#hella dissapointed tho

[hell-camino]

guess i have to rewatch the path because i keep seein shit. only s1, tho.

[nakaadaji]

I just finished watching the entire MK11 gameplay and my mind is BLOWN

[traumawings]

I at some point actually even consciously tried to give myself an eating disorder which is really fucked up I know but yknow, I am fucked up haha

Idk I must've been like 11 or smth??? and I would actually try to do the whole counting calories thing and exercising a lot but I didn't have the motivation to go through, i also tried to go out to run and shit but my mom would get hella suspicious and be like "what? Did the kids at school say you're fat or smth?'' but in a kinda angry, dissaproving tone and I didn't have the courage to tell her that first of all that was true and that second of all, she was amongst the people who made me feel like I had to do all that

I felt so dissapointed in myself for not going through with it and honestly I still do

Honestly I feel like i also did it as a way to hurt myself and maybe even to kinda punish myself, but again, I never really went thru with it

I still hold that mindset kinda tho, like I still feel this sick sense of pride when I realize I've barely eaten throughout the day and I actually kinda wish I could just do it properly but just like with suicide, I won't ever actually do it because I'm a fucking coward and I'm just fucking lazy

[bytemycupcakes]

The headcannon molly x Alastor is interesting but what would happen if they had a kid? How would everyone react? Especially her protective brothers

Okay FIRST

Obviously I had to design the child

Now we can get to the headcanons.

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-Nobody really expected it honestly? Even Al and Molly were a bit surprised when they found out they were havin a kid.

-Al and Molly are hella stoked tho

-Molly accidentally  tells her brothers- She was avoiding it because she knew they’d freak out

-And she was right, they freak the hell out and both of them threaten Alastor’s life

-She has to physically hold them back from doing so- Both boys nearly got bald spots from that…

-She actually stops them both by sayin “We already had to grow up with one parent, my kid ain’t goin through that to” and boom, the boys stop and they’re all sad.

-Alastor has decided that Husk and Niffty are honorary aunt and uncles for the child

-They’re a little confused but oh well, they’ve learned to just let Alastor do what Alastor does.

-Look Alastors not a big fan of kids- But my word he is so worried about Molly at any given moment

-If you thought he treated her like royalty before, well he treats her like a damn goddess now

-Alastor is terrified that he’ll be an awful parent. Molly assures him that if she thought he was gonna be a bad father, she would’ve killed him already.

-Once the baby is born, Alastor is- once again- Terrified he’ll screw up. This time he thinks he’s gonna hurt her cause she’s t i n y and f r a g i l e

-Alastor named the baby. This is a good thing, because Molly could only think of drug names. (Angel also suggested names- they were also all drug related)

-Alastor’s just a little dissapointed that she looks so much like Molly

-He’s very happy to learn she has many of his abilities

-most notably: She shares his control of Radio Waves.

-She actually always has a subtle static radiating from her- It gets louder when her emotions get intense.

-Molly is surprisingly chill while raising Annie. She blames it on having basically raised her brothers.

-Angel insists he has to spoil and spend time with Annie as much as possible

-Alastor doesn’t like the idea of this- But Molly thinks it could be good- Alastor trusts Molly more than his own gut when it comes to child care so.. Aight.

-Believe it or not, but Annie’s favorite uncle is Arackniss

-Angel is crushed

-Alastor and Molly let Annie do whatever she’s comfortable with.

-They’re both quite surprised to find she’s incredibly modest and borderline goth.

-Al will admit he’s thankful for it- last thing he wants is some random asshole getting some “smart idea”

-Its okay Al, she can hold her own. Molly does exactly what any spider sib would do, and teaches Annie to use a gun by the time she can walk.

-Alastor was 100% on board with that, honestly

-While Molly teaches her to use a gun, Alastor teaches her how to control her “radio demon”.

-He knows how hard it was for him to gain control of its destructive urges and he doesn’t want Annie to have to figure it out herself.

-Annie is quite smart- smarter than her parents, honestly- But she, like her parents, also has a terrible attention span and tends to loose track of what she’s doing often

-The only way Annie has ever dissapointed Al and Molly is by saying she doesn’t like puns and cheesy jokes. It’s completely true, but thats like.. the big thing that brought her parents together!! How in the world could she dislike them!!

