#he'd stop complaining about being lonely/bored'' but like

[atalossofwords]

YOU TASTE THE SILVER - IvanTill WIP (Part 9)

Guys, I don't normally post here unless I have at least another POV ready, but I'm gonna admit this last Ivan POV is NOT working out. I rewrote it three times, and it's still fighting me. Hopefully I can dig myself out of the ditch, but oh well. Y'all can enjoy Till's POV while I suffer.

ON AO3 - part one - part two - part three - part four - part five&six - part seven - part eight

Till's life is going well. He's used to the new house, he's found new inspiration to write and mix more songs ever since Mizi's concert, so he's going live more often, which means his audience has been growing steadily. Dewey got a promotion at work and Isaac is doing an EMT course that will guarantee him a promotion as well.

He's also started chatting more often with Navi, enough so that they are... almost friends? He doesn't want to assume, but Navi is always so happy to talk about anything Till wants that the conversation flows easily. Navi especially likes to know what Till is eating, all the boring details that Till finds himself... eager to share. Till has never been overly chatty, and idle conversation is awkward, but somehow Navi shows so much interest in what he has to say that Till finds himself invested in expressinging himself more, in looking for things to talk about.

Navi likes knowing what Till thinks of the weather, and actively engages with him over which brand of ramyeon is better. Somehow, they can get into discussions over the most innocuous thing, and end up discussing music and lyrics and mixing for hours on end.

They have an ongoing discussion about the use of english in lyrics, which frequently comes back up whenever one of them thinks of another argument, and also an untold pact of sending animal pictures to each other; Till sends pictures of any dog he sees on the street, because Navi said it's his favorite animal even if he can't have one, and Navi sends back cat pictures, since his sister has one and cat pictures are easier than snake ones, which are Till's favorite animal.

Till feels... warm, about it. He's never had many friends, being a lone wolf throughout his school years; he was always in detention, or going directly home after school. He'd always had a temper, something that only really cooled after he left school and was allowed to focus on music. Dewey was his brother, not his friend, and Hyuna was more of an acquaintance than a close friendship.

Till also felt. Guilty, maybe? About the amount of money Navi kept spending on him. He wasn't a friendship expert, but he was pretty sure friends didn't send you almost 50$ dollars when you complained about picking between ramyeon and tteokbokki and told you to pick both.

(Till knew it was a mistake to migrate over from texting to Kakaotext, since now Navi could send him money directly through that. But he also had to admit the amount of stickers Navi used was beyond cute.)

Navi had also sent him some other gifts, beyond the spontaneous kakaopay transfers and normal stream donations; he's sent Till a collection of rings after bothering Till for a week straight to give him his ring size, a comfy sweater that Till didn't take off for a week due to how soft it was, and so on.

Till felt a weird tingling feeling on his stomach, a blush taking over his face whenever Navi sent him anything. He's normally fine ignoring it after a token protest, too practical to actually deny money.

He thinks he should feel bad about it, or something. Dewey told him, a few weeks into his streaming career, that he'd feel awful about getting so much money and not giving it back. Till thinks it's an exchange; he streams and people give him money for entertaining them. For a little while, the same applied to Navi. Why should he care if someone wasted their money on Till? He didn't think gacha companies were at fault for people's spending habits.

That was until they started texting. That was until Navi stopped being just a name on the screen and became a person who liked dogs, did spicy challenges for fun and had strong opinions about the conservation of endangered animals.

Till thought he might start to feel guilty, then, or at least want to pay Navi back somehow.

Instead what he gets is a warmth throughout his chest and an entirely undignified urge to squirm in place. He likes it when Navi spends money on the most mundane things, when Navi tells him to get himself some food. When Navi sends him money with instructions to get something specific Till scrambles to get it, and enjoys the treat with red cheeks and an unknown tightness in his chest.

He doesn't get it, and he's too embarrassed to talk about it with anyone else.

(Reviewing the memory, later on, will show Till the following; the weird warmth, the urge to squirm, it is arousal. Till likes it a lot, when Navi gives him things and tells him what to do with it. He feels spoiled and taken care of and confusedly horny about it all.)

He's doing his best to not care much about it, but his weeks-long wave of good luck seems to have run dry, because he ended up sick some two days ago. He's had to cancel three streams already, and is miserable enough he's debating actually going to a doctor about it.

Luckily for him, he's not coughing or nauseous, which are his least favorite symptoms. He is congested and his nose is running all the time, and he does feel feverish, but there's not much he can do about that except sleep it off.

He's currently huddled into his couch, slowly eating the samgyetang Isaac made for him and watching a show Hyuna recommended. It's a simple, no-thoughts-necessary show; the female MC is a former yakuza member that's trying to leave her past behind and live as a teacher, and the two competing love interests are a big executive type who has a child on the school and is an ass to her but is able to afford a pretty luxurious life as long as she goes along with his plans, or a old member of the Yakuza who fell in love with her when he was a child and is now reforming himself to be able to stand besides her "in the light", as he put it.

Till is cheering on the yakuza guy, mostly because he's a lot sweeter than the asshole executive.

He's also live-blogging to Navi, who has been hovering so badly that Till gave up and allowed the other to get his actual address so Navi can buy him some soup and energy drinks. He thinks he'll regret it later, but he's not complaining right now, when Navi is making sure he has food delivered for every meal and also all the necessary meds.

You [ 5:47PM ] Oh look, the asshole is going on a business trip. Maybe we'll get some good scenes with the yakuza guy now.

Navi [ 5:47 ] You're really invested into this, aren't you? What do you even like in this character?

You [ 5:48PM ] He's just so much better than the asshole. I don't get why girls would ever go for someone who's so rude to them.

Till huffs, looking up at the TV as the in-between episode extra starts. They're always funny, showing the behind the scenes and some interviews with the actors. He likes the main actress well enough, and by what he saw the actor for the asshole is a well-established star that he had no idea existed until now.

Well, the same can be said of the younger yakuza guy. His actor, someone named Ivan, is talking about how he prepared for the role, and Till can't help but be interested. The asshole guy only talked about his physical conditioning, but Ivan is talking about how he talked things over with the director, watched former-yakuza interviews and did his best to research about the motivations of his character.

He's also very handsome, in an endearing way, and Till can't help agreeing with the interviewer when she tells Ivan his fans will love the role, and that seeing him do such an earnest character will get all the girls swooning.

You [ 5:48PM ] Also, seeing the interviews, this Ivan person is just a lot better than the other actor. He cares a lot more about his character, which I think is way more important than how you look.

The interview ends, and Till decides to send another commentary before getting up to fetch more tissues for his nose.

You [ 5:48PM ] I bet Ivan would look cute doing aegyo. He's got the face for it, at least. Though I don't know if actors do that, I've only seen Idols do it on command.

Message sent, Till puts his phone to the side and gathers his little mountain for tissues and shuffles to the trash can, dumping them before refilling his water bottle and getting a new box before snuggling up again.

Navi still hasn't answered.

He frowns. He knows Navi can be busy, he definitely has other things to do rather than keep Till company, but he usually sends a BRB text if he'll be away from his phone for more than a minute.

He's still a little sick, and fervish, and miserable, so he doesn't think too hard about it and messages Navi again.

You [ 5:50PM ] Navi?

Navi [ 5:51PM ] Sorry, hyung. I just got surprised. My name is Ivan as well.

Till makes a little surprised noise. Ivan isn't that common of a name. What are the odds?

You [ 5:51PM ] Wow, it must be weird to share names with someone famous.

Navi answers quickly, but with far poorer grammar than what Till is used to.

Navi [ 5:52PM ] haha yeah well, I got used to it. do you like Ivan?

You [ 5:53PM ] I haven't seen much besides this series, he seems pretty good. Did you have any recommendations?

Navi – or, well, Ivan. Till quickly goes to change his contact name before he forgets – takes some more time to answer, and Till decides he must be busy, so he puts the show back on, doing his best not to sneeze into his soup. It's only as he's almost napping that he gets a text.

Ivan [ 5:52PM ] "Creating Heaven", "So long, not enough" and "Kamera" are tolerable, but hyung should watch some more and tell me what's your favorites!

Till is too sleepy to type, so he just takes a picture of himself giving thumbs up and snuggles back on his couch, Ivan-the-actor's soothing voice talking with the MC lulling him to a nice, dreamless sleep.

[buggachat]

sometimes the haze lifts from my brain and i see clearly and objectively and i am forcibly reminded that adrien just has a fucking huge ass caution sign on his bedroom door w a bear on it. (and a shark for his bathroom)

literally why. adrien? why

[bsverryin]

: ̗̀➛ Annoying genshin men endlessly

Who?

╰┈➤ Ayato, Diluc, Kaeya, Childe, Alhaitham, Xiao,Kaveh

Situation?

╰┈➤ you're their lover who loves to annoy them out of nowhere in their works.

✎ SHORT HEADCANONS ONLY!! fluffy,wholesome and really short!! I still can't make Fontaine men x reader bcz I still don't know them well anddd I'm really busy these days because life is filled with acads shsuus I hope I will still be able to post often because writing makes me feel at peace.. I cannot assure u of perfect grammar please enjoy this short headcanon 🥹

: ̗̀➛ AYATO

Ayato doesn't mind when you annoy him out of nowhere as long as it's you. He doesn't even think that you're annoying him, he thinks that you're just giving him the enough attention that he wants and deserve and he loved that side of you.

He may be working but you're always his top priority, he still wants to try his best to not make you feel lonely whenever he does. When his work is over he'd find you first and give you a kiss just like when you find him and annoy him out of nowhere.

: ̗̀➛ DILUC

Diluc wants to focus on his work first but that doesn't mean he doesn't like it when you annoy him out of nowhere. He gives you a little kiss on your cheeks and tells you that you both can all be lovey-dovey only AFTER his work. He's fighting for his life trying not to be clingy when he's working.

He loves it when you come out of nowhere, he can't help but kiss you when you do. No matter how busy he is, if he sees you he'll immediately greet you with a kiss just to show you how much he loves you.

: ̗̀➛ KAEYA

Kaeya loves it when you come out of nowhere just to annoy him, he thinks it's cute and compliments you when you do. It looks like he's just being flirty but he loves it when you can't stop talking and you annoy him. Kaeya knows how to balance work and you, so he doesn't really mind you being around trying to annoy him when he works.

He'll listen to your rants and compliments while working and he will never complain when you're around him. This man loves you no matter what you do and would always put you first more than anything else.

: ̗̀➛ CHILDE

Childe would always say "baby, we can't I'm still working." Because he thinks that you want to do something with him. Basically, he thinks that you want to make out until his work ends, but you'd tell him you just wanted to annoy him because he looked serious whenever he is working.

