Yes. Infront.

You three are always sitting beside each other with you in the middle, and if that doesn't speak a lot to any of you three, it certainly does to him.

"Come on now, kids."

***

You were the first one to be dragged by Shinwon to the corner of the canteen. He made sure to be out of sight of the other two idiots and he made sure that you four had a long break time to actually do this counseling thing he's about to do.

He planned this, trust him.

Shinwon just flicked your forehead and threw you a disgusted look, "Seriously, you went into our group just to destroy the two?"

You didn't understand what he meant with that. You just stared at Shinwon's face, waiting for his next sermon, which he did.

"We were okay y/n before you came, and now you're gonna show up to our faces, bring Kino into your trap and have Wooseok protect you like a weakling, missy? And no, I am not being mean, I like you as our friend, really, but you're justー" Shinwon spit fires after fires, and threw his hand on his hair, ripping it out of frustration, "AAAAAH, you're so clueless dude, I hate you."

This was his way. He never really wanted to be so nice at this counselling thing with you three, he wanted you and the other two to know the reality and not some covered up lies. He needed you to know that you are being kids.

You stood there motionlessly, blinking at your surprise at Shinwon's throw of fit or anger, you can't distinguish and just really looked at him talk so much.

"I do think you're great, dude, you dance like Kino, you ace your acads and I am not loving that and you're fun to be with, but why do you have to fool yourself and believe that it doesn't hurt you when it definitely should?" Shinwon flicked your forehead for the second time, this time was a little bit harder than the earlier.

With an annoyed face you spat at Shinwon, "Do you know what hurts, huh?! You flicking my foreheadー"

"Knowing that Kino chose Seungyeon and not you, y/n, that's what's hurting you right now," Shinwon interrupted you with an almost inaudible voice. He wanted you to listen to him, carefully, like the voice talking to you inside your head, and he was successful.

You looked down and didn't want to bring your face to look at Shinwon's honest eyes, "no," you mumbled, "no, Shin, no" you mumbled again.

You didn't want to admit that.

But when you heard Kino's sob against your ear, you ran to your front door immediately and rushed to his spot only to embrace him.

You always knew that you and him has a special bond and when it clenched your chest hard that night, you thought it was just the bond.

But Shinwon's right,

"It shouldn't hurt this much, Shin."

***

Kino talked nonstop about what you and Shinwon might be talking about, how he's not a good friend to you, not noticing that you're just as broken as he is and that he didn't know the reason. He's really disappointed of himself.

But Wooseok, who just watched you and didn't answer any of Kino's questions, looked at you with worry when you went back to the table with Shinwon on your front. Desperately trying to hide your crying face.

Wooseok wanted to get closer to you and embrace you because it didn't feel great to see you cry.

Whoever the reason may be.

"You big child, come with me or I'll destroy your games," Shinwon looked sharply at Wooseok when you sat down having your face low.

Still not able to look at Kino's eyes who's looking for yours and Wooseok's eyes who's trying to see your puffy eyes and face, you sighed and made sure to never say anything else.

Wooseok was then pulled by Shinwon, knowing that the younger will not budge from where he's standing, he had to take extreme measures.

When they got to Shinwon's office as he may say, Wooseok just wanted this to end fast and talk to you that's why he asked his hyung as fast as he could, "what's with this hyung, please do it faster, she's crying, she needs me—" Wooseok stopped when a hand went up at his face.

"No, she doesn't need you at all, you fool."

Shinwon didn't have to wait for any response from the young one.

"You're no second leading man, you should be the main. Why settle for the second one? Girls are lining up for you, bro, they're just as pretty as y/n, why not just go with them?"

Shinwon wasted no time fooling around with Wooseok because he knew that Wooseok is the sanest one out of the three. In par of being sane is him being an idiot.

Wooseok didn't have to think hard because the answer will always be, "because they're not y/n, hyung."

"And you're not Hyunggu either."

He knew all of that, he didn't need Shinwon to tell him that. He knew that he can be with any other girl right now who's just as hot, but he's not looking for someone who's hot, he's looking for you. Waiting for you.

Because somewhere in this life, he wishes to become that Hyunggu to you.

Because if he can be that Hyunggu to you, then he'll become the Wooseok you never saw him to be.

***

Kino tried his best to get you to talk to him, but to no avail, you just looked down with your hands hiding your true feelings for him. You can't let him see you like this, nor you'd like to see him right now.

"Hey, please talk to me," Kino pleaded, having his hand on your shaking shoulder, "I don't want to see you crying, y/n," he poked your skin once, twice, thrice and when he almost got to the fourth time, a large hand took his finger and get it away from your skin.

"Just leave her alone, Hyunggu," Wooseok's deep voice alarmed Kino more than his real name should and that's when Shinwon demanded Kino to follow him.

While Kino tried to whine on Shinwon and Shinwon didn't want any kind of bullshit Kino has to offer now that he's tired of talking to his idiot friends, he threatened Kino with just a sentence that made Kino stood up from his chair.

"No Hyunggu, you'll follow me because I am sure that if you won't, you'll regret it."

Hearing his real name from Shinwon meant a lot to him. Shinwon always calls him by Kino and when he messes up, real good, Shinwon would start to call him by Hyunggu, and when that happens, shit's about to get real. That was why he followed Shinwon to wherever he brings them and faced him with enough respect.

"I am not going to play with you Hyunggu, get your shit together or else she'll leave you," Shinwon was straightforward, too straightforward to Kino's liking.

"What?" Kino replied with a slight shock.

"I am not joking. Cry over a spilled milk, for all I care, Hyunggu, but never cry for the wrong milk," Shinwon grinned to himself for a while and brought back his serious face, "and right now, you are."

This time, Shinwon didn't wait for the younger to walk out of the scene, rather, he's the one who did, well he felt cool after saying that metaphor and walking out is an another level of coolness to him. Kino loved playing with words because he loves books, he likes to read and make songs. He's very expressive that's why he's such a sweetheart to everyone's eyes.

But that sweetheart can be a bit of an asshole sometimes, and right now, he is, to you, that is why Shinwon will take extreme measures like what he said.

Kino followed him silently to the table and see Wooseok hugging your figure.

He wasn't able to understand the metaphor Shinwon told him, but when he saw you being hugged by an another strong frame such as Wooseok, he now understood what his hyung meant then.

And truthfully, that sucks.

***

Kino soon moved on from his heartbreak from Seungyeon to having a tiny bit of crush with Jungha. A transferee and a new member of his dance club.

Jungha is somehow your acquaintance. She literally follows you everywhere, even if you and Kino are practicing your routine, she's still there, looking and just watching, maybe you or maybe Kino, who knows.

The air between you and Kino returned to normal, but you felt like he was trying to limit it. Not that you can complain, nor you should complain at all, but right after your talk with Shinwon, you've realized that everything was just a puppy crush. For you it hurts that bad because he didn't tell you and that he's your close friend, and you don't know, maybe that's it.

Wooseok and you have gotten much closer than before, it sometimes makes you wonder if Kino was actually the reason you got to know the other two, when he should've been the closest person to you now—

"Hey lady, you should hold on to my neck or else you'll fall, I am not as strong as you think I am," Kino softly complained, trailing you out of your thoughts.

You looked at the mirror and saw your position with Kino, more than that, you saw Jungha's eyes, hovering the two of you, and yes, it didn't feel comfortable at all.

But maybe to Kino, it was.

Kino released his arms on you and turned to your new acquaintance, "Hey Jungha, do you wanna grab some food later?" He asked with a goofy smile.

And when you saw that smile and heard him say that, again, it shouldn't, but it did hurt you, so much that all you could do was walk to your bag and drag it outside.

***

One day, Kino brought his now girlfriend, Jungha to your table and introduced her to the other two. With Wooseok beside you and Shinwon in front of Kino, all three of you sighed, at the same time and Kino still wasn't able to notice that.

Shinwon just looked at you and Wooseok, he knew that what he did before, stepping inside of your messes, was the right thing, but what he didn't knew was that there was a miscalculation to that counselling.

He shouldn't have let Kino see Wooseok hugging you that day, because that created this, and he's not living for it.

"Ya! You were going to treat me some ice cream, remember?" Wooseok nudged on you and took the ice cream you were holding to lick a good amount of it, which you instantly yanked from him and protected like it was a treasure, "this. is. mine. go to hell Wooseok," you said and stuck your tongue out at him.

Little did you know, it was not just Shinwon who was watching you and Wooseok banter, Kino was, too.

And you were oblivious of that.

***

It took Kino and Jungha 5 months to break up, and a moment for you to soften you heart once again when you see an another Kino standing in front of your front door. You were supposed to go get some food on a convenience store but forget the rest of your agenda in just a second.

That's just Kino's effect on you.

"Really, I am never going to love someone again," Kino said with a sigh and welcomed himself in your house.

Lucky for him, your brother was having a date, therefore, Kino will not be banished outside like before.

Because it's 11 o'clock in the evening.

You followed Kino to your bedroom and watched him roll over your bed like it was his, "Hyunggu, I would appreciate it if you stopped doing that," you said while pointing at him.

He turned around to look at you.

He didn't cry, he didn't want to. It's not like what he and Jungha had was something real. For him, none of it was.

He just wanted to move on, like how you did with him. He just wanted a Wooseok like you, that was why he had a Jungha.

And yes, he knew he was being an asshole, not just to you and Jungha, but to himself. But when he saw you and Wooseok hugging that day, God knows how much it killed him, seeing you being embraced by an another man, which was his friend nevertheless, made him insane.

But you were happy.

And who the hell is he to stop you from being happy?

"You know what, y/n, come here," Kino pat the side of the bed for you to come and join him. Of course, you did.

He didn't bother wasting a second more when you laid your ass on the mattress and hugged you, just like before, but now, it was slightly different.

And you couldn't pinpoint what was the difference.

But you felt him wanting to say something to you.

"I appreciate you, y/n, so bad, and I think I'm going crazy."

"Pleaseー" he said kissing your hair, "choose me."

Which he did say, but it is something of which you didn't hear.

***

Shinwon literally had his hand on his forehead right now because not only that you look dead, sprawled out on your bed, but also you let your brother open the door for him which made your brother watch him earnestly.

"For Pete's sake y/n! Clean your mess. Just because we don't have school now does it mean you can live your ass this dirty!" Shinwon yelled at you while picking up bags of chips that were opened and a lot of soda cans.

"I don't want to do this anymore, Shin, I'm tired," you said with a lazy voice.

Of course you were tired, Shinwon could see how the three of you misunderstood what he said before, and maybe if you listened to him before, the way that you should have, then you won't be spending your time with him right now and be with Hyunggu instead.

But all of you didn't.

"I am, too, of you three's bullshits, stop making me fetch your asses when you're broken."

"Hey! I fetch Hyunggu's, you don't fetch hisー"

"Missy, that's what you think."

Kino didn't want to open up to Shinwon, but he's really lost. If Shinwon could make him realize his feelings for you, then maybe he could push it away too?

It was not Shinwon's job, but rather Kino's and Wooseok's job that was why before he came to your place, he made sure to make the two talk to each other and sort their feelings. He can't alter anyone's fate, he has problems of his own, okay?

***

Wooseok really did make you conscious of what you were doing. He's trying to be the best man anyone could have had to Hyunggu, not because he gave up on you, but because he genuinely loves you and Hyunggu, to the point of losing you would still make him happy if it will make the two of you happy.

He tried his best to force you to tell Hyunggu your feelings because there's nothing to lose.

And even if Hyunggu told him to go for you, he still wouldn't, because you like Hyunggu, and not him. Though it hurts, he can see how your eyes would light up when talking to Hyunggu, how your smile would become extra attractive when you're doing it unconsciously to Hyunggu, and all of that was for Hyunggu and never for him.

