#he's the ex that i said like between us we watched like 8 sports lol

[bright-and-burning]

everybody thought my apartment was amazing and beautiful :) and everybody ate my snacks :) and it was so good :)

also extremely funny 2 me. that my ex bf (in town for the weekend) who i dated for like. 3 months? 2 years ago. that i stayed friends with (obviously) and who i am one of only three ppl he talks to frequently from college cuz he moved far away. but that i never got like That Emotionally Close to again after the break up. will tell stories abt like, his extended family, or his pets, or whatever, and in a room of 7 people. or 15 people. or 30 people (all of this has happened). will still look at me from across a room and go "oh you know, the apartment with the van gogh print" or "the ambassador uncle i told you about." you know, insane rich people things. or "the dog that does the spins" or "the nhl player on my street." and the thing is. i DO know the apartment with the van gogh print. i DO know the spinning dog. he still sends me photos and videos whenever he visits his art collector family!!!! like. SLDNJA. anyways . just very strange to Know someone. to Fit with them so well you have drunk freshmen telling you "you guys are like peanut butter and jelly. so different but the perfect complimentary combo" BEFORE YOU EVEN STARTED DATING. but break up for mental health reasons. and two years later but also before that have them acknowledge in front of all your friends that you Know them better than everyone else. to slide back in to balancing each other out every time you talk. but also like. only have dated for a few months. TWO YEARS AGO.

[hellothisissade]

some squid game thoughts

as someone who is an avid kdrama watcher and absolutely loves the whole ppl with money making the lessers die for sport---i found squid game mid-tier af.

maybe i would feel differently if i hadn’t watched alice in borderland first, but whatever:

1. the series starts off amazing, we meet gihun who for all intents and purposes is a shit bag with a gambling addiction whose consistently poor choices keep catching up with him.

2. i guess he loves his daughter tho

3. i think it’s weird af that despite gihun’s obvious gambling addiction and incompetence as a father, his wife is low key framed as a heartless bitch for leaving him

4. GONG YOO’S CAMEO OMG the way this man can wear a fucking suit I SWEAR. he’s utterly captivating on screen, i literally couldn’t take my eyes off of him. 

5. i really loved the very first game we see gihun play as a sort of hazing into the squid game arena. it’s very telling of his state of mind how quick he was to keep playing (completely mindlessly) and how quickly he forgot about the cash reward (more focused on getting revenge). it was a GREAT scene

6. the loading, drugging, track suit distribution and red light, green light game was all dope af. really loved the use of color between the contestants, guards, and the setting. from the stark almost asylum-like nature of their “dorm room” to the candy colored and maze-like quality of the setting itself. 

7. the red light, green light game was hella iconic, i honestly dont think any other game comes close in comparison for me tho if i HAD to choose it would be tug of war. the little tightrope number that comes later was fun too.

8. at first i thought it was odd af that they were allowed to go home but it made for an interesting break to allow us to see just how desperate someone must be to enter the arena again

9. i’m sorry but i think it’s wild af how we’re lead to believe that gihun is entering the arena (again!) to save his mother when he literally leaves her for dead LOL. the reason why she wasn’t able to get medical attention is bc he kept gambling her money away. and instead of humbling himself to actually accept the money he asked his ex for on behalf of his mother, he lets his “pride” get in the way. pride in what, i can hardly imagine.

9. the gangster guy and the woman clearly there to be the residential psycho got annoying af to me REAL FAST. so incredibly one note, it was so obvious where their story was heading i rolled my eyes so hard during their sex scene. the only valid outcome would be if she slit his throat in the bathroom so i woudn’t have to suffer through that tired ass kdrama gangster archetype but ALAS that was not to be the case

10. it’s so weird how in one scene the guards dont condone fighting but in the next, just to allow the gangster guy free reign to randomly beat the shit out of ppl for profit. i feel like i need to re-watch to be sure but i swear the guards step in to breakup a fight prior so i was super confused but maybe i’m remembering it wrong.

11. HOW COULD I FORGET ALI?? i was pleasantly surprised to see migrant working representation in this show at all. and honestly ali is great. i will say tho there is a difference between being naive and being dumb and it seemed ali toed the line a little to often depending on how the writers needed him to be in order to further the plot

12. i DID NOT like how the random “crazy” woman went on a xenophobic rant against ali AND NOT A SINGLE PERSON STOOD UP FOR HIM despite the fact that he’d literally saved their lives multiple times by that point. i think it’s one thing to have a xenophobic character, a whole other thing to have the narrative SUPPORT said xenophobia through the silence of those that witness this behavior

13. same also goes for sang woo’s extremely sexist rant prior to the tug of war game. i thought FOR SURE the narrative was going to check him (like he really did take it too far) but NOOOOOOO the narrative doubles down on it by making it a game of brute strength. while in the end it was strategy that helps them win, the female characters still remain largely invisible in this game having been labeled “useless” by their male counterparts. all the clutch moments come from ali, the old man, sang woo, and gihun.

14. it’s weird in general the lack of female characters and the mediocre writing they all receive but i was really excited by seobyeok. she seems like a lead, especially given the fact that she’s the only female character we get any real backstory on. but for the most part she’s a background character. present when the plot needs her, rarely contributing to strategy. VERY resourceful (yay!!) but the second she’s no longer needed she gets randomly injured and unceremoniously murdered just to further the rage (and plot!) of her male counterparts. yikes!

15. omg i love the organ selling side plot LOL. i’m sad it ended as soon as it did. made me wish we got more perspectives from the guards given how many of them there were. 

16. how did the cop dude not die? he was so sloppy with his investigation after a while it was silly they couldnt catch him despite the eleventy million cameras in the facility. i also low key didn’t care about his story once the organ selling plot ended. i completely forgot he was looking for his brother LOL

17. i hated the marble game wow. with the fire of 1000 suns wow. i think this was the episode where squid game lost me a little. the plot armor around the gangster guy was ridiculous, he should’ve met his hubris in that game instead of subjecting us to more of his predictable ass behavior.

18. seobyeok’s scene was the only one worth my heart in the marble game. i’m sad they literally brought the other girl in for one game just to die in the next, she was so great i would’ve love to see seobyeok develop a stronger friendship with her even if she died later. sheesh! 456 contestants and only 3 women with speaking lines??? ridiculous. 

18. and idc what anybody says, sang woo’s “plan” in the marble game was such an obvious lie. it literally made no fucking sense. ali “falling” for it made him look stupid af and i’m mad he went out being made a fool of like that. i’d forgive it more if sang woo’s “plan” was even remotely believable. like damn, fool me too! but ali just ends up looking like an idiot, running around like a chicken with its head cut off as if all common sense left him when you can CLEARLY SEE IN EACH PAIR THAT ONE PERSON IS CONSISTENTLY DYING. like come tf on!

16. the moment the VIP’s open their mouths to speak is when squid game goes from intense to straight up camp. it’s just silly and incredibly difficult for me to take the games seriously from that point on. the dialogue and acting is just awful. 

17. this show had ZERO queer representation until they needed one of the VIPs to be predatory LMAO. like wow, talk about poor fucking taste

18. the actor who plays the cop is just BAD lololol. like what in the 2 facial expressions nonsense?? shoulda kept the mask on

19. the tight rope game was cool but dragged on a little too long for me. i think it’s bc the VIPs fucking suck LOL. i was REALLY looking for gangster dude to finally be revealed as a spineless fuck but NOOOOOO more bullying and intimidation. honestly so pathetic. 

20. gangster dude deserved to die due to his own failures IMO but NOOOOOO. i swear the “crazy” woman lasted as long as she did just so she could say his dick was small and some rando VIP could utter “hell hath no fury like a woman scorned”. i’m sorry i rolled my eyes so hard at that scene, doesn’t she have a newborn baby?? LOLOLOL like what a pathetic way to die, sorry.

21. FRONTMAN IS LEE BYUNG HYUN??? LMAOOOOO!!! i mean what in the cameo?? it was impossible for me to see him as frontman after that “luke i am your father” moment. and the irony of byung hyun playing role is just extra rich given that he was literally blackmailed in a similar squid game story IRL. and where is she now? and where is he now? hmmmmm

22. and again i have to express my rage. seobyeok randomly getting injured by the blown up glass (literally WHY??) just to struggle eat and bleed out LMAO. and then be “mercy killed” by sang woo’s stank ass JUST to give gihun the motivation he’d need to kill sang woo?? fucking foul. the ONLY COMPETENT FEMALE CHARACTER and they couldn’t even do her the dignity of going out through a game. they literally kill her to further the plot of her male counterparts. awful

23. i mean by the time the final game comes, ngl squid game completely lost me as an audience. i just didn’t care anymore. and like who am i supposed to be rooting for anyway? the asshole sang woo who's in debt bc of a blue collar crime? or the asshole gihun who’s in debut due to a gambling addiction that literally left his own mother unable to financially take care of her sickness?

24. HOW exactly are either of them suffering at the hands of capitalism again?

25. i was so happy when the fight ended and gihun was finally ended up the victor, not bc i wanted him to win i was just tired of the psuedo-moralism he randomly developed at the very end. like give this man his money and wrap this shit up.

26. j/k he comes back home to a mother he left to die and then wallows in misery for a year even tho he promised sang woo and seobyeok (also why ali’s wife and child wasn’t important enough to include on this list is very telling but whatever) that he’d take care of their families, he becomes a drunk instead.

27. like i WANT to feel sorry for gihun bc trauma but i literally do not care. like the ONE TIME he should actually be putting others before himself and he STILL can’t do it

28. oh but look a squid game card! THAT’s what spurns him to action. not atoning for the lives lost but the concept of getting revenge...for a game...that he actively participated in...knowing that they’d kill contestants indiscriminately LOL. like i literally cant. i get why he’s angry but here he is with a second shot at life and it’s like the only change in his character is MORE TRAUMA™

29. i feel bad for seobyeok’s little brother most of all. sitting there thinking his sister abandoned him FOR A YEAR poor thing

30. i felt the scene with the old man was unnecessary and went on for too long. but then again at that point i’d lost complete interest in the show so LOL

31. i mean honestly gihun gambling AGAIN with someone’s life just to prove the old man wrong LOL. i thought he felt guilty? i thought he was traumatized? why do the writers keep trying to frame him as heroic when he’ll throw everything away to gamble EVERY. TIME.?????

32. so one midlife crises dye job later and gihun is so desperate to not be a father that he enters squid game again. for revenge or whatever LOL

*whew* my goodness, i think i needed to get that out.

like i found squid game wildly entertaining overall but the ending but absolute trash. and i just dont care enough about gihun to want more story from him, he really should’ve gotten on the plane.

i also find it interesting that ppl saw the show as a critique on capitalism when really i felt like it doubled down on it. but maybe that’s just me idk. regardless, i’m happy for the show’s success. better squid game at number one than fucking bridgerton LMAO.

[purplesurveys]

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survey by ohsh1t2wksl8

Lasts!

Who

Who was the last person you got into an argument with? What was it about? My mom. We rarely get into arguments anymore so I was surprised when she made a comment the other day that was snippy enough to provoke me. She has a unique ability to make me feel insecure over just about everything, and last Saturday it was about my spelling abilities in the 7th grade.

Who was the last person you spoke on the phone with? What was the call regarding? My last call was with a client who has a tendency to micromanage :/ He called to ask me to accomplish a task, which was a little bothersome because all interactions with our clients ideally should be seen by everyone in my team, i.e. my manager and my director for visibility. Anyway, in the end I just let my bosses know that he called to ask me to do something for him.

Who was the last person that slept in your bed? Are they a lover or a friend? Gabie is the only other person who has slept in my bed, I think. She is neither. 

I still get stunned whenever I type something like that up...thinking about how I practically grew up doing surveys, and how she was in nearly every survey I’ve taken since day one, and now she doesn’t play a single role in my life, it’s just super surreal to take in and I don’t think that feeling will ever go away. 

Who was the last person to give you a hug or a kiss? Did you return the sentiment? My dad gave me a casual hug when it was time for him to go upstairs for bed. He just put his arm around my back while I was sitting on the couch, so I wasn’t in the proper position to return it.

Who was the last person to give you a gift? What was the gift? What holiday was it for, or was it “just because”? Erm, idk if it counts as a gift but Andi lent me their vape pen for the foreseeable future, haha. They know how much I like vaping and how it relaxes me; and since they don’t do it as much as I do (unless they lied for my sake), they lent theirs to me. It was a “just because” gift, which I appreciated.

Who is the person that you last went to for advice? Angelaaaa, earlier today. I’ve been in contact with a potential supplier for work purposes, and I had to do some negotiating in my last email. I have zero knowledge and experience in negotiations, so I didn’t know if I worded my email right, or if I insulted the supplier, etc lol so I immediately went to Anj after to check my email and to let me know if it sounded okay.

Who was the last person to say “I love you” to you? What significance does this person have in your life? My mom. I’m not super close with her and I haven’t replied to her with “I love you too,” since I was like maybe 14 or 15 due to the incredibly strained relationship we’ve had for the majority of my life; but she is my mom so she still holds a level of significance. I’m just not sure how much I’m willing to do or sacrifice for her.

Who was the last person that you spoke with, in person? Also my mom. She was asking where a certain local mountain was located because a friend of hers had recently climbed said mountain.

Who was the last person to request you on a social media network - and did you accept? It’s this middle-aged guy who I share a good number of mutual friends with. I figured he’s probably a professor or someone in media since all our mutual friends are either students and professors in my college, buuut I’ve personally never heard of him before so I ignored the request.