He tries his best not to get distracted by you but sometimes you're just too funny that he'll start talking and admire you, completely forgetting about his work. You'd remind him of his work but there are just times where he wants to focus and admire only you.

: ̗̀➛ ALHAITHAM

Alhaitham may have told you many times to stop annoying him out of nowhere because he has a lot of work to do and he wants to finish it before giving all his self to you but sometimes you get so bored that you'll come out of nowhere just to be noisy and annoy him at the same time.

He shuts you up by kissing you for a few minutes, most of the time you're too stunned that you get quiet for hours remembering how his lips tasted like. He smirks whenever he sees you quiet as he continues to do his work.

: ̗̀➛ XIAO

Xiao doesn't let you see him during his work, which is to patrol around and conquer demons. You would always end up hurting yourself just so he would show up out of nowhere and kill the monsters you invaded. When he does you'd give him the biggest hug telling him you missed him despite meeting him every 5 minutes because you couldn't control yourself and want him every second.

He sighed but he knows you're doing it on purpose just to annoy him and he can't stop himself but to come and save you like any other superheroes. Sometimes he thinks you're doing him a favor because he's starting to miss you the way you miss him, he will always love you either way.

: ̗̀➛ KAVEH

Kaveh would end up talking to you the time when he's working. You're too noisy and annoying and he doesn't want to make you feel like you're getting ignored so despite his busy schedule as an architect, he'll talk to you and you both would always end up laughing at each other.

Kaveh would do his work any other time when you're sleeping or when you have no battery left inside you. He wants to finish fast just so he can take you outside to date and have fun together as a couple.

[visioncursed]

when satoru is born , he's not meant to be a free thinking person . he's spoiled & looked after , but he's never really nurtured , or loved . he sees this big beautiful world & can't experience it because everyone is constantly telling him exactly what he needs to do , who he needs to be . that grows his first bitterness with authority . he's always a bit tired & he's always a bit lonely . resentment breeds towards people who are weaker because he has to shoulder their burdens & protect them , protect anyone that they couldn't .

still , he's a happy person . he's outgoing & says exactly as he means , what he wants because why wouldn't he ? he's always done that & no one ever complained until it was too late to stop his forward thinking .

as a teenager he's rebellious , apathetic , & honestly rather cruel . it's hard for him to relate to loss - to relate to struggle . everything came so easily to him that he's terminally understimulated , bored & with more energy than he knows what to do with . if he isn't fighting something stronger then it's just an inconvenience . making the last days of a child enjoyable before her erasure is an inconvenience . as a weapon his concept of the value of human life is so skewed that it's barely there .

meeting suguru , someone finally challenges him - forces his perspective even when they clash on ideas & he never blames him for his lack of understanding . it's the first time he's told to imagine the things he enjoys disappearing forever when you don't really have a choice , when you have such a massive weight on you to do something for other people & that rings bells . satoru didn't have a childhood so of course he wouldn't get it . but he has geto , other friends , things that he likes & yeah it would suck to lose them .

then his hatred towards higher ups grows because geto snaps & he shouldn't have . he never should have been split off from missions with him & never given weaker curses to fight . they never should have forced a wall between suguru & his potential to improve .

worse , they blame him & he knows for a fact geto only ever fought for the weak . it's disgusting & gojo hates it & he wants to change it . but his friend is gone , his first love is gone , & it's a fresh pain he'd never felt before . he doesn't want to feel it , & he doesn't want to be someone that drove geto away so he clings to the idea that they're still friends . his one & only . that if he fights hard enough & makes enough change no one will have to take that pressure on again , & everyone can be strong in a different way . he learns to stuff his emotions down somewhere deep , just like he'd watched geto do , & smiles every day until it becomes second nature . he reminds himself that there's something good in him , that he's a nice guy he cares about his students a lot because he can't depend on anyone else to keep him grounded in that . which is sad because he isn't really very good at being a regular person & we see that when people are surprised that he's upset over yuji dying , & he is too . he fills empty space with nurturing the kids around him because they deserved it , like geto deserved it , like he deserved it & he can't watch that happen to anyone ever again .

all of his love & his kindness is a shadow of suguru & he knows it , so he tries extremely hard to keep himself connected in the only ways he knows how , by bringing himself back to that moment , when he'd complained about having to care for a kid he didn't know , when suguru had explained so gently that she would be losing everything . now he cares for kids he doesn't know anything about & reminds himself that he can care , he's capable of caring - he can change the world for them & if he protects them long enough then they really can just enjoy being kids .

overall i think that his early lack of humanity is still there , & i think without people to care about he gets really out of touch with it . he has to constantly remind himself that even if he knows he's the strongest , it doesn't actually make anyone less & that if they are he's of better use helping them get to a point where they'll be just as strong too . & his dislike early on of higher ups turning into outright contempt makes sense , when you think of it as them robbing him of a childhood & then the actions leading up to suguru dying , he puts a lot of the blame on them - in his mind he saw that as a strong person that had a weak moment & not a single person reached out . much like itadori , who is a strong person but just a kid who has so much love for the people around him , is someone who needs help & care - but they'd rather go through with executing him . gojo knows he's the strongest & he's looking out for people with it , reminding himself that he's a person too , & trying to be someone that geto would have been proud of if he were still around .

[valos-venus-doom]

Drawn & Quartered [Chapter 1]

VV & OC

Saturday, December 10th 2011; 9am

Ville: When are you going to be home?

Caitlyn: Hey, I just woke up. We're going to go get breakfast and go another round on the slopes before I head out so probably not til tonight.

Ville: K

Caitlyn saw the single letter flash across the screen and knew Ville was upset. She'd left on Tuesday to go with her friends to Snowpark, a ski resort in Luovantie. It was a 4 and a half hour drive away from the home Caitlyn and Ville shared in Munkkiniemi, a gulf-side suburb outside of Helsinki. Prior to leaving, she promised Ville she'd be home by Friday evening "at the latest." It was now Saturday morning, and she had already told Ville the day before that she and her friends got complimentary extra days on their hotel suite. Now they could check out Sunday morning instead of Friday morning.

The entire trip was for Caitlyn. She'd lost her father from brain cancer 6 months prior, and skiing was always a hobby she and her father shared. As it came up on the first Christmas holiday after her father's death, her friends Kara and Nina surprised Caitlyn with the trip as a way to keep her spirits up.

They'd also invited Ville, but he very rarely hung out with any of Caitlyn's friends, and this time was no exception. He declined, opting to stay home and prepare for a 10 day long tour in the UK and Ireland before the 3 day Helldone festival. And pout, of course.

This action-packed schedule would have Ville running around like crazy for the rest of the month, hence his yearning to have Caitlyn back for the weekend so he could spend time with her before the madness begun.

Caitlyn: Come on, please don't be mad. Kara and Nina are doing a lot for me, I can't just run out on them. They're already a little disappointed I'm not staying until Sunday.

Ville: K

Caitlyn rolled her eyes. For the first time in their nearly 5 year long relationship, she was the one going away and leaving him at home. Prior to this, she strictly kept her trips during times that Ville was touring to avoid this very situation.

Ville was an extremely needy boyfriend, he barely tolerated when she'd go out to dinner with friends when she was only gone a few hours. She had now been gone for 5 days and truth be told? Ville had made most of her trip miserable.

He was constantly texting to see what she was doing, asking if she might come home early, calling her while she was trying to spend time with her friends and keeping her on the phone for longer than she wanted and complaining that he was bored and lonely. It was really getting on Caitlyn's nerves.

Caitlyn sighed, considering telling her friends that she needed to go right now, instead of after another skiing session, but she decided against it. 'Ville will be fine. He'll live. You never do anything for yourself.' she internally told herself.

In Helsinki, Ville sat bored in bed. Teeth clenched, leg shaking in frustration. He was about to be gone for almost 2 weeks, and after that he'd be running ragged getting ready for Helldone. This was the last weekend he'd be able to spend with Caitlyn until next year and he was extremely frustrated that she did not seem to care one bit.

"Couldn't have planned it for when I would already be gone?" Ville questioned before Caitlyn left, barely masking his annoyance as she packed.

"I didn't plan this, Ville." Caitlyn sighed in exasperation, placing more garments in her suitcase, "Kara and Nina wanted to surprise me." she had told him several times before this, in nearly identical conversations. She knew he didn't want her to. Caitlyn replied. "And please stop making me feel bad, you were invited. But it just so happens that you hate skiing more than you hate being around people."

Ville didn't respond, she was right, but he was still upset. He wanted to spend this week/weekend with Caitlyn. Not all alone in their house. "So you'll be back Friday morning?" Ville confirmed.

Caitlyn closed her eyes and clenched her jaw for a second, "Friday night, Ville. Night."

"Think you could leave earlier?" he asked, barely letting her finish her answer.

Caitlyn rolled her eyes, "Ville, my two best friends are taking me on a trip, I am not skipping out early on this. They're going through a lot of trouble for me, it would be a dick move to tell them I'm not staying the whole time."

'It would be a dick move to not spend time with your boyfriend before he's going to be gone for a few weeks but whatever...' Ville seethed internally.

Ville barely hugged Caitlyn goodbye when she left, which left a bitter taste in Caitlyn's mouth and started her trip off on a somewhat sour note.

A few hours passed, the girls had done a few ski runs and decided to head back to the lodge to return their equipment and see Caitlyn off. However, as the three girls passed the bar, they saw it was Single Ladies Night.

"None of us are single though." Caitlyn laughed when Kara and Nina brought up going in for a few drinks. "Plus, it's a little early isn't it?"

"It's 5 o'clock somewhere!" Nina shrugged.

"Um... It's 5 o'clock now." Kara remarked looking at the giant clock over the massive fireplace in the lodge lobby.

Caitlyn's stomach lurched. "Oh fuck." she groaned. "I did not mean to stay this long."

Kara rolled her eyes, "Please tell me Ville stopped bothering you."

Caitlyn shot her friend a look, "Of course he hasn't. And we left our phones in the room, so I'm sure he's been blowing it up."

And Caitlyn was correct, 6 missed calls. 6 texts.

Ville: On your way yet?

Ville: Hello?

Ville: I really hope you're driving.

Ville: Seriously Cait?

Ville: Are you driving or ignoring me?

Ville: Can you at least let me know you're alive?

Caitlyn's stomach felt heavy with anxiety. At this point, by the time she got on the road, she wouldn't be back home until late.

"Caity," Nina had yanked the phone from Caitlyn's hand and read the texts, "Look, you're already here, by the time you get home it's going to be super late, so what does it matter if you get home at 11pm or if you get home at 1am? Either way it's not like you're going to get quality time with Ville. He'll be asleep by the time you get home, just please come downstairs and eat dinner and have a drink with us before you go."

