💐 once you receive this lovely bouquet of flowers you have to mention five things you love, publicly, and send it to 10 of your favorite followers if you want. SPREAD POSITIVITY! ⛅️
I forgot I had this. I am so sorry 🤦🏻♀️
Uh, let's see. This gets harder every time it comes around.
I love feeling like I have actual friends for once, because school (especially high school) sucked in the making life time friends category
I love that I've come into my own style clothing wise, and that my mother supports me while also being honest if something looks genuinely ridiculous
I love cheese and I just remembered I have mozzarella sticks in the freezer 🤣 (I just woke up like 22 mins ago as of writing this)
I love that I get to meet such amazingly talented people on this hellsite, even though I still feel like an outsider to their social groups
And I love life more nowadays. It's still hard. It's not perfect, but I want to be here and I want to do things so that's got to be good for something.
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snipe me if you want but I'm pretty sick of the caption "there's no heterosexual explanation for this" under under content for which, in fact, there is an explanation other than sexuality, which is presented clearly in the text and is crucially important to even the most superficial understanding of that character
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Y'know, I don't think I realized just how poisoning other social media platforms can be until I noticed just how frustrated I get by the influx of porn bots that follow me.
I knew they were coming; as far as I'm aware, they're an iconic part of the Tumblr Ecosystem™, but MAN, does it upset me to see that the only activity I have on my blog is those fucking bots! And, like, I'm not gonna kid myself and say that I'm not at least a little bit upset by the lack of interaction. I recognize that, but Jesus Christ, the bots!
But why? I think it's because for as long as I can remember, I've known that when you're trying to "social media", the only way to do that is through ENGAGEMENT...
And that word does not mean the same thing here.
To Tumblr, engagement is engaging with the fucking website. Do you follow a handful of blogs? Comment on their posts! Crack jokes with them! Share or reblog those posts with your friends! On other platforms like Instagram or Facebook or, God forbid, Twitter? Engagement means concocting a foul poison of SEO language and rage bait just frustrating enough to get the numbers rolling.
And I hate it! I despise everything about it, but for the most part, it's been all I've known, and I've never even used social media like that! I've always been a passive observer of all the chaos of influencers and platforms, but it wasn't until now that I actually desired to grow my platform. I wanna put my content out into the world! My blog! My writing! My horrific sense of wonder and whimsy! And what do I get instead?
Porn bots!
And does it frustrate me? For sure, but I also realize that it's probably for the better. Tumblr shows me that social media isn't all about making an impression on as many people as possible and that it's better to do things for myself first than to expect external satisfaction.
I feel like I already knew that, but it doesn't hurt to be reminded once in a while so, thanks porn bots. I appreciate it.
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I'm comparing xuanji and tantai jin right now in how they handle their "innocence" about romance (just cause they don't feel emotion generally)
Xuanji: completely oblivious, WOULD grab sifengs boner while dropping in on him naked in a bath and DOES NOT care. He's her great friend! And he's fun to make blush! Will also be the first to kiss HIM. Again, she's not really sure why or that it means EONS to sifeng emotionally. But she is glad to be with her friend and it seems fun uvu
(Xuanji later will go onto top her babe but that's later, I'm talking the early parts when she isn't feeling things much)
Tantai jin: I am SCANDALIZED you would touch me. I know you're my WIFE but as my wife you tried to sleep with me to lock me into marriage and I was disgusted by how fucked up and cruel you were so I put you to sleep. Do NOT strip me, don't even look me up and down. I don't have lust or any particular romantic feelings for you, it's not like I'm abashed of sex as I AM an adult who got married and know the fucked up palace shit of behind closed doors. BUT I am repulsed by the idea of being near you, especially naked and sharing that experience with YOU agh, so I Am going to continously insist on Being chaste. Maybe one day I'll want to rail someone, like you said when I feel "love" for someone or whatever maybe... but lmao not your awful ass
Also tantai jin, seeing a demon kiss qingyu: huh... evil powers cool I should eat her. It'd be nice if I could eat humans for power too. Huh... that kind of looks enjoyable? Maybe I'll try making out with someone I don't dislike. (Thinks about his wife who feeds him and would die for him, but there's baggage so he just moves on)
A few eps later: actually... like... would it be Too Fucked up? If I just... DID make out with my evil Wife who wants to kill me? I mean... a kiss is a kiss if it feels nice does it matter if we kill each other later? What if she sat on my lap! What if... I was held in her arms... <3 (no! Focus! She'll betray me! We can only have sex if she's my prisoner or something so she doesn't stab me or sell me out while we're naked!)
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so ur argument is that “arabs” are currently risking their lives while living under dictatorships that have normalised relations with israel to protest for palestinians because *checks notes* they just hate jewish ppl?
ur argument is that “arab countries” fought israel in the 1960s as a result of israel’s hostilities against palestinians bc they just. hate jewish ppl?
ur argument is that “arab countries” which had hundreds of thousands of jewish ppl for thousands of years just woke up coincidentally the same time israel came to exist, the same time as the nakba, and suddenly expressed their hatred of jewish ppl despite coexisting with jewish ppl for centuries in a way europeans were unable to?
if u want to argue “arabs” hate each other, i can at least agree with that but to claim “arabs” hate palestinians bc palestinians r just so evil but hate jewish ppl more & therefore support palestine.. u just sound like an idiot to me.
the way zionists oversimplify the middle east & middle eastern history is genuinely insane. the way they utilise the same argument points antisemites made to justify antisemitism is insane. where else did i hear the argument that a certain population is evil, manipulative, sly and criminal and tricks others into feeling sympathy for them but no population genuinely likes them bc they’re just so sly and evil? oh.. wait yeah that’s literally what antisemites say about jewish people to justify & normalise antisemitism. and here zionists are using these same arguments to dehumanise palestinians & normalise hatred against them as somehow factual.
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lil tentative plotting call?? idk there’s still a lot going on for me atm & i don’t get to write that much, but I would absolutely love to build more in-depth dynamics here? so yeah like this & I will slide into your ims soon (or feel free to leave your discord in the comments if you prefer that!) also I’d appreciate if you have a muse of mine in mind (or on both ends if you are a fellow multi), but obviously we can also figure something out together!! ❤️✨
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objectively a stupid thing to get irritated or upset by, but i really hate when people at the centre try to tell me how lucky i am for the life i live or how good i have it, esp when they tell me they had it sooooo much worse when they were my age. they do not know me. they do not know my life. they have no idea what my situation is.
they see somebody who is exceedingly polite and unerringly kind and shows up in nice clothes most of the time. they see that i draw in a sketchbook. they see that i work on the jigsaw puzzle. they see that i hold the door for people. they see that i greet people and ask people questions about themselves in a way that makes others feel seen and heard and appreciated.
now what the fuck are they getting from that that makes them think they know anything about me or my mental health or life situation!!! if anything they should be curious because I share so little about myself with people, I tend to keep things focused on others because that's safest for me. do they not question why i am at the mental health centre so often if i apparently seem like i have such a great life ????
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