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hekateisconfused · 4 months
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I'm not ready to drop ni no kuni yet so I made some challenges.... Am I a masochist--
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coffinsister · 4 months
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Hades 2 is truly the only game ever
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hekateinhell · 2 years
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tell me more about armand drinking from viktor lmao
LOL this is such a random ask (if you know me it's actually not RIP), but yeah, of course, obviously, I am here for it.
Let’s review…
Viktor: essentially taller and more handsome Lestat.
Viktor: has Marius's Blood inside of him.
Viktor: a sweetheart, “seldom if ever emotional in a confusing way,” Lestat's baby (he refers to him as such); ripe for corruption.
I understand most of the fandom has no use for him, and tbh I didn't either until I considered the juicy implications. I cannot emphasize this enough—Viktor is tailor-made for a bloodromp with Armand.
The fact that it will offend Lestat as a vampire, a father, and on every other conceivable level for a multitude of reasons is just the strawberry-colored icing on top.
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incendiorum-arch · 2 years
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hekate no.
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cranberryjuice-posts · 7 months
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Can you do immortal daughter of hecate (deadpool type immortal) x clarisse where they are out of camp and get attacked and clarisse see us get attacked and thinks we're dead and just goes on a rampage killing the monster but then reader is just casually lounging on the floor breaking the silence once clarisse calms down and starts to cry she. Would say something like
"Damn didn't know you could be so hot fighting" or something else
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- back from the dead -
Pairings - Clarisse La Rue x Fem! Child of Hekate! Reader
An - this sucks so bad I’m so sorry 😭😭
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“The water is Fine! Stop being a wimp and jump in” You laughed swiming around. About an hours walk away from camp after sneaking out one night you had found an old hidden moon pool most likely an old witch ceremony place. Taking the context from old runes carved on the walls with ruined alters spread about. Directly in the middle of the mountain it was hard to notice unless someone fell in… which you did.
Swimming on your back silena shouted from beside you. “Common lise! We’re waiting on you”
“Give me a Minute damn!” she shouted from the top while tying her hair back. Clarisse grumbled something incoherent before running over the edge jumping.
Landing in water near the group you laugh as her splash hit you. You swam over to the surfacing girl. “You good” chuckling while moving a curl from her face.
You heard silena whisper something to Charlie and Chris making them both chuckle. Shooting her a small glare you rolled your eyes.
“This is stupid” Clarisse commented while placing her hands on your hips to support your body in the water. You always had a confusing relationship with clarisse, we’re You Friends, Friends with benefits, talking? A situationship? Honestly you didn’t know and it kinda pissed you off.
“Shut up it is not, this is fun” you teased wrapping your arms around her neck. “Besides no annoying lil kids to fuck up the mood”
Breaking the tension Chris coughed “Cringe”
Clarisse only gave him a dirty look making you laugh. He just swam over to his date which was a daughter of Demeter. Rolling your eyes you faced clarisse once again.
“Must be nice” clarisse shrugged gaining your attention once more. Tilting your head you hummed in response. “I mean having a relationship, you know the whole girlfriend I love you bullshit”
Raising an eye brow you scoffed. “What happened to the ‘i don’t do relationships’ girl from just a few weeks ago”
She just shrugged her shoulders. “What can I say I’m a changed woman”
“Uh huh” you pursed your lips unamused. Pushing her off of you, you swam deeper into the pool, smiling as you heard clarisse grumbled under her breath.
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You sat on the edge of the pool, tossing your dagger in hand you smiled while talking with silena.
“So your not dating clarisse? I could of been fooled” she chuckled. Looking across the way you watched as clarisse had the Demeter girl on her shoulders while Chris sat on Charlie’s, both teams playing chicken.
“As if were nothing more than friends shes made that clear” mumbling the last half of your sentence, turning your gaze up you watched as the sky moved- wondering what your mom was doing. Lost in thought you hadn’t noticed when clarisse snuck up on you.
Her body still in the water clarisse placed her arms over your thighs, slightly laying on your bottom half she grinned up at you. “You see that? I totally beat Chris’s ass”
“I’m sure you did” you chuckled looking down at her with a subtle smile. You felt an odd sense of anger and happiness when you were around Clarisse, like you wanted to strangle her but also kiss her. You just couldn’t make up your mind.
“Hey YN! You sure where’s no monsters here right?!” Chris yelled across the way.