Caitlyn thought for a minute, but knew Nina was right. What did it matter if she got home at 11 or 1? She was already out, Ville was already mad, and a drink would settle her nerves anyway, so she agreed.

Ville sat watching TV alone in their bedroom, seething. He'd gotten a text from Cait a few hours ago; "Hey, I'm really sorry, we lost track of time. I'm getting dinner with the girls and then I'll head home."

Ville was fuming. At this rate, she'd be walking in the door at 2 o'clock in the morning on Sunday. She was supposed to be home nearly 48 hours before. Sunday he wouldn't be able to spend quality time with her, he had to pack and get ready to go on a 10 day tour in the UK. Ville felt incredibly slighted and furious that Caitlyn didn't stick to her original plan. It was a slap in the face, as far as he was concerned.

Hours passed and Ville fell asleep, but at 2:30am he startled awake when he heard the front door open and shut. His drowsiness was quickly replaced with anger when he remembered everything.

"Hey," Caitlyn walked into their bedroom with a smile. "I'm happy you're still up."

"I'm not. I *was* sleeping..." Ville rolled his eyes and flicked off the TV and peeled off his shirt.

"Ville, come on..." her face dropped.

"Caitlyn, I'm not doing this right now." he huffed and pulled the blanket back over him.

Caitlyn sighed heavily through her nose and went into the bathroom to get ready for bed. When she came back out, Ville was lying still, but she could tell he wasn't asleep. He was brooding.

Lifting up the blanket on her side of the bed she crawled in. She knew how to lift his mood so she scooted her body close to him, spooning him just the way he liked and began to reach for his dick. Surely a nice blowjob would lighten his mood. But she barely touched him before he roughly shrugged her off.

"Stop it." Ville mumbled.

Caitlyn's heart dropped, "Sorry." she murmured, and laid with her arm over him.

Ville jerked his shoulder away from Caitlyn and scooted further to his edge of the bed. "Off."

"Are you fucking for real right now?" Caitlyn was suddenly more mad than anything.

"Yep." Ville snapped back. "You're home two entire days later than you said you would be. All I fucking wanted to do was spend fucking time with my girlfriend before leaving for tour but no, apparently I'm not that important, so fuck off."

"I just drove for 4 and a half hours in the middle of the night to make sure I was here for you first thing in the morning and you're still mad?"

"You said you'd be home Friday. I would *never* do this to you. I would never stay gone longer than a tour lasts. I *always* come straight back home to you."

"How many times do I have to explain that my friends got comped two extra days in a suite they paid for on a trip they took me on and I didn't want to be an asshole to them?" Caitlyn argued.

"Oh, so you just wanted to be an asshole to me. Got it." Ville dug in his heels.

"I'm not going to apologize for doing something for me for once." Caitlyn snapped.

"Oh come off it." Ville shook his head. "I'm so sorry, I guess you're angry I don't take you on enough trips, that it?"

"How in the fuck did you get that out of what I said?" Caitlyn stared at him in confusion and then shook her head, "Look, we're talking in circles. We're not going to have any form of productive conversation tonight. Let's just go to bed and talk in the morning."

"Whatever, Cait."

Caitlyn bit her lip, her body tangled with anxious anger. "I should have listened to Nina and Kara. I should have just stayed the rest of the time. I wouldn't have bothered driving 4 and a half hours to sleep beside a moody fucking asshole."

"Okay, Cait, say no more." And Ville aggressively got out of bed, snatched his pillow off the bed and headed toward the stairs to sleep on the living room couch.

Caitlyn, furious, followed him downstairs.

“All of this because I didn’t come running the second you wanted me to?”

“No. ‘All of this’ because you never fucking prioritize me and you never fucking will.” he threw his pillow mindlessly into the room and turned go face Cait, somewhat excited that he was so right and wouldn't be the one apologizing this time. Cait fucked up. Not him.

“I don’t prioritize you? I revolve my entire fucking LIFE AROUND YOU!”

He laughed, “OH! Okay I guess I’m mistaken. I guess the way I feel is irrelevant, per usual.” Tone saturated in sarcasm.

“I put your needs and wants before mine constantly! But no, the ONE time Ville says ‘jump’ and I didn’t immediately respond with ‘how high?’ and he throws a temper tantrum, you fucking petulant child! Fuck you!”

Ville’s jaw clenched, fingers locked together behind his head as his eyes traveled to the ceiling. Caitlyn braced, she couldn’t tell if he was going to punch the wall or apologize. For the first time in the years they’d spent together, she couldn’t read him. “You know what?” Ville finally broke the silence after what felt like forever. “I can’t do this anymore.”

Caitlyn’s stomach dropped, she couldn’t respond though her lips parted. “What?” was all that she managed to squeak out, blinking, hoping she heard him wrong.

“I can’t do this anymore.” Ville repeated, not looking at her, but off to the side. He shut his eyes for a moment, dropping his arms from behind his head to crossing them tightly across his chest. “I’m done. I- I’m done with this. Us.” He clarified. "I'm not going to stay with someone who has no desire to put me ahead of her friends. I'm not the fucking bad guy here. All I wanted was to spend time with you before it was my turn to leave. And I have to leave for work. You chose to leave for fun. I'd never fucking do that to you, Caitlyn."

Caitlyn stared, her eyes stung. She felt paralyzed. She just stared off into nothingness.

Ville left her standing in the living room and headed back toward the stairs. His body was burning with anger and adrenaline. “Fuck her.” He thought bitterly “Petulant child? Ha. Okay.” He muttered through clenched teeth as he headed for the closet to grab his backpack and start packing his things. He didnt have to leave to catch his flight for another 24 hours but no way he was staying at the house.

He looked at the clock. It was almost 4am. He'd check into a hotel next to the airport and wait there.

HIM had a 10 day UK tour to go on and Helldone was in a matter of weeks, he would be busy for the entire last half of the month and that was good news, because he’d need to be fully distracted from the relationship he’d just ended. Reality hadn't set in for Ville yet, he wasn't said, he was pissed. He was being fueled by spite and righteous anger, a dangerous combo for him.

All he wanted was Caitlyn to come home from her trip when she promised that she would. He wanted one last weekend with her before the craziness that would consume the rest of the year. But no. She instead chose to stay with her friends longer than she originally planned, totally disregarding the fact they wouldn't see each other for basically the rest of the month.

They’d been together for nearly 5 years, and yet she chose her friends over spending time with him? He was fuming. How could he not take that personally? He was right, he'd never do that to her. He always came straight home. Ignoring the fact he was anti-social as it was and would come straight home regardless if he had his lady waiting for him, but that wasn't the point.

Ville aggressively packed, slamming doors and drawers, flinging things carelessly around the room. He was being petty and immature, but it was too late to stop, he was in too deep and every slam and bang admittedly made him feel better. He knew Caitlyn could hear him, he was hoping she would come up and poke the beast some more.

But minutes passed, and the fact she didn’t come running up the stairs to apologize and beg him not to go pissed him off, but she didn't even pursue him to continue to fight with him, and that made him feel worse and solidified his decision; “Just as I thought. She doesn’t give a fuck about me. She doesn’t want to fight for us? Fuck her. I’m done.” He seethed internally.

Caitlyn sat at the kitchen table, frozen. She was utterly devastated but the tears couldn’t fall. She listened to Ville’s ruckus upstairs. She stared at her hands in her lap as she thought about leaving herself. It was Ville’s house; she’d need to move out while he was gone.

Ville came quickly and noisily down the stairs, he paused a moment by the front door, waiting to see if Caitlyn would confront him before he left, and she didn’t, so he left. But not before slamming the door so hard Caitlyn flinched. In that moment, she broke. Her face fell into her hands and she began to cry. A second later, the door opened again and for a moment her heart fluttered. ‘He came back.’ She thought, ‘He’s going to apologize and make it okay.’

But she was wrong. Ville ripped a keychain off of his house keys and flung it into the house and it slid across the hardwood floor. Caitlyn knew what he threw, she’d given him a sterling silver keychain before Ville went on a very long tour in 2008; the first one they experienced together as a couple. "Always Come Home To Me" engraved on it with their initials beside a heart containing their birthstones; Citrine topaz for him, sapphire for her.

And just as quickly as he'd done before, Ville slammed the front door violently, causing Caitlyn to jump and flinch once again. Tangible tension still hung thickly in the air, she felt almost afraid to move. Moments later she wiped her tears and stood from the table. She walked into the living room and confirmed what he'd thrown; the keychain. He had quite literally ripped it off his keyring. The chain was broken and he'd thrown it so hard the sapphire stone popped off.

Caitlyn walked up the stairs to find their bedroom trashed thanks to Ville and more tears fell. She couldn't believe what jist happened and kept thinking of all the things she said that she regretted.

But that regret turned to anger when she realized how Ville treated her during her trip. He could really be a jealous, possessive, selfish man, but wow, this time he took the cake. Caitlyn thought about every time she'd flown across the world on his insistence because he missed her on tour. The jet-lagged sleep deprivation she'd push herself through just to make him happy. All the long nights waiting for him to come home from the airport, because he wanted to come home to see her awake and not asleep. "Selfish..." is the only thing she could think about. She was furious. But also so sad. This felt like another death. And having just lost her father 6 months, to the day, before this fateful night, she sat on the side of the bad and cried deeply.

[whatwh]

My Fic Fawn Responses Base Plot

(Spoilers! This is literally my outline, but I have gone off script a good amount already)

Notebooks

Green- Used to sort the information and connect the notebooks

Red- people watching or rambling, referred to as boredom books.

Orange- profiles and info on normal people or clients

Purple- work/ cases

Blue- More dangerous information, never leaves the house 

One day when he was in Middle school he went to a cafe after school, because that's a habit for him to do his homework at the cafe everyday. This time however he realized that someone at school had broken his phone. He decided to just try and entertain himself before going home for the day. And did so by analyzing the people around him (in this au he started chewing pencils and putting them in his mouth whenever he starts to analyze as a way to stop himself from muttering). This was when he started the habit of people watching. It became more common for him to just watch people at the cafe than to listen to music on this phone like he used to. He also met shinso here but that's besides the point for now.

When he went home one day after doing this for about a month his mom talked to him and admitted that she had been having financial trouble, and that she would be picking up more shifts at the hospital. This caused him to go into a deep dive online where he learned about P.I.s, or Private Investigators. He decided to try to better his skills before offering to investigate for anyone, causing him to realize just how many cheating people go to the cafe that he goes to. He took the money he had been saving up and decided to invest in extra classes on psychology and computers hoping that this would pay him back more than he spent.

