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judeswhore · 10 months

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so i graduate tomorrow and my “best friend” has text me saying she’ll let me know if she can still come bc she’s with her boyfriend (who cheats on her😃) and wld rather spend time w him than come see me graduate for an hour and half👍bearing in mind she’s literally family and has been saying she’d be there for months but changed her mind when i reminded her yesterday

#she was meant to come for the family meal afterwards #but we’ve swapped the date to saturday bc it’s easier #so i asked her if she wanted to go just me and her #and she was like #i cant but we can do monday #no???#i feel petty but no???#this date has been in the callander for MONTHS it’s not like i’ve just sprung it on her ???

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saintirulan · 1 month

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your girl has to wake up at 7 am tomorrow to go to the penis festival, but she stayed out with random ass people until 2 am 🫨✌🏻 who would have thought socialising was so fun diwjuwbwuq

#shared a fruit & whipped cream sandwich with with a dude and it was SO GOOD.#japan was made for me with all the whipped cream everywhere <3<3<3<3 #and we're like thinking of booking some place for okinawa together during golden week maybe!!!#id LOVE to go to okinawa it would be a DREAM #anyways. tomorrow ill be gone all day probably and then we have lessons from monday and yea #but ill get some more diary entries on here as well if i manage <3<3<3 #also im distraught. i cant figure out if i have an italian accent or not #two guys told me i do not and i was like :( but other people were like i LOVE your accent #can you like decide please i want to know what you all perceive LMAO #also the russian girl from the other day was like. are you getting in tinder while you're here?#like what kind of question is that please 😭 love her tho shes a serious sweetheart. doesnt like dune 2 tho #irene.🇯🇵

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todayisafridaynight · 9 months

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his boots makea me think of amy

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #tianyou zhao #snap sketches #'a lot of zhao posting lately' yeah AND.#i love him.... also he's all i can draw with one arm...#i dared to see if my wrist was better and its almost there... maybe monday ill be truly good #my mom was sus of me when i said my wrist was still banged up #thinkin its Seriously Broken like bro we cant afford a doc visit just to be told to get rest LMAO #anyway. tianyou rose... amy zhao.....#last post put my brain in a zhao mood but i also got recc'd a sadx All Stories speedrun so BASICALLY the stars aligned #'snap what happened to writing' i paced my kitchen for three hours. also the power went out at my house #typing like this SUUUUCCKKS forgive me...#ok bye i told my dad id eat for once so ima do that

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widevibratobitch · 6 days

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i am the nicest person ever. practising ensembles with me when you dont fucking know your part even tho you had over a week to learn it is a JOY because i am NICE and KIND and HELPFUL and UNDERSTANDING. but there will come a day when i snap. and today was almost that day.

#for. fucks. sake.#i dont expect yall to do it by heart even tho we have the first official rehearsal ON MONDAY #sing it with the sheet music an inch away from your face. sing on lalala if you cant be bothered to learn the words.#but for fucks sake if you dont know when you come in then at least know the vague melody of your part #i can help you with the words i can help you with the timing but i cannot help if you dont even know what you're singing #like ok i get that not everybody knows the entire don giovanni by heart and it's just my personal neurodivergent swag #but this is one (1) quartett. PLEASE. we're performing it in a MONTH #i was still nice. all smiles and 'dont worry lets just try again ill sing with you <3' but im sure my eye twitched more than once

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 27 days

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So yeah avoiding my phone didn't work and also meant I sat on the kitchen floor staring into space for about 3 hours before Alfie woke up but hey at least I didn't break anything

Them being around is helping a little but they're also struggling and it fuckin sucks bc I know we're both just. Rotating money stress in our minds

#like. i went out earlier to get bread #just bread bc we cant afford anything else #got just enough in the bank to cover the work thing but since management stjll hasnt gotten back to me on HOW to pay it its like #our electricity is already in debt lol it has a thing where you can go £10 into debt before it switches off #and it usually wont switch off over weekends #presumably bc all but 1 places nearby thst we can top it up at are shut on weekends but anyway #so we're like. okay. it MIGHT last today and if it does thst SHOULD mean itll last till monday.#but then itll be at least a tenner in debt #then we only have to last till thursday but its. do we keep this money thats for The Thing that is once again unclear on how urgent it is #or do we spend it on the Soon To Be Immdiately Urgent thing #and thats not even CONSIDERING food lmao we. i got 2 loaves of bread so we can at least survive on toast for a few days #we got 3 maybe 4 meals worth of stuff still in the kitchen #like...at this point i dont even care if i have to go a few days without eating at all to make it to thursday but its.#its so fucked up those are the terms im thinking in #and this isnt asking for more donations i really cannot take that today im at the fuckin bottom of my barrel #and already feel hopeless and useless and an active drain to everything around me #but its. like. how. why. why is it still like this. why is it looking extremely unlikely its ever gonna change.#whats the point if its all for a few scattered handful hours of actual peace and comfort never mind happiness #tldr yes i am once again suicidal but small s #like in the sense of i would feel immense relief if a truck came at me on my way to work tomorrow and would not step out of the way but #dont have it in me to actually consciously act upon