He knew that he always had a special place in you. You may have had the best friendship ever with your main, Hyunggu, but as your second man, he was the best and even you couldn't deny that. And even if you never thought of him as someone who'd do anything for you, it's fine.

He's fine with you not knowing anything about his feelings, he's fine with you just being there. Not going forward nor moving backwards. Just stay.

He's fine protecting you, following you like a shadow of Hyunggu. He's fine, he'll be fine, until he is not.

"This is the third time around Seokie," when you said that name to him, he's literally melting, to him, that's what matters.

"He'll come by my house again and cry when Minah dumps him."

Wooseok bit his tongue before answering you and turned his head at the professor walking to the table, "Then be the reason for him to stop the cries."

And only God or Shinwon knows how hard it was for him to say that.

***

To your surprise, you see Hyunggu laughing with your brother, waiting for you to come home from your weekly ice cream date with Wooseok.

Was he dumped again? Your mind urged you to ask him that instant.

Your brother perked up his head at you and left the two of you alone, just staring at each other until Hyunggu broke the tension, "fancy seeing you in your home, eh?"

You stared at him in disbelief from his attempt to be funny, still waiting for his monologue of 'i'm dumped', but he never did.

He just took your hand and brought you to the door of your room.

Confusion struck your mind and without thinking twice, you almost smacked Hyunggu's head but he caught it with his other hand, and with a goofy smile, he assured you, "I know that you're really tired this day, but, can you spend the rest of the day with me?"

You didn't mean to blush, nor get your hopes high up, but that damned goofy smile really gets to you whenever and wherever.

"What are we going to do?"

"You'll see, lady."

He pushed his hand on the door of your room and revealed your decorated room with fairy lights, roses and pictures of you and Kino together.

You stood there, not knowing what to react nor what to say. You were expecting him to complain about Minah, but this was not what you were expecting at all. Like he was hearing your mind, he released a hold of your hand and stand in the center of your room.

"You know how Wooseok always forces you to tell me how you feel?"

You nodded.

You didn't know if you nodded at his question or just nodded at the feelings overwhelming you, from all the romantic things you're seeing right now.

"I really wish you're going to tell me," he still has a goofy smile plastered on his face, but you were not able to see that until he got your attention in the most unexpectable way, "but, I'll do it for you then. I love you, y/n."

That's when you snapped your head at his direction. You stared at him, a hand on your mouth and eyes wide open. The window that you always open to get into your balcony is romanticizing the scenario even more with the sun setting, and the man you were always looking at is now looking at you, and you only.

Telling you that he loves you.

But you were confused, what about Minah?

"B-but, Minah?" You asked with a very soft voice, almost like a whisper.

Bringing both of his brows together, he asked for your hand and brought you in the middle of the room to where he was, "Minah who?"

"The woman at our room, you know, you were staring at her."

When you showed jealousy in your face, he laughed, wholeheartedly. You waited for him to stop laughing and almost smacked him once again to make him stop, but the moment he flashed you the sweetest smile you ever saw from him that only you can see, you felt the world stop.

With your hand on his, he pecked on the back of it and looked at your eyes before telling you the truth, "that's Shinwon's girlfriend, although, don't tell him I told you. I just saw them that day kissing in the locker room and he asked me to keep quiet to Wooseok and you, but you know me-" instead of listening to the whole story, which really didn't bother you anymore at this moment, you shut him up.

With a kiss,

That really took him by a surprise.

"Shut up, Hyunggu. I love you too."

Bringing his hands on your waist, he brought his face near you once again and closed his eyes.

"I know," and kissed you, much longer than the former one.

You smiled in the kiss, bringing yourself to melt onto his sweet kisses and warm hugs. You wrapped your arms on his neck and snuggled on to his frame a little bit deeper.

You never thought that this day would come and suddenly, all of your plans vanished. All of them, including your plan to move on and forget about your feelings for him.

Because this certain connection between your lips and his, made sure to tell you that even if waiting for 2 years was a really long journey, it will always be worth it with the right person.

But what you didn't know was that Wooseok did see Hyunggu in your living room when he walked you home, and when you bid him goodbye and thanks for the ice cream, he knew, he just lost you.

He watched, from afar, until he could no longer see your house.

And when he wasn't able to anymore, he broke down and dialed Shinwon's number, "hyung, they're now together."

[sveasauvageon]

Ce qu'il a donné Un an, deux ans, cent ans de bonheur Puis la vie te cueille comme une fleur || GW

☾♔; March 5, 2018 ☾♔; sotd: Котик by Alexander Rybak   ☾♔; comedian otd: JOHN OLIVER   ☾♔; GW To do list ☾♔; {G} https://goo.gl/XSTtMc ☾♔; mod(s): @themadmonarchist @maybones et moi

Title: lyrics from "Requiem" by Alma

--featured not-mine oc's - Eloise Avery | @themadmonarchist - Minah Delacroix | @maybones (see what I did there with the Serena and Blair positioning? -eyebrow wriggle thing-)

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Updated GW to-do list: - Division of labour (we should really start saying when one of us starts working on something because otherwise we'll end up with redundancies since we think disturbingly alike) - the "chuck" problem: okay, tbh, it's more of an Ed Westwick problem than a chuck one. I don't know how you guys have reacted to the me too and time's up movements, but mine has been to cut all those men out of my sphere of entertainment, I even cut out "witch hunt", "not all men" type dudes, and "only fondled their breasts on tv and apologized for it" men (aka Ben Affleck), because time is up for all of you! Soz, not point, but since last October, Ed Westwick has been caught up in this, and thus far 3 women have accused him of ra.pe and a fourth of sexual misconduct. Now, I know it's not Chuck's fault that his portrayer is a ra.pist (allegedly), but there is still an issue with including his face, etc in aesthetics and gossip girl material because his face is that of a ra.pist's (allegedly). Tbh, I wanna leave him (Ed Westwick) out of material and only discuss Chuck and avoid showing his face or use a dreamcast instead, but like, I dunno what you guys wanna do. Chuck is a great character, although, early on, he was quite rap.ey, the character, and it does not help that his portrayer has since been revealed to be a ra.pist. Allegedly.

- also, going back up to the redundancy issues, I love both of your aesthetic collections and playlists, so for those, I was thinking for playlist, we should make one big playlist on spotify that's collaborative, so that everyone can add their music and it'll kind of be a huge explosion of musical tastes. But also, maybe have a collection that has a link on the group info for individual playlists for characters, and the group made by us and/or others. For aesthetic collections, basically the same idea with one big collaborative collection, and then that collection will have links to other collections (yes, I'm a little ocd).

- also, also, this is completely unrelated, but I was watching trevor noah's show and he made a joke about how much trump's male employees snitch and gossip like sht, but the woman haven't revealed squat. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CpmlVWFTW8A) It's really funny, and honestly, stupid people fcking up in trump's circle very publically is basically what's keeping me alive. It's just hilarious how stupid some of these people are. ___________________________ Another Update (I'll leave those up until @maybones weighs in on them)

I was working on a draft of the group description to show you guys, and I was using a template of one of my old groups and rewriting stuff and changing it to suit our purposes and I realized how many freaking rules I have (I'm so picky), anyway, some of this stuff obvs won't be applicable (like, there's one about characters dying and I don't think we were planning on going that dark. although, serena was an accessory and chuck kind of killed his dad, so meh, maybe?) anyway, I wanted your opinions on what rules to keep and/or change:

✠ RULES AND GUIDELINES {GENERAL} ✠

I. Please be kind to each other. Your characters can be total jerks, but let us, the creators and/or writers be kind, polite, and respectful (aka, channel your inner Canadian guys). There will be absolutely ZERO tolerance of discrimination. You will be immediately removed from the group, and your actions will be documented and reported. PM me immediately if someone harasses you or you notice harassment between members. ⠀⠀Ia. If you want to be anonymous, for any reason, you can send in your complaints here {https://goo.gl/kbTXeU}, it's a google form, and it doesn't ask you verify your email, and the username option, is just an option, it's not required. If I need to make further contact/information from you regarding your concern, I'll make a group announcement vaguely describing your issue, and you can send in further information anonymously again. I'll be checking the form at least once a week.  

⠀II. I'm not giving this any specific rating, however, I will say, you're free to include whatever "adult" content you want, whether it be swears, gore, or the dirty stuff (I'm totally a mature, grown up adult guys). However, do be careful of polyvore's stupid censors, use workarounds like writing your story in google docs, or accents for swear words.  

⠀III. This is a non-elimination group,  but characters can die. It may be used for inactive members, or if you wanna kill 'em off or maybe revive as a ghost or something else. Permission will always be asked of the creator first (with the exception of characters belonging to inactive members, whose characters may be killed off as penalty).  

⠀IV. If you miss 3 consecutive contests (without informing me), you'll receive an "x", "|" will be used to break up non-consecutively missed contests, anyway, if you miss 3 in a row, that will open your character to be killed by either myself or other group members. You will be notified, but your permission will not be asked. If you wish to rejoin at a later date, and you character has not been killed off, simply pm me and continue with whatever contest is in progress. If your character has been killed off, you can re-audition with a new one, and I will transfer your points to your new character.

⠀V. Always pm me, your vodka aunt mod, if you feel you'll be unable to enter a contest, your reason doesn't matter. Just let me know you can't get your entry in, that way you won't receive an "X".

⠀VI. Plotting will be left open throughout the group, however, please establish a few of these before contests begin, and always ask permission when using someone else's character(s) and be sure to tag them in your sets. Please, PLEASE work with others, I hate when people just do their own thing in oc battle groups, this is a collaborative story, everyone's stories and ideas matter. I will call you out if I notice something that contradicts the connected story, and I will always, ALWAYS incorporate the stories of group members into the overall narrative. ⠀⠀VIa. Narrative precedence will always be given to the person who completely finishes the description of their set first.

⠀VII. There is not a list of roles to pick from, you can create whatever roles you want, however, I may ask you to change it if I feel your character may become "villager number 6" and not fit in with the action. Rules, regulations, and suggestions for roles can be found here: [placeholder].

⠀VIII. Always be sure to tag the member's when you use their characters and give credit where credit is due.

⠀IX. Plagiarism will not be tolerated and you will be removed and reported. If you're inspired by someone else's work, credit them, otherwise you're stealing.

⠀X. Sets unrelated to the group will be removed.

⠀XI. You will NOT be required to write out a full story. Story portions can be answered in paragraphs, but full stories are always welcome and appreciated.  

⠀XII. Do not use templates for contest entries unless otherwise stated.

⠀XIII. Always feel free to contact me with any and all questions, and/or suggestions. You can also send them through the anonymous complaints form, found here: https://goo.gl/kbTXeU

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✠ RULES AND REGULATIONS {FACECLAIMS} ✠

I'm quite picky about these, but I'm not gonna be pedantic about it this time. You do you. Having said that, there are still some rules and regulations, as well as a challenge.

⠀I. All faceclaims must be above the age of majority (that's 18+ nearly universally on the planet), there is an exception for child characters but all main OCs must be at least 18.

⠀II. All faceclaims MUST be professionals. They can be actors, models, even singers. However, they must be singers of some note signed onto a label company, like Taylor Swift, or my beloved Dima Bilan (who's also an actor. a good one. yes, I'm bragging). Your faceclaim CANNOT be someone insta-famous, youtubers, or tumblr tweens.

