#have an amazing day! pls drink water and wear your glasses if you need them

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Not me thinking about doing what I’ve done with my Dis Two and setting his main verse post-Season 6b after he’s an agent to the Time Lords but he escapes and is on the run right before he’s caught again and is forcibly regenerated into Three.

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My Girl || jjk

Genre: Fluff, angst, f2l, fuckboy!Jungkook, college au Warning(s): swearing, alcohol (a lot of drinking), mentions of sex (but no smut), jk being a fkboy, Summary: Starting off the semester feeling stressed, your group had a drinking session which led to your friends interrogating you on who would you consider dating. When asked about Jungkook, you immediately said no because of your personal rule “no fuckboys”. Ever since that night, Jungkook’s behaviour seemed to change slowly but surely and so do your feelings for him Note: unedited so pls ignore any mistakes :”))

You were ready to drink the night away. It had already been a stressful first week back for the new semester. When Jimin had proposed a drinking session, you were all down for it. “All” being you, Jimin. Jin and Jungkook. Jin was the first one you befriended during one of your classes as a freshman, and he knew Jimin, who knew Jungkook. 

Being friends with three good looking guys, it was natural to have had at least an eye candy on one of them. You weren’t shy about that either. You had told Jin one day that you thought he was cute and he was your eye candy. To be fair, you were slightly tipsy. You knew you tend to say things without thinking when you were tipsy. However, you were used to ‘spilling the beans’ with the three of them as you had gotten close to each and one of them. 

Including Jeon Jungkook.

A classic fuckboy. 

It wasn’t hard to wonder why he was so popular. He was basically the whole package. Good looking, talented and charming. He was easy to talk to as well. Whenever you had problems, you would turn to him for advice. Jungkook was a great listener and you really cherished him as a friend.

Friend.

That was all you saw him as. You weren’t sure whether it was because you just weren’t attracted to him or if it was because you knew that he was a fuckboy, which was something you didn’t want to meddle with. You stayed far away from fuckboys, Jungkook being one of your closest friends was already a huge exception. 

“There’s my girl.” He greeted you with the biggest grin, stepping aside to let you into his apartment.

“It’s only because I’m here with the drinks.” You joked, passing the bottles to the muscular one between you two. Jungkook laughed, “I won’t argue that. I miss soju.” The two of you made your way to the living room, and you made yourself comfortable while Jungkook kept the drinks in the fridge.

“I’m guessing the two are late?”

“What’s new,” Jungkook laughed, heading over to sit beside you as he raised his legs on the coffee table. You were sitting perpendicular to him and decided to stretch your legs, laying them over his lap for more space, “Am I your leg rest?”

“Yes, yes you are.”

Jungkook chuckled, scrolling through his phone with a smile as he seemed to be conversing with someone. “Who’s the lucky one this time?” You teased, nudging him with your foot. Jungkook smacked your leg, “Just someone from my class today.”

“You are a speedy one Jeon Jungkook.”

“Yes, yes I am.” He teased, casting a wink at you.

Jin and Jimin had arrived together half an hour later with bags of snacks and even more soju. “We have a reason this time!” Jimin immediately defended himself as they placed the bags on Jungkook’s kitchen floor. “I dragged Jin with me to buy all these since we’re all sleeping over here tonight. So we need lots of food and drinks. It’s going to be a long night.”

“We’ll let you off this time.” Jungkook replied, “yn and I already ordered dinner. It’s arriving soon.”

“Then we can start drinking!” You clasped your hands excitedly, all ready to drink the night away.

—

“Why are you so stressed already?” Jin asked as he opened another round of bottles for each of you. You all had cleared a few bottles of soju and the effects had already settled in. You groaned, placing your hands on the floor as you rested your weight on the palm of your hands. “It’s because of the freshmen orientation next week. The planning is driving me nuts.” 

“Better warn the freshies about Jungkook.” Jimin teased as he took a large gulp from his bottle. Jungkook threw the bottle cap at him. “I’m not that bad.”

“You definitely know that’s a lie.” Jin rebutted. Jungkook shrugged his shoulders, feigning innocence. 

“I’ll definitely warn them, don’t worry.” 

“While you’re at it,” Jimin wriggled his eyebrows, “Why not scout for a potential date for yourself?” From your peripheral view, you saw Jungkook look up from the floor to watch your reaction. You simply laughed, taking a few sips of soju as well before replying. “I’ll pass. I’m not into freshmen.”

“Then who exactly are you into? You have a couple of good looking friends. Time to start scouting.”

“Yea, you haven’t been on a date in such a long time. Let us be your wingman!” Jin suggested. Jimin vigorously nodded his head, “Wait!” He raised his hand to sign ‘pause’ as he quickly downed his nth bottle of soju, emptying it easily. 

“Okay!” Jimin eagerly cleared his throat as he got up to sit on his knees. You sat up straight yourself, curious as to why Jimin was so curious. “What’s your ideal type?”

You laughed as a reaction to the sudden question, feeling the curious eyes of your friends staring at you. “I don’t have a list for my ideal type. I just go with what I feel.”

Jin frowned, placing a finger to his lip as he thought, “I was your eye candy.”

You groaned, your head tilting to lean against Jungkook’s shoulder as you pretended to hide. “Stop bringing it up and feeding your ego.” You heard Jungkook’s melodious laugh as he reached out to pat your thighs as a way to comfort you. “There, there. Nothing’s going to tone down his ego. He already knows he’s good looking.”

“How about me?”

“What?” You sat back up, emptying your bottle this time. “What do you mean?”

“Is the soju already messing up your comprehension skills.” Jimin sassily remarked, “I mean would I be eye candy worthy?”

“You all are.” You shrugged, “You guys already know that, stop using this opportunity to feed your egos.”

Jimin laughed, ‘Okay, how about, would you, if ever, see yourself going out with me?”

You took time to think, staring at Jimin as you wondered if you would. “Yea I would. I would consider that.”

Jimin smiled triumphantly, “Of course you would. I’m an amazing catch. Okay, how about Hoseok?”

“Oh,” You nodded your head, “Definitely would’ve given it a shot. But he’s like a brother now.”

Jin chipped in as he started listing names from your mutual friends, to which you replied with a yes or no.

“How about Jungkook?” Jimin interrupted.

“Definitely not.” You replied almost instantly. Jungkook choked on his soju as he was drinking when you replied. Jin laughed loudly, clapping his hands as he laughed, “That was a very quick no.”

You shrugged as Jungkook looked at you, clearly offended. You smiled as you reached out to pat his shoulders, “Sorry…” You slurred your words, “I don’t do fuckboys.”

“So!” Jimin jumped in, “If he wasn’t a fuckboy, would you consider him?”

You turned back to face Jungkook, your eyes scanning him up and down as you pondered. If you weren’t that drunk, you would’ve caught on with Jungkook’s stiff posture as his facial features gave off a somewhat nervous vibe. “Yea I would.”

—

You had a major hangover the following morning. Jungkook had let you use his room to sleep. Despite being close friends, you were still the only girl after all and he insisted that you take his room so you could have more privacy to wash up and rest for the night. 

“Thanks for letting me use your room again Kook.” You greeted him in a raspy voice as you stepped out of his room wearing his shirt. Every time you guys stayed over at his place to drink, it had become almost a tradition for him to insist that you use his room and borrow his shirts. You didn’t argue much with the latter since you were lazy to bring an extra set of clothes to sleep in. 

“It’s nothing. How’s my girl feeling?” He teased, clearly aware of your pounding headache from the many drinks you had. You shot him a glare as you dragged yourself to the dining chair. Jungkook, being the gentleman he was, handed you a glass of water to hydrate.

“Feeling great. Where’s Jin and Jimin?”

“They already left.”

“What? Why’d they leave so early?” 

Jungkook only chuckled, taking his phone from his pocket to show you the time. You had slept the entire morning and lunch. It was already 3pm. “What!? Why didn’t you wake me up? Do you have plans today? I’m sorry—“ You got up from the chair, ready to pack your things to leave.

“Yn, relax.” He extended his arm out to stop you, “It’s a Saturday. I have no plans except to bum around.”

“Yea right, weekends are for your dating adventures. We all know that.” You teased as you headed to his room to get changed.

“W-Well I didn’t have any plans this weekend.” He defended himself, straightening himself up in defence.

“Alright, alright. I believe you.” 

Just as you were about to close the door, Jungkook called out to you, “You slept through lunch. Wanna head out to eat?”

“Sure! Give me time to change.”

—

Two weeks had passed since your drink night and freshmen orientation was finally over. You had bonded pretty well with the group of freshmen that you were assigned to. You enjoyed it every time they would call out your name and say hi ever since orientation week. Despite the torturous planning phase, it felt rewarding to have made the orientation experience pleasant for the freshmen.

“yn! Hi!” One of your freshmen, Yeonjun waved eagerly to you as he spotted you from afar, jogging up towards you and Jungkook.

“Oh, Yeonjun! Hi! How’s your semester so far?”

Yeonjun smiled, “It’s not bad, still pretty chill for now. By the way, the others want to meet up for drinks this Friday night, you in?”

“Sure! Just text me the details!”

He nodded his head, “No problem! I’ll see you on Friday!” He waved goodbye and headed off with a skip in his steps, clearly in a good mood that day.

Next to you, you heard Jungkook snort a laugh. “What’s so funny?”

“He’s into you.”

“No he’s not. He’s just really friendly.”

“Trust me, guys knows each other well. He’s into you.” 

You shrugged your shoulders, a small smile appearing on your face which Jungkook caught, making him frown in response. “If that’s true, I wouldn’t mind. He’s pretty cute.”

“I thought you weren’t into freshmen.”

“Well, maybe I thought wrong.”

—

There you were on a Friday night with your orientation group at the nearest bar from college, playing whatever drinking game someone would suggest. For some reason, you were more lightweight that night. It was probably because of the lack of sleep and crazy long Friday schedule. Being the oldest since they were all freshmen, you had been drinking water for a while to sober up.

“Pause! I gotta pee!” One of the girls abruptly got up to head to the toilet. Your gaze followed her to make sure no creepy stranger tried to follow after her. Glancing through the bar, your eyes landed on an all too familiar figure sitting by the bar top. His weight resting on his arm as he was chatting up with someone you didn’t recognise. You felt a sour feeling settle in as you watched Jungkook’s date flirtatious body language.

Of course they’re flirting, they’re on a date.

You scolded yourself for feeling bitter from the scene. You shook your head to get rid of these thoughts, turning back to the table as you reached out for the nearest bottle to pour yourself a shot.

“I thought you’re sticking to water?” Yeonjun questioned, you pointed your index finger upwards, signalling him to keep quiet as you took a shot, immediately filling it up for another one as you emptied the last bottle.

“You guys want more drinks?”

“Sure!” Soobin grinned. “You got it!” You clicked your tongue, standing up to head to the bar top to order more drinks. Yeonjun decided to follow you behind.

“Hey I’ll get—“

“I’ll take it from here.” Yeonjun interrupted, talking to the bartender instead. You stood beside him, waiting for the bartender to hand you more unopened bottles.

“Yn?”

You turned around, plastering a smile on your face. “Jungkook! What a coincidence!” 

Jungkook’s gaze flickered to Yeonjun before back to you, “I didn’t know your group was meeting here for drinks?”

“It’s the nearest bar.” You shrugged your shoulders as your eyes travelled to his date who seemed rather awkward for being left out from the conversation. 

“Hey, don’t be worried,” You spoke, directed at her while you reached out to pat Jungkook’s arm, “we’re just friends! He’s all yours!” You winked at her.

“Sorry, she’s had a bit too much tonight.” Yeonjun interrupted apologetically, already carrying all the bottles. “Yay!” You clasped your hands together, “More drinks!”

Jungkook opened his mouth to stop you from drinking but Yeonjun had beat him to it. “These bottles are for the rest of us. Not you.”

You pouted as you decided to leave Yeonjun behind, feeling offended that you were excluded from drinking.

Jungkook felt relieved for some odd reason when he had heard Yeonjun mention “rest of us”. For a moment, he had forgotten that you were here with a group, not on a date with Yeonjun. That thought had made his mood turn sour slightly before he remembered that he himself was on a date.

A few more hours passed but the bar was still thriving with people drinking their night away. Your group had decided to call it a night and head home.

Your group passed by the counter after paying for the drinks. Yeonjun tapped your shoulder, “yn, I’m taking the cab with Soobin since we both live pretty far from college. How are you going home?”

Pressing your lips into a thin line, you tried to wrack your intoxicated brain for a solution. “Probably just flag a cab myself.”

“Are you sure you can go home alone? Maybe someone else should follow you.” Soobin suggested but you flicked your hand, dismissing his worry. “Don’t worry, I’m good. Y’all just head home safely yourself.”

Little did you know, Jungkook had shifted to a low table near the entrance and had overheard your conversation as your group exited.

You watched everyone get into their rides first before you decided to book your own ride. However, it was 4am and no one wanted to accept your ride request and there were no available cabs passing by. 

You sighed, rubbing your arms from the slight chill of the night. “Always looking out for others first even when you’re wasted.” You heard a voice right behind you, spinning around and almost losing your balance from being intoxicated. 

“Jungkook?” You asked, blinking your eyes forcefully a couple of times to make sure you weren’t hallucinating. 

The man only smiled in amusement, “The one and only.”

“Jungkook? What are you doing here?” You looked around nearby to see no one else standing outside the bar. “Where’s your date?”

“She had to go home early.”

You were too drunk to had picked up that it was rare for Jungkook to be ditched by someone else. “Why didn’t you leave with her too? Was she not up to your standard or something?” Jungkook winced at your sharp tone at the end. You didn’t mean to sound so harsh when you asked. Or maybe you did. 

“N-No. Just wasn’t feeling it tonight.”

There was a small pause as you stared at the road, hoping for a cab to magically appear so that you could crash. However, your mind kept thinking about Jungkook’s presence next to you.

“I’ll take you home. You’re really drunk.” Jungkook spoke, reaching out to hold your arm in case you were to lose balance (or puke) any moment.

“A-Actually… Can I crash your place tonight? I don’t feel like sleeping alone today.” You randomly asked, not sure why you had said that when you were completely fine being alone.

“Anything for my girl.”

Your snorted, punching his arm lightly, “Bet you say that to every girl you’re on a date with.”

“That’s not true.” He denied it almost instantly. You looked back at him, furrowing your eyebrows as you had caught how fast he reacted. He sighed, “Come on, I managed to book a ride. Let’s walk down the road a bit.”

When you reached his place, Jungkook handed you a fresh towel and shirt to get changed into. “Use my room, yea?” He patted your head, making you feel jittery thought you weren’t sure if it was just the alcohol.

Nonetheless, you were exhausted and knocked out the instant you laid in his bed.

The next morning, you were both awoken but the non-stop ringing of the doorbell.  You were adjusting to the brightness as you emerged from his room. “I’ll get it.” He said, getting up from the couch and went to see who was visiting Jungkook at 11am.

You too, made your way to the door to see Jin and Jimin smiling brightly at Jungkook and jumping on their spot. 

“Why are you guys here so early?” Jungkook asked in a raspy morning voice that you noted sounded attractive. “Because i have great news!” Jin moved Jungkook aside to invite himself in. He stopped in his tracks with Jimin bumping into him behind. 

“What are you doing here?”

Jimin’s head popped out from the side to see who was Jin referring to. A gasp escaped his lips as he panned between you and Jungkook. “Don’t tell me Jungkook actually got to yn and you guys fuc—“

“Gross, no, Jimin please, we didn’t.” You waved your hands frantically to deny his allegation. “We bumped into each other last night at the bar. I was with my orientation group. I got too drunk but luckily Kookie was still lounging around even after his date ditched him.”

Jungkook cleared his throat, running his hand through his hair to fix his morning bed hair. “Someone ditched Jungkook?” Jin asked incredulously, clearing not believing what he had just heard. 

“Yea.” Jungkook shrugged his shoulders.

“Right.” Jimin said in a peculiar tone that caught your attention. He had a funny look on his face but you couldn’t quite figure out what he was insinuating at that moment. You shook your head to dismiss the curiosity, “Anyway, what’s the great news?” You turned to look at Jin whose face instantly lit up.

“I entered a giveaway contest last week and I won a staycation! We can book after finals!”

Jungkook’s eyes widened, slapping Jin on the back to congratulate him, “That’s great man! Sounds good, I’m down for it.”

“Still didn’t explain why you guys came barging in here so early in the morning.”

Jimin laughed, walking towards you to drape his arm over your shoulder, “It’s 11am, honey. It’s not early. We wanted to find you after dragging Jungkook along, so that we can all have lunch. But since you’re here already, that’s less work for us. So freshen up and let’s get lunch.” 

“Wait I don’t have new clothes.”

“You can just borrow my shirt,” Jungkook offered, “it’s like a shirt dress on you anyway.”

“We’e just eating nearby too.” Jin reasoned.

You sighed, glancing at the mirror by the door. “But I look terrible.”

“No you look great in anything.” Jungkook replied without thinking. You had to pause for a moment, so did Jin and Jimin. “Right…” Jimin drew out the word, sounding more suspicious this time. “Anyway, he’s right. Just go freshen up so we can eat. I’m starving.”

“I’ll get you a spare toothbrush.” Jungkook headed towards his room.

“Thanks Kook.”

—

The semester went by pretty slow this time, with lots of assignments and projects. You had most of your classes with Jungkook and it felt even more tiring to have to go through seeing people trying to flirt with him. 

You didn’t know why it was bothering you so much when you already knew this happened on a normal basis. You convinced yourself it was because you never really saw it up close before since your previous semesters were mostly with Jin.

“One more time I hear a ‘see you soon hopefully’, i’m going to puke.”

“Is my girl jealous?” Jungkook playfully nudged you. That nickname had made you feel like a high school teen developing a crush on a senior. He had always called you that since you became friends. But somehow, ever since you asked him about the nickname that Friday night, it felt different.

“You wish.”

“There’s nothing to be jealous about anyway. It’s not like i’m actually planning to ask them out.”

“You’re not?”

“Yea, I haven’t really been out on dates recently.”

Your eyes widened in bewilderment, “wow.”

Jungkook laughed, turning to face you. “Wow? That’s all you have to say about it?”

“It’s just hard to believe! Is fuckboy Jungkook getting bored? Who knew this day would come.”

“I’m not getting bored. I just… Want more time to study to pull up my grades that’s all.” His confident tone drifted towards the end, looking straight ahead as you walked down the corridor to your next lecture. 

You narrowed your eyes and pointed your finger at him suspiciously, “Is that why you’ve been asking me to always study with you? Are you using me to pull your grades up?” You accused him jokingly.

He only winked, leaning closer to your ear, “you know I won’t use my girl like that.”

Damn.

There was that feeling again. 

—

“You’ve been spending lots of time with Jungkook lately.” Jin remarked as you were both shopping for your own groceries. Jimin and Jungkook had something on that afternoon so that left Jin being dragged by you to buy groceries.

“Well… Yea, we have lots of classes together.”

“Yes, that’s true. But I meant like outside of class too.”

“We have assignments and projects together too. We’re studying for the same thing. Anyway, why are you even bringing this up?”

Jin just shook his head, pushing the trolley down the aisle, “Nothing, I just find it interesting.”

“What’s interesting?’

There was a pause, as if Jin was contemplating if he should answer your question. “Jimin told me the other day that Jungkook hasn’t been doing his fuckboy duties majority of this semester except that bar night.”