Looking over at him slightly offended you yelled back. “Yes I’m sure! I searched this place in and out there’s no monsters!” You rolled your eyes mocking the boy with your hands making clarisse laugh.
Sitting around a small fire that Charlie had made you all looked up from the top of the cliff and watched the stars while talking.
You laid close to clarisse, her arm wrapped around you while you traced soft shaped onto her leg. “That’s stupid” Clarisse bluntly spoke not enjoying Chris’s scary story.
“Your just mad you didn’t think of it yourself” he Bit back trying to look attractive for his date.
“I don’t think you can think” her joke making the group laugh.
A loud sound came from down the hall. A dreadful silence fell over the group. It was like you knew what was down there but none wanted to look.
“I’ll go see what it is” clarisse stood up grabbing her spear, You however stopped her. “Wait here with the group.. please, I’ll go see what it is”
“And what if it’s a monster”
“I’ll be fine larue I’m not a child” you chuckled walking down the hall. Clarisses eyes followed your body mainly admiring it in the bikini. “She’s going to get killed I swear” the stronger girl sat back down while muttering under her breath.
Silena rolled her eyes whistling to gain clarisses attention. “So when are you asking her out”
She just gave the girl a dirty look. “Never, we’re just friends”
“Friends don’t cuddle clarisse” she teased laughing as clarisse got ready to insult her, before she could speak however you came running down the hall.
“Everybody go!” You shouted, as they stood up you were tackled to the ground a hellhound pinning you to the ground before ripping you insides out, the formerly blue water now turning red
Clarisses scream was louder than anyone could of imagined. Even the hound stepped back in fear. Running at it with tears in her eyes she stabbed it with her spear. Throwing the hound against the wall clarisse continued to beat the dog.
In her fit of Rage the rest of the group stood silent not wanting to believe the scene of their friend bleeding out. Once the dog was dead clarisse panted with anger, her eyes filled to the brim with tears while watching it turn to dust. Turning around harshly she marched towards your lying form.
Dropping down beside you she picked you up, laying you in her lap. “You stupid stupid Hekate Girl, Why the hell didn’t you just let me go” she softly cried. Holding you close she muttered an ‘i love You’ against your skin.
“Love you to clarisse”
She pulled her head back in shock to see you teasingly smiling at her. Silena ran up to you the rest of the kids following suit, dropping down beside you she touched your stomach to see not even a scar— it was completely healed.
You could tell clarisse was confused, it was cute. “A spell, learned it a while back. It keeps monsters from killing me, with exceptions but I wont get into that” clarisse pushed you out of her arms
“Why the hell djd you tell me before!” She shouted with tears still falling.
“Didn’t think it was important” you laughed leaning into her you gave her a soft kiss you smiled. “Now about that I Love you”
She got up walking away embarrassed ignoring your playful shouting after her.
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YN - you love me don’t lie
Clarisse - no I don’t
YN - I just said don’t lie
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windvexer · 2 months
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i haven't done much spirit work besides leaving offerings and asking for help. so i was wondering what can i do to get from here to the point where i can see and commune with spirit the way more accomplish witches talk about?
thanks in advance should you answer this.
Hi!
This is a big answer, because it mostly depends on where you're going.
Psychism isn't the same thing as spirit work. I've written on both topics (these links are to my masterposts) and I think there might be some stuff there that can help you regarding communication.
But the downfall of all of these online guides (mine, or anyone's) is that most of them are about how to develop a specific skill and I'm not too familiar with any on the topic of how to find and develop your natural strengths.
Oh, and also the important cousin to all these topics, a lot of witches exaggerate, change, or misleadingly talk about exactly how they "see and commune" with the spirit world. (Or, as @friend-crow would likely point out... some people really do just get on the internet and lie.)
If the point of your post is that you received spiritual input that helped you correctly manifest a spell, you might say "my fairy husband told me to use thyme, and it worked!", which conveys the point.
However, this can conceal the reality of what really occurred, which could be something more like, "over the past few days I kept feeling like he wanted offerings of French food, and then I kept hearing commercials and songs about time, and then I got a strong urge to listen to Simon and Garfunkel, and then I realized he meant thyme the herb, and when I cast the spell it felt really good and manifestation was strong, and I attribute these choices and successes to my fairy husband."
