#honestly I'm super tired and I don't feel like tagging this any more than I have

[faethfigueroth]

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[runningfrom2am]

not even a little bit

summary: rafe begs for another shot, but you didn't even know you gave him one at all.

pairing: rafe x fem!reader

wc: 1.2k

tags/warnings: a little bit of swearing, arguing, fake dating trope (oops) jealous!rafe

a/n: this is for day four of obx week!! day four: second chances w/ rafe! i'm honestly surprised i kept it pretty short for this once considering i mostly write for rafe anyways lol.

i hope you enjoy!! see you tomorrow for a pining kie :)

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getting off work and shielding your head from the pouring rain with a sweater as you walk down the street, you are just looking forward to getting home after the long day. you were about to turn the corner onto your street when you hear tires come to a stop behind you, seeing headlights, and hearing a car door slam, followed by a voice calling your name.

"y/n, hey! can we talk?" you quickly attribute the voice to rafe, turning and furrowing your brow.

"rafe?" you ask, adjusting the sweater you're holding over your head.

"hop in, i'll drive you home." he offers, though he's already walking towards you.

you shake your head, fully facing him now. "i'm good." you turn him down, turning on your heel to continue your walk.

"no, wait! i need to talk to you. just give me like, a minute. please." rafe pleads, making you stop in your tracks.

"okay." you sigh, turning back for a second time. "what do you want to talk about, rafe?" you gesture for him to continue.

"okay, uh, shit- alright..." he mutters to himself, reaching up and rubbing his forehead with his palms. "i'm sorry- i know i fucked everything up, okay? but i'm sorry, it's just been eating me up and i can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't do anything without you. please, i need you to forgive me."

your jaw could hit the floor. "rafe- what on earth are you talking about?" you ask. you had never been together, not really.

"what do you mean?" rafe asks, genuine hurt behind his tone. suddenly, you're rethinking everything.

you could feel the scheme of your fake relationship coming to a head at this party rafe was throwing. that was his whole plan, after all, that he wanted you on his hip to make his ex jealous. it had been working, you could see it in the way she was glaring at you. you stood up straighter to whisper in his ear, only telling him you were going to get a drink before leaving his side with a brush of his arm.

in the kitchen, you grab another cooler and crack it open, taking a sip and leaning back against the counter. it was good to catch a breather from the show you felt like you were putting on. you wanted to help rafe, he was one of your best friends, but it was hard for you. particularly, hard for you to be on the receiving end of his affections knowing that it all meant nothing. you hadn't known what you were missing, really.

"y/n, hey." you look over as a taller boy walks up to you. he was one of sarah's friends, a year or so younger than you.

"oh, hi." you smile. "it's jj, right?"

"in the flesh." he nods, leaning against the counter next to you.

"i didn't expect to see any of sarah's friends here." you tell him, wanting to make conversation.

"yeah, well, i don't feel like i belong- but a party is a party." he shrugs, taking a sip of his beer.

"fair enough." you giggle. "i'm the same. not super comfortable."

"then come sit with us." jj offers, leaning in so you can hear him over the loud music. "i'd like to spend more time with you."

you turn to look at him, and it isn't lost on you that his eyes fall to your lips. there's hardly anyone around, and you know that what is going on with rafe isn't real- so realistically, you have nothing to lose. while you think it over, jj is already leaning in.

before your lips touch, you're startled by rafe practically storming into the kitchen. "hey! who even let you in, pogue?" he spits at jj, quickly pulling you away. over rafe's shoulder, you can see his ex standing there, jealous eyes hardly leaving his frame.

"rafe! are you joking right now?" you blush, trying to pry your arm from his grip. "we were just talking..."

rafe looks between you and jj quickly, who is raising his hands defensively. "hey man, yeah. i was just asking how she was."

"no- i know what i saw." rafe shakes his head, eyes landing on you again. "and i know how you are." he looks at you with disgust, like you genuinely had done something wrong.

"whatever, rafe." you sigh, faking that you've lost your patience, ripping your arm away from him and pacing out of the kitchen, dragging jj with you.

you thought that fight had been fake, a show put on for his ex to display that he was very suddenly single again- but suddenly you don't think that it was.

"i..." you hesitate on what to say next. "you didn't do anything wrong." you tell him, confusion crossing his features.

"i did. i shouldn't have yelled at you, i didn't mean to get so angry, i just couldn't control it- alright?" he takes a few strides closer to you.

"it didn't bother me." you say reassuringly.

"don't lie to me, y/n. please- i've got so much going on right now i don't have time for you to bullshit me, okay?" he's angry now, and you're confused.

"i thought it was fake! i thought i was supposed to do that- i could see her watching us, i thought you would want an excuse to be 'single' again!" you raise your voice at him. you know it's the only way he'll listen.

"that's why you kissed him?"

"i didn't k-" you stop yourself, closing your eyes and taking a breath as you hold your hand up for him to wait. "i didn't kiss him, but if i had, that would have been why. yes." you lie, knowing that it was an intoxicated version of you's attempt to quell the feelings you had for the boy standing in front of you.

"and that's it?" rafe asks, clearly skeptical. "you didn't want to? not even a little bit?"

"no, rafe." you sigh, crossing your arms and abandoning any hope you had of staying dry. "i was trying to help you."

"listen- i just... it made me sick." he says through gritted teeth, running his hand through his hair again. "i can't even describe what it felt like to watch you be close to him- it just made me so angry and i'm sorry i grabbed you and that i took it the wrong way."

an apology from rafe cameron was not something you had on your bingo card from this year, but here you are.

"i just need another chance. a real chance. i won't fuck it up this time." he says, pleading eyes boring into you as his hair once again sticks to his forehead from the rain.

"wait, you're actually asking me out?"

"that's what i said, isn't it?"

you pause for a moment, not giving him a chance to see the smile forming on your lips while you close the space between you, grabbing his face and standing up on your toes to kiss him. this time it was real- not calculated to be seen by all the right people at the right time, it was honest. and it felt so, so much better than that as he grabbed your waist, pulling on your shirt to get you closer.

the rain soaking your hair and ruining your makeup didn't bother you anymore. not even a little bit.

taglist: @bookishbabyyy @madelynie, @whore-4-drewstarkey, @slut4drudy, @winterrrnight, @totalswag, @sadfury @fullfledgedemo @rafemotherfuckingcameron, @urfaveluvr, @chenslucy, @hxnnah-397, @s-we-e-t-t-ea, @tahliac11, @saccharinesammie, @ietss, @maybankslover @redhead1180, @suzyheartsrafe, @wpdailyminimeta, @aegons-bitch, @rafegirly, @lovelyxtommy

[writingjourney]

I’m in need of some advice and kind words. As a fellow writer I’m really struggling to believe people will and want to read my stuff. There’s no real engagement anymore and I’m worried that if I post my long-form fic that no one will give it a chance. It’s really bringing me down because I love it so much but it feels like no matter what I try to do my stuff just doesn’t get seen or liked? I’ve even thought about changing my entire way of how I do things since I don’t think the way I write is working for the masses. How do you keep up the motivation as a popular writer and do you have an advice?

Hello anon!! I feel like this is something many of us currently deal with. And first of all I seriously hope that you do share your story!! ♡

To be completely honest with you the lack of engagement in the fandom has for sure impacted my own motivation which is why I haven't been putting as much time into longer fics (nor the Friday Nights series or IKNBS, I do write but I refuse to force myself). I don't feel any urgency because uploading fics hasn't made me as happy as it used to. It feels like only other active writers are reading fic atm and it creates a lot of pressure on creatives to stay super active.