In preparation for his new job he got multiple bank accounts setup, he got multiple online accounts set up all of which are anonymous, and he set up a main account that is practically untraceable. I say practically because once you get to a certain point in the firewalls tell him and it becomes like a game, the hacker fighting him directly. This is because he was simply so bored and lonely that he would like to have a challenge even if it was in the form of someone trying to take him down. When had been doing this for years he used his earnings to set up his own cameras that were small enough to not be seen by average  people that he used to follow people into places where worming into the cameras already there wasn't worth the time it would take, he also set up an AI with very specific rules that made it so if it wanted to learn anything it had to go to him directly, meaning more work for him but a much less potentially destructive AI. He was constantly updating his tools. He started the business off by finding a woman in his Cafe who was complaining that her husband was cheating on her but she didn't have enough proof for a divorce to lean in her favor, he then used his newly-acquired computer skills to find her online and offer to find proof of her husband cheating with cash in return sent to a very specific PO box that was made untraceable. Very confused, she agreed to the price, one  that was lower than most P.I.s hoping that if he was able to know that she was considering divorce when she had only told close friends that he'd be able to find proof and he did. He did this again and again, the majority of his clients being suspicious lovers, he eventually started traveling to wealthy areas and listening in on the conversations of the people there in order to find clients that were willing to pay a good amount of money more than the people in his part of town, he got more money than any normal job did but started worrying about people getting suspicious of the money.

Soon people were messaging him instead of him finding clients

So he decided that the best way to deal with the money issue was to find a way to liquidate it without only getting it in cash, he also wanted to do it in a way so that it didn't all have to go in one account at some  point because that would be suspicious. He got the idea a little after his birthday when his mom complained about how hard it is to get hero Merch because of how expensive it is. He started putting almost all of his money into the most expensive hero merch could find and then keeping them in his room and showing them all off, if he needed to liquidate some money he would just pick an item and go sell it normally for much more than it's worth due to do to the bartering abilities that he got from his job. This not only made him more money but also avoided suspicion because he simply acted like a rabid fanboy when around people.

He basically laundered money using hero merch

He used the money in many ways, a good portion of it went to his mom in order to help her pay the bills. He couldn't give it all to her as he originally wanted to because it would be suspicious for him to have that much money. He spent a good portion of it to make himself better at his job, he spent a lot of money on technology, always making it so that it can't be traced to him. He often spends large sums of money making his firewalls better and better. He was very paranoid of being caught, even if the majority of people didn't know he existed, because of the fact if a suspicious lover was wrong about a person cheating then that often meant the person was doing something illegal that they were hiding instead and he had to contact the police about it, he always did so using public channels anonymously, telling them just enough to make the police convinced  that it's just someone who didn't want their name to be in the mess instead of someone malicious. He often spent money on classes for himself, he did many, Many college classes, getting all sorts of partial degrees or points towards degrees in all sorts of different online classes using lots of different online aliases so that they couldn't be traced back to him, while he was still entertained. His main alias, Akitani Mikumo had a few degrees mostly in psychology or in quirk studies, so after he started making a name for himself he stopped using that Alias for schooling.

He spent the rest of his money on savings and donations, not really knowing what else to spend it on

The reason he was able to get so much work done is that he used his AI to do the majority of the brunt work for his pi business, and he Spent very little time on his normal school work.

I personally really dislike the fact that he got a quirk instead of becoming a quirkless hero so he will not be getting one in this au

Instead he will be not exactly sticking out when it comes to his hero classes, still relying on brute force because he has major people-pleasing issues to the point where he manipulates himself in order to make sure others don't get upset with him, I will go into detail on this it is a very large issue and it's why he is often making the stupid decisions to go off on his own because he simply does not trust anyone

Basically due to his time in middle school, elementary school, and pre-school all being insanely abusive he gained major people-pleasing issues. Basically he created a whole new personality that is not at all like him (the description of this version of him is quiet, well-mannered, shy, gets good but not amazing grades, and is overall not memorable except to the people who are close to him.) This creates a very vicious cycle because he hates the idea that he is manipulating people to like him but at the same time can't help but change every detail of his personality whenever he's trying to talk to anyone new, he changes smaller details of his personality depending on who he's speaking to as well making him feel even more like a liar. Another issue is that his people pleasing/self-sacrificing nature makes it so that he's the therapist friend to a very unhealthy extent ie the fact that two people have fought him and had emotional breakdowns that he had to try and fix because they didn't know how to deal with their issues are there among themselves or with professional help, while he has had multiple situations where he should not have been okay but no one even reached out in the show.

This also makes it so that he is completely hiding everything I just said because he doesn't want to draw the attention to himself that comes with being acknowledged for his achievements

No matter how desperately he wants positive attention

This boy is so mentally ill

The thing is that he's so smart but no one even can tell that something's wrong because he's just such a good liar no matter how bad he feels about lying that no one can catch him under normal circumstances. Good thing I did not have normal circumstances for the story.

Basically I have created a scenario where him and Aizawa why are forced to fight against a villain with a quirk that is known for making people destroy themselves by over using their quirk or by mentally scarring them, good things that are analysts knows that the court works by making a person work harder than they normally do often forcing people to lean into hysterical strength which tear Stone apart for people who are already on mentally unwell or forstchen to be an even worse situations and that hurts them. Do the villain always describes it as forcing a person to work harder than they normally do, the thing is that this boys  is never is at 100% And instead is always at like 30% so whenever he's forced to go all out it's simply him going more like 70% instead of the normal 140% that the quirk makes the person go to. 

This makes it so he says things that he would have preferred to not say while fighting the villain, as the real him has a tendency to gloat. This made it so Aizawa learned that he wasn't even trying his best at the u.s.j when his life was on the line. He finds this heavily concerning but the boy refuses to talk to him.

Later they were doing a dorms check whenever Aizawa's Pro Hero instincts went off, causing him to lift up a poster to reveal a hidden shelf filled to the brim with books

After finding one Secret section of the wall he looks behind all the other posters to reveal that the room was almost entirely covered by books, a computer and notebooks. He also saw a lot of technology that he could not place. He Pockets a book that is on a shelf above them bed, before they brought izuku in, he then talked about how legally they weren't allowed to look at any of his stuff and no matter what they said he was able to legally maneuver around to them so if it wasn't for Aizawa pocketing the book they never would have found out just how smart the boy was. Much to Izuku's dismay, the reason that book was on a shelf by the bed was that it was a sorting book, kind of like a table of contents that had the majority of his academic connections in it. He was very meticulous with those ones because he never knew when they might come in handy for a future project. It took a while for nezu to break the code much to everyone's worries but once he did he immediately called izuku into the office.

Nezu had already made the smart choice in having a professional look into what's going on with midoriya, he felt the need to be gentle with this topic and decided the best way would be to know what he should avoid and what he should try to spend more time on. Thanks to this he knew part of the mass of mental illness and as such knew that izuku would hate the attention as well as knowing that he had to be really careful so he didn't lose the trust that's already there. So whenever he called him to the office he made it so it would be "coincidentally," the same time that Aizawa always dropped off his paperwork. This was so he hopefully wouldn't feel as pressured in the situation. Once he was called down, Izuku tried to avoid the conversation as much as possible, but he eventually learned that the point of this conversation was that some of his notebooks were being confiscated and that they had a legal premise behind it. It was very concerning to the two teachers just how defeated he seemed while handing over the notebook he had on hand, He had fought tooth-and-nail to try and keep it out of their hands. They were even more surprised when Izuku asked to speak with Aizawa at some point alone.

The conversation went down on the roof, much to Aizawa's confusion as Izuku was the one who brought them there. It appeared that he turned into a completely different person once they were out of the way of cameras mikes and other people possibly walking in on the conversation. izuku said to him, "my whole life I've been doing my best to make people either like me or not notice me because of that I know that everyone wants something and I know that what someone wants greatly impacts a person's personality. The reason I'm telling this to you is because you value the truth Above All Else. So I'd like to play a game." The rules of the game were simple. One person asked a question and the other one answered. In return they got to ask a question with a full honest answer as well, but a zuku simply kept track of how many questions he was answering instead of asking them at that time. When the conversation ended he asked a single question. Do you plan on leaving me alone now that you know what you wanted to know?

He was shocked and said nothing, izuku incorrectly took that as a yes. So imagine his surprise when the next day he was called into the principal's office.  Nezu had been trying to find a solution that gave izuku more challenging work while still keeping attention away from the boy. The homeroom teacher used this as an opportunity to show that he wasn't going to leave him alone any time soon. They came up with this. He would be starting to use a laptop in class, one with privacy screens (supposedly to stop cheating), silent keys (supposedly to stop distractions), and a new mask  (supposedly to help stop his muttering habit). This all was to be explained as his broken arm getting irritated after writing all day, supposedly the typing should be better on his wrist. That is how he started to do harder coursework with the deal being that he can still pick out what his grades per assignment will be so his classmates don't even think that he's doing anything different. He also agreed to the harder classes because he was to be given an office that he can access at any time where he was told he'd have to keep his notebooks. To the teachers, it was all things that they wanted  to do in order to get him to trust them more, but to Izuku it was a business deal that leaned in his favor. So of course he said yes.

He soared through the assignments he was given at first, as to be expected as he has been on college level for a long time and nezu dedicated himself to breaking the codes and sorting through all of the notebooks that they had confiscated. Legally they could only get anything related to school, school work, or his education. They tried to argue that any of his work that is so based in information had to do with his education as they needed to understand what level he was on, but the courts argued that they could simply do testing to find that information. They had about 10 notebooks and weren't sure how many there were, or at least they didn't know until they gave him the office and soon every bookshelf was filled with a notebook that was written in a code or some sort of college textbook. He filled the place with high tech technology that they couldn't figure out where he got it from no matter how many bank records They looked into, as well as very complicated projects that he had been trying to find a safe space to continue working on. He reluctantly showed the ai's that he had created not explaining their purposes but simply showing their existence because he had it connected to his computer system and as such partially connected to the Ua system and were thought of as possible threats.

He has two ai, One of them is bunny and the other is Kitty, they both have two different purposes. one of them, bunny, was the go-to for working on izuku's projects while Kitty was based on the analysis work, Kitty was built in order to track down and catch people who are being suspicious, they have multiple parts all of which being sent to a different person constantly keeping an eye on them until something happens that they can be arrested for or they get proof of infidelity. Bunny however exists in order to help izuku with his projects as well as to help him keep an eye on himself, as he often tends to  forget to eat while working on a project and other things like that. Bunny is attached to an anklet that he wears in order to keep an eye on his heartbeat and overall health. Bunny would warn him if he's getting close to a panic attack.