Who was the last person you texted or messaged, and what was it in regards to? Justine, my former co-intern. My company stopped taking in interns at the start of the year, but for some reason there’s this one girl intern that they’ve kept having around so we’re all trying to figure out why they kicked out Justine and the other co-interns but retained this one girl who still logs in her attendance every day, lol.

Who was the last person’s vehicle that you rode in? My dad’s, but I haven’t been on it since Christmas. I’ve been in a car more recently than that but it’s always my car.

Who was the last person to make you laugh or smile, and why? I’ll be breaking the rules quite a bit for this question, because it was Cooper. Earlier he kept barking at some dog he saw outside but whenever Nina asked him to “Shake,” he paused his barking to reach out his paw, without fail, and then proceeded to bark until he was asked to “Shake” again, hahaha.

Who was the last person that you took a photo with? Not sure, I think it was Andi.

Who is the last person that you flirted with? Were you successful? I don’t flirt.

Who was the last person to pay you a compliment, and what did they say? I honestly don’t remember. I’m sure I receive them more often than I think I do; I just do a horrible job keeping track of them. The last one I remember getting was my director saying I did a great job with a press release I had to work on in a rush last Friday, since the client had only placed super minor revisions on the material.

Who’s the last person that you visited in the hospital? I’ve never had to visit anyone in the hospital.

Who is the last person that you lent money to? Not a person but I will sometimes pay for things on my company’s behalf at first - since PR entails a lot of buying a lot of crap - and then ask to have the amount reimbursed right after.

What

What was the last food that you ate? My dad made some kind of Chinese-style, stir-fry thing with loads of chicken and vegetables for dinner earlier. Idk, he likes to combine things in the fridge. As usual, it ended up tasting delightful.

What was the last beverage that you drank? Coffee. As much as possible I hate drinking coffee in the evening since I don’t like being unable to fall asleep; but I had been craving a cup all day. I made one at around 7 PM but made sure I had the whole cup down by 8:30ish, so that the caffeine can subside sooner.

What did the last pair of footwear that you wore look like? They were just boring, blue flip-flops I wore out earlier when I walked Cooper.

What was the last color of pen that you used? I think it was blue.

What was your last thought before falling sleep last night? Nothing, man. I zonked out last night. I closed my eyes at 9 PM in the living room while my family was still around and the next thing I knew it was 12 AM with the whole first floor empty.

What was the last television show you watched? Friends. Been watching a lot of it recently, because I’ve been stressed a lot recently.

What was the last board or card game that you played? Trivial Pursuit or Pictionary; I can’t remember.

What was the last kind of bread that you ate? It was just regular toast. My mom made pasta last Sunday so she toasted up some bread to accompany the dish.

What color is the last shirt you wore? The one I wore before my current top? It was yellow with silver wording.

What was the last electronic that you plugged in to charge? My laptop. Though I really have to plug in my phone since it’s been on 3% for a good while now.

What’s is the last thing that you Googled? Mt. Pulag, since that’s the aforementioned mountain my mom was asking about earlier. I know of the mountain but wasn’t sure where exactly it is, so I had to Google it for her.

What’s the last concert you attended? Paramore.

What’s the last sporting event that you attended/watched? A volleyball game between the UP and Ateneo women’s teams.

What was the last app that you downloaded to your phone? A logo quiz game loooooool, what a throwback. I was looking for phone apps to download last Friday; and apparently logo quizzes still rank pretty high under the Trivia category, so I downloaded one to revisit the fun.

What was the last video game that you played? Mario Kart 8.

What’s the last computer game that you played? Some suuuper fucking old computer game I played as a kid called Magic Ball. During the first few months of the pandemic my memory started to torture me about a ball game I used to play on my dad’s old laptop but whose title I couldn’t remember, so on one day I spent a few hours trying to track it down. When I finally saw the right game, I downloaded a free trial (because you still had to buy the game 15 years later lol) and savored the 30 minutes re-experiencing my childhood.

What’s the last injury you had? The usual scratch from Cooper.

What’s the last holiday or event (baby shower, graduation, etc) that just passed? Christmas. But the next one would be my dad’s 50th birthday which we’ll be celebrating this weekend.

When

When was the last time that you took a painkiller, and what did you take it for? Around a month ago for a headache (which is my only reason for taking painkillers, anyway). I’d keep taking more but we’ve run out and my parents haven’t restocked it yet, partly because I know they know how reliant I get on them to get rid of my headaches.

When was the last time you went to the bathroom? Earlier this evening. My dad tripped while carrying Cooper’s food bowl filled with his dinner meal, so a lot of the rice spilled onto the floor. I helped him out and since the food was a bit sticky and wet, I had to go wash my hands in the bathroom afterwards.

When was the last time that you listened to music? Do you remember what the most recent song was? Also earlier this evening, just before dinner. I was working out on the rooftop and needed music to keep me company; anyway, the last song that played was Beyoncé’s Countdown.

When was your last work shift? Today. I work every weekday from 9 AM to 6 PM.

When is the last time that you had trouble falling asleep? Last Thursday, I think.

When is the last time you saw your parents? 15 minutes ago.

When was the last time you saw a significant other? When they were still my significant other? September. As an ex? Late November.

When was your last year of schooling/education? 2020 so yeah, didn’t get a graduation after four years of busting my ass in college.

When was the last time you took a shower? This morning. I want to take one again tonight, but I’m a little lazyyy.

When was the last time you did anything sexual that went beyond kissing? September.

When was the last time that you did your laundry? I don’t do my own.

When was the last time you had to use public transportation, and what form was it? LOL, like 2017 maybe? Or 2018. Idk, I never use the public transportation in this stinkhole of a country. I used a train to go to Manila, but that was during a dead hour so the train wasn’t crowded and hot like it normally would be.

When’s the last time that you were sick? What was wrong? May. I had a UTI and it disguised itself as a nasty fever that lasted about a week. Didn’t even run into any issues with my urinary tract or anything in that region at all.

When was the last time that you hung out with friends/acquaintances? Virtually, two Saturdays ago. In person, two Fridays ago though that was only with one person.

When was the last funeral you attended? Who passed away? I’ve never attended a funeral, but the last wake I went to was Nacho’s, in September 2019.

When was the last wedding that you attended? Who got married? LMAOOOOOOO. 2007. My mom’s youngest brother and my now-aunt. I’m just waiting for one of my friends to get married now.

When’s the last time that you took a risk? What was the risk? Is stepping away from my ex a risk? I did it over the Christmas season...idk, my mind just had a very sudden shift overnight and I immediately went from seeking to keep in contact with her everyday to not giving even a quarter of a shit and starting to want to live life on my own terms. I certainly think it was pretty bold of me and I’ll always be proud of myself for making such a big step.

When’s the last time you mailed something handwritten? I’ve never mailed anything, period.

When’s the last time you got a haircut? I can’t remember if it was late Feb or early March of last year.

When’s the last time that you went swimming? August 2019.

Where

Where was the last place you drove to, and what did you do there? I went to the new-ish Starbucks at Katip Extension just because I needed new scenery but still be in my comfort zone, which to me will always be Starbucks. I went there supposedly to chill and take a few surveys, but my Viber suddenly got bombarded with work-related messages and for the rest of my time there I was feeling a little stressed and I wasn’t able to finish a single survey.

Where was the last place that you went on vacation to? Tagaytay and Cavite. We’ll be going back to Tagaytay again this weekend, so yay.

Where was the last restaurant you ordered food from? If coffee shops count, Starbucks. If they don’t, I had food from this local Japanese place called Omakase delivered to our house last Saturday.

Where was the last place that you went on a date? Lmfao it was Yabu from like March last year. I won’t be having dates any time soon either, but I’m no longer salty about it.

Where was the last place that you went shopping at? H&M.

Where was the last place you got lost? Somewhere in QC near Tomas Morato, because I had been trying to look for the office of this company who arranged a job interview with me. This isn’t to sound salty because I’m definitely not, but I’m glad I didn’t get a follow-up anything from that company because their office is actually a house (a very nice house, but still a house) and when I was there I failed to get any I’m-finally-a-working-girl-in-a-big-city vibes from it - which to me is important especially at this stage in my life since I’m now finally a full-fledged adult who just gained a deeper level of independence. I aimed to work somewhere that really feels like a legit office/workspace, which my current employer would be able to provide me under normal circumstances.

Where’s the last place that you walked to? My room. I came from the living room a half hour ago.

Where did you last have sex? My bed.

Where was the last place you left your keys? Dining table, as always.

Where’s the last place you got drunk? My room.

Where’s the last place you embarrassed yourself in public? How did you do this? At the parking lot of the aforementioned Starbucks. I was handing my parking ticket to the guard keeping watch of the cars going in and out, and he told me to take care driving, to which I replied, “You too.”

Why

Why did you last cry? I hadn’t cried in a good while and needed a release. Also, because I was in Katip. It was a place I shared with Gab for many years and a place where a lot of fond memories - that I am now forced to shelve to the very back of my head - were made. It was surreal to hang out there and drive in the very same roads I used to take with her, now alone, and everything got overwhelming fairly quickly so I allowed myself to pull over at an isolated spot in our village to let myself cry everything out for a few minutes.

Why did your last relationship fail? She feared commitment and the relationship was becoming too much of a burden for her. Also tbh, all the red flags she had been exhibiting finally came to a head and finally reached a point where they were impossible to resolve. For six years I couldn’t directly talk about marriage, kids, and even my own coming out to my family with her and it was like...what are we even doing anymore? Anyway the tl;dr version of it was that I was apparently becoming a lot of weight to her so she bounced.

Why did you leave your last job? I’ve never left a job.

How

How long has it been since you last visited a doctor? How about a dentist? A doctor, 8 months. A dentist, a year and a month.

How long does gum usually last when you chew it? 10 seconds.

How long can you last in bed? Longer than I’d want to. Being ace, for the most part I run into trouble trying to last, so I’ve always felt bad for my partner about it.

How long did your food last get microwaved for? A minute is my default setting.

How many pages was the last book that you read? Around 225 pages.

How big was the last fish you caught? I’ve never gone fishing.

How long was the last movie you watched? I can’t remember and I can’t be bothered to look up that movie at the moment because it continues to make me sad today.

How long was your last relationship? 4 years. Technically 6 since we had that on-off thing in 2015/2016. 

How much did your last grocery bill come to? I don’t do the groceries.

How difficult was your last exam? I remember thinking it was fairly easy but that I definitely would not be getting a 1.00 haha. There was an essay question that I completely failed to review for so I had to bullshit that part. Anyway, the lockdown started like a week later so my final grade never ended up mattering anymore.

Randoms

Did you always get picked last in gym class? We never did picks in PE.

Do you believe that nice guys finish last? Idk.

Can true love really last forever? Sure, but it’s not for everyone.

Give me the first initial of your last name? C.

Something you wait until the last minute to do? Work. I have this certain kind of email that I receive everyday that I immediately have to work on once it’s in my inbox, and I get it at 7:55 AM. I will only get out of bed by 7:54.59.

Have you made your last will and testament? I have one tucked away somewhere in this laptop but I remember making a very conscious effort to hide it in some obscure, hidden folder so that I don’t come back to it often. It seems to have worked because I don’t even remember where it is or what I named it as.

Something in your home that’s on it’s last leg(s)? The electric fan we have in our dining room.

Give us some famous last words! "They couldn't hit an elephant at this distance!" has always been fascinating to me. Sad, but fascinating.

[ohsh1t2wksl8]

[burgeonmeraki]

20 Random Things You Don’t Know About Me

Hi guys! I thought I would do something a little fun, humiliating (LOL), and different on my blog today and share 20 things you might not know about me. I get it. As a reader, I, too, love learning a bit more about the people I read. So here goes!

1. I have this weird habit where I want my feet warm especially at night before I go to sleep. I usually put some lotion on it and then put my socks on. And if there are no socks, I put a pillow under my feet, like I'm a mermaid LOL. Weird, I know! But it prevents me from having leg cramps in the morning. 

That is my trophy for the singing contest. This picture was taken 2010, and I couldn’t find my trophy anymore so deal with that picture. Just kiddin’ 

2. I won first place at a singing contest at a talent show back when I was in kindergarten. I sang this 90s hit song My Heart Will Go On By Celine Dion. And I believe that if my parents put me or enrolled me in a voice lesson, girl, I could've been a singer today, and I might be joining singing contest like The Voice. But I only do the singing thing at the shower and karaoke. Hahaha

Left Pic: My oldest brother wasn’t there because he was working abroad Right Pic: My oldest sister is living in Canada, and my older brother is living in South Korea. My mom was holding her phone because that's them on the videocall.

3. I was supposed to have six siblings so that would make us a total of seven. I had an oldest sister, supposed to be the second child, who died because of some complications in her heart when she was still a newborn. Next is my Ate Jaz, which makes her my oldest sister alive. Then after Ate Jaz, my mom had a miscarriage. Basically, my Ate was in between two dead babies. And if ever my two siblings were alive today, I might not be here or I probably don't exist. I have such a huge age gap with my siblings because my mom had me at the age of 38, and she said that I was her only child who made her pregnancy and giving birth so hard. I was born via C-Section and the rest of my siblings were all delivered normal. So, lucky me for being here! LOL

My collection of Candy Magazine back in High School.

