#empty thoughts

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

I am here to make a statement-

Understand my vision boy/j

[moo-blogging]

No thoughts tonight, just being casual with Levi feels so natural. Like him laying on the small of your back while you were reading with your tummy on the floor.

Or you drying his hair after his shower and he sat patiently watching you from the mirror. Or the gentle knock on your shoulder with his while you walk together side by side. You exchange knowing looks and smiles while bumping shoulders.

Or how natural it is when you slide across the bed, into his arms and he just accepts you even he is deep in slumber. His body finds yours like two magnets come together.

Like he was made for you.

[janthewriter]

I Am Tired

I am tired of feeling unloved.

I do not think anybody could ever love an unusual creature of perpetual habit like me. Only can they become intrigued with fascination of the unknown. Digging and prodding, only to yield no answers, fueling their anger until they move on to next best thing of existence, one that will gift them with the satisfaction they do hungrily desire.

I am tired of feeling this way.

My mind takes me to the dungeons of a Victorian castle in some frightful place unknown. Even the moonlight raises no hope against this stand of darkness within. I can never seem to escape the shackles. I must free myself. I must free my brain from it’s cranium. And then maybe I will finally be set free at last.

I am tired of the hollow emptiness.

It almost feels as if there is nobody else out here in this void of darkness. I call out, echoes of silence are my only answer in return. I turn mute. Only to match the peaceful, yet painful silence, that I am forever engulfed in.

I am tired of feeling trapped.

I wish I could free myself from this labyrinth, that I somehow found myself stumbling into. The birdcage in my chest that encloses a beautiful bluejay, feels punctured with every breath, being poked and prodded for amusement.

I am tired of breathing.

I breath, just for the oxygen to be sucked out of my lungs through the mouth of a lover, into the infinite space unknown. It is pointless, I shall take shallow breaths until my breathing diminishes altogether; this way it can never be stolen at the hands of a thief needy for more, again.

I am tired of seeing the good.

It becomes painfully hard to see the good, when I can only feel the bad. My eyes are the most diligent. They never fail at accomplishing to deceive me with enticements that are almost up for no refusal. I know better to believe the sweet lies that my eyes show me, telling me all is well. Almost nothing in this world is.

I am tired of fighting.

I am strong and indestructible, until I am not. I become so weak and fragile that with every step I take, my bones creak, revealing my hand of vulnerability. My armor has become too heavy, my arms to weak. Tears cascade down the calming silver onto the battle ground. Fighting has become pointless. It is not in my favor. But someone must win the battle. This war must end eventually.

I am tired of only being seen externally.

My body has nothing left to give. I have ripped every organ out with my bare hands, just to serve them on a silver platter to the greedy. I have given almost everything away, but no one has accepted my heart yet. Seek pity on me and just take what’s left of my heart and make it yours.

I am tired of this torturous day to day life.

A good day only seems to stare at me with wide eyes, extending it’s hand. I reach out in acceptance, thinking greatness is to be bestowed upon me, at last. I am deceived into receiving the small left over bread crumbs called inconvenience. I watch as the the latter is passed on to the next one in line awaiting the opportunity of delight.

I can’t do this much longer.

I am just really really tired.

~Jan

[lunarfromkaon]

Head empty,no thoughts

They have hip dips.

[its0knot2be0k]

I don't want to live.

I don't want to die.

I just want not to exist.

[a1m05t-en0ugh]

Please

[downfalldestiny]

Current mood 🌑 🌊 !.

[jakkosdiary]

feel empty >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> full meal

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

The Jon-Agnes-Gerry trio is so funny to me like there are two chosen antichrists who were destined to bring end of the world and one of them is associated with eyes while the other one is associated with fire, and neither of them are the guy with eye tattoos or the burn scars. Said eye tattoos and burn scars also have nothing to do with the said antichrists either, dude just came like that.

[moo-blogging]

No thoughts tonight, just Levi holding you tight before he had to leave for a mission.

He was already in his full uniform. The black bodysuit that hugged his small frame tightly with blades attached to his outer thighs. This would provide cover in the dark and improve mobility. But all Levi felt was chill and exposed. He pulled the familiar green cloak over his shoulders.

You stood behind him, watching as he dressed up to go retrieve Eren from Marley. You were ordered to stay behind to prepare for receiving the Yeager brothers.

Levi finally turned around and your eyes met, mirroring the sadness and anxiety in each other's eyes. You took a step forth and Levi welcomed you into his embrace. You felt the chill of his bodysuit and the breastplate at first, and slowly his warmth started to seep through.

Levi pulled you in as close as possible, feeling your warmth on his new uniform. He was greedy for what little warmth your cheek radiated, pressing himself onto you with all his might. He inhaled deeply, trying to take you in as much as possible. He was relieved you didn't have to go with him to a foreign land but he was still worried. Inhaling you into his blood was the only safe way to bring you with him.

You grabbed onto his waist tightly, holding onto him as if he might be gone if you let go. Levi's arms were around your shoulders and he was pulling you into him too.

It wasn't until the siren went off that you had to let each other go. You grabbed his cheek and pulled him in for a hard, passionate kiss. Your noses crashed and you held your breath as you kissed each other deeply.

"Come home to me, Levi. Please, please find your way home to me no matter what."

"I will, I promise. Wait for me. Wait for me to return."

[annie05thehistorylover]

The worst feeling is when you feel lonely in a crowd of people. You feel empty inside😭. You just want to cry .You don’t feel comfortable to even talk to the ones closest to you 😔

[eanul-rmbl]

when you're so normal you reach grade 12 and realize you're not.

[a1m05t-en0ugh]

I overthink certain situation and other times I just sit there and couldn’t give less of a fuck about what happens to me

[downfalldestiny]

Coffee ☕ !.

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

My ideal Shiro and Allura dynamic is them being college friends turned roommates thinking It Will Work So Well! They are Both So Competent! They are Proper Adults! This would be so Easy! They got this!!

And then on like 5th day after finishing off all the insta noodles and leftover takeout, they stand blank staring in the kitchen for 20 minutes, not knowing where to even begin with, until finally they call Hunk

[moo-blogging]

No thoughts tonight but laying next to Levi in the dark. The soft sound of the rain echoing in the room, dim light filtered through the curtain, making the room black and white.

You were facing each other. You could see the light tracing on his pale skin. His eye brows frowning as his chest heaved with every breath.

Hesitated, you reached out your hand and placed your palm on his cheek gently. The way your palm just fit perfectly on his cold cheek, resting your thumb on his eyelid made you felt something in your chest. Softly, you caressed his eyelid with your thumb.

Levi moaned and moved his face to kiss your palm. He opened one eye and you withdrew your hand.

You whispered, "sorry i woke you."

"Mmm, warm." Levi scooted over toward you and pulled you into his arms. He kissed the top of your head before he exhaled and rested his cheek of your forehead.

You placed your palm on his cheek again, gently caressing his eyelid and eyebrow, easing his frown. All you could feel was his warm embrace. You smelled him. His soft snores escaped his lips. His silhouette in the dark. You turned your head to kiss his parted lips.

Even with heavy sleepiness weighted on him, Levi never let you go.