#handling strong emotions

[littlebellesmama]

Riding the Waves: Learning to Regulate Emotions

Feelings are part of being human. They rise up, often without warning, and can change from one moment to the next. Sometimes they’re light and easy—joy, excitement, calm. Other times, they come with weight—anger, sadness, fear, shame. Emotions are natural and important, but they’re not always easy to handle. Some days they feel like waves gently washing over us. Other days, it’s like being caught…

[corvidscreams]

Kesett Week 3: Stray Blaster Bolt/Missed Shot

Two warning shots somewhere between a begrudging team-up and admitting that feelings may be fondness.

[weapon-xox]

wade, who can't control his anger and throws fits and shouts and probably has a meltdown that results in him being bedridden for days, nonverbal and pissy but logan still loves him and is still so patient with him, i love you ❤️

[justmenoworries]

Really funny how LO's narrative and fans wanna make us believe Hades' type are strong women when he literally has a history of sabotaging every ambitious woman in his life, making them dependant on him and then preying on them at their most vulnerable.

[cultkinkcoven]

@ null

Let me go ahead and give you a proper response, because I think this needs to be addressed.

Fucking hell.

I wrote a whole probably better worded response to this that Tumblr destroyed so you get this.

*deep sigh*

Lets try this again slowly. You are obviously very upset and running with things completely out of context. It's incredible to me that of all the things said in that post, you somehow came to the conclusion that my argument is that it's okay to draw naked kids. Truly incredible.

I am not defending pedophilia. Pedophilia does not need to be defended, it is a mental disorder. The word "pedophile" is not the same word as "child predator" let's get that very clear right away. I don't care how uncomfortable it makes you. I refuse to moralize primal human psychology.

The point of my post was to stop moralizing primal human psychology, desires and fixations. Full stop.

I am not defending illustrated CSAM, I am not saying it's okay that this content exists or encouraging its creation. I am making the very real and important distinction between illustrated contextual fantasy and illegal CP content. No, drawing r34 of a cartoon character isn't going to immediately catch you a charge. It is highly dependent on the context and the way the act is portrayed. There is an immense amount of nuance here and I'm not going to discount it to make your life easier.

I'll say it again: We as a people do not know how to determine why something is actually wrong. You yourself clearly do not.

The issue with the situation you describe has always been children being exposed to inappropriate content. It does not matter if it is illustrated, real, written in text or spoken aloud.

Children being exposed to any type of inappropriate content is traumatizing. It is not the existence of porn or fetish content that hurts kids, it is being exposed to it by predatory adults.

This content cannot harm children unless an adult is actively harming them. Your abuser could have used any kind of content to groom you. Your issue is not with the existence of fetish content or grown adults engaging with consenting adults in private.

Your issue is with *children* being *exposed* to inappropriate material. And fetish content, sexual content, violent content, is not for children.

Yes, consuming extreme and illegal fetish content can increase your predisposition to causing harm.

But fantasized illustrated and exaggerated content is not snuff. Eroticism is not porn and porn is not snuff. Two consenting adults engaging in pet play is not bestiality. Furry porn is not bestiality. Age play is not pedophilia. There are no children and no animals involved in this situation. Watching real depictions of crimes will erode someone's sensitivity to it., that is true. Watching campy exaggerated horror movies does not make you a violent freak who loves murder. Finding an image of a fake anime girl hot does not directly translate to finding real children attractive or wanting to engage with them. I'm so sick of us watering down what pedophilia is.

Adults engaging with other adults does not harm children. Full stop. Is it weird? Yes, as fuck. It's allowed to be weird and gross. That does not make it harmful.

I said in my reblog that inappropriate content does not belong on all ages sites. Extreme fetish content must be restrained to monitored and moderated adult only forums so that illegal content can be identified and investigated. Porn is traumatizing for children to see in general. That does not mean we need to ban porn for the entire population. The issue isn't the porn. It is the access to it by minors.

Does this mean illustrated CSAM okay? No. I said that multiple times, idk how many times I have to say it. No. No. No it is not definitely okay. Not everything needs to be so aggressively black and white. It does not have to be the worst thing in the world to be a red flag. It is not normal. It is still problematic, it is still inappropriate. It is still a red flag. It is still risky.