4.  Back in High School, I used to collect Candy Magazine until first-year college. This magazine helped me with all my teenage issues like self-esteem, body image, peer pressure, beauty, fashion, dating, friendship, career, etc. They have a bunch of articles there that I enjoyed reading. And I've always wanted to be one of their models, but I was an ugly duckling, and I'm not the confident type of girl back then. I still kept these magazines inside my sentimental box. 

This is my box full of photos, letters, diaries, and other stuff.

5. Speaking of the sentimental box, I'm a very sentimental person. I have boxes of stuff from my friends, family, and ex-boyfriends. I kept this stuff for good memories purposes because I like reminiscing good memories. It reminds me of these real moments that I was once shared with these people, and it's like my return ticket to that memories, whether it's funny, romantic, or sad. Plus good times need to be remembered. They need to celebrate and felt. You know, we're not getting any younger anymore, time will come that a part of our brain might forget those memories. So keeping pictures, letters, and diaries is one way to keep those memories alive.

These are my IDs from the Youth Camp Fellowship.

6. I used to be active in Church back when I was in High School. I even joined the Music Ministry and tried to learn how to play the piano. I went to a few Youth Camp Fellowship and met a lot of people, and it was fun. The reason why I became so active in Church because I had a crush on our drummer guy (he’s my first kiss). Yuck! LOL

Love Me Like You Do By Ellie Goulding (Short Clip) / Stay By Rihanna (Cover)

7. As I was saying on number 6, I used to play the piano before. They made us choose a musical instrument that we want to play, and I was supposedly gonna go for drums because it's cool, plus I used to listen to a lot of rock bands back then, but I didn't choose it because my crush is going to be the one who's going to teach us, and I was shy, so I end up with piano. I actually tried learning how to play the guitar but you got to have callouses on your fingers in order to play it well because it freaking hurts girl! Hehe

8. Okay, let's talk about Puppy Love. When I was in grade school, I have a crush on this guy who's like 3 years older than me, and he's our neighbor. When I got into 6th grade, he started noticing me, and we became, I don't know, together? Like boyfriend and girlfriend? Haha. But since I'm a shy type kind of girl, I was having a hard time talking to him without blushing, I couldn't even let him hold my hands, or hug me, or kiss me. None of that happened. So we write letters to each other (cellphone is not a thing at that time). I know it's all cheesy and mushy and all, but anyways. I asked my niece to be our messenger haha. So I will give the letter to her, and she will give it to him, and then vice versa. Okay, so this is the funny part!! My niece left my goddamn letter for him at our dining table! And my sister and brother read the whole thing. I was so annoyed at my niece. My siblings were like mad at me for having a boyfriend at such a young age because you know, I'm their little sister, and little sissy is not allowed to have a boyfriend LOL. And then they threatened me that they're going to tell it to my mom, so I broke up with him after a week using a letter haha. We kept in touch til I got into High School. I think we went out before, we watch a movie but I brought a chaperone with me. HAHA we didn’t end up together because he’s such a playboy. FYI: I don't count him as my ex-boyfriend. LOL

9. I had a puppy named Mocha because she’s dark brown and it suits her. She’s a shih tzu and she’s the cutest puppy in the world but she died because she got sick. I miss her so much! :(

Snorkeling at Coron, Palawan.

10. I love going to the beach. I love swimming! My mom’s sister owns a beach resort and it was just an hour away from our place. We always go there every summer, and that’s where I learned how to swim, not in the swimming pool, but in the ocean. I was supposedly going to be a swimmer. My 4th grade teacher trained me, and he trained other students in other sports like badminton and volleyball, and they joined sports competition, and they win medals. So I got very interested because I want to win medals too. So I did my training but I was having a hard time to dive. I know I'm doing it wrong because the water kept going inside my nose and it freaking hurts. So I stopped and quit the training because I couldn't do it properly. Haha

I think I was in 3rd Grade in here. Lol

11. I joined Girl Scout back in grade school. I can't remember why I joined. All I know is I am going to have a lot of fun in here. And that was my first camping experience. We camped out at our school, and yeah, it was fun and scary at the same time because there are lots of ghost stories in our school. Our motto: "Girl Scouts are always ready and prepared.” 

I also joined Drum & Bugle. I was a Majorette, the one who throws the baton in the air and twirls it. I just love to dance back then, and nope, I'm not a professional dancer. It's just that life is better when you dance! :)

Junior Year High School. Cheer Dance Competition during our Intramurals Day. 

12. When I got into High School, I've always wanted to join Cheer Dance Competition since I was in my freshman year. But most of the girls in my school back then were all pretty and mean. I only joined when I was in my junior year, and we won 2nd place. I'm really not a good dancer, but I know I've got moves. I just don't know what happened today LOL. I'm one of those girls who they always lift and toss because obviously in the picture I'm thin as a rake haha. Then I tried joining again in College, and I got into an accident. I freaking fell flat on my back while we're doing our pyramid stunt and no one's there to catch me. Ouchie! I'm on the second level, standing on my right leg at this guy's shoulder, and then my left leg was angled and lifted because on the third level, a girl's going to stand on my left thigh. She was scared and not keeping her balance well so she dragged me backward with her. Someone caught her and none for me because the way I go down the pyramid is by jumping in front. Our coach didn't see that coming and I thought I am gonna go home with broken hips.

Left to Right: Elementary Graduation Day; Sophomore Year in College; Junior Year - wearing retainer; Retainer and Braces Free 

13. I first had my braces when I was in 6th grade because my sister got one, so I want one too LOL. I had it for a very long time. Since I got it at such a young age, my teeth were not complete yet. And based on my x-ray, I've got several impacted wisdom tooth that's going to come out so my doctor waited for it. I only got it removed when I was in my 3rd-year college. So I had my braces for 7 years. HAHA

14. I can’t whistle. I tried. I don’t know how to. I can’t do it. PERIOD

Cupcake Nail Art, Cheetah Print Nail Art, Polka Dots Nail Art

15. I love doing my nail art from when I was in High School to College. I don't like my nails plain and simple back then, so I put a design on it and make it fun. I'm always into art and being creative. Creativity is inventing, experimenting, growing, taking risks, breaking rules, making mistakes, and having fun. So my parents saw that potential in me, and they made me choose Architecture as my profession.

These are my high school arts that I saw on my facebook LOL.

Circa 2015. Photographed By: Iks Virina

16. I'm not a morning person. I hate waking up so early. I only wake up so early if I have important errands to run or if I have to go to work. I love sleeping during the day and staying up during the night. I'm a night owl. There's something about being up at night that makes it more peaceful to work and think. Most of my creative juices come out during the night. And I've read that night owls have better mental alertness than early risers. I don't need caffeine to keep me up at night. LOL

Circa 2015. Photographed By: Iks Virina

17. I'm not a coffee person. Don't get me wrong, I love the smell of coffee. It's just that the coffee doesn't like me at all. Every time I drink coffee, especially those with high caffeine like espresso, I end up palpitating and having heartburn. I can drink it but not too much, and sometimes I preferred Frappuccino. I'm more of a tea person. I love chamomile and red berries flavors.

FEU I.D. vs BPSU I.D.

18. I went to two schools back in College. When I was in my senior year in High School, I didn't really plan my college life. I have no idea what school I am going to attend. I only know was my mom wants me to take up Architecture even though I don't want to. So yeah, I end up going to Far Eastern University for 2 years. Then, my Dad, he was working abroad in Libya, and there was a war at that time in the Middle East. So they had to go home and stopped working. We have no income, we had financial issues, and that's when I decided to return home and study in my hometown, get a scholarship because I have no choice. I was in college for 6 years, supposedly 5 years only but I had to retake some of my subjects that I already took up in my previous school because the school didn't credit it.

Back in 2015, I tried to dress up like Blair Waldorf. She loves wearing headband hehe

19. My favorite show of all time is Gossip Girl. It's like the first rated r tv shows that I really got hooked up and fall in love with. It's the reason why I've always wanted to go to New York. I have watched this already a few times, and it doesn't get old. I love Serena Van Der Woodsen (Blake Lively), her style, and the way she carries her clothes. She's this free-spirited, charming, nice, laidback IT GIRL. And then Blair Waldorf (Leighton Meester) aside from her classy, preppy style, I like her domineering and loyal personality. Plus her romantic on and off love affair with Chuck Bass (Ed Westwick). But my biggest crush on this show is Nate Archibald (Chace Crawford), oh god I love his eyes, it's so sexy! HAHA

Sandbox Adventure at Pampanga; Bike Trailing and Wakeboarding at Nuvali, Laguna; and Skimboarding at Boracay

20. I love some good adventure. I have this bucket list of things to do before I die, and I want to fulfill that. Like traveling the whole world, plus I want to go skydiving or bungee jumping. Aside from that, you're just not creating memories, you're also trying new things. And I'm always up for trying new things, and I like challenging myself sometimes. Life is boring if you don't at least try or go out of your comfort zone. Just try new things once in a while, and don't be afraid to soar high.

What’s something random about you? And if you make a post, share it below. Thank you so much for dropping by!

Love Lots, Jamie

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Get To Know Me…

i just did this for fun and realize that my life is boring....

1.Who was the last person you held  hands with?

Idk probably my mom or this guy  that I studied with 2-3 years ago, we were joking  2. Are you outgoing or shy?

100% shy  3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Someone to save me or anyone to  love  4. Are you easy to get along with?

Idk maybe, maybe not.  5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I don’t like anyone, but if we  think on Shawn probably he will, he is so sweet  6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Cute, sweet, handsome, white, any  hair of color but red.  7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

nope  8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Does it count Shawn Mendes  9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

no  10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My high school friends a long time  ago, I miss them  11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

Idk, but probably something from  college about the integration project that we need to print many times  12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Good one, idk let me search…..bad  reputation, life is worth at living, Havana, power & understad  13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yes, I love it  14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

No, I don’t think so  15. What good thing happened this summer?

Now that I think, nothing I was  really depressed this summer, I hate summer, and I was repeating a subject  that I didn’t pass  16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

No  17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

yes  18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

No lol  19. Do you like bubble baths?

I haven’t had a bath with anything  else but water  20. Do you like your neighbors?

No, I don’t talk to them  21. What are you bad habits?

Eatung to much, not sleeping when I  have to, snooze the alarm, don’t do the thing that I need to do on the exact  moment  22. Where would you like to travel?

London or Europe to be more specific  23. Do you have trust issues?

Yes and no, it depends  24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Nights, but sometimes they are the  worst or when I’m alone or car rides  25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Butt, too fat  26. What do you do when you wake up?

Go for a wee and shower if it is a  uni day if not go or a wee and go to watch youtube on the living room  27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

lighter  28. Who are you most comfortable around?

Cousins,2 in  specific  29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

I haven’t had a boyfriend even thought  I’m 19  30. Do you ever want to get married?

yes  31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

yes  32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Shawn Mendes and and Camila  cabello or Lauren J.  33. Spell your name with your chin.

aloedjnazndrdaz  34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Dance counts  35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

Its hard but I think TV  36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Yes, many times  37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Nothing I ignore them till they  talk again  38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Sweet, cute, lady, gentleman  39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Forever21  40. What do you want to do after high school?

For me will be uni, and I want to  have my apartment and live alone (probably a bad idea, because of my depression  I would really kill myself there, but that my dream, live alone, I really  enjoy it)  41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

yes  42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I’m always quit but it means I’m  thinking too much and I’m getting depressed and you can tell because I want to  me more lonely than I already am  43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yes, if I’m not distracted  44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Outer space, I hate the ocean  45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

My dreams and hope that everything  will be better  46. What are you paranoid about?

idk  47. Have you ever been high?

No, but I wish thought  48. Have you ever been drunk?

No, I don’t like alcohol  49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Cutting like 5 moths ago or that I  masturbate  50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

red  51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Yes

Be more skinnier  52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My butt  53. Favourite makeup brand?

Urban decay  54. Favourite store?

Forever 21  55. Favourite blog?

Zoella  56. Favourite colour?

Turquesa, purple, black and withe  57. Favourite food? 

italian  58. Last thing you ate?

Champurrada with milk  59. First thing you ate this morning?

Cahmpurrada with coffee  60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Does it 3rd place  count, on dance competition  61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nope  62. Been arrested? For what?

nope  63. Ever been in love? 

nope  64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

I didn’t know him till that day, I  don’t even know his name. I was with this girl walking and she saw them, they  know her (they were 2) one of them call her and keep talking, the other one started  to talk to me; then he said lets leave them alone, and we went really near to  sit between a wall full of cars in front of it so no one could see us and  started to talk, then he put his hand on my knee and flirt then he tried to  kiss him but I said that it was my first time so he was like don’t worry and  kissed me it tasted like cigarettes and he wanted to touch me and when I resist  he was again like its okay and took my hand near his part, but I resisted and  he was like okay but kept his hand on my leg, then I was like I have a curfew  and it’s the time already I have to go, and that’s it, amaizing kiss right  65. Are you hungry right now?

No, surprise  66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

I don’t have any friends  67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter people, facebooks posts  68. Twitter or Tumblr? tumblr  69. Are you watching tv right now?

Youtube on my tv  70. Names of your bestfriends? 

none  71. Craving something? What?

No, it’s a surprise  72. What colour are your towels?

White  72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

9  73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

no  74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Like 10 but I gave away 90% of my  child stuffed animals  75. Favourite animal?

Horse and tiger  76. What colour is your underwear?

Pink panties and black bra  77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate  78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

It depends  79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

grey  80. What colour pants?

