#i am crying for fictional characters

[kittythelitter]

Tragedy Enjoyers when the tragedy ends the way they knew it inevitably would:

[tree-obsession]

I AM NOT OKAY DEAR GOD IT'S BEEN HOURS AND I AM STILL WEEPING

his gentle face??? the soft, delicate, kind voice and his eyes visibly softening even more and the real, genuine little smile as he blesses his younger self with his sister's voice in the background.

hoyo why do you hurt us like this it's going to consume my thoughts for DAYS now

[gojosbf]

the nanami kento who watched his best friend die because the system failed them the nanami kento who swore off the jujutsu world because he didn't want to see more deaths the nanami kento who still helped gojo teach kids because he was asked to the nanami kento who wanted to get married but when he wasn't a sorcerer the nanami kento who always provided constructive criticism with a bit of praise to keep the kids motivated the nanami kento who always looked out for kids the nanami kento who said being child is not a sin the nanami kento who treated yuuji like a normal sorcerer kid even though he was the vessel for king of curses the nanami kento who tried to hide the fact that the ones yuuji killed were transfigured humans because he did not want yuuji to feel guilty the nanami kento who never worked overtime except only when he wanted to finish off mahito so yuuji doesn't have to deal with him the nanami kento who was ino's idol because he did everything right the nanami kento who stopped nobara from joining him further in shibuya because she was a child the nanami kento who asked maki to stay back when daigon appeared because his grade was higher than hers the nanami kento who made sure megumi wasn't throwing away his life in protecting them the nanami kento who sent for shoko as soon as the situation got worse the nanami kento who wished he could visit malaysia for vacation the nanami kento who did not want to die as a curse, as a burden on yuuji even in his last moments the nanami "you've got it from here" kento

[somewhereincairparavel]

No. I just fucking realized that we got introduced to jason when he had amnesia, and the very last thing he said was "Remember!"

brb im gonna go throw myself out the window. I'd do anything for this nonexistent man.

[mythology-void]

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP THE PARALLELS BETWEEN POSEIDON WANTING TO BE CLOSE TO HIS SON BUT STAYING AWAY BECAUSE ITS WHAT'S BEST FOR HIM AND HERMES WANTING TO BE CLOSE BUT STAYING AWAY BECAUSE HE HAS NO CHOICE I JUST

[cats-aroace]

its been a bit, but let me tell you that the first few eps of the pjo show are so good, like i legit find my self cackling and sobbing like an emotional rollercoaster each episode and honestly dont know what mess im gonna be in when luke betrays percy even though i know its coming

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

i know Shiro got absolutely fucked over by the writing team by the end but also like his existence is such a big fuck you to everything. The universe is trying to kill him with disease and alien abductions and gladiator fights and war conquerors and witcges and so much other bullshit and succeeded and the writers had slated him to die since first draft and yet he still said "no thank you" and lived to get happily gay married. Like the absolute spite in his existence and continued survival. Inspirational. Love that for him.

[deathsweetblossoms]

Life’s been shit so I did a thing and now I am the proud owner of this special edition:

🥹

[aldoodles]

I ended up painting/working a little doodle to death while chatting w friends on discord :o) I haven’t decided on how I wanna draw Gregor quite yet!

[mazojo]

Never in my life have I ever felt so much distraught and pain all at once

[niehaused]

So about that scene in WN where Beatrice is reading that journal entry to Ava...

I’ve only watched Warrior nun once this weekend, but I went back to rewatch this scene in particular and, there is just SO SO much to unpack from the suitcase this scene dropped on my lap 

1. Ava being like daamn she's translating straight from french that's hot (ava is someone who has effectively so far, missed on her entire life, missed on the most basic stuff walking, sensory tactile daily input, socialization outside of abuse. So she's truly getting to know and see and experience everything for the first time, she is hungry for living and knowing and finding out. So in this sense ofc it makes absolute sense that she'd be attracted to Beatrice who is pretty much a walking library, she's attracted to her on an instinctual level from moment one, she's just not rationalized yet that she is, but the magnetism is there) 

2. Ava repeating the word lesbich, because ofc her golden retriever brain would be like hey I know a whole new word and in a foreign language how cool is that?!! While also being painfully unaware that that word carries so much weight and pain for Beatrice and must be likely cringing internally to have the object of her affection just throwing the word around like it's nothing 

3. Ava's 'yeah she did!'. Once again reaching only an initial level of analysis and being excited because the nun in the story is a bada$s who just won't put up with abuse, cause in her eyes that must be literally so cool therefore violence and retribution is righteous. 

4. And then being crestfallen when she's notices Beatrice strong reaction to the whole story, then she's capable of grasping a deeper level of understanding of everything that's behind. It's not just retribution, it's hatred and fear and abject pain. She gets a glimpse of the other side of the coin, what the nun in the story/Beatrice deals with. A blinding rage, and overwhelming pain. It's not justice driving the sword, it's trauma. Her facial expression switched in seconds as does her approach to the rest of the story. 

5. Now she's able to see a connection between the warrior nun in this journal and Bea, she knows it is something primal but still can't put her finger exactly on what, yet she can feel that an immense pain is the thread that weaves both the story and Bea's visceral response to it.