⠀III. Whilst I'm not going to reject any faceclaim on the pedantic basis of "I don't like them", there are some faceclaims that I will and for one reason, and one reason only. Sexual misconduct of any and all kinds. Hollywood and the media are finally cleaning house, and I don't want those dicks in my nerd sht either. To be clear, I don't care whether the misconduct was simply groping a woman's breasts on camera and apologizing about 10 years later, I am going to reject everyone who's been accused. Examples include; Ben Affleck, Casey Affleck, Ed Westwick, Jeffrey Tambor, Danny Masterson, Andy Dick, Dustin Hoffman, and fcking Mel Gibson. (Side note, these are just actors, for a wider list of men who have fallen since the Harvey Weinstein story broke in October 2017, I recommend you check out this article {https://goo.gl/Uq65Qv} by the NY Times) ⠀⠀IIIa. If you notice I have accepted someone who has been accused of sexual misconduct/harassment/assault please inform me right away, and ideally with a link to a news source from where you learned about (I will google it myself, but the ready-to-go link would be much appreciated.) ⠀⠀IIIb. Also, Alec Baldwin is on my list of rejected faceclaims. He's not been accused of anything, yet, but I'm not liking his defensive attitude of alleged rapists. Fúck off. Matt Damon also falls under subsection B, for a slightly different reason, but fúck him too. In this watershed moment, I have no time for defensive d i c k s and "not all men" a s s h o l e s.

⠀IV. The Challenge: a lot of us have certain fave fc's we use over and over again (I'm certainly guilty of that), so my challenge is for you to use a faceclaim you have never used before as your primary oc. This is gonna be based on the honour system, some of you guys I may know well, so I'll know if you're using your fave again, but others I may not, and I can't aggressively stalk everyone, so I won't call out anyone for not doing it. It's just a fun little challenge, worth 10 bonus points, if you opt to do it. But again, it's based on the honour system, I'm not gonna stalk anyone, but if I know you and you lie to me on the audition form. First, I'll be hurt, and second, I'll say sorry and tell you you're not getting those bonus points.

(I know, two sets of rules makes me such a di.ck, it's why I need your help guys!)

[prettywordsyouleft]

The Sex Contract [M] - Chapter 8

Genre: friends to lovers au / friends with benefits / mature content / romance / angst

Characters: Shim Changmin x Kaia Ashton (OC)

A/N: Due to the overwhelming request I have followed your encouragement to bring back one of my older stories. This was back in a time where OCs were everything and writing one chapter in each main’s point of view was the trend. I hope that even though I have edited this drastically, that you can appreciate this story comes from my older style of writing. I definitely still read this often and find it enjoyable so I hope you will too.

Prologue | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 - FINAL

Chapter 8 – Kaia’s POV.

Life had taken a completely different turn ever since having sex with Changmin. It seemed the schedule now had a new element in it, and Kaia’s time was spent doing her usual activities and then meeting Changmin in between. In the past two weeks, they had so far met for sex three times, all in which they had begun to learn what they liked and disliked about one another. Although she wasn’t as keen for different positions like Changmin was, Kaia had to admit singing wasn’t his only talent. It was a new side to her friend that she had discovered, and Kaia hadn’t regretted the agreement since the first night. Though thankfully nothing was ever as tension-filled as it had been in the confines of her bedroom that last time.

“Ow Changmin!” Kaia cried out and slapped his shoulder, the boy looking down at her on the bed. She made a face. “You’re not meant to bend a woman like that.”

“I wasn’t trying to make it uncomfortable,” he breathed, rolling his eyes and shifting his weight again. The pleasure he was delivering seemed to build again and Kaia settled, hoping he wasn’t going to try that again. Sometimes his enthusiasm got the better of him. She wondered if she would ever be able to match his quest for exploration.

“Was work alright?” she asked as they flipped over, her mouth going to his chest that she enjoyed kissing so much. Changmin groaned and ran his hands through her hair. It wasn’t uncomfortable for them to talk whilst having sex, generally because when the mood struck them, they focused on getting to their destination without ripping the clothes off of each other, let alone bothering with basic greetings.

He kissed her wrist beside his head and then smiled. “Mm, tiring like usual. Did you meet your deadline?”

“No, Keith did though, I’m quite proud of him.”

“Hey!” Changmin rolled them over again and stopped, looking down at Kaia with a hard expression. She stared back incredulously; it was finally starting to feel good.

“What are you doing?!”

“I’m having sex with you right now!” Changmin said exasperatedly and she continued to look at him as if he sprouted an extra head.

“No, you just stopped. Right when I was enjoying myself!”

“Where’s your contract?! We need to add another stipulation on!”

Kaia gaped at him. “Right now?!”

“You just broke a code!” He stared down at her harshly and whined as if he couldn’t believe what had just occurred. “Bringing up another man whilst having sex is a big no-no!”

“Oh my goodness Changmin!” Kaia cried, shoving the man off her. “I cannot believe you right now, he’s a workmate and you asked me about work!”

All the same, Kaia got up and headed out to the living room, searching in her drawer for the original copy. They had already reprinted another copy each off after they had made the mistake of foreplay once, and as she looked at the paper, Kaia realised they weren’t going to have much room left soon. After grabbing a pen, she returned to her bedroom where Changmin had already turned on the lamp.

Kaia gave him a glare and then sat down. “Thanks to you we’re running out of room. It was just a contract, not a fan page needing a damn autograph, Min.”

“You know you’re easily irritated,” he mentioned and she shot him another look, jotting down the rule he sought for. After dating it, she handed it to him to initial and then thumped it down on the bedside table. He smiled and reached out for her arm. “Come on, I’ll make you happier.”

“No,” Kaia stubbornly replied, folding her arms across her bare chest firmly. “I don’t want you now.”

“What?! Aw come on Kai, it was a fair call.”

She turned away from him. “I’m no longer in the mood. Now, where is my dressing robe?”

“Are you serious right now?” he enquired and she nodded. Grumbling incoherently, Changmin flung his legs over the side of the bed and searched for his pants. Kaia continued to look for her dressing robe, finally finding it and covered her naked form before heading out to photocopy the agreement. Changmin soon joined her, sighing heavily and taking the piece of paper she held out for him.

“You can’t even dress yourself,” Kaia mused, noting his shirt was poorly buttoned. Reaching out for his top, she undid it and looked up at the tall man who was eying her lustfully. Groaning loudly, Kaia moved back into his arms, Changmin blindly making his way back to the bedroom with her attacking his lips.

Kaia could never completely forgo it, she was too addicted now.

The agreement continued in this fashion for another two weeks, Changmin even interrupting Kaia’s at home exercise session to call in for his own form of working out. With his upcoming promotion overseas in Japan, the boy had to take what little time he did have and try and fit in around her schedule. Although Kaia was enjoying the sex, and the satisfaction that came with it, she wasn’t about to forgo sleep for when Changmin wanted to meet.

“Ah, my legs hurt,” Kaia complained out loud as she climbed the last remaining steps into Korea Star’s office, lightly tapping her fists on her thighs in hopes it would ease the pain. She wasn’t sure why her legs were so tired lately, though all the meetings with Changmin had acquired a lot of running to catch buses in time. She wondered if she should join a gym to keep up with her more demanding physical routine.

“Good morning Kaia!” Keith greeted her as she walked through the door and she smiled brightly at the man, bowing lightly to those who turned to see her arrival. After she slung her bag on the back of the chair and sat down, she blinked rapidly at the takeaway cup that appeared in front of her face. Keith beamed. “Iced caramel latte is your favourite, right?”

“Yes, thank you!” She took the cup and placed the straw to her mouth, closing her eyes in delight. “You’re a godsend Keith; you don’t know how behind I was this morning!”

“You seem to be busier lately,” he observed and a second chair swivelled close to her, the dark eyes penetrating her own. Kaia swatted Sungra back, pouting lightly.

“Yes, and you won’t tell me either. I’m supposed to be your best friend!”

Kaia took another sip. “Sung, I’m not doing anything illegal, I’m just busy.”

“With?” Both Keith and Sungra stared intensely and Kaia wondered if they hoped that would make her crack.

“Writing a novel,” Kaia announced, which was actually a half-truth. They both exchanged a look and shifted back to their computers, uninterested for further details. Kaia silently cursed the fact that Changmin was a celebrity and was causing her to have so many secrets.

Settling into her work for the day, she barely noticed anything or anyone around her. A few huge projects had been offered to her by Minah and she wanted to impress her boss, hoping it would bring about the promotion she had been hinting about. By lunchtime, Kaia had barely stopped for anything and realised the latte had made its way through her system. Getting up and rushing to the bathroom, she had only entered a cubicle when the phone in her jeans’ pocket went off. Stunned that she had forgotten to put the device on mute, Kaia scrambled to fish it out of her pants before answering it.

“Hello?”

“It’s me.”

“Min, ah Max I’m in the bathroom, can I call you back?” He sighed, ending the phone call with a click. Scrunching her nose up at his rudeness, Kaia jumped as a beep went off a moment later. She opened the text and read it.

Changmin: Hey, I just found out I’m going to Japan for five days. You busy today? I want to meet up.

She quickly hit the keys to respond, asking him jokingly if all they would ever do together was sex now. She finished in the cubicle and went out to wash her hands, pulling the phone back out again as she received the next message.

Changmin: Don’t make me a deprived boy of your great company.

Kaia chuckled at his avoidance of the question, sending him back another teasing reply when the toilet behind her flushed. She turned to see Abby appear a moment later, her eyes connecting with Kaia’s before she smiled.

“Are you staying for lunch?” she asked and Kaia shook my head. “That makes two of us. I’m also meeting someone.”

“Oh I’m not meeting anyone,” she retorted, and Abby gave her another look.

“Well have a good lunchtime all the same. I’m going to head out now, see you.” The girl left and Kaia frowned, wondering why she was acting so weird towards her. Shrugging lightly, she headed back out into the work office and over to her desk where she logged her computer off.

Keith looked at her. “Please tell me you’re not bailing on Sushi Day.”

“Afraid so, an old friend has asked to meet up.”

“Who?” Sungra wondered and Kaia smiled the best she could. “Do I know her?”

“Him actually and no, he’s come up from Busan where I used to work.”

“Ah, is it Justin?” the Korean girl wondered and Kaia nodded eagerly, knowing she’d have to get in contact with the fellow British man to help cover the story. “Tell him I say hi then.”

“I will, catch you both later,” Kaia said with a wave and departed the office, hurrying out into the late summer sun. She texted Changmin as she made her way to the train station entrance a block over, slowing down when she noticed Abby up ahead. She was trying not to look around herself conspicuously as she made her way over to a dark SUV that Kaia was nearing. Watching her friend with more interest, Kaia managed to reach her just as she opened the door, climbing into the seat beside a man who she leaned in to kiss. She gaped at who she believed she saw and banged into a Korean woman, who snapped Kaia out of her reverie. Bowing in apology, she then made her way to the station in a distracted manner, wondering if her eyes were playing tricks on her. If they weren’t, then Kaia wasn’t the only one trying to hide meetings with a famous singer.

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50 Questions Tag

TAGGED BY THE AWESOME AND GREAT NON FURRY @baekbuns

1. what takes up too much of your time? Youtube 

2. what makes your day better? Music, completing a book or finishing a piece of writing.

3. what’s the best thing that happened to you today? Hmmmm, I genuinely don’t know....nothing has really happened today so this is hard to answer. I’m actually starting to get upset because my break is almost over and my break was busy with things I didn’t want to do.

4. what fictional place would you like to go?  Hogwarts I’m so fucking basic

5. are you good at giving advice? I mean I helped a friend save her relationship so yes?

6. do you have any mental illness? Nothing officially diagnosed. Once I get hormonal checks or whatever we’ll know-also I do have ADHD.

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? Yes, and it was terrifying. I’m glad it’s only happened once tbh.

8. what musician inspired you the most? Minah...she’s done so much for her group in order to get Girlsday known...shes everything to me.

9. have you ever fallen in love? I think so? But I got over it fast so no??

10. what’s your dream date? Movie night with cooking or baking together and games!!!

11. what do others notice about you? My eyes, they are a pale greyish blue.

12. what is the annoying habit you have? I run my nails between my teeth also I can’t sit still whatsoever.