What that means is that we need to approach these things with consideration and respect so that it does not evolve into something dangerous.

It means keep fetish content where it belongs, on adult sites.

It means report fetish content when you see it on public platforms and social media sites

It means keep adult conversations between adults.

Predators exposing kids to inappropriate content is not the fault of sex workers trying to make a living. Predators exposing kids to inappropriate content is not the fault of adults coping with their condition in non-harmful and private ways.

Pedophilia is a mental disorder, and I refuse to moralize human psychology. The mass majority of people who suffer from this condition are former victims of childhood sexual assault. I am not defending predators or predatory behavior. Not all pedophiles are predators and I refuse to persecute a group of people with no justification other than my discomfort. I don't care how hard that is. Life isn't easy. I am willing to preserve the uncomfortable nature of the truth if it means preserving the truth.

People who have problematic, unethical and illegal fetishes, kinks and, fixations deserve space and empathy. I will say it 1000 more times.

You observing behavior between sexual predators means nothing to me. I am not going to assert that all people who engage with paraphilias act the way that sex traffickers do. Nor am I going to assert that all drug users are irresponsible addicts. Again, too simple of an explanation for an incredibly complex topic and a gross generalization of a huge group of people. I will not treat an entre population as if they are corrupt. Doing so does not stop the corruption.

You still think I'm a deplorable monster? Block me.

And the next time you see disturbing content that is not for you, Block that too.

Block and avoid things that make you feel uncomfortable and unsafe. Do not engage in conversations that are not meant for you.

I swear there always has to be at least one person who takes a single sentence completely out of context and just runs with it, its like one of the inevitabilities of the universe or something. I guess it wouldn't be a Luciferian take if it wasn't unjustly distorted by at least one person so.

[idontmindifuforgetme]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

[jaxihammer]

You will never convince me that Isabel Lovelace is not disabled post-canon. Think about it.

Of everyone in the crew, she's spent by far the longest time in space. Sure, she's probably been exercising, but that isn't going to fully stop her muscles atrophying. Her bones are going to weaken. Not to mention the fact that she went into the cryo chamber, which we know isn't GREAT for you (I know Eiffel is kind of an outlier but still. Even once is gonna fuck you up at least a little).

Then add to THAT the fact that the body Lovelace has now was created by the dear listeners. Not only are they recreating a body that's already undergone almost a thousand days of the trauma of space; they're doing it with zero existing knowledge of how a human body functions in Earth's gravity. The clones are almost perfect, but there are notable differences in internal organs, and I wouldn't be surprised if Lovelace was put back together with some inconsistencies.

All this to say, I think Lovelace would become a mobility aid user when the crew lands back on Earth. Everyone on the crew would probably end up in physical therapy, but the damage done to her body would be by far the most extensive. Whereas I don't doubt Jacobi, Minkowski, and Eiffel could regain most if not all of their mobility, I think Lovelace would use a wheelchair, and eventually with PT could use crutches or a cane some days. Even if she were to regain muscle function, she would probably have some sort of chronic pain that would necessitate mobility aids!

In conclusion Let Her Be Disabled thank you for coming to my TED talk

[haru-chi]

Okay, let's talk about the recent Natuyuu chapter for a little bit ... and something that just moved me to tears ><

let's ignore that the appearance they teased was for the cats and not what I wanted and wished for which's fine I'm fine I knew it was impossible .. yet hoped nonetheless

the chapter was really cute indeed, but I was shocked that the Reiko's pic was gonna be addressed right after the reveal !!! that took me by surprise yet a very happy one to confirm what I was saying back then ...

but before that, the way Natsume started to realize and know for sure that that might've been Reiko by remembering his father was too much for me ...

this chapter was such a good demonstration of how much our little sunshine has grown so much emotionally ... I was tearing up seeing him trying very hard to remember that blurry memory of his father taking him to an amusement park T^T

the boy who forced the memories out of his system so as not be broken down by it .. the same boy who refused to see the only parents' picture he had so that he won't be hurt or cry when he sees them ... who always pretending to be fine talking about his real family .. who ran away from any mention of them that he just purged any faint memory he once had till the point he really forgot everything related to them despite how this act of itself was hurting him deeply ...