So I think it's wise to pick apart some of the assertions from "more accomplished witches," especially when they are talking about what was communicated and not how it was accomplished; and especially putting an asterisk next to any experiences which are likely being shared because they are exceptional and exciting.
But even if communication is very clear and strong, there is often a price to be paid (either up front or on credit), like:
You spend more than an hour a day practicing (I mean... a lot of practice; often being immersed in the spirit world)
You have been cursed with Second Sight and can't shut the spirits out
You regularly perform powerful rituals of communication
You've built your life to welcome and house the spirits long-term, and over the years have developed very strong abilities of communication
You have become bound to spirits or gods in some form or another, making you an Oracle, and all the consequences that come with that
Beyond becoming bound to/initiated under spirits for whom you operate as an oracle, also building relationships with gods of communication and witchcraft, or especially any entities that let you See and Hear Things.
You've developed, built, and practiced with tools and rituals that facilitate clear communication
There are a lot of paths you can take, is my point, and you're probably best off exploring any of them you feel most comfortable with. Oathing up isn't for everyone, for example. I vouch for an eclectic approach. Give lots of different things a try, and lamps will light themselves along the path of experience until the fog slowly fades from the map.
If you'd like a list of specifics, here you go. Don't say I didn't warn you. (The warning is, if you See and Hear Things, you are also Seeing and Hearing Things. You know?)
Work with Lunar powers, perhaps including relevant Moon deities, who are associated with divination, clear-sight, and spirits.
Hekate, I bet, probably works well to unlocking the roads to spirit work. I don't know her myself but it seems like a vibe.
Enchant a holey stone to assist you with spirit communication.
Perform regular rituals, perhaps on the full moon or cross-quarter days, to open channels of communication and strengthen your abilities.
Blend and enchant incenses and oils to facilitate spirit communication; use as needed.
Fuck around with doors and keys.
But before all of this, definitely get a guardian spirit of some sort, or at the very least like a guy who you can trust.
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aryxchse · 5 months
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I just read your Percy Jackson x daughter of Persephone fic and I really would like to read one for daughter of Hekate.
I mean you still have me questioning my Cabin but for the sake of all those years that I was daughter of Hekate, I would love to read Percy Jackson x daughter of Hekate from you.
casted a spell on me / percy jackson x daughter of hecate! reader.
a / n : my wife y'all 👆🏻
warnings : cursing
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- percy wanted to gift hazel a special crystal for her birthday
- but he never really understood the girl, nor the crystal things
- so which cabin everyone visits when stuff like this happens?
- the hecate cabin.
- you were the only one left in cabin when percy barged in
- while you were cleansing (?) your room
- "hello?"
- "i am so sorry- should i leave? am i intrupting something?"
- you shrugged him off with a laugh, saying that it's not important enough for him to leave
- and he happily stayed
- "you.. know hazel right?"
- "duh, she's my ride or die."
- and everything began like this
- there was 2 weeks until hazel's birthday and percy decided to use that time wisely
- and he was kinda glad that he started working early
- because, he get to spend time with you
- man he's already whipped, look at you doing magical stuff and casting a spell on the boy
- the last part was percy's own delusion but yeah, you could turn him into a pig and he would be thankful
- "you could gift her tarot cards as a bonus, she's interested in those."
- "...show me."
- this boy knows NOTHING
- and when you read his cards he was gasping like a little girl
- hes so amazed by you omg
- you could make up something for the uno cards and he would scream 'this girl fucking rocks!!'
- did i said hes whipped? do i have to??
- anyways back on hazel's birthday gift mission
- since you ran out from hazel's favorite crystals, somehow, you both got the chance to shop outside in the mortal world!!!!
- it was a perfect first date in percy's head
- he's asking you personal questions like which crystal is best for your aura or smth
- sneaky bastard
- you guys shopped together until night and lost your dessert for the week
- but who cares? it was the best date
- people saw percy leave with a different crystal each time after visiting your cabin
- you got this boy wear crystals for lucky charm
- he joked that he only needed you for luck but anyways-
- the mission was complete eventually
- but percy didn't left your side even after hazel's birthday
- you guys are ment to be together now okay?? it says that on your birth chart
- your zodiacs are matching too
- shut up you made him a manifest queen
- he lets you draw symbols on his arms for some reasons you came up with
- hes scared you're really making him obsessed with you, because of the amount of times you're in his head, is embarresing
- and he needed to make you his
- like immediatly
- or else he'll go crazy from his love
- maybe you did cast a spell-
- "i think i learned how to read your cards."