13. do you still talk to your first love? Yes. We have a SC streak going???

14. how many ex’s do you have? Funny thing, never had a boyfriend or a girlfriend

15. how many songs are on your playlist? Korean Music: 1,009

16. what instruments can you play? Some guitar, some piano and that’s it.

17. who do you have the most pictures of? My cat because she’s a queen. 

18. where would you like to go before you die? Japan 

19. what is your zodiac? Aquarius!!!

20. do you relate to it? Yes and no?? It says we are cold but I openly get emotional...I think??? I mean I bawled in front of everyone twice at my sisters wedding. But I am INCREDIBLY loyal and very blunt and can turn cold if need be-I’m also a fan of logic??? But also don’t believe in Aliens but READ Scifi!

21. what is happiness to you? A good book, happy family, and being able to relax for once in my life also all animal abusers being jailed for life! ^^

22. are you going through anything right now? Bad mood swings and low self-esteem and EXTREME stress because graduation. 

23. what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? Not visitng my great grandma often before she passed away. 

24. what’s your favorite store? The Japanese Market here...don’t judge me. 

25. what’s your opinion on abortion? Pro-life!

26. do you keep a bucket list? Nope!

27. do you have a favorite album at the moment? Dongwoo’s Solo Album! 

28. what do you want for your birthday? Books & Money

29. what are most people’s first impression of you? Scary...or crazy

30. what age do you seem according to most people? 18

31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? Next to my bed on the floor.

32. what word do you say the most? Ok

33. what’s the oldest age you would date? Question is would I even date??? Debatable. 

34. what’s the youngest age you would date? 2 years maybe?

35. what job/career do most people say would suit you? Author that or Vet. 

36. what’s your favorite music genre? Too many, I tend to enjoy Indie alot though...so there!

37. if you could live in any country in the world where would it be? USA

38. what is your current favorite song? Jang Dong Woo’s Party Girl/Something Between or SAAY Encore

39. how long have you had this blog for? July 2013

40. what are you excited for? For school to end.

41. are you a better talker or listener? Listener. But also talking is easy too.

42. what is the last productive thing you did? Did an appointment well. 

43. what do you want for christmas? Books and Gift Cards and Cook books

44. what class do you get the best grades in? Math, one of my teachers let me sleep through the class at some point. 

45. on a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 6???

46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years? Living in an apartment alone with a million books and some cats and a dog.

47. when did you get your first heartbreak? Never really had my heart break?

48. at what age do you want to get married? Never

49. what career did you want to have as a child? Vet, singer...things like that

50. what do you crave now? School to not start and for all of my final presentations to be canceled because I haven’t even thought about them. 

Not tagging anyone but if you follow me and see this GO FOR IT!

[mfackenthal]

150 Follower Spotlight: @blackcatkita!

What follows is the transcript of the very first episode ever of “The MFackenthal show.”  Imagine the set of “The Ellen Degeneres Show.” Emojis have been used to help show facial expressions and to give this transcript greater depth.

Hello everyone and thank you for that warm welcome!  This show is a dream come true.  When Ellen saw me interview @simplyaiden-blog  and asked me to create a show, I almost fainted.  No one pinch me as I don’t want to learn this is just a dream. 

We have an amazing show for you today.  Please join me in welcoming @blackcatkita to the stage! 

MFack:  Jen, I am so glad you are here!  I have loved your work for a while now and I am so glad you are willing to join me on stage for my first episode of “The MFackenthal show.”

Jen:  Megs, thanks for having me!

MFack: So your name is Jen and your MC is often named Jennifer … now, I name all of my MC’s Megs …

Jen: Yep! I name all of them a derivative of my own name. Those based in high school are Jenny, because that’s what I went by. College aged ones are Jen. TRR is the only one I use Jennifer, because its more proper. 😁

Once I start writing for more series I will have to think up new names. It will be too confusing to have them all with the same name!

MFack:  I understand, though have you met the blogger @lizeboredom? All her MCs are named Minah and she's just made it a running joke.  You should reach out to her and tell her how awesome my show is – I’d love to have her on as a guest.  (wink)

But back to you, where are you from?

Jen: I'm from Milwaukee, WI, USA.  I’m still in the Milwaukee area but now I live in a nearby suburb.

MFack: and what do you do when you're not writing?

Jen: Oh, not much! I work a lot but when I'm not I'm usually playing the app, reading, or writing.

I’m a master level manicurist at a full-service salon and spa.

MFack: Whoa, that's awesome.

Jen: (Laughs) It is?

MFack: (Laughs) Well, I guess you'd have to tell me.  I'm thinking it's a lot of work, but that you'd also get a discount on some great spa services.

Jen: I don’t pay anything for hair or spa services. Most of the time we don’t even tip each other, just trade. And I get half off products, so that’s nice. I actually started doing it because it was flexible, and I could do it while I finished college. I never did go back because, honestly, I love what I do! I’ve been doing it for 15 years and some of my clients have been with me the whole time. They aren’t just clients, I consider them friends as well. I’m booked at 87-95%, I love my coworkers, the owner is awesome, it’s a great place to work and its insane to me how much I make doing nails. I always say I don't really work there, I just go there to hang out with my friends and they pay me for it.

MFack: Awh - so it is AWESOME!

Jen: It is 😁 Usually people don’t have that reaction is all. I’m not a surgeon or anything but I do make people feel good about themselves. Sometimes I feel like a therapist.  

MFack: In many ways, I'm sure you are a therapist.

So, what brought you to the choices fandom?

Jen: I honestly don’t remember why I downloaded the app in the first place. I played “The Crown and the Flame” and was hooked! I held out on purchasing diamonds until “The Royal Romance” and “Endless Summer.” I’ve now fallen completely off the deep end. Like hundreds of dollars into the abyss. Now I unlock everything in my favorite stories!

MFack:  Me too! "What's a few dollars here or there," my mind asks ... and then the other part of me says, "if only it was a few dollars … don't ask that question ... "

Jen: I look at it like this: it entertains me for hours every day. I work for a living, I deserve those diamond scenes! (whispering) and outfits!

MFack:  Who’s work in the fandom did you read first?

Jen: I think it was @captainkingliam, closely followed by @violetflipflops and @ladynevrakis (who have since changed their handles to @sgt-peppers-coffee-club and @i-dream-so-i-write) I absolutely adore @captainkingliam’s "In Another World" AU and @violetflipflops and @ladynevrakis' Kenna/Diavolos fics are life!

MFack: Yes! I love Diavolos! (Whispering) Here’s a little secret: I almost cried the other day when the former @ladynevrakis said she's pretty much done writing for Kenna/Diavolos!

Jen: NOOO! I didn't see that! I was already #teamDiavolos before I read her stuff but if I hadn’t been she certainly would have swayed me!

But, Megs, can I ask a question of you now?

MFack:  (Looking at Jen quizzically) I guess ….

Jen: Well, I saw that you’re reading all of my masterlist, including earlier stuff 🙈

MFack:  Yup! I'm calling it "research" (wink) Don't worry, I'll catch up ASAP!

Jen:  Well, I feel like I hit my stride in part 4 of Consequence of Secret and every time I write it gets a little better. I may rewrite those first 3 someday. We are our own worst critics though.

MFack:  Indeed! That's why I'm not a writer - I can't do the rewrite parts. Once I write it and read it for "editing" I hit publish and deal with my consequences of my many errors …

I'm remember chapter 4 and I love that Chance shames Liam. ;)

Jen:  Oh yeah, well then I have to ask, which chapter of “The Consequence of Secrets” was your favorite?

MFack: I think maybe chapter 9 is my current favorite. I get to hate new characters and things don't quite go as planned in that chapter, Olivia is delightful in her Olivia way - the writing is just soooo good! I love the chapter more when we realize that Liam's perspective is inaccurate.

Jen: Yes! Liam is so blind, and he doesn’t even know it. Spoiler alert: Shit goes down in chapter 11b.

MFack:  Ahhhh!  I can’t wait! I want to ask about that, but I know half my audience hates spoilers so let me ask my next question.  Have you read all of the choices books?

Jen: Yes! I replay my favorites all. the. time.

Megs:  What's your favorite?

Jen: Hmm ... I will go with The Royal Romance, followed by Lovehacks and The Crown and the Flame. I am really enjoying Perfect Match and Bloodbound too, just not enough to break into the top 3.

MFack:  While I agree with you about Lovehacks, I know it's not a Tumblr favorite.

Jen:  I don’t know why it gets so much hate. I think it’s hilarious and Mark is a perfect cinnamon roll of a man!

MFack:  I don't know why either!  Of course, as all my viewers will learn, I love anything that hints to the TV show Friends.

Okay, so seeing as The Royal Romance is your favorite, who is your favorite character from that universe?

Jen:  How can you make me choose?! I love them all! Liam is obviously a favorite of mine. There’s so much more to him than just "the sweet and romantic love interest." He’s been brought up to be the stoic king and he is, but he’s also a man with conviction who really does want the best for his people and his country. That being said, he isn’t afraid to fight for what’s important to him and he goes for what he wants in life even if that means going against what others think. Then there’s Maxwell. He’s the happy go lucky go to guy for a good time but he’s really the most supportive friend you could ever want. He will do anything for his friends, even bring a random commoner he just met to compete for his friend’s hand because he saw something in the two of them. All that said - I'm choosing the MC for the win! She's fearless, loyal (at least how I play her lol) assertive, kind, funny, generous, selfless etc. etc.

MFack: Going back to your work, what's your writing process?

Jen:  Uhh … I don’t know if I have one! An idea pops into my head and I start writing … I'm one of those fortunate people who retains information, so I don't usually have an outline when I start.  I kind of just know where I want the story to go. I do have a file of "fic ideas" but it’s full of simple like statements: "the Lovehacks gang at the renaissance faire" or "Red Carpet Diaries/The Royal Romance crossover." Consequence of Secrets is a little different, of course. The entire series started with the words "It's killing me to see you with him," and it quickly took on a life of its own. I know how each part starts and ends, and what I want to accomplish within that chapter. My goal is to have all of my fics line up together in a timeline that makes sense.

MFack: What's your favorite/least favorite thing about Tumblr?

Jen:  My favorite thing is the fandom itself! It amazes me how kind and supportive everyone is. Also, there are so many incredible writers here it's insane!

My least favorite thing? Not getting notifications and when tags don’t work.

MFack: Ugh, the tags are driving me crazy!  But I don’t want to go on a tangent, so instead tell me what is your favorite piece of your own work?

Jen:  I love how fun “How to Please a Woman” is but my favorite is “Consequence of Secrets” starting with part 4 and up. It has required a lot of research - Paris hotels, legal advice (from a real-life lawyer) and ... other things I can’t reveal at this time 😁. The characters are flawed, but still lovable. It really challenges me as a writer and I hope I convey how torn they all are. I want people to be mad at them, but still understand where they are coming from... if that makes sense.

MFack:  Well, if you want me to be mad at Liam, you're definitely succeeding … I do understand him though, so I think you can call it all a big success!

Now, for the question everyone wants to know ... do you like Pineapple on your pizza?

Jen: (laughing) I will dabble with pineapple on occasion but it’s not a topping I would choose often.

MFack:  Alright, it’s time to dish.  Tell us an "embarrassing story" … Something unique or cheesy about yourself.

Jen: (shaking her head but smiling) An embarrassing story huh? I'm so laid back my sister says I'm half dead so it’s REALLY hard to embarrass me.

Some "unique" things though ... Let’s see, I have a "Nerdary".  It’s our 3rd bedroom - filled with bookshelves, funko pops and harry potter memorabilia such as wands, time turner, golden snitch etc. Oh! Also, I sing in the car, with no shame, and if someone looks at me I sing to them! It’s especially fun when it’s the soundtrack to “Galavant” or “Grease 2” 😂

MFack:  Y’know, I love to sing.  Will you sing with me?