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno?#it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

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anotherpapercut · 9 months

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so wild to me when someone will only make plans with me on their weekend or only do stuff if they don't work the next day regardless of whether or not I also work that day and/or the next

#i used to work 7 days a week but now i do mon-fri and everyone i know has their weekend off from mine #and its always like sorry i cant hang out when youre free bc i have work that day :/ can we do my day off even though you will be working?#hmm cant do that cause i work tomorrow. well have to do it on a monday after you work and before you work the next day #im always like yeah whatever bc i wanna see people and if thats how it had to happen thats fine #literally just occurred to me right now tho that i do that all the time and hardly ever do people like. ask me about my preference #actually did have something i really wanted to do after work tonight but apparently i was the only one

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red-dyed-sarumane · 3 months

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i hate cars and driving and i hate that its set up to require a car to get literally fucking anywhere unless u have an extra several hours to walk TO the nearest town that doesnt even have anything of interest in it

#i dont want to go out i want to just chill here on my day off #like i have one thing i NEED to do but i havent gotten the okay to do it yet so im like. great. thanks.#with any luck i get a response monday morning & i go hey boss i need to leave early & hell say okay.#bc this is. time sensitive #anyway maybe i'll clip rime to my bag & we can have a day out.#my friends got me a mafuyu plushie so shes on my bag now but its not the same shes not my friend like the isotopes are #my wrists are FUCKED i cant even draw this weekend. sad #theres no point to any of this im just oversharing

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cimicherrychanga · 1 year

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SO fucked up that when u study languages they also make u study architecture history and ant biology and economy and european politics hierarchy so by the end of the semester i still cant tie a proper sentence in any language but sure i can differentiate the neo gothic style from rococo or tell you what a bull market is

#shut up dave #im tired im tired im tired i dont care abt any of this #i mean i do enjoy architecture and art periods. i dont want to be required to know all of them #i have an exam tomorrow and one on sunday and one on wednesday and one on next saturday #then on monday and tuesday and the following saturday and monday too #and frankly. im only confident i can pass 3 maybe 4 of them #for the rest??? idk ill need to study and im very bad at that #but hey we got the grades back from the first exam!! the one i took last week and i got a 9 yippeee #that is out of 10 #it was in german interpreting n like. genuinely. im good enough at consecutive interpreting that i dont think theres a way 4 me to fail #like even if i mess it up i cant do THAT bad #i had to do it 4 english today and i think i fucked up sooo big it was so embarrassing. but then we got to the critique of my performance #and. it was all the usual nitpicks? like few word choices #the occasional discordance with adjectival conjugation. few points that 'havent clearly come across'#in my mind i had missed like a whole half of the speech but apparently it was p good still #now the problem is. same prof who teaches that subject also teaches specialized languages #and im. very bad at that one for simple reason that i have not processed any information all year #um maybe next time dont make your class about the stock market? idk just a suggestion. i dont care for wallstreet or whatever.#tho to b fair i didnt care for the european parliament last year either so ig u just cant win me on those terms #but if we get to specializing on the judiciary field i think i wouldnt be able to keep ignoring it. because of the circumstances #i have two more shirt designs to finish before the month ends but as u can see school wants me dead at the same time #one of said designs is a full 7 character thing :/#and the other. well ive already made 3 thumbnails for it and nothing rly clicks the way i want it to

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fangomango · 1 year

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Love the way that I'm so sick I want to die but I still have to go to school even though last I check most doctors didn't recommend that

#like i feel nauseous and i cant breat #im coughing like a horse stelped on my lungs #but who cares that most doctors tell you to rest and take medicine #i got spanish work to do :D #...all lf that was sarcasm...i wish i was at home...laying down...resting #because what sucks is that...i can dl so much of my school work at home so if i have the opportunity to stay home #and work and feel better....why not take it #i think my mother thinks im faking it #which can we talk about that #how come when im sick at home over the weekend we all believe im sick and need to rest but the second i wake up that Monday morning and #still feel sick its all “you can still work” and like...i feel sick fucking walking #idk if you know this but i have to do alot of walking...mostly very far distances #we were all fine with me laying down all day yesterday feeling sick but the second i want to rest on a school day its illegal...#...my mother told me that i can go to the nurse....only if i #ima put a warning for the mention of throw up (though its only the word...i. not getting into detail) but its mostly for my sake #anyway she said i can go to the nurse only if i throw up....when she fucking knows im scared of throwing up #my fear of throwing up...even fucking feeling nauseous makes me feel 1000 times sicker then i normally feel