Black leggins  81. Favourite tv show?

Skins and red band sociaty  82. Favourite movie?

The perks of being a wallflower  83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

none  84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Idk 21 jump streen or al teas I don’t  remember  85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

none  86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Dory  87. First person you talked to today?

My mom  88. Last person you talked to today?

My mom  89. Name a person you hate?

My mom  90. Name a person you love?

Sometimes I think that I don’t love  people, even my family I really have asked that and idk haw I really feel  91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

everyone  92. In a fight with someone?

nope  93. How many sweatpants do you have?

None, but a lot of leggings does  that count?  94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Like 10  95. Last movie you watched?

gifted  96. Favourite actress?

Don’t have  97. Favourite actor?

Don’t have  98. Do you tan a lot?

I have like a tanned look skin  99. Have any pets?

A dog  100. How are you feeling?

Depressed  101. Do you type fast?

No I don’t think so  102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Yes, a lot of things  103. Can you spell well?

Nop but I tried  104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

yes  105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

nope  106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Nope that I know  107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yes, love them, but then I feel  bad because I’m fat and I’m one them  108. What should you be doing?

sleeping  109. Is something irritating you right now?

everything  110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Nope, thank God  111. Do you have trust issues?

Idk for real  112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Probably my mom  113. What was your childhood nickname?

Ale? None?  114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yes, I love airplanes  115. Do you play the Wii?

No, I always wanted one  116. Are you listening to music right now?

nope  117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

yes  118. Do you like Chinese food?

yes  119. Favourite book?

Fangirl I’m so like the principal  character  120. Are you afraid of the dark?

sometimes  121. Are you mean?

Sometimes with my words  122. Is cheating ever okay?

no  123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

nope  124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

yes  125. Do you believe in true love?

yes  126. Are you currently bored?

yes  127. What makes you happy?

A rainy day with my own plans coming  really nice and I would be alone  128. Would you change your name?

no  129. What your zodiac sign?

Taurus  130. Do you like subway?

yes  131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Idk if I like him I will date him,  okay I probably would try but I will let him know  132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My high school friends, I miss  them  133. Favourite lyrics right now?

Bad reputation or understand  134. Can you count to one million?

Idk, I have never tried  135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

Im a good liar  136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed  137. How tall are you?

1.60 m  138. Curly or Straight hair?

curly  139. Brunette or Blonde?

brunette  140. Summer or Winter?

Winter  141. Night or Day?

night  142. Favourite month?

december  143. Are you a vegetarian?

No, but I live their food  144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

milk  145. Tea or Coffee?

both  146. Was today a good day?

kinda  147. Mars or Snickers?

Idk mars so snickers  148. What’s your favourite quote?

I don’t have one, but one that I just  remember is “okay I can’t remember of any”  149. Do you believe in ghosts?

yes  150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first  line on that page?

Saw me and knew that I was, but  she hid me from the world,

 I really relate to, and now i  notice that I didn’t put attention

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Go off and do all of the asks have fun!!

OSHIT. I'M LIKE A COKE ADDICT IN A STRIP CLUB.1. Who was the last person you held hands with?@shoutymcscouty2. Are you loud and outgoing or shy?•My mind is all three at once, and then some.3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? • No one comes to mind. 4. Are you easy to get along with?• I like to think so. 5. Have you ever given up on someone?• Oh my goodness yes. 6. How many pillows do you sleep with?• Two. Sometimes 4.7. Have you ever been skinny dipping?• Nopeee8. Do you have any tattoos?• No :( I wish. 9. Do you have any piercings?• Noooo again I wish.10. How big is your house?• It's pretty big actually. It's a farmhouse. Too expensive for my family to afford so we're financially fucked and it won't sell. 11. What do you typically have for breakfast?• Smoothie or bowl of fruit. It's always something light. 12. Have you ever fired a gun?• Yes. Quite often. Sport Shooting is a favorite past time of mine.13. What is your favorite swear word?• It's either fuck or prick. 14. What is the longest you have gone without sleep?• Almost 48 hours.15. Do you have any scars?• Mhm! I have two on my right forearm, I have one on my forehead from falling off a guitar case I climbed and stood on when I was 3, I have one on my ankle from a razor slip in the shower, and I have one on my left forearm from my cat.16. Have you ever had a secret admirer?• Nope.17. Are you a good liar?• Yes, because my father and grandpa taught me.18. What is the most challenging thing you have ever been through?• The death of my grandmother, and living with my family. 19. Are you a good judge of character?• I like to think so but I've definitely been proven wrong. 20. What is your favorite accent?• New York, Irish, and Australian. 21. What 3 words would you choose to describe yourself?• Hot Fucking Mess.22. What is your most expensive article of clothing?• All my jeans and my trucker jacket. 23. Are you left or right handed?• Left. 24. What are some of your biggest fears?• Oceans, big bodies of water in general, closed spaces, rooms full of people, rooms with just a few people, telephones, and heights (not so much anymore).25. Are you a clean or messy person?• Messy... 26. If you were drunk, who would you want to take care of you?• Chandler 🖤27. Do you like big crowds of people or smaller groups?• neither. But I prefer smaller. 28. Do you think you will be in a relationship 2 months from now?• No. 29. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?• Nope not at all. Unless the person makes it weird. 30. Do you believe in luck or miracles?• Both. 31. Are you religious?• Yes actually. 32. What does your most recent text say?• "Oh my fuck" to my church camp chat lol 33. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?• Emma I think. 34. Who from the opposite sex is on your mind?• Chandler because I'm remembering funny drunk stories he's told me. 35. How do you feel about abortion?• Her body her choice 🤘36. What good thing has happened to you this month?• I got to go to a fucking awesome show with my faves Ethan, @s-t-petersburgAnd Felix 37. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?• Fuck no. 38. Do you think there is life on other planets?• Yes!!39. Do you still talk to your first partner?• No. he's the fucking worst. 40. Do you like bubble baths?• I'm too uncomfortable with myself to enjoy showers lol 41. What do you do to relax or unwind?• get in bed and watch live concert videos, or read, or paint. 42. What are your neighbors like?• they're my godparents and they're old. 43. What are your bad habits?• Procrastination, sleeping too late, and just being messy.44. Do you like to travel?• Yes omg I love to!!!45. Do you have trust issues?• Fuck yes. 46. What is your favorite part of your daily routine?• Nothing really. I guess going to bed. 47. What was or is your favorite academic subject?• Art, Art history, and history. 48. What body part are you most uncomfortable with?• *opens up anatomy book*49. What is the first thing you do when you wake up?• Look at my phone and play music. 50. Who are you most comfortable around?• Chandler and Emma 51. Do you ever want to get married?• If it seems like the best option. 52. Do you ever want to have children?• If the time is right and I am financially well off. 53. If you could change one law, what would it be?• healthcare. It's fucked.54. Is your hair long enough for a ponytail?• Sorta. It's in the awkward in between stage. 55. Would you rather live without TV or music?• Tv for sure. 56. What language do you want to learn?• German or Irish Gaelic. 57. What are you paranoid about?• Becoming my dad, not being able to move out upcoming school year.58. Do you think age matters in relationships?• No. Unless one person is a minor and the other is like almost 30.59. Do you play sports?• I used to do archery competitively.60. When you are extremely quiet, what does it mean?• I am either having an episode in my head, I'm concentrating, I'm angry, I'm upset, or I'm perfectly fine. Or all of the above 😎61. Spell your name with your chin.• Jscha. nice. 62. What do you say during awkward silences?• Usually an inappropriately timed joke. 63. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?• yessssss 64. Do you smile at strangers?• Of course!65. Do you want a roommate? • Sure if they'll pay half of everything66. What's your best friend like?• she's really bubbly and sweet and super loud but super cute. She's always there for me and we do honestly fight a lot, but we always come back together.He's super sarcastic and he's a bit of an asshole sometimes. But we both have similar home situations and have been through some of the same stuff. We pick each other up, and he's pretty much the Johnny Torrio to my Al Capone. 67. What stores do you shop in?• Goodwill mainly. Any thrift shops. 68. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?• Depends on what they did 69. What is the meanest thing someone has ever said to you?• "it's only because you're lonely." In the middle of an argument with a friend when I was telling them that they valued their girlfriend more than me.70. What is your ex-partner like?• Short. Angry. Republican, sexist, racist, immature, a pig, and he liked to cuss me out and he would throw all of his shit into a box and nail it shut when he got upset. He's crazy.

[starrynerd]

all the questions bitch

1.Who was the last person you held hands with?

A pal that I went on a date with once 

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Somewhere in between 

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

A boy from tinder maybe/hopefully

4. Are you easy to get along with?

The majority of the time, ye

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Lol I dunno tbh 

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

I like people who are creative and open minded. I like people who I can have an open and honest conversation/debate with without judgement. 

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Hopefully? 

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Boy from tinder and my pal @jewbikscube

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Lol no not at all, I’m one of the easiest people to talk to you about sex

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Boy from tinder

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“NICE”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Seventeen - Heathers, Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story - Hamilton, Beautiful - Heathers, Burn - Hamilton, and Dirty Laundry - All Time Low 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

YYYEEESSSS

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Sometimes, depends on the situation 

15. What good thing happened this summer?

This is gonna be super corny but I got to feel that High School Summer movie type thing. Like I went out with my friends late at night and did dumb shit, I had a boyfriend, I just got to have fun and feel young. 

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Nnnnooooo (?) 

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Hell yeah 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

Lol no, that’d be impressive though 

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Hell yeah 

20. Do you like your neighbors?

At school in my dorm building, some of them. At home, nah. 

21. What are you bad habits?

Chewing on the inside of my cheek and cracking my knuckles 

22. Where would you like to travel?

England 

23. Do you have trust issues?

Little bit 

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

This recently joined into my daily routine, but I really like the naps I’ve started to take after classes. 

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Tummy 

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Lay in bed for ten more minutes-ish 

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

No, I like my complexion 

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

I’m actually probably most comfortable being alone or facetiming my best pal 

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Nope 

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Yep 

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Yep 

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

I honestly don’t know cause AH ? 

33. Spell your name with your chin.

No, you’re laying in your bed five feet away and I really don’t need you to turn towards me and see me looking dumb af 

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I used to play tennis! 

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV 

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Only one person because she was SO FAR OUT OF MY LEAGUE  

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

I usually don’t say anything 

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Both: Dark hair, dark eyes, beautiful smile that would make my hurt swell every time I made them smile. funny, sweet, nice, understanding, I like glasses, and freckles 

Boy: taller than me

Girl: shorter than me

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Torrid and Charlotte Russe 

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I am in college so I would like to continue being in college 

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Not EVERYONE. Depends on what they did. 

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I’m probably nervous or about to have a panic/anxiety attack 

43. Do you smile at strangers?

All of them, yes! 

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Bottom of the ocean (as long as I can be kept safe from the bottom dwellers though) 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

The fact that I’m paying for the classes that I gotta get up for 

46. What are you paranoid about?

E V E R Y T H I N G

47. Have you ever been high?

Nope 

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Many of times, yes 

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Nope 

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Green 

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

All the time but I also love me so that’s an odd thing 

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My mental stability 

53. Favourite makeup brand?

Elf 

54. Favourite store?

Charlotte Russe 

55. Favourite blog?

@jewbikscube cause best friend 

56. Favourite colour?

Red and Blue 

57. Favourite food? 

Pasta with vodka sauce 

58. Last thing you ate?

M&Ms 

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Poptart 

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

I’ve actually never won a competition lol what a revelation 

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Neither, I’m a goody two shoes 

62. Been arrested? For what?

Nope, again, goody two shoes 

63. Ever been in love? 

Yep 

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Lol okay. So I was at my then boyfriend’s aunt’s house for his graduation party. We were cuddling on the couch in silence and he just looked at me and I said, “What?” And we kissed. 

65. Are you hungry right now?

Nope, I feel sick rn. 

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

I don’t really have tumblr friends. I have tumblr friends for like a second and then I forget to come on here and we don’t talk, I like a lot of the people I’ve spoken to on here and would LOVE to talk to all of them again. 

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter 

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Twitter 

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Nope 

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

Jason, Sydnie, Gill, Victoria, Marie, and Eliza

71. Craving something? What?

Love 

72. What colour are your towels?

Lots of colors. Blue, silver, red, yellow. 

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Two 

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

They kind of just sit next to my pillows on my head. I’ve got a super big Mickey Mouse, my “blue dolly” from when I was a kid, and a crocheted doll of me one of my best friends made for me for mmmmyyyy 17th birthday maybe? 

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Oh man, lots 

75. Favourite animal?

Lion

76. What colour is your underwear?

Currently? Black 

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla 

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Milk and Cookies by Ben and Jerry 

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Also black 

80. What colour pants?

Grey 

81. Favourite tv show?

Sherlock 

82. Favourite movie?

Thelma and Louise 

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean Girls 

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean Girls 

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Glen Coco 

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Crush 

87. First person you talked to today?

You, asshole 

88. Last person you talked to today?

You, probably, might be Jason 

89. Name a person you hate?

Donald Trump 

90. Name a person you love?

Bernie Sanders 

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Donald Trump 

92. In a fight with someone?

No 

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Two pairs 

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Oh man, too many 

95. Last movie you watched?

The Intern 

96. Favourite actress?

Amy Poehler 

97. Favourite actor?

Lin Manuel Miranda 

98. Do you tan a lot?

Sort of? 