-Just wait until Alastor tells her what her name is- (hint: its a pun)

[mikkock]

tell me more bout that funky bih named said

o him owo ?? glad u asked, cuz i sure do love that funky bih,

note that he’s one of my older characters, from like back in highschool, so he’s part of the ‘i rly gotta rework that bitch to make him like. great. believable. human’ so treat him with kindness he’s wip

also mind that im being messy in my explainations cause im dumb

So, first of, he’s Saïd Eom, he’s 17, his parents are korean n he got two siblings, and he’s a Mess.

at first glance, he’s bastard (that pic old)

he’s a witty boy, and an Entertainer, you Will have fun and only fun with him (at the expense of your wig, she gon get burned, we into dry jokes at Ur Expense)

he’s very flashy, he loves bright clothes, Expensive Fashion, and looking Hella Cute. His allowance goes into clothes n das it

he’s also in love with music n languages, his Number One Skill is multilingualism and being able to learn a new language in no time. He’s also quite good at singing if he wants to, tho he’s much more of a listener than a singer, he digs hearing more than being the source of sound ya get.

But, when you toss that flamboyant persona aside, he’s acutally a Sad Bitch (sadboishours) 

(that was sasuke on the pic initially fyi)

he’s very self destructive, and the whole “being messy” aint just purposeful chaotic cryptid behaviour. he’s actually a real mess, n he’s Sad tm. Mostly, he feels like he’s a dissapointment upon everyone, and got quite the pent up rage against his parents, which stems from his own fear of being the “failure of the family”. Basically the mindset of “welp i already fucked up i guess, they hate me for sure, i aint the shit to them so fuck it let me be the biggest failure haha :)” 

he’s also got some Issues makin it harder on a like, non negociable scale ya kno, like he’s an old character so i loaded him with drama, bitch got BPD AND is partially blind (to an extent that quite affects his life), so ya kno life is going just swell. idk why young me had to torture his characters with all that sucky shit like can’t ya just have existential dread like the rest of us bitch??

(there are perk tho)

instead of like, exteriorising his struggles n all, he’d rather bottle em up and self destruct. cause fuck positive coping mechanisms we 17 n we dunno how to deal with things too big for us.

he subconsequently feels very lonely, n Craves That Warmth ya kno, that Love, that Having People U Care About And That Care About and For You

speaking of, relationships :

aside from his parents n that whole cold vibe going on, he’s got his siblings, who are very very much younger than him, and absolute gremlins (wonder who they got that from mh prolly not from their big bro being a crytidy bih). He’s got a love/hate relationship with em. They’re annoying, and also embody a part of his fear of having failed everyone (they were born relatively shortly after he started showing first symptoms of mental illness n start of like, him getting examined and all, and also at the same time starting to get worst at school n all that, so in his brain the association made was “so they’re getting a new kid cause i wasnt good enough and they’re starting over with a better one that doesnt suck huh”, ya kno, persuasive irrational fears). But at the same time, he cant help but feels a bit of endearement and respinsability, the parents are often away and working, he’s part caretaker, and they look up to him, he cant help but feel he caaaant be tooooooo rude, he cant hate them tooooo much....they’re annoying but....ya know..... Tho Sometimes they do get a bit “too much” and he’d rather be left alone rather than having to be bothered by two kids. In the end they often end up being partner in crimes, doing dumb shenanigans together (and getting in trouble together, we ride or die) 

(they bout to be scolded n they kno that their korean names gon pop aka shit getting Real)

Also he has a dog and a cat, n they’re his bABIES OK.

He got Pals too

He’s part of the Teens, so naturally he’s chummy with Alice, Jessica n Noah, n is best pal with the latter (cause chaotic energies attract each other, what’s better than one mess if not TWO messes)

he’s also got a special friendship with a bunch of Oldies, he’s childhood friend with Cream and Jackeline, and then got friendly with Ace when they did, and then got super attached, because that dude got big mum energy, he cares after people, so bitch boy Saïd wants some of that and subconsciously just nyooms to his side to get some of that pampering ya know.

he’s also bros with quite the crowd, since he’s naturally outgoing n friendly n shit, notably the fashion students since he digs clothes, specifically Aiko n Chto, though he did surprinsigly manage to tame Prasert into Being Nice With Him, so wild, its basically like they’re besties ya know. but basically he’s friends with nearly everyone, he’s that cryptid that legit knows everybody, wherever they may be. He only dislikes Kai out of solidarity with his bro Cream, and him and Nott dont get along but they’re on Cordial Terms (as in ‘lets just be polite and pretend the other doesnt exist, whatevs man’)