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cuntrytaylor · 8 months

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i think i might collapse from stress

#the interior designer on our project left me 92 markups on the renderings for monday #and asked me to pick them all up this weekend #which sure yeah i'll do that #but it's not necessary at all for the monday deadline and it's really hard to make all these updates without messing with the other drawings #that ARE important for monday #like we literally didn't have to make changes to any of these renderings and yet she's making me pick up the tiniest comments for 11am #it just sucks bc she doesn't know how to use any of the programs we use to make these #and she SHOULD most interior designers can use them #so she can't help me with any of them and i know she's off enjoying her weekend while leaving all of this to me #like she just always needs way more of my time than she asks for #bc she cant use the programs so she doesnt know how long all this menial shit takes to do #on top of that she knows that i'm studying for what is basically the architecture MCATs #and that i was going out of town this weekend to celebrate my gfs birthday like. this is such a stupid thing to ask of me rn #and i don't know how to bring it to my team's attention #like hello she is asking me to do so much work that doesn't need to get done pls intervene #LIKE MY JOB ISNT TO BE YOUR RENDER MONKEY FUCK OFF FOR REAL

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todayisafridaynight · 6 months

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GORGEOUS case bro I've never seen one with a continuous design like that and the embossment itself is so tasteful... always happy to see Mr. Dunkulous too <3

ALSO AYO YOU WATCHED MONDAY? How was it? Either way you're almost done with the Sabu Tsutsumi catalogue then... that's epic... I'm glad you liked Destiny too, it really is such a cute movie

Also I'm pretty sure PS4 preloads are open too BUT I'm still salty Xbox gets it a day early </3

Its one of the first designs i ran into while looking up wallet cases LMAO lucky me me thinks…. Its very pretty <3 mr dunkulous here to stay and keep me company lest i totally lose my mind <3<3

AND I DID i mentioned so durin stream yesterday ! i REALLY loved it, sabu keeps putting ttm in terrible situations and it makes me giddy seeing him panic 🥰 AND DESTINY WAS ADORABLE it was so cute….. really wholesome and what my soul needed….

OH PS4 PRELOADS OPEN ? Ill check it out when i get home later……. Why does xbox get it a day early thats rude me thinks…..

#snap chats #cancelling a post i was gonna make to bitch in the tags of this one <3 #anyway on this day this monday we remember the words of our king ryuji goda #A Real Man Oughta Be A Little Stupid DO YALL WANNA KNOW HOW MAD I AM.#HOW I JUST SPENT A FRACTION OF MY FOOD MONEY ON A STUPID CARD #WHEN MY FUCKING ID WAS UNDEE MY TABLET. CAN YOU IMAGINE MY RAGE. MY ANGER.#I TORE UP MY ROOM ALL WEEKEND BUT NEVER THOUGHT TO CHECK UNDER MY FUCKIN TABLET #its a lilfunny….. im tryna make the most of it ok GODAMMIT IM SO MAD THO I CANT #$20 is like $5 in todays society everything is twenty fuckin dollars i cant live like this #at least my deadnames not on my id anymore… and it doesnt look like its falling apart ig…#STILL HAVE THIS TERRIBLE PHOTO AND ID RATHER BE DEADNAMES AND HAVE $20 THAN NOT HAVE $20 #NO ONE TALK TO ME ANYWAY kinda funny. hang on.#at least i dont have to get a new sticker… i just scalpe the old one from my oher card.. lol… knife came in handy…#was leaving to Waste Twenty Dollars when i ran into one of my roommate’s boyfriend for the ninth time this semester #and we both clamber into the elevator and he like ‘ive seen you a lot lol so uhh whats your name :)’#and the struggle i had… do i say Aforementioned Dead Name do i say my Thinking Of Changing First Name do i say Last Name….#the safe answer is always last name so thats what i did but god i floundered..i stared at him for a second longer than i shouldve #today sucks. at least i dont have a night class today…#i’d stream y0 but streams dont go well when i stream them at 5 #plus i have to work on a comm… ouugg lemme cap it here before i rant for thirty tags straight LMAO #anyway. love my new case. destiny was cute. angry jealous frog ttms funny and sad at the same time. monday made me giggle 🥴#this was a good post to make while making sure my cars battery didnt die LMAO ok bye <3