I'm aware that I'm insanely privileged to have the engagement that I do have, that the type of stories I want to write are also the type of stories that generally seem to appeal. However, engagement tells you NOTHING about the quality of your work, only how many people are active in a fandom or like a specific pairing/character/trope. Your own unique voice matters more than numbers.

I also notice that a lot of people who used to read my works have disappeared which I completely understand. The fixation can ebb away during times of inactivity or when a certain hype dies down. People just don't get that dopamine hit anymore and move on. It's also entirely possible they get tired of a certain style of writing and prefer other writers at times, what do I know. I definitely don't blame anyone for that. First and foremost people should read for their own enjoyment and engage with fandom in a way that makes them happy. It makes no sense to pressure people into engaging. A huge issue right now is people overthinking these things which makes support transactional instead of genuine.

I don't care much about notes but I REALLY miss the feeling of sharing a fic with people who are excited for it, that sense of an active community. BUT the activity will come back – the movie will come out, new music and videos, heck even a whole new Papa!!! That's the natural flow of things. We can't be excited and super active all the time, we need phases of calmness as well (which is an act of rebellion in the capitalist hellscape of overproduction and churned out content. I am honestly glad Ghost is taking it easy).

Now, I recommend you write your story exactly how you want to!!! do NOT change it for the sake of popularity because it will lose its very soul and you will struggle to be happy with it by the end. You know how you want to tell your story and nothing else matters. It will find its readers or you can wait and share it at a later point. I recommend that you approach other writers and readers and intensify that contact, make friends and talk to them about your stories, hype each other up, share snippets. It's even more meaningful to know people you like enjoy what you do. I am currently working on super niche fics for non-Ghost characters and I'm honestly having a great time chasing that dopamine by just writing what I'm really into and sharing it with friends. Fandom is community, fandom is fun and we can work to make it better for everyone.

A few general tips when it comes to making stories accessible: Format them to be readable (paragraphs!!), add a "read more" break, add proper content information and a nice summary to draw people in, add some visual appeal like a banners or stock image edits (like i do for IKNBS) and then tag the fics with relevant tags (and only those). Also make sure to tag the OG post, tags on reblogs do nothing for reach. Engage with the community when you feel like it and it's likely that the community will engage back. Being supportive is worth it, being kind is always worth it even if it amounts to nothing.

[yandere-romanticaa]

Something I noticed as of late is that big blogs get bigger and small blogs hardly get any traction and thay honestly makes me a little sad.

When I post a fic it can very easily surpass 100, 200, heck sometimes even over a 1000 notes to my shock. I am very grateful for that and it's super reassuring to know that you guys genuinely like my work, thus motivating me even more to to write. I cannot tell you how much it makes my day whenever I get a sweet anon in my inbox, a reblog with adorable rambles in the tags (YES I READ ALL OF THEM, EVERY SINGLE ONE, I AM NOT JOKING!) or a comment, that means so much.

That said, I've honestly seen so many smaller content creators get little to no recognition which just bums me out.

To all of you who think your work isn't good enough or you are just tired of the algorithm messing with you, I'm here for you. Don't ever feel bad about tagging me in a fic or wanting me to see it! I have no issues with this whatsoever and I will be more than happy to lend you a hand if need be!

[itsbowbi]

tagged by @penglue

Are you named after anyone?

A saint I think. Or my parents just liked the name and came up with that reason after.

When was the last time you cried?

I cry a lot I think I cried watching the new Godzilla movie because I'm easy and a sucker. Like CRIED cried? I think my birthday but it was actually a pretty great night.

Do you have kids?

Hell no.

What sports do you play?

None. Too busy and tired. Been thinking about finding a baseball league or something to play in because I miss it. I was a terrible hitter tho. I'm in better shape now and I learned about my fucked up eyeballs so maybe I'd be better.

Do you use sarcasm?

I don't think so. I have a very cynical sense of humor but sarcasm to me just comes off as being mean. Pretty sure I avoid it almost always.

What’s the first thing you notice about someone?

Looks? I mean literally first thing I notice is what they look like. And yeah I usually decide if I think they're hot right then but that doesn't change much about how I treat them. Otherwise just general vibes I guess. Sense of humor, manners, etc. Ooh I guess I really notice if someone is being at all superior or condescending. I fucking hate that immediately.

Eye colour?

Baby blues.

Scary movies or happy endings?

I like both, but I definitely watch horror movies more often. I think it's funny when movies get the super happy ending like Wayne's World, which seems to be happening more and more often in the movies I watch. I do think I've been avoiding dramas because they can be draining to watch and I don't feel like putting myself through that sitting here alone in my room. And bad horror movies are easily the best thing to watch with friends.

Any talents?

I'm very good at guessing people's middle name. Also I have insane memory when it comes to movies. You can name like one small detail about a movie you can't quite remember and I can probably name it. Good at trivia too.

Where were you born?

Bay Area. Zero memory of California since we left when I was a baby.

Hobbies?

Uuggghhh this is where I really start to feel like a nolife degen. Video games mostly. I'm decent at overwatch. Have a quitar but haven't had the energy or motivation to practice in a while. I really want to pick it up again. Just got an iPad with the stylus so that's been fun getting back into art. People say I can draw good so that's cool. Also I technically got my first commission since my buddy gave me $10 to recreate a doodle I made for him at work in a full piece because he loves it so much. Gotta get around to that soon.

Any pets?

My leopard gecko Heybaby! I love her. Also my mom has 2 cats that I still consider mine and I love visiting them. Yoyo and Mimi.

Height?

6'

Favourite school subject?

I guess history. I think history has better stories in it than any fiction so I love reading about it and listening to audiobooks and podcasts. Chose that as my major in college since I didn't know what to do with my life and it was the one subject I was able to tolerate. That was a very bad decision and I honestly should've never gone to college or just gone to a community college while I figured out what to actually do. Still waiting on that last part.

Dream job?

I really don't have a realistic one. I have hated every job I've ever had and any work that was assigned to me in school or therapy or whatever instantly made me hate it. I have crazy fantasies about what I could still do with my life but most of them involve doing little to no actual work. Like being a streamer. But I guess I'll go with what I would've said 20 years ago and say baseball player or rock star.

GET TAGGED @conkedcrete @spylarman (or don't sorry to bother u)

[scarecrowmax]

misc. tag game...