Jen:  Of course!

MFack and Jenn sing “Do it for our Country” from Grease 2:  

“America is calling, let's care enough to give our very best.

For if we give our very best,

I know that we will more than pass the test.

If I could have three wishes, I'd wish that you'd live free,

I'd wish for amber waves of grain from sea to shining sea.

Yeah, let's do it for our country, the red, white, and the blue.

It's Uncle Sam who's asking, so your mother will approve.

Tomorrow I'll be fighting, and I'll win this war for you.

Let's do it for our country, our country wants us to.

Bullets are exploding, they'll soon be at the door,

Give something to America you never gave before.

Yeah, let's do it for our country, the red, white, and the blue,

If the President were standin' here, I'm sure he would approve.

I'll be a mighty soldier before this night is through.

Let's do it for our country, our country wants us to.

(Spoken)

Just think about it -- it would be like as if we were doing it for the Statue of Liberty, or the Grand Canyon, or the New York Yankees... it would be like as if we were doing it for... Disneyland!

Yeah, let's do it for our country, the red, white, and the blue,

It's not a lot to ask of us, our parents will approve.

I'll be a mighty soldier, before this night is through.

Let's do it for our country, (spoken) we owe it to our country.

Let's do it for our country, our country wants us to.”

MFack:  (Laughing) Well, on that note … Jen, what do you want to say to your adoring fans?

Jen:  Thank you so much for your love and support! You all make me smile every day and I'm so happy you enjoy my work! It's all of you that keeps me going!

MFack:  That’s our show – thanks for coming everyone!  Have a GREAT night! We’ll see you next time (when MFackenthal has 200 followers) on “The MFackenthal Show!”

[minttexs]

house of memories 3 | namjoon

Genre: mafia au; angst Pairing: Namjoon x Minji Words: 1,629 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 |

Months have passed, I haven’t even noticed that almost a year flew by. We would have been 7 years old, this year… No, you can’t think about him. You’ve been doing so good.

My sister Minah got married in December, and in March they found out she was expecting a little baby.

Minjae fell in love with his first girlfriend and he was literal heart eyes all the time.

I was surrounded by people being in love but I didn’t really care. I focused on myself.

I managed to get a small group of friends that were really close to me.

Haerin, Hoseok and Yoongi became my closest friends. We hung out a lot and we talked daily. Thankfully it was rarely about work, and mostly random shit we constantly argued about.

I gained other friends too and my life looked like any normal life. I was at the top of my game. I was successful at work. I decided not to move away from my parents for a while. I wanted to be close to them for a while. And I really enjoyed finally spending more time with my little brother. I studied my ass off so I can go study in the capital, so much I rarely had time for him. But I want to make up for the lost time and spend as much time I could with him.

Haering and Yoongi liked to drink. Not too much but they enjoyed the company of someone else more if they already had a drink to ease their stress. They were stressing over a lot of things so they find something in common when the 4 of us hung out the 1st time.

Going out together so much we already had a usual spot at a bar. We had our own box in the back of the room and were chatting there till midnight or till Yoongi or Haering got too drunk.

Me and Hobi were not much of a drinker so we usually had one beer or none at all. We went there to have fun. and to also take care of those two.

‘Duuude.’ whined Haerin when she arrived. She ran usually late, but this time it was because she went on a date. ‘It was sooo bad.’

We gave her a questioning look, and she explained everything. The guy was a douche and kept being rude to her, and the waitress.

‘I don’t even know why I went on a date with him.’ she sighed. ‘Why is there no normal man in this damn city?’

‘I’ll take it like I haven’t heard that.’ said Yoongi, and we burst out laughing. ‘And you think you’re the only one with this. I haven’t had a date with a decent chick since high school. And that was in Daegu.’ I forgot to mention. Yoongi moved here from Daegu when his parents got a better job on the island, so he went to school here and decided to settle down here as well.

‘I wish I could live in a bigger city with more man to choose from.’ Haerin sighed resting her forehead on the table.

‘Believe me, the city won’t solve much.’ I chuckled. ‘It’s full of creeps.’

‘Oh yeah, you came from Seoul.’ Hoseok noted.

‘Why?’ Yoongi took a sip of his beer. ‘Have you dated a lot of creeps?’

‘No, I had one boyfriend while I was there. But believe me, the boys were really creepy during college. Literally, some would follow you home just so you’ll finally date them. And if you said no they would wait at your place till you came home.’

‘Wait, my brain stopped working when you said you had one boyfriend.’ Haerin looked at me.

‘What?’ they looked at me weirdly.

‘I just simply can’t believe it.’ Yoongi said. ‘A girl like you only dated once during college.’

‘What do you mean girl like you?’ i scoffed.

‘It was a compliment midget.’

‘You are really passionate about things you like. And you’re really funny and caring. Not to mention you look hot as fuck.’ Hoseok continued Yoongi’s thought.

‘12 out of 10, would totally go gay for you.’ Haerin thumbsed up.

‘You didn’t even try dating a colleague or something?’ Yoongs asked still amused.

‘I dated him for almost 6 years what do you want from me?’ I laughed. Their eyes widened.

‘You never told me about this.’ Haerin blinked.

‘It was not really that important.’ I sipped my beer just so I can avoid their gazes.

‘I told you all my stupid relationships and I wasn’t even good to know about your half-decade boyfriend?’

I really didn’t want this conversation to turn to this direction. I’ve avoided my thought about Namjoon daily, I didn’t want the dreams and the anxiety crippling back from the hole I threw them in.

‘We broke up before I came here.’ I said quietly. ‘It was rough. That’s why I didn’t want to talk about it.’

‘Oh boo.’ Haerin whined. ‘Why didn’t start with this?’

And quickly we moved on from the topic.

I was walking home from the bus station. It was quite far away from our house, so you had to take a maybe a 20-minute walk from there.

It was pretty silent that night.

I had a weird feeling. That someone was following me. I peeked back, but I didn’t see anything. I grabbed my phone tightly, and 119 dialled just in case. I tried to close out the sound of my own steps, but I still didn’t hear anything. Maybe I was just paranoid or that one beer is doing things to me.

I should have let one of the boys accompany me on my way back. And now the silence felt scarier.

In Seoul, someone was always on the streets even in the middle of the night. There was a smaller chance someone would kidnap you from the streets. Even in suburb districts like this.

Someone suddenly grabbed me from behind and put his hand over my mouth to muffle my scream. My phone fell to the pavement with a loud thud, making the pre-dialled number visible to the man holding me.

I squirmed, but I just couldn’t seem to get out of his hold.

‘Aw, how cute. You even pre-dialled 119. Sadly they won’t come to your help.’

I collected all my strength, bend my elbows and push towards his ribcage. He let out a loud cry and his hold loosened on me.I pushed my hip towards him and tried to push him to the ground. When I heard his loud thud on the pavement, I grabbed my phone from the ground and ran as fast as I could.

My morning started at the police station. I reported the kidnapper, even though I had no information about him. Maybe they could just send out cars to cruise around the streets for good measure. When I went to work Haerin almost cried she was so shocked.

During lunch break, Hoseok and Yoongi became very concerned too.

‘You really shouldn’t walk alone at night.’ Yoongi said slurping his noodles.

‘But I can’t have someone with me all the time…’ I sighed. I can’t do this to them, they could get hurt too.

‘Maybe you should attend self-defence classes. They have specific ones for women. Like how to escape from capture from different positions, how to escape ropes, how to throw a punch.’ Hoseok advised.

And we did like that. Immediately that afternoon Haerin took me to a class. And I got beat up so bad, that every part of my body was sore.

She was so worried that she took me to work every morning, and took me back home every night after this incident. She didn’t want anything to happen to me. Which I appreciated to the most, but I also didn’t want to bother her with this.

We went to the classes very often, 3 times a week at least. Haerin was really serious about this. And after a couple of weeks when Svetna the Russian bone crusher threw me to the ground it didn’t hurt as much it did in the beginning.

I learnt how to throw a proper punch, which made me feel really great about myself. The teacher praised me that I was a fast learner, and I felt like the nerd I was in school that worked the hardest to get praised. I know I was a weirdo.

Haerin improved too. A lot actually. They would let us together to fight and I hated them. First of all, she would always win and hold me to the ground for minutes. And the was more in shape than I was so, she seemed to be faster.

We were changing after practice to go out and eat together. I was looking in the mirror and realised the bruises seemed to already fade that I got during the first weeks.

‘What?’ Haerin asked looking in the mirror with me.

‘I look like I was beaten up.’ I laughed. She started smiling.

‘The difference is that you could beat up someone else too.’

‘Seriously girl.’ I was cracking my shoulder which was sore when she held my hand down the ground. ‘Go easy on me. I never win.’

‘In real life, they don’t go easy on you.’ her voice became quieter.

‘Hey… Everything okay?’

‘Yeah yeah.’ she became her bubbly self again. She seemed like she had a similar experience as mine…

[damndaehyung]

the big moments

himym au part 1 included: daniel,tara,mark, tyler, m, jane, minah, sungjae mentioned : oliver, ella, milo, astrid, minjae

2033

To the surprise of many Daniel Choi was a punctual guy, if he was given at least 3 hours notice he would arrive with time to spare. Right now all he could think as he walked into McLaren’s pub, a place that housed some of his fondest memories, was he wished he came late or better yet didn’t come at all because the only two people currently sat at the gang’s booth was Tara Lee and her husband Mark. He briefly contemplated turning around and sprinting down the busy New York street but stopped when Mark called out his name waving him over.

Damn it, Yang.

Swallowing his fear and admittedly his pride he walked over to the booth. It was one thing to deal with Tara and Mark, the disgustingly in love couple with their evil adorable daughter. The poster children for long-distance couples who managed to make it work, Tara a New York-based novelist, her popular young adult series was still in the New York’s Best Seller list despite been released 5 years ago and Mark, a kpop superstar turned music juggernaut, somehow despite their various engagements and time spent apart they couple never wavered. Unlike Daniel’s own marriage which fell apart at the first sign of distance - something, he isn’t bitter about at all, thank you very much.

The worst thing about being stuck with Tara and Mark was that he was stuck with his ex-sister-in-law and her husband who put in any awkward situations turned into a blubbering mess who spilled more words than a dictionary. At this point, Daniel would rather be stuck with his ex-husband then deal with Tara’s knowing eyes and Mark’s idle chit chat.

“A rare Choi spotting in New York? Quick Tara go buy a lotto ticket miracles are happening,” Mark joked as he slid into the seat across from them.

“Rare? His faces on buses Mark,” Tara said with a playful eye roll.

“But a live Daniel Choi in the wilderness? How much did Sungjae pay you to show up?” Mark continued the joke as Daniel waved at the bartender signalling for his usual, Lou who apparently was ageless and still worked here nodded.

“Don’t worry about it Mark you’d never be able to afford me,” Daniel laughed. “But on a serious note where is everyone? Is my watch way too fast or something?” He said looking at his watch with a frown. He was pretty sure it was set correctly and the text said McLaren’s at quarter to two, it was currently twenty to two.

“Interesting choice of wrist attire,” Tara commented. Daniel flushed, the watch was a birthday gift from Tyler of course. If anyone asked he’d feign naivety claiming he just put it on but the truth was he almost always wore it. “And I can’t speak on everyone but Ty’s dropping Oli off at our mothers,” Tara said.

Normally the mere mention of his former mother in law would make Daniel grimace but Tara had said the magic word. Oli. Despite being his ex-husband’s love child with some random woman he did not remember the name of Oliver Lee was a perfect baby who somehow managed to carve out his own space in Daniel’s heart.