A part of you had an inkling as to why Jin was bringing this up. You hated that he was beating around the bushes but you couldn’t bring yourself to ask him to get straight to it either. 

“Maybe his ego got crushed after the girl ditched early.”

You both knew that was a lie.

Jin didn’t reply immediately, tossing his favourite cereal into the trolley, “I guess so.”

—

It was midterms season and you were cramming for your test alone at the library. Jungkook had another project meeting and so you were studying alone for the day. Somehow, it felt weird to not have Jungkook by your side. Almost as if you’ve gotten so attached to the feeling of having Jungkook be with you.

Someone had pulled you out from your concentration with a tap on your shoulder.

“Do you mine if I take this seat?”

 “No, not all!” You shifted your belongings so that the stranger could have more space. The girl paused, taking a double take at you. “We’ve met before, haven’t we?”

You looked back up to face the girl, trying to recall where you had seen her face. “I’m sorry?” You were confused, as you did not recognise the girl at all.

“We met at the bar at the start of the semester. I was with Jungkook that night.”

“Oh! Right.” 

“He’s a really good friend you know.” She made a random remark while she took out her belongings to settle down.

“What?”

“That night. I’m guessing you got pretty drunk with your friends. He asked if he could leave to send you home since you were super drunk.”

“He did?”

“Yea. But I left earlier. Since it seemed like he wanted to wait for you.” She nodded her head as she recalled that night. “Oh but, please don’t think that I’m pissed at you or him, or anything like that. It was sweet, him looking out for his friend. I can tell he really cares about you.”

“R-Right well, we’re all from a super close group.”

She smiled, “That’s nice. But, my female instinct is telling me it’s more than that.” She sent you a wink, “Though, it’s not my place to say anything.”

You didn’t know how to respond, your gaze shifting to your paper as you tried to decipher what she meant. “I’m sorry. I disrupted your study session as well.”

“Oh no, it’s fine.” You shook your head and she smiled apologetically as she decided to start on her revision.  You tried to focus on your revision as well but her words kept bugging you at the back of your head. 

Jin’s words came back to you as well as you recalled the conversation you had with him.

What was going on?

—

“If we don’t get an A+ for this project. i’ll quit college.”

“We’ll get that A+. I’m confident.”

You had been staying over at Jungkook’s place every Wednesday night since you had morning class on Thursday with him and his apartment was literally opposite college. You hated traveling in the morning as you had to wake up early. You guys had decided that it was a good idea for you to stay over since you could work on your assignments together.

“Anyway, let’s call it a night. We gotta wake up early tomorrow.” 

Jungkook was about to prepare the couch for his own makeshift bed but you stopped him. “You should sleep in your own bed. I’m the guest here.”

“No, you take it.”

“No… You take it.”

“Yn please, just take it.” Jungkook repeated. You bit your lip as you felt a sudden rush of courage and adrenaline as you suggested, “Or…” you hesitated, “we can share the bed? I mean it is a queen sized bed, so there’s plenty of space.”

Jungkook’s ears turned red as he tried to maintain a nonchalant expression. “I mean if you’re okay w with that—“

“I’m fine with that, we’re friends after all. Though, only if you are.”

“Y-yea I am.”

So for that night, you both shared his queen sized bed, laying still like rocks. You were terribly aware of the situation but tried to appear chill on the outside. You had no idea why you felt so nervous when it was just Jungkook. Your friend. The fuckboy that you swore to yourself you’ll never be attracted to. 

“Night Kook.” You flipped on your side to turn away from him.

“Night yn.” 

In the middle of the night, you woke up to find yourself wrapped up in his embrace. Your heart was racing and your cheeks felt hot from the close proximity. “Jungkook…” You whispered, trying to wake him up so you could break free. His embrace only became more firm, “just for tonight, please?”

You softened from his request, his voice almost a whisper. You gave in, enjoying it just for that night, just like he said.

—

The semester was over and the four of you had just checked into Jin’s big win. It wasn’t even a hotel.  It was a huge villa with a room for each of you and you were all excited for the next three days and two nights. 

“We definitely need more drinks tonight. I’m going to order them now.” Jimin walked off to find a room to call his own for the next two nights. Your room was directly opposite Jungkook. The four of you were resting in your own rooms as you waited for the room service to deliver your dinner. 

Once dinner came, Jimin had busted out the drinks as well. You knew it was going to be a fun staycation. 

“So…” Jimin eyed Jungkook mischievously, “Jungkook, why haven’t you been on dates this semester? Is your dick not craving anything?”

“It’s just been a busy semester.” Jungkook shrugged his shoulder. You watched his mannerisms. You had known him long enough to know he was trying to hide something but you didn’t want to question him in front of everyone. You had a hunch but you weren’t sure if you wanted to confront him. A part of you was scared of the answer.

Jin glanced at you, “How’s Yeonjun, by the way?”

Your attention was pulled away and you looked at Jin, “Yeonjun? Oh, there’s nothing. I can confirm that I do not have a thing for freshmen.”

Jimin grinned, “Do you have a thing for anyone at the moment?” He extended his arm to hand you an opened bottle of soju, possibly handing you liquid courage before you responded. You took it and took a big gulp. 

“Maybe.” You winked at him.

“Really?” Jin exclaimed, “That’s new. You’ve never said you were into someone the entire college.”

“I just said maybe,” You laughed, “Calm down boys.”

Your eyes took a quick glance at Jungkook, you seemed to be rather quiet for a discussion right up his ally. You knew he would’ve chipped in to give you a good tease. But he didn’t. Instead, he remained quiet, reaching for the bottle of water instead.

“Drink a bit more and we’ll find out who.” Jimin grinned cheekily at you. 

“Not gonna happen.”

Thankfully, you were right. Nothing much happened that night besides drinking games and tons of laughter. You all called it a night and slowly made your way to your own rooms. You took a quick shower and laid in bed as you scrolled through social media, winding down for the night. 

A knock on the door startled you and you got up to see who it was.

“Jungkook?”

“Hey… Uh… Just wanted to check in on you if you were puking.” 

You laughed and opened the door wider, “I’m not puking. Do you want to come in?”

Jungkook hesitated, “I should probably get to bed.”

Feeling dejected, you stumbled over your words, “O-Oh yea, r-right.” You tried not to show that you were upset, which obviously failed as Jungkook spoke, “If you wanted to talk or something, I’m down for that too.”

“N-No, I was just asking. Good night Kook.”

“Goodnight.” He turned away but someone was gnawing at you to ask him what you were curious about. 

“W-Wait Jungkook.”

“Yea?” He turned around to look at you.

“You didn’t stop dating this semester because of what I said at the start, did you?”

Jungkook froze, his eyes immediately darting to your door instead, somehow entrance by the inanimate object. “N-No, of course not.”

You nodded your head, his response answering your suspicions. With alcohol still in your system, you replied, “Mm… That’s a shame.” You watched his facial expression morph into confusion and semi-realisation as you closed the door. 

—

The next morning, you got up to see Jin making breakfast. Jimin and Jungkook weren’t out so you assumed they were still asleep. “Morning, Jin.” You walked over to help him out with breakfast.

“Morning, yn.” Jin smiled at you but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. You furrowed your eyebrows in confusion. “What’s wrong?”

He sighed and placed the spatula on the table. “I’m just gonna say it.” He took a deep breath and said, “Please just make a move on Jungkook. You guys clearly have a thing for each other. You two became close this semester and everyone else can see it. Jungkook’s clearly too pussy to make a move. Jimin and I are dying from this sexual tension. Please help yourselves.”

You took a moment to internalise his quick monologue before letting out a short chuckle. “I already gave him a hint last night actually.”

“You did?” He leaned closer, interested to know more about the ‘tea’. You smiled, winking at him, “Yep. I’m just going to see if he’s still pussy to do anything about it.”

He scoffed, “If that boy is still pussy after your hint, he doesn’t deserve to be a fuckboy in the first place.”

“Cut him some slack.” Jimin’s voice sounded behind you, his hair damp from his shower. “We all know it’s the first time he actually likes someone for real this time. He’s been in denial about it for so long. I’m glad something is finally happening.”

“Okay, okay, let’s stop gossiping about Jungkook as if he’s not here.”

The rest of the day went by quickly, the four of you exploring town and doing some retail therapy. It wasn’t long until it was your second and last night at the villa. You had a few bottles left from the previous night and you were all ready to finish them so you could go home with a light baggage.

Jin suggested to watch a movie for that night, you sat beside Jungkook throughout the movie. “Look at Jimin.” He whispered to you. You peeped over his shoulder to see Jimin passed out on the couch. The credits had rolled in and Jin suggested to just let Jimin be.

The three of you got up and headed to your own rooms to call it a night. Just as you were going to enter yours, Jungkook stopped you, “yn, can we talk?”

“Sure.”

Jungkook entered your room and you both sat at the edge of your bed, you turned to face him to wait for him to being speaking.

“Last night, what you said… Did you mean it?”

“Depends.”

“Depends?” He questioned.

“Did you decide to call off your fuckboy phase temporarily just so you could be my type for now and then go back to your own ways later on?”

Jungkook shook his head, “N-No, no. It’s definitely not because of that.”

“Then why’d you suddenly change this semester. It can’t be a coincidence especially after our drinking session at the start of the term.”

He sighed, “I know. I know it looks suspicious. I didn’t change because it seemed like a challenge or something temporarily. I already had a thing for you the previous semester.” He admitted, and your eyes widened in disbelief. 

“You did?”

He nodded his head, looking at his hands as he started fidgeting with his fingers.

“I didn’t do anything because I figured, we’re all friends and you won’t see me that way. But then you said it was because I was a fuckboy and I just wanted to change. I thought maybe things could be different if I changed.”

You didn’t say a word as you didn’t know exactly what to say. Jungkook took this opportunity to continue. “I started to like you even more this semester. Especially since we spent so much time together with lectures and projects. Even if you do reject me, that doesn’t mean that I’ll go back to my old ways. That phase is truly over.”

You just looked at him, a small smile tugging on your lips. Internally, you were practically squealing with your heartbeat racing rapidly. With a nervous chuckle, he asked, “Why aren’t you saying anything?”

“I meant it. What I said last night.” 

Jungkook broke into a smile, “I’d love to kiss you right now.”

“Why don’t you?”

Jungkook reached out his hand to cup your face as you both leaned in, feeling his soft lips on yours was something you never thought would have happened. You felt him apply more pressure as he pulled you in closer. 

“Sleep with me today.” You said breathily as you pulled away.

“Anything for my girl.”

—

“You know, you owe me extra for not only letting you experience a free staycation but also basically helping you start your relationship.” Jin smugly remarked as you checked out from the villa.

“Don’t worry, Jungkook will treat you to good food.”

“Me?!” 

You grinned, “Yes, you.” He sighed, “Can’t say no to my girl, can I?” He pulled you in closely, planting a kiss on your forehead. Jimin groaned, playfully shoving him. “Barely a night as a couple and you’re already a big softie. Never thought I’d miss the fuckboy phase so much.”

Jungkook let out a laugh, “Sorry, that phase is gone for good.” His gaze shifted to you, to which you returned with a smile. “Just the way I like it.”

[kazuwhora]

babes! i love how hardworking you’re getting and the amount of post you send out are always amazing. plus the comments you leave on my posts always make me smile.

i’ve stalked your page just to wait for a matchup, i find it adorable and i think you’re so good at it too~

so here i am to ask for a matchup for tokyo rev?!

i’m 5’3, average weight with a little curve, i have an outstanding chest size though(meh) i have long black hair and wear glasses. i have a septum and two tattoos.

i’m a pisces and i’m very deadpan and sarcastic, very very quiet and stand-offish. i only have a close circle of friends and even with them i’m just naturally quiet. INTP as well.

my hobbies are writing (i will spend days just writing, it’s a hobby i’ve always loved) collecting manga, and watching anime/dry humorous shows. 

okay, i think i’ve said enough. have a good day my love, drink water and eat food food food! <3

OF COURSE MY QUEEN I didn't know you're an INTP (my faves) but ty for requesting!! ily and I am happy to match you up with my boy rindou

THERE IS SOME SUGGESTIVE CONTENT IN THIS SORRY IN ADVANCE its nothing blatant just running along that theme.

I keep doing this with matching INTP's with other INTP's but I can't help it because it's just such a perfect match. like honestly, put two ENTP's together and it's fucking chaos. imagine two gojo's together, or two hanma's, or two sanzu's. Us ENTP's are too much to be paired with our shared type. Imagine two ISFP's together. emotion central. that's two takemitchi's together. it just doesn't work?? but INTP. boy. two mikeys together, two rindou's together. it's peaceful. it's calm. it's literal bliss with a hint of spiciness because INTP's value intellect brain wise, and intensity sex wise.

anyways. analyzing just strictly the cognitive functions, both of you are the thinkers. because you share the Ti (introverted thinking) cognitive function, the two of you are able to view situations or problems in life with an objective lens in order to assess what needs to be done and how. this makes for a pretty well balanced harmony when it comes to arguments and interpersonal struggles. however, you also share the cognitive function of Si (introverted sensing) which acts as many have described, like a mental library where you store information and analyzations about various situations for later use. this is often why people might view the two of you as weird, or a little off putting when you're together. in sharing this function stack, you may come off as intimidating, or almost robotic when this function is bounced off of each other in public. that being said, I feel like the fact that combined with your pisces nature (which is very emotional, and can be described as ethereal as far as general vibes go even if you don't notice it yourself), you will be the slightly (emphasis on slightly) more approachable and more normal acting one as the emotional pull of the pisces allows you to perceive other's emotions and energy far better than rindou can. I don't think rindou's birthday was ever published but based on his character type I can only assume he's a capricorn (if I were to take a guess I'd guess you were either a cap moon or a sag moon), and if he's not then he's an aquarius. regardless, both of these options are very reserved and fall deep into the INTP nature of that Si function responsible for the analyzation and mental library which basically means he's the fucking weirdo and you're also the fucking weirdo but you hide it better because two fucking weirdo's would get the two of you nowhere. also when I say weirdo pls know its a good thing because there is nothing I love more than INTP's okay? ok.

essentially, you two can be scary as fuck, intimidating as fuck, and powerful as fuck together, but when things need to go a certain way to lean in your favour, you will be the one that is the most able to take on that challenge and adjust yourself to get shit done whereas rindou will absolutely not be able to shift his ways at all. like dont even try.

lets go beyond an analyzation of mbti and astrology now because this is where it gets fun!

can we talk about how obsessed rindou is with your body. like he loves your personality because you mirror him so well- that much is a given. but fr, lets talk about how completely infatuated he is with the entirety of you. he's very handsy with you in private. not so much in public as again, that intp/likely cap mix is gonna keep him in an observation mindset, but in private he has no choice but to release all that pent up restriction he was so good about during the day. it's like, if he is good and holds back all day it makes it 10x more enjoyable when he finally gets to release that with you in private. this is a big part of your relationship tbh. lots of indirect teasing from you throughout the day- but not so much that its obvious what you're doing. you might not even realize you're doing it but you'll pay for it later.

he wants all of you all at once. handsy as fuck. he needs that intensity and it literally never goes away. like even after years you'll still be left wondering how not a single bit of that passion has dwindled.

he's the type that is gonna wrap your hair around his hand and choke you with it. sorry, but he just cant help it. he is obsessed with touching every part of you and your hair is no exception. same thing with your tattoos as far as the touchiness goes. he needs to touch them. he'll be fucking you and he'll catch a glimpse and it will literally give him the most obscure burst of butterflies. like ?? then later he'll tell you that you should get more but he wont go on from there when you ask why or what you should get because just the thought of it gets him going again and he really doesn't feel like explaining when it gets to that point.

he's extremely protective of you but never call him out on that. he knows it. he knows hes fucking whipped for you. he'll bend over backwards for you but if you mention how kind and caring he's been he'll be like "ok I'll treat u like shit then" and then ignore you for the rest of the day. and then feels bad abt it but cant admit he's wrong

you'll mix ur glasses up a lot especially if you're in a rush trying to skirt around him in the morning. he'll think ur dumb when you accidentally put his glasses on and can't see shit. don't blame him for thinking ur dumb though. his brain doesn't know how to compute how cute he actually thinks it is so he just replaces it with dumb :))))

and one last thought I'll leave u on is bonten rindou with his purple fucking mullet who really just wants you to pull his hair while he does all the work eating u out is all :)))))))))) enjoy that thought

[hiddenleafstoryteller]

🐱 with shikamaru pls!

A/N: Thanks for the request anon! I love writing for Shika, and this prompt was amazing. I really got into writin this one, I hope you enjoy it!

🐱: “She’s not yours anymore, so you might as well leave.”

Word Count: 1,395

Check out the master list for my prompts here!

Squicks: Alchohol mention, drunken behavior, hints of abusive relationship

Shikamaru stared across the room as he watched [Y/N] dance with Daichi, her fiance. Her lavender dress flowed around her with every twirl, she was the only source of color among the black tie affair.

“Could have been you.” Choji remarks standing to his right as he nods towards the couple.

“Yeah, right.” Shikamaru huffs, “Marriage is a drag, definitely not for me.”

Choji laughs and looks at his best friend, “This coming from the same man who practiced proposing to [Y/N] in front of me almost a hundred times?”

Shikamaru rolls his eyes but is unable to meet Choji’s knowing gaze. His hand touches his best friend’s shoulder and gives him a squeeze, he knew how deeply this was affecting Shikamaru even if he wouldn’t admit to it.

“If you love her Shikamaru, go get her. Girls like her don’t just appear every day.” Choji chimes into Shika’s thoughts before he goes back to the table where he sat with Ino.

Shikamaru watches as [Y/N] breaks away from Daichi’s grasp and makes her way to the bar. He decides to make his way over.

“A whiskey straight with a water back for myself and whatever this lovely lady would like.”He says to the bartender coming up behind [Y/N] who glances over her shoulder at him in surprise.

“Shika! I didn’t expect you to come.” She says with a soft smile, and he shrugs with a casual smirk etched onto his face.

“Choji said it would be rude if I didn't, so here I am.” He explained and she awkwardly nodded as she glances at the bartender.

“Make that two straights, no water back on mine.”

“Since when do you shoot whiskey?” Shikamaru teases her as their drinks are poured and slid across the bar. Shika pays and leaves a decent tip before picking up both of their drinks and leading her away from the bar.

“It’s been three years since you last spoke to me, things change.” The bluntness of her voice almost makes him laugh, she was trying so hard to sound mean. He hands her the cold glass as they steal away to the garden outside.

“Evidently.” Shikamaru nods towards the ring on her finger, “If I remember correctly, you told me you were never going to get married.”

Before she can respond, he continues, “If I also remember correctly, you said that as I was down on one knee in front of you.”

Y/N pauses and clenches her jaw, “If you came here to just make me feel bad about something I did when we were seventeen, I’ll see you out of the door myself Shikamaru.”

He sighs, almost immediately regretting the words that had left his mouth. He places his glass on the tall table next to where they stood in the glow of the fairy lights.

“Would you believe me if I said I just wanted to come say congratulations?” He offers, sitting on the garden wall.

“Not in the slightest.” She chuckles and sits next to him. She sways her feet slightly as they don’t touch the ground.

“I figured.” He picks up the glass and throws back what is left of the whiskey. She quietly nurses her drink, her body swaying softly to the music that played around them.

“So why are you really here Shika?” The question slaps Shikamaru across the face, why was he really here? He glances sideways at her and then gives a halfhearted shrug.