this same boy right now is doing his best to remember his own father .. to remember a said precious memory .. he was trying really hard something the past Natsume would never do .. but sadly, all he managed was those blurry images .. he no longer remembers his father's face .. yet he wasn't broken down or sad .. he was actually happy as if he holds something dear to him .. that even if it's blurry, even if he no longer remembers it much ... the fact that it exists no matter how faint it was was enough for him .. he does have such a happy memory inside of him afterall .. he was content by this alone .. not pain or sadness but happy to know it was there ..

I can't say it well enough how much he has grown up now ...

and when by the end he did remember this faint memory very clearly .. he didn't cry or was sad (I sure was tho) No, he was very happy as if he was above the clouds dreaming something nice ... even Madara comment that he was weirdly happy and daydreaming ...

this was just ... how to say it ... it just moved me to tears with happiness ..

and his father ... his father was such a kind loving father which just break my heart even further .... Natsume didn't cry but I cried in his place ... even tho I was also happy and proud of him so much ..

Now to Reiko ...

I really was happy how Midorikawa-sensei proved my point when I said that Natsume lacks the ability to recognize a happy Reiko because he just never seen her like that, so even when that picture was indeed Reiko Natsume's mind was like "a girl that looked like Reiko" ... I won't dig deeper for this since I already did for a bit in a different post.

"if that picture was indeed Reiko, is the reason I didn't recognize her because that was an expression I have never seen before ?? I think that smile perhaps was ...."

the way Midorikawa-sensei let Natsume realize that through his father's memory was clever yet cruel to me .. while also proving that that smile was indeed toward someone she loved (her husband) .. a kind of smile that you show to someone dear to you like the loving smile Natsume's father showed to him in that memory ...

now was the artist her husband ?? or was it a 3rd party who knows both of them, so they only captured the moment ?? in the first place why was her picture in an exorcist auction ?? I guess that the next question that Natsume needs to address now that he confirmed she was indeed Reiko :)

slowly but surely, the grandfather reveal is upon us and I'm here for it and all the pain he will bring with Reiko's full story :)

PS : a funny thought that occurred to me when Natsume was thinking " what kind of person will buy that picture I wonder?" and my mind went "who knows, maybe he will be Yorishima as plot twist" as if that shut-in exorcist will go to auctions or even leave his house for that matter xDD

[yuseirra]

Persona 3 and Oshi no Ko- About losses and moving forward

Spoilers for both works are included!

Do they seem like an odd combination? But watching them back-to-back made me realize some things. This is my commentary/stream of consciousness about how these two works tackle the loss of someone precious, and having to go on without them into the future. They do certainly share that theme in common, and it's made me think today :) I feel it's a meaningful subject to tackle.

This was originally written in another language- chatgpt helped me translate it in bulk ;v;) gah it really helps me lately; I can't dare type the full thing again, but I want to share my feelings...!

If you've been following me, you'd notice that I've been into two works (Persona 3 / Oshi no Ko) lately! Both works share the common theme of dealing with the loss of a crucial figure in one's life. In the case of Persona 3, I felt that the main story encapsulates a person’s life leading up to death, while the epilogue(episode Aigis) focuses on those who cherished that person, their lives stuck in limbo because they can’t let go, and the eventual return to the future after grieving. Literally, after the death of a very significant character, time stops for everyone left behind, trapping them in the moment. This seems like a metaphor: after losing someone, you don’t want to move on and would rather stay in that moment forever. If you move forward, it feels like you’re leaving that person behind, so you wish the future wouldn’t come. Or on the other hand, you might want to bury it all and move on as if nothing happened. But neither option is really the right answer, is it?

The correct path is to face the many aspects of that cherished person, remember them, consider what they might have wanted, and hold onto those memories as you move forward. That's the right thing to do, and in reality, the world we live in isn’t a fantasy, so it can’t be any other way. Time doesn’t stop, so you have to choose whether to move forward or stay still because the world isn’t kind enough to stop with you. Reality is harsher.