99. Have any pets?

Nope 

100. How are you feeling?

Like garbbaaaggeee 

101. Do you type fast?

Ye 

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Nope 

103. Can you spell well?

I like to think so 

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Little bit 

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Nope 

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

I probably broke a couple of my ex boyfriend’s hearts when I broke up with them and I broke my own heart a couple of times too. 

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yep 

108. What should you be doing?

Sleeping 

109. Is something irritating you right now?

Answering these questions 

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yep 

111. Do you have trust issues?

Little bit (this question is in here twice?) 

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

I don’t know and that’s impressive cause I cry a lot 

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Lyss *still is 

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Many of times, I currently dorm outside of my state 

115. Do you play the Wii?

Sometimes 

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Nope 

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Eh 

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Ye 

119. Favourite book?

Because of Windixie and The Five People You Meet In Heaven 

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Little bit 

121. Are you mean?

I really hope not 

122. Is cheating ever okay?

N O 

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Lol no 

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

A little 

125. Do you believe in true love?

Absolutely 

126. Are you currently bored?

Eh 

127. What makes you happy?

My pals, writing, reading, youtube 

128. Would you change your name?

Nah, I like my name 

129. What your zodiac sign?

Virgo 

130. Do you like subway?

The sandwich place? Ye. The trains? Sure? 

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Lol we’ve been through that before it’s fine 

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

This question is in here twice too, Tinder Boy 

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

Can’t we be seventeen? That’s all I wanna do 

134. Can you count to one million?

Maybe? I feel like I’d be determined to and do it but I’d hate myself afterwards and be super bored 

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

Once in sixth grade I told my friends that when I went to Italy on vacation I came face to face with a shark once. That was SO DUMB. 

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed 

137. How tall are you?

5′3″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Are you asking my preference or what my hair is? My hair is straight, I like all hair but curly hair is slightly more fun to play with. 

139. Brunette or Blonde?

I am a brunette and I also gravitate towards brunettes 

140. Summer or Winter?

Winter 

141. Night or Day?

Night 

142. Favourite month?

October 

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope 

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

White chocolate 

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee 

146. Was today a good day?

Yeah, actually! 

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers 

148. What’s your favourite quote?

Don’t be a writer, be writing. 

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Hell ye 

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line

She folded and hung his clothes. 

[lovemesomesurveys]

1) Are you really ready for 1000000 questions? Sureee.

2) What was the last thing you drank? Coffee. Of course.

3) Do you believe in God? Yes.

4) What did you last say? “Ohhh.”

5) Do you regret it? No?

6) Have you ever been depressed? I am depressed. I have chronic depression.

7) Have a best friend? I don’t even know.

8) Are you a boy or girl? I am a girl.

9) What is your relationship status? In a committed relationship with coffee.

10) How do you want to die? I’d rather not talk about that.

11) What did you last eat? This hotel I’m at has a good breakfast spread. I just had a muffin, coffee, and biscuits and gravy. Yesterday I had a couple muffins, coffee, and an omelette.

12) Play any sports? Nope.

13) Do you bite your nails? I pick them more than bite them.

14) When was your last physical fight? Never.

15) What is the last sound you just heard? I hear the TV.

16) Do you hate anyone at the moment? No.

17) Do you miss anyone? Yes. A few someones.

18) Twirl or cut your spaghetti? I cut and twirl.

19) Do you tan a lot? No.

20) Have any pets? No. :(

21) How exactly are you feeling? I feel okay. I’m on my second cup of coffee, so we’ll see if that gives me a little boost of energy.

22) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Yeah, many times.

23) Ever made out in a bathroom? Nope.

24) Would you take any of your exes back? No.

25) Are you scared of spiders? Extremely.

26) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Part of me says yes, the other part isn’t so sure. I’d like to change some things for sure, but how does that affect everything else? If it wouldn’t change anything somehow, I’d definitely do it.

27) Do you regret anything from your past? Oh yes.

28) What are your plans for this weekend? Well, today is Sunday so it’s just about over. On Friday we went out of town and stayed in a hotel suite my dad rented for my little brother’s birthday on Saturday. We got to experience it first, and then he and his friends got to yesterday/today. So, Friday night we had dinner at this really good restaurant and then just chilled at the hotel. Saturday my mom and brother saw Rings, and my dad and I just chilled for awhile at the hotel. Then we all had lunch. My mom, dad, and I planned on going home yesterday once his friends arrived, but we decided to also stay another night so we got another room on another floor haha. My brother just turned eighteen, so he wanted to do his own thing with his friends and whatnot. We were like, “We’ll be on a whole other floor you won’t even see us. Just act like we’re not here.” lol. Anyway, we just had dinner and hung out in the room last night. This morning I went and got the free breakfast the hotel provides and now we’re just soaking up the last hour we have here before it’s time to check out and go home. Back to reality. :/

29) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with a C? Nope.

30) Do you type fast? Yes.

31) Do you have piercings? Just my ears.

32) Can you spell well? Yes.

33) Do you miss anyone from your past? I do.

34) What are you craving right now? I’m good right now.

35) Ever been to a bonfire party? No. It’s something I’ve been wanting to do, though.

36) Have you ever been on a horse? Once, when I was a kid.

37) Kissed someone in a pick up truck? Nope.

38) Last hug? My mom.

39) Have you ever been cheated on? No.

40) Last thing you watched on tv? The Boss last night.

41) Would you live with someone without marrying them? I think you should live together first.

42) What should you be doing? I already finished packing, so I don’t have anything else I need to be doing right now.

43) What’s irritating you right now? Nothing at this moment.

44) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yes.

45) Does somebody love you? My family.

46) What is your favorite color? Yellow, teal, and pastels.

47) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yes.

48) Do you have trust issues? I just have a hard time opening up in general.

49) What’s the last thing you said out loud? “You’re always losing something.”

50) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink? No.

51) Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yes.

52) What’s on your mind? I still feel kind of hungry.

53) Last book you read? He Found Me by Whitney Barbetti.

54) Who was the last person you cried in front of? My mom.

55) Do you give out second chances too easily? Yes.

56) Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive.

57) Is this year the best year of your life? It’s only early February, but no it hasn’t been off to a good start. Last year wasn’t so great either. Last year’s stuff just carried over, and then some.

58) Do you think you’ re a good person? I would like to think so. I’m not perfect.

59) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Yes.

60) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? I was watching an ASMR video, and next thing I knew it was morning.

61) Does your mind ever get stuck in the past? Only all the time.

62) What is bothering you? Right now, my stomach.

63) Have you ever been out of province?Out of county? Yes.

64) Do you play the Wii? We have one, but no I don’t play.

67) Are you listening to music right now? Nope.

68) Do you like Chinese food? Yeah, some.

69) Do you know your fathers b-day? Yes.

70) Are you afraid of the dark? Yes.

71) Is cheating ever okay? Not to me.

72) Are you mean? No.

73) Can you keep white shoes clean? I can.

74) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal? Nope.

75) Do you believe in true love? I believe it exists. Just not me.

76) Are you proud of the person you’ve become? No.

77) Do you like the outside? Not particularly. Depends where I am and what we’re doing. I despise it during the summer.

78) Are you currently bored? No.

79) Do you wanna get married? It’s not something I’m thinking about at this point.

80) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? I didn’t like it when my ex called me that.

81) Are you hungry? A little.

82) Do you have a bank account? Yes.

83) What makes you happy? My morning cup of coffee brings brief moments of happiness

84) Ever been to Alaska? No.

85) Do you watch the news? Yes.

86) Do you like Subway? I do.

87) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? It would be. So much time has passed between us. A lot has changed.

88) Who was the last person you were on the phone with? My mom.

89) Do you talk like your friends? It’s been awhile.

90) What’s a word you say a lot? “Nice”, “wow”, “okay”

91) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? Yes. :X

92) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? No.

93) Who is the last girl you talked to? My mom.

94) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? It would matter, yes.

95) Do you go to church? No. I would like to start.

96) What’s going on between you and your best friend? Nothing.

97) Who is the last person you had a deep conversation with? My mom.

98) Have you ever regretted letting someone go? Yes.

99) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos? No.

100) What do you wear more: Hoodies, Jackets, Cardies..? Hoodies.

101) You’re a Sharpie marker, what color are you? A pastel color.

102) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning? At night.

103) Have you ever said you’d never love again? I’ve said I wouldn’t find anyone again.

104) Do you want to please everyone? Yes. :/

105) Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? I haven’t heard any music so far today.

106) Has someone ever made you a promise & broken it? Yes.

107) Are you alone right now? Nope.

108) Did you speak to your father today? Yes.

109) How many months/days untill your birthday? Five months.

110) Did you enjoy this survey? Sure.

[shadowinacorner]

Bored, so why not!

Lets see if I can answer these. 1: Name Mandy

2: Age 26

3: 3 Fears Spiders Burning alive Bungee jumping

4: 3 things I love Food Accomplishing something productive Sleep

5: 4 turns on Assertiveness Kindness Sense of humor Forwardness

6: 4 turns off Rudeness Narcissism Bad habits Excessive negativity

7: My best friend My buddy Allison

8: Sexual orientation Not big on labels. Bi I guess is a good umbrella term.

9: My best first date Winter formal in ‘05

10: How tall am I I’d say 5'10. I think I technically have been deemed to be 5'7 though.

11: What do I miss Being taken care of as a kid.

12: What time was I born 9am ish I think?

13: Favourite color Purple or black

14: Do I have a crush He’s pretty cute

15: Favourite quote The bird on your shoulder quote from tuesdays with maurie

16: Favourite place My living room (don’t you judge me)

17: Favourite food Pizza

18: Do I use sarcasm Never, who would do such a thing?

19: What am I listening to right now Assasination Classroom

20: First thing I notice in new person Jewelry

21: Shoe size 10.5/11 womens or 9 mens

22: Eye color Brown

23: Hair color Brown. I change it alot and right now it’s got some pink.

24: Favourite style of clothing Modern kinda urbany or punky I guess?

25: Ever done a prank call? Nah. Not my style.

27: Meaning behind my URL Nothing deep

28: Favourite movie Harry Potter I guess

29: Favourite song To the moon and back by Savage Garden

30: Favourite band I couldn’t tell you honestly. I like too many.

31: How I feel right now Tired and unaccomplished

32: Someone I love Mr. Leo Bunny

33: My current relationship status Married

34: My relationship with my parents Strained and unconventional

35: Favourite holiday Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing i have I have 2 piercings in each ear and 1 cartilage. Also a small tattoo on my upper back.

37: Tattoos and piercing i want I always wanted a eyebrow piercing and the really dainty bullrings are cool. I’d also love to have full sleeves of tattoos but I’ll probably never get another of either.

38: The reason I joined Tumblr My hubby got obsessed with it.

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? Nah, he’s a cool dude and finally forgave me for being a terrible child when I was with him.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Definitely always get good morning ones since we get up at different times.

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Definitely not. Keagan is probably onr of the few I haven’t actually.

42: When did I last hold hands? Last time Marku and I went to the store I’m sure.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? No makeup: 5 minutes from bed to car. With basic full makeup a solid half hour. With going out makeup and clothes like 2 hours.

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Yes! Actually.

45: Where am I right now? Laying in Marku’s bed

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? Definitely Marku. He usually camps in the bathtub and sets me up on the floor by the toilet.

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Too loud. Always.

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Nopppeeeeee

49: Am I excited for anything? Someday we’re going to travel!

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Definitely Marku.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Everyyyy dayyyyy. Customer service at it’s finest.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Earlier today I hugged Keagan, Angie, AND Mark. So many hugs!

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? He might have some ‘splanin to do

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? Hmm, yeah probably a couple family members.

55: What is something I disliked about today? I woke up late and didn’t accomplish much

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? I have no idea… maybe bernie?

57: What do I think about most? What I’m doing wrong

58: What’s my strangest talent? Noticing small details (but only when I’m trying. Otherwise I’m oblivious to my surroundings)

59: Do I have any strange phobias? Chalkboards. They freak me out and I can’t touch them.

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind!!!

61: What was the last lie I told? “You don’t have to do that, I can pay for it”

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Neither. But phone if it’s between the too.

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I half believe in ghosts, aliens seem probable but not little green guys.

64: Do I believe in magic? I wishhhhhhh

65: Do I believe in luck? Kinda actually.

66: What’s the weather like right now? Kinda nice actually! Wet but mild.

67: What was the last book I’ve read? Kane chronicals

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? Mildly

69: Do I have any nicknames? Mandoo

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I accidentally cut a large chunk out of my ankle when i was a teenager… otherwise no broken bones or anything.

71: Do I spend money or save it? I have a spending problem.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? No :(

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? My pj pants

74: Favourite animal? Kitties!

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Playing on my phone and watching netflix

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I think Satan /is/ his last name lol

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Uh… something pop-y I’m sure.

78: How can you win my heart? Food.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? That I was super nice!

80: What is my favorite word? Totes

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr That I posted? None. I have like no followers that aren’t porn bots.

82: If the whole world was listening to me right now, what would I say? Let’s just all get along

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not currently

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Shapeshifting

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Depends on who is asking it.

86: What is my current desktop picture? The inside of a midevilish zeldaish tent with a woman lying in the bed.

87: Had sex? Yeap

88: Bought condoms? Yeah. Still awkward no matter how old you get for some reason.

89: Gotten pregnant? Nope

90: Failed a class? Yeah

91: Kissed a boy? A few

92: Kissed a girl? A few

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Not dramatically

94: Had job? For years

95: Left the house without my wallet? Just yesterday

96: Bullied someone on the internet? Nah, not my jam.