One day nezu had to come in on a day off, he normally spent his entire time at the school having turned his office into a home, but sometimes work brought him out. He had had an important meeting with the principal of Another Hero School that had ended earlier than expected. Once he came back he went over the cameras to check that everything was all right when he saw izuku pacing in his office. He made it so that he could hear what was being said just as Izuku stopped pacing. It turns out that the boy was annoyed because of the case that he was working on which he decided to rant about to his ais at the exact same time that nezu started listening in. He said something about a con man who had three fiance's and would ask them for money before apparently joining the war effort, when in reality he would leave them in order to find someone new. It just so happens that this man was connected to quite a few dirty people and was very bad at hiding it, to the point where izuku was just laughing at him. He then went through the process of getting a Anonymous message prepared for the police as well as him getting the details fixed before reaching out to the original buyer with proof of his infidelity, nezu listened this whole time. Before walking to the office, he had decided that he wanted to keep the camera screen open simply because he got a  feeling. He was proven right whenever he stepped foot in the hall and the screen popped up on izuku's computer warning him that a person was approaching and he hid all the stuff he was previously working on instead pulling up psychology work. Izuku was completely calm and pleasant during the conversation in which he was blackmailed with nezus recently found information into letting the chimera read any and all of his notebooks. Then bunny used a sleep serum he made in order to knock him out as it had been 72 hours since his last full sleep, nezu simply left the room with him wide awake and checked the cameras once in his office,To see him fast asleep

Nezu decided that he didn't want to overwhelm him with too many changes at once, so he took his time reading through all of his work and constantly giving him harder work through the computer until he thought that he was able to deal with some more change. That change included  therapy, talking with Aizawa, and him working on convincing Izuku to become his personal student. The reason he wanted him to become a personal student instead of just an advanced student was because by becoming a personal student he would be able to focus on subjects different from his normal classes, the classes he was taking at that time we're just a very complicated versions of what he would have done anyway ie in math class instead of working on one subject he was working on a more complicated math subject while nezu wanted him to be working on an analysis work instead eventually he started trusting Aizawa more and told him about his deals with nezu, Aizawa was both terrified because of the principal's interest in the boy as well as very happy that he was finally opening up. He went on to deal with Cannon situations as well as work on becoming a hero. I have one more little tidbit to say on this AU

Basically whenever he was starting out the husband of a Pro Hero reached out to him, because Pro heroes are rich in his clientele are rich people, hoping to find proof that this husband was cheating on him, well instead izuku found proof of the hero using his Fame in order to manipulate people to do stuff for him, like making people that he saves pay him or saving then instead of getting paid by the hero commission as he should have been getting paid. This really shook his belief in Heroes and his personality is a little different towards them during the story. He still acts like a hero fanboy but in reality he only is a fanboy towards the people he has proven as innocent in his eyes

He also hates the commission for how many times they tried to cover up things he finds (he just sent it to the press if they don't do anything) He will ruin a person's job and reputation but not murder (For now)

Yeah, there's another version of this au where he does get the ofa quirk. It's basically just another layer of angst on top of it because all might unknowingly manipulate him by giving him expectations which he felt he needed to keep. And there's another version which is basically in selling the analysis work at school as well. 

Nezu learns quicker in the second one

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

Serial killer au?

Funnily enough, I already had an AU like this where c!Dream was a serial killer and c!Tommy his first victim haunting him eternally and annoying him in revenge that I genuinely love and wanted to write more of… so thank you haha.

“You're really bad at hiding bodies, y’know?”

Dream clenched his fist tight enough to draw blood as the ghost continued his inane commentary from behind the sofa. “If you please,” he said as calm as he could, eyes still glued on the television reporting the body of that one beanie kid with the dumb glasses. “I'm trying to not get arrested.”

“Oh, boo fuckin' hoo. You might get locked in a small room. Well guess what.” Tommy floated in front of him now, obscuring his view. “You locked me in a small room for a month and then you fuckin' killed me, but you don’t see me complaining, do you, Big D?”

“You're complaining right now,” Dream pointed out, “and don’t call me Big D.”

“Too shay, Small D.”

“I wish I could kill you again.”

Tommy shrugged. “I mean, you could technically do that all you liked if you were dead, but I don’t think Sam’d be very happy with that. He’s already got you booked down for a couple millennia of torment for all the people you killed, and he adds on an extra century every time you insult me.” He snorted. “How does it feel having nepotism used against you, for once?”

“I genuinely do not care.”

“You will.”

“Well, that’s for in the future, when I’m not figuring out whether there’s going to be cops at my door.”

Tommy rolled his eyes. “I mean, you’d just pay them off anyway.”

“I don’t think you know how money works.”

“Nope!” Tommy cheerfully trilled. “And do you know why? It’s because you shot me.”

Dream sighed. He hated how Tommy acted like he wanted him dead. That was never what he wanted. He just wanted a friend, and apparently to him ten years ago the easiest way to do that was to commit a kidnapping. Which, to be fair, worked, up until it didn’t.

Dream sighed. “Look, I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t want to kill you, I just couldn’t let you escape. If you'd just stayed put, you’d be happy and alive right now!” He threw his hands up in exasperation, as the ghost looked at him in disbelief.

“… Jesus, sometimes I forget you have like, zero fuckin' grasp on how people think. You kidnapped me. I wanted to see my friends and… yeah, I didn’t really have a family, so just my friends. And, y’know, I’d rather not get beaten? I’d ask if you wouldn’t try and escape from that, but you’re so pathetically lonely you probably wouldn’t.”

Ugh, Dream hated how Tommy acted like he'd mistreated him. It wasn’t like those people later on, who were just boring and he shouldn’t have even put in the effort of trying to befriend. Tommy was like a little brother to him! He wouldn’t have so much as laid a hand on him if he stopped trying to pull silly stunts like escaping. “Look, what more did you want me to do? I gave you a home, I gave you food. I got you a DS with Pokemon Pearl so you’d stop complaining about being bored all the time!”

“Well, you should have got me Pokemon Platinum, then, prick.”

[postwarlevi]

Alright, who wants to continue our self ship tag game?! (ME!)

I thought it would be fun to list 10 casual date ideas and you put if you'd do them, how it would go, or why you would pass. These are things that could easily include double date, friend group, whatever makes you happy!

I have more ideas for romantic dates and more ship questions for other days. Let's have fun!

Who are you self shipping today?

1 Bowling

2 Ice Skating or Roller Skating

3 Karaoke

4 Game arcade

5 Renaissance Festival

6 Carnival or Amusement Park

7 Escape Room

8 Mini Golf and Go Karts

9 Sporting Event

10 Scavenger Hunt

tagging @jayteacups @hauntedhousecat @ack3rlady @nelapanela94 @levisbrat25 @holy-guacamoly @levi-supreme @sckerman @starryenigma @levis-hazelnut @local-ackerman-whore @beautiful-is-boring @antoxsmith @levihan-candy @thesimpsstuff @dinaackerman @galactict3a

and whoever else wants to join! Let me know if you want to do this in the future :)

my version(s) under the cut

Who are you self shipping today?

Levi

1 Bowling Yes bowling! By ourselves or in a group. Levi would be good, I'd ask for bumpers, he's say that was cheating. I barely break 100 but he let's me hug him in front of everyone for the one lone strike I get, and gives me head pats. He's out performing everyone by getting 'turkeys'.

2 Ice Skating or Roller Skating I feel like we'd pass, or rather, Levi would. Maybe I could get him to do it, he'd be terrible, be annoyed at my laughing, pout till we were done, tell me to stop calling him adorable haha

3 Karaoke I think we'd go but I don't see Levi participating usually. I'm kind of shy so would be there more to hang out with everyone, but if the girls are doing something like Spice Girls count me in. Levi actually smiles at my nonsense because now I'm having fun! Cannot get him to do it though.

4 Game arcade Is it sanitized in there? We'll have to bring out own wipes. Won't let me win at air hockey :( "It builds character." What?! But I win in skee-ball! He kills at the old games like pac-man. Gives me all the ticket winning to get a prize. Insists we wash our hands every couple games.

5 Renaissance Festival No dressing up here. Goes for the jousting, sword fighting and live chess match. He tries the beer, I get honey mead. Doesn't want to watch the comedy show but it ends up he laughs so hard! Only let's me buy thing I don't need when it turns out he wants a sword. "Levi, if you get an actual sword, I get to buy something too." "Fine." I get a couple things including a corset. Levi is happy with my purchase and buys me a matching necklace after he sees the outfit 😏

6 Carnival or Amusement Park I can see Levi rolling his eyes at all the donuts and cotton candy I want at a carnival. "You're gonna get sick." Yep :( We see the entertainment and play some of the games. Stop after realizing they're rigged. I have to force him on the ferris wheel but he gets on the carousel. He won't let me on anything else cause it doesn't look safe. Also likes the craft exhibits.

The only amusement park we go to is Epcot, cause we're there for the food. Italy, France and Japan are first on the list, others if we're able. Indulge in dessert! This guy does not like the big rides, so we go to the shows. Don't see many characters but Levi wants a picture with us and Mary Poppins. One of the characters not in costume 🙄 If we get a park hopper pass I think he'd we'd really enjoy the Haunted Mansion, and getting to meet Ariel.

7 Escape Room Levi in an escape room gets the win. His problem solving skills and our ability to 'think outside the box' gets us out. Might say it's stupid once or twice if we can't get the clue right away, but we make it out every time. Wants a discount for it not being hard enough.

8 Mini Golf and Go Karts Again I'm not sure about this one? We'd do mini golf, both complain about how hot it is. bet the winner something good. We're both decent but I win out. I'm terrible at go kart driving so for safety we would probably skip it.

9 Sporting Event We're going to a hockey game! By ourselves or in a group. Levi finally let's loose a little bit! Even get's some nachos to snack on. Good at trash talk. Almost gets into a fight with the other teams fans for getting too rowdy. "You wanna eat ice, idiot?" I tell him it's fine, but am eyeing where a guard is just incase. He takes a hat but doesn't wear it, just incase there's a hat trick. Also likes soccer and a few others.

10 Scavenger Hunt

Levi wants to win this, tells me to hurry up when I don't run. Takes all the pictures that he doesn't have to be in. Makes me do most of the activities. If we're in a group he will leave us behind if possible haha!

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Who are you self shipping today?

And Jean (fight me!)

1 Bowling We both need bumpers. Don't take it too seriously. He purposely tries to scare me when I go to roll the ball. Laughs at my mad face when my ball goes in another lane. "Awe, princess, don't be mad." I let him love on me a little while telling him I'm still mad. We bet Connie and Sasha dinner on which team wins the last game. We win!