And like idk what more to say cuz im dumb n hungry also but like

if ur interested that his playlist, i gotta clean her a bit but The Vibes ya kno

[softwonjunnie]

my thoughts of the final ep

this gets a lil long so click the button to read it all lmao

before the ep;

okay so i already know hyeongjun, yohan and eunsang will be in the top 11 but it will be fun to see where they place!!

also if dongpyo and donghyun dont make it in the top i will sue someone

and i am so not ready for this 4 hour thing lmaoooo its too long mnet why

during the ep (very out of context stuff);

aAAAAH HYUCK IN X1-MA

daehwi is so cute :(( chaeyeon too :(((

aaah wonjin u fit the center so well, pls get the center position!!!!!

donghyun fits the to my world concept to well pls center

“three months” yohan you’re full of bullshit!! he takes feedback so well aaaah so good

hyeongjun being scared of going to the front when it’s his time to be the center lmao so cute

keumdongie is 110% perfect for the center, plsssss guys vote for the right boy

wonjun & hyuck’s hand heart, help my heart

dongpyo legit describing himself as what the center needs, thats my boy

yuvin’s “i’m still growing” iM QUAKING

dongpyo’s satoori gets me every time help

YUVIN LOOSENING HIS TIE AAAH AND HANGYULS DEEP CUT SHIRT

kookheon looking so happy for yuvin :((

“boy” was supposed to be the non-sexy song...... as if

i need yuvin to do the music works-move if he gets into the final lineup

DONGPYO AND KEUMDONG AS CANDIDATES FOR 9TH PLACE AAAAAAH

KEUMDONGIE WHY ARE YOU SO SEXY ?!

EUNSANGS NOSE THING

eunsang tries out for center and all positions and everything all the time, pls just let him be center  

donghyun isnt even a candidate for center???? are these ppl blind or something

can i just say that i’m hella dissapointed at mnet for not making the boys sing live?? it’s super boring to look at them running around and lip-syncing

also thanks mnet for hiring your worst staff to cut the live performance of to my world lmao it looks awful

also mnet are great at slowing down the final episode to make it so long, applause for that?? no jk it’s horrible, it could've easily been cut down to like 2 hours or less... i’ve just watched both performances and it’s 2 hours and 45 min left.... they’ve been talking about the 11th place boy for like 4 minutes now.... what is this

guess if this bih didn’t just cry when they thanked seokhoon

dongpyo and yoonjung :(((((

dongwook is the best representative of all seasons, i love him

HYUCK AND WONJUN DOING HEARTS AGAIN WAAAAH

dohyun can play the piano?!!!!! i was expecting for him to joke around when they said “dohyun play” but then he did it so effortlessly

lee eunsang is a vocal legend !!!

dongpyo is crying, yuvin is crying, seungyoun is crying, (jo) yuri is crying, everyone is crying

WONJIN HAD A MULLET?!!!!

seungwoo’s message to dongpyo, kill me

aND DONGPYO MADE ONE TO SEUNGWOO TOO im crying too much already

hyungjun nations crybaby

jinhyuk didnt make a message to jinwoo...... :(

suhwan saying he’ll become a better main vocal than yuvin :)))

they’ve lined up now for the results.... i’m not ready...

omg i always say their names along with dongwook in my head, and when he counted up the boys’ names and he said “brand new music lee” my mind said daehwi?? omg

dongpyooooo :( getting major daehwi-feels here

seungyoun rising from such a low rank!!! gj!!!!!

wait a sec.... 4 places left and we have eunsang, hyeongjun, seungwoo, jinhyuck, wooseok AND mingyu left?....... AND YOHAN WHAT

nations crybaby yES

the only three month trainee who deserves 1st place

my baby boy in x position... darling.... guess if i cried even tho i knew about him debuting already?

after the ep;

well well well

its so sad how it’s ending already

it feels like yesterday when i first saw the videos of the ppl nominated for the x1-ma centers

time flies by so fast

i’ve gotten waaaaay more emotionally attached to these boys compared to any of the other seasons

idk if im happy or sad bc it makes me so sad to see the eliminated boys

donghyun :(((( you made it this far and im proud of you to make it into the top 20. you fought hard all this time!! good job!!!!! we love you

i remember picking out dongpyo, donghyun and hyeongjun as my faves from those first pictures that came out...

and i remember how i found the ep1 live stream on youtube and just wanted to watch a super small part - and i turned it on right at starship’s performance. and i was so heartbroken at hyeongjun performing so poorly because he looked so cute, but he fought back!! and he did so well and came in 4th (!!!!!) place! i love him

and i remember how i first saw donghyun and thought “ah! he looks a lot like donghyun from season 2!” and then i was gonna write down his name and..... wait a second

now that i look back at my list i wrote in the beginning with trainees to look out for...... im shook

i wrote down song hyeongjun, ham wonjin, don dongpyo, lee eunsang, lee wonjun (ah bby :/ ), keum donghyun, nam dohyun, kim yohan, cho seungyoun, kim sihoon and yoon junghwan

8/11 were in the top 20, 6/11 got into the final lineup and the others are hella talented and were eliminated too early

but i guess overall i’m satisfied with the outcome?? like i would’ve wanted wonjin and donghyun in it but i’m not too bothered tbh. it’s alright

i would’ve wanted jinhyuk and wooseok to change places bc i think jinhyuk would bring more to the group, him placing 14th is bullshit

the most saddening thing tho is that the starship boys are all split up now for 5 years so we probs won’t see a starship boygroup now for another 2.5 years so bye guys

conclusion i love pdx101

i love the trainees

and i love you guys who follow me and send me love and support, let’s all support our wonderful boys together!!! pdx101 fighting!!!!!!

[b00bconnoisseur]

I'd say you're a funny, soft, and loyal mutual

1. Yep, keysmashes are the height of my existence i tell u. But only jsbsnsb is valid FITE MEH 2. I have the chill in the universe.....except that gamestop incident BUT 'sides that im like a fuckin penguin 😎 3. Comin from the comedy master himself it means alot ty young sir ^^ idonttrybutppljustlaughandthinkimtryingtobefunnywhenimjustspeakingmyimmediatethoughts 4. I don't like using lmao jus cause it doesnt feel like me so i jus use lol or xD alot haha. 5. Hell yeaaaaaaaa gimme a person and I'll roast em like my toast when i use the toaster bro 6. Im glad i do!^^ i really try cause cmon everyone needs cheering up, even a lil cheesy corny ass joke can male someone feel a thousand times better yknow?

1. Ha! LIE. Youve seen my face a million times u should know not to lie smh 😔. 2. Nah nah i will protecc u cause i must protecc all my frens especially my best frens, lad 3. *gasppppp* *insert kermit the frog meme with hands on his face with the hearts around* 4. NO U fr!!! If u give it to me I'll jus give it back bro so *shrugs* u might as well accept it now im js 5. Mmmm no that's u go ahead n fite meh its true 👊 6. Yea that's true xD nsbsn

1. Yea, maybe too much but i will forever continue my spam samalama sprees cause its fun ngl lol. 2. Hell yea u know it i hope so! 3. *reverse uno card* 4. Aww thanks man ^^ same here too! I love and apreciate ya alot too bro 5. Nah i mean i dont get into ALOT ALOT of drama but enough tho if that makes sense lol. Alot of drama ive gotten inti wasnt even started with me but i mean hey at least its over yknow 6. Ty ty ^^ if u do tho (sadly..) at least dont till we at least get to have our birthday hangout! cause id be hella sad and dissapointed :( 7. Idk but if i am thats cool like ive thought abt bein one as a side gig but that requires alot of work n stuff so ig I'll stick as a lowkey non pro one. I really like helping with peoples problems, like,it really means alot when yall come to me abt stuff youre dealin with. It makes me really happy u trust me enough to ya feel? 8. Haha yea i have alot of relatable shit posts n stuff ig lol 9. Well hell yea why wouldn't i? Lol im your therapist remember? ;)

[lunian]

Hi! It appears to me that when season 1 aired everyone loved Thomas Astruc and now that season 2 is slowly coming and we have many other things ml related, people are getting tired and more irritated by him. what do you think?

What do I think? Weeeell, Im pissed, you know.

Let me show you why I and other people are getting dissapointed of creator of MLB:

1. There was a time even before 1 season had finished when people asked Thomas for more info about characters like surnames (at least, we got about it later), heights, birthdays and maybe something else.

A date of his response is 26 November 2015:

Much later when we finally saw some eps of 2nd season fans asked about it again. Its quite understandable because we found out that Marinette was 13 years old in the first season, but we also had an ep with Alix’ 15th one while they are classmates. It gives food for thoughts, huh?

So Thomas was asked wasnt it some kind of mistake.

Well…….

Everything would be kinda fair, but if a writer doesnt want to mention and show someone’s age, they wont mention it at all, right? So Thomas just confused everyone.

But based on his second response, Adrien can be 16 and Max 13 years old, for example. Why not? Maybe I like this version.

Also its just rude. You dont have to say characters’ zodiac signs, foot size and other details, but its fun for fans having some kind of info like birthdays, people like “celebrate” it and also finding out who were born in the same month/day with them. I dont think, it harms for creator to think this up.

One russian news group about ML asked Thomas even in french about all of it:

“Hello, @Thomas_Astruc. Its Russian fandom. Why you dont asnwer the questions from fans? Including those questions about characters’ age. Character and temper, for example, depend on age, as well as their actions. A whole plot depends on actions. Will we get a serious answer on it?”

“Yeah, you will: its “no”

Sooo, kids, thats how we justify our mistakes in the plot :)

Remember when they said we will get LGBT character(s)? Dont be confused if we wont get it as a result. Even creator forgets what he promises.

2. Secondly, maybe you saw one of the comics which went on sale, if im not mistaken (sorry if i am), in September about LB and CN’s adventures in New-York. Or you could see the best pages from it. I wont even show it. All quality of this comic is another topic to talk about.

Many people were confused and even mad by context.

There was naked Marinette in hella awkward and strange situation (also, I saw enough pages to notice, that she had some clothes on before transformation, but then, uh, she detransforms and she is totally naked?? Sorry, if you do something like that, do it with logic, at least).

Also, some rasist stuff.

Ofc Thomas got questions about it. His answer was that people had to read a full version of comic.

And well:

I read full version tho and its still a full crap :) Also, please, fire this damn artist or kick them to draw better.

3. This thing:

Only animation or only plot, guys, dont complain here.

Also, let me be a big ass, but I still havent seen any great story. But I saw some shitty animation already :) (to compare with first season)

4. The latest thing that happened not really long time ago:

Full convo

Thats everything objective, of course. But still, all these responses and teases from Thomas are getting just annoying and even rude. Some time ago it could be funny and cool like “our Hawkdaddy is such a tease haha”.

Fan’s tweet after this convo. Make your own conclusions.

What is bad when bad characters/bullies are getting love and fans want them redemption arc when they have a right and chance for it? The most of characters here are damn kids, you know.

We dont know much about Lila and her role in future, but hasnt Chloe got enough screen time to be shown just like a too spoiled kid with childhood problems?

And, no, good look is not misleading. Not that I really love how Chloe looks lol, but it doesnt make me think about her worse. Lila is even prettier for me in some way, but for now I dont really like her. So good job here.

Also make people hate teenage character? Cool.If Chloe is a bitch, why she gets a miraculous? Additionally, Astruc said long time ago that akumatized in the past characters cant have a miraculous and be heroes. Alya, Nino and Chloe were akumatized, so..? I dont have any answers.

All of it is just my opinion, I know that people see those situations in different ways and have different points of views. I just think that people like Thomas Astruc should be more careful with their words and be more serious about their projects. Dont justify it like “its just a show for kids”.

Thats all. Thats what I think, anon, You definetely didnt expect so big answer lol, sorry.

[smirnuff-su-nuolaida]

I spend an entire night and some day hours translating content from the Universal Stability Agency site. it filled several notebook pages since I did everything in a handwritten matter. that was so fun now I’m dissapointed there’s nothing else to decypher. I love doing methodical stuff like this it’s not to hard for my brain but still takes time to complete

some entries were hella weird tho and I’m not taking about Mr.Picks...

[sailormooncrystalfailures]

I saw Sailor Moon for the first time when I was 11 (90's version... don't guess my age, please). I was a real big fan so, when I heard about the 20th anniversary... to say I was excited is the last. However the new version dissapointed me for matters who we already know (is not against the version itself, but 90's anime was on another level), Anyways... I only wanted to say this blog is real interesting (and funny af) and make me feel reconnected with the old school fandom. Thank you.

I think we all were hella excited sis and were let down big time.

Crystal had really big shoes to fill but that wasn’t the reason it failed; it failed because they didn’t really care about the quality of the product (the show itself).

For big companies like TOEI, merch is where the money’s at so they don’t really care about viewers or quality (so keep using those ~unofficial streaming links~ sis). Crystal was just an excuse to relive the franchise and sell more merch. Sailor Moon Crystal wasn’t the main project of the 20th anniversary (should have tho) but an accessory which was merely an excuse to keep putting merch out, and as an accessory, they thought that it didn’t need much investment so that’s the reason why Crystal sucks.

Crystal is a joke and it ruined a lot of fans’ expectations whom have been longing for the revival of their most beloved childhood show so it’s only natural that fans are disappointed and upset.

At least, Crystal has been the reason for us moonie to come together again, have fun and relive the fandom.

And I’m thankful for that.

[0rionz-belt]

Ew I’m pulsing Wrong. But hey we are on tempo at least. I always thought I looked cooler when hitting the bass drum and gong but I actually look hella stupid. AHAHDHAHFJAJFJSJFA YOU CANT HEAR ME AT ALL AT THE START OF MVT 2 I LOOK SO BAD LMAO. WHY DO I LOOK LIKE A F*CKING ORC?!?! Ew band please get it together ew pit too DID I START EARLY? Oh mvt 3 time he’ll yeah. Oh that little grin. The splash is so dissapointing. Oh also that pulse looks gross on me. ALL OF THE PULSES LOOK BAD ON ME BECAUSE IM NOT DOINGIT RIGHT ALSO TRUMPET GET IT TOGETHER oh here comes the part where I mess up the pulse OH LAST HIT WAS SO GOOD THO.

[silvermask-ed]

Shit my stepmom has said (and my mental vents)

"There's nothing but stain on the door, you have to think." (Wow, sorry, it's not like that's the main concern I have around snack bc guess what, the state of the door isn't on my mind when I have a bajillion other things I'm worried about!!!) "Could you have your snack now because I need to shower at 10:30." (Okay, geez. Thanks. Bc this is allll about you. I get it.) "Did I make myself a pig? When eating? I grabbed 2 desserts right away." (Okay, wow, I have an eating disorder and I also ate 2 desserts bc I had to and you wanted me to have, and I quote 'at LEAST three'....so what does that make me, then? An even bigger pig? Sure, you're not talking bad about ME directly, but you need to watch and ~think~ and observe how your words and actions impact those around you, okay?! I mean, seriously....) "You'll just need to have more FATTENING FOODS at lunch, then." (OH. MY. FUCK. WHAT PART OF "EATING DISORDER" DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND????? AND FYI, THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A BAD FOOD FUCK U FUCK U!!!!!! U reeaaaallly need to fucking talk w my RD, LAURA, she'll run you into the mf GROUND!!! I hate how you're like 'I just don't get it!' And ask 'what's your goal weight?' And are like 'Oh, so 9 is the serving size. And, I actually grabbed out 9.' Like.....okay, could u not??? Like, sometimes ur okay, like when u covered up my mirror w positive quotes and that one time in the car when u told me I should love myself and stuff....but...I just can't handle you sometimes. You're such a trigger for me, and it sucks ass. I think YOU'RE the one who needs to talk w an RD. Bc if it wasn't for you, I might never have been pushed this far...) Like, okay, story time y'all, back to when I was a wee girl She would always ask me/my brother in the store if we had room to grow w our pants, which makes sense...but as years passed I knew I wasn't going to get much taller and that "growing" basically meant getting fat... So that was always triggering... And the statement she made of "You're not fat! You're only fat if your gut/stomach sticks out over the edge of your pants." Well, guess what M... Mine did. Herego, I thought/felt like I was fat... (even tho, like...what even does that mean? You aren't "fat" just bc you HAVE fat, like, tf? But anyways, this isn't the point-) And my bloating that I had even as I continued to spiral down and down in size made me feel like I was never actually losing this attribute. Idk if it was u or someone else, but also the thought that if you can't see your feet (bc u see ur stomach) when u look down means you're "fat", too, also triggered me a bunch bc guess what happened when I was in the shower? After a big meal? A day full of eating, etc? I looked down... So yeah, I might add more later, maybe in a different post...but yeah Those are just some of the shitty things that brought me here! Leaving me to feel guilty for having an Ed bc treatment costs hella $$$ and bc I know everyday my parents are probably feeling guilty or dissapointed in me (okay, not always, but yknow what I mean) So ye- SM out #

[browntinqq]

Tumblr uses up hella data tho negl💀. Ima get that text message sayin "we have reduced your data speeds.." and be soo dissapointed in myself🤷🏾‍♀️😭