97: Had sex in public? Nah

98: Played on a sports team? Plenty of them

99: Smoked weed? Nope, not on my list

100: Did drugs? Never have, never will

101: Smoked cigarettes? Nope, terrible habbit

102: Drank alcohol? On occasion

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Not anymore

104: Been overweight? I am morbidly obese technically atm

105: Been underweight? Once

106: Been to a wedding? A few

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Jesus, is that suppose to be a long time?

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Every weekend

109: Been outside my home country? Nope

110: Gotten my heart broken? Once

111: Been to a professional sports game? Big leagues, no. Minor, yea.

112: Broken a bone? Nope

113: Cut myself? Yea

114: Been to prom? Yeap, twice

115: Been in airplane? Twice

116: Fly by helicopter? Once

117: What concerts have I been to? Hinder, buckcherry, paproach, death cab for cutie

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Yea

119: Learned another language? Started japanese, never went very far

120: Wore make up? Pretty normally

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? At 18 I think

122: Had oral sex? Yea

123: Dyed my hair? Alot

124: Voted in a presidential election? Every year

125: Rode in an ambulance? Sat in one, refused the ride

126: Had a surgery? Just wisdom teeth

127: Met someone famous? Voice actors, and there was a famous guy staying at our wedding hotel that I rode the elevator with. I always forget his name.

128: Stalked someone on a social network? Mildly

129: Peed outside? Ya, camping

130: Been fishing? Mmhm

131: Helped with charity? I actually don’t think so. I’ve donated before.

132: Been rejected by a crush? Never got myself to be in the position to be rejected

133: Broken a mirror? Yeahhh

134: What do I want for your birthday? Yummy food

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 1-3 & no clue

136: Was I named after anyone? A barry manilow song

137: Do I like my handwriting? No i hate it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? Barbies

139: Favourite Tv Show? I don’t have any active shows atm

140: Where do I want to live when older? Back in my family home

141: Play any musical instrument? I’m not musically inclined in any way

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? Have an L on my finger from slaming and locking my finger in the car door as a kid. I was stuck there for a while.

143: Favourite pizza toping? Sausage

144: Am I afraid of the dark? Nah

145: Am I afraid of heights? A little

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Nope

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Plentybof times

148: What I’m really bad at Doing anything consistently

149: What my greatest achievments are Graduating college

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me There would be a list.

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery Buy out my family home, remodel, set up my inlaws and grandma for life, get a working car, change jobs, and if I had enough I’d set up my parents and college funds too.

152: What do I like about myself My hair

153: My closest Tumblr friend I have some of my best friends irl on here

154: Something I fantasise about Being a normal person

This is way too long. I’m not tagging anyone and bringing this onto them. Yeesh.

[wejustsurvive]

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1. Who was the last person you held hands with? i actually think its haley XD if not her then sam2. Are you outgoing or shy? im in between. new people make me shy, but i can be outgoing with people im comfortable with3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? meh4. Are you easy to get along with? i think so5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? i can take care of myself thanks6. What kind of people are you attracted to? the wrong kind7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? who knows8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? nope9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? not at all10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? probs emily11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? thank you 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? 

Clairvoyant, you used to say, dead bird, how does it feel, i think your nose is bleeding.13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? i LOVE IT14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? yes 15. What good thing happened this summer? i camped my life away16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? isnt that what a boyfriend is?17. Do you think there is life on other planets? obv.18. Do you still talk to your first crush? nope19. Do you like bubble baths? nope20. Do you like your neighbors? yeah my neighbor is my grandma, we have tea every morning

21. What are your bad habits? seeing the good in people after they have fucked me up. Always trying to help people.22. Where would you like to travel? all over canada, and greece, and thailand23. Do you have trust issues? yup24. Favorite part of your daily routine? lmao blazing? idk i dont have much of a routine25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? my stomach26. What do you do when you wake up? hate my life27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? darker28. Who are you most comfortable around? sam29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? ummm not really, kyle said we could of worked through our shit when we first broke up but i believe we were made to be friends30. Do you ever want to get married? yes i do, i want my papa to walk me down the isle31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? soooo long32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Any and all Avengers. JS33. Spell your name with your chin. hnaqy7l4eyu34. Do you play sports? What sports? LMFAO 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? tv36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? yee37. What do you say during awkward silences? well this is fun38. Describe your dream girl/guy? someone willing to go the extra mile just like i am39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? second hand stores40. What do you want to do after high school? die41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? yes i do42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? im v sad and anxiety43. Do you smile at strangers? yes44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? bottom of the ocean45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? my animals46. What are you paranoid about? people hating me and driving with weed47. Have you ever been high? all day er day48. Have you ever been drunk? YUP XD49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? not really, i wish people would actually find out about some things...50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? black lol51. Ever wished you were someone else? every second52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? lol everything on the outside53. Favourite makeup brand? urban decay54. Favourite store? i dont have one55. Favourite blog? not anymore56. Favourite colour? pink57. Favourite food? sushi58. Last thing you ate? some chippies59. First thing you ate this morning? People eat in the morning????60. Ever won a competition? For what? LOL NO61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? nope62. Been arrested? For what? nope63. Ever been in love? is this love?64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? jon browne, caught on video. Was not expecting it65. Are you hungry right now? no66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? i dont have tumblr friends anymore :’(67. Facebook or Twitter? twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr? twitter69. Are you watching tv right now? nope70. Names of your bestfriends?kyle  haley suzie emily71. Craving something? What? ugh72. What colour are your towels? grey72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 273. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no real animals74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? too many for a adult75. Favourite animal? tigers76. What colour is your underwear? leopard print XD whoda guess77. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla78. Favourite ice cream flavour? ????? something fun79. What colour shirt are you wearing?light blue night with cats 80. What colour pants? i never wear pants when im home81. Favourite tv show? supernatural 82. Favourite movie? fuck too many, something avengers83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? mean girls84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 21 jump street85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? janice86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? the turtles maybe87. First person you talked to today? my Dog and yes hes a person88. Last person you talked to today? ive only talked to my dog XD89. Name a person you hate? My uncle90. Name a person you love? my Aunt Mary91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? YEEE 92. In a fight with someone? Like maybe? ask them, theyre the ones sending anon hate93. How many sweatpants do you have? 2 pairs, need more for work94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? 595. Last movie you watched? ant man and the wasp96. Favourite actress? honestly no clue. i dont pay attention to that stuff97. Favourite actor? if i have a favourite its not for their acting skills so98. Do you tan a lot? nope and nope99. Have any pets? i have a zoo. And honestly im so proud of my family i wish i could introduce everyone i care for to them100. How are you feeling? honestly tumblr, not great. Ive been down the last couple months and i keep trying to get back where i was mentally but i having a hard time. Many things are getting me down and i want to fix them but somethings are out of my control. And i never taught myself how to cope with that101. Do you type fast? pretty fucking fast i work on the computer A LOT

102. Do you regret anything from your past? I regret little things, like not speaking up and telling people how i feel from the start. Its fucked up a lot in my life. But without going through and doing what i did i wouldnt be the compassionate person i am today.103. Can you spell well? sometimes when i dont overthink it104. Do you miss anyone from your past? yes105. Ever been to a bonfire party? YES AND I WANT TO GO TO ANOTHER106. Ever broken someone’s heart? honestly, i have a couple times. Im not proud of it and i wish it could of been different but life happens107. Have you ever been on a horse? yes i love horseys108. What should you be doing? moving on and letting go109. Is something irritating you right now? yeah thats one way of putting it110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? lmao yes111. Do you have trust issues? so many112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Sam, always sam113. What was your childhood nickname? bird114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yes i wanna go back to alberta115. Do you play the Wii? not anymore116. Are you listening to music right now? i was117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yes118. Do you like Chinese food? YES119. Favourite book? acheron or Fahrenheit 451120. Are you afraid of the dark? not anymore121. Are you mean? people perceive me as mean sometimes because i like to be honest these days122. Is cheating ever okay? no its not.123. Can you keep white shoes clean? bitch i dont buy white shoes124. Do you believe in love at first sight? hahaha i belive in lust in first site 125. Do you believe in true love? yes126. Are you currently bored? umm not the word i would use so no127. What makes you happy? when my animals are healthy128. Would you change your name? i wanted to when i was young but nah129. What your zodiac sign? gemini130. Do you like subway? yes131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? tell him to cool his jets. Been there done that. Did not work. We are happy as friends and get a long way better132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? honestly probably emily133. Favourite lyrics right now? i love this question

This is your life, there's no way to run from itThe doubt in your brain, or the pain in your stomachI only have the one complaint at the momentDon't paint me black when I used to be golden. 

 134. Can you count to one million? nope, dont have an attention span that long135. Dumbest lie you ever told? i work for telus136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? open for the cats137. How tall are you? 5′5 and a half138. Curly or Straight hair? wavy139. Brunette or Blonde? blonde140. Summer or Winter? summer141. Night or Day? night142. Favourite month? june143. Are you a vegetarian? nope144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk chocolate145. Tea or Coffee? tea146. Was today a good day? i just woke up, no147. Mars or Snickers? mars148. What’s your favourite quote? its on my wall

The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift. 

 149. Do you believe in ghosts? yup150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  the books close to me are all notebooks. page 42 is blank

[lesbianbruabba]

All of the questions 😈

Jokes on you bitch I have time since I’m waiting for drag race to air but oh my god this is gonna be long so i’ll pull an Iza and put it under a read more 

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

I don’t know

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Shy, even though I don’t feel like I am, people tell me I’m shy

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

My brother when he comes here oh my god. I miss him. I’m going to make him watch a couple crazy music videos and possibly scar him. 

@lettiehigh and @akakuro4869-blog and @rippling-waves when I get back to Hong Kong and Tiff and Bella and Karl and Ellie and Miss R and everyone else

@samrull and Lettie again and maybe @lecafenoirx if I go to Bristol in September to see flor

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I’d say so! Unless you give me a reason to dislike you lol

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Probably but that’s a stupid question since I don’t drink :)

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Kind people. Usually more on the feminine side? Even the more muscular guys that I thirst after have a few feminine traits like a higher-pitched voice.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Nope, I’m going back to Hong Kong so there’s even less chance of me being in a relationship lol

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Ryan Ross [insert tongue emoji]

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Nope. I’m usually way too open, quite a few of my friends are this way too. Literally one time my brother and I shared a hotel room and the first thing he said when my folks were out of earshot is complaining how he can’t jack off for a whole week (I asked him why he couldn’t do it in the shower, he said it was too much effort to do so standing up XD)

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Kasia or Iza about body image? define deep

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Call him or dump his useless ass?” to Lettie

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Victorious by P!atD, Dodie Clark’s cover of Somebody Else by the 1975, I Need My Girl by the National, Pożyczony by Sylwia Grzeszczak and Honey by Kehlani

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yeah! People at school used to love braiding my hair because it was so long. And I like playing with people’s hair, because I can French braid on others but I can’t do it with myself :/

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Sometimes?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I’ll say last summer since it’s not quite summer yet now. Well, I was accepted into Edi, got a 38 on the IBDP which is not too bad, and celebrated my birthday with my squad (rip)

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Yep :)

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I fkin hope not 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

My first actual crush or like, elementary school crush? But no on both counts

19. Do you like bubble baths?

I’ve never had one :/ I’ve never had a ~bath~ tbh. I want to try in the summer because home in Hong Kong has a bathtub. 

20. Do you like your neighbors?

I like my flatmates here, we like the same kind of porn and vines. I don’t know my neighbors well enough back home

21. What are you bad habits?

I trust too easily, I am intelligent but lazy when it comes to schoolwork (I procrastinate), I worry way too fucking much about everything, I have crushes on people that I should NOT have crushes on sometimes (see: gay men)

22. Where would you like to travel?

I answered this a while back I think but as far as I could remember it’s a lot of european places - Oslo, Aarhus (I’m going to Copenhagen!!), Moscow, Tallinn, Berlin, Lublin, Warsaw, Kraków, Gdańsk, Lyon, Lisbon, Prague, honestly just count in every capital haha. I’m not good at geography. Also, Tasmania, Tokyo, Osaka (I’ve been twice but it’s. So good), London, Glasgow are all places I’d go again. 

23. Do you have trust issues?

With my mum yeah lmao

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Talking to my friends (basically everyone I’ve tagged up there I don’t have many friends lmao)

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

My thighs because they’re heavily scarred, my tummy because fat, double chin, face because weirdly big lips and weird shape and small eyes, honestly most of my body if I’m being honest, when I’m not corseted. 

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Go through tumblr, twitter, instagram, kik, snapchat, emails, facebook, usually in that order. And then maybe scroll a bit more through tumblr and drag myself awake. Brush teeth and drink juice for breakfast. 

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

My skin tone is fine. I’m kinda pale for a Chinese girl (according to others, but my skin’s gotten darker in recent years) so I sometimes have to use white people products. I only lighten my skin for doing goth-y makeup so in those instances i’d love to have lighter skin. (then again, I’m talking like...wallpaper white if possible pls)

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My friends and my brother. 

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

What exes lmao

30. Do you ever want to get married?

If it’s with the right person yeah. 

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

My hair is long enough for several pony tails

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Men - Jawn and Ryan Ross

Women - Stephanie Beatriz and Lynn Gunn

33. Spell your name with your chin

 cbhreusftjd

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Exactly - what sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

Without TV. I can’t live without music. 