- when he said that in one of his regular visits, you couldn't help but get curious
- did he actually learned that fast?
- so you gave him your cards and picked a few, he started looking at them like he knew something
- it said that something will happen good this week
- but instead, percy said
- "you're in love with a raven haired boy aren't you?"
- you tried so hard not to laugh
- and it was true, so you let him play his game
- "oh my gods! how did you know?"
- he literally smirked
- "i'm a natural pretty."
- he started to look more, and told you to pick two more cards
- you could already see what it meant, but you were curious what he will say
- "hmm, this guy has gorgeous sea green eyes, man you have taste!"
- a snort left your lips but you quickly gathered yourself
- "can you see any initials??"
- "oh totally! the lovers card is upside down so it means p and j."
- you were turning red from holding your laugh at this point, and he started to get a feeling that you figured what he was doing
- no shit sherlock
- "how weird, doesn't that ring any bells to you too? or is it just me?"
- "maybe it's that hot dude called percy jackson?"
- "OHHHH yes!! i knew i remembered that initials from somewhere!!"
- you both burst into laughters
- "my dear student, i see you payed attention to my classes!"
- he laughed at your tease until he finally managed to answer
- "being in love with you helped."
- smooth, jackson. smooth.
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eanul-rmbl · 4 months
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(Holding up my bowl of empty gruel like a 1700s coal mine orphan child) spare Baby Mel and hypnos HCs? ?
OMG I LOVE THIS QUESTION!!!
I don't actually have lots, though!
• I feel like hypnos would have tried giving baby mel better dreams but got so progressively caught up and busy doing whatever it is he's doing rn that he's unable to do so as she grew older..🥲
° on a side note, I feel headcanon the flashback cutscene I got after dying to Hekate for the first time was a truthful dream from Hypnos!
• baby mel cuddled/slept w hypnos for comfort when sleeping! since there was little comfort in the crossroads
• hypnos was baby mel's imaginary friend!
• if hypnos was awake, he would have been such a fun and supporting parental figure for baby mel! he would have known what it was like (from nyx) what it's like for parental neglect and would have done what he could to spare baby mel the same pain
° sometimes he'd be a bit of an overbearing parental figure
• less of a parental figure and more of the fun uncle/ older cousin, though!!
• whenever mel would play kid games like "save the princess", mel would be the prince/knight and hypnos would be the princess/damsel in distress! usually with hekate as a sort of obstacle (evil witch or dragon) and odysseus would provide support
• baby mel made him flower crowns from soporific flowers and plants around the crossroads!
• she also stuck poppies into his hair often!
• she'd talk to hypnos
° and by talk, I mean pure word vomit
° she would not hush nor shush
° on a sidenote, nemesis would get annoyed and get baby mel to shut up for a bit
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river-in-the-woods · 4 months
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A scenario to have fun with at your own leisure: imagine there's a crazy deal for a gorgeous spacious apartment. The catch? That it's super haunted and the moment you walk in your senses say something(s) are stubbornly there. it's a clean space where everything works and the rent is like too good to pass up but your gut won't shut up. How would you proceed?
What an oddly specific question, but a fun one to answer! Good affordable housing is rare enough as it is, so I wouldn't pass up the opportunity 😅
Well, if possible I would take a few days to a week off from work, because I need the time to focus and prepare. Depending on what the haunting is, I may be in for some sleepless nights. But it's also just nice to have some time to settle in properly.
First day would be spent tidying and cleaning the apartment (even if it was already clean; I want to be the one who cleans it, as part of claiming the space). I'll open curtains and windows to let in light and air to remove stagnant qi, fan the space with some incense to encourage qi flow.
I'll set up my altar and do a long ritual to purify the house with incense and blessed water, invoke my gods and spirits, and make offerings to them and the local spirits. I'd try to bake something beforehand too, to offer to the spirits. I consider baking to be a really effective housewarming activity, both physically and spiritually.
I'll see if the haunting presence softens after the purification and housewarming. I may do some divination on it to gauge what I need to do. Though I believe the real test is just to see how the first night goes. However safe you feel during the day, it all changes at night, and that is usually when you'll be targeted.