  “It’s a shame we are meeting here,” Daniel said just as Lou decided to bring his drink over, slamming the glass down with a glare. “BECAUSE CHILDREN AREN'T ALLOWED IN HERE GEEZ!” he yelled out trying to make sure at least his favourite bartender didn’t hate him.

“Do my eyes deceive me or is the same guy who said Milo looked like a shrivelled up prune when he was born now upset about a four-year-old not being here?” Mark said, raising an eyebrow. “I thought you were strictly anti-children,” he teased.

“I am not anti-children, I am not a monster -” Daniel huffed. “I just not particularly child-orientated and don’t bring that up again, Jane, wouldn’t talk to me for a month and when she did talk to me, the things she said,” Daniel paused to shudder. “I couldn’t sleep for months Yang, months!”

“Yeah, most people don’t like it when you insult their children, weird huh?” Tara laughed. “But no Oli won’t be joining us,” Tara said tilting her head. “You know it’s odd how the only time we see you is when it’s related to Oliver, you never came to any of Ella’s birthday parties? Are we all not friends?” Tara asked, taking a sip out of her wine.

Daniel bit his tongue, Daniel wouldn’t know if he would classify them all as friends, not anymore, after the divorce Daniel pretty much removed himself from the group and in Tara’s case after Tyler and himself announced that they were getting divorced Tara, the protective sister, didn’t hold back on what she thought of Daniel. “Ella’s birthday just happens to fall in a busy month,” he said shrugging. “Plus she has so many aunts and uncles my presence is hardly necessary.”

“I’d believe you if you actually showed up for Milo’s or Charlie’s or Astrid’s or Minjae’s -” Mark listed as Tara nodded victoriously beside him. God, he hated loved couples who were always on the same side. “I am beginning to think you might be playing favourites.”

“I have favourites? Never,” Daniel said with an eye roll. “Anyway, what have you two been up to? You know apart from picking on me,” he said.

“But it’s our favourite habit next to picking on Tyler,” Mark said with a laugh. “But Nah I’ve just been working on some new music, this one and her mini-me,” he bumping Tara lightly, “are trying to get me to write a children’s book but i am pretty sure there is only one novelist in this family,” he grinned.

“And I keep telling him that he is being silly,” Tara said with her own eye roll. “I am working on a new novel, i am trying my hand at a crime novel… my google searches have never looked more questionable,” she laughed.

“Don’t worry i am sure it still looks more normal than Tyler’s,” Daniel joked before realizing what he had just said. “I mean -” he trailed, it had just come so natural to him that he forgot he wasn’t supposed to say things like that anymore.

“Maybe in the old days but i am pretty sure his searches are related to how to raise Oli, that suits and Gucci, he has got boring in his old age,” Tara said with an eye roll. “Speaking of the old man,” she said nodding to the entry where Tyler and Jane and M were walking in.

“You were talking about me, I can tell,” Tyler said as they came over to the booth squeezing into the booth next to her. Tara grinned at him, zipping her lips. Tyler glared at her before he turned his attention to Mark. “Yang,” he said nodding before turning to Daniel. “Oh hey Daniel,” he said awkwardly, “I didn’t know you were coming,” he said smoothing out his suit. “How have you been?” he asked.

Daniel opened his mouth to open but was stopped by Jane. “No no we are not just glossing over the fact Daniel showed up,” she said as she slid into the booth beside him, “Squeeze over,” she said poking his side, Daniel sighed moving so he was effectively right up against the wall so M could get into the booth.

“Tara and Mark have gone over that in great detail,” Daniel said. “So maybe we could -”

“Oh hell no,” Jane scoffed. “Mark and Tara might have had their fun but we still have at least five shots to take at you before we can move on,” she said. “What do you think Supreme Fudge?” she asked, nudging M who stroked his chin.

“Hmm well considering he missed our anniversary dinner five seems fair,” he said. Daniel took another long sip of his drink. Showing up to group hangouts were not really for Daniel anymore, all of them were happy and living their best lives, they had their dream jobs, 6 out of the 7 were happily married and all of them had children, single childless Daniel didn’t really fit in anymore

“You might as well wait for Sungjae and Minah to show up so you can all get it over with together,” Daniel spoke. “Speaking of which does anyone know what this is about? Minah’s not pregnant again surely? They just had Minjae -”

“He is two,” M pointed out.

“And no i don’t think so, Minah would have told me by now,” Jane said.

“Maybe they are moving?” Tara suggested.

“Away from New York? After they just enrolled Astrid and Minjae into Constance’s and St Jude’s respectively - i don’t think so,” Tyler said. “Do you know how hard it is, luckily i am a legacy so Oli just gets in like that,” he said with a click.

“You don’t think they are…. You know getting the D word?” M all but whispered.

“Death?” Daniel said, frowning. “I am somehow don’t think they would be planning -”

“He meant divorce,” Mark said. ‘And i doubt it -”

“We could always just ask Minah who is here by herself,” Jane started her voice dropping when she spotted her best friend on her own. The other’s all shared a look as well. Daniel knew Sungjae and Minah were a happily married couple but surely here showing up on her own wasn’t a big deal, maybe she had gone shopping or he was with their children?

“You are all here,” Minah said surprised. “Good, that’s great, really great, great,” she said, nodding sound like she was trying to convince herself.

“Say it one more time and we might believe you,” Tara joked. It was an inside the group shared but Minah just smiled weakly as she dragged a chair over. “Okay,” Tara said uncomfortably. “ is everything -” she started to say as Minah shook her head.

“Please just let me speak,” Minah said, closing her eyes and breathing in deeply before exhaling. “Okay in about 5 minutes Sungjae will be here so when he gets here I would appreciate it if you could all pretend we haven’t already had this conversation -” she said. No one said anything but M did make a noise of protest. “RIght where to start?” she asked herself. “Well recently I’ve been feeling unwell -”

“Oh my god, you are pregnant?” Tyler said. “How did Daniel of all pick it? No offence just -”

“No, i am not pregnant,” Minah cut him off, “I really wish i was or i could be again but no I am just sick,” she said her voice cracking as she spoke. It was like that one statement had just sucked the life out of the room. Everyone stared at Minah waiting for her to continue, beside him Jane was shaking her head muttering no.

“It’s just a flu right Minah,” Jane asked, Daniel had to applaud her dedication to ignoring reality. Minah silence was a loud enough answer for Jane to start sobbing, M pulled her close as Daniel patted her back lightly.

“How bad - “ Mark started to ask but stopped when Minah shook her head.

“And you can’t fight it?” Tyler asked. “Between us all, we can find the best doctors in New York”

“In the world,” Tara added.

“Guys -” She started to speak.

“It’s too late,” Daniel finished for her. Minah looked at him perhaps surprised he guessed it.

“No, it’s not,” Jane snapped. “You and Tyler might be fine with giving up on things when it gets rough but Minah is going to -” she started before looking at Minah who was looking at her sadly. “I can’t be here right now - I need to,” she said standing up pushing past M and running into the women’s bathroom.

“I should -” Tara said, getting up to follow her.

“No let her be,” M said looking at the bathroom door frowning. “I think she just needs to -” he stopped because he didn’t really know what to say. What could you say when someone just found out her best friend was dying.

“Why are we here Minah?” Tara asked as she sat back down. “And why isn’t Sungjae here? Please tell me he knows you can’t keep this from him,” Tara said.

“He knows, “ Minah said. “I know we have our moments when it comes to communication but i would never keep something like this from him,” she said. “I called you here because I want you to promise me to look after them, Astrid, Minjae and especially Sungjae - he is going to need you more than ever,” she said.

“You don’t need us to promise that,” M said. “We would have done it regardless,” he said to Minah reaching out and grabbing her hand. “We will be here for both of you, whatever you need,” he said. A chorus of yeahs,i agrees and of course followed. Daniel nodded but said nothing, he wasn’t sure what help he could offer here, M and Jane were the best friends, Tara and Mark were the reliable ones, hell even Tyler could contribute more but Daniel was an ex-boyfriend of her husband and a person who never really spent time with her.

“So I take it you told them,” Sungjae said as he walked over. Nobody had realized he had even shown up. Minah nodded standing up and getting pulled into a hug. Soon everyone else was up pulling each other into hugs and giving words of assurance to the couple, even Jane had returned face blotchy and eyes red. Daniel stood awkwardly to the side of the group wishing he could go back in time and stop himself from coming. He promised he’d be here for the big things but he wasn’t ready for that.

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F R E S H - bbh ♢1♢

High school AU, romance, comedy, fluff.

pairing: Baekhyun x reader

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The school's corridors were quiet and peaceful even if people were wandering through it.

You closed your locker with a sigh and looked up at the clock hanging on the white wall. By then you knew this silence wouldn't last long.

Staring at the clock with disbelief you enjoyed your last minutes of peace before this place would become a mess of squealing, crying chicks. Or should we call them chickens?

Speaking of the devil, it all started with a squeak before there was a mass of girls clouding the hallways. You felt your eye twitch in annoyance as he walked in, making the girl- chickens go completely wild.

"Always so noisy, tch." You grunted to yourself and glared in his direction.

When he noticed you standing there he shot you a sly smile and nicked at you. You ignored him, seeing his satisfaction in your displease of his presence.

"Kyaa! He smiled at me!" A girl exclaimed to her friend, her cheeks blushing as she covered them in a shy manner. The other girl jumped in excitement as she fangirled with her friend.

You couldn't help but mentally facepalm at their silliness.

"To be exact he smiled at me." You stated to yourself.

"Who did?" A male voice startled you, making you flinch with a small gasp leaving your lips. You looked at the boy next to you with big eyes. Baekhyun smirked playfully, signaling you that he had heard you, and knew who you referred to.

Embarrassment washed over you as you felt your cheeks heat up. You shot him a threatening glare before looking away, not wanting him to see your flustered face.

"N-nothing." You manage, mentally cursing yourself for stuttering. His smile grew wider as he pinched your cheek.

"Aw kyoo!" he sang cutely, to annoy you, which he succeeded pretty well with. You felt how the blood started boiling in your veins. Well, you weren't a grumpy person, but this guy here could make you turn into one.

You jerked his hand away from your cheek, as they heated up in embarrassment. Baekhyun smirked smugly.

"Yah stop it!" You almost yelled, and Baekhyun shot his hands up in defense while whistling.

"Ooh, feisty." He chuckled and you just shook your head at him,  deciding to ignore him for now, he would only try to annoy anyways.

"Tch whatever.." You muttered quietly to yourself and started walking away from the annoying boy, or more like 5 years old kid in the body of a 17 years old.

Baekhyun stood still for some seconds, watching you walk away with a questioning look. Not long after, he caught up to you, and you could hear him walk behind you. Something felt different,  he was being too quiet around you, that wasn't like him.

Though you shrugged it off, thinking of it as a positive matter, finally some peace. You had absolutely no problem in talking normally with Baekhyun, because after all; he was your closest friend. But he could also be your biggest torment, and that was when you would end up losing your patience, and well, be a bit rude. But hey, he searches for it.

To your surprise, you felt a pair of hands gently landing on each side of your waist, that startled you. You didn't have a chance to react because of the person squeezing your sides, making you squeal in panic at the tickling feeling. At this rate, you knew it was only Baekhyun. But hell you were gonna get mad now.

He stopped tickling you and you faced him with an angry- no, furious look, though he didn't look intimidated. In fact; Baekhyun had seen this side of you countless times, it wasn't something too dangerous.

With tense muscles and your hands balled into fists, you yelled at him.

"Byun Baekhyun, stop it will you?!"

He licked his lips almost seductively and brushed his fingers through his red dyed hair.

"Oh using my full name, that's hot." He smirked and winked playfully, you let out a groan in frustration. Tough, you couldn't help but remark to yourself how handsome he looked while doing those hand movements through his hair.

Not being able to help it, a little smile danced at the corner of your lips at his silly remark, too bad he saw it, his smile was wider than ever, as he pointed at you.

