#gyno appointments

[canichangemyblogname]

The gender dysphoria questions they ask you can be so silly. They ask me about my dreams and if I'm comfortable seeing the "F" marker on my passport. And - like - I don't remember my dreams, and my passport is in a safe in my crawlspace? They're asking if I'm uncomfortable or if I hesitate when marking my sex/gender on "official" forms or documents at any point in the last year. I have not had to do any such thing in the last year.

"Over the last year, have you acted and/or dressed as a member of the opposite gender in social gatherings or in private?"

And my brain immediately goes to: "define acted and/or dressed." Like. I can hardly count a t-shirt and jeans as "dressing like a man" or "dressing like a woman." Most of what I own would be classified as "unisex" (gender neutral). And what does it mean to "act like a man"? Are you asking if I chop wood in the forest at night??? What are you getting at here???

Like. I try, I guess? It doesn't work. It's not like writing emails and wearing a polo are explicitly "male" things to do.

[the-scheme-system]

I’ve noticed that it’s rather difficult to find medical kink content from the other perspective, well I’m here to provide.

Disclaimer: I hope it’s obvious but I am not an actual doctor. This is a fetish that I can’t control having, obviously I would never actually do this to someone.

Warnings: non-con, medical fetish, abuse of power dynamics, this doctor should not be licensed, a simultaneously great and terrible understanding of the medical system, clinical terminology such as “genitalia” and “vaginal canal”, sub has a vulva/vagina and they/them is used.

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To make it clear, I hardly desire physical contact at all. The idea of doing anything sexual with my own body disgusts me, the only pleasure I get from this is mental, which I feel somehow makes it more sadistic.

I walk down the hallway towards the exam room, reading through the chart and smirking under my mask. I stop in front of the door, straighten my back and clear my throat. I knock firmly and wait a few seconds before walking in.

“Good morning, I’m Dr. Chisaki, you must be (name)”

After getting a nod from the nurse opposite me, I look over at our patient. Observing how they look away from my gaze, playing with their fingers and shifting uncomfortably. I lean over the desk and double check the information on my computer before turning back to them. From this point, my focus should solely be on the clinical aspects. For a while I was ashamed to admit any enjoyment I got from this. What kind of doctor would feel this way about their patients? I should be ashamed of myself. But I’m not. Any shame left me a long time ago, and at this point I rationalize it to myself by saying it’s normal to enjoy your job. Right?

I take my place at the end of the exam table, glancing quickly to the nurse and then down at the instrument tray. I grab and begin to put on the exam gloves, the patient noticeably reacts to this. Seeming more uncomfortable as time goes on. The nurse squeezes their hand gently, the patient starts to relax, but suddenly someone is calling for the nurse from the hall.

“Oh dear- I’ll just be a second I’m so sorry-“ she rushes out.

I follow her, glancing out the door as she exits. Before slyly locking it behind her. I turn back to my patient, who looks a lot more concerned

“Now, shall we begin?”

The patient seems too nervous to protest as I make my way back, changing my gloves after having touched the lock.

I ask them to lay back, to just try to relax and that this will be over as soon as possible. Gently at first, I try to spread their legs. They hesitate, so I become a bit more firm. I notice them close their eyes and I will admit I silently chuckle to myself,

“For some people it’s easier to have their eyes closed and for some it’s easier to have them open. Do whichever makes you feel more comfortable, but I will advise you most first time patients prefer to be able to see what I’m doing.”

Their eyes slowly open as I lift the gown, a gloved finger gently tracing along their labia. Their breath hitches and I feel them tense

“Please just try to relax”

I begin to gently press it into them, slowly, watching for any pain or reaction at all. They squirm a bit, looking away from me, but I can feel how they’re actually feeling. Surprisingly wet, I’m able to push another finger in with little effort. This causes more of a reaction though. They gasp slightly then immediately turn their head away, squeezing their eyes shut. They may try to ignore that, but I can’t ignore how they clenched down at first. I begin to slowly move my fingers, gently pushing in and curling them. They try to not react, and for a few seconds they’re successful, but as I push my fingers deeper a moan draws from their lips.

I make no visible reaction, but I’m smiling under the mask. I begin to focus on moving deeper, I am actually performing an exam after all. Two fingers continuing to thrust and curl inside of them, I start to look over and examine the external genitalia with my other hand. Deciding it would be best if I also examine clitoral function while I’m here. Thumb pressing gently into it, I feel them clench more. They attempt to close their legs but I firmly redirect it. Giving them a warning glare, the first time I’ve really bothered to make eye contact. They look more scared at that, but it’s quickly overshadowed but my hands getting back to work.