“Well my fawn, I just wanted to see you one last time before you became somebody's wife.” He smiles softly as he watches a soft blush paints itself across her cheeks.

“Wow, it's been a long time since someone called me that.” She chuckles and raises the glass to her lips again.

“You know why I called you that, don't you?” He inquires as he gently moves a stray hair away from her face, she shakes her head ‘no’.

“Your eyes, they remind me of a doe’s eyes. Soft, brown, full of mysteries no man will ever understand.”

She cackles, nearly spitting out some of her drink.

“Oh Shika, I have to wear boots around you.” Her voice twinkles across the night air as she wipes the bit of the liquor off of her dress, “You create more bullshit than my father’s cows.”

“I missed that laugh of yours.” He remarks suddenly, “The way I could hear it in a crowded room and immediately know where you were.”

She goes to speak but he stops her before she can utter a sentence, “I miss that little chipped tooth you have. From when you smashed your head against Hinata’s during training at the academy, I also hoped you would never get it fixed. I miss the way you always had a smile on your face when I walked in the house after a mission. I miss getting lost in the woods with you, I miss the way my father used to tease me in front of you, trying to embarrass me. I miss everything sweetheart, and it makes me physically ill to know you're marrying Daichi.”

The words crash over his lips like a captured wild horse who finally broke free of its ropes, it didn’t care what damage it caused. It just wanted to be free, just as Shikamaru wanted to be free of these thoughts he carried around with him like a permanent set of luggage.

“Shika, Shika I’m so sorry.” Her hands grab onto his and squeeze gently, “I don’t know what to say.”

“Than don’t say anything my fawn.” He kisses her forehead and then stares down into her eyes a glimmer distracts him as she looks down at the engagement ring that adorned her left hand.

“If he ever, and I mean ever, lays a hand on you in a way that isn’t out of love, [Y/N] I will kill him.” Shikamaru’s voice is cold, as if something else had taken over him. If he couldn’t protect [Y/N] by being by her side, he at least would be on her side, through everything.

“There will never be a day that goes by where I will forgive myself for saying no to you all those years ago. I was just a dumb little kid, and you deserved so much more than that.” Her voice shakes slightly and she throws back the rest of her drink.

“[Y/N!]” A voice calls from across the garden and they both looked up to see Daichi, followed by his friends, approaching them. His face flushed from the amount of liquor he had consumed.

“Daichi! I would like you to meet Shikamaru Nara, we’ve fought beside each other since we were children.” [Y/N] jumps up and stands with her fiance, “We were just catching up.”

“You’re the little fuck who proposed to her aren’t you?” Daichi spits at Shikamaru who doesn’t flinch.

“Daichi! You’re drunk.” [Y/N] tries to direct him away, “I’m sorry Shika, please excuse his behavior.”

Daichi shakes her off with a swift but hard shove and she has to grab onto the table to keep her balance. Shikamaru stands and steps up to the man who stood between him and the girl he loved.

“You’re lucky she didn’t fall, otherwise I’d make sure you found yourself falling from the roof.” Shikamaru fumed, not paying any mind to the men who stood behind Daichi.

“What are you even doing here? Hoping to steal her from me?” Daichi laughs, “Well, newsflash lover boy. She’s not yours anymore, so you might as well leave, and I better not see you anywhere near our wedding. Otherwise, you’ll have a few people showing you the way out.”

Shikamaru rolls his eyes, “Whatever.”

Daichi clenches his jaw, he wasn’t used to someone not being intimidated by him.

Shikamaru turns to [Y/N] who still had a grip on the table she had fallen into. He reaches out and gently strokes her tear-stained cheek. Their eyes met and Shikamaru tried hardest to remember them because after tonight, he knew he would never see her again.

“Take care of yourself my little fawn, if you need me, tell Choji. He’ll know how to find me.”

He walks away from the party and onto the road heading back towards the village, he tried to remember ever step he took. He wouldn’t be coming home for a long time.

[sinfullypassionate]

Cramps - G.D.

summery: mother nature has graced y/n with her presence and her loving boyfriend grayson knows exactly what to do to take care of her.

warning: fluff lots and lots of fluff

a/n: my period has graced me with her ugly face so pls enjoy this cute ass oneshot of gray and it turned out way longer than i expected but whatever hope y’all like it.

y/n was currently laying in bed, holding her stomach. glancing at the clock, she saw it read seven am. she already knew her boyfriend was awake since she felt the emptiness of their shared bed. she had gotten mother nature’s gift last night and she honestly felt horrible. the first three days were always the worst for her, she was always unable to move due to her horrible cramps and she tended to rely on her boyfriend. she had just moved in six months ago after being with grayson for almost two years, she was a little hesitant to move in as she didn’t wanna impose on ethan but the older twin reassured her he didn’t mind. he got accustomed to seeing her every day anyways so she might as well move in, she was rather close to ethan which made grayson’s heart soar - his two favorite people got along. y/n simply sat up, groaning in pain as she grabbed her phone and shot gray a text not wanting to yell knowing ethan was still asleep.

grayson soon entered their shared bedroom and pouted as he saw his girl. “awe my puffin doesn’t feel good.” he sat next to her, using the nickname he’s always called her since they first met. “fuck mother nature, okay. my cramps are so bad, gray.” she said, a few tears welling in her eyes. grayson instantly brought his girl into his arms and kissed her head softly, “i’ll be back in a half hour okay, baby?” she pouted at his words and pulled away from him. the boy simply laughed softly, kissing his girlfriend’s pouty lips. “i’m getting the essentials okay?” he simply said before getting up and walking into the bathroom. he came back in with a heating pad and some midol, y/n just smiled softly at him. god, he was perfect. “try and take a little nap, these should help your cramps a little until i’m home and also-“ he paused, walking over his dresser and taking out the favorite shirt she loved to wear and a pair of his boxers. “babe, you know i hate wearing your boxers incase i bleed out.” she said quietly.

“like i’ve said a hundred times, we have a washing machine.” gray said in a sweet, soft voice as he walked over to his beautiful girlfriend. he gently helped her stand up, knowing it was a little painful. y/n just stood there while her boyfriend undressed her. grayson couldn’t help himself, he looked her up and down and let out a groan. y/n couldn’t help but blush, even after almost two years of being together he still managed to make her blush. “you’re so beautiful, puffin.” grayson spoke softly, slipping his shirt over her head to cover her exposed chest since she loathed sleeping with a bra on. the taller male leaned down and helped her step inside his boxers, he gave her ass a gentle tap before tucking her back into bed and handing her a glass of water along with two midol pills. she took them with ease before leaning back against the pillows, gray plugged in the heating pad and gently set it on her lower stomach. a sigh of relief left the girl’s mouth once she felt the heat, “thank you, baby.” she spoke softly, as she closed her eyes she felt a kiss upon her forehead. “anything for you, puffin. i’ll be back soon okay?” grayson said and she simply just hummed a response which caused the younger twin to chuckle as she drifted to sleep.

almost an hour passed and grayson finally came back, his arms full of things for his puffin. her favorite snacks, movies and he even bought her a set of fuzzy pajamas with matching socks. she always seemed to get so cold when she was on her period, but he did get another set of pajamas which consisted of a cute tank top and some shorts. grayson always tended to spoil y/n, she hated it at first because she wasn’t used to it but now all she does is smile and give him a kiss. he walked into his bedroom and smiled when he saw his girl still happily asleep, he set everything down on his desk quietly and put away everything. a few moments later, he walked over to y/n and crawled in next to her. wrapping his arms around her, he nuzzled his face in her neck and closed his eyes and not expecting to fall asleep but he did.

y/n woke up abruptly, a massive shock of pain hitting her lower abdomen which indicated the midol pills she took earlier wore off. she felt an arm around her and looked to see her amazing, gorgeous cute boy sleeping next to her. she simply rolled over slowly and reached her hand up to gently run her fingers through his hair, “baby..” she whispered softly, leaning forward to kiss his nose. the boy just stirred, tightening his grip on her waist. she let a small, quiet giggle escape her lips before kissing his nose again. “gray wake up..” she spoke a little louder this time, “your puffin’s cramps are fucking horrible and i want chocolate.” she whined. gray soon opened his eyes and yawned a little, smiling. “i didn’t even mean to fall asleep... but hi.” he leaned forward and kissed her lips softly, “i bought some new pajamas you can wear now or after your monthly.” the brunette haired boy spoke, “you’re honestly so perfect... what did i do to deserve you.” y/n sighed happily. “you were just you.” grayson smiled lovingly at her, reaching his hand up to stroke her cheek gently with his thumb. “now why don’t we get you some more midol, cuddle, eat some chocolate and watch some movies before passing out. sound good, puffin?” he asked, his hand now resting on her hip. “sounds completely and utterly perfect.” she smiled, leaning forward and kissing him softly. “i love you.” she whispered against his lips, “i love you more, baby.” gray replied before reaching over and getting his girl her medicine before getting up himself and grabbing everything he needed.

walking back to his girlfriend, he smiled as she looked at him with a loving smile. “what?” he asked, laying out the movies for her to pick from on the bed. “you’re just amazing, gray. normal guys don’t go out of their way to comfort their girlfriends whiny ass when they have their period.” she laughed a little, deciding on mrs. doubtfire. “normal guys don’t have an angel as a girlfriend.” grayson smiled lovingly, leaning over and kissing her softly. her cheeks flushed a light shade of pink at those words, shaking her head. “oh shut up.” she covered her face, giggling a little. her giggle was music to his ears, grayson simply removed her hands. “don’t hide your face from me, puffin.” he told her, turning the heating pad back on before putting the movie in. he grabbed the bag that was filled with her favorite snacks and grabbed out her favorite drink, handing it to her he grabbed his own before stripping down to just his boxers and crawling in bed next to her. “ready for our relaxing day, puffin?” he asked, smiling lovingly. “absolutely.” she hummed, snuggling with her boyfriend. “i love you, y/n.” he spoke softly. “i love you too, gray. so much.”

[fragmentedink-archived]

Hell to Pay: Chapter Eighteen

I, II, III, IV, V, VI, VII, VIII, IX, X, XI, XII, XIII, XIV, XV, XVI

cowritten by: @lux-scriptum

A/N: TRIGGER WARNING FOR ALLUDING TO SEXUAL CHILD ABUSE, FOR PAST SELF HARM, PAST TRAUMA

A/N2: if we forgot anything, pls do not hesitate to ask to tag <3

All Cameron was aware of was the door opening silently, and the flash of light brown hair shining against the moonlight and the glowing hazel-green eyes. He barely had time to register who was in his room when Destris flashed his white teeth at him.

Cameron only blinked, a rush of cold running through his entire body when the blankets and sheets were tugged off of him. He was locked in place when Destris sat down next to him, pale fingers going from Cameron’s jaw to his shoulder. “This is our secret.”

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Nik jolted awake when he felt the bed moving. It was too still too late for it to be Cameron getting up, and the baby wasn’t crying, which meant something was wrong. He stared at Cameron shaking, fingers- claws- shredding into the bed.

Shitshitshit-

Lev was trying to move to check on Cameron. He wasn’t fast enough to stop Lev from touching Cameron’s shoulder. He was able to knock Lev out of the way and got fangs sunk into his arm for his effort. Nik choked on a groan and nearly blacked out when he crumbled into the sheets.

He was barely aware of Lev’s attention turning to him, or of Cameron still half out of it, as the venom started working its way through him. His blood felt like it was on fire, the walls felt too close. Nik tried turning. He wasn’t sure if he was even trying to turn towards a window, or the doors. He just wanted out. He wanted out of this room, right now.

Nik wrapped his arm around himself, and tried to breath through the undiluted panic that was rushing through every inch of him. He barely heard Cameron’s ‘don’t touch him’ to Lev. Tears were slipping down his face as he squeezed his eyes shut. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if he couldn’t see the room tighten around him. It didn’t do much, though, and it felt like days before Nik could feel his body start to relax.

His throat felt like it was bleeding raw, when he tried to sit up. It took him several tries getting upright. It took him a moment to realize Lev and Cameron were still in the room with him. Nik couldn’t stop himself from flinching back, when Lev tried coming near him. “Don’t,” he croaked.

Lev froze midstep, face etched with concern. Cameron’s eyes were bloodshot, but his face was completely marble as he held onto the baby. Nik tried getting out of the bed, and nearly landed on his face before his reflexes kicked in and he got a hand out in front of him.

Nik slumped back against the bed and dropped his head back onto the blankets, trying to catch his breath. He was fine. He was fine. He was-

“...Nik?” Lev asked, very hesitantly.

“How- how long has it been?”

Cameron coldly said, “An hour and a half. You were screaming the entire time.”

That explained why he felt like he had been ripped apart from the seams. Nik tried standing when Lev said, “How can I help?” “By not waking Cameron up during a nightmare?” Nik snapped. Immediately he said, “It’s fine. Just. I need to go outside. Grab my jacket.” Nik stumbled for the door and had barely caught the frame when he about face planted again. He was breathing heavy. “Did you get bit?” he asked Lev.

“No,” Lev said, barely audible.

“Good,” Nik said, mostly to himself as he forced one foot in front of the other until he got to the front door. There was frost lining the windows. He could almost feel the cold seeping against the panes of glass. He held out a hand. “Jacket.”

Lev instantly handed it over. Nik didn’t even have it on all the way when he stumbled outside. The sun was barely starting to come up, and he could see his breath, but his lungs were starting to work again and he didn’t feel like bolting anymore.

He crumbled onto the edge of the porch and dropped his head between his legs and breathed. He hated Cameron’s venom and how it made him feel like a damn child. But there was nothing that could be done about it and he was just going to have to live with it.

Cameron appeared in front of him, without the baby or a coat, shoes or shirt. Nik slowly blinked up at him. “I’m fine,” he said, automatically. “You don’t-”

“You’re sleeping on the couch,” Cameorn said, sharply.

“You bit me,” Nik said. The way Cameron’s eyes vacated, told Nik the nightmare was particularly bad this time. “Fine. For how long?”

“Until I say so,” Cameron said, looking into the house. “Do you want something warm?”

“Coffee,” Nik muttered, rubbing his face. “I’m not sleeping again any time soon.”

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Lev backed away from the front door, and carried Eden to the kitchen. He got her set up in a high chair that hadn’t been there last time Lev had been in the kitchen. Lev assumed it was from the three hour long shopping trip Cameron and Nik had gone on last night.

He rummaged in the fridge, and returned with some ground beef. He warmed it up, and handed it to her, curious to see if she’d go at it without him feeding her. When she did with a ferocity that startled him, Lev decided it was best to go ahead and fix the coffee. He was pouring a cup for Nik when Cameron showed up.

“For Nik?” Lev said in a small voice.

“Yes,” Cameron said tersely.

Lev handed the mug over. “You want one too?” he offered.

Cameron considered that. “I’d rather have tea.”

Lev frowned. “Where do you keep it?” He paused “And what kind? I’ll bring it out to you.”

“Cupboard above the sink,” Cameron said. “Earl grey, with a little bit of honey.” He paused, and then, “Make it extra hot.”

“Will do,” Lev promised. By the time he turned around Cameron was gone. Lev set some water on to boil and reheated some more meat for Eden, adding some frozen peas to the mix. “Eat the veggies too,” he said, as sternly as he could. Eden’s only response was an earsplitting shriek and a loud bang on her tray, sending peas and meat alike flying. Lev sighed.

Once the water was boiling, Lev set a large mug to steep, and tried the ground beef by itself again.

“You have to eat veggies eventually,” he told Eden, who just babbled and smeared ground beef across her face. "I'll just have to find the vegetables you find acceptable," Lev mused. “Now you stay right there while I run this outside to your father,” he added, pouring a little honey in the mug once he’d removed the tea bags.

He padded back to the front door, poking his head out hesitantly. “Tea?” he asked, holding it close.

Cameron nodded his thanks, which was surprising in and of itself, and took the mug from Lev. Lev hesitated a moment longer.

“Do you want me to make breakfast?” Lev offered. “I’m not as practiced with the fancy stuff, but I can make scrambled eggs and toast.”

Cameron didn’t really seem taken by that idea. It took him a few seconds of looking at Lev blankly before he just said, “Use your own pans.”

Lev nodded. “You want me to bring some out here when it’s made?”

“Yes,” Nik said, at the same time Cameron gave a nod.

“Okay,” Lev said. He hovered for a few more seconds, but he couldn’t think of what to say, so in the end he backed away and shut the front door again.

-----

A few hours later, Nik was still outside, and he was bored enough, he was starting to get restless. Cameron had to do paperwork, which just left Lev and the baby. He waited until the next time Lev came out to check on him to bring up going to the park. “It’s like, a ten minute walk,” Nik was saying. “We could take Eden?”

Lev perked up by the door, seeming interested in Nik’s proposal. “I think that sounds like a great idea, but I should ask Cameorn first.”

Nik tried to not sulk. “Okay. Hurry up, though.”

Lev looked apologetic. “I don’t want him to be mad at us for taking off, that’s all,” he said. “Besides, I have to get Eden ready. It’s cold out here.” Lev disappeared inside and it felt like forever before he reappeared with a bag full of shit and a baby more coat than actual baby in a stroller. He awkwardly held out a travel mug. “Coffee.”

“Mmm.” Nik looked down at Eden, then back at the cup. “You carry it.” He knelt down and unbuckled Eden from the stroller and picked her up. She was instantly wiggly in his arms. “I’m carrying the infant. Come on.”

Before Lev could talk him out of it, Nik stepped off the porch and started across the yard, letting Lev catch up to him with the empty stroller and the heavy looking bag he insisted on bringing. Nik listened to Eden babble happily with Lev next to him on the way. “I don’t think I have ever been to a park while sober,” Nik mused. “Definitely not fully clothed.”

“Oddly enough, I don’t think I’ve ever been to a park drunk or missing any clothing; maybe my shoes. I never did like wearing shoes,” Lev said.

Nik laughed and Eden squealed. “Honestly, that is so unsurprising. I doubt you have ever been drunk in your life.” Nik held Eden up and looked up at her. “Can you believe this guy? He’s been to a park sober. What a life.”

Eden just babbled at him, but Nik took that as an agreement. Nik looked at Lev when he pulled her back down closer to his chest. “See? Even the baby agrees with me.”

Lev just shook his head. “Amara tried to get me to drink once and I threw up for the rest of the night. I don’t drink ever.”

“You let Amara try to get you to drink? She’s like, ninety-five percent booze.”

“I only had one drink,” Lev said, mournfully.

“Ha. You’re more of a light-weight than I am. Amazing.” Nik smiled to himself and then perked up when the park came into view. There were a few people here, but not many. Both the demons here gave them long looks while Nik started for the swings.

“Let me hold her,” Lev half-whined.

“But I want to hold her,” Nik said, sitting in one of the swings. He kicked up his feet and swung a little. “Hold the diaper bag. It’s big enough to pretend to be a baby.”

Nik just smiled when Lev gave him a look. “Be careful,” he said, going to sit the diaper bag in the stroller.

“Can you please stop assuming I’m going to drop the kid on her head.”

“I worry. I’d assume I’d drop her half the time, and I took care of two kids,” Lev said, sitting next to him. “Worrying is my job.”

“Hmph.” Nik carefully turned Eden so she was looking at him. Her little nose was tipped in grey while she gave him a toothless smile. “Stars, how are you related to Cameron. If you weren’t like, literally the color of snow- or, well, a demon- I’d say you were my kid. Must you be so pale?”

Her only answer was a loud enough shriek that Nik grimaced. Lev said, “Well you asked.”