Thank you for the tag @the-cinnamontography-is-amazing <3

a band you don’t like that many others do:

not technically a band but taylor swift. i just never really liked her music and i find her so overplayed that it's actually gotten to the point i get annoyed when i hear it played.

a childhood memory that you remember vividly:

one day i came home from school after we got to visit the school library and i borrowed the bailey school kids book about cupids and so when i got home i laid down on my top bunk and read the whole book and finished just in time for dinner and i was so proud of myself for finishing it so fast until i remembered it was gonna be a full week before we got to go back to the library

least favorite animal and why:

i don't necessarily have a least favorite animal but i guess small dogs? i just find them weirdly unnerving and so often they're so loud and badly trained and not washed often enough so they smell and i just don't really like them

hot fandom take:

just because someone/something is popular in the fandom it doesn't mean it/they're good. sometimes people or concepts just suck either in general or for your experience and it's fine to not interact/block/not consume that content if it isn't doing it for you.

do you wear any jewelry, if so, what’s your favorite piece:

i wear a ring on each hand every day and i wear earrings and necklaces sometimes too. i love my rings, my hands feel naked without them honestly, but my current favorite piece is probably a necklace i made out of a broken ring. it was an adjustable one and one side snapped off so i snapped off the other side, added a jump ring through an open part of it and added a chain. it's a spider holding a skull. its super fun and very different to a lot of my other pieces.

a movie others liked but you didn’t:

i'm not really a fan of the original evil dead trilogy. like the concept is cool but the humor, the stop motion animation, and a lot of the deadite makeup is just not really my taste. i do love the 2013 movie though. big fan of that one.

three things you love about yourself:

i've learned to be just okay at things and still have fun doing them, i have really pretty eyes, the fact i make a lot of things be it food or crafts or fandom stuff i just like making things

a place you hope to visit in the future and why:

i'd love to visit somewhere outside the us sometime because i never have before

an actor that gets on your nerves and why:

there's several and honestly it's either their energy or they did some fucked up shit and im tired of people talking about them. im not gonna name names though.

things you’re excited for in the nearby future?:

i'm gonna see a band I really like on the 17th of next month and it's gonna be so great because it's a small venue so I'll almost assuredly have a great view. plus tickets with service fees were $17.50 a piece which rocks. im spending more on gas to see them than on tickets which i find funny.

least favorite ship in a fandom you’re in:

i have zero interest in naming names here, i'll keep that in my exclude tags lists on ao3

what’s the most toxic fandom you’ve been in?:

i don't think i'm actually in any. i don't interact with shit like that because i'm in fandoms to have fun and enjoy shit so i stay out of drama and will block people who suck and then forget they exist

list three things you find beautiful about life:

people care about each other even when we don't know each other, there's a million little joys to be found in life, you can meet someone and have a great time together at an event and never speak again but you'll remember them fondly and do it over and over again.

any dreams for the future?

uhhhh, not really? I've never been a big dreamer. i'm a day by day girlie from way back

how are you really feeling today?

not too bad, i was good earlier but i played a couple video games too long earlier and now my ability to focus my eyes is a little screwy and I've got a bit of a headache

tag you're it if you're up for it @rossmccallsqueen @fromcrossroadstoking @tvserie-s-world

[marlowethelibrarian]

Writeblr Interview!

tagged by @saturnine-saturneight [here] !! Thanks for the tag!!

Short stories, novels, or poems?

I've written short stories and I'm working on a novel!! I think my short stories have all been pretty ass tbh. I think most of the ones I wrote were trying to be novels actually. I think I should read more short stories before I write them.

I'm not a super poetry person though lol

What genre do you prefer reading?

I read a lot of fucking fantasy. Other fiction too, but fantasy is pretty much where I sit in the readersphere.

Are you a planner or a write as I go kind of person?

I think I'm a bit more of a write as I go kind of a person in that my best ideas tend to pop up in the process of writing though I usually have a larger structure I'm vaguely following.

I've done enough reading that I think I've internalized some things about pacing and story beats that it just flows out.

What music do you listen to while writing?

Villain playlists on youtube. I don't really think about the songs too much in general tbh, I just want a catchy beat.

Favorite books/movies?

Stuff that makes me think!!! I love a good grip on character and an examination of why people Do That. The locked tomb book series is such a vibe for me rn, and I really liked Everything Everywhere All at Once. That shit laid me right out.

1000x Resist is also a video game that has it's fucking grip on my soul rn.

Any current WIPs?

I've got Project Cannibalism and the summer leagues OCT right now! I'm playing with some other ideas rn but that's just play atm.

If someone were to make a cartoon out of you what would your standard outfit be?

Wizard outfit.

I do, in fact have a wizard outfit I made myself, because I'm a huge nerd and a LARPer. It's why my little sphere self has a wizard hat. It's because I'm a wizard.

The wizard hat is a brown wool with a gold hat band and gold bead and chain dangles from the brim. The hat is a long maroon red duster with gold embroidery on the cuffs.

Create a character description of yourself:

Marlowe's round, expressive face grins wide and laughs a touch too boisterously, the short floppy crop of black hair bouncing over the brow framed lenses.

Do you like incorporating actual people you know into your writing?

Not on purpose! I often feel like I am exploring a type of person as I write a character and trying to portray someone I know already from the outside in feels counter productive to that.

Are you kill happy with your characters?

There's more interesting ways to make characters suffer than killing them.

Coffee or Tea while writing?

I just forget to drink, honestly.

Slow or fast writer?

As it turns out, I write pretty damn quickly.

Where/who/what do you draw inspiration from?

I think I draw a lot of inspiration from going like wouldn't be fucked up if a guy hit another guy with a rock?

Also tbh from rps I've had with my partner, books I read, questions I have about life, or people. I like looking at the natural world and being like wow how about that thing no fantasy author would have made up in a million years that actually exists in our actual factual world?

But sometimes it really is just

wouldn't it be fucked up?

And to explore the implications out from there.

If you were in a fantasy world, what would you be?

Wizard!! We've covered this, I'm a little wizard guy. I'm a library wizard. Wizard is my gender, I'm a wizard.

Most fav book cliche:

Idk, usually i prefer execution over cliches. I do enjoy a good enemies to lovers though.

Least favorite cliche:

Right now I'm pretty tired of reading about revolutions ngl. I think it's overused, especially by people who don't actually understand what it means to do a revolution. Especially YA revolutions where it's like some kind of metaphor for finding yourself and the evil government is like wantonly murdering their own subjects because they "failed at their jobs" or whatever.

1000x Resist managed to do a revolution I wasn't immediately rolling my eyes at though, possibly because it was a story about a revolution and not necessarily a revolution about other things. It was rooted in real life politics and it didn't pull its punches, didn't romanticize the idea of revolution.

1000x resist is honestly so good everyone go play it.

Favorite scene to write?

I really like writing scenes that make me cry and will hopefully hurt any reader's feelings ngl. I also quite enjoy a fight scene!

Reason for writing?

Idk I just do. I like to write and I've been writing since I was 10, typing my first self insert naruto fanfiction out on word and being excited that I was the one who was making the characters do things. I'd been a voracious reader since even before I could read myself, bothering my parents to read me books constantly. Trying the magic myself seems kind of inevitable.

I'd like to be published some day though! I'm hoping to shop Project Cannibalism around to publishers though I'm not opposed to self publishing either.

tagging: +open!!!

[deanismysavior]

Your blog is really making me hopeful that Byler will happen, although unfortunately I still don't really trust the chreators to make it happen... I mean, I've been mislead and disappointed so many times - but that wasn't the point of my ask. I sorta wanted to rant, but I am lowkey too scared to make my own post. Here we go: it really REALLY bothers me how so many of the milkvan shippers are super homophobic while "defending" their ship/attacking byler and/or byler shippers. You can really see this while scrolling the milkvan tag (biggest mistake I made, ever).

Also what I saw was so many of them claiming bylers don't care about Mike, or if Eleven gets her heart broken, etc. etc., that bylers only care about "their gay noncanon ship". It's so ridiculous that it almost makes me laugh because a LOT of the milkvan shippers (before anyone gets mad, of course not all of them) are the ones who don't give a shit about the plot, the individual characters or really any other aspect of the show that doesn't have to do with milkvan. So many of them reduce El and Mike only to each other's love interests, as if there is nothing else there. A lot of the byler shippers get these characters as individuals and think of them individually. I also saw many ppl on the milkvan tag claim bylers don't care specifically about Mike AT ALL, only as Will's love interest. What??? I really haven't seen many of these byler shippers around. And... as if many of the milkvans don't do the same exact thing. They literally do not care about Mike, or El, or anyone. Or anything that happens in the show. It's so hypocritical.

