#had a heart attack this morning

[daily-sifloop]

how about kissies..... smoochies even...... they deserve to have a little kiss every now and then!

Day 2: domestic kisses

[boarcide]

There is something so good about Akutagawa--a very much feared, boogeyman like figure (even amongst his own men) in Yokohama because of his violence, bloodlust, and steadfast loyalty to a violent criminal organization such as the Port Mafia--given biblical angel symbolism

I don't know, something something about someone whose beauty is so incomprehensible and terrifying to most. He's not physically ugly, he's not--he's beautiful, the type of beautiful that almost feel as if he's not a real person, like he's a mirage, or a painting. But he's beautiful not like those renaissance cherubs and lovely looking maidens for angels, but more like the biblical angels with their beauty beyond mortal grasp, the beauty that brings fear and revulsion towards whoever sees them because they cannot comprehend it. Coming across him makes you understand why angels say, "Be not afraid" when they reveal themselves to mortals. An incomprehensible beauty that very few can keep looking at. A dangerous feat, literally and metaphorically.

(This isn't only with his physical appearance either--for someone who is constantly beaten down both by canon and by the fandom for being "simple", he is a terrifying bundle of different aspects that contradict each other. Like a super machine you open up and you see the intricate criss crossing of wires and bolts that hold it together. He's a mess of nerves and feelings and experiences so profound, so horrific, that you don't know where to start with him. To uncoil him and see him truly bare is almost impossible. Where does he end and the roots that connect him to the earth begin?)

Something about Akutagawa being an angel, a being created entirely to follow the will of "God", obey their every word. Unwavering loyalty to their master while singing praise. Acting entirely on the order of their master--wing always dipped in blood for his sake. A weapon of "heaven' that brings destruction to those who oppose "God" and be one of the many upon which "God" rests upon.

(Almost everything Akutagawa does is for the sake of the Port Mafia, taking orders from the "master" (boss) himself. Willingness and obedience and loyalty repeatedly exploited and used, everything he has done as one of the high ranking leaders handling most of the Mafia's dirty work playing a part so Mori's throne stays high.)

Something about comparing Akutagawa to a certain archangel, finding repulsion in "God"'s cherished creation, the inferiority that came with being "less" to "mankind", and the painful fall from grace to the deepest pits of despair when he confronts the being that created him, molded him, and then condemn him. And to his humiliation, mankind, for centuries, condemns him too.

(He can't be compared to Lucifer, God's most beloved angel. Maybe Dazai did value him, but it doesn't matter, does it? because the difference between the two is that one was cherished and one never was. However, you can compare the rage and humiliation Akutagawa felt towards Atsushi--for obtaining Dazai's approval and affection with no effort, no proper control over his skill or any seemingly differentiating quality-- to Lucifer's refusal to bow down to humanity--a creation inherently imperfect and lackluster, with not the qualities of angels. And as a result? Disgraced. Both by the creator and by ones that held their creator's favor. )

Something about Akutagawa being an angel--someone whose presence means nothing pleasant to those he appears before. A reaper of sorts, responsible for taking life and for souls to see the afterlife (killing both as an order and an act of mercy, for he despises torture and meaningless suffering). A guardian angel watching over "mankind" from afar, where he is not aware and saving him from certain death at his own expense.

There's just something so appealing about depicting Akutagawa--a fearsome, ruthless, and bloodthirsty mafioso, a boogeyman to his own men--as an angel, be it of death, of mercy, a destroying angel-- whatever anyone wants to see him as and use him for.

[commandershepardvasfuckit]

Guess who brought their fiancé to the hospital!

[chanrizard]

anxiety is stored in your chest sometimes in your gut and sometimes in both places as a little treat

[notasapleasure]

I guess some days you're just fated to stand in a field for two hours watching a tractor sink into the mud. Never thought it would be my field, mind.

[ainawgsd]

Today sucks

[sourlemonsz]

Never in my LIFE would I think I would have seen a pairing for characterxSubway I’m crying it’s too funny

[vitamin-zeeth]

Me finishing a case at like 1am after playing aa for 5½ hours straight just happy we won semi skipping through the epilogue and Edgeworth shows up and hits us with the

[discourteouscuttlefish]

Sorry I been slow, I have horrible horrible food poisoning 😎

[onewingedangel3]

BTE is going to be a fucking BANGER on monday

[jtownraindancer]

okay ive officially had enough emergency room and urgent care visits to last the rest of the year

[ophanim-vesper]

can someone tell me how to get rid of the stupid one piece clown I don't even watch anime but I'm terrified shitless of this man

[redaynia]

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[ashleyishere24]

i'm starting to understand why they banned being gay this shit's hard without therapy

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

ok. currently dealing with. loss of a pet. im ok im mostly worried abt my brother bc she was his and this was rlly unexpected so. yeah theres that

[lordsardine]

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