“That doesn’t mean she should screech at me. She makes it sound like I’m trying to kill her.” He frowned down at her. “Am I trying to kill you, tiny demon baby? Me? Who gave you your name? I don’t think so.”

“Who’s changed her diaper every time since she’s gotten here?” Lev asked, taking her hand.

Nik frowned and kissed her nose. “Don’t know how. Sounds disgusting.”

“You get used to it.”

“I’d rather I didn’t.”

“Well you’re going to have to. She’s here to stay.” “You say that like there isn’t two other men in the house and like nannies aren’t able to be bought,” Nik said. He bounced Eden lightly while pushing the swing a little. “Stars, imagine me changing a diaper. I’d probably fuck it up like I always do.”

“Just takes practice, Nik,” Lev said, smoothing down Eden’s coat. “You wanna see if she likes the slide? I’ll take her up and you can catch at the bottom.”

Nik perked up and then frowned at him. “You mean. You’re just going to let her go at the top?”

Lev gave him a confused look. “We’ll use the short slide. She’ll be fine.” “Won’t she fall off?”

He shook his head. “The sides are high enough, and you’ll be there to catch her.”

Nik hesitated slightly but then stopped the swing. “Okay, but if she splits her head open and gets brain damage before her first birthday, I’m telling Cameron it’s your fault.”

“She’ll be fine,” Lev said, taking Eden from him. “And that’s coming from me, Nik.”

“‘It’s my job to worry’ he says. ‘Shove the baby down the slide he says,” Nik muttered, going to the slide. “‘You broke my baby,’ Cameron will say. ‘Now it’s your turn’ Cameron will say. Hmph. This goes sideways I’m siccing Nate on both of them.”

“I’m not gonna shove her, Nik,” Lev said, sounding offended, going to the top with Eden.

“Sure, Lev, of course you’re not,” Nik said, making sure that he was as close to the bottom of the slide as physically possible. “If our boyfriend kills us, I’m still blaming you. That baby is wiggles. She is a wiggler, but sure, let’s let a six month-ish old go down a slide on her own.”

Lev just stood at the top of the slide and looked down at him. “Nik,” he said, exasperated. “This slide is four feet tall. Five, maximum. She’ll be fine, and I’m a good healer if she isn’t, But she will be. I know what I’m doing.”

“MMMMM.”

Nik wasn’t sure he was breathing or not when Lev knelt down with Eden and laid her on her back. He leaned forward and just… let… her go. Eden squealed rushing down the damn slide and was laughing when Nik caught her as soon as he possibly could a foot from the bottom. He was annoyed by how much he was sweating and trembling. He brought her to his chest. “Haha, we’re not doing this again,” he said, poking her belly. “You can take drugs like the rest of us, if you want to have a rush.”

“Nikolas.” “WHAT. I was kidding, stars.” He looked down at Eden. “You are way too young to be doing drugs.”

Lev scooted awkwardly down the slide. “Stars help that child if we let you and Amara be influences in her life.” He had held out his arms for Eden when Nik held her to his chest and turned.

“Back off, I’m holding the baby.”

“Fine, you can check her diaper then.”

Nik scrunched up his face. “This is extortion.” He held her out but Lev refused to take her back. Eden just kicked her legs and squawked at him until Nik pulled her back into him. “Cannot believe this. I’m being blackmailed by both my boyfriend and a six month old.”

“You wanted to hold the baby,” Lev said. “Checking her diaper won’t kill you.”

“You don’t know that.”

“If it makes you feel better, I’ll probably make Cameron change her diaper later, too. I’m not doing them all,” Lev said. “I did not make this baby, and I will not be doing all the gross stuff by myself. Even if I am the only one who knows how.”

“Okay, but you were the one that wanted to keep her,” Nik said. “Which means her poopy diapers are all your responsibility.” Nik paused and considered. “But if you do force Cameron, please let me be there with a video recorder.”

“Don’t be childish, Nik. If you have a camera I won’t be able to get him to do anything. You’re making too big of a deal out of it. Come on, let’s go over to the picnic table.”

Nik went cold all over and immediately shut up and did as told. Lev was pulling a changing pad thing out of the diaper bag and set it up before quietly saying, “Are you okay? I said something didn’t I?”

Nik felt his face prickle and he had to blink to stop himself from crying like an idiot. “I’m fine,” he said, tightly. “Make sure she doesn’t just roll off,” he mumbled. He needed to get out of this jacket. It was too constricting. It didn’t help the tightness he felt in his throat, though.

He didn’t really give Lev a chance to respond when he started peeling out of the jacket and throwing it on the stroller. Lev reached for him before immediately pulling back. But he reached forward again, hesitantly and touched Nik’s arm. “You don’t look fine. What did I say? I won’t say it again.”

His father’s voice echoed in his head, and had been for hours and hours and hours it felt like. After a bit, Nik started mechanically getting Eden undressed. He was relieved when her diaper was clean. Eden wiggled and whined at the cold table under her while Nik awkwardly got her dressed again. “There, done,” Nik said, fixing up her coat. He picked her up and let her smack him while he flicked Lev a look. “Happy?”

Lev looked tired and worried, but he just said, “Yeah. You did- yeah.”

Nik went back to the swing, ignoring the looks from the demons still here. Eden seemed unaware of the tension that Nik felt and just wiggled happily while he swung absently. Lev settled in the seat next to him, mostly pushing himself back and forth with one foot.

After a while of sitting in silence, Nik quietly said, “Do you really think I’m childish? I’d expect that from Cam because he’s an asshole, but not from you.”

“I don’t really think you’re childish,” Lev said. “But teasing Cameron like that is, sometimes. It’s not a bad thing, I just worry about annoying Cameron too much. Which… you’ve known him longer, you’d probably know where boundaries are and where you can push a little better than I can, anyway. I didn’t mean it as in you’re childish, though. You’re more adult about some things than angels I know three times your age.”

Nik scoffed. “I was joking, Lev. It’s a joke. I’m not that much of a prick. I wouldn’t do that to Cameron.” Cameron was skittish enough around kids, he wasn’t going to make it that much worse for the poor bastard.

Lev just watched him before saying, “I’m not good at jokes sometimes, Nik. I didn’t know you were kidding.”

Nik looked squarely at him. “You should have known me. Did you really think I’d be that cruel when I got between you and Cameron’s fangs.”

Lev looked away, shame flickering across his face. “I don’t- I’m not good at telling things like that. It’s something Amara would have done.”

“You’re saying Amara would be able to tell I’m a decent person, but not you? Nice.”He looked down at Eden and pressed a hand to her cheek. “She’s probably getting cold,” Nik said. “We should take her back to the house before she gets sick.”

“No,” Lev said, “I meant. I meant that Amara would have filmed Cameron. She’d think it was funny.”

That did sound like Amara. Nik said, “Noted. We should still go, though.”

“Okay,” Lev said, in a small voice.

----

Lev let Nik keep Eden with him. He seemed to like playing with her, and Lev felt bad for upsetting Nik. Again. Instead Lev dropped his shoes and jacket off in his bedroom and then padded off to find Cameron. It took him a few minutes, but he eventually pushed open the door to Cameron’s office and found him there, still as stone.

The moment the door opened, though, Cameron flinched, snapping his head around so suddenly Lev froze. It was never a good thing to see someone go from so still to so... not so suddenly. “I just wanted to let you know Nik and I were home,” Lev said softly.

Cameron’s nod was stiff, and he cleared his throat before he asked, “Are any of you hungry?”

Lev hesitated. “I’m always hungry these days, it feels like,” he said, trying for humor, before shaking his head. “I don’t know about Nik but if we’re going to feed Eden now, we’d better do it soon, or wait until after she’s had a nap. She had a big morning, and she was up early.” He hesitated, and then said softly, “I think she had fun.”

This time Cameron’s nod was slow. Lev didn’t like the... it was almost vacant, his expression, but he stood and headed for the kitchen. Lev scooted out of his way, and stared after him. That was... Lev didn’t like it. Rather than follow and push Cameron about it, Lev padded off to find Nik and let him know Cameron was probably going to be fixing lunch.

Eventually Lev realized they’d never left the porch. He thought about grabbing his shoes and jacket again, but rather than make the trek all the way across the house, Lev just wandered outside, tucking his shoulders close. Grief as sharp as a knife sliced through him- his wings hadn’t been useful for much, but they’d certainly have been helpful against the brisk breeze that had sprung up.

Nik was tucked away out of the wind, thank gods, bouncing Eden in his lap. She seemed happy enough, waving her clenched fists at him and shrieking in a way that sounded joyful. Terrifying, sure, but joyful. Lev hesitated to intrude, despite the cold.

Nik eventually looked up. Lev shifted his weight, and then, “Cameron’s making lunch, I think. I- Well, I think. He asked if we were hungry and then headed into the kitchen, so...” He shoved his hands in his pockets. “I figured I’d let you know so we could get her unbundled and in her highchair. I don’t know how much longer she’ll be awake; most babies need naps pretty often, and I’d hate to see a cranky demon baby.” He was babbling and he knew it. “I could show you how I got Amara and Reneé to sleep, if you want- or- I mean, I’m sure you could figure it out on your own, I’m not trying to say you couldn’t. I just- are you even hungry? She probably is, I know I am, but I’ve- I’ve been practically stuffing myself lately, I should- I should stop doing that, probably. I never do know how to do things in moderation. It’s always one end of the spectrum or another, but- it’s not like I’m not hungry, I am, or I think I am. Maybe I’m just stressed, though I don't know why, I know I’m safe here, I just-”

Nik held up a hand. “Please. Shut up.”

“S-” Lev bit his lip, hard enough he could feel it split. “Okay.”

Nik looked down at Eden mournfully before handing her up to Lev. “I’m going to stay outside.”

Lev bounced her gently, unable to stop himself from pressing his nose to her head, more to comfort himself than her. She hit his chest with her little fists in response. “Do- do you want company out here? Cameron can handle her for a little while, if- if you do.”

Nik shrugged, leaning his head back against the post and closing his eyes as he said, “It’s up to you.”

He looked so... small, to Lev. He had to be cold, with no shirt and no jacket. Lev stepped closer, crouching until he could press a soft kiss to Nik’s hair. “I love you,” he said, cautiously. Earnestly.

Nik’s “I know,” was soft, and Lev had to admit it wasn’t the response he wanted, but that was okay. He ran his fingers through Nik’s hair, before standing so Eden wouldn’t start squawking in Nik’s ear.

“I’ll be back, if Cameron will watch her. If he won’t, I’ll make sure he brings some lunch. And a jacket?” Lev backed away, ducking inside.

After changing her diaper and getting the winter coat off her, Lev lugged Eden to the kitchen. She was already getting squirmy; he figured naptime wasn’t far off in the future. He settled her in her highchair, despite her constant wiggling and screeching.

“Hey, now. None of that. We’re going to get you something to eat, little one.”

Lev’s words meant nothing to her, and she continued to bang her hands on her tray and yell at him.

When Lev turned around, ready to ask if Cameron had anything ready for her, he realized Cameron was watching them both blankly. “Nik still outside?”

“Yeah,” Lev said slowly. “I was going to ask if you could handle Eden while I went to go sit with him.” He looked Cameron over, and then said, voice gentle, “It’s okay if you don’t want to. Though Nik does need a jacket or something. He took his off, and he’s going to freeze out there.”

Finally something showed up on Cameron’s face, even if it was disapproval. “I’ll stay with her,” was all Cameron said.

“What’s for lunch?” Lev asked, starting to look for a sippy cup. “I told Nik I’d bring him some.” He filled the first one he found with water, and handed it to Eden, who promptly began to chew on the handle. Lev adjusted it until she started drinking out of it like she was supposed to.

“Spaghetti,” Cameron said simply.

“Pasta,” Lev said, unable to stop his pleased hum. He glanced back at Cameron. “I’m going to find a jacket for Nik and get a blanket or something. I’ll be back in just a sec.”

“Alright.” Cameron settled across from Eden, watching her blankly.

“See if she’ll eat the spaghetti?” Lev offered as he ducked out of the room. He padded off to his own room, grabbing one of the big fluffy blankets Cameron had gotten him at the store yesterday. Lev paused long enough to put on some fuzzy socks first.

Nik was still waiting there, eyes shut. Lev slowed to a stop beside him. “Blanket?” He asked, trying not to shiver. “You’re going to get hypothermia.” When he got no response, Lev crouched and shook Nik gently. “Nik?”

Nik slumped forward, jerking awake before looking up at Lev. Lev let out a relieved breath, pressing a hand to Nik’s face briefly. “You scared me,” Lev said, trying not to scold. “You’re freezing, Nik. Come inside? Please?”

The way Nik tensed sent guilt rippling through Lev. He just shook his head at Lev, not saying a word.

“Okay,” Lev said quietly. “At least take the blanket?”

Nik stared at Lev longer than was comfortable, but took it in the end. Lev fussed with it, settling beside Nik in hopes of sharing some of his body heat.

“You hungry?” Lev asked. “Or do you want some coffee?”

Nik nodded stiffly. “Both?”

Lev looked him over. He was trembling. Or shivering, maybe. Lev wasn’t sure. Either way, Lev didn’t like it. He tugged at the blanket, tucking it fussily, before letting out a small sigh. “I’ll be back,” he promised. “Don’t... don’t freeze out here, okay?”

Nik let out a soft sigh. “Wouldn’t dream of it.” He sounded tired.

Lev cupped his cheek, hating how cold it was, and leaned in to kiss him softly. “Thank you,” he said, stroking Nik’s cheek with his thumb once before pulling back.

----

Cameron couldn’t feel himself, but that didn’t stop him from watching the baby unamused. She was screaming and smearing spaghetti all over the highchair with a good portion of it on the floor and on her face and body. “This is ridiculous,” Cameron said, unsure if he was talking to himself or to Eden. “Infants are clearly flawed design and this mess is going to take forever to clean up.”

Eden’s only response was her continued screeching and smearing food everywhere. Barely any of the food made its way into her mouth. Cameron’s eyes narrowed when he wiped splatters of sauce off his face. “I should have killed you when I had the chance.”

Eden smacked the highchair tray hard enough it rattled. Her shriek was loud enough he almost winced. “It’s not too late,” he mused. “Then I would have some peace and quiet. But no, those idiots have taken a liking to you and they would be upset if I killed you.” He was almost disgusted with it.

Cameron scooped up some meat sauce in a spoon and held it out. “Open your mouth, Eden.” He got the spoon in when she started babbling at him, effectively cutting off her rant. “Good, now eat your damn food.”

Some of the food dribbled onto her chin, but most of it went down. He grimaced and wiped it from her face with his thumb, barely missing her chomping down on it. “Is it really that hard to keep it in your fucking mouth? Babies are so uncivilized.”

She waved her fists at him in retaliation, getting even more sauce on the ground. Eden only squealed when he bared his teeth at her. “Gods awful creatures,” he muttered.

It was that Lev decided to grace them with his presence. Cameron couldn’t stop his withering look at Lev coming into the kitchen. Lev paused, looking at Cameron warily before, “How’s it going?”

“My kitchen is a mess,” he said, flatly. “And she is a menace. You are lucky that she is still in my house.” He ignored Eden’s babbling and went to scoop up another spoonful. He caught Lev’s small eye roll from the corner of the eye.

“Babies are messy,” he said.

“Well no shit,” Cameron said, getting another bite into her mouth. “I hate infants for a reason.” He added, “Your and Nik’s food are on the counter. Do not make any bigger of a mess.” Lev shook his head but pressed his cheek to Cameron’s shoulder, in some kind of peace offering, he assumed.

“I won’t make more of a mess,” Lev promised.

“Good,” he said, tersely. “I’d make you clean it up with your tongue.” He wasn’t sure if he was joking or not.

Lev hummed his acknowledgement before going to fill another travel mug with a fresh batch of coffee for Nik and taking the plates. He paused at the archway, saying, “She’s gonna need a nap soon. Come get me if you need me?”

Cameron made a noncommittal sound in his throat and fed her another bite. When Cameron didn’t say anything, Lev took the food outside. He gave a resigned sigh and looked squarely at Eden. “I hate you.”

She laughed at him.

-----

Lev padded back outside, grumbling under his breath. He’d forgotten a jacket. Again. He settled next to Nik. “Take the coffee?” he asked, nodding down to where it was tucked against his side awkwardly.

Nik moved far too slowly for Lev’s tastes, taking the coffee with a lethargy Lev decidedly didn’t like. Lev set the plates down on the other side of himself, and then reached over, pressing his hands around Nik’s.

“You’re freezing,” Lev said, concern ringing through him.

Nik looked up at that. “I’m not going inside.”

“I wasn’t suggesting that you were, but stars, Nik. You’re going to lose your fingers.” Lev pushed his healing into Nik’s hands without even thinking about it, reaching for the edge of the blanket to pull it tighter around Nik.

Nik’s mouth twitched to the side. “Not now, I’m not.”

“I- I didn’t think to- is that alright?” Lev ran a hand down Nik’s arm, trying to warm it somewhat.

“Too late to object now, isn't it?”

Lev looked up at him. “Plenty of you is frozen. There’s more I can do. If- if that’s okay?” He tried for a smile and a light tone. “It’s not just your fingers that I like about you, you know.”

Nik shook his head. He just held out his coffee. “Take the lid off?” When Lev reluctantly let go and opened it, Nik added, “Flattery gets you nowhere, Levant.”

Again Lev tried to smile. “Well. It certainly gets you places.” He handed the coffee back, and then tugged on Nik’s blanket again. “I’m just-” Well. Nik probably knew he was worried by now. No use telling him again. Instead Lev stared at him sadly.

Nik didn’t even say a word. He just drank his coffee and closed his eyes. Lev watched him, counting every rise and fall of his chest. He looked... he looked young. Young, and tired. Lev hated it.

“Do you want to talk?” Lev finally asked. “About... about anything?”

Nik shook his head slowly.

“Right.” Lev chewed on his lip, pausing only when he realized he could taste the sweetness of his own blood. “Right. I’m guessing you don’t want to eat, either?”

Nik’s “No,” was mumbled, and Lev barely made it out.

“Yeah. Me neither.” Lev glanced at the plates, guilt pricking at him. “I;m gonna go inside, put those away and see if i can't find something better to keep you warm. Okay? Don’t... just... don't. Okay?”

Nik’s smile was as pathetic as the ones Lev had to offer, which was no comfort at all. Lev gathered up the plates anyway, and shuffled back inside.

----

Cameron had watched Eden fall asleep during her feeding. He silently thanked the gods she passed the fuck out in her highchair. It took him far too long for his taste to manage the highchair tray off without jostling the hellbeast awake. He grimaced at her onsie caked in spaghetti sauce.

“This is never coming out,” he muttered. “Unbelievable.”

He carefully scooped her up and started for her bedroom, which incidentally was only a few doors down from his own. He went to the dresser and pulled out a new onesie and socks to change her into before setting her on the changing table gently.

There was no way she was getting in the crib covered in sauce and noodles, but also wasn’t going to give her a bath. That would involve waking her up and gods knew when she would get back to sleep. He stripped her and cleaned her up with a few diaper wipes, getting her cleaned up before getting her into the new green onesie and fuzzy green and yellow socks. She looked ridiculous in those colors, but all the baby clothes were some shade of color and he didn’t have much of a choice. He’d need to find a time to find decent baby clothes that weren’t so….

Cameron shook his head and picked her up and took her to the crib before turning on some quiet music that hopefully would keep her unconscious for as long as possible. He wasn't sure why he was watching her sleep, but he stayed anyways, absently tracing the way her chest moved.