"So you like being called hot huh? I see how it is.." He challenged, the cocky smirk never leaving his face,  you pushed his pointing finger away with a little smile.

"Don't point out at people, it's rude." You said, turning down his challenge, making him pout in disappointment.

This was a part of him that you loved, no matter how much on your nerves he could get, he'd always be able to make you smile. Being annoying or not, you still cared for him.

He was your best friend after all, though sometimes you almost thought that you hated him more than you actually loved him. You loved him as a friend, yet couldn't stand him. What a mess.

Baekhyun's pout faded soon as he saw that your mood had turned into a more peaceful one, he smiled and poked your cheek. As always you pushed his hand gently away, but that was useless as he'd always continue.

"Y/n! Baek!" A female voice called from behind. You turned around just to see your friend Minah running towards you and Baekhyun with a cheerful smile.

Minah had been your friend since you had started middle school, very tight friends to be exact. She often hung around with you and Baekhyun, you would make a great trio. The differences were that you had been friends with Baekhyun since childhood, and Minah still didn't know him that well.

Sometimes you'd feel a bit jealous of her, she was very pretty and had such a nice personality. While you would consider yourself just average, nothing too special. And not to mention how grumpy you would seem to other people, but for that, you could blame Baekhyun.

"Hi!" She greeted happily while waving a hand, slightly panting from the little run she just had. You smiled warmly at her and greeted her back.

"Hey there," Baekhyun said as he patted her head gently, not resisting it, as she was so much shorter, he had to look down at her.

Unconsciously you frowned at the view of your childhood friend caressing your now blushing friend. Normally you were not the jealous type, but this time you felt your heart sting at the view.  The feeling wasn't new, you had felt it before, though the last time had been years ago...

"Shit." You cursed and tried to shrug the annoying feeling off. Blocking out every single jealous thought from your head, trying to shrug off the unwanted unpleasant feeling that was currently washing over you.

Baekhyun gave you a concerned look as his hand eventually left Minah's head.

"Y/n, you okay?"

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So hi there angels<3 I'm already back with another story cx, it won't be too long, though please tell me what you think so far! This first chapter isn't so good though :/ hmm hi there angels<3 I'm already back with another story cx, it won't be too long, though please tell me what you think so far! This first chapter isn't so good though :/ hmmm

[memoriesofkpop]

Adoration of U Ch 3

Tags: Fluff, Angst Jihoon; Jun; Soonyoung (Hoshi); (Y/N) Female Reader; ft. other members of Seventeen Series: 3/?   

 Ch 3: Lean on Me

 "Maybe..." she started, but then stopped herself. 

"Hm?" Jihoonie questioned as his hands toyed with the coffee machine. 

"Nevermind," she replied, settling on the ground. 

"You're thinking about leaving, aren't you?" He asked calmly, grabbing for the cups this time. 

She stayed quiet for a few seconds that seemed like hours. 

"Maybe.. I just need a break from all of this. You know?" 

A soft chuckle escaped his lips. "Oh, I know. I understand completely. There have been plenty of times where I wanted to run from it all. Quit everything." 

"Why didn't you?" 

"What else can I do with my life? I dedicated so much time and effort into my work in order to get to where I am today. I ask myself if I'm ready to throw it all away. And sometimes, I think to myself that I'm ready. I'm ready to give it up." 

"But..?"

"But then I would be letting down so many people. Not just me. All the lives I will ruin. Am I prepared to destroy their dreams?" 

"Ah... this must have been hard for you. I'm sorry" 

He slowly shook his head as he handed her the cup of hot coffee. 

"I like what I do. It may be stressful at times, but it's worth it in the end. The eyes of the ones you care for lighting up when you press play for them. The curve of their lips as they smile and carefully listen to the melody. The way she gets lost in my music. The sight is breathtaking and honestly addictive. " 

He took a sip as he sat down across from her. 

She thought for a moment before looking up at him. 

"You have someone in mind?" She asked. 

"What?" 

"You said 'she'. 'She gets lost in my music'" 

"I- um. Wh- I. I meant tha- wh- Its not like that. I mean. I do. What. I mean I-" the stuttering and struggle for words quickly answered her question for him. His face flushed red. A small chuckle left her lips this time before taking another sip of coffee. 

"Who is it?" She further questioned. 

He shook his head. 

"Someone I can never be with," he answered after some time. She paused and thought for a bit as the hot coffee grazed her tongue. 

"Can you tell me about her?" 

He thought for a bit. "It can probably help you with lyrics" she nudged. 

He sighed softly before smiling at his cup, half the coffee already gone. 

"Well, she has this amazingly kind heart. The way she cares for others is... well.. breathtaking, for a lack of a better word. The amount of care and effort she gives to make others happy. She... she is always smiling. And when she's not, you can tell something is definitely wrong. But you have to be careful, you see. She may always be smiling, but she isn't always happy. She smiles for the sake of others. She really tries to be happy, I can tell. She also has this stunningly sweet voice when she sings and speaks. She's as beautiful as one can be. Honestly can't find anyone more genuine. She loves music too, which is amazing of course, being able to talk about music with her. And did I mention that she's super smart. Brilliant and beautiful. She's dedicated to her work. Sometimes she reminds me of myself. And at that point, I want to tell her that she should take a breath and enjoy the beautiful world, but I have no right to say that," he stated, his head still lowered but he was smiling just at the thought of her. 

"She sounds perfect for you," she said. 

"She's perfect overall," he replied, his smile fading slightly. 

"She doesn't know, does she?" 

"Not a clue..." his smile completely gone. "But it's better this way." 

"But you two sound like you could depend on each other." 

He looked back up at her. He forced a smile. 

"She already has someone she can depend on." He replied softly. 

"Oh... I'm sorry." She said. "Maybe she will one day realize your great potential" 

He chuckled, "I doubt it. Even if she and her boyfriend are done, I could still never be with her," 

"What? Why?" 

"It's complicated. I cherish our friendship. "

"But what if she likes you back?" 

"Ah.. quite the optimist for someone in your situation" 

He was right. 

"Sorry. Thinking about this stuff makes me remember times when I was happy with him. Where did we go wrong." 

He hesitated before answering "it's not your fault." 

"You know, I can't help but think it is. If I was a better girlfriend, maybe this wouldn't have happened." 

"If he's with Minah, then it's for show." 

"The way he looked at her.. and held her...was so different from the way he looks at me. He looked like... he was in love...and for show or not, every single time I hear his voice or see his face or even just hear his name, I imagine him kissing her. " 

"But you love him, don't you?" 

"I... I don't know... I don't know what to even think anymore. What if I never really loved him. Only the idea of him... Do you think we can learn to unlove?" 

"Unloving is possible. Learning to love again will be more difficult though." 

"Do I really love him?" 

"Isn't that something only you can answer?"

"Well...Do you really love her?" 

He hesitated. "More than anything." 

"And here we are. Sitting here. Talking to each other about love. I'm sorry about this. I know you didn't intend for this conversation to occur, nor to be pried of info about your love life." 

He shook his head once more. "Looks like we're in the same boat. So it's fine. The ones we love, love another. " he laughed. 

She laughed at the ridiculous, but true, thought. "Ah... how'd we end up here, Jihoonie oppa". 

He shrugged as he finished the small cup of coffee, contemplating the question. 

"Ready to go back?" He asked, slowly standing up. 

She nodded, looking at her now empty cup. He helped her up without hesitation. 

They both walked back to his studio slowly. 

"Are you sure you don't want to go somewhere? Maybe getting out of this place would help?" He suggested. 

"I'll be here for movie night... if that's still going on tonight." She said. 

"I'm sure it will. Let me ask the boys," he said, pulling out his phone as they walked. She then realized that she had left her phone in his studio, understanding why it was so peaceful. He swiftly texted the boys and immediately got a reply. 

"Mingyu said that we can meet up in the green practice room at 10." He said. She nodded in reply as she followed him into the dimly lit room. She plopped herself back on the couch. 

He smiled at her as he watched as she settled down. She looked back up at him, their eyes meeting. She smiled back at him.  

"She's doing it again" he thought to himself. "Smiling for the sake of others". 

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 "Can we get a five minute break?" Vernon asked, breathing heavily after the vigorous dance routine. 

"Not until you guys master this." Soonyoung replied, still focused on the mirror, carefully watching the boys. The room filled with groans of protest. 

"It's been hours. Soonyoung, let them have a break before they themselves break." Seungcheol said. 

"I thought you wanted them to master this before we have to perform it. At the award show. Where everyone will be watching." Soonyoung snapped. 

"Soonyoung...." Seungcheol started. 

"I'm sorry." He said, realizing his words. "Go. Take your breaks. I think I need a break myself." 

The elder nodded to him. He sighed and grabbed his water bottle before sitting against a wall. 

"Must be frustrating," said a voice. Soonyoung looked up as Mingyu sat next to him. 

"What are you talking about?" 

"You love her don't you?" 

"How'd... am I that obvious?" 

"I would have done anything to protect her too if she were someone I loved in that way. Even from a member. "

"I didn't mean to..." 

"Mean to what? Love her?" 

Soonyoung nodded. "I never intended to... it just... happened... " 

"You do realize that you can't be with her..."

"Of course... the ex of another member.. my best friend.... sigh..."

"(Y/N) is really beautiful too."

"She is..."

"Can't believe I was right! You ARE thinking about (Y/N)! I was guessing but you went along. Oh my god," Mingyu whisper yelled. 

Another sigh fell from Soonyoungs lips, utterly defeated. 

"Don't tell. Please. Especially her." 

"Of course, my dear performance leader." Mingyu said with a smirk. "She will be here for movie night at 10. Green room. Or Why don't you just go see her. Since you graciously gave us a small break. ." 

"Oh sh-  we have to finish the choreo" he said, standing up and clapping to gather the attention of the others. 

"Let's get back to work," he suggested. 

 ---

 She woke with a startle, quickly noticing the blanket on top of her and the soft hums from Jihoonie. She must have unknowingly dozed off. She sat up and listened to the gentle melody that was spilling from his lips. The way his eyes were closed, head leaned back on his chair, and absorbed in the music, was heavenly. The soft blanket was carefully placed on top of her. She scanned the fabric and smiled at the simple pattern that adorned it. She looked back at Jihoonie, knowing he was the one that put the blanket on her. It was the same blanket he kept with him in case it got cold in the studio. He was still lost in his world. She shuffled to sit in a better position, pulling the blanket up to her chin. The comforting smell of laundry detergent and softener hit her like a wave. There was a hint of something else, something that reminded her of... home. It smelled like him. 

Suddenly there was a knock on the door. Immediately her attention turned to the door, but she was the only one. Jihoonie was still humming a melody, trying to figure out the next part. Quietly and slowly, she rose and headed for the door, gently placing the blanket back on the couch. She turned the door knob gently and pulled the door open ever so slightly, peeking through cautiously. Who could it possibly be?

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Tag game

I was tagged by @catfish-and-the-koenig to answer these questions ! (ty for the tag, i’ve missed doing these lmao)

1. Nickname: I don’t really have a nickname lol, just call me aminah (or some variation, like some ppl call me mina or minah or amina…just not ami pls)

2. Gender: I’m a girl

3. Star sign: Virgo !!

4. Height: 5′2 lol i’m short

5. Time: 11:24PM

6. Birthday: September 3rd

7. Favourite bands: omg i like soooooo many artists….i love kpop and listen to that more than anything these days - mostly Got7 and BTS, but also Monsta X, KARD, Blackpink, BAP, Day6, NCT etc. some indie-ish bands i love are Vampire Weekend, MGMT, Bombay Bicycle Club, The Paper Kites. (also i used to be a lil emo back in the day lol, and i still like to listen to patd, mcr, fob and linkin park)

8. Favourite solo artists: Heize, DEAN, crush, Zico, Zion.T, Lorde, Charli XCX

9. Song stuck in your head: Nothing atm but recently Red Velvet’s Peek-A-Boo or Seventeen’s CLAP, they’re both great songs !!