For the characters in Persona 3, the sudden loss of someone who was the center of their world left them all in deep shock, just when they thought only happiness awaited them.

In Oshi no Ko, someone is killed in the worst way possible, and this shakes the lives of everyone around that person to their core.

I genuinely believe that the person Ai really loved, that infamous boyfriend, didn’t harm her. I really don’t think he did. It just doesn’t seem like it from how the story unfolds. I’m not trying to force a hopeful outcome; it just doesn’t align with his character. It also makes for a better story if he didn’t do it. Ai’s son and daughter are deeply traumatized by what happened as well.

Today, I read several articles about suicide survivors, and they mentioned something like this (I’m paraphrasing from memory, so it might not be exact): When a death strikes sudden and shocking, as something you’re not prepared for, the time it takes for your logic and heart to accept it is drastically different from one another. It becomes incredibly difficult to come to terms with.

With a more gradual death, such as from illness or natural causes, your heart and mind have some time to prepare for the loss. But this kind of death leaves deep scars of guilt and confusion for those left behind.

From reading those articles, I began to think, whether the manga creator intended it or not, that both Aqua and Hikaru couldn’t accept Ai’s death. Even after many years, they’re still trapped in that moment, unable to move on, much like the characters in Persona 3 who are stuck in the "abyss of time" in -the answer-.

Among the three, Ruby is the most… how should I put it… She’s severely depressed too, but she’s still the one thinking about the future, dreaming of what she wants to do.

Aqua, deep in his heart, also doesn’t want to be trapped in these feelings anymore and is starting to long for peace and happiness (because his current state is incredibly painful and it brings him suffering).

As for Hikaru… he has none of that. He’s the character who, out of the three, has completely given up on the future, not even wishing to escape from his self-blame and depression. This isn’t about comparing the depth of their sadness; it’s just that he doesn’t think about his future, nor does he want to escape from his despair.

These dynamics make sense because the degree to which each character feels responsible for Ai’s death increases from Ruby to Aqua to Kamiki. The extent of their guilt over the death of someone so precious to them has profoundly affected their hearts.

That’s why I found the concept of "making the movie of Ai" in Oshi no Ko really clever from this perspective. One of the articles I read mentioned how some people, when going through the belongings of the deceased, like a diary, would realize there were sides to the person they never knew. This led them to look at the deceased from a different perspective.

For Aqua and Ruby, making the movie about Ai might have been part of their grieving process. By examining Ai’s life, they began to understand her as a person better than before. And I think Ai’s wish was always for her loved ones to be happy. What she left behind was a confession and a plea to the people she loved but had to leave behind. She was such a lovable person. Instead of being remembered for the moment of her death, she’ll now be remembered for how she appeared in the movie, right? If the movie gets released and goes public. Aqua, in particular, has a traumatic memory of Ai being stabbed, but after making the movie, I think he’ll remember her as the Ai he met while filming. And because of that… after making the movie, Aqua was able to tell Hikaru that he would move on toward the future.

As for Hikaru… I’ve said this about the character before, but I don’t think he wanted to live after Ai died. If he’s been clinging to life, it’s probably because he wanted to do something for Ai. But he’s in a state of utter despair. If you pay attention to his emotions, you can sense something overwhelming and burdensome. And whatever I’m feeling can’t possibly compare to what someone in that situation would feel, right? This must be… really hard. He must not want to live. That’s what I felt. To feel these emotions, I think this character must have had very little actual involvement in Ai’s death. The more involved he was, the more shameless and brazen he’d have become. There’d be a thorny, defensive attitude like, “So what? Sure, I did some things, but they made mistakes too, didn’t they?” You see none of that in his actions. So, I think it’s more likely that he didn’t do anything.