Sorry this is so incoherent, I am tired and having trouble gathering my thoughts together. Also, absolutely no pressure to answer this! I am sure many of these things have been said before.

Hi! I'm so happy that my blog has been a positive experience for you! That being said, I completely understand not having full confidence, because I know that queerbaiting is a huge issue in media, and I've experienced that pain as well *coughs* destiel *coughs*

It really is a problem that people have started to use their ship as an excuse to be homophobic. I've seen it happen a few times in my ask box and it's always really disturbing to me how much hatred these people have towards Will just because he's "getting in the way" of their ship. Like weird ass, did you even watch this season? He single-handedly saved the bones of Mordecai and the Rigbys that remains after all the lies and gaslighting. If anything, they should be thanking Will.

I also think it's super weird that people assume that we hate Mike, because personally, Mike is my favorite character. I love how layered he is and there's something about the progression of his character that really resonates with me. But seriously, why would we ship Mike with Will if we didn't like Mike? I think some people are under the impression that we only ship Byler because the ship itself is gay, which I take a bit of issue with because they make it seem like we're making shit up just to make it gay. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy ships like Steddie or Ronance, and I think they're cute and have a certain amount of chemistry, but those ships, while fun, don't hold the same weight as Byler, and I feel like people are kind of lumping Byler in with that category even though we have much more substantial evidence that something could really happen here. But Byler aside for a second, even if I wasn't for Byler, at this point, I still wouldn't be for Monstrosity because their relationship is plain unhealthy and imbalanced.

I would agree though, I've seen a lot more Mannequin shippers say stuff about them hating Mike and loving El than I've seen Byler shippers say anything negative about Mike (other than in an affectionate or joking way). It's honestly weird bc why would you want El with Mike if you don't like Mike?? Make it make sense.

[sole-soul-survivor]

2p and 1p England Imagines - Compare and Contrast (Pt. 2)

(Absolutely no one asked for a second Compare and Contrast between the 1ps and 2ps, but it's doing so well that I figure some people might actually yk, like it!)

Link to Part one: 2p and 1p America Imagines - Compare and Contrast

Gen info:

-Arthur has Depression

-Oliver is a Narcissist

- both are trans, Arthur is afab and uses He/Him pronouns, Oliver is amab and uses He/They!

1p England = Arthur Kirkland

2p England = Oliver (Ollie) Kirkland

Sealand = Peter

Sweden = Berwald

Finland = Tino

2p America = Allen

(TW: probably mentions of Cannibalism and depression)

General info: canonical ages, look like in their twenties, etc, (you get the gist)

Appearances:

Arthur has shaggy blonde hair that poofs up when humid. He has naturally dark eye bags that make him look chronically tired (tm), his posture usually depends on his mood but he generally tries to remember the etiquette he has learned over the centuries, when confident you can tell. Very posh looking posture and haughty to the bone. When he's feeling down he slouches easily and usually keeps his hands in his pockets. His aesthetic and clothing choice is either 80's grunge, or dark Academia, no in-between. He has his (thick) eyebrow pieced on his left side, his septum, and his ears pierced. He usually wears little diamond studs. He has a crown tattooed on his ankle. Has the very generic 'posh' english accent.

Ollie has strawberry blonde hair he sometimes dyes pastel pink! He usually takes a flat-iron and curls it up to be puffy- he gets inspiration for his hair from the 'fluffy altboy hairstyles' tag on Pinterest. He has a face FULL of freckles but they make him so self conscious he usually covers them up all together. His posture is either extremely bouncey and happy go lucky, to the point he almost literally skips instead of walks, or he's very deflated, will walk with a hunched back and slow steps (think of Pinky Pie's mood drops, yk?). His aesthetic is nearly Pastel Goth/soft boy, but primarily light Academia based. He uses clip on earings when he wants them because he's terrified of needles. And has that very boisterous Cockney-English accent.

Personality:

Arthur is a very fiery spirit but likes to appear he's calm and collected. Will absolutely do any dare but will call you an idiot for it the entire time. Man's has a lot of wisdom but is quick to anger, has a short temper for people who are ignorant. His anger never gets physical but usually manifests as a manic/depressive episode. He cares a lot how others perceive him and has a lot of self-doubt since his glory days of being a global super power came to an end. He has seasonal depression that actually starts in the summer (around July 4th, you understand why). He loves children but isn't terribly patient with them, can't spend more than a a few days with Peter before he sends him back to Berwald and Tino.

Oliver is usually very high-spirited, but honestly this guy is a little off his rocker in a not good way. He has a terrible problem with his self image and how he appears to others and tries very hard to come off as a doting, caring, whimsical character when he's mainly very brash and honest to the point he comes off rude without meaning to. He will go as far as manipulating you into believing he is these things by using tactics like guilt-tripping and villanizing himself to victimize himself. "I appreciate you thinking so highly of me, not many people ever do. So I'm glad you don't, because I wouldn't be able to deal with myself if you didn't like who I was." (Yk) arguably the darkest of all the 2ps in my opinion. Which is why I love his character so much. He doesn't have very many redeeming qualities and he knows it. He's also very easy to anger, but doesn't react violently (at first). His anger manifests as sobbing and crying to help get sympathy on his side, ESPECIALLY during an argument. When he notices that fails he will resort to a violent tantrum that sometimes ends up with a new batch of his secret ingredient cupcakes. (I'm still running with the idea he's a cannibal who forces cannibalism - which is why Allen is vegan). Pretends to like kids buy as soon as one doesn't do exactly as he says he can't stand their presence. Being a narcissist means he has to have control over his own life and those he's close to because they affect his life too.

Likes and Dislikes:

Arthur really likes shows like Doctor Who and Merlin

Oliver prefers anything related to Alice in Wonderland, and Hannibal

Arthur (canonly) can't cook or bake. But he makes really good teas.

Oliver is a amazing baker and owns his own bakery. But cannot cook to save his life.

In school Arthur preferred English and Social studies! Especially writing and reading as well as learning History (he's lived like 90% of it but he likes to make sure that people tell it accurately.

Oliver preferred Chemistry and physics. There's a lot of Chemistry in baking as well as making the drugs he laces his food within order to, aquire new ingredients if you know what I mean.

Arthur loves music and poetry, he loves writing both and will sing for you if you ask him.

Oliver hates swearing. He thinks it makes people look dirty and trashy which are terms he's tried escaping his whole life as he grew up on the streets A LOT. But thanks to that Ollie has a lot of street smarts that work out in his favor but against his victims.

They will not get along. Not even a little. Very very hard to deal with when together because they know exactly how to get under each other's skin.

Both practice magic and witchcraft!

Arthur leans more towards manifestations and tarot readings rather than spells and potions and such. He wishes he could perform actual rituals and séances but it simply is not his brand of magic.

Oliver is the opposite! He specializes in Dark and Black magic. Performs blood rituals and sex magic (though he's a total prude if he likes a person he actually wants to sleep with and will get very flustered if they ask. But he doesn't have a problem going to a bar and picking up someone to perform a sex ritual with). He I'd an expert at Glamor spells and potions.

Arthur has been on T for a LONG time and was able to get Keyhole top surgery thanks to his small chest!

Oliver has been on a very low dose of estrogen for a while and sometimes likes to wear sports bras under his shirts just because he enjoys how they feel!