So let's say my divination warns me these presences are not going to let up, and/or I don't sleep well at all and maybe even have nightmares. The next thing I'd do is to make my intentions clear to whatever's haunting me: this is my space now.
I'm one of those people who does ritual and offerings daily, even if it's 10 minutes before bedtime. Usually 30 minutes to an hour on good days. I care about my spirits and my relationship with them is precious to me. So I have this as leverage: if the spirit(s) stop bothering me and takes my side instead, they will receive a portion of my daily offerings. So the spirit has a pretty sweet deal if it chooses to become my ally.
If the spirit(s) are not taking me seriously, I may tell them exactly what I mean to do if they continue to act against me.
But if even that is not convincing enough, then it's time for me to fall back on my Hekatean training. Once I know that the haunting is not going to stop, I will proceed to do more intense purification practice daily until the matter is resolved.
I will do a ritual, possibly spread across several days, calling upon Hekate (perhaps in the form of Brimo) and the monstrous spirits in Her retinue to protect me, and aid me in getting rid of the offending spirit(s). I would join Hekate's horde in a procession around my house with ritual dagger in hand, chanting and slicing the air. That alone should be enough. But if necessary, I will set up a spirit trap and divine a sigil for the offending spirit(s) which I then nail into the spirit trap. I will ask Hekate's spirits to deliver the offending spirit(s) to me.
Once trapped, I may then offer up the spirit to be fed to Hekate's horde, or simply dispose of the spirit trap somewhere far away from me. It really depends on how malicious and persistent the offending spirit(s) are and how much I feel threatened by them.
After I know that the matter is definitely resolved, I would prefer to do another blessing upon the apartment much like the housewarming ritual. This is a generally good thing to do after being involved in aggressive magic, in order to pacify the space and the local spirits. As well as take a moment to thank and reward the spirits who helped me.
You'll notice that I don't really mention setting up wards in this procedure. I may wear a talisman, and set up wards if I need to. But honestly, most of the time I rely on spirit relations to keep me safe, and that works well enough for me.
There's building a fortress to keep yourself safe, and there's building a reputation for yourself as being someone who delivers great rewards and great punishment in equal measure – I prefer the latter, because of the fact that I do ritual and commune with my spirit court daily. And I'm happy to do that, but not everyone is.
I should give a disclaimer perhaps, that I've never had to deal with a haunting. And I've had only a handful of times where I felt disturbed by presences at night, but that hasn't happened for quite a while now.
Thanks so much for this interesting question :) 💚
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ressu-rection · 30 days
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Big ooof,
I wrote a letter to Yeshua this morning and had to pull to check tiktok. A couple videos down there was a message and wonderful confirmation. I mentioned in the letter it took me all day to figure out yesterdays and this video was much more simple and easy to understand as well as comforting and supporting.
I sent a thank you note, shut off the app and made some breakfast. Got back on tiktok and again, a couple videos down, there was a message. This time from Hekate. I have her altar up in my house but we hardly talk. The message I received from her was very helpful and I ended up crying half way through because it was like a key (aha see what I did there?) that will be really helpful moving forward. She just stepped up and gave me it without me even asking or mentioning anything to her.
My husbands Sam in this gif 😂
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08.23.2024
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arcandoria · 1 month
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🍓 for Dante and Seril please 💜
🍓 Dante's original writing features him having many more siblings, both biological and half-siblings - he's also not the firstborn, and has to "compete" and prove his worth to his mother to be chosen as heir. For Cyberpunk, I wanted to emphasize Hekate's obsession over her lost legacy by making him her firstborn, and giving him only one half-sister (Persephone).
🍓 In the same light, while Ekko has a half-brother and cousins her age she could grow up with, Serilyel is an only child and only has Ekko as half-sister. There were some elven children around her age, but with her mother dying when they were so young, Seril ended up shutting down because of the trauma, and grew up rather lonely in that aspect.
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hekateisconfused · 2 months
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I know I'm asking the wrong crowd because I know I'm supposed to be the oni senpai but..... I'll admit... I'm actually rubbish at oni LMAO uhhhh is the snow mag any good-- I don't have the other ice mags--
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coffinsister · 4 months
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Hades 2 is truly the only game ever
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hekateinhell · 10 months
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I sent you a few asks but they might have gotten eaten 😭
I swear I'm trying with my whole fucking chest but that's also a possibility 😭
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summocrap · 1 year
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Can we get some headcanons for Hecate and Tindalos?
