EPISODE TWO
KURT’S BRAIN - INTERIOR
Kurt’s obsession with fashion went back a long way. It was part of a more general appreciation of beautiful and material things, which he’d had since he was a child.
Kurt suspected that this early aesthetic education was responsible for the direction of his own tastes. Things were beautiful to him in inverse proportion to their accessibility: a logic which struck him as childish for its fetishisation of impotence. But the 90s were about not growing up. The pages of the music and celebrity magazines that didn’t have Kurt’s face on them were filled with images of manufactured adolescence: teeny bopper twinks dressed in virginal white, A-listers doused with slime in studios resembling kindergartens, and an ageing parade of actors fresh out of high school drag.
He might seem like a kid to an industry obsessed with youth and its prophecies, but he was a grown up with a kid of his own. Even in earlier relationships he’d wanted the house with the picket fence. Tobi Vail used to say it was because of his parents’ divorce; they’d get into screaming arguments about his attachment to what she called the ‘bourgeois and patriarchal trap of success’. Kurt was hurt, but he did agree that he wanted these things as signs that he had made it. Not to the American dream that Vail despised him for, but to some indefinable sense of a future, and this was the only one he could imagine.
Such feelings were deeply unfashionable, and got in the way of the punk recklessness that had first attracted Vail, and which she held at arms’ length, an accessory to complete her image. Not that he minded them not interrogating these desires together. Kurt couldn’t put it more eloquently than this, but it felt both good and bad to dangle from her arm. To be used the way a man might use a beautiful woman. No one had read any Judith Butler yet, so Kurt could only say: Tobi’s riot grrl feminism made him feel like a woman, but it also made him know he wasn’t one. He was part of a group of people who obstructed people like Tobi, who’s desires stood in the way of her liberation. These wants stood for his involvement in patriarchy; women only wanted these things because men wanted them for them.
But Kurt didn’t care, he dreamed of being turned into an image, into an adornment for the grrls, the gyrls, the gworls of the future. He dreamt that his name would become a secret call passed between women in chokers at parties in lofts and warehouses in metropolitan areas of the United States. He dreamt of a teenage starlet gaining fame in a tv show where she wore his dirty bob for an audience too young to remember his music. He dreamt of the expansion of the internet and forums on which users would share photos of him and argue about what he wore and what he said.
He didn’t tell anyone these dreams. Unlike the house and family, these were just for him.
—Francis Whorrall-Campbell, from "[Digital Poetics 4.7] A Fragment on Kurt Cobain’s Transgender Ideas from ‘In Utero’" (The Hythe)
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I did math for you guys but anyway here's my hc lineup of OfA user height
Toshi- 7'2" of c
Yoichi- 6'10" and absolutely gangly.
Shinomori- 6'7ish", tall man breaking big rocks in forest wants to be left alone. His height changes to be shorter than others in the ofaspace more frequently because he got his growth spurt in the woods and the last time he was around many other people he was shorter than more of them
Nana- 6'6", which yes does also make Prime Torino taller than his canon minimum of 6'7"
Banjo- 6'4", a perfectly respectable tall man height in our world, and yet. He's the middle height holder.
Third- 6 feet even, if you don't count the ponytail. Which we don't.
En- 5'10", short gremlin amongst the holders, don't ask if he would have had another growth spurt if he had but lived a little longer
Izuku- currently 5'5" but will reach his tallest height at 5'7.5" one day
Second- 5'3" on the day he died and I did the math the prove it lol I can't believe he's every stereotypically angry short guy.
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Gérard Depardieu Divides France As Counter-Petition Launched – Deadline
Some 600 French art and entertainment world figures have signed a “counter-petition” decrying moves to defend iconic actor Gérard Depardieu in the face of multiple accusations of sexual assault and one of rape.
The petition described a recent open letter in support of Depardieu, signed by 56 cinema world celebrities, and French President Emmanuel Macron’s public defense of the actor on a talkshow before Christmas as a slap in the face for all victims of sexual violence.
“It is the sinister and perfect illustration of the world which refuses to let things change,” read the letter posted on the site of investigative news website Mediapart on Friday.