He hasn’t been able to move on at all. It’s like he was unable to take a single step forward from the moment Ai died. He’s probably been living with that kind of deep sorrow and despair, thinking he deserves to suffer as punishment, and he might have intentionally kept those feelings alive. That’s why I believe this character would’ve tried to undo the situation. To him, it’s as if time hasn’t passed at all… He just couldn’t accept Ai’s death, so he’d wish, even at the cost of anything, that it hadn’t happened, and maybe he wished he were dead instead of her. Without Ai, as the lyrics say in the song, he can't go on living. He doesn’t even want to live. If there had been any hope of saving her, I think he would’ve clung to it. If such a hope didn't exist, it would’ve been tough for him to hold on to these emotions for so long.

And that heart of his could begin to shift after seeing Ai’s video. Only then he would have began to realize he actually has a life with a tomorrow. It would be painful, but he realized Ai wanted him to continue living and move forward. So he has to do it. If he can't do it for himself, he must do so for Ai.

I’m not sure if he’s actually in a state where he can move forward because we don’t know how much guilt or sins he’s carrying. But it seems that only after seeing Ai’s video did Hikaru realize that he has a life ahead of him.

In order of Ruby, Aqua, and Kamiki, they seem to be progressing in their journey to move on after Ai’s death. That’s how I see it.

If someone that precious to me died, I think I also would wish time wouldn’t move forward. I couldn’t bear to see those memories fade, and I’d want to stay close to them forever.

If there were hope to bring them back, I think I’d feel a strong urge to try. That’s why I’m attached to characters like Yukari. The whole world is at stake if she goes through with it though, so I can't support her with 100% conviction, but I do see where she's coming from and I sympathize with it to a degree.

As for Kamiki, he believes he killed Ai (which I don’t think is true. It would be better for the story if it weren’t true). In that case… he can't bear to live. Ai, in terms of character relationships and setup, has been crafted in such a way that Kamiki would consider her several times more precious than his own life… She was his everything. She gave him everything that he loved. Like in the song “Fatal” where the lyrics repeat that sound like Ai, Ai, Ai, after the words, "致命的"(fatal), "運命的"(fateful), "必然的"(sacrificial), she was that kind of person to him. Losing her meant he couldn’t go on living. And if he believes it was his fault? Honestly, I don’t even know how this character is still alive. Maybe, as the title Mephisto suggests, he’s alive because he made a deal with the devil. The emotional structure in this manga is very realistic, delicate, and authentic. I believe the author has a deep understanding of psychological pain.

He was in a state where he couldn’t even begin to grieve because he couldn't bear accepting she passed. Only now, he might finally be able to. He’s revisiting what kind of person Ai was, how lovable she was (isn’t that video incredibly endearing? From Hikaru’s perspective, it’s like Ai was confessing her love to him saying "Hello! I really love you! I want to be with you forever!"). He saw her again and was reminded of who she was. That’s why he can finally begin to step out from that dark place he's in.

And that’s probably what Ai wanted. Ai really... did it. Even though she unintentionally caused pain to the people she loved, in the end, she saved them. I think Ai really liked Hikaru a lot and genuinely wanted to be with him. Not just that I think so—she actually said it herself… haha, but yeah, I think she did save him in the end… Even after her death, she ultimately saved him and her children too. It’s amazing…she's great.

In Persona 3, when the main characters decide to go see what the protagonist did, and then figure out what to do afterward, it’s somewhat similar. Figuring out what kind of person the deceased was and what they wanted—since they’re already gone, you can’t have a conversation with them or meet them directly, but still, it’s necessary to put aside your own feelings and just look at things as they are. And that became the answer to what the right thing to do was.

I’m lucky because I haven’t experienced a lot of death yet, so I still have opportunities. If someone you cherish is still alive, you have the chance to show them how much you love them.

I’m not without guilt either; there are things where I think I could have done better. But as long as both the other person and I are alive, I can still express my feelings.

The sad thing about being alive is that someday you’ll inevitably part ways. But the happy thing about being alive is that if you have people you love, you can be glad you met them. Even though you’ll eventually part ways in sadness, it doesn’t make the happiness meaningless—it shapes who you are. I hope that, for the people who have given me that kind of happiness, I can remember them more as the joy that makes up who I am, rather than just with sadness.

Maybe that’s the kind of story this is telling, too. Persona 3 definitely conveys that, and I think Oshi no Ko can also be seen in that way.