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a9saga · 10 months

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max - mugshot // hOO 🕺🎶 it's max here

#when he opened for big time rush this was what he closed the set with #it was a wise choice #traffic was so backed up our eta was 657 #opening acts were said to start at 7 but we were backed up <2 miles outside the venue for like 45 minutes #we missed all of jax and the beginning of max's set but he was really #really good #i forgot i cant put a comma in tags right that's okay #i didn't know this guy was also on nickelodeon but that makes sense. if i were a huge network i would want him too #i made a text post monday morning that i deleted about some bad news i received basically regarding my healthcare #and i am trying to fix it and there's not much i can do and im not venting about it to friends rn bc there's nothing they can do either #buuut update im still not having the best week and having a chronic illness in this country absolutely sucks. im reminded of that #max #max schneider #mugshot #song rec #pop #tbt #neo funk #shut up kaily #Youtube

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opens-up-4-nobody · 10 months

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#tfw ur life has been so busy that u forgot that with a new school u have a new email to keep track of #and u forgot to hook it up to ur outlook so now u open it up and see emails from abt a month ago #telling u to do TA orientation stuff. uuuuuh oops #so i guess i have some bullshit to figure out tomorrow. also i should finalize my class sign up staff #stuff* bc when i was doing yhat my brain was on fire. also i should email my new boss. oh god. why didnt i check that email????#i dont even kno if im supposed to b a TA this semester??? i should just email the guy but also i dont wanna roll up like yo #im already damaged goods bc ive suffered a whole year in a state of burnout. also i fucked up my sign up process by not paying attention #but uh hi hello nice to meed u again for the 2nd time in my life. this is definitely not a bad omen for things to come #ugh. why have i done this to myself? i cant even call to try to fix anything until Monday. fuck.#but i mean. i cant b thr only one who's ever done this. so maybe itll b fine? hopefully?#but i wouldn't have this problem if id just fucking looked at my fucking email in the 1st place #i can already feel it. this is where the overlap starts. the overlap between my old lab and my new lab #will it tear me into pieces? perhaps. i have to shift into go mode. i cant b a sad sack anymore #ugh. im usually really good at being on top of stuff like this bc im such an anxious freak but here we r...#unrelated

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semercury · 1 year

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#stuff sarah says #everything is so complicated and i dont want to be alive #i dont want to die. i just dont want to be alive. theres a difference #like im fine. i wont do anything about it. just the heavy weight in my chest of wow i wish i didnt exist so bad rn #i hate people looking at me and drawing their own conclusions #and like. nothings happened. but people could start to hate me. they could. out of nowhere #and a lot of them would have a 'good' reason to. bc i dont know the answers #i dont know anything!!! i don't know what the right answer is but things feel off and wrong and i dont like it!!!#leave me alone dont look at me dont ask me my opinion dont look at me dont look at me dont look at me #im gonna go to my dr appt on monday and deal with the stupid mental health quiz and not know the answers #bc like yes i imagine what if i was dead a lot. im fine tho. its a normal thing for me #everybody just wishes they didnt exist. ive yet to meet someone who hasnt #have i lost interest in the things i used to enjoy or am i afraid something bad will happen if i do them? who's to say???#and unfortunately i cant do the 'can we skip this im in therapy im fine' thing anymore bc im not in therapy anymore #and i get to say no im not finding a new one. you think im gonna open myself up like that to a stranger?#but yeah. i think id be better off if i ran away into the wilderness #ill keep a journal and when i inevitably die to the elements it can be published like that one guy #im so scared of everyone all the time. i dont want people seeing me anymore

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bunnyb34r · 11 months

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Huh... apparently my dr forgot to send in one of my meds TWO WEEKS AGO and I didnt notice til now... that explains why I've been so irritable and anxious 🙃

#marquilla #lied and said i had some left over and THATS why it took me two weeks and not that ive been in a fog for this whole time and just forgot (:#apparently we cant make more than one change to my meds without fucking the whole thing up #'oh i dont need that one med. oh we can go up on this one. k great'#my dr: okay! :) [completely forgets what meds hes sending in]#and i was like uh fuck do i message him? do i go without? no that would be 10 weeks then WITHOUT and then suddenly back on it full strenth #strength*#and it's like k do i do it now while im thinking of it or do i wait til morning does it matter since it's the weekend snd they might not #even be there Monday...#so anyway I just emailed him now and said sorry to send this on the weekend/this late i wanted to do it while i was thinking ab it #and he knows i get up for work at like 3am so maybe he'll assume i was up early or something #anyway im gonna go have a panic attack now that i know ive been in withdrawl for two weeks and did nothinh ab it (: yay

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