2 Ice Skating or Roller Skating Okay at ice skating, busy trying to keep each other from falling. Roller skating is much better. Love the music and hold hands, try to 'dance' and that's where it will go wrong because I can't go backwards very well. Wind up sticking to forward skating after that.

3 Karaoke Group setting is the same for me, I sing with the girls. Jean will sing with the guys and totally serenade me. Makes us both blush but I am so turned on when he sings (not sorry!). Sings 'You Don't Know You're Beautiful' with the group, and something like 'My Girl' from The Temptations for me. 😊 Still trying to get me to duet.

4 Game arcade The biggest child I have ever met. Won't let me win anything. Thankfully I beat him way more than he thinks I will. "I let you win!" HA! Tries to win me stuffed animals out of the claw machine. Turns out, I am way better and win 3 to his 1, in less tries. Totally gets cheap candy like tootsie rolls with the winnings and saves most for a bigger prize next time.

5 Renaissance Festival We are dressing up for sure! Get asked to be in pictures AND help in a show. Get our fortunes told separately and Jean gets annoyed that I won't tell mine. Do a caricature with both of us. It's hilarious! He eats all the turkey legs he can and I get anything apple I see. Ogles the belly dancers but threatens to fight King Richard who flirts with me. Only shuts up when I pull him to the maze and kiss him quiet 😳

6 Carnival or Amusement Park At the carnival we eat all the snacks! Jean tries to win me big prizes at the games but they're kind of sketchy and we settle on a medium stuffed bear. I accidently win a goldfish that I give away because I don't understand how to care for a fish. We like the fast rides, thankfully neither of us get sick.

At the amusement park we again get on the big rides and buy some of the photos of us on them. At Disney we get Mickey ears for sure and go for snacks like churros or dole whips, and maybe a fancy sit down in the evening. Love meeting the characters. Have fun with Belle and Gaston, and Chip and Dale.

7 Escape Room We probably don't get out lmao. All the arguing about who is right (it's me). "That doesn't make any sense!" Well I'm sorry Jean, that's just how it is. Will only talk about the one thing he figured out. Wants to try again. After I invite Connie and Sasha it gets 10 times worse haha.

8 Mini Golf and Go Karts Jean acts like this is real golf. Shoots his ball in the water at least once when he hits it too hard. Gets handsy showing me the right way to hold the golf club. Pouts when I beat him. We do go karts even though I'm nervous. "Don't worry babe, nothing will happen to you." And has to apologize when I crash after he gets to close to my car!

9 Sporting Event Hockey or soccer again. Jean chants and cheers and is the reason a fight almost breaks out in the stands. Enjoys it most at hockey when the players fight. Wants his hat back after he throws it away during a hat trick. I just want to watch the game. Can get a little bored at soccer games but we belt out any time the crowd sings. It's not pretty.

10 Scavenger Hunt We have fuuun and go in a group. Sometimes can't agree on what a clue means and end up falling behind. We take almost all the pictures together. After smartening up we somehow make up time and come in second.

[tsunonotarou]

HEARTSLABYUL | SAVANACLAW | OCTAVINELLE | SCARABIA | POMEFIORE | IGNIHYDE | DIASOMNIA

— finding out their S/O’s lockscreen/background is them

Part one | Part two | Part four

This part will contain Pomefiore and Ignihyde

notes: Ortho's part is going to be platonic!

: gender-neutral reader!

Vil Schoenheit

Says you have good taste

You know that smirk he has on whenever he's pleased? Yea that. He'll do that when he saw your lockscreen/background

Doesn't mind if it's a public picture of him (from magazines, shows, movies etc where everyone gets access to) or a picture of him sleeping, he doesn't mind

But! he does prefer you putting a picture where not everyone gets access to, a picture only a select few friends know or a picture only the two of you know because he likes the intimacy

Why should you use pictures his fans would use when you have so many other private ones, accessible to only you?

Of course, it has to be beautiful and approved by him

After a while if he sees the same picture on your lockscreen/background he'd advice you to change another one. Surely no one would get bored of the Vil Schoenheit but isn't it nice to start fresh sometimes?

When you innocently say you could stare at the same picture all day everyday, always finding new discovers in that picture or simply got lost in his cute smile, he swore an arrow shot through his heart, in a good way. Rook get out of here

"Do what you want." He replied nonchalantly, turning away to hide his blush from you

You asked him if he could put your picture on his lockscreen and he said no

After your pleadings and whines, telling him to put it on for just a moment, just for you to see how it'd look like, he finally did

And honestly, Vil does not want to change it

He'd quickly click his phone off and brush you away, telling you he has business to do all because he wanted to admire it in private

Even though he said he put it on because you asked him to and that he'll change it immediately after, a few days later, you still see yourself appearing on his screen whenever he clicks open his phone

Rook Hunt

Rook's heart would react in a way where it would be seen as keyboard smashing.

Like ARARDRBGJDIDGETIWIFHWOFHDKSLDGWBSKSBFLSFJSBFLALFNSKFPKSF

Of course! He doesn't react in such an unsightly way but his heart flipped so many fucking times and he swear he couldn't take this immense happiness he feels right now

It might not seem much but the act is so sweet! Setting him as your lockscreen and background? To see him everytime you click open your phone? Reminding yourself that he is yours? Absolutely romantic.

Rook loves taking pictures. He loves taking pictures of you. He has thousands and thousands of your photo both in his phone and in his journal. Oh there are some hanging in his room, too! Oh, he has a photo album consisting of only you, too! Oh, there are a few framed ones sitting on his bedside tables too! And-

But to think that you secretly take pictures of him, too?

Rook has really good eyesight, he's also very sharp so he knows whenever you want to take a picture of him. What he does not know that you didn't want him to notice you taking a pictures of him

You thought he looked peaceful reading a book and wanted to secretly take a picture of him like that? He immediately noticed and flashed you a smile. He's so charming! Holding the bow and arrow in the most professional way and his eyes stay focused on the front. You wanted to freeze that moment with your camera? He immediately lowered down the weapon and waved

Well, you took those pictures anyway. But still, you wanted one where he isn't looking at the camera and minding his own business but you never got one

Desperate, you went for Azul's help

The deal was only to work in Mostro Lounge for a month...easy, right?

Well then, you'd do anything for a picture of Rook being unaware of the photographer's presence

It was hard for Jade and Azul to find excuses and cover up when Rook spotted them trying to take a picture of him, and also muffling Floyd when the eel almost blew the plan up, complaining something along the line of "Shrimpy wanted to—"

And also staying hidden because once Rook finds them, he will not stop following and asking questions regarding their real form

(If you think about it the scene would be funny I wish I could draw 🙂)

ANYWAYS so one time Jade finally, finally snapped a photo of Rook

Because the blond was too busy admiring you

Rook's cheeks were slightly pink, eyes in beautiful cresent shapes with a hand supporting his chin, the hunter was lovestruck

Now that you explained how you got this precious photo, his heart bursted even more in happiness

You went through so much just for a picture of him? Technically the octatrio suffered most but we don't talk about that

"I am not embarrassed being caught red-handed staring at my love. Why would I?"

This man never fails to make you fall in love with him all over again

After that he'll (have a hard time) choose one photo of you to set on his lockscreen, having another internal crisis when choosing another photo for his background, because he loves each and every one of the pictures of you!

Epel Felmier

Cries so hard this boy is so embarrassed

It was a picture of him struggling during the daily dance practice with Vil

Composure: gone

You took it when Vil surprisingly lets you stay in Pomefiore's ballroom and stay until Epel's practice is over since apparently the boy does better when you're there

Prefers you taking a "manlier" photo of him as your lockscreen but when you told him he looks cute like this and you like it, a small pink tinted his cheeks

Whatever makes you happy

(IM SO FUCKING SORRY I DID NOT DO EPEL JUSTICE I DONT KNOW HOW TO WRITE HIM 🙇‍♀️ feel free to send hate)

Idia Shroud

W-What's this? He's seen a lot of shows that couples put their partner's photo as their lockscreen, but people in real life actually do that?

Before he met you, he definitely thought it was a little cringe at first, because why would you want to show the whole world who you're with!? Don't they know that some people don't have a significant other and are lonely!?

But it's just so cute when you does it

Someone is actually willing to see his face whenever? Even putting it as your lockscreen!

He's a blushing mess, it's not even exaggerated to say he fainted after stuttering nonsense

Oh...it's a picture of him sleeping while he was cuddled into you

Idia.exe stopped working

Ortho Shroud

(Platonic! Ortho's reaction to his best friend having their picture together as their lockscreen 🥰)

Is so surprised! It was a picture the two of you took on Halloween Week in NRC, doing the 'gao' pose

Does Ortho has a phone? He could do every research he needs on himself so...

But if he does, he'll definitely whip it out and show you that he has your photo together as his lockscreen too!

WHOLESOME FUCKING WHOLESOME JSFHAUSGWGU

After that the two of you will definitely take more pictures together

[viharbinger]

Heya! ₍₍◞( •௰• )◟₎₎

Mind if I join in on the matchmaking?

I'm ISFP, I don't have a favourite song/artist as they change every two days. My socializing skills are probably negative 100 so I'm often a quiet and passive person .

My hobbies: drawing, skating, piano, eating :D sleeping and gaming. Honestly I just watch anime/manga and go on Reddit/Discord. Except for genshin.. I also like Valorant, Arknights, Tears of Themis. I want to do something related to science regarding space, poison or insects.

I use she/her but it doesn't matter to me even if you call me a 🍞. I prefer male but don't have a type (in game characters I like: SCARAMOUCHE, Xiao, Venti, Childe).

Random stuff about me I can think of off my brain rn:

drinking coffee makes my heart rate go up and nervous all the time

I hate competitiveness and lack actual skills to do basic everyday activities to maintain myself (I'm a mess and I know it)

I just lost my 50/50 to Qiqi on zhongli banner two hours ago( ≧Д≦) yes this was an elaborate plan to get you to hear me complaining all along muhaha

My sleep schedule is non existent but I'm trying

Am lonely

Is a stuck up brat but cry about it

Kay I'll stop boring you now, you can choose to ignore this cause I probably sound terrible, have a happy new year ! (If you're celebrating)

I pair you with.. Xingqiu!

ayato being a close second to the matchmaking because he shares similar traits to xingqiu,, didnt pair you with him because we have no gif of him so like-

opposites attract! he'd be like the ball of energy and try to drag you to places like the theatre to watch a new anime movie, even if you don't wanna go

idk much about valorant but if it has a duos game mode, he'll call you up on discord to play with you often

would be really interested in your dream career regarding space and poison. would go directly to you if he has some questions about stuff like that

he'd always make sure you wake up in the morning, he'd call you multiple times until you pick up which is annoying, but effective!

also yess im celebrating cny, and my condolences on your lost zhongli.. when will we ever stop the qiqi curse? (i have c4 qiqi)

[pumpkinpenguin]

Bottled Up: SonKnux Oneshot

Knuckles watched with minimal interest as Sonic destroyed yet another one of Eggman's robots. This had become routine; Egmman wants the master emerald so he gets a robot and Sonic smashes it before it can even get to Angel Island. He had to admit, it made his job easier, but he wondered why Sonic was so bent on protecting Angel Island. He brushed it off and went back to watching the scene in front of him unfold. Eggman gave his usual speach of "I'll be back you wretched hedgehog!" before speeding away in his Eggmobile. Knuckles just shook his head and looked down to see if Sonic was still there or not, but of course, the speedy blue hedgehog had already run off.