He shook himself and walked out of the room, quietly closing the door behind him, but leaving it cracked. He looked at the nearest sentry and said, “If anyone goes in there besides me, Nik or Lev, cut them at the knees. No one touches her.”

When the sentry nodded, if a bit confused, Cameron stalked into the kitchen, rubbing his eyes with his finger and thumb, trying to clear away the exhaustion before going to start clean up. But he found Lev already picking things up. Cameorn frowned. “I thought you were with Nik.”

“Neither of us were really hungry, and when I came back and saw the mess, and I know you don’t like messes, and I just-” Lev shrugged. “I felt bad.”

“As you said,” Cameron said, flatly, “babies are messy. Is Nik inside, then?”

Lev shook his head. “He won’t come inside. I’m worried, but-”

“But?” Cameron prompted.

“He won’t let me help,” Lev said. He sounded unsurprisingly upset. But Lev just gestured at the mess around them. “This was something I could do, though.”

“Hmm.” Cameron ran a hand down his face and then started for the front door. “I’ll check on your progress later,” he said, at the doorway. “I’m going to go make sure the idiot doesn’t freeze to death.”

“Okay,” Lev said. Cameron heard his, “Get some sleep soon?” when he was already halfway down the hallway.

Cameron found Nik halfway unconscious on the porch, skin deathly pale and wrapped in a blanket. “Come inside,” Cameron said. Nik shook his head, far too slowly for Cameron’s taste. When Nik didn’t say anything other than that, Cameron said. “I am not taking no for an answer.”

“I’ll just come back outside,” Nik mumbled.

“Unless I break your legs,” Cameron retorted, going to scoop him up. Nik weakly pushed against Cameorn’s chest, but was too cold for it to be of any use when he pushed open the door and brought the idiot angel inside the house. Nik’s breath was shallow when he jolted in Cameron’s arms, trying to latch onto the doorframe. “Do you want your fingers broken?” he asked, unhooking them from the door. “Nothing in this house is going to hurt you- except me if you don’t stop it.” Cameron started back to the bedroom with Nik curled into him, fingers tightly clenched in Cameron’s shirt. “Please,” Nik mumbled.

The cold of Nik’s skin seeped through Cameron’s shirt, nearly making him shiver. “No.”

“Please.”

When Nik pushed against him again, Cameron grabbed his arm and folded it between them before he hurt himself any more. Lev was watching them from the kitchen doorway, distraught, but not saying a word.

Cameron went to the bedroom and pushed the door open to lay Nik on the bed. Nik tried pushing himself up to go back outside, but was unable to move except for a few inches before collapsing back on the bed. “Cam.”

Nik’s hoarse plea fell on deaf ears when Cameron started cutting away the too cold clothes from Nik’s body with a spare pair of scissors. He found several blankets to cover Nik with before lighting the fireplace and going to turn the heat on higher. “If you move from that bed, I will break your legs,” Cameron warned.

Nik nodded slowly and didn’t move a muscle, not that Cameron thought he even could. Cameron went to the nearest sentry. “Stand at the door and watch him. When he passes out, come get me.” When they did as ordered, Cameron went back to the kitchen where he found Lev scrubbing the floor.

Lev stopped and looked up when Cameron came in. “How is he?”

Cameron sighed tiredly and went to make himself a cup of coffee. “He’ll live. Unless he keeps being a dumbass.”

Deep guilt shone in Lev’s eyes. He made a small noise of acknowledgement before going back to cleaning. Cameron watched him, slowly drinking his coffee when five seconds later Lev sat back on his haunches and said, “I’m sorry.”

“You have nothing to be sorry for,” Cameron said. “Wasn’t you who bit him.”

“I tried to wake you. I should have known better.” Lev looked down at his hands. “I keep saying stupid things that upset him. I keep causing problems, and I can’t even say I’m sorry.”

“First of all,” Cameron said, too exhausted to not keep the annoyance out of his voice. “You didn’t know. Second of all, Nik is an adult. It’s neither of your faults that his father is a prick. He’s just going to have to get over it.”

The words didn’t even sound right in his own ears, not when he had been playing his nightmare on repeat all day. He could taste the metallic of his venom and he was glad enough that it couldn’t affect him.

Lev watched him for a long moment before giving a small nod. “Do you want a hug?”

“A what?”

A light golden flush spread on Lev’s cheeks. “A hug. They make me feel better, anyway.”

“Do you want one?” Cameron asked.

“I always want a hug,” Lev said, “But it’s more for you, this time.”

His skin prickled. “If you want one, then come get one.”

Lev watched him for a bit. “Do you want one?”

Cameron frowned and took a drink from his coffee, trying to get the metallic taste out of his mouth. “Who cares what I want. Do you want one.”

“I care what you want,” Lev said. “I don’t need one. I get enough from Nik, and we have Eden now.”

“I didn’t ask if you need one,” Cameron said, picking at a cufflink. “I asked if you want one.”

Lev looked tired. Lev shook his head and mumbled, “I can’t tell if you’re being deliberately obtuse or not.” Cameron frowned, before Lev admitted, “Yes. I do.”

“Then come get one,” Cameron said, putting down his coffee.

Lev stood, wiping his hands on his jeans, before coming to lean on Cameron. He forced his body to relax and put an arm around Lev’s waist to pull him into a hug. Lev pressed his face into Cameron’s neck, scenting him deeply, while Cameron counted down the seconds until Lev finally let go of him.

Before he could, the sentry came into the kitchen. Cameron instantly lifted his eyes and when they nodded towards the bedroom, he said, “I need to go check on Nik.”

Lev peeled away from him. “Can I come with you?”

“If you want,” Cameron said, starting for the bedroom. Nik was in fact unconscious; Cameron had to go closer to make sure he was actually breathing. He pressed the backs of his fingers against Nik’s cheeks, frowning at how cold they still were. Not as cold, he guessed, but still far too cold for his liking.

Lev was quiet as he whispered, “He wouldn’t let me heal him.” Cameron didn’t like the way he sounded defeated.

“He doesn’t like angel healing,” Cameron said, pulling the blankets tighter around Nik. “If he can’t heal himself, he doesn’t want it.”

Confusion flickered across Lev’s face. “He’s let me heal him before.”

“He’s an idiot,” was all Cameron had to offer. “He has his moments where his pride overrides his self preservation.”

Lev gave a soft “Oh,” before, “So why won’t you let me heal you when I can?”

At the curious tone, Cameron flatly said, “Why would I let an angel heal me after they’ve been slaughtering us for centuries? Nik’s prideful, but I am not forgetful, or forgiving.”

Cameron ignored the slight hurt in his eyes, even if he was watching Cameron hesitantly. He eventually said, “It has to stop somewhere, doesn’t it?”

Cameron leveled him a long look. “And why does it have to start with me.”

“Why shouldn’t it start with me?”

Cameron scoffed lightly. “Because I doubt you can kill a demon outside of being forced to. You’ve probably inflicted the least amount of damage against my people. Nik’s brothers have probably slaughtered thousands.”

“All the more reason for me to be the one healing,” Lev said.

“Because you have less sins to atone for?” Cameron asked, moving to grab another blanket to cover Nik up with when he started trembling.

“If you want to look at it that way,” Lev said. “I’ve never wanted anything but peace. I don’t like seeing anyone hurt. Demon or angel or human. Why shouldn’t I use my gifts to heal?”

“Good luck finding a demon that will let you,” was all Cameron had to say to that.

Lev watched him for far too long for Cameron’s liking. “So… what you’re saying is that I need to be forgiven just like the rest of my people, no matter the size of my sins personally? Or that you cannot forgive my people at all, and that includes me?” In a small voice, Lev added, “I Just want to understand.”

“Then understand this,” Cameron said, looking him in the eye. “I do not forgive you. I do not forgive Nik. I do not forgive a single angel that decided to kill us the moment they laid eyes on us. Your king only wanted to end the war for glory and I will not pretend he did it because he was tired of the fighting. I do not forgive my mother who colluded with him. I do not forgive a single demon that had any part of it, and I do not forgive anyone who didn’t have the spine to put Maikel down before he was butchered in his sleep.”

Lev’s eyes were big. “Okay,” he said, eventually.

“Okay,” Cameron said. “Are you done?”

“Yeah,” Lev said, softly, before, “Are you going to get some sleep?”

Cameron rubbed his face. “I need to keep an eye on Nik.”

Lev’s mouth pressed into a thin line. “You need to sleep eventually.” Then he said, “I’m going to finish cleaning the kitchen, and then I think I’m gonna call Gramma. She knows more about little ones than I do.”

If Raziel thought she was getting her hands on Eden, she was sorely mistaken. But Cameron just said, “Go nuts.”

Lev pressed his cheek against Cameron’s shoulder briefly before disappearing out the door. When he was out of hearing distance, he looked down at Nik. “If you die on me, I will kill you myself.” He then went to grab a crossword book from his desk and went to move his chair closer to the bed.

He settled before crossing his legs and opening up the book to his last puzzle.

-----

Lev sat back, surveying the kitchen. He couldn’t see anything else that needed to be done; he’d even cleaned up the lunch dishes and put his and Nik’s food in tupperware to eat later. Now he was sitting on the floor, tucked up against the cabinets, giving the kitchen one more once over before pulling out his new phone.

He already had Eden as his lock screen. He’d managed to catch her mid laugh, though somehow she’d managed to have a whole spoon in her mouth at the same time. With a small sigh he unlocked his phone, and dialed Raziel, tucking his knees close to his chest as he listened to it ring.

“Hello?”

“Hey, Gramma,” Lev said, tipping his head back. “I finally got a new phone. Thought I should check in.”

“That’s not your checking in voice, little bird.”

Lev grimaced. She knew him well. Too well, he sometimes thought. “Okay, I also had some big news, and a favor to ask.”

“I know. Go on.”

“We have a baby,” Lev said. The pause Raziel gave was long enough he knew she was doing some mental math. “Not mine, Gramma. Cameron’s. Someone left her on his porch.”

“How is she? How old is she?” Raziel asked. Calm, as ever. At least that never changed.

“She’s fine. She’s adorable and I love her. She looks like Cameron. If he was ever a baby, anyway.”

Raziel sounded amused as she said, “Everyone was a baby once upon a time. Even Cameron. Even me, little bird.”

“I can’t imagine you as a baby either, Gramma.” Lev puffed out a laugh. “We think she’s about six months old? Maybe a bit older. The cutest little smile, even if she tries to bite everything within range of her mouth.”

“That’d be the demon in her,” Raziel said without any judgement in her tone. “She might be teething, too. Just keep an eye on it, maybe look into some teething rings if you haven’t already.”

Lev hummed. That tracked, honestly. “That reminds me. I was wondering, do you still have Aunt Sophia’s old baby books? It’s been a few years since Amara and Reneé were little, and I don’t remember everything.”

Raziel was quiet for a long moment. Lev knew better than to rush her. Finally she said, “I think I do. I have a favor to ask of you in return, however. I miss seeing you. Do you think you could spend the night tomorrow? We can go through the old clothes I still have, while you’re here.”

“I don’t know.” Lev closed his eyes. “I don’t want to leave these two with Eden on their own too long. And things are a little tense right now, too. But...”

“But...?”

“I miss you too. We haven’t had dinner in months.” Lev thought for a few heartbeats, and then said, “Let me talk to Cameron, make sure they have everything under control. I’ll text you when I know, okay?”

“Alright, little bird. If you can’t, I’ll bring what I can find tomorrow anyway. There’s no pressure.”

“‘Kay, Gramma. Love you.”

Lev dropped his phone in his lap, jaw dropping in a yawn. He could talk to Cameron later, when Nik finally woke up. Maybe Nik would be in a better mood then too.

----

Nik’s entire body was still freezing by the time he woke up. He made a pained noise, trying to sit up. Nope. Not happening. He collapsed back onto the bed, and managed to open his eyes. He shouldn’t have done that either. He did not like the ice cold lividity of Cameorn’s stare across from him. “Hi?”

Cameron shut his puzzle book with a calculated slowness that made Nik want to shrink into the bed. When he finally looked back at Nik, his face was blank again. “If you ever,” he said slowly, “do that again, you will not have to worry about freezing to death because you will be bleeding from the throat. Understand me?”

Nik did not enjoy feeling like he was getting scolded like a ten year old. But honestly. Fair. “Yeah, okay,” He groaned. “I understand. But in my defense-”

“You don’t get a defense,” Cameron said, flatly. “You get to live.”

“You do care,” Nik croaked, rolling over onto his back. He frowned. “Where are my clothes?”

“They were wet, and you were freezing,” Cameron said. “Basic first aid, idiot.”

“Will you stop being so mean to me,” Nik said palming his eyes.

“I’ll stop when you stop being an idiot,” Cameron countered.

“Ugh.” Nik was still freezing. “Can.... I need to warm up?”

“A bath?”

“Yeah, that works.” Nik forced himself up into a sitting position. “Stars, did you put enough blankets on me?” He asked, shoving them away weakly.

Cameorn looked unamused. “You were shaking,” he said. “And pale.”

“Gross.” Nik went to stand up and almost face planted before Cameron caught him by the waist. “Whoops.”

He could feel Cameron’s irritation. “If I let you leave this bed, are you going to try to go back outside?”

The walls weren’t closing in on him anymore, so. “No,” Nik mumbled.

“What was that?”

“I said no,” Nik snapped. “Bath? Please?”

Cameron didn’t deign him with a response as he propelled Nik towards the bathroom. He sat Nik on the toilet and went to start the bathwater. Nik couldn’t help but trace the outline of Cameron’s jaw and neck with his eyes while the water ran. His eyes lifted to the grey bruising beneath Cameron’s eyes. “Have you slept?”

“No.”

“Oh.” Nik winced internally. “Did, uh, Eden? Take a nap?”

“Two,” Cameron said. “I had the sentries make sure you didn’t stop breathing while I went to check on her.”

“Mmm. Father of the year.” Cameron threw a bar of soap at Nik, hitting him square in the head. “Okay, ow.” Nik said, rubbing his forehead. “Was that necessary.”

“No,” Cameron said, straightening. “But it was fun. Get in the tub. It’s hot, but not hot enough to scald you.” Cam was already moving to get him up before Nik was able to even start moving. He got Nik into the tub and watched him settle. “Is it too hot?” he asked, when Nik winced.

“No. Just. Wasn’t expecting it to hurt.”

Cameron’s face shifted barely, but he could tell he was displeased with Nik’s statement. “I imagine that’s a side effect from almost freezing to death,” Cameron said. Nik wrinkled his nose at the pure blunt tone from him. “You worried Lev, too.”

“Too?” Nik asked. He looked at Cameron. “Are you saying you were worried?”

“That is not what I am saying,” Cameron said. “I’m saying he was almost crying and you know I loathe crying. Don’t upset him again.”

“Yeah, okay.” Nik sunk down into the water, trying to not wince as he settled neck deep. “Is he okay, now?”

“He was sleeping in the kitchen the last time I saw him,” Cameorn said. “But I imagine he’s fine.”

Nik looked up at him. “You let him sleep in the kitchen?”

“He didn’t die,” Cameorn said, dismissively. “He was fine. Not like he was sitting outside in the middle of winter without a coat on.”

Instead of answering his bait, Nik dunked his head under the water. His face felt like it was melting off, but he deserved it. When his lungs protested, Nik finally went back for air. Cameron hadn’t moved from his spot. “Are you going to just stand there?”

“Yep.”

“Great.”

Nik sunk back down into the water and stayed in the tub until the water ran colder than Cameron’s heart. Cameron said, “Do you want it warmed up, or do you want out?”

“I guess I better get out,” Nik sighed. “Lev probably wants-”

“To know you’re not dead? I imagine so.”

Nik cut him an irritated look. “Are you going to let that go any time soon.”

“Probably not.”

Fair. “Fine.”

Cameron handed Nik a towel and went to drain the tub before helping Nik out. “Do you want clothes?”

“Never stopped me before,” Nik said.

“You also never almost died from the cold,” Cameron said. He sat Nik on the toilet. “Don’t move.” Before Nik could protest, Cameron came back with a shirt, pajama bottoms and a pair of socks. He got to his knees and started dressing Nik.

“And they say romance is dead,” Nik muttered.

Cameron pinched Nik’s thigh hard enough to bruise, but said nothing. Nik couldn’t help his small smile despite the pain now lacing through his thigh. When he finished, he got Nik to his feet and put Nik’s arm around his neck.

“I can walk,” Nik said.

“If I let you go, you will faceplant and then I’ll be cleaning angel blood of my linoleum floors.”

Nik opened his mouth, but closed it when he couldn’t think of a retort. Cameorn led him out of the room and towards the kitchen. “You’re eating.”

“Haha, like what?” Nik asked, trying to tease his way into Cameron stop being pissed at him.

Cameron cut him a dry look. “Food.”

“Just food?”

“You can eat the concrete if you want,” Cameron said.

“Och. Pass.”

“Hmm. Thought so.” Cameron did sound vaguely amused, under his annoyed tone. He’d consider it a win.

They found Lev still passed out on the floor, using his arm for a pillow when Cameron turned the lights on. Cameron looked unimpressed while he toed at Lev’s forehead to wake him up. Lev jerked awake, and smacked the back of his head against the cabinets. “Oh good, you’re awake,” Cameron said.

Lev sat up, rubbing the back of his head when he blinked up at Cameron. “What was that for?”

Cameron only shrugged. “You looked ridiculous.” Nik snorted, when Lev just sighed and got to his feet. “There a reason you were incapable of moving to a bed? Or at least a chair.”

“Didn’t mean to fall asleep. I was talking to Gramma, and then I didn’t want to move, and then you were waking me up like… that.”

Cameron was frowning. “Are you saying you were talking to that old bird while sitting on the floor.” Nik choked on a laugh and Cam moved him to a stool. He flicked Nik a small look. “If you fall from that I will not help you up.”

“Charmer,” Nik sighed, dropping his head on his arms.

Lev’s small, “You okay?” clearly was directed at Nik.

“Absolutely fabulous,” Nik sighed. “Don’t I look it.”

He could almost see Lev’s wince. “Not really.”

Nik scratched at his arm before looking to see that his bracelets weren’t on his wrist. He slowly looked up at Lev and then at Cameron. Neither of them said anything. “Where are my bracelets.”

“Cut them off,” Cameron said, unblinking. “They were cutting into your skin.”

Nik felt his face heat and then he dropped his hands into his lap. “I want new ones.”

“Then I’ll get them tomorrow,” Cameron said.

He could feel Lev looking at him. It was an effort to look back at him. Nik was a little worried that Lev had seen the scars, but he didn’t want to ask in case he hadn’t seen them. When Lev wandered closer to him, Nik slid his arm deeper between his legs.

Lev stopped in his tracks. “Do you want me to stay over here?”

Nik looked down at his arm and then to Cameron who had just leaned back against the counter, not saying a word. Right. No help there. He forced himself to look Lev, who was just looking at him patiently.

“I, um.” He didn’t want Lev to think he didn’t want him near. But he didn’t want Lev to see. His face heated and he stared down at the table. When Nik hesitated for too long, Lev retreated to the counter to lean against.

“It’s okay,” Lev said. The light tone in Lev’s voice didn’t persuade Nik much, but Lev clearly decided to steer things in a different direction, thank the stars. “I actually wanted to talk to you both about tomorrow. Gramma asked me to spend the day with her. She got some baby stuff for us, books and things I had when I was little Eden might like.”