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Would’ve said yes up to this morning haha

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

So, do you know what a furry is?

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Emo, responsible, kind, good sense of humor, understanding, appreciates Ryan Ross, doesn’t mind me checking my phone a lot [insert date in Hong Kong meme]

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Damaged Society for band merch, Ann Summers for lingerie, various taobao shops for lolita fashion, Restyle for corsets

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Study linguistics at university. Hey! I’m doing that!

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

No but most people do

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I don’t feel like talking/I’m depressed/I’m thinking

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Not like randomly?...

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

NEITHER I LIKE BEING SAFE OH MY GOD

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Brushing my teeth or needing to pee?

46. What are you paranoid about?

I’m paranoid that I won’t graduate uni, about not being able to find a job that I will be happy at (doesn’t have to be a dream job but I don’t want to work at something I hate like a factory), I’m paranoid that no one will ever love me esp. romantically, that my family will never accept me as a bisexual woman, that I won’t be able to migrate to the UK before I’m 30 or worse before China takes back Hong Kong in 2047 and I will be trapped in hellish censorship conservative society, that depression and anxiety will drive me to off myself before any of that could even happen

47. Have you ever been high?

Noooooooooo don’t do drugs :( I say, even though I am friends with a drug dealer lol

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Nope, alcohol tastes gross

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Recently no. But like when I was a kid yeah

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Pink!

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Every day :/

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

I want to weigh 80lbs. It’s been this stupid ‘goal’ throughout teenagehood and I know it’s stupid and unhealthy but I really want to. I don’t care if I won’t have boobs. 

53. Favourite makeup brand?

Maybelline has good concealer

54. Favourite store?

Damaged Society

55. Favourite blog?

Can’t make me pick between these two 

56. Favourite colour?

Pink

57. Favourite food? 

Tiramisu and also siu mai but only the fish ones because they taste like garlic and also calbee chips, british junk food is garbage compared to the stuff we have in hong kong (they’ve got good sweets here though)

58. Last thing you ate?

Spaghetti carbonara

59. First thing you ate this morning?

I didn’t eat today till dinner which was spaghetti carbonara

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

I got first runner up in a nationwide comp for poetry. I wrote a depressing poem that ended up with my English teacher sending a concerned email to my folks lol

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

*gasp* I am a good student

62. Been arrested? For what?

Oh my god. I’m a good girl. I’m not with that kinda shit

63. Ever been in love? 

I have fallen in love but not like...reciprocated love, no

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Ooh this is fun. He offered to be my first kiss and I said sure and we made out and it was nice and less scary than I thought but I forgot to close my eyes

65. Are you hungry right now?

No I had too much spaghetti :(((((

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

are you calling my tumblr friends fake

But no I love them all. Also given that half of my irl friends are on tumblr idk what to say lmao

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr is the MOST SUPERIOR SOCIAL MEDIA BECAUSE IT IS TRASH

69. Are you watching tv right now?

We’d need a TV license for that. and a TV. so no

I’ve got netflix

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Lettie, Chloe, Iza, Natalie, Daniel (my brother), Karl, Bella (but she’s mad at me so idk), there’s a couple of people who I consider close friends but idk if they’re okay with me calling them my best friends

71. Craving something? What?

A GETAWAY FROM THE SMOOTH TALK THAT’S KEEPING ME GROUNDED  TO THE CARPET IN MY ROOM MY QUIET BLUE TOMB OF YOU

72. What colour are your towels?

Both purple why

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

One. Or zero if I kick it to the floor by accident. I mostly hug it.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

No :(

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

zero. I have a stuffed L Lawliet from Death Note though. It’s a present for my mum when I get home. I’ve also got a few stuffies back home courtesy of Lettie and Bella

75. Favourite animal?

Humans but I like dogs and cats and rats are kinda cute too?

76. What colour is your underwear?

Right now it’s white but I’ve got beige and grey ones I’m kinda boring

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Coffee

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

White, my waterparks shirt :)

80. What colour pants?

Blue denim shorts

81. Favourite tv show?

Drag race, b99, the good place, parks and rec, ASOUE

82. Favourite movie?

Dzien Swira it’s funny and depressing

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean girls but i’ve not seen the second one

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean girls, idk what the other one is

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

The nice girl

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk...the blue fish? Ellen Degeneres? 

87. First person you talked to today?

Iza

88. Last person you talked to today?

Kasia

89. Name a person you hate?

Uhhhhhhhm Doanld Trump?

90. Name a person you love?

My brother he’s so smart and creative and sweet and makes the worst puns and he loves fall out boy and tries to be an edgelord and it’s super adorable so that’s great 

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

My feelings bc they dumb

92. In a fight with someone?

Kiiiiiiiinda? More like she’s mad at me and idk what to do about it because i refuse to go to fucking london with her because international plane tickets are expensive as heck and she wants me to go in the middle of summer when i’m home

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

easy, 0

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

A Lot. Like 10. 

95. Last movie you watched?

Dzien Swira

96. Favourite actress?

Sara Canning and Stephanie Beatriz make me v gay

97. Favourite actor?

Neil Patrick Harris because Count Olaf

98. Do you tan a lot?

No lmao

99. Have any pets?

m-my brother...?

100. How are you feeling?

Impatient because drag race hasn’t aired yet. Lonely because my favorite flatmate moved out and there’s no one to chat with me at 3am anymore. Frustrated because my crush-y feelings are being dumb. Sad because my mum is kiiiiiiiiiiiinda homophobic and I imagine myself getting married to a woman not a man (it’s more likely) so :/

101. Do you type fast?

68 WPM? Is that fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

I regret a lot of things. But it’s okay I’ve not turned out too bad overall considering. I’m also glad I did a lot of things, so

103. Can you spell well?

I think so yeah

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yes absolutely in particular one person because sometimes I regret things that I did with good intentions and never stop regretting :/

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

I’ve been to a campfire so kinda??

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Nah

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yes!! When I was a kid

108. What should you be doing?

It’s 1am so prolly sleeping but who has time for that amirite

109. Is something irritating you right now?

Yeah my mum. And my feelings

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yes lmaoooooo don’t read me like this

111. Do you have trust issues?

This was a question up there. Why is it asked again. You’re making me have trust issues

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Ooh shit I don’t know I haven’t cried in front of people for a while mostly because I shut myself in my room but prolly my brother or my mum back home 

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Never had one (that I liked)

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

~that’s not a thing~ uwu

115. Do you play the Wii?

No my mum is against video games

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Yes I’m listening to Dear Uber Driver

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Never had it

118. Do you like Chinese food?

I like dim sum and egg tarts and a lot of HK street food so yes? 

119. Favourite book?

Suck Less by Willam

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Sometimes, but at other times it’s oddly comforting

121. Are you mean?

:o I am the least mean person to exist 

122. Is cheating ever okay?

No unless it’s in NTAL but even then it’s like hmmmm is it tho

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Lol no

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

I think it’s possible but unlikely

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yeah I’d like to

126. Are you currently bored?

No because this is keeping me entertained until I can watch drag race

127. What makes you happy?

Talking to my friends, sending them dumb tumblr shitposts, sending my brother disturbing gifs, getting weird gifs from Chloe, thirsting over Jawn with Iza, hearing that my friends are happy, reading and sharing poetry with friends, listening to music, playing the ukulele, eating junk food and watching b99, answering tumblr asks, writing poetry, drawing

128. Would you change your name?

I don’t like Christie so yes. Would change my Chinese name too it’s too annoying to write. 

129. What your zodiac sign?

Leo//rabbit

130. Do you like subway?

No :(

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Brenda, he’s gay. Very very very gay, think a 6 on the kinsey scale

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Again. this has been asked. What kinda unprofessionalism

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

I think with my heart and love with my head

134. Can you count to one million?

I mean...in theory yes but why would I do that 

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I told my mum I was striaght lmao

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed. What the fuck

137. How tall are you?

5′2

138. Curly or Straight hair?

I have straight hair, I want wavy hair. Or bangs. 

139. Brunette or Blonde?

I have black hair. I tend to have blondes/general bright hair as a ‘type’ when it comes to romantic affection/crushes but it’s also not v accurate

also, I want pink hair. I had a dream where my brother loved MANIA so much he dyed his hair purple

140. Summer or Winter?

WINTER. BUT WITHOUT SNOW. Summer brings out my skin problems so I have a v valid reason to hate it. Also I’m fat so my thigh chafe in summer if I walk more than an hour

141. Night or Day?

I am usually, unfortuantely, only awake at night and like maybe late afternoon. 

142. Favourite month?

I don’t have one. December I guess bc it’s acceptable to play christmas music. or June bc pride month

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope. I don’t love meat though. 

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Milk. With sea salt and caramel. I’m a classy hoe

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee. Either iced americano or some sweet frappe shit

146. Was today a good day?

Today was a very good day. I told my crush I liked her, slept away most of the day, watched a lot of brooklyn nine-nine and listened to Dodie while doing German and Polish on duolingo and I read Chloe’s poetry and it was very good. Link here. And Kasia gave me lots of good song recs. And drag race is up soon (it’s technically tomorrow but whatever). 

147. Mars or Snickers?

I can’t pick because Snickers has such a great texture, but also mars bars has the perfect nougat to caramel to chocolate ratio? Probably mars wins out by a bit

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“Hewwo” - Aquaria, RuPaul’s Drag Race

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

I’d like to think souls can see what we’re doing after they pass away.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“Adjective opposites and their comparatives” from a Polish grammar book.

Thank you for this long ass ask 

drag race still hasn’t fucking aired so i’m gonna watch more b99 and drink fanta

[dextersjournal]

Get to know me

I posted these questions a while ago but no one was interested. I’m really bored at work so I decided to answer all of them anyway. Answers are correct as of 3 July 2017.

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?  Probably  my ex.

2. Are you outgoing or shy?  Both.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?  I’m  seeing my friend Jordan later. Went out with him yesterday, but I always look  forward to seeing my friends.

4. Are you easy to get along with? Yes, I  think so. I will admit that it could be argued that I have a polarising personality.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like  take care of you? Don’t like anyone at the moment.  

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?  (I  abhor this question.) Um, generally good looking. Long hair is a turn on.  Sharp features e.g. nose and jaw line. Smooth skin. Sense of humour.  Intelligent, verbose, reasonable, critical thinker. Reason I abhor this question  is because I don’t like the idea of someone reading this and thinking I  wouldn’t be into them because they don’t meet these criteria; it’s very  plausible that I would be attracted to someone outside these descriptions –  except sense of humour. That’s a must.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two  months from now?  No.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?  Can’t  even think of anyone.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?  Yes,  but less and less so. When you play Never Have I Ever with friends like mine,  you’re forced out of that comfort zone, lol.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation  with? Gosh, I  have deep conversations all the time. Probably with my friends Jordan and  Fabian last night.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent  say?

“Hey  dude. I’m home safely. Hope you are/will be too. I’m beyond glad you agreed  to join us today. I do miss our chats so that’s a big reason why I’d like to  hang out more.

Anyway,  I shall see you tomorrow. And I hope to see you soon after that. Sleep well  and keep well[,] my friend.”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?  Hmmm, I  actually don’t have a favourite right  now – I listen to whatever – but my recent favourites have been:

Sign of  the Times – Harry Styles From  the Dining Table – Harry Styles Tears  in the Rain  - Nathan Sykes Twist –  Nathan Sykes There’s  Only One of You – Nathan Sykes

13. Do you like it when people play with your  hair?  Yes,  actually. But people rarely do.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Luck,  yes. Miracles,  no.

15. What good thing happened this summer? I  formed a friendship in the last third of last year in which I was very  quickly emotionally invested, as I do. But I wasn’t sure how this person felt  about me; they were very hot and cold towards me. We could have a good time  one day and he’d all but ignore me the next. The good thing that happened  this summer is that he and I became closer, started confiding in each other and  I’m no longer uncertain about our friendship.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed  again? Yes. I’m  actually craving it.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? I think  with the vast expanse of the universe, it’s likely that there should be other  living organisms out there, if only simple-celled ones.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? No. Don’t  talk to many people from primary school.

19. Do you like bubble baths? I do.  But water restrictions.

20. Do you like your neighbors? My  mother is really close to the neighbours on our left. We don’t really socialise with our other neighbours.

21. What are your bad habits? Over-thinking  and over-analysing. Nail biting. I’m sure I have more so if anyone notices  any, let me know.

22. Where would you like to travel? England  and Europe (they’re separate now). More  specifically: London, Paris, Rome, Florence, Venice, Istanbul (maybe). Also  New York and LA.

23. Do you have trust issues? Likely.

24. Favourite part of your daily routine? Don’t  really have one. My life is banal right now.

25. What part of your body are you most  uncomfortable with? My  paunch.

26. What do you do when you wake up? Turn  off my alarm.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Neither.

28. Who are you most comfortable around? My  friends.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Nope.  They actually said their life got easier.

30. Do you ever want to get married? I think  so. But I’m not sure. Very aware that marriage and weddings are a mere by-product  of archaic tradition but also like the idea of officialising a commitment  promise.

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? I don’t  even want to think about this one right now. Don’t want to pop a boner at  work.

33. Spell your name with your chin. DSewsxrt5err

34. Do you play sports? What sports? I used  to play chess.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told  them?  All the  damn time. I’ve only told 2 of my numerous crushes that I liked them. One of  those was almost a year later.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? “Lovely  weather we’re having.”