That was another thing; Knuckles never got the chance to talk to Sonic about what the hell he was doing or to even get out a quick, "Thanks." It was a bit frustrating. Of course, the echidna knew that Sonic didn't like staying in one place for long but with how much time he seems to spend around the floating isle, he could at least stop and say hi. He would never admit it, but he'd be lying if he said he didn't miss the blue blur's company. It was weird to go this long without all the teasing and compliments. Knuckles never thought he'd wish to be teased so badly, but the small interactions they had always gave him a warm feeling.

Maybe it was the fact that he kept seeing Sonic and never got the chance to talk; but he never realized how less lonely Sonic made his job. Of course Rouge would always drop by, but she only came to gossip about what goes on in Mobius and complain about how 'brooding' Shadow is. Knuckles would always tune her out, but still give his input here and there. She would always tell him that he gave great advice before flying off, but Knuckles knew that she was just being nice. To be honest, he only believed compliments if they were coming from Sonic.

The two were good friends and very close, despite the frequent fights they had. So, it hurt more that Sonic wouldn't even give the echidna a passing glance. It made Knuckles feel a pain in his chest when he thought about it. Maybe Sonic didn't want to be friends anymore and just wanted to stop Eggman. Maybe he got bored with Knuckles. Maybe-

No. Knuckles shook his head and stood up. It's no good to think that way. All it does is make him anxious and upset, ruining his good mood. He would just have to wait for when Sonic was ready to talk again. He didn't know what he did to make his friend so upset, but he would respect his boundaries and not jump to any conclusions.

Sonic let out a breath he didn't know he'd been holding once he was far enough away from Angel Island. He didn't know why, but he always got super nervous around Knuckles now. Actuallly, he knew exactly why; but he would rather die than admit his feelings for the hothead. The blue blur was never one to communicate his feelings. Heroes weren't supposed to have negative thoughts and they were always supposed to fall for the damsel in distress. But he always gets so uncomfortable when girls flirt with him after he saves them. He would much rather look at the stars with his friend, Knux. He was surprised the echidna never realized that Sonic had feelings for him, but he was always a bit of a knucklehead. He was determined to keep it that way, even if it meant avoiding the echidna. Another bottle to put on the shelves.

Sonic plastered a smirk on his face and entered the house he shared with Tails. He knew that he'd be in the workshop, but he can never be too careful.

"Hey Sonic! Did you go to Angel Island again," Tails asked as he emerged from the shop. The hedgehog just nodded at the boy before opening the fridge and reaching in to grab a leftover chillidog.

Tails beamed. "That's great! I'm glad you and Knuckles get to hang out more these days! I heard from Cream that he'd missed hanging out with you." Sonic choked on his food hiding the blush on his face from his two tailed companion. The fox gave Sonic a confused look.

"Are you okay?"

"Completely fine! I'm one hundred percent okay! I guess I shouldn't try and talk with food in my mouth. Ha."

Sonic hoped he didn't seem too nervous or flustered about the situation. He didn't need anyone knowing about his feelings for Knuckles. He didn't need anyone knowing about his feelings at all. Tails shrugged before heading back into his workshop, leaving Sonic to finish his lunch.

Sonic could still feel that his face was heated up, flustered at the thought that Knuckles missed him. He shook his head. No. Surely Rouge must have said something to Cream while her and Shadow were babysitting. The small rabbit must've come to that conclusion herself. There's no way. Sonic knew Knuckles would never reciprocate. He sighed. Maybe he should stop going to Angel Island altogether. But he couldn't. He worried too much. Yes, Knuckles had giant fists to protect himself, two very holdable fists, and he could deffinitely smash any robot Eggman had; but he couldn't help but worry. Knuckles was very easily persuaded by Eggman's tricks and sob stories; he couldn't help it! He's a big softie. Sonic just didn't feel comfortable knowing that Eggman could trick him again. And he really, REALLY, did not want to fight with Knuckles right now. He sighed once more before getting up and zooming off. A run would clear his head.

_________

so i wrote this to satiate my friend's need to read my fanfic i stopped writing

come get y'all juice

[askultimateluckytrash]

    They pulled him out of the Neo World Program abruptly.

    For a second, smashed back into his own body against his will, dazed and confused, he staggered and swayed and had no idea where he was or who he was. For a blissful moment, he was nameless with no past and no present. But the illusion was shattered soon enough.

     They berated him, but he didn't even hear it. Their words pummeled against his ears, swollen and distorted like he was underwater. He didn't remember what they said. Why did he care? He felt so horrible already. Surely these people who he didn't like and didn't know couldn't possibly make him feel any worse.

     They took him to a hospital bed and made a full examination. For the most part, aside from the big bump on his head, he was unharmed. A full recovery. No adverse side-effects, mentally or physically. What bad luck.

     They made him wait in the hospital for a while. Then they pulled him from the room and made him wait in a lobby. Then they took him to a therapist, who asked him a bunch of questions, and he gave the best answers he could, dazed as he still was. They took him to a different lobby. He awaited punishment.

     Part of him hoped that they would simply put him back in the Neo World Program, though he knew that wasn't likely. What else could they do? Would he have to stay here for another 6 months of therapy, like before? He wouldn't mind that too much. The island was beautiful, and therapy at least gave him something to do every day, if nothing else. Or would he go to prison this time? Was his clemency finally at its limit? Prison wouldn't be so bad either. He would get chores to do every day, and be distracted with a strict schedule.

     Either way, he would still be gone. That was what he wanted. That was what they didn't understand. He wanted to be gone. Anything they did to him, so long as they didn't send him back home, would still feed into his goals.

     He wanted to be gone. He wanted to be completely severed from his life and his identity, his friends, his past, his disappointing future, his expectations, his responsibilities, his crimes, his guilt, all the people he was hurting, all the things they expected of him, his name and personality, his memories...everything about his life. He wanted it gone.

     The easiest way to do that, of course, was dying. But he couldn't do that. He had made so many promises to so many people-- which was something else that he wanted to escape. Why was there so much pressure on him to live?

      But he hated his life, and all he wanted was to end it. If he couldn't die, he could still end his own life, right? If he severed himself from it completely. Gave up everything, broke it all off, and ran away from everything that made up 'his life'. At least he wouldn't have to deal with the pain of living it anymore, even if he couldn't completely erase it from his mind.

      If they sent him to prison, he wouldn't have to be 'Nagito Komaeda' anymore. He would just be another faceless criminal, with his sole life being harmless jail chores and a rigid schedule. Nothing about Despair, or the Neo World Program, or the 77th class, or Hajime Hinata. And if he stayed here, well...this place might still be connected to his old life, but at least he wouldn't have to see his classmates here, or see Hajime, or be forced to think about his miserable future and be forced to do work to take the steps to make it there. As if a future that tortuous could possibly be worth even sticking around to see, let alone doing so much work for. It was so tiring, and all for what? For more torture. More pain. At least if he didn't go home, he didn't have to face the future.

       He waited. The more he thought about his punishments, the more his head cleared a bit. Either of those was a good option. Already, he was planning how to make himself at home in prison or here. Planning what to do afterwards. Move someplace else, buy a small house, and live out the rest of his days in bored, lonely obscurity? With no one knowing who he was or where their annoying, hated classmate Nagito Komaeda had gone. The idea of the misery gave him pleasure. This will be your punishment, so you can stop feeling so guilty. You'll be truly miserable, but at least this time, you won't get your hopes up just to have them shattered. At least this time, you won't have to see all the faces of all the people you hurt, and love them knowing that they hate you.

      Or maybe they would give him the death penalty, and he could die without knowing that he was letting everybody down.

      When they delivered the final verdict to him, he nearly fainted.

      "What?" He mumbled, his voice numb with disbelief.

      They repeated their instructions, but he still couldn't register it.

      "What do you mean?" He shook his head, getting to his feet a little unsteadily.

       "We'll send someone to the hotel to pack your things for you, and then meet us at the airport for your flight home." The employee explained, glancing at a clipboard he was holding.

     Nagito blinked again. "Home?" He stalled a little and his voice cracked. "You're just...sending me home?"

     Maybe he didn't sound as thrilled as he should have. The two employees exchanged confused glances. "Yes. It will be good for you."

     "No." He disagreed calmly, shaking his head. "I don't want to go back."

     "You have to." They insisted. "The Future Foundation thinks this will be the safest--"

     "I don't want to go home." He said firmly, shaking his head again. "Don't make me go back home. Send me somewhere else. I'll pay for it." He clasped his hands together, crushing his palm between his fingers. The idea of going back home was suffocating.

    "This is where the Future Foundation wants you." The employee matched his tone. "That's where you have to go."

    He grimaced a little. The idea of going back there-- it made his stomach turn. That place is a prison. Don't make me go back there. He could feel his hands starting to shake, so he squished them harder. "I don't...want to." That was the only argument he could give them. How could they possibly understand in any form of words what it felt like to be at home? But he knew that wouldn't be enough. They wouldn't listen to him. They would pack him up and ship him back anyway...He'd rather have gone to prison. Would it have been much different?

    The employee shook his head, making it clear that Nagito wasn't going to get his way. "We're sending someone to pack up your things right now. We'll meet them at the airport." He put a hand on Nagito's arm and began to pull him forward.

     Nagito wanted to resist. He started to pull away feebly, out of instinct, and let off a nearly - silent whimper, but he knew there was no getting out of it. He had no right to get out of it. Didn't he have to face the consequences of his horrible actions just like everyone else? He stumbled forward numbly, slipping into a daze again as the employee tugged him along.