10. Last movie I watched: I think it was Thor: Ragnarok? i haven’t watched as many movies in the second half of the year tbh

11. Last show I watched: Mr. Robot

12. When did I create my blog: November 2012….this blog is literally 5 years old

13. What do I post/reblog: Anything that has nice aesthetics, also soft kpop photos/gifs, sometimes a lil bit of fashion and lotsss of flowers, art journal inspiration too

14. Last thing I googled: ‘heteroatoms in 1h nmr’ (i study chemistry at uni so..lol)

15. Other blogs: My blog for solely kpop is @springdaywings and my sh*tposty blog (which started out as a yuri on ice blog) is @princessplisetsky

16. Do I get asks: literally never lmao

17. Why did I choose my url: It’s a vampire weekend lyric. i was thinking of changing it to something shorter tho idk

18. Following: 665 lmao i feel like only a small fraction are actually active tho haha

19. Followers: 128 on this blog lol

20. Average hours of sleep: 6 or 7 i think

21. Lucky number: I don’t have a /lucky/ number but i like the number 7

22. Instruments: I’m untalented i don’t think i can wholeheartedly say i can properly play an instrument lmao

23. What I’m wearing: my pyjamas dsdsdfgff

24. Dream job: I just wanna be a chemist lol,,, hopefully doing research

25. Dream trip: I haven’t travelled a lot at all but i would love to visit japan?? i’m sure there are a lot of other countries too i just cant think of them rn lol

26. Favourite food: I love apples

27. Nationality: British (i’m acc pakistani in terms of ethnicity)

28. Favourite song right now: Literally all of JJ Project’s album ‘Verse 2′, especially the song On&On

29. Last book I read: I hardly ever read these days but i’m currently reading the night circus

30. Top three fictional universes you’d want to join: ughhh i have no idea lmao

31. Hogwarts House: Slytherin

32. Favorite Animal: Catsssss

33. How Many Blankets I Sleep With: 2

i have to tag some ppl lol so i suppose i’ll tag some mutuals? Most of yall are newer mutuals lol i hope you don't mind the tag. (u don’t have to do this lmao but if u wanna then gooo for it): @chibicookie @jakkaarrii @softychoi @saltygot7 @jhopeisthesun @whatismgmt @i-love-canned-peaches @prozaisch

[kiedreamer]

Pinakamahirap na tanong na tinanong sa akin nung classmate ko out of blue during pt week, paano ko raw malalaman if Love ko yung tao. Napaisip ako don and ang naisip ko is si God, Papa (fam ofc) and Siya. Paano ko ba masasabi na minahal ko sila?

My answer is when you changed yourself for them. (Obviously to be better not for worst). May kasabihan na, “If they love you, they will accept you.” Well partly, totoo naman. But, a great form of Love change lives.

I’m not a perfect human. I committed a lot of sins. Since this 2020 started, I tried my best to read bible every single day. I’m trying to remember every single laws and rules God have given through bible but I failed. Even though nabasa and alam ko mga ‘to nagagawa ko pa rin sila.

There’s a lot of people who have bible verses in their bio, posted a lot of God’s word, going to church and christian group but live in a sinful life. (Aaminin ko na partly, minsan, ganon din ako) But i’m trying my best to change because of the love I have for God and to be worthy for his Love. (I’m actually not worthy. I failed and sinned a lot)

And that’s love if you are willing to change your life for the person you love.

I’m trying my best to change because I want to be pure for God and to become a true servant. Kase love ko siya.

I highlighted those verses as a reminder for myself. I easily judge people and I hate myself for being like that. Hehehe. I have a friend na super bait and she never talked back against a person. I admire her for that. And I learned 3 things pero nakalimutan ko na dapat kasi sinulat ko na agad. Gosh.

Pero as far as I know isa don yung, hindi niya kinakausap ang isang tao about sa hates niya sa isang tao kasi it can make a bad impression then magkakaroon ng hate and idea yung kausap niya about certain person na wala namang valid reason. Which is... frustrating. Iniisip ko palang na iniisip ng ibang tao na malandi ako dahil sa kwento-kwento naffrustrate ako. Lol.

Second, she doesn’t hold grudges to other people. Nabangit niya sa akin na hating other people make you suffer more. It’s a self destruction. Which is true naman. Whenever I hate a person I tend to talk to other people about my inis to that person which is BADDDD.

And nakalimutan ko na yung pangatlo. That’s the reason why I love talking with other people lalo na kapag deep talks kase I learn from them! Anyways, that’s my friend, Anjelica.

So pinapractice ko na not to hold grudges for other people and not to judge too quickly without a valid reason. It’s hard and difficult, to be honest. Especially when I seriously hate the person and I start thinking hundred ways of killing that person in my mind. And, stopping my mouth from saying something na magihing reason para mawalan siya ng will to live. Chilling myself out dahil i’m being reactive than proactive na nawawalan na akong respect for others. And hate for a person dahil kakaselos. Grr!

People change because of something and someone they think are worth changing for!!

I doubt talaga if cheating ‘yon. But since andito na tayo sa topic, he was one of the person I thought when the question was asked. I made a mistake, a biggggh bigggg mistake. I asked myself “How can I say loved this person?” He tried to save the relationship and ako, I runnnnn. Lagi ko sinasabi before that I was a messed and damaged that I have to fix myself. Sa super hiya ko sa nagawa ko and guilt, umurong nalang ako. Tinakasan ko. If it’s love I should have not feared criticism from others or him because of what I did. But my fear won and defeated the love I have for him. And wala na akong maggaawa, I guess. I gave so much pain for him and I couldn’t think of ways but to detach myself nalang. Hindi lang ‘yon for the sake of that person and as a respect, I changed my self. I’m no longer the person who is a trash (?) as he said. Flirt? Nag love lang naman ako pero sa maling paraan and tao, I guess. Selfish? I always think about fixing myself without realizing i’m being a destruction for him. I always think na he deserves better and ANG CLICHE NON. LINAYAHAN YUN NG MGA TAONG LITERAL NA NAG CHEAT AT GINWANG EXCUSE PARA MAGING FREE SILA FROM THE PERSON WITHOUT CAUSING DAMAGED (Pero he actually deserve someone better than me!)That’s why I want to be better for him; Better from the old “me”. I don’t if my chance pa, marami pa siya makikilala in college. Mas maganda, mas mabait and BASTA MAS! If hindi talaga will no Lord na kami, Noh. But still thankful ako sa kaniya. No regrets. Means the change na ginawa ko is for other person. But still nag changed ako because I love him. Letting go is also a form of Love. If you know na nagiging destructions ka na kaysa tulungan siyang mag grow, you better leave na muna. Love doesn’t always mean staying lalo na kapag toxic na sa isa. Ang sakit aminin na naging toxic ako sa kaniya lalo na nung hurt siya. Super sakit nung part na sinabi niya na nag favor siya na kalimutan ko nalang siya. Ahhh, damn. Dear, di kita pwede kalimutan. Nasa history ka ng diary ko na first boyfriend kita. Ang special ng first! It will always be part me. It’s still Love kase even though na naging selfish ako at first, in the end of the story I choose what’s the best for him. At yun yung mawala ako sa kaniya kase I can see now na masaya siya with his friends. PERO LOVE KO SIYAAAAAAA AHHHHHH and it still hurts though. As of now, ayaw ko pa rin sa iba maliban sa kaniya. But I guess I made a right choice. It will soon fade katulad ng sinabi niya. :)) Might delete this one kapag di na ako madrama and okay na ako at pag narealize ko na masyado na tong personal.

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Support Older Girl Groups Pt. 3: Girl’s Day

This week on Support Older Girl Groups we are supporting Girl’s Day. If you want to know why you should participate even if this week isn’t about a group you stan, check out this post. If you are new to this project, it is a series of weekly masterposts of videos to watch to support older girl groups. 

This is not everything from Girl's Day, this is some videos that need the view counts to go up with the intention of boosting Girl's Day's popularity, and helping out older girl groups!

About The Group

Girl’s Day is a four member girl group under Dream Tea Entertainment. Their current line up is Sojin, Yura, Minah, and Hyeri. They debuted in 2010 with Jiin,Jisun, Jihae, Minah, and Sojin. But by 2012 they were their current line up.

Girl’s Day is known to be a fun mix of cute and sexy, with an emphasis on sexy lmao. I love how they can do both more fun and more serious concepts very well. They are a very aesthetically pleasing group to watch. They are a very empowering group for girls. That even shows in their charity work. They recently came out with I’ll Be Yours, which was their last release since 2015. Let’s give them support and show them we want them around for a long time!

Title Tracks

(The view count will be recorded from the video linked. Some are the Girl’s Day channel, song the 1theK channel. Just go by the link)

I’ll Be Yours was Girl’s Day’s last release from last march. Although it didn’t do horribly, it could have done much better. It’s such a great song and music video, it deserves to be much more popular!  It’s such a fun an powerful song, I still listen to it daily! It currently has 11,702,221 views on 1theK,let’s get it to 15mil, then 20mil! It also has only 1,312,229 views on the Girl’s Day channel. Let’s get it to 5mil! (Ill be counting the views for the 1theK channel though.)

Something was Girl’s Day’s comeback from 2014. It’s personally my favorite music video from them, and still one of my favorite songs in general. It’s very beautiful and sexy and emotional all at the same time. It currently has 24,872,346 views on the Girl’s Day channel, where it is actually more popular than the 1theK version. It’s super close to 25mil! lets get it there really soon!

Female President was Girl’s Day’s comeback from 2013. It’s such a classic kpop song, it’s the song that made me fall in love with Girl’s Day. It’s so powerful with a feminism message (although, it isn’t really relevant anymore… but someday it will be again, and under better circumstances.) But anyway! It’s fun, sexy, catchy, and has that iconic (almost) kissing scene between Hyeri and Minah! I don’t think it can get much better than that. It currently has 22,449,687 views on the Girl’s Day channel, and much less on the 1theK channel. Let’s get it to 25mil!

Dont Forget Me was Girl’s Day’s comeback from 2012. It’s about someone remembering and missing her high school crush. It has a very kdrama feel to it (I can’t really out my finger on why though lmao), and has awesome choreography! This was my favorite song with I was in 10th grade, it really brings back memories. It currently has 11,597,361 views on 1theK. It’s so close to 12mil! Let’s get it there, and then to 15mil!

Darling was Girl’s Day’s other comeback from 2014. It’s a perfect song and music video for getting ready for summer! I’ve never come across someone who didn’t like this song. I can’t help but dance whenever I hear it! It’s really close to 40mil views at 38,025,499 views. Let’s show our support and get it to 40mil ASAP!

Minah

I’m a Woman Too is a beautiful solo release from Minah. It was released in 2015, and sadly there has been no solos since. It’s a very emotional song and I love it. This song really shows off Minah’s beautiful voice. Itcurrently only has 9,633,100 views on the 1theK channel, but it’s really close to 10mil! 

Other Stuff to Check Out!

This is stuff I wont be recording the view counts for, just stuff to check out if you are interested.

This is the cute version of the I’ll Be Yours dance practice. It’s super fun to watch! 

Here are all the subbed episodes of One Fine Day with Girl’s day!

Ending Notes

Please reblog this and share this as much as possible! This project will do no real good unless it is a group effort. And please watch the videos as much as possible! It would do the most good if you guys watched each one  multiple times a day this week. If you want people to put the effort to help out your favorite older girl groups, help out other people’s faves too! Remember, next week’s post could be your favorite group!

Also remember!

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Buy them and or the albums if you can

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