(Let me know if you want more! I'll likely post more whether you ask me to or not lol. Might add to this one specifically in the future!)

[h0rr0rsaxo]

Okay! Got your request and it's going to be good!

Now please don't do this if you don't want to and don't rush, it's fine if it's late I honestly don't care, everyone writes at different speeds so please take your time if you choose to do this!

But my idea was a little more fluffy than usual......so Addict finds Varrick being super pissed from across the room while she talks to one of her love interests (I'll let you choose!) So she feels kinda bad and later that night she goes to Varricks room, and just slides into bed next to him without saying a word. He's confused but she tells him that she loves him and always will! If you want it extra fluffy you could have Addict apologize for making him jealous while giving him little kisses on his neck and cheeks.

Jealousy issues - Simp Party

Synopsis; Addict talks about EJ, and Varrick gets incredibly jealous.

Warnings; None

Tags; @insane-horror-movie-addict

Note: I hope you like this! Varrick is such a cocky bastard lol...but he has a lot of jealous moments.

Word count: 7, 575

A bright red blush crept onto Addict's cheeks and Varrick fought back the urge to snap at him. However, being the strong hearted and proud man he was, he tried to compose himself, for who Addict was talking about wasn’t worth a penny to let himself lose it. “Jack is so nice…? I'm not really sure how to describe it, but he's always so calm and collected towards dangerous situations– I find it admirable.

Addict somehow hadn't seen his eyebrows twitch in annoyance, his nose wrinkling, and mouth twisting into a grimace. His expression was priceless, and Varrick tried to suppress the growl threatening to emerge from his throat. That didn’t stop him from grimacing internally. Eyeless Jack, he had never liked the demon. Considering this context, he despised the very thought of him even more.

"Oh yeah?" He huffed, "What else is so great about him?"

"Hmmmm," Addict hummed slightly, “1. He's extremely skilled at fighting, I know you haven't seen him but you should really consider it. 2. He seems to always patch up any wound I have skillfully– without even complaining. The only thing he ever gets worried about was how I got the wound. And 3. He really cares about the others, even Jeff.”

He looked at Addict with such a blank look, that she got a bit confused. It wasn't like him to be so quiet….it certainly had been strange.

“Cat got your tongue, Varrick?” Addict playfully grinned in a teasing way while sticking out her tongue at him. But he didn't seem like he was in the mood. Still, Varrick couldn’t tear his mind away from the thought of Jack being so close to Addict whenever her wounds needed to be tended to, feeling yet another pang of jealousy. Of course, he wasn’t threatened by Jack. It was just…he wanted to be the one to feel Addict, to feel her soft touch on his skin as he was the one who cared for it. But he couldn’t ask for it – he was way too stubborn and prideful. 

— — 

Exhausted from a seemingly endless day of proxy work, a youthful brunette trudged through his room void of light save from the beams of moonlight streaming in through half-open blinds. Boots left lopsided at the door, he dropped his clothing along the path he carved with aching legs. Tired eyes attempted to focus on the cold metal doorknob leading to his master bedroom.

With what little strength he had left, he turned the knob and carried himself to the nightstand beside the heavenly bed he yearned for. Tired eyes strained once again as they tried to adjust to the golden light provided by the lamp he’d just reached for. Those same amber hues found their way to the moving figure lost under the cotton sheets of paradise.

Swirls of brown locs spread across the beige pillowcase matching the comforter wrapped around her. The sound of peaceful breathing filled his ears, reminding him why he fought and slowly washing away the stress of the day. Scoffing with a smirk on his face, he wiped the bit of drool trailing down her pillow-squished cheek.

The brunette hastily stripped the shirt from his body and pulled back the covers only to frown at the sight before him.

Amber orbs scanned the area for his missing pillow until they found it stuck between the arms of his sleeping beauty. Much to his partner’s dismay, he snatched the fluffy pillow from her hold.

“Ahhhh,”  Addict groaned, sleep overflowing in her voice. "Varrick, what the heeeeell.” she grasped at the pillow with a limp arm and half-lidded eyes.

Varrick clicked his tongue as he threw his pillow beside the other where it belonged. “This is my pillow, darling.” The man she’d almost called her love climbed into bed beside her as he’d imagined doing every night and pulled her into him, only this time it wasn't a part of his imagination. Addict mirrored his actions, slinking an arm around him as if it was second nature. 

“Mmm, you're mean,” she mumbled into his chest.

Scoffing with the usual smirk on his face, Varrick placed his chin utop her head and delved a hand into her hair. He wastes no time scooping her into his arms and holding her tight like she was  the only thing left in the world. "I'm..sorry. For…making you jealous. If I had known I was making you jealous at the time, I would have kept my mouth shut." she softly apologized, "I love you, and I always will. You may be a cocky idiot, but you're my cocky idiot." She laughed slightly.

A bright red blush crept onto his cheeks, "It's fine…I wasn't that jealous. I'm greater than any damn demon. I can certainly fuck you way better-" Addict suddenly took a hold of his collar rather roughly, pulling him into her, her lips colliding as he was completely frozen to the spot, successfully shutting him up. Varrick's mind was desperately trying to connect the dots and instead it was just causing a short circuit. 

The world around him blurred as he looked into her eyes. Her arms reached up and tangled around his neck. She breathed in sharply and kissed him delicately, his arms encircling her waist drawing her in, his lips hungry for hers. Addict's hands entangled themselves in his ebony locks, and it took her breath away to realize his hair was softer than she had expected.

The hand rubbing circles into his back commands his muscles to relax while another swims through his hair and attempts to tame locks that had been viciously tousled throughout the day. The two of them lay in silence together, eyes hidden behind heavy lids, enjoying each other’s presence and soft breathing, and Addict can’t help but laugh to herself every time Varrick lets out a sigh as he continues to loosen up.

Addict feels a stir when he removes an arm from her waist and places it on her face, and despite the winter at his fingertips, she leans into it. His thumb rubs the apples of her cheeks, red and hot from his touch, and Addict plants a kiss on his palm.

He laughs, pressing his thumb into her lips before he brings it to his own for an indirect kiss. It brings a smile to her face and she hugs him tighter; he reciprocates by returning his arm around her sides. She melts into each other from the warmth of their touching bodies and the mixture of their scents and the seemingly unending embrace they shared.

Contented, Varrick resumes his position and returns his hand to himself, but it soon finds hers and he brings it to his lips for a kiss. He tucks Addict's hand under his chin, still holding it tight, and his eyes flutter shut again. Addict's other hand plunges into chocolate-brown tips as she watches him drift into unconsciousness with a smile on her lips; it was going to be an evening of cuddles and blankets and ice cream and she couldn’t wait.

[uwuthatshit]

I saw that you would like to get random asks, so I want to take this opportunity to ask about a topic that feels like beyond my personal reach which I would love to hear a personal opinion on from somebody who has a better grasp. (If you don't feel like answering this that's totally okay, I'm just super curious about this topic as a whole and know pretty much nothing about it and I saw you use tags that relate to it, so I thought I'd ask you!)

I'm talking about "kin" like "kinning a character".

I talked to some friends about it to find some definitions for a start but we soon came to a point where we maybe just lack insight from a person who attributes meaning to this phenomenon. What does kinning mean? Is it like "I identify with this character" or does it go beyond feeling understood, seen, represented? If so, in which ways? What do you think could be the reason this attribution to certain characters is a "thing" right now? What do people get out of it, what function could it serve for them? Are there kin communities? What happens if two people who "literally kin" a character meet? What does "literally kinning" mean? Is that a real thing?