“Like what? A little toy halo?” Cameron asked, dryly.

Lev shot Cameron a look before rolling his eyes and shaking his head. “I don’t know-”

“So there is a toy halo?” Cameron asked.

“I haven’t seen most of that stuff in well over a century. I figured it was worth a look, though. But I wanted to check with you before I told her I’d come.”

“You’re not planning on taking my baby into angel territory, are you,” Cameron asked, frowning at Lev.

Lev looked at Cam, confused. “No,” he said, “I was going to leave her here with you. Which is why I wanted to ask first.”

“Wow, you’re abandoning us,” Nik said, dryly. “Bring a baby into the mix and you’re already taking off. Should have known.”

“I don’t have to go.” Hurt and anxiety were plain on Lev’s face. “She said she’d bring what she could find if I can’t, she just misses me. And I kinda miss her. But I don’t have to go. If you need me to stay.”

Nik rolled his eyes. “Will you relax. Stars, you need to learn to take a joke. I think we can handle an infant for a day.”

Cameron said, “Go. You’re not required to stay in this house twenty-four seven.”

“No, but I figured communication was important.” Lev lifted a shoulder, half shrugging awkwardly as he pulled out his phone, likely to text his grandmother. “She’ll probably want me to stay the night, but I’ll be back by the next morning.”

“Fine,” Cameron said. “Just make sure to call before you get back. So I know you didn’t get killed in your sleep.”

“Gramma wouldn't let anything happen to me,” Lev said, looking very confused.

Cameron just snorted softly, but said nothing. Clearly he had about as faith in angels as he did literally anything else. He probably thought that Raziel would kill Lev in his sleep, or something as equally ridiculous.

“So. We’re going to be left alone with a six month old,” Nik said. “Honestly, it can’t be that hard.”

Lev gave Nik a look. “Maybe I should stay home.” “Ye of little faith,” Nik said. “We’ll be fine. Go eat with you grandmother. Cam and I will play house with the demon baby. It’ll be fun.”

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[fandima-moved-read-pinned]

Aven, all the numbers :)

1- Animated character that was your gay awakening? : I mean my gay awakening was an irl person so I don't know? I can't think of any rn 

2- Grilled cheese or PB&J? : Grilled cheese bc PB&J is gross just peanut butter and jelly are both good on their own but I don't like the way they taste combined 

3- What show/YouTube video(s) do you put on in the background when you when you don’t have anything to watch but you want something on? : Baking videos! Particularly the ones that have no voicover or any voice and you have to turn on the subtitles to know what ingredients they're using bc the words on the screen are in ankther language 

4- Your go-to bar order, if you drink? : chocolate milkshake no alcohol (the only time I've been to a bar that's what I ordered) 

5- What’s your favorite pair of shoes that you own? : My black tennis shoes, but they're really old and worn and I need new ones but I've been telling my parents for god knows how long and they don't give a shit 

6- Top three cuisines? : pfft cuisines I love that word its funny to me just I can't say it out loud without smiling or laughing anyway I guess shrimp fettuccine alfredo, medium rare steak, and fuggin uhhhhhh Danny Kids Cuisines

7- What was your first word as a child (that wasn’t a variation of “Mom” or “Dad”)?: I have no clue, I think my dad once said it was car or cat but they couldn't tell which 

8- What’s a job that you’ve had that people might be surprised to find out you’ve had?: I've never had a job really, I mean I volunteered at the library one summer but I think that's it 

9- Look up. What’s directly across from you? : A large bowl of pancake batter (I'm making pancakes rn) 

10- Do you own any signed books/memorabilia in general?: I've got an Air Force flag signed by the Air Force basketball team from that one time we went to a game. I've also got a really old shirt with the sifnirure of a country singer who I've never heard of (I don't think she made it big) 

11- Preferred way to spend a rainy day? : Drawing. Raining tends to make me want to draw more! Also watching the Great British Baking Show 

12- What do you get on your bagels? What WOULD you get if you had access to anything you wanted?: normally I don't eat bagels. But Nutella and almonds and bananas on a plain bagel is really good! Also does it mean like anything I want on a bagel? Because I will order $1M on a bagel and only eat the bagel and bam I'm rich it said ANYTHING so heck yeah it never said it has to be food 

13- Brunch or midnight snacks?: Ooh brunch! I love brunch. I've never had a midnight snack tho so I can't really say for sure. 

14- Favorite mug you own: my Coffee Mug 

Also say hi to Emrys he's helping me make dinner 

15- What coffee drink would you describe yourself as? : 3% coffee 96% sugar 1% baked beans 

16- Pick a song lyric to describe your current mood (and drop the name and artist!): "I've grown tired of this body" Body by Mother Mother 

17- Fruity or herbal teas? : Fruity I guess? I'm not a big fan of tea, but I've had this watermelon mint tea and added ice and a bunch of sugar and it was pretty good 

18- What’s that one TV show that you’re a little bit embarrassed to watch but you still like nonetheless?:.... Sonic X (it was part of my childhood and I just really like the theme and I like it in general don't judge pls) 

19- That book you were forced to read for class but actually ended up enjoying?: It wasn't a book we read as a glass but I think it was called the dragonfly something I dunno it was a while ago but it was really interesting 

20- Do you match your socks? Nope 

21- Have you ever been horseback riding?: I don't think so? 

22- What was your “phase” when you were younger? (i.e., Mythology Nerd, Horse Girl, Space Geek, etc)- creepypasta everything. Every single thing. 

23- Have you ever been to jail?: nope

24- What’s your opinion on Lazy Susan’s (the spinning tray in the middle of tables)?: I don't have an opinion on them? Is there Lazy Susan discourse I don't know about 

25- Puzzles?: no hate them they can burn 

26- You can only have one juice for the rest of your life, what is it?: Apple juice I suppose? I don't drink much juice (I only really drink water, a little bit of coffee, and milk) 

27- What section do you immediately head for when you walk into a bookstore?: Fiction/Fantasy 

28- What’s one thing you’re trying to learn/relearn in your downtime right now?: I'm trying to start sewing again! 

29- Who’s your go-to musical artist when you’re feeling upbeat?: none, I only listen to music at night and I'm not really upbeat then. 

30- Where could someone find you in a museum?: the exit (sorry I've never really enjoyed myself at museums) 

31- What’s that one outfit in your closet you never get the chance to wear but want to?: None. I don't likem my clothes. All my dresses are too small minus like one. 

32- Rainbows, stars, or sunset colored clouds?: Stars! I rarely get to see them. 

33- If you could own any non-traditional pet (dogs, cats, fish, rodents, etc), what would it be?: Are ferrets rodents? I'd like a ferret I'd name it Malfoy

34- Do you have more art on your walls or more photographs?: Art for sure. I have no photographs on my walls, only my own paintings. 

35- You have to get one meme tattooed on your body, what meme is it and where does it go?: "Yeet" in cursive on my shoulder is area place thing 

36- Pick a superhero sidekick to hang out with: none sorry I don't like superheros 

36- Lakes, rivers, or oceans?: Oceans!!!!!!!!! They're so pretty and blue and filled with fish and pretty and fun to swim in and salty and cold and nice and amazing I love the ocean I miss it 

38- Favorite mid-2000s song: I'm not sure, I don't keep track of when songs were released ;-;

39- How do you dress when you’re home alone?: Just my normal clothes. T-shirt and leggings or shorts. 

40- Where do you sit in the living room (we all have a preferred spot, and you know it)?: The Corner Spot. My my brother keeps stealing it. 

41- Knives or swords?: Knives bc you can cut bread with them 

42- A song you didn’t think you’d enjoy but ended up loving:  Body by Mother Mother. Also Burning Pile. 

43- Pick an old-school Disney Channel Original Movie: None we didn't have Djnsye when I was a kid 

44- Are you a “Quote that relates to the photos” caption-er, an “explanation of where I took the photos” caption-er, or a no caption kinda person when you post pictures online?: Quote that relates to the photos? 

44- Name a classic Vine: Why you got a twelve car garage when you only got FIFTEEN CATS CUZ WE ALL JUST WANNA BE BIG RJCJSTARS 

46- What’s the freezer food that you stock up on when you go to the grocery store?: I don't go to the store but probably ice cream 

47- How do you top your ice cream?: More Ice Cream 

48- Do you like Jello?: it's okay it's a bit odd tho 

49- What’s something that you don’t have a picture of that you wish you did?: the time I slapped a guy in the face multiple times 

50- How are you at climbing trees?: I'm pretty good at it, I climbed trees a lot as a kid and I climbed one a few weeks ago and was like "woah I'm still good at this?" 

[yeunbins]

hi idk if ur requests r open (if not feel free to ignore this) but can i request an angsty yoonbin fic? i dont really have a prompt, maybe him being jealous & a fight breaks out?

can i request a sUper angsty (but happy ending pls my heart is weak when that shit ends sad😔👊) yoonbin fic? where yoonbin gets jealous of reader & junkyu, they fight & well u kno the drill. take all the time u need on this

genre: angst

pairing: jealous!yoonbin x reader ft. junkyu

a/n: angst hours,, i feel like i cant do a happy ending atm with this kind of plot, maybe in the pt. 2 if its requested i’ll make it a happy ending. hope u like this either way!!

requests: [closed]

“junkyu that was so funny!” you slapped junkyu’s shoulder for the nth time tonight. junkyu laughs even harder causing him to fall but he caught your hand so the both of you fell down, laughing even harder than before.

“man, that was amazing” you wiped a tear away from your eyes. you hear the door open, you and junkyu looked up to see your boyfriend standing there with a blank expression.

“am i interrupting something?” he says stoically, rolling his eyes. you look at junkyu apologetically, junkyu mouths ‘it’s okay’ and stands up, brushing his clothes.

“sorry bin, we were just playing around” junkyu apologizes. yoonbin nods and junkyu leaves the room, leaving you and yoonbin alone.

yoonbin didn’t say anything else but grabbed his bag from the corner. you took this as saying that you two would be going home now. you quietly stood behind him as you two walked to his car parked outside the YG building. he unlocks the door and waits for you to get in. ‘so he’s not mad..?’ you thought to yourself. you see him go around back and opened the drivers seat, sliding in and swiftly turning the engine on. next thing you know, you were on the road again.

it was a quiet ride and you two are currently stuck in traffic. you took a glance at him, to see him leaning against the window with a hand on the steering wheel. you see him poking his cheek with his tongue. his habit he does when he’s either annoyed or angry.

“binnie” you called. “hm?” he hums, “are you mad at me?” you say quietly, playing with his jacket you’re wearing.

“i’m not” he says blandly. you pout, “are you su–“

“look y/n i’m just tired from practice okay?!” he snaps, unintentionally hitting the steering wheel. you flinch at his actions. he notices and sighs,

“i’m sorry okay? i’m... just not in the mood right now” he says, looking at the highway ahead of you two.

arriving at your shared apartment, there was heavy tension in the air and it seemed like every move you make angers yoonbin even more. you walked into your shared room with yoonbin, grabbing your pajamas to head over to the bathroom.

“you know, just because i said you could be friends with my friends doesn’t mean you have to let them flirt with you” yoonbin fakes a laugh. you stopped in your tracks and whipped your head towards yoonbin who was in the kitchen drinking a glass of water.

“he wasn’t even flirting with me. we were just talking about his trainee days with yedam and the others” you defended, furrowing your eyebrows together. yoonbin scoffs,

“so now you’re defending him too? marvelous. congratulations, you found a new boyfriend” he claps his hands obnoxiously. you slowly walked towards him as your anger bubbles inside you.

“what the fuck is up with you” you spat. “me? everything’s fine! what about you? going behind my back like that with my close friend!” he points a finger at you. at this point you lost it,

“i have done nothing but be a faithful girlfriend to you. i almost sacrificed everything to be with you and suddenly, i hang out with your friends since you’re so ‘busy’ all the time and suddenly everything is my fault!” you angrily wiped the tears that was in your eyes.

yoonbin’s chest tightened at the sight of you crying. he hated to see you cry especially when he’s the reason behind it. he felt a sudden realization that he just overreacted over the whole thing. you were right, he was in fact busy nowadays writing raps or rearranging songs or helping others.

“y/n–“ yoonbin moves around the counter but you shook your head and ran to your bedroom locking it. ‘fuck’ yoonbin mutters and follows you to the bedroom. he tries to open the door but you locked it. “y/n open up!!” he bangs on the door but you ignored him.

you grabbed a spare backpack from the top shelf of your cabinet and shoved some of your clothes to sleep in. you would rather stay at your parents place for awhile rather than living with yoonbin.

“y/n, come on! i’m sorry!” yoonbin bangs the door again. you ignored him and grabbed your phone to inform your mom you’d be staying over for awhile.

you hear the doorknob jingling and suddenly the door busts open to reveal a really worried, red faced yoonbin. he immediately ran over to you and hugged you. “i’m sorry. i’m sorry” he kept repeating in your hair. you didn’t hug him back, instead you pushed him away.

“just leave me alone” you cried. his heart broke even more. “y/n please...” you see his lips trembling but you didn’t care, you grabbed your duffel bag and walked over the door.

“i’ll be staying at a friend’s place for a while. i’ll see you wherever” you say, walking over to the front door. you hear yoonbin apologies again but you ignored them all. right before you were gonna leave, you felt arms snake around your waist.

“please.. don’t leave me...” you hear him sniffle. you removed his arms around your waist. you stare at his crying eyes. “i won’t leave you but I need some time alone, okay?” you croaked. the color from his face drained. “i’m sorry and i love you. i’ll see you later” you kissed his cheek. what you usually do before leaving off somewhere.

after you closed the door, you immediately ran to your mom’s car waiting at the lobby while yoonbin stood there staring at the front door thinking what he has done.

[lokikingofasgardslover713]

Inktober Day 1: Poisonous

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Poisonous {Oneshot}

Bruce Banner X Plus!Size Reader (Demi-jinn/Jinn-human Hybrid)

WARNINGS: This is DARK! FYI! No smut, but hints at it? Dark Bruce Banner.

Day late I know, thought you all would enjoy some dark Bruce Banner, my evil brain cooked this up, so ENJOY!

Words: +1,400

Writhing on the floor, gasping for breath wasn’t the way Y/N thought this escape would go when she was discovered. Eyes glowing with otherworldly light that felt as if it wasn’t reaching her soul, he, the one who stood over her had stripped her power, her essence, her ability to warp the reality around them, & inhuman strength all by a potion, a poison.

Taking his time getting up from the counter, taking slow strides to stand next to the writing mass that once had a human covering but now looked up with silver/blue glowing eyes that where now pleading with him to make it stop. Smirking down at Y/N as he knelt next to her still full figure, pushing a strand of unnaturally dark hair away to reveal slightly pointed ears. Y/N’ watering eyes peering up into brown orbs that sparkled with darkness, watching him pull is glasses off to place them into his pocket nonchalantly.

“It took me awhile to figure out, what you were exactly,” Bruce her once colleague, began in an amused way, not paying attention to Y/N’ shivering hand that wrapped around his wrist weakly, trying to stop him from… from what?

“You are a Huma-jinni, Demi-Jinn, something like that, but what it amounts to is one of your parents is a Jinn & the other is human, I take it,” the scientist, Bruce, the one she had come here to… to… now she’s forgetting.

“H,h,h,how,” the shivering half breed stammered out, still holding to his wrist but pretty sure at this point he was allowing it.

“Oh! That’s the amazing part,” he spoke excitedly, Y/N knew Bruce loved to explain things that had to do with science, one reason she had chosen to stay but now regretted it.

Standing excitedly, pulling his wrist free to stand over her, reaching down looping his arms under hers to drag Y/N to a chair. Oh, shit not this chair.

“You see, I,” the over exuberant scientist began, hinting to himself, pushing Y/N shivering yet limp body further back into the chair & beginning to place the straps while still explaining.

“Meaning me, Bruce, would have never known the difference between you & a regular person,” he continued becoming more animated, pressing the cuff around her neck before moving to the ones at her ankles.

“But,” he continued, popping back up like an excited little kid, “the big guy, Hulk, he noticed immediately, the frequency that you vibrate at had him yelling in my skull that something wasn’t right about you, from the get go I may add.”

Standing back to survey his work, Bruce couldn’t help the dark smile that crept across his face, finally, something to play with other than the usual aliens that he was brought when the team would return form space. A subject Bruce found attractive from her thick thighs, ample chest, thick yet still feminine figure that he would often dream about, & now had him wondering if they were dreams, given that Y/N could manipulate reality.

“What are you going to do,” the half breed chattered as if cold.

No, why was the poison wearing off, wait he, this chair, it's what they done to, no, oh, fuck, no, no.

“I believe it's obvious,” he smiled, stepping closer, looking over her head, knowing the poison was wearing off.

“You knew, you poisoned me,” Y/N shouted out between shivers, fuck why was she shivering like this?

“Yes, actually I did, perks of being a scientist, the shivering is it wearing off,” he explained mater of factly, cocking his head while stopping next to her fiddling with something she was hindered from seeing thanks to the cuff cutting into her throat.

Finally, he returned, the thick 2 gauge needle sterile pack used to deliver IV drugs to the aliens to keep them alive in his hand, jumping when Bruce jerked the sterile pack open on the tray next to her. Watching him intently fix the setup, laying it on the open pack & moving to swab over her forearm, straining to watch him.

“No, stop,” Y/N demanded, she saw what the drugs did to the aliens, made them compliant, obedient, slaves.

“It appears to me you are in no place to make demands,” Bruce deadpanned, not looking away from his task, reaching back for the IV rubbing a finger over the vein, the blue standing out on her paling forearm, heart thudding as she realized it was being monitored.

“A heart rate that slow you would be considered in heart failure, yet you're still with me,” he laughed slightly.

Bruce holding tight as Y/N struggled when the thick needle pierced her skin & vein hoping it wasn’t so big it burst it but had a felling it wasn’t that easy to mess this up. Watching bright blue sparkle into the tube to show he had hit the vein. Not looking up at her or paying heed to the snarl that Y/N let go of when he stuck her, reaching back to the vials to draw samples before pumping her full of the ones needed to keep her alive during experimentation.

“You are very fascinating, were to worried with searching outer space,” he spoke, reaching up to pull his glasses out & back on, holding the last vile up looking at the contents, before hooking the tube to the machine.

“It appears we need to keep looking on this planet,” Bruce spoke devilishly, finally looking at Y/N.

Body going numb, accepting its fate, hoping that this would be a swift death, but the way he looked at her was telling the shivering Demi-Jinn that wasn’t going to happen. It appeared Y/N would be one of the lucky ones that got to stay, free of charge, in the pit, as they liked to call it. Thrashing her head back, hitting it on the back of the chair in anger, & watching Bruce hurry about to start the drip. Darkness creeping in, but it didn’t take her, it dazed her, stopped her self-harm.

“We can’t have you damaging yourself sweetheart, I want to keep you for a long time, & so does the Hulk,” the scientist smiled wickedly, his smile more poisonous than what ever he had gotten her with.

“We, we, I’ve worked with you for years Bruce, don’t do this,” Y/N breathed out, trying to hold down the panic trying to swallow the cotton in her mouth.

“Yes, we have, but that doesn’t excuse you from hiding what you are Y/N, I wish I would have known earlier. But, because I have known you for so long, I believe I will keep you for myself,” he admitted reaching behind her to come back with a bottle of water, opening to place it to her lips, allowing her to drink it greedily.

“You will…,” Y/N gulped in her haze the sentence finally registering HE, not Stark, not SHIELD, intending to keep her to himself.