If you look at the three of them who have experienced the loss of Ai, Ruby is indeed moving in the most desirable direction, isn’t she? Besides, this manga has quite a few fantasy elements, so I think it’ll be okay. I feel like Ai, who really became a star, is probably watching over her family, the ones she loves most in the world. You can dream even more in fiction than how things are in reality. That's the good thing about "fiction", you can get a definite happy ending. Don’t you think they can be happy? :)

[franceblr]

thinking about the fact that despite modern au Zuko being in therapy for his CPTSD and having made a lot of progress, growing little by little into his kind and compassionate side, some days he's still an utter mess. Thinking about how Zuko is fair and level-headed and yet sometimes his most animalistic and irrational side takes control and locks adult Zuko up in a pantry, while it rages and destroys everything he's built for himself. Thinking about the uglier sides of his trauma, those that he usually bottles up and suppresses until he inevitably can't anymore. Thinking about Zuko going through cycles of impatience, selective mutism, touchiness, defensiveness, starting fights with Sokka for seemingly no reason. Thinking about Zuko being mulish, selfish and unfair, mad with anger and grief like a rabid dog. Thinking about Zuko pushing Sokka away, and Sokka feeling so tired, hurt, rejected, angry and guilty, but not leaving because his love for Zuko is unwavering and he knows Zuko is tearing into him out of sheer desperation. Thinking about how painful it is for Sokka to see Zuko back himself into a corner and hurt himself and those he loves most. Thinking about how Sokka is the only one who possesses the required balance of patience and strictness, putting up boundaries and holding Zuko accountable and yet forgiving him when he eventually comes back around and manages to calm down the angry animal in him. How Sokka is the only one with the self-restraint to not mirror Zuko's aggression and not yell back because he knows Zuko will have a panic attack if he does. Thinking about Sokka's endless love and grace in seeing the worst parts of Zuko and giving them space to exist, and still patiently coaxing out of him the better ones that are kind, responsible, brilliant and forgiving.

Thinking about how brave and strong Zuko is, until he's hit by the cycles where Zuko isn't hostile and irritable, but scared. The phases where he's always sweaty and anxious, waking up with shaky hands and a tight chest. The 2 am mornings when Sokka has to physically keep Zuko from getting up and obsessively checking the door locks for the 6th time because even if Ozai is in jail, Zuko is sure that he'll get out and kill him. The days when Zuko is absent and yet hyperaware, easily startled by noises, incapable of eating or sitting down or doing anything at all that isn't waiting for something horrible to happen; when his muscles are tense and his jaw is clenched so tightly he ends up with a migraine, the pulsing in his temple making him cry as he throws up in the toilet. The phases where he's scared like a child and it's irrational and he feels so pathetic and ashamed but his entire body is paralyzed with fear and he shakes with adrenaline for days, barely able to function. Thinking about the times when Zuko is jumpy and easily triggered and stressed more than usual, and he tries so hard to hide it and pretend like everything's fine, but Sokka knows and misses his snarky and sexy boyfriend who's capable and smart and doesn't walk around the house with bleeding nailbeds like an anxious ghost. And yet Sokka holds his face and promises to him that he's safe and loved and protected and Sokka will never ever let anyone hurt Zuko ever again, he swears, because he loves him, he loves him so much, and repeats the same 5 or 6 simple sentences in hopes they will etch themselves in Zuko's brain and give him some relief from the terrors of his past.

Thinking about Zuko being aware that he's spiralling and not being able to take back control and prevent his self-destructive tendencies from hurting Sokka and Uncle and his friends, and feeling so ashamed and remorseful and weak. Thinking about Sokka being aware that Zuko's actions aren't a matter of poor self-restraint and nastiness, and recognizing that sometimes Zuko just isn't able to help it, and needs a hand. And so Sokka steps in and takes the lead, showing Zuko that he's loved even when he fucks up.

[soullessjack]

saw ur post about wanting asks it was from like two months ago but i don't care. much more pressing matters at hand. do you agree that "a burning hill" by mitski is jack coded

burning hill isn’t my Favorite mitski song I fear but I do see the vision …

fire as a purely destructive force, the forest as a symbol of goodness and life.. a forest fire is always a Tragedy; it’s pure destruction, the destruction of life and goodness . a tragedy, but still only nature

..being both the destructive force and the earthly good thing, almost being an outsider looking into yourself, feeling and seeing your own conflict. Being aware of everything you’re feeling but not being able to just stop feeling it, helpless as someone watching an entire forest just burn.. ,

also think it’s very cool that this song is about her obsession with ‘being happy and maintaining that happiness’ … very good parallel to how jack canonically tries to stay positive throughout things he goes thru, as well as maintaining the specific life and role (white button down / at least be neat / be seen as clean ) which he puts almost all of his value into ,while also being extremely adverse & defensive towards anything that might cause a significant change ↴

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i also had another post abt that too but idk if I’ll find it tonight ….. If u wanna scrounge i think it’s under # jack meta ?

anyways thank u for the ask ^_^ hope this wasn’t too long of an answer :3c

[downfalldestiny]

This is powerful 👌 !.

[emeraldxsplash]

Taps mic.

Kakyoin is so full of love but with no idea how to show it. I like to think he gets a little bit better at it after he's been around his silly little travel companions, though. His problem is he has never thought it was worth showing his heart to anyone, but he absolutely has one, and it is actually very fragile because it has no weathering. etc etc etc etc. But he has a lot to offer when he feels compelled to do so. Having been given the opportunity to start, I just think it gets easier.

Take his parents for example. He loves them. He loves them the way you love a favourite mug. They are people who care deeply about him, who share the same living space as him, and who will always do their best for him.

Given the opportunity to go home after everything, I think he would try to reach out to them more, to understand them, and to give them a chance to understand him. I think his journey opened his eyes a little to the fact that there is no perfect connection, and that one need not grasp every aspect of a person to truly love them. I do believe it's still an uncomfortable prospect for him, but he tries, and that's more than he ever would have done before everything happened.

[belayadyavol]

yana's voice getting thicker with her accent when she gets angry....

[mercysought]

Approval + Never visiting her fragment in the Crossroads (Mythal)

approval + (prompt) // selectively accepting // @theharellan

This fate is one worse than death.

A state of undying where her hands cannot affect anything. Not her own being, not the ground beneath her, not the beautiful cliffs that had become her prison. She looks upon these same cliffs and she can hear the ocean but even that feels distant and dulled. Like being cut off from all that had made her, she was left with only the knowledge that she was broken and that all that remained was bitterness.

The bitterness in knowing that she was part of a whole that would never be. A part that could only be measured in loss for all that had been and could have ever been and knowledge of deep betrayal from both her heart and hands.

He who she had called one of her hands, had left her when she had needed him most, left to fend for herself and to hold the ire of Evanuris who grew unruly. And her heart who had always been a wild horse without a hope to be chained.

And now this, a final betrayal: To be pulled from the same weapon that she had died by and be left there; have be called a mercy.

This was not living, this was punishment for not having followed him when he had asked it. Punishment for not having understood the demand for what it was, and thought it to be a request from a friend.

This was torture of the highest cruelty. To look upon a sky that was made to mirror a life she had once known and to know each position of the stars without the possibility of ever being different, random, alive. This dead world that did not sing, did not shine made her often wonder if she had ever truly returned - but the pain was too great, the sadness too fraught, her heart too broken and yet still beating despite no strings attached to it. An anger too great for this shell to contain and a mouth too well contained and crafted to scream.

Hers and yet not quite, twisted and turned by the hands of who she had once called her most trusted friend. What a fool she had been, what a fool she was.

Why should a dead heart be cursed to continue beating only to weep for grief impossible to shake?

mythal greatly approves

[poniko-w]

been making concepts for magical girl adukin au.. i am forming a semi-consistent plot & having fun.. i might draw some other characters in magical girl outfits even if ive sort of laid out what the "canon" magical girls are for the au, but idk who i would draw.. maybe fusakin and syumitaro because well. ones a balloon with a human body and the other is God