I’ve learned in this job that consistency is what causes an orgasm. A predictable rhythm their body can fall into. And before they even realize it, they’ll be cumming around my fingers. Not this one though, this one was actually enjoying it. I could tell they were still trying very hard to hold back, but at a certain point instinct takes over. The way their body would jerk, the noises they attempted to stifle, all of it led to me leaning over them further than normal, hand planted next to their head. Looking down at them, watching them unravel. They shyed away from me, and I continued. It didn’t take very much longer, I let them close their legs this time. They reached up to cover their mouth, and came on my exam table. Shaking, crying, gripping onto whatever they could reach. Looking up at me for guidance

“You did wonderfully” I reassure.

They nod a bit and look away, I slowly remove my fingers and stand straight beside them. Carefully removing the gloves and washing my hands thoroughly.

“I’ll give you a few minutes to clean up while I record my findings, I’ll return in about five minutes. You’re welcome to either leave when you’re done and receive the results through email, or you can wait here and we can discuss them in person.”

They nod and I make my exit, walking down the hall and spotting my nurse. She was sitting at her desk, charting. She glances up for a moment and I see her quirk a brow at me, I nod at her. We both knew she wasn’t coming back into that exam room.

I sit down at my desk and begin to chart

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Patient Name: Date of Birth:

Exam Date: Conducting Physician:

Supervising Physician:

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“Exam progressed as usual with no incidents. No significant or abnormal findings within the vaginal canal. No significant or abnormal findings on the cervix. Clitoris was found to be significantly more sensitive than normal. Will advise patient of methods to reduce or cope with this.”

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I grab my laptop and return to the room. The patient remains, having dressed themselves and sitting patiently on the table. I sit down on my stool, crossing my legs and place the laptop on my lap.

“I’m glad you decided to stay, I do have a few findings to discuss with you.” They look a bit nervous again.

“Overall everything went well during your exam. Everything internally is normal and no cause for concern” the nervousness fades and is replaced with confusion, I continue “well, I found that your clitoris is a lot more sensitive than expected. There’s nothing wrong with this, and it’s nothing that will cause any significant health impacts. However, especially now that you’re aware of it, it may lead to discomfort or, well, let’s say be a bit of a distraction. Don’t worry, there are ways to help. My usual recommendation is physical therapy.”

“and what would that entail?” They speak for the first time, softly

Once again I smile under my mask

“Essentially it would be what we did today, but with a lot more focus and intensity.”

Their eyes widen but it doesn’t seem to be fear anymore

“I would like to see you back within two weeks to begin treatment, I have an appointment available next week at the same time.”

They hesitate

“But if that’s too long to wait, I do make house calls.”

If I missed any tags/warnings please let me know, asks are open on anon.

[tittyinfinity]

I need this stupid fucking uterus out of me I'm so sick of it affecting so much of my life while it's sitting there being unused for anything other than torturing me

[dreamlogic]

[sarahsmi13s]

I don’t want to have to be big girl and make my own appointments. I know I have to at some point, but like why? I don’t even know how to do that properly 😭😭

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

[myname-isnia]

The hammam inspection scene makes me cringe insanely hard to this day ngl

[narrie]

my period is so late it's not even funny anymore

[pseudodog]

annnnd my period started. right on time. its taken me nearly 11 years but ive finally managed to figure out what my pms symptoms are. also my ovarian cyst is trying to kill me again so thats a dead giveaway.

[venulus-reblogs]

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[hwajin]

y'all i have a question regarding periods in the tags if anyone's a biologist or smth pls help me out 🙏

[rossthren]

In the past 7 days I have regained access to online banking for my account, filed an application for income assistance and filled out my tax returns(just need to get stamps and mail it), that is a lot for me and my brain is a whirl wind.

Now I just need to book a dentist appointment for next month.

[theygender]

I've been on progestin (nexplanon) for my endometriosis for about 9 months now and I haven't had a period since shortly after I started on it, but I seem to be starting one again and I'm kinda concerned bc I'm not sure why it would suddenly come back after going so long without one

I just realized tho. My gf has been on E for about two months now and her body seems to be reacting to it quicker than expected, so she already had her first hormone cycle just recently where she got all the PMS effects and etc. I know menstrual cycles can sync up between afab people who are around each other a lot and that has happened to me in the past... Has my menstrual cycle synced up with my gf's hormone cycle?? Like to the point that it even overrode my lack of period?? Is that a thing???

[theorderofthetriad]

so fucking done. go to a dental cleaning, get told it'll be four hundred dollars after insurance, pretty steep, but ok, i need a dental cleaning i'll tough it up. go into to get the cleaning, get told the cleaning is only for my left side. justwalkoutskeleton.jpg

i'd love to say "wow, what a way to end my absolutely horrible month of experiences with the medical system!" but, no, I have two more appointments tomorrow on the 31st.

[vagrantclown]

My uterus is in agony I am begging someone to take me out with a sniper rifle

[inkmaze]

I know it's bc a lot of medical professionals often don't have much of a clue or awareness abt trans ppl but I do find it kind of funny now that I "pass" as a dude when they assume smth about my body or experiences when it's sooo otherwise. like. I know general statements work for the cis majority but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ the minority is still out there