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? A  friend I can have sex with.

39. What are your favourite stores to shop in? Edgars  and Mr Price. They give me credit.

40. What do you want to do after high school? I left  high school 5 years ago.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second  chance? No. I  don’t subscribe to rules with absolutes.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean? I’m  tired and/or uncomfortable and/or thinking and/or over-thinking and/or upset  and/or depressed.

43. Do you smile at strangers? Not  generally, no.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Outer  space.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? The obligation to go to work and continue to earn money.

46. What are you paranoid about? That my  friends don’t really like me and they just tolerate me.

47. Have you ever been high? No. I  think I may have been on a passive high once, but I’m not sure.

48. Have you ever been drunk? Yes.  Good times.

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Umm,  no, I don’t think so.

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you  wore? Black.

51. Ever wished you were someone else? I  probably have, but not actively. For all my faults and insecurities, I like  who I am and acknowledge that being someone else comes with a whole new set  of problems. I like that I know what my problems are.

52. One thing you wish you could change about  yourself? My  weight.

53. Favourite makeup brand? MAC

54. Favourite store? Wouldn’t  say I have one.

55. Favourite blog? http://soletstalkabout.com/

56. Favourite colour? Azure  blue.

57. Favourite food? Pizza  or sushi. I will not decide between them.

58. Last thing you ate? Doughnut.

59. First thing you ate this morning? Cereal  (ProNutro)

60. Ever won a competition? For what? I won a  dance competition on a TV show and received free tickets to go up Table  Mountain.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Nope.

62. Been arrested? For what? Nope.

63. Ever been in love? Yes.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? We’d  spent New Year’s Eve together, just the two of us, and as we were watching  the sunrise on New Year’s Day, he pulled a handwritten letter from his pocket  and read it out. He revealed he had feelings for me and asked if he could  kiss me. I nodded.

65. Are you hungry right now? Not  actually, hey.

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? No, but  I do wish my real friends had Tumblr. And Twitter. Mostly Twitter.

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter.

68. Twitter or Tumblr? Twitter.

69. Are you watching TV right now? Nope. I’m  at work.

70. Names of your best friends? Bronté Fabian Jerry Jordan Laurie Nadine

71. Craving something? What? Hugs.  Always.

72. What colour are your towels? I think  the ones I’m using now are green.

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two.  One standard and one continental.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Do my  victims’ bodies count? Jokes.  No, I don’t. (I leave  the bodies in the basement.)

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? Easily  upwards of 10.

75. Favourite animal? Dog.  Unimaginative answer, I know.

76. What colour is your underwear? Grey.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Bubblegum,  but it’s hard to find. I’m usually pretty satisfied with vanilla. But if we’re  including frozen yoghurt into the options, then English Toffee.

 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Black

80. What colour pants? Blue  (denim)

81. Favourite TV show? Will  & Grace.

82. Favourite movie? The  Prestige.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Ew.  Mean Girls.

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Mean  Girls.

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Why is  this a question?

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory.

87. First person you talked to today? My  brother.

88. Last person you talked to today? My  boss.

89. Name a person you hate? I don’t  hate anyone. But the last person I hated was called Josh, I think.

90. Name a person you love? Fabian.

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? No.  Hurt with my words.

92. In a fight with someone? No.  Hurt with my words.

93. How many sweatpants do you have? 5

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? 5/6

95. Last movie you watched? Wonder  Woman

96. Favourite actress? Dunno.

97. Favourite actor? Dunno.

98. Do you tan a lot? No. Not  intentionally.

99. Have any pets? No.

100. How are you feeling? Tired.  Bored.

101. Do you type fast? Yes.

102. Do you regret anything from your past? Yes.  The person I used to be. Makes me cringe.

103. Can you spell well? Yes.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? No.

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Not  that I know of.

107. Have you ever been on a horse? No.

108. What should you be doing? Nothing.  I don’t have any work to do.

109. Is something irritating you right now? Not  particularly.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yes. [Cue  depression and Sam Smith soundtrack]

111. Do you have trust issues? Refer to  Question 23.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Gosh, I’m  not sure hey. I cried in front of my ex while we were still together, but that was in 2015. I’ve definitely cried since but I don’t remember doing it in front of everyone.

113. What was your childhood nickname? Dennis.  I was a klutz so my dad would refer to me as Dennis the Menace. I hated it.

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Within  the country, only technically; just crossed the border for a few hours.

115. Do you play the Wii? No.

116. Are you listening to music right now? No, but  that’s a good idea, actually.

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? I eat it  but never crave it.

118. Do you like Chinese food? No.  Except spring rolls.

119. Favourite book? Harry Potter and Artemis  Fowl series.

120. Are you afraid of the dark? No.

121. Are you mean? Not  genuinely. But I say mean things to be funny.

122. Is cheating ever okay? Probably.  Once again, I do not subscribe to rules with absolutes.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? No. I  don’t care about them enough.

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? No. I  believe in confirmation bias.

125. Do you believe in true love? Yes, I’d  like to.

126. Are you currently bored? Yeeeeeeeeees!

127. What makes you happy? My  friends.

128. Would you change your name? No.

129. What your zodiac sign? Scorpio.

130. Do you like subway? The  sandwich place? Yes, I do.

131. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Depends  on whether I feel the same way. It’s unlikely. So probably say I don’t reciprocate their feelings. Ask them if they need anything, like space. Ask  them if I did anything to lead them on. Have a discussion with them. Let them  know I’m still their friend if they want me to be.

132. Your best friend of the same sex likes you, what do you do? Depends  on whether I feel the same way. If I don’t, see above. If I do, or I don’t but I could, then I guess we’ll see  how it goes. This is something I’ve thought about a lot and I don’t think it’s  likely. My best friends are mostly straight and most of them have  girlfriends. Even if they’re queer, I doubt they’d be interested in me.  Besides all that, I think I’m too close to all of them to view them in a  romantic and sexual light. I wouldn’t want to ruin a friendship.

133. Favourite lyrics right now? In Our Darkest Hour In My Deepest Despair Will You Still Care? Will You Be There? In My Trials And My Tribulations Through Our Doubts And Frustrations In My Violence In My Turbulence Through My Fear And My Confessions In My Anguish And My Pain Through My Joy And My Sorrow In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow I'll Never Let You Part For You're Always In My Heart.

134. Can you count to one million? Theoretically,  yes. Not about to do it in practice; it would take literally 3 days.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I  signed up to be in my primary school’s fashion show and they had a strict rule (for some weird reason) that if you signed up, you had to do it. I changed my mind and, when confronted, told my  teacher my mother had responded on the reply slip without my consent.

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Closed.

137. How tall are you? 1.78m  or 5ft 11in

138. Curly or Straight hair? I have curly  hair.

139. Brunette or Blonde? I’m a  brunette.

140. Summer or Winter? Summer.

141. Night or Day? Night.

142. Favourite month? December.

143. Are you a vegetarian? Hell,  no.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Milk  chocolate.

145. Tea or Coffee? Tea. I  don’t drink coffee.

146. Was today a good day? Today’s  barely started, but it’s unlikely to be. Yesterday was great, though.

147. Mars or Snickers? Mars.

148. What’s your favourite quote? “I’m a  knowledgeable man and it’s part of my knowledge. Y’know, if I knew how I knew  everything I knew, I’d only be able to know half as much because it would all  be clogged up from where I know it from.” – David Mitchell

149. Do you believe in ghosts? I’m  inclined to say no, but I’ve recently heard some stories that have challenged  my world view.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first  line on that page? No  text. Just a picture. (It’s an autobiography, not a kid’s book, okay! Get off my back, mom! Geez.)

[skiasurveys]

1) Are you really ready for 1000000 questions? ok

2) What was the last thing you drank? Orange juice 

3) Do you believe in God? Yes.

4) What did you last say? “oh my god.”

5) Do you regret it?

No?

6) Have you ever been depressed? I have depression.

7) Have a best friend? I do. 

8) Are you a boy or girl? I am a girl.

9) What is your relationship status? taken. 9 months holy shit!!!

10) How do you want to die? In my sleep. quietly and peaceful, please.

11) What did you last eat? Mac n cheese. 

12) Play any sports? Not anymore, i used to play volley ball in school

13) Do you bite your nails? yeah, and i hate itttt

14) When was your last physical fight? Never really been in a physical fight

15) What is the last sound you just heard? my fingers on the keyboard

16) Do you hate anyone at the moment? yep!

17) Do you miss anyone? Yes a lot of people, actually.

18) Twirl or cut your spaghetti? neither. i hate spaghetti.

19) Do you tan a lot? no. only naturally in the summer lmao

20) Have any pets? 2 cats

21) How exactly are you feeling? i feel fine. i had an interview, went good. i few weird right now, though. anixous 

22) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Yeah, i dont do it often, unless were on trips

23) Ever made out in a bathroom? yes, kinda? i mean we fucked in the bathroom

24) Would you take any of your exes back? No. they all suck

25) Are you scared of spiders? no 

26) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? I would, maybe to stop alan from hurting me, or maybe to tell myself to not trust anyone, but idk it was a learning experience, but it was awful. I dont know, really.

27) Do you regret anything from your past? Oh yes.

28) What are your plans for this weekend? The weekend just past, but for this coming weekend, im thinking im hanging out with my best friend, and then seeing Connor, probably.

29) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with a C? Yes, my current boyfriend, connor 

30) Do you type fast? Yes.

31) Do you have piercings? I did, I had my ears pierced, and the lady said to take them out within 3 months. so i did, and well i took them out to put new earrings in and it hurt really bad, so i left them out for like 3 hours and by then they were closed. =.=

32) Can you spell well? Yeah, i think so

33) Do you miss anyone from your past? I do

34) What are you craving right now? nothing

35) Ever been to a bonfire party? Not really. i would love too

36) Have you ever been on a horse? yeah a couple times

37) Kissed someone in a pick up truck? my boyfriend

38) Last hug? Connor

39) Have you ever been cheated on? Not that im aware of

40) Last thing you watched on tv? Troll Hunters. LOL yes connor makes me watch cartoons with him. He’s turning 27.

41) Would you live with someone without marrying them? yeah. Connor and I are planning on moving in together in the next little bit.

42) What should you be doing? nothing really...

43) What’s irritating you right now? a lot of things. 

44) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yes.

45) Does somebody love you? my boyfriend, friends, family. my cats.

46) What is your favorite color? lilac 

47) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yes.

48) Do you have trust issues? I do now. 

49) What’s the last thing you said out loud? “Youre so weird”

50) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink? No.

51) Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yeah

52) What’s on your mind? nothing really.

53) Last book you read? I like him. He likes her.

54) Who was the last person you cried in front of? connor

55) Do you give out second chances too easily? yeah. I shouldn’t, but i do.

56) Is it easier to forgive or forget? forgive duh

57) Is this year the best year of your life? ehhhh, i mean i feel happier in a way?

58) Do you think you’ re a good person? i hope so

59) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? No. not everything

60) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? I was editing Youtube Videos

61) Does your mind ever get stuck in the past? yeah, im always dwelling on it. wishing i could change time, or wishing it was different

62) What is bothering you? honestly nothing

63) Have you ever been out of province?Out of county? Yes.

64) Do you play the Wii? We have one, but i don’t play on it as much. I play on the Wii U though. But i like my Playstation 4 more

67) Are you listening to music right now? Nope.

68) Do you like Chinese food? Yeah, but i had some last night and made me sick =.=

69) Do you know your fathers b-day? Yes.

70) Are you afraid of the dark? Yes.

71) Is cheating ever okay? No its not. 

72) Are you mean? i dont think so.

73) Can you keep white shoes clean? I can.

74) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal? No lmao

75) Do you believe in true love? yeah. 

76) Are you proud of the person you’ve become? yes and no.

77) Do you like the outside? yeah..when its not snowing. =.=

78) Are you currently bored? noo

79) Do you wanna get married? eventually 

80) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? yeah, i like it when connor calls me that.

81) Are you hungry? no

82) Do you have a bank account? Yes.

83) What makes you happy? cats 

84) Ever been to Alaska? No.

85) Do you watch the news? Yes.

86) Do you like Subway? I do.

87) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? noooo. were dating 

88) Who was the last person you were on the phone with? My mom.

89) Do you talk like your friends? yeah, its funny. I notice little things i say and do and im like damn thats just like so and so

90) What’s a word you say a lot? “For sure”, “ I know” “Um..” “Like” “ I dont know “ “ I was kidding” “FUUUUCK” lol that almost makes a sentence 

91) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? Yes

92) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? yeah

93) Who is the last girl you talked to? My sister 

94) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? He smokes weed, but i don’t care. I only would care if he was doing cigs, and if it was extreme.

95) Do you go to church? sometimes when i can

96) What’s going on between you and your best friend? nothing ??

97) Who is the last person you had a deep conversation with? Kaylie

98) Have you ever regretted letting someone go? Yes.

99) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos? yeah

100) What do you wear more: Hoodies, Jackets, Cardies..? Hoodies.

101) You’re a Sharpie marker, what color are you? lilac or a pastel color 

102) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning? morning, but i like baths at night.

103) Have you ever said you’d never love again? yeah. lol

104) Do you want to please everyone? usually.

105) Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? no

106) Has someone ever made you a promise & broken it? Yes.

107) Are you alone right now? yes

108) Did you speak to your father today? he is dead.

109) How many months/days untill your birthday? 10 months

110) Did you enjoy this survey? yea it was lit