     The thought of going home was suffocating. Going back to that place, that house, with all those wonderful memories that were past and gone. Seeing the rooms where he used to be so happy with his family and knowing he would never have that again. He would never have a family, or be safe, or be loved. And seeing Hajime again was equally crushing. He'd be angry and disappointed and hurt, and he'd take it all out on Nagito with his withering looks, his telling silences, a few well-placed comments here and there. Nagito would have to look at the face of the person who used to be his best friend and his hope and know that what he dreamed of was never coming true. Just like with his house. Remember all the good times with Hajime, when it seemed like it could be possible for them to be friends. Remember when they used to talk. When maybe, possibly, Hajime might've loved him. Remember all the dreams he had of then being together, and how happy he would be, only to find out that it wasn't true. His dreams were...stupid and ridiculous. Hajime would never love him. And even if they were together, Nagito still wouldn't be happy. Hajime was never around. He never talked to him. He never spent time with him. There was no relationship there at all anymore.

    Home really was a prison. He was stuck there all day, every day. With no friends to distract him or take him out. No boyfriend present at all. Alone only with the thoughts of all the things he missed and all the things he dreamed of that he would never get. Knowing that nothing would ever get better and that he had nothing left in his future but suffering. It was...helpless, suffocating, stifling, claustrophobic. Like being stuck in a straight-jacket. Constantly alone, with no one to talk to and no way out. Going home was the worst punishment he could ever get.

     He froze in his spot, so abruptly that the employee jerked and glared back at him.

     That was the point. Of course! How had he not realized it sooner? Ahaha! How stupid and blind he had been! Of course this was the worst punishment. Of course that was the one he would get. Obviously. This was punishment. That was the point. This was the punishment he deserved. He deserved the worst possible punishment in the world for what he'd done. He deserved to have everything he wanted dangled in his face, held just out of his reach forever. And if he ever got closer, his hopes would get further away. What a cruel, fitting punishment! What a deserved torture for someone as worthless as him! He should know better than to dare to hope. Hope was for people better than him.

     He cracked a smile and let off a tiny laugh. All at once it hit him how ridiculous he was being. It wasn't his lot to complain about his life. He had no right. What happened to the version of him from the killing game? The one who could take any punishment, any misery, any despair and still smile. Still keep going, perfectly happy, content in his deserved suffering. Why was he being such a baby now?

     Had he spent too much time around Hajime, and allowed his resolve to weaken? That must be it. He had grown too used to being happy. He had been basking in hope so much that he couldn't handle despair anymore. But that wasn't him. His lot in life was despair, forever, until the day he died.

        And he shouldn't be complaining about that! This was a good thing. He was getting the punishment that he deserved. Hope was prevailing. Good was prevailing. He should rejoice in knowing that, in seeing that fact played out every day before his eyes. Every bit of suffering he went through just meant that hope was still winning. Every time he suffered, it should renew his faith in hope. A worthless piece of garbage like him was being punished. And he could take pride in his punishment and resolve. Take pride in going through all this despair for the sake of hope. Because didn't that prove his devotion? And his strength, what little of it he had? And if he got punished for all his horrible crimes, wasn't that a relief? Didn't that ease the guilt? He might have done bad things, but at least he was suffering for them. This punishment was a blessing!

     He should revel in every bit of misery he got. Be proud of every horrible feeling and every instance of bad luck. It was time to be strong again. To stop complaining. To stop being so spoiled. It was time to stop expecting more than he deserved. To go back to being happy and content with his despair. His worthlessness. His misery. And he would go to the airport quietly, and they would see if Hajime would be late to pick him up, or if he would even bother to show up at all.

     Time to smile at despair in the name of hope.

[writemywaytoyourheart]

"Why're you still cute like that?? I hate you..."

a/n: happy start to the week everyone <3 I'm actually posting on a Monday! yay me ✊

Masterlist ← this is where you can find all my works until I get the ML in my bio working :)

Genre: FLUFF ❤️

Warnings: none :)

*JUST IMAGINE WHICHEVER MEMBER YOU'D LIKE*

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Hot.

Blistering heat.

Melting away any and all hopes of ever being cool again.

I'm gonna melt.

It's gonna happen.

These thoughts keep going around and around in your head while you sit in a chair at your dining room table, considering just going and taking an ice cold shower.

You were bored, and lonely, and not to mention so hot you wish you'd just melt into a depressed puddle already.

Your boyfriend was unfortunately at work, and your friends were busy. So, no one to hang out with and you couldn't take advantage of your boyfriend's air conditioning back at his and the boys' dorm.

The air conditioning in your apartment was still broken and it made these summer days miserable.

Sure, you had a spare key to his place, but for some reason you hated going over there on your own, even though the boys said multiple times it was perfectly fine with them. It just felt....

Awkward...and intrusive...

You keep staring at the wooden dining table in front of you; contemplating that one weird shape in the smooth wood. Eventually your eyes start to water from staring at it too long without blinking and you snap out of it.

Who cares about awkwardness and intruding when it's this hot??

You make up your mind to storm their dorm and lounge around in the cool air, when you hear a little bling from your phone. It was your boyfriend.

H/n: Hey baby, wanna go to the pool today?

Was this boy.....heaven sent?? Your eyes are huge with relief and giddiness as you type out a reply, this had to be a prank.

Y/n: uhh, heck yeah??!! But what about practice..?

H/n: Everyone is doing pretty good with the choreo so we decided to call it a day, can I pick you up at your place in about 10?

Y/n: yes!! Thank you baby you're a life saver 💕💕

H/n: Love you! 😉💓

________________

Ten minutes later you're in your new bathing suit with a giant t-shirt and some shorts on over it. Sitting on your couch you wait for your boyfriend to text that he's here. You couldn't wait to show him the new swimsuit you got recently, you loved it and new he'd like it too.

Bling

You grab your phone and open the messages.

H/n: Here baby ❤️

Jumping up and grabbing your bag you packed for whenever you go swimming; you sling it over your shoulder and hurry out the door. Your boyfriend is in the parking lot, so you run over to his car and climb in.

He smiles at you and starts backing the car out once you buckle up.

"Hey baby, you ready?"

You nod happily then turn in your seat to see a few of the other boys in the car as well.

"Hey y/n! How are you?"

"Hey I feel like we haven't seen you in forever!"

"Hey y/n!!"

A chorus of hellos comes from the boys in the back as they all wave and start trying to get your attention. You laugh and wave back,

"Hey guys! It's good to see you all!"

You talk with the boys until you guys reach your destination, the boys in the back start clambering around trying to get out so they could hurry into the pool. You go to follow them but feel your boyfriend take your hand gently from the driver's seat.

"I've missed you, y/n..."

You smile and squeeze his hand lovingly, then you reach up and pat his cheek gently and giggle when he blushes.

"I missed you too, I'm so glad you could hang out today, and now we get to hang out and swim at the same time!" You squeal and wiggle in your seat in excitement.

He laughs and reaches over to unbuckle your seatbelt for you. Then he hops out of his side while you scramble out yours.

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The locker room smells like chlorine and is eerily quiet when you go in to put your bag in a locker.

Lucky boys, you think.

They get to hang out in the locker room as well, I hate how empty it is.

You quickly take your clothes off to reveal your swimsuit and shove everything into locker B23 then hurry to the entrance to the inside pool.

You see a few of the boys already in the water splashing around, some are sitting on the edge of the pool smiling and watching the others. But your boyfriend hasn't come out yet apparently.

"Come on y/n!! Get in!! It feels amazing!!" You smile, wave at them, and start walking to the water.

Suddenly you feel hands wrap around your waist and you choke back a gasp. You turn and look at your boyfriend who just snuck up behind you; and smack him on the arm.

"You idiot! How many times do I have to tell you not to do that??"

"You look great baby. I love your new swimsuit." He just hugs you and ignores your protests. Your face turns red and you mumble a "thank you" before he takes your hand and leads you to the pool.

At first the water is freezing and you hesitate after dipping a single foot in.

"ohhhh ho ho hooooo it's so cold!" You bring your foot back out and wring your hands. Your boyfriend sighs in amusement and suddenly your feet are off the ground. You squeal when he picks you up bridal style and starts walking with you down the ramp going into the pool.

The closer to the water you get the tighter you hold onto your boyfriend until your whole body is practically wrapped around his neck.

"Ahh, ahh, wait baby, I-I'm not ready!"

"It's better to just get it over with babe, then it'll feel better."

Your next protest is caught off suddenly when he lightly tosses you into the water.

"Wai-"

You scramble to your feet to get your head above water and inhale sharply after the cold shock against hot skin. Your hair is stuck to your face and you can barely see anything as you angrily splash your boyfriend in the chest with water.

"You as-"

"Hey! It's over now, you can just enjoy it!"

He puts his hands up to avoid the angry splashes while you glare playfully at him. Then when the splashing ceases he moves closer and starts to get your hair off your face gently.

You just sit there and pout, knowing you looked like a scared wet cat when you first came out of the water, and not being too happy about it.

After swimming around a little and getting used to the temperature of the water you swim over to your boyfriend where he and one of the boys are having a rock paper scissors battle to see who gets dunked first. You notice that his hair isn't wet yet.

That little stinker.

You kiss him on the cheek and startle him, he loses the game and pouts at you. You just shrug innocently, it was his turn to get dunked and look like a wet cat.

The member he lost to suddenly tackles him and shoves him underwater. Your boyfriend comes up spluttering and wiping at his eyes. You laugh and laugh until you notice something. He still looks hot, not at all like a pathetic soaking cat. Your grin is wiped off your face instantly.

"What?" He questions you, seeing your face change.

"Why're you still cute like that?? I hate you.."

You turn and swim away, playfully ignoring his calls to you.

How unfair...

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After about half an hour of playing around you see a few of the other boys' girlfriends come from the locker room. They were free now and came to join in the fun.

You shout and wave your arms in the air to get their attention. They see you and smile widely and one waves before they're hurrying over to where you are in the pool and hopping in with you.

You guys talk while the boys complain about being left out. Until your boyfriend picks you up by the waist and carries you to the other side of the pool.

You flail in his arms and protest until he plops you down and kisses you right on the mouth. Your eyes widen and he goes in to kiss you a second time. Then he hugs you and puts his head in the crook of your neck. You two stay like that a while, just sitting in the water holding on to each other, it was super relaxing and you didn't even know you had needed it until now.

Thank goodness he'd texted you earlier, you smile and hold onto him tighter then kiss his wet shoulder. He hums and snuggles you closer.

"WATER FIGHT!!!!"

You both jump at the sound of one of the members screaming and suddenly there are shrieks echoing off the walls and water is splashing in every direction. Then you hear one of the other girls shout,

"Boys against girls!!! Come on y/n!!!!! Let's get 'em!!"

You laugh and kiss your boyfriend on the cheek before winking at him and quickly swimming away to join the girls side.

It was a good thing this pool wasn't very popular and there was no one but you and your friends here today, because you're sure they wouldn't be too happy about the chaos.

But you loved it, and couldn't stop smiling as the girls completely destroyed the boys in the water fight.