Emmanuel Macron Defends Gérard Depardieu As Third Woman Makes Official Sexual Assault Complaint Against Actor
“It is the reversal of roles where the executioner (the ‘monster’. the man, not at all sacred, but just obscene) places himself as a victim, with the help of his friends. As always in cases of gender-based and sexual violence against women, the ‘presumption of innocence’ for the aggressor sounds like a ‘presumption of lying’ for the women who testify against him,” it continued.
The signatories included popular rappers, DJs and singers alongside artists and photographers as well as figures from the cinema world such as actors Judith Chemla, Félix Maritaud, Waly Dia and Louise Chevillotte and director-screenwriter Caroline Deruas.
Depardieu’s star has fallen in France in recent weeks after the broadcast of a bombshell edition of investigative show Complément d’Enquête, which probed historic accusations of sexually inappropriate behavior by the actor.
The program follows in the wake an official complaint of two acts of rape against Depardieu dating back to 2018 by actress Charlotte Arnould, which is currently making its way through the courts, as well as multiple accusations of sexual assault against the star.
Mediapart previously detailed 13 accusations of sexual misconduct against Depardieu in a special report published last April.
The Complément d’Enquête report revealed that a second woman, French actress Hélène Darras, had also lodged a complaint against Depardieu in September, related to events on the set of the 2007 dance comedy Disco.
A third woman, Spanish journalist Ruth Baza, is reported to have made an official complaint against the actor in Spain related to an incident that took place during an interview in Paris in 1995 when she was 23 years old, in the wake of the show’s broadcast.
A number of actresses have also broken their silence.
In an interview with Paris Match, published on December 28, actress Sophie Marceau recounted how she had met with disapproval as a younger actress when she denounced Depardieu’s “rude and inappropriate behavior”.
In a long post on Facebook, also published on December 28, actress Vahina Giocante actively hit out at the original open letter, describing Depardieu as “a savage animal” on the basis of her observations of his treatment of extras on sets.
“I was lucky to have been left alone by the beast because my former father-in-law was very close to him and would call him prior to each time we were filming together to say: ‘Don’t touch my daughter-in-law.’ I was lucky to know the paternalistic Gérard,” she wrote.
The new counter-petition comes less than a week after the open letter in support of Depardieu, decrying the public “lynching” and cancelling of “a sacred ‘monster of cinema”, which was posted on the website of Le Figaro newspaper on December 25.
The signatories included former first lady, top model and musician Carla Bruni as well as popular actors Charlotte Rampling, Carole Bouquet, Nathalie Baye and Pierre Richard.
A handful of the signatories have since sought to distance themselves from parts of that initiative, in the light of the revelation that the journalist who instigated the open-letter, Yannis Ezziad, has connections to far-right politician Eric Zemmour.
Bouquet, who was in a relationship with Depardieu from 1997 to 2005, posted on her Instagram account on Friday that she had signed the petition “for Gérard Depardieu” but did support the “ideas and values” of the journalist behind the open letter.
“Giving him visibility via the intermediary of Gérard has made me, as you can image, deeply uncomfortable,” she wrote.
Filmmaker and writer Nadine Trintignant outright withdrew her support of the letter due to the fact it was written by Ezziad.
“I didn’t know who was behind the petition when I signed it,” she said in a statement. “I ask all of those who were shocked not to hold this grave error against me.”
In the meantime, actor Yvan Attal gave an interview to the BFMTV news channel, in which he explained that he had signed the original open letter in reaction to the media backlash rather than any personal support of Depardieu.
“I feel uncomfortable, because I signed a petition that I’m not totally in agreement with, but I signed it for reasons that were stronger than what disturbed,” said Attal.
“There are too many things that aren’t right… He has the right not to be publicly lynched month upon month upon month. It’s in the papers every day, and for the very reason that there is a case against him, we should let justice do the talking,” he said.
Veteran actor Gérard Darmon echoed Attal in a separate interview, saying his signing of the original letter has been “a completely civic act” since he did not personally know Depardieu.
“I don’t know him, he’s not a friend, I shot one scene with him a long time ago in Asterix… what I can’t stand is this trial by media,” he said.
The actor added, “If the two rapes ever turn out to be true, I will be the first to step up and say: ‘You’re a pig, I didn’t think you were capable of that’.”
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