6. Bea's realization that she's isn't the only one, she's not the only gay warrior sister. Up to this point I'm sure she must have felt isolated even inside her religious community, which became her family. They know who she is, but they don't know her completely. But there was someone just like her, through time, even at the distance she's not alone,  and she can also reach that feeling of being fully herself and at peace (I’ll forever wonder how Bea related to Shanon and Mary about this specific point). 

7. Bea being pissed at Ava's obliviousness. Ava being so close to the central theme of the story but still failing to connect they last final dots, which would save Bea an enormous amount of time working to an admission or confession of her love (which we actually didn't get, only after Ava was gone. Not even when Ava kissed her, not even when Ava took the leap and actually said I love you. Bea just wasn't going to be able to take those steps on time), if Ava could just realize by herself what Bea is feeling for her... But she doesn't and then Bea snaps because rly ava?! C'mon work with us here. 

8. Bea's gut wrenching admission that she became an academic overachiever to compensate for being gay. Now this is actually personal to me and I'm sure to most of the queer community, we've been there. Bea at some point literally felt she had no value as a person, only through discipline and excellence in everything she does :’(  she probably still feels that way, up until meeting Ava.

9. Bea dead a$s saying: 'What (who) you love, what (who) should make you happy only brings you pain'... while looking directly at ava.... Ava, sweaty, darling, honey baby, adoptive child of literal divine light, god’s chosen champion... my sister in Christ. Bea is pouring out her bleeding heart, looking straight into your eyes, admitting that even tho she loves you and you make her happy, you bring her pain. And in so many ways, as a christian believer/nun who's been told her whole life that being gay means your are doomed and automatically going to super hell, as a young queer woman who has gone to the almost ultimate stage of self denial of herself and her sexuality by becoming a nun, as a sister warrior entrusted with the safety of the halo bearer, as Ava’s very first and actual close friend, as a gay mess who’s trying so hard to keep her feelings on check because her relationship to Ava involves literally the world’s salvation and she has no idea if Ava is exclusively straight/or remotely queer. I cannot even with this specific exchange pls. This pained me on a molecular level because I was transported to my crush on a girl I met at bible camp when I was a prepubescent. (Yes I was at one point and against my will, an uncool christian nerd I’m no stranger to christianity and its multicomplex traumatic interseccion with queerness). And I still to this day wonder what became of Irene my Bible camp crush

10. Ava (despite not reaching the full understanding of the situation that Bea would like her to have) is emotionally smart, so whatever it is that's bothering Bea so much, she'll offer to listen to her, and if she isn't ready to do so, she can wait; but in the meantime she'll make damn sure to let Bea know that Beatrice isn't just 'barely acceptable', nor 'simply enough'. She is seen, she is full, whole and beautiful.

I did NOT need to have Beatrice thrusted upon me, introduced only to be taken away like this. I was living just fine without this knowledge, but yet here we are 

[crystalflygeo]

So fun fact, today I was getting ready to work I couldn't find my new snake ring anywhere and I got SO SAD bc I was like. great. already lost it. good job.

I was praying it was at work.

so I get there and immediately make a beeline for my work station and go "hey girls by any chance have you seen-" "yep, it's on that shelf there" and THERE IT WAS!! I was soooooo happy and relieved <3

And then a while later they started teasing me "Oh Crys forgot her engagement ring her and was freaking out!! She arrived here all nervous and stuff."

Now lemme tell you, my coworkers are all very normies and would never know or understand I like to play games or watch anime and stuff and much less simping for characters lmao. Also a thing to know about me: I'm pale af and blush very easily when put on the spot.

so there am I COMPLETELY FLUSTERED at their words and teasing thinking how I bought this ring to symbolize Baizhu and how much I was fangirling for him this morning having crown him.

so they double down and start going "OOOOHHH YOU GOT ALL RED!! ITS TRUE!! who's the lucky guy?? you gotta tell us already!! It's always the quiet ones. Introduce him to us."

And I'm just there getting more and more embarrassed and flustered BC NO YOU GUYS I AM SINGLE AF I'M JUST DOWN HORRENDOUS FOR A FICTIONAL CHARACTER ASDFCVGBHNJKL.

[allaganexarch]

forget me not

Stray Gods || Grace/Persephone

She can’t bear to face anyone since she dropped out of college.  She had to talk to her parents, obviously, but it’s been almost a year since they spoke.  She was expecting them to yell at her, tell her she was wasting her life, tell her she’d never get anywhere without a college degree, that she was almost done, so why couldn’t she just wait it out another couple of years and then at least she’d have finished something? But they didn’t yell.  They both just seemed…sad.  Tired.  And that was so much worse. It was like they had given up on her. Grace doesn’t know how to explain.  She still hasn’t quite managed to explain it even to herself.  Would anyone understand?  Freddie never demanded an explanation—she loved Grace no matter what—but Grace was sure she wouldn’t get it.  Freddie was passionate about so many things.  Freddie was the sort of person who would probably go on to get a Master’s and a Doctorate or maybe two or three, because she just couldn’t decide what she loved the most. And Grace? Grace barely even felt like a person in college.  She tried to do all kinds of things, join clubs, meet people, take classes she thought might be interesting.  She tried to distance herself from Freddie, even, and she was not gentle.  She tried to destroy herself over and over again, and make something entirely new.  She tried to forge herself into someone interesting, someone worthwhile. But in the end, the truth always came crashing back to her.  She can’t escape herself.  She can’t escape how utterly unremarkable she is.

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[monotonouscigarette]

help girl i’ve adopted another fictional fatherfigure