“It will be easy, I’ll formulate, another poison if you will, that will keep you compliant, & I’ll keep you here, with me, in the lab or wherever I go,” he smiled, leaving the bottle at her lips, making sure she didn’t need more.

“A pet, you will make me your pet,” Y/N gulped, looking at him through hazy silver/blue eyes their light still intense but filled with terror, his grin making her guts twist, or was that a reaction to the drugs?

“Another way of putting,” Bruce smiled, pulling the bottle away to place it on the tray, then turning back to her.

“So, it looks like we are ready,” he smirked, straitening & stepping back to make sure the screens where registering all the data.

“No, Bruce please,” Y/N now pealed, watching him pick up a scalpel.

“I'm sorry Y/N it's too late, you should have told me sooner so that I wouldn’t have to go this far to understand what you are,” he explained, picking up a pair of clamps & a vile that had liquid in it, he was taking a tissue sample.

“Ok, I'm sorry, I’ll, I’ll do what you want, just let me go, I’ll comply, pl…,” Y/N rambled out before letting out a scream of pain as the scalpel cut into the flesh of her thigh, Bruce having cut her scrubs to get to the area & swabbed over it quickly.

“To late for apologies Y/N,” Bruce spoke coldly, standing & placing the tissue into the vile before looking to Y/N & stooping back over to bandage the wound.

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Tag

85 questions tag thingy

Rules: When you get tagged answer the 80- something questions. After that you’re supposed to tag 25 people

Tagged by my cutiepie @kachuwritings, thank you!

What was your:

1. Last beverage: Water

2. Last phone call: On the Luas with a friend I was meeting in town

3. Last text: My kpopsistar <3 @jaexmins

4. Last song: Egyptian Pools - Jinsang

5. Last time you cried: Last night when I thought it would be a good idea to listen to emotional piano music while reading fluffy scenarios

Have you ever:

6. Dated someone twice: Nope. It ends for a reason.

7. Been cheated on: Thankfully not. It doesn’t really count as cheating but a mutual crush asked if he could date my friend (literally after we made plans to start dating the next month after our exams). I never got with him in the end and he then began dating another friend of mine while flirting with the other so...

8. Kissed anyone and regretted it: Lmao yes because it was only one person and I never enjoyed any of the kisses. Here’s tip for ppl: don’t go straight for tongue or pressure someone into it T-T

9. Lost someone special: Of course

10. Been depressed: I’ve been sad but I wouldn’t call it depression

11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope! I don’t drink >.<

List your three favourite colours:

12. Purple

13. Pink

14. Blue

In the last year have you:

15. Made a new friend: Soooo many and I’m really happy with them ^-^

16. Fallen out of love: I wasn’t ‘in love’ but I did lose feelings for a crush after he started ghosting me and being a dick for no reason lol

17. Laughed so hard that I cried: Yes XD

18. Met someone who changed you: My new friends, I suppose. They made me feel more confident and welcomed :)

19. Found out who your true friends are: Yup

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Probably but I obviously didn’t care enough to remember lol

21. Kissed anyone on your FB list: Nope

22. How many people do you know on your FB list: I don’t have that many friends on my list so I’d say like 95% of them since I don’t really add randos

Randoms:

23. Do you have any pets: A cat and a dog now too ;-; <3

24. Do you want to change your name: No, I love it! I don’t even want to change my surname if I get married tbh. Its really uncommon and no one has ever heard of it before :o

25. What did you do for your last birthday party: My mum insisted I dress up really fancy (and while I do normally do go fancy, this was like princess dress fancy) and she even put a tiara on me lmao. I thought we were just going for dinner with the four of us and then suddenly all my other relatives (including my dad’s side who are just horrible and don’t care about us!) were there to surprise me ;-; They even made me wear this fancy 18th birthday banner and because it was a buffet, I had to constantly walk down past everyone in my little prom dress and tiara lol. I kept making eye contact with this one girl in particular and we ended up making friends later in college before even realising we had seen each other before :O

26. What time did you wake up this morning: at: Around half ten?

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Talking about ice cream and aggressively sending each other heart memes with @kikitsaaa ^-^

28. Something you can’t wait for: To adopt our little doggo <3

29. Last time you saw your mother: Like twenty minutes when I went downstairs to make myself a bowl of cereal

30. One thing you wish you could change about your life: My health so that I wouldn’t have to worry so much and could have more freedom

31. What are you listening to right now: Try Me - The Weeknd

32. Have you ever talked to a Tom: Yeah, I worked with a Tom for a group assignment. There was also one in another one of my classes and we’d have some banter together

33. What’s getting on your nerves right now: The amount of bugs and shit that keep flying right in my face anytime I open the window for fresh air

34. Most viewed webpage: Tumblr, Youtube and WordHippo (because I’m a writing nerd and that shit is amazing)

35. Nickname: Niamho, Niamhie, another one but that includes my surname so I won’t say it here...

36. Relationship status: Single and I’m kinda indifferent about it?

37. Zodiac sign: Leo

40. College: I won’t give out the name but its amazing ^-^

41. Hair colour: Blonde

42. Long or short: Medium, I guess? Like its just past my shoulders

43. Height: 161cm/5′3″

44. Do you have a crush on someone: Unless idols count, then no haha

45. What do you like about yourself: A lot actually, it just took me a while to do so. Physically, I like my lips the most? Personality, I like my hardworking nature and the passion I put into my work.

46. Tattoos: None

47. Right or left handed: Leftie!

48. First piercing: My ears but they aren’t anymore because I had to take them out for hospital scans and had such pain putting them back in that I was just like “Fuck this nope”

49. First best friend: Daniel. He was my childhood sweetheart. We don’t talk anymore and we’ve both grown up and found different people. Our mums are still friends though!

50. First sport you joined: Karate when I was 6 and did it right up until last year >.<

51. First vacation: Lanzarote

53. Eating: Well, I just finished my cereal a few minutes ago?

54. Drinking: Water

55. About to: Continue working on a song I started writing last night

57. Listening to: Somebody Else - Vérité

58. Waiting for: “a brand new day” jk jk but go listen to that bop (Kodaline need to pay me for me promoting them all the time istg) I’m actually waiting for my sister to wake up so I can ask her if we can play her ps4 together haha ^-^

Your future:

59. Want kids: No thanks!!!!

60. Get married: Yeah, I think so? I’m not in any rush to do so though.

61: Career: Would love to be an author but I doubt that will happen realistically. Probably a marketing executive. Not that its shit, but I’d just rather be doing what I love XD

Which is better:

62. Lips or eyes: I love both but I’m a sucker for puppy eyes c:

63. Hugs or kisses: Neither lmao but I’ll go with hugs since I’ve grown to tolerate them more. My hugs are like 0.4 seconds long or I just kinda stand there and be like “can we pls just stay like this for another minute k thx” T-T

64. Shorter or taller: Taller but not too tall because then I actually feel kinda scared XD

65. Older or younger: Older or maybe my age, but not younger because boys my age are immature enough as it is T-T

66. Romantic or spontaneous: Define romantic...? Because my idea of romance is like going to Build A Bear and getting ice creams ^^’

67. Nice stomach or arms: Certified arm enthusiast oops >.<

68. Loud or sensitive: I’m a mix of both so finding someone who has a healthy balance would be nice lol. Too loud and I feel overwhelmed and frustrated if I can’t get a word in, too sensitive and I’ll feel overwhelmed again because kdfljmdsb I’m not good with dealing with other’s emotions

69. Hook-up or relationship: Realtionship 1000%. Hookups are a big nonononono for me. I can’t even kiss someone if I’m not in a relationship with them tbh. Call me a prude, its just who I am ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

70. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant because same bro lets just chill together

71. Kissed a stranger: Never

72. Drank hard liquor: Never

73. Lost glasses/contacts: Don’t wear them so no

74. Had sex on a first date: Noooo I’m pure >.<

75. Broken someone’s heart: Yes, but you can’t force yourself to like someone and vice versa

76. Been arrested: Nope

77. Turned someone down: Yep and then he bullied me even though I actually stopped the bullies from picking on him in the first place? XD

78. Cried when someone died: Yes

79. Fallen for a friend: Yep, that’s how most of my crushes begin

Do you believe in:

80. Yourself: Deep down, yes. I just that little bit from someone else though ^^’

81. Miracles: I’m more a fate person?

83. Heaven: I’m not religious so...

84. Santa Claus: I wish T-T

85. Kisses on first dates: I don’t do them personally but I wouldn’t judge others if they did :S

Okay, I’m not sure if I have 25 people to tag so I’m gonna go with these lovelies: @kikitsaaa @staarchild @happysmilebtr @kpopismyasethic @jungkooks-bunny @cosmicrailwaybisexual @thefroghyungwon @ltaeyonqs @jaexmins @plaisirgrief @jacksonsdeer @marcus-lee9 @oppafeels @lamptastical

[narisjournal-blog]

A Lot To Learn (Part 2): I Fell to Pieces

A LOT TO LEARN MASTERLIST

Chuck x Reader Fobwatch AU Word Count: 1,556

Chuck has a secret that even he doesn’t know. But you do. And you are sworn to protect him and keep his secret safe inside a fobwatch necklace you keep with you at all times.

Dealing with the aftermath of a prophetic seizure isn’t fun. Chuck struggles to function. Luckily he has you to take care of him and support him as he prepares to face what was written.

Warnings: Mostly domestic fluff, but a poorly Chuck. You will probably have a strong urge to cuddle him. So if you can handle that, read on.

***

Chuck felt himself spinning, gliding through the universe faster than he could think. But even so, he felt right. It felt like where he was supposed to be. He could see planets spinning gloriously through space, stars bowing to his command as they shone in the night sky that hung over the Earth.

Their brightness grew and grew and it became too much. The light scratched across the inside of his eyelids and pounded in his head.

He awoke feverish and in pain.

Chuck groaned. His temples throbbed and his neck was stiff, pain travelling all the way down to his shoulders. He flinched against the bright light that stuck to his vision as though he had been looking into the sun itself.

Light seeped through the crack in the drapes but even the small amount it gave was too much. He closed his eyes and covered them with his hand. He massaged small circles around his aching eyeballs.

Peeking through his fingers, he found the tablets he knew would be there, feeling around on the side before they were in his grasp. He swallowed two and chased them with water.

He rolled back over and buried his head under the pillow. He noticed the intoxicating smell of your perfume on the sheets as he slid back into unconsciousness.

***

A few hours later, Chuck blinked awake. He felt rough but better. The room span as he sat himself up and he rubbed at his eyes to clear them.

He could see now, but his head still throbbed. He eyed the box of tablets still on the side. He had no idea how long ago he had taken them.

And then his thoughts drifted once more to you.

He could hear you shuffling around downstairs and he smiled. Where would he be without you?

He took the stairs slowly, running his hands through his messy curls. His robe hung limply, sliding off his shoulders and catching in the crooks of his elbows; he didn’t care to correct it.

As he approached the kitchen he had to stop and cover his eyes again. That was the one light you had left on.

‘Chuck?’ You called when you heard him. He groaned. ‘Honey?’

You realised what was wrong and flipped off the light.

He sighed with relief.

'Thanks.’ He continued to shuffle into the room and slumped down into one of the chairs at the table.

'Morning,’ you smiled. 'How’s your head?’ He only groaned again. 'Hungry?’

Chuck rubbed his eyes with the heels of his hands. 'Yeah,’ he said simply.

You pushed the bread you had ready down in the toaster and hummed to yourself as you got the Butter from the fridge.

Chuck blinked, his eyes now focussing on you as you moved about.

You wore some of his pyjama pants and his burgundy hoodie zipped up about a third of the way over your vest top. One of the shoulders had slid down because it was a little on the big side and he realised how incredibly cute you looked. You glanced over to see that adorable slanted smile he did when he thought you didn’t notice.

Before he had time to admire the rest of you, the strong smell of ground beans hit his nose.

'Is that coffee?’ He asked.

'Mmm,’ you said. 'No no. Water first.’ You filled a glass and set it in front of him. He drained the glass gratefully. You took it back from him and refilled it.

'Drink this one slowly.’

He nodded and did as you said, nursing the glass as though it were sacred medicine.

His vulnerability struck you again and he caught you watching him.

'I know. It’s a pathetic sight, right?’

You laughed. 'No. Humbling,’ you corrected. He tilted his head, but before he could question you, the toast popped up and you moved to get it.

'That smells amazing,’ Chuck remarked, then took another sip of his water.

'Carbohydrate,’ you said, smiling back at him over your shoulder while you spread the butter.

You sliced it into triangles and set it in front of him. You spread another two pieces that had popped up in the meantime and sat down opposite him at the table.

Chuck ate his toast, closing his eyes and savouring as if it was the first thing he’d eaten in weeks.

'Thank you,’ he said once he finished his mouthful. 'Honestly, I… you’re so good to me.’

'Ha,’ you said. 'What if it’s all an act?’ You bit into your toast not meeting his eyes.

Chuck considered this as he chewed more toast.

'One of these days I’m gonna come down and find you’ve robbed me, aren’t I?’

You laughed. 'Seriously?’ You looked around the run down house with its sparse and worn-out contents. 'What am I gonna rob, Chuck?’

He shrugged. 'Or I’ll be in a bath of ice, minus my kidneys.’

You made a show at considering. 'They would go for a nice sum on the black market. But trust me,’ you said, pointing at him with a corner of toast. 'You have more valuable assets than your body.’ You raised your eyebrow pointedly.

Just as he was about to make a joke about being super cute, his eyes fell on the laptop that sat beside him on the table. He paused, his toast half way to his mouth.

'What does it say?’ He said, flicking his eyes to you cautiously.

You shook your head. 'That’s not my place, Chuck. It’s your words. I left them for you.’

He smiled. 'You know I love you, right?’

'I love you too. I’m right here. Whatever you need.’

He finished his toast in silence, then cleared his throat.

'That coffee would be nice, please,’ he said, running his hand over his beard. His other hand hovered over the laptop.

'Coming right up,’ you said, clearing up the plates and heading to the coffee machine.

He found his glasses that you had left on the table for him and slid them on. When he opened the screen, the document took a moment to load. He flinched slightly at the brightness of the white, but his eyes soon adjusted.

And there it was. The latest prophecy. He sighed and began to read.

As his eyes darted back and forth, chin resting on his hand, you placed his black coffee in front of him. You stood with your hand on his shoulder and read it with him.

You absent-mindedly brushed your fingers over the grooves and patterns in the locket at your chest. The pads of your fingers moved over the smooth glass of the watch face through the fabric of your vest. It a was comforting action.

As you read, relief flooded you. This was ok. Sam and Dean could handle it. Chuck had no part in this play. For now. You could feel the tension seep out of the man beside you as well. He looked back at you and slid his hand into the small of your back, pulling you gently closer.

You took the hint and sat down on his knee, your arm around his shoulder as you both read the remainder of the prophecy.

The final paragraph made your heart pound in your chest. Castiel was looking for God. Or would be soon.

This was not good. Castiel was a stubborn angel and he really needed his father right now.

The locket seemed heavier all of a sudden, its presence weighing down like guilt on your chest. You clutched it in your hand and inhaled deeply.

The weight hung around your neck was leaving an ever larger absence in the universe.

You cleared your throat. 'How much do you know about this amulet Castiel mentions?’

'Mmm?’

'Does it… work? I mean, does it really burn bright in the presence of God?’ You realised you were gripping his shoulder much tighter than was necessary and let go.

He only shrugged. 'You would think so. I remember it actually. Dean was wearing it when they were here.’

You exhaled slowly, understanding. 'Really?’ You tried to sound casually interested.

'Yeah. I remember being a little fixated. It was an ugly thing. I realised it must have meant a lot to him for him to wear it.’ He laughed and you relaxed.

Chuck was safe. For now.

'Come on,’ you said, squeezing his shoulder. 'Fresh air is what you need. It’s noon.’

'Mmm hey could you rub my neck? It’s still a little stiff.’

You sighed and stood up, obliging his request. You pushed into the hard knots you found with your thumbs.

Without thinking, your chest pressed against his back and a judder ran through his body.

'Oh God,’ he gasped. 'Whatever you hit there… it’s like it’s connected to everything.’

You flinched and closed your eyes, realising what you’d done. You continued to rub, knowing what was about to happen.

He flexed his shoulders and rolled his neck.

'It’s literally gone. The pain is just gone,’ he remarked, dumbfounded. He turned to look at you just as you opened your eyes to regain your composure.

'You must have a healing touch,’ he grinned.

You smiled guiltily.

'I guess I have.’

***

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i was tagged by @jacksbutland! Legit havent done one of these in agessss so thankssss for the tag!! <33

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

LAST:

1. Drink: water

2. Phone Call: my sister literally just called me whilst making this.. she wanted to know if we had poppadoms at home lol

3. Text message: to my sister about fantasy pl… we love football.

4. Song you listened to: m.A.A.d city by Kendrick Lamar

5. Time you cried: last night listening to some song :) (was a sad song but i love a good cry)

6. Dated someone twice: nahh dont think i’d ever go back to someone i once dated but who knows!

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: only once tbh which is good considering

8. Been cheated on: nah

9. Lost someone special: yeah

10. Been depressed: dont think so, feeling low perhaps but nothing long-term

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: im never usually sick when I get drunk! although i was really ill when I was spiked in my first year at uni which was fucking horrible. I was lucky to get home.

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12-14. burgundy, dark green and navy blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: countless!

16. Fallen out of love: nahhh

17. Laughed until you cried: definitely

18. Found out someone was talking about you: probably

19. Met someone who changed you: in a way everyone has an impact but i dont think i’ve changed too much!

20. Found out who your friends are: i always knew

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: a few

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them!

23. Do you have any pets: yep! Got a loooovely black cat called Mac :D

24. Do you want to change your name: nope

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I was working on my actual birthday but the day after i went to Brighton Pride which was incredible!!!

26. What time did you wake up: 6:25am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping lmao

28. Name something you can’t wait for: to go to Cambodia this November to work as a volunteer at a children’s centre for 5 weeks! Ganna be amazing!

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: this morning!

30. What is the one thing you wish you could change in your life: I wish my relationship with my mum was better.. i wish i could tell her important personal things but i feel awks about it!

31. What are you listening to right now: erm nothing

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: looooads

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: the world tbh

34. Most visited website: probs tumblr, fb and youtube

35. Elementary: I hardly remember it but primary school was fun!

36. High School: yep i went to secondary school and then college for 2 years (before uni)

37. College: just finished university… time to do something with my degree yikes lol

38. Haircolor: light/normal brown?

39. Long or short hair: loooong as i havent cut it in nearly a year… i need to do that/

40. Do you have a crush on someone: nope

41. What do you like about yourself: I like my sense of humour and outlook on life. Oh and my hair :)

42. Piercings: just the standard ears

43. Bloodtype: not a clue!

44. Nickname: some people call me Els or Ellie but I’m fine with Eleanor!

45. Relationship status: single

46. ??? if this is about my relationship status, im just living life tbh

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite TV Show: game of thrones probs.. its the only one i watch!