Funny thing is that this one came in right as I was getting to doing another headcannon post:
They met through the Creators as Hekate was looking into V-tubbing, Lenan connected them.
Originally started as Tindalos' charity case, helping this weird shut-in writer improve.
Instead, they began to bond over feeling lonley. Hekate being destined to never have love and Tindalos being (90%) stuck to digital spaces.
Rather than Tindalos making her better, Heakte's bad habits have just rubbed off on him.
Tindalos finds himself hunkering down inside more and more, and even skipping leg day, which turns into skipping arm day, and then forgetting to exercise.
This has done wonders for Hekate's body positivity, something she's also trying to help Tindalos with.
Most would call their dates "dates" because it consists of Tindalos and Hekate complaining, watching Hallmark movies, and eating tubs of ice cream.
Due to the two aforementioned points, Tindalos has started putting on weight. He pointedly ignores chat every time it asks him about this on stream.
Hekate does watch his streams, but she never shows up in chat. Nor would she ever tell Tindalos that.
Tindalos has even found himself getting embarrassed more easily, which is why he doesn't talk about Hekate and if you ask he'll pretend he doesn't even know who that is, even when she's standing right next to him.
Hekate likes to tease him about all of this stuff, but only in private. If you were to ever come across the two of them in public she'd beat him over the head with her book and pretend he's her most recent murder victim instead of lover.
Tindalos has made Hekate a v-tubber avatar, but he has no idea when's the correct moment to give it to her.
The Creator's do know that they have something going on after Turing spread a photo of them cuddling together.
Tindalos now knows how Barguest feels
The weight gain was unintentional at first, but quickly changed once Hekate realized how cute a flustered Tindalos looks.
Hekate brings out Tindalos' submissive side. He's just unable to tell her no.
With a tongue like that you can bet Hekate makes good use of it by using Tindalos as her personal chair.
In most relationships Hekate would be on bottom, but when your boyfriend is a sub and weighs more than you do, you get to ride him for a change.
She's picked back up her habit of experimentation, with Tindalos being her latest subject.
There's potions to enhance endurance and strange toys all for her to use on Tindalos.
Sometimes, even the mini-Tindalos get invovled, helping pleasure Hekate's body with their tiny hands.
Aftercare usually consist of him laying on her lap while she feeds him ice cream and calls him a good boy.
Her phone is filled with videos of this, and she likes to send them to Tindalos.
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For most of my early twenties I had this reoccurring nightmare of my father trying to break into my house.
He’d knock or ring the bell and I’d open the door. He would stand there with a death stare and I’d try to shut the door on him. But he was so much stronger than me and I couldn’t keep the door shut, and when I did manage to close it he’d pick the lock, he’d find an open window, he’d break a window to get in. And I ran inside my house to get away from him and never managed.
Only lately I’ve realised the (now obvious) parallel between my house and my body, the body he desired and claimed because he was my father and a man and God’s beloved son while I was just a sick teenage girl and his property.
Since I couldn’t keep him out of it, I hid in the wardrobes of my body, the pockets of dissociation, the darkness of ignoring the picked locks and the broken windows and the abysmal pain running down the walls like condensed water.
My house, my body, was now open to the cold, to the disrespectful men who came with hammers, spray paint, axes, cruelty. I could not stop them.
It’s taking a lot of time. I fixed the window and cut my fingers and palms while doing it. The tears mixed with the blood on my hands. The lock had to be removed to find a better one. I had to feel the cold I spent so long avoiding while crammed in the wardrobe of my body.
And when my body was safe I had to face the damage. The obscene words spray painted in black on what was once baby blue walls I was preparing for the name of my first lover and pictures of tender memories. The pretty orchids I loved smashed on the floor. The nice tea cups I used to play with my dolls in a million pieces. My empty fridge, my shower full of blood and the skin I ripped apart trying to wash it off, wash it all off. I’m still going. Still putting the tiles on the floor. The stove doesn’t have gas, still, but the heat is running. I can sleep outside the wardrobe and into a bed. Maybe I put too many alarms into my house. I’m doing what I can.
I’m burning incense. I’m offering my tears to Hekate and she expects them from time to time, as houses and souls need maintenance, pain and mold keep growing back and I keep cleaning it up.
It takes time. It takes time.
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