I come from a place of 0 opinion or judgement on this topic since I just don't know anything beyond the word and what I personally read into it in passing so far. So if you have time and this would be fun for you to write about, would you like to put together a tiny lesson or direct me to some sources if you know some? I'm super interested from a sociologist's point of view but also as a writer! Imagine inventing a character some people end up kinning! How fascinating! What does it all mean?

I hope you'll have a super good day 😊

Hi Papuru!!! Oh my goodness, you asked a question :))))) Thank you so much for interacting!!! Yay, My Papuru-senpai noticed me  \\\QwQ/// 

Oh LORD, you asked the mother of all questions. Honestly, this one got my mind reeling. 

 “What is Kinning? What does it mean?” 

I remember you asking me this question like, 2 months ago when we first started talking and I 100% remember giving you a half-ass explanation because I was tired and had a shitty day XD I’M SO SORRY I WAS SO TIRED I'M SURE MY EXPLANATION MADE NO SENSE. 

Well, no backing out of it now! I’m more than happy to dig deeper into a topic for a friend! Let’s get started. 

Kinning, in its simplest form, is a ‘relationship’ between a character and a real person in this reality. 

Kinning is an EXTREMELY touchy subject, especially since everyone has their own definition of the characters (what it is in comparison to themselves). How THEY can relate to a character can define how much they “Kin” them. 

Kinning is a term that is also used in the role-playing community, to how much “Alike” you are to a certain character during the duration of your Cosplaying, Acting, and Behaving like a specific Character. 

Now, what do I mean by “Characters?” I mean any fictional character that has ever existed. Now, Kinning is now used more mainstream because it is HUGELY Popular because of Tiktok! And Kinning (As far as I’ve seen and compared myself to) is pretty big in the Anime, DreamSMP, Comic Books, Otome Games, and Manga communities/Fandom. I compare myself to (Or “kin”) Characters that mostly belong from DreamSMP, My Hero Academia, and Diabolik Lovers. 

Kinning is like finding a space where you belong. A lot of people feel out of place, lonely, different, awkward, etc. But don’t get it confused with Stanning, though. 

When a person has a favorite character, you can “Stan” them. This means you would back them up no matter what, they are your FAVORITE character, you want them more than anything in the world. Think BTS Stans. Dream Stans. Bakugo Stans. They are people that rally behind a specific character in this imaginary boxing rink, cheering and patting their favorite character in the imaginary corner where they are sitting. Hyping them up. Crying over them. Think People crying and running after Big Time Rush or 1D, desperate to get a photograph, validation, ect.

Kinning is NOT that. 

Kinning is the feeling of having a personal connection with a character. You see parts of yourself in a character.

THIS INCLUDES BUT IS NOT LIMITED TO:  

Personality, interests, self-esteem issues, hidden secrets, broken relationships, tragic past, similar trauma, same amount of self hatred (or self love), the character also lost a mother and a father, a toe, a hand, tongue, the ability to walk, to care, to be a pacifist. that sort of thing.

My personal belief is that quarantine and the rise in mental illness and isolation made it difficult for people to relate or interact with one another, so then people started finding emotional solace in fictional character. Just an idea?

[isabellehemlock]

🏆

Thanks Bee for sending me a reader ask 😍

🏆 "What do you wish more authors in your fandom would write about?"

This is such a loaded question that could go multiple ways lol . . . But I think the reader asks are looking for subject matter, so let's head there 😅

Though before I do, allow me to say, that though there are some tropes that I enjoy, or fics I'll blog about because I really resonated with something, I don't think my personal opinion should really sway any author in any way. It's one thing to share resource posts about a subject matter, and another to inadvertently imply my personal opinion is like the standard to aim for.

Also, this got way longer, and heavier than I ever thought it would so quick cw warning for themes of religious LGBT+ character representation and (non descriptive references to) spiritual abuse mentioned below.

Okay all that being said . . . Honestly? I, and many other faithful people (of any religion, not just Christians) are on a spectrum that is not heteronormative. It can feel like a fairly niche group to toe the line between two very specific identities and some of my greatest joys have been to write and read about characters like me (I know, I know, self projection to the extreme). If you ever wanted to read a post that spoke to me on a core level about how exhausting it can feel to navigate those two things (though it ends on a hopeful note), please check out this one that I keep on my phone.

I've been truly blessed to have had opportunities of discussions with other people of faiths in this fandom about LGBT+ issues, but some of us would love to see more representation for both religious and LGBT+ affirming, because it can feel so miniscule. But we exist, and even the smallest possibility to see that in fandom spaces and across platforms - where it can echo our real life experiences - just yeah, it really does mean something to see it.

You weren't there last November, Bee, but @mostlyimmortal commissioned the header in my blog for me for my birthday - it's Joe and Nicky in the helicopter scene, praying together and holding prayer beads of their respective faiths. I literally started crying when I saw it and recorded a video I shared bc my hands were too shaky to type it all out. I was a blubbering mess trying to express my thanks because I was seeing something so deeply personal that spoke to a younger version of myself. It felt both healing and like a relief. I love that picture.

Of course the other half of all of this is the very real and hard truth that religious trauma exists - in fact I've personally experienced spiritual abuse in relation to my sexuality as well - and the last thing I would ever want someone to do is to read something that involves a religious LGBT+ character and have a triggering response - it's why I over tag my fics. And I definitly don't mean to come across as suggesting anyone should make themselves push through a discomfort and write something that would bring pain (writing should bring joy, or healing, but never pain). Same goes for reading, I would never want anyone to pressure themselves to read my fics and experience anything but either joy, or healing, or both.

And really, the fact is within this fandom, we have no concrete evidence that any of the characters are religious (maybe Nicky with the script leak and some visual comic references but again maybe) and gosh, my brain is tired, I forgot about Nile and her cross and her "not my God" line (thanks Bee). So frankly a fic where they are not religious, or used to be but now hate all things religious is no less valid of a take. Just want to be super clear about that.

So long it's tagged accordingly so each reader can make an informed decision about whether to read it or not, I'll admit I'd love to see more of the TOG characters as religious LGBT+, and I know I'm not the only one 😊

[emachinescat]

I've decided to watch MacGyver from the beginning (again), and I'm live tweeting the experience with every tweet tagged with #savemacgyver. I thought it would be fun to share my collected thoughts from the episodes on here as well.

My Thoughts on S1E2, "Metal Saw"

Seriously love the music in this show!

THE FREAKING BELT GRAB. You can tell they've done this kind of thing before.

I always love it when Jack and Mac have heart-to-hearts in the middle of super intense, dangerous situations. Like... it's sweet, but time and place, guys?

"Hi, I'm Jack." Nervous Jack is bebby.

Ew, sweat. Like, I know it's "realism" to have sweat stains on clothes in situations like these, but that's one bit of realism I can always do without. Gross.

Is that a bit of PTSD I'm seeing with Mac there on the couch? That's a kind of realism I can always get behind.

Riley finding Mac and Boze in that compromising position will never not be funny. "But he was on top." I love Riley more every episode.

Riley is a really good liar from day one.

I love the joke about ex-cons benefiting from being in relationships with stable people (i.e., fake boyfriend Bozer), then the immediate cut to Bozer with his whole arm inside the vending machine. Great stuff.

Love the Riley and Bozer bonding... right up until the cringe-tastic "Slide me your digits."

"Soon, I'm gonna woo you the same way Romeo would have wooed Juliet if they had Snapchat back in the Renaissance." Bozer and his surprisingly accurate pickup lines. The Renaissance did in fact start in Italy around the 14th century, when R&J is thought to take place.

I love all this psychoanalyzing of Mac. "Adapting is his survival mechanism." Also I'm living for Jack sticking up for Mac to Patti.

"This place has been searched by everybody and their dog." Is this a Texas thing or an old guy saying? Either way it's great.

Nothing beats the early days of Mac and Jack. Nothing. I wish we had gotten more interactions where Jack has to parent Mac: "Stop touching that. Look at me." ❤️❤️❤️

Jack so concerned about Mac and putting on the kid gloves = everything I could have ever asked for and more.

Jack has such a big heart. Poor guy, the look on his face when he sees that the reporter is actually Sarah...

Paperclip sculptures: When I first started watching the show, I thought they were lame. Now I miss them so much. Does that mean I've gotten lamer or that they were always cool and I was always lame?

"Closest time I ever came to coming home in a box." Oof. This line hits different now, and not in a good way.

I just love how Jack is this big tough ex-Delta who is so open about his emotions, particularly with Mac. And the way Mac reassures him... Their bromance is top-tier.

"Oh, like when they invented fire!" Another zinger.

Mac grabbing that giant cigar right out of that dude's mouth 😂😂😂

Love some good fight-scene Mac whump! 👏👏👏 And bar fights are always a blast!

Riley with the car door - such a boss. "What? You told me to stay in the car, and I did."

I've seen some people say they don't like S1 Mac's hair. I kind of dig it, to be honest. He looks like he's 5, but I love it.

Mac has made a lot of DIY cutting torches in his time, but they never get less impressive.

Jack trusting Mac to save Sarah while he keeps watch is just *chef's kiss*!

These early episodes have so many MacGyverisms. One right after the other. It's awesome.

I've never been a big fan of the dark either, Mac.

The first scene with Mac and Sarah is so beautifully tense and whumpy (he way he scrabbles for purchase, gasps for breath, that hitch in his voice as he tries to squeak out Jack's name) that I had to rewind and watch it again.

The hopeful disbelief in her voice: "Jack Dalton came for me?"

Sarah can kick some serious ass. I can see why Jack likes her. Too bad she's about to lead him on the rest of the episode, while actually having a fiance...

Sarah: *leans out of car, shooting her weapon with deadly, terrifying precision* Riley: I agree, this woman should not have kids. 😂 Everything that comes out of Riley's mouth is gold.

Riley asleep in the back of the car while Mac sits quietly and Jack and Sarah have a sweet moment is like mom and dad with the kids in the backseat. Except mom has a fiance and hasn't told dad yet, even though she's had ample opportunity.

Because seriously, Sarah. It's not that hard to tell him the truth. Giving him those big eyes and flirting with him, thinking he has a chance is just cruel. I have never liked her character, and this is why.

Mac and Jack giggling about Jack's crush on Sarah like middle-school girls is life.

"You're just gonna have to let that go." Man, I love their relationship.

Gosh, the scene where they find Luis always hurts so badly. These early episodes did not play around.

"There isn't always time to beg some suit back home for permission to do what's right." I'm not a fan of Sarah, but I love this line. Also, this is pretty much the synopsis of the whole show.

Riley's hair used to be so LONG! 😍

The loyalty of these three! And I love the OG trio so much.

This sleazy guy in the computer place makes my skin crawl.

Love how Patti's like, "Mac will be back by then." Not Jack, not Riley. Just Mac. Can we say teacher's pet? I actually lowkey love this though.

"Who is this guy?" Much like Doctor Who's "It's bigger on the inside," I never get tired of people being equally amazed and confused at the stuff Mac can do.

I've never been the biggest car chase junkie, but Barrios jumping over the car using that log in the road is pretty dope.

Sarah's rage is chilling. And Jack talking her down breaks me every time.

Again, I love the loyalty of our team. Everyone sticks up for each other, ending with Mac's totally unbelievable but still somehow 100% genuine "It was me. I forced them." TOO good.

First mention of Oversight this early. Just thinking about who it is that doesn't like unsanctioned ops just makes me 😤 I wonder if the writers knew who OS was at this point or if it was a later development.

I do wish we could have gotten more conspiratorial, approving Patti. She's so much better than expressionless, bland Patti.

The way Sarah never told Jack about her fiance Jeff (who is in fact a cinnamon roll but still a discount Jack) pisses me off. "I tried to tell you." Yeah, right. It's not that hard to say, "Yo, I'm in a relationship."

Jack NEVER should have found out about Jeff the way he did. There's no excuse.

It's not okay, Jack. She did you wrong. You didn't deserve that. Stand up for yourself, man. Gosh, he's so broken here, and I hate it.

"At least we have each other... Don't look at me. I know how weird it sounded." THESE TWO I SWEAR 🤣🤣🤣

Poor Mac. I do love how we get his obsessive tendencies so early in the show, and how they keep coming back, even as late as season 5. As someone with clinically diagnosed OCD, this makes me feel seen and I love being able to relate to my favorite character.

Love the found family antics at the end. Riley and Bozer making dinner while Mac and Jack play basketball? Perfection.

Lol, Bozer calling Riley a "caramel goddess" has such Schmidt/Cece vibes from New Girl, and I dig it!

Ew. More sweat. I know some people find sweaty men attractive, but that is NOT my vibe. I prefer my men clean and freshly laundered.

The way Riley glances back over her shoulder at them as she walks away, as if to make sure they're really there, that this is actually real!!!

"That's not even... that's true, actually. That's sad." Jack 🤣 Also, "I'm hungry." Big mood.

As a Grandpa Harry stan from the OG show, I eat up any mention of him in the new one. I just wish we'd gotten more of that wonderful man in the reboot. Still, I'll take what I can get!

I'd honestly forgotten how much I enjoy this episode! So solid, full of bromance, found family, and lots of good-natured bickering. Can't wait to watch the next one, hopefully tomorrow! In the meantime, please keep fighting for our show! Together we can #savemacgyver!

If anyone wants to join me in my re-watching and tweeting adventure, please do! It's my way to take about an hour a day in my busy, busy life to commit to the #savemacgyver movement. (And to enjoy my favorite show yet again!) If you do tweet as you watch, make sure to tag EVERY tweet with ONLY #savemacgyver so we can keep that hashtag trending! :)

Thanks for letting me share my (numerous) thoughts on this episode. This was really fun, and I hope it's something you all enjoy, too. I'd love to know what you all think of the episode in the comments! ❤️

[thewriterowl]

You don't have to answer this but you're like the most visible Dinluke dark-ish content writer so I was wondering. There seem to be a lot of people who only write dark stuff on anon, is the reception that bad? Or is it just a compartmentalization thing? I'm trying to determine if I should post some darker stuff under my regular AO3 name or not and would appreciate some insight.

Thanks for reading even if you don't answer! Love your work 💜

Hello!

Hmm...i think it varies honestly. It's just about being comfortable. Dipping into the "dark side" (ha, my star-wars dad humor is so amazing) is a bit risky for any fandom. But Dinluke is 7-8 months old with only 1,150 works in it (in comparison to the OTP i just left, Stony, that has nearly 41,500 works). Something edgy and dark can stand out. Dinluke is also, as canon-speaking as possible, a super fluffy and soft ship so adding in something rather dark can feel risky or uncomfortable, even if the reviewers are typically kind and are not looking to just leave flames on a fic that goes over something they don't care for; but I do think some fear that can happen. There as also some "issues" on people showcasing they dislike the idea of Dark!Din and I think that may have freaked some people out (cause I mostly only see/saw Dark!Luke--which isn't my thing I enjoy).

But, honestly, I think some people want to keep their softer stuff separate. So maybe a compartmentalization thing. I think quite a few people who do it already have an audience and don't want them to be isolated or chased off by adding something so new. I also think a lot may have readers they know and don't want a conversation on it lol

I'm over 30. I've been in fan fiction since I was like 13. I've been dabbling and full-blow writing dark and possessive themed stories for years. I'm just a bit more comfortable with it after 20-years of doing it. and though I have people who follow me who know me LITERALLY (like BFF and my cousin) on Tumblr...i only feel mild embarrassment and shame cause 1) i know they have their own stuff, 2) we all are deep into fandoms and know the laws of "hey, let's not talk about it in real life unless we both want to" and

3) i am a dead tired Millenial who just doesn't care XD I have a job I hate (now leaving! but still not starting a career) trying to finish a degree, handling some heavy anxiety and depression and insecurities, that worrying too much over a fic is just...not possible?

I mean I do worry. I fret and think people are going to hate it all the time. But I just tell myself it's fine if people don't like it. It's ok if I get flamed. It's a fan fiction. I am writing ti for myself with the hopes others will enjoy and feel inspired to write something similar. My energy is going to worrying and hating my job rather than my Dark!Din content.

ALSO, I "protect" myself and others and over-tag. I put tags and warnings in front of every chapter. I will make sure everyone who reads knows what they are getting into. as rude as it may sound, it is not my fault if someone gets on, say, Little Bird, and hates it's dark content and tells me so, when I mention how dark it is and give all the warnings I can think of before the start of each new edition. If someone does that, it feels like they are looking to say something rather mean rather than anything else.

Censorship and exploring different aspects of creative writing in fan fiction can still be a tight-rope of a topic and debate.

I just leave myself open for critiques ("hey, you didn't mention this trigger--could you please warn us next time?" types) and just realize in all of this to just smile, thank the person for their time, and move on from feeling bad about it. It's about learning how to make it better the next time and ensuring people who truly wish to avoid it can do so.

I'm always up for people posting dark-stuff under their name! but really I can see why it's uncomfortable. so it is just about your own comfort and not

I hope this helps??? D:

[lowkeyorloki]

17, 18, and 23? i'm very much lookin forward to next week's asis update

OMGGGGG this week's update is super short but packs a punch and the biggest cliffhanger of my Loki career yet. I'm not ready for it so I can only imagine how y'all feel!!! I'm so glad you're excited :') Thank you for the ask!

17) if you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

This is an interesting question! I started writing fanfiction in 2014 or 2015, and I think it was much easier to write back then. It was before the porn ban, and even though I was NOT writing smut at 13/14, it was just so much easier to find content before all of these bans started happening (also... I could avoid smut because it was allowed to be tagged so I could block the tag??? Tumblr didn't think that through). You also didn't need to be a big blog to get notes back then.

Those were also interesting years because fanfiction.net was on the way out, but ao3 was nowhere near as popular as it is now, so I got to test the waters and figure out which platform worked best for me. The only advice I could think to give to myself would be to keep writing, but honestly, I was posting once a week so I really didn't need that push. I think if I had started writing within the past two years I would, because reader interaction on tumblr is just getting so low right now and it's nearly impossible to find new content because of the banned tags + tumblr not showing recent posts. It's discouraging for sure. Authors breaking in right now have my support, but also: just go to ao3. You can set up a twitter acc if you want to interact with your readers or plug your kofi or whatever.

18) were there any works you read that affected you so much that it influenced your writing style? what were they?

Yes, but it's more authors than specific works! There's one author that I don't want to name because she is um. Not a great person but the way she really captured the way young people talked and acted really made me want to create characters in the most relatable way. John Green also had a hand in that, I truly felt ~represented~ by the way his characters spoke and processed things. I was very influenced by that casual, everyday, "I'm a quirky teen who gets it" narration style that dominated YA books from 2013-2015. At the same time, I like to take on more dramatic tones (like in The Archetype) and that comes from a love of dark academia and classics.

In terms of Loki fics specifically, I'm really tired of seeing a sputtering and timid reader with no backbone. It takes me out of the story because 1) I don't see myself like that at all and 2) I don't think Loki would find that appealing so it also feels like a misinterpretation of his character to me. That's why I have basically two versions of the reader in my fics: a 'strong' one like you see in She Shall Have, and a more 'relatable' one that you see in A Study In Suit.

23) any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

Going to a private school from the ages of 8-10! Everything was narrative and storytelling based, so it was a great environment for people who were super into writing and reading. We would start every year having school on a farm and we would just journal in wheat fields for ages. I definitely think it gave me the foundation for the creative skills and structure I have now. We also studied one religion each year, and when we studied Norse Mythology, I was cast as Loki in our play. It's the reason I've always loved the dude.

[revasnaslan]

✌💤💣💣💣 (i crave violence this good morn)

mae i think we all crave violence

✌: ahhhh a ship i find cute but don't really ship... hmm... a lot of things in skyrim tbh, because so much of the fanon content is oc/canon so the oc's characterization can make or break a ship. for instance i think farkas/db is cute (same for vilkas/db) but i personally wouldn't say i ship it ship it yknow? i don't have a db that i ship with either of them, but i like the idea of their ships. which is true of a lot of skyrim ships since there are so many characters in the game.

💤: kataang 🤣🤣 i used to hate it a lot more than i do because i was a dumb teenager who took people not liking the same things as me super personally. but now even as an adult i still don't really vibe with it, probably in part because it's canon and i dislike certain directions they took it, especially in lok.

💣: okay ship that pisses me off number one... fanon!ulfric/f!dragonborn. i like ulfric just fine as a character and i do think that the potential story between him and the dragonborn could be extremely interesting, but the way people write him in these fics blows my mind. i really can't see him being the lovey dovey husband type at all, or terribly charismatic when it comes to romance. he's a charismatic leader sure, but that doesn't extend outside of that specific circumstance in my mind. he'd also be too focused on y'know, his entire in-story motivation to really give a shit i feel? a lot of the fics i read have the db just 100% agree with most of what he says wrt the civil war even though He Is Wrong in a lot of ways. but that's one of the most interesting things about him, so the lack of exploration of it is deeply disappointing and i hate it.

💣: ship that pisses me off number two... catradora, full stop. like that ship being canon the way it became canon genuinely upsets me, like still to this day. and it's probably the reason i blocked so many spop tags since leaving the fandom. i genuinely cannot look at people speaking positively about it, i still haven't rewatched the show since S5 dropped almost two years ago because of it. i've gone on about this ship before, so i'm not gonna go on about it here because frankly even writing this bit made me So Tired 🙃🙃

💣: ship that pisses me off number three... literally anything sjm has ever put out and stuck with. she seems to switch up her pairings as she grows bored with like... happiness and stability of any kind, and then proceeds to make the previous love interests do 180s so they're outright horrible and don't even have the same personality they did in the previous books. see her beating the dead horse with tamlin every chance she gets because even though he wasn't even that bad in acotar, she decided she was going with rhysand (who was objectively worse in acotar) and so now tamlin needs to be a republican despite that being the antithesis of his growth in the previous book. it also happened with chaol, who wasn't that bad until she decided rowan needed to be the love interest. honestly the only break up she's done well was dorian.