49. Tattoos: not yet! I want to get one of a Fox though because its the family name!

50. Right or left: im right handed

51. Surgery: i’ve had stitches but no major surgery

52. Piercing: ears

53. Sport: is life. whilst my favourite sport to watch is football, my fav sport to play is lacrosse! I honestly looooove it :D

54. ??? same tbh

55. Vacation: not been on one this year yet! but my best friend wants to go to benidorm (lol) with me next year for some bants

56. Pair of trainers: i have some…

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: love popcorn

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: do nothing all evening other than eat

60. ??? yep

61. Waiting for: my summer job to finish so i can go back to doing fuck all

62. Want: to watch weekend football

63. Get married: not sure i want to, but definitely not yet

64. Career: well ive got a degree and now im a qualified OT sooo i better find a bloody job init

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: both

66. Lips or eyes: well eyes can be really pretty but lips are pretty amazing too

67. Shorter or taller: im only 5′1 so practically everyone’s taller

68. Older or younger: probs older

69. ??? i know

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms. love a good bicep.

71. Sensitive or loud: both

72. Hook up or relationship: atm hook up.

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: neither

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: many a time

75. Drank hard liquor: yes

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nahhh dont wear glasses!

77. Turned someone down: yes

78. Sex on the first date: ..not always intentionally but sometimes it just happens, nothing wrong with it. #dealwithit

79. Broken someones heart: hope not!

80. Had your heart broken: nope

81. Been arrested: nah

82. Cried when someone died: yes

83. Fallen for a friend: sadly yes but they never found out and im waaayyy over it so its cool!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: YES. im my own cheerleader tbh

85. Miracles: nah

86. Love at first sight: not really

87. Santa Claus: no

88. Kiss in the first date: totally! doesnt have to happen but sure!

89. Angels: nope

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: Lauren. I’ve known her for 17 or so years (fuck that is long)

91. Eyecolor: to quote my bestfriend, my eyes are “the colour of the brown colouring pencil no one uses.” thanks lauren.

92. Favorite movie: fuck knows tbh! I have looooads!

i’m tagging @ander-herrera, @harryswinks, @jordanshenderson, @thiagosalcantaras, @tiny-red-dancer, @stevenbirnbaum, @lunarks, @jacksannie, @leivangel aaaand anyone else if you wanna!

[cheolies-angels]

92 Questions

I was tagged by @l-etaeyong Thanks :) Rules: Answer the questions and then tag 20 people. LAST 1. Drink: Tea 2. Phone call: Dad 3. Text message: My Nan 4. Song you listened to: Wild Thoughts - Rihanna/ DJ Khaled/ Bryson Tiller 5. Time you cried: probably 2006 (haha…honestly i’m not emotionally unavailable… don’t know what your talking about???) 6. Dated someone twice: As in the same person? No 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: I didn’t regret it at the time but looking back I’m like…ew 8. Been cheated on: Not that I know of 9. Lost someone special: Not really, i’ve been very lucky 10. Been depressed: I feel like that’s such a strong thing to claim and I’d never want to identify with something like that without a diagnosis, however I have had all of the symptoms in their mildest form 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: It’s exam season, so I haven’t even drank in like three months, March LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: Orange, Yellow, Teal IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Yes, but like I’ve always known them we just became close this year 16. Fallen out of love: Honey, I’m going to need at least 10 years to fall in love in the first place, god help me falling out of it 17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah I do that a lot 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Probably, who hasn’t 19. Met someone who changed you: Nope 20. Found out who your friends are: I found I have none loool 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Yeah GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Probably a good 78% 23. Do you have any pets: I have a cat and a kitten 24. Do you want to change your name: No, that’d be so confusing 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I was in Canada and I did a canoe and biking weekend on a lake and I loved it 26. What time did you wake up: 8:47am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching Grey’s Anatomy and on tumblr 28. Name something you can’t wait for: UNI (If I get there lol pray 4 me) 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 10 mins ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: It’d be nice to be hot 31. What are you listening right now: Swim - Fickle Friends 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yeah, I swear 67% of British boys are called Tom 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Jonny on Love Island (rt if you can relate) 34. Most visited Website: Twitter & Youtube 35. Elementary: Primary school, golden play miss u more n more every day xxx 36. High School: Finished a few months ago 37. College: AcTually gEt mE to uNi (pls let me in) 38. Haircolor: Brunette 39. Long or short hair: Long ass hair, it needs a cut 40. Do you have a crush on someone: My town is so small, like there’s no one new, I know everyone on a friend basis so don’t really have a crush, but can confirm I have a LARGE crush on Jung Hoseok 41. What do you like about yourself: My skin and eye colour 42. Piercings: I have my ears pierced but I look like a radgie if I wear them 43. Bloodtype: no idea 44. Nickname: loads of people call me flozza g, but as a joke 45. Relationship status: Single 47. Pronouns: She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: Arrested Development, New Girl, Rick & Morty (those are my humour down to a T) 49. Tattoos: Not yet, but I plan to have as many as I can have whilst retaining my career 50. Right or left: Right handed 51. Surgery: Never 52. Piercing: Not really 53. Sport: can’t say I’ve heard of it?? Is that a sauce?? 55. Vacation: I’ve been to lots of amazing places and I want to travel much more in the future 56. Pair of trainers: my neon nikes (I LOVE THEM) MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: I’m not eating anything right now but now I feel like getting food 58. Drinking: Water 59. I’m about to: carry on watching love island 61. Waiting for: The adverts to finish 62. Want: Peanut butter cup (think I might be taking this to literally) 63. Get married: Yes 64. Career: I have so many plans for my career and that’s why this is the worst bit because I have to wait for results that could either make or break it WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: Depends on the situation 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: Taller 68. Older or younger: Older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Nice arms. 71. Sensitive or loud: Loud 72. Hook up or relationship: Depends on the person it’s with 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Troublemaker 74. Kissed a stranger: Nope, I’m so bad at random get withs, I like a conversation first 75. Drank hard liquor: Yeah (cor do I smell a legend) 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Not yet 77. Turned someone down: Yeah 78. Sex in the first date: I think if the fire is there, every situation is different 79. Broken someones heart: I don’t think anyone’s ever liked me enough to have their heart broken by me 80. Had your heart broken: Not properly, but I’ve been hurt 81. Been arrested: Nope 82. Cried when someone died: Yeah 83. Fallen for a friend: I’ve got with a guy friend, but I don’t catch feelings like that 84. Yourself: huh 85. Miracles: No, Science x 86. Love at first sight: Not really, but it makes a great story 87. Santa Claus: who else delivers the presents? 88. Kiss in the first date: do you x 89. Angels: Nope OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: food 91. Eyecolor: Light Green 92. Favorite movie: Airplane

I tag @penguinsoo0112, @kpopxotp and @your-noisilyhauntednut-love

[prinxiety-logicalitysanderssides]

1-97 NOW ITS UR TURN I DONT EVEN CARE THAT THIS IS MY MAIN U GOTTA SUFFER TOO

I. BLOODY. DID. IT. ITS TAKEN ME /TWO DAYS/ BUT I’VE DONE IT @princeyandanxiety and I’m tagging @use-it-ironically Ironi u do it too pls. I was subjected to this after I subjected Bella to this so now u have to.

Btw this is NSFW ( some of it) and mentions suicide/depression cause I went there. There is some serious truth tea in this god damnit. I put thought and love into this. And also memes but mostly LOVE and boredom. I also feel like I forgot to answer a question or two but whatever. This is 97 questions long. And it’s 2818 words.

By the end of this, you will understand that I am a wreck

Ask me things1. What’s your middle name? No.

2. What are you listening to right now? The sound of typing cause I’m not listening to music. Also the sound of my breath and the wind in the trees. V/ relaxing. (( that was yesterday, today I’m listening to MCR and sanders Sides videos at a loud volume on chromecast on my tv))

3. What was the last thing you ate? ¼ of a cup of icing sugar. I ate it out of the measuring cup lmao.

4. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My mum. I do talk to other people, I swear! I’m just not good at phone calls

5. Do you drink? No and I won’t in the future. Lemonade all the way if I have to drink smth.

6. Do you smoke? No and I never ever will.

7. What is the first thing you noticed in someone? Someone as in??? Random or??. In Randoms I usually notice people’s faces and then clothes, especially if they’re eye catching. I notice memorabilia/fan stuff pretty quickly as well.

8. What is your hair color? Brown but I use hair dye to make it partially blue or purple or red sometimes. It doesn’t work very well unless I bleach my hair and I can’t do that till I’m 16 which sucks. I use hair spray every now and again, I have white hair spray and glitter hair spray, and I used to have blue as well. Glitters my favourite . I also have a full rainbow of hair chalk but my friends and I dropped it at one point during the Hair Incident of Grade Eight which is what I’m calling it now.

9. What is your eye color? Blue/Grey ish. 10. Do you wear contacts/glasses? Nope. My mum says I will if I keep looking at my screen for hours on end though. I don’t want glasses cause my 20/20 vision is serving me well and I like it.

11. Dogs or cats? Rabbits.

12. What’s your favorite animal? Rabbits/see above

13. What’s your favorite television show? Gilmore girls. Hands down the best.

14. What’s your favorite movie? I don’t really have one? Princess Bride, Sound of Music and the Captain America movies. Oh and Heathers.

15. What’s your favorite band/singer? I can’t choose but Alessia Cara comes to mind? Scars to your Beautiful? And MCR. And Panic! At the Disco and Fall Out Boy. I’m an emo nightmare tbh

16. How old are you? Bich no u can guess. I’m a minor tho.

17. Do you have a crush on anyone? No. But I want a girlfriend/datemate ( all the boys my age are awful and the girls/nonbinary people r better)

18. What’s your sexual orientation? Pansexual. To keep it simple anyway.

19. What’s your favorite color? Aqua blue/ the green of Australian forests

20. What was your most embarrassing moment? Going up on stage in like,, grade six, for a talent show, that I decided to volunteer for THAT DAY and literally singing which is fine but I kept shuffling not dancing and the other kid I was doing it with was kinda dancing and we fucking sucked. But I’m at a different school half the city away now thank god.

21. Do you ever wish you were someone else? Characters in stories, yeah, but like, I want to be in their universe, with their mind and my mind combined so I’m more them than me but I also remember that I want to give people a piece of my mind and fix the universe and make everyone happy but also have angst before that. I project a lot tbh. Oh well.

22. What were you like when you were a kid? I ran away from the class a lot, a ‘difficult’ and 'problem’ child. I have ADHD.

23. What would your dream house be like? Huge, I would want to have lots of pets and secret rooms and a big library and have it surrounded by country side and let scouts have camps near by and stuff

24. What last made you laugh? There were a few things but I forgot damn. But probably my bunnies antics I swear they r ridiculous sometimes( all the time) (( that was yesterday, today its sanders Sides videos again whoops))

25. What is your favorite word ? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) its called a Lenny and I love it

26. What is your least favorite word? Poo. Or moist. Both are awful.

27. What turns you on? Coffee when I wake up

28. What turns you off? Sleeping pills

29. What is your star sign? Aquarius

30. What are your favorite books? TAMORA PIERCE’S 'The circle of Magic ’ quartet and all of its sequels and Tamora Pierces 'The Lionness’ quartet and her 'Protector of the small’ quartet, really, all of her books. Also the Obernewtyn series which is FUCKING AMAZING. ITS BY AN AUSSIE AUTHOR, ISOBELLE CARMODY WHO IVE MEET TWICE AND THEY R SMAZINGSOWNFKEFKWJCKD YES.

31. Do you have any siblings? Only child, suck it.

32. Do you like to dance?Yes, but I’m not a professional or up to date with the latest ~moves~

33. What is your definition of cheating? This is hard cause my definition is in my head but it’s hard to explain. I’m gonna try though.( ACTUALLY I’m gonna come back and write this later) (( lmao I never did go back and write this but it basically depends on what people in a relationship have agreed it to mean bc I’m tired and this is complicated))

34. Have you ever cheated on someone? No I’ve never dated anyone.

35. Do you regret anything? A few things. Not gonna get into them tho. I do regret not working harder in grade seven and eight.

36. Do you have any phobias? Not really no. I hate leeches with a fiery passion and there are spiders next to my shower which I don’t like but other than that, no.

37. Ever broken any bones? No and I’d like to understand what it feels like tbh

38. Ever come close to death? When I walk anywhere cause I’m yes. Does being suicidal back when I was eleven count? And the fact it recurs every now and again? Also

39. What is your religion, if any? I piece together my own world view, based on many philosophies and science.

40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? I’m going to one rn actually. School counsellor who is great and has lollipops and also let my friends and I play monopoly in her office all lunch. I lost. The bell was about to go so I just flipped the board upside down cause why not? My friends made me clean it up lmao 41. Are looks important in a relationship? Depends

42. Are you more like your mom or your dad? I pray I’m more like my mum as my dad is an awful person tbh

43. What is your favorite season? Whichever one I’m not sneezing in/ when it’s warm/ I don’t really have one

44. Do you have any tattoos? No 45. Do you have any piercings? I did have normal ear piercings but they grew over

46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? None

47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? Have you met me

48. Who is your celebrity crush? Thomas Sanders

49. Are you a virgin? Again, have you meet me. YES. Obviously.

50. Do you get jealous easily? Define 'jealous’. I mean, kind of. Not usually.

51. What is your favorite type of food? Pasta.

52. Do you ever want to get married?Depends, I mean, LGBT marriage isn’t legal in Australia for whatever fucking stupid reason ( the reason is homophobic pollies, literally 90% of Australia wants fucking gay marriage goddamnit)

53. Who was your first kiss with? Lmao I haven’t had one

54. Have you ever been cheated on? See above

55. What is your idea of the perfect date? ?'not sure tbh?

56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? Extroverted introvert. I like meeting people and i have lots of friends but I also need my space. I’m an introvert.

57. Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? After seeing the 'thingu’ video, I hope not. I do believe in other life but not as sentient as us? Well, at least I don’t think we will find any sentient aliens now that we elected trump tbh

58. What talent do you wish you’d been born with?Be a great dancer?

59. What is your saddest memory? Not today Satan

60. Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe you can find someone aesthetically pleasing at first sight, at first talk, you can like them for their personality. So kind of? But not really. Movie love sucks tho. Unrealistic.

61. Do you believe in soul mates? Kind of. I wish we had a soulmate au irl

62. Have you ever dyed your hair? See above ( yes)

63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?I don’t really look at gossip so??? No? They could be talking about me all the time lmao I got bullied from 11-13 years old but that’s different and now I can’t be fucking bothered to listen to bullies

64. Would you go against your moral code for money?Depending on the circumstances. I’m not evil. Very rarely would I ever do that and I have never actually done that.

65. What are three things most people don’t know about you? . My teachers think I have asbergers(autism) and I agree but my parents don’t . NSFW as hell?? I mean most people would look at my chumb face and think I’m innocent i would guess. . I want a datemate? Like I haven’t really acknowledged that but like every opnow and again this Year and

66. Who are you jealous of? People who get more likes than me

67. Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?Yes, but only if my bed is clean IE It has been washed within the last week. Sometimes I don’t wash my sheets for a month and i don’t want to subject my Rabbit toy to that. She’s thirty-nine years old.

68. How long was your longest relationship? No

69. Is the glass half empty or half full?Half empty, I drank half the water.

70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Nsfw fanfiction for sanders sides. Nah, I don’t really know as I’m still in high school I’m in Grade Nine . So like? How would I know? (But seriously pls write more nsfw)

71. Who is your most loyal friend? My best friend Addy? ( she was the one we tried to comb her hair) or you people

72. Are you in a relationship? Ok this is getting annoying

73. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? Come ON.

74. Are you a bad person? Depends. Is the scale puppies to trump or a grumpy cat to trump. Cause I’m in the low-middle of the first scale and at the bottom of the second.

75. Are you a lover or a fighter? I wanna fite but I don’t bite and I’m usually just high as a kite.

76. What did you do on your last birthday? Like… nothing. Mum and I have to save money for scout camps ( there’s a big Venture I’m going on at the start of next year, AV2018) and I couldn’t be bothered to have a birthday party when I would have to have one just before or after term starts, my birthday is the 24th of Jan. Usually I have my party like a week after school starts again but I couldn’t be bothered.

77. What is your favorite quote and why? “I’m sceptical that you could, yet intrigued that you may” I got it off a screenshot on tumblr ALSO “What are you looking at?” “ Something Replusive” “I’m not a mirror Karen” from the fanfiction Iris Zero, my fav Hetalia fan fic about Romerica. Also “I’m hella pan with a hella plan” off tumblr.

78. If your best friend died, what would you do? I would be a fucking wreck and I’m not gonna think about it.

79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? If i went back and time and changed smth, i wouldn’t be me anymore, but I would go back and get a proper depression diagnosis bc we knew I had it but I’m a good actor so the doctors couldn’t diagnose the kid who was fucking suicidal great job Australia ANYWAY

80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do? My mum texted me this morning ( btw I did this ask over a couple days) with 'If you die today would you like the last thing you spent your precious life hours on to be tumblr??’ I responded with 'yes’ to be a bitch and also bc I kinda would? I would get all my friends and all of the food I wanted, write my will, etc. I’d go fucking ridiculous with what I’d do tbh. All the adventurous activities .

81. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had? One time when I was 11, I had a dream I was a princess with a guy servant and a girl lady in waiting/servant and we were all bffs, ( looking normal so far lmao), and then we were getting chased around my kingdom by a guy with a floppy dick which was flopping around like a bendy/wobble pencil. Both friends sacrificed themselves to stop him and made me keep running away lol

82. Are you happier single or in a relationship? I don’t know

83. Who were you in a past life? The human embodiment of Anxiety Sanders

84. What is your happiest childhood memory?Lazy sunny days with my mum. Chores and relaxing. Cooking.

85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Not,,,, really,, see above, I,, haven’t really had any experience with love

86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend? I don’t think so?

87. If you were the prime minister , what would you do? Fucking Marriage Equality, Safe schools is mandatory, sexual assault/homelessness/youth in crisis support is fucking fixed and improved, Scouts is connected to schools, primary school system revised, improved and fixed, high school system improved, counselling is better overall, science in all grades, maths teaching is improved over all, teachers can get constructive criticism from students and will LISTEN to them. Abuse is redefined as both emotional and psychical and people start to understand that, neurodivergents are fucking accommodated more, same for disabled people. Mental illness are listened to for fucks sake.

88. What is your ideal career? Engineer, scientist, musician, YouTuber, anything that makes me happy and makes people happy and supports people. I also want money tbh so A) i can donate to charity B) i want to transition and all I fucking love memey products.

89. What is your political affiliation?/90. Are you conservative or liberal? Liberal. When I vote, I will weight my options and choose which ever is the least awful tbh. I’m an intersectional feminist meaning I support poc, the wider LGBT+ community, feminism, people with mental illness, neurodivergents and disabled people.

91. Is the male or female body closest to perfection?Male doesn’t get periods so u decide

92. Do you like kissing in public? I’ve seen people kiss in public ONCE in my life so like?? Do what you want

93. If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change? Unlike my prime minister answer, I’m thinking smaller here : everyone is allowed to transition/get married/ all LGBTAI+ rights are legalised

94. Where would you like to live? Huge house full of secret tunnels and it’s all waterproof and I keep rescue pets and secretly help refugees there so they can get a normal life again. There would be huge libraries. In the countryside as well. Tazmania probably. Or Melbourne in a nice house with my rabbits and datemate/s

95. Where would you go on your dream vacation?I’d want to go on a world tour and meet all my mutuals and the people I am fans of.

96. Describe yourself in one word.Chaotic ( good lmao)(( jk every time i take that chaotic/neutral/lawful quiz I get lawful good but lawful good is was I aspire to be and chaotic good is what I am. ))

97. Describe yourself in one sentenceVery. Fucking. Complicated. Wreck. Who Loves All My Mutuals and Friends So Much.