#happy Connor is the best Connor

[sisyphusunderthesun]

Let the hankcon nation rise!

[barzyhughes]

CONNOR MCALLY

[cerberusdreams]

Target acquired.

[sic-vita]

JONATHAN BAILEY - FELLOW TRAVELERS + HEARTSTOPPER

[tinylilvalery]

Shoutout to Connor for literally being so ascended above his siblings that no insults that they've parroted from Logan do ANYTHING to him.

Roman tries to muscle him into letting go of his campaign by insulting him and Willa and calling Connor a joke, and Connor just stands up, smiles, firmly but kindly tells Rom that Willa doesn't think he's a joke so that's who he'll listen to, and then just happily floats out. Didn't get upset. Didn't stoop to Roman's level and insult him back. The man is truly impenetrable, is healthily coping, and is actively FLOURISHING since Logan's death. Good for him.

[ex-cult-classic]

friendly reminder:

it’s okay to be unlabeled in the LGBTQ+ community

it’s okay to use a label in the past that might not fit you anymore

it’s okay to use a label now that might not fit you

it’s okay to not be willing to come out

it’s okay to not know who you are yet

it’s okay to be queer and not let people know about it

you DO NOT have to be out in order to be valid in your sexuality

unfriendly reminder:

*only specifically to the people who think you need to come out in order to be valid

no you don’t

please be quiet

forcing people to come out before they are ready (especially a kid) is very wrong and you should not do it

[easypeasylindyvesey]

as an east coast girlie,

oilers, go win it all🧡💙

[barzyhughes]

i love mcdavid for doing this 🌈

[callmegaith]

"Hope, my brothers"

[moonlightsapphic]

.........i’m totally normal about edvin ryding

[gregoftom]

wtffff dont drop cute conwilla on me !!!! whadda hell

[heartstopper-lover123]

Happy birthday to our wonderful, talented, golden retriever Kit Connor, who deserves the best day ever filled with nothing but love

Also it's snowing outside my house, IN MARCH?

Love you Kit, happy birthday

[kyetalksshit]

12/30/2023

I'm well aware at this point that this is nothing more than a virtual diary, and tbh I kinda like it that way. I've very recently started being more active again on tumblr and, as is my routine, started scrolling back through my text posts (especially the private ones -- wow there are so many hahaha), and had a wild time reliving the past.

I think it was a private one, but the most recent (or at least one of the most recent) was about Connor, back when we were both still in California. Ironically, we're both back in NC now, and even though I think about them a lot, I'm very relieved I haven't run into them. Thanks to some intel from my sister, I avoid the food lion in our hometown at all costs.

Something I kept thinking though was, it never had to get to that point. We were never meant to be friends that long, and in fact I don't think we were really even meant to be best friends past high school. Maybe even in high school. I mean some of this I've realized on my own ofc, but reading back over how I felt at the time...

Dude that whole friendship started because they fell in love with Kristen, their first best friend, but she was straight and stopped being so close with them after that. I've always been tender hearted and eager for love in any form, and so when they suddenly turned and looked at me and said ok we can be best friends now, instead of being offended that I wasn't appreciated until they had no other option, I excitedly ran into their arms. My family never liked them either, which I should have taken as a red or at least yellow flag, but instead it just made me cling to them more. At some point, my dad trying to tell me that it's ok for high school friendships to falter in college, just fueled my determination to hang onto it no matter how miserable I was.

They literally always took me for granted, and while I think they lowkey hated me, they loved the space that I filled in their life. And the fact that despite all of that, at our absolute worst I was wracked with guilt and pain and tried my hardest to work out my own frustrations on my own instead of calling them out for their toxic and shitty behavior? I understand why I did it, but goddamn I wish I hadn't had to.

Anyway.

I'm back in NC now, just had my first real Christmas in 6 years (or longer if we're not counting the ones where my family and I felt estranged even when I was physically there). It was wonderful and my heart is full. I've been able to see my old friends all the time whether we're playing dnd or not, and I've missed them so much. There have been moments of tension for me lately in that regard but overall I wouldn't trade it for anything. I'm in this townhouse for another month and then I'll have to move again, and my roommate is currently silently moving her stuff out today even though we've got another month. I have a new job working at a vet office as a "pet counselor" and I love it.

There's not much going on for me right now except financial stress, planning for my future, and finally getting to spend time with people I love without reserve. But even so, the whole situation with Connor has been so heavy on my mind lately and I just wanted a space to grieve on that for a bit. Not to grieve the end of the friendship, but to grieve the time I lost while putting off the end.

[madmaryholiday]

found myself in cute ironmouse clips hell.

not a terrible way to spend a friday night, tbh.

but oh noooo i do not have the brainpower to obsess over vtubers right now

[megkuna